THE BORE
General => The Superdeep Borehole => Topic started by: Himu on January 03, 2020, 02:31:09 PM
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Seeing therapist for depression and it has been suggested I get screened for high functioning autism, or Asperger's. Not that there's a cure but there's hope that I can learn methods to learn how to cope with the problems attached to it and learn how to focus on the strengths. Does anyone have any suggestions or could impart knowledge?
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Good luck dude, my niece has the opposite of aspergers (-ish, infantile autism) and ever since her diagnosis and getting some help she has blossomed.
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No advice or anything, except I wish you good luck and hope it works out. :heartbeat
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Lager: That's good
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First things first, meet a specialist for the screening. Goes without saying.
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My nephew is on the spectrum in that general-ish place (they no longer call it Asperger's sadly, probably due to all the Ass burger jokes) and honestly that would make a lot of sense given my admittedly low knowledge of your life.
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If I do have it, is there any hope? :fbm
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If I do have it, is there any hope? :fbm
you could moderate internet messageboards :doge
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If I do have it, is there any hope? :fbm
you could move to denmark 8)
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If I do have it, is there any hope? :fbm
If you do have it, it means you have always had it - so it doesn't really change anything other than give you paths for doing better. Basically, there is no downside to being diagnoses with it.
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If I do have it, is there any hope? :fbm
If you do have it, it means you have always had it - so it doesn't really change anything other than give you paths for doing better. Basically, there is no downside to being diagnoses with it.
Basically this. Given the obvious caveat that society is just inherently dumb with a lot of bullshit expectations, people on this section of the spectrum generally JUST DON'T KNOW WTF SOCIETY WANTS FROM THEM, so knowing that will give you the knowledge to either decide to approach life in a different way or at least know why things seem so weird.
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Getting a (right) diagnosis is probably the best things that can hapoen, sure it might be scary as you feel you will be labeled "damaged" but it's the first step to realizing your best potential.
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You said it yourself, what's the point? If you've coped for this long, it probably hasn't interfered with your life enough to be a 'problem'. If you've got anxiety just do deep breathing or drugs or whatever. Your therapist should be telling you what you got, not the other way around.
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Probably anxiety right? The only other major side effect is poor sociability but Cindi is plenty social to me (though I guess it's a lot harder to gauge through text). I guess i'm more of a let sleeping dogs lie type guy. When you're past a certain age all a formal diagnosis does is give you more shit to think about
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Having a proper diagnosis can help with seeking the appropriate relief.
:yeshrug
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Probably anxiety right? The only other major side effect is poor sociability but Cindi is plenty social to me (though I guess it's a lot harder to gauge through text). I guess i'm more of a let sleeping dogs lie type guy. When you're past a certain age all a formal diagnosis does is give you more shit to think about
why do you always have nonsense takes and talk out your ass on issues
what are you, her therapist?
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I really struggle connecting with people irl. Which is why I always flocked to online boards where I could express myself with people that have like minded interests. So if I do have the diagnosis, I need to learn how to better socialize irl which will hopefully lead to lower social anxiety which will lead to lower depression. As it is, I'm always second and triple guessing my relationships with people which makes me not pursue them because I feel isolated and would rather be isolated than experience the hurt of not understanding how to be normal.
Edit: phone typos :stop
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Probably anxiety right? The only other major side effect is poor sociability but Cindi is plenty social to me (though I guess it's a lot harder to gauge through text). I guess i'm more of a let sleeping dogs lie type guy. When you're past a certain age all a formal diagnosis does is give you more shit to think about
why do you always have nonsense takes and talk out your ass on issues
what are you, her therapist?
He's been an open mic "comedian" for 10 years.
Cindi, you may benefit from cognitive behavior therapy. It's what I use currently and the only type that's really made a difference.
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I mean I think I'm right there with you on being a bit weary of some things surrounding mental health diagnosis; important thing is to focus on becoming aware of your behavior and how it might be influencing your problems. At the very least that can be a catalyst for coping better (less anxiety) and possibly even improving whatever you think is a problem.
People also can take a diagnoses and not turn that into a positive outcome, or diagnosis can be wrong and lead people down the wrong path.. but I don't assume Cindi would trust a therapist unless this came from some self realization I guess and not just a "diagnosis"
If I get the diagnosis it is my fear that I'm officially broken, as this is permanent.
Without the diagnosis there is hope that there is no finality.
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There's no such thing as an "unbroken" human being, we're all broken, just in different ways
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There's no such thing as an "unbroken" human being, we're all broken, just in different ways
Ah, very Catholic of you.
:heartbeat
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Probably anxiety right? The only other major side effect is poor sociability but Cindi is plenty social to me (though I guess it's a lot harder to gauge through text). I guess i'm more of a let sleeping dogs lie type guy. When you're past a certain age all a formal diagnosis does is give you more shit to think about
why do you always have nonsense takes and talk out your ass on issues
what are you, her therapist?
He's been an open mic "comedian" for 10 years.
Cindi, you may benefit from cognitive behavior therapy. It's what I use currently and the only type that's really made a difference.
Cognitive behavior therapy? Expound please. I know what it is but no further details on how it works.
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I really struggle connecting with people irl. Which is why I always flocked to online boards where I could express myself with people that have like minded interests. So if I do have the diagnosis, I need to learn how to better socialize irl which will hopefully lead to lower social anxiety which will lead to lower depression. As it is, I'm always second and triple guessing my relationships with people which makes me not pursue them because I feel isolated and would rather be isolated than experience the hurt of not understanding how to be normal.
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I'm right there with you Cindi. Whenever I meet someone new I never know how much time you're supposed to dedicate to the friendship. It always feels like they want to hang out too much, or too little. I think that's less a problem with mentality and more a problem with the relationships you make later in life though, where you sorta feel like an outsider in someone else's life, or they feel like an annoying guest in yours.
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It isn't just new people. It's a constant othering no matter how old or new. The only description for what I'm dealing with is everyone else is smooth but I'm textured.
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everyone else is just unseasoned, bb :-[
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Cindi, you may benefit from cognitive behavior therapy. It's what I use currently and the only type that's really made a difference.
I hated CBT when I tried it.
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It isn't just new people. It's a constant othering no matter how old or new. The only description for what I'm dealing with is everyone else is smooth but I'm textured.
They gotta make way for the Homo Superior
:patel
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everyone else is just unseasoned, bb :-[
That spicy life
:ohyeah
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Some just get ribbed more than others.
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It isn't just new people. It's a constant othering no matter how old or new. The only description for what I'm dealing with is everyone else is smooth but I'm textured.
They gotta make way for the Homo Superior
:patel
It's easy to say this but in real life when you see everyone communicating with others but you, you're reminded constantly of your failure.
It results in a series of second, triple, quadruple guessing that in eternally vacuous.
"She doesn't talk to me that way."
"What are they always talking about?"
"How come I don't have that kind of connection with someone?"
etc.
Now make this not just for social relationships but also working relationships and familial relationships.
I want to communicate but I'm also aware that when I try to I end up turning people off so it's much easier to withdraw and not say anything.
Dressing it up as "seasoned" "homo superior" is cute and all but effectively pointless. It does not assuage any negative feelings and only works to enhance them.
And then you find yourself drinking for the 4th time this week.
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Cindi, you may benefit from cognitive behavior therapy. It's what I use currently and the only type that's really made a difference.
I hated CBT when I tried it.
Yeah, it's not for everyone - my therapist says a lot of people quit out of it.
