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Title: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 11, 2015, 03:36:58 AM
I needed a struggle thread and there no longer was one.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Vizzys on May 11, 2015, 03:56:34 AM
just got back form the hospital from a panic attack
theyve been getting worse and worse tbh
as a temp solution lorazepam is good tho
not sure what to do long term as SSRI do not react well to me
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: benjipwns on May 11, 2015, 03:58:48 AM
You're just making this thread because of bootleg ROM boards being installed.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 11, 2015, 04:03:32 AM
just got back form the hospital from a panic attack
theyve been getting worse and worse tbh
as a temp solution lorazepam is good tho
not sure what to do long term as SSRI do not react well to me

Sorry, that shit is rough.

Have you tried something like buspirone?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Vizzys on May 11, 2015, 04:18:03 AM
never heard of buspirone but ill talk to my doctor soon
basically it happened after a good mile or 2 of walking, blurry vision, intense feeling in my head
thought it was a clot tbh, but EKG checks out so just anxiety based paranoia
ive been dealing with anxiety for like 7ish years now and thankfully this year I now have health insurance
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on May 11, 2015, 07:28:14 AM
just got back form the hospital from a panic attack
theyve been getting worse and worse tbh
as a temp solution lorazepam is good tho
not sure what to do long term as SSRI do not react well to me

There's a decent amount of alt meds you should talk to your doc about if ssris don't do it for you
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 11, 2015, 08:15:13 AM
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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on May 11, 2015, 09:53:54 AM
My knee has started to hurt after just a short amount of crouching / biking / walking / existing. It's getting kind of bad and I've never dealt with anything like this before. This shit runs in the family and it could get much worse...I don't think I can handle having my summer ruined because I'm now a cripple. Things are bad enough already.  :(

Experience the failings of a mortal body :fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Fifstar on May 11, 2015, 11:03:12 AM
Welcome to my life dude. Had knee/joint pain for the last 5 years and no doctor could do anything about it nor had an idea why I have full blown arthritis in my knees. Now other joints start to show similar symptoms.  ::)

On a more positive note, seems like my eyes are reacting good to the eyedrops I got prescribed and I seem to have a good puffer before my eyesight will actually detoriate because of my Glaucom.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on May 11, 2015, 11:07:33 AM
You guys are too young for this shit. :fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: HiResDes on May 11, 2015, 11:09:14 AM
Got a struggle that's been brewing ever since I made the brilliant decision to move out to the lame ass suburbs with my baby momma into a complex with over twenty buildings.

Anyway, this ongoing struggle all started Friday morning. I killed a large ass roach in my baby's room and then about two hours later I get a knock at my door. It's a pest control dude and he claims he's just there for "preventative" measures even though our hallway is a sporadic gallery of roaches and ants. Anyway he comes in and asks me if I've seen anything I guess thinking I'd be too embarassed to admit, but I'm yeah I just killed a big ass roach earlier today. "And he's really? Are you sure? No way? It had to have been a waterbug!..." And I'm like it was roach man, don't give that bull, like there's a big difference between the two anyway. Then once he realizes I ain't going for it, he's like oh they're probably just oriental roaches. Implying that if they were nicca or spic roaches I'd have a bigger problem. Motherfucker. He walks around and sprays in exactly one place and leaves.


Later that day I try to take a shower only to realize that there's no hot water, and that our AC unit, which has been broken for a week still hasn't been fixed. So I walk my ass up to the leasing office with my baby on my hip and a Negro League shirt and sweats on for the black power aesthetic. It's still before noon and I'm trying to give off the you better handle this shit now disgruntled look and they mindfuck me on some laissez faire shit. The lady's basically like yeah the hot water is going to be off for a week, didn't realize it was a big deal, what are you a little bitch? Oh and a ticket is out to have your AC unit fixed, we'll get to it whenever. Listen, it's whatever, you signed the lease slave boy. And I'm like yes master, touche.

Fast forward three days, and I'm still taking my dirty unwashed ass to work and going home to half a hot ass apartment with Asian cockroaches.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on May 11, 2015, 11:10:43 AM
I've had this pain in my abdomen, I thought I had a hernia for the longest time.
Had scans, docs check that shit for a year.

Nothing.

I'm convinced I have a bomb in me or something, I feel it just there all the time.
Like a dull ache.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: nachobro on May 11, 2015, 11:45:41 AM
You're just making this thread because of bootleg ROM boards being installed.
Super Struggle II Rainbow Edition would fit this board so much better though
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on May 11, 2015, 01:07:30 PM
I've had this pain in my abdomen, I thought I had a hernia for the longest time.
Had scans, docs check that shit for a year.

Nothing.

I'm convinced I have a bomb in me or something, I feel it just there all the time.
Like a dull ache.

Sounds like some sort of parasite eating you from the inside out. 🐛
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on May 11, 2015, 02:00:13 PM
I've had this pain in my abdomen, I thought I had a hernia for the longest time.
Had scans, docs check that shit for a year.

Nothing.

I'm convinced I have a bomb in me or something, I feel it just there all the time.
Like a dull ache.

Sounds like some sort of parasite eating you from the inside out. 🐛

Pretty sure that's just the daily struggle of life making sure I know I'm fucking up on the daily.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Bebpo on May 11, 2015, 05:02:00 PM
I made an amateur interior design mistake.  I got a bunch of my various diplomas and stuff finally framed so I could put them up at work.  While picking out framing I used my artistic sense and got mattes and frames that match the color and styles of the diplomas so that they look nice individually.

Uh, I totally didn't realize that while the framed diplomas look good on their own, having a bunch of completely different style frames that don't match at all on a wall does not work.  Fuck.  Didn't realize that when you have an office and a bunch of things in frames that you want all of the actual frames to match for a consistent look across the wall.  Not sure what I'm gonna do, maybe just put like one up and hide the rest lol.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 11, 2015, 05:10:46 PM
I've had this pain in my abdomen, I thought I had a hernia for the longest time.
Had scans, docs check that shit for a year.

Nothing.

I'm convinced I have a bomb in me or something, I feel it just there all the time.
Like a dull ache.

Have you had an upper endoscopy?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on May 11, 2015, 06:00:36 PM
I've had this pain in my abdomen, I thought I had a hernia for the longest time.
Had scans, docs check that shit for a year.

Nothing.

I'm convinced I have a bomb in me or something, I feel it just there all the time.
Like a dull ache.

Have you had an upper endoscopy?

Nah had two ultrasounds, one on my upper body cavity and one on the lower abdomen/pelvic area so far.
I might be changing jobs soon, once I do I'll probably go back in for a bout of tests.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on May 11, 2015, 06:30:59 PM
My supremely handsome, morally immaculate quarterback just got suspended for the very dumbest of reasons.

I demand satisfaction.

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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: TakingBackSunday on May 11, 2015, 06:50:56 PM
My parents had to put down my sweet lab Maggie today.  She was nearly 14 and had severe hip dysplasia, but was the most energetic, fun dog I've been around.  She cuddled with us on the couch every night.  She was just the best, and I am grieving that I couldn't be there to hold her paw as she passed away.

What a sweet sweet girl.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Steve Contra on May 11, 2015, 06:51:44 PM
:fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Human Snorenado on May 11, 2015, 07:32:09 PM
Sorry BN, losing animals sucks big time :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 11, 2015, 09:49:20 PM
sorry dude
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 11, 2015, 10:07:19 PM
That sucks bn I'm sorry dude.

To lighten the mood this conversation happened in a teleconference today

C1:"Oh yeah, puppy has taken over that"
C2:"Who Is puppy? "
C1:"He's the white guy on The team"
Me: "uhh, I'm not white"
C1:"oh you know the non-Indian guy. white"

:brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on May 11, 2015, 10:12:32 PM
just got back form the hospital from a panic attack
theyve been getting worse and worse tbh
as a temp solution lorazepam is good tho
not sure what to do long term as SSRI do not react well to me

Is it mental anxiety like racing thoughts or do you get more of the physical symptoms like sweating, heart racing, palpitations, etc.?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Brehvolution on May 12, 2015, 10:03:38 AM
Damn gout has an insidious habit of creeping up at the worst times.  :maf Last August in Atlantic City for my wife's 40th and now Mother's day. (http://i.imgur.com/kKoujSY.png)

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 12, 2015, 11:22:18 AM
My condolences, BrandNew.   :(

I've had this pain in my abdomen, I thought I had a hernia for the longest time.
Had scans, docs check that shit for a year.

Nothing.

I'm convinced I have a bomb in me or something, I feel it just there all the time.
Like a dull ache.

Have you had an upper endoscopy?

Nah had two ultrasounds, one on my upper body cavity and one on the lower abdomen/pelvic area so far.
I might be changing jobs soon, once I do I'll probably go back in for a bout of tests.

Time for something internal.  It's a big nothing; they put you under and you don't remember a thing.  I had a stomach problem similar to yours that was diagnosed as a hiatal hernia.   Meds keep me feeling fine.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 12, 2015, 07:03:08 PM
My power just got shut off. My brother who I live with has been lying about paying the electricity bill. We owe like 2k to them. I'm having a complete mental break.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Steve Contra on May 12, 2015, 07:05:04 PM
Holy shit, how long has it not been paid?  Luckily you have no power so you're brother won't be able to identify who kicked the shit out of him.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 12, 2015, 07:15:39 PM
I have no idea. Clearly long enough for them to just pull the plug. I'm having trouble making the mortgage as it is with him not paying me his portion of it, that's why we're selling (which will be a big profit when it happens, but doesn't help me any now) I'm so fucked. I'm at work but my wife is telling me that my step son is at home freaking out, thinking we can't even afford basic necessities because of this guy. Once this house sells my family is dead to me.

All I really know is the power company showed up, said they needed at least a grand to keep the lights on and my wife didn't have it so now we're dark.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 12, 2015, 07:22:30 PM
Fucked up part is he makes more money then me and even paid his car off recently. Like wtf. He must be on coke or something, I don't know where his money goes
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on May 12, 2015, 10:59:18 PM
Last week my work announced a surprise reorganization.  My boss who has been AWOL for weeks was moved to another department.  His job no longer exists so I can't reapply for it.  I report to a new VP who has no idea about what he is overseeing.  As part of the reorg, my limit in terms of what I can approve has been slashed to almost $0 (as is all other managers, not just me).  So the VP is going to be swamped with approvals, which means I can expect to wait a lot longer for things to get done.  The reason for the reorg is that we need to strategically reposition ourselves because we may have decreased revenues in the future.  Keep in mind, we booked record profits last year and every year since the mid 90s.  I've never worked for a company that has pled poverty as much as mine.

On another note, I get almost daily recruiter messages on LinkedIn.  I graduate with my MBA in two months.  I think I can hold off until then because all signs are pointing for me to get the fuck out.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: team filler on May 12, 2015, 11:13:34 PM
45 days extra duty and stripped of rank down to e-1. field grade article 15, brehs. still getting kicked out too
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: PlayDat on May 13, 2015, 12:54:31 AM
On another note, I get almost daily recruiter messages on LinkedIn.  I graduate with my MBA in two months.  I think I can hold off until then because all signs are pointing for me to get the fuck out.

People actually getting jobs through LinkedIn? :leon 

Maybe it's because I'm still an undergrad, but I've never heard actual success stories from there.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on May 13, 2015, 01:52:19 AM
On another note, I get almost daily recruiter messages on LinkedIn.  I graduate with my MBA in two months.  I think I can hold off until then because all signs are pointing for me to get the fuck out.

People actually getting jobs through LinkedIn? :leon 

Maybe it's because I'm still an undergrad, but I've never heard actual success stories from there.
No, no-one gets jobs from LI, it’s just a way to keep in touch with your exiting network, and for recruiters to extend their reach.

My parents had to put down my sweet lab Maggie today.  She was nearly 14 and had severe hip dysplasia, but was the most energetic, fun dog I've been around.  She cuddled with us on the couch every night.  She was just the best, and I am grieving that I couldn't be there to hold her paw as she passed away.

What a sweet sweet girl.
Sorry, BN, that is some top-tier struggle there. Saying goodbye to a pet is harder than losing some relatives, and even harder when you’ve got to let them go to prevent undue suffering. I’m sad for you.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on May 13, 2015, 04:35:33 AM
Realized I started thinking in Bore smileys. Found myself annoyed when I didn't get to use :rejoice on Facebook.

:beli

Edit: Remembered I pretend to call myself a programmer, made a simple extension.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: sarslip on May 13, 2015, 07:53:13 AM
Damn Des a week without hot water is extreme.  I've seen people get far with Renter's Rights, which vary a bit between states. 

https://www.thelpa.com/lpa/landlord-tenant-law/ohio-tenant-rights.html
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on May 13, 2015, 01:10:21 PM
just got back form the hospital from a panic attack
theyve been getting worse and worse tbh
as a temp solution lorazepam is good tho
not sure what to do long term as SSRI do not react well to me

Is it mental anxiety like racing thoughts or do you get more of the physical symptoms like sweating, heart racing, palpitations, etc.?

My point being maybe try a beta blocker like propranolol to knock out all the physical symptoms.

It stops your heart from racing so you can't get anxious (physically). No sweating, shaking, rapid breathing, or any other flight or fight responses. Musicians use it for performance anxiety.

Pair it with something like buspar (if it works) or low dose klonopin (less addictive and longer acting, more preventative then some reactionary 'oh shit panic attack, better pop a xanax or ativan').


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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: HiResDes on May 13, 2015, 01:14:52 PM
Damn Des a week without hot water is extreme.  I've seen people get far with Renter's Rights, which vary a bit between states. 

https://www.thelpa.com/lpa/landlord-tenant-law/ohio-tenant-rights.html

It came back on last night, crisis avoided. Was only like five or six days. Still was a struggle, washing dishes with cold ass water is just wrong.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 13, 2015, 01:35:26 PM
Ended up making the electricity payment for my brother last night so the company would turn it back on, that legit shook me, never had the lights go off on me before.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Steve Contra on May 13, 2015, 01:41:29 PM
Given how difficult it is to shut off someone's power and the number of hoops you have jump through your brother was doing some serious concealment.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: HiResDes on May 13, 2015, 01:41:54 PM
I still haven't found a tea supplier. Or chocolate supplier although Lindt will do for now.

Read this and found out I was a digusting tea peasant http://www.seriouseats.com/2015/02/best-tea-where-to-buy.html

:stahp

Ain't nobody got time to pay that much an ounce for some organic shit grown in the back of some third world slumlord's garden...Give me that wholesale shit, flavored blends are great, and I'm not taking Teavana...That shit is too expensive too.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 13, 2015, 01:47:11 PM
Yeah, apparently he fell behind on it like a year ago, and had just been paying enough to keep them from shutting us off. Despite getting a shut off notice that he hid from us that said you must pay in person or on the phone or risk shut off, he paid online and it didn't update in their system in time. So once it got turned off, the rule becomes you need to pay at least half the balance (which he had been building over time) to get it on again. Our household was not a comfortable place last night with the tension in the air.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Human Snorenado on May 13, 2015, 01:51:02 PM
Ended up making the electricity payment for my brother last night so the company would turn it back on, that legit shook me, never had the lights go off on me before.

Has he said why he didn't make the payments? Any hope of getting that money back from his stupid ass or are you just gonna try to cut your losses? Family money issues suck big time, you've got my condolences on this one breh.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 13, 2015, 01:53:46 PM
He just lives beyond his means and is kind of a fuckwad. A redditor; probably sociopathic. We bought the house "together" but it's all in my name so I'll just take anything he owes me off the top when we sell. Just gonna be scraping by until we close. Ramen and frozen veggies for everyone! :lol
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 13, 2015, 05:07:54 PM
Spent an hour and a half on the phone with the electric company cause they want to change me 365$ for one months electricity.  In the last four months I have talked to them four times.  This time.  Got frustrated asked for a manager.  'we don't let customers talk to the managers'.  Call gets dropped I call again.  Spend 45 mins talking to this one lady who finally says 'you'll have to talk to the manager but he's gone home for the day, call again tomorrow.'  I'm also pretty sure the issue is they are trying to change me a 300$ hook up fee which they've told me to ignore the last two times I called.   

And this is the moment I and came to understand the urge to murder and became a passionate supporter of eugenics.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on May 13, 2015, 05:09:02 PM
Have a shitty day for seemingly no reason brehs :fbm

When your life is shitty you have shitty days by default.  :gloomy
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: TakingBackSunday on May 13, 2015, 05:18:01 PM
morning star veggie burger caused me to spew vomit all night  :-X
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 13, 2015, 06:58:11 PM
morning star veggie burger caused me to spew vomit all night  :-X
:ufup
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on May 13, 2015, 10:29:44 PM
Decided that I should cut ties with a friend of about 10 years. Tough to do since he's the only person I know locally but he's just a miserable person and said that my having a deformed ear was what made him want to be my friend initially since it made him feel like I would not be too good for him as far as social standing (he's an incredibly shallow person with no other friends that I know of). I feel like still hanging out with him would just be bad for me.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on May 13, 2015, 11:17:44 PM
morning star veggie burger caused me to spew vomit all night  :-X
:ufup

Stole my post :stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 14, 2015, 02:45:30 AM
Decided that I should cut ties with a friend of about 10 years. Tough to do since he's the only person I know locally but he's just a miserable person and said that my having a deformed ear was what made him want to be my friend initially since it made him feel like I would not be too good for him as far as social standing (he's an incredibly shallow person with no other friends that I know of). I feel like still hanging out with him would just be bad for me.
Gee,
Can't possibly imagine why someone like that wouldn't have a lot of friends.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on May 14, 2015, 11:08:42 PM
Decided that I should cut ties with a friend of about 10 years. Tough to do since he's the only person I know locally but he's just a miserable person and said that my having a deformed ear was what made him want to be my friend initially since it made him feel like I would not be too good for him as far as social standing (he's an incredibly shallow person with no other friends that I know of). I feel like still hanging out with him would just be bad for me.
Gee,
Can't possibly imagine why someone like that wouldn't have a lot of friends.

Well he said that as a way to cheer me up since I was feeling down. I know it does bother many people to see it but I don't have the energy to forgive anyone.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Human Snorenado on May 17, 2015, 03:00:21 PM
I'm thinking that maybe I should start an Official Bore Ennui Thread: for when your struggles are more than just a mere inconvenience, and your inconveniences are real struggles, but not like someone just died or whatever.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 17, 2015, 03:32:46 PM
They're all just bastard children of the random talk thread anyway
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Human Snorenado on May 17, 2015, 03:51:15 PM
Random talk thread  :yuck
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 17, 2015, 04:39:14 PM
I'm thinking that maybe I should start an Official Bore Ennui Thread: for when your struggles are more than just a mere inconvenience, and your inconveniences are real struggles, but not like someone just died or whatever.

I'd create this thread, but starting threads is so passé. (http://i.imgur.com/ZgPZNJp.gif)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 17, 2015, 04:42:18 PM
They're all just bastard children of the random talk thread anyway

I like the separation of the struggle thread though.   It's like sometimes I just want to post something inane but one of you assholes go and post about how one of your family members just died and then I can't post my shit until a few condolence posts come in without looking like an ass.  I want to live in a world where I can make the single post 'Sorry your dad died.  Also, got new shoes.'
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 18, 2015, 12:01:31 PM
My grandfather passed away last night or early this morning.  Was told he went peacefully.  Helluva "birthday present" to wake up to.
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Post by: Human Snorenado on May 18, 2015, 12:05:10 PM
Condolences, Bork :(
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Post by: Kara on May 18, 2015, 12:14:11 PM
Sorry Bork. :(
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Post by: king of the internet on May 18, 2015, 12:41:00 PM
Happy Birthday.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 18, 2015, 12:54:51 PM
sorry to hear that Bork
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Post by: Beezy on May 18, 2015, 12:59:24 PM
Happy Birthday.
Been in a mostly shitty mood lately, but the order of the posts leading up to this made me laugh.

But yeah, sorry Bork. :-\
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Post by: Joe Molotov on May 18, 2015, 01:00:24 PM
Sorry about your grandfather, bork.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 18, 2015, 01:05:07 PM
Sorry bork.  And happy birthday.  Hope you get new shoes.
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Post by: Brehvolution on May 18, 2015, 01:06:54 PM
Sorry for your loss.  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 18, 2015, 02:09:24 PM
Hope you get new shoes.

What?   :lol
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 18, 2015, 02:17:42 PM
It was a (bad) joke based on my insensitive post right above yours.  Sorry.  Unless you find it funny, then I'm not sorry.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 18, 2015, 03:09:45 PM
Sorry for your loss, bork. Hope you have a better rest of your birthday
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Post by: brawndolicious on May 18, 2015, 05:10:44 PM
Happy birthday and it is a small blessing that he went peacefully.
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Post by: bork on May 18, 2015, 05:18:38 PM
Thanks, guys.   :)  I was relieved to hear he went in his sleep.  We knew this was coming and he managed to hang in there for several years after doctors said he only had months left to live when he was hospitalized for something some years ago. 

Am pretty concerned about my mother's emotional state right now.  My parents, brother, and sister-in-law are all in Paris right now and I know that my parents at least are cutting the trip short and coming back Wednesday.  The funeral is on Thursday.  It's probably going to hit her hard since she was the one taking the most care of him, even after he was moved into an assisted living facility.

I always felt like he was ready to pass on, especially during the last few years.  He was never the same after my grandmother passed away 10 years ago.  I'm not the religious type, but if there is an afterlife, I hope he's been reunited with her and they are happy again.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 19, 2015, 04:15:03 AM
Got hella gut punched (figuratively) today. Counting down the days until I can train huskies alone in BFE Alaska Solid Snake stylee.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on May 19, 2015, 08:08:57 AM
Hm, she doesn't want to be friends either?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 19, 2015, 10:31:06 AM
I washed all my dress socks last night. Since I didn't feel like sorting them, I tied the pairs together. Threw them in the dryer after that and went to bed. Needless to say I woke up and realized all the socks are still wet, whereas the clothes I also put in the dryer are dry. So I'm at work wearing wet socks.

:snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 19, 2015, 10:48:30 AM
Its not like he is going to attack the Japs though Burma.   A day of wet socks will be fine.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 19, 2015, 10:52:18 AM
Nami is completely fucked up.  Made a vet appointment for her to put her back on anxiety meds.  It's going to be like 4 months before she gets better and I probability will not be able to take her to that park ever again.  I'm so fucking angry right now.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 19, 2015, 11:08:35 AM
They aren't super wet, just enough to annoy me.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 19, 2015, 11:15:02 AM
Hm, she doesn't want to be friends either?

That was self-evident months ago, but good guess.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 19, 2015, 04:24:09 PM
vet bill is 500$  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 19, 2015, 04:26:19 PM
vet bill is 500$  :(
http://carecredit.com/
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 19, 2015, 04:31:12 PM
Your socialist overlords don't love pets? :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 19, 2015, 04:33:21 PM
No.  Or eyes or teeth. :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Positive Touch on May 19, 2015, 09:52:21 PM
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHERE DO YOU DOWNLOAD MUSIC THESE DAYS I CAN'T FIND SHIT SOMEONE HELP
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 19, 2015, 09:55:17 PM
Just drop album title.rar into google, works for most things.

PD, next time just pop them shits in the microwave for a few seconds at a time.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on May 19, 2015, 11:06:09 PM
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHERE DO YOU DOWNLOAD MUSIC THESE DAYS I CAN'T FIND SHIT SOMEONE HELP

I still use soulseek
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Joe Molotov on May 19, 2015, 11:57:34 PM
vet bill is 500$  :(

Can't you just crush up a quarter-tab of your Zoloft and mix it into her Iams?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Samson Manhug on May 20, 2015, 12:00:53 AM
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHERE DO YOU DOWNLOAD MUSIC THESE DAYS I CAN'T FIND SHIT SOMEONE HELP

If you want it, I have a waffles account I don't use anymore because of Spotify.


Edit: Actually, I have two invites. You can have one if you like and so can anyone else.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on May 20, 2015, 12:13:42 AM
Who has the time to spending on finding and downloading new music
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 20, 2015, 12:51:59 AM
I miss those days. :'(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Positive Touch on May 20, 2015, 01:12:13 AM
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHERE DO YOU DOWNLOAD MUSIC THESE DAYS I CAN'T FIND SHIT SOMEONE HELP

If you want it, I have a waffles account I don't use anymore because of Spotify.


Edit: Actually, I have two invites. You can have one if you like and so can anyone else.

yes plz good sir
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 20, 2015, 10:18:10 PM
Fire crackers AGAIN while walking Nami and she just keeps getting worse.  I am so fucking angry.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: HiResDes on May 20, 2015, 10:25:38 PM
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHERE DO YOU DOWNLOAD MUSIC THESE DAYS I CAN'T FIND SHIT SOMEONE HELP

I still use soulseek

Ditto, and nodata.tv
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on May 21, 2015, 04:35:28 AM
Fire crackers AGAIN while walking Nami and she just keeps getting worse.  I am so fucking angry.

Where the fuck do you live? I haven't heard firecrackers in months...
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 22, 2015, 03:02:05 AM
Around 7pm when I was driving out to campus for the second time, I felt so exhausted I was going to collapse. I made it through the meeting, came home and was ready for a nice early night. Now it's 1:50 am, and I can't get to sleep. I'm determined not to use alcohol as a sleeping aid, but it may come to that :(
play FFXII.
You'll sleep.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 22, 2015, 03:04:07 AM
One of my friend's friends has gone missing.
She's a young latina in her 20s and there's no trace of her. No credit card activities, no cell records, no sightings, nothing.
She's been gone over a month, but everyday I keep seeing my friend's facebook page with more posts about vigils and searches and all that.
For the first couple of days I was hoping they'd find her. But now it sorta feels like they're just looking for a body.  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on May 22, 2015, 09:29:38 AM
Forgot my Bore password. If I get logged out here, I will be gone forever.

Posting on borrowd time :-O
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on May 22, 2015, 09:45:08 AM
Aren't we all? Borrowed from the life that we could have?
spoiler (click to show/hide)
Together :uguu
[close]
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 22, 2015, 12:57:38 PM
Nami won't even go a block anymore outside.  I'm terrified that she won't get better.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on May 22, 2015, 04:26:01 PM
Maybe if you play a shooting game in front of her, she'll associate the sound with a video game? Unless these are just really loud ear splitting firecrackers that hurt her ears. I'm sorry I can't think of anything to help.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on May 22, 2015, 04:48:11 PM
I'm thinking that maybe I should start an Official Bore Ennui Thread: for when your struggles are more than just a mere inconvenience, and your inconveniences are real struggles, but not like someone just died or whatever.

I made that thread, but before I hit “post,” it just felt like eh, whatever.

It was a (bad) joke based on my insensitive post right above yours.  Sorry.  Unless you find it funny, then I'm not sorry.
It was a great joke. I guffawed, so I’ll high five you when we both arrive in Hell.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 22, 2015, 08:44:04 PM
1)  My dog is completely wrecked and I'm heart broken over it.
2)  Have to make slides and a poster for a conference for work that I'm completely embarrassed about.  Told my supervisor I'd get have then done two weeks ago.  He's pissed.
3) The electric company tried to charge me 300$ for one months electricity.  I have spent like 4-5 hours on the phone with them trying to fix this along with other problems they have caused.  A supervisor was suppose to email me but never did.  This last bill looks like they fixed the disputed charge but I have no idea what was the problem because they stealth fixed it.  So I have no idea if I will have to harass them again next month when they fuck up again.  Their call center is full of incompetent people.
4) I tried to book a councilor.  My healthcard is out of date and its going to be a bitch to solve because I moved out of province.  They can't even get me in for an assessment for 2 fucking weeks.
5) I'm so fucking angry at the world and myself right now.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 22, 2015, 09:01:45 PM
Nami needs you Arvie, keep it together. :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 22, 2015, 11:57:50 PM
Arvie, that's so much to stress about, I'm really sorry, you must feel very overwhelmed :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on May 23, 2015, 12:02:11 AM
Forgot my Bore password. If I get logged out here, I will be gone forever.

Posting on borrowd time :-O

Here's a link to the password recovery form (http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?action=logout;a7ec61ca0234=ca3f72d65e42908abcccd8e0ad595510)  :)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on May 23, 2015, 06:13:17 AM
Forgot my Bore password. If I get logged out here, I will be gone forever.

Posting on borrowd time :-O

Here's a link to the password recovery form (http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?action=logout;a7ec61ca0234=ca3f72d65e42908abcccd8e0ad595510)  :)

I hovered to check if you were sending me to some waifu page, didn't expect you to be this sinister   :noooo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 23, 2015, 09:05:34 PM
1) Nami wouldn't walk far enough to poop today
2) Air conditioner broke
3) Could only do like 2 slides of my presentation today without feeling totally sick over it.

I'm so fucking sick of every fucking thing.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 23, 2015, 11:53:50 PM
EDIT II I MADE IT THROUGH SOMETHING UNBEARABLE AND IN THIS MOMENT I DESERVE IT
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 25, 2015, 10:49:38 AM
Didn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning because my place is 86 degrees and won't cool down.  Fuck I hate everything.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 25, 2015, 03:04:02 PM
Especially a breed like a Shiba.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 25, 2015, 03:18:16 PM
got these http://www.aircraftspruce.ca/catalog/pspages/muttMuffs.php?clickkey=32740#

I'll see how they work out, but I doubt they will.  Once she has a freak out she associates everything with it; so now she's scared of parks and the streets we were on when the fire crackers went off.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 26, 2015, 12:07:01 PM
Back to surprise mandatory over time. At will employment is a fucking racket.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 26, 2015, 02:53:08 PM
I was mostly cruising in my Corporate Financial Reporting class, until today when we came to the tax section.

Taxes and the way they're explained (or not) in financial statements are a fucking mess. I have no idea why anyone would want to make a career out of this shit.


:brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 26, 2015, 03:02:36 PM
I'm curious what you were taught, btw.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 26, 2015, 03:21:40 PM
Ah OK. In tax accounting you have to reconcile book and return differences (for entities above a certain size) on the tax return so I'm sort of desensitized to the parallel nature of it. Accrual, non-tax basis books (so anything relevant) are the deep end.

I have MACRS and ACRS puns in my repertoire.

E: I'd love to get in on the creative side but you probably need a M.S. in taxation to get in the door. :shaq2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 26, 2015, 04:02:09 PM
My dog has been reportedly limping a bit when going for long walks.  I have never seen this since said long walks are always done by my wife or my mother.  If I walked the dog 30 minutes or so, she's fine.  The dog runs and jumps all over the place daily.  I suggested that maybe she was hurting herself because she sometimes slips on the hardwood floors in our place when trying to jump up on the couch or the bed. 

So we bought some rugs last weekend.  Stuck one halfway under the bed and put the other in front of the couch.  She has more traction now although I'm told she's still limping on walks.  I have no idea what the fuck they are talking about.  My mother, worried, makes an appointment for x-rays at the vet.

So I say "has anyone tried walking the dog without the harness you guys always force her to wear?  Have you ever thought about why the dog hates it so much and runs away when you take it out?"

My wife goes and walks the dog for over an hour.  No problems.  Everyone is like :ohhh.  I really want to know why the vet didn't think to suggest this.  :-\  The dog went in about a month ago and was prescribed meds that were clearly not needed.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on May 26, 2015, 05:46:56 PM
Vet has bills to pay, clearly. :hitler
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 26, 2015, 08:09:28 PM
Vets are really shady.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 26, 2015, 08:19:00 PM
Vets are really shady.

An industry where the customer can rarely evaluate the quality of the product but is very emotionally invested in the subject of service seems like a con's dream come true.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: dkdk on May 26, 2015, 09:00:23 PM
Microsoft Excel is the fucking devil.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on May 26, 2015, 11:21:13 PM
Vets are really shady.

I think vets wished they made enough money to be shady.

Outside of big animal/cattle vets. They rake it in.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Human Snorenado on May 26, 2015, 11:24:53 PM
Microsoft Excel is the fucking devil.

You take that shit back

:bolo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 27, 2015, 12:16:38 AM
Microsoft Excel is the fucking devil.
I could run a multi-billion dollar company with just email and excel.
Excel is da god.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 27, 2015, 12:21:04 AM
Excel does p. much everything, it's da god.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on May 27, 2015, 01:16:48 AM
Be a cac from an upper middle class family destined for a life of abject poverty :mindblown  :ufup

:trash :piss Mental illness :piss2 :trash
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on May 27, 2015, 10:38:14 AM
got turned down by the job i've been vying for the last few weeks. back to square one.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 27, 2015, 11:34:53 AM
Sucks dude
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on May 27, 2015, 12:07:52 PM
Been a few months since I moved out. Eat well, sleep well, lost weight, etc.

Sounds good. But I was expecting more though. I was hoping to get my shit together, but despite the aforementioned positives that's not going too well.

I dunno what you call it, but the mental health help institutions and stuff in this country have gone to shit thanks to the budget cuts. And before it wasn't that great either.

What really blows my mind is that in the vast majority of other countries in the world, it's far worse. If I wasn't born in western world I would have probably offed myself a long time ago. Scary thought, mayne.

All things considered it's not too bad, and it may seem like I don't have much to complain about. It's just that my life is at a standstill. And at times, standing still is moving backwards. :fbm From a purely rational standpoint, I have to assume things are getting better. But I've been telling that myself for the past decade, the same amount of time I've been getting 'help' from mental health institutions. :shaq2 And in that decade, most of that progress has come from me naturally getting older/wiser.

There are theories that this is actually what drives these depressions and even suicides. The fact that you know that you got it good and the assumption that you can't really blame it on anyone but yourself. Whereas in third world countries you might just be busy trying to survive and can blame your situation on external factors.

Just looking at suicide rates, you can see that it's mostly a first-/ second world problem
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_countries_by_suicide_rate

Not that it helps you in any way, but I don't really think you would've offed yourself

Fake edit: D'oh, just realized I missed a paragraph and you were referring specifically to mental health treatment. Oh well.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on May 27, 2015, 12:17:41 PM
Yeah, every trip to the vet requires ducking at least one upsell.  Can get really annoying because you know it's a crock of shit and they know it's a crock of shit but people spend all kinds of ridiculous amounts of money on their pets.  The dentist is that way too.  I shopped around and found places that were good but tended to do less of that kind of bullshit.  I don't think I can escape that entirely.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 27, 2015, 01:31:21 PM
It took you awhile to fall down, Dufus; it'll take you awhile to get back up again. Ganbare. :uguu
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 27, 2015, 02:08:00 PM
got turned down by the job i've been vying for the last few weeks. back to square one.

You'll find something better and they'll regret it.

Some years back when I was looking for a job, I interviewed at a place that I thought was totally going to go with me.  I was there for three years and was given the grand tour, taken around to meet people, etc.  Then I was told later that they had already found someone before they even interviewed me.  -_-  A year later the guy contacts me and I tell him I've found a job that pays more than and has more benefits than the one he was offering.  Felt good, man.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 27, 2015, 03:00:35 PM
Working on some books where the bookkeeper didn't know capital letters existed in English. The struggle has never been anymore real.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 27, 2015, 03:05:53 PM
Working on some books where the bookkeeper didn't know capital letters existed in English. The struggle has never been anymore real.

What about looking over the work of an intern and realizing he didn't indent anything.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 27, 2015, 04:22:14 PM
Interns don't know how to address envelopes or dial a number out of the area code on a landline. Tbh I'm bemused that they even know how to breathe.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on May 27, 2015, 04:57:23 PM
My mother is finally getting a divorce (older brother and I encouraged her to do it for 4 years) so that's a good thing but my father was prepared for it with money all in overseas banks so only assets that are in the country will probably get split. As a result, her personal checking account is really low so I've been increasingly paying the utilities/groceries/etc for the last few months but I can't really afford it so I have to move in with her while the house goes up for sale. My older brother is in medical school so I'm the only one who can help. Not a great situation but manageable.



All things considered it's not too bad, and it may seem like I don't have much to complain about. It's just that my life is at a standstill. And at times, standing still is moving backwards. :fbm From a purely rational standpoint, I have to assume things are getting better. But I've been telling that myself for the past decade, the same amount of time I've been getting 'help' from mental health institutions. :shaq2 And in that decade, most of that progress has come from me naturally getting older/wiser.

Getting older and wiser sounds like a great solution if your issue is with trying to become a better adjusted person, do you think your main issue is lack of confidence due to (I'm guessing) being disgruntled with social or professional accomplishments?

Regarding depression being a mostly first world thing, I  think that's mostly because of it being serious taboo to commit suicide in Islam/Catholicism. If I lived in a developing country, I'd have even more isolation/abuse for being deformed yet I've had the urge to commit suicide for my entire life in California. I can't imagine people physical/mental disabilities wanting to live longer in developing countries where there is more of a stigma.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 27, 2015, 05:06:54 PM
Sorry AN, hope the sale is quick and lucrative.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 27, 2015, 05:21:49 PM
This morning I had a bunch of not-struggles that eroded my will to dissemble and I was honest about some stuff in therapy that I won't budge on and aren't (mentally and emotionally) healthy so I've put myself on the long winding road to getting the boot for duty of care reasons.

It's been too long since I had a harrowing intake session I suppose.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: dkdk on May 27, 2015, 07:13:11 PM
Interns don't know how to address envelopes or dial a number out of the area code on a landline. Tbh I'm bemused that they even know how to breathe.

Interns  :stahp

I'm glad my company gets hot girls to be interns. If nothing else they're fun to work and hang out with. Nobody trying to deal w/ a dude or a ugly chick who don't know how to do shit. And it ain't like we're hiring them permanently anyway.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 27, 2015, 07:49:12 PM
"So you ready to run the load?"
"Well yes, but we need the link first"
"OK, well we start tomorrow."
"But it takes 2 weeks to get the link approved and created."
"I told you 3 weeks ago that we would be loading data tomorrow, so given that it takes 2 weeks to set it up, how much time until they're completed?"
"2 weeks."
:beli
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 27, 2015, 08:13:37 PM
Pretty sure anyone from The Bore would have been ready to "run the load" ASAP.
:shaq

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 27, 2015, 08:22:12 PM
 :uguu
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 29, 2015, 09:23:43 AM
You know what really sucks. In the good old days when I felt like fucking shit, I'd play some game as means of escapism. But now I feel like shit, what is there? MMOs have turned to shit. Multiplayer games have turned to shit. There's really nothing for me but to feel like shit while doing nothing i.e. stare out the window wondering what the point of life is.

Play some Street Fighter
:rejoice

Just not on PS4
 :foxx

Also watch the greatest movie ever, Kung Fury, on Youtube.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on May 29, 2015, 09:50:00 AM
You know what really sucks. In the good old days when I felt like fucking shit, I'd play some game as means of escapism. But now I feel like shit, what is there? MMOs have turned to shit. Multiplayer games have turned to shit. There's really nothing for me but to feel like shit while doing nothing i.e. stare out the window wondering what the point of life is.

You have two choices at this point. Join a cult or become a F2P mobile gamer.

Come experience the soothing endorphin release by mindlessly tapping for small incremental gains. :praise



Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on May 29, 2015, 01:42:34 PM

As for SF, doesn't really count unless it's multiplayer. And multiplayer might be frustrating.


Practice!  Getting your ass kicked and learning from it will help you to get better.  I can always pick up a controller, jump online, and have a blast with SF4.  No matter what my mood is.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on May 31, 2015, 03:29:57 AM
Worked a charity event, which is a host of Ls that need not be recounted here, but a member of my team was a noob and seeing their reaction to sums of money that aren't insubstantial but seem like nothing to me this deep in the game really hammered home how fucking out there I am.

I hate what I am and every morning when I wake up I wish that I hadn't.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on May 31, 2015, 03:55:06 AM
Worked a charity event, which is a host of Ls that need not be recounted here, but a member of my team was a noob and seeing their reaction to sums of money that aren't insubstantial but seem like nothing to me this deep in the game really hammered home how fucking out there I am.

I hate what I am and every morning when I wake up I wish that I hadn't.

Cheer up. You'll be dead before you know it.  8)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on May 31, 2015, 04:16:32 AM
Woke up to a roach crawling on me. Now sleeping on a couch in the TV room
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on May 31, 2015, 09:10:23 AM
Woke up to a roach crawling on me. Now sleeping on a couch in the TV room

Couches have more crannies and crevices for cockroaches, and more paths from the floor for access.

Just sayin'.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on May 31, 2015, 10:01:34 AM
Woke up to a roach crawling on me. Now sleeping on a couch in the TV room

Couches have more crannies and crevices for cockroaches, and more paths from the floor for access.

Just sayin'.
Sleep tight!  :heart
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: HiResDes on June 01, 2015, 12:00:45 AM
You know what really sucks. In the good old days when I felt like fucking shit, I'd play some game as means of escapism. But now I feel like shit, what is there? MMOs have turned to shit. Multiplayer games have turned to shit. There's really nothing for me but to feel like shit while doing nothing i.e. stare out the window wondering what the point of life is.

Single player western RPGs are the best form of video escapism in my opinion...Witcher 3 accomplishes this well
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Yeti on June 01, 2015, 12:26:42 AM
Woke up to a roach crawling on me. Now sleeping on a couch in the TV room

 :noooo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 01, 2015, 04:23:46 AM
Worked a charity event, which is a host of Ls that need not be recounted here, but a member of my team was a noob and seeing their reaction to sums of money that aren't insubstantial but seem like nothing to me this deep in the game really hammered home how fucking out there I am.

I hate what I am and every morning when I wake up I wish that I hadn't.

Cheer up. You'll be dead before you know it.  8)

As fucking if. :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on June 01, 2015, 08:35:48 AM
At least you'll have the false hope of sex robots being invented one day.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: T-Short on June 01, 2015, 11:47:15 AM
Came back from japan trip on wednesday. Flight was delayed, I missed my connection and lost my luggage.

And then I came home and my girlfriend of 13 years has decided that she's breaking up with me.

:fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 01, 2015, 12:49:23 PM
Really sorry, H. Can't even fathom losing a relationship that had lasted that long.

When the shock wears off you'll be kinda buoyant for a bit but then you're going to plunge pretty hard. :fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Brehvolution on June 01, 2015, 12:53:05 PM
Sorry to hear that, Hyoushi.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on June 01, 2015, 01:32:07 PM
Ever watch that opening scene in Joe versus the Volcano? That's what I'm imagining now.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on June 01, 2015, 03:25:01 PM
Got black out drunk last night. Stabbing pain in my head. Pls take me now Jesus.  :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 01, 2015, 07:47:48 PM
It looks like they even stopped looking for my friend's friend's body.

:brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on June 01, 2015, 08:07:43 PM
Came back from japan trip on wednesday. Flight was delayed, I missed my connection and lost my luggage.

And then I came home and my girlfriend of 13 years has decided that she's breaking up with me.

:fbm
Hyoushi, I'm sure you're sad right now, but you're a cool dude and will get past this. If you need a bright side, at least she figured this out before marriage and kids.

OTOH, and sorry in advance for the Real Talk, most relationships even approaching the 10 year mark require the M-word commitment. It may have been either one of you which wasn't ready for that, but it sounds like she decided move on. If this makes you re-evaluate the relationship and realize you'd like to be with her FOREVER, cool. If not, a wash of relief is what you should be feeling, in addition to any dizziness.

It looks like they even stopped looking for my friend's friend's body.

:brazilcry
Wait, what?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 01, 2015, 08:10:35 PM
See here Chrono
One of my friend's friends has gone missing.
She's a young latina in her 20s and there's no trace of her. No credit card activities, no cell records, no sightings, nothing.
She's been gone over a month, but everyday I keep seeing my friend's facebook page with more posts about vigils and searches and all that.
For the first couple of days I was hoping they'd find her. But now it sorta feels like they're just looking for a body.  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 01, 2015, 09:04:04 PM
Damn Hyoushi sorry to hear that

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on June 01, 2015, 09:07:43 PM
See here Chrono
One of my friend's friends has gone missing.
She's a young latina in her 20s and there's no trace of her. No credit card activities, no cell records, no sightings, nothing.
She's been gone over a month, but everyday I keep seeing my friend's facebook page with more posts about vigils and searches and all that.
For the first couple of days I was hoping they'd find her. But now it sorta feels like they're just looking for a body.  :-\
Holy crap, that's horrible. Wow.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 01, 2015, 09:08:58 PM
I think it was about two years ago when I posted here that my wife wanted to buy some $400 DVD set that was clearly from a scammer.  I ended up giving in and bought it for her.  She watched that shit once and I never saw it again.

Now she is all over this shit about taking "online courses" to become a "spiritual consultant."  I have to put that in quotes because it's yet another scam.  The kicker?  It's from the same fucking people who made the DVDs.  Can't budge on this one.  This "course" costs six thousand dollars.  Listening to her pitch this is like listening to a scammer-- "I'll make the money right back!  I'll get tons of clients!"  I asked her to show me the school's website.  Naturally, there isn't one.  Just a link to the e-commerce site that produces all this crap.  She gives me info on the guy running this.  His Facebook page says he worked at Sony.  The link to "Sony" goes to a Facebook page that nobody has ever visited or updated.   :lol ::)

She kept asking me for weeks if she could use six grand from our savings account.  Nope.  Not budging.  She finally gave up and tried to ask her parents instead.  I was a bit worried about them giving in, but fortunately her mom has been in contact with me and isn't giving her anything.  Freaked out a bit today when I came home and was shown an Email confirming that she signed up for the course.  This was in Japanese and listed what appeared to be a receipt, but fortunately this was just directions saying where to direct deposit the money.  Yeah, that's not shady or anything.  Contacted her mom, who told me that she hadn't and wasn't giving her any money, and asked me to make sure she doesn't try to get a loan or something.

So now my wife is acting super-depressed about this.  But to be honest, I think this is actually a good thing-- I think it may have finally hit her that either A) this is a scam and she fell for it or B) reality has kicked in and she realizes that she isn't getting that money, and is getting over it in her own way.  Am hoping this shit blows over by tomorrow or the next day.  Meanwhile, I did my part and have stayed super-positive and carefully chosen what I've been saying.  Am not saying "no" to anything, but simply that we all care about her well-being.

Is this depression?  Could be.  This all came up when she started looking around for a new job and didn't get anything. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on June 01, 2015, 11:43:57 PM
What kind of work is she trying to get into? I assume counseling but the spiritual angle is a bit unknown for me. Could show her pamphlets for places to volunteer with clients/qualifications that fit her needs.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 02, 2015, 12:16:47 AM
I changed my schedule around so I could work 9-5 3 days a week. This is the first day (which was supposed to be a 9 to 5er) and it's 21:30 and another 2 hours of work at least.

Why do I exist. :stahp

END ME.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 02, 2015, 12:38:46 AM
My most recent struggle...family shit. My grandma died a few years ago. Before she died she wrote a will, and was quite adamant that it be followed. For example my oldest male cousin received her house (which is in Detroit). I received an old Cadillac - like, late 70s old. One of my brothers received a 2000s Cadillac. My car needed a lot of work so it was worked on by a mechanic for awhile, who then put it in storage. My brother's car stayed in my grandma's garage.

I love my cousin, he introduced me to rap music, Street Fighter II and a host of other shit. But he's a dumbass. Late 30s, has only worked odd jobs that he can barely keep, is rather lazy, etc. Everyone knows this stuff, but my grandma always looked out for him; he lived with my grandparents for the final years of their lives, and overall looked after them although he fucked that up a few times. Anyway my grandma's house was paid off, all that remained was yearly taxes. I don't remember the exact tax number but it wasn't large, like <$3000 iirc. Well needless to say my cousin didn't pay a dime on the taxes after my grandma died. The house fell into disrepair, the lawn wasn't being cut, it just looked terrible. At one point he moved out, and would come by randomly to stay for a week or so.

On one such week when he was staying at the house he got into a fight with his girlfriend, who then proceeded to...start a fire in anger. The fire burned down the garage...where my brother's Cadillac was stored. After that my cousin moved out the house and didn't return.

So now the house is slowly being ripped apart. The block it's on used to be pretty nice, but has looked like Baghdad for the last 15 years. For whatever reason nothing has been shut off in the house, so neighbors are siphoning electricity and other shit from the house. Meanwhile copper pipes and other shit is disappearing daily. During all this madness some dude apparently has put the house on sale, claiming his grandmother gave it to him when she died. This guy isn't related to me, mind you. Obviously the tax issue means that the city will own the house soonish, but this dude is trying to sell.

Now to me, this is just a sad story that ultimately I can move on from. The city will take over the house and I'd imagine the block will be cleaned up and gentrified in 5-10 years. However my mom is obsessed with this. She is constantly going down to Detroit to look at the house, she has talked to the guy who is trying to sell it, etc. She's taken my dad down there too, as well as her brother (my uncle). She wants to go into the house. I have begged her to stop going down there, to let this shit go. As I mentioned earlier, the block is literally Baghdad, circa 2003. Who knows who is squatting in the house. My dad has demanded she not go into the house as well. Yet every other weekend she goes down there. It's only a matter of time before she walks in there, and I have a bad feeling about what could happen.

It's the house she grew up in as a child, I get it. But that time is gone. My grandparents have been dead for awhile, it's time to move on. Nothing good will come of going down there, yet I can't convince her to just walk the fuck away. To be perfectly honest I've contemplated just burning the place down. I won't do it, but I could easily get away with it. I'd rather have it burned down than have her walk in there alone and something bad happen to her.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Positive Touch on June 02, 2015, 12:53:40 AM
honestly the part I'd be most pissed about is that some dickcheese is trying to make money off this house that he doesn't own. wtf is that?

also you have a classic caddy that you don't drive around because...?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 02, 2015, 01:05:58 AM
It's a long story. It's in storage, and the mechanic who "fixed" it has decided it should be his. This isn't something that I'm going to fight over. I've spoken with him, he knew my grandmother very well but the dude is a dick. There are other reasons I'm not pressing the situation, which I won't go into.

Personally I'm not concerned about the guy trying to sell the house simply because starting the selling process is just going to make the city seize it faster than they normally would. That guy isn't going to win, he has no paperwork, etc.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 02, 2015, 03:20:22 AM
Christ I just got home.

Fuck working with other people, they're nothing but :trash who let you down.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: T-Short on June 02, 2015, 03:59:57 AM
Came back from japan trip on wednesday. Flight was delayed, I missed my connection and lost my luggage.

And then I came home and my girlfriend of 13 years has decided that she's breaking up with me.

:fbm
Hyoushi, I'm sure you're sad right now, but you're a cool dude and will get past this. If you need a bright side, at least she figured this out before marriage and kids.

OTOH, and sorry in advance for the Real Talk, most relationships even approaching the 10 year mark require the M-word commitment. It may have been either one of you which wasn't ready for that, but it sounds like she decided move on. If this makes you re-evaluate the relationship and realize you'd like to be with her FOREVER, cool. If not, a wash of relief is what you should be feeling, in addition to any dizziness.

Hehe. Well. Marriage isn't something that we were particularly interested in. But oh well. There are no hard feelings between us, it's just gonna take a while for me to get over it. Just a question of how long it will take. We've been together for most of our adult lives so I'm basically restarting from scratch, heh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on June 02, 2015, 04:50:56 AM
That's a good place to start.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 02, 2015, 12:36:16 PM
Damn, Wrath, that's some shit.

I have a hernia  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 02, 2015, 02:27:39 PM
What kind of work is she trying to get into? I assume counseling but the spiritual angle is a bit unknown for me. Could show her pamphlets for places to volunteer with clients/qualifications that fit her needs.

Nope, has nothing to do with it.  She's looking for a job doing data entry.  The spiritual consulting crap seems to come up when she's feeling bummed about work.  She hates her co-workers and wants a new job closer to home.  That's fine except this is never-ending and she ends up hating her co-workers at pretty much every job she gets.  In some cases it is absolutely justified, though.  My parents and I think a big part of the problem is her grasp of the English language/lack of confidence in her English ability.  She's gotten much, much better though.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 02, 2015, 02:33:17 PM
It's a long story. It's in storage, and the mechanic who "fixed" it has decided it should be his. This isn't something that I'm going to fight over. I've spoken with him, he knew my grandmother very well but the dude is a dick. There are other reasons I'm not pressing the situation, which I won't go into.

Personally I'm not concerned about the guy trying to sell the house simply because starting the selling process is just going to make the city seize it faster than they normally would. That guy isn't going to win, he has no paperwork, etc.

This is confusing.  You don't want to press charges against a guy who essentially stole the car your grandmother left you?

Did your cousin's ex get charged for arson?

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on June 02, 2015, 03:44:09 PM
I really, really miss women.

WELCOME TO MY WORLD  :ufup

How can you miss what you've never had  ???
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 02, 2015, 04:01:56 PM
Breh one day I will escape the intellectual seventh level of hell commonly known as the U.S. and we're going to road trip Europe on single gear bikes. :bolo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on June 02, 2015, 04:05:34 PM
I really, really miss women.

 :creep
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: toku on June 02, 2015, 04:13:39 PM
Breh one day I will escape the intellectual seventh level of hell commonly known as the U.S. and we're going to road trip Europe on single gear bikes. :bolo

Can I come? Will there be good dope? decent booze?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 02, 2015, 04:31:50 PM
Broke my iPhone 5c. Not eligible for upgrade, too poor to replace it. Ughhhhhhhhh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 02, 2015, 05:13:56 PM
Breh one day I will escape the intellectual seventh level of hell commonly known as the U.S. and we're going to road trip Europe on single gear bikes. :bolo

Can I come? Will there be good dope? decent booze?

Sure. If you want. I only drink the finest.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on June 02, 2015, 05:41:59 PM
So my parent's dog died last year and my mom was real tore up about it.

Thought about getting them a new puppy late this year. A nice one.
Turns out my aunt gave my mom a dog last week.

One they found up north on the streets, a stray
No idea of how old this shit is, looks anywhere between 1 and 5
No idea of whether or not it has shots or not, rabies, etc
This shit looks like a dirty ass mop you threw into a garbage then forgot for a year

It has a fucking tattoo under it's belly. This dog is fucking tatted up
(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)

Like that shit is awful as a pet owner, but all the same I'm like how the fuck did they think this was an okay thing to give my parents?
Then it turned out my mom is okay with it and likes the dog. Which means, like their last dog, it's my fucking responsibility to make sure that shit doesn't die of some shitty dog disease. So now I gotta drive to their pad, pick this fucking dog up and take it to the vet this week.


Who the fuck gives a dog a tattoo.
For real.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on June 02, 2015, 06:12:45 PM
Given myself anxiety and tachycardia due to drinking way too much caffeine. Now can't focus on my study material
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Beezy on June 02, 2015, 06:54:05 PM
It has a fucking tattoo under it's belly. This dog is fucking tatted up
(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/dahell2.png)

Who the fuck gives a dog a tattoo.
For real.
:neogaf
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 02, 2015, 07:33:27 PM
It's a long story. It's in storage, and the mechanic who "fixed" it has decided it should be his. This isn't something that I'm going to fight over. I've spoken with him, he knew my grandmother very well but the dude is a dick. There are other reasons I'm not pressing the situation, which I won't go into.

Personally I'm not concerned about the guy trying to sell the house simply because starting the selling process is just going to make the city seize it faster than they normally would. That guy isn't going to win, he has no paperwork, etc.

This is confusing.  You don't want to press charges against a guy who essentially stole the car your grandmother left you?

Did your cousin's ex get charged for arson?

Arson? In Detroit? Of course not.

I won't go into all the details about the mechanic but the dude is old and isn't really a mechanic; I doubt the car works, even after all these years. The bigger problem is that to get this resolved I'd have to get the police involved, and he isn't the type of guy I'd do that with. If you know what I mean.

TLDR: Detroit brehs. There are some great, amazing parts of it. But I'm talking about Baghdad Detroit.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on June 02, 2015, 09:30:09 PM
But I'm talking about Baghdad Detroit.

...so basically, Detroit?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 02, 2015, 09:54:22 PM
Just found a paper from 2013 that does what I wanted to do for my Ph.D.  :( 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on June 03, 2015, 12:05:17 AM
That dog had a microchip in it

:heh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: nachobro on June 03, 2015, 01:10:48 AM
What kind of tattoo does it have? I've seen shelters that will tattoo a small line or X on a pet to show that it's been fixed.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on June 03, 2015, 01:40:46 AM
Like that shit is awful as a pet owner, but all the same I'm like how the fuck did they think this was an okay thing to give my parents?
Then it turned out my mom is okay with it and likes the dog. Which means, like their last dog, it's my fucking responsibility to make sure that shit doesn't die of some shitty dog disease. So now I gotta drive to their pad, pick this fucking dog up and take it to the vet this week.

Who the fuck gives a dog a tattoo.
For real.

Had to take care of not-even-my-dog too for my mother, including some of the shittiest things that entails, so I see where you are coming from with this.

I wish I could have my dog, but the situation is not yet ideal for this  :-\ .
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 03, 2015, 03:26:26 AM
I'm in a flabby stage of life so sex is somewhat strenuous. After a mutual climax, I lay naked refusing to move waiting for all the sweat to evaporate(http://i.imgur.com/tsb8f0V.png)

Eventually I drift into a tranquil nap as my GF gets ready. I'm awakened by her pleas to get dressed, but I'm in a daze when I hear footsteps coming up the stairs.

I shut the bedroom door and fumble with my pants.

"Open the door," her stepdad exclaims.

"I'm getting dressed!" she replies.

After threatening to open it a few more times he fucks off into his own room and slams the door. We go to leave but realize his pickup is blocking my car in the driveway.

He comes downstairs so I say "what's up" to no reply. He slams another door on the way out, moves his truck, gets on his harley and takes off.

Get a text later saying he wants to make it very clear that I'm not allowed in the house when he's not there.

This nicca been trying to get to me to go to the gun range too.


spoiler (click to show/hide)
GF is 24 years old :mindblown  :dayum :snoop

Getting an apartment with another couple, should be moved out by next month  :pacspit
[close]
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 03, 2015, 08:39:08 AM
Who the fuck gives a dog a tattoo.
For real.

My dog has a tattoo.  It's a little green streak on her underside.  They do that to show that the dog has been fixed.  Is that what you mean?


I won't go into all the details about the mechanic but the dude is old and isn't really a mechanic; I doubt the car works, even after all these years. The bigger problem is that to get this resolved I'd have to get the police involved, and he isn't the type of guy I'd do that with. If you know what I mean.


No, not really.  I'd get the cops involved or at least tell the guy I'm gonna call the cops or he can pay me something for it.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on June 03, 2015, 10:52:38 AM
Nah that dog has a butterfly on its underbelly

ALSO WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND SOMEONE SMASHED MY PASSENGER SIDE MIRROR
 :maf

Fuck this week brehs

Oh I should add on I hit up the database for lost pets and they got a hit on that dog.
Gave my info so hopefully I can throw this piece of shit back to its owners.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Beezy on June 03, 2015, 11:04:11 AM

I won't go into all the details about the mechanic but the dude is old and isn't really a mechanic; I doubt the car works, even after all these years. The bigger problem is that to get this resolved I'd have to get the police involved, and he isn't the type of guy I'd do that with. If you know what I mean.


No, not really.  I'd get the cops involved or at least tell the guy I'm gonna call the cops or he can pay me something for it.

You know nothing bork laser...
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 03, 2015, 11:24:55 AM

I won't go into all the details about the mechanic but the dude is old and isn't really a mechanic; I doubt the car works, even after all these years. The bigger problem is that to get this resolved I'd have to get the police involved, and he isn't the type of guy I'd do that with. If you know what I mean.


No, not really.  I'd get the cops involved or at least tell the guy I'm gonna call the cops or he can pay me something for it.

You know nothing bork laser...

You're gonna have to elaborate.  LOL if you mean "don't get the cops involved."
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on June 03, 2015, 11:30:07 AM
He's scared there's going to be blood.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 03, 2015, 11:34:23 AM
Oh, that kind of guy.   :lol
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Positive Touch on June 03, 2015, 12:01:35 PM
police don't even give a fuck about most murders in major cities; why would they care about a dispute over an old car? gtfo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 03, 2015, 12:18:03 PM
Menstrual blood from PD's gaping pussy.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 03, 2015, 12:58:59 PM

I won't go into all the details about the mechanic but the dude is old and isn't really a mechanic; I doubt the car works, even after all these years. The bigger problem is that to get this resolved I'd have to get the police involved, and he isn't the type of guy I'd do that with. If you know what I mean.


No, not really.  I'd get the cops involved or at least tell the guy I'm gonna call the cops or he can pay me something for it.

You know nothing bork laser...

You're gonna have to elaborate.  LOL if you mean "don't get the cops involved."

He's the nice old guy in the neighborhood who owns a variety of businesses that aren't really businesses, gives people jobs that aren't really jobs, and if you owe him anything he collects it right on time.

:beli
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 03, 2015, 01:00:39 PM
Yeah, I didn't get what you meant at first.  Hence:

Oh, that kind of guy.   :lol
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 03, 2015, 01:01:19 PM
police don't even give a fuck about most murders in major cities; why would they care about a dispute over an old car? gtfo

All he has to do is say his grandmama gave him that car and their hearts will grow three sizes!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 03, 2015, 01:58:27 PM
I'm in a flabby stage of life so sex is somewhat strenuous. After a mutual climax, I lay naked refusing to move waiting for all the sweat to evaporate(http://i.imgur.com/tsb8f0V.png)

Eventually I drift into a tranquil nap as my GF gets ready. I'm awakened by her pleas to get dressed, but I'm in a daze when I hear footsteps coming up the stairs.

I shut the bedroom door and fumble with my pants.

"Open the door," her stepdad exclaims.

"I'm getting dressed!" she replies.

After threatening to open it a few more times he fucks off into his own room and slams the door. We go to leave but realize his pickup is blocking my car in the driveway.

He comes downstairs so I say "what's up" to no reply. He slams another door on the way out, moves his truck, gets on his harley and takes off.

Get a text later saying he wants to make it very clear that I'm not allowed in the house when he's not there.

This nicca been trying to get to me to go to the gun range too.


spoiler (click to show/hide)
GF is 24 years old :mindblown  :dayum :snoop

Getting an apartment with another couple, should be moved out by next month  :pacspit
[close]
no lie I'd probably feel some type of way if my daughter was getting dicked down in my house too.

BTW what are the races involved? You black, she's a pawg? Watch your ass breh.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 03, 2015, 02:36:21 PM
True, but they aren't close and he's really just the dude her mom remarried. She doesn't view him as a father figure.

If I was black I'd already be dead. Stepdad is a tea partier. She's a petite blond with a huge ass so good guess. All parties involved are cac as fuck and that's probably why he liked me up until now.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on June 03, 2015, 08:08:40 PM
I totally missed that he's her stepdad. Over-protective father would have been bad enough, but the stepdad acting like that is giving me major creep vibes.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on June 03, 2015, 11:18:25 PM
Got tested yesterday and I'm nervous. I've been mostly safe but there's been... incidents. I'll get the results in a week and I'm freaking the fuck out even though statistically I should be ok. I was young and stupid and no, it won't happen again.

Also I got vaccinated on the same day and my arm hurts like a motherfucker.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Joe Molotov on June 04, 2015, 03:19:48 AM
Can't vaccination for the HIV, breh.  :'(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on June 04, 2015, 04:35:38 AM
Menstrual blood from PD's gaping pussy.

God damn, that's funny, coming from a Canadian academic. You've got to be the least likely Borito to become confrontationally physically violent.

(Please don't lock me in your basement, though.)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on June 04, 2015, 09:21:14 AM
Can't vaccination for the HIV, breh.  :'(

Nah it was different stuff, the normal shot you're supposed to get every 10 years or whatever.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 04, 2015, 10:24:36 AM
Stay safe Andrex. 10-60 minutes of pleasure isn't worth a lifetime of sickness.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on June 04, 2015, 11:24:16 AM
Well, obviously.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 04, 2015, 11:28:46 AM
What kind of pleasure? The ultimate pleasure? (I mean hypothetically not metaphorically.) :dayum
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 04, 2015, 08:30:00 PM
I totally missed that he's her stepdad. Over-protective father would have been bad enough, but the stepdad acting like that is giving me major creep vibes.

Yeah, creepy describes him well. Regardless, we both need to move out because living at home is a huge L.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on June 05, 2015, 02:33:37 AM
I hate my boss, she's just the most scary and confusing person I've ever worked with. Last week a coworker was obviously slacking off and probably assumed that I was going to tattle when I said that the way she times her workload obviously leaves me with finishing it up and doing more work which is a bad thing to do when we're risking falling behind our deadlines. I never tattle on lazies, I just tell them straight up and that has worked out well until now as that coworker is trying to spin it to my boss that I'm complaining about having to do the work. This has meant a lot of embarrassing conversations where I had to bluntly mention that I do more work and have exceeded my coworkers knowledge of the job in a fraction of the time (she is a SLOW learner).

On one hand, I have everyone outside my department from directors to techs saying I'm the replacement they always wanted for my lazy coworker. And on the other l, have my supervisor screaming at me to go work somewhere else if I don't like it here. It's a whole week of me :mindblown
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Positive Touch on June 05, 2015, 09:09:33 PM
capitalism :foxx


this better not fuck up my access to Cadbury eggs
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 06, 2015, 03:29:41 PM
Always suspected my dad has Asperger's making him unfit for parenthood. Found out that all my mom's friends refer to him as Asperger King (http://i.imgur.com/QgP1dEm.png)

Think that makes me the Asperger Prince
(http://i.imgur.com/r6qmbBj.gif)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 06, 2015, 03:43:40 PM
:bow your majesty :bow2

Vive le dauphin!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 06, 2015, 04:01:33 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/iM48YY8.jpg)
Huzzah!
:expert
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 12:41:38 PM
I think my new medication is working.

And without any noticeable side effects either.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 18, 2015, 12:56:19 PM
Remember a while back I posted about how I was put in charge of a doomed project that despite being underwater and sideways it has also managed to somehow set itself on fire? After weeks to being called a "bad news bear" (I wish I was joking) executive leadership is like  :ohhh "It...it looks like this is underwater and sideways, and might possibly be on fire."

:snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on June 18, 2015, 06:43:50 PM
I think my new medication is working.

And without any noticeable side effects either.

TRIUMPH thread is :thataway
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 07:00:47 PM
It's funnier if I post it here though.

And in certain respects it is a struggle. Before I could make myself utterly morose--a useful at will skill for someone easily bored--by thinking through a negative feedback loop. Now I think through the loop and nothing happens so I'm bored and reminded of shitty things.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: T-Short on June 18, 2015, 07:01:35 PM
Me and the (ex)GF's apartment is up for sale now, I'm moving out July 3:rd seems so :'(

http://objekt.fastighetsbyran.se/Objekt/?source=Hemnet&ObjektId=1381961&images=1 (http://objekt.fastighetsbyran.se/Objekt/?source=Hemnet&ObjektId=1381961&images=1)
Title: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: T-Short on June 18, 2015, 07:02:09 PM
dp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 07:05:37 PM
DP
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: T-Short on June 18, 2015, 07:10:29 PM

DP

Would be a bit of a struggle I guess, yeah
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 07:52:51 PM
Those were nice digs, H. :'(

I'd feel bad for you but I can't because of modern medicine. :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 18, 2015, 08:19:21 PM
What are you dealing with exactly? MDD?

After a year of seeing this therapist we both agreed I'm bipolar :gloomy
:scust @ these medications with their awful side effects.

Keep your head up.
(http://i.imgur.com/h7mrz5k.gif)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 08:26:18 PM
I have (had?) a treatment-resistant major depressive episode. I'm taking 5 different pills every day and shooting up an additional treatment once a week. (Respect to the intravenous drug users across the world.)

