THE BORE
General => The Superdeep Borehole => Topic started by: G The Resurrected on October 22, 2006, 03:24:47 PM
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So lately i've been pretty under the weather about a lot of stuff going on in my personal life. Trying to figure out how to make things better for myself and the person i love dearly. I've been trying to deal with a lot of pressure and I dont know if i'm making the right choices. My actions are purely out of love, and lack all mention of forethought. Which kind of has me in a position right now.
A standoff of sorts has become a real problem for me. I have a backbone and I've been using it a lot lately to help me keep strong. Through the pressure's of life with this individual. Its hard work to even be with this person. As much as i care, i'm not stupid. I know when i'm being taken for a ride. And the last year sure as hell has been one long ride. A horrific one at that.
So today i guess i'm just breaking down everything and trying to figure it out. When is it right to do something that hurts yourself more than you can imagine? Is putting yourself through more pain by choice better than having it forced on you? I guess what i'm saying is how do you break it off with someone you care so much about but know that they will be the death of you?
Is it weak of me and selfish of me to think this way? I've been a very strong person with everything else in my life, except maybe on myself to do things for me. I know i've been in denial about getting myself in shape and doing things to better my life. But what is the right choice?
The path of least resistance tells me I need to grow a pair and tell her that this is inecusable how she has treated me and threatened me. Using someones love against them is the cruelist thing anyone's ever done to me. And i notice it, i'm not in denial about that. But i have kept going with it cause i love that love person. So far that pain has been the worst in my life.
Where once i seeked happiness and love i only feel pain and sorrow.
Anyone have some thoughts? I know this isnt the best place to talk but its all i got in the way of people i know of.
Also i'll post later what i'm being extorted for this time around.
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Dear ZomBz,
Jesus christ you fucking crybaby, break it off already and stop bitching! :punch
XOXO,
The Dark Shake
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yeah, it ain't love if it's one-sided; if it is, it's just freakin' creepy-ass pussy boy obsession.
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Don't look for love where there isn't the same amount coming back at you.
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dump her and move on, no reason stay with her if she doesn't treat you right. There is always another girl around the corner to fall for, don't worry.
Move to Hawaii, open a brewery and one day you'll see me there and we can go fat man surfing (that is the term I just made up for surfing with big rubber inner tubes).
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Who needs a girl when morphix is throwing himself at you? Sex on the beach in Hawaii? YES PLEEZ! :P
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I just woke up from a dream where I was on fire for this?
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i totally want to do some fat man surfing too. sign me up!
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You wanna do the right thing? Post naked pics of her on the internet already, Jesus.
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man fat man surfing rocks you tie beer bottles to the tube as well and just kick it drinking a few while your chilling.
As for my choice i dont know i'm considering my options. Death, Cheating and telling her that she's not my trophy, and or just not talking anymore. Its a hard choice either way.
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What happened to wedding bellz lol
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I got put in a corner by her and i just cant take that kind of life. Each damn day its the same shit no happiness for me. As much as i love her and want to make things work out. I'm coming to grips with the fact she'll keep using my love for her against me. Either way i'm choosing to put myself through the pain. And i need to choose if i want to just break it off and deal with that pain or just keep going with it.
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why do you think you love her if she makes you miserable, duder
and if you say "love hurts sometimes" i will call you on your fucking reliance on stupid romantic cliches and mock you mercilessly
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I always look at the light at the end of the tunnel or for me the fucking crazy ass rollercoaster. Things have happened to this girl things that change people and she's never recovered i've been waiting for the girl i fell in love with for years. And as cliche as it sounds i'd live through all this shit just to have one day where she loved me like she used to.
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the thing with changing is that folks rarely change BACK
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Well call me naive but i believed that if i tried to be a better person things would change. She would change and i'd be happy instead of drinking and popping pills. But i just realized that people just hurt other people its our nature. To fuck and then leave then go to someone else. Hearts are for breaking, fuckings for the taking.
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it's not OUR nature. it's HER nature. go find someone else who doesn't have that nature.
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malek wins the cliche fight!
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Malek doesn't know anything about love, don't listen to him.
Dude, just end the relationship and move on.
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No she seems like a gold digger.
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Nirvana's Heart-Shaped Box, dode. "I wanna eat your cancer when it turns black." Kurt Cobain is ALWAYS the first.
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Yeah Malek nice analogy but its not so simple especially when you've devoted so much to one person. You put yourself through hell just to make them happy and show them that you love them. The only other way to show that would probably be to take a bullet for them. the loss of ones self is only the begining to opening the eyes
Cake and Soddomy is my choice
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yer babbling romantic catchphrases that ultimately mean nothing. your problem is that you're trying to justify your relationship stupidity with shit that reads like you clipped it from cosmo.
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The sad thing is that i really am just that fucked up drinky. I dont get this shit from cosmo or anything like that. I'm hopeless romantic. I believe in love that much.
