Author Topic: I'm going gay. (Read 13327 times)

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #120 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:09:21 AM »

lol.

So I passed out around 9 30 and woke back up at 3. Its now 5.

She said she would email me but she won't. If she doesn't there will be no closure and I will always be waiting. So I will call her today and tell her how I feel.

Its set in in the last two hours just how bad I've been treated, and I feel better.

I'm going to go read some Nietzsche. Now thats a guy who knew how to live alone.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #121 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:10:29 AM »

Quote from: Synthesizer Patel on February 09, 2008, 12:56:28 AM

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TVC15 · « **Reply #122 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:12:08 AM »

Quote from: Father_Mike on February 09, 2008, 07:09:21 AM

lol.

So I passed out around 9 30 and woke back up at 3. Its now 5.

She said she would email me but she won't. If she doesn't there will be no closure and I will always be waiting. So I will call her today and tell her how I feel.

Its set in in the last two hours just how bad I've been treated, and I feel better.

I'm going to go read some Nietzsche. Now thats a guy who knew how to live alone.

Arvie, you git, read A Rebours if you want to know how to properly be alone.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #123 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:17:56 AM »

Against Nature" was Wilde's influence for "The Picture of Dorian Grey". It appears in that text as the mysterious "yellow book" that serves as young Dorian's map to the... Read more

WILL BUY TODAY!

Spending $400 in books will make me happy. It always does.

TVC15 · « **Reply #124 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:21:45 AM »

The fact that Wilde read A Rebours was also used against him during his court case, btw. It was a fairly notorious book at the time, demonized to the degree that even people that did not read it or know anything about it though that it was pure evil based on its rep alone.

recursivelyenumerable · « **Reply #125 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:38:03 AM »

you should stop mooning over girls you'll never have and get a deep, all-engrossing serious hobby. i suggest mechanical proof checkers and dependent type systems. http://coq.inria.fr/

TVC15 · « **Reply #126 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:43:45 AM »

Don't listen to the oldiefucker, Arby. Give yourself over to aesthetics.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #127 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:02:25 AM »

I have no hobby. besides reading. thats all I do anymore :'(

I think I will get

The Geometry of Rene Descartes - Rene Descartes; Paperback

World of Shakespeare: The Complete Plays and Sonnets of William Shakespeare (38 Volume Library) - William Shakespeare; Hardcover
   $102.05


The Crying of Lot 49 - Thomas Pynchon; Library Binding


Collapse: How Societies Choose to Fail or Succeed - Jared Diamond; Hardcover


The Course of German History (Routledge Classics) (Routledge Classics) - A. Taylor; Paperback

The World Without Us - Alan Weisman; Hardcover

Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney: Trials and Tribulations - Capcom USA; Video Game

The Stillborn God: Religion, Politics, and the Modern West - Mark Lilla; Hardcover

Artificial Intelligence: A Philosophical Introduction - Jack Copeland; Paperback

A Practical Guide to Racism - C. H. Dalton; Hardcover

Come Into My Trading Room: A Complete Guide to Trading - Alexander Elder; Hardcover

The Story of Art, 16th Edition (Gombrich, Ernst Hans Josef//Story of Art) - E.H. Gombrich; Hardcover

The Little Ice Age: How Climate Made History, 1300-1850 - Brian M. Fagan; Paperback

Against Nature (A Rebours) (Penguin Classics) - Joris-Karl Huysmans; Paperback

TVC15 · « **Reply #128 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:06:57 AM »

You can't just consume, Arvie. You have to do something with what you are ingesting, or else later in life you will regret not seizing the day. You may not feel like you should be actively doing something, but the Future Arvie would most definitely not wish to see you wasting what could be the most important developmental days of your existence.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #129 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:07:11 AM »

http://www.amazon.com/Euclids-Elements-Dana-Densmore/dp/1888009195/ref=pd_rhf_p_t_4

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #130 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:09:31 AM »

Quote from: TVC 15 on February 09, 2008, 08:06:57 AM

You can't just consume, Arvie. You have to do something with what you are ingesting, or else later in life you will regret not seizing the day. You may not feel like you should be actively doing something, but the Future Arvie would most definitely not wish to see you wasting what could be the most important developmental days of your existence.