Since this is the second episode I've suffered as an adult (I had one in university), it's likely that I have MDD, but I haven't been formally diagnosed as such.

Bipolar is rough, one of my parents has it. If you're willing to be a Soviet Space Dog you can find treatment with minimal side effects. :)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 18, 2015, 08:58:43 PM
You ever try a stimulant for treatment resistant depression?

That has helped me the most, but with that there's eventual tolerance and the comedown isn't great. I think it's a good adjunct medication and it offsets some of the fatigue from taking other meds.

It does suck. Been hospitalized 3 times at least in the past 4 years.

Not feeling hopeless though, I've been on different med combinations in the past that have helped a lot.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 09:45:14 PM
I stim a lot because of my line of work. (Too much in all likelihood.) My doctor actually asked me to try and just have one serving a day if possible and monitor my sugar intake.

If I was energy sapped from a depressive cycle on the weekend or something I found stimulants to be helpful.

Glad you're keeping your head up.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on June 18, 2015, 09:50:54 PM
Mental health drugs suck. Feel bad for people on them. And it's crazy how little we know about treating
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 18, 2015, 11:15:42 PM
The nude raygun mod for New Vegas crashes my game  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 18, 2015, 11:20:16 PM
Mental health drugs suck. Feel bad for people on them. And it's crazy how little we know about treating

Until there's a way to diagnose patients without the patient's cooperation / input it will never be a very well understood field of medicine.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 21, 2015, 02:40:36 AM
A good friend of my is leaving tomorrow and I'm pretty fucking depressed.  I don't make friends easily and its going to suck without him.   
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: toku on June 21, 2015, 03:12:23 AM
ate too much meat today, feel gross  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 21, 2015, 03:20:09 AM
Friend came over and brought these fucking candles that smell horrible. She lit them in the front room and my room. Hours later the smell is still thick.
:snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: OnlyRegret on June 21, 2015, 03:53:48 AM
Saw a real cutie today, in some real nice yoga pants too.
:whew

But she was with a group and I was with some cousins.
Plus, of course, being from a conservative Asian family background...

Whole lot of nothing could of happened and neither could I make things happen. That is what I thought about then.
:fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 21, 2015, 04:26:37 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/JttEchK.jpg)
Name quote
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 21, 2015, 12:18:18 PM
don't listen 2 them, OnlyRegret

u could build a castle out of all the bricks they thru @ u

heartbreak is the national anthem, sing it proudly :preach
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Beezy on June 21, 2015, 03:55:47 PM
Just shattered my phone screen for the first time ever. All the drops that my phone took on concrete/asphalt like a pro and a fall from my bed to my wood flooring shatters the screen. :stahp

Now I'm gonna have to buy a new phone on contract and be stuck with Verizon for another 2 years. I don't even care for any of the phones available right now, so I might as well take the L and get the Galaxy S6. At least I'd finally have a smartphone with a good camera. Only other options I'd consider are the 2nd gen Moto X and the LG G4.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: OnlyRegret on June 22, 2015, 02:28:04 AM
Someday I'll be living in a big ole city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: toku on June 22, 2015, 02:39:52 AM
Just shattered my phone screen for the first time ever. All the drops that my phone took on concrete/asphalt like a pro and a fall from my bed to my wood flooring shatters the screen. :stahp

Now I'm gonna have to buy a new phone on contract and be stuck with Verizon for another 2 years. I don't even care for any of the phones available right now, so I might as well take the L and get the Galaxy S6. At least I'd finally have a smartphone with a good camera. Only other options I'd consider are the 2nd gen Moto X and the LG G4.

I had a 3Gs years ago that I absolutely beat the fuck out of. Distinct memory walking home drunk in NC and drop my phone at a major intersection in front of a cop at 2 am. It slid the whole way across the road and hit the sidewalk too. Totally fine save some scratches on the back.

Like a year later I'm drinking on new years and it drops off a kitchen counter and the screen completely shatters. Pieces actually came out.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on June 22, 2015, 07:38:55 AM
No more beer again, ever.

Totally gonna work!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on June 22, 2015, 11:25:58 AM
Got drunk and accidentally made a move on an ex-gf last night. :sabu I only tried it because she was showing obv buttlust towards me all night imo and I eventually gave in after drinking enough. Didn't pan out though, my self-sabotage powers saved me from going through with it. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on June 22, 2015, 12:40:08 PM
Okay, I'm on my morning Mio Energy buzz so I'll clarify. Due to circumstance the most recent ex-gf and I have resumed communications for the first time since we broke up almost a year ago. (edit - I broke up with her / left her for another woman. Oops.  :() There's been a slight re-kindling, which has been weirding me out since I thought we had a clean break. It's like on one hand I don't have any desire at all for us to get back together, but on the other hand I'm also horribly lonely. :larry  So anyways, she shows up last night while I'm having a few drinks with an associate and starts getting all cuddly with the dude right in front of me. Apparently they've met previously and now have some sort of thing together. He's a nice enough guy...but tbh I consider him to be my inferior so it kinda grossed me out to see her into him like that. I'm a narcissistic asshole  so my first assumption is that she's doing this to make me jealous and provoke me into making a move. But I don't play that game.  :ufup I blew it off and went home feeling like a winner.

But looking back now, I can see that instead of showing indifference like I thought, I was actually a manipulative fuck the whole time. Knowing the dude is skilled at creeping out girls, I very persuasively encouraged him to 100% follow his instincts with her. :sabu I also kept offering him drinks in a move to erode his judgement. And then when I had a moment alone with her, I teased her about it, which made her blush and deny having any romantic feelings toward him. I'm sure whatever they have will be short lived anyways, but I did my best job of ensuring it's quick demise just to satisfy my ego.  :aah

But then I fuck it all up by trying to get cozy with her after he leaves.  I can never just walk away. :shaq2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Beezy on June 22, 2015, 01:11:40 PM
 :lol
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 22, 2015, 02:19:12 PM
I love this forum.  :lol
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on June 23, 2015, 09:29:55 PM
Woke up the other day with what looks like the afterimage of a light burned into my right eye.  Went to a doctor and was told it's not a detached retina or anything series, but instead is just a big grey eye floater.  They can't do anything about it so I just have to deal with it.   :'(  Depends on what I'm looking at for how noticeable it is.  Fortunately from my experience with eye floaters and generally horrible eyesight, my brain will learn to ignore it with time.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Brehvolution on June 24, 2015, 04:56:00 PM
I got a sliver of metal in my left eye a long time ago when I worked at a metal shop. Idiot was using the grinder facing me instead of away from me. The doctor got it out with a magnet, but if I concentrate on it I can see the scar.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on June 24, 2015, 07:24:00 PM
One thing I can't even think about is having crap happen to my eyes. You guys are brave to deal with it so cavalierly.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on June 27, 2015, 09:00:46 PM
Got drunk and starting rewatching gundam wing. this is dumb

I really need to pick up a hobby
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 27, 2015, 09:27:09 PM
Did you get hyped up by all those intro posts?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on June 27, 2015, 09:29:21 PM
You watch one intro and then your 24 episodes deep and out of whiskey. where does the time go
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 28, 2015, 04:31:31 PM
The guy at the next table that's practically on top of me ordered a mimosa with no orange juice and a cup of ice. Then he asked what chicken and waffles were to his server. The struggle has never been more real.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 28, 2015, 05:49:16 PM
Mimosa no orange juice :lol it's like that guy was sat next to you on purpose :hans1
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on June 28, 2015, 06:04:12 PM
for the second time in not too long I've been approached by someone about how their friend was supposedly into me.

This makes no sense in so many ways and also if they're into me, why can't they just talk to me themselves?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 28, 2015, 07:29:59 PM
Mimosa no orange juice :lol it's like that guy was sat next to you on purpose :hans1

There was a certain mis en scene aspect to my dining experience today. :ohhh For example my server actually established continuity even though no one ever overtly does that. And she introduced herself to me. :-[
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on June 29, 2015, 04:17:52 AM
Blew it again.  :neogaf

Keep thinking about sending her another text but then remember she's probably home with her fiance by now   :mindblown

I'm going to get murdered tbh  :yeshrug


Sent it.  :larry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: recursivelyenumerable on June 30, 2015, 12:49:15 AM
I've been reading Lacan and I've convinced myself it makes sense and I'm starting to worry about myself.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on June 30, 2015, 11:35:14 AM
Went on vacation for a week.
Everything at work apparently went nuclear.
Everything is fucked so hard I can't even begin to parse.
 :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on June 30, 2015, 11:38:51 AM
Bought a used car. Paid sticker price.


 :derp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 30, 2015, 12:23:09 PM
*small three person team meeting ends*
me: Ok so make sure to email the thing to me, and outside of that we should be set
co-worker 1: ok ok. BTW Bill, you trying to get some lunch?
Bill: I'm trying to FUCK
*female coworker walks in and overhears Bill*
me: (http://i.imgur.com/u7NIZIT.png)

"I'm trying to FUCK" has somehow become a text meme amongst certain distinguished mentally-challenged fellows in the office but this was the first time it was said out loud. Comfortable young white men....
:snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: recursivelyenumerable on June 30, 2015, 12:27:22 PM
wat
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2015, 12:34:39 PM
I'm hungry and I don't know what I want
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on June 30, 2015, 12:44:03 PM
I ordered a spinach feta wrap (at Starbucks!) and thought it was really fucking good. :snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on June 30, 2015, 12:57:48 PM
co-worker 1: ok ok. BTW Bill, you trying to get some lunch?
Bill: I'm trying to FUCK

(http://i.kinja-img.com/gawker-media/image/upload/aoz8kgx8pzknypz7z38n.jpg)

:mouf
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on June 30, 2015, 07:53:03 PM
How am I supposed to finish a thesis when I can't even be trusted to not kill my PC by giving Matlab idiotic loop conditions
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2015, 08:04:32 PM
I'm so done with matlab.  Now that I know theano, its python all the way. 

What are you working on?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on June 30, 2015, 08:11:15 PM
I don't wanna talk about it as it's so basic, it's fucking embarrassing. :-(

Basically it's image analysis, and I'm only using Matlab because the data and other stuff they gave me was done in Matlab and I only wanted to try some stupid naive algorithm quickly.

In the end, it worked after some insane overfitting, which makes it completely worthless :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2015, 08:12:18 PM
Your in CS then?  Phd or Masters?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on June 30, 2015, 08:14:23 PM
Some weird combination of CS/EE, which simply means that I wasted time on EE when all I wanna know is CS.

Second Bachelor's. Got a B.A. in a completely unrelated field a few years earlier.

The joys of "free" college education.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2015, 08:16:27 PM
O undergrad thesis  *snubs nose
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Van Cruncheon on June 30, 2015, 08:18:00 PM
i have a masters in cs and a bachelors in english and neither have proved quite as useful as my winning personality*

spoiler (click to show/hide)
lack of gag reflex :lawd
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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2015, 08:21:34 PM
i have a masters in cs and a bachelors in cs/philosophy and another bachelors in linguistics and none have proved quite as useful as I hoped. 
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If only I could deep throat. 
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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on June 30, 2015, 08:22:33 PM
At least I have chicken.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 30, 2015, 09:05:10 PM
I have a sushi girl who doesn't think I'm gay. :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2015, 09:18:15 PM
Then invite her to your gay wedding
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: nudemacusers on June 30, 2015, 10:17:15 PM
tfw your waifu watches the show you were watching on netflix on  your profile and now you can't remember which episode you left off on  :'(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on June 30, 2015, 10:24:31 PM
Some weird combination of CS/EE, which simply means that I wasted time on EE when all I wanna know is CS.

Second Bachelor's. Got a B.A. in a completely unrelated field a few years earlier.

The joys of "free" college education.

I wish I had paid more attention to my EE classes, they ended up being a lot more useful than I gave them credit for.

Then again I do a lot of systems level programming, if you're one of those pansy web developers using javascript I can see why you wouldn't need it
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 01, 2015, 03:55:44 AM
Some weird combination of CS/EE, which simply means that I wasted time on EE when all I wanna know is CS.

Second Bachelor's. Got a B.A. in a completely unrelated field a few years earlier.

The joys of "free" college education.

I wish I had paid more attention to my EE classes, they ended up being a lot more useful than I gave them credit for.

Then again I do a lot of systems level programming, if you're one of those pansy web developers using javascript I can see why you wouldn't need it

Not much of a developer at all. And yeah, I'll probably need EE somewhere down the road, I'm just not made for it. Something just shuts down when voltages and currents and fields come into play.

Also, I wish I had been better in my early math classes. Fucking matrices man. Still feeling the effects of not being good with them years later.

My thesis is in the area of medical applications, if it works out. Although, like I said, super basic stuff.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 01, 2015, 11:12:58 AM
I took math for granted too and now I'm doing machine learning stuff that requires it and I feel so dumb. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 01, 2015, 12:21:04 PM
tfw your waifu watches the show you were watching on netflix on  your profile and now you can't remember which episode you left off on  :'(

:( you gotta have different profiles. We have one for me, one for my wife, one for the kiddo, one for when the wife and I are watching together, and one for full family viewin

If you have that and she's using your profile, it might be time to toss her in the bushes, tbqh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 01, 2015, 12:45:29 PM
:kobeyuck
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 01, 2015, 12:52:35 PM
Couldn't you just put some sort of password lock on the device so she can't use it when you're not around?  ???
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 01, 2015, 12:54:47 PM
Couldn't you just put some sort of password lock on the device so she can't use it when you're not around?  ???

You're not married, are you?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 01, 2015, 12:57:15 PM
That's the great thing about a life of solitude. Never having to share. It's all mine. :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 01, 2015, 01:03:37 PM
Especially your hopes, dreams, fears, and insecurities. :jawalrus

spoiler (click to show/hide)
:brazilcry
[close]

OT: I couldn't take one of mah peelz this morning because I didn't count on teh free marketZzz being unable to supply me with them in 36 hours and I am fucking nutso this morning. Missed my exit on the 5 even. The worst thing is that these are both my most expensive scrip and the pills I am most skeptical about the efficacy of. (No relation.)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 01, 2015, 01:28:22 PM
Only liking the first part of that post.

Pill brutha, which pill do you speak of? Is it thy capsules? Spherical or elongated? Color of the sun or the sea?
:expert

WAT PILSS IS IT :drool
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 01, 2015, 01:40:26 PM
Deplin, which its manufacturer categorized as a medical supplement instead of a medicine to circumvent FDA testing.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 01, 2015, 01:53:42 PM
Sounds different, kind of a folate supplement?

That should be reassuring in a sense, that you're doubtful it's improving your symptoms so being without it for a day or two isn't likely to worsen things :idont

I'm sure you have experienced the type of med where just missing one dose wreaks havoc. Hopefully, this isn't the case and you're just stressin (understandably tho).
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on July 01, 2015, 02:26:32 PM
waiting for this fucking company to finalize their details and give me a fucking offer.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on July 01, 2015, 02:56:06 PM
Ordered a laser printer on amazon along with a $7 3 year square trade warranty. Got charged $14 for it though on the invoice so now I'm contacting their customer service.

Btw how does square trade make money? I imagine a lot of people  accidentally dropping their phones and tablets when the new model comes out.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 01, 2015, 07:41:15 PM
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The goddamn ship is sinking and I need to get off it soon. :goty

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 01, 2015, 07:52:04 PM
Every time I think of a great new idea I find out its been done already...in a paper I read a week ago.  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on July 01, 2015, 08:49:52 PM
Had to spend most of the day yesterday with my wife's sister.  Was not a pleasant experience.  Basically every time we've met on this trip, she acts like this:

"HURRY UP AND HAVE A BABY.  AREN'T YOU CONCERNED ABOUT HER HEALTH AND AGE?  HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOU AT ALL HE ONLY CARES ABOUT HIMSELF.  HURRY UP AND DIVORCE ALREADY.  WHY ARE YOU HERE WITH US?  WHY ARE YOU FOLLOWING US?  GO AWAY I WANT TO TALK TO MY SISTER NOT YOU."

Pretty much over and over again.  Mind you I can't even get a word in edgewise, it's literally like I go "Hi!" and then get blasted for several hours non-stop.  The last thing she said to me yesterday after giving me a death stare was "GET A DIVORCE" and then she ignored her beloved sister and sped off in her car as quickly and loudly as possible.

This is pretty typical behavior from her.  She's a total bitch.  I can understand her wanting a niece but the way she verbalizes it is completely wrong.  I really, really feel for her current boyfriend, who I suspect will not be together with her for much longer based on how her previous relationships have turned out.  They've been dating for two months and she's already talking about marriage and having a baby.  The poor guy...his grandfather just passed and we were told he was pretty broken up with it.  Rather than go spend time with the guy, my wife's sister went shopping instead.  Such a caring person.   :lol :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 01, 2015, 09:04:14 PM
Sounds different, kind of a folate supplement?

That should be reassuring in a sense, that you're doubtful it's improving your symptoms so being without it for a day or two isn't likely to worsen things :idont

I'm sure you have experienced the type of med where just missing one dose wreaks havoc. Hopefully, this isn't the case and you're just stressin (understandably tho).

Yeah, something like that. I have the folate defect.

RE medication: not really until my current regimen. One of the silver linings to being treatment-resistant is that meds just take some of the edge off, they don't actually make you better so if you discontinue them suddenly it's just what you always felt but worse. When I had my first episode in my early 20s I had to stop treatment suddenly because I lost insurance and was too skint to pay out of pocket and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

Anyway, my core medication relieves the unipolarity completely but in its place it gives me a pseudo bipolarity which tbh I'm not cut out for enduring. I'd rather have consistent shitfeels than unpredictable severe shitfeels. I suppose this is a somewhat "normal" emotional pattern, but I'm pretty gassed at this point and it seems worse than it is.

Fuck my fucking life.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: nudemacusers on July 01, 2015, 09:31:04 PM
tfw your waifu watches the show you were watching on netflix on  your profile and now you can't remember which episode you left off on  :'(

:( you gotta have different profiles. We have one for me, one for my wife, one for the kiddo, one for when the wife and I are watching together, and one for full family viewin

If you have that and she's using your profile, it might be time to toss her in the bushes, tbqh
profile boundaries are neither honored nor respected in this house.  :'(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Van Cruncheon on July 01, 2015, 10:26:31 PM
tfw your waifu watches the show you were watching on netflix on  your profile and now you can't remember which episode you left off on  :'(

:( you gotta have different profiles. We have one for me, one for my wife, one for the kiddo, one for when the wife and I are watching together, and one for full family viewin

If you have that and she's using your profile, it might be time to toss her in the bushes, tbqh
profile boundaries are neither honored nor respected in this house.  :'(

profile polywatchers, SCUST

i feel your struggle  :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on July 03, 2015, 08:25:44 AM
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The goddamn ship is sinking and I need to get off it soon. :goty

Dude, how have the owners not figured out what a crap show they're running? You'd think, if they were interested in the future, they'd put some effort into keeping staff.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 03, 2015, 12:46:23 PM
Efficiency-Wage Theory 2: This deals with wages and nutrition.  It is believed that workers who have a higher salary can afford to eat more healthily and thus become more productive.

:rofl :rofl :rofl
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on July 04, 2015, 12:03:14 PM
Well being on the other side of earth, setting up a party at a bar for all of us as we're going home from our internship, as you learn your grandma's partner through the last 10 years or so has died wasn't nice. :fbm

Honestly could care less about most of my family, minus her and my parents, so really sucks that I can't be there for the funeral or anything. He was a really nice guy, even if I was never too close with him.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 05, 2015, 03:06:40 PM
Fucked up an iTunes library migration and deleted ~40 gigs of music. My 320 kbps music library :rejoice :expert

My wonder of the world in ruins (http://i.imgur.com/cS0KWHn.png)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 05, 2015, 03:50:05 PM
Got wasted and stepped on my glasses. They're bent now. I'm also out of contact lenses so now I get to walk around with bent ass glasses on my face for a few days. :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 05, 2015, 03:54:26 PM
Can't you just bend them back into shape?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 05, 2015, 03:55:22 PM
320 kbps :mjlol:
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 05, 2015, 03:57:27 PM
Can't you just bend them back into shape?

I tried but they're way fucked up.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 05, 2015, 04:31:12 PM
There's always the use your older glasses option.

Assuming your vision hasn't tanked .

Only pair of glasses I own. I have no contingency plan for anything. Just have to count on nothing going wrong ever or else I'm fucked.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 05, 2015, 04:40:07 PM
Only pair of glasses I own. I have no contingency plan for anything. Just have to count on nothing going wrong ever or else I'm fucked.
Dirtperson habits. :respect
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 05, 2015, 04:42:06 PM
Order some contacts from continental Europe, they work 'em pretty hard in Romania and you get your order quick.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on July 05, 2015, 04:48:14 PM
I actually do order my contacts from europe now since my old rx expired
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 05, 2015, 04:53:10 PM
Same. Circumventing artificial impediments to the market. :rock Hack the planet. :rock Death to guild monopolies. :rock
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on July 05, 2015, 09:49:36 PM
Procrastinated again this weekend.  I did some work, just not anywhere near what I was planning on doing.  It's so hard for me to give a fuck these days; once the opportunities for advancement washed away where I work, so did my work ethic.  It's been pretty much an eight and skate affair for the past two months.  Not even Mio Energy can save me.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 05, 2015, 11:17:40 PM
Managed to bend them back into a mostly wearable state. You can barely even notice. Maybe it's all going to be okay after all. :aah
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 06, 2015, 12:12:16 PM
Wow, I feel fucking awful.  :-\

Since yesterday it feels like dread, grief, and sadness have burrowed into my stomach.

I guess it's post-drinking blues amplified by a bunch of other shit.


Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 06, 2015, 12:14:08 PM
How did your thing go with the cosplay girl?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 06, 2015, 12:41:02 PM
How did your thing go with the cosplay girl?
I chatted with her briefly a couple of times and added her as a facebook friend the next day. That's it.

She's waaay to into cosplay and anime/cartoons that I can't stomach it. And if it weren't for that, I feel like my personality and her's are too different. She's much more outgoing and I'm very reserved.

And what this whole thing reminded me of is that I really should be branching out and meeting more people on my own instead of just waiting for a friend to invite me to a party.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 07, 2015, 12:10:10 AM
Atra are you me?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on July 07, 2015, 12:15:58 AM
job that i went to NYC for last week to get hired is now having to postpone onboarding me until they settle a client issue on their end. they say it probably will take a few weeks.

waiting  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on July 07, 2015, 12:42:18 AM
How did your thing go with the cosplay girl?
I chatted with her briefly a couple of times and added her as a facebook friend the next day. That's it.

She's waaay to into cosplay and anime/cartoons that I can't stomach it. And if it weren't for that, I feel like my personality and her's are too different. She's much more outgoing and I'm very reserved.

And what this whole thing reminded me of is that I really should be branching out and meeting more people on my own instead of just waiting for a friend to invite me to a party.

Did she look like this?
http://i.imgur.com/K9MSP1d.mp4
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: El Babua on July 07, 2015, 04:12:20 AM
Got really light headed walking to my car to head to the gym tonight, then again later when I was playing vidya, was fighting Martyr Logarius in Bloodborne and still beat him. :expert

Felt like I was gonna fall and pass out.

Worried now since I had a small bout of light headedness this past Friday. With maybe a few more in between. sigh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 07, 2015, 12:40:25 PM
How did your thing go with the cosplay girl?
I chatted with her briefly a couple of times and added her as a facebook friend the next day. That's it.

She's waaay to into cosplay and anime/cartoons that I can't stomach it. And if it weren't for that, I feel like my personality and her's are too different. She's much more outgoing and I'm very reserved.

And what this whole thing reminded me of is that I really should be branching out and meeting more people on my own instead of just waiting for a friend to invite me to a party.

Did she look like this?
http://i.imgur.com/K9MSP1d.mp4
Yes, except she's a bit younger, much more gothy, and has eyes you can drown in.  :noah

edit: And she's single as well.  :noah
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 07, 2015, 12:57:56 PM
Probably a heart condition, Bobby.

As for me, I can't fucking get to sleep. I've been lying in bed for over 90 minutes now. Gotta decide if I want to take a quick walk to 7/11 and pick up an alcohol assist.

Not having alcohol next to your bed :ufup
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 07, 2015, 01:00:49 PM
Probably a heart condition, Bobby.

As for me, I can't fucking get to sleep. I've been lying in bed for over 90 minutes now. Gotta decide if I want to take a quick walk to 7/11 and pick up an alcohol assist.

Not having alcohol next to your bed :ufup

Having booze at arm's reach for a morning after drink in bed when u wake up  :lawd
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Take My Breh Away on July 09, 2015, 11:12:32 AM
Waiting more than two years for vital ENT appointment to get prescribed steroids for a left nose blockage as specialist and standard GP's can't perscribe them. There's a nasal spray that has some relief but it means I wake up every morning with the taste of blood in my mouth. Humid days make it completely close over and give headaches, my sense of smell is vastly reduced and my left eye now twitches. Can't do anything emergency wise unless it starts severely obstructing my breathing.

Called them again. Still on the waiting list and will be months before I'm seen.

Public Healthcare when it fucks up :tocry

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Public healthcare when it works :rejoice
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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 09, 2015, 11:26:42 AM
Sounds awful, do you have any gray market options in the interim?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 09, 2015, 11:55:41 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/0ysaAX1.png)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 10, 2015, 12:00:40 AM
Bruh...
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 10, 2015, 12:14:44 AM
What happens in part 4 to 7?  If its anything like Starwars those are the best parts.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 10, 2015, 12:27:20 AM
Bruh...

It's what I get for watching one of his videos posted here. :snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 10, 2015, 12:41:07 AM
Oh, ha. My comment was directed towards the guy making the YouTube vids.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 10, 2015, 12:49:00 AM
Some YT comments calling him a black Elliot Rodger :kobeyuck
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Yeti on July 10, 2015, 12:51:29 AM
I was cringing hard enough when I saw how many videos he had made, then I noticed the length  :kobeyuck
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: PlayDat on July 10, 2015, 01:20:51 AM
Why I always right-click > open link in incognito window for suspect looking links like that one.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: nudemacusers on July 10, 2015, 01:33:44 AM
I was cringing hard enough when I saw how many videos he had made, then I noticed the length  :kobeyuck
:flabbypd
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on July 10, 2015, 01:36:57 AM
Is that guy have a self-loathing black man problem or something? I'm afraid my pity limit won't let me look at something with those titles.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: mormapope on July 10, 2015, 01:40:15 AM
Naw, the dude is actually a black Elliot Rodger, he talks about women like they're some sort of dark fantasy creature.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 10, 2015, 02:10:03 AM
Why I always right-click > open link in incognito window for suspect looking links like that one.

The only thing I fear is waking up tomorrow. :preach
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 10, 2015, 04:06:07 AM
Went to a industry drinking event. Talked to some cute girl for a bit, then a dude who doesn't work on games but is a lawyer and way taller and handsomer than me swooped in. Douche!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on July 10, 2015, 04:57:15 AM
Went to a industry drinking event. Talked to some cute girl for a bit, then a dude who doesn't work on games but is a lawyer and way taller and handsomer than me swooped in. Douche!

You should have grabbed a chair, stood on it, and headbutted him.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: toku on July 10, 2015, 05:24:30 AM
How did your thing go with the cosplay girl?
I chatted with her briefly a couple of times and added her as a facebook friend the next day. That's it.

She's waaay to into cosplay and anime/cartoons that I can't stomach it. And if it weren't for that, I feel like my personality and her's are too different. She's much more outgoing and I'm very reserved.

And what this whole thing reminded me of is that I really should be branching out and meeting more people on my own instead of just waiting for a friend to invite me to a party.

Did she look like this?
http://i.imgur.com/K9MSP1d.mp4
Yes, except she's a bit younger, much more gothy, and has eyes you can drown in.  :noah

edit: And she's single as well.  :noah

You can do better =)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 10, 2015, 06:33:27 AM
Wanting to treat bipolar like it's a joke, but the punch line is too real. Getting KO'd by my own brain. Too flab for the jab.

Can't hold a job or stay in school long enough :neogaf :snoop

This post might be too :holeup even for the struggle thread, but I ain't trying to dip on life or KevinCow ya'll.

When life is good :lawd
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Take My Breh Away on July 10, 2015, 07:31:43 AM
Sounds awful, do you have any gray market options in the interim?

None, really. Can't afford health insurance at the mo' so ended up trying a Polish clinic which were pretty legit and cheap. Couldn't get anything out of em' outside of a cheap scan that showed there was likely no surgery required. They refused to prescribe anything stronger even though they said it was treatable with oral steroids and would only leave that decision up to the hospital. They wrote a recomendation letter I was seen sooner but no go.

Though I got a letter this morning saying I was on the waiting list for so long they are going to place me at another hospital to get seen sooner. So maybe light at the end of the tunnel soon. :yeshrug
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 10, 2015, 11:17:34 AM
I fucked up with my dog today and I feel awful.  They were testing the fire alarm and my land lord said it would be brief, instead they have set it off 10 fucking times.  I should have told them to let me know when they were going to do it so I could have gotten her out.  Now that she is freaked out I can't take her outside.  My dog is seriously breaking my heart.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 10, 2015, 11:36:49 AM
I blocked the underpart of my bed so she couldn't hid.  She's been under my desk sitting with her face to the wall for a half hour  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 10, 2015, 11:40:18 AM
Nami, hang in there. ;_;
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on July 10, 2015, 01:27:28 PM
Is there anything that can be done to address this kind of behavior?  Would it be bad to just put her outside in a fenced area or something?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: jakefromstatefarm on July 10, 2015, 08:24:32 PM
got let go from a part time job :shaq2

was debating whether to talk to someone about it or internalize the failure, decided to compromise and post in on thebore. two birds etc.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 11, 2015, 02:09:05 AM
Went to a industry drinking event. Talked to some cute girl for a bit, then a dude who doesn't work on games but is a lawyer and way taller and handsomer than me swooped in. Douche!

You should have grabbed a chair, stood on it, and headbutted him.

Well she accepted my FB friend request and from her picture history she went to prom with a neckbearded dude with a pony tail and a fedora, so I think I still have a slight chance!

In real struggle news, today was my last day at my job. I left my "key" to the building on my desk. Got home and realized I left the key to my apartment building not to the office. Fuck.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 11, 2015, 02:22:16 PM
Executive leadership has gotten to the point where they realize the project is a lost cause like I've been telling them since I got there 9 weeks ago and are starting to distance themselves leaving me as the fall guy.

:brazilcry

Little do they know I'm already interviewing at other places.
 :jawalrus
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 11, 2015, 03:42:17 PM
Sorry jake.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on July 11, 2015, 03:57:26 PM
Executive leadership has gotten to the point where they realize the project is a lost cause like I've been telling them since I got there 9 weeks ago and are starting to distance themselves leaving me as the fall guy.

:brazilcry

Little do they know I'm already interviewing at other places.
 :jawalrus

I've been there.  Two years ago there was some project that was doomed from the start that me and three other managers worked on.  I was told that since I was the low guy on the totem pole that I was going to take the hit.  The VP of the department wound up pinning it on another manager, resulting in his early retirement.  That's why I have a bunch of emergency reserve cash and I save and invest a lot of my money: there may be a time where I have to bounce and I don't want to get stressed out about it.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 12, 2015, 04:30:36 PM
I have a "table" at my Sunday brunch alt cafe and sitting somewhere else is "mixing it up today."

At least they got rid of my regular cocktail so I can't have a "drink" too.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: dkdk on July 12, 2015, 04:39:14 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/0ysaAX1.png)

this breh spend all his money on fitted and snapbacks?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 14, 2015, 09:46:42 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/MT6Tz0T.png)

 :gloomy :gloomy :gloomy
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on July 14, 2015, 11:50:14 AM
I'm on like day 3 of a hangover. This needs to stop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 14, 2015, 12:27:31 PM
Struggle/triumph crossover: injured my knee pretty severely due to a mishap, could barely walk a couple days ago and it's still fucked up bad but I'm doing better. I can limp really fast now.  8) But more importantly I scored some pills (not from the doctor, obv) and between that, the weed and the booze I've been feeling amazing. Off work today, might just stay in bed all day in a semi-comatose state. Maybe The Lord is finally ready to take me away. :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 14, 2015, 01:54:12 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/MT6Tz0T.png)

 :gloomy :gloomy :gloomy

So uh, instead of stupidly implementing something myself, I should've just looked for the matlab function.

From 300 to 3 seconds in one line. 99% speedup.


Plus the function is called CUMSUM :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 14, 2015, 03:48:13 PM
got let go from a part time job :shaq2

was debating whether to talk to someone about it or internalize the failure, decided to compromise and post in on thebore. two birds etc.
sorry to hear that man. Damn.

time to grind those IT certs
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 14, 2015, 04:17:02 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/MT6Tz0T.png)

 :gloomy :gloomy :gloomy

So uh, instead of stupidly implementing something myself, I should've just looked for the matlab function.

From 300 to 3 seconds in one line. 99% speedup.


Plus the function is called CUMSUM :rejoice

Ya if your function is general but has to be written with a loop, there is usually a fast matlab built in for it.  So many loops were removed when I found 'diff'.   
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Steve Contra on July 14, 2015, 06:47:29 PM
Somebody new fucked something up and now they're ducking me so I can't tell them how to fix it before it's too late and they'll be in actual deep shit :stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Steve Contra on July 14, 2015, 07:04:26 PM
Now I have to destroy them :stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on July 14, 2015, 07:07:44 PM
Now I have to destroy them :stahp

YAY! You get to educate them about personal responsibility.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 14, 2015, 08:50:37 PM
Now I have to destroy them :stahp

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xKaXfsfgYg
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 15, 2015, 01:06:58 AM
Got written up because I refused to throw the client under a bus for an honest mistake they made.
Seems like I'm the only one that remembers the client is the one who pays us and you don't maintain relationships by straining them.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 16, 2015, 12:15:10 AM
Why did Git become the dominant versioning client for software. Shit just makes my head hurt it ways P4 and SVN never did.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Van Cruncheon on July 16, 2015, 12:15:41 AM
my precious, precious gm boss was replaced on tuesday by the veep's fave lieutenant/rent boy from his previous role. dude has never managed an engineering org before.

fuck dis corporate game of thrones, my stark brehs. :tocry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 16, 2015, 12:17:25 AM
Got written up because I refused to throw the client under a bus for an honest mistake they made.
Seems like I'm the only one that remembers the client is the one who pays us and you don't maintain relationships by straining them.

I've never survived a writeup, hope u do bae. :-*
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 16, 2015, 12:18:50 AM
Just got to become who you were always meant to be Drinky; mother of bad dragons. 

Also git is awesome.  Github is so fucking good. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 16, 2015, 12:52:20 AM
Why did Git become the dominant versioning client for software. Shit just makes my head hurt it ways P4 and SVN never did.

Like, five years ago.

It can be a pain sometimes but it's still pretty great. :yeshrug

Edit- GitHub is indeed fucking awesome. :aah
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 16, 2015, 12:56:13 AM
Got written up because I refused to throw the client under a bus for an honest mistake they made.
Seems like I'm the only one that remembers the client is the one who pays us and you don't maintain relationships by straining them.

I've never survived a writeup, hope u do bae. :-*
Had a big follow up about it. Argued my case that if we can't help the client why are we even doing business with them and that clients hire us to do make their jobs easy and painless and we were doing neither.
They were like
 :leon
I survive :rejoice

But am still on this project and even more cemented in because "it's obvious we can't run this without you" I was hoping they'd kick me off. :goty
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 17, 2015, 12:30:23 AM
Ran out of food at home so I decided to grab a take and bake pizza pie on the way back after work. Stores were already closed. Was super psyched to crush it but I forgot about it in the oven and it got fuckin scorched. Had to force myself to eat a few slices of black pizza so I wouldn't have to starve.  This is my life.  :clap

Also basically broke and out of weed and pills. :neogaf @ me 4 bothering to wake up in the morning.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 17, 2015, 12:42:19 AM
I had a day like that once. I've only been comparably crushed emotionally a few times in my life.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 17, 2015, 01:24:00 AM
Forcing yourself to eat failed food attempts due to hunger or pride :lawd

One time I tried to recreate an awesome camp stew at home. The stew consisted of various vegetables, beef chunks, seasonings, pancake mix, and some other shit I still don't remember. I used too much pancake mix and created the nastiest shit I've ever produced in a kitchen. Having blown most of my food budget I had to eat a bowl of that shit; no matter how much creole seasoning I dumped in it still tastes bland and dry. I couldn't admit defeat tho.

College struggles :brazilcry
 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on July 17, 2015, 03:56:46 AM
Over night shifts are the worst. Good luck trying to teach me how to use all these different systems when I'm delirious
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 17, 2015, 09:02:34 PM
Someone texted me on accident asking if I was going to be home for dinner, which I left alone to save them face, and then they sent a "whoops, my bad" text with an Android smiley in it hours later--as if I could possibly imagine someone wanting me home for dinner tonight. :goty
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 17, 2015, 09:23:54 PM
Damn them for planting that dream in your head.  When the kind nurse holds your hand as you take your last breath your mind will wonder to the dinner date that never was but could have been.

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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Van Cruncheon on July 18, 2015, 12:30:16 AM
Just got to become who you were always meant to be Drinky; mother of bad dragons. 

Also git is awesome.  Github is so fucking good. 

as i told my boss as he was shuffled off to "special projects": "dude, you may be fucking ned, but i'm sansa." :tocry

edit: just realized my new boss's name is one vowel away from "joffrey".

THE STRUGGLE. THE STRUGGLE. :dead
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 18, 2015, 01:05:08 AM
There's a mariachi band in my backyard playing, I had to park blocks away, and my absinthe glass that had been drying is missing along with virtually all my other dishes. You know nothing of struggle Drinky Snow.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 18, 2015, 09:57:51 AM
Just got to become who you were always meant to be Drinky; mother of bad dragons. 

Also git is awesome.  Github is so fucking good. 

as i told my boss as he was shuffled off to "special projects": "dude, you may be fucking ned, but i'm sansa." :tocry

edit: just realized my new boss's name is one vowel away from "joffrey".

THE STRUGGLE. THE STRUGGLE. :dead

Book Sansa or TV rape victim Sansa?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 18, 2015, 11:09:57 AM
Your silence says everything Drinky.  Its OK.  We'll get through this. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 18, 2015, 04:03:40 PM
Your silence says everything Drinky.  Its OK.  We'll get through this.

So who gets to be Ramsay??  :phil
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 18, 2015, 04:09:54 PM
We'll just have to take turns
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 18, 2015, 07:05:25 PM
Cooked with fish sauce

Smell like fish sauce
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on July 19, 2015, 02:18:25 PM
First real pay check :ahh

Going to straight to the credit card debt. Zero in savings. 6 figures in loans  :'(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Joe Molotov on July 19, 2015, 03:34:39 PM
Your silence says everything Drinky.  Its OK.  We'll get through this.

So who gets to be Ramsay??  :phil

(http://i.imgur.com/CXOd2rl.jpg)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 19, 2015, 03:41:15 PM
I wish there was more Ramsay on Netflix. :'(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on July 20, 2015, 12:08:25 PM
My pay (and that of all my coworkers under the same status) is now 12 days late, which is a travesty considering we are already paid around the 10 of each month and that we received numerous communications from above that dates would be upheld. The company I am working for has currently lapsed back under legal protection and should change owners in a few days which could involve legal shenanigans for my upcoming wage...

Also atmosphere is lousy, half the fulltime employee force will probably be jobless by next month, supervision has become non-existent.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 20, 2015, 12:11:06 PM
I wish there was more Ramsay on Netflix. :'(

I want more Master Chef (international versions)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on July 20, 2015, 01:41:18 PM
Came into work today to find that all but one other guy had called out "sick" this morning.  That was not a fun morning.   :lol  More people are here now but it was a nightmare earlier.  I volunteered to start working early and now get to leave 30 minutes early because of it.  Gonna be awesome, wish I could do that every day.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 20, 2015, 01:57:37 PM
Came into work today to find that all but one other guy had called out "sick" this morning.  That was not a fun morning.   :lol  More people are here now but it was a nightmare earlier.  I volunteered to start working early and now get to leave 30 minutes early because of it.  Gonna be awesome, wish I could do that every day.

What kind of work is it?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on July 20, 2015, 02:07:35 PM
I work at a Help Desk that supports law firms.  Mondays can get pretty bad in the morning, but when you have pretty much nobody there to actually even answer the phones, it's a real problem.   :lol  I'm not even supposed to be taking calls in my current role but had to do so since it was just me and one other guy there for a couple of hours.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 20, 2015, 02:17:45 PM
:kobeyuck Sounds like hell.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on July 20, 2015, 03:28:05 PM
Eh, been here long enough that none of this shit phases me anymore.  Shortly after I started here, there was a massive ice storm that shut down the city for a week.  I was one of the poor schmucks who still made it into work every day.  I was a n00b and still one of like 2-3 people handling stuff every day.  Now I have a ton of experience and can handle shit left and right.  Still sucks seeing a queue loaded with calls that have been sitting there for 30+ minutes minutes though.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 20, 2015, 09:30:26 PM
I was asked if I'd done anything fun lately.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 20, 2015, 10:50:10 PM
I honestly don't think I've ever had fun in my life.  It sounds pretty great though. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 20, 2015, 10:56:34 PM
Ask Sushi Girl for a date and have your dog with you when you do :itagaki
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 20, 2015, 10:57:08 PM
I honestly don't think I've ever had fun in my life.  It sounds pretty great though.

I had fun once, it was nothing special. Being miserable is way cooler.  8)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 20, 2015, 11:46:17 PM
Ask Sushi Girl for a date and have your dog with you when you do :itagaki

Who will crash and burn harder, Arvie with Sushi Girl or me with Flannel Girl Mk II. :gladbron
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 21, 2015, 12:03:41 AM
edit: midnight shit post
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 21, 2015, 12:27:36 AM
Ask Sushi Girl for a date and have your dog with you when you do :itagaki

Who will crash and burn harder, Arvie with Sushi Girl or me with Flannel Girl Mk II. :gladbron

He has little dog swag. Got any pets?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 21, 2015, 12:58:40 AM
Peeves.  :idont
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 21, 2015, 08:01:45 AM
Realized I've wasted my chance to die at 27.

My life has lost its purpose.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 21, 2015, 09:54:59 AM
There are other nice number and dates to go out on.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 21, 2015, 10:01:04 AM
I'm aiming for 95 so I can molest young nurses and not go to jail.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on July 21, 2015, 11:25:10 AM
Realized I've wasted my chance to die at 27.

My life has lost its purpose.

There's still 33.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 21, 2015, 02:01:17 PM
I'm left handed and been buying white lighters all year but I'm already half way through being 27. Must be the lack of fame and talent.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 21, 2015, 02:17:14 PM
Dying at 27 would have been way too cliche for me.  8)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 21, 2015, 02:19:21 PM
I missed 23 but there's still 32. There are no rules anywhere, Eris reigns supreme. :preach
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on July 21, 2015, 02:50:06 PM
I feel bad for people that died at 27. They missed out on that part of life where you *actually* stop giving a fuck what people think.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on July 21, 2015, 05:27:00 PM
Having been 30 for just a few months, it's been much better so far than most of my 20s.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 21, 2015, 05:27:53 PM
I kinda do give less of a shit.

The only question is whether my not giving a shit can outrun my hair loss!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 21, 2015, 06:30:02 PM
Accidentally spent a stone in PAD to continue when I didn't want to.  It was on the dungeon that gives a tone of +eggs too so I was going to use that stone to refill my stamina.  Fuck this gay earth. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 22, 2015, 03:30:42 PM
My therapist is a total babe: mature, smart, and sexy. I know this is wrong, but it feels so right. Could talk to her for hours and I have her laughing every session.

This woman, brehs :whew

Too bad she's married, but what if it's an unhappy marriage? :ohhh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 22, 2015, 03:31:35 PM
Soprano that shit.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 22, 2015, 04:25:47 PM
Haven't watched The Sopranos yet, but chill bro, I just subscribed to HBO Now :bow2

Think I catch your drift though. I'm gonna make her feel young again :-*
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 22, 2015, 04:45:01 PM
My therapist is a total babe: mature, smart, and sexy. I know this is wrong, but it feels so right. Could talk to her for hours and I have her laughing every session.

This woman, brehs :whew

Too bad she's married, but what if it's an unhappy marriage? :ohhh

Yeah, well my therapist went, "Oh wow... :goty2" in my last session when I was completely honest about something I thought. :smug
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 22, 2015, 04:48:47 PM
That ambiguity :jawalrus

You tell her you want to bone?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 22, 2015, 04:56:14 PM
He told her he wanted to be the water in her Mio.

Or maya if she's of Arabic descent.
(http://i.imgur.com/fr1d814.png)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 22, 2015, 05:01:27 PM
Like I would use a diglossic pronunciation of water.  :yuck

E: I told them something I don't want to repeat here, hence the ambiguity.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 22, 2015, 05:10:40 PM
"doggone Asian people sounding like they're singing all the time when they speak to you"

- my mother, after a phone conversation with an Asian friend of hers.

:snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 22, 2015, 05:14:25 PM
Manager fucked up on client quantity for shipment.
Gave an entire season's worth of shit they use as an estimate for a truckload.

So basically this dude about to get almost 4 times the amount he needs in a day.
And it's all my fault despite me not doing a thing.
 :fbm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 22, 2015, 05:32:37 PM
Having to tiptoe around shit because of 5150 potential  :yuck

Nah, it wasn't that, but (no benji) fuck the state for passing that stupid law. A practitioner shouldn't be able to ruin your life when you're a risk to no one but yourself.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 22, 2015, 06:06:33 PM
If I'm understanding that law right, NY is similar. Sharing your suicide plans with your practitioner = concerned freakout and admittance to the nearest hospital :gddr5

Suicidal ideation is A-OK though :piss2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 23, 2015, 05:36:47 AM
Haven't been able to sleep past few nights. At least not until 7-8AM.  Time to just embrace it, not even gonna try to nod off. Who needs sleep anyways. :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 23, 2015, 01:47:11 PM
Manager fucked up on client quantity for shipment.
Gave an entire season's worth of shit they use as an estimate for a truckload.

So basically this dude about to get almost 4 times the amount he needs in a day.
And it's all my fault despite me not doing a thing.
 :fbm
Day 2 of being a whipping boy
 :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry

I need a new job.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 23, 2015, 02:22:53 PM
"doggone Asian people sounding like they're singing all the time when they speak to you"

- my mother, after a phone conversation with an Asian friend of hers.

:snoop

be black and yet still racist as hell brehs
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 23, 2015, 03:26:59 PM
My therapist is a total babe: mature, smart, and sexy. I know this is wrong, but it feels so right. Could talk to her for hours and I have her laughing every session.

This woman, brehs :whew

Too bad she's married, but what if it's an unhappy marriage? :ohhh

Being attracted to a therapist seems fkin wrong, bruh. Although it does seem a bit odd you get her to laugh.

Probably one of those uncomfortable laughters, tho. You're too enamored with her looks to notice. :hitler

Edit: oh shit, I just remember I had a young therapist long ago. I think I was attracted to her. At least, I thought she was attractive/beautiful. She was absolutely stunning. Beautiful, virtually flawless round face. Very nice curly hair, in a brown or dark red kind of color. Slim. And possibly busty but I can't quite remember those details.

No laughing, though.

(http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/sadbron.png)

Nah I'm not that spergy, I can tell the difference. I'm good at charming older women and I say that without irony in a genuine douche kind of way.

We get off topic a lot and just shoot the shit about life and we were cracking up about this dumb billboard with a flabby shirtless dude targeting men to join Yoga.

It's not self-deprecating laughter either or like it's happening at inappropriate topic times (though that would be funny af having her laugh at my troubles).

She thinks I'm intelligent and we enjoy talking to one another. With therapists you always got to be assessing chemistry to see if they're a right fit and I'm more comfortable with her than the last 4 I tried.

It is fucked up though in a sense and will never be acted upon...I think :larry

A man(child) can dream.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 23, 2015, 04:00:03 PM
Basically on your biweekly income report there's a question, "Did you refuse work?" that you self-report. That's it.

Where you can get fucked is if you answer "Did you look for work?" in the affirmative and the box is checked that compels you to list who you applied to. In all my time volunteering to help people with their unemployment insurance claims I never saw that happen, but if you're looking for things to worry about it's that and not what you were worried about.

(I'm assuming you're OK with lying on government forms.)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 23, 2015, 11:49:28 PM
Today I got a ticket for not having up to date tags.

Yesterday (2+ months late) I paid the registration on my car.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 24, 2015, 01:30:08 AM
Holy shit! in 'Night Time Is The Right Time' it's 'night and day' not 'mighty gay'.    After all these years.  SMH.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 24, 2015, 09:51:50 AM
I was up till 3am too.  Then I had a dream that I was in elementary school and for show and tell I brought in my PC and dozens of external hard drives to show off my collection of censored Japanese porn. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 24, 2015, 11:45:21 AM
The one day this week where I can sleep in until 8am and I get up at 6am
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 24, 2015, 12:23:36 PM
Not trying to look suspect. @ urgent care with my GF who slipped and fell down the stairs :holeup
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 24, 2015, 02:15:26 PM
Not trying to look suspect. @ urgent care with my GF who slipped and fell down the stairs :holeup

The L's we carry for love. :snoop
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 24, 2015, 02:30:55 PM
Not trying to look suspect. @ urgent care with my GF who slipped and fell down the stairs :holeup

I hope you didn't wear your fedora today, friend.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 24, 2015, 03:08:33 PM
 
Not trying to look suspect. @ urgent care with my GF who slipped and fell down the stairs :holeup

I hope you didn't wear your fedora today, friend.

Forgot it at home with the trench coat :-\

Forgoing visual cues that you're a distinguished gentleman :ufup
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 24, 2015, 03:11:30 PM
 
Not trying to look suspect. @ urgent care with my GF who slipped and fell down the stairs :holeup

I hope you didn't wear your fedora today, friend.

Edit: DP :phil  :cody


She's fine now. Real struggle of the day is that I don't like Green Thunder Mio >:(

Have 4 of these bottles too. Maybe it got too warm during shipping, but it taste like some east euro knockoff green jolly rancher.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 24, 2015, 04:31:44 PM
I got a cell phone a few months ago and every time I get a text its from my service provider.  If someone ever say my incoming text list I'd never live down the shame.  Is there like a bot lonely people can subscribe to?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on July 24, 2015, 05:49:40 PM
Relatives are an organic substitute but nearly as embarrassing if that's where all your recent texts are from.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 24, 2015, 06:01:08 PM
I got a cell phone a few months ago and every time I get a text its from my service provider.  If someone ever say my incoming text list I'd never live down the shame.  Is there like a bot lonely people can subscribe to?

I'd text you :uguu
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 24, 2015, 08:12:58 PM
I hate being queried for business advice by people who ended up in that dank petit bourgeois game by birth instead of aptitude because not only do I have to work extra hard at dressing up basic facts in a way that doesn't insult the advice seekers, but I have to confront the fact that whatever (if one were being generous) success I have has as much to do with my masochistic capacity to endure privation as any particular skill on my part and that that success cost me pretty much everything I do care about and is currently used to subsidize nothing of particular import
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 24, 2015, 09:23:58 PM
I got a cell phone a few months ago and every time I get a text its from my service provider.  If someone ever say my incoming text list I'd never live down the shame.  Is there like a bot lonely people can subscribe to?

I'd text you :uguu

I have to pay for texts to the US :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 25, 2015, 03:09:57 AM
Got struggles 2 real even 4 this thread atm. It's crazy how fucking complicated life can get. Just gonna ride it out 4 now.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on July 25, 2015, 03:41:08 AM
So the final propositions of buying back the company that gives me work has been given to the court. Two out of three potential buyers made an effort to lay less people.

It's pretty ridiculous how rigged this all feels. Restructure your company right on the eve of judicial break and during the summer vacation months.
Us "temp" workers are completely in the dark as to what will change in the upcoming months.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 25, 2015, 10:23:45 AM
That sucks, VK. :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 26, 2015, 07:28:52 PM
Killed my laptop hinge in a way that it won't even open without ripping out the screen.
I'm totally broke and in the midst of trying to write a thesis.

Time to sell my ass

:brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 26, 2015, 07:49:06 PM
How much?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 12:22:08 AM
Had Skype sex with my best friend's boyfriend for the second time tonight, and now I'm stuck between telling him and potentially ruining their relationship (when I feel like they're great together), or keeping quiet and stewing in my angst (like I did after the first time.)

Both times I was (pretty) drunk but that's not excuse. I really am a corrupt, broken, petty, empty shell of a person. :goty2

I'm not good enough to have "best friends." :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 12:35:25 AM
oh look an unopened bottle of wine better make sure it doesn't go bad
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 27, 2015, 01:07:33 AM
Despite bellyaching about trust all the time there was a time in my life when I was not a particularly fidelitous individual. You'll grow out of it. Or be alone. Or think bonobos are a template for human behavior. Anyway, what's done is done. All you can do now is decide if you'll be the same tomorrow and if your friendship is worth more than someone knowing the truth.

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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 01:08:29 AM
It'll be option B. I've never not been alone. :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 01:17:37 AM
Also I didn't put much stock into sexting or other forms of e-sex but honestly... :larry Not bad.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 01:24:58 AM
oh hey a second bottle where did that come from nmmmmmmm
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 01:57:54 AM
Rain falls softly outside my window, pattering the sidewalk with the emptiness of a gesture that will evaporate before I awake. The malbec in my glass coats my lips.

I am alone.

The fire in my stomach keeps me warm.

I am alone.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on July 27, 2015, 03:06:47 AM
I don't know about your cheating problem but you should seek support for your alcohol problem. It won't do you any favor when trying to fix the rest.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 03:23:35 AM
I don't have a problem.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 27, 2015, 03:29:43 AM
Spontaneous bad poetry says otherwise.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 04:14:26 AM
That's been a problem since middle school tho
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 27, 2015, 04:26:07 AM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 27, 2015, 06:34:19 AM
Wat

For real?

Also, Andy, your best friend sure seems to know how to pick good company. Damn, that's gotta suck.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on July 27, 2015, 06:58:50 AM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry

wut
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 27, 2015, 08:12:31 AM
What's Skype sex, precious.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Brehvolution on July 27, 2015, 11:04:49 AM
I got a cell phone a few months ago and every time I get a text its from my service provider.  If someone ever say my incoming text list I'd never live down the shame.  Is there like a bot lonely people can subscribe to?

I'd text you :uguu

I have to pay for texts to the US :(

You can use Whatapp to sidestep international texting charges.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 27, 2015, 11:27:19 AM
Spontaneous bad poetry says otherwise.

That was decent poetry at worst :ufup

Yeah I honestly thought it was appropriated (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Appropriation_%28art%29) content.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 27, 2015, 11:39:27 AM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry

wait, what?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 11:54:33 AM
Wat

For real?

Also, Andy, your best friend sure seems to know how to pick good company. Damn, that's gotta suck.

He's not a bad guy, in fact he's a ton of fun and I love hanging out with them. I guess I just made myself too available. :goty2

I'm basically Kramer with the kavorka. :goty

That was decent poetry at worst :ufup

Yeah I honestly thought it was appropriated (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Appropriation_%28art%29) content.

Senpais noticed me :uguu

Looking at it sober though... :larry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 27, 2015, 12:18:33 PM
I guess by now we can safely assume that KOTI died from his wounds.

RIP King
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 27, 2015, 12:27:02 PM
The king is dead. Long live the king.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on July 27, 2015, 12:30:37 PM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry

I was in Provincetown last week. No bears mauled me.


My secret was to fully shave and wear a shirt.


Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 27, 2015, 01:17:54 PM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry

wait, what?

Long story short there's this huge hairy dude who's also a regular at this bar I go, and he's taking a liking to me. At first I thought he was just being friendly but it's escalated. I'll be having a drink with my back turned to him and suddenly I'll get lifted up in the air and he'll start kissing all over my face (his greasy beard :brazilcry) and groping me and telling me how cute I am. Like this dude physically over powers me while making lewd comments and I just have to take it without fighting because I weight 150 lbs and he won't stop. The sad thing is that this is not the first time a dude like that has gotten a little too affectionate with me. Something about the big biker types. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 27, 2015, 01:30:58 PM
:rofl :rofl :rofl
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 27, 2015, 01:32:49 PM
Neck and groin, cat. Neck and groin.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 27, 2015, 02:07:17 PM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry

I was in Provincetown last week. No bears mauled me.


My secret was to fully shave and wear a shirt.

God I want to go to Ptown soooooooo bad. :( Maybe before the summer ends...
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Van Cruncheon on July 27, 2015, 08:06:14 PM
Got tossed around by some bears tonight.  :brazilcry The key 2 surviving a bear attack is to play dead until they get bored and walk away .I survived. :brazilcry



wait, what?

Long story short there's this huge hairy dude who's also a regular at this bar I go, and he's taking a liking to me. At first I thought he was just being friendly but it's escalated. I'll be having a drink with my back turned to him and suddenly I'll get lifted up in the air and he'll start kissing all over my face (his greasy beard :brazilcry) and groping me and telling me how cute I am. Like this dude physically over powers me while making lewd comments and I just have to take it without fighting because I weight 150 lbs and he won't stop. The sad thing is that this is not the first time a dude like that has gotten a little too affectionate with me. Something about the big biker types. :brazilcry

u gunna become an otter pop, son :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on July 27, 2015, 08:31:59 PM
Realistically, is there anything left you can do that won't kill people in the long term
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 27, 2015, 09:07:37 PM
How old do I have to be before I can call myself a Daddy Bear? 

Also sorry you got molested king of the internet.  Royalty should be treated better. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 27, 2015, 10:00:47 PM
I always thought Robespierre was a cool young dude. :ohhh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 27, 2015, 10:59:59 PM
Got my second ticket in less than a week for expired tabs.

They both came after I renewed my registration :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on July 28, 2015, 12:20:32 AM
I got a cell phone a few months ago and every time I get a text its from my service provider.  If someone ever say my incoming text list I'd never live down the shame.  Is there like a bot lonely people can subscribe to?

I'd text you :uguu

I have to pay for texts to the US :(
Get a googlevoice number: free texts everywhere, all the time. Plus you can anonymize, saving us all from incrimination when those bodies are eventually found.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 28, 2015, 12:22:05 AM
Got my second ticket in less than a week for expired tabs.

They both came after I renewed my registration :(

Did you move while leasing a vehicle? I recently had something similar happen (but I wasn't ticketed because #whiteexcellence) because even though I changed my address with the DMV immediately after moving I was supposed to change my car's address too because apparently cars have separate addresses when they're leased.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 28, 2015, 01:43:53 AM
Got my second ticket in less than a week for expired tabs.

They both came after I renewed my registration :(

Did you move while leasing a vehicle? I recently had something similar happen (but I wasn't ticketed because #whiteexcellence) because even though I changed my address with the DMV immediately after moving I was supposed to change my car's address too because apparently cars have separate addresses when they're leased.

No but I got a new job. So now I'm parking on the street in Venice every day and the cops seem to be ticket happy around here.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 28, 2015, 06:15:11 PM
I always thought Robespierre was a cool young dude. :ohhh

ya

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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 28, 2015, 06:49:39 PM
Agreed to meet with a prospective new client that I really couldn't bill if engaged because of the nature of their needs, how they came in contact with me, and perhaps most importantly, I don't want to have a link to on paper.

Be me y'all. :goty
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 28, 2015, 06:52:09 PM
You can't turn down the mob dude.  Just do it and start thinking about where you would like to witness protection at.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 28, 2015, 06:56:41 PM
He's right, this might be your ticket to Switzerland.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 28, 2015, 06:59:15 PM
And if you're lucky, from there you might talk the Germans into sending you onto Russia.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 28, 2015, 07:03:00 PM
He's right, this might be your ticket to Switzerland.

Or an unmarked grave. :ohhh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 28, 2015, 07:04:40 PM
Well at least that would have reasonable living costs. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 28, 2015, 07:09:10 PM
Become cronies already. I regret not going into business with a fuckboi from Schenectady who had cartel connects. Gave him a fake # instead :sheik

Sometimes you just gotta burn all that is your life and start anew. Boredom and safety can lead to stagnation :idont
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 28, 2015, 07:16:13 PM
Real talk: I would work for the mafia and may have unintentionally done so already.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 28, 2015, 07:18:16 PM
Day drunk-ish
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 28, 2015, 11:48:15 PM
Well at least that would have reasonable living costs.

In Los Angeles? Not likely.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 12:00:11 AM
Goddamn yuppies driving up the prices of unmarked graves.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 12:03:50 AM
I sat on my own cock.  I was attempting to sit down for a pee and I was parallel parking my ass to the seat, but some how my dick got traction with the front of the toilet seat and bent over itself.  I then panicked, mid park, and tired to both continue the sit down while scooting forward which ended up with my dick in between the seat and my own ass. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 01:11:10 AM
Not this time.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on July 29, 2015, 05:40:36 AM
I sat on my own cock.  I was attempting to sit down for a pee and I was parallel parking my ass to the seat, but some how my dick got traction with the front of the toilet seat and bent over itself.  I then panicked, mid park, and tired to both continue the sit down while scooting forward which ended up with my dick in between the seat and my own ass.
Sounds like you've accidentally trained your junk. You shouldn't be practicing this move so much:
 :nsfw
http://www.soundonsight.org/wp-content/uploads/2013/10/tumblr_meim8lB4XW1rkh53oo1_500.jpg
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 29, 2015, 10:40:15 AM
Somone shot through my rear driverside window in my car.
Completely shattered...
 :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on July 29, 2015, 10:41:56 AM
Somone shot through my rear driverside window in my car.
Completely shattered...
 :-\

Uhh holy shit

:drudge :drudge
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 29, 2015, 10:54:29 AM
Somone shot through my rear driverside window in my car.
Completely shattered...
 :-\

Uhh holy shit

:drudge :drudge

Shot through with like a bb or some shit,
there's a tiny ass entry hole. Looks like some other cars got it too on the block.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 29, 2015, 11:57:38 AM
Somone shot through my rear driverside window in my car.
Completely shattered...
 :-\

Uhh holy shit

:drudge :drudge

Shot through with like a bb or some shit,
there's a tiny ass entry hole. Looks like some other cars got it too on the block.

That sucks man >:(

Probably some punk ass 13 year olds.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 12:25:52 PM
http://i.imgur.com/kEEO4dt.gifv

Saw this and saw myself in it.  I do this far too much.  Especially if the girl smiles at me.  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on July 29, 2015, 12:51:24 PM
http://i.imgur.com/kEEO4dt.gifv

Saw this and saw myself in it.  I do this far too much.  Especially if the girl smiles at me.  :(

Let's die alone together.  :-[

Drank for twelve hours straight on my day off yesterday. But maybe that's triumph thread material since I managed to stay coherent the entire time and did not injure myself as far as I can tell.  8)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 29, 2015, 12:51:30 PM
http://i.imgur.com/kEEO4dt.gifv

Saw this and saw myself in it.  I do this far too much.  Especially if the girl smiles at me.  :(

(http://i.imgur.com/3fD9VTK.gif)

If it's as bad as that .gif, practice moving just your eyes and not your head.

Or if you can just look forward or at random things when you walk by and avoid eye contact altogether.

When you make eye contact though don't dart away, just let it end naturally.

If you jerk your head like that she's gonna think you find her ugly AF or something, or worse, lack confidence :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 01:06:24 PM
Well most times I see a pretty girl on the street I pump myself up for it.  I go 'Arvid this is the time.  You can do it you sexy beast just lock eyes for as second' and then my weaker mind goes 'I can do it.  I can do it. ... O god she looked at me.  NOPE NOPE NOPE.' and weak me looks away. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on July 29, 2015, 04:05:07 PM
Why don't you just smile quickly rather than think of all these potential microexpressions?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 29, 2015, 04:18:43 PM
Why don't you just smile quickly rather than think of all these potential microexpressions?

To overthink is to overcome(http://i.imgur.com/9Y6TMGd.png)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 05:06:24 PM
I have a beard.  I can't smile cause I don't want to make the girls think they are going to get raped.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 29, 2015, 05:24:48 PM
I have a beard.  I can't smile cause I don't want to make the girls think they are going to get raped.

Is it like a pubey struggle beard or an old hobo beard or something?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on July 29, 2015, 05:40:20 PM
He looks like Zach Galifinakis with shoulder length hair, which means he has a lot of testosterone and looks like a popular comedian but prettier.

Seriously, for such a not idiotic guy, I wonder why you don't love yourself more.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2015, 05:42:01 PM
I love myself 7 times a day.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 30, 2015, 01:52:56 AM
I was gender essentialized by a motorist with poor eyesight. #microaggressions
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 30, 2015, 10:16:19 AM
Just realized I've been at work with my belt buckle almost two inches to the left of the center of my pants :dead

been looking like a wizard tier plebe for two hours and no one said shit. All they did was give me knowing glances. That's what I get for judging the attire of coworkers
:brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 30, 2015, 10:21:18 AM
O man that's embarrassing.  You better call in sick for the week just so they know that you were mortified by it and not that you just didn't know better.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on July 30, 2015, 11:39:22 AM
Getting my window replaced.
Out $130 bills now. Some bullshit.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Joe Molotov on July 30, 2015, 11:41:25 AM
Subtly drop hints that you frequently take off your belt to beat your kids. Boost your black father cred.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 30, 2015, 12:05:53 PM
I wore my buckle slightly off center in solidarity of you PD.  Just remember you are not alone. 

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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 30, 2015, 01:34:49 PM
I wore mine straight but was mocked for being dressed up. Why can't I be a minority people are afraid of offending. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 30, 2015, 01:56:33 PM
I straightened mine after the bus ride.  The shame was just too oppressing.  Sorry PD you'll have to bear this on your own. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 30, 2015, 03:23:54 PM
I've been randomly checking my belt all day. I have no idea how it happened lmao. I look in the mirror being leaving the house for work...I didn't use the restroom at work during that period of time...

ghosts
:stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 30, 2015, 05:08:50 PM
Welcome to my world.  Anxiety about everything. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on July 30, 2015, 06:03:02 PM
News from the western industrial decline part number ?

Turns out the two companies battling for buying my employer are not doing that hot either. First one is under legal protection and they will probably merge us with a competitor they acquired and that is basically in the same situation as us (Guess Chapter 11 lite in France)... The other potential buyer has 6 times the debt we have (trivia : it is ten year old, my employer has existed for more than a century). I know it's never all the story but really it's just one more of those things that makes the whole thing absurd. Seems they're racing to reach critical mass so as to be "too big to fail".

Judge will decide tomorrow and Monday we'll be a new company and at our level we have no idea what will be going on. One of the buyers is basically doing away with all the managing staff in our department while on the other hand having little to no experience in our craft. Good times ahead.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 30, 2015, 06:17:24 PM
I'm currently doing my part pour la économie française by acquiring components made by Mavic, LOOK, and Hutchinson. :american
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on July 30, 2015, 11:11:36 PM
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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 30, 2015, 11:32:12 PM
Blew my cheat day to work 15+ hours.