Cindi - it's hard to do a quick summary of it, but basically you learn how to manage and differentiate thoughts, feelings, and emotions and address the distortions that happen in each of them. There is a lot of work at first, you have to spend an hour or two working on "mood logs" to address just one particular event but for me, once it clicked, it was really helpful. I have very bad anxiety and depression (was hospitalized about a year ago after leaving my wife and kid on his birthday to go to Vegas to overdose) but it's helped a lot to slow down the hamster wheel of fucked up thoughts that run in my head.
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Yeah that's tricky. I don't have work or social or familial relationships either (though luckily I don't strive for them), and i'll avoid cliches like "gotta keep putting yourself out there", but I can definitely say drowning in booze isn't gonna help. If all my advice is useless, that's the only advice that isn't
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Yeah that's tricky. I don't have work or social or familial relationships either (though luckily I don't strive for them), and i'll avoid cliches like "gotta keep putting yourself out there", but I can definitely say drowning in booze isn't gonna help. If all my advice is useless, that's the only advice that isn't
Well, I communicated these issues to my therapist and that's where the "high functioning autism" label came in.
We will see.
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Lots of people have a fairly (i mean, as much as a bore poster can have i guess) normal life with assburgers. Being diagnosed would be helpful for sure, not like it disappears without diagnosis. I understand still being worried about it, but try not to be and see it as a positive.
Good luck dude, my niece has the opposite of aspergers (-ish, infantile autism) and ever since her diagnosis and getting some help she has blossomed.
My new job is taking care of someone with infantile autism, now that's fucking rough man, when a 33 year old gotta have one person dedicated to him 24/7.
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That sucks, good luck :(
On the bright side you can run for office now.
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Hope this leads to great year for you.
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Not that it isn’t obvious, but there technically isn’t a difference between who you are before and after you got diagnosed. At least now you can get treated for it.
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[lurks because I should prolly do this too]
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Lots of people have a fairly (i mean, as much as a bore poster can have i guess) normal life with assburgers. Being diagnosed would be helpful for sure, not like it disappears without diagnosis. I understand still being worried about it, but try not to be and see it as a positive.
Good luck dude, my niece has the opposite of aspergers (-ish, infantile autism) and ever since her diagnosis and getting some help she has blossomed.
My new job is taking care of someone with infantile autism, now that's fucking rough man, when a 33 year old gotta have one person dedicated to him 24/7.
This is pretty mild, she might be able to live on her own I think.
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You are you Cindi. A diagnosis will help you better understand why you are you and may help to provide some strategies to make improvements to areas of your life you want to improve.
A diagnosis in itself is not going to change a single thing about who you are.
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I'd like to recommend everyone in this thread from this post (http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=46838.msg2762596#msg2762596) onward for autism spectrum diagnosis.
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assy was right! :lol
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This is a very helpful video for me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6zqyYBnVnY
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Okay so, I've been mindful of the symptoms. Some of them like freaking out after a change in routine made me go,"ha, that's not me."
Then this morning I find out roommate threw away or fucked up/changed the rice and beans dish I made that I was going to eat this morning and I am filled with an uncontrollable rage because I do not want to eat anything else.
:stop :stahp :brazilcry
NOOOO
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A roommate messing with your food is a perfectly valid reason to be angry
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So, the thing that got my therapist to bring up Asperger's as a possibility is how I react to overstimulus. For Thanksgiving I went to my aunt's house. These days they invite all these people over that I don't know and aren't the usual people we invite. I get overwhelmed by the amount of new variables and people I don't know and come up with scripts on what to do. This time I got so overwhelmed that I decided to eat dinner by myself, upstairs, in the dark. I get so anxious dealing with people I don't know when dealing with all the noise and stimuli that I eventually had to retreat and just watched Dead End Hip Hop videos on my phone or take photographs to help me have a means to be social with an excuse.
The reason this gives me anxiety is because during the holidays growing up it was just my grandparents, parents, aunts, and cousins at these family holiday activities. But now it's not. I really dislike this change and sometimes I'm at the point where I might melt down. I get really stressed out by these situations and just pegged them as social anxiety. Reading a lot of Asperger's stories I'm seeing myself in a lot of them. It isn't a confirmation and I refuse to self diagnose but I see now why the therapist brought up aspies. It has me both really scared and relieved. Scared because there's no cure, relieved because there might finally be a name to what's ailing me.
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Also you shouldn't be scared, being able to better acknowledge yourself from an outside barometer has its benefits.
There are also some people I've known that have Asperger's and have met up with people w/ similar interests/hobbies so that they can better enthuse on a similar level and be more sociable.
:reeeee
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That is another symptom I've been reading that really speaks to me. I really like learning about topics. I like learning everything about it and its history. That's another thing I've read from others' stories that spesks to me. Again, not a self diagnosis but definitely rings alarms.
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Being overstimulated is okay as long as you are the one choosing the stimulations. Otherwise it fucking sucks.
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Took this test.
https://www.additudemag.com/screener-autism-spectrum-disorder-symptoms-test-adults/
One question goes,"do you struggle to understand phrases like 'dont count your chickens before they hatch?'"
And I put in,"sometimes."
Then later on it asks if I have a memory that's a "steel trap" and I have been sitting there for a minute trying to decipher what in the fuck that it means to have a memory that's a steel trap.:lol
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A roommate messing with your food is a perfectly valid reason to be angry
There's getting angry and then there's refusing to eat anything but rice because that's what you want and you're on the verge of a temper tantrum.
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Took this test.
https://www.additudemag.com/screener-autism-spectrum-disorder-symptoms-test-adults/
One question goes,"do you struggle to understand phrases like 'dont count your chickens before they hatch?'"
And I put in,"sometimes."
Then later on it asks if I have a memory that's a "steel trap" and I have been sitting there for a minute trying to decipher what in the fuck that it means to have a memory that's a steel trap.:lol
So what's your score? I like how the first question is a roundabout way of asking "DO YOU LIKE STAR WARS?" and 88 is the most points you can score. :lol
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Took this test.
https://www.additudemag.com/screener-autism-spectrum-disorder-symptoms-test-adults/
One question goes,"do you struggle to understand phrases like 'dont count your chickens before they hatch?'"
And I put in,"sometimes."
Then later on it asks if I have a memory that's a "steel trap" and I have been sitting there for a minute trying to decipher what in the fuck that it means to have a memory that's a steel trap.:lol
So what's your score? I like how the first question is a roundabout way of asking "DO YOU LIKE STAR WARS?" and 88 is the most points you can score. :lol
More importantly what was your score?
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Took this test.
https://www.additudemag.com/screener-autism-spectrum-disorder-symptoms-test-adults/
One question goes,"do you struggle to understand phrases like 'dont count your chickens before they hatch?'"
And I put in,"sometimes."
Then later on it asks if I have a memory that's a "steel trap" and I have been sitting there for a minute trying to decipher what in the fuck that it means to have a memory that's a steel trap.:lol
So what's your score? I like how the first question is a roundabout way of asking "DO YOU LIKE STAR WARS?" and 88 is the most points you can score. :lol
More importantly what was your score?
27/88
To be fair, I had such a test as a kid because kids who liked to be inside with Lego and computers instead of outside with soccer balls were all suspected of being autistic.
They concluded that I wasn't. A few years later it turned out I was asthmatic(the first time I had a severe attack it nearly killed me) and that's probably why I preferred to avoid certain things that would trigger it (physical exercise, grass, swimming pools, dogs etc.)
because I knew it wasn't good for me but I didn't know why.
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It said that I may be on the high functioning end of the spectrum.
