that when he says it was awful, that he looked at himself and said what the fuck are you doing, that he is only talking about the violence aspect, and the racist aspect is wholly separate from that...
He addresses the violence... calls the violence and revenge wrong.
He does not address the racism, never once calls it racism.
These are objective facts. And what I said was.. that had he addressed or discussed the racism he might have gotten a different reaction.
You can claim all you want you get the "vibe" that he is regrtful for racism.. what is objectively true is that he never once admits to or apologizes for racism. He does in fact admit to and apologize for violent vengful thoughts.
The pauses he makes are specifically transcribed.
Pauses like that are usually for comedic emphasis (seems unlikely here), for collecting thoughts (possible I suppose), or because what they are about to say are
particularly difficult to admit.
He pauses on the
racist part, and on the
murder part. It seems likely to me those are the aspects he found most difficult to admit.
He doesn't have to explicitly say that it was racist for it to have been racist, and he doesn't have to say he is talking about cold blooded murder of an innocent bystander, for him to be talking about the cold blooded murder of an innocent bystander.
if he was secretly racist, but aware enough of his racism to feel shame, he would have just not mentioned that part. As I say, the story is no less shocking removing that element.
If he was overtly and openly unashamedly racist, it seems likely that that would have cropped up at some point during his career.