I'm living the nightmare. :preach
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bluemax on July 30, 2015, 11:45:49 PM
An update to a previous struggle. I got my tabs today. No more tickets!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on July 31, 2015, 03:15:18 AM
I read the following sentence: "It's good to see Hyperhidrosis in mainstream viral videos."
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on July 31, 2015, 06:06:21 AM
My glasses fell off my night stand and I can't find them without getting up and turning the lights on
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on July 31, 2015, 12:07:46 PM
just got my offer letter for a new job in NYC  :borys :borys

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on July 31, 2015, 12:26:29 PM
Triumph thread's thataway, bub.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on July 31, 2015, 12:31:28 PM
WHOOPS
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: PlayDat on August 01, 2015, 01:36:11 AM
Does anyone know what kind of  bug this is?

http://imgur.com/cnWSKO2
http://imgur.com/OUeDAUl

I flew from Massachusetts to Singapore recently.  The trip was about 35 hours and involved 3 flights.  I checked on some luggage and noticed last night that one of my bags was infested.  I'd imaging getting rid of of them will be a lot easier once I can identify them.

Already threw away the duffle bag they were in, but I kept the clothes since I really don't have that much with me.  They're really small too, less than a centimeter in length.  Haven't come across too many so far today since I've been outside of my room a lot.  Nevertheless I feel paranoid enough to the point where I suspect they're the cause of every itch.  They've got me closely examining my skin all throughout the day even when I'm nowhere near the building.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on August 01, 2015, 01:44:35 AM
So my employer was sold off to one of the candidates. My department head is fired and she preferred to pack off at once and leave. She had her temper and flaws but if not for her letting get my hand on the job I would have been in a direr personal financial position 18 months ago. She was also protective of her employees, pretty lax with what we could do in the workshop and had experience in what we do. All in all it fostered a good ambiance at work and motivated us to go above and beyond our obligations in work. So  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: PlayDat on August 01, 2015, 02:04:55 AM
Well, hopefully everything turns out fine on your end.  I don't know if you plan on/expect to be able to stay much longer.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: T234 on August 01, 2015, 03:32:56 AM
Today was a straight-up Rube Goldberg Machine of Horseshit.

Involving vinyl records that don't exist, invisible trailers and parking brakes, The Two-Ton Tractor That Either Went Too Fast Or Not At All, and the son of a bitch who tries to forcefully shove you out of the line at the gas station to buy lottery tickets only to get a Karl Malone Elbow to the dome for his insolence.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on August 01, 2015, 05:09:52 AM
Well, hopefully everything turns out fine on your end.  I don't know if you plan on/expect to be able to stay much longer.

I'm working under an exceptional status as a glorified interim worker (while working more hours last year than a fulltime employee) and one of the few perks of that is that I'm free to go anywhere or even to work for several companies. Whether I stay there is dependent upon activity. The new owner told the judge first thing he was gonna do is renegociate with our biggest client, and that may shift the field completely. At one point I will probably have to go elsewhere to muscle the resume (I wouldn't rule out trying to work in Britain, Benelux... but I need to pay my dues in the French market first) and the pay was never really all that (although decent in absolute terms).

As for your bugs, you found them in duffle ? Maybe some kind of a moth / tick ? Maybe try lavander bags or printed newspapers stored with your clothes.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 01, 2015, 12:32:40 PM
That sounds like a lot of stress, VK. :-\

OT: there was hand drawn manya sitting on the dining room table at the Commune this morning. From the placement of the pen it was done by a lefty too. Double the embarrassment for me.

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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 01, 2015, 01:11:21 PM
Summer is the evilest of seasons. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on August 02, 2015, 01:43:57 PM
Ugh. Just heard from this girl for the first time in forever. She's one of only two girls that I've accidentally caught feelings for in the past several years. The problem with her was that she happened to be best friends with my girlfriend at the time.  :sabu I was actually trying to get with her when I met the ex. :neogaf As my feelings waned for the girlfriend they grew in favor of her but I knew it it could never be so I let it go. :noah

Decided not to respond to her last text.  :obama Not to be gross but this is one of those situations where you should probably just rub one out and try to forget about it.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on August 03, 2015, 02:13:14 PM
Had one of those nightmares where you're back in school and working on a ton of projects and apparently I forgot about one project that would cause me to retroactively flunk or something (don't remember if it took place in the present or the past). I've had this nightmare before too and I remember that right before I woke up, I kept wondering if it was just a dream again but the fear made me convinced it was too real and too detailed to be a dream.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 03, 2015, 02:22:47 PM
I had a nightmare last night too.  I actually had to get up and make sure no one was in the apartment.   Haven't had one of those since like highschool.   
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 03, 2015, 02:50:44 PM
I was asked to look over a rehearsal dinner invitation and the requestor did not agree to change the most embarrassing error of informality that I pointed out.

My talents are wasted in this den of nouveau riche iniquity. :cac
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 03, 2015, 03:07:31 PM
I know a den where your talents would be appreciated, Val. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on August 03, 2015, 10:33:52 PM
New management came to work to do some pep talk yesterday. They were held up at the gate for 10mn asking where the meeting was :lol because while having announced they were coming, they obviously didn't give a call to personnel representatives. They pussy-footed a lot about the lay-offs, arguing that they were victims of the short delays and legal obligations. For sure, there's quite a lot of improvisation going on, but it seems somewhat convenient (I mean, at one point, they were still the ones deciding that 80 people had to go). Good news though is that by doing so and saying the saved positions list was not yet definitive they opened a door that may let us argue that our department manager must be kept.

Otherwise the usual talk of progress, digital revolution, international focus and ascetic management.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on August 04, 2015, 02:48:49 PM
There's lazy, extremely obese "lady" on my team at work.  (So lazy and heavy that she refuses to even take the regular elevator and will waddle on over to the closer freight elevator, sometimes waiting as long as 15 minutes, instead of walking a few more steps)  She somehow managed to get promoted to the same level as me, which was always baffling, because she not only does a typically horrible job, but also cannot spell or use proper grammar.  Her support tickets are an embarrassment to anyone working Help Desk support.

She's been doing poorly and was put on a corrective action plan, pretty much meaning that she was headed for termination.  Amazingly, I saw an employee exit notice for her last week.  Heard she got a job at Dell, which is just... :lol.  I expect to see her try to come back here after they fire her, because there's no way another company is going to put up with her bullshit.

So now she's just become ultra-lazy and doesn't give a shit, at all.  This has led to some amazing examples of laziness.  For example, she got a request to set up a video conference.  We don't handle stuff like this at all; we just need to gather information and escalate the ticket to the firm's local support team.  The request came in under "CHANGE THIS REQUESTER."  The firm's head of IT even happened to see the ticket and left a note saying to put it under a temp ID. 

Lazy bitch just writes "she don have no id" and directly-escalates the ticket to the local queue, without doing anything.  Doesn't change the due date/time, create a proper request summary, or anything.  I happened to get a reply to it, took it back from the local queue, put a quality control comment on it, and gave it back to her.  She then takes the ticket and just escalates it again.  I take it back, add another comment, and give it back to her.  She waits another 10 minutes until the end of her shift and just leaves with the ticket still in her own queue.   :lol :-\  I took it back and handled it, then showed it my supervisor, who pretty much reacted with:
:dead

Today I found another excellent ticket from this person.  There was an Email reply from a local tech, regarding an equipment request, sent to a secretary.  It was very obvious that this was A) a reply, B) a request made on behalf of someone else, and C) an equipment request, which we just escalate. 

She took the reply, created a new ticket out of it, then proceeded to spam the secretary with Emails and phone calls saying "we ned moer reserch" and if she needed help.  Never seen anything like this before.  I can only assume that she was doing this as a way to avoid getting incoming calls or Email. 

After she's gone, that's the end of the morons on this team.  There's still one guy left who also doesn't seem to give a shit and is also kind of a fuck-up, but he's like a genius in comparison to this waste of space.  I expect to see him quit soon, too.  Interestingly enough, the other two major fuck-ups also both quit.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 05, 2015, 03:24:40 AM
Huge heathrow power failure as I was coming in from Hong Kong. They lost all my checked in baggage to Copenhagen. A line of at least 200 people that didn't move at all to claim it, so left, hoping I could do it outside as well. Now none of the baggage hotlines or whatever picks up their phones.

I got no underwear left.


NO UNDERWEAR.

 :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: bork on August 05, 2015, 07:40:02 AM
:stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on August 05, 2015, 11:45:43 AM
NO UNDERWEAR.

:cody
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on August 05, 2015, 12:04:44 PM
That last fart was super wet  >:(
Not standing up for a while...
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 05, 2015, 12:09:19 PM
We have a thread dedicated to when you shit yourself. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: studyguy on August 05, 2015, 12:24:21 PM
Blessed times we live in.
But fortunately my drawers are still dry.
 :rejoice
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 05, 2015, 12:40:48 PM
What kinda scrub doesn't pack knickers and toiletries in their carry-on luggage. smgdh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on August 05, 2015, 03:23:07 PM
We have a thread dedicated to when you shit yourself. 

news banner material right here.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 05, 2015, 08:06:42 PM
Traveling with my special fellow dad cross country for my sister's wedding.

He actually thinks his itinerary means something.

Good luck telling five people when to wake up or how they should wipe their ass :heh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on August 05, 2015, 10:31:08 PM
I'm getting closer to that dark precipice of bulk ordering Soylent and Mio to benefit my workaholic lifestyle.  :brazilcry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 05, 2015, 10:45:06 PM
I'm getting closer to that dark precipice of bulk ordering Soylent and Mio to benefit my workaholic lifestyle.  :brazilcry

:cody
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 06, 2015, 01:30:35 AM
I'm still at an office (it's 22:30) and with me in this office is a shirtless sexagenarian drinking red wine out of a tumbler. The struggle has never been more real.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on August 06, 2015, 02:29:02 AM
I'm still at an office (it's 22:30) and with me in this office is a shirtless sexagenarian drinking red wine out of a tumbler. The struggle has never been more real.

I've been that shirtless sexagenarian drinking red wine at work at 10:30pm, don't hate.

Reciprocate. :cody
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 06, 2015, 02:32:53 AM
Andy-kun you won't be a sexagenarian for like seventy years . :iface
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on August 06, 2015, 02:39:30 AM
TBH I wasn't gonna include that description in my post but figured it wouldn't make sense in terms of riffing off your post otherwise. :larry

The rest of my post still stands tho :cody
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on August 06, 2015, 02:43:26 AM
Andy-kun you won't be a sexagenarian for like seventy years . :iface

Andy-kun is more like a sexy genarian, so it's OK.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rahxephon91 on August 06, 2015, 05:34:32 AM
Have you ever had that complete realization that you are a broken and useless indivudual that wants to do die? I feel like I have that last part every day. I always want to die? I'm such a pointless person. Unable to really connect with people. My future looking so pointless and worthless. I go to school for writing and I"m so shitty at it. You all can read my posts here and on GAF and you know I'm an idiot, why the hell would I even bother with some artistic bull shit. Yet, for whatever reason thats where I was pushed into. I was never good at anything and so for whatever reason I found myself(in my 2nd go around) in writing. What a fucking crock of shit. An art degree will get me no where and I might as well simply kill myself now as I'm bound to be the 40 year old working at target living with my mother. My future job shit scares me and I'm so afraid to admit it to anyone. My mother asures me to keep going and I think she does that because One, shes's an idiot, and two she simply dosen't know what else to do. It's such a waste this schooling. It will lead me nowhere and I'm such shit at it.

I am drunk and I think thats good because I feel that losens me up and it allows me to say what I'm afraid to. I know everyone thinks I'm a loser, a special fellow, an idiot. I am and I want to die so much. You say, go see a psychatrist. A good idea, but I doubt even talking to them will fix my biggest problem. I simply want to be accepted somewhere, by someone, I want people to actually like me. I want people to want me. No one wants me here and I feel I try to push that so very much. it's so strange, I have a problem where I try to sabatage things. I want people to hate me so I say things that I know will push that button, but at the same time I want people to actually like me. I'm so fucked up(Evangelion refrence).

I could talk to a doctor about this, but they wont help the fundemetnal problem that I'm just so broken and mentally ill. You know I tired to tell my mother that, but she refused to belive me. She thought me maybe just a bit angsty and spoiled, but not mentally ill. Idk. Is she an idiot, someone who loves me too much, or someone who refuses to belive she failed that much, or someone who just dosen't want to belive her son is a psycho, but I am. I lack the ability to feel empathic to people.

But I'm so sad. Even now when I've hit the peak of people caring about me and actually liking me thanks to work, I've attempted to sbatage it and the feelings of love esxape me. I just want to be loved so much. I just want to touch a female so much. You people think me some terrible monster mothbreather, but I just want someone to actually want me and I don't know how to make that so. I don't know what to do and I feel that I'm too late. Even if a girl wanted me I'd scare them away because fuck I have no experince with them, I don't know how to treat them, I don't know how to do anything. I don't know how to respond. I'd be a freak and no girl would want that. I missed several life learning experinces and my development is so stalled that I think I'm pretty much fucked beyond repair.

I am so ready to die. I have to do so much in order to be diserable to anyone. I need to change my body, change my personality, change well me. It all feels very insurmountable and I don't know how to do it. it all feels very much like the cards where stacked against me. and in the end I still feel like I wont be anything worthwhile. My body is shit, my personality has too many imperfecitons and so on. It's like why wouldnt I just be better off kiling myslef? As I get older, I lose less time obviously and wont be able to change anything. Hell I'd scare anyone away once they actually get to know the real me.

It's so shitty being a mixed person. What is their to be comfortable about? What is thier to be accepted in? I feel like in the end my upbringing failed me so much. You all think I'm a racist and I probably am. It's not that I dislike black people, it's just well god damnt every day my sterotype about them is confimrned. Every day I meet a ratchet black person. An ignorant one. A whatever. it's toxic and I'm stupid for thinking it, but I mean everyday. I go to the movies? Who's being loud? Who seems lazy and ignorant at work? Who tries to steal from my place of employment? Who tends to dress like a thug? I feel so bad when I automaticly assume this black male dressed with his shorts sagging and in a long white shirt is probablly trying to fraud target when he tries to buy a PS4, but more than 50% of the time thats what happens. It's that image, that fake overly generlized steortype that i've grown up that I don't want to be a part of. And since I don't look black I can not be a part of it.

Black kids use to always say I acted white? Why? Because I did'nt like basketball and other shallow things.

But white people are the first to notice that you aren't quite white. i've never felt comfortable around all white groups. Hell, I have maybe one white friend and he considers himself "grey". All my friends are black, asian, or mexican. nothing but minorties.Which is the only thing I feel comfrotable idtenifying with, minority. A more definite statement is a no. Thats so terrible, growing up feeling like you belong to no group, no culture, no nothing. Maybe you'd think that would help develop a strong person, but it did'nt it just made me weaker as I never turly felt like I belonged anywhere.

You make fun of me for my obbsession over GAF, but at some point I felt like I belonged there. people thought I was an idiot, thought I had bad taste even if they did'nt know what my taste was, but the point was people knew me and so at least I felt like I was something. I felt happy when people regardless of ill or good actually rememberd something about me. Of course, I got kicked out and it's hurt me since. Yes, I get how pathetic that is, but I'm a pathetic person.

Which I don't see getting that much better. I'm so impossbily lonley. Sure I have friends, but friends don't subsitiute for that inante sexual belononing you desire from people. yes, i could pay a hooker for a blowjob or sex. yes, that would relive me wanting to blow off some steam(bennet!) but it wont satisfy other feelings. And no chick would want a person who makes post like this and I'm obiously putting too much emphais and hope on a supoosed relationship. it's just a vicious cycle whose outcome won't be good for anyone. I'm so afraid that even if I were to find myself in a relationsip it would screw itself thanks to my direct or indirect actions that I would take it so hard and come out worse. I'm so afraid that I wont be able to even get that far.

But I simply desire human contact so much and not the fake kind you find. I havent had it ever and thats such a bad premise. Can you imagine being 25 and being denined probably thanks to yourself human wanting. it's so sicking and only makes me feel worse about myself. I want to die so much. I just hate myself so much. I hate what I've beomce and will become, because it's not going to get better. I'm never going to become self sufficent, because fuck my college education is a waste and I'm not good at anything. I'm an idiot. I just want to die.  It's all I want, but I'm afraid to even do that. 

Yes, go talk to a psyhcatist. A psychatrist is'nt going to love me and actually want me in a sexual way. Thats creepy.  I just wish so much I wasn't borne the way I was. I hate everything about my so much and you cant fix that.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on August 06, 2015, 05:41:37 AM
I don't think you're horrible or a waste of oxygen or anything. I usually enjoy your posts.

Psychiatrists/Psychologists aren't supposed to love you, they're supposed to fix you or, rather, help you fix yourself. You're just making up reasons why you shouldn't get help, when you clearly are unhappy and could use assistance out of your situation.

Go get help.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on August 06, 2015, 08:36:19 AM
Men get baby fever too. It doesn't mean you literally want a baby, it means (at a certain age) your hormones make you crazy. All that worry about a career or becoming a provider, or dread of the future are all tied up into it. Dig down into the roots of your misery and that's what you'll see looking back. Your biological clock. It's the engine that keeps this all going, but it doesn't mean you should let it kill you.

Recognize it for what it is, compartmentalize it, and push it to the back of your mind.

The biggest source of pain I had in my twenties was "How I 'feel' now, is how I will feel forever. I can't feel way this for another 40-50 years". But it's not true. You won't feel that way forever and this fever will pass and you'll be able to appreciate the small things in life. You'll laugh at what you once thought was so important.

It will happen.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on August 06, 2015, 12:06:08 PM
I would like to vent out on the particular but really it would make for a boring post. Day 4 of my employer having been bought back and it is so far a complete circus show. Middle management has been nuked across the board and so far no one to fill their places. We've been told to continue current work by ourselves (we get to run the sovkhoz before the hammer drops on us, weee !) for contracts no longer existing at this point and as far as we know the people still there haven't received the new company information and are unable to bill clients or work contracts for us.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 06, 2015, 02:25:50 PM
things overheard while in line at the bank

"So her husband...I haven't met him. Is he...African American?"
"No, he's white. White American, if you will"
"More like crippled American"
"What?"
"You didn't know he has a fake leg?"

 :PP

I'm pretty sure these two dudes did some bumps of cocaine before coming to the bank.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 07, 2015, 03:21:44 AM
Sorry it took me awhile to reply to you, Rah. I saw your post this morning but I had to walk into hell and couldn't spare the time then, which leads me to my next point.

There's no quick fix to seemingly insurmountable problems. All you can do is decide if you have what it takes to start picking at them bit by bit, and if you do, get going at it.

Is that shit? You bet, especially with how easily you can build up those problems in the first place, but the only other option besides chipping away at them piecemeal is letting them get bigger and bigger, which is just going to make you feel even more like garbage. (As an example, people prone to depression are often paralyzed by their illness and this paralysis exacerbates their mental state. The classic manifestation of this is the messy room / flat / house / et cetera that the person can't clean up because they're depressed but the mess makes them feel more and more depressed.)

I'm not exactly trying at life anymore, but I take a certain masochistic satisfaction in taking one on the chin from it, wiping my mouth and asking if that's all it's got before I get up to take another. It's like one of my Japanese animes. You might find you're the same way, who knows if you duck the punches?

People who have what you want don't really look at how they got there often, but the truth of it is that all they really did to get there was make a choice at a juncture. My entire career I owe to taking one dumb class in college and making the most of it while I was enrolled in the course (and pulling my chestnuts out of the fire when I fucked up as I am wont to do, but that's neither here nor there). I didn't even really want to take accounting but I thought I needed to take it if I wanted to get into higher level business. You've got to put yourself in situations where you come to junctures and have to choose, if you throw your hands up and quit no more junctures will ever come your way and you'll never dig your way out of your situation. You're going to make the wrong decision more often than the right, I won't sugarcoat things, but the nice thing is that once you're moving it takes longer for the consequences to catch up with you. (At present they pretty much come your way at the speed of light since you're treading water.)

I don't really have "big picture" advice for you, and even if I did I'm a huge fuck up and self-conscious enough to know it'd probably be bad advice because of that, but from knowing you the poster at the bore dot com, I'd suggest two things to you.

One, take some of the edge off. When someone has a disagreement with you it often devolves into something like punching a brick wall. Maybe we just get the worst of your personality, but it's really hard for me to believe that that part of who you are doesn't manifest at all offline. If someone's talking to you they want to talk to you and being a brick wall, while requiring talking to function, isn't really the talking anyone is after when they engage you. Maybe this happens because you're on the spectrum, maybe it's a defense mechanism you throw up, the why isn't important so much as how you're going to mitigate it.

Two, give your mom a break. Maybe she's too dumb to see the truth of the matter, maybe she doesn't want to face her own failings as a parent, but she's giving you positive encouragement when you can't even give it to yourself. A lifetime ago I wanted to be a writer, my first and only published work (I introduce this fact not to pass myself off as some sort of Rimbaud, but to establish my level of commitment to the pursuit) was actually written and published when I was a minor. When it came time to go to university I applied to a bunch of places to study writing and not only did my family not support that, it was made explicitly clear to me that I'd be cut off if I went down that road. I didn't have the courage then to do what I wanted, unfortunately (or not, who knows?). If your response to love and support is to intellectualize its validity away I have a hard time seeing you ever finding consensual love (by which I mean romantic).

This got a lot longer than I wanted it to get but whatever. GLHF out there. :bolo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 07, 2015, 10:43:07 AM
Rah, you feel like you don't have any worth to the point of wishing death upon yourself because your need for love isn't being met, right? If you want to be the kind of emotionally open person that is easily loved, I would recommend forgiving yourself for being how you currently are. Think about what needs of yours aren't being met, think about how that makes you feel, forgive yourself, take action.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: ToxicAdam on August 07, 2015, 02:23:39 PM
You've got to put yourself in situations where you come to junctures and have to choose, if you throw your hands up and quit no more junctures will ever come your way and you'll never dig your way out of your situation.

I love this part, Kar. It's so true.


Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on August 07, 2015, 05:06:56 PM
Came up with a drink that's part red wine, part mint liqueur

Calling it Drapeau Blanc, cause it's half french and if you drink it, you've officially surrendered
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Van Cruncheon on August 07, 2015, 08:32:17 PM
yup. all the good shit in my life happened because i engaged, made a decision, and followed through. sure, i've made a lot of terrible decisions, too, and i live with those consequences as well -- we don't walk through this fuckin' vale of tears without collecting scars. that said, many of either type of results didn't pan out until many years after i decided on something, but here i am.

better than doing nothing:  paralysis slowly takes EVERYTHING away. :tocry



of course, anime is always a bad decision and haunts you forever. trust me on this.  :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on August 07, 2015, 08:39:27 PM
White Flag (more mainstream recognition) has been accepted into several people's lives by now.

Also, I'm dead now.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 07, 2015, 09:08:18 PM
Nobody is going to give a fuck about you or even notice you if you aren't putting in effort in some form or fashion - whether that means bettering yourself emotionally, physically, professionally, whatever. You've constantly expressed that you have no interest in doing any of that so...

I hate to be a dick but I think a lot of people here used to be at a low point in some form or fashion socially. I had to kick myself out my room and just put myself out there. Going to the gym, or going to a restaurant, etc. Just being around random people and talking to folks. I went to events that I'd normally never go to, especially in college. I even met Cheebs for christs sake. Obviously everyone isn't going to have the same plan but you have to find something that works for you. If not you'll just do what you've been doing: making the same post over and over every few months.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on August 07, 2015, 09:10:12 PM
Nobody is going to give a fuck about you or even notice you if you aren't putting in effort in some form or fashion - whether that means bettering yourself emotionally, physically, professionally, whatever. You've constantly expressed that you have no interest in doing any of that so...

I hate to be a dick but I think a lot of people here used to be at a low point in some form of fashion socially. I had to kick myself out my room and just put myself out there. Going to the gym, or going to a restaurant, etc. Just being around random people and talking to folks. I went to events that I'd normally never go to, especially in college. I even met Cheebs for christs sake. Obviously everyone isn't going to have the same plan but you have to find something that works for you. If not you'll just do what you've been doing: making the same post over and over every few months.

I agree.  Also stop jacking off to porn so much.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Rufus on August 08, 2015, 01:19:59 AM
better than doing nothing:  paralysis slowly takes EVERYTHING away. :tocry
Apathy is the true killer. If you find yourself treading water for years, then, uh - stop, maybe?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on August 08, 2015, 04:32:32 AM
Came up with a drink that's part red wine, part mint liqueur

Calling it Drapeau Blanc, cause it's half french and if you drink it, you've officially surrendered

Completely unsurprisingly, today is the worst.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on August 08, 2015, 12:30:10 PM
moving costs :stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Steve Contra on August 11, 2015, 01:58:41 PM
My national sales manager got poached by a larger and wealthier competitor

(http://weknowgifs.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/fuck-this-thing-cat.gif)

At least we on that bitch's radar :bolo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 12, 2015, 02:03:43 AM
My national sales manager got poached by a larger and wealthier competitor

(http://weknowgifs.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/fuck-this-thing-cat.gif)

At least we on that bitch's radar :bolo

"The Trincheros send their regards."
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Take My Breh Away on August 12, 2015, 08:22:40 AM
Nothing like starting the morning with a severe panic attack after huge nightmares and still shaking hours later. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck PTSD forever.

Xanax be my guide :stahp
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on August 14, 2015, 01:05:10 PM
Last night someone broke into my place of employment and was in the process of stealing a bunch of our electronic shit but it all ended up being ditched in the bushes 20 ft from the office because the perp (or perps) must've been seen or something.

Fucker broke my camera ($900) and camera lens ($600).  :beli
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Tasty on August 14, 2015, 01:23:16 PM
Why would you keep that at work :mindblown
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Fifstar on August 14, 2015, 01:25:38 PM
Damn. Is that stuff insured?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 14, 2015, 01:34:00 PM
You out of pocket on replacing those, Atra?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on August 14, 2015, 01:47:37 PM
Why would you keep that at work :mindblown
it seemed like it would be more secure at my office instead of my rental house because you could easily break down the door or smash a window to get into my place.  :-\

The owner of the office below believes the person that took our stuff was a disgruntled ex-employee of theirs.

Damn. Is that stuff insured?
Not really.

I might have a Best Buy warranty for both the camera and the lens. I can't remember, though. I'll check once I'm at my parents house this weekend.

You out of pocket on replacing those, Atra?
I don't know at this point.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: chronovore on August 14, 2015, 10:13:58 PM
Is there any chance it is covered by your bosses' insurance?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on August 15, 2015, 01:21:30 AM
Is there any chance it is covered by your bosses' insurance?
Yep, it is.

I talked to him about it during my evaluation meeting.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: VomKriege on August 15, 2015, 03:39:14 AM
Sorry to hear that. Robbery is often a crapshoot anyway. In your place I would maybe consider a safe or a secured locker in the future for extra protection on top.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 15, 2015, 03:51:20 AM
Passed out and woke up at 00:45 thinking it was more like 5:45. What the hell am I supposed to do for the next few hours?

Abuse caffeine in large quantities, kids.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 15, 2015, 08:37:20 PM
Fuck got stressed out and ate a box of cookies + subway today.  Jesus. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: octopushover on August 15, 2015, 09:53:31 PM
my ceiling is leaking. super doesn't know why.  :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 15, 2015, 10:10:52 PM
my ceiling is leaking. super doesn't know why.  :-\

My guess is it's because there's water up there.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 15, 2015, 11:03:45 PM
Fuck got stressed out and ate a box of cookies + subway today.  Jesus.

I'm binge eating in #solidarity. Should get some ice cream or somefan. :ohhh
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on August 16, 2015, 12:00:27 AM
I just binge eat to save receipts so I can qualify for a vyvanse prescription
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Atramental on August 16, 2015, 12:29:06 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/U8qFRI6.jpg)

(http://i.imgur.com/wwwWSQI.png)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 16, 2015, 12:40:04 AM
I bought $30 of Evian and $2 of Skittles. #karakand
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Huff on August 16, 2015, 09:49:10 AM
I'm on for 12 days straight starting tomorrow  :gloomy
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Samson Manhug on August 16, 2015, 10:14:19 AM
I'm on for 12 days straight starting tomorrow  :gloomy

I'm on my 7th of 12 right now. Happy hump day to me!
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on August 16, 2015, 10:20:27 AM
i'm starting to worry the moving company i'm working with may be a scam

 :-\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on August 16, 2015, 10:27:25 AM
Why?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on August 16, 2015, 10:36:47 AM
Their website is vary sparse. I can find very little information out there on them. Any reviews I find are minimal and usually close together in date. Their listed from Stroudsburg, PA and the address on the contract seems to go to a fucking house based on google maps. BBB shows them but an office in Florida (with a disconnected number listed). A website called ripoffreport shows a report of that office being accused of scamming people and shows them having multiple names.

I should have done more research. I was super anxiety driven because I couldn't find a place to move me in time. Now it's Sunday and no companies are open and I'm freaking out. I have little over a week to make a move happen and I don't know waht to do.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on August 16, 2015, 10:44:50 AM
Hakuna matata, it's just stuff. Can you find a new one? If not, is everything insured?
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 16, 2015, 10:47:04 AM
Rent a storage unit and take your essentials in your car while you have more time to move the rest of it with an above board operation.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on August 16, 2015, 10:52:17 AM
they claim to offer a basic insurance

i dunno. i left the rep i'm working with a voicemail and an email out expressing my concerns. maybe a bad idea. dunno. i'm pretty worried right now.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Samson Manhug on August 16, 2015, 10:57:40 AM
I think he is referring to renters insurance which will cover the theft of your belongings.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on August 16, 2015, 11:00:47 AM
I dunno :\
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Samson Manhug on August 16, 2015, 11:22:57 AM
https://www.google.com/search?client=safari&rls=en&q=renters+insurance

It's a pretty good idea. I have it through the same company I have car insurance through and it typically costs less than $10 a month.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: brawndolicious on August 16, 2015, 12:42:41 PM
Yeah assuming you have a car,  you could transport your bare essentials (clothes/computers/irreplaceable belongings) and the furniture and other big stuff can go in the hands of the company if you have renters insurance.

The insurance should be effective immediately so you can get it today, it's good to have just for peace of mind so you don't get yourself (too) stressed out about theft.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: fistfulofmetal on August 16, 2015, 01:02:21 PM
Thanks guys. I've talked to some family/friends and I may be just doing it all myself. renting  truck, paying some people I know to move me.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 16, 2015, 02:23:36 PM
It might be good for you, give you an impetus to throw away some stuff you should have thrown away but didn't because you didn't have to. Downgrading to the Commune meant I had to get rid of a lot of stuff I frankly wasn't using anymore (e.g. my console collection). :)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 16, 2015, 02:32:40 PM
It might be good for you, give you an impetus to throw away some stuff you should have thrown away but didn't because you didn't have to. Downgrading to the Commune meant I had to get rid of a lot of stuff I frankly wasn't using anymore (e.g. my console collection). :)

you've got upper management written all over you, kid.
 :money
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 16, 2015, 02:35:08 PM
It might be good for you, give you an impetus to throw away some stuff you should have thrown away but didn't because you didn't have to. Downgrading to the Commune meant I had to get rid of a lot of stuff I frankly wasn't using anymore (e.g. my console collection). :)

You could probably downsize your bed to a cot, no?

I'd rather drop down to a shiki tbh. :expert
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Crash Dummy on August 16, 2015, 04:15:40 PM
I bought $30 of Evian and $2 of Skittles. #karakand
this reminds me i have half a bag of haribo left over from friday on my desk
spoiler (click to show/hide)
that was my lunch with some coffee and cigarettes  :(
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Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 16, 2015, 04:47:46 PM
Put ghost peppers in my chilli.  Fuck my face is sweating and I had to drench it in sour cream. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 16, 2015, 05:08:50 PM
O fuck, I had seconds. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 16, 2015, 05:53:23 PM
you've got upper management written all over you, kid.
 :money

I know that I try to let insults roll off me (and even sometimes agree with them), but that doesn't mean I don't have feelings. :busta

@Arvie: You're on your own with binge eating today. :bolo
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 16, 2015, 05:57:35 PM
It's OK, I'm always on my own.  Probably cause I'm fat and have fire chilli breath.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: milchs evil twin on August 16, 2015, 06:19:05 PM
Struggling with Shaka's policing of my struggles.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Kara on August 16, 2015, 07:16:51 PM
It's OK, I'm always on my own.  Probably cause I'm fat and have fire chilli breath.

Christ you're a sad sack. There, I ate a 30 calorie popsicle.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 16, 2015, 09:44:56 PM
I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that this project has reached a level of being the most toxic I've been engaged in (which, trust me, is really saying something). People have given up any semblance of professional courtesy and are just yelling at each other in the halls. Everyone's on all the time 7 days a week already and there's still 8 weeks left of this. :goty
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on August 16, 2015, 09:54:02 PM
Can't post my struggles in the struggles thread because the positivity thread has me feeling self conscious about it.  :(
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 16, 2015, 09:56:16 PM
Ya I feel like we need a Shaka safe place now.  I don't post my problem in order to be judged. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: nachobro on August 16, 2015, 10:13:57 PM
I ate a really big reuben and now I'm too full.

Probably because i also had some cheesecake
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Shaka Khan on August 16, 2015, 11:42:11 PM
Can't post my struggles in the struggles thread because the positivity thread has me feeling self conscious about it.  :(

(http://i.imgur.com/r2KSaoK.gif)
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 16, 2015, 11:58:56 PM
NO MORE STRUGGLES :win

I found a potent remedy for my troubles: Wellbutrin, Klonopin, Adderall, Weed, Caffeine, Alcohol.

Take your pick bruhs.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 17, 2015, 11:10:03 AM
Ran into one of my mom's friends yesterday. Both her and my mom have been trying to set me up with her daughter for years. She confronted me at a store while I was talking with a female friend of mine.

"Phoenix, Phoenixxxx! How are you!"
"Oh I'm good how about yourself?"
"I'm good. [insert daughter's name] was asking about you recently!"
"Oh...cool. Well tell her I said hi"
"Your mom said you need a girlfriend *laughs*"
 :goty2
:patel "She said she didn't like your ex gf. You know who she does like tho"
:brazilcry  "well...it was nice talking to you...."
"You too Phoenix. See you soon!"

I've met her daughter a few times but we've literally never had a conversation. She's beautiful and very smart but I'm not looking for a gf regardless. If we tried and failed I'd never hear the end of it. No thanks.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 17, 2015, 11:27:24 AM
Playing Burnout 3 without a memory card :goty
Game glitches as I take 1st and freezes on me :goty2
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 17, 2015, 12:43:53 PM
NO MORE STRUGGLES :win

I found a potent remedy for my troubles: Wellbutrin, Klonopin, Adderall, Weed, Caffeine, Alcohol.

Take your pick bruhs.

I was on Wellbutrin for awhile, definitely found it amplified the effects of the weed. :rock

My fav combo for life is definitely weed, black coffee, and red wine.
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 17, 2015, 02:00:38 PM
Is Phoenixxxx your street name?  Cause, personally, I'd drop an x. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 17, 2015, 02:23:21 PM
Nami just lost a tooth.  She is only 5.  Fuck I feel like a terrible parent with her. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Brehvolution on August 17, 2015, 02:29:50 PM
It's been a month since Eel o'Brian last posted.  :'(

Come back, breh. :tocry
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 17, 2015, 02:47:48 PM
NO MORE STRUGGLES :win

I found a potent remedy for my troubles: Wellbutrin, Klonopin, Adderall, Weed, Caffeine, Alcohol.

Take your pick bruhs.

I was on Wellbutrin for awhile, definitely found it amplified the effects of the weed. :rock

My fav combo for life is definitely weed, black coffee, and red wine.

Coffee > Mio, but Mio is still good to me.

For me, Wellbutrin evens out the lows of adderall use and makes everything more consistent.

Plus it's good for energy. I hate substances that make you drowsy unless it's some nice indica and even then, that's more of a mellow feeling than being tired af.

Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 17, 2015, 04:36:47 PM
I don't think the tooth was Nami's at least I can't see were it came from. 
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: king of the internet on August 17, 2015, 04:40:51 PM
I don't think the tooth was Nami's at least I can't see were it came from.

Maybe it's yours  :o
Title: Re: Super Struggle Thread II: Turbo
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 17, 2015, 04:43:05 PM
Well I did lose one while trying to do a magic trick when I was 12. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 17, 2015, 06:28:57 PM
Didn't really like Wellbutrin, but I pay money to take a pill that downgrades me from treatment-resistant clinical to pseudo-bipolar.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 17, 2015, 07:36:55 PM
Well I did lose one while trying to do a magic trick when I was 12. 

*tada* And now it's back! Great trick.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 09:32:10 AM
Dreampt about the girl I liked in highschool.  Dream was so depressing that in the dream I realized it was a dream and that I should stop it before I get more depressed.  Woke up and remembered she's been with the same guy for half a decade and I'm going no where in life.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Rufus on August 20, 2015, 09:37:30 AM
A PhD (still getting one?) isn't exactly nowhere.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 09:55:18 AM
No but in terms of personal relationships. 

Also I broke eye contact which a very hot chick on the street that was wearing a chocker and black hair with twisted bangs.  She smiled and I looked away.  :( 

This is Lday for me. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 20, 2015, 10:24:48 AM
Dreampt about the girl I liked in highschool.  Dream was so depressing that in the dream I realized it was a dream and that I should stop it before I get more depressed.  Woke up and remembered she's been with the same guy for half a decade and I'm going no where in life.   

I swear I'm over her, but I still get dreams about my old HS GF. It's been 7 years or so yet some deep seated part of my brain is excessively bitch made :'(

The dreams that haunt me most are about the ones where you know things could have worked out, but they didn't for whatever reason.

That jewish chick from freshmen year :foxx

About having no direction, aren't you working on your masters? You're set dude. You're bettering yourself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 20, 2015, 10:35:45 AM
Fumble around on online dating, Arv. You can be super funny online and don't have to worry about being instantly rejected because you give off mega-noob body language.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That's what the first date is for. :shaq
[close]
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 12:04:25 PM
My shrink just kept on talking today and I hardly said anything.  Keeps using up all the time to go though CBT worksheets.  :(

At least it is raining today. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 20, 2015, 01:35:32 PM
:beli

Just realized I was sitting on a potato chip. Went to the restroom and yes there is now a grease stain on the back of my pants. I had a few chips on lunch but I have no idea how one got on my chair. :beli

between this, the belt fiasco a few weeks ago, and my mom running into me during a recent lunch break and telling me she bought me some shirts (as my coworkers held in smirks)...I'm pretty sure my coworkers must think I'm eight years old.
:brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: studyguy on August 20, 2015, 02:23:29 PM
:beli

Just realized I was sitting on a potato chip. Went to the restroom and yes there is now a grease stain on the back of my pants. I had a few chips on lunch but I have no idea how one got on my chair. :beli

between this, the belt fiasco a few weeks ago, and my mom running into me during a recent lunch break and telling me she bought me some shirts (as my coworkers held in smirks)...I'm pretty sure my coworkers must think I'm eight years old.
:brazilcry

I miss my mother ironing my shirts and shit.
I can never get them looking nearly as cleanly pressed as she could.   :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 02:25:48 PM
Buy a good iron.  30$ pieces of crap are frustrating.  They don't even work to get information out of Russian mobsters. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 02:46:13 PM
:beli

Just realized I was sitting on a potato chip. Went to the restroom and yes there is now a grease stain on the back of my pants. I had a few chips on lunch but I have no idea how one got on my chair. :beli

between this, the belt fiasco a few weeks ago, and my mom running into me during a recent lunch break and telling me she bought me some shirts (as my coworkers held in smirks)...I'm pretty sure my coworkers must think I'm eight years old.
:brazilcry

Once when I was working with people with mental disabilities I wore a shit with the buttons done one off all day.  One of my co workers finally mentioned it at the end of the day.  All the people with mental disabilities could do their buttons correctly.  However sitting on a potato chip is far worse and i'm embarrassed for you.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 02:48:00 PM
Fumble around on online dating, Arv. You can be super funny online and don't have to worry about being instantly rejected because you give off mega-noob body language.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That's what the first date is for. :shaq
[close]

That girl I dreampt about once said, and I'm paraphrasing 'You are so nice and funny online but in person you are really different'  :(  She totally gutted me on that one. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 20, 2015, 02:48:51 PM
At least I didn't eat the chip.
 :PP
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 02:50:49 PM
Also while thinking about that girl and sitting on food, on the grade 7 field trip I sat on a smore right before the bus ride back.  Thankfully I sat on both chocolate and marshmellow, since had it just been the former it could have been mistaken for me shitting myself.   She tried to make fun of me for it but the marshmellow was my defense. 


I also didn't try to eat the smore goop on my ass PD
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 20, 2015, 02:55:09 PM
#solidarity

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 20, 2015, 03:47:03 PM
Fumble around on online dating, Arv. You can be super funny online and don't have to worry about being instantly rejected because you give off mega-noob body language.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That's what the first date is for. :shaq
[close]

That girl I dreampt about once said, and I'm paraphrasing 'You are so nice and funny online but in person you are really different'  :(  She totally gutted me on that one.

Why do you think that is?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Rufus on August 20, 2015, 03:53:11 PM
Fumble around on online dating, Arv. You can be super funny online and don't have to worry about being instantly rejected because you give off mega-noob body language.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That's what the first date is for. :shaq
[close]

That girl I dreampt about once said, and I'm paraphrasing 'You are so nice and funny online but in person you are really different'  :(  She totally gutted me on that one.

Why do you think that is?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f74pa2R2EXU
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 20, 2015, 03:57:08 PM
Just puked for the first time in at least a year. It was a good streak.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 20, 2015, 03:58:00 PM
Knickerbocker can be a TA, he can hold a convo. I barely survived impersonating a university professor and I only did that one time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 05:34:00 PM
Saw a big black dude in white pants, black velvet blazer and a straw hat.  I might be gay. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 05:36:28 PM
Still thinking about that girl that smiled at me.  I wish I had said hello.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 20, 2015, 05:37:15 PM
Still thinking about that girl that smiled at me.  I wish I had said hello.

missed connections segment of cragislist.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2015, 11:14:41 PM
Hello I was wearing a green tshirt and you were beautiful.  You DTF? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 21, 2015, 09:37:39 AM
Wellbutrin is doing its job smoothing out the highs and lows of addy use.

I woke up today early and can get out of bed, have a nice coffee, and not feel like total shit until I take my adderall.

Mental health issues are awful and I feel bad for the people who don't have access to the right meds and CBT, or don't have a support group and other resources.

I am very fortunate and will keep making strides getting my shit together. The pace isn't always what I want it to be, but these small changes will build up over time.


Anyone really struggling, keep being persistent and educate yourself on your treatment. Advocate for yourself when speaking to your doctor.

I've been at it for years and I know it's frustrating as fuck, but the next med(s) you try may be just what you needed.

Same goes for therapists and doctors. If it's not working, find someone else. Someone you're comfortable with that is best suited for you.

For me, that's a sexy older woman who nurtures the soul with CBT worksheets and engaging conversation :smug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 21, 2015, 11:33:44 AM
:clap we gone be alright :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Steve Contra on August 21, 2015, 12:21:52 PM
My nephew went to the first day of sophomore year in a fedora.  Or a trilby.  He's dead to me now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 21, 2015, 12:24:13 PM
Get him a wizard staff for xmas.  Inform him that no one will ever love him in the card. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Human Snorenado on August 21, 2015, 01:38:28 PM
My nephew went to the first day of sophomore year in a fedora.  Or a trilby.  He's dead to me now.

This has to have been hard for you, but I'm glad you responded in the correct way.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Beezy on August 21, 2015, 05:42:53 PM
Right side of my hairline seems to be slowly getting worse, so I've been wondering how I would look with a shaved head. I have a big ass head though and can't grow a beard at all, so I feel like a baldy would look horrible on me.

It's the one thing that I'm still crazy self conscious about, so it's a struggle for me dammit. :maf

spoiler (click to show/hide)
:fbm
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Beezy on August 21, 2015, 07:36:54 PM
MJ has an average sized head bruh. Show me a decent looking bald dude with a dome. :flabbypd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: brawndolicious on August 21, 2015, 07:51:26 PM
That would give you the mindfuckery of trying to match everything else about that famous big headed black man. Just remember that Jason Statham could pull off being handsomely bald,  despite being so white that he's British.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 21, 2015, 09:01:08 PM
If you shave your head that's gotta save like 4 watts of pedaling power. :ohhh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 21, 2015, 10:04:01 PM
Right side of my hairline seems to be slowly getting worse, so I've been wondering how I would look with a shaved head. I have a big ass head though and can't grow a beard at all, so I feel like a baldy would look horrible on me.

It's the one thing that I'm still crazy self conscious about, so it's a struggle for me dammit. :maf

spoiler (click to show/hide)
:fbm
[close]

breh :tocry

sorry to hear that. Honestly though a bald cut looks better than a visibly receding hairline. Have you tried getting a real low fade cut, just to sort of get a sense of what a full bald cut would look like?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Beezy on August 22, 2015, 12:18:48 AM
Right side of my hairline seems to be slowly getting worse, so I've been wondering how I would look with a shaved head. I have a big ass head though and can't grow a beard at all, so I feel like a baldy would look horrible on me.

It's the one thing that I'm still crazy self conscious about, so it's a struggle for me dammit. :maf

spoiler (click to show/hide)
:fbm
[close]

breh :tocry

sorry to hear that. Honestly though a bald cut looks better than a visibly receding hairline. Have you tried getting a real low fade cut, just to sort of get a sense of what a full bald cut would look like?
No. I've thought about it, but I can't bring myself to do it. Not yet at least. What sucks is that it might not even be male pattern baldness. It could be damage from when I was young & dumb and would get my hair cornrowed all the time smh. Maybe I should see a doc or something just to be sure. Dunno if they'd be able to confirm that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 22, 2015, 12:29:10 AM
Well at least you are paying for your crime. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Beezy on August 22, 2015, 12:30:02 AM
 :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Samson Manhug on August 22, 2015, 08:52:53 AM
Got a really, really bad haircut. Is there anything worse than this?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Beezy on August 22, 2015, 10:13:24 AM
Got a really, really bad haircut. Is there anything worse than this?
...yes :foxx
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 24, 2015, 10:54:12 PM
Cat scratches door. I open door for cat. Cat turns around and runs away.  :maf So annoying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: BrokenVerses on August 25, 2015, 12:10:47 AM
Today I learned why you lift with your legs and not your back.  >:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 25, 2015, 02:33:06 PM
In this office two :expert s are insisting on talking about MUDs in outdoor voices.

"It's like Wow... but text."

Someone please kill me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 25, 2015, 02:56:22 PM
Did you invite them to your BBS?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 25, 2015, 06:57:12 PM
Been trawling the cesspool that is craigslist tryin to find a decent deal on something with 4wd :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 25, 2015, 07:42:13 PM
Accidentally dipped my johnson in American toilet water again. #firstworldproblems
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 26, 2015, 12:22:17 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/WNzftvv.png)

:brazilcry :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 26, 2015, 11:12:41 AM
Someone knocked at my door at 3am looking for someone that lives 2 or 3 houses down. Motherfucker, if you don't know where someone lives, 3am isn't a good time to figure it out. He didn't even seem high.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 26, 2015, 11:57:25 AM
Met a really nice gal last night. Not super proud of finger blasting her right out side the bar in front of other people (:snoop) but otherwise we had a really nice night together. But turns out she's from out of state and is just here visiting with a friend for a couple days and I'll never see her again.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 26, 2015, 12:09:05 PM
Nami needs a tooth pulled, 800$ :(, (but the tooth that she spat out the other day the vet says probably isn't hers).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 26, 2015, 11:16:55 PM
Eating pork rinds.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: OnlyRegret on August 27, 2015, 03:00:55 AM
Today I learned why you lift with your legs and not your back.  >:(

Ouch. Strained muscle? Disc issue?
I strained my back as a child once. Got better.

Nowadays I try to moreso sumo deadlift shit off the ground.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: brawndolicious on August 27, 2015, 03:03:37 AM
Was heating up my leftover Indian food and right after I took it out of the microwave, it all spilled out of the plate onto to the floor.  :brazilcry

Then I went to the kitchen to cook and saw my mom and we got into a two hour conversation that covered family history of mental disorders and apparently there's been a lot of depression and attempted suicide. Family bonding y'all.  :cac
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: ToxicAdam on August 27, 2015, 12:48:47 PM
After using my printer for 4 years, I just realized that it had a film across the main face plate.

I pulled the film off and immediately regretted it, as now it's a fingerprint/dust magnet.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Crash Dummy on August 27, 2015, 03:44:35 PM
i have no programming knowledge and may need to learn how to in c sharp or something  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 27, 2015, 04:14:00 PM
I TA this course a lot

https://www.coursera.org/course/programming1

I highly recommend it
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 27, 2015, 06:57:11 PM
Had inspections done on the place I'm trying to buy, the house is in great shape, septic is trash, 15k job :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Steve Contra on August 27, 2015, 07:08:38 PM
Septic systems :kobeyuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 27, 2015, 07:22:47 PM
Ah, anxiety attacks. Long time no see. :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Steve Contra on August 27, 2015, 07:24:31 PM
Ah, anxiety attacks. Long time no see. :aah
I haven't a big one in a long time.  Means the business is doing good  :whew
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 27, 2015, 07:39:41 PM
Motivational anxiety, now that's the good stuff. :aah This is just blah why anxiety. :shaq2

Gonna exercise or something after work. I'm such a psychosomatic disaster. :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 27, 2015, 07:41:40 PM
Feeling like I'm about to drop dead after living hard the past week with very little rest but got out of work early enough for a stoney evening bike ride and poss. some beers. :aah #struggletriumph #notgonnamakeit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 27, 2015, 07:48:05 PM
Septic systems :kobeyuck

Ya they are shit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 28, 2015, 12:03:08 AM
Sorry.  :-\ You're tougher than I am. Getting hammered and did something I'll regret forever and it's something a normal person would regret, not just someone with profound self loathing paired with a strong memory would regret.

I put my absinthe spoon on my carafe and my carafe topper on my absinthe glass. :dead :dead :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 28, 2015, 10:46:32 AM
worked yesterday from 3am til 9pm.
Started working at 6am again today

Shit's still broken.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 28, 2015, 11:37:11 AM
Math is hard.  :( 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 28, 2015, 12:02:06 PM
I "won" $5 margaritas for a group at a nearby tequila bar and you can imagine how I'm feeling right now. Eight margaritas and no dinner later...

Also took a four hour nap on the sidewalk last night. My life is literally in the gutter. :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 28, 2015, 01:25:49 PM
As AiA once accurately said about me, I think too much. :idont

What I was worked up about turned out OK anyway. I'm just a basketcase. :marimo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on August 28, 2015, 02:33:57 PM
Infested with fleas(http://i.imgur.com/j2I1iyY.png)

Fuck cats.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 28, 2015, 02:38:48 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/uKGmyfG.jpg?1)


Y'know, bruhs. Maybe being a wizard isn't so bad afterall.   :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 28, 2015, 02:57:14 PM
Can't miss what you ain't never had :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 28, 2015, 03:07:45 PM
I'll save you a seat at the alpine cafe I'm retiring to, Atra.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: studyguy on August 28, 2015, 04:45:07 PM
Downloaded an app for my phone that tells me how hot it's getting.



 :drudge
Clocking 42 - 45C, my phone is like uncomfortably hot in my pocket now.
Worried this shit's gonna blow up, popped it open and replaced a bad usb port a while back and I get the feeling I fucked something up on accident.
Kinda worried about running cpu intensive apps if it's just staying at 40C+ idle.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 28, 2015, 05:04:12 PM
binge eating again today cause I'm stressed.  Fuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 28, 2015, 06:52:00 PM
Nami got into something that says poison and causes cancer the bottle.  I put it on the night stand for 5 fucking mins while I cleaned my desk and she got it.  I feel fucking sick.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 28, 2015, 07:03:13 PM
Call the vet, duder.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 28, 2015, 07:20:20 PM
Called vet, they to told me to call animal poison control.  They said she should be OK but I have to watch her tonight and take to emergency if she vomits or has a lot of diarrhea. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 29, 2015, 10:58:24 PM
Oversharing on Facebook.  :snoop  :picard

I'm going to go through this whole fucking bottle of wine to keep myself from removing that post because my IRL friends need to know why I'm such a spazz.  :brazilcry

And no. I haven't thought any of this through.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 29, 2015, 11:02:08 PM
Drinking some wine myself tonight.

Drinking alone :preach

Drinking from a box :preach

Drinking from a box and pushing yourself to finish it so it "doesn't go bad" :preach

#KaraLife
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 29, 2015, 11:02:45 PM
What did you post?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 29, 2015, 11:03:39 PM
Sounds like you're actually thinking about it too much
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 29, 2015, 11:15:30 PM
What did you post?
Summary:
"I say & do weird shit sometimes in order to hide the fact that I'm freaking the fuck out.
Please understand."

Also, just today I gave that same excuse of "Oh, I didn't get enough sleep last night. That's why I'm jittery." To the grocery store cashier today while I was writing a check. Which was a lie. I had plenty of sleep.  :stahp

She even said to me, "Hey, are you okay? You can take your time with that check you know."

And I'm all: "Hahaha! Yeah, I'm fine! Hahaha!" *b-lines out the door*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Rufus on August 29, 2015, 11:20:01 PM
That does look like something that normal people would do. Reasonably sure. I hope you get a positive response.

The opening up to friends thing, not the anxiety.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 29, 2015, 11:20:24 PM
Drinking some wine myself tonight.

Drinking alone :preach

Drinking from a box :preach

Drinking from a box and pushing yourself to finish it so it "doesn't go bad" :preach

#KaraLife

The best thing about drinking absinthe is that if you pass out with a full glass the room STINKS to high heaven for a whole day so you get that extra motivation to power through the blackout.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 29, 2015, 11:25:15 PM
I gotta try absinthe to continue on my path towards true Kara-ization :preach

You're an inspiration man :usacry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 29, 2015, 11:30:07 PM
I "won" $5 margaritas for a group at a nearby tequila bar and you can imagine how I'm feeling right now. Eight margaritas and no dinner later...

Also took a four hour nap on the sidewalk last night. My life is literally in the gutter. :rejoice

Btw this was that night:

(http://i.imgur.com/ccb32rBl.jpg)

Pretty sure at least the two stacks on the right were mine.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: chronovore on August 29, 2015, 11:30:36 PM
Someone knocked at my door at 3am looking for someone that lives 2 or 3 houses down. Motherfucker, if you don't know where someone lives, 3am isn't a good time to figure it out. He didn't even seem high.
I'm legitimately interested in how you actually addressed this person at 3AM, and how long it took you to get back to sleep.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 29, 2015, 11:33:38 PM
I gotta try absinthe to continue on my path towards true Kara-ization :preach

You're an inspiration man :usacry
I want to try it too...

What's a good "beginner's" (if there is such a thing, haha...) absinthe, Kara?  :whew
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 29, 2015, 11:36:43 PM
I started with Kubler, it's a reasonable (by absinthe standards) costing brand but it's a pretty potent flavor, like drinking a ski slope.

I'd probably recommend starting with La Clandestine, it's a very clean so you can tell if you like the core flavor of absinthe before you start diving into all the crazy herb infused ones. Pretty much any blanche (clear) one is a good starting place since by default they have less herbs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 29, 2015, 11:48:15 PM
We need to have a Atra-Kara-Tasty drinkup at some abandoned apartment someday. It needs to happen.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 29, 2015, 11:55:16 PM
"A wizard, a communist, and a homosexual walk into a bar."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 29, 2015, 11:56:31 PM
"And they are immediately lynched, as the bar was in Kentucky."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 30, 2015, 12:03:45 AM
Oh yeah, newbie absintheur #lifehacks:

-A fork works just fine as an absinthe spoon. Absinthe spoons are just a symbol of how dedicated you are to being a degenerate, nothing more.
-Sugar cubes are on the baking aisle in the grocery store.
-You will have far too many sugar cubes for your needs when you buy a box so plan accordingly.
-There are a lot of shady knockoffs / cash-ins, make sure the label ALWAYS says "absinthe superieure," the feds require you to label absinthe that.
-Never refrigerate your absinthe, just keep it in a liquor cabinet or something similar.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Shadow Mod on August 30, 2015, 12:05:27 AM
Haven't been drinking enough water. Tears from eyes burning.  :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 30, 2015, 12:05:31 AM
Looking up absinthe in wiki...

Quote
The custom of drinking absinthe gradually became so popular in bars, bistros, cafés, and cabarets that, by the 1860s, the hour of 5 p.m. was called l'heure verte ("the green hour"). Absinthe was favoured by all social classes, from the wealthy bourgeoisie, to poor artists and ordinary working-class people. By the 1880s, mass production had caused the price of absinthe to drop sharply. By 1910, the French were drinking 36 million litres of absinthe per year, as compared to their annual consumption of almost 5 billion litres of wine.

As a francophile I can't believe I haven't gotten in on this shit sooner. :lawd

Though obviously making wine my go-to has worked out favorably. :jawalrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 30, 2015, 12:08:21 AM
Quote
One critic claimed:

Absinthe makes you crazy and criminal, provokes epilepsy and tuberculosis, and has killed thousands of French people. It makes a ferocious beast of man, a martyr of woman, and a degenerate of the infant, it disorganizes and ruins the family and menaces the future of the country.

Holy shit how have I not hopped on this train sooner :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 30, 2015, 12:08:38 AM
"Absinthe was favoured by all social classes, from the wealthy bourgeoisie, to poor artists and ordinary working-class people."

 :ussrcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 30, 2015, 12:09:42 AM
good watch imo

http://www.hulu.com/watch/258227
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 30, 2015, 12:13:02 AM
Looking up absinthe in wiki...

Quote
The custom of drinking absinthe gradually became so popular in bars, bistros, cafés, and cabarets that, by the 1860s, the hour of 5 p.m. was called l'heure verte ("the green hour"). Absinthe was favoured by all social classes, from the wealthy bourgeoisie, to poor artists and ordinary working-class people. By the 1880s, mass production had caused the price of absinthe to drop sharply. By 1910, the French were drinking 36 million litres of absinthe per year, as compared to their annual consumption of almost 5 billion litres of wine.

As a francophile I can't believe I haven't gotten in on this shit sooner. :lawd

Though obviously making wine my go-to has worked out favorably. :jawalrus

It's funny how French a drink it was for a period of time and how that was annihilated by the ban. Pastis (which is a similar style of spirit) eventually filled the void, but people don't really know about the link between pastis and absinthe if they even know about pastis in the first place.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: thisismyusername on August 30, 2015, 12:20:35 AM
Also, just today I gave that same excuse of "Oh, I didn't get enough sleep last night. That's why I'm jittery." To the grocery store cashier today while I was writing a check. Which was a lie. I had plenty of sleep.  :stahp

She even said to me, "Hey, are you okay? You can take your time with that check you know."

And I'm all: "Hahaha! Yeah, I'm fine! Hahaha!" *b-lines out the door*

I'm totally lost. What is bringing this on?

In any case, could be worse: You could be in a shitty situation, and feel like nothing you do will change the shitty situation.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 30, 2015, 12:24:54 AM
(https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/e/ee/The_Absinthe_Drinker_by_Viktor_Oliva.jpg/800px-The_Absinthe_Drinker_by_Viktor_Oliva.jpg)

Kara, avatar this now. :rofl
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on August 30, 2015, 12:30:09 AM
Kara how accurate is this: http://www.seriouseats.com/recipes/2012/09/diy-pastis-make-your-own-anise-pastis-recipe.html
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 30, 2015, 12:34:52 AM
that picture is too me irl :goty2

idk much about how pastis is made besides the different kind of anise it uses, but using vodka in a home brew is usually a red flag for fake as heck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 30, 2015, 12:37:27 AM
Also, just today I gave that same excuse of "Oh, I didn't get enough sleep last night. That's why I'm jittery." To the grocery store cashier today while I was writing a check. Which was a lie. I had plenty of sleep.  :stahp

She even said to me, "Hey, are you okay? You can take your time with that check you know."

And I'm all: "Hahaha! Yeah, I'm fine! Hahaha!" *b-lines out the door*

I'm totally lost. What is bringing this on?

In any case, could be worse: You could be in a shitty situation, and feel like nothing you do will change the shitty situation.
I don't know for certain. I just assume I have some sort of social anxiety even though I haven't been properly diagnosed.

Now that I have a good chunk of money to spend, after saving it for two years while I was living with my parents, I'll probably try to get some sort of professional help.

And yes, I could be worse off. Sorry about your shitty situation whatever it may be.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: thisismyusername on August 30, 2015, 01:03:23 AM
I don't know for certain. I just assume I have some sort of social anxiety even though I haven't been properly diagnosed.

Now that I have a good chunk of money to spend, after saving it for two years while I was living with my parents, I'll probably try to get some sort of professional help.

And yes, I could be worse off. Sorry about your shitty situation whatever it may be.  :(

Nonono, dude. What is making you think it's social anxiety. PM me these deets because I'm about to go to bed and I know this sort of stuff isn't really "post in the open" dealies. But I'm curious your issue(s) since I know you said in the past you heard voices(?) or was that Stealth?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on August 30, 2015, 01:05:59 AM
StealthFan is my Id made manifest.  :cody

But yeah, okay. I'll send you a PM with some quick deets.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 30, 2015, 02:01:08 AM
That does look like something that normal people would do. Reasonably sure. I hope you get a positive response.

The opening up to friends thing, not the anxiety.

Ya it sounds like a normal post from someone

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Barraco Barner on August 30, 2015, 06:26:34 PM
I want to quit my job.  :stahp

The Wire Season 4 didn't prepare me for this.  :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 30, 2015, 06:29:57 PM
Sure it did; Just do as Bubbles does.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 30, 2015, 11:38:14 PM
Feeling depressed and alone, a lil more than usual. Gonna wander out for a drink or two and see if that cures me.  8)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 31, 2015, 04:21:29 AM
Colleague asked if I have any sales coming in today, I said I would if our main office would have been open cause I need to open a customer account to process a sale, colleague replied that's a weak excuse and I should have opened the account sooner.

I dunno which emoji goes with this, so tired of these people.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: king of the internet on August 31, 2015, 12:54:02 PM
Colleague asked if I have any sales coming in today, I said I would if our main office would have been open cause I need to open a customer account to process a sale, colleague replied that's a weak excuse and I should have opened the account sooner.

I dunno which emoji goes with this, so tired of these people.

😖
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on August 31, 2015, 12:56:30 PM
The Nazi mods took away my anniversary.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: studyguy on August 31, 2015, 12:58:08 PM
Colleague asked if I have any sales coming in today, I said I would if our main office would have been open cause I need to open a customer account to process a sale, colleague replied that's a weak excuse and I should have opened the account sooner.

I dunno which emoji goes with this, so tired of these people.

 :shaq2

This one, and I can fuck with corporate offices not responding to branch office requests kind of struggles.
It's the kind of problem that leads to mini panic attacks for my ass from time to time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Human Snorenado on August 31, 2015, 02:41:55 PM
Work in sales, bruh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Huff on August 31, 2015, 09:44:59 PM
Fell into the rabbit hole of watch Australian tv morning show bloopers. That karl guy is a trip
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: chronovore on September 01, 2015, 01:55:35 AM
"A wizard, a communist, and a homosexual walk into a bar."
:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Yulwei on September 01, 2015, 06:40:19 AM
i used to be a much better person just 3 years ago  :fbm

i'm working on it though. trying to get everything back in order and i'm making progress (even if slowly).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: studyguy on September 01, 2015, 03:10:15 PM
Work in sales, bruh

You gotta eat somehow  :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 01, 2015, 03:29:16 PM
I'm so over worked.  Fuck. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 01, 2015, 03:36:08 PM
my tolerance for alcohol has turned to utter shit since i hit 30 this year wtf >:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on September 01, 2015, 04:19:20 PM
edit: *job woes* :beli


Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 01, 2015, 04:32:57 PM
dude just charge all your time to the jobs including breaks. do you think people who take cigarette breaks account for that time separately?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: studyguy on September 01, 2015, 04:34:00 PM
Expense everything is something I learned a long time ago.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Atramental on September 01, 2015, 04:37:49 PM
I do try to expense everything but then I get shit for being too slow/going slightly over budget with production related tasks.

edit: And this is my first "real job" so I'm not used to all of this shit.

Half the time I don't know if I'm fucking myself over or not.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on September 01, 2015, 04:46:45 PM
I always underbill. Fuck y'all and your quality of life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: studyguy on September 01, 2015, 04:48:00 PM
Don't sweat it, when I started my current position, the guy before me was making deals under the table with our own inventory and making bank. I was supposed to shadow him and learn. Turns out they fired his ass two weeks into my first month and I'm left here basically managing everything flying by the seat of my pants.

If you just started don't sweat your fuck ups, it's gonna happen. Just learn from them, write them down or at least understand why you fucked up and don't repeat it. My first year was awful, but it was like eh, yall don't have any other choice.  :patel
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 01, 2015, 04:52:32 PM
I do try to expense everything but then I get shit for being too slow/going slightly over budget with production related tasks.

edit: And this is my first "real job" so I'm not used to all of this shit.

Half the time I don't know if I'm fucking myself over or not.

ah you'll start to learn which clients/projects you can milk. for example i have a client i can bill 3 hours of my time to even though i only spend like 20min actually working. the rest of budget is for the director's review time. always ask the person who assigns you a task what the deadline and budget is or how long you're expected to take
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 01, 2015, 04:53:19 PM
I always underbill. Fuck y'all and your quality of life.

bruh

just

i don't even
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on September 01, 2015, 04:57:53 PM
Competitive advantage.  :patel
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Tasty on September 01, 2015, 04:59:52 PM
30% is my baseline, then I go up from that. :fbm

I JUST WANT THEM TO LOVE ME :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 01, 2015, 05:04:12 PM
Competitive advantage.  :patel

rich american clients are my golden geese, they know nothing about uk/european vat so i can always bill them all my time plus some just to improve my recovery rate 8)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Kara on September 01, 2015, 05:08:43 PM
I'm thinking about trying to get over to the Smoke so I'll keep that in mind even though I swore to charge reasonable rates as part of my licensing and I'm like the only person who swears oaths intending to keep them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 03, 2015, 05:55:20 AM
Fuck this world

Warning horrible picture of dead Syrian refugee boy  :-\  :nsfw

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: chronovore on September 03, 2015, 10:02:37 PM
Kosma, no. Just fucking no.

This is not something you can just fucking drop into a thread.

It's horrible. It's absolutely fucking horrible, and it needs to be addressed, but dropping photos of dead children into a thread out of nowhere isn't going to advance the cause.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: brawndolicious on September 03, 2015, 10:18:29 PM
I heard on the radio this morning about pictures of a drowned Syrian toddler but I thought you posted that as an emoticon last night (as in it wasn't a picture of a dead child). I now realize what it is. I can understand how you're feeling but linking to an article about it would be best so I can prepare myself to see it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Rufus on September 04, 2015, 12:22:40 AM
So now we have our "Symbolfoto", huh?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: eleuin on September 04, 2015, 02:46:23 AM
mods help  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 04, 2015, 03:47:41 AM
Sorry lads I was so upset when I saw that yesterday it was all over fb here in Europe wasn't thinking straight  :'(

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - 2 Hot 4 the Leather Jihadi #JeSuisArvie
Post by: chronovore on September 04, 2015, 11:21:25 AM
Sorry lads I was so upset when I saw that yesterday it was all over fb here in Europe wasn't thinking straight  :'(
That much I can definitely understand. Sorry for your pain, friend.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 04, 2015, 01:23:40 PM
Aw dude its just so hard to see as a dad now and know this little boy was someones everything.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Kara on September 04, 2015, 02:44:40 PM
Pardon my post-ironic bullying. Having neither received parental love nor given it myself, I can only caricature feelings experienced by others based on these close bonds as schmaltzy to avoid having to face the void in my own heart.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Kara on September 04, 2015, 02:45:04 PM
Damn that was dark af. :whoo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: king of the internet on September 04, 2015, 02:53:33 PM
Pardon my post-ironic bullying. Having neither received parental love nor given it myself, I can only caricature feelings experienced by others based on these close bonds as schmaltzy to avoid having to face the void in my own heart.

