Dude, you're a bit like one of those J kamikaze pilots, as Spartacus progresses, you realise it's actually getting worse, but you have invested your taste shares into it, so instead it's actually getting better (its not). Those J K pilots must have been superhyped to have received a personal letter written by a god, and probably the training part was fun, along with the rush of actually taking off and flying towards the objective, but as you near it, you realise that actually the idea, while sound in its initial stages, is dumb and pointless.
So do you pull the air brakes, or do you plummet to a fiery death?
Or watch Banshee, the hero is mentally fucked