I've ingested enough from this. anymore and i won't have stuff for tonight after i talk to her again.

Whiteman have you read anatomy of melancholy? is it readable?

TVC15 · « **Reply #131 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:13:03 AM »

Quote from: Father_Mike on February 09, 2008, 08:09:31 AM

Quote from: TVC 15 on February 09, 2008, 08:06:57 AM
You can't just consume, Arvie. You have to do something with what you are ingesting, or else later in life you will regret not seizing the day. You may not feel like you should be actively doing something, but the Future Arvie would most definitely not wish to see you wasting what could be the most important developmental days of your existence.

I've ingested enough from this. anymore and i won't have stuff for tonight after i talk to her again.

Whiteman have you read anatomy of melancholy? is it readable?

I have never read it.

Why are you talking to this harpy again? Hasn't her previous dishonesty made you write her off? She mislead you, a whore as all women are. I say it's best to getting this out of mind as soon as possible.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #132 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:14:32 AM »

I tried getting her off my mind. In all honesty I've thought about her every day for the last year. I'm tired of it but I don't know how to stop it.

TVC15 · « **Reply #133 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:16:28 AM »

It's a childhood crush, Arvie. You said yourself that it dates to 7th grade or whatever. Maybe when you grow some pubes someplace besides your face you will learn to drop unfulfillable interests.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #134 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:19:26 AM »

It is just that. Though knowing that still doesn't make it any better.

BlueTsunami · « **Reply #135 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:28:08 AM »

Re read Great Expectations and cry with me Arvie. CRY WITH ME

How can women be so cruel

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #136 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:29:52 AM »

They have no hearts and no feelings.

Thats a good idea. I'll see if I get to it latter this week.

I'm going to be like Pip too. Chasing a girl that will never be mine and ruining everything in the process :'(

TVC15 · « **Reply #137 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:35:12 AM »

They're all whores, Arvie, and they need to be punished. Men are blunt and women are subtextual. Woman want a terribly impossible form of bravado that verges on romantic idealism, being that they wish to be supplemented, or having what they lack "filled in" by another person. Conversely, men, blunt and impassive, desire someone subservient to listen to their bullshit. Naturally, these two tetris pieces do not fit naturally together. The only parts of men and women that fit together like corresponding pieces of a puzzle are the genitals. What you need, Arby, is me, the ubermensch.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #138 on:** February 09, 2008, 09:36:46 AM »

I want some one to fill my deep gaps. Does that make me a woman?

Ichirou · « **Reply #139 on:** February 09, 2008, 11:44:14 AM »

There's a hole in the world like a great black pit, and it's filled with people who are filled with shit, Arvie.

Get used to it.

demi · « **Reply #140 on:** February 09, 2008, 04:17:12 PM »

Quote from: Father_Mike on February 09, 2008, 08:14:32 AM

I tried getting her off my mind. In all honesty I've thought about her every day for the last year. I'm tired of it but I don't know how to stop it.

ROFL, you really ARE a gay! All they do is dwell on what "could have been"

Next stop - LiveJournal!

recursivelyenumerable · « **Reply #141 on:** February 09, 2008, 04:49:32 PM »

I'm imagining TVC reading his advice in a HAL voice. "They're all whores, Dave"
FM, what do you actually have in common with her? What do you talk about when you're together?

I started reading Euclid's Elements and immediately noticed an unstated assumption used in the first proof, which drove me to Hilbert's Foundations of Geometry. If you want to read the Elements, you should read it alongside this book which explains where Euclid falls short and relates him to modern geometry. Otherwise you'll go mad wondering whether the gaps you can't see how to cross are your fault or Euclid's.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #142 on:** February 09, 2008, 05:03:44 PM »

We talked about blues and death note last time. We always have something to say to each other, even if its about nothing. The only time when conversation struggles is when either me or her is nervous.

I actually already have foundations and Geometry: Euclid and Beyond in my amazon wishlist.