 :whew :mynicca
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 04, 2015, 04:28:19 PM
Title change

:dead

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 04, 2015, 04:32:12 PM
Now that the title changed am I still me? 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGH_1A-3bDg
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Kara on September 04, 2015, 04:53:57 PM
U can b whoever u want to b, it's the internet
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: chronovore on September 04, 2015, 08:42:29 PM
Title change

:dead

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It's not even marginally funny.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Kara on September 04, 2015, 08:56:33 PM
Yeah, it's Syriasly not funny. Fucking OP. :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 04, 2015, 08:57:30 PM
whoever changed the title ain't shit
:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 04, 2015, 08:59:24 PM
U can b whoever u want to b, it's the internet

Then I choose to be you.   :-*


Anyways my struggle today went like so:  I accidentally code-switched into Russian today in front of a respectable client who drives a Porsche 911 GT3 with a 'Don't re-nig in 2012' bumper sticker in the front window.  This combined with forgetting to take off my hammer and cycle broach last week makes me worry that he might think I'm left-leaning.   To relieve the stress, I got on my bike with a hand crafted German gear system and Dutch-cis gendered frame and as I was biking - at my 11th current record time - my Mio Energy kicks in and knocks me off my rhythm, causing the Budenovka I was wearing to fall into my spokes sending me flying face first right into my client's/mob boss's big tittied side-dish, who then, thankfully, murdered me.  I think this is all because mommy didn't love me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Kara on September 04, 2015, 10:37:59 PM
You forgot dad too. :bolo

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Atramental on September 05, 2015, 12:12:53 AM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Mandark on September 05, 2015, 12:14:10 AM
congrats on getting laid
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: king of the internet on September 05, 2015, 12:16:27 AM
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(http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3508/3179924358_7670c6e071.jpg) Rocky Road :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Kara on September 05, 2015, 12:17:16 AM
congrats on getting laid

:dead thread is on fire today
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Great Rumbler on September 05, 2015, 12:24:30 AM
I don't want to live in a world where you can't make jokes about dead Syrian kids.

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Oh wait, yeah I do. :goty
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Atramental on September 05, 2015, 12:39:33 AM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 05, 2015, 12:48:33 AM
I don't want to live in a world where you can't make jokes about dead Syrian kids.

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Oh wait, yeah I do. :goty
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Israeli bad, I know.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 05, 2015, 01:19:03 AM
Oman, Kuwait it now. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 05, 2015, 01:45:12 AM
I'd just like to say that I'm Saudi that Iran past the limits of good taste.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Why so Syrias, Kosma?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 05, 2015, 02:37:56 AM
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You still have my vote, Hillary.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: bork on September 05, 2015, 07:26:22 AM
Working on Saturdays

Having to be here before 7 AM

:stahp

Fucking Dragon-Con going right around here  :punch

Fucking wait times just to get on the escalator  :gun
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 05, 2015, 01:59:37 PM
Having to work on saturday :goty
Having to work on Sunday :goty
having to work through labor day :goty

At least I can see the end of the project from here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 05, 2015, 02:03:47 PM
Grad student; I work 7 days a week.

Your struggle :piss2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: bork on September 05, 2015, 04:01:02 PM
Well, I made it through the mass of obese superheroes and power rangers and got on a train going home unscathed.  I really need to take off when Dragon Con starts...so I can avoid it.

Perhaps the saddest scene was one lone man looking down at his massive gut and patting it affectionately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 05, 2015, 04:16:36 PM
Perhaps the saddest scene was one lone man looking down at his massive gut and patting it affectionately.

My hero. :american
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 05, 2015, 05:42:51 PM
Got up around 5AM and thought I heard the shower on. Walked out my room and realized the washing machine hose had burst, and the laundry room was flooding. Luckily the water had seemingly only been spraying for a few minutes or else I would have been fuuucked. The water was spraying directly at the one angle I could use to get behind the washing machine quickly, so I got soaked before I could turn the water off. Cleaned up the mess, said fuck it and went to bed.

Woke up around 1PM and put my handy man XP to use. Thankfully the water pipes are fine, only the hot and cold hoses blew. Removed the broken hose connector, which had seemingly rusted to shit and thus took awhile. Headed to Home Depot to buy two hoses - stainless steel, it looks like it'll last. Connected it, turned the water back on...no leak
:whew

Seemingly no water damage, although some water got into the furnace. Overall what could have been a weekend long repair job costing hundreds of dollars (depending on if I could do it myself or call a plumber) turned out to only cost me $21 (for the hoses). Thank you based god. Lord knows I'm not about that welding life, so glad I didn't have to do shit but change the hose.
:lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 05, 2015, 05:54:43 PM
Perhaps the saddest scene was one lone man looking down at his massive gut and patting it affectionately.

My hero. :american

Don't you weigh like 130 lbs?

UGH I wish.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 05, 2015, 10:54:31 PM
Turns out the water must have gotten into the water heater and knocked out the pilot light; didn't realize it until early in the evening when I finally took a shower. Headed to the dollar store (didn't see Dollar Store Girl tho), picked up one of those long lighters, went home and lit the pilot light with ease.

The only way this weekend can get more manly is if I get laid. Might call Dollar Store Girl... :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: mormapope on September 05, 2015, 11:09:23 PM
I dunno, it sounds like you've had bad luck with a really good ending to the problem you're having.

So you should call the girl up and see what happens
 :cody
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Barraco Barner on September 06, 2015, 12:27:41 PM
I made that Wire joke earlier, but I found out yesterday that one of my colleagues previously taught in Baltimore schools, considers our current placement a nightmare, and is eager to bolt from here and go back.

 I'm not sure which smiley to use to represent my predicament.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 06, 2015, 01:18:39 PM
Some how I managed to fall a sleep with Nami's 2 inch by 4 inch cow leg bone under my pillow.  My neck is totally sore and painful. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: king of the internet on September 06, 2015, 01:58:02 PM
Some how I managed to fall a sleep with Nami's 2 inch by 4 inch cow leg bone under my pillow.  My neck is totally sore and painful.

I first read this as her leg bone under your pillow and was like  :wtf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: king of the internet on September 06, 2015, 02:02:55 PM
On topic: it's 2PM on the dot and I'm drinking room temp PBR from last night while laying in bed  8)

Feels more like a triumph tho tbh. Doing whatever you want and not giving a fuck :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: chronovore on September 06, 2015, 09:17:14 PM
Realized my passport will expire in two weeks; tried calling the US Consulate, but they take off US holidays AND Japanese holidays. FFS, government... if I'm theoretically on US soil at an embassy, you theoretically don't get the J-holiday.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Huff on September 06, 2015, 09:55:42 PM
"Hey hope you finished that one project that didn't have a due date until October because we're submitting it on Tuesday"

At least I have coffee and tobacco stocked for this long night
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 06, 2015, 10:11:55 PM
Internet was down nearly all day. About 3 weeks ago I bought a new modem (Surfboard SB6121) to replace my old one, which was disconnecting 5-8 times a day and was no longer supported by Comcast. The new modem increased my speeds quite a bit, however a couple days ago it started DCing once a day; I didn't think it was a huge deal. Then today it was down from around 12PM-9PM.

I have a Comcast tech coming out tomorrow on the holiday (!) but jesus, I'm tired of this shit. The only reason I haven't bolted it because I'm still under contract with Comcast and the competitors are limited in my area.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 07, 2015, 10:28:58 AM
Yea I did that multiple times. The problem must be the cord outside.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 07, 2015, 12:45:34 PM
I found a bottle of Mio Energy in my murse and kissed it celebratorily.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Tasty on September 07, 2015, 07:32:52 PM
Did you call Comcast and have them add your new modem's MAC address to your account?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 07, 2015, 11:31:14 PM
SSRIs are :trash.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 08, 2015, 12:36:49 AM
Did you call Comcast and have them add your new modem's MAC address to your account?

Yea. Today the tech came out. He said the signal strength was pretty low/weak, and ended up replacing the splitter outside. I think he did some other shit too but I'm not sure. Everything seemed to be working and then I DC'd again about 5 hours after he left. Granted it was a short DC, and replugging the modem fixed it, but still. I'll monitor the situation and see how it works this week.

Do you guys disconnect during the week?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 08, 2015, 12:37:25 AM
SSRIs are :trash.

Get a neurotransmitter test, I actually don't have a serotonin problem so all the SSRIs I ever took were pretty much money down the drain.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 08, 2015, 01:13:39 AM
:what
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Tasty on September 08, 2015, 01:51:46 AM
Did you call Comcast and have them add your new modem's MAC address to your account?

Yea. Today the tech came out. He said the signal strength was pretty low/weak, and ended up replacing the splitter outside. I think he did some other shit too but I'm not sure. Everything seemed to be working and then I DC'd again about 5 hours after he left. Granted it was a short DC, and replugging the modem fixed it, but still. I'll monitor the situation and see how it works this week.

Do you guys disconnect during the week?

When I set up my new modem last Sunday I couldn't connect until I changed the router DNS to Google, and then it was disconnecting like every hour. Disconnecting from the router and switching back immediately fixed it for my laptop but it was still annoying. Then after four days it stopped and has been smooth sailing since. I'd just keep an eye on it and see if it continues to be a problem.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 08, 2015, 03:26:39 AM
:what

I suppose I should have asked why you thought they were trash.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: studyguy on September 08, 2015, 10:49:34 AM
Didn't sleep at all last night, was way too fucking hot.
Woke up like 3 times then finally at 6AM with a headache and that grogginess.
Fuck work.  :-\ :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Brehvolution on September 08, 2015, 11:08:52 AM
The wife insists on the bedroom AC being on 60 all night long. She gets real pissy when you turn it off. I'm so glad summer is almost over.  Sleeping in a silent room is within reach, brehs.  :lawd

Winter is coming.  :cac
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Shadow Mod on September 08, 2015, 11:17:30 AM
Been waking up with bloody noses.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Rufus on September 08, 2015, 11:46:18 AM
Dry air?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Tasty on September 08, 2015, 11:57:38 AM
Been waking up with bloody noses.  :-\

You are already dead

alternate post:

Stop having such ecchi dreams, baka.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: studyguy on September 08, 2015, 01:21:57 PM
Fuck my nose bleeds in the morning from the slightest touch too. My nose is shit though, I had a vein or whatever burned when I was like 6 and it stopped things for a while, but it came back hard later when I was like in my teens. I wake up every so often and scratch my nose and suddenly blood.

All that shit comes from just having a dry nose, you can actually stop it easily by putting a little petroleum jelly at the opening of your nose before you go to bed. Thing is then you have fucking jelly in your nose and no one's about that business. Also humidifiers, but again who wants to sleep in damp shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 08, 2015, 01:24:30 PM
Shaved my beard of ten months. Not sure if this is a struggle or a triumph, but I don't remember my face looking this weird.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 08, 2015, 01:28:07 PM
Shaved my beard of ten months. Not sure if this is a struggle or a triumph, but I don't remember my face looking this weird.

(http://i.imgur.com/IFwuztU.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 08, 2015, 01:32:00 PM
"I can't even look at you." - My boss
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Rufus on September 08, 2015, 01:39:49 PM
The first few hours without are always weird. You feel even the tiniest draught.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Shadow Mod on September 08, 2015, 02:00:04 PM
Fuck my nose bleeds in the morning from the slightest touch too. My nose is shit though, I had a vein or whatever burned when I was like 6 and it stopped things for a while, but it came back hard later when I was like in my teens. I wake up every so often and scratch my nose and suddenly blood.

All that shit comes from just having a dry nose, you can actually stop it easily by putting a little petroleum jelly at the opening of your nose before you go to bed. Thing is then you have fucking jelly in your nose and no one's about that business. Also humidifiers, but again who wants to sleep in damp shit.

I had my nose cauterized too, as a teen. Nothing like smelling your own burning flesh for days. I didn't even want to eat. But yeah I need to do some sort of jelly under the nose or saline spray up there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 08, 2015, 02:16:28 PM
:what

I suppose I should have asked why you thought they were trash.

I thought you were fucking with me about neurotransmitter tests. They actually exist?

Just never felt a benefit from SSRIs really, but of course I feel its side effects of low energy and low libido.

I take Prozac and Wellbutrin for antidepressants. Wellbutrin isn't an SSRI at least, and should improve energy/libido.

Want to drop the Prozac and just stick with Wellbutrin for an antidepressant.

Playing doctor with my mental health :derp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 08, 2015, 03:08:01 PM
I went off my Citalopram like a :badass because I thought I didn't need it anymore, but my brain was like :ufup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: king of the internet on September 08, 2015, 03:09:38 PM
These days I just smoke weed all day every day to deal with my undiagnosed mental issues.  8)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 08, 2015, 03:11:13 PM
These days I just smoke weed all day every day to deal with my undiagnosed mental issues.  8)
:mynicca
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: studyguy on September 08, 2015, 03:15:53 PM
I had my nose cauterized too, as a teen. Nothing like smelling your own burning flesh for days. I didn't even want to eat. But yeah I need to do some sort of jelly under the nose or saline spray up there.

I had nightmares about that shit when I was a little ass kid, I vividly remember it hurting like fuck and walking out of the office crying like a bitch with my nose running non stop like it was a faucet. I don't know how they normally do it, but we were broke as fuck and it had to have been done with no local anesthesia or anything.

 :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 08, 2015, 03:21:39 PM
I went off my Citalopram like a :badass because I thought I didn't need it anymore, but my brain was like :ufup

Yeah, that usually happens :lol

The worst is Effexor though, holy fuck, the withdrawals are brutal. I don't think Prozac is too bad.

These days I just smoke weed all day every day to deal with my undiagnosed mental issues.  8)

Kind of do this too, but I'm actually diagnosed so my weed use just complicates my treatment.

Used to drink though to deal with anxiety and that made everything far worse.

Now I pop kpins :idont
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 08, 2015, 03:57:51 PM
I went off my Citalopram like a :badass because I thought I didn't need it anymore, but my brain was like :ufup

Yeah, that usually happens :lol

The worst is Effexor though, holy fuck, the withdrawals are brutal. I don't think Prozac is too bad.

I made it through the withdrawals from citalopram, but about three months later I started having massive anxiety attacks again on the reg so I was like "hmm, I guess this actually was helping me after all". This was a couple of years ago btw, not recently.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Shadow Mod on September 08, 2015, 04:23:31 PM
I had my nose cauterized too, as a teen. Nothing like smelling your own burning flesh for days. I didn't even want to eat. But yeah I need to do some sort of jelly under the nose or saline spray up there.

I had nightmares about that shit when I was a little ass kid, I vividly remember it hurting like fuck and walking out of the office crying like a bitch with my nose running non stop like it was a faucet. I don't know how they normally do it, but we were broke as fuck and it had to have been done with no local anesthesia or anything.

 :stahp

I don't think they bother with the anesthetic for that. Didn't get any myself. Basically they put some sort of matchstick up my nose and pressed it to the area that kept exploding. Ugh. Yeah was painful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Steve Contra on September 08, 2015, 04:34:21 PM
They forgot to give me something after they cauterized my nose (they numbed it first) and once the numbness wore off I was in the worst pain of my entire life.  I still have nightmares about it :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 09, 2015, 03:18:48 AM
Seeing a member of your family sign up for an anti immigration rally on fb.

 :-\

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: chronovore on September 09, 2015, 04:50:52 AM
Seeing a member of your family sign up for an anti immigration rally on fb.

 :-\

 Yeah, we've all got a relative or three we wish we could airdrop into an Actual Problem Zone. One of mine is in California, is convinced that illegal immigrants are stealing all kinds of services, even though the particular services require a SSN for sign-up. Come on, it's like he's not even trying to find real shit to be upset about. He'll probably vote for Trump, just based on prejudices.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Rufus on September 09, 2015, 09:36:55 AM
Seeing a member of your family sign up for an anti immigration rally on fb.

 :-\
If my mom wasn't as politically passive she would too. The burning irony is completely lost on her. I'm really glad we don't talk much or I would pop a vessel.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 09, 2015, 01:31:15 PM
I just dont get it why some people only think of themselves.

Indian guy in class today "for all I care the refugees can swim to sweden, I dont want my taxes to go to them, world isnt fair boohoo"

Same guy a few weeks back

"I hate Denmark you have to do everything yourself at home in india we had staff"

Me: you can hire staff here too you just have to pay them a normal wage :smug

Guy used to give me a ride home since he lives next to me but from now on Ill take public transport so I dont have to small talk with his biggot ass
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: brawndolicious on September 09, 2015, 03:38:14 PM
Tell me he has an arranged marriage.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 10, 2015, 02:48:55 AM
Damn I should have asked, guess Ill never know now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 10, 2015, 11:35:12 AM
Yet you sound salty about that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 10, 2015, 12:53:32 PM
Old stale nuts aren't my thing either. 
spoiler (click to show/hide)
So give up hope now Drinky.
[close]
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 10, 2015, 12:54:42 PM
I've had a cold for a bit.  Thought it would be better today but nope.  Its not bad but everytime I blow my noise I get a copious amount of snot in my beard, so I can't go out in public. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: brawndolicious on September 10, 2015, 02:15:37 PM
Damn I should have asked, guess Ill never know now.

My experience with dudes like that is the wife their parents set them up with from their home country gets really disgruntled with the marriage when they see how things are different in the West.

Edit: I meant different in that women expect more equality in the household.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 10, 2015, 02:22:08 PM
Gonna take on the name Snotbeard and sail the salty seas. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 10, 2015, 02:49:04 PM
Gonna take on the name Snotbeard and sail the salty seas.

O captain my captain :uguu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 10, 2015, 03:36:32 PM
Ate a large pizza hut pizza in one sitting. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 10, 2015, 04:31:43 PM
Bought some Metal Gear games. :snoop

Thank god I gave away my PSP. :whew
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Rufus on September 10, 2015, 04:33:16 PM
Bought some Metal Gear games. :snoop

Thank god I gave away my PSP. :whew
http://www.ppsspp.org/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 10, 2015, 09:46:56 PM
Reading tiesto's fb bud's libertarian rant. Omg I can't believe I was a Paul tard once.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 11, 2015, 09:44:03 AM
O fuck do I feel like shit after eating that pizza. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: ToxicAdam on September 11, 2015, 11:23:07 AM
Ate a large pizza hut pizza in one sitting. 

I'm always amazed by people that can do this. I eat half a pizza and I start to get sick to my stomach. Too much grease.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 11, 2015, 01:02:36 PM
As one not damned to be a lollygagging lifehaver, some of the most #struggle days for me are when I've been working in an office for a few hours before it opened and still being there when the lollygagging lifehavers come in for their 9 to 5 or whatever their mandatory servitude to capital is and proceed to not get to work and yak about cabbages and kings while I'm going full bore because I have to pretend I'm zoned out to avoid being sucked into banal cubicle monkey discussions even though I'm not zoned out and can hear every excruciating word.

This morning the conversation used to torture me involved over analyzing some email like it's Game of Thrones outchea instead of the Game of Drones it actually is and eventually it got to a point where my tormentors were baffled by something being in London but being in Canada and I eventually I had to break kayfabe and point out that there's a London, Ontario, which drew :what 's and I had to pretend that I was somewhat sure of this instead of absolutely certain with every bone in my body you fucking cretins because the situation was already :snoop.

If I should die before I wake pray no soul I have to take. Go Knights Go.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Rufus on September 11, 2015, 01:09:51 PM
I find things like that funny
spoiler (click to show/hide)
actually, they make me kinda mad
[close]
since these days most people have infinite information at their very fingertips.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Human Snorenado on September 11, 2015, 03:04:56 PM
My boss last year: what are these offset acounts?

Me: basically, everything that isn't already categorized goes into here. It's largely supplies and maintenance expenses. I can separate them out if you want, but it's gonna take a couple weeks as it's a lot of work and I'll need to ask you questions about a lot of stuff.

Boss: nah, don't worry about it.

...

Boss today: so, I'm buying a new building and my accountant wants a breakdown of all the stuff from these offset accounts. What are those?

Me: SLGHASUIGHASIUGBHSUIABGIUSAGIUASGIGAOSGIDYGIUASFDGIUASDFGHIHXDKJVNSDHKJASHIUEHRWUIOHEUHU

...ok
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 11, 2015, 07:56:28 PM
Dodged another struggle bullet brehs :rejoice

Last night my car stopped working at a stop light (busy intersection btw). I couldn't get it to start, thought I was fuuuuuuucked...then my dad literally happened to drive past me  :lol

He had some jumper cables, we tried that to no avail. Tried some other shit before pushing the car into a parking lot. Right before calling AAA I said "maybe I can put some gas in..." I was sort of on E when it stopped working. Turns out I had run out of gas. No other issues. Well, I guess my gas meter must be off a bit or something but that's no big deal.

So many major problems avoided this month :whew

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: brawndolicious on September 11, 2015, 08:21:38 PM
smh it damages the fuel pump when gas level gets low enough to suck in air. The gasoline acts as a lubricant for the pump.

I always make sure to refill when there's at least a couple gallons left in the tank.  :smug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Human Snorenado on September 12, 2015, 03:23:47 PM
My gas gauge doesn't even WORK and I've never run out of gas

:bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 12, 2015, 03:34:26 PM
PD doesn't seem like the kinda guy to suck gas from parked cars in a Walmart though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 12, 2015, 06:25:26 PM
I've always been that guy who only gets gas when I'm super low or out
:yeshrug

Well except for in the winter of course.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 12, 2015, 06:31:23 PM
My sibling had a "duhhh I was out of gas?" incident like that too and I was the unfortunate soul that had to bail them out of their bad life decision. That night. :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 12, 2015, 10:53:06 PM
Speaking of bad life decisions, I just had to walk 5-6 miles in cleats with fiberglass/nylon composite soles. My feet are going to fall off tonight.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on September 12, 2015, 11:27:47 PM
My last car had a fuel gauge that would slowly creep to the half full point...and then just collapse thereafter.

I remember ~5 years ago driving out in the middle of nowhere for work once.  Within the span of a half hour, I went from over half a tank of gas to getting a light indicating I had less than one gallon left.  A lot of these really small rural towns don't have a gas station.  Fortunately there was a tiny ass gas station a few miles away.  If it was any further than that, I would have definitely been stranded.  This area had no cell coverage too so I couldn't call anyone if I ran out of gas.

Now I habitually fill the gas tank at half a tank, even though my current car's fuel gauge appears to be working just fine.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: nachobro on September 13, 2015, 12:07:49 AM
Sunday Ticket costs $50 more if you want to watch it on a console or chromecast. wtf  :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: chronovore on September 13, 2015, 04:47:52 AM
Neighbors had their lawn trimmed, so instead of a nap, I was kept awake by gas-powered gardening tools until the grass in the air gave me an allergy attack.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 14, 2015, 01:54:24 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/6RBzimJ.gif)

Going to an outpatient clinic to get my meds reassessed :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 16, 2015, 02:56:53 AM
Googled a letter in IPA and included IPA after it to make sure Google looked for the IPA letter and not the letter used in other alphabets. The second result was for a fucking India Pale Ale that used that letter in its name. :beli

Beer dadvocates. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 16, 2015, 07:31:59 AM
Went for a casual semi pre interview today, but honestly I wasn't very enthusiastic for signing up to another corporate overlord. I really need to start my own biz.

Edit: Just talking I felt like I was going through the motions, I didn't really care.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Steve Contra on September 16, 2015, 01:27:31 PM
One of the greatest winemakers of the past half-century died today :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Tasty on September 16, 2015, 01:45:53 PM
One of the greatest winemakers of the past half-century died today :'(

 :noooo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 16, 2015, 02:15:22 PM
One of the greatest winemakers of the past half-century died today :'(

RIP Charles Shaw
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Steve Contra on September 16, 2015, 02:32:59 PM
One of the greatest winemakers of the past half-century died today :'(

RIP Charles Shaw
Charles Shaw is alive and kicking but he hasn't made wine for years, since he sold the winery to Fred Franzia, who is also still alive.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: chronovore on September 17, 2015, 06:17:51 AM
Just spent 20 minutes entering password/email combinations under both my PSN accounts for the Amazon Video app on PS3, to no avail.

Logging in with my US or JP account, the app was clearly showing only US content. Amazon Japan has been running ads for their new-to-Japan service, so I was anxious to give it a try... but it hasn't even launched yet. The service begins "at the end of September," :doge and the ways it can be viewed apparently do not include the PS3 app.
spoiler (click to show/hide)
More likely they just haven't updated the app yet.
[close]

Man, that was really annoying. Probably elevated annoyance levels due to the heinous amount of coffee I've had today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 17, 2015, 10:33:05 AM
Wearing white socks with my boat shoes :ufup
When I sit my pants ride up and expose my transgression.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 17, 2015, 11:00:58 AM
Wearing white socks with my boat shoes :ufup
When I sit my pants ride up and expose my transgression.

that's what you get for leaving the house
:tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 17, 2015, 12:10:08 PM
Real life is hard :brazilcry

Fortunately, I'm surrounded by crazy people so it's one of the least offensive sights here.

Not being the craziest one in the room :preach
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 17, 2015, 01:06:15 PM
I love tiering the patients in my shrink's office in least to most S A D  B O Y. My bête noire is a young mom with a kid who is always sullenly engrossed in her phone instead of bonding in any way whatsoever with her gene repository. I'm going to claim victory over you someday, comrade-patient. :bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 17, 2015, 07:33:23 PM
I threw away all my white socks to avoid the very same situation.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: BrokenVerses on September 17, 2015, 08:05:22 PM
MEPS  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 18, 2015, 02:31:41 AM
be a scumbag brehs

actually maybe that doesn't apply. You know how you meet someone, both of you are rather clear that you aren't looking for a relationship, so instead you just have fun/chill/whatever. Nothing serious. And then the other person starts catching feelings and slowly starts switching up the agreement. I don't want to meet your family.

Few more days to come up with some bullshit to get out of a commitment I foolishly made. It's minor (just watching the game with her siblings at her place) but still...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: OnlyRegret on September 18, 2015, 02:42:35 AM
MEPS  :-\

What did the members of the european parliament do
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 18, 2015, 05:08:13 AM
be a scumbag brehs

actually maybe that doesn't apply. You know how you meet someone, both of you are rather clear that you aren't looking for a relationship, so instead you just have fun/chill/whatever. Nothing serious. And then the other person starts catching feelings and slowly starts switching up the agreement. I don't want to meet your family.

Few more days to come up with some bullshit to get out of a commitment I foolishly made. It's minor (just watching the game with her siblings at her place) but still...

Watching the game doesn't sound bad though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 18, 2015, 11:24:27 AM
Ate 2 dozen oatmeal cookies yesterday and now I need to shit at work.  Also I'm super bloated, like a women on the pad who drowned. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: ToxicAdam on September 18, 2015, 12:52:59 PM
Wore a cotton dress shirt that is too tight today. I look pretty buff from the breastbone up, please ignore the rest.



Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: king of the internet on September 18, 2015, 12:59:54 PM
Ate 2 dozen oatmeal cookies yesterday and now I need to shit at work.  Also I'm super bloated, like a women on the pad who drowned.

Aren't oatmeal cookies good for you? At least it wasn't Oreos or something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 18, 2015, 01:00:44 PM
I'm not sure any cookies are good for you when you eat 2 dozen of them. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 18, 2015, 01:15:28 PM
Leaving work at 1 so I can go home to poop.  This is the life. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Steve Contra on September 18, 2015, 01:31:40 PM
Going home to poop :neogaf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 18, 2015, 01:33:26 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/z02on1a.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 18, 2015, 01:36:19 PM
Not pooping at work

Not getting paid to poop

 :beli
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: BrokenVerses on September 18, 2015, 01:50:21 PM
MEPS  :-\

What did the members of the european parliament do

Military Entrance Processing.  :-\

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: studyguy on September 18, 2015, 02:00:22 PM
Girlfriend works as a physical therapy place. Guess the physical therapist didn't lock some table they work on patients with and the fucking thing collapsed on an old patient and he's blaming his staff, my girl included despite the fact she wasn't even in the room. Apparently the old ass dude busted his face something awful when it fell. Calls me crying and shit that she might get fired along with some other girl. The fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 18, 2015, 02:05:50 PM
I honestly don't know why I do this to myself.  It use to be that I had the will power of a Buddhist monk with such a well disciplined bowl system that insured every poop was a pre-morning-shower poop.  This took years of hard work to master and every day I would have a turd-maker so fresh even Mr Clean wouldn't say no to rimming it and now I'm pooping at 2PM, and bros., its depressing.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 18, 2015, 02:15:22 PM
Pooping at work is great, I'm doing it right now
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Steve Contra on September 18, 2015, 02:19:13 PM
Pooping at work is great, I'm doing it right now
Being normal and being to shit anywhere :aah

Going home to poop like a sad 2nd grader :neogaf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 18, 2015, 02:21:54 PM
Leaving work at 1 so I can go home to poop.  This is the life. 

Yo, we TVC now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 18, 2015, 02:22:39 PM
I also get to work in my underwear with air conditioning now.  So suck on my significantly shrunk nuts.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Steve Contra on September 18, 2015, 02:23:31 PM
I can do that too if I want.  Owning your own company :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: studyguy on September 18, 2015, 02:25:25 PM
Pooping at work is great, I'm doing it right now

Getting paid to shit is where it's at.
 :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Kara on September 18, 2015, 03:01:47 PM
be a scumbag brehs

actually maybe that doesn't apply. You know how you meet someone, both of you are rather clear that you aren't looking for a relationship, so instead you just have fun/chill/whatever. Nothing serious. And then the other person starts catching feelings and slowly starts switching up the agreement. I don't want to meet your family.

Few more days to come up with some bullshit to get out of a commitment I foolishly made. It's minor (just watching the game with her siblings at her place) but still...

This was me throughout my early 20s.

Then I really wanted to commit to someone and got burned bad.

Don't be a victim of poetic justice breh. It's awful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 18, 2015, 03:36:03 PM
got lectured on how much i drink by a muslim stoner, not sure what to feel or think really
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 18, 2015, 04:00:16 PM
Maybe if you were more in touch with your feelings you wouldn't drink so much
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Mr. Gundam on September 18, 2015, 04:43:57 PM
Ate 2 dozen oatmeal cookies yesterday and now I need to shit at work.  Also I'm super bloated, like a women on the pad who drowned.

Aren't oatmeal cookies good for you? At least it wasn't Oreos or something.

Oatmeal is good for you. 24 cookies worth of butter and sugar? Probably not.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: recursivelyenumerable on September 18, 2015, 04:54:33 PM
Girlfriend works as a physical therapy place. Guess the physical therapist didn't lock some table they work on patients with and the fucking thing collapsed on an old patient and he's blaming his staff, my girl included despite the fact she wasn't even in the room. Apparently the old ass dude busted his face something awful when it fell. Calls me crying and shit that she might get fired along with some other girl. The fuck.

took a few readings before i realized you meant to type "girlfriend works at ..."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 18, 2015, 04:57:32 PM
Was my birthday a couple days ago. (Too late for you to wish me it now. :jawalrus)

Hate my birthday and prefer not to celebrate it, but if you want to recognize it I'm not going to be ungrateful. But only if you recognize it on my birthday. (I'd rather get a text the day of than a party days later when it's convenient.)

This year I thought I'd had my best birthday since my seventeenth. The only two people on the planet who could possibly lay claim to knowing me in a meaningful way were the only ones to wish me a happy birthday. My brother from another mother even surprised me with a viewing of 22 Jump Street.

Then one of my gal pals leaves a birthday card days later (strike 1) in my public inbox (strike 2) saying that we need to do something when she's free in the future (foul ball strike 2) which forces a bunch of people in the office that desk is at to fall over themselves trying to not look like they forgot about Dre culminating in an awkward birthday lunch next week (strike 3).

Now I have to be a jerkwad and tell my gal pal explicitly that it's either day of or not at all in the future and that she alone shat up a perfectly good birthday. I also have to pick my own fucking restaurant for my shamefully late "birthday" lunch. Good fucking grief, fuck everything.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on September 18, 2015, 05:03:38 PM
Kara, do we have the same birthday? :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Steve Contra on September 18, 2015, 05:03:45 PM
Somehow I missed the two dozen part of Arvie's post.  I'd like to say "what is wrong with you?" but it fits the narrative.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 18, 2015, 05:08:06 PM
Kara, end of this clip

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CNgL0E2BFEM
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 18, 2015, 05:17:51 PM
Kara, do we have the same birthday? :lol

If you posted that message from Funimation on your actual birthday then no.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 18, 2015, 05:52:40 PM
Was my birthday a couple days ago. (Too late for you to wish me it now. :jawalrus)

Hate my birthday and prefer not to celebrate it, but if you want to recognize it I'm not going to be ungrateful. But only if you recognize it on my birthday. (I'd rather get a text the day of than a party days later when it's convenient.)

This year I thought I'd had my best birthday since my seventeenth. The only two people on the planet who could possibly lay claim to knowing me in a meaningful way were the only ones to wish me a happy birthday. My brother from another mother even surprised me with a viewing of 22 Jump Street.

Then one of my gal pals leaves a birthday card days later (strike 1) in my public inbox (strike 2) saying that we need to do something when she's free in the future (foul ball strike 2) which forces a bunch of people in the office that desk is at to fall over themselves trying to not look like they forgot about Dre culminating in an awkward birthday lunch next week (strike 3).

Now I have to be a jerkwad and tell my gal pal explicitly that it's either day of or not at all in the future and that she alone shat up a perfectly good birthday. I also have to pick my own fucking restaurant for my shamefully late "birthday" lunch. Good fucking grief, fuck everything.

We are such comrades in mind.  One of my friends took me to lunch on my birthday and then had a bunch of people I hardly know come too :piss2


I got you this image off the internet for your birthday/valentines day/and might as well throw in xmas as well

http://pre04.deviantart.net/7f1c/th/pre/i/2015/025/4/b/more_than_comrades_by_archangel_da-d70x1u5.png
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 18, 2015, 07:12:20 PM
Ohhh I am totally using this pic someday. :hulk

I hope. :brazilcry

Who am I kidding. No I won't. :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Less important than dead Syrian kids, but still important
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 18, 2015, 07:26:52 PM
be a scumbag brehs

actually maybe that doesn't apply. You know how you meet someone, both of you are rather clear that you aren't looking for a relationship, so instead you just have fun/chill/whatever. Nothing serious. And then the other person starts catching feelings and slowly starts switching up the agreement. I don't want to meet your family.

Few more days to come up with some bullshit to get out of a commitment I foolishly made. It's minor (just watching the game with her siblings at her place) but still...

Watching the game doesn't sound bad though.

It's the principle though, and what's left unsaid. Yea I'd imagine her siblings aren't bad, but this is the beginning of a process. The next step would inevitably be her siblings mentioning me to their parents, her parents asking her about me, and then the second to last stage: off handed comments about how her mom "asked about you today" or "said she wanted to meet you."

What happened to just chilling and having fun, preferably at night :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on September 18, 2015, 07:30:40 PM
Don't fux with women whose families live in the same town, this shit is known :wag
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 18, 2015, 07:41:17 PM
Love can bloom on a battlefield, why not in the confines of a casual relationship?  8)

Stop being afraid to be happy. :bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: team filler on September 18, 2015, 10:18:52 PM
car got totaled about 2 hours ago, shit sucks brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 19, 2015, 12:22:24 AM
Was my birthday a couple days ago. (Too late for you to wish me it now. :jawalrus)

Hate my birthday and prefer not to celebrate it, but if you want to recognize it I'm not going to be ungrateful. But only if you recognize it on my birthday. (I'd rather get a text the day of than a party days later when it's convenient.)

This year I thought I'd had my best birthday since my seventeenth. The only two people on the planet who could possibly lay claim to knowing me in a meaningful way were the only ones to wish me a happy birthday. My brother from another mother even surprised me with a viewing of 22 Jump Street.

Then one of my gal pals leaves a birthday card days later (strike 1) in my public inbox (strike 2) saying that we need to do something when she's free in the future (foul ball strike 2) which forces a bunch of people in the office that desk is at to fall over themselves trying to not look like they forgot about Dre culminating in an awkward birthday lunch next week (strike 3).

Now I have to be a jerkwad and tell my gal pal explicitly that it's either day of or not at all in the future and that she alone shat up a perfectly good birthday. I also have to pick my own fucking restaurant for my shamefully late "birthday" lunch. Good fucking grief, fuck everything.

Uhhhhh this is weird.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 19, 2015, 12:27:00 AM
Seems pretty normal to me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 19, 2015, 12:32:35 AM
Well "my brother from another mother even surprised me with a viewing of 22 Jump Street" definitely sounds like a euphemism.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on September 19, 2015, 12:48:51 AM
Kara, do we have the same birthday? :lol

If you posted that message from Funimation on your actual birthday then no.

Darn. :goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 19, 2015, 12:56:31 AM
I'll always cop to being weird. :itagaki

To me skipping the days says, "Sorry, your existence just wasn't convenient." That's fine, I know I am often inconvenient. What's not fine is telegraphing that and then trying to come at me with ceremony afterwards. :pacspit

Plus to be cynical, you get nothing out of a text except maybe the abstract satisfaction of brightening my day. If you take me out to power drink you get to power drink and see me make a complete jackass out of myself while power drinking. :quark
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 19, 2015, 01:07:52 AM
When I catch feels about my own birthday I try to remember that George Washington and Abraham Lincoln have to share a day. And so do the entire Korean people. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 19, 2015, 01:18:51 AM
Ya that would suck.  Can you imagine Lawrence Washington surprising George with a viewing of 22 Jump Street, and being forced by their parents to invite Abe and give him a handjob too.  Terrible.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 19, 2015, 01:40:36 AM
There's a lot of bad blood when it comes to my birthday. (I shat up Esch's last birthday thread about it if you're dying to know more.) If you know me you know that and act accordingly. I'm not going to feel guilty about asking less (!!!) of people.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 19, 2015, 02:01:53 AM
It's raining outside, and I can hear the wind blow alongside the rustling of trees. The perfect backdrop for a story to be told. So tell us, Kara, what is the bad blood involved with your birthday.

I'll tell you why I dislike birthdays. When I was a kid, birthdays were three day long events. On the actual birth day you could expect a nice dinner and possibly a present. The next day would be a movie day where you could pick a film from Blockbuster. The third day might give you the opportunity to go to your favorite store; I loved going to the hobby store or comic shop so those were my choices.

I have three brothers so this process got exhausting after awhile. I started to get annoyed that the birthday kid wouldn't have to do any chores for a week, meaning the rest of us had to do his chores. I tried to shift this by making sure to do my chores during my birthday week but my brothers didn't return the favor on their birthdays. Eventually I stopped claiming any birthday perks. So the process just kept getting more annoying until I started hating birthdays. To this day I don't do anything special on mine.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 19, 2015, 02:15:31 AM
For my 6th birthday I got a nerf gun and a bitch named Krissy chewed on all the fucking darts for it.  I have been a angry and lonely individual ever since. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 19, 2015, 04:32:14 AM
*puffs on cigar and sips cognac* The bad blood... Ultimately it stems from two things.

One, whether by circumstance or design, I consistently have had my birthday hit by some sort of calamity. I can count the pleasant ones comfortably on a hand. In addition to this, I never got "make up" ceremonies or what have you. Not even a ":idont That's life, kid."

My favorite instance of this was the year I went to this dorky flight sim thing with pops. For someone who grew up in an aerospace background and was too young to know it was stupid it was amazing. We get there. We go through the bullshit basic training stuff. We fly a single sortie. Then we get a call from home. My only grandparent, who by this time was well on the way to buying the farm, has gone and literally shat up the day by shitting all over themselves and the house. (Live to old age brehs.) Mom being mom doesn't just deal with the situation like a functioning adult but instead calls the troops home early. There's never a make up trip to that place. No apology for circumstances beyond anyone's control. Just a very subdued cake and presents that evening because all the adults have been ripping into one another for hours while working with shit.

Two, I was always held to a very high (impossibility high, in retrospect and in talk therapy) standard for other people's birthdays that was never even remotely reciprocated. (e.g. "Mom or dad, what would you like for your birthday?" "I shouldn't have to tell you what to get me." "I'm five.") This wasn't all bad, if I care about you I can get you the best damn gift possible because of it. I start keeping my eyes peeled for things months out. It's also given me horribly unrealistic expectations of reciprocity. I have a lot of things to regret when it came to the one who got away, but how I handled our last Valentine's Day in this regard will probably sting to my dying breath because of how fucking idiotic I was.

As an example, one year we threw a semi-surprise birthday party for my parent who is Polish and since at this point I was the third adult in a two parent household I did a lot of the organization. Now this parent always insists we sing "Sto Lat" (a Polish analogue to "Happy Birthday") at everyone's birthday because my name is apparently Mirosław instead of Karakand. At the party it eventually comes time for cake and song. After "Happy Birthday" everyone moves to start serving cake and the parental unit makes a scene about "Sto Lat." Out of  60-70 people 5 of us know the lyrics to the song and only one of us isn't family. I'm not subjecting the guests to that kind of awkwardness and refuse to be the band leader. None of the other Final Five will do so either (#sosayweall) and my parent doesn't get their way. Forever since that sequence of events I have been known as the one who ruined the party that I planned and executed where everyone else had a good time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Rufus on September 19, 2015, 08:29:11 AM
My 6th was cake with extended family. My 7th was shortly after a move, so I had neither friends nor family to celebrate with. It was just me and my mom. Hug, present, maybe cake? I don't remember. That's how it's been from then on. Me not wanting to be the centre of attention (feelings of inadequacy) going forward was a big reason as well. Be poor and have no close friends, brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 19, 2015, 08:29:16 AM
:crazy

Well that puts my petty birthday gripes in perspective, Kara.

I only know three people who are super serious about their birthday, to the point that missing their birthday=end of friendship. All three are women. I send a card or Facebook comment and hide.

My parents were never focused on their birthdays. The only issue I remember was that if you didn't tell my dad happy birthday immediately, my mom would accuse you of being ungrateful/threaten reprisal of some kind ("he doesn't have to bring food home you know..."). On many occasions I was confronted over this subject and had to say hold on, it's 9AM and he's at work plus doesn't have a cellphone, how can I wish him happy birthday right now?
:mindblown
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 19, 2015, 09:01:48 AM
Happy birthday, Kara.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on September 21, 2015, 12:53:51 AM
So, all that accounting work my boss dumped on me is basically done, and I'm 99% sure that he needs the reports from it for a meeting tomorrow.

HOWEVER. This guy, I love him to death, I mean he employs me and I'm borderline unemployable, but his communication skills are THE WORST. I asked him multiple times last week for a SPECIFIC TIME this had to be done by, and he never gave me a straight answer. I ran into a snag on Saturday that I was worried would set me back, so I emailed AND texted him asking again for a specific time this was needed for, and he never replied. I almost want to not bother generating the reports and emailing them to him just to have him freak out about it so I can say, and point him to various emails, chat logs, and text messages just to show him THAT HE NEVER ANSWERED ME.

But, fuck it. Better just to be done with it I guess.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 21, 2015, 08:49:56 AM
Was made aware of an intern who is fucking up basic double entry accounting shit
:crazy

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on September 21, 2015, 11:46:35 AM
Was made aware of an intern who is fucking up basic double entry accounting shit
:crazy

 :snoop

Also, ay yo PD- how'd watching the game with your ladyfriend's brothers work out?

:jawalrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 21, 2015, 12:42:16 PM
Was made aware of an intern who is fucking up basic double entry accounting shit
:crazy

 :snoop

Also, ay yo PD- how'd watching the game with your ladyfriend's brothers work out?

:jawalrus
http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=43180.msg2085434#msg2085434

wasn't as bad as I thought, hence putting it in the minor struggle thread lol

I'm waaay too busy for anything serious, plus I just dont want to do it. She's cool but I think a lot of it has to do with us not wanting anything serious and just being able to have fun. If that changes though...yea.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on September 21, 2015, 12:58:47 PM
Came home to CT for vacation this week and on the way to my parents' house my dad casually drops "Oh yeah btw we don't have hot water lol."

Should have told me before so I could cancel my trip.  >:(

And on top of that my uncle wants to help with entering all his receipts or some shit for taxes (he's in real estate.) :stahp

(http://i.imgur.com/sgCpe8d.gif)

And they wonder why I only come back every 1 1/2 months...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Rufus on September 21, 2015, 01:26:01 PM
And they wonder why I only come back every 1 1/2 months...
:lol

"Month" is not the unit I expected.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on September 21, 2015, 01:43:34 PM
Gave my mother the business when she called me at 2 am a month ago freaking out over my sister's latest bullshit and demanding I call my dad, like he was going to horse whisper her into complacency from over 200 miles away.

Not having to deal with that side of the family's bullshit is totally worth feeling like a dirtbag for yelling at my mom at 2 am, brehs

:rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on September 21, 2015, 02:00:03 PM
And they wonder why I only come back every 1 1/2 months...
:lol

"Month" is not the unit I expected.

CT is a <2 hour train trip from Boston and I love my family a lot. :goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Crash Dummy on September 21, 2015, 02:32:33 PM
Was made aware of an intern who is fucking up basic double entry accounting shit
:crazy

i had to talk through the criteria for a valid tax invoice with someone who claims to have worked in tax for almost 5 years >:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: studyguy on September 21, 2015, 06:27:39 PM
The habanero sauce I used last night greeted me again in the bathroom on his way out :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Brehvolution on September 21, 2015, 08:23:25 PM
The air conditioners are still in windows and it's getting in the mid 40's at night now.  :brazilcry

It was in the high 80's all last week and would hear an earful of bitching if I took them out too early. Hitting high 70's the day after tomorrow.  :cac
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: king of the internet on September 21, 2015, 10:29:09 PM
Severely burned my arms and hands during a pizza-related mishap.  :o On the plus side though I got to wear arm bandages and look like a possible suicide attempt when I went out in public.  8)

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 21, 2015, 10:43:54 PM
You can hug a hot pizza but it won't make you feel less lonely. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 22, 2015, 12:20:04 AM
You can't hug a pizza with nuclear arms.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on September 22, 2015, 12:22:58 AM
You can't hug a pizza with nuclear arms.

Sounds like a challenge.

I'm off to dip my arms in uranium.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 23, 2015, 09:16:57 AM
Opened the inbox where the gubment sends official mail.

Apparently I had to pay property tax since last December.

 :gloomy

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 23, 2015, 09:34:24 AM
Fuck dude  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 23, 2015, 10:06:00 AM
It's not a lot, but still what I wanted to put away in savings this month.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: bork on September 28, 2015, 04:52:30 PM
Had a hell of week last week.  Busy as shit, lots of nonsense, and the team manager was absent for most of the time.  Went through Saturday hell and then geared up for Sunday and Monday off.

Was woken up with a phone call asking me to come in because the manager called out again.  To be fair she is heavily pregnant so I'm not blaming her.  I pretty much demanded that I get another day off to make up for this.  I need some fucking time off.   :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 28, 2015, 06:25:02 PM
Out of toilet paper because I accidentally knocked my last roll into the toilet this morning.  I forgot to get more.  I wiped with paper towels. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: brawndolicious on September 28, 2015, 06:29:11 PM
Order a handheld bidet, can do your business with just a few squares.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Beezy on September 28, 2015, 07:10:04 PM
Out of toilet paper because I accidentally knocked my last roll into the toilet this morning.  I forgot to get more.  I wiped with paper towels.

 :noooo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 28, 2015, 07:17:13 PM
The worst part is that I just found my emergency roll that I had forgot I hid for such dire times.  My anus was sacrificed for naught. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 28, 2015, 07:21:43 PM
At least I have a spare
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Yeti on September 28, 2015, 07:27:58 PM
Paper towels aren't so bad. At least you didn't have to resort to tissues
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Atramental on September 29, 2015, 08:38:40 PM
I'm now in the preliminary stages of a head cold and I have so much work I need to do this week.   :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 29, 2015, 09:08:58 PM
Was made aware of an intern who is fucking up basic double entry accounting shit
:crazy

i had to talk through the criteria for a valid tax invoice with someone who claims to have worked in tax for almost 5 years >:(

Someone was telling me about a bookkeeper this firm brought in from a company  (i.e. not in the industry) and they ran into some online banking problems so they video recorded the problems. With account information uncensored. On a phone that wasn't secure.

I mean we all probably cross the best practices line wrt privacy from time to time, but that? :mindblown

I also thought it was weird that they'd go to lengths like that. If you don't do your work you can't hide it so there's not really the Foucauldian nightmare based upon mistrust that you have in corporate bureaucracies.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 29, 2015, 09:17:19 PM
:crazy

Were these people above the age of 31?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 29, 2015, 09:19:22 PM
Yes. And a breeder.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: fistfulofmetal on September 29, 2015, 09:42:25 PM
Got denied by Google's Project Fi to buy a Nexus 6P with their payment plan. Bunch of bullshit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 30, 2015, 07:03:30 AM
Lost control of a company pickup on a dirt road and drove into a ditch at 45-55mph and flipped it several times. I'm fine, really couldn't be better considering the severity of the accident, but this is the shirt the EMT was wearing:

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 30, 2015, 07:21:31 AM
 :lol

Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 30, 2015, 08:59:32 AM
My mom just called and said we might have to put my dog down tomorrow.  :beli


I say my dog, but it's my moms really. But we got it when I was about 16, and I spent a lot of time time with. Been getting sicker and sicker over the past few years, got some tumors on its belly, that it has been living fine with for a few years, the vets have told us are too big and dangerous to remove.


(http://abload.de/img/0509_66uho.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Rufus on September 30, 2015, 10:27:14 AM
._.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 30, 2015, 01:11:30 PM
Glad you're okay, Samson, must have been quite the oh shit moment. I hope your employer is understanding as well

-----


Sorry about your dog :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 30, 2015, 01:32:43 PM
Lost control of a company pickup on a dirt road and drove into a ditch at 45-55mph and flipped it several times. I'm fine, really couldn't be better considering the severity of the accident, but this is the shirt the EMT was wearing:

spoiler (click to show/hide)
(http://i.imgur.com/ipmlG2J.jpg)
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:dead

glad you're ok tho.

Now you have a near death experience to share with voters during your congressional run :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on September 30, 2015, 01:56:01 PM
Pls b careful Sam. The Bore can't lose its #1 husbando.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Samson Manhug on September 30, 2015, 02:29:25 PM
Glad you're okay, Samson, must have been quite the oh shit moment. I hope your employer is understanding as well

I think I'm about to quit. "Sorry about your truck. My last day will be next week. Please understand."

Sorry to hear about your dog, Mr. Gilhaney. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Rahxephon91 on September 30, 2015, 02:48:13 PM
So does it make sense to encourage your friend to break up with his gf if that sounds well... Sane? Because that's what I did and I've unlocked a world of drama for it.

My friend never has anything positive to say about her. I mean I've never heard anything good about her. It's just about how crazy she is. She doesn't want him talking to any other girls, had to delete every girl off his Facebook, is not really supposed to be talking to anyone else, can't even talk to people in online games, has to talk to her everyday to check in and so on. He also seems to have to pay for her apartment and other things. When they back to Chicago he has to pay for her ticket. Anytime an argument happens she threatens to kill herself.

She sounds terrible and even his own mother thinks she's controlling and terrible.

Then again I don't know anything about relationships and this is only his side. Yet it's not quite a year old, shouldn't this be the lovey Dovey phase. If it's already stressful shouldn't you get out?

That's what I think and I've suggested it many times. Dude is basicly my brother so I care but at the same time I know he's pussy whipped. He'll stay in a relationship for the sake of it, to feel basicly the idea that anyone cares for him. Which is a bad combination with someone who may be overly dependent.

Anyway, I guess he actually tried to pull the trigger and mentioned me.

Big mistake.

As now I've gotten endless messages from this girl. How I'm terrible for giving that advice, how I'm hurting her, and so on. I mean she's been writing me research papers on how I'm a monster.

I don't think I did anything terrible. About the douchyiest thing I said is that I don't want to ever meet her and I don't after she's gone off on me.

So I know they will get back together and come back to Chicago and well I really don't ever want to interact with this person.

Whole thing has me annoyed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Take My Breh Away on September 30, 2015, 03:04:24 PM
Job I interviewed for on Monday asked me for to write some spec articles before an imaginary deadline just to test production. I sent them in about hours before deadline today. Haven't heard a response back from them at all. 

(http://i.imgur.com/20EPQKF.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: studyguy on October 02, 2015, 02:22:10 PM
A friend of mine gave me like the worst dead leg I've ever had in my life to the shin/thigh.
Like an asshole he came running at my ass and kneed me in the front side of my shin then on my thigh.

My shin's still feels all fucked up this morning.  :brazilcry
The fuck brehs, I haven't gotten one of these since like middle school.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 02, 2015, 04:34:35 PM
Had to go to the ER today because of some serious pain in my lower abdomen. Results came back that it's an inflamed colon, likely caused by diverticulitis [which is super-rare for people under 30]. I gotta take some antibiotics and then go get a colonoscopy in a couple of weeks.

:goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 02, 2015, 04:42:13 PM
I'm sorry you have to get something shoved up your butt Rumbler, I truly am.  I hope your colon cools off soon. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: studyguy on October 02, 2015, 04:47:30 PM
Had to go to the ER today because of some serious pain in my lower abdomen. Results came back that it's an inflamed colon, likely caused by diverticulitis [which is super-rare for people under 30]. I gotta take some antibiotics and then go get a colonoscopy in a couple of weeks.

:goty

Its all good breh, every dude gets a finger shoved up their ass sooner or later.





....for medical reasons of course  :cody
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on October 02, 2015, 05:12:47 PM
Sorry GR. Get well soon.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: ToxicAdam on October 02, 2015, 05:15:43 PM
 Any way to blame Taco Bell? I smell an opportunity.

:money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 03, 2015, 12:40:46 AM
Had to go to the ER today because of some serious pain in my lower abdomen. Results came back that it's an inflamed colon, likely caused by diverticulitis [which is super-rare for people under 30]. I gotta take some antibiotics and then go get a colonoscopy in a couple of weeks.

:goty

sorry to hear that GR. Sounds like you need to add some fiber to your diet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 03, 2015, 01:14:12 AM
Yeah, I don't generally get much fiber, but I'll start taking a fiber supplement every day alongside my multivitamin.

Also, the struggle has become a triumph now that I've climbed aboard the codeine train.  :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: chronovore on October 03, 2015, 01:31:52 AM
Had to go to the ER today because of some serious pain in my lower abdomen. Results came back that it's an inflamed colon, likely caused by diverticulitis [which is super-rare for people under 30]. I gotta take some antibiotics and then go get a colonoscopy in a couple of weeks.

:goty
:o :o :o
Holy mackerel, I hope you get it taken care of soon. If it's any consolation, diverticulitis also managed to take to Brock Lesnar, so if you weren't feeling tough, you should now.


Any way to blame Taco Bell? I smell an opportunity.

:money
If the Taco Bell near you smells like infected colon, you need to select a different Taco Bell.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: TakingBackSunday on October 05, 2015, 12:22:36 PM
Went down on my girl last night, had a bunch of toilet paper stuck to her vagina  :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on October 05, 2015, 12:25:29 PM
Went down on my girl last night, had a bunch of toilet paper stuck to her vagina  :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry

(http://www.thebore.com/forum/Smileys/default/qNgvRPt.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 05, 2015, 12:29:33 PM
Get well soon, Rumbler.

Also, had a potential triumph turn into an epic fail Saturday night, brehs. Went out on a date with a woman and, uh... shit didn't work when we got back to her place. First time that's ever happened to me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Rufus on October 05, 2015, 12:29:45 PM
Went down on my girl last night, had a bunch of toilet paper stuck to her vagina  :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry
At least she dabs. Be glad. :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 05, 2015, 12:39:37 PM
At least she didn't sneeze and blow out a bunch of confetti into your face while your friends and family turn on the lights and shout happy birthday. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 05, 2015, 01:13:19 PM
Went down on my girl last night, had a bunch of toilet paper stuck to her vagina  :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry

I shit you not, I literally spit out the water I was drinking when I read this. At work. Fuck me.   

:brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 05, 2015, 01:16:56 PM
Did you clean it up with toilet paper?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: studyguy on October 05, 2015, 01:29:01 PM
Been there.

This is why I'm forever grateful that my current girl insists on having wet wipes in the bathroom.
Baby wipes is where it's at brehs.
 :preach
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 05, 2015, 01:53:38 PM
there are worse things you can find in your gf's vagina brehs.

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like gonorrhea.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: king of the internet on October 05, 2015, 02:59:35 PM
Think I might be catching some mild feelings for a girl. Just gotta stay strong until this passes.   :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Tasty on October 05, 2015, 03:02:50 PM
there are worse things you can find in your gf's vagina brehs.

Yeah, like another guy's dikk :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: TakingBackSunday on October 05, 2015, 03:04:12 PM
Been there.

This is why I'm forever grateful that my current girl insists on having wet wipes in the bathroom.
Baby wipes is where it's at brehs.
 :preach

I use baby wipes too.  Gonna have to get her on the wipe train
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 05, 2015, 03:15:03 PM
Been there.

This is why I'm forever grateful that my current girl insists on having wet wipes in the bathroom.
Baby wipes is where it's at brehs.
 :preach

I use baby wipes too.  Gonna have to get her on the wipe train

How you handle this could determine whether your relationship lasts or fails. Tread lightly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: TakingBackSunday on October 05, 2015, 03:45:50 PM
 :lol

I told her straight to her face that she had TP on her vag and she started busting out laughing and apologizing
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: studyguy on October 05, 2015, 03:58:36 PM
That's the one  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 05, 2015, 05:25:45 PM
 :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Kara on October 05, 2015, 05:44:43 PM
Went down on my girl last night, had a bunch of toilet paper stuck to her vagina  :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry

So basically she doesn't expect you to go down on her. :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Steve Contra on October 06, 2015, 07:24:13 PM
Sounds like you need to add some fiber to your diet.

Went down on my girl last night, had a bunch of toilet paper stuck to her vagina  :brazilcry :brazilcry :brazilcry
Brandnew taking any advice he can get.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Steve Contra on October 06, 2015, 07:26:42 PM
Had my worst panic attack in 2 years.
Do you have panic attacks or anxiety attacks?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 06, 2015, 08:10:58 PM
Had the first non-shitty, non-rainy day of weather in over a week today. I sat outside for an hour and a half and got a nasty fucking sunburn, because I'm a moron.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Steve Contra on October 06, 2015, 08:19:46 PM
Also a pasty ginger :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 06, 2015, 08:28:09 PM
I am NOT a ginger

:bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 06, 2015, 11:21:42 PM
People are getting wise to the fact that I use the March / April / September / October 15th deadline to get out of making casual conversation or plans. fml.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Van Cruncheon on October 06, 2015, 11:30:09 PM
got moved into a team room from my posh office, which i now share with a veep and two general managers. on the plus side, i'm in DA CLUB. on the down side, my internetting time has been shredded. on the plus plus side, i think beating r-type in front of them (on my old portable psone) will net me a bigger bonus than any work i've done; they were all OMG YOU'RE AMAZING (who the fuck knew? god bless nerds). on the minus minus side, i don't/won't golf and one of the motherfuckers listens to dave matthews ALL DAY.

i also got called a hipster by 25 yr. old junior pm yesterday. i have no beard, wear regular jeans, have a cornball non-coiffure, and despise urban self-sufficiency. that said, my non-ironic ironic game is straight up jordan-class balla and i drink shit pissbeer in public, so maybe he recognizes cac greatness under all the nondescript dorkitude.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on October 06, 2015, 11:32:55 PM
got moved into a team room from my posh office, which i share with a veep and two general manager. on the plus side, i'm in DA CLUB. on the down time, my internetting time has been shredded. on the plus plus side, i think beating r-type in front of them (on my old portable psone) will net me a bigger bonus than any work i've done; they were all OMG YOU'RE AMAZING (who the fuck knew? god bless nerds). on the minus minus side, i don't/won't golf and one of the motherfuckers listens to dave matthews ALL DAY.

 :cac
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 06, 2015, 11:40:31 PM
got moved into a team room from my posh office, which i now share with a veep and two general managers. on the plus side, i'm in DA CLUB. on the down side, my internetting time has been shredded. on the plus plus side, i think beating r-type in front of them (on my old portable psone) will net me a bigger bonus than any work i've done; they were all OMG YOU'RE AMAZING (who the fuck knew? god bless nerds). on the minus minus side, i don't/won't golf and one of the motherfuckers listens to dave matthews ALL DAY.

i also got called a hipster by 25 yr. old junior pm yesterday. i have no beard, wear regular jeans, have a cornball non-coiffure, and despise urban self-sufficiency. that said, my non-ironic ironic game is straight up jordan-class balla and i drink shit pissbeer in public, so maybe he recognizes cac greatness under all the nondescript dorkitude.

You're a 40 year old that has a motorcycle fetish and just got a tattoo. You're clearly not a hipster but a sad cac going through a midlife crisis. Sheesh. These people.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 06, 2015, 11:46:07 PM
Drinky with that fresh tribal ink. :preach
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 07, 2015, 12:00:25 AM
Does your tattoo say 'Ceci n'est pas une hipster'? or is it just a picture of you on a motorcycle?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nudemacusers on October 07, 2015, 12:02:15 AM
Does your tattoo say 'Ceci n'est pas une hipster'? or is it just a picture of you on a motorcycle?
you don't know the half of it
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on October 07, 2015, 12:10:48 AM
Dave Matthews Band is the definition of White Noise
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 07, 2015, 01:01:16 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdidovCPhVM

if you can't fuck with that I can't fuck with you
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 07, 2015, 02:36:48 AM
got moved into a team room from my posh office, which i now share with a veep and two general managers. on the plus side, i'm in DA CLUB. on the down side, my internetting time has been shredded. on the plus plus side, i think beating r-type in front of them (on my old portable psone) will net me a bigger bonus than any work i've done; they were all OMG YOU'RE AMAZING (who the fuck knew? god bless nerds). on the minus minus side, i don't/won't golf and one of the motherfuckers listens to dave matthews ALL DAY.

i also got called a hipster by 25 yr. old junior pm yesterday. i have no beard, wear regular jeans, have a cornball non-coiffure, and despise urban self-sufficiency. that said, my non-ironic ironic game is straight up jordan-class balla and i drink shit pissbeer in public, so maybe he recognizes cac greatness under all the nondescript dorkitude.

Actually you've gone überhipster by postironically sporting hardcore norm core couture, day in, day out.

You fucking hipster.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 07, 2015, 02:45:53 AM
PD and Walrus- you guys would be more effective trolls if you didn't constantly back up each other's shitposting on like, every topic. Awful music, GURM/ASoIaF worship, etc. One of you pick one and defend it to the death, the other do the other, don't post backing each other up. I just ignore you these days. So predictable.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 07, 2015, 02:46:56 AM
got moved into a team room from my posh office, which i now share with a veep and two general managers. on the plus side, i'm in DA CLUB. on the down side, my internetting time has been shredded. on the plus plus side, i think beating r-type in front of them (on my old portable psone) will net me a bigger bonus than any work i've done; they were all OMG YOU'RE AMAZING (who the fuck knew? god bless nerds). on the minus minus side, i don't/won't golf and one of the motherfuckers listens to dave matthews ALL DAY.

i also got called a hipster by 25 yr. old junior pm yesterday. i have no beard, wear regular jeans, have a cornball non-coiffure, and despise urban self-sufficiency. that said, my non-ironic ironic game is straight up jordan-class balla and i drink shit pissbeer in public, so maybe he recognizes cac greatness under all the nondescript dorkitude.

Actually you've gone überhipster by postironically sporting hardcore norm core couture, day in, day out.

You fucking hipster.

The only winning move is not to play. :ohhh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 07, 2015, 03:23:37 AM
No troll, I legit like some DMB. I've shat on them before as a collective band but they have multiple tracks I like.

It's not my fault that Walrus has good taste and a master's degree.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 07, 2015, 03:38:34 AM
Two master's degrees. :bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread 2 - Who does #2 work for?
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 07, 2015, 07:48:00 AM
Lost control of a company pickup on a dirt road and drove into a ditch at 45-55mph and flipped it several times. I'm fine, really couldn't be better considering the severity of the accident, but this is the shirt the EMT was wearing:

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Did they rule it preventable or non-preventable?  These days anywhere I go, a preventable means they'll channel you a new asshole before kicking you out the door.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on October 07, 2015, 10:36:38 AM
Two master's degrees. :bolo

Neither of them was a master's in good taste though, just sayin'.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 07, 2015, 11:12:19 AM
Got wasted and somehow hurt my fist. Red marks on my knuckles. Did I punch something or wipe out?  ??? Also, fuck everything, I want to die.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Van Cruncheon on October 07, 2015, 12:01:24 PM
got moved into a team room from my posh office, which i now share with a veep and two general managers. on the plus side, i'm in DA CLUB. on the down side, my internetting time has been shredded. on the plus plus side, i think beating r-type in front of them (on my old portable psone) will net me a bigger bonus than any work i've done; they were all OMG YOU'RE AMAZING (who the fuck knew? god bless nerds). on the minus minus side, i don't/won't golf and one of the motherfuckers listens to dave matthews ALL DAY.

i also got called a hipster by 25 yr. old junior pm yesterday. i have no beard, wear regular jeans, have a cornball non-coiffure, and despise urban self-sufficiency. that said, my non-ironic ironic game is straight up jordan-class balla and i drink shit pissbeer in public, so maybe he recognizes cac greatness under all the nondescript dorkitude.

You're a 40 year old that has a motorcycle fetish and just got a tattoo. You're clearly not a hipster but a sad cac going through a midlife crisis. Sheesh. These people.

multiple tats. and amen. the struggle is real.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 07, 2015, 01:28:49 PM
According to Gartner, a company of our size should have an IT department of 9 people. We have 3.
That efficiency. :lawd

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:brazilcry
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 07, 2015, 01:35:19 PM
Keeping the IT cost center low :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 07, 2015, 03:56:29 PM
My boss finally realized that we need a dedicated bookkeeper.

It won't be me.

(http://i.imgur.com/OF11f.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 07, 2015, 05:30:31 PM
My boss finally realized that we need a dedicated bookkeeper.

It won't be me.

(http://i.imgur.com/OF11f.jpg)
Can't tell if this means you're unwilling, or that they're choosing someone else. Remembering your posting history about communication problems with this boss, either way seems like a dodged bullet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 07, 2015, 05:46:45 PM
:fbm

sorry to hear that Triumph
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 07, 2015, 09:08:04 PM
Karakand... seems happy.

:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 07, 2015, 09:23:16 PM
Today one of my doctors asked me to rate how happy I was feeling on a scale of one to ten and when I said eight they basically told me to gtfo with that shit, I didn't look any different than I did during my last MDE.