Anyways that test apparently isn't even good. This is a better, more thorough test.
https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=/raads/questions.php
Haven't taken yet.
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I took that test. Apparently it's often very accurate.
My total score: 144.
Threshold values for suspected ASD: 65.0
The average score for males with ASD: 146.2
The average score for females with ASD: 159.7
The average score for males with suspected ASD: 140.2
The average score for females with suspected ASD: 144.8
The average score for male neurotypicals: 81.2
The average score for female neurotypicals: 84.3
My score is in yellow. It says:
Scores with a yellow background are above the test threshold values. If your total score is above the threshold it may be worth getting professionally assessed.
ME RN
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A lot of these questions are hard. "I am considered a compassionate type of person". How the hell would I know how people consider me to be?
I have a hard time figuring out what some phrases mean, like "You are the apple of my eye". This test was clearly written before smartphones existed...
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test isn't hard, breh ::) you're just autisty :lol
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I got 137.0
A lot of the questions are about how mean you are. Maybe i'm just mean?
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Idk about this test I got 29
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test isn't hard, breh ::) you're just autisty :lol
This is how I know I am. My absolute lack of confidence in my ability to even take the test
I’ll try later but if I have to weight questions I’m screwed lol
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the real test is your reaction to dumb questions on a dumb internet test :doge
you're either autisty or a blade runner replicant ;)
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This test doesnt seem nuanced at all, how about a 1-10 scale or something
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Just take the test, Cats.
Often when you take these tests you know it's testing for autism and you'll answer to that bias if you think you have it. So it's not a confirmation. It's just a way to see if you need to see a professional.
Self diagnosis shouldn't be a thing and you won't know anything hiding in the dark.
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cindy this test seems garbage, id go to a doctor instead.
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Sometimes the sound of a word or a high pitched noise can be painful to my ears
Who doesn't love high pitched noises? When my roommate is vacuuming I open the door to my room so I can hear it even more.
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Don't push self diagnosis too far. I guess those tests can help you collect thoughts ahead of a meeting with a professional.
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I got a pretty low score on that test (60s) but I think I maybe insulated my answers a bit and the 16 yo cut off confused me 🤷♀️
Idk
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yeah, cindi, given your tendency to latch onto identities, I'd recommend you just not think about this too hard until you've seen a professional, and even after, try not to let that define you, or even explain you.
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spencer, after meeting you, I can safely say you're not autistic, just cool
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I never said these tests were for self diagnosis at all. They're for information and helping to see a professional.
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spencer, after meeting you, I can safely say you're not autistic, just cool
I kinda think I’m just a master masker, tbqh
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I never said these tests were for self diagnosis at all. They're for information and helping to see a professional.
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I'm not making an account for the autisty test and neither should any of you.
Won't be long until AI robots come knocking at your door taking you away for experimentation.
And by the looks of this form it is all saved in plain text in the database ready for Russian hackers to find out exactly how autisty you are.
No thanks Soros
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You can take it without an account
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Would it be rude to talk to the mother of my neighbor that is a highly autistic person about my concerns and where to get resources?
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big dick autisty energy ;)
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Been looking at alternatives to what I could possibly be dealing with.
This popped up.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/conditions/avoidant-personality-disorder
I don't think that's it as the problems I've been dealing with are lifelong.
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Total score Language Social relatedness Sensory/motor Circumscribed interests
19.0 3.0 10.0 0.0 6.0
I dunno
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I failed the test, no autism. I think I boosted my score slightly into the 40s because only after I had like ten left did I realize when they said "younger than 16" they actually mean like when you were 12-15 and I didn't go back to shift them to never.
The actual test, like many of these types of tests, is not "what does the question ask literally?" but "what are they asking?"
Like no, the phrase "apple of my eye" or "heart on my sleeve" doesn't fucking make sense to me as a literal description, I'd have to look them up probably to get the source code. But I know what they mean when somebody says them.
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Although 7 of the boys in our study identified video games as their SIA, further analysis of the interviews revealed that often the boys hid their true SIAs in order to gain social acceptance from their peers. Participants often used video games or other popular interests as a social bridge, even if these interests were not their true SIAs. We labeled this practice the masking of special interests because we found that participants used this technique to hide perceived socially unacceptable SIAs from their peers while still interacting with them. For example, Tom said that video games were his SIA, but later revealed his passion for woodworking. 15 Peter revealed his masking process when he told us, "Uh, I'm a gamer, uh, but my favorite video game, the only one I am actually good at, would be First Person Shooters...But the truth is, I like frogs...frogsfrogsfrogsfrogs! I have, like, so many frogs at both my mom and dad's houses and I'm not going to ever sell them or give them away or stuff like that. If I was going to sell them, which I'm not, I'd be rich! Really, really, RICH!" 16
It was clear from our data that participants' positive self-images were inextricably woven into their SIAs. The participants strongly identified with their SIAs and saw themselves defined by their SIAs. SIAs are critically important to children and youth with Asperger's. Though participants' self-images apart from their SIAs were strongly negative, we found that when they were involved in activities related to their SIAs, they felt more positive about themselves. They demonstrated expertise in their SIAs, control over their knowledge and involvement in their SIAs, and increased self-confidence. One participant, Ryan, confided, "I think I've got a lot more understanding on how things work than most people. I've got a corner in the back of my brain that allows me to perfectly simulate almost anything." 17 Steve told us, "I'm the main customer at a place called Hollywood Video. I am a movie whiz!" 18
Participants expressed reluctance to tell others about their SIAs due to rejection from their peers. Participants also noted that they were frustrated at being misunderstood by others. Their SIAs were often seen as socially unacceptable, and their peers lacked understanding and interest in the participants' SIAs. Charlie wanted to clarify, "I also make dragons, not just dinosaurs, everyone needs to know what they are....dragons, Dragons, DRAGONS!" 31 Brock admitted, "I just wish they'd think planes were cool." 32
Brock also revealed his feeling of peer rejection, as well as his desire to be the expert, when he told one interviewer, "I wish [kids at school] would accept planes and, uh, not always pretend to throw up about it...I just wish they knew as much about it as I do, maybe even ... no, maybe not even more." 33
Participants clearly wanted to be recognized as experts, and accepted by their peers. "Well I first like tell 'em I'm talented, but then I like wanna prove, I mean PROVE, that I can do it." 34 Another participant stated, "Yeah...wulll...apparently, like, when I make something very good, then they'll be impressed." 35
Many participants, such as Brock, revealed social awareness in their cautious dealings with peers, testing the waters before revealing their SIAs. "First, I usually don't talk about it... and if I have a really good friend... they might come over to my house and then they'll see all these planes around and they'll tell me that planes are a really cool thing... and then I'll know." 36 Justin told us, "Video games used to be at the top of my list. Now I always put girls at the top of my list. If it's a girl, I'll hang back, observe, see what kinda things she likes and I'll move in slow and steady. One could say that I like to buy lunch for pretty girls." 37
Owen was willing to be flexible in talking with peers, saying "If they don't look interested I change the subject. I say, 'Hey, I can change my voice.'" 38 Steve, however, had learned self-preservation by backing off when teased by peers. "I don't really wish other people would know about it." 39 Charlie confided, "They wouldn't, like, care anyway." 40
https://iancommunity.org/cs/about_asds/the_special_interests_of_children_with_aspergers
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Holy fucking JASD;LFA;SDFJ;
This is me. THIS IS ME!