I'm reading whiteheads introduction to mathmatics right now and I'm loving it but I'd like something deeper. Any suggestions?

drozmight · « **Reply #143 on:** February 09, 2008, 05:09:54 PM »

[youtube=425,350]NTt7eCq02hM[/youtube].

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #144 on:** February 09, 2008, 05:16:41 PM »

sadest thing ever.

A letter from Nietzche to the guy that got the only love of his life

:'(

TVC15 · « **Reply #145 on:** February 09, 2008, 06:11:16 PM »

Jesus Christ, Arvie, Death Note and the Blues? I can still help you, but it's going to take more work to Pygmalion you up than I originally thought.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #146 on:** February 09, 2008, 06:45:46 PM »

I'm going to send her this. Hopefully it will finish this thing off quickly.

O and its not suppose to be serious in tone, before anyone says so. She'll get it.

Dear Rachel,

I miss you gravely, I have for a long time, and it looks like I will have to bear this burden longer.
I care about you deeply and I hope you find happiness.

Please call me if there is ever a change in the situation of your heart - I mean this in both ways.

Thinking about you more than I should,
Arvie.

P.S. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to write a formal letter, as I have always wanted to.

TVC15 · « **Reply #147 on:** February 09, 2008, 06:54:34 PM »

What the fuck is wrong with you?

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #148 on:** February 09, 2008, 06:55:00 PM »

I have no idea.

drozmight · « **Reply #149 on:** February 09, 2008, 06:55:29 PM »

What's with that sign off?

"Thinking about you more than I should!"

That's creepy.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #150 on:** February 09, 2008, 06:57:23 PM »

ok how about, thinking of you always.

demi · « **Reply #151 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:01:07 PM »

Quote from: Father_Mike on February 09, 2008, 06:45:46 PM

I'm going to send her this. Hopefully it will finish this thing off quickly.

O and its not suppose to be serious in tone, before anyone says so. She'll get it.

Dear Rachel,

I miss you gravely, I have for a long time, and it looks like I will have to bear this burden longer.
I care about you deeply and I hope you find happiness.

Please call me if there is ever a change in the situation of your heart - I mean this in both ways.

Thinking about you more than I should,
Arvie.

P.S. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to write a formal letter, as I have always wanted to.

ROFL, you said you had to bear a burden - GAY

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #152 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:02:06 PM »

subtext!

TVC15 · « **Reply #153 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:04:19 PM »

Arvie, stop trying to scare her or whatever the fuck you are doing. Just man up and drink it off.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #154 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:06:53 PM »

I want to let her know I care. Last time we did this, with in two months of us not talking she cut one of her wrists. She obviously needed some on for support and I won't give it to her while shes out fucking another dude but I also don't want to see her get that low ever again.

demi · « **Reply #155 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:08:16 PM »

What burden are you bearing? You aren't even in a relationship. A burden is when you fuck without a condom and she suddenly becomes pregnant. A burden is when you borrow $50 from someone and have to pay them back. A burden is when you forget to pay the electricity bill.

You have no burden! Calling her a burden is BAD, it just makes it seem like you are doing it out of sympathy because she's extremely fragile and destructive to herself. She will just distance herself away because she doesn't want big daddy bear Arvie hovering over her and protecting her.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #156 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:11:45 PM »

I kind of am for some part. Your right though she'll just see that one line and think I blame her for this - which I do.

the other option is just to call her up and tell her Im here if she needs help but otherwise I can;t be around her, but if I do this I can't hid my feelings in melodrama.

TVC15 · « **Reply #157 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:12:52 PM »

Quote from: Father_Mike on February 09, 2008, 07:06:53 PM

I want to let her know I care. Last time we did this, with in two months of us not talking she cut one of her wrists. She obviously needed some on for support and I won't give it to her while shes out fucking another dude but I also don't want to see her get that low ever again.

BAIL THE FUCK OUT! DON'T DEAL WITH CRAZY PEOPLE!

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #158 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:17:43 PM »

I'm crazy too. Crazies deserve each other. Remember this is the girl that stopped me from killing myself.