My Spock game is F I E R C E. :expert
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 07, 2015, 11:45:51 PM
My friend who I complained about earlier retroactively shitting up my barfday let it slip tonight that she won't be able to do anything until two months (!!!) after the actual day. :dead

I was going to be polite and just say something like, "Hey I had a great time tonight, and thanks for remembering me, but I'm all or nothing when it comes to this event so this shit ain't going to fly next year," after we did do whatever it was we were going to do, but now I'm going to just have to be a straight-up ass and say, "It's 16% of a year after the fact now, sorry, but even I'm not that chill," when she approaches me about it in a month (!!!). :dead

Fuck holidays. The only real one is May Day. :ussrcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 07, 2015, 11:59:50 PM
happy birthday dude!  Expect this wellwishing every day for the next 16% of the year
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on October 08, 2015, 12:41:49 AM
Birthdays aren't holidays
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 01:08:33 AM
Birthdays aren't holidays

Christmas, the 4th of July, Washington's Birthday, probably missing some others.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 08, 2015, 01:38:56 AM
And how many of those are true the days of birth :expert?

I mean except for Presidents Day sometimes but of course we always wait til the weekend to celebrate it because that's convenient. My birthday usually lands in the Thanksgiving weekend so no one remembers it unless they get a Facebook reminder.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on October 08, 2015, 12:11:17 PM
Got a new job but their health insurance is terrible ($1050/month with a $500 deductible and 80% coinsurance.) Went on healthcare.gov and the average bronze and silver plans have $12,000 and $11,000 deductibles. Average gold plan at $600/month has a $5,000 deductible.

I haven't made it yet, brahs. My company insurance plan would be approaching 20% of our income and I've got the debts to pay off. The Obamacare plans are such bad deals they just don't make any sense.

My wife technically has coverage as a member of the Cherokee Nation and I technically have coverage under the VA but both of those are extremely cumbersome to use and their coverage isn't great to begin with.

Watdo?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 08, 2015, 12:17:11 PM
Yeah man, that sucks. I pay $1,200 a month for my insurance. It's admittedly rather good. But still that's more than many people pay for rent. Just for insurance.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 08, 2015, 12:17:45 PM
Vote Sanders :usacry

That's a really tough spot, I hope you find a way to make it work
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 08, 2015, 12:43:24 PM
Holy shit, I love living in Canada. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 01:15:05 PM
Well the thing to keep in mind with deductibles is that you don't pay against them with a lot of routine care on metallic plans. Scheduled doctor visits and prescriptions are copay as long as the provider is in network and the medications are covered on my plan, for example.

Not knowing anything about your wife's or your health, a silver plan might be a decent fit for you. Coverage isn't great but it's designed to balance regular costs and extraordinary costs with its pricing structure.

Congratulations on your new job, BTW.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 01:41:04 PM
I'm at quarterly visits now, but admittedly my mood disorder is different.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 08, 2015, 01:47:28 PM
I don't have insurance and haven't been the the doctor in at least a few years, despite numerous injuries. 8)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 08, 2015, 03:04:45 PM
Got a new job but their health insurance is terrible ($1050/month with a $500 deductible and 80% coinsurance.) Went on healthcare.gov and the average bronze and silver plans have $12,000 and $11,000 deductibles. Average gold plan at $600/month has a $5,000 deductible.

I haven't made it yet, brahs. My company insurance plan would be approaching 20% of our income and I've got the debts to pay off. The Obamacare plans are such bad deals they just don't make any sense.

My wife technically has coverage as a member of the Cherokee Nation and I technically have coverage under the VA but both of those are extremely cumbersome to use and their coverage isn't great to begin with.

Watdo?

If I remember correctly, the ACA returns any out of pocket costs above 10% of your total income via a tax break when you file. Can anyone expand on this?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 08, 2015, 03:08:24 PM
Unless it's something new there's an already existing tax break that says if you spend > some ungodly amount on healthcare (NOT premiums/deductibles) you get a write off.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 03:08:57 PM
You either receive the credit during the year on a monthly basis or you take it at the end of the year when you file your tax return. There's a schedule on the return that reconciles your income, cost paid, and cost that should have been paid that flows to pages 1 and 2 of your 1040.

If you take the credit monthly you don't have to pay it back dollar for dollar if you underestimated your income for the year, but generally it's advisable to revisit your estimate after significant changes in income.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 08, 2015, 03:10:22 PM
Got a new job but their health insurance is terrible ($1050/month with a $500 deductible and 80% coinsurance.) Went on healthcare.gov and the average bronze and silver plans have $12,000 and $11,000 deductibles. Average gold plan at $600/month has a $5,000 deductible.

I haven't made it yet, brahs. My company insurance plan would be approaching 20% of our income and I've got the debts to pay off. The Obamacare plans are such bad deals they just don't make any sense.

My wife technically has coverage as a member of the Cherokee Nation and I technically have coverage under the VA but both of those are extremely cumbersome to use and their coverage isn't great to begin with.

Watdo?

IIRC the deductibles do not apply to preventive care. As long as you're just getting physicals, xrays, etc you'd be good.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 08, 2015, 04:29:45 PM
I've been in a similar situation since my parents started getting divorced last Spring and I had to step in to pay my mother's bills. The thing I would suggest is to work out with your parents exactly how much help they need and for how long you're going to be stuck there. He got into the debt so he had to be prepared to get out of it. Also try to still be social. I either cut off or lost touch with nearly all my friends since then and not having a sounding board for your problems is hard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 04:43:02 PM
.اهلا وسهلا؟ لا اهلا و صعبا
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 04:51:05 PM
No tanween, you fail.

Samsung's Arabic keyboard doesn't have them. :'( (At least on mine.)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 08, 2015, 04:54:43 PM
If you have fundamental differences in what is important for life then what's the point of the friendship? It'll just make you feel tired rather than happy to be with them.

At least use Facebook to keep in touch with your long distance friends wrath.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 08, 2015, 04:55:02 PM
It's really shocking how unforgiving friends can be.

I firmly believe I'd welcome back a prodigal friend with open arms so long as what he did wasn't completely unforgivable. Over the last few years I've learned that I'm a rarity in that regard.

People are petty and self-absorbed, nothing new there.

Actionable advice: get better friends.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 08, 2015, 05:48:30 PM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 08, 2015, 08:51:32 PM
Birthdays aren't holidays

Christmas, the 4th of July, Washington's Birthday, probably missing some others.

Aren't we self-important for someone that supposedly hates themself?

:hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 08, 2015, 09:01:12 PM
Also- Wrath, I've been in a similar situation. Take it from me- help your family out, but set some guidelines and deadlines. "I'm going to be here for 2 years (or whatever it is) to help you out, but after that you need to fix your own fucking shit."

Obviously I don't know all the particulars of your situation but if you keep staying indefinitely your feelings of frustration with your father are just going to get worse. That I do know.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 08, 2015, 09:23:20 PM
Birthdays aren't holidays

Christmas, the 4th of July, Washington's Birthday, probably missing some others.

Aren't we self-important for someone that supposedly hates themself?

:hitler

#thedualities

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on October 08, 2015, 10:49:34 PM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.

This, to me, is the opposite of struggle.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 09, 2015, 12:09:12 AM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.

This, to me, is the opposite of struggle.

Now he doesn't have any money for all of those Nintendo games coming out this month

:tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 09, 2015, 12:11:33 AM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.

This, to me, is the opposite of struggle.

It's a delayed struggle. I'll be feeling it by the end of the month, don't worry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on October 09, 2015, 01:27:13 AM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.

Get the fuck outta here. Triumph thread is thattaway.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 09, 2015, 11:53:05 AM
Have a new client meeting today and I've been in a funk for a couple of days. Times like this I wish I'd lied to keep an open Valium scrip. Narcotics letting you pass through existence high af. :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on October 09, 2015, 11:59:54 AM
You need to be a chemical MacGyvere.  A box of Krispy Kreme doughnuts can get you to a similar dopey state.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 09, 2015, 02:58:31 PM
Problem with that is calories. It's why I really can't binge drink to take a vacation from myself anymore.

I do need to become an :expert in OTC drug interactions though. I never know when I might need to drop out mentally, or where.

Finally I have a purpose in life. :uguu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on October 09, 2015, 06:52:18 PM
Getting pretty hungry but feeling too lazy to cook or leave my couch to get takeout.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 09, 2015, 07:10:38 PM
Getting pretty hungry but feeling too lazy to cook or leave my couch to get takeout.

Leftovers

:aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 10, 2015, 02:08:17 PM
Apparently ether is legal without a scrip. :phil

I can ether myself after being ethered by life. It's like stereo sound, but for self medicating. :leon
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 10, 2015, 04:42:14 PM
Gonna look into this. Thanks for the heads up.
http://www.rightpricechemicals.com/buy-ethyl-ether-reagent-grade-acs.html

BRB ordering the barrel
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 10, 2015, 05:13:59 PM
Gonna look into this. Thanks for the heads up.

I'm going to get a beautiful vintage hankie to huff it with. We is Fin de Siècle now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 10, 2015, 05:49:24 PM
Getting pretty hungry but feeling too lazy to cook or leave my couch to get takeout.

Yo this feeling is the worst. :fbm

even worse: ordering and regretting it. I ordered some Chinese food today (General Tso's combo which comes with shrimp fried rice and an egg role). Ate some of it and immediately regretted it. It's not bad but it's just...exhausting. Like I feel fatigue in its presence and don't even feel like finishing it.
:brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on October 10, 2015, 06:57:45 PM
Also- Wrath, I've been in a similar situation. Take it from me- help your family out, but set some guidelines and deadlines. "I'm going to be here for 2 years (or whatever it is) to help you out, but after that you need to fix your own fucking shit."

Obviously I don't know all the particulars of your situation but if you keep staying indefinitely your feelings of frustration with your father are just going to get worse. That I do know.

Yeah. Like you and a lot of people, I had and have to be present quite a bit for my mother in the last 10 years or so. More of a time and emotional burden than money really, but the frustration do build up quite a bit especially since I'm pretty certain she won't ever really fix certain things. Do set up a deadline and beyond that consider yourself free to move abroad for instance. Walking away from a family responsibility is hard but you also have one for yourself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 10, 2015, 10:48:03 PM
Also- Wrath, I've been in a similar situation. Take it from me- help your family out, but set some guidelines and deadlines. "I'm going to be here for 2 years (or whatever it is) to help you out, but after that you need to fix your own fucking shit."

Obviously I don't know all the particulars of your situation but if you keep staying indefinitely your feelings of frustration with your father are just going to get worse. That I do know.

this this this

Wouldn't cosign the language but still. "In x time I'm going to be doing y" is totally fair.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 10, 2015, 11:26:56 PM
where solving for x and y give us 2 years and 'whores on Broadway'
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 12, 2015, 01:24:44 AM
Studies, including that of an ether addict in 2003, have shown that ether causes dependence; however, the only symptom observed was a will to consume more ether. No withdrawal symptoms were prevalent.

:preach
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on October 12, 2015, 10:45:03 AM
I didn't sleep last night like at all.
Like none. Don't even feel like I'm awake now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 12, 2015, 11:26:54 AM
That would've been me today but I drank two glasses of wine and some zzzquil right before I went to bed.

That was some of the best sleep I've had in a while. :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 12, 2015, 11:34:58 AM
Zzzquil doesn't have alcohol IIRC, why would you even bother? :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 12, 2015, 11:43:42 AM
I believe there is a non-alcohol version of Zzzquil but the regular kind contains 10% alcohol.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 12, 2015, 01:29:54 PM
sitting next to a neurotic jewish couple explaining the basic logic of taxes to their 5 year old and it's taking literally every ounce of my internal troll suppression to keep from laughing out loud

OMG Esch! Hi buddy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 12, 2015, 01:44:57 PM
sitting next to a neurotic jewish couple explaining the basic logic of taxes to their 5 year old and it's taking literally every ounce of my internal troll suppression to keep from laughing out loud

The multiverse is collapsing and you're sitting next to Earth-2 Karakand. :o :o :o :o :o

Quick, lean over and say this to the dad, "I know you cheated at pin the tail on the dinosaur at your second birthday party. The paper towel blindfold didn't fit."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 12, 2015, 01:49:35 PM
Quick show them best of Kara posts so they can fix the kid before its too late!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 12, 2015, 02:17:35 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 12, 2015, 02:20:17 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge

going to need as many details as possible.
:ohhh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 12, 2015, 02:31:18 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge

going to need as many details as possible.
:ohhh

 :beli
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 12, 2015, 02:32:57 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge

going to need as many details as possible.
:ohhh

Seconding.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 12, 2015, 02:34:24 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge

going to need as many details as possible.
:ohhh

Seconding.

 :crazy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 12, 2015, 02:34:44 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge

going to need as many details as possible.
:ohhh

Not really much of a story to it.

 One time last summer we were both hanging out in a group of co-workers, drinking. After I made a funny comment he said something along the lines of "he's such a funny guy, I just wanna make out with him sometimes!" to the whole group and I just assumed it was just a sorta creepy joke for my own sake but I did kinda get that vibe from him a few times. Another night soon after I go to his apartment with him after the bar to smoke some weed, and he starts begging me to come to bed and make out / cuddle with him and I peace the fuck out and just never mention it again since I have to continue working with the dude.  :kobeyuck

Anyways, last night it happened again, but at least this time it was outside and not where I was trapped in a tiny apartment. Now I gotta see the guy again today and pretend it never happened.  :snoop I don't even know if he's gay, he's just a super lonely dude looking for affection in any form. Honestly though, even if I was into dudes I don't think I'd go for it. Not that cute, sorry. :larry

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 12, 2015, 02:36:24 PM
My struggle is with people who can't figure out there, they're, and their on professional marketing slicks. I mean come the fuck on, really?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 12, 2015, 02:43:18 PM
My struggle is with people who can't figure out there, they're, and their on professional marketing slicks. I mean come the fuck on, really?

:goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 12, 2015, 02:45:47 PM
Got drunk with a male co-worker who tried to make out with me afterwards (again).  :doge

going to need as many details as possible.
:ohhh

Not really much of a story to it.

 One time last summer we were both hanging out in a group of co-workers, drinking. After I made a funny comment he said something along the lines of "he's such a funny guy, I just wanna make out with him sometimes!" to the whole group and I just assumed it was just a sorta creepy joke for my own sake but I did kinda get that vibe from him a few times. Another night soon after I go to his apartment with him after the bar to smoke some weed, and he starts begging me to come to bed and make out / cuddle with him and I peace the fuck out and just never mention it again since I have to continue working with the dude.  :kobeyuck

Anyways, last night it happened again, but at least this time it was outside and not where I was trapped in a tiny apartment. Now I gotta see the guy again today and pretend it never happened.  :snoop I don't even know if he's gay, he's just a super lonely dude looking for affection in any form. Honestly though, even if I was into dudes I don't think I'd go for it. Not that cute, sorry. :larry

This story isn't hot at all. :beli

But yeah, coworkers are a no-no.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 12, 2015, 03:06:29 PM
:brazilcry he sounds lonely as fuck



Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on October 12, 2015, 03:10:36 PM
I doubt he's black, PD.

But does he do black guys?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 12, 2015, 06:04:23 PM
I feel like I've become too apathetic and it probably led to all my issues lately.

Ah well, doesn't matter that much.
Uh-oh. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 12, 2015, 08:33:21 PM
Had a problem with anxiety/panic the past week, it's pretty much straight up hell-garbage, brehs. Couldn't relax, couldn't rest, my blood pressure was through the roof. I lost two whole nights to just feeling like I was gonna die. But I am feeling somewhat better today and I'm supposed to see a doctor soon. A lot of it just convincing myself that it's all in my head, though, and learning to calm down instead of getting so worked up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 12, 2015, 09:13:57 PM
Not sure what I'll do [or get] just yet. I haven't had any problems with anxiety on this level before, so it's possible that it's just associated with being overly worried about the other health problem I've been dealing with lately, so it may just naturally pass once everything gets settled down again. For now I'll try to get through it without relying on medication.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 12, 2015, 10:36:52 PM
Get well soon GR. :)

OT: I got kicked a charity case that I took on. Big mistake. Taxpayer is a nice person but a fucking disaster as a taxpayer. And by disaster I mean I'll be reading the ethics regulations cover to cover tonight to cover my fucking ass, that's how much of a disaster. Help the downtrodden brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on October 12, 2015, 10:46:13 PM
Who knew being a mod on the Bore could cause such anxiety?  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 12, 2015, 10:48:07 PM
It's probably from having to deal with all you yahoos and your nonsense that's causing it. :ufup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 12, 2015, 10:56:23 PM
Getting fulfillment requests with "brake cases were needed" really disgusted me lately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 12, 2015, 11:08:24 PM
I feel like I've become too apathetic and it probably led to all my issues lately.

Ah well, doesn't matter that much.

Ruh-roh.

Srsly though, my brother-in-law has also called me "ambivalent" and it took me some time to realize he didn't mean it as a compliment.

Whatever.  :P

(http://i.giphy.com/l41lRtArEBvGY3iJG.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 12, 2015, 11:55:58 PM
Had a problem with anxiety/panic the past week, it's pretty much straight up hell-garbage, brehs. Couldn't relax, couldn't rest, my blood pressure was through the roof. I lost two whole nights to just feeling like I was gonna die. But I am feeling somewhat better today and I'm supposed to see a doctor soon. A lot of it just convincing myself that it's all in my head, though, and learning to calm down instead of getting so worked up.

Have you considered alcohol? A few drinks can help you game and sleep better. :shrug There is a strange stigma around it, but it beats the side effects that meds can impose.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 13, 2015, 12:23:24 AM
When I had my six day panic attack last year pounding a fifth of hard liquor didn't do anything but let me black out for a few hours before waking up in terror.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on October 13, 2015, 11:21:16 AM
I think I caught something overnight. Feel legit dizzy and already dry heaved at work once. Not sure if I'm gonna stay all today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 13, 2015, 01:17:51 PM
I think I caught something overnight. Feel legit dizzy and already dry heaved at work once. Not sure if I'm gonna stay all today.

Congrats you're pregnant. 👶
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on October 14, 2015, 12:38:09 PM
Started on the project of fixing up my S2000 as I've left all the cosmetic damage alone for years since it didn't effect the driving and shit is expensive and I had a gf.  Just got the soft-top replaced since it had major tears I'd been dealing with patching/taping/sewing for 4 years since it's a design defect in all S2000 models that the top frame is too sharp at a couple of points and tears the soft top.  It's nice having a fixed soft top since the tears would always make the car noisy on the freeway to the point where you can't hear quieter music.  Patching it would work, but then you couldn't put the top down because it'd tear it back up again so it was just annoying all over. 

Next up is fixing a small dent in the back and paint damage from a scrapping a wall incident while doing a 9 point u-turn in a small enclosed space 4 years ago.

Then gotta replace the leather on both seats as it's torn in the body of the main seat and bottom of the passenger seat.

After all that it should look good as new.  Love driving and love the car, plan on keeping it forever and retiring it to a weekend car after about 10 years/110k miles.  Will get a boring electric car with good gas mileage in 4 years or so for local driving.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 14, 2015, 06:46:46 PM
My dollar store adventures continued today :beli

Walked in and noticed 8 people were in line, and only one cash register was open. Typical dollar store fuckery. There was a black chick two people ahead of me, talking very casually and loudly into her phone which was on FaceTime for some reason. Real skinny, obvious long/curly black weave, skinny jeans, valley girl accent. There was a 40something yo black guy ahead of her who seemed drunk or buzzed, and he kept staring at her, then shaking his head when she seemingly didn't make eye contact with him. First time I thought it was odd, but he did this about three or four times and it just became uncomfortable as fuck. Obviously women deal with a lot of stares on a daily/hourly basis but I gotta think there's a difference between the casual once-over glance and nonstop continual staring.

After he paid for his shit he walked behind her/looked at her ass. She turned around, finally giving him attention. Then he said "I'm just throwing this away baby" and threw his receipt in a trash can. He smiled at her again and walked out.
:kobeyuck

dudes are trash
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 14, 2015, 07:00:07 PM
If only you could save all the dollar store women PD.  If only.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on October 15, 2015, 04:31:31 PM
One of our managers just quit out of the blue. had her hand in so many different projects

i'm half curious/half scared of how much more work is going to get thrown on my plate
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on October 15, 2015, 09:28:15 PM
I had some pretty bad gum problems a while back that required me to get surgery. Things were looking up afterwards, but since last week, they started bleeding again. Before, they only bled in the mornings when I got up, but now they're bleeding randomly throughout the day again. I spent a fuckton of money on that surgery so this does not put me in good spirits. :/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 15, 2015, 09:56:29 PM
I had some pretty bad gum problems a while back that required me to get surgery. Things were looking up afterwards, but since last week, they started bleeding again. Before, they only bled in the mornings when I got up, but now they're bleeding randomly throughout the day again. I spent a fuckton of money on that surgery so this does not put me in good spirits. :/
I had a gum graft once and I think I remember random bleeding for a few weeks or months maybe after (this was like 10 years ago). Everything ended up fine though.

You got grafted?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on October 15, 2015, 10:10:27 PM
I had some pretty bad gum problems a while back that required me to get surgery. Things were looking up afterwards, but since last week, they started bleeding again. Before, they only bled in the mornings when I got up, but now they're bleeding randomly throughout the day again. I spent a fuckton of money on that surgery so this does not put me in good spirits. :/
I had a gum graft once and I think I remember random bleeding for a few weeks or months maybe after (this was like 10 years ago). Everything ended up fine though.

You got grafted?

I had osseous/flap surgery with bone grafts. I'm mainly worried that the infection will eat into the new bone grafts that they put in.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 15, 2015, 10:48:37 PM
Had 6 Klondike cones today.  Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 15, 2015, 10:57:58 PM
Payed 4$ for two 3-packs cause they were on sale. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 15, 2015, 11:12:15 PM
Had 6 Klondike cones today.  Fuck.

I ate a tub of cookies and cream the other night but it was made with nonfat milk and carob so it was barely 500 something calories. You can still be disgusting but not morally fat.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 15, 2015, 11:14:37 PM
Fuck carob and fuck you
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 15, 2015, 11:19:16 PM
I support Arvie's desire to be fat. I was in a shitty mood all day and the only thing that made me happy was eating a massive bowl of udon noodles and then a bunch of cookies. Dat gluten high.

Also, piss on Kara's bougie food binge session. Shit, he can't even be fat properly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 15, 2015, 11:23:08 PM
Had 6 Klondike cones today.  Fuck.

I ate a tub of cookies and cream the other night but it was made with nonfat milk and carob so it was barely 500 something calories. You can still be disgusting but not morally fat.

That doesn't even make sense :ufup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 15, 2015, 11:31:22 PM
I'll be sure to get the Federal Trade Commission on the horn about it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 16, 2015, 02:45:21 AM
Fuck carob and fuck you

:dap
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 16, 2015, 09:54:09 PM
Finally got to see a doctor about my anxiety/panic attacks after going through the roughest week of my entire life. He was a pretty good doctor and listened to me and helped work through some stuff, ended up getting prescriptions for clonazepam and paroxetin. I've already started to feel significantly better with just the first dose, so maybe this should have gone in the triumph thread instead.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 16, 2015, 09:59:07 PM
You cacs always getting a breh to bump. Goddamnit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 16, 2015, 10:27:24 PM
Made the mistake of going to Taco Bell at the same time as all the breeders. Now that we're getting booze Bells, can we get ones where you can't order more than five items each?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on October 16, 2015, 11:14:15 PM
You cacs always getting a breh to bump. Goddamnit.

cacs have a direct line to the demon
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 16, 2015, 11:25:27 PM
You cacs always getting a breh to bump. Goddamnit.

cacs have a direct line to the demon
No lies detected. :cody
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 17, 2015, 02:29:02 AM
Made the mistake of going to Taco Bell at the same time as all the breeders. Now that we're getting booze Bells, can we get ones where you can't order more than five items each?
Just order margarita smoothies for their kids and then let nature take its course.

You cacs always getting a breh to bump. Goddamnit.

cacs have a direct line to the demon

I don't even know what you're talking about. Targeted assassinations? Pantsless Fridays?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 17, 2015, 01:23:54 PM
I'm not jeopardizing my license for breeders. I like money waaaaaay more than I dislike breeders.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on October 17, 2015, 01:31:04 PM
I'm not jeopardizing my license for breeders. I like money waaaaaay more than I dislike breeders.

 :ussrcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 17, 2015, 02:26:41 PM
"Socialism does not mean shared poverty," as Tongzhi Deng Xiaoping once said. :ufup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 17, 2015, 03:21:38 PM
Quote Deng to defend your communism  :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 17, 2015, 06:16:49 PM
Most successful Communist after Lenin. :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on October 17, 2015, 06:24:37 PM
Most successful Communist after Lenin. :yeshrug

Not by the bodycount metric, the only measure for Great Figures of History©  :betty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Van Cruncheon on October 18, 2015, 11:44:18 AM
i remember those college feels. dude i made one of my groomsmen cuz we was so tight didn't even invite me to his wedding two years later even though we still lived in the same area and hung out. :fbm

i said nothin' cuz feels aren't a good look but, you know, :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 18, 2015, 12:19:30 PM
Weddings :kobeyuck

Coffee :kobeyuck

Grown up things :kobeyuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 18, 2015, 12:37:06 PM
I've been there.

As you get older, people drift apart, especially as they get married and have children.  People just don't have the time to maintain as many friendships as they used to as their real life responsibilities grow.  I wouldn't take it personally because it (likely) isn't maliciously intentional.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 18, 2015, 12:43:50 PM
That's the great thing about being excluded, you can assume one of two explanations. Either people hate you more than you realize and would prefer you didn't exist, or they just forgot you existed in the first place because you're really nothing to them.  :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 18, 2015, 05:19:43 PM
Yup, super dirtpoor broke right now and will remain so for the rest of the month.

No going out for drinks for two weeks. :stahp

I don't know if I can take that. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 18, 2015, 05:43:23 PM
Yup, super dirtpoor broke right now and will remain so for the rest of the month.

No going out for drinks for two weeks. :stahp

I don't know if I can take that. :brazilcry
there's always craigslist
(http://i.imgur.com/YlrM1o7.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on October 18, 2015, 06:01:09 PM
Yup, super dirtpoor broke right now and will remain so for the rest of the month.

No going out for drinks for two weeks. :stahp

I don't know if I can take that. :brazilcry

 :drudge WHITE WHINE :drudge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 18, 2015, 06:15:06 PM
Yup, super dirtpoor broke right now and will remain so for the rest of the month.

No going out for drinks for two weeks. :stahp

I don't know if I can take that. :brazilcry
there's always craigslist
(http://i.imgur.com/YlrM1o7.png)

:ohhh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 18, 2015, 08:21:27 PM
That emote. :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Stoney Mason on October 18, 2015, 09:11:44 PM
So three teenagers snuck/broke into my Mom's home on Saturday. Went into her bedroom. At gunpoint asked her where her money was. Got 15 dollars. Told her to go back to sleep and not to call the cops. And went down and stole her TV. So yeah... that happened.

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Everything is okay. The idiots were caught. The TV was recovered. And she seems to be fine emotionally now. Just a crazy thing to happen. I guess its time to vote for Trump.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 18, 2015, 09:17:06 PM
Shit, Stoney, sorry that happened. I'm glad your mom is alright.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Fifstar on October 19, 2015, 05:53:24 AM
Damn. Hopefully she can emotionally recover from that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 19, 2015, 08:40:59 AM
So three teenagers snuck/broke into my Mom's home on Saturday. Went into her bedroom. At gunpoint asked her where her money was. Got 15 dollars. Told her to go back to sleep and not to call the cops. And went down and stole her TV. So yeah... that happened.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Everything is okay. The idiots were caught. The TV was recovered. And she seems to be fine emotionally now. Just a crazy thing to happen. I guess its time to vote for Trump.
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This goddamn pills and heroin bullshit these kids are doing now is beyond my capability to understand. We just had like 10 kids between the ages of 16-19 get arrested for robbing a lot of houses out my way.

My only advice is make sure your shit is locked up tight and put in a security system. It seems like it's not a matter of if you'll get robbed anymore, but when...sad times.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Stoney Mason on October 19, 2015, 11:25:10 AM
She seems to be okay. My mom is a pretty tough lady so I think she will be okay. The family will probably make sure she puts in a security system. The jackasses got in because there is a side entrance to her house that she never uses that she thought was locked but it wasn't. So it was just unlucky that they tried that door and found it unlocked.

One other funny side note. The police arrested the people that bought her TV from the criminals for receiving stolen goods.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 19, 2015, 11:34:22 AM
Glad she's ok.

Yea AiA it's pretty crazy seeing just how prominent Xanax abuse and other shit is today with kids. They think it's as harmless as weed. Nah brehs....

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 19, 2015, 12:08:11 PM
Glad she's ok.

Yea AiA it's pretty crazy seeing just how prominent Xanax abuse and other shit is today with kids. They think it's as harmless as weed. Nah brehs....

Got kids out here robbing houses and shit. And you tell me it's like weed? We did weed when I was a kid, nobody said "Hey lets go rob them people for more weed"...well that's not fair we did have our fair share of gangsters, but it wasn't nothing like it is now. You got white ass burbs kids breaking into houses and shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 19, 2015, 12:58:56 PM
No I'm saying kids think pills are as harmless for them as weed. In reality Xanax and this other shit are pretty dangerous and addictive.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 19, 2015, 01:01:37 PM
So three teenagers snuck/broke into my Mom's home on Saturday. Went into her bedroom. At gunpoint asked her where her money was. Got 15 dollars. Told her to go back to sleep and not to call the cops. And went down and stole her TV. So yeah... that happened.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Everything is okay. The idiots were caught. The TV was recovered. And she seems to be fine emotionally now. Just a crazy thing to happen. I guess its time to vote for Trump.
[close]

This goddamn pills and heroin bullshit these kids are doing now


Pretty sure drug abuse and crime was a lot worse when you were a kid. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 19, 2015, 01:03:30 PM
So three teenagers snuck/broke into my Mom's home on Saturday. Went into her bedroom. At gunpoint asked her where her money was. Got 15 dollars. Told her to go back to sleep and not to call the cops. And went down and stole her TV. So yeah... that happened.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Everything is okay. The idiots were caught. The TV was recovered. And she seems to be fine emotionally now. Just a crazy thing to happen. I guess its time to vote for Trump.
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This goddamn pills and heroin bullshit these kids are doing now


Pretty sure drug abuse and crime was a lot worse when you were a kid.

You're a fucking moron if you think kids today aren't doing a shit ton more heroin and pain pills than we did. We didn't even know what that shit look like back then.

Hell it's quadrupled since 2002
http://www.wilsontimes.com/News/Feature/Story/38518933---FIGHT-FOR-OUR-KIDS

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"Now it’s at an all-time high across the nation, not just here but everywhere,” Weatherford said. "There are so many people out there dealing with this stuff. They are pretty open about it.”

In fact, the CDC says heroin use is at epidemic levels and young people 18 to 25 are falling prey. Between 2002 and 2013 nationally, the rate of heroin-related overdose deaths nearly quadrupled, and more than 8,200 people died in 2013.

Heroin has evolved to the point where dealers label their batch in pride with names such as Call of Duty.

"That’s indicative to the perception of harm or disapproval being very low right now,” said Erin Day, director of the Wilson County Substance Abuse Coalition. "We need to increase the perception of risk, harm, because it’s real. That’s an opportunity for our community.”

But please, by all means tell me why I'm wrong here, idiot....
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 19, 2015, 01:24:13 PM
I still need to try heroin. I feel like I'm at a point in life where it would just make sense. 💉
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 19, 2015, 02:08:27 PM
My wife had a friend who lived in Florida that died from a heroin OD. He and his gf shot up one day and they both passed out. She woke up and shot up some more and injected what was left into him as he was still passed out. He never woke up. His family tried to get her on a murder charge and she just couldn't understand where these accusations were coming from because she didn't do anything wrong.  :lol

Sorry, it's hard not to laugh at completely oblivious people.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 19, 2015, 02:17:54 PM
My wife had a friend who lived in Florida that died from a heroin OD. He and his gf shot up one day and they both passed out. She woke up and shot up some more and injected what was left into him as he was still passed out. He never woke up. His family tried to get her on a murder charge and she just couldn't understand where these accusations were coming from because she didn't do anything wrong.  :lol

Sorry, it's hard not to laugh at completely oblivious people.

Nothing is worse than an addict who tells me I shouldn't be judging them because I don't understand their struggle. Actually, sure I do, I was smart enough to know how that movie ends.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 19, 2015, 02:18:22 PM
It took white people dying of heroin for anyone to start a national discussion on it.  :doge

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 19, 2015, 02:19:53 PM
It took white people dying of heroin for anyone to start a national discussion on it.  :doge

They still ain't talking about crack though, just putting peeps in prison for years because of it all low key now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 19, 2015, 02:21:08 PM
It took white people dying of heroin for anyone to start a national discussion on it.  :doge

They still ain't talking about crack though, just putting peeps in prison for years because of it all low key now.

With violent crime rising for the first time in years I fully expect this bipartisan agreement on criminal justice reform/drug laws to evaporate; it'll be used as an excuse to kill legislation ("why reward criminals!"). Nothing will change.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 19, 2015, 04:48:41 PM
If she likes dogs she could get one to hang out in the back yard. Breaking into a house on a weekend definitely sounds like a spur of the moment crime so hopefully just seeing/hearing a dog will make thieves move on to an easier target.

It took white people dying of heroin for anyone to start a national discussion on it.  :doge

It is a pretty recent thing with rural white people getting into heroin after getting hooked on oxycontin but I'm not sure what you're talking about is super directly relevant here. Although Florida is kind of the center of the prescription painkiller problem.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on October 20, 2015, 02:03:30 PM
Drugs are like clothes. They go in and out of style and can vary wildly based on where you live. Heroin was very much "in" in the early 90's, you just had to live in the right spots in the country where it was distributed cheaply.





Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 20, 2015, 10:33:58 PM
I was surprised to read what a toll it had on the Los Angeles rock scene in the '90s. I mean, it sounds like it's pretty great the first time, it's just that no-one ever manages to stop after the first time. In Scar Tissue, Kiedis talks about how it was so hard to quit and stay quit, it killed Hillel and nearly killed Frusciante and Kiedis as well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on October 21, 2015, 02:39:25 AM
So three teenagers snuck/broke into my Mom's home on Saturday. Went into her bedroom. At gunpoint asked her where her money was. Got 15 dollars. Told her to go back to sleep and not to call the cops. And went down and stole her TV. So yeah... that happened.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Everything is okay. The idiots were caught. The TV was recovered. And she seems to be fine emotionally now. Just a crazy thing to happen. I guess its time to vote for Trump.
[close]

This goddamn pills and heroin bullshit these kids are doing now is beyond my capability to understand. We just had like 10 kids between the ages of 16-19 get arrested for robbing a lot of houses out my way.

My only advice is make sure your shit is locked up tight and put in a security system. It seems like it's not a matter of if you'll get robbed anymore, but when...sad times.

Is heroin a big thing with kids now? Some girl I used to work with posted a thing on FB saying she was looking to interview anyone from New Hampshire who had been affected by heroin cause apparently its a big deal over there now.

As for my struggle. Monday was my birthday and I got my Facebook birthday wishes than actual phone calls or invites to do anything. Most of them came from people I haven't even fucking talked to in 6 months or more.

On top of that something I ate has given me diarrhea for two straight days, so I spent my birthday at home shitting.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 21, 2015, 07:06:05 AM
Drugs are like clothes. They go in and out of style and can vary wildly based on where you live. Heroin was very much "in" in the early 90's, you just had to live in the right spots in the country where it was distributed cheaply.

Jesus christ get a fucking grip. Heroin wasn't 5 bucks a bag in the 90's nor was it prevalent in the suburbs and rural areas. Every goddamn law enforcement agency is adopting narcan as standard equipment now

Hell don't take my word for it, http://www.cdc.gov/vitalsigns/heroin/

Stop posting just to counter what I say, you're an irritant lately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: thisismyusername on October 21, 2015, 07:20:11 AM
As for my struggle. Monday was my birthday and I got my Facebook birthday wishes than actual phone calls or invites to do anything. Most of them came from people I haven't even fucking talked to in 6 months or more.

That's how it is now a days. It's kinda funny to see those sorts of people doing that and you're like "Uh... thanks?"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 21, 2015, 08:13:45 AM
Nami is getting a tooth removed today and my anxiety is pretty bad  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 21, 2015, 08:18:33 AM
My youngest son apparently doesn't understand why you can't keep the headlights on all night in his car. Which is behind mine which in in the garage.

Grrrrr.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on October 21, 2015, 09:13:01 AM
Drugs are like clothes. They go in and out of style and can vary wildly based on where you live. Heroin was very much "in" in the early 90's, you just had to live in the right spots in the country where it was distributed cheaply.

Jesus christ get a fucking grip. Heroin wasn't 5 bucks a bag in the 90's nor was it prevalent in the suburbs and rural areas. Every goddamn law enforcement agency is adopting narcan as standard equipment now

Hell don't take my word for it, http://www.cdc.gov/vitalsigns/heroin/

Stop posting just to counter what I say, you're an irritant lately.

Just because something becomes more widespread (or reported), doesn't mean it was non-existent before. There's plenty of bios and first-hand accounts of people who partied in the early 90's and heroin was one of the drugs that was floating around.

I apologize that having a different opinion and speaking with more nuance is uncomfortable for you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 21, 2015, 09:24:34 AM
Drugs are like clothes. They go in and out of style and can vary wildly based on where you live. Heroin was very much "in" in the early 90's, you just had to live in the right spots in the country where it was distributed cheaply.

Jesus christ get a fucking grip. Heroin wasn't 5 bucks a bag in the 90's nor was it prevalent in the suburbs and rural areas. Every goddamn law enforcement agency is adopting narcan as standard equipment now

Hell don't take my word for it, http://www.cdc.gov/vitalsigns/heroin/

Stop posting just to counter what I say, you're an irritant lately.

Just because something becomes more widespread (or reported), doesn't mean it was non-existent before. There's plenty of bios and first-hand accounts of people who partied in the early 90's and heroin was one of the drugs that was floating around.

I apologize that having a different opinion and speaking with more nuance is uncomfortable for you.

Nuance? Your evidence is "uh I read stories" and you provided no proof. Awesome.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 21, 2015, 10:02:57 AM
You could very well both be right. Notice that TA didn't even contradict anything you said. The development could have started to ramp up in the 90s, explaining his view of things.

While we're here, why do you feel the need to shit on people for any little thing? It's like you only come here when you're angry. You remember the small man syndrome you've talked about before? You react like that when people do anything but nod along with whatever you say. Chill the fuck out. Turn it down to 10 or 9 at the very least or nobody is going to engage you any more.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on October 21, 2015, 12:10:17 PM

Nuance? Your evidence is "uh I read stories" and you provided no proof. Awesome.

'Heroin Chic' became a thing in the early 90's for a reason. In NYC, the emergency room cases more than doubled in 4 years. As they discuss in this link (http://www.drugpolicy.org/docUploads/meth340.pdf) , street heroin became more pure and people could sniff it (instead of injecting). The CDC (and other drug awareness groups)  only focused on people that were injecting because of the AIDS crisis.

So yea, it was virtually non-existent in suburban/rural areas, but was pretty common in metropolitan areas.  'Disco Bloodbath' is a pretty good account of the drug scene of the time.  Marc Maron (WTF podcast) often shares stories about the changes that happened in NYC and San Francisco (while he lived there) during this time.



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While we're here, why do you feel the need to shit on people for any little thing?

AiA is a classic narcissist. So, it's just part of who he is.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/201110/the-narcissists-dilemma-they-can-dish-it-out

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 21, 2015, 01:15:12 PM
Nami needs 6 teeth pulled, instead of the 1 I thought she needed.  Going to be $1000.  Fuck. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 21, 2015, 01:24:12 PM
Fuck I feel terrible for letting it get that bad.  Feel like a bad parent. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 21, 2015, 02:29:34 PM
Damn Arv, is this a problem common to her breed? Did they recommend like dentastix in the future or a food change?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 21, 2015, 02:40:56 PM
They recommended brushing, which she won't do.  I can finger rub on tooth paste but it doesn't do much.  I already give her dental treats, so I don't know why they got this bad.  I don't think bad teeth is a breed thing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 21, 2015, 03:08:32 PM
:( sorry man
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 21, 2015, 09:02:26 PM
Nami needs 6 teeth pulled, instead of the 1 I thought she needed.  Going to be $1000.  Fuck.

http://www.carecredit.com/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 21, 2015, 09:55:52 PM
Get well soon, Nami.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 21, 2015, 10:16:52 PM
Opiates are a dirty secret in the midwest.  Once states started limiting how much pseudoephedrine you could buy at once, the era of bathtub meth was over.  Then it was opiates like oxycodone and the like because chances are that people knew other people who were prescribed opiates due to pain (whether it be related to an injury or chronic pain).  Except once people couldn't afford oxycontin, they started shooting up heroin and fentanyl because it was a cheaper high.

It's been going on for almost a decade now but nobody is really talking about it much because it's the rural areas and lol flyover country amirite?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on October 21, 2015, 10:36:14 PM
As for my struggle. Monday was my birthday and I got my Facebook birthday wishes than actual phone calls or invites to do anything. Most of them came from people I haven't even fucking talked to in 6 months or more.

That's how it is now a days. It's kinda funny to see those sorts of people doing that and you're like "Uh... thanks?"

I hate it. I honestly might remove my birthday from Facebook because I just feel the whole thing is weird. Like what am I supposed to say? "Thanks people who never call me to hang out or invite me to do anything! I'm super lonely 364 days of the year but its nice to know that 1 day a year you all pretend to remember me!"

I'd rather just not think about it.

Opiates are a dirty secret in the midwest.  Once states started limiting how much pseudoephedrine you could buy at once, the era of bathtub meth was over.  Then it was opiates like oxycodone and the like because chances are that people knew other people who were prescribed opiates due to pain (whether it be related to an injury or chronic pain).  Except once people couldn't afford oxycontin, they started shooting up heroin and fentanyl because it was a cheaper high.

It's been going on for almost a decade now but nobody is really talking about it much because it's the rural areas and lol flyover country amirite?

Well like I said it has progressed its way to ultra rich white privilege New Hampshire so hey, maybe now people will notice!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 23, 2015, 03:21:56 AM
Insomnia is so demonic. :goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on October 23, 2015, 11:19:47 AM
my cat has the worst fuckin teeth. she's already had to get half of them removed and this is with brushing, but snowshoe siamese are known for bad teeth so i guess that's the way it was going to go anyway.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 23, 2015, 11:26:44 AM
That sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on October 23, 2015, 11:35:33 AM
last time we were at the vet they said she needs some more removed, but she's 15 now so i'm not sure what to do cause it's going to be another $800  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 23, 2015, 03:17:35 PM
Sometimes I get super loud tummy rumbles that sound like farts.  Today is one of those days. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on October 23, 2015, 03:57:55 PM
Isn't that just the warning bell that diarrhea is coming  in about 60 minutes?

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 23, 2015, 04:19:19 PM
Not for me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 24, 2015, 10:56:25 AM
Fuck I feel terrible for letting it get that bad.  Feel like a bad parent.

How often do you get your dog's teeth cleaned?  I have my dog's teeth get cleaned every six months.  I can never brush my dog's teeth worth a damn.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 11:27:20 AM
Never.  The vets generally said her teeth looked ok at check ups. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on October 24, 2015, 11:27:49 AM
I ended up reading this article.

http://www.bustle.com/articles/109182-7-things-you-might-not-think-are-fat-shaming-that-definitely-are
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 11:30:44 AM
I think I'll just continue not talking to fat women, in case I accidentally shame them. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 11:43:17 AM
Like you talk to any women. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 11:44:20 AM
Jodie Layne is a sex educator by day and a writer also by day. Her hobbies include re-considering an educational career and creating a B.A. in Kanye Studies, wishing there was a ShondaCon, trying to make the perfect "Meg Ryan Rom Com Feels" playlist, and preparing the imminent arrival of her certain anxiety-fueled demise.

OT: ^read this
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on October 24, 2015, 11:52:57 AM
I ended up reading this article.

http://www.bustle.com/articles/109182-7-things-you-might-not-think-are-fat-shaming-that-definitely-are

(http://i.imgur.com/5bbeOj3.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 24, 2015, 11:55:31 AM
Fascism on the march.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 11:55:44 AM
Samson you are too good looking and that's shaming us fatties. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 24, 2015, 12:50:34 PM
Literally don't have enough money to buy food lol.

Might have to hit up a Coinstar or something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on October 24, 2015, 12:56:30 PM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.

 :PP
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 24, 2015, 01:14:54 PM
Got a bill today from my recent trip to the ER [CT scan, some injections, blood and urine samples, and a bed for a couple hours] and after my insurance paid a huge chunk of it I still owed $3,400. :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on October 24, 2015, 01:16:29 PM
Sorry to hear that, Great Rumbler. It's just not right.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 01:16:52 PM
Vintage The Business post. :aah

E: Sorry, GR. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 24, 2015, 02:04:59 PM
Between some high end audio gear, a Nebula 4000 handheld gimbal, and a Nexus 5X, I've spent $1,692 this week.

Month is gonna be tight. Thankfully I've been saving up for the past couple months for some of this stuff.

 :PP

Yup, this was my own doing. :)

Won't make the next week any less #struggle though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 24, 2015, 02:42:13 PM
You should get some credit cards Andy for this sort of situation. Well I mean the ideal way to use them is to always use like 50% of the limit and then pay it off completely every month to build credit as much as possible but that does require decent planning of your in/outflows.

Got a bill today from my recent trip to the ER [CT scan, some injections, blood and urine samples, and a bed for a couple hours] and after my insurance paid a huge chunk of it I still owed $3,400. :goty

If you do end up with a money crisis in the near future then you could ask the hospital to forgive whatever is left and they often do that sort of thing as part of their charity spending. Does it look like they're able to fix your pooper?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 24, 2015, 03:14:34 PM
I tried to get two differents ones a few weeks ago but apparently having credit is a prerequisite to getting a credit card.  :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 24, 2015, 05:16:45 PM
If you do end up with a money crisis in the near future then you could ask the hospital to forgive whatever is left and they often do that sort of thing as part of their charity spending. Does it look like they're able to fix your pooper?

Yeah, looks like everything's okay in terms of my health. And I plan on going to the hospital with my tax returns to show them how poor I am and see if they can get me on some kind of payment plan at least, because a lump sum payout of more than 3 big ones just isn't going to happen.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 05:28:19 PM
Nami hasn't pooped really since her surgery.  She was going to last night then low flying helicopters scared her.  Walked her for 2 hours today and nothing :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on October 24, 2015, 05:31:42 PM
Has she been eating normally after the surgery or has she been eating less? Might be no poop for her to poop.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 05:37:10 PM
a lot less and changed to soft food.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 05:38:17 PM
I tried to get two differents ones a few weeks ago but apparently having credit is a prerequisite to getting a credit card.  :maf

Gotta start with crappy cards that have so low a limit they're basically debit cards.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 24, 2015, 05:54:47 PM
I tried to get two differents ones a few weeks ago but apparently having credit is a prerequisite to getting a credit card.  :maf

Gotta start with crappy cards that have so low a limit they're basically debit cards.

Any recs?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 24, 2015, 05:58:36 PM
I got a Capital One when I was 18.  Had a $300 limit and they refused to increase the credit limit (a smart move on their part) until years later when I graduated college.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 06:10:11 PM
Given recent events I'd suggest you start with a secured card, Andy. (You put down a security deposit up front.)

http://www.creditcards.com/credit-cards/capital-one-secured-mastercard.php?catid=1077
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 24, 2015, 06:11:07 PM
Given recent events I'd suggest you start with a secured card, Andy. (You put down a security deposit up front.)

http://www.creditcards.com/credit-cards/capital-one-secured-mastercard.php?catid=1077

what part of "i don't have money for food right now" was unclear
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 06:20:05 PM
This is for the future, not now. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 24, 2015, 07:04:45 PM
In the future I'll be rich and won't have to worry about credit cards anyways. :wag
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 08:00:57 PM
I know something has gone terribly wrong because I'm giving paternal advice but when you're rich a credit card is even more important as it's part of your "I'm actually rich" identification to other rich people, upwardly ambitious people who aren't rich and probably never will be because they're ambitious instead of smart or useful, and the brave men and women of the servile class. Losing your American Express black card is practically the modern day equivalent of being scourged.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 08:11:16 PM
You seem so knowledgeable about how to be a rich capitalist.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: thisismyusername on October 24, 2015, 08:24:31 PM
You seem so knowledgeable about how to be a rich capitalist.

That's because he plays one on pigdog TV.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 08:39:19 PM
I'm starting to think Kara is secretly a rich dilettante pretending to be a communist, rather than a communist pretending to be a capitalist.  I bet he is actually a graduate from Yale.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 08:44:49 PM
Bet he's actually named 'Carter Williams' or some shit and has an uncle that works for the CIA.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 08:48:45 PM
Bet he gets a tax break for gifting his family butler a turkey on thanksgiving. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 09:06:05 PM
Bet he voted Bush four times and doesn't know the price of milk.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 09:16:48 PM
Bet his family refer to being a lawyer as a blue collar job. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 09:23:14 PM
Bet he owns stock in the companies that own the companies that regular people want to own stock in. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 09:26:15 PM
Bet for his 21st birthday his parents bought him an expunged record in case he wanted to be state senator. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 09:41:01 PM
:dead :dead :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 24, 2015, 09:42:29 PM
I grew up in privilege (defense industry money), to sate your curiosity.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on October 24, 2015, 10:19:03 PM
struck out twice in a week  :yuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 10:45:25 PM
Walked Nami 5 hours today; no poop.  Also realized my back tooth has a huge chunk missing.  Pretty sure I cracked it on a popcorn curnal 3 weeks ago.  Haven't been to the dentist in 2 years.  Also need new contacts.  And I'm totally out of money.  Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on October 24, 2015, 11:06:50 PM
Walked Nami 5 hours today; no poop.  Also realized my back tooth has a huge chunk missing.  Pretty sure I cracked it on a popcorn curnal 3 weeks ago.  Haven't been to the dentist in 2 years.  Also need new contacts.  And I'm totally out of money.  Fuck.

Ask Kara for advice.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 24, 2015, 11:17:40 PM
He will just tell me to be rich in the future :(

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 25, 2015, 12:12:47 AM
Do they not have dental schools with low cost teaching clinics in Canada?

E: I buy contacts internationally. Not sure if it's much cheaper than your market, usually is here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 25, 2015, 12:14:32 AM
ya just using the phone to make appointments gives me anxiety
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 25, 2015, 12:22:16 AM
Also, not to sound like a parental unit, but if your household economics are as such that you find yourself unable to afford food or absorb emergency costs, it's probably a good opportunity to step back and evaluate your lifestyle and your ability to support that lifestyle. Pets aren't children where you can get some of that sweet government assistance and having access to short-term credit is super important  (if only to cushion you from emergencies).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: thisismyusername on October 25, 2015, 12:34:38 AM
So you're saying I should steal some friends kids and lie about them being mine only when inspectors are scheduled to check on us? :doge :doge :doge :doge :doge :doge :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 25, 2015, 12:39:21 AM
Also, not to sound like a parental unit, but if your household economics are as such that you find yourself unable to afford food or absorb emergency costs, it's probably a good opportunity to step back and evaluate your lifestyle and your ability to support that lifestyle. Pets aren't children where you can get some of that sweet government assistance and having access to short-term credit is super important  (if only to cushion you from emergencies).

Ya.  When I meant I'm out of money, I mean my emergency fund is low, which is stressful because I can't absorb much more.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 25, 2015, 09:36:06 PM
Spent an hour so far trying to figure out why Apple TV is no longer streaming my purchased movies. Reset all my network devices, the Apple TV, routers, etc.  I'll probably have an aneurism if Apple ever ends up region-blocking me from my legally purchased content.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 26, 2015, 06:41:00 AM
I found out that my on again/off again ex girlfriend from junior high to high school works here too.  :-\

You know you want a history fuck, stop fronting.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 26, 2015, 06:52:17 AM
I found out that my on again/off again ex girlfriend from junior high to high school works here too.  :-\

You know you want a history fuck, stop fronting.

Don't want to fuck a women I despised completely for too long, let alone one who has three kids and a marriage to boot.

Put it in her butt and get it over with.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 26, 2015, 07:22:17 AM
How's that marriage going, buddy?

Better than your rather unspectacular struggles with women I suppose.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 26, 2015, 09:11:42 AM
I'll be fine as long as you continue to ride my dick.

Sorry I'm not fond of child sized pudding pops.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 26, 2015, 09:18:37 AM
take it outside fellas :badass

Take it outside...

...to the dumpster. :phil
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 26, 2015, 09:27:51 AM
Woke up with a migraine :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on October 26, 2015, 09:49:56 AM
I'll be fine as long as you continue to ride my dick.

Sorry I'm not fond of child sized pudding pops.

We both know that's not true.

That's not bringing it strong, c'mon bro I know you're better than this  :jawalrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 26, 2015, 09:08:12 PM
Last week my Nexus 5 went into a bootloop every 2 seconds presumably because its power button is physically borked. So I ordered a Moto X. And today somebody whose name I do not recognize apparently signed for it so now I have to wait for fedex to do their investigation crap.

WTF signs for a package that's not meant for them/their address though? You would think that within a few hours you would notice the mistake and now there's an electronic record leading back to you. Some dude named "E. Abakan" is on the run with my tastefully customized phone that has my name engraved on it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on October 26, 2015, 10:14:26 PM
Woke up with a migraine :(

Me too.  :anhuld
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 26, 2015, 10:16:11 PM
Maybe its the same one?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 26, 2015, 10:16:25 PM
What am I thinking right now?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 26, 2015, 10:25:46 PM
:itisamystery.gif
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 26, 2015, 10:36:51 PM
What am I thinking right now?

"I'm not hungry but I'm gonna eat anyway"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 26, 2015, 11:02:53 PM
You shame me PD


*going to go eat 2 packs of oatmeal. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on October 27, 2015, 04:27:29 PM
Oatmeal is too healthy to be considered a shame snack
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 27, 2015, 04:34:19 PM
Its super high calories the way I eat it.  Gives nice per-morning shower poops though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 27, 2015, 04:42:35 PM
Oatmeal + maple syrup is a dirtperson staple
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 27, 2015, 04:43:42 PM
You're a staple. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 29, 2015, 01:32:21 AM
Someone opened a coffee truck in the spot Ive been looking at for a year,there is a queue manya

Fml
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on October 29, 2015, 10:50:46 AM
Two dopes that were coughing up a lung all day yesterday at work called in today with strep throat. Now I got a cough and I'm starting to worry  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: octopushover on October 29, 2015, 05:12:43 PM
my dog is getting neutered tomorrow and he has to be there for 24 hours  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 29, 2015, 05:22:01 PM
:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 29, 2015, 05:35:51 PM
That's if he survives the procedure.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 30, 2015, 09:27:30 AM
Someone opened a coffee truck in the spot Ive been looking at for a year,there is a queue manya

Fml

What's the name of the truck?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: octopushover on October 30, 2015, 10:52:55 AM
That's if he survives the procedure.

 :gloomy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on October 30, 2015, 11:06:38 AM
It's gonna be fine. This op is done several millions time a year.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2015, 11:42:40 AM
ya op is a slut.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 30, 2015, 11:44:29 AM
ya op is a slut.

:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2015, 12:32:44 PM
I didn't even remember who the op was when I said that;  glad the statement worked out in the end though. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2015, 01:16:01 PM
Pretty sure I am having blurry vision after I eat some times.  Pretty sure I should go to a doctor.  Google tells me thats a blood sugar thing. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on October 30, 2015, 01:17:39 PM
Pretty sure I am having blurry vision after I eat some times.  Pretty sure I should go to a doctor.  Google tells me thats a blood sugar thing.

You sure it's not just gravy splatter?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2015, 01:24:45 PM
Oh, good now.  Thanks. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2015, 03:33:57 PM
My eye keeps going out of focus.  Shit is really annoying. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 30, 2015, 03:38:03 PM
My eye keeps going out of focus.  Shit is really annoying.
(http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l181/Father_Mike/arvie.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2015, 04:25:26 PM
Was preparing to go home.  Pissed but didn't shake enough.  Now I got to stay another 20 mins while I dry out.   The struggle is real today. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on October 30, 2015, 07:00:39 PM
So much work to do but I spent the whole day watching bob ross
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: benjipwns on October 30, 2015, 07:50:52 PM
Steve Youngblood's methods rubbing off on the mods here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 30, 2015, 08:01:54 PM
Witnessed fascism and socialism from moderatators on this forum. The only reason my post survived is because I'm using a golden keyboard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 30, 2015, 08:03:43 PM
ya op is a slut.

It's true. :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 30, 2015, 08:16:36 PM
My boss's boss was fired today. CISO. I learned that "C class" employees can only be fired by the CEO. Is it a respect thing? Sounds kind of mafia-ish. Feel bad. I'm sure they were blind sided. :fbm

It just goes to show that no matter how secure you think you are in your job, if you piss off the wrong person you are gone. :camby
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 30, 2015, 08:39:29 PM
Made a thread that ended up being one of like 3 threads to get locked by a moderator this year.  :(

Cuck stuff stays in the cuck thread [aka GAF thread].
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 30, 2015, 08:57:38 PM
Deleting threads gives me mad fomo. Can't they just go somewhere for the regs only? Senior member private board? The struggle :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 30, 2015, 09:01:38 PM
On topic: I'm home alone posting here when I should be getting high and playing Diablo 3.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 30, 2015, 09:46:11 PM
Deleting threads gives me mad fomo. Can't they just go somewhere for the regs only? Senior member private board? The struggle :fbm

It got Baby Dumpster'd, a place where deleted threads are archived for mods and icons to go back and laugh at.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 30, 2015, 10:45:46 PM
What was the thread lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on October 31, 2015, 11:12:53 AM
hemmura just causing drama
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 31, 2015, 11:27:46 AM
Nah, it was a dumb Walrus thread talking about Cliff Lee and cuckolding.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 31, 2015, 01:28:00 PM
Deleting threads gives me mad fomo. Can't they just go somewhere for the regs only? Senior member private board? The struggle :fbm

It got Baby Dumpster'd, a place where deleted threads are archived for mods and icons to go back and laugh at.

I can't see it. You know, since I'm not an icon.

Black Posters Matter.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on November 01, 2015, 03:24:30 AM
I recognized a girls outfit as being 'girl scout cookie strain of weed' at the bar
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 01, 2015, 07:06:39 AM
My eye keeps going out of focus.  Shit is really annoying.

It's stress. Do some work and it'll get better. I shit you not.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 03, 2015, 04:06:18 PM
So I work in a small, 6 man operation that's part of a giant global corporation. One of my co-workers is breaking policy by having people come in fairly often to give him money or parts as a part of a machining business he runs on the side. Everyone else in office is turning a blind eye to it. I worry about retribution, but I'm considering saying something to my direct supervisor or to the person individually. Thoughts?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 03, 2015, 04:07:58 PM
Are they your superior?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 03, 2015, 04:13:40 PM
Sorta? They've been with the company for decades and are considered the "senior" version of my job title.

He's asked me to exchange money for him when he wasn't going to be there and I refused in the past.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 03, 2015, 09:20:53 PM
TBH the benefit (you don't seem to have any beyond "doing the right thing" and "covering my ass"?) doesn't sound worth the costs, but I never met a fight I wouldn't run away from. Even if you narc'd anonymously it sounds like you'd be a prime suspect. Does corporate not involve themselves much directly?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 03, 2015, 09:27:59 PM
let that man eat.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 03, 2015, 09:40:41 PM
I'm watching the 90's TV Charmed.  WTF am I doing with my life. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 03, 2015, 09:45:12 PM
I'm watching the 90's TV Charmed.  WTF am I doing with my life.

This is what makes you ask that question?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 03, 2015, 09:48:21 PM
This is the show that got me into sister-sister incest fetish.  Also the CGI is very bad.       
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 03, 2015, 09:57:53 PM
"Don't put me in the middle" 'I didn't put you in the middle, you were born in the middle'   O that witty sibling based humor. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 03, 2015, 10:58:45 PM
This is the show that got me into sister-sister incest fetish.  Also the CGI is very bad.       

A post that's surprisingly not about anime.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 03, 2015, 11:10:48 PM
Between my trade and my sunny disposition I have quite a few mercenary conversations, but this morning I had one that was so bad that I had to sit back and think about how fucked up I am now. The worst part is that I was the one that drove the tone of the conversation. Retirement can't come soon enough.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 03, 2015, 11:38:45 PM
Yeah, I'm just gonna continue to refuse to be involved and not make waves. Corporate is based on the east coast and is not ever really involved locally
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 04, 2015, 12:39:27 AM
The worst is when a boss of a boss of a boss finds out you have a (legit) workplace issue. But you might find yourself getting a raise out of it or maybe fired if someone owes them or something maybe. I'm assuming you're a good employee.

I'd just be honest to the guy that you want to keep workplace about the work if he ever gets distracted by his other business. And yes Kara, that's maybe the more pussy way of dealing with it but it's safer.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on November 04, 2015, 07:06:03 AM
That's okay, when that guy inevitably gets caught (and he will, unless he quits before he gets caught), you're all going to get fired anyway for turning a blind eye.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on November 04, 2015, 02:20:42 PM
I mentioned this awhile back, but an article by a former coworker on the Heroin epidemic:

https://www.yahoo.com/health/he-was-in-someones-basement-there-was-a-dirt-122716783.html?src=rss
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 04, 2015, 03:28:52 PM
I mentioned this awhile back, but an article by a former coworker on the Heroin epidemic:

https://www.yahoo.com/health/he-was-in-someones-basement-there-was-a-dirt-122716783.html?src=rss

You know when ever I see demographics about drug abuse I feel bad for the users and when ever I read about a personal account I'm more likely to think this person is an idiot and not sympathize with them. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 04, 2015, 08:26:31 PM
I bumped into the DEA screw tightening last year with anxiety medication. It's a ridiculous state of affairs, is some fed going to give me a handie to relieve the anxiety that I'm still feeling whether or not I've exceeded my triple rationed (!!!) allotment of medication? Get fucked.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on November 05, 2015, 10:39:49 AM
About to go to the doctor so I can get a tiny camera shoved up my butt.  :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on November 05, 2015, 10:46:22 AM
 :shaq
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 05, 2015, 10:58:32 AM
Good luck, also is the camera black? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 05, 2015, 11:15:10 AM
Some guys have all the luck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on November 05, 2015, 04:11:26 PM
Good luck, also is the camera black? 

Never even got to see the camera. They gave me an anesthetic injection and I was out like a light in about ten seconds. Woke up later in a totally different room with the procedure already over.

Everything turned out okay, the problem that the ER thought I had wasn't present at all. Lot of wasted money over what amounted to a random infection, but whatever, at least I've got some closure on this whole mess.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on November 05, 2015, 04:26:32 PM
If you were in Canada you wouldn't have to pay for having a camera shoved in your ass

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 05, 2015, 05:10:15 PM
Good luck, also is the camera black? 

Never even got to see the camera. They gave me an anesthetic injection and I was out like a light in about ten seconds. Woke up later in a totally different room with the procedure already over.

Kinky.  Glad it came out ok.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on November 05, 2015, 08:29:28 PM
Trying to slow down smoking is kind of a pain. The hardest hit is the post breakfast one.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 05, 2015, 08:42:40 PM
It was the "I just got up" smoke for me.

It'll suck pretty bad but afterwards you'll be able to enjoy it / use it as a PED again. :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 05, 2015, 08:55:13 PM
Charmed is so ridiculous.     
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 05, 2015, 09:52:53 PM
Yeah, I'm just gonna continue to refuse to be involved and not make waves. Corporate is based on the east coast and is not ever really involved locally
That's okay, when that guy inevitably gets caught (and he will, unless he quits before he gets caught), you're all going to get fired anyway for turning a blind eye.
If the "superior" is someone CatsCatsCats reports to in any way, he can just claim he was unwilling to martyr himself as a whistleblower. Because the USA loves whistleblowers lately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 06, 2015, 12:12:10 AM
Yeah, it wouldn't go down like TEXP is suggesting at all. Firing everyone who knew about it would cost the company millions, dude man might get the boot, but even that would be more of a persuaded retirement :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 06, 2015, 04:19:01 AM
Got an unexpected increase in my American Express credit limits and realized that I'm only wanted by moneylenders.

On the plus side, I can buy some fucking good shit to let me escape my sad existence.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on November 06, 2015, 04:39:11 AM
It was the "I just got up" smoke for me.

It'll suck pretty bad but afterwards you'll be able to enjoy it / use it as a PED again. :)

Went and bought a full tabacco filter cig at the unit for now. Having to go at the tobacconist for every round of drugs may help me limiting myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 06, 2015, 06:40:45 AM
Camera up the butt seems more invasive then camera down your throat

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on November 06, 2015, 11:20:03 AM
Camera up the butt seems more invasive then camera down your throat

It's a long way down to the colon going through the mouth.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 06, 2015, 01:47:51 PM
I have no focus and I haven't jerked off for like 14 hours.  The Walrus is such a liar. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 06, 2015, 01:49:10 PM
To be fair, are you focused on wanting to JO?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 06, 2015, 01:51:05 PM
I'd rather play civ right now.  I feel like I picked the wrong job going into a Ph.D.  I should have been a conqueror. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 06, 2015, 01:57:13 PM
Like somedays I get up and I'm just depressed I can't go out and murder a peoples anymore #whitepeopleproblems
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 06, 2015, 02:08:08 PM
It was the "I just got up" smoke for me.

It'll suck pretty bad but afterwards you'll be able to enjoy it / use it as a PED again. :)

Went and bought a full tabacco filter cig at the unit for now. Having to go at the tobacconist for every round of drugs may help me limiting myself.

It does. I only go to ones on certain routes I take on certain days of the week.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Take My Breh Away on November 07, 2015, 10:19:05 AM
Just got out of the Hospital to fix the deviated septum I apparently had since a child. They took out my nasal splints after I thought they were going to wait a week and I was still hurting from post-op. It hurt like a motherfucker because they were fucking huge ones.

Now my nose is swollen and blacked up. Black crumbs of dried blood for the next three days and bland food. And worst of all. No Hot Coffee

 :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 07, 2015, 10:34:32 AM
If you're lucky you'll pull out a huge gob of coagulated blood. Post it to r/popping.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 07, 2015, 10:36:59 AM
And worst of all. No Hot Coffee

 :brazilcry

Grand Theft Auto San Andreas is 11 years old now, breh. It's time to branch out.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 07, 2015, 12:45:01 PM
Binged on cinnamon buns again.  Sugar rush.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 07, 2015, 09:56:14 PM
Just got out of the Hospital to fix the deviated septum I apparently had since a child. They took out my nasal splints after I thought they were going to wait a week and I was still hurting from post-op. It hurt like a motherfucker because they were fucking huge ones.

Now my nose is swollen and blacked up. Black crumbs of dried blood for the next three days and bland food. And worst of all. No Hot Coffee

 :brazilcry

You had splints? My nasal cavities were packed with gauze, I saw no splints when they removed them. Maybe they forgot them in there?  :-X
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 07, 2015, 10:59:32 PM
Does it change the appearance or just help with breathing? I'm supposed to get a septuloplasty in the next few months.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Take My Breh Away on November 08, 2015, 08:22:31 AM
Does it change the appearance or just help with breathing? I'm supposed to get a septuloplasty in the next few months.