My special interest growing up was animation. But the older I got the more it became socially unacceptable. One time in high school I gave a presentation on anime. It made me mad that people could not understand the appeal of animation. I would actually bring an anime vhs tape to school and try to have it watched. Video games were always a good social bridge.
Holy shit.
I need to get tested.
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This also explains my rigid, black and white thinking.
Christ. I've been searching for a local place to get screened. Most if not all that I have surveyed are for children.
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I just searched for psychologists in my area that are in my ACA network and get no results.
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MC4A plz.
edit: Got it :jeb
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Jesus Christ.
12. Personality characteristics and/or traits and abilities
A natural born leader, independent, strong-willed, determined and can be highly competitive (even with herself)
High levels of introversion OR can be extroverted
Generally lack a strong sense of self, self-esteem and/or identity. May use chameleon-like skills to assimilate and be involved with to a variety of groups or different people over time, in a search for true identity.
Has a high sense of justice and fairness, is a truth-seeker, sometimes to his/her own detriment
Highly creative and may have ‘rushes’ of original ideas
Dislikes change and may find it disorienting and stressful
Highly sensitive to criticism or perceived criticism
Dislikes being observed when having to perform (performance anxiety)
May have been told she cares too much, does too much for others and/or is too sensitive
Is perfectionistic (may have attended a perfectionism group program)
Attention to detail
Obsessions/special interests can be short-term (switching from one to another quickly) or long-term (can make a great career)
Naivety, innocence, trusting too much and taking others literally are a powerful concoction for being misused and abused
Masking: as above in this picture, giving off the illusion that everything is great or fine, when is it not. The mask often comes off at home with crying, meltdowns, or shutdowns.
A strong sense of feeling different from her peers often described as being from a different planet
May not have a sense of self and/or identity, self-esteem
Tend to be very serious, often too serious at times
Is intense in everything she does
In childhood, may have been described as highly sensitive and/or shy
Highly imaginative
May have trouble distinguishing between fantasy and reality
Does not like it when people move or touch her belongings; people interpret her as rude and aggressive
15. Sixth Sense, Intuition, Psychic Abilities
Has the ability to feel other people emotions, take on the emotions of others
May “know” or have knowledge of certain things, but no idea how she knows, aka “vibing”
May be a professional psychic or medium
Possesses one or more psychic abilities
Is an “empath”
Sensitive to other people’s negativity
Often confused by the feelings she/he is having
May take on the pain of other, aka Mirror-Touch Synaesthesia
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Okay one of you needs to talk to Cindi about her DSM hypochondria because I feel like it won't mean as much coming from me.
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I've tried calling psychologists and so far no luck. They said I can have psychiatry services but not psychologists. So far I'm not having any luck here or getting further to having a psychological assessment despite my attempts. It's very discouraging but I'm not giving up.
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You can also become a Jedi, only a Sith/Autisty deals in absolutes.
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In major metros there are usually networks that offer counseling services on a sliding scale. Don't know your financial situation but you might be able to get with someone if you haven't recently become independently wealthy. Check out the NAMI website in your area.
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https://youtu.be/_iO6AsqC0Oo
Holy fuck. I realize now that I have meltdowns. I had one the other week. I was having a bad day at work. I had to hide my feelings so hard while working and I was on the verge of tears. It took every ounce of strength to hold back but when work ended and I drove home my eyes were selling with tears. Other times I get soooo angry. I threw my fan remote across the room, breaking it the other month.
I have no control when these things happen and have always had them. One time as a teenager I didn't get to record a DBZ episode (I recorded every episode on vhs every day just to be able to rewatch or so dad could watch too as it was our thing) and it didn't record. I thought I missed a new episode and went fucking NUCLEAR. I called Mupepe and he told me that there was no new episode, which calmed me down.
I've thought I was bipolar for a while now and it's a big reason I've been seeking treatment. But at this point I don't think I got it as every emotion I feel is intense. Every single one. I'm just an intense person.
No one has seen me have a meltdown publicly since middle school. This is a part of myself that I am very good at hiding and not showing anyone.
I really need to tell my therapist about this.
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https://youtu.be/YgxHpHIrGNY
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Do you live near a College? If so call their medical services and see what they offer to the public. In many cases it is cheap/free as you are helping train students but will always be under the care of a professional. When I was diagnosed with OCD and Panic Attacks I went to Texas Tech for treatment and had access to psychiatry services and a psychologist. They even used me in multiple studies and paid me for my time as I explained to them why I could not have an amount ending $4 in my wallet and had to check the oven lights 50 times a day.
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Do you live near a College? If so call their medical services and see what they offer to the public. In many cases it is cheap/free as you are helping train students but will always be under the care of a professional. When I was diagnosed with OCD and Panic Attacks I went to Texas Tech for treatment and had access to psychiatry services and a psychologist. They even used me in multiple studies and paid me for my time as I explained to them why I could not have an amount ending $4 in my wallet and had to check the oven lights 50 times a day.
I live near a university but it's christian and I'm trans. My transsexuality will have to be brought up during any autistic assessment so it is not an option.
There used to be some state University psychological facility that I went to when I had a mental breakdown over 10 years ago.
I'm now thinking that the breakdown might have been a meltdown. It was the only time someone saw me freak like that as an adult and it was my mom.
I'm just going to save money and visit s new therapist that can diagnose. The current one can't.
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I live near a university but it's christian and I'm trans. My transsexuality will have to be brought up during any autistic assessment so it is not an option.
Your transsexuality will have nothing to do with the care provided to you. Just give them a call to see what services are offered. It's only a phone call. That university takes care of every member of the LGBT on a daily basis from the students alone.
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Baylor? They're still a christian university.
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Baylor? They're still a christian university.
And they still have numerous LGBT students that use all the services daily. You are just over an hour away from Texas A&M and Texas. If the drive is not an issue but I still recommend giving Baylor a call.
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Is it normal to think in pictures like this? Because everything in my head is a movie and why I've always been drawn to movie making
https://youtu.be/3JOKx0xIyAQ
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I mean I think I'm right there with you on being a bit weary of some things surrounding mental health diagnosis; important thing is to focus on becoming aware of your behavior and how it might be influencing your problems. At the very least that can be a catalyst for coping better (less anxiety) and possibly even improving whatever you think is a problem.
People also can take a diagnoses and not turn that into a positive outcome, or diagnosis can be wrong and lead people down the wrong path.. but I don't assume Cindi would trust a therapist unless this came from some self realization I guess and not just a "diagnosis"
If I get the diagnosis it is my fear that I'm officially broken, as this is permanent.
Without the diagnosis there is hope that there is no finality.
If you have Asp. you're not "broken," you're just wired different.
Think of it as breeder vs the Master Race (us Homo's), you're just born that way</Gaga>
Baylor? They're still a christian university.
If you're really that worried, just lie. What the hell are they going to do/find out unless you admit to it.
...Well, I guess being a transexual is harder to lie about... but even then what the hell are they going to do about it?
https://www.reddit.com/r/science/comments/eh9l77/nearly_three_quarters_of_americans_dont_care/ (The posts in this gives bad opinions on Catholic hospitals, but you should still give it a chance.)
Unless they attempt to force their views on you, their job is to help you. Forcing their views on you kinda goes against the oath they took to help you get better. Worst case, they won't help due to meds they can't prescribe or difference in opinion and you have to look elsewhere.
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Catholic hospitals are very Catholic as seen in that thread. Expressing transsexuality in a Catholic setting has not ended up well for me in the past hence my reticence. Honestly I've looked at many therapists and looked out for any sign of religiosity so I could ignore them. There goes my black and white thinking again. I'm sorry but I just don't want to worry about it. I already have enough anxiety in my life than to worry about being judged from the people that are supposed to help me.