Now you guys have made me decide not to email her. I wish I would have so I could have just gotten on. Now I'll just be waiting for weeks for her email, which won't come. I'll also stay worried about her if I don't tell her I'm here for her.

I also really liked the line

Please call me if there is ever a change in the situation of your heart - I mean this in both ways.

Time to do my amazon buys, drink and read the bible. I guess.

demi · « **Reply #159 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:19:53 PM »

Arvie, just take a couple days and let it settle, then just call her up casually and talk about um... whatever is up with her. Read your bible and play some Waggle Wii or something, I dunno.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #160 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:20:52 PM »

Quote from: Genghis Cohen on February 09, 2008, 07:18:27 PM

For fucks sake Arvie make a clean break. Crazy bitches will do this as long as your stupid enough to all for it.

But thats what I'm saying it won't be clean unless I can stop worrying about her. Besides this is like the 5th attempt at a break.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #161 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:21:51 PM »

Your right demi.

TVC15 · « **Reply #162 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:25:54 PM »

Arvie, I'm a fucking cigarillo and even I know that rule #1 is to stay away from the crazy headfucking bitches. I mean, that can sometimes be a difficult distinction to make, but it is clear here that you are being mindfucked. If a bitch is cutting her wrists and you feel like you are supposed to help her through that shit,t hat is like a flashing fucking neon sign saying that the return on the effort you put in won't be worth it.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #163 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:40:53 PM »

what the fuck Import Fees Deposit: $53.69

fuck amazon. that makes it like $500

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #164 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:48:49 PM »

it also won't let me chose my shipping options so shipping is $60 wtf this has never happened. fuck this.

TVC15 · « **Reply #165 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:49:55 PM »

Maybe you should cut yourself now.

Himu · « **Reply #166 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:49:58 PM »

FUCK ME IN THE ASS ARVIE

Phoenix Dark · « **Reply #167 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:54:34 PM »

Quote from: TVC 15 on February 08, 2008, 10:12:49 PM

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I'm so much better looking than Arvie

Himu · « **Reply #168 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:55:15 PM »

how many dildos can i stick up arvie's ass

Phoenix Dark · « **Reply #169 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:57:19 PM »

Speaking of which, a couple days ago I read that there is gay DP porn out there. Like actual two dicks in one ass. I have to see that, just out of scientific curiosity

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #170 on:** February 09, 2008, 07:58:29 PM »

Quote from: TVC 15 on February 09, 2008, 07:49:55 PM

Maybe you should cut yourself now.

I would but the amazon import fees on a straight razor would kill me!

PD you can't judge my looks off of a drunk picture. thats not right.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #171 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:13:39 PM »

it was because of pheonix write that the order was all fucked

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Eric P · « **Reply #172 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:16:03 PM »

Quote

Sold by: Amazon.com
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Alan Weisman; Hardcover; $16.47

this is a wonderful, uplifting book and didn't at all give birth to new apocalyptic nightmares

recursivelyenumerable · « **Reply #173 on:** February 09, 2008, 08:19:03 PM »

Nietzsche and Salome

You should read Kafka's short stories too, they're chock full of barely sublimated angst of this type.

Ichirou · « **Reply #174 on:** February 09, 2008, 10:10:38 PM »

You ordered the shitty Shakespeare edition. Fuck you, Arvie.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #175 on:** February 09, 2008, 10:13:01 PM »

Quote from: Ichi on February 09, 2008, 10:10:38 PM

You ordered the shitty Shakespeare edition. Fuck you, Arvie.

chances are I'll get the norton tome too some day.

I got the crying lot because of you though.

Ichirou · « **Reply #176 on:** February 09, 2008, 10:18:19 PM »

OK, I forgive you.

TVC15 · « **Reply #177 on:** February 09, 2008, 10:18:49 PM »

You're still totally homo for being emotional about this crap, though.

Madrun Badrun · « **Reply #178 on:** February 09, 2008, 10:19:36 PM »

good. I hear total homo is the first step to becoming gay.

Ichirou · « **Reply #179 on:** February 09, 2008, 10:39:54 PM »

Did you really consider committing suicide, Arvie?

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Author Topic: I'm going gay. (Read 13327 times)