Doesn't change the appearance. Mine was to help with breathing due to a deviated septum starting to block an airway and producing more mucus that would block it further. It swelled up for a little and started to ease back down to day.

Shouldn't be too worried, really. It's the bleeding and past the first night that's the rough part.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 08, 2015, 09:09:49 AM
You'll always have the memory though
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: benjipwns on November 08, 2015, 12:44:39 PM
Right by the expressway in Joliet, Missouri there's a big factory with "F.A.G. Ball Bearings" in huge letters on the side of it for the American branch of the German company F.A.G.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 08, 2015, 12:46:54 PM
Right by the expressway in Joliet, Missouri there's a big factory with "F.A.G. Ball Bearings" in huge letters on the side of it for the American branch of the German company F.A.G.

You shared this in my thread about F.A.G.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: benjipwns on November 08, 2015, 12:49:52 PM
Can enough be said about F.A.G.?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 08, 2015, 04:55:04 PM
Ah yes the Film Actors Guild factory, where stars are made. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 08, 2015, 10:21:08 PM
This was supposed to be great, relaxing weekend. Instead the wife and I have had to spend most of it defending the fact discriminating against children based on what their parents do is wrong. And that compassionate people should know better and if they don't then perhaps they really aren't compassionate.
Thanks LDS church! :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on November 08, 2015, 10:27:38 PM
Wait what this spurned on by the gay couples thing, because the idea that they're "wrong" too is just :scust. But whatever I don't follow a religion so I don't have to deal with that "this sin is the worst" cherry picking crap.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 09, 2015, 01:51:12 AM
This was brought on by the church's new policy of excluding children of gay parents to be baptized (and thereby interact in any meaningful way) into the church.
And also putting being married to someone of the same sex on the hard list of apostasy which in essence makes worse than rape, sexual abuse, and in cases, murder.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 09, 2015, 02:06:07 AM
This was brought on by the church's new policy of excluding children of gay parents to be baptized (and thereby interact in any meaningful way) into the church.
And also putting being married to someone of the same sex on the hard list of apostasy which in essence makes worse than rape, sexual abuse, and in cases, murder.
LDS priorities every bit as screwed up as they've ever been. Sorry, Puppy. It's nice that your brethren get to be judgmental and all, so they can just ignore that part of the "only God can judge" thing. I'm godless and free to judge though, so congratulations to all of LDS on following a religion created by a known con artist who convinced followers that he had magic glasses. Mormons at least beat Scientologists to the punch by more than a century; the early bird gets dibs on the magic underwear, I guess.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 09, 2015, 07:41:26 AM
Be a Mormon brehs.
:kobeyuck

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on November 09, 2015, 08:30:28 AM
Isn't SLC considered one of the gayest cities in America?  As in it is right up there with San Francisco.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 09, 2015, 10:07:03 AM
Yes it is, which is what makes this even more perplexing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on November 09, 2015, 01:27:51 PM
Puppy, are y'all practicing Mormons or just have a lot of family? I forget.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 09, 2015, 01:30:12 PM
Puppy, are y'all practicing Mormons or just have a lot of family? I forget.
We haven't practiced since prop 8. But my wife's family is MORMON way way mormon. Mine less so but they're still mormon too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on November 09, 2015, 01:31:38 PM
Bummer, man. It's rough when your families are majorly invested in things that you find objectionable on that level.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 09, 2015, 03:08:10 PM
Forbidding the baptism of children because of their parents is ridiculous. Good on ya for sticking up for them, Ron.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 09, 2015, 04:19:24 PM
I have some TVC-lite intestinal issues where everything that came out of my butt in the last 12 hours has been either incredibly constipated or like diarrhea oily discharges with lots of flatulence. It started after I woke up from a dinner of hot dogs and whiskey. Oh well hopefully it clears itself up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on November 09, 2015, 08:54:06 PM
Puppy, I've been reading the Mormon thread over on GAF. Sounds like the older of my two younger brothers is having his "go away from the church" crisis. I'm betting as soon as he is able to move out of my parents house he will go full on ditch the church mode.

Meanwhile my youngest brother got engaged to some girl he met through church activities and has known less than a year. And she currently lives in a completely different state (while finishing her degree). She tagged my bro in a post on FB saying how excited she was to get to marry her best friend. It seems weird to me that she considers someone she's known less than a year to be her best friend. I guess I'm just feel weird because my last long term relationship I lived with the girl for like 2 years, survived being temporarily homeless, survived a 17 hour car trip and yet still ended up having it not work out and he's marry a girl he doesn't even see daily.

I also had to tell him that if I do manage to make it up for the wedding I can't go to the actual wedding because I'm totally not temple eligible at this time (nor will I likely ever be again).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 10, 2015, 10:50:17 AM
God's love, full-on conditional.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 10, 2015, 11:03:19 AM
If your brother's marriage ever went south his soon to be waifu wouldn't talk to him again (barring kid crap) while you and your ex have had a post-relationship relationship because you had something more substantial. God hates us all.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 10, 2015, 11:04:26 AM
I grew up in a super religious Muslim community and no one from there is open about not being religious or being not hetero (to my knowledge). Even talking to people who are like fourth-hand acquaintances, they are very surprised when I say something that sounds atheisty but I've learned from that that there's no gentle way to broach the subject of issues in organized religion.

Also never ever argue religion with anyone who is devoutly religious or irreligious unless you can quote the scripture you need for your argument. And I assume in Mormonism like other religions, there's a whole hierarchy in contradictory scriptures/interpretations.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 10, 2015, 11:26:41 AM
Puppy, I've been reading the Mormon thread over on GAF. Sounds like the older of my two younger brothers is having his "go away from the church" crisis. I'm betting as soon as he is able to move out of my parents house he will go full on ditch the church mode.

Meanwhile my youngest brother got engaged to some girl he met through church activities and has known less than a year. And she currently lives in a completely different state (while finishing her degree). She tagged my bro in a post on FB saying how excited she was to get to marry her best friend. It seems weird to me that she considers someone she's known less than a year to be her best friend. I guess I'm just feel weird because my last long term relationship I lived with the girl for like 2 years, survived being temporarily homeless, survived a 17 hour car trip and yet still ended up having it not work out and he's marry a girl he doesn't even see daily.

I also had to tell him that if I do manage to make it up for the wedding I can't go to the actual wedding because I'm totally not temple eligible at this time (nor will I likely ever be again).
I'd say something about "LOLZ < 1 year" but honestly I've met too many indians that have great marriages that met their spouse a week before they got married (of course they were arranged) to each their own I guess.

But it does suck about not being able to attend the wedding. Remember, the church is doing it because they love you and want you to be close to your family.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 10, 2015, 01:25:47 PM
Got my first super like and I accidentally didn't like back because I didn't know how that shit works.  :(  She was hot too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 10, 2015, 02:10:58 PM
But it does suck about not being able to attend the wedding. Remember, the church is doing it because they love you and want you to be close to your family.

I voluntarily excuse myself from attending as many religious events as possible and it's not too bad. As long as you bring a thoughtful gift to the after-event no one gives you shit for missing the religious bit and you can be there for whomever you care about without being made to feel :holeup by sitting in on a religious ceremony.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on November 10, 2015, 02:49:23 PM
If your brother's marriage ever went south his soon to be waifu wouldn't talk to him again (barring kid crap) while you and your ex have had a post-relationship relationship because you had something more substantial. God hates us all.

It is nice having someone to talk USC football with!

Puppy, I've been reading the Mormon thread over on GAF. Sounds like the older of my two younger brothers is having his "go away from the church" crisis. I'm betting as soon as he is able to move out of my parents house he will go full on ditch the church mode.

Meanwhile my youngest brother got engaged to some girl he met through church activities and has known less than a year. And she currently lives in a completely different state (while finishing her degree). She tagged my bro in a post on FB saying how excited she was to get to marry her best friend. It seems weird to me that she considers someone she's known less than a year to be her best friend. I guess I'm just feel weird because my last long term relationship I lived with the girl for like 2 years, survived being temporarily homeless, survived a 17 hour car trip and yet still ended up having it not work out and he's marry a girl he doesn't even see daily.

I also had to tell him that if I do manage to make it up for the wedding I can't go to the actual wedding because I'm totally not temple eligible at this time (nor will I likely ever be again).
I'd say something about "LOLZ < 1 year" but honestly I've met too many indians that have great marriages that met their spouse a week before they got married (of course they were arranged) to each their own I guess.

But it does suck about not being able to attend the wedding. Remember, the church is doing it because they love you and want you to be close to your family.

Ha, yeah I remember back in HS a friend of mine's dad got remarried and her friends didn't understand why they couldn't go to the wedding and apparently his new wife's family had a lot of issues with it. My brother was fine when I told him I couldn't go the wedding, he just wanted me to be up there for the reception and to meet his bride. If I was someone with more work stability I'd have booked a plane ticket but right now I can't commit to something multiple months out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 10, 2015, 03:30:51 PM
It's sorta sad that for an organization so focused on keeping families together, I've seen the church tear families apart more than keep them together.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 10, 2015, 03:33:59 PM
Glad I don't have to deal with religion anymore. I've also somehow avoided awkward conversations on my newfound apathy, or agnosticism or whatever you want to call it. I know plenty of people who would look down on me if they knew I wasn't religious anymore; not my friends, but moreso family friends (ie my parents' peers and friends, and some family members). Really the only time the subject is breached is when I run into one of my mom's female friends who wants me to meet her "god fearing, good cook" daughter. Nah I'm good.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 10, 2015, 03:36:42 PM
God fearing girls need to shop at the dollar store too, if you know what I mean PD
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 10, 2015, 03:38:57 PM
Yea, Dollar Store Girl is probably the antithesis of everything my mom loves. She's basically Triumph without the beard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 10, 2015, 03:53:34 PM
I read that as Trump :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on November 10, 2015, 03:55:07 PM
Yea, Dollar Store Girl is probably the antithesis of everything my mom loves. She's basically Triumph without the beard.

This explains much  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 10, 2015, 03:56:43 PM
So you really didn't want to meet her fam because you were afraid that then you'd have to reciprocate and your fam would give you grief. I knew there was more to this sitch. :money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 10, 2015, 04:10:26 PM
Yea, that and my genuine distaste for responsibility/real relationships. But I feel better about the relationship now so who knows.

Two of my brothers are dating right now, and my mom doesn't like either of their girlfriends. Both of those particular chicks are more successful than my ladyfriend. At the end of the day my ladyfriend is pursuing school/a career so I don't see why anyone would look down on her...but I know my mom would. Mix in her crass sense of humor, drinking regimen, distaste for religion, music taste or lack thereof, etc...yea  :doge

 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 10, 2015, 05:34:27 PM
I once caught grief for dating a rich white girl. That's literally the lottery! :lol Successful parents can get too caught up in the successful thing and forget about the whole being happy thing. :doge

Gonna enjoy ending this bloodline of mine. :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 11, 2015, 06:56:25 AM
Local demographics.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 11, 2015, 07:07:47 AM
Hm, scratch that then.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 11, 2015, 07:28:42 AM
I dated a rich girl once, well blue blood

Shit was cray

Her mom cooked me food when I stayed over and stuff and talked to me as her bf, even though she already had a bf for years.

Now she is married to that guy  :lol

This is not a struggle btw but a weird memory
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 11, 2015, 09:58:05 PM
That weird feeling when you wake up at 6:30pm on your day off after being overworked and busy for the last couple of weeks... :dizzy

I guess I'll have some breakfast.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 11, 2015, 11:54:27 PM
I bought a bottle of Yellow Tail Shiraz and some cans of Guinness Nitro IPA to fuel the creation of Bore original content. :snoop

I also bought a bottle of good beer (that cost more than the Shiraz :dead) and the the cashier gave me the "one of these is not like the others" look. :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on November 11, 2015, 11:59:40 PM
I would drink a nitro IPA (on draught.) I love trying non-stouts on nitro.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 12, 2015, 12:10:02 AM
I'm banking on it translating poorly to a can. :preach
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 12, 2015, 11:37:44 AM
Drunkenly made out with a 70 year old last night. :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 12, 2015, 11:46:01 AM
:rofl
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on November 12, 2015, 11:58:50 AM
One of my retirement investment accounts is taking a huge shit right now. Fuck you overseas investments. Eat peckers.


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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 12, 2015, 01:16:03 PM
I had you pegged as more of a bond guy, though interest rates have been dogshit forever.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on November 12, 2015, 01:24:39 PM
I had you pegged as more of a bond guy, though interest rates have been dogshit forever.

Gold, two retirement accounts, some bonds, some silver. I like variety in my investments  :paul
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on November 12, 2015, 01:29:11 PM
Drunkenly made out with a 70 year old last night. :fbm

This is disgusting. Please tell us more.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 12, 2015, 01:35:38 PM
Yes. Could you feel the dentures?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 12, 2015, 02:06:34 PM
How did you know he, she, or the Galápagos giant tortoise was 70?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 12, 2015, 02:17:05 PM
Canonically 70?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on November 12, 2015, 02:36:23 PM
I had you pegged as more of a bond guy, though interest rates have been dogshit forever.

Gold, two retirement accounts, some bonds, some silver. I like variety in my investments  :paul

Another happy client of Wu-Tang Financial.  :money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on November 12, 2015, 02:55:44 PM
I had you pegged as more of a bond guy, though interest rates have been dogshit forever.

Gold, two retirement accounts, some bonds, some silver. I like variety in my investments  :paul

Another happy client of Wu-Tang Financial.  :money

Quote from: FBI
9. Cash Rules

At one point during the FBI’s investigation, they confiscated property from ODB that is listed as being “one heat-sealed bag containing $3,200 in U.S. currency.” Although frankly that could have just been the accumulated proceeds of Dirt Dog’s infamous welfare check runs.

There ain't nothin' but crooks in here,
Gettin' mad money off the books this year

So yeah, pretty much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 12, 2015, 02:59:14 PM
Drunkenly made out with a 70 year old last night. :fbm

BFE
 :money :money :money :money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 12, 2015, 03:30:28 PM
There's a great story about customs stopping a member of Unione Corse who had a suitcase with 250K in cash (this was the 70s) and they wouldn't talk so the feds held them for awhile and then let them go due to lack of evidence / cooperation and the feds not only had to return the obvious drug money (U.C. was one of the cogs in the so-called French Connection) but pay interest. In conclusion, do your contempt time and keep your mouth shut.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 12, 2015, 03:58:10 PM
Feel like falling off the Mio Energy wagon today. Pray for me y'all. 🙏
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on November 12, 2015, 04:06:41 PM
I'm on that Green Thunder atm.  8) I've been able to keep my Mio habit in check, at least somewhat, lately. The key is to leave that shit at home. Just drink it when I would otherwise be drinking some trash coffee or energy drink.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Take My Breh Away on November 14, 2015, 08:41:03 AM
Woke up, coughed up a massive blob of dried up black blood and mucus followed by an Unholy headache. Apparently it's "Normal" when recovering from surgery :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 14, 2015, 11:26:41 AM
This morning, around 7AM I received a call from a number I didn't recognize. Answered and heard a deep voice utter my name. Turns out it was a former basketball teammate of mine from junior and varsity high school. I tried to be cordial during the following "hey how have you been" phase of the convo but eventually asked how did you get my number (we hadn't spoken in a decade until today). He said he runs into my dad at the grocery store all the time and got my number from him. Also mentioned my dad gave him the numbers of all my brothers, plus told him where I live.
:kobeyuck

He then proceeded to congratulate me on having a job lol. At that point I remembered the casual racism he displayed back in HS but I let it slide, assuming he didn't mean it like that. And then the hook:

"Well I just wanted to tell you what I'm doing, and what you could be doing. I work at Primerica, have you heard of us?"

:beli

Primerica is basically a pyramid scheme that sells overpriced insurance to poor people. When I just got out of college I remember a guy from Primerica confronting me at a store and basically begging me to attend a seminar of theirs. Based on the conversation I got the impression he targeted me since I'm black and "well spoken." From what I understand Primerica is largely a white organization here but has tried to reel in black customers, and what better way than with black representatives...

Anyway he was going on and on about how amazing the company is, how it has opened his horizons etc etc. He wanted me to come to a seminar today at 9AM lol. Three hour seminar. I've heard the company is really pushy during these events and tries to get people signed up before they leave. I told him I probably couldn't come because I have some work to do and he was like "come on you aren't doing anything today, stop being lazy lol"
:beli

Dude was also like "I know you work in business so this is up your alley. You could do it on the side but honestly I doubt you'll want to return to your regular job after speaking with us!"

:beli

I wanted to ask what are the salary and benefits like and get ready to passive aggressively chuckle at his response, but I was too tired to troll so I said I'll come to a seminar on another day. I just want to see this fuckery with my own eyes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 14, 2015, 11:30:12 AM
I'll pray to Mammon for you. 🙏
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on November 14, 2015, 12:31:31 PM
Getting involved in a pyramid scheme is the penultimate L.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 14, 2015, 12:37:44 PM
Congrats on having a job!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 14, 2015, 05:52:33 PM
Quote
In 2012, $509,227,049 was paid to its sales force, an average of $5,513 per life licensed representative.

According to Simply Hired, the average salary for State Farm agent jobs is $32,000.
http://jenniferspassion4internetmarketing.com/is-primerica-a-scam-the-truth-revealed

 :holeup :holeup :holeup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on November 15, 2015, 05:34:07 AM
Wait, why the fuck are you making excuses?
Just straight up tell him you don't want to be involved in MLM schemes, highroad his ass.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 15, 2015, 08:44:23 PM
Spent 3 hours debugging some code.  Turns out I accidentally forgot an i += 1 in a loop.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
To be fair, it takes a half hour before the code hits that spot.  my coding abilities :piss2
[close]
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 15, 2015, 08:52:50 PM
To be fair, it takes a half hour before the code hits that spot.  my coding abilities :piss2

:mindblown Wtf is this project?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 15, 2015, 08:54:22 PM
To be fair, it takes a half hour before the code hits that spot.  my coding abilities :piss2

:mindblown Wtf is this project?

Skynet
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 15, 2015, 08:55:44 PM
Machine learning project
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 15, 2015, 08:55:56 PM
Like I said.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 16, 2015, 09:56:04 PM
An update on Primerica Guy  :doge

Got off work a bit early today, checked my phone, and saw that I missed a call from Primerica Guy. I told myself I wasn't going to call him back since I had shit to do...but I pussied out and returned the call. What followed was a 40 minute battle of passive aggressiveness on both our parts. I must say I was kinda impressed.

I started out by telling him I looked more into the company, found out they were similar to Amway, and compared it to a pyramid scheme. Similar to a debate in congress, each of us basically would go 3-5 minutes before pausing to allow the opposition to speak. He argued Primerica wasn't a pyramid scheme because "pyramid schemes are illegal, yet Primerica is an active business so clearly it's not a pyramid scheme  :doge "

He kept going on and on about how such and such makes 100k or 500k or a million dollars a year. I told him that a State Farm insurance employee can make 30k a year, whereas there is no guaranteed income for the vast majority of Primerica workers. "Bububu someone at State Farm can't go from 30k to 500k in a year."
:mindblown

I didn't drop the true ether until around the 30 minute mark brehs.

Primerica Guy:  :money I worked at Mr. Pizza doing all types of work, but no matter how hard I worked my pay was the same. I also worked in a clerical job and had the same results. Whereas at Primerica the harder I work the more I can earn

Me: (http://i.imgur.com/szZIpvv.png) Would you say that you're making more money now than you were while working at Mr. Pizza or the clerical job?

Primerica Guy: ..... :brazilcry No...but...well,  :holeup  but I can say that the only reason I'm not making more is because I haven't truly dedicated myself enough to it.

Me: (http://i.imgur.com/fz4TEPX.png)

Note, during these two calls he has told me he gets up at 8AM to work this job multiple days a week, has a team that relies on him, AND no longer has free time. If that type of dedication can't get you more money than Mr. Pizza, well I don't know what else to tell you doge  :doge

His final retort:

 :hitler "Well I can't force you to be passionate about something. But when I explained this to your dad he was very interested, and he's an honorable man so why would he be receptive to anything that could harm you"

 :lol :lol :lol

I spoke with my dad earlier today and he straight up told me he didn't know much about Primerica, he just assumed it was legit since Primerica Guy was a homeschooler/Christian. :dead

Ultimately I just told the guy look, my dad didn't know anything about your company and tbh most people don't know anything about finances or insurance so yea. I ended it shortly thereafter, but he mentioned he wanted to "hang out" with me at some point. Meh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on November 16, 2015, 09:58:17 PM
That's a long run around to say "Take your scam and shove it up your ass."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on November 16, 2015, 10:03:13 PM
PD with the Bebpo anti-scam strategy: "I think I'll listen to their pitch for 40 minutes before I make any rash decisions."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 16, 2015, 10:09:13 PM
So what you're saying is there's an opening at Mr. Pizza?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on November 16, 2015, 10:29:07 PM
 A major blow to my understanding of the value of my degree is when my college at my university sent out an email to everyone advertising a job opening for our majors in a MLM company.

:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 17, 2015, 12:31:13 AM
I get you PD. I worked late tonight on something that's been eating my soul for a few weeks and when my client thanked me for staying late I said that no thanks were necessary, I find Section 338 transactions interesting. And I meant it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 17, 2015, 04:58:12 AM
Honestly since I know him I didn't want to be rude, and I had planned on waiting for the perfect moment to ether him with the income question. It was a slow burn, the Rosemary's Baby of financial discussions. I think I stuck the landing so
::yeshrug

Dude was all over the place by the end, going so far as to compare the company to his faith in terms of importance, and connect them in terms of how he can lower the divorce rate by helping couples with financial situations that often ruin marriages. Welp.

Ultimately if your biggest personal success story is making $300 one time ("which is like a week's paycheck at certain jobs") you're fucked. And if you can't see that you lost. Dude has ten siblings so I know he has tried to sell them all on this, plus all his church members. And honestly I think he knows this is a hustle on some level. A lot of MLM guys seem to have a resentment for people who aren't affiliated with their scam of choice, and seem to enjoy the cutthroat nature of sales/building a team of people who kick shit up to you. That bothers me and I definitely won't be hanging with him. Reminds me way too much of my past and the people I was around: ie Christians who relished denigrating college education.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 17, 2015, 11:51:49 AM
Paper came out today doing pretty much exactly my project idea I've been working on for 5 months.  Fuck gradschool :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 17, 2015, 02:51:51 PM
Just got though it.  The worst part is not only did they take my idea but they did a really shitty job of it.  I'm pretty bummed. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 18, 2015, 12:16:20 AM
If anything isn't that good news? I mean, you could still do it and do it better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 18, 2015, 12:27:47 AM
sadly thats not how real research works
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 18, 2015, 12:28:52 AM
I thought you weren't doing real research :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 23, 2015, 12:54:50 AM
TED came for my niche obscura love. I feel so empty inside.

https://www.ted.com/talks/roman_mars_why_city_flags_may_be_the_worst_designed_thing_you_ve_never_noticed?language=en#t-217599
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 23, 2015, 10:28:53 AM
Huh. So he just talks like that, it's not just a radio voice.

Suddenly I like 99% Invisible a little more.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on November 24, 2015, 01:17:34 AM
State flags are mostly garbage with very few exceptions.

Contrary to what you might think, the bear and red star on California's flag have nothing to do with Russophilia. :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 24, 2015, 07:21:30 PM
Michigan's flag is cool.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on November 25, 2015, 01:54:06 PM
Michigan's flag is cool.


The stags and the bald eagle are baller af :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 25, 2015, 05:48:16 PM
I just post in multiple ones and collect the double likes. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 29, 2015, 06:42:41 AM
Is it possible the boss is very picky about these types of mistakes and she's covering her ass?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on November 29, 2015, 07:29:43 AM
I wouldn't get too worked up about it.  I wouldn't even get worked up at all.

People who cc everyone and their dog gets on everyone's shit list eventually because they hate their inboxes getting cluttered by being copied in on e-mails they don't need to be copied in on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on November 29, 2015, 10:07:38 AM
Dropped my phone in a porta-potty. Considered writing off the $700 but then I gutted up and fished it out. Doesn't work at the moment but hopefully it dries out so I can put it to my face(?)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 29, 2015, 11:02:15 AM
:lol next time you talk you'll be putting crap from a ton of strangers next to your face.  The speakers just blasting those dried poop particles into your nose. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on November 29, 2015, 11:05:10 AM
I'm not in what you would call a developed country at the moment either so I might be risking my life by using this thing.

(http://i.imgur.com/7ffENMz.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on November 29, 2015, 12:31:50 PM
Anytime I leave longer than 2 days, my cat starts shitting in the bathtub. Came home to a shit filled tub :derp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 29, 2015, 02:09:25 PM
Honestly, I wouldn't even be mad. At least it's an easy to clean location.

Samson proving once again he's more man than any of us goin in like that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 29, 2015, 02:27:34 PM
I'm not in what you would call a developed country at the moment either so I might be risking my life by using this thing.

(http://i.imgur.com/7ffENMz.png)

You in a southern state?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 29, 2015, 10:12:11 PM
I'm not in what you would call a developed country at the moment either so I might be risking my life by using this thing.

(http://i.imgur.com/7ffENMz.png)

You in a southern state?

I literally came here to post a variant of this
(http://i.imgur.com/Yk67QFU.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on December 01, 2015, 08:03:31 PM
Clients that wait until the end of the year to come to us and say, "Oh, we want a fully featured, custom website before the end of December" can go fuck themselves with a tetanus ridden, rusty pipe.  :beli
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 01, 2015, 08:15:30 PM
I had to deal with an angry client who had requested some credits (that were already issued, she just needed the references) from her sales person who basically told the client it wasn't her job since the credits were issued by the previous salesperson (a simple email to me would suffice).  The client has since stopped ordering so I had to let the salesperson go (the worst part it's a commission gig, so a simple email cost her tons in commission and her job).  Fucking kids man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 01, 2015, 09:04:29 PM
I read this and am not sure whether to feel relieved or doomed.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/joni-edelman/chidlren-of-addiction_b_8033346.html

I'm not in what you would call a developed country at the moment either so I might be risking my life by using this thing.

(http://i.imgur.com/7ffENMz.png)

You in a southern state?
:sickburn.gif

Clients that wait until the end of the year to come to us and say, "Oh, we want a fully featured, custom website before the end of December" can go fuck themselves with a tetanus ridden, rusty pipe.  :beli
But you're going to do it anyway, right?
How much code can you just lift from other projects and le copypasta?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 01, 2015, 09:21:32 PM
People who sell things to clients are the worst.
 :teehee
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on December 01, 2015, 09:23:10 PM
Clients that wait until the end of the year to come to us and say, "Oh, we want a fully featured, custom website before the end of December" can go fuck themselves with a tetanus ridden, rusty pipe.  :beli
But you're going to do it anyway, right?
Yes.   :-\

Or at least the "big chunks" and then the smaller stuff gets resolved in January.

How much code can you just lift from other projects and le copypasta?
I don't do much coding except for when I'm reviewing/correcting what the developer has produced based upon my highly detailed mockups.

Creating high fidelity mockups in Photoshop of each webpage (for desktop, tablet, and phone screens) is my job.

edit: And I wouldn't say my part of the job is hard. It's just very time consuming.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2015, 10:25:14 PM
I'm sick for like the 10th time this year.  I'm really worried I'm diabetic and I haven't gone to the doctor.  Also cracked a tooth like a month ago and haven't booked a dentist.  Also feel depression creeping up again.  Also also drunk. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 01, 2015, 10:26:17 PM
Don't you live in Canada where healthcare grows on trees and the streets are paved with doctors?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2015, 10:29:10 PM
Ya but I don't like going also the dentist doesn't but I have insurance but filling out the forms is confusing. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2015, 10:30:11 PM
I also need new contacts.  The other day some 80 year old man at the bus stop told his wife that the next street car was out of service and it took me like 30 seconds before I could verify that fact. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 01, 2015, 10:30:24 PM
Ya but I don't like going also the dentist doesn't but I have insurance but filling out the forms is confusing.

You are fucking confusing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2015, 11:03:17 PM
Do I confuse you in the gay way?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2015, 11:04:52 PM
My life can pretty much be summed up like this:  everyday I open a new window, and by the end of the day there are 100 tabs open and 40% of them are reddit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2015, 11:24:52 PM
im a poet
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 02, 2015, 12:04:11 AM
Do I confuse you in the gay way?

Diagram that damned "dentist" sentence. I'm pretty sure it would cost an English student SAN to read that thing through to its conclusion.

But I'm totes ready for a cuddle in your basement dungeon.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 02, 2015, 01:11:50 AM
Ya but I don't like going also the dentist doesn't but I have insurance but filling out the forms is confusing.

What? Just your SSN or whatever the Canadian equivalent is and a few other contact/insurance infos. And the medical records themselves have all been electronicalized for years. How long has it been since you've been to the dentist?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 02, 2015, 02:14:04 AM
Do I confuse you in the gay way?

Diagram that damned "dentist" sentence. I'm pretty sure it would cost an English student SAN to read that thing through to its conclusion.

But I'm totes ready for a cuddle in your basement dungeon.

Yes lives in Canada with awesome healthcare, but the dentist ain't part of it. He does have private dental insurance, but the forms are bothersome.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 02, 2015, 08:10:27 AM
Cats gets me.


Also I feel like shit today.   :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 02, 2015, 09:23:15 AM
See if any dentists in your area accept Care Credit. It's a medical payment plan. Many vets, dental and medical offices absorb the interest.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 02, 2015, 10:03:27 AM
Just saw the part where he cracked his tooth. That happened to me once when I cracked my tooth without dental insurance in college  so I had to wait a month until the following term to add it to my college health insurance plan.

Then I maxed out the yearly payout getting the dentist visits/root canal to save the tooth. The dentists concluded the reason I wasn't in agonizing pain was the nerve was totally dead so that was lucky and might be the same situation Arvie is in.

Arvie go to a dentist. I nearly lost that tooth.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 02, 2015, 10:04:49 AM
:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 02, 2015, 10:31:52 AM
Blew a hose clamp on my car today.

Towed it to local auto repair guy

"I can't work on Audi's"

Had to tow it again to the dealership. :dunno
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 02, 2015, 11:21:24 AM
C'mon man, you can't replace a hose clamp? Or is the radiator just borked?

Fuck, wife just texted me that the kid has lice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 02, 2015, 11:38:18 AM
Time to get a new kid
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 02, 2015, 11:42:40 AM
Remember last night when you patted your kid's head and then touched your own hair later?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 02, 2015, 11:44:16 AM
Time to burn your house down.
(lock the kid in just to be sure).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 02, 2015, 11:46:19 AM
Wife tryin to talk about natural treatment options, fuck that it's chemical warfare time
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 02, 2015, 12:07:44 PM
I keep getting awful chills today :(

Also can't you just put the kid in a prepaid envelope and send it off to planned parenthood?  Or have state cut backs taken that option from you?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 02, 2015, 12:14:45 PM
C'mon man, you can't replace a hose clamp? Or is the radiator just borked?

Fuck, wife just texted me that the kid has lice

Dude even if it was just a hose clamp I'd still have to pressure check the gaskets and system, burp it, and check for any wear on my belts.

I was poor once. I know how to fix a car. But I also have to work.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 02, 2015, 10:47:21 PM
So about two years ago my parents were having trouble making their internet payments, so I decided to help them out. I switched the account over to me in order to pay the bill they accrued from missing some months, but the bills were still delivered in the mail to their address. The expectation I had was that they'd still pay things after I paid what they owed at the time to dig them out of the hole. The bill isn't very large ($36), but it adds up when you don't pay it (surprise.)

Earlier this year we discovered (I discovered) there was a $400 debit on the account in a fairly strongly worded letter filled with lots of scary words. I was annoyed, but paid it and I switched it over so that I would be notified by email when a new bill was due and I'd just pay it myself.

Over the weekend I decided to check my CreditKarma account I setup ages ago but never did anything with, and was pretty shocked to see it's the absolute pits (we'll say sub-600.) I checked, and there's 10 marks against me for the unpaid bills from a year ago.

I can't be mad because my parents missing those bills wasn't deliberate negligence towards me, since other things take priority over the internet and they're struggling to make their mortgage and electric bills every month. But I'm pissed and depressed that this could potentially screw me over credit-wise for ten years or more.

The upside is that those marks are the only things affecting my score at all (I have no loans, debt, etc.), so there's nowhere to go but up, but it's going to require my constant attention and vigilance. I've applied for the card Kara recommended some weeks back (CapitalOne Secured), and surprise surprise, the initial deposit is the maximum it can be.

$200 deposit for $200 line of credit. 24.9% APR. And I won't even get it until February.

Yup, I'm fucked.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on December 03, 2015, 12:06:31 AM
That sucks man. When you are young, the credit card companies look for any reason to put you in the high risk category. It took me much of my twenties to improve my credit after I had an unpaid electric bill when I was 21 (I moved out, but still got charged for the next month).

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 03, 2015, 12:16:25 AM
That sucks man. When you are young, the credit card companies look for any reason to put you in the high risk category. It took me much of my twenties to improve my credit after I had an unpaid electric bill when I was 21 (I moved out, but still got charged for the next month).

Just one bill? Fuck fuck fuck.

I wonder if those credit repair services are worth it at this point.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on December 03, 2015, 12:21:17 AM
Well, the bill accrued late charges and was turned over to a collections agency (because I had moved so many times, they were unable to locate me). So at that point, it went on my credit record and there was nothing I could do to contest/reverse it.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 03, 2015, 01:08:12 AM
If it's one delinquency type of thing, you can bounce back from that pretty quickly. That happened to me once when I dropped nearly a hundred points from the mid-700s to like 630 or so because I got doublecharged on a dental bill. And it took about a year to get back to where I was. This is maybe different since it's multiple bills from the same company but don't worry too much about it and just set everything on autopay. Ultimately a high credit score is only important for loans and you're probably years away from buying property.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 03, 2015, 01:24:40 AM
Black marks on the standard credit history for a maximum of seven years. That's unless things of changed from 10 years ago, which they may have. But I had a big mistake with a starter credit card in college, and everything go away after seven years.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 03, 2015, 01:39:29 AM
If it's one delinquency type of thing, you can bounce back from that pretty quickly. That happened to me once when I dropped nearly a hundred points from the mid-700s to like 630 or so because I got doublecharged on a dental bill. And it took about a year to get back to where I was. This is maybe different since it's multiple bills from the same company but don't worry too much about it and just set everything on autopay. Ultimately a high credit score is only important for loans and you're probably years away from buying property.

Aren't the credit agencies supposed to drop erroneous black marks if you challenge them?

Wait what? Do you mean dropping the bullshit charge for services not rendered or completely removing the late payments from the record? If the latter, then I got to make a phone call.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 03, 2015, 08:31:01 AM
Kids been sick what seems like forever, back to back one thing after another. At least 3/4 weeks in last two months.
Feel so bad for my little trooper and am pretty exhausted to boot.

People say its normal at the start of daycare but oh lordy it would be nice to have some family closeby to help out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 03, 2015, 08:55:35 AM
Credit karma is also a scam. I was using it to keep on my score when I was getting ready to buy a house, my score when pulled by the bank was about 150 points higher. Credit karma is designed to sell you credit services by freaking you out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 03, 2015, 09:02:53 AM
Kids been sick what seems like forever, back to back one thing after another. At least 3/4 weeks in last two months.
Feel so bad for my little trooper and am pretty exhausted to boot.

People say its normal at the start of daycare but oh lordy it would be nice to have some family closeby to help out.
Sorry to hear your kid's having trouble.

I remember how badly my wife and I worried at that stage, but it was all just par for the course.

Hope it clears up soon!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 03, 2015, 11:36:47 AM
Thanks, being a first time parent can be pretty overwhelming sometimes
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 03, 2015, 12:49:51 PM
Credit karma is also a scam. I was using it to keep on my score when I was getting ready to buy a house, my score when pulled by the bank was about 150 points higher. Credit karma is designed to sell you credit services by freaking you out.

I'd rather have them lowball me and be pleasantly surprised than the opposite, though.

The seven years thing is encouraging though. At least there's a light at the end of this.

Also, Andrex, you'll be fine. Most 18 year olds don't have good credit. I got my first credit card in my freshman year of college and used it really stupidly. My score was in the 500s for awhile, but I got it up to 700+ by my mid-20s.

I'm 24 and thus in my mid-20s. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 03, 2015, 01:50:26 PM
you'll be fine andrex. Buy small shit with the card on a monthly basic and pay it off immediately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on December 03, 2015, 03:28:59 PM
If you're not going to buy a house or an expensive car in the next seven years, you should be okay, provided that you're doing what you can to fix your credit moving forward.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 03, 2015, 03:53:07 PM
Thanks for talking me off the ledge guys. :)

Yeah, I'm 100% committed to building my credit now. Thankfully I haven't needed a car and apartment life suits me well, so I should be good for a long while.

Of course, I do entertain the idea of producing my own movies, and bad credit will make that harder at least.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 03, 2015, 03:56:21 PM

Of course, I do entertain the idea of producing my own movies, and bad credit will make that harder at least.
time to lose 10 pounds in order to catch Bryan Singer's eye.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 03, 2015, 03:57:29 PM
I'm the right weight (probably) but I'm too old (probably.) :fbm

I hate being in my mid-20's already. :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 04, 2015, 02:57:21 AM
You are not even 25 you can reboot your life a gazillion times andy!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 04, 2015, 04:26:59 AM
Golly you guys sure have a lot of life experience!

Baz Luhrman said in that song the the most interesting people he knows are in their 40s and 50s and still don't know what they want to do.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 04, 2015, 05:22:10 AM
I just left my parent's home for the last time, they sold it and hand it over tomorrow. I spent my entire teens there and I don't miss it based on the memories there but I am worried now about the future as now my mother, grandmother, and 8 year old brother are moving in with me into an apartment for 6 months until hopefully my mother is settled and can go back into the workforce. I've been telling them to get divorced for over 4 years but seeing every week for the last 10 months how manipulative and petty they can be just makes me afraid of not having a relationship that is the opposite of theirs. Not because I'm a super rightous person but because of pride.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 04, 2015, 02:41:31 PM
Golly you guys sure have a lot of life experience!

Baz Luhrman said in that song the the most interesting people he knows are in their 40s and 50s and still don't know what they want to do.  :-\

Interesting to know is a lot different than interesting to be.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 04, 2015, 02:44:41 PM
That's a support like, not a like like Wrath.  Hope you feel better. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 04, 2015, 02:51:08 PM
I love you Wrath-kun :uguu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 04, 2015, 04:06:46 PM
For both Wrath and Walrus, don't ever feel bad about venting in a post (especially in a thread dedicated to it.) What you're actually doing is piling more guilt onto yourselves when it's unnecessary. So please, don't ever write "sorry for this post" about shit like this. I wouldn't say I enjoy reading it, but I'm definitely interested in your mental health and being aware of it so I can possibly offer some advice.

For Wrath, I would try not feeling guilty about hanging out with your friend. You can't force someone to do something they don't want to do. If you want to assuage some guilt, offer to help her out with stuff. You'll still get to hang out with her but it'll be a productive time. I would also say to talk to someone IRL about your issues, whether it's this friend or someone else (my advice would be a therapist, but I know that might not be feasible.)

Finally, find or return to a hobby (one that isn't purely consuming media.) It'll let you feel like you're improving yourself and making headway in the world in some small way. Also, exercise. The endorphins released when working out combat depression, and long-term your body image will improve which will also make you feel better and more confident overall.

That's about all I can offer based on your post. Trying to post actionable things here and not give into platitudes, hope this helps.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on December 04, 2015, 04:13:19 PM
Accidentally pushed a policy that deleted a shit ton of emails for my client.

Spent all today and will be spending the majority of my Monday evening fixing it.

Yay.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 04, 2015, 05:55:09 PM
Just don't go back to her bro.
:tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 04, 2015, 06:08:41 PM
His choice bro
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 05, 2015, 12:04:24 AM
Fuck. All the bros went to this bar while the ladies stayed back. They all chanted my name and wanted me to come since I don't usually go. I walked with them to the bar but realized I left my ID in my coat. Walked back and all the girls are watching this chick flick, Age of Adaline.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 05, 2015, 12:07:58 AM
4 sleep, aint nobody got time or that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 05, 2015, 12:08:59 AM
Hiding in my girl's bed. She came upstairs, we talked about threesomes, and then had sex.

She wants to get married someday :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 05, 2015, 12:44:30 AM
You can always propose to get the threesome and bail out before the wedding day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 05, 2015, 12:46:17 AM
He might have to wait until his wedding night to get the threesome. Women are crafty like that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 05, 2015, 12:50:03 AM
Fuck. All the bros went to this bar while the ladies stayed back. They all chanted my name and wanted me to come since I don't usually go. I walked with them to the bar but realized I left my ID in my coat. Walked back and all the girls are watching this chick flick, Age of Adaline.
Flick as in get arrested?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 05, 2015, 12:54:10 AM
She's trying to pull some bullshit saying she wants a ring on it before a threesome.

A threesome proves you're wifey material.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 05, 2015, 12:55:12 AM
Wow I completely read that sentence wrong  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 05, 2015, 12:57:08 AM
Yeah, I have no idea what you're saying but I wish they were flicking each other's beans.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 06, 2015, 01:12:31 PM
I got poison ivy on mah face. It is as unpleasant as you think it is. Over here smoking pure #4 Heroin to kill the pain.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 06, 2015, 01:14:21 PM
You need heroin to take the pain of poison ivy away? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 06, 2015, 01:19:43 PM
You try having a face wound as deep as mine (2.5mm) get poison ivy in it, and then we'll see. It keeps me from scratching it too. Pretty hard to scratch when yer passed out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on December 06, 2015, 04:12:51 PM
You try having a face wound as deep as mine (2.5mm) get poison ivy in it, and then we'll see. It keeps me from scratching it too. Pretty hard to scratch when yer passed out.

you are a dope at dope, friend
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 06, 2015, 06:44:41 PM
Do heroin for any reason Brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 06, 2015, 06:53:49 PM
Uncut #4 (better known as China White) doesn't make you itch, friend. Most people never see real #4 period, much less 90%+ like this. 20-25 mg will easily kill a 300 pound man with no tolerance. I also don't shoot it, I smoke it.


Hydrocortisone cream started working, so I put the #4 back up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 06, 2015, 08:04:38 PM
Isn't smoking it more addictive?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 06, 2015, 08:24:59 PM
Nope. I never shot it or anything else. Not addicted to it either. I had a brief love affair with it after college, then took acid for the first time. Decided it was bad for me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 06, 2015, 10:43:30 PM
Fell back into depression this month.  Things were going good then suddenly they weren't and I feel like I have absolutely no control over it.  I'm pretty tired of everyday being a struggle just to get up, do work, and eat right.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 07, 2015, 06:35:29 AM
Damn man, hang in there.

Also T234, stop smoking heroine, for real.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 07, 2015, 08:56:42 AM
Nope. I never shot it or anything else. Not addicted to it either. I had a brief love affair with it after college, then took acid for the first time. Decided it was bad for me.
You realize this is bad right. I know you like impressing us with the quality of your shit but heroin is heroin dude. Chill.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 07, 2015, 09:37:16 AM
I feel like even coke would be better than heroin. Opiates are real (http://i.imgur.com/maQYk.gif) territory.

But hey, not trying to be judgey. You do you I guess.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 07, 2015, 11:00:54 AM
I had a friend who started smoking heroin. I don't talk to him anymore, neither does his now ex-wife or kids
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 07, 2015, 11:20:28 AM
I had a friend who started smoking heroin. I don't talk to him anymore, neither does his now ex-wife or kids

Bet he can deal with poison ivy like a champ now though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 07, 2015, 12:47:00 PM
Counting yesterday, I have smoked it a grand total of 5 days in the past 7 years. Yesterday was the first time in 2 years. It'll be years before I smoke it again, if ever. I need no intervention for that.

And for those of you who say it should be zero days in 7 years; Have you ever been hit by a car? Have you ever been stabbed in the back (literally)? Have you ever taken a beating with a metal baseball bat?

Because I have.

These things hurt alot, and pills do nothing for that level of pain.

Don't worry about me Boreans, only thing thing I'm smoking today (and for the foreseeable future) is weed. :)



Fell back into depression this month.  Things were going good then suddenly they weren't and I feel like I have absolutely no control over it.  I'm pretty tired of everyday being a struggle just to get up, do work, and eat right.

I felt this here a couple months back. Things do get better, I'm already back on the upswing. You will be too before long.

Just remember this is a marathon, not a sprint.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoXLKgX0MgU
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 07, 2015, 12:51:39 PM
T234 and AiA need to meet

"have you ever played professional sports?"
"have you ever been beaten with a spiked bat?"
"have you ever been hit so hard you shit yourself?"
"have you ever take a hit of china white heron?"

on and on and on as Ms. Badu would say  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 07, 2015, 12:59:00 PM
AiA worked for Al Davis, T234 worked for the dirty old porn man. Round 1: Draw.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 07, 2015, 01:09:57 PM
AiA worked for Al Davis, T234 worked for the dirty old porn man. Round 1: Draw.

Holy shit, the guy who owned the porno store even looked like a taller, fatter Al Davis. Even meddled in everything, and was an asshole.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 07, 2015, 01:11:27 PM
Uhhh sounds like you have bigger problems than heroin use tbh... maybe consider moving or something...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 07, 2015, 01:15:20 PM
When I come down to Kentucky can you hook me up with a clean milf, bro.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 07, 2015, 02:08:03 PM
That I can help you with. Got several people on the payroll at Krogers. Tis the milf parade, especially for clean-cut motherfuckers like yourself.

That reminds me, one of the newer guys I play Magic: the Gathering with is a giant (6'9" 320 pound) black dude who works at the aforementioned Kroger's. He doesn't know what to make of us. :lol :lol

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on December 07, 2015, 04:03:23 PM
FWIW like 80% of people who try heroin don't become addicted and using it for medical purposes is a lot less disconcerting than doing it cuz you just wanna get high, though still disconcerting. A little skeptical that poison ivy in a wound is on par with getting run over/stabbed/bludgeoned, but to each his own I suppose!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 07, 2015, 04:14:02 PM
Counting yesterday, I have smoked it a grand total of 5 days in the past 7 years. Yesterday was the first time in 2 years. It'll be years before I smoke it again, if ever. I need no intervention for that.

And for those of you who say it should be zero days in 7 years; Have you ever been hit by a car? Have you ever been stabbed in the back (literally)? Have you ever taken a beating with a metal baseball bat?

Because I have.

These things hurt alot, and pills do nothing for that level of pain.

Don't worry about me Boreans, only thing thing I'm smoking today (and for the foreseeable future) is weed. :)

Had an ovarian cyst.

Had to get morphine or some kind of derivative of it, I can't stand opiates though so I needed an anti-nausea to go with it. Had to tell them to give me more anti-nausea, felt the exact moment it wore off.

My body wouldn't let me be a heroin junkie if I tried.

 :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on December 07, 2015, 04:46:31 PM
My company just laid off 90 percent of its workforce, including me.  The day before my court date.

Struggling right now guys.  Only thing keeping me afloat is my girlfriend.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 07, 2015, 04:54:30 PM
That sucks dude.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 07, 2015, 05:03:00 PM
Good luck on finding a new job brandnew. It turned out well for you last time didn't it?

Counting yesterday, I have smoked it a grand total of 5 days in the past 7 years. Yesterday was the first time in 2 years. It'll be years before I smoke it again, if ever. I need no intervention for that.

And for those of you who say it should be zero days in 7 years; Have you ever been hit by a car? Have you ever been stabbed in the back (literally)? Have you ever taken a beating with a metal baseball bat?

Because I have.

These things hurt alot, and pills do nothing for that level of pain.

Don't worry about me Boreans, only thing thing I'm smoking today (and for the foreseeable future) is weed. :)

Had an ovarian cyst.

Had to get morphine or some kind of derivative of it, I can't stand opiates though so I needed an anti-nausea to go with it. Had to tell them to give me more anti-nausea, felt the exact moment it wore off.

My body wouldn't let me be a heroin junkie if I tried.

 :yeshrug

I had hydromorphone once which is a stronger analogue of morphine and it got me hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiazfuck but didn't get rid of the pain. I specifically remembered every part of my body feeling awesome that didn't have a tube or cast on it. I only had it for under 24 hours and felt some withdrawal which was a bitch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 07, 2015, 05:21:36 PM
Brandnew, just keep your head up.

You'll be okay going to court, just don't slouch in yer chair, say as little as possible, remember the judge is called "Your Honor", be polite, and dress well. Hopefully ya got a lawyer. If not, for DUI, it is not like getting caught with a lot of dope or something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on December 07, 2015, 05:23:19 PM
I have a lawyer.  And the dude who pulled me over didn't do anything right in regards to DUI protocol.  Turned his mic off, was off camera. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 07, 2015, 05:29:30 PM
Sorry to hear that BrandKnew.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 07, 2015, 05:48:35 PM
My company just laid off 90 percent of its workforce, including me.  The day before my court date.

Struggling right now guys.  Only thing keeping me afloat is my girlfriend.

Unemployment?

Also where do you live? I thought I heard you were in SF.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 07, 2015, 06:04:20 PM
That really, really sucks.  Hopefully court goes your way and you can at least get that part behind you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 07, 2015, 06:05:16 PM
Do not speak unless spoken to at all. Let your lawyer do ALL OF THE TALKING.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 07, 2015, 06:11:46 PM
My company just laid off 90 percent of its workforce, including me.  The day before my court date.

Struggling right now guys.  Only thing keeping me afloat is my girlfriend.

Holy crap, that's wretched. You'll do fine in court, and it will be behind you.

The job thing timing sucks utter balls, but you'll be in a better position soon enough. You actually seemed pretty frustrated by the place's unwillingness to let you do your job.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on December 07, 2015, 06:18:44 PM
My company just laid off 90 percent of its workforce, including me.  The day before my court date.

Struggling right now guys.  Only thing keeping me afloat is my girlfriend.

Unemployment?

Also where do you live? I thought I heard you were in SF.

I actually have a great severance package.  Salary/52 times 7...it's a decent figure.

I'm still in Nashville.

I already have a few companies emailing me in Nashville and SF, but in really worried about what the outcome of my case will mean on my possible employment.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 07, 2015, 09:11:58 PM
Holy fuck, 90%?! that's the end of the death spiral.
What do you do exactly? I might not love you , but if you're in tech I might/might not have a contact that can help you depending on what you do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on December 08, 2015, 12:49:33 AM
Seven weeks of severance isn't bad at all, Brand New. Good luck with court and your job hunt. Don't worry about the case—you can't control the outcome or companies' HR policies, so might as well just apply and hope for the best.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 08, 2015, 03:00:05 AM
Hang in there Brandnew.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 09:16:16 AM
I got poison ivy on mah face. It is as unpleasant as you think it is. Over here smoking pure #4 Heroin to kill the pain.

Doesn't make you sound cool. Makes you sound idiotic.

I smoke heroin because my face hurts dude. Typical addict bullshit reasoning.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 09:17:24 AM
T234 and AiA need to meet

"have you ever played professional sports?"
"have you ever been beaten with a spiked bat?"
"have you ever been hit so hard you shit yourself?"
"have you ever take a hit of china white heron?"

on and on and on as Ms. Badu would say  :doge

I forgot how much better you're doing than me, thanks for reminding me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 09:20:17 AM
I have a lawyer.  And the dude who pulled me over didn't do anything right in regards to DUI protocol.  Turned his mic off, was off camera.

Hate to say it but it won't hold up. Had a friend get a DUI and the cop's camera mysteriously "turned off" from the initial follow until he was pulled over. They called it "Computer issues" but it didn't override the fact he was drunk and failed all the field tests. Sucks but don't believe they hype your attorney is spouting bro.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 09:21:16 AM
My company just laid off 90 percent of its workforce, including me.  The day before my court date.

Struggling right now guys.  Only thing keeping me afloat is my girlfriend.

Unemployment?

Also where do you live? I thought I heard you were in SF.

I actually have a great severance package.  Salary/52 times 7...it's a decent figure.

I'm still in Nashville.

I already have a few companies emailing me in Nashville and SF, but in really worried about what the outcome of my case will mean on my possible employment.

For a OVI? Nah you'll be fine, I assure you 1/2 of upper management in most places has one or two under their belt
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 08, 2015, 09:57:47 AM
T234 and AiA need to meet

"have you ever played professional sports?"
"have you ever been beaten with a spiked bat?"
"have you ever been hit so hard you shit yourself?"
"have you ever take a hit of china white heron?"

on and on and on as Ms. Badu would say  :doge

I forgot how much better you're doing than me, thanks for reminding me.
When we meet we're going to arm wrestle and post that shit. You're an old man breh, time to take the L from a young successful brotha.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 10:26:09 AM
T234 and AiA need to meet

"have you ever played professional sports?"
"have you ever been beaten with a spiked bat?"
"have you ever been hit so hard you shit yourself?"
"have you ever take a hit of china white heron?"

on and on and on as Ms. Badu would say  :doge

I forgot how much better you're doing than me, thanks for reminding me.
When we meet we're going to arm wrestle and post that shit. You're an old man breh, time to take the L from a young successful brotha.

Sky walks that come from fly talk are just a black box after the turbulence.

But if we do that shit you gotta wear your PS hat backward like Bishoptl cause you ain't got the game to have a name.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 08, 2015, 10:33:04 AM
It's on. And afterwards we hitting a club.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 10:35:20 AM
It's on. And afterwards we hitting a club.

Do we smoke heroin before or during our club visit though? I want to make sure my street rep is up in Detroit, been a while.

I mean I can still handle farmington hills and shit but hamtramck cred probably needs a boost/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 11:07:04 AM
Is your theme of the night going to be Black Republican by Nas and Jay-Z? A successful entrepreneur and Nas/PD?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hz2DHnEsQpg

:umad
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 08, 2015, 02:09:53 PM
I got poison ivy on mah face. It is as unpleasant as you think it is. Over here smoking pure #4 Heroin to kill the pain.

Doesn't make you sound cool. Makes you sound idiotic.

I smoke heroin because my face hurts dude. Typical addict bullshit reasoning.

I didn't say it was. Did ya read any of the rest of my posts?

Of course not, the only drive-by you're capable of is drive-by posting. PD gonna give you that work, old man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 02:12:13 PM
I got poison ivy on mah face. It is as unpleasant as you think it is. Over here smoking pure #4 Heroin to kill the pain.

Doesn't make you sound cool. Makes you sound idiotic.

I smoke heroin because my face hurts dude. Typical addict bullshit reasoning.

I didn't say it was. Did ya read any of the rest of my posts?

Of course not, the only drive-by you're capable of is drive-by posting. PD gonna give you that work, old man.

At least I'll live old enough to be one. Who know the next time you smoke heroin for a sprang ankle might be your last?  :doge

Is it going to say "Had good drugs" on your tombstone? Because that's literally all you ever talk about. Kinda sad.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on December 08, 2015, 02:40:29 PM
Unlike most people, I know what I am doing, and own equipment to safely measure such things. My Analytical Balance does down to micrograms.

Statistically, the police are more likely to shoot you than I am to kill myself with carefully weighed doses of known purity.

And it was never over something as trivial as a sprained ankle.

Coming from you, that's rich as fuck, Mr. I-Played-Pro-Football-So-I-Know-More-Than-You.


Don't make me write another country song about a borean. I did it once, and it was pure savagery. You can ask PD about that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 02:50:35 PM
Worse things have been said about me by more important people. Life is a lesson in learning how to accept insults as additional forms of attention  :preach
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on December 08, 2015, 03:20:07 PM
Didn't you make a thread extolling the joys of coke like a month ago? Glass houses and all that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 03:50:51 PM
Didn't you make a thread extolling the joys of coke like a month ago? Glass houses and all that

Heroin kills bro. I don't want to see a good dude get caught up in that shit man. Tough love.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on December 08, 2015, 04:02:54 PM
Any form of speed is worse when it comes to long term usage, a lot more damage is done to your body by using amphetamines, meth, cocaine or crack. Humans aren't meant for overclocking. My brother died by abusing amphetamines and booze, amphetamines made him schizophrenic due to how he guzzled them down and he became completely different person.

Opiate abuse is more dangerous in the short term, but if you recover from addiction I don't think there's any negative long lasting effects.

Even if someone has a grasp on opiate use though, it will always be 
:kobeyuck

Mainly due to undesirable people I've met that were total junkie fuckups. My other brother became addicted to heroin. Seeing all three of these drugs abused is a fantastic life lesson.

Smoke weed, do hallucinogens, MDMA is good, ecstasy is good if it isn't cut with bad shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 08, 2015, 04:36:49 PM
I'm generally skeptical of anyone who's spending quite a bit of time extolling the virtues of any drug in an obvious attempt to justify the usage more to themselves than anyone else. :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 04:52:43 PM
AiA worked for Al Davis, T234 worked for the dirty old porn man. Round 1: Draw.

T234 turned down 50 grand in straight cash to work as a bodyguard for someone when he found out his would-be employer had a cartel bounty on his head.

And I made what more than 10 times that when I was 20? Who brags about this shit? More so who does it vicariously?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 08, 2015, 04:55:14 PM
Donald Trump is worth $3 Billion :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 08, 2015, 04:58:02 PM
Donald Trump is worth $3 Billion :doge

I got 3 kids, I'm worth about tree fiddy :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 08, 2015, 05:30:32 PM
Can't convince my mom to stop buying us too much shit at Christmas, time for the annual battle between my wife and mother. Whoever wins, I lose
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on December 08, 2015, 06:19:04 PM
Case was bumped to January 19th.  My attorney is pretty confident that I'm gonna be able to plead down to wet wreckless with just points on my license and increased insurance rates

woo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 08, 2015, 11:50:52 PM
I have 100+ monthly electric bills.  Shit is stupid. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 09, 2015, 12:44:33 AM
$40-50 electric bill :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 09, 2015, 02:25:35 AM
$40-50 electric bill :aah

The only plus side to Nintendo gaming?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 09, 2015, 09:18:06 AM
Na its running the AC every single day of the year. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on December 09, 2015, 09:36:03 AM
Na its running the AC every single day of the year.
You don't have central heating? :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 09, 2015, 09:37:49 AM
$40-50 electric bill :aah

The only plus side to Nintendo gaming?

:dead

Although Nintendo systems do consume way fewer Kw/h compared to any system from MS and Sony.

I haven't turned on the heat more than a couple times this winter, which while milder than normal is still pretty cold. But I don't need to turn the heat on since the place is super toasty, maybe cause I'm on the fifth floor and everyone below me is blasting it or something.

Doesn't really go up that much in the summer when I'm running the A/C a lot, either...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 09, 2015, 09:38:12 AM
No its a new building with like 8 other people.  Thank god central heating sucks ass.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on December 09, 2015, 10:27:38 AM
My electric bill isn't bad. It's the gas bill that I hate.

Gas used charge: $30

Gas delivery charge: $50

I'm paying more to rent the pipes in the ground than the actual gas being used.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 09, 2015, 10:29:34 AM
My electric bill isn't bad. It's the gas bill that I hate.

Gas used charge: $30

Gas delivery charge: $50

I'm paying more to rent the pipes in the ground than the actual gas being used.

My house is like KFC

A big gold box with wings in it.

My electric bill is about 125 dollars a month brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 09, 2015, 10:31:37 AM
Heat/AC is included in my electricity bill. :rejoice

Got Comcast down to $120 but that's still too much, gonna cut the cord soon now that I have SlingTV and it works on Chromecast.

(To be fair my rent is kinda crazy.  :gloomy)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on December 09, 2015, 04:03:45 PM
Meanwhile I just uncut the cord cause the only way to get fast internet from Comcast here is to get some dumb TV bundle.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 09, 2015, 04:14:11 PM
Ate a dozen cookies in a sitting.  Now I feel like shit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 11, 2015, 08:31:31 AM
So daughter has been home sick two weeks and now i got pneumonia just to make things xtra fun  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 11, 2015, 09:39:05 AM
Ate a dozen cookies in a sitting.  Now I feel like shit.

I once ate a pound of cookies in a sitting. It not only made me feel like shit, it wasn't very filling either.

 :crazy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on December 11, 2015, 11:05:44 AM
Ate a dozen cookies in a sitting.  Now I feel like shit.


What I wouldn't give to be a fly on the wall while you inhale a package of oreos in twenty minutes, must be a glorious sight :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 11, 2015, 11:07:55 AM
Christmas potluck today at work, the break room is a sea of stuff I know I'm going to eat and fat shame myself for
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 11, 2015, 02:50:01 PM
Eat a 16 oz. steak and everyone's asking how good it was. Eat a pound of cookies and everyone loses their minds. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 11, 2015, 06:11:55 PM
Working in a factory for an unlivable wage because I dropped out of college. Thanks Obama.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 11, 2015, 06:15:42 PM
Working in a factory for an unlivable wage because I dropped out of college. Thanks Obama.
If only they had released that Michelle rap earlier!! :ryker
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 11, 2015, 06:34:51 PM
Working in a factory for an unlivable wage because I dropped out of college. Thanks Obama.

Well at least you won't have to work there long once robots make you obsolete. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 11, 2015, 06:36:27 PM
Working in a factory for an unlivable wage because I dropped out of college. Thanks Obama.

There were unions once, the good ones even paid for health benefits for your spouse and children. :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on December 11, 2015, 06:44:39 PM
I have interviews all next week for a couple companies in nashville, atlanta, chicago, and cleveland.  Interest from Mailchimp...kind of cool.

I know this is a struggle thread but I wanted to bump it to say that my struggles aren't so struggly anymore
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 11, 2015, 10:07:16 PM
Working in a factory for an unlivable wage because I dropped out of college. Thanks Obama.

There were unions once, the good ones even paid for health benefits for your spouse and children. :fbm

My grandma was able to live out her old age on my grandpa's GM retirement benefits. Seems almost unbelievable now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on December 12, 2015, 12:52:32 PM
I found out on 23AndMe that I'm 3% Ashkenazi.  Not sure if it is a rounding error; I have no idea just how accurate and reliable those test results are.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 13, 2015, 07:03:50 PM
Can't digest dairy like I used to  :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: lennedsay on December 13, 2015, 11:12:39 PM
I found out on 23AndMe that I'm 3% Ashkenazi.  Not sure if it is a rounding error; I have no idea just how accurate and reliable those test results are.

What was the closest relative that popped up on 23andMe? And how many matches? Just curious. My husband had a first cousin pop up. He's adopted so there's a gigantic can of worms to be opened with that. He messaged her and she seemed eager to talk, but had no idea which aunt or uncle could be his parent. In his true fashion, my husband just never responded after that lol And I facebook stalked the shit out of her and her family, because that's what I do. They're all from Louisiana, so they're French Canadian, and a set of great grandparents were Sicilian. His results reflected all that to a t.

We signed him up just to find out nationality/background, but we have no idea if any of his results are accurate since he doesn't know his biological family. I need to do mine so at least we'd know if its semi-accurate. My mom did one on Ancestry.com and a first cousin popped up that was her actual first cousin. And the nationality results seemed pretty accurate based on her research.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 14, 2015, 11:49:15 AM
Might be able to get out of Christmas at my parents after all -- apparently last week my brother got booked for getting in a drunken, public, physical altercation with his girlfriend. He was already on probation and in diversion for a similar situation this summer. Both times she's been saying it's all her fault etc. I mean, I've seen this girl get pretty out there while drunk with her emotions and behavior -- but there's no excuse for my brother to get physical, he's basically built like the mountain. While living with them, I never saw them get physical but they were always very loud and dramatic after a certain amount of booze. This recent event happened on her birthday at a modest mouse concert. Really glad I'm not living with this currently. He gets arraigned thursday and is being held without bail due to the prior probation. They just moved in together too so I'm sure that will be a mess -- they got a no contact order dropped last time this happened, but that was only a harassment charge -- the sounds like it will be more domestic abuse / assault. Edit: looked up his arrest and it just says harassment.

My parents are bewildered where this could come from. My parents who drank and fought my entire childhood. Really wish I could turn off emotion and just disconnect from this family. It seems like every interaction I have with them as an adult just causes me pain. It's shitty to say, but it's not like they're my blood either.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 14, 2015, 11:51:58 AM
Holy shit. Just got a text from my dad, apparently according to a witness who contacted the girlfriend via Facebook my brother kicked her while she was on the ground. The girlfriend has been saying she doesn't remember the night.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 14, 2015, 01:16:45 PM
Dude thats really messed up, all the best not letting it get to you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 14, 2015, 04:17:23 PM
It's going to get bad for a while. I would try to get your brother a lawyer and encourage him to accept a plea with no felonies. He admits he fucked up but his life isn't necessarily ruined. Also keep in touch with the gf and try to assure her you're not trying to take sides (could be impossible since he's your sibling).

I was in your position (but not as bad) with my parents 10 months ago and the first instinct is to just not get involved in the mess between two dysfunctional adults but it's probably best for you if you just try to get thus over with as quickly as possible.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 14, 2015, 04:25:30 PM
Some people who need therapy the most never get it, it seems.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 15, 2015, 02:10:24 AM
Man, CatsCatsCats, that's doubly horrible to have to deal with during an already stressful time of year.

In honor of your name, I offer the following inspirational poster:
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 15, 2015, 11:48:05 AM
Gained 7 pounds in the last month.  I can't wait to marry a military man so I can just let myself go. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 20, 2015, 11:16:44 PM
The Bore doesn't have a dark theme, does it? :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 20, 2015, 11:30:46 PM
The Bore doesn't have a dark theme, does it? :'(

Not unless Beezy, Himu, AiA, Mr Nobody, and Stony aren't telling me something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 21, 2015, 03:04:05 PM
So I just explained to a 40-something Nepalese woman why it's not okay to doodle swastikas onto kleenex boxes, even though it is a religious symbol in Hinduism. She was apparently surprised that the Germans also used this symbol at one time. This woman has multiple college degrees.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 21, 2015, 03:12:17 PM
So I just explained to a 40-something Nepalese woman why it's not okay to doodle swastikas onto kleenex boxes, even though it is a religious symbol in Hinduism. She was apparently surprised that the Germans also used this symbol at one time. This woman has multiple college degrees.
:larry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 21, 2015, 03:19:48 PM
Stop pushing your eurocentrism on people brawndolicious
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 21, 2015, 03:28:43 PM
That was pretty, prett-ay good.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on December 21, 2015, 04:46:04 PM
So I just explained to a 40-something Nepalese woman why it's not okay to doodle swastikas onto kleenex boxes, even though it is a religious symbol in Hinduism. She was apparently surprised that the Germans also used this symbol at one time. This woman has multiple college degrees.
:confused
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 21, 2015, 05:24:48 PM
The twist is that Glen Shinobi is a 40-something Nepalese woman.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 21, 2015, 06:09:26 PM
 Been trying to ease up on eating doughnuts so I switched to muffins.  Ate too many muffins today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 21, 2015, 09:15:39 PM
So I asked the janitor who's from Ghana whether he learned this kind of stuff about Nazis at an early age like we do here and he said his major in the University of Ghana was actually Modern European History.

 :stahp :leon

But that yes it's normal for people in Western Africa to at least know the swastika is associated with the Nazis even if they don't know the particular reason. Had a good laugh at her ignorance. She has a Masters you guys.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on December 21, 2015, 10:04:33 PM
Yeah that sounds like a Curb Your Enthusiasm episode.