However, tomorrow I will give them a call.
Baylor was on my list of psychologists that's in my ACA network but I simply avoided them due to being religiously affiliated.
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Aside but does anyone have any tips on quitting alcohol?
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https://www.thespiritsbusiness.com/2019/10/binge-drinking-drops-in-states-with-legal-cannabis-market/
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I've been smoking more weed for sure.
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Is it normal to think in pictures like this? Because everything in my head is a movie and why I've always been drawn to movie making
https://youtu.be/3JOKx0xIyAQ
Huh, I can’t visualize unless I’m really fucked up or really tired. I think only in words, like speech but faster. I think it’s why I like psychedelics so much.
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Is it normal to think in pictures like this? Because everything in my head is a movie and why I've always been drawn to movie making
https://youtu.be/3JOKx0xIyAQ
Huh, I can’t visualize unless I’m really fucked up or really tired. I think only in words, like speech but faster.
For me it's like, if you say,"go grab me the peanut butter" I know what to look for because I know what peanut butter looks like. It has a brown inside (the butter) and usually a red or green label/top. The brightly colored top is what I'm looking for.
But if you say,"bring me the folder from the back of my car" I won't know what the fuck you're talking about or what to look for unless I get an actual description to help the visual process like the color, size, location. What is it under? What is it next to?
If I were to ask someone to get something from my car trunk it would be extremely detailed: please get the black leather folder in the back of the car - it's next to the stack of papers."
I expect others to be as descriptive as me and it's only within the past few years that I'm realizing that most aren't.
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Catholic hospitals are very Catholic as seen in that thread. Expressing transsexuality in a Catholic setting has not ended up well for me in the past hence my reticence. Honestly I've looked at many therapists and looked out for any sign of religiosity so I could ignore them. There goes my black and white thinking again. I'm sorry but I just don't want to worry about it. I already have enough anxiety in my life than to worry about being judged from the people that are supposed to help me.
However, tomorrow I will give them a call.
Baylor was on my list of psychologists that's in my ACA network but I simply avoided them due to being religiously affiliated.
Right, I was more pointing at the article but then I actually looked at the comments. As it is, like I said: The worst they can do is deny you service for your transexuality.
Definitely give them a chance. The worst case is that they aren't a good fit (due to religion or otherwise) beyond their religious doctrine for their medical/hospital. There is a bunch of atheist or otherwise therapists that are poor just like there are good ones that may be religious (but not the one that you choose as a religion), give them a chance and certainly try-try-try different therapists if possible if you think the one you get doesn't fit. Because:
There goes my black and white thinking again.
Speaking as someone with that, it'll certainly make you feel "this isn't working, maybe therapy isn't for me" when it's just you two not "click"ing. It happens to everyone.
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Apparently being autist is VERY high in the LGBT community.
:larry
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Aside but does anyone have any tips on quitting alcohol?
How heavy is the drinking?
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Aside but does anyone have any tips on quitting alcohol?
How heavy is the drinking?
Whenever I see alcohol. Can't say no.
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Aside but does anyone have any tips on quitting alcohol?
How heavy is the drinking?
Whenever I see alcohol. Can't say no.
:lucille
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Aside but does anyone have any tips on quitting alcohol?
How heavy is the drinking?
Whenever I see alcohol. Can't say no.
You might have an addiction problem if that's the case.
IANAP, but definitely talk to them about it if you're worried. Like you can't stop buying alcohol and need to drink it daily worried.
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Aside but does anyone have any tips on quitting alcohol?
How heavy is the drinking?
Whenever I see alcohol. Can't say no.
:mynicca
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everyone is autistic
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I’m pretty reliant on weed tbqh, but I don’t mind. I prefer me when I am medicated thusly
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I was diagnosed with ADHD as a teen.
The more I read the more i see the symptoms of ADHD and autism intertwine and I'm starting to doubt my diagnosis.
To be true, I've always doubted it. The teacher that suggested my mom take me to get get testing was a science class and I aced that class. She told my mother that I might have ADHD and to have me tested but I never struggled in that class. In middle school, if I was struggling, I would stay after school for extra lessons without even being asked and take the 5:00 bus home. I would do homework as soon as I got home. In English class in 8th grade there was a time when I was the only student that did a good job on an assignment. The only subjects I struggled with were math related (fuck math btw).
The ADHD diagnosis literally made no sense to me and on the contrary, I actually started to have problems with schooling when I started taking ADHD medicine for treatment. I started procrastinating when I previously didn't do so for instance.
I have never really exhibited the full symptoms of ADHD. I never zoned out during class. Band, art, science (so long as math wasn't involved), English, writing, history...I fucked em all up. The only struggles were Spanish and math.
My only real ADHD symptom was lack of organization, or executive function, and well, look what we have here.
https://youtu.be/Waopcht7cVw
The experience she explains with struggling with organization compounded with the struggle with social issues feel far more resonant to me than ADHD.
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This all started with your therapist mentioning that this could be the case. Have they followed up with that or you followed up with them?
You seem to be seeing a lot of similarities between known aspergers/autistic symptoms with yourself, but I'm not entirely sure that is a good way about going about this since a lot of times when people do self-diagnosis they only see positive matches with symptoms and ignore unmatching ones. I don't mean for this to be a criticism and I'm glad you seem kind of excited about this (as Esch said 'Happy you're on a journey of self realization, dawg.'), but I think being a bit cautious might be prudent.
edit: NM I missed most of page 2.
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I didn't know what to say. I cannot self diagnose and I won't self diagnose. However, I'm excited that there is actually something fits my symptoms and life story. I don't feel alone anymore and it feels very affirming. That is an emotion that is hard to hide. At the same time I'm fully aware this doesn't mean anything beyond a feeling of a hint. But it has sparked an intense desire for more treatment.
No new therapy update because I've been sick the last few days.
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Today was bad day. Was at work and something happened and felt negative emotions the rest of the day not knowing how to handle them. Thought I was going to break down but I made it. It's good to see the signs now and what to look for after reading resources even if I don't have a diagnosis. Thought I was going to meltdown. I did shut people out at work after but I survived. I need to work on how to deal with my very strong emotions without shutting out the world.
On the flip side, I managed to get everything done today. :)
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Chatted to Baylor earlier this week and have my appointment set up :)
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Good luck Cindi. Haven’t posted in here because I usually only post snarky stuff to amuse myself, but I hope you find out stuff that helps you out
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Have no large updates to share, unfortunately. However, my therapist has shared many tactics for dealing with asperger's symptoms even though we still don't have a formalized diagnosis yet. Things like a planner. I don't why but it's a struggle to do things if I don't see them written down. Each day I plan my schedule for the next day and do it step by step to a tee. It's very assuring and gives me less anxiety being able to go through each day with a strict plan. I struggled with planners growing up. I have issues if someone wants to interject and impede on my set schedule. I get really mad about it. Days that I miss the schedule end up being stressful or depressing, but I feel much more relieved and fulfilled if I get everything done according to my schedule. It's helped build a routine and I find it very calming.
Google Calendar is also amazing for this, which I've ignored all this time. I have it set up so that work shows up every day, and studying is something set to the same time every day. Then I put in stuff in the future. When I'm done studying or something important I scratch it off. It's very rewarding to do all of this. It feels like a game. I am also rewarding myself for doing a good job. :heartbeat
Suffice to say, the month of January was a very productive month. 8)
I also managed to do all of this without ADHD medicines, adding more to the "I'm not sure if I really have ADHD" theory.
