valuable game time-_-
fuck ya'all, I had to move today. no weekend hangovers/remorse here :bawl
I thought moving day was traditionally followed by the obligatory case/cases of beer. Of course, I live in the country, so moving day usually involves 2-3 friend's pickup trucks, followed by a beat-up '92 Dodge Shadow towing a rickety trailer twice it's size.
Anyways, it's sunday, so barring any unforseen hurdles, the Sunday Night Drinking thread shall be resurrected.
Im just really up and down most of the time, my main problem is Im honest and direct to the point of frightening sometimes, and Im constantly telling people too much stuff. Like Im trying to pick someone up and I tell her how I often think "I hate myself and I want to die" not really attractive huh. Thats why I like gaming so much, its really easy to zone out and forget aobut the pain you feel everyday
Im just really up and down most of the time, my main problem is Im honest and direct to the point of frightening sometimes, and Im constantly telling people too much stuff. Like Im trying to pick someone up and I tell her how I often think "I hate myself and I want to die" not really attractive huh. Thats why I like gaming so much, its really easy to zone out and forget aobut the pain you feel everyday
I'm the same with the ups and downs, only I keep everything nicely tucked away. Most people think I'm really confident and laid back. I think the thing is to even out the ups and downs a bit more (the downs will of course never be gone) to the point that they bum you out, in stead of making you cry. I found that talking to a professional gives the insecurities a place, so they won't always be on top of your mind.
Im just really up and down most of the time, my main problem is Im honest and direct to the point of frightening sometimes, and Im constantly telling people too much stuff. Like Im trying to pick someone up and I tell her how I often think "I hate myself and I want to die" not really attractive huh. Thats why I like gaming so much, its really easy to zone out and forget aobut the pain you feel everyday
I'm the same with the ups and downs, only I keep everything nicely tucked away. Most people think I'm really confident and laid back. I think the thing is to even out the ups and downs a bit more (the downs will of course never be gone) to the point that they bum you out, in stead of making you cry. I found that talking to a professional gives the insecurities a place, so they won't always be on top of your mind.
Good to hear :) I think Im just always wanting support from others which is why I speak exactly what Im thinking most of the time. Last time I saw a professional they thought the majority of my fucked up irrational thinking stems from my childhood. I had a pretty shitty time from age 5-12 as both my parents (they seperated when I was 1) had shit going on and didnt really have any time for me whatsoever (which is why I started playing games, they are always there for you). Basically If something can go worng, I think thats whats going to happen, and if Im in a good mood, I'll think "fuck somehthing must be wrong, what is it". Also why Im terrified of my ex-partners, becuase Im terrified of rejection
Lol at the Bebpo thread, maybe Im not so bad
- I now have Kestastrophe's home address, I hope he answers the door in something sexyIs bound to the bed posts and ball gagged sexy enough :-*
got off work last nite at 3 am, hung out with the gang drinking tecate and smoking blunt after blunt til about an hour ago. now i'm home and i have to get ready for work in a couple hours. i'll be working until 5 am, off zero sleep from last nite.
also, the OP (i don't know you, and no offense..) seriously needs to just man the fuck up. u really think crying is gonna help you? fuck that shit. keep that shit bottled up, and play sports to relieve the fucking tension. stop confiding in video games, it's obvious that they won't help your problems...
and about that boss you hit on, go talk to her in person and apologize. give her a sob story like you're not supposed to be drinking since blah blah blah and you had to much blah blah blah and you want to apologize. that's it. stop being such a pussy, girls don't find that shit attractive.
Junkie, what did you get high on?
fair comments. Im feeling better now, saw a counsellor and he gave me some good advice to help me have more pride in myself. So Im doing good! just got really stoned last night and watched phat beach. it was awesome