Larry: So I explained to her that it's not okay to doodle swastikas onto these kleenex boxes. And she has multiple college degrees.

Jeff: Woooow. That's crazy!

Larry: I know that's crazy right. But who knows what they teach in Nepal. :larry

*gets into awkward situation*

Guest: Larry... did you put these swastikas here?

Larry: What? No. A Nepalese woman I know did that. And she didn't know about the whole Nazi germany thing. Crazy right?

Guest: A Nepalese woman?

Larry: Yeah and she's got college degrees and everything. Can you believe it?

Guest: :gurl

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VZKXJ_9Gw0
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 22, 2015, 12:26:51 AM
Sent my mom an email trying to reconcile with her but making it blatantly clear I want and will have nothing to do with my sister's toxic bullshit. Been almost 4 months since we talked, which was a 2 am phone call from mom trying to get me to call my dad in the middle of the night because my sister was making a bs suicide threat after wrecking her car. Spoiler alert: she didn't kill herself, because what she does when she gets upset and overwhelmed is threaten suicide so people will leave her alone or at least quit suggesting she has any culpability for the shit show that is her life.

Anyway, I feel bad for my mother but will have nothing to do with the train wreck that is my sister at this point, and made that clear. I guess I should reconcile or blah blah blah whatever. I feel bad about not being in my mother's life, but real talk: her continued support of my sister (taking care of my sister's 16 year old kid with asperger's after my sister had another kid about a year ago because dear sister was overwhelmed and couldn't deal with it all, naturally) is taking years off of my mother's life, and frankly I find that to be bullshit.

+3 drinks into the evening, by the by.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 22, 2015, 03:44:07 AM
Got a scary sounding eviction-ish notice. Hopefully I can straighten this out tomorrow.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 22, 2015, 11:47:31 AM
Straightened out. I knew I was overreacting because of lack of sleep, but still, that letter scared the piss out of me.

All square now. :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 22, 2015, 12:43:21 PM
Not paying your rent on time :neogaf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 22, 2015, 01:28:33 PM
:fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 22, 2015, 01:34:40 PM
If you're not going to pay on time just tell your landlord.  Then you can avoid that scary letter on your door.  Tenant laws are on your side either way.  Most landlords don't want to go through the hassle of evicting you. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 22, 2015, 01:51:54 PM
Sweet. I knew I was overreacting about it but I had never gotten something that sternly worded before.

What I did this month is I paid half the rent on time then half on the 14, and the 14 is when the letter was dated.

Setting up automatic payment so I don't have to worry about this anymore, just have to make sure my roommate pays me on the 30th so I don't get fucked.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 22, 2015, 02:39:02 PM
Car got broken into and my washing machine broke on the same day :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 22, 2015, 03:50:19 PM
Maybe it was your washing machine trying to finance its own repair? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on December 23, 2015, 07:44:02 AM
Maybe it was your washing machine trying to finance its own repair?

Que the price is right fail song.

Horrible.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 24, 2015, 12:13:56 AM
Got two giant pimples but its ok cause I'm not seeing anyine over the the holidays anyways. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 24, 2015, 12:31:45 AM
My mouse is a doughnut and I've been drinking since six.  everything is sticky!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 24, 2015, 12:41:05 AM
My neighbor just heard me shouting jamestown.  well thats embarrassing. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 24, 2015, 09:38:16 AM
Dunno why I go inside gas stations instead of paying outside; a struggle occurs each time I go in. This morning I was in line and overhead an older white gentlemen explaining that Anne Frank was fabricated by the "Jewish government" to create sympathy for Jews, which they quickly exchanged for money/land/etc. One of the points he made, which I could tell he was quite proud of himself for figuring out, was "what happens when you put the stein back into her last name? You get Frankenstein. Another fake story with similar themes with the Holocaust."

:stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 24, 2015, 09:53:42 AM
 :mindblown
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 24, 2015, 11:13:53 AM
Out of clean underwear  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 24, 2015, 11:33:21 AM
Dunno why I go inside gas stations instead of paying outside; a struggle occurs each time I go in. This morning I was in line and overhead an older white gentlemen explaining that Anne Frank was fabricated by the "Jewish government" to create sympathy for Jews, which they quickly exchanged for money/land/etc. One of the points he made, which I could tell he was quite proud of himself for figuring out, was "what happens when you put the stein back into her last name? You get Frankenstein. Another fake story with similar themes with the Holocaust."

:stahp

Failing to avoid human interaction whenever possible is the biggest L you can inflict on yourself, breh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 24, 2015, 03:28:09 PM
Saw an old man, sitting alone at a bus stop getting drunk on mouthwash :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 24, 2015, 05:38:32 PM
Saw an old man, sitting alone at a bus stop getting drunk on mouthwash :(

Sure that wasn't a vision from the Ghost of Christmas future  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 24, 2015, 05:52:04 PM
At my parents house and the family is discussing their favorite interracial couples, but each one named is a white man/black woman type.
:beli

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 25, 2015, 09:28:06 PM
Weirdest fucking Christmas ever.

OK, so every year since I can remember my grandmother and grandfather (on my mom's side) has come to watch us open gifts in the morning. After we grew up, the focus switched to my niece, who lived with us. When she and her mother (older sister) moved out of my parents' place to their own, all of us made a trip to their house for the past few years (about a 45-min drive for us and 30-min for my grandparents.) Then we'd all go over to my grandparents' house in the afternoon/evening for dinner and more presents (from them.)

Well this year everything got changed up cause of potential family drama, so my sister and niece slept over on Christmas Eve and for the first time in four years we opened gifts in the morning at my parents' house - and for the first time ever, without my grandparents there at all.

So the first bit of drama starts when my 7-year old niece has finished opening her presents from "Santa" and starts on the gifts from my younger sister and me. Younger sis gives her a stocking full of stuff, and she's very proud of it because this is the first year she's had enough to do anything Christmas-y and buy gifts and I love the stocking idea (older sis and me got one too.) It's fun and unique and a a "full" gift while obviously being inexpensive enough to not break the bank. I give her kudos for it. And my niece loved it too.

But then the niece opens my presents for her. Now, everyone who knows me knows I go overboard with everything. This year I downsized significantly, but it was still something of a full spread. She mentioned wanting Animal Crossing: Happy Home Designer for her 2DS when she was visiting me in Boston and we were playing New Leaf together. So I got her:

- Happy Home Designer, of course.
- An Isabelle Amiibo, imported from Japan (since they're rare as hell here.)
- An Amiibo reader for non-"New" 3DSes (for her 2DS, obvs.)
- A 6-pack of Animal Crossing Amiibo cards.
- And an Animal Crossing Amiibo card binder.

She was obviously freaking the hell out for all this, but it set my sister off since she "liked my gift more." And I have to guiltily admit I like trying to one-up everyone else, cause I like being the cool uncle. But I did feel bad about that.

So World War Drama II happens when we're opening gifts later that day at the grandparents'. Niece gets a lot of neat stuff from them, but then starts opening clothes after clothes after clothes, and just lost interest. To be clear, she was acting like a complete unappreciative brat here. It's a side of her I've very rarely seen and it wasn't pretty, and it sucked cause you could see it was breaking my grandmothers' heart (to her credit, she's always quick to say "something" in situations like this, but bit her tongue this time.)

So then my mom yanks up the clothes and goes to the kitchen and hides them. "We're donating them to goodwill because I work in a women's center twice a month and I see young girls who don't have NOTHING and it's sickening <niece> would act like that."

So my sister starts in about how it's not her place to do that (true) and how mom needs to butt out of her parenting (since obviously this conversation dredged up other arguments about how to raise this child, and both think they're right.) My older sis and I have a conversation outside where she's on the verge of tears, and then about half an hour later there is full blown screaming on the porch between her and my mother.

I know other people have had family drama at holidays but this is my first real experience with it. So on top of 70-fucking-degree whether, no grandparents in the morning, and a fucking screaming match after dinner, this Christmas is the first one I can say without a doubt: sucked.

Here's to hoping for next year...

TLDR: :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 25, 2015, 09:33:16 PM
Quote
And I have to guiltily admit I like trying to one-up everyone else, cause I like being the cool uncle.

Part of the problem if your niece is acting bratty, don't feed into that...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on December 25, 2015, 09:34:27 PM
The first Christmas that sucks always sucks. I hope it doesn't happen next year. Sorry for the bad experience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 25, 2015, 09:37:41 PM
Quote
And I have to guiltily admit I like trying to one-up everyone else, cause I like being the cool uncle.

Part of the problem if your niece is acting bratty, don't feed into that...

She was great and well-behaved the entire morning, even for the "boring" gifts like clothes and crayons and shit.

She did apologize (on her own, since my mom/sister were fighting) to my grandma afterwards.

Objectively, she gets spoiled, but that's inevitable when she's:

- The only child in her family
- Her parents are separated, and the father's side gets her the same amount of shit as we do
- She has everyone on her mother's side (me, my younger sis, parents and grandparents) constantly getting stuff for her

Hard for me to stand out in all that. :doge But I find a way. :lawd

But she's no Angelica. I feel she's fairly well adjusted, even if I agree she gets way too much. FWIW I get her way less shit than I did when she was a toddler (and I said as such during my post.) And I LOVE playing vidya with her.

Sharing the love for Animal Crossing :rejoice

...with a seven-year old :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 25, 2015, 09:41:44 PM
The first Christmas that sucks always sucks. I hope it doesn't happen next year. Sorry for the bad experience.

Thanks. I think 1 out of 24 isn't so bad. I'm so, so grateful I have the childhood memories of Christmas I do. Fucking magical as shit and I hope my recollection of them stays as sharp as possible.

I think what I need to come to grips with is the old way is on its way out. It sucks to think about, but my grandparents won't be here much longer, and the rest of us will have to make our own traditions for the holiday. Same as everything I suppose. But yeah, it sucks to be in the transition of it all. Nothing is working right and it all sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on December 25, 2015, 09:42:51 PM
Quote
And I have to guiltily admit I like trying to one-up everyone else, cause I like being the cool uncle.

Part of the problem if your niece is acting bratty, don't feed into that...

I think to be fair to Andy, that they should explain the importance of clothes. a lot of kids hate getting clothes for Christmas. I think it was a good time for a lesson of being appreciative and wouldn't fault Andy or even the niece in this case. She's 7 and doesn't know better. I think it was a good time for the family to instill the importance of clothes and the idea of Xmas gift sharing rather than fighting about it. Honestly, no offense to you Andy, but Andrex's mom is kind of the person who escalated things here. Not Andrés, not the grandparents, and not the niece. Andrex's sister has the right of it that their mom has no right to decide what to do with the clothes, and rather than correct her granddaughter and promote more appreciative behavior, she decided to ignore the problem in general by threatening to donate the clothes.

I can only imagine how Andy's grandparents feel about their daughter (?) deciding to donate the clothes they bought (made?) rather than teach their great grandchild the value of their gift.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on December 25, 2015, 09:45:27 PM
I'd suggest to Andrex to tell your mother your sister is right and to support your sister and to use this time to instill a lesson for your niece tbh but it looks like she already knows she was wrong and is a good kid anyways.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 25, 2015, 09:50:44 PM
Kid's mom should be calling out her daughter for being bratty, explain the importance of clothes/useful gifts that aren't just toys.

Kid's mom's mom should stay out of it, ain't her kid.

You should check in with your sis/kid's mom about your niece's behavior as of late before showering her with tons of gifts.

Chill out more with your grandparents before they're gone.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 25, 2015, 10:01:10 PM
The one day of the year Taco Bell is closed. Hardly seems worth it, brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 25, 2015, 10:04:50 PM
I think to be fair to Andy, that they should explain the importance of clothes. a lot of kids hate getting clothes for Christmas. I think it was a good time for a lesson of being appreciative and wouldn't fault Andy or even the niece in this case. She's 7 and doesn't know better. I think it was a good time for the family to instill the importance of clothes and the idea of Xmas gift sharing rather than fighting about it. Honestly, no offense to you Andy, but Andrex's mom is kind of the person who escalated things here. Not Andrés, not the grandparents, and not the niece. Andrex's sister has the right of it that their mom has no right to decide what to do with the clothes, and rather than correct her granddaughter and promote more appreciative behavior, she decided to ignore the problem in general by threatening to donate the clothes.

I can only imagine how Andy's grandparents feel about their daughter (?) deciding to donate the clothes they bought (made?) rather than teach their great grandchild the value of their gift.

Clothes they bought, but most likely expensive clothes. Otherwise you've got the gist of it.

My sis also made the point that she can't really afford to buy a whole bunch of new clothes for her right now, and certainly not ones as nice as those. It was definitely and overreaction by my mom (but in her defense, she said she's never seen the niece like that before and it was pretty shocking in the moment.)

I'd suggest to Andrex to tell your mother your sister is right and to support your sister and to use this time to instill a lesson for your niece tbh but it looks like she already knows she was wrong and is a good kid anyways.

Kid's mom should be calling out her daughter for being bratty, explain the importance of clothes/useful gifts that aren't just toys.

Kid's mom's mom should stay out of it, ain't her kid.

This was the consensus of the night. And I didn't really come here for a consensus but to vent, I guess.

You should check in with your sis/kid's mom about your niece's behavior as of late before showering her with tons of gifts.

Well duh, I always give my sis a heads up when I think about getting something big-ish. But also, it's fucking Christmas and she's 7 and the only "kid" in our family now.

Chill out more with your grandparents before they're gone.

Yes, deffo. Mostly what I need to improve is calling them more often.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 25, 2015, 10:13:43 PM
At least you have grandparents Andrex. Mine are all dead, and every holiday event is lifeless now.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 25, 2015, 10:19:46 PM
Oh wait I forgot to mention my mom told me tonight she's getting a biopsy in a month and might have cancer.

:-\

At least you have grandparents Andrex. Mine are all dead, and every holiday event is lifeless now.

Goddamn fuck :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 25, 2015, 10:21:48 PM
Lost 3 of my grandparents before I hit 5, grandma had a stroke in '05 and became more and more debilitated till she passed in '10. Holidays were always small. Less fam every year as parents didn't really entertain extended fam much. I don't have any siblings so before long I'll be all alone in terms of relatives.

 :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 25, 2015, 10:33:17 PM
I don't think it's a contest, Devo.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on December 25, 2015, 11:11:00 PM
Oh wait I forgot to mention my mom told me tonight she's getting a biopsy in a month and might have cancer.

:-\


I hope everything turns out okay :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shadow Mod on December 25, 2015, 11:34:25 PM
I don't think it's a contest, Devo.

Just sayin' Holidays have been a pretty lonely experience for me and it will get worse. Won't say anything next time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on December 26, 2015, 02:57:04 AM
Wished my best friend a Merry Christmas over iMessage. He responded with a "Isn't this like your tenth Christmas away from home?"

:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 26, 2015, 03:27:11 AM
I don't think it's a contest, Devo.

Just sayin' Holidays have been a pretty lonely experience for me and it will get worse. Won't say anything next time.

I don't know, mang. If you can't complain in the fucking struggle thread, maybe it's time to consider the wisdom of others as suspect.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on December 26, 2015, 03:39:30 AM
Changed my likes per chronovore's sagely wisdom.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: lennedsay on December 26, 2015, 04:56:44 AM
Hope things work out well for your mom, Andy. Maybe that's why she overreacted. Not like she hasn't been going through a stressful time.

I'm 30 years old and opening clothes is still boring AF. If your 7 year old niece apologized for being bratty, the one time your mom/her grandma had ever seen her be bratty, she's gotta be a pretty good kid. Hopefully it'll all blow over soon.

It's hard as things change over the years and it always sinks in on holidays, but you find new traditions. This was probably the best Christmas I've had in a long time, and that's without any grandparents left, and my brother's also gone. We adopted my grandma's best friend as "grandma", so it was her, my parents, my sister, my husband, and the kiddo. We still don't see my in laws due to their crazy, so my husband is a bit stressed about that on holidays. He's the only child, and the only family he is close to (some cousins) live in Florida. He has no family at holidays of his own, just my family (and our daughter of course), but he still said it was the best Christmas.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on December 28, 2015, 11:53:32 AM
So, 2 cents a gallon now?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 28, 2015, 11:57:26 AM
They're doubling the price of gas tomorrow :brazilcry
America won
:rejoice

$1.80 a gallon brehs :whoo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 28, 2015, 03:56:58 PM
Sick. Slept like shit last night, kept tossing and turning, alternating between waking up sweating and waking up shivering.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on December 29, 2015, 09:50:56 PM
My ex got me an Amazon gift card for Christmas and I used it to buy a book by the same niche (in an anglophone reading public sense) East German fiction author that she bought a book authored by with an Amazon gift card she got for Christmas. It was the same book, actually. We've never talked about the book or the author before ever, yet arrived at this same point. Make bad life decisions y'all.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 29, 2015, 10:23:13 PM
My ex got me an Amazon gift card for Christmas and I used it to buy a book by the same niche (in an anglophone reading public sense) East German fiction author that she bought a book authored by with an Amazon gift card she got for Christmas. It was the same book, actually. We've never talked about the book or the author before ever, yet arrived at this same point. Make bad life decisions y'all.

This is the part in the movie where you get back together.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 29, 2015, 11:36:45 PM
The Help Desk job I work at is 24/7.  They always have people volunteer for holidays and offer to bring in food and pay double-overtime on those days.  Nobody in management wants to work on New Year's day, to the point that we were flat-out told if nobody takes the shitty afternoon-evening slot that's open, someone will just get selected to work it. 

I just know it's gonna be me.  I don't know why...I just have that feeling.  :gloomy  I've been running a team on my own for a few months now -all the other teams have two people and the other manager on mine has been on leave- and getting all my shit done early while literally everyone else lags behind.  And somehow I think that's what's gonna do me in-- like they know I'm just that reliable.   :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on December 29, 2015, 11:58:03 PM
This is the part in the movie where you get back together.

Who will Esthar find to be their president then?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 30, 2015, 11:36:55 AM
Someone else volunteered to cover New Year's day
:rejoice

Another three-day weekend
:rejoice

Now the wrong thread
:rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 30, 2015, 11:48:55 AM
Still so fucking sick :stahp

Pretty sure what I coughed up this morning was a sign I should see a doctor.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 01, 2016, 06:28:01 AM
At the hospital again with my baby.

After 10 days of being fine she has the shits again and is now underweight :/

Ive been saying shes heading this way for weeks now but shit doctors just kept saying its normal when you start daycare abd shell bounce back
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 01, 2016, 06:33:15 AM
Still so fucking sick :stahp

Pretty sure what I coughed up this morning was a sign I should see a doctor.

Go see the doctor
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 01, 2016, 05:02:45 PM
iPhone is fucked.  Battery drain problems up the wazoo.  Did everything I could on my end, ending with setting up it as a new device.  Same problem.  It goes from 100%, to 80% in a matter of minutes.  Then goes to around 70% and finally just drops all the way to 40% after just a few minutes...then dies and says no battery.  I get maybe an hour max of usage out of the phone daily.    This has been going on for about two weeks.

So I went to the Apple Store.  Waited for over and hour, only for the result I expected: battery is fine, software is fine.  Except, y'know, something is not fine.  :doge  Apple guy says he basically can't do shit about it and proceeds to tell me to try the same things I explained that I did when I started talking to him.

Go to AT&T.  Not eligible for an upgrade for two more months.  Can't wait that long.  Can't get off this old family plan with unlimited data and setup my wife and I on a new data plan, despite them wanting their customers to do this.

So I bought a new phone.  Went Android this time.  I need an Apple break.  $899 after tax.   :-\  The good news?  The iPhone may be out of warranty from Apple, but it was bought with an AMEX and they're gonna reimburse the full amount we paid- over $400.  We don't have to send the phone to them either, so I can also sell it for another $300 or so. 
 :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on January 01, 2016, 05:32:52 PM
You're gonna take 300$ from someone for a phone that works for an hour? What model was it?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 01, 2016, 06:47:05 PM
Still so fucking sick :stahp

Pretty sure what I coughed up this morning was a sign I should see a doctor.

Semen? Don't worry, sometimes I cough that up the next morning too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 01, 2016, 06:49:54 PM
iPhone is fucked.  Battery drain problems up the wazoo.  Did everything I could on my end, ending with setting up it as a new device.  Same problem.  It goes from 100%, to 80% in a matter of minutes.  Then goes to around 70% and finally just drops all the way to 40% after just a few minutes...then dies and says no battery.  I get maybe an hour max of usage out of the phone daily.    This has been going on for about two weeks.

So I went to the Apple Store.  Waited for over and hour, only for the result I expected: battery is fine, software is fine.  Except, y'know, something is not fine.  :doge  Apple guy says he basically can't do shit about it and proceeds to tell me to try the same things I explained that I did when I started talking to him.

Go to AT&T.  Not eligible for an upgrade for two more months.  Can't wait that long.  Can't get off this old family plan with unlimited data and setup my wife and I on a new data plan, despite them wanting their customers to do this.

So I bought a new phone.  Went Android this time.  I need an Apple break.  $899 after tax.   :-\  The good news?  The iPhone may be out of warranty from Apple, but it was bought with an AMEX and they're gonna reimburse the full amount we paid- over $400.  We don't have to send the phone to them either, so I can also sell it for another $300 or so. 
 :aah

What did you go with?

(Please say Nexus or Moto.)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 01, 2016, 07:02:15 PM
I wanted a pickle but I can't open the jar. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 01, 2016, 07:03:09 PM
Nevermind
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 01, 2016, 07:34:42 PM
You're gonna take 300$ from someone for a phone that works for an hour? What model was it?

Nah, I wouldn'the dump it on someone like that. But to Gazelle?  Sure.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 01, 2016, 07:35:05 PM
iPhone is fucked.  Battery drain problems up the wazoo.  Did everything I could on my end, ending with setting up it as a new device.  Same problem.  It goes from 100%, to 80% in a matter of minutes.  Then goes to around 70% and finally just drops all the way to 40% after just a few minutes...then dies and says no battery.  I get maybe an hour max of usage out of the phone daily.    This has been going on for about two weeks.

So I went to the Apple Store.  Waited for over and hour, only for the result I expected: battery is fine, software is fine.  Except, y'know, something is not fine.  :doge  Apple guy says he basically can't do shit about it and proceeds to tell me to try the same things I explained that I did when I started talking to him.

Go to AT&T.  Not eligible for an upgrade for two more months.  Can't wait that long.  Can't get off this old family plan with unlimited data and setup my wife and I on a new data plan, despite them wanting their customers to do this.

So I bought a new phone.  Went Android this time.  I need an Apple break.  $899 after tax.   :-\  The good news?  The iPhone may be out of warranty from Apple, but it was bought with an AMEX and they're gonna reimburse the full amount we paid- over $400.  We don't have to send the phone to them either, so I can also sell it for another $300 or so. 
 :aah

What did you go with?

(Please say Nexus or Moto.)

Note 5.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on January 01, 2016, 07:48:21 PM
I had no idea gazelle even existed. Time to cash in this 4s
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 01, 2016, 08:21:06 PM
Note 5.

:kobeyuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 01, 2016, 09:27:35 PM
No one cares, they all do practically the same shit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 01, 2016, 09:46:29 PM
The Note 5 is a great phone, I got a Moto X which is the same size/basically the same specs but it starts at $400. Samsungs are basically Android iPhones though so they'd rather overdo specs/camera/whatever than make people think there's any compromises.

Still don't look as pretty as current Motorolas. :-[ :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 01, 2016, 10:02:41 PM
The Note 5 is a great phone, I got a Moto X which is the same size/basically the same specs but it starts at $400. Samsungs are basically Android iPhones though so they'd rather overdo specs/camera/whatever than make people think there's any compromises.

Still don't look as pretty as current Motorolas. :-[ :-*

Android iPhones with crap materials and an ungodly mess of a skin, and will be perpetually 6 months behind (at least) on software updates.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 02, 2016, 01:16:04 AM
No one cares, they all do practically the same shit

Pretty much my view on it.  I was told to get a Note 5 by people I know and also noticed it popping up on recommended lists along with the Galaxy.  I'm finding some neat stuff as I mess around with the phone but basically I just wanted a phablet-sized phone with good battery life for web, music, comics, email, and a few other little things.  I don't really do much with phones.  I am interested in checking out emulators though. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 02, 2016, 10:20:15 PM
Still so fucking sick :stahp

Pretty sure what I coughed up this morning was a sign I should see a doctor.

Semen? Don't worry, sometimes I cough that up the next morning too.
kinda like semen, only a lot thicker and almost dark brown.

Finally went to the doctor, it's pneumonia! Yay!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 02, 2016, 10:27:43 PM
Still so fucking sick :stahp

Pretty sure what I coughed up this morning was a sign I should see a doctor.

Semen? Don't worry, sometimes I cough that up the next morning too.
kinda like semen, only a lot thicker and almost dark brown.

Finally went to the doctor, it's pneumonia! Yay!

:kobeyuck

Always get tested, brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on January 02, 2016, 11:19:07 PM
Sounds like santorum
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 03, 2016, 02:13:07 AM
The dangers of eating the ass.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 03, 2016, 02:20:21 AM
Couldn't find my last sleeping pill, so I'll just drink more.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 03, 2016, 07:32:11 AM
Got 3 hours of sleep last night because I went to bed listening to a scary audio book and got scared.   I must be 10 years old. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 03, 2016, 04:20:13 PM
Got 3 hours of sleep last night because I went to bed listening to a scary audio book and got scared.   I must be 10 years old. 

Was it 1984?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 03, 2016, 05:22:40 PM
no
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 03, 2016, 09:50:04 PM
Burned the shit out of my food twice this weekend. Yesterday I made some perfect scrambled eggs, took them off the oven eye and put them on an eye I thought was off...turns out it was on, since I was about to use it for something else. Destroyed my perfect eggs...

Tonight I was boiling some chickpeas, getting ready to throw them in the oven. Got distracted by the football game in my room, finally smelled smoke and ran to the kitchen...burned to shit.
:fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on January 03, 2016, 11:29:31 PM
Burned the shit out of my food twice this weekend. Yesterday I made some perfect scrambled eggs, took them off the oven eye and put them on an eye I thought was off...turns out it was on, since I was about to use it for something else. Destroyed my perfect eggs...

Tonight I was boiling some chickpeas, getting ready to throw them in the oven. Got distracted by the football game in my room, finally smelled smoke and ran to the kitchen...burned to shit.
:fbm

practice staying present
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 03, 2016, 11:50:43 PM
:snoop

I'm usually good at this shit, my mind has just been elsewhere.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 04, 2016, 05:43:54 PM
Got sick on Saturday, spent the next two full days curled in a ball, cramped up from a stomach virus. Uncountable diarrhea as my body cleared every possible thing from my guts. I'm mostly without pain now, but I haven't eaten anything for a day. If I look on the bright side, I probably needed a detox with all the beef, pork, and alky-hawl I'd been indulging in. Um, and I probably lost a couple kilos. Still: not a diet I recommend.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on January 04, 2016, 09:07:35 PM
I've been around sickness and pestilence since before xmas.  :yuck

Being back to work after holiday break was a nice reprieve from hearing someone cough every 5 minutes. Luckily we have great insurance. No co-pays for meds helped a stocking be a little fuller for xmas.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 04, 2016, 09:19:39 PM
Yeah, it is
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 05, 2016, 07:17:55 AM
Male utis are pretty rare

Unless you have some deformity
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 05, 2016, 07:22:59 AM
Like maybe your penis is all fucked up
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on January 05, 2016, 08:33:50 AM
Its either a UTI or a yeast infection most likely.

Has your dick been filthy lately?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 05, 2016, 08:51:44 AM
Its either a UTI or a yeast infection most likely.

Has your dick been filthy lately?

Yeast infection? Nah that sounds like a UTI from eating terrible foods all the time. Pretty common.


http://www.everydayhealth.com/urinary-tract-infections-pictures/foods-and-drinks-that-may-irritate-your-bladder-1028.aspx

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 05, 2016, 10:17:58 AM
/urinary-tract-infections-pictures/

(http://i.imgur.com/e2OGhNa.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 05, 2016, 10:19:04 AM
You are what you eat, Tasty.... :doge


 :heh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on January 05, 2016, 10:56:35 AM
Bros can get yeast infections, or athletes foot type of deals near the groin or on genitals.

I also see nothing about diet causing a UTI, that article is about foods to avoid while you have a UTI. Anything that would make yeast thrive should be avoided, that's the reason.

I mean, there's a reason why women get UTI's much more frequently than men. It isn't the food they eat either.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 05, 2016, 12:46:02 PM
Its either a UTI or a yeast infection most likely.

Has your dick been filthy lately?

Yeast infection? Nah that sounds like a UTI from eating terrible foods all the time. Pretty common.


http://www.everydayhealth.com/urinary-tract-infections-pictures/foods-and-drinks-that-may-irritate-your-bladder-1028.aspx

Lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 05, 2016, 12:49:19 PM
(Huff is a doctor)

hope you feel better Walrus.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 05, 2016, 01:29:40 PM
Well pharmacist but I work at a hospital
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 05, 2016, 01:47:29 PM
I work at a hospital due to one of my supervisors working at a hospital, and I can act as a second opinion that his penis is all fucked up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on January 05, 2016, 01:53:39 PM
Speaking of maladies, I found out my 10 year old is a type 1 diabetic. feelsbadman.

I'll look on the bright side and say that it will help us in the long run, as it will bring us all closer together and make us all eat healthier/smarter. But right now, it's pretty hard getting a routine down.



Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 05, 2016, 02:09:05 PM
Man that really sucks.  Sorry dude.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 05, 2016, 02:14:29 PM
Super rough to hear that toxic.

Look into diabetes camps for kids. All my type 1 friends swear by them and have stayed involved throughout the years
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 05, 2016, 02:35:18 PM
That's awful, TA, sorry. I have a good scared straight diabetes story about a grandparent if you ever need to be a bad cop dad.

Also good look with the Universal Technical Institute application, Glen.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on January 05, 2016, 03:02:04 PM
I've had type 1 diabetes since I was six years old (23 years old now).

Hardest part about the disease is the routine itself. Testing blood sugar often, for your or your kid's curiosity will help a lot with finding the right groove for eating and dosing. For me, I take a baseline insulin every 12 hours, and then take a different insulin depending on how many carbs a meal or snack has. While the diabetic specialist gives me the baseline numbers for dosing, the info from blood testing helps them and me the most in the long run. 

The most basic advice I can provide besides testing a lot:

Soda and juice are good for treating low blood sugar quickly. Fast acting carbs and sugar. Overdoing it though can cause a low to spike up to a high. As a kid I felt low blood sugar really easily, constant lows throughout the week aren't good and can cause those sensations to go away.

Don't know if kids get flu shots regularly, but for diabetic adults its highly recommended to get flu shots every year. If your kid can't hold down food or fluids, you'll need to go to the ER or urgent care for an IV, due to not being able to control blood sugar with food.

Depending on the insulin and dosing, cutting down on high carb or high sugar snacks is highly recommended. While blood sugar can be treated with insulin, its never instantaneous and having a consistent schedule with meals makes dosing a lot easier.

Test before bedtime, every time. Unless its baseline insulin, be very cautious with dosing before bedtime. Waking up with high blood sugar is a lot more preferred than the alternative. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Alcoholic Fish on January 05, 2016, 03:07:44 PM
My dad's type 1 as well, toxic. The technology's really come a long way in the last decade to make diabetes manageable with very little input.

Keep your head up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 05, 2016, 03:12:52 PM
Sorry to hear that Toxic. As others have said it's a lot more manageable now than it used to be. And a dietary shift for the family will definitely benefit everyone.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on January 05, 2016, 03:16:44 PM
When it comes to tech, you have the typical blood testing meter, and then vials/syringes/insulin pens.

The other piece of tech is a insulin pump, where all of that is combined into one unit.

Main difference is the analog tech (vials and syringes) is less consistent, you only get insulin when you do injections yourself. Apparently the pump the works 24/7 and is adjusted by the user at times, like when eating. 

I prefer the former method, needle and vial delivery rather than the pump.

http://www.diabetes.org/living-with-diabetes/treatment-and-care/medication/insulin/advantages-of-using-an-insulin-pump.html

http://www.diabetes.org/living-with-diabetes/treatment-and-care/medication/insulin/disadvantages-of-using-an.html
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on January 05, 2016, 03:33:41 PM
Sorry to hear that TA. The school my wife teaches at tries to keep the kids with this in the same classes at each grade level. It helps make it a little more normal when they are around other kids going through the same thing.

Good luck to you and your family.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on January 05, 2016, 03:47:06 PM
Thanks to all for the well wishes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on January 05, 2016, 06:56:29 PM
About 2 months ago the California State Board of Equalization called to let me know they had audited a special Beer/Wine Importer tax return I filed last year because something in their software messed up a few forms like mine (people who import both beer, wine and sparkling wine under a certain limit, their must be under 20 of us in the state) and I got like a 12 dollar refund.  They sent me the paltry check, whatever, but then on Monday I get a call that they because I had gotten audited (for their error) they were extending the audit to the last three years of my sales and use tax.  It's the most expensive 12 dollars I've ever seen.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 05, 2016, 06:58:38 PM
Speaking of maladies, I found out my 10 year old is a type 1 diabetic. feelsbadman.

I'll look on the bright side and say that it will help us in the long run, as it will bring us all closer together and make us all eat healthier/smarter. But right now, it's pretty hard getting a routine down.

Very sorry to hear that Toxic. We don't always see eye to eye but I've got kids so I feel it man. I can help you navigate with UH if you need a good doctor.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on January 05, 2016, 07:08:30 PM
Also that really sucks Toxic
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 05, 2016, 07:36:22 PM
About 2 months ago the California State Board of Equalization called to let me know they had audited a special Beer/Wine Importer tax return I filed last year because something in their software messed up a few forms like mine (people who import both beer, wine and sparkling wine under a certain limit, their must be under 20 of us in the state) and I got like a 12 dollar refund.  They sent me the paltry check, whatever, but then on Monday I get a call that they because I had gotten audited (for their error) they were extending the audit to the last three years of my sales and use tax.  It's the most expensive 12 dollars I've ever seen.

SBOE is one of the few legitimately scary tax agencies (for reasonably compliant taxpayers), I'll pray for you. 🙏
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on January 05, 2016, 07:54:58 PM

Very sorry to hear that Toxic. We don't always see eye to eye but I've got kids so I feel it man. I can help you navigate with UH if you need a good doctor.

Thanks. We took him to Akron Children's Hospital. They have great care there.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on January 05, 2016, 08:20:15 PM
About 2 months ago the California State Board of Equalization called to let me know they had audited a special Beer/Wine Importer tax return I filed last year because something in their software messed up a few forms like mine (people who import both beer, wine and sparkling wine under a certain limit, their must be under 20 of us in the state) and I got like a 12 dollar refund.  They sent me the paltry check, whatever, but then on Monday I get a call that they because I had gotten audited (for their error) they were extending the audit to the last three years of my sales and use tax.  It's the most expensive 12 dollars I've ever seen.

SBOE is one of the few legitimately scary tax agencies (for reasonably compliant taxpayers), I'll pray for you. 🙏
This is what I've heard.  My accountant is good and I have a pretty complete record of every transaction but man :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 06, 2016, 12:37:58 AM
Found out I haven't been contributing to the 401k at the company I've been working at for 3.5 years. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 06, 2016, 01:02:54 AM
Found out I haven't been contributing to the 401k at the company I've been working at for 3.5 years. :doge

Do they match contributions? Not as #struggle if your employer doesn't.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 06, 2016, 01:09:25 AM
Found out I haven't been contributing to the 401k at the company I've been working at for 3.5 years. :doge

Do they match contributions? Not as #struggle if your employer doesn't.

I believe they do. :fbm

Oh well. Better to find this out now than later, learn a lesson from it, and be diligent about it for the rest of my life. It's not a total loss as long as I learned something. :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on January 06, 2016, 01:43:39 AM
Found out I haven't been contributing to the 401k at the company I've been working at for 3.5 years. :doge
...do you not look at your paystubs? Ever?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 06, 2016, 01:49:41 AM
Money goes in, money goes out. It's like the tides. Can't explain that. :doge

spoiler (click to show/hide)
I will now though, obvs
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 06, 2016, 10:37:43 AM
I bought sex toys online and Canada post has fucked up the delivery now I got to go around asking where my sex toys are at. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 06, 2016, 10:38:12 AM
I bought sex toys online and Canada post has fucked up the delivery now I got to go around asking where my sex toys are at.

Can you please post videos of your line of inquiry with the post office worker?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 06, 2016, 11:08:10 AM
I will not
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 06, 2016, 11:16:20 AM
I will not

"Er, hello, I am inquiring as to the location of my 10.5" black real feel dong I ordered a few weeks ago. I am getting a bit impatient with your service"


 :neogaf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 06, 2016, 11:23:00 AM
I wouldn't disrespect PD by getting something calling its self a black dong but only being 10.5" long. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 06, 2016, 11:23:57 AM
I wouldn't disrespect PD by getting something calling its self a black dong but only being 10.5" long.

The only thing black and long PD has ever been involved with was the line for Popeyes at 10pm. Just saying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on January 07, 2016, 06:00:49 AM
Moved on January 2 to an even more communist neighboorhood (90 years of red mayors). Hot water this afternoon at last. A tad smaller and cheaper too. Industrial city but a lot of people told me it's nice and quiet. Have a polish store and just a jump away from Chinatown.

Bought some Vodka honey flavored to celebrate.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 07, 2016, 07:49:21 AM
I think I've decided not to buy an Asus product again. They always look pretty and have great specs at a competitive price, and then they fall apart within a year. Android tablets had touchscreens fail and now this router I bought 10 months ago decided to kill itself.

Got any good recommendations for a router?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 07, 2016, 09:45:55 AM
My Asus router is still going strong after almost two years. Sorry to hear that breh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 07, 2016, 09:49:42 AM
What model? Mine was an RT-N53 that I saw in Fry's and I didn't want to leave without buying something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 07, 2016, 10:09:42 AM
RT-AC66U. (http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B008ABOJKS)

Always been good to me.

(https://i.imgur.com/2CcldAd.png)

:obama
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 07, 2016, 11:00:54 AM
My Asus netbook is still alive, too, though I haven't used it for more than bedroom browsing in years. I did drop it once, but it survived that without lasting damage.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 07, 2016, 11:04:23 AM
Yeah. My two Nexus 7s were really good other than the occasional slowdown.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on January 07, 2016, 02:17:07 PM
I have an ASUS XenBook ux303 that is very well made, sleak, and light.

ASUS motherboards are life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on January 07, 2016, 05:30:50 PM
Accidentally just emailed of my friends a picture of my wife performing fellatio on me with our faces clearly visible.

Ironically, the email said "I am going to kill myself tomorrow" and I meant to attach a picture of Luke Wilson shaving from Royal Tennenbaums as part of a string of jokes. Now I might actually have to kill myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 07, 2016, 05:32:51 PM
Accidentally just emailed of my friends a picture of my wife performing fellatio on me with our faces clearly visible.

Ironically, the email said "I am going to kill myself tomorrow" and I meant to attach a picture of Luke Wilson shaving from Royal Tennenbaums as part of a string of jokes. Now I might actually have to kill myself.

Man that's a rough one.

:dunno
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 07, 2016, 05:33:13 PM
 :lol how is that angle possible?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on January 07, 2016, 05:34:16 PM
Is was a wide shot, bruh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 07, 2016, 05:36:14 PM
:picard

You cam or somethin?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 07, 2016, 05:36:20 PM
:lol how is that angle possible?

selfie stick
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 07, 2016, 05:37:49 PM
At least it wasn't a photo of your girlfriend preforming fellatio on you. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 07, 2016, 05:53:43 PM
I heard you're going to need new friends soon. Well, here we are.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 07, 2016, 06:00:29 PM
I heard you're going to need new friends soon. Well, here we are.

PD just trying to hustle for that dick pic.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 07, 2016, 08:28:41 PM
humblebrag post about having sex  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 12:35:03 AM
wanted to put music on ipod:

0) need to move album to itunes
1) Itunes is out of date so I need to update it
2) then I need to update itunes on the ipod
3) but first I need to transfer my purches from my ipod to my mac
4) which needs to be done because iCloud was trying to make me change my password a few months ago and I didn't want to so I turned it off

All in all it has taken an hour to get to the point where the ipod is finally updating itunes.  All I wanted was to transfer one fucking album to my ipod.  And its always like this because I hardly ever do it. 

Mobile devices and not being able just to have a file system I can manage :piss2 :piss2 :piss2

Never buying an apple product again. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 08, 2016, 12:40:59 AM
If you expect to be able to plug in an iPod and manage it like a storage device like literally any other music player/phone, you're gonna have a bad time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 12:53:03 AM
It updated my whole fucking ipod OS no wonder it took so fucking long

I didn't want that.

'Welcome to your iPod'

I've been welcomed to my ipod for the last 3 fucking years I owned it.  Fuck you


Also I still don't know how to transer an album with the new itunes.  Jesus. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 12:56:06 AM
O fuck I think I have to first sync my ipod to my mac then sync the shit I want on my mac to my ipod

This is the lamest fucking stupid shit ever and I blame Brand New. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:04:31 AM
I'm a PhD in compsci and I can't figure out how to get music on my ipod because apple thinks people are too dumb to manage their own files.

I spit on Jobs grave
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:07:32 AM
O I couldn't manually drag and drop shit because there is a hidden check box that I need to click to let me do that

I hope Jobs cancer was painful and I hope he cried a lot before it took his life
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:08:37 AM
It is now 1 AM and I wanted to put trap house 3 on my ipod to go for a run at 11PM

NOW i'M JUST GOING TO TO GET DRUNK and I'm so frustrated the caps locked themselves. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 08, 2016, 01:10:44 AM
Upload it to Google Play Music (http://play.google.com/music). You get to store up to 50,000 songs for free, and you can upload from desktop browsers, or any Android, iOS, Windows or Mac device. Then install the Google Play Music app (https://itunes.apple.com/us/app/google-play-music/id691797987?mt=8) from the App Store.

(http://i.imgur.com/9DCUgbh.png)

Easy peasy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 08, 2016, 01:12:50 AM
Yes. Yeees.

I fucking hate overly or stupidly simplyfied tools, tech, UI, etc. It all too regularly just makes things less intuitive or complicates them or removes basic fucking functionality that didn't need removing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:12:51 AM
Ya I should just figure out how to put music on my android phone

but first I should figure out how to get data on it, its been like 10 months and I still havent done that.  It keeps on saying I can't log on to the providers network  :dead

I'm honestly thinking os switching providers just so I can hand the phone to the service girl and say 'make it do things'. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:14:39 AM
Yes. Yeees.

I fucking hate overly or stupidly simplyfied tools, tech, UI, etc. It all too regularly just makes things less intuitive or complicates them or removes basic fucking functionality that didn't need removing.

The problem is like I set it and get it all working and then updates fuck the shit out of it. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 08, 2016, 01:14:45 AM
Be computer literate and use Apple products brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 08, 2016, 01:18:23 AM
Ya I should just figure out how to put music on my android phone

but first I should figure out how to get data on it, its been like 10 months and I still havent done that.  It keeps on saying I can't log on to the providers network  :dead

I'm honestly thinking os switching providers just so I can hand the phone to the service girl and say 'make it do things'.

You have the right SIM and the account is properly funded right? If so it's probably an issue with the APN.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:18:57 AM
Honestly I use to like macs because it let me use unix but with a nice GUI and tools and I like xcode but even developer stuff has gone to shit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 08, 2016, 01:36:12 AM
"I want to use UNIX at home." :expert
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: thisismyusername on January 08, 2016, 01:39:00 AM
Be computer literate and use Apple products brehs.

I like OS X. :yeshrug

"I want to use UNIX at home." :expert

Who doesn't? :yeshrug :snob
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 08, 2016, 02:06:29 AM
Ya I should just figure out how to put music on my android phone

but first I should figure out how to get data on it, its been like 10 months and I still havent done that.  It keeps on saying I can't log on to the providers network  :dead

I'm honestly thinking os switching providers just so I can hand the phone to the service girl and say 'make it do things'.

Generally it's just a case of going on to the website and calling a number until you get customer support and they walk you through it. But I just have them do it at the store so I don't have to explain if something doesn't work.

I'm seriously blown away that you've gone nearly a year with a smartphone without connecting it to mobile data. I respect your apathy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 02:11:04 AM
calling there customer support costs money, aint even joking
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on January 08, 2016, 04:23:45 AM
Apple sync system is gutter trash.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 08, 2016, 06:58:28 AM
who even owns music knowadays
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on January 08, 2016, 07:32:27 AM
My Kindle Paperwhite kicked the bucket a couple days ago.  A couple months ago, the WiFi refused to work on it, no matter what I did.  A couple days ago, it stopped working at all.  I keep trying to fix it but nope.

I've had it for a couple years now, which is kind of disturbing but I used it all the time.  I love this thing so I put in an order to get a new one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 08, 2016, 01:09:12 PM
It updated my whole fucking ipod OS no wonder it took so fucking long

I didn't want that.

'Welcome to your iPod'

I've been welcomed to my ipod for the last 3 fucking years I owned it.  Fuck you


Also I still don't know how to transer an album with the new itunes.  Jesus.

Still using an iPod in 2016. Which third world nation are you from again? :sabu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:14:47 PM
I got it for development a long time a go and now it is my puzzle and dragons machine.  It is also much smaller than my phone for running. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 01:15:11 PM
I'm still upset about last night
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 08, 2016, 01:22:11 PM
You could always play a round of Snake while waiting for iTunes to finish updating.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on January 08, 2016, 01:58:42 PM
Why wouldn't you just download another player like VLC or upload it via Songbird?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 08, 2016, 02:00:43 PM
I've honestly gone as far as using the Dropbox app. iTunes is a fucking nightmare
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 08, 2016, 02:27:11 PM
My job is meaningless and boring but I always viewed it as a stepping stone and I wanted to negotiate one last raise before applying around to labs that actually do research. I just passed my one year mark and planned to talk to my boss this weekend about scheduling a time to talk about this on Monday (the 11th) but he must have read my mind since he gave me a raise today that is maybe half of what I would think I can negotiate. Is it bad form to ask for more?

I really don't mind risking the job since it feels fair to get paid based on responsibilities you have rather than time at the company. And right now is the super slow half of the year so it's the best time for them to kick my ass out.

Either way, I want to leave soon. Anyone know a guide to making a unique/flashy resume template?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2016, 02:28:45 PM
If you want to leave soon why not just take the raise as is and a good recommendation. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 08, 2016, 02:42:57 PM
What if I didn't think about the recommendation?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on January 08, 2016, 10:31:12 PM
A lot of people leave money on the table by not negotiating for things at work whether it be salaries or raises.

Of course, you should have some reasons in mind as to why you deserve a bigger raise.  Also be prepared to hear "no" of course.  You wouldn't be risking the job by asking for a bigger raise unless your boss is a huge dick, which in that case you probably wouldn't get the recommendation anyway.

Edit: It also depends on where you work.  I have a set dollar amount for me when it comes to giving direct reports raises.  That means if I give someone a bigger raise, it comes at the expense of someone else or others.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 09, 2016, 11:06:05 AM
Barfing within an hour of waking up, I'm sick like ever 3 fucking weeks.  And I hardly left the house this week too.  Fuck. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 09, 2016, 12:23:05 PM
Could hold down subway though.  That stuff sticks to your insides like Jared to a little girl. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on January 09, 2016, 07:13:01 PM
Barfing within an hour of waking up, I'm sick like ever 3 fucking weeks.  And I hardly left the house this week too.  Fuck.
You eat like shit. Not too surprising.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 09, 2016, 07:17:16 PM
But I have been eating well for the last 8 hours. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Van Cruncheon on January 09, 2016, 07:23:33 PM
anxiety == elevated cortisol == sick every fifteen minutes

i think you need to find a dom, let mups break you in
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 09, 2016, 07:44:10 PM
That would never work.  I would never be able to take his black studded Mexican pointy boots seriously. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 12, 2016, 08:25:15 PM
The breeder in Subway asked for a "kid's meal, no bread" for their gene repository and then acted incredulous when queried for confirmation by the sandwich artist several times.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 12, 2016, 08:38:04 PM
My daughter has a fucking boyfriend who drives.

I'm trying to not stuff him in the back of my car and back it off a cliff.

:snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 12, 2016, 08:39:02 PM
What car? Kids will crash anything but..
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 12, 2016, 08:41:32 PM
What car? Kids will crash anything but..

He kinda reminds me of Carlton. It's a mid 00's Honda.

Edit: You mean his car, right?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 12, 2016, 08:44:44 PM
What car? Kids will crash anything but..

He kinda reminds me of Carlton.


Your daughter is a underaged beard.  You should start calling her patchy. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 12, 2016, 08:46:14 PM
What car? Kids will crash anything but..

He kinda reminds me of Carlton.


Your daughter is a underaged beard.  You should start calling her patchy.

I could only be so lucky.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 12, 2016, 09:19:10 PM
What car? Kids will crash anything but..

He kinda reminds me of Carlton. It's a mid 00's Honda.

Edit: You mean his car, right?

It's a decently safe car. They'll probably be fine if he isn't the boy-racer type.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 13, 2016, 12:23:40 AM
My grandma is in the hospital and having surgery on Thursday. They're not sure she'll make it. Don't know why I'm posting this here but I can't on Twitter/FB. Gonna talk to her on the phone tomorrow night and I'm expecting it to be 1+ hour. I'm thankful I even have that chance but I hope she pulls through.

She kicked cancer's ass 15 years ago (unrelated to current condition), so we know she's a tough old broad. But still. :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 13, 2016, 01:06:11 AM
Went to Wendy's instead of McDonald's because their large drinks are bigger.

They're out of Coke Zero, so I settle for some Diet Coke (http://i.imgur.com/EYFKEpZ.gif)

Cashier hands me a chocolate milk jug (http://i.imgur.com/MwePdEf.png)

it's what you wanted :confused

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 13, 2016, 01:11:40 AM
I never feel less macho than when I order a macho size Coke Zero at Del Taco.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 13, 2016, 02:43:13 AM
My grandma is in the hospital and having surgery on Thursday. They're not sure she'll make it. Don't know why I'm posting this here but I can't on Twitter/FB. Gonna talk to her on the phone tomorrow night and I'm expecting it to be 1+ hour. I'm thankful I even have that chance but I hope she pulls through.

She kicked cancer's ass 15 years ago (unrelated to current condition), so we know she's a tough old broad. But still. :-\

I'm sorry and I hope that she will be fine. She's been in the same position that you're in so it's okay if you aren't sure what to do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on January 13, 2016, 03:09:05 AM
After a few employees at my office were caught planning a terrorist attack on our own building I thought I wouldn't be seeing much more ISIS action today. But lo and behold some crazy sneaked in through the parking tower and lost security. People were kinda losing their shit but it turned out to be your run of the mill nut. We caught him and he's out of the building.

Quite the day today.

 :goty

Did all of this happen in the same day?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on January 13, 2016, 03:24:00 AM
Its pretty damn terrible you had to go through that and will now think about that shit while trying to work. That's some next level bullshit that no one should go through.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 13, 2016, 03:46:20 AM
brb, applying for work in Saudi.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 13, 2016, 07:54:57 AM
After a few employees at my office were caught planning a terrorist attack on our own building I thought I wouldn't be seeing much more ISIS action today. But lo and behold some crazy sneaked in through the parking tower and lost security. People were kinda losing their shit but it turned out to be your run of the mill nut. We caught him and he's out of the building.

Quite the day today.

Wtf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on January 13, 2016, 08:29:34 AM
Wow. That's fucking nuts, man.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 13, 2016, 12:25:16 PM
My grandma is in the hospital and having surgery on Thursday. They're not sure she'll make it. Don't know why I'm posting this here but I can't on Twitter/FB. Gonna talk to her on the phone tomorrow night and I'm expecting it to be 1+ hour. I'm thankful I even have that chance but I hope she pulls through.

She kicked cancer's ass 15 years ago (unrelated to current condition), so we know she's a tough old broad. But still. :-\

I'm sorry and I hope that she will be fine. She's been in the same position that you're in so it's okay if you aren't sure what to do.

Thank you.

Just got off the phone with her. Was expecting an hour but got 10 minutes. But I understand she might be tired, and my sister is there with her. She sounded great on the phone though, you'd never tell something is wrong with her. So that's positive. It all comes down to tomorrow though, she starts surgery at 7:30am.

I'm gonna be on edge all day tomorrow, I can already tell. And there's a huge company party that night but I don't even think I want to go now, even if I don't hear anything. :-\ Ugh, I hate being selfish.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 13, 2016, 12:33:40 PM
Good luck dude.  Hope it goes well.

My 94 yearold grandpa went into the hospital monday with a bladder infection (again).  Shit sucks. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on January 13, 2016, 02:07:03 PM
brb, applying for work in Saudi.

Me too!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 13, 2016, 02:52:27 PM
Sorry about y'all's old folk.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 13, 2016, 03:01:22 PM
Good luck dude.  Hope it goes well.

My 94 yearold grandpa went into the hospital monday with a bladder infection (again).  Shit sucks.

It doesn't get easier does it :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 13, 2016, 03:11:56 PM
Best of luck, Andrex.

Same to you. Your work sounds pretty bad if people hate their jobs enough to want to blow it up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 14, 2016, 12:59:24 PM
Grandma made it through surgery. Apparently it was exploratory heart surgery. The two main issues are her heart and kidneys. "Thankfully" dialysis can help with her kidneys but they're deciding right now what to do with her heart. From what I've been told they may do open-heart surgery tomorrow or Saturday. I'm returning home Saturday morning so I hope I get to see her and talk with her.

Over the first hill but not out of the woods yet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 14, 2016, 01:27:26 PM
brb, applying for work in Saudi.

Me too!
I'm trying to get an expat assignment to Saudi!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 14, 2016, 02:30:00 PM
Fuckkkkkk, you need to get your ass back to the states, hermano
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 14, 2016, 02:30:41 PM
Just kidding, white people are going crazy here
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 14, 2016, 02:31:43 PM
Interesting tidbit: Found out today that the attack was supposed to target my floor for having westerners and "western sympathizers", so if they weren't caught I would have been killed. So that's great.

What the fuck

Get the fuck out of there man

Fuck your family and come back to the States
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 14, 2016, 02:32:41 PM
Jesus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 14, 2016, 02:38:17 PM
Interesting tidbit: Found out today that the attack was supposed to target my floor for having westerners and "western sympathizers", so if they weren't caught I would have been killed. So that's great.
ffffuuu

jeez...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 15, 2016, 12:29:44 AM
Had a down turn today; ate 7 doughnuts cause my internet went out for 6 hours. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on January 15, 2016, 12:49:23 AM
Interesting tidbit: Found out today that the attack was supposed to target my floor for having westerners and "western sympathizers", so if they weren't caught I would have been killed. So that's great.
WOW. Fuck, dude.

This goes without saying but best wishes and I hope you & your family GTFO ASAP.

edit: Just out of curiosity how much debt is there? You don't have answer this if you don't want to but maybe some of us could help chip in.

edit2: then again, I don't know if there's any weirdness when it comes to transferring money from the US to Saudi.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 15, 2016, 02:04:33 AM
Wraff get out while the gettin's good! Jesus, man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 15, 2016, 02:25:21 AM
edit2: then again, I don't know if there's any weirdness when it comes to transferring money from the US to Saudi.

 :comeon





(http://i.imgur.com/Z2Oe6zz.png)(http://i.imgur.com/fqucLgH.png) :money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on January 15, 2016, 02:32:05 AM
It's late and I'm running on 4 hours of sleep and totally forgot that PayPal exists.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 15, 2016, 09:42:52 AM
The guy was actually being friendly with you while planning the attack too, what a sociopath. All I knew is that some major mosques pat you down before entering but I didn't think civilians in a regular office would be a target. With your outrageous Western values I hope you get your ass out of there soon. In a matter of months inshaallah (keeping appearances).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on January 15, 2016, 01:32:51 PM
Dem existential blues, brehs. Brought to you by ghost rare Pepe

(https://media.giphy.com/media/xT77Y3g6DvpeRgN4gU/giphy.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 15, 2016, 08:11:15 PM
Went to a shitty dentist.  Got a filling and now my teeth don't close right.  Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on January 15, 2016, 09:41:36 PM
The stock market took a giant shit today.  I want to dump a few grand into some funds but Vanguard isn't working.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 16, 2016, 03:24:04 AM
I never feel less macho than when I order a macho size Coke Zero at Del Taco.

It's fine so long as you pair your drink with something masculine, like anything with horseradish or buffalo sauce.

Crossfaded on that Diet Coke and 20 pc chicken nugg (http://i.imgur.com/gI0YoWb.jpg)

Since chicken nuggets are the most autistic item on the menu, I chose buffalo as my dipping sauce.

Bet you thought cacs exclusively prefer ranch :letsfukk
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 16, 2016, 05:36:24 AM
Coworker was complaining about pains in her tummy while pregnant, so they had to do a cesarean two months before due date. Found cancer in her stomach, cuy out as much as possible and now chemo starts in 3 weeks.

She and her bf have two kids and she is 34.

Fuck this shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 16, 2016, 11:04:41 AM
Today gave another negative data point on the experiment I like to call can one drink tea on an empty stomic without barfing. 


Also I don't know how to spell stomic and I'm tired of looking it up on google so fuck you. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 16, 2016, 11:06:16 AM
Lager does she have a nice office?


I'm sorry that's the upset stomic talking.  Hope she pulls though. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 16, 2016, 11:09:28 AM
Stomic sounds like stomache to you? I thought you are Canadian, not Australian.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on January 16, 2016, 11:50:22 AM
My dog is being an asshole. First he sexed up my neighbors dog then he decided to tear into their garbage. So my ass was out at 430 this morning in the cold picking up fucking garbage with my hands.

Doesn't usually act like this, wonder what got into him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 16, 2016, 12:12:49 PM
Stomic sounds like stomache to you? I thought you are Canadian, not Australian.

stomic sounds like stomic, stomach ache sounds like stomic ake. 

also google tells me stomach has no e so na na nana na. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 16, 2016, 12:15:51 PM
My dog is being an asshole. First he sexed up my neighbors dog then he decided to tear into their garbage. So my ass was out at 430 this morning in the cold picking up fucking garbage with my hands.

Doesn't usually act like this, wonder what got into him.

Is he neutered?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 16, 2016, 03:30:50 PM
Stomic sounds like stomache to you? I thought you are Canadian, not Australian.

stomic sounds like stomic, stomach ache sounds like stomic ake. 

also google tells me stomach has no e so na na nana na.
Foisted by my own mnemonic. :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 16, 2016, 08:44:34 PM
Not being able to close my mouth properly is really making my jaw sore.  Fuck. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 17, 2016, 01:41:01 PM
My internet keeps going out and Tims is like a block away.  Also my jaw hurts very much and I I am tired of it.  Not being able to close your jaw is some Gitmo shit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 18, 2016, 02:03:05 AM
My gf says I kiss her in my sleep :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 18, 2016, 02:05:04 AM
Hope she find your desperation adorable.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 18, 2016, 02:05:42 AM
My gf says I kiss her in my sleep :snoop

Is that as far as it goes? :hitler

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 18, 2016, 02:09:57 AM
Just been trying my hardest to show my affection but not accidentally use the l-word  :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 18, 2016, 03:46:26 AM
That l-word and the other come hand in hand  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 19, 2016, 05:55:34 PM
Got in an argument in Facebook with some dude who's supporting the Malheur occupation :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on January 19, 2016, 07:15:50 PM
Got in an argument in Facebook
:goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 19, 2016, 08:00:28 PM
Nah dentist fixed me today.  I celebrated by eating 3000 calories of bread, jam and honey. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 22, 2016, 05:50:19 PM
Did the false alarm sound like an 'OOOOOOOOO yessssss' when it went off?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 23, 2016, 02:23:35 AM
Realized today I have a crush on a coworker I'm 98% sure isn't gay.

Ugh why heart

why

Bleh, I hate feelings so much
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 23, 2016, 02:27:31 AM
This is why I haven't dated anyone in 9 years

Wish I could be a robot
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on January 23, 2016, 09:06:40 AM
Getting my annual thrown-out neck outta the way early this year. I felt this coming for like a month and a half, so at least I don't have to dread it anymore
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 23, 2016, 11:09:19 AM
This is why I haven't dated anyone in 9 years

Wish I could be a robot

You haven't dated anyone since you were 14?

15, ya
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 23, 2016, 11:44:57 AM
So you've basically never dated
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on January 23, 2016, 11:52:13 AM
*andrex waits for his mom to find her keys to drive him to his date*

MOOOOOOOOM, WE'RE LATE TO THE SKATING RIIIINK. CHRISTY'S GOING TO BE MAAAAD. ARGH IM SO EMBARASSED
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on January 23, 2016, 11:56:07 AM
I'm honestly shocked you haven't been on a date with a guy yet despite getting laid so much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 23, 2016, 11:56:20 AM
So you've basically never dated

Yeah I suppose. It's better that way. :)

I'm honestly shocked you haven't been on a date with a guy yet despite getting laid so much.

Don't want to get anyone involved in my bullshit. Not fair to them to ask them to keep a secret. :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on January 23, 2016, 11:57:34 AM
Why don't you seek out gay guys?

So you've basically never dated

Yeah I suppose. It's better that way. :)

I'm honestly shocked you haven't been on a date with a guy yet despite getting laid so much.

Don't want to get anyone involved in my bullshit. Not fair to them to ask them to keep a secret. :yeshrug

That's...bullshit. Your family doesn't even live in Boston. You've said multiple  times they live hours and hours away. Keep your romantic and personal life separate from your family. For now. Your family not knowing you're gay shouldn't stop you from pursuing mi amor. Having nothing but sex will leave you a bit longing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 23, 2016, 12:15:48 PM
I'll keep your secret :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on January 23, 2016, 12:44:31 PM
That's...bullshit. Your family doesn't even live in Boston. You've said multiple  times they live hours and hours away. Keep your romantic and personal life separate from your family. For now. Your family not knowing you're gay shouldn't stop you from pursuing mi amor. Having nothing but sex will leave you a bit longing.

With how connected everything is and how people get excited about announcing relationship shit on FB and telling all their friends it's just too big a risk. And going on a date with someone and then being like "Yeah so don't mention me in any of your FB posts ever, and no pics either" is pretty shitty. It's just not the right time.

I know I'll get there someday. :)

I'll keep your secret :)

Wanna fuck? No homo.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 23, 2016, 12:57:11 PM
I'll be your secret keeper.  Promise I won't tell Voldemort. 

My struggle is have listened to the harry potter audio books on a loop for a month now while working and it has turned me into a 13 year old mentally.  Which is nice because before understanding the ethical problems Harry faced and how the world, both of magic, and reality are not black and white, I was mentally some where between 10 and 12. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 23, 2016, 12:58:31 PM
Also due to rocket league I want to bed at 5 in the morning and got up at 1pm.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 23, 2016, 01:19:07 PM
I think a blood vessel in my eye burst due to sneezing too hard. That or my head is slowly exploding from over consumption of caffeine. Either way I'm probably about to die. ⚰
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 23, 2016, 01:24:34 PM
Hopefully your caffeine stroke is quick and painless and doesn't leave you a handicapper. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 23, 2016, 01:25:41 PM
Your family doesn't know you're gay Andrex? I assumed everyone knew lmao.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on January 23, 2016, 01:28:33 PM
That's...bullshit. Your family doesn't even live in Boston. You've said multiple  times they live hours and hours away. Keep your romantic and personal life separate from your family. For now. Your family not knowing you're gay shouldn't stop you from pursuing mi amor. Having nothing but sex will leave you a bit longing.

With how connected everything is and how people get excited about announcing relationship shit on FB and telling all their friends it's just too big a risk. And going on a date with someone and then being like "Yeah so don't mention me in any of your FB posts ever, and no pics either" is pretty shitty. It's just not the right time.

I know I'll get there someday. :)

I'll keep your secret :)

Wanna fuck? No homo.

Aren't you looking at this too shrewdly? Just make a rule to not have you tagged. Don't announce the relationship on FB. Just keep it off FB and social media. Plenty of people have relationships without using social media. You seem to be active in expressing yourself on Twitter. Why not there? You don't have to advertise things on social media if you don't want to. I think you're looking at this the wrong way and finding any excuse not to date because of your family, when it's pretty easy to avoid this.

I had been taking hormones and buying girls clothes for a full YEAR before telling my parents. Everyone on my fb knew I was T except family members ON THAT SAME FACEBOOK. Why? Because I simply explained that I'm not out to everyone - yet - and people respected that. It's not a big deal because if these people care about you they won't think twice about it. Also, friend lists exist for a reason. Shaka has pics of him drinking alcohol and he's from A family where that doesn't really seem to be allowed too much because they're Muslim. Wrath has similar stuff. Despite the fact Shaka's dad is on his Facebook too! You know how we do this? LISTS.

I think you need more courage. What you're telling me makes no sense. You're acting like you have to give up all info about yourself in this digital age to everyone. You don't have to.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 23, 2016, 01:31:35 PM
Come outside Andrex, it's better out here. Trust me.
:hitler

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 23, 2016, 02:25:48 PM
If they don't know you're gay and you've never brought around a gf, then I think they probably assume you're into dudes. Unless you had a very religious upbringing where most people in your family had no relationships until marriage. I believe another gay dude here mentioned that it is hard to initiate serious relationships in the gay community so it's okay if you're afraid of going over that obstacle. Everyone's a pussy really.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 23, 2016, 04:09:47 PM
Quote from: Tasty Meat

Wanna fuck? No homo.
No homo? I want it all or not at all
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: octopushover on January 23, 2016, 11:24:32 PM
i'm getting noise complaints because no matter what i do my dog barks while i'm not home  :doge :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on January 23, 2016, 11:32:10 PM
There's been a couple of guys I know who came out as gay.  Neither were a surprise; we all kind of knew more or less for a decade, it's just that nobody really brought it up because we all knew.

I suspect your family and friends know you're gay.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 24, 2016, 12:09:10 AM
-Ntard
-swimmer
-90 pounds
-buys expensive gifts for female family members

yea breh they know  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 24, 2016, 12:40:56 AM
My mouth is a superb gaydar
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 25, 2016, 08:46:49 AM
What the fuck?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 25, 2016, 08:50:50 AM
Your office man

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 25, 2016, 11:07:54 AM
I couldnt go to sleep last night until 5am, then slept in till 11.  Fuck. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 26, 2016, 03:21:22 PM
I was going to retroactively justify my purchase of Mario & Luigi: Paper Jam by telling myself that I played all the other Paper Mario games so I had to play this one too, but then I remembered that I didn't play Sticker Star.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 26, 2016, 03:25:45 PM
I want to see Mariah Carey nude 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 26, 2016, 03:59:27 PM
Fantasy is still a fucking jam for that matter

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qq09UkPRdFY

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 26, 2016, 04:59:03 PM
I was going to retroactively justify my purchase of Mario & Luigi: Paper Jam by telling myself that I played all the other Paper Mario games so I had to play this one too, but then I remembered that I didn't play Sticker Star.

haha ha look at your life
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on January 26, 2016, 11:42:08 PM
Super Paper Mario was tedious and had bad art.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 27, 2016, 01:31:33 AM
Some dude tried to sexually harass another dude at work today and I was there to stop it.

Now I have to stay in for a bit, wait for the manager to come back and get footage from security because I was instructed to do so. I only had an hour left at work and then this shit has to happen. At least it will get this dude fired, who has been trying and failing to gain access to the ladies section(it's Saudi, sue me) at work.