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Told my mom I think I was misdiagnosed with ADHD and that I believe I have aspergers. She thinks I may be right.
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Good. Did you share your worry about alcohol with them?
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Good progress Cindi. Keep at it and it will become habit.
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I am struggling not melting down from the political situation. I am writing this in tears. I don't know what to do and very stressee. I am on the verge of a freak out while at work. Please give me suggestions. Nothing from she shosta and stro and each because as much support they give in this thread they're actually snakes that laugh behind your back during a confusing and stressful time. How do I stop being EMOTIONAL?
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Okay, I just had a meltdown in my car please help
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As a Canadian, your political situation makes me very frustrated - and being a Canadian, I have no power over it. Something I've found to be helpful is to just disengage with it. There is of course of a question of the ethics of that, especially for someone who is American but if you are having break downs at work over it, then it's not worth it. I'm going to guess that you feel just as frustrated and disempowered as me over it. Your mental state is far more valuable than anything you can contribute politically, especially if you already feel like you can not do anything about the situation. I think a bit of self-care would be to not actively follow it.
I'd view this more as a form of stoicism about your civic duty than a disregard of your civic duty if that makes sense.
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I had a meltdown in front of a customer. By meltdown I mean heavy rocking and heavy crying. It was embarrassing but he hugged and comforted me.
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I had a panic attack last year in a work meeting and nearly bawled. It was clear to everyone that something was wrong and I had to explain it to one of my supervisors afterwords. It was super embarrassing. I then had a pretty major mental break down shortly after and skipped meetings for like the next 5 months. Not that it's the same thing, but you aren't the only one that has embarrassing work moments, if that helps.
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You shouldn't let the politics bother you this much. I don't know what is triggering you, but I'm going to assure you (which I know will sound dubious) that you'll be fine.
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I was a nervous wreck in 2016/2017. After that I tuned out of the news for like... almost two years... and my neurosis went way, way down. I tuned back in again last year and I got stressed again (although less so). Try to limit your consumption of political news. There's more to life than stuff out of your control.
Also, I didn't know how on edge you were about all this so I will leave you alone from now on, bless up
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I am struggling not melting down from the political situation. I am writing this in tears. I don't know what to do and very stressee. I am on the verge of a freak out while at work. Please give me suggestions. Nothing from she shosta and stro and each because as much support they give in this thread they're actually snakes that laugh behind your back during a confusing and stressful time. How do I stop being EMOTIONAL?
sometimes you need to step back from something if it is stressing you out immensely
not saying to ignore politics, certain threads or whatnot forever but sometimes a break really is needed to remove the stimulus that is causing you great distress
take a break from the politics thread, super tuesday is a whiles off so no point fretting about such stuff everyday
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alternatively, digital realm massacre, if it makes you comfortable :aah
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You shouldn't let the politics bother you this much. I don't know what is triggering you, but I'm going to assure you (which I know will sound dubious) that you'll be fine.
It is the Iowa result that's doing it. We were supposed to have it yesterday. Now we were supposed to have it at 5 pm est. Now we still have PARTIAL RESULTS. Meanwhile the country's future is at stake. While all of this is going on, we are dealing with a would be despot as our leader, republicans in the Senate refuse to see new evidence and witnesses in an impeachment trial, some rat fuck from Indiana is doing sketchy things, Trump's approval rating is almost 50%, and more. I am completely maxed out. I could deal if Iowa released FULL RESULTS but I can't. A symptom of Asperger's is an inability to filter emotions. "It isn't a big deal" is beyond unhelpful. I cannot help it.
I also do well on routine. Iowa fucking up MESSES UP THE ROUTINE and causes uncertainty and stress.
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internet is a menace sometimes, boomers who can't open a browser seem so content, so unaware yet blissful
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You shouldn't let the politics bother you this much. I don't know what is triggering you, but I'm going to assure you (which I know will sound dubious) that you'll be fine.
It is the Iowa result that's doing it. We were supposed to have it yesterday. Now we were supposed to have it at 5 pm est. Now we still have PARTIAL RESULTS. Meanwhile the country's future is at stake. While all of this is going on, we are dealing with a would be despot as our leader, republicans in the Senate refuse to see new evidence and witnesses in an impeachment trial, some rat fuck from Indiana is doing sketchy things, Trump's approval rating is almost 50%, and more. I am completely maxed out. I could deal if Iowa released FULL RESULTS but I can't. A symptom of Asperger's is an inability to filter emotions. "It isn't a big deal" is beyond unhelpful. I cannot help it.
I also do well on routine. Iowa fucking up MESSES UP THE ROUTINE and causes uncertainty and stress.
Iowa is always a shit-show due to how they do it. I don't know WHY you're letting this bother you so much, since the routine of others shouldn't impress on YOU. If that makes sense. The GOP is the GOP, they're always going to be corrupt mother/father-fuckers and do things that might upset you.
I'm not saying your feelings aren't valid. They certainly are if this is bothering you so much. But routine of others shouldn't impact your well-being. That's why I'm asking why the lack of a routine of others (in this case the Iowa DNC/caucus) is bothering you.
The other stuff is a little out of your control. You can't have Trump Supporters magically drop him no matter what. People are dumb, hun. That's the simple fact, a lot of these fucks will think he shits gold until he leaves the white-house no matter how much he screws them over. The best thing you can do is ignore those folks. Which I know sounds "no shit, Sherlock?" but since it's affecting you in a bad way it's really sound-advice to put Trump's approval rating "out of sight and out of mind" for you. Simply give no fucks about him.
As for iBugregphin or however his name is spelled: We don't really know if the "sketchy things" is true or not. There is links but so far no hard evidence that proves the DNC is rigging things. Don't let this bother you.
I'm not saying it isn't a "big deal." Because it certainly is, and you have valid feelings/anxiety to have. Everyone does: Conservatives do with Trumps impeachment and possible losing of the Presidency or House/Senate this election year.
But I'm more getting at that you should take a deep breath, calm down (in an unoffensive way of putting that as possible). Make a salad/sandwhich/whatever you enjoy, order take-out, shit I dunno. Put a TV show or movie on, or read a book or play a JRPG/video game. Something that'll let the "lack of routine" pass for you.
With me on that? Ok. So the problem seems to be that things out of your control are bothering you. I can't say as I'm not autistic how this necessarily affects you in this way, but I think your mind is so hyper-focused on things that you can't control that you are jumping over things that you can control. (I can't say if that's 100% true, and I don't mean that in an offensive way or anything. I hope you get what I mean)
Can you tell me why other peoples lack of plans/routine is bothering you?
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I just realized I'm talking in circles. Basically open up to me on why Iowa is necessarily bothering you with it's lack of routine. The drill-down for that is: Why is other peoples problems impressing on you so much?
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Multiple reasons
Because Iowa is important indicator for the nomination and I can't deal with Buttigieg getting the nomination because he's soso boring and and will lose. Iowa is the most important political night of the year next to super Tuesday and election night and they fucked it all up.
The uncertainty and stress caused by the lack of finality. The lack of finality scares me.
Basically it's the influence and importance of the caucus tied with its uncertain, unfinalized result that combined with everything else has become too much to bear.
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Cindi, you should get super deep into personality typology. The rabbit hole goes deep, and the more time you spend researching, the more you'll discover about yourself. I've been using it as a destresser lately since there is so much material out there and there's so much basic catharsis to seeing relatable shit online. Plus you get to take fun online tests!!!