Malek yes i do have a large chest. 56 inches to be exact. And i agree i might have a female mind maybe cause i was raised by my mother. And my father was a horrible fucked up demon of man who wasnt there at all for me and just beat the two of us.
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no, you WANT to believe in it. Legitimate belief usually has a payout of happiness.
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no, you WANT to believe in it. Legitimate belief usually has a payout of happiness.
So yoru saying i'm in denial about love? That love does have its boundries? Or what? Cause i believe love is limitless and at times you dont get anything from it.
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why the fuck would you believe that "love is limitless." that's a nonsense phrase.
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I shave my tits if that makes you feel better. :'(
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:-*
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I think i'm coming to the realization that i'm a good one night stand, but i'm not a good bf cause i'm a clingy mother fucker.
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Where once i seeked happiness and love i only feel pain and sorrow.
rofl you emo cunt.
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so what are your options?
Stay with her and feel shitty or leave her and feel shitty right?
If you stay with her will it get better, I doubt it.
If you leave at least you have a chance of finding someone else that will make you feel good again.
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malek wins the cliche fight!
I don't think those are cliches. I'm pretty sure I'mthe only person who has ever compared love to cancer.
I compare love to a horrible chemical addiction, since that's technically what it is anyway.
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So if love is a chemical addiction why cant we recreate it? Pheramones drive us sex crazy so why cant we make shit like that? Anyways yeah i cut and run i have to deal with the hurt i'd be causing myself and the guilt i'd have. Or i stick with it and really pray that putting myself through all this shit is worth it.
Yeah i'm trying to convince myself but god damnit i cant help myself.
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Dude, seriously.... are you sure you're not a chick?
"He beats me, but I love him" is only a few posts away, ZomBz. BAIL OUT. :-\
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Actually she has beat me bit me and blue balled me. She worse than a man :'(
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cunt punt her big guy :D
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jesus cunting christ
this relationship is obviously doomed. say I love you to the dumb bitch, fuck her in the ass and then neuter yourself please
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Actually she has beat me bit me and blue balled me. She worse than a man :'(
WTF DUDE
I'm going to send you some money so you can get on the Maury Show
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jesus cunting christ
this relationship is obviously doomed. say I love you to the dumb bitch, fuck her in the ass and then neuter yourself please
:lol
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Ok so i thought it'd be interesting to see how she feels about doing something for me yesterday. I told her since she never seems to have money to buy me anything that i'll give her some money and a list of things to help her out. Nothing big but i put a few games on there some nasty sex things and to spice it up movies that are out of production on dvd. Knowing this would make her choose what to get for me.
I gave 900 bucks more than enough to get what i had on my list and if she thought of some other things she could get those things. Since then all i've heard is bitching that i'm pressuring her. When i'm trying to test her to see what she does and doesnt do. Yes i know things can go wrong and she'll probably spend all the money on herself. But i just need to see what she does.
Its actually interesting to see whats going on in her head. One minute she brings up things she wants to buy for herself and then she gets all cranky and says something like: "Why couldnt you just buy this shit for yourself? I dont know what to do" And i havent told her what will happen if she doesnt surprise me. She'll have a nice litlte surprise of her own then.
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Ok so i thought it'd be interesting to see how she feels about doing something for me yesterday. I told her since she never seems to have money to buy me anything that i'll give her some money and a list of things to help her out. Nothing big but i put a few games on there some nasty sex things and to spice it up movies that are out of production on dvd. Knowing this would make her choose what to get for me.
I gave 900 bucks more than enough to get what i had on my list and if she thought of some other things she could get those things. Since then all i've heard is bitching that i'm pressuring her. When i'm trying to test her to see what she does and doesnt do. Yes i know things can go wrong and she'll probably spend all the money on herself. But i just need to see what she does.
Its actually interesting to see whats going on in her head. One minute she brings up things she wants to buy for herself and then she gets all cranky and says something like: "Why couldnt you just buy this shit for yourself? I dont know what to do" And i havent told her what will happen if she doesnt surprise me. She'll have a nice litlte surprise of her own then.
The oops approach never works unless you guys were using lube for vaginal sex as well.
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If i want anal i get anal thats not a problem 8)
No the surprise will be much more disastorous and potentially devistating. I'm trying to get her to prove herself and what she says she feels. So this is one test and damn is it a hard one but its the only way she can prove to me how she feels i think.
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Congrats, dude. I just hope you really do have the backbone to go with it if she fails you. Best of luck, buddy.
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He's making up all of this, you realize.
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He's making up all of this, you realize.
He is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111!!11! :o
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The parts about being financially comfortable might be true. No way he works.
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Are you saying he's not really James Bond?
Did you lie Bz?
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I aint james bond and i dont work i dont have to work day to day. I do what i wish when i want for the most part.
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That gif is going to turn into an imageshack frog soon. :-\
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Wow Bz, you STILL haven't dumped the fuckin gold digging slag?
Gawd DAMN. >:(