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Cindi, you should get super deep into personality typology. The rabbit hole goes deep, and the more time you spend researching, the more you'll discover about yourself. I've been using it as a destresser lately since there is so much material out there and there's so much basic catharsis to seeing relatable shit online. Plus you get to take fun online tests!!!
No offense but I have no idea if you're being sarcastic or not
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Ok, let's think about it this way.
1)You don't know if Butt is going to get the nomination. None of us do. In theory, the election is fair and people have come around on the gay Neoliberal. It sucks, but that's life. (Just like if Sanders doesn't get it, I'll have to accept that or turn into Glenn 2.0 where the whole world hates me. But that's got nothing to do with you. :p)
2) While Iowa is important, the factors behind it are out of your control. There is nothing you can do about the situation beyond sit-and-wait. Which is shitty advice, I know. But you need to let the process work itself out. The shitshow will subside in a few days...
In the meanwhile:
3) Turn the TV/news off. Completely. Ignore it, turn notifications on your phone about it off. Turn Twitter off, whatever you're using for the news. Turn it off. Focus on you.
Because when it comes down to it:
4) Butt winning Iowa won't mean much in the "big picture" until we see if Black voters hate him as much as they say they do in polls and online/South Bend. If he wins Iowa, that's 1 of 51 states he needs to clench. It's a small matter (and I know that sounds dumb with your anxiety but you hopefully understand what I'm getting at). He may not win any other state, I don't have a crystal ball: I can't assure you of this. But if he does he still has to battle the other 49-down states. Don't let this "set-back" harm your mental state. It sucks, as a Sanders supporter: I get it. But it's not the end of the road until it finally hits that final pavement to the dirt-road (or cliff, depending on how you want to view this metaphor). Put Iowa out of your mind.
Let me get back to: Why is other peoples lack of routine (in this case, Iowa not having fast results) bothering you so much? Take politics out of this, use a friend you know. Say you were going to meet-up but they're late past a time-set that you both agreed on: Would you be as bothered by that as you are about this?
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Cindi, you should get super deep into personality typology. The rabbit hole goes deep, and the more time you spend researching, the more you'll discover about yourself. I've been using it as a destresser lately since there is so much material out there and there's so much basic catharsis to seeing relatable shit online. Plus you get to take fun online tests!!!
No offense but I have no idea if you're being sarcastic or not
I'm actually 100% serious, but at the same time, I recognize that typology is unscientific and a lot of people write it off for that reason. It's definitely helped me realize some of my weaknesses to work on though, so I thought you might enjoy it.
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Name a nominee that didn't win Iowa in the last twenty years that became president
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Name a nominee that didn't win Iowa in the last twenty years that became president
Donald Trump - 2016
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DJT four years ago...
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(I'm not Benji: Benji you're the poli-sci here, back me up?)
You're ignoring my point. :snoop
You can't say with certainty that Butt will become the presidential candidate. You can't. "Oh, these other election years prove me right," is "prediction thinking." I know this because I have crippling (but functional, as weird as that is to write) depression. I have that shit due to my own life that causes me to go "oh things will never get better. *situation where people treat me like shit happens* See? Things won't get better because this person proves my theory that nobody wants me around right. I should die." Take it from me:
You do not know for sure if he will confirm that or not. You don't. You can scoff and roll your eyes (and I see you doing it right now) but he may be the exception to your rule.
I know, I know. Scoff, I do the same shit with therapy but it's true: You do not know that. You don't. "I do." No the fuck you don't, sweetie. "But, I do." No you don't.
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(https://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/electoral_precedent.png)
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No Democrat who has won Iowa but gotten less than 35% has won the nomination.
The last three Republican nominees all failed to win Iowa. Donald Trump, George H.W. Bush and Ronald Reagan all failed to win Iowa the year they won the Presidency for the first time.
The only two candidates to ever win Iowa and then go on to win the Presidency for the first time are Barack Obama and George W. Bush. (Jimmy Carter came in second to "Uncommitted.")
No one under the age of 46 has ever won Iowa and then won the Presidency.
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I should have further specified. Iowa caucus has predicted the DEMOCRATIC nominee going back almost 30 years. The last time the Iowa winner didn't become the nominee was in 1992 when Tom Harkin won the state with a sizable lead over the eventual nominee Bill Clinton. That is 28 years so yes I'm scared that Buttigieg will lead to a trend further along.
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Again: You don't know that for sure. "BUT TRENDS SA--" Yes, and they have been broken as Benji proves. Just because it's been a 30 year (nearly) trend doesn't mean it can't be broken. Again: Predictive Thinking. Look it up, because you're doing it.
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He has no national operation, he's hoping an Iowa-NH back-to-back propels him but he's falling apart in NH as Sanders is surging. At this point he's more effectively a stalking horse for Bloomberg's entrance on Super Tuesday.
Pete did what a bunch of the last Iowa winners and runners-up have done, basically lived in the state. That's how Huckabee and Santorum won out of nowhere. Pete led there in the polls for quite a while then may have not even won the vote, just the delegate equivalents. Sanders is projected by NYT to win the vote. And the difference in convention delegates will be like 2. (And that's assuming Pete somehow makes it to the Convention.)
The real story is Biden getting vaporized. His South Carolina firewall will be meaningless if Bernie and Warren close the gap due to Biden crashing and burning out of the gate.
Bloomberg is the threat looming behind Biden, not Pete.
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It's touching to see Benji almost root for a socialist out of love toward another poster.
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I've not exactly hidden that Sanders has been my preferred candidate for two cycles now. :doge
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It's touching to see Benji almost root for a socialist out of love toward another poster.
To quote Taylor Swift:
https://twitter.com/SwiftOnSecurity/status/1222713263357616128
:trumps
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I've not exactly hidden that Sanders has been my preferred candidate for two cycles now. :doge
Ooo
I assumed that you just enjoyed watching everything from a detached point of view.
Did you happen to watch the Reason debate featuring Richard Wolff? He was weirdly angry the whole time and the libertarian debating him reminded me of you.
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Thank you benji for the reassurance.
Also I normally don't react this way to politics but we have had a constant stream of events and so much riding on it. It has freaked me out.
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I've not exactly hidden that Sanders has been my preferred candidate for two cycles now. :doge
wut
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Nominating Sanders feels like most important political event of my life time (also defeating Trump as a separate issue, but I'm less optimistic for that one).
I get nervous by how successful attacking his supporters seems to be in creating a "you don't want to be like THOSE people" effect. I get a little scared when I see people play into it although it's probably inevitable.
I've donated over $400 at this point. It's my secret addiction.
But tonight I feel like he's most likely going to win. Crazy.
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https://youtu.be/wLVa0WFQFbE
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Honestly Cindi, I don't know enough about your life to give you specific advice, but just remember that in the years since Trump was elected, there has been very little (if any) direct impact on your life or the lives of most people.
Even if he is re-elected, you will not be directly affected.
It's a shitty situation for everyone and he is having an indirect effect on all of our lives (even those in foreign countries), but you should just worry about the things that are happening in your immediate life that you have direct control over and not about things that you can't directly influence.
Just remember to breathe and things will likely be fine.
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TIMU: felt better after playing ff7 :heartbeat
Finally something I can control.
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Honestly Cindi, I don't know enough about your life to give you specific advice, but just remember that in the years since Trump was elected, there has been very little (if any) direct impact on your life or the lives of most people.
Even if he is re-elected, you will not be directly affected.
It's a shitty situation for everyone and he is having an indirect effect on all of our lives (even those in foreign countries), but you should just worry about the things that are happening in your immediate life that you have direct control over and not about things that you can't directly influence.
Just remember to breathe and things will likely be fine.
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For all the bluster about gays and lesbians being put into camps that LGBT do: It hasn't happened. It probably never will, so I wouldn't worry so much about it. Trump's an idiot, and he can't do fascism right.
TIMU: felt better after playing ff7 :heartbeat
Finally something I can control.
Good. Don't worry about the primary. The real fight is after that if Sander's doesn't get the nomination because he is really the only candidate that isn't fake (Hello, Liz/Peter) and cares about the working class. So if the DNC, the "working class party" rigs everything because "muh socialism!!!" that's when riots/etc. should happen. But right now the "process" has to turn before we know for sure that things are fucked or not. It's out of your control, essentially. There's nothing we can do beyond vote and "pray" (ugh) about the situation not turning to Peter (or the others) getting the nomination. Otherwise it's not in our control/under our ability to change things.
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It's touching to see Benji almost root for a socialist out of love toward another poster.
To quote Taylor Swift:
https://twitter.com/SwiftOnSecurity/status/1222713263357616128
:trumps
they/them/tay
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I've closed myself to the world and it honestly feels amazing.
I've got a whole stack of books here. Books, animals, and the news are my friends. Yesterday I read a hundred pages of The Shining. Today I hope to read two hundred.
My whole life I've sought appeasement from outside sources. The past few months I've decided to just appease myself. It honestly feels amazing. I'm in quarantine right now and don't miss a single soul.
Once I finish The Shining I'm going to read The Stand, then War and Peace.
A few weeks ago I had a meltdown over the way the world was headed. But now for some reason I relish reading the news although it's grim. Few people here actually take the virus seriously. The presidebt is threatening governor's to be nice to him or not receive aid. It's helpful to me able to rely on experts. Calming and soothing even if the general populace doesn't care. It's also given me so much reason to live as well. Not for other people, but to do Civic duty.
If I have it, and we do think I do, right now it's amazing. Fuck people.
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I rewatched good will hunting the other day and that dude had it wrong. Books lead to happiness, people to disappointment. He should have taken the job instead of going to California tbh.
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I rewatched good will hunting the other day and that dude had it wrong. Books lead to happiness, people to disappointment. He should have taken the job instead of going to California tbh.
Don't make any hard conclusions just yet. Give yourself some time, collect more data. :vr
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It's like you didn't even see Minnie Driver's cheekbones.
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I rewatched good will hunting the other day and that dude had it wrong. Books lead to happiness, people to disappointment. He should have taken the job instead of going to California tbh.
But then he wouldn't have had the romance with Minnie Driver, which is what you're missing being an introvert. :doge
https://www.bostonmagazine.com/arts-entertainment/2013/01/02/good-will-hunting-oral-history/
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I'm not an introvert. Introverts also like people and see the value in romance and social relationships. What I said has nothing to do with introversion.
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Me.
https://www.reddit.com/r/aspergers/comments/fwm8qa/people_always_think_we_are_arguing/
people always think we are arguing
It just happened right now.
Literally I said something like "We could double bag that garbage so it won't break with all the glass in it." And people think I am being an asshole or passive-aggressive. All it was, was a suggestion. Then I was told I "said it like a know- it - all smart ass." Of course, people will resort to name-calling. Always ends up blowing up in my face! I don't think I'm right or my way is better, but people perceive it that way... Sucks.
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Honestly Cindi, I don't know enough about your life to give you specific advice, but just remember that in the years since Trump was elected, there has been very little (if any) direct impact on your life or the lives of most people.
well this aged about as badly as possible
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Where is the cunt, anyway?
He offered an open ear to anyone recently (maybe his last post even), then he just disappeared. :lol
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Last week it was skateboarding because of Tony hawk.
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Last week it was skateboarding because of Tony hawk.
Drop all the non-guitar related pursuits
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I think I might have either undiagnosed ADHD or Aspergers (high functioning autism?) :-\
It's been really fucking me up in quarantine/isolation with my partner. i don't fucken know. being around each other 24/7 seems to have exposed all my strange behaviours :doge i always knew i was a weirdo in some respect, but I've been doing all this reading and convinced myself that there's something more than just weirdo going on here. IDEK.
even if I get diagnosed it's not like you can get treated for autism anyway
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What are your "strange behaviors?"
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Yeah I'm pretty certain I'm an ADHD type person.
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Last week it was skateboarding because of Tony hawk.
Last three years I've had a cycle.
Game Boy shit -> Web app shit -> Filmmaking shit ( -> Game Boy shit)
Slowly moving each one forward each time. Very slowly. :-\
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I think I might have either undiagnosed ADHD or Aspergers (high functioning autism?) :-\
It's been really fucking me up in quarantine/isolation with my partner. i don't fucken know. being around each other 24/7 seems to have exposed all my strange behaviours :doge i always knew i was a weirdo in some respect, but I've been doing all this reading and convinced myself that there's something more than just weirdo going on here. IDEK.
even if I get diagnosed it's not like you can get treated for autism anyway
i also suspect i have some kind of autism, but yeah tests are expensive and in the end it doesn't feel like it matters because all the groups/literature are for parents of kids with autism. looking into adhd is much easier and you can start trying meds if you want to. some therapy in general might not hurt either if your normal behaviors are causing problems in your relationship.
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What are your "strange behaviors?"
I looked at a list of adult autism signs
* finding it hard to understand what others are thinking or feeling-> i often have to ask lots of questions/dont get stuff people say. my girlfriend gets frustrated that I can't intuit her emotions
* difficulties initiating social interactions and maintaining an interaction -> I almost literally never sent a 1st text throughout HS and find it mega hard to maintain conversations without inadvetantly closing things off, to the point where i sometimes pop a vein thinking about how to keep things alive
* may not respond in the way that is expected in a social interaction
* a preference for routines and schedules – disruption of a routine can result in stress or anxiety -> This one is kinda not me. but IDK.
specialised fields of interest or hobbies. -> I mean posting on videogame forums is nuff said here. But even then I get really sub obsessed with specific games (lately sfv/PSO2/SSBU) and before covid shut the gym i was OBSESSED with weightlifing
* getting very anxious about social situations -> yeah. just very yeah
* finding it hard to make friends or preferring to be on your own -> for awhile I had like 2 friends, last year I had zero friends other than my partner and her friends, and now I have like one friend
* seeming blunt, rude or not interested in others without meaning to -> literally me
* liking to plan things carefully before doing them ->same
* noticing small details, patterns, smells or sounds that others do not -> me talking about movies/games
* avoiding getting too close to other people, or getting very upset if someone touches or gets too close to you -- yep yep
I have, in the past had a couple 0-100 moments when a couple people are talking at me where I just lost my shit that kinda sounds like autism meltdowns? also think I have the "sound sensitivity/overload" thing because I spent a long ass time 2 days ago trying to silence my fridge and I can't sleep if I can hear a clock ticking.
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/autism/signs/adults/
https://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/health/ConditionsAndTreatments/autism-spectrum-disorder-and-adults
i also suspect i have some kind of autism, but yeah tests are expensive and in the end it doesn't feel like it matters because all the groups/literature are for parents of kids with autism. looking into adhd is much easier and you can start trying meds if you want to. some therapy in general might not hurt either if your normal behaviors are causing problems in your relationship.
Yeah dude, I don't really know what to do. I think I want to try counselling at the very least because being has fucking sucked ass lately.