Does Steve Carrell play your boss?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 27, 2016, 03:59:44 AM
Haha I was thinking about that when I read Wraths post, I imagined if a Saudi office would still be a comedy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Take My Breh Away on January 27, 2016, 04:35:53 AM
Hospital again in two days.

Nose seems to have healed fine (No more pain at least) but there's been blood in my mucus and when I cough the last two weeks and they think the stitches never fell out. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 27, 2016, 11:44:11 AM
My favorite restaurant up here got featured as the best mac in Portland, the hipsters are coming
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 27, 2016, 01:51:31 PM
My favorite sushi place shut down :( 
It was cheap, and close to work but better than the cheaper and closer suchi place. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on January 27, 2016, 02:00:52 PM
Hospital again in two days.

Nose seems to have healed fine (No more pain at least) but there's been blood in my mucus and when I cough the last two weeks and they think the stitches never fell out. :brazilcry

You're gonna die :umad  :sabu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 27, 2016, 02:41:05 PM
My favorite sushi place shut down :( 
It was cheap, and close to work but better than the cheaper and closer suchi place. 

RIP Sushi Girl :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 27, 2016, 03:31:25 PM
Not sushi girl place. 


That's like my 3rd favorite place.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 27, 2016, 04:33:26 PM
Not sushi girl place. 


That's like my 3rd favorite place.

Is that because of sushi girl?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 27, 2016, 05:24:08 PM
No its cause its expensive and doesn't come with soup.  Though Japanese soup is basically broth with a chunk of tofu in it so I'm not sure why I care. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 29, 2016, 02:03:22 AM
My work bro keeps talking about alien conspiracies :hans1

It seems my active listening skills have led to a feedback loop of him thinking I give a shit.

Him:
(http://i.imgur.com/R8kXZUz.gif)

Me:
(http://i.imgur.com/MTQQBuj.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2016, 12:55:02 PM
Third day I woke up with a massive headache.  Fuck me this shit sucks. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 29, 2016, 01:05:32 PM
I didn't follow your history of addiction very closely, so: do you replace the fluid you used to get from Coke?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2016, 01:34:18 PM
ya lots of water
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 29, 2016, 01:47:58 PM
In that case I have no idea what's causing the headaches, but I hope they stop.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on January 29, 2016, 01:51:52 PM
Apparently, one of the main causes of headaches upon waking up is the ratio of nitrogen in the air you breathe while you sleep. Air your place out thoroughly as possible before ya sleep, see how that goes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 29, 2016, 02:45:37 PM
I recommend you smoke weed erryday
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on January 29, 2016, 04:46:11 PM
That too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2016, 05:01:21 PM
Had some coke, headache went away.  Fuck this shit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2016, 05:01:37 PM
Also have rocketman stuck in my head.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2016, 05:02:11 PM
And I'm at work so I can't sing outloud.  The struggle is real today. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on January 29, 2016, 05:03:02 PM
It's lack of caffeine causing your headaches, then.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2016, 05:38:10 PM
That or the rocketman trying to get out and its going to be a long long time before tomorrow brings us around to find out. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 29, 2016, 06:01:37 PM
Total of 4 hours of sleep last two nights, currently trying not to pass out at my desk, pretty worried about the 45 minute drive up the mountain tbh

And I'm playing Neko Atsume, did someone make an L thread?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 29, 2016, 06:24:22 PM
Total of 4 hours of sleep last two nights, currently trying not to pass out at my desk, pretty worried about the 45 minute drive up the mountain tbh

And I'm playing Neko Atsume, did someone make an L thread?

Add me on GameCenter if you haven't. Same name as here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 29, 2016, 06:25:09 PM
And I'm at work so I can't sing outloud.  The struggle is real today.

You're simply choosing to not sing aloud. This could be a big step in getting rid of your social anxiety. Or go do a duet with Sushi Girl.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 29, 2016, 06:29:36 PM
Added ya, but I'm not seeing Game Center functionality for that game? Could be my old ass phone I'm using or something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 30, 2016, 05:09:23 PM
Had 12 espresso shots and 750ml of coke zero today.  Feel great. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 30, 2016, 05:22:04 PM
Just hop on the Mio bandwagon already.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 30, 2016, 05:30:36 PM
Added ya, but I'm not seeing Game Center functionality for that game? Could be my old ass phone I'm using or something.
Thanks. Added ya back, and I haven't yet fired it up, but: JAPAN. Probably because: Japan.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 31, 2016, 01:09:02 PM
I want to see Christina Aguilera nude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 31, 2016, 05:43:58 PM
Jennifer Garner. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 31, 2016, 11:32:42 PM
Jennifer Connelly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 01, 2016, 01:09:33 AM
Jerry O'Connell
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 01, 2016, 01:15:40 AM
Stana Katic.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 04, 2016, 10:34:42 PM
When I played Fallout New Vegas and everyone kept referring to Caesar as "Kay-Zar", I thought I'd been pronouncing Caesar wrong my whole life by saying "See-Zar", so I've been pronouncing the word as Kay-Zar for the last 3 years+ and now with Hail! Caesar out and I kept calling it "Hail! Kay-Zar" and feeling like really non-confident that I'm not saying it totally incorrect I looked it up finally and yeah in everywhere in the modern age it's pronounced "See-Zar" and unless I time travel back to the Roman Era I'm pronouncing the damn thing wrong :(

At least I know now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 04, 2016, 11:28:32 PM
Ya latin has no soft c's.  English however does. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 05, 2016, 12:44:56 AM
Time for Bebs to take his soft L.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 05, 2016, 12:52:36 AM
Better than taking a soft D.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 05, 2016, 10:14:31 AM
lot of soft G's itt
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 09, 2016, 03:46:04 AM
Had the accounts ive been working on after my boss told me to focus on them reassigned to someone else :lol

What a collosal waste of time

Gonna send out a job application this week fuck this shit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 09, 2016, 04:36:11 AM
Boss claims he didn't know this happened.

What a hack.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on February 09, 2016, 05:17:53 AM
I assume there's no paper (or email) trail of this? No sense trying to win that argument otherwise.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 09, 2016, 06:30:55 AM
There is now as he sent a surprised mail to me and a few others :lol

But just how important it was to him and how he "communicated" with me on the phone is lost.

I haven't done anything but fume at work today so I guess the joke is on him, not gonna be doing shit that might be taken away from me and then have to explain why targets are not reached (targets we still don't have for this Q so far into feb.)

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on February 09, 2016, 08:58:18 AM
Had the accounts ive been working on after my boss told me to focus on them reassigned to someone else :lol

What a collosal waste of time

Gonna send out a job application this week fuck this shit

Well to be fair you pissed off like half the people you work with, basically use work as a singles hookup spot, you leave early, and you were the alleged target of an terrorist attack that was planned up by some white collar fucktards. I'd probably shitcan you too bro.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on February 09, 2016, 08:59:43 AM
I assume there's no paper (or email) trail of this? No sense trying to win that argument otherwise.

I'm a boss. You don't win arguments against your boss very often. So unless Wrath has some serious proof of him being fucked over he probably should just walk away. Although I'm not sure what the Saudi attitude or laws regarding right to work, etc.....
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on February 09, 2016, 09:05:20 AM
Wrath is in Saudi and Lager is in Denmark. You may have them confused.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on February 09, 2016, 09:09:30 AM
Wrath is in Saudi and Lager is in Denmark. You may have them confused.

Both are on my don't hire list :yeshrug

 :umad
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on February 09, 2016, 09:45:02 AM
Becoming your own boss.   :money

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Well, I'm not at that point yet. But I'm slowly but surely getting there.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 09, 2016, 10:40:16 AM
Wrath is in Saudi and Lager is in Denmark. You may have them confused.

Both are on my don't hire list :yeshrug

 :umad

And this is why you are the boss. 'Opps I confused two people?  Well their fault.  Don't hire either of them'
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 09, 2016, 11:06:12 AM
wanted to put music on ipod:

0) need to move album to itunes
1) Itunes is out of date so I need to update it
2) then I need to update itunes on the ipod
3) but first I need to transfer my purches from my ipod to my mac
4) which needs to be done because iCloud was trying to make me change my password a few months ago and I didn't want to so I turned it off

All in all it has taken an hour to get to the point where the ipod is finally updating itunes.  All I wanted was to transfer one fucking album to my ipod.  And its always like this because I hardly ever do it. 

Mobile devices and not being able just to have a file system I can manage :piss2 :piss2 :piss2

Never buying an apple product again. 

I'm still upset about last night

Saw a thread on reddit about Apple's software being shit and got re-enraged by this night.  It will be with me forever. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on February 09, 2016, 03:29:23 PM
Why are you so opposed to using VLC or something for playback? Or update it with songbird or whatever that iTunes alt is called
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on February 09, 2016, 04:45:05 PM
Syncing iPods is so 2000s. I just started using Tidal and have been really impressed. They offer lossless (FLAC, ALAC) streaming and they a 50% student discount.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 09, 2016, 08:09:22 PM
1)  Got a date tonight that I was excited about until she moved the location half the city away.  Now im like fuck it.
2)  The Google Brain team released a paper that does shit I wanted to do but way way better.  Also they make me skeptical that my way was even ever going to work.  Their best model was trained on 32 GPUs for 3 weeks.  Cant even begin to compete with that.  Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 10, 2016, 01:32:51 AM
went on date; brought nachos home
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on February 10, 2016, 01:36:48 AM
Counts as success.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 10, 2016, 11:21:06 AM
Nachos is one lucky guy.  :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 10, 2016, 11:43:34 AM
Si
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on February 10, 2016, 01:20:20 PM
went on date; brought nachos home
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDdEFPTEm2c
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on February 10, 2016, 04:23:01 PM
Can't do cool like like snap chat the beer I'm drinking at lunch since my boss now follows me
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 10, 2016, 05:35:20 PM
Got a sprayed by a skunk on Monday, still smell skunky. I'm sure everyone at work hates me. Probably should have just taken the week off, but I had too much stuff to do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 11, 2016, 08:33:39 AM
Do you live in the bush mate
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on February 11, 2016, 09:11:06 AM
No, but I eat there. :phil
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 11, 2016, 09:22:15 AM
You are what you eat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on February 11, 2016, 09:36:30 AM
Got a sprayed by a skunk on Monday, still smell skunky. I'm sure everyone at work hates me. Probably should have just taken the week off, but I had too much stuff to do.

Tomato juice bath bro.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on February 11, 2016, 09:37:13 AM
Can't do cool like like snap chat the beer I'm drinking at lunch since my boss now follows me

That gets old when you're like 23. Nobody cares, even you boss, trust me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 18, 2016, 03:28:13 PM
I think I caught a sore throat and am sitting in bed. Wish I had dentist spit-sink.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on February 18, 2016, 05:31:56 PM
Can't do cool like like snap chat the beer I'm drinking at lunch since my boss now follows me

That gets old when you're like 23. Nobody cares, even you boss, trust me.

I should hope not, he was buying
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 19, 2016, 01:11:52 AM
So work has shifted my work role from more of delivery and management to more sales. My company needs me to do this role, I get that. But I hate it. I. hate. it.
I know how to manage people, I know how to manage projects, I know how to build, I know how to negotiate what's needed, I know how to lead. But this sales stuff? I hate all of it. I don't like things that are beyond my control, and nearly everything in sales is beyond your control. A client decides to do something internally? Nothing you can do. They decide to start next quarter instead of this quarter? Nothing you can do. They don't get back to you for weeks? Nothing you can do. They, for some silly reason don't like you? You're fucked, and there's also practically nothing you can do. When I was managing a team, something goes wrong I know the levers to pull to fix it. Someone doesn't return my call? They're fired. Etc, etc. I've been around the block long enough to know that there's growing pains in every new position as you flex muscels you haven't used before. But, this seems to me to be beyond growing pains to just being something I really don't like. I didn't mind it when it was a deal or two here and there, but 100% all this? No thanks. I'm somewhat torn, my company needs this to be done, and really I'm the only one that makes sense to do it, so I can't really say, "Hey, I hate this, let someone else do this." and I'd rather not leave my company to leave the role. But I don't know if this is going to work.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on February 19, 2016, 05:30:43 AM
Yea I'm not built for sales. I barely enjoy meeting with clients at all, imagine having to do it all the time and constantly be blindsided by "thanks but we decided to do x instead."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 19, 2016, 08:54:28 PM
I could barely get to the bathroom due to joint pain this morning and when I got there, I was coughing up bloody sputum.  :( Doctor believes that I have a viral chest infection and so the only types of support are pain/cough medicines. Amazingly, I am now more or less functional.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 19, 2016, 08:59:22 PM
get well dude.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 19, 2016, 09:18:16 PM
It turns out I have probably given/gotten it from my lady friend a few days ago. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on February 20, 2016, 02:01:57 AM
Nice. Now gift it to a third person, you gotta carry on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 20, 2016, 03:05:15 AM
It turns out I have probably given/gotten it from my lady friend a few days ago. :doge

Wow nice humblebrag, breh. Some of us can only wish we were bleeding out of various orifices because we were with a girl.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on February 20, 2016, 03:12:51 PM
Got super wasted. Hit up my ex-gf on facebook. I haven't talked to her in nearly four years after dumping her. Tried to get her to come over so I could hit it. Failed. This took place between 3AM and 4AM. Never opening up facebook messenger again so that I never have to spent a fragment of a second reading the shit I sent her. I am a broken man.  :clap
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on February 20, 2016, 03:30:29 PM
Please also note that the girl I love broke my heart and I am suffering.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on February 20, 2016, 03:36:54 PM
Stay strong, king of the internet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on February 21, 2016, 09:31:48 AM
So work has shifted my work role from more of delivery and management to more sales. My company needs me to do this role, I get that. But I hate it. I. hate. it.
I know how to manage people, I know how to manage projects, I know how to build, I know how to negotiate what's needed, I know how to lead. But this sales stuff? I hate all of it. I don't like things that are beyond my control, and nearly everything in sales is beyond your control. A client decides to do something internally? Nothing you can do. They decide to start next quarter instead of this quarter? Nothing you can do. They don't get back to you for weeks? Nothing you can do. They, for some silly reason don't like you? You're fucked, and there's also practically nothing you can do. When I was managing a team, something goes wrong I know the levers to pull to fix it. Someone doesn't return my call? They're fired. Etc, etc. I've been around the block long enough to know that there's growing pains in every new position as you flex muscels you haven't used before. But, this seems to me to be beyond growing pains to just being something I really don't like. I didn't mind it when it was a deal or two here and there, but 100% all this? No thanks. I'm somewhat torn, my company needs this to be done, and really I'm the only one that makes sense to do it, so I can't really say, "Hey, I hate this, let someone else do this." and I'd rather not leave my company to leave the role. But I don't know if this is going to work.

If sales isn't for you, then inevitably your work overall is going to suffer.  If your overall work begins suffering, then your reputation takes a hit if you're well known in your industry (I assume you are some kind of project manager or consultant).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 21, 2016, 11:52:28 AM
yeah it's a mixed bag. I'm closing deals and making contacts. If anything my reputation has gotten better. But secretly I just hate it all.
Luckily it's just early in this process and I already see what you're talking about. While I'm doing OK for right now, eventually it's going to get bad, I just need to find a way to get out somehow.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 21, 2016, 03:24:45 PM
So work has shifted my work role from more of delivery and management to more sales. My company needs me to do this role, I get that. But I hate it. I. hate. it.
I know how to manage people, I know how to manage projects, I know how to build, I know how to negotiate what's needed, I know how to lead. But this sales stuff? I hate all of it. I don't like things that are beyond my control, and nearly everything in sales is beyond your control. A client decides to do something internally? Nothing you can do. They decide to start next quarter instead of this quarter? Nothing you can do. They don't get back to you for weeks? Nothing you can do. They, for some silly reason don't like you? You're fucked, and there's also practically nothing you can do. When I was managing a team, something goes wrong I know the levers to pull to fix it. Someone doesn't return my call? They're fired. Etc, etc. I've been around the block long enough to know that there's growing pains in every new position as you flex muscels you haven't used before. But, this seems to me to be beyond growing pains to just being something I really don't like. I didn't mind it when it was a deal or two here and there, but 100% all this? No thanks. I'm somewhat torn, my company needs this to be done, and really I'm the only one that makes sense to do it, so I can't really say, "Hey, I hate this, let someone else do this." and I'd rather not leave my company to leave the role. But I don't know if this is going to work.

If sales isn't for you, then inevitably your work overall is going to suffer.  If your overall work begins suffering, then your reputation takes a hit if you're well known in your industry (I assume you are some kind of project manager or consultant).

Yeah, definitely.

Puppy, does your boss and/or boss' boss know that you're not only unhappy in your new role, but that you have no interest in it?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 21, 2016, 04:27:32 PM
Oh he knows. But he's like "You'll learn to like it." And also he's also said that if I don't do it he'd have to shut down that line of business because he doesn't have anyone else that can do that, and the role is not really one you can hire. Granted I've only been at it for about 4 months, so everyone's like "It's just growing pains. Don't worry."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 21, 2016, 04:29:16 PM
Lost 4 games in a row in Rocket League.  Such a real struggle today. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 21, 2016, 06:51:44 PM
Ate Taco Bell and watched Cheech & Chong's Up in Smoke while stone sober.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on February 21, 2016, 07:06:08 PM
Not one of the four fucking turntables I own work and neither does the replacement I bought off amazon. I am so fucking frustrated. Why can't shit just fucking work as described, fuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 21, 2016, 10:28:52 PM
Did they all break at once? Have they been in storage? I don't understand how that is possible and also some sort of surprise. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on February 21, 2016, 10:51:37 PM
I had been using a decent older Bose player before the belt wore out, so I swapped in one of my Numarks since I haven't done anything DJ related in years. That one just started to 'wobble' the pitch, and I discovered today that the other Numarks tone arm is broken. The last one just doesn't seem to be getting power, but it's got a pretty garbage cartridge anyway.

The Numarks shitting the bed was kind of a surprise, but I'm more annoyed by buying something new that just flat out doesn't work. Now I have to wait til Wednesday to play this Barter 6 lp >:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 22, 2016, 02:21:28 AM
Oh he knows. But he's like "You'll learn to like it." And also he's also said that if I don't do it he'd have to shut down that line of business because he doesn't have anyone else that can do that, and the role is not really one you can hire. Granted I've only been at it for about 4 months, so everyone's like "It's just growing pains. Don't worry."
Yeah, that's a load of bullshit for your boss to be that way. If you don't like it, if it doesn't interest you, you're going to leave. You'll either check out formally by quitting, or you'll be less effective because you're not engaged or allowed to self-actualize. It may be a good idea to start looking around for other options. Sorry you're having a bad time of it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on February 22, 2016, 03:02:14 PM
Ate an entire box of thin mints today.

Fuck you girl scouts.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 23, 2016, 02:07:26 AM
Oh he knows. But he's like "You'll learn to like it." And also he's also said that if I don't do it he'd have to shut down that line of business because he doesn't have anyone else that can do that, and the role is not really one you can hire. Granted I've only been at it for about 4 months, so everyone's like "It's just growing pains. Don't worry."
Yeah, that's a load of bullshit for your boss to be that way. If you don't like it, if it doesn't interest you, you're going to leave. You'll either check out formally by quitting, or you'll be less effective because you're not engaged or allowed to self-actualize. It may be a good idea to start looking around for other options. Sorry you're having a bad time of it.
Yeah, I'm dusting off the old CV.
this week I'm doing some good ol' delivery work. So that's good. But yeah, I should probably start getting serious about looking.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 23, 2016, 03:25:32 AM
Oh he knows. But he's like "You'll learn to like it." And also he's also said that if I don't do it he'd have to shut down that line of business because he doesn't have anyone else that can do that, and the role is not really one you can hire. Granted I've only been at it for about 4 months, so everyone's like "It's just growing pains. Don't worry."

The only time in sales where you don't feel growing pains is when you are on track to hit that target and get a bonus.

The lows can be very low and the highs are high.

I've been kind of demoted in my role (after being in a way too senior role to begin with), but they changed my comp plan and I actually get way more money now, was ready to quit, but this is working quite well now, at least this quarter  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 23, 2016, 03:40:12 PM
I didn't think there was such thing as "bad tea" but I randomly grabbed some lemongrass citrus green tea at the market and not only does it smell disgusting, it tastes just as bad  :-X

gross
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 23, 2016, 03:49:59 PM
There were free meat pies in the lab today and I accidentally picked a vegetarian one.  I wish I were dead. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 23, 2016, 03:55:21 PM
I've had plenty of free meat pies in my day :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 23, 2016, 04:06:13 PM
What your mom gives you doesn't count.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 24, 2016, 07:16:09 PM
Installed a python package from github and it blew up my entire python environment.  Took 2 days to figure out and I ended up having to nuke all my python modules and reinstall.  FUCK THIS SHIT.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 24, 2016, 09:28:13 PM
gitgud
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on February 24, 2016, 09:35:02 PM
Noticed my hair line has been receding and my hair is thinning out. Isn't bad yet, but I definitely notice differences compared to a year or two ago. Preparing myself mentally for a devito, larry david, or just shaving it all off. Luckily I have facial hair, so I won't be completely nude on my head.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on February 26, 2016, 03:37:00 PM
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fuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on February 26, 2016, 03:47:46 PM
That sucks.  :(

What hit you?
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 26, 2016, 04:04:53 PM
At least you weren't drunk.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 26, 2016, 04:06:13 PM
Fuck it I'm buying cookies today. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on February 26, 2016, 05:00:49 PM
arvie :dead

that sucks BN sorry to see. I'm kinda surprised I've only been in one mini accident, and it didn't do any external damage.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 26, 2016, 05:09:38 PM
That sucks.  :(

What hit you?

It totally looks like he was at fault tho.  :doge

You'll be 'kay BK. Doesn't look like the frame or anything powertrain related got damaged so just chillax and then rev the nuts off a rental for a few days.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on February 27, 2016, 12:31:20 AM
I was at fault yeah.  Dude in front slammed his brakes so I had to as well but I did it too late and had to swerve a bit.  Oh well.

No I wasn't drunk doofus.  I haven't gotten behind the wheel after having even one beer in five months
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 27, 2016, 02:27:58 PM
Sorry BN. One valuable thing I've learned on a bike is spacing. I don't know why people like to drive so close together. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on February 27, 2016, 02:55:49 PM
One thing I've learned over my 15 years of driving, numerous professional driving courses such as the Motorcycle Safety Foundation course, the State Department's Personal Security Detail driving course, and multiple military driving courses: driving is dangerous. Anyone can say after an accident, "You should have done X," but with the amount of driving Americans do (something like 16,000 hours over the course of a lifetime), accidents are bound to happen. I hope you're not hurt and I wish you better luck in the future.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 28, 2016, 11:41:32 AM
For clarity I wasn't saying he should have done something different since he didn't really provide enough specifics. Just stating an observation that I've made that came to mind from his situation. People like to drive really close together and I don't understand why.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 28, 2016, 12:27:38 PM
For clarity I wasn't saying he should have done something different since he didn't really provide enough specifics. Just stating an observation that I've made that came to mind from his situation. People like to drive really close together and I don't understand why.

Well you ride bikes so I'm guessing you are a lot more careful when it comes to braking distances. In my first car (also a Mazda lol) my brakes locked up on the highway and I bumped the trailer hitch of the SUV ahead of me. I got VERY lucky and only had a dent on my license plate while he had no damage at all but you know like most people, I only learned how much your speed/distance/etc matters by getting into an accident.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 28, 2016, 04:33:05 PM
Yeah. It's not covered very well in basic driving courses so no one realizes how far it takes to stop at a decent speed. My first car was also a Mazda by the way. A 1998 Mazda 626! That damn thing was awesome.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on February 29, 2016, 03:20:13 PM
My girl had two of her teeth crack due to an accident a while back, had to have a bridge installed. They just finished it and she's freaking out about it since it was two of the teeth you see facing forward when you smile and she thinks it looks awful. I think it looks fine but damn, you'd think someone just died with how she reacted to it. She's not having it, guess she's going back to see if they can have anything done.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on February 29, 2016, 03:22:15 PM
My girl had two of her teeth crack due to an accident a while back, had to have a bridge installed. They just finished it and she's freaking out about it since it was two of the teeth you see facing forward when you smile and she thinks it looks awful. I think it looks fine but damn, you'd think someone just died with how she reacted to it. She's not having it, guess she's going back to see if they can have anything done.  :-\

time to start saving for implants
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on February 29, 2016, 03:38:50 PM
My girl had two of her teeth crack due to an accident a while back, had to have a bridge installed. They just finished it and she's freaking out about it since it was two of the teeth you see facing forward when you smile and she thinks it looks awful. I think it looks fine but damn, you'd think someone just died with how she reacted to it. She's not having it, guess she's going back to see if they can have anything done.  :-\

time to start saving for implants

Time to go to Mexico I guess...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 29, 2016, 05:07:39 PM
My girl had two of her teeth crack due to an accident a while back, had to have a bridge installed. They just finished it and she's freaking out about it since it was two of the teeth you see facing forward when you smile and she thinks it looks awful. I think it looks fine but damn, you'd think someone just died with how she reacted to it. She's not having it, guess she's going back to see if they can have anything done.  :-\

time to start saving for implants

Breast implants, to make sure no one's looking at her face.  :phil
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on February 29, 2016, 05:49:04 PM
 ??? :o So my ass is at work, I guess she hit the dentistry back up a fucking wreck crying or something.
Dentist is checking the lab to have them remake the bridge with something closer to her original imprints, dude is eating the cost of it.
I'm legit surprised and grateful as a motherfucker right now. Dude's a nice old guy with his small practice who told her beforehand not to be worried since she was nervous as fuck about having to get two teeth removed.

fuck  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 29, 2016, 06:27:51 PM
Better give him something nice, like a toothless blow job. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 29, 2016, 07:34:32 PM
Watching more mass layoffs take place at my company  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 01, 2016, 03:02:49 AM
3am im drunk and I hate my life.  went down like 6 rankrs in rocket league today. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on March 01, 2016, 09:17:25 AM
Watching more mass layoffs take place at my company  :-\

I saw the news and was hoping you weren't affected. Good luck to you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on March 01, 2016, 04:04:14 PM
Watching more mass layoffs take place at my company  :-\

thankfully you're good

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mods Help on March 01, 2016, 04:12:39 PM
wrong thread
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 01, 2016, 04:15:31 PM
Tell your dad Trump's not going to win. In the meantime, save as much money as possible and make the decision to emigrate when you want.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 01, 2016, 04:59:02 PM
How did he fuck you? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 01, 2016, 06:39:24 PM
How did he fuck you? 

anal
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on March 02, 2016, 01:04:31 AM
Better give him something nice, like a toothless blow job.

I settled on a handy, I'm considering spitting on my hand to boot. Least I could do in gratitude.   :PP
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on March 02, 2016, 06:55:39 PM
Fuck my girl's teeth new struggle.

Supposed to fly out to Colorado on Friday to snowboard till Sunday. Apparently the dude in charge of booking shit for the crew was like... lmao forgot. So we're scrambling to find lodging and I guess we're paying regular price for tickets since no one bothered to decide what mountains we were hitting till today. Fuck  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on March 06, 2016, 11:15:53 PM
what did you do
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 06, 2016, 11:29:29 PM
I'm super sick and have a paper deadline at the end of the month.  Like I have shat out like 4L of water today.  I have gotten sick like once ever 2 months for 3 years. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 06, 2016, 11:31:29 PM
what did you do
Might have something to do with being vague...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 06, 2016, 11:34:03 PM
I'm super sick and have a paper deadline at the end of the month.  Like I have shat out like 4L of water today.  I have gotten sick like once ever 2 months for 3 years.

Sounds like the time I got E. coli, feel better
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 06, 2016, 11:55:34 PM
finally puked and feel slightly better except i shit myself in the process :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 07, 2016, 11:55:04 AM
Everytime i stand i almost pass out
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 07, 2016, 12:18:50 PM
Don't die  :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on March 07, 2016, 04:00:38 PM
Your time has come, brother.  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 07, 2016, 04:09:08 PM
Don't stand up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 07, 2016, 06:53:43 PM
ended up having to call a friend to help walk nami and get me groceries.  i havebt been this sick since i was a kid.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 07, 2016, 10:56:11 PM
lost 5 pounds in a day.  im feeling a bit better though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 07, 2016, 11:11:16 PM
Drink as much fluids as you can dude. I had a similar malady a couple weeks ago.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 08, 2016, 10:46:43 AM
I feel a lot better today.  Havent puked once and I can sit up with out passing out.  Lost 8 pounds in 2 days. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on March 08, 2016, 11:27:40 AM
That's the kind of thinspiration I need. I'm going to go hang around a walk-in clinic this afternoon and try to pick up some flu.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 08, 2016, 08:23:02 PM
Ya its all water weight plus not eating.  I'm back to feeling really shitty with a bad fever. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on March 08, 2016, 09:14:08 PM
Overcooked my steak   :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 10, 2016, 10:20:39 AM
still sick.  ive only been able to keep down 2 gronolla bars 3 apples a banana and juice for 4 days.  last night i had terrible terrible craps.  on the up side, i started peeing again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 10, 2016, 04:44:15 PM
Its yellow orangeish.   I kept soup down and have more energy so im hoping its mostly over.  I havent been nearly this sick since i was a kid.  Feels awful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 11, 2016, 12:31:12 PM
Spent all night with a bubbling stomach only to start shitting every 20min from 3am to 7am.   I'm so tired.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 11, 2016, 12:50:43 PM
Ran into my mom at lunch today. I was with a couple coworkers, one of whom is a lesbian. We were talking about Caitlyn Jenner's Ted Cruz support when my mom walked up on us. Introduced her, she got into the conversation and then said "you know what that is. *whispers* That's the white man in her."

:dead

Awkward chuckles followed as I melted in my seat  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on March 11, 2016, 03:47:03 PM
Posted a long work rant and nobody cared.  :'(

Removed it.
:jawalrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 11, 2016, 03:50:09 PM
I read it but didn't have any advice and wasn't sure if I should like it (we need reactions).  Hope you get that position.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 11, 2016, 03:57:38 PM
I skimmed it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 11, 2016, 04:43:16 PM
I think I finished typing up a response but then I deleted because I thought somebody with more experience would say it better. Basically, she's got the signs of a poor manager who doesn't know how to deal with people. Nothing you can do but smile, roll your eyes, and report when it gets really crazy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on March 11, 2016, 06:17:42 PM
Appreciate it, guys.  It was seriously killing me to be working with this woman doing almost everything and getting treated like shit and I cannot believe how much better I have been feeling since last week.  Actually having fun at work again!  :)

Basically, she's got the signs of a poor manager who doesn't know how to deal with people. Nothing you can do but smile, roll your eyes, and report when it gets really crazy.

Pretty much.  I'm just wondering what the hell it's going to take for her to get kicked out of here.  :-\

She didn't come in today and neither did the guy she was berating, so nothing happened.  I did tell my boss all about it though. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on March 12, 2016, 02:37:27 AM
Yeah read it too, but there's not a lot you can do in that kind of structure except hang on and wait for shit managers to get their come uppance (which may or may not arrive).

I don't have this kind of issues at work but we're still in the slump of the company being bought and activity in my department is a shallow as ever. They struggle to give us a week's work every month, which is the bare minimum I need to do over the year to keep my special unemployment benefits (which are super good). I was just granted them, so I'm OK money wise for the next 8 months even if I work not a single day but it's kind of shitty nonetheless. Permanent employees also feeling the burn with the night shift being axed... Our dept. activity is reliant on a single major contract that is still up in negociations and could stay so until June  :-\

Been scouting opportunities elsewhere but my branch is super specialized and there's not a lot of potential employers in Europe. Would probably settle for something related if possible to keep the hours flowing in.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 12, 2016, 02:42:26 AM
Spent all night with a bubbling stomach only to start shitting every 20min from 3am to 7am.   I'm so tired.
Have you seen a doctor yet? It's been several days of this, hasn't it? I'm worried. I bet Sushi Girl is worried, too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 12, 2016, 10:36:50 AM
Its slowly getting better though.  The worst was the nausea and that went away a few days ago and its mostly likely either food poising or a very bad flu, either of which cant be helped by a doctor.

I keep having sup fucked up dreams though.  Last night I dreampt I was rebel leader fleeing from getting captured and I hid in a cave/crevice and they found me and killed me by forcing my men to sqeeze into the hole so I couldnt get out or move and then shot them. 

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I was a black slave rebel pre civil war  :dead
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 17, 2016, 11:20:07 AM
My research data came out with really unequal groups. Basically impossible (and unethical) do to any comparisons or statistics between the groups. Has turned into a descriptive trial and lost a chance at being published in a bigger journal
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 17, 2016, 11:53:08 AM
That sucks dude

Struggling with my own research at the moment too. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 17, 2016, 05:52:00 PM
My research data came out with really unequal groups. Basically impossible (and unethical) do to any comparisons or statistics between the groups. Has turned into a descriptive trial and lost a chance at being published in a bigger journal
I just had that happened with some Market research my boss had me do. He was like "Make something out of this" I'm like, "......I can't...."
I feel you man. Sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 17, 2016, 06:13:30 PM
Paid $1200 to a dealership for minor computer problem that controls the steering lock on my car. Would be a few hundred to fix at an independent shop but apparently only dealerships have the right software...

I just had to have a stick shift volvo.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on March 20, 2016, 12:06:14 AM
Saw the woman I was dating/having sex with for 3 weeks at the end of Jan/beginning of Feb out tonight with the boyfriend she didn't tell me about until I busted her on it, thus ending our thing. That wasn't awkward or anything.

(http://cdn.makeagif.com/media/5-15-2015/aO9nso.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 20, 2016, 02:46:39 AM
Crappy situation but makes for high potential fuckery if you use it in a comedy show. I would take advantage of this opportunity.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 20, 2016, 02:57:15 AM
Saw the woman I was dating/having sex with for 3 weeks at the end of Jan/beginning of Feb out tonight with the boyfriend she didn't tell me about until I busted her on it, thus ending our thing. That wasn't awkward or anything.

I initially read this as "she didn't tell me about until I busted in her" and was picturing her shouting "I have a boyfriend!" right as you shot your load. That would be awkward.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 20, 2016, 10:52:16 AM
Saw the woman I was dating/having sex with for 3 weeks at the end of Jan/beginning of Feb out tonight with the boyfriend she didn't tell me about until I busted her on it, thus ending our thing. That wasn't awkward or anything.

I initially read this as "she didn't tell me about until I busted in her" and was picturing her shouting "I have a boyfriend!" right as you shot your load. That would be awkward.
Glad I wasn't the only one that read it this way.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 20, 2016, 10:54:24 AM
Flying to Singapore this week. Ugh. This is gonna suck. I'll be in the a day and a half this week.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 20, 2016, 01:34:47 PM
Don't get caned!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on March 20, 2016, 10:50:44 PM
A can of corn got the best of me today to the tune of 6 stitches in my index finger. This L will hang around for awhile.  :snoop

edit: I didn't see the post above this before I posted. :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 21, 2016, 09:18:05 AM
Saw the woman I was dating/having sex with for 3 weeks at the end of Jan/beginning of Feb out tonight with the boyfriend she didn't tell me about until I busted her on it, thus ending our thing. That wasn't awkward or anything.

(http://cdn.makeagif.com/media/5-15-2015/aO9nso.gif)
Sorry, Louie.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 21, 2016, 10:41:46 AM
My pop's best friend and my second father passed away today. Cancer is a motherfucker.

I did everything I could in terms of getting the best healthcare and paying the bill. I wish i could have done more.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on March 21, 2016, 02:51:47 PM
Sorry for your loss.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 21, 2016, 06:10:51 PM
Cancers super rough. Working with an onc service right now. How young some of these people are with young kids and metastatic cancer is heart breaking
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 21, 2016, 08:11:24 PM
I'm sorry A_I_A.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on March 21, 2016, 09:18:44 PM
Sorry to hear about that, AIA. And don't beat yourself up about it, I'm sure you did as much as you could, probably more than anyone would have expected you to.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 21, 2016, 09:27:53 PM
Sorry to hear about that, AIA. And don't beat yourself up about it, I'm sure you did as much as you could, probably more than anyone would have expected you to.

I'm good man. Just sucks he was really the last link I had to my pops. I guess it's on me now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 22, 2016, 01:36:16 PM
Got pretty poor experiment results in a project I don't care about.  Going to miss the submission date, which means my supervisor might want me to put even more time into this stupid project. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on March 22, 2016, 02:09:29 PM
A can of corn got the best of me today to the tune of 6 stitches in my index finger. This L will hang around for awhile.  :snoop

Pic or gtfo:
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 22, 2016, 02:12:38 PM
Did you stitch yourself?

@aia: condolences
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on March 22, 2016, 02:21:43 PM
Yep, I had planned to cauterize it, but I didn't have enough gunpowder with me at that moment. So I took apart one of my boot laces for the string and used a paper clip from the screw off end of my Rambo knife for the needle.

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J/K apparently in the US health care system, they let 4th year med school students do this stuff.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 22, 2016, 05:17:00 PM
Oh man, med students. The horror stories I could tell about dental schools.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 22, 2016, 07:01:22 PM
Finding fairly ironclad evidence that a chick you went to college with and had a huge crush on, but could never get anywhere with, has a vagina.

 :goty2 :snoop :shaq2
:doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 22, 2016, 07:09:07 PM
huh?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 22, 2016, 07:24:24 PM
 :confused
were you hoping for a cock?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 22, 2016, 07:45:22 PM
AiA, sorry to hear about your loss. Cancer is a mean sonovabitch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 22, 2016, 08:33:45 PM
Do you mean you found almost or fully naked pics or sumpin? We need a translation, Walrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 23, 2016, 12:55:59 AM
You're getting that itch to spawn aren't ya?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on March 23, 2016, 12:58:43 AM
:confused
were you hoping for a cock?

It's more about being reminded of what could have been. Plus when things don't happen you can always tell yourself that the person was like a Barbie doll down there. :fbm

:jared
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 23, 2016, 06:36:44 AM
Have to give a talk today to what may be a large audience.  Got 3 hours of sleep  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 23, 2016, 07:23:45 AM
You're getting that itch to spawn aren't ya?

No, my bloodline dies with me, though the gf and I have talked about adopting if we stay together long enough.

:dunno


So wait you don't want a kid of your own or you guys can't conceive? Because I don't understand the point of adopting a child if you can have your own. Just my .02 cents.

Note: I am all for adoption, I just don't understand your thought process here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 23, 2016, 07:43:03 AM
tax credits and skip the terrible 2's.  Win/Win!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 23, 2016, 07:52:47 AM
tax credits and skip the terrible 2's.  Win/Win!

Again, I'm not anti-adoption in the least. I just fail to understand why you wouldn't procreate with your own DNA.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 23, 2016, 08:27:33 AM
When you have a good chance of passing on a undesireable trait.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 23, 2016, 08:43:57 AM
When you have a good chance of passing on a undesireable trait.

Ugly is only 50% heredity sir.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 23, 2016, 02:47:11 PM
Giant dong syndrome is no laughing matter, let this man cook, society can't handle all that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on March 23, 2016, 03:44:51 PM
I have a medical condition with a decent chance of passing on. Not related to physical appearance.

Chronic butt hurt is not a real medical condition.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 23, 2016, 04:01:36 PM
And playing guitars at parties is a lifestyle choice. It's not genetic.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 23, 2016, 04:29:48 PM
And playing guitars at parties is a lifestyle choice. It's not genetic.

Ether
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on March 23, 2016, 04:51:13 PM
And playing guitars at parties is a lifestyle choice. It's not genetic.

Having shit-tier hand tendons that crap out on you so that your thousands of hours of masturbating to anime end up being all for nothing probably IS genetic though.

Fixed it for you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 23, 2016, 07:13:46 PM
And playing guitars at parties is a lifestyle choice. It's not genetic.

Having shit-tier hand tendons that crap out on you so that your thousands of hours of masturbating to anime end up being all for nothing probably IS genetic though.

Fixed it for you.
(https://media.giphy.com/media/D7Qzw12q9s8Tu/giphy.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 23, 2016, 11:20:14 PM
Walrus is afraid his seed could be more intelligent than him. Which is understandable because the higher IQ gets the higher chance for super villainy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 29, 2016, 12:05:45 PM
Yeah that's why I tend to advise people that want kids not to wait too long to have kids because you definitely feel the drag later. When I had my first kid I was young enough to be able to be up most of the night with a cranky baby and then do a full days work. By my last kid just a little over 10 years later I was dead on my feet with even getting more sleep.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 29, 2016, 12:51:44 PM
Just don't have any kids. Be a winner and serve your corporate masters with no family interruptions
:rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 29, 2016, 01:51:29 PM
I was way behind on a project for work, so I stayed up until 2am working on it, then got up at 5:30 to finish up. Now I'm done, but I'm feeling fucking dead.

It wasn't so long ago that I'd be fine on 3.5 hours of sleep for at least one day. I think it was my late 20's when I noticed I was having a harder time with it, and now at 32 it feels almost impossible.

I can't do this anymore either and I'm 27.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 29, 2016, 01:51:57 PM
Just don't have any kids. Be a winner and serve your corporate masters with no family interruptions
:rejoice
#wagecucks
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Alcoholic Fish on March 30, 2016, 11:17:13 AM
Dog has gastritis.  :-\

Not sure what the cause is but we're trying to narrow it down. The funniest part is that it might be chrons, which my girlfriend also has. What are the odds.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on March 31, 2016, 06:41:40 AM
>Got home at 5 pm exhausted
>Decided to take a short nap so I would have more energy to finish up some work that's due tomorrow
>Set phone alarm to wake me in 45 minutes
>I don't hear the alarm go off
>Wake up around 10:30 pm
>Freak out
>Chug energy drinks
>Get all the work done before 6 am
>Posting on my phone right now. Feeling like shit.
>Just Fuck My Shit Up.webm

I'm so done with this job.  :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 03, 2016, 06:38:17 PM
>Creative Director needed me to work today to get a bunch of files prepped for a presentation on Monday.
>Already 6 hours into it.
>Creative Director emails me and said I prepped the wrong files. They're an older version.
>It was due to my dropbox app not syncing the latest files
>...

God, I want to punch a hole through my FUCKING drywall.  :maf
 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 03, 2016, 06:46:02 PM
Why did DropBox fail? When you have a conscious brain again, you're going to want to troubleshoot that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 03, 2016, 06:49:12 PM
I know why.

My mac needed to update it's software because it kept on nagging me about it.

Did the update last night which of course rebooted my machine (i rarely turn it off).

Started working on stuff this morning. Forgot that it had turned off my dropbox as a result.  :-\

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 03, 2016, 07:01:59 PM
I know why.

My mac needed to update it's software because it kept on nagging me about it.

Did the update last night which of course rebooted my machine (i rarely turn it off).

Started working on stuff this morning. Forgot that it had turned off my dropbox as a result.  :-\

 :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on April 04, 2016, 04:59:30 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KWQAtR5sLs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 05, 2016, 11:11:24 AM
Got off Scott free on that because everybody agreed he's a dick. The receptionists even bought me lunch :aah

Ha, I yell at people all the time and then one of my admins always goes and smooths it over for me. Trust me, receptionists actually run the company.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 05, 2016, 08:28:05 PM
Interesting, I assumed you worked for Saudi Aramco
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 05, 2016, 08:49:31 PM
Yea, I've had moments where I look at CEOs or "important" people treat receptionists or hotel staff like shit and think wow, I understand why people want to line you guys up against the fucking wall. And usually these are guys that come from middle class families too, I'm not talking about old money feggits who have "be a dick" in their DNA.

My favorite Obama pic is the one of him dapping a janitor. Like, how can you respect anyone who reaches the top and treats the "little people" like shit. I'm having an NBA playoffs party at my place later this season and I'm inviting a couple janitors alongside the suit n tie motherfuckers. I've only seen them invited to one after-work event. Not saying everyone treats them like shit but yo...if I'm going to watch some sports shit and play vidya with some work bros, why not invite the cool janitors who I talk about sports and vidya with?

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 06, 2016, 05:25:40 AM
We were talking about ordering pizza late at night and whether it's a bad thing to do...but man, I went to the grocery store around 11PM last night and shit was depressing. I can't imagine how soul crushing it must be to close a grocery store. The workers I saw looked like zombies.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on April 06, 2016, 05:32:17 AM
Its soul crushing to have a job?

 :iface :huh :idont

Where is the :blackpeople?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on April 06, 2016, 08:54:44 AM
The chemo my colleague was getting is not working.

She just sent me pics of her lil baby yesterday  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 08, 2016, 02:29:04 AM
Got off Scott free on that because everybody agreed he's a dick. The receptionists even bought me lunch :aah

WRONG THREAD.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 08, 2016, 03:39:47 PM
Saw a story today that the university I went to would and does report victims of sexual assault and rape to the honor code office, so it could be determined if they were doing "anything wrong" that needs to be addressed by the honor code office (meaning, probably being put on academic probation or possibly expulsion).

I have nephews and nieces that go there now.
They wont believe me if I tell them it's not a safe place to be. :(

It's damned infuriating.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on April 08, 2016, 04:01:26 PM
Did you go to BYU?  I've heard they're crazy about the honor/moral code thing but that sounds borderline illegal with the rape shield law. My cynical side says it's not so much about enforcing scripture than smothering any embarrassing allegations based on what I've usually seen religious people try to justify.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 08, 2016, 04:07:49 PM
Yup. BYU indeed (dad worked there, so I got half off tuition). But if rumors are true there's a lawyer already looking into suing the school. God I hope that's true.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 08, 2016, 05:11:56 PM
BJU got in trouble with that shit as well.

One letter difference. Different brands of Christianity. Same fucked up "morals". :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on April 11, 2016, 07:20:07 AM
My boss came over for 3 days, in an office of 3 that is a big deal.

+free lunch(es)

-mandatory dinner
-being on your best
-boss remarks
-etc.

This was fun though.

Colleague 1: I didn't book any holidays cause I don't have paid days left
Boss: You could take unpaid days
Me: Or you could be sick for a week
Boss:  :ohhh +  :iface
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on April 12, 2016, 11:56:49 AM
Never mind, blood came back and it wasn't great.  Next court date is June and I'm basically fucked.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 12, 2016, 11:57:26 AM
Never mind, blood came back and it wasn't great.  Next court date is June and I'm basically fucked.

??
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 12, 2016, 12:01:19 PM
Never mind, blood came back and it wasn't great.  Next court date is June and I'm basically fucked.

??

Presumably the DUI investigation...?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 12, 2016, 12:08:37 PM
Never mind, blood came back and it wasn't great.  Next court date is June and I'm basically fucked.

??

Presumably the DUI investigation...?

Ah. Well if it's his first and he has a lawyer he can expect the following

90 days in jail (87 days suspended)
choice of 2 4 hour defensive driving classes OR a weekend stay at a holiday inn/DUI intervention class OR taking 3 days of jail time
500-1000 in fines
90 day license suspension but he should probably already have his work privileges
50% chance of party plates
50% chance of community service requirements (20 hours)

A hit no doubt but not life ending shit.


Source: I asked my friend who's a prosecutor for a town in Ohio.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 12, 2016, 12:12:37 PM
Well he doesn't live in Ohio, mate.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 12, 2016, 12:16:27 PM
Well he doesn't live in Ohio, mate.
I think he does, bucko.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 12, 2016, 02:37:36 PM
Tennessee if I'm not mistaken?

Or maybe he is in Ohio.

Either way, they're two states I hope to never live in.  :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 12, 2016, 03:04:53 PM
I am corrected. Thought he was in the NE for some reason
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on April 12, 2016, 04:22:46 PM
Tennessee, where its a bit more strict but not entirely too different from what AiA posted

2 days of jail
one year of suspended license but I should be able to drive to work (hopefully)
DUI classes
interlock device afterwards
around a grand fine
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 12, 2016, 04:52:31 PM
And you're no longer welcome in Canada :cancry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on April 12, 2016, 04:57:53 PM
Is that a thing?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 12, 2016, 05:06:30 PM
Yes, DUIs are a very shameful thing here.  You have to get tattooed and wear an armband and everything. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 12, 2016, 05:29:31 PM
Yes, DUIs are a very shameful thing here.  You have to get tattooed and wear an armband and everything.

What the fuck?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 12, 2016, 06:19:08 PM
Yes, DUIs are a very shameful thing here.  You have to get tattooed and wear an armband and everything.

It's one mistake.

You should get a tattoo that says "I can't people" and then take a bag of razors and shove it right up your ass, Canada.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 12, 2016, 06:19:43 PM
Is that a thing?

Yeah you've got a 3-5 year waiting period now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 12, 2016, 06:58:47 PM
I guess I shouldn't feel too bad about getting drunk alone in my house. Probably avoided a handful of DUIs doing that.  :doge

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Nah. I should feel bad about that. :fbm
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 12, 2016, 07:05:26 PM
Yes, DUIs are a very shameful thing here.  You have to get tattooed and wear an armband and everything.

It's one mistake.

You should get a tattoo that says "I can't people" and then take a bag of razors and shove it right up your ass, Canada.

A DUI is basically a mark saying 'I've put myself in a situation where I could have murdered someone'.  Calling it one mistake is a belittlement of the situation.  I think I'll stick with our system of tattoos and armbands and using the money from the gold fillings to fund anti-drunk driving television ads like this 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrhV3QTkNyw


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 12, 2016, 07:53:32 PM
Not having a car :aah

Or a license :huh ... :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 12, 2016, 08:07:35 PM
Yes, DUIs are a very shameful thing here.  You have to get tattooed and wear an armband and everything.

It's one mistake.

You should get a tattoo that says "I can't people" and then take a bag of razors and shove it right up your ass, Canada.

A DUI is basically a mark saying 'I've put myself in a situation where I could have murdered someone'.  Calling it one mistake is a belittlement of the situation.  I think I'll stick with our system of tattoos and armbands and using the money from the gold fillings to fund anti-drunk driving television ads like this 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrhV3QTkNyw
This is America Arvie. We put ourselves in situations where we can murder someone 20 times by 9am. :beli
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on April 12, 2016, 10:53:25 PM
Is that a thing?

Yeah you've got a 3-5 year waiting period now.

Oh.  Bummer 😔
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 12, 2016, 10:55:35 PM
Is that a thing?

Yeah you've got a 3-5 year waiting period now.

Oh.  Bummer 😔

Fuck Canada anyways. The jailtime would be more concerning to me personally...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on April 12, 2016, 10:58:17 PM
I'm definitely really scared about it.  I'm hoping we can figure something out to get rid of it and do a bunch of community service instead.

The worst part is that I won't be able to ever get this expunged from my record, ever.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 12, 2016, 11:03:43 PM
I'm definitely really scared about it.  I'm hoping we can figure something out to get rid of it and do a bunch of community service instead.

The worst part is that I won't be able to ever get this expunged from my record, ever.

Fuuuuuuck. I don't know what I'd do in your situation. I'd be freaking out for sure.

Although, you freaked out before, then were OK, now are freaking out... I'd say wait until shit ACTUALLY hits the fan until you freak out for real. Only advice I can give.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 15, 2016, 11:10:18 AM
See?

This shit right here:

http://www.sltrib.com/news/3773615-155/prosecutor-says-rape-case-is-threatened

I don't know why but it infuriates me to no end. I've sent emails, tweeted at them, sent letters. I don't know why but this just gets under my skin to no end.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on April 15, 2016, 01:32:23 PM
It's probably stopped a girl you know/knew from coming forward. That there would be a school investigation into whether she was drinking that night or whatever the school prohibits. In this case they're literally holding her degree hostage by not letting the victim sign up for classes until she cooperates with the investigation.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 15, 2016, 06:34:50 PM
I guarantee you it's happened to someone I know. Maybe that's why it infuriates me so much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 15, 2016, 07:30:34 PM
Sue the school, sue the police, Jesus Christ what a sack of shit they are dropping on her.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 18, 2016, 08:23:57 AM
There's thunderstorms and flooding all around Houston today.  My job uses an emergency alert system that will text you, call you and email you if facilities close or anything else happens.  I woke up at 4am and hadn't received anything.  Left home at 5:20 and still hadn't received anything. 

I made it about 200 ft from my job relatively unscathed, just soaking wet which I can handle.  Then right before the turn off to my job I run into some really high water.  I couldn't see shit and my bike shut off.  I managed to coast across the gigantic puddle sitting in the middle of the 6 lane road.  I got my bike started again and putted into the parking garage.

And right at that time I got a text from my job saying that work was delayed 4 hours.  SEND THAT SHIT BEFORE PEOPLE ACTUALLY LEAVE FOR WORK!  6am is the regular start of the day for most of the company.  Why would you send that shit at 6:15?!?!

And there's still the trip home to think about it....
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 18, 2016, 10:06:24 AM
I miss being a college kid when any type of weather delay: entire day cancelled.
:tocry

We had a terrible wind storm last year that forced us to cancel work due to lost electricity, but we had already worked half the day before it happened.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 18, 2016, 10:26:38 AM
I miss being a college kid when any type of weather delay: entire day cancelled.
:tocry

We had a terrible wind storm last year that forced us to cancel work due to lost electricity, but we had already worked half the day before it happened.
They just sent out an alert saying all facilities are closed for the entire day because of flooding.  Nice for the people already here.  I live 53 miles away and every major highway is closed and I'll be god-fucking-damned if I try to go back road routes in flooding weather.  So I'm stuck at work.

Oh and I went to work out and there was no fucking hot water in the showers.  Fuck me.  What a day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 18, 2016, 10:27:39 AM
I miss being a college kid when any type of weather delay: entire day cancelled.
:tocry

We had a terrible wind storm last year that forced us to cancel work due to lost electricity, but we had already worked half the day before it happened.
They just sent out an alert saying all facilities are closed for the entire day because of flooding.  Nice for the people already here.  I live 53 miles away and every major highway is closed and I'll be god-fucking-damned if I try to go back road routes in flooding weather.  So I'm stuck at work.

Oh and I went to work out and there was no fucking hot water in the showers.  Fuck me.  What a day.

They should cover a hotel stay due to bad weather I'm assuming. Is there on nearby and if so you should book it now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 18, 2016, 10:30:06 AM
Yeah.  Lots around since we are right near the airport.  But that ain't happening at my pay band in this market.

edit: #wagecuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 18, 2016, 10:32:14 AM
Yeah.  Lots around since we are right near the airport.  But that ain't happening at my pay band in this market.

edit: #wagecuck

You sure there isn't a regulation that covers that? There is for snow events in Ohio, but we are pretty badass snow drivers so its rarely used.

Also make sure your bike is on the highest covered level of your parking garage just in case.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 18, 2016, 10:37:27 AM
Not sure about the regulation but Texas isn't really a state that tends to cover the workers.  And yeah, I moved my bike up to the highest area.  Thanks bro.  I hope she actually starts.  I found a route home via Google Maps but it requires taking service roads and a small highway but I'm not sure I have confidence in that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 18, 2016, 10:38:51 AM
Not sure about the regulation but Texas isn't really a state that tends to cover the workers.  And yeah, I moved my bike up to the highest area.  Thanks bro.  I hope she actually starts.  I found a route home via Google Maps but it requires taking service roads and a small highway but I'm not sure I have confidence in that.

Uh

(https://scontent.fhou1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xta1/v/t1.0-9/13043511_10100909337557774_5186219661568502740_n.jpg?oh=f256eb76fb77e7711391eb4ffce6261e&oe=57B590BF)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 18, 2016, 10:44:43 AM
That looks like the area around my MIL.  My family has been sending pictures. 

Does anyone remember that MJ video Speed Demon?  He has a Harley that turns into a jet ski.  I need that right now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on April 18, 2016, 10:59:17 AM
Launched off of a minibowl and ended up just completely and utterly bailing out on my right side like an idiot. Like I turned my hip to powder.  :-\
Fuck I had my flask full of whiskey and I just downed the shit in hopes of easing the pain to come, sitting here at work now and half of my body is just like nah breh fuck you. Probably gonna schedule a doctor visit, for real this shit sucks. God damn.

(http://cdn.snowboarding.transworld.net/wp-content/blogs.dir/442/files/2013/04/holy_bowly_course-600x400.jpg)
I thought I had that jump ahdufd
 :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 18, 2016, 12:00:24 PM
That looks like the area around my MIL.  My family has been sending pictures. 

Does anyone remember that MJ video Speed Demon?  He has a Harley that turns into a jet ski.  I need that right now.

at least you aren't this level of a jackass

http://jalopnik.com/watch-this-annoyed-reporter-rescue-a-man-from-a-sinking-1771566501


Idiot
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 18, 2016, 01:14:41 PM
I was 40mins late to a final exam today.  The twist?  I was the one suppose to invigilating it. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 18, 2016, 01:45:47 PM
That looks like the area around my MIL.  My family has been sending pictures. 

Does anyone remember that MJ video Speed Demon?  He has a Harley that turns into a jet ski.  I need that right now.

at least you aren't this level of a jackass

http://jalopnik.com/watch-this-annoyed-reporter-rescue-a-man-from-a-sinking-1771566501


Idiot
Goddamn. I don't understand people. I ended up making it home though. Whew. Time to nap
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on April 18, 2016, 02:25:02 PM
I was 40mins late to a final exam today.  The twist?  I was the one suppose to invigilating it. 

Were you too busy invigilating yourself?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 18, 2016, 02:53:57 PM
Nah resting my eyes turned into a 2 hour nap.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on April 20, 2016, 12:52:06 PM
Had an interview last week that went amazingly well.  Walked out feeling great-- totally vibed with the guy.

They called me back in for another interview this week.  This time it was three people and I was being 'grilled' with technical questions that were somewhat difficult to answer, due to nerves and not knowing what their resources/policies are.  :gloomy  Am hoping that things went better than I expected, though-- the interview was supposed to be 30 minutes long and it did go over by a good 10-15 minutes, which I think is a good sign. 

I just have bad luck in general with this stuff, though.  Sometimes I wonder if I jinx myself by posting about it.  :doge  Interviews are definitely a weak point for me. 

But then at my own job, the last interview I had -for another promotion- was perhaps the best one I ever had.  I aced it and walked out feeling like I'd kicked all kinds of ass.  And I did, too-- I was told they were completely blown away. 

I didn't get the position.  Why? I changed my nick name in the inter-office chat room. Something literally everyone did.  And suddenly this was a "security violation" and no one is allowed to do it anymore.  This is harmless shit that has gone on ever since I started working here in 2010. 
:dead

Can't help but feel like this was an excuse.  :-\  So now they're about to make all people in my position switch to four day, 10 hour workdays.  That's not that bad...except they want me to work a late schedule.  Am not looking forward to this and this is what prompted me to finally start seeing about moving on.   Actually the interview I just had came from a former co-worker recommending me.  He asked if I was interested on the same day they told me I wasn't getting promoted.  Took that as a sign to go for it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on April 20, 2016, 01:11:35 PM
Changing nicknames all the time coming back to bite ya'll in the ass irl.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on April 20, 2016, 01:12:04 PM
Best of luck. Bad schedules can really screw with your well-being.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on April 20, 2016, 01:44:04 PM
Changing nicknames all the time coming back to bite ya'll in the ass irl.

 :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on April 20, 2016, 06:28:54 PM
Changing nicknames all the time coming back to bite ya'll in the ass irl.

One of my friends who also knows me on boards said the same thing.  :lol

Best of luck. Bad schedules can really screw with your well-being.

Well...it may not happen.  I was speaking with my boss today and she flat-out said that I'm too valuable for daytime stuff to be stuck with a late schedule and she's gonna re-evaluate the schedule plans.  And of course, what I wanted to say back was "THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU PROMOTE ME?!?"  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on April 20, 2016, 07:11:42 PM
Well then go back there and ask them that. Or at least after the new place gives you an offer (hopefully) then walk in there all high and mighty. But you have to pressure them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on April 20, 2016, 08:40:21 PM
I'm on a 4 day, 10 hour schedule. It's pretty chill. Today's my first day of 3 days off. It's 8:40 PM and I haven't even changed out of the clothes I slept in yet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on April 20, 2016, 10:58:48 PM
Well then go back there and ask them that. Or at least after the new place gives you an offer (hopefully) then walk in there all high and mighty. But you have to pressure them.

I tried to, but was pretty much told "NO, THIS WAS A BIG DEAL AND A POTENTIAL SECURITY VIOLATION ( :doge)" and glossed over real quick.  At the time, my boss was sitting with her equivalent from our other office, however, and I think that had something to do with her response.  Let me also note that my boss, while a very nice lady and generally likeable person, is still pretty new and knows very little about our software.  She did not understand the chat program at all and when I tried to explain how it would be impossible for someone to say, change their nickname to hers and tell someone else that they were fired (her example), this went nowhere. 

I'm not angry at her.  I believe that she really likes me and even feels bad about what happened...hence her telling me that she wants to re-evaluate the schedules more than once.  To be honest, I didn't even care about the pay raise that would have come from this promotion.  It's very small and I've been at this company for so long that I'm about to hit the highest salary level that they pay anyway.  I wanted it for the M-F schedule, morning to afternoon schedule.  Basically the hours I had before I got into the whole manager thing.

I actually wonder if what really happened was just them looking at scheduling and staffing and deciding to keep me where I was because I'm more flexible than others are.  Ditto for her telling me about the schedules being re-evaluated.  She flat-out told me that they didn't promote more people because nobody was qualified.  I can believe this.  But I can also believe that they just didn't want to pay anyone more and told her to use the people she has. 

There's nothing to keep me there at this point.  If I get an offer, I'm taking it.  But if I'm stuck there for a while longer...it's nice to know that I may end up with a better schedule or will get to keep what I have now. 

I'm on a 4 day, 10 hour schedule. It's pretty chill. Today's my first day of 3 days off. It's 8:40 PM and I haven't even changed out of the clothes I slept in yet.

I probably wouldn't be so opposed to it if I worked from the early morning to say, 6:00 PM or so.  But the proposed schedule for me was 1:00 PM to 11:30 PM, which I honestly just despise.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 20, 2016, 11:04:31 PM
Sounds like you got the runaround.  In my experience, if they really want you, they will do whatever it takes to get you in the position.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on May 02, 2016, 12:31:15 PM
Didn't get the position.  :gloomy  Was told "We really liked you and want to keep in touch", but who knows if that really means anything.

Actually what concerns me more right now is that the bitch-manager who harassed me a few months ago is rumored to be in line for a promotion to a supervisory role.
:dead

The guy who told me this said he'd be quitting on the spot if true.   :lol  The one good thing I can say about this is that I'd probably get her spot as a manager if it happens, but I sure as hell would not want her as a "boss."  However, the guy who had that role before was told not to interact with managers and staff after the new boss came along, so if that happened with her, I guess I'd be fine with it.

I still feel like I gotta get the hell out of there though.  The big problem now is that I've used up a ton of PTO and don't really have anything left to try to go on more interviews.  Might have to give it a rest for a few months until I get more.   :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 05, 2016, 10:21:47 AM
I'm sorry, Esch :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 05, 2016, 10:22:30 AM
Sorry dude, hope you and your dad are OK.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on May 05, 2016, 10:23:52 AM
that sucks. I'm sorry man. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 05, 2016, 10:58:39 AM
Sorry to hear that Esch.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 05, 2016, 11:51:01 AM
My condolences Esch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on May 05, 2016, 01:20:03 PM
My condolences. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 05, 2016, 07:18:42 PM
Sad for you, Esch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 08, 2016, 01:12:31 AM
sorry esch
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on May 10, 2016, 10:14:18 AM
Our 9 years old cat just died a couple hours ago. Cardiac arrest. Not totally unexpected, the condition was suspected and not curable (maybe slowed down) but not confirmed yet. It was sudden and thankfully short.

We're gonna miss the sweet fat fucker  :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 10, 2016, 12:14:40 PM
Sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 10, 2016, 12:20:59 PM
Sorry VK.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 11, 2016, 03:50:50 PM
I just tripped a blind person.  In my defense, he shouldn't have tried to wack me with a stick. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 11, 2016, 05:28:36 PM
Took half the day off work today to take my car to the shop. Yesterday evening my brakes went completely out. I was in a CVS parking lot when it happened. Managed to drive around pretty well without bakes and then drove to the repair place today. Driving without brakes is a lot easier than I expected.
 :jawalrus

I've been chilling at a library that's close-ish to the repair shop waiting for them to finish. I'm the youngest person here. Lots of old people here reading books or taking computer classes. Amazing that a lot of kids today will probably never visit a public library
:snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 11, 2016, 05:43:16 PM
The library in the city I grew up in was big with kids, but it was near a few schools and across the street from a police station.

White folks can really master plan. :whew
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on May 12, 2016, 01:17:26 AM
Got invited to friend's birthday party at beach this weekend.

Girl I hooked up with and never called or texted cause I decided I didn't see relationship potential is going.

Never had to deal with this before, think I might just skip because I'm lame.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on May 12, 2016, 02:32:17 AM
Just go and act like she doesn't exist. Problem solved.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on May 12, 2016, 07:38:19 AM
My dad - who has been living unemployed with my brother and his wife for the last 5+ years - just dropped a bomb on the family last night via Facebook messages that he's moving to Ohio on Friday with some woman he knew when he was younger.

Proceeded to have my phone blowing up by everyone. Sister is livid, mom is indifferent like she always is, brother isn't sure what to think. Really hard to process it since it's all so sudden.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on May 12, 2016, 08:58:47 AM
Be glad he's out of your brother's hair.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on May 13, 2016, 09:12:45 AM
True - though my brother and his wife just started fostering some children so the view is that he's basically cutting and running when things got difficult. Something my sister spent a good amount of time yelling about when we talked about it.

That plus, my dad being in Ohio basically means I'll rarely - if ever - get to see him. Less so than I would now being in NYC. I at least intended to drive back home once or twice in the summer and see everyone. With him in Ohio, I have to dedicate time to only seeing my dad instead of seeing everyone else. And to expect him to get on a train or drive himself back? I know him, he's not going to happen.

It's a shitty situation all around.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 13, 2016, 11:10:24 PM
I hit a dog with my bike tonight (technically I guess I just kicked it at ~25 km per hour since I managed to swerve at the last second and just connect with my foot while clipped in instead of chewing it to bits in my bladed spokes or my crankset).

This is the kind of fucking bullshit Arvie does, not me. :stahp

Fucking kill me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 13, 2016, 11:30:05 PM
I hit a dog with my bike tonight (technically I guess I just kicked it at ~25 km per hour since I managed to swerve at the last second and just connect with my foot while clipped in instead of chewing it to bits in my bladed spokes or my crankset).

This is the kind of fucking bullshit Arvie does, not me. :stahp

Fucking kill me.

Is it dead?

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 13, 2016, 11:37:44 PM
ah I'd never hurt an animal - not even by accident.  You're on your own with this one puppy murder. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 13, 2016, 11:46:49 PM
Yeah, Arvie might kidnap and gut a hooker, but a dog? He's not a monster
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 14, 2016, 12:42:24 AM
It's fine and its owner didn't want my information so I'm going to assume it died of internal bleeding later tonight for the rest of my life. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on May 14, 2016, 01:02:42 AM
ah I'd never hurt an animal - not even by accident.  You're on your own with this one puppy murder. 

Your dog, who is soaking up all your disabling anxiety like a sponge, might disagree.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on May 14, 2016, 02:17:37 AM
You can't even kill a dog kara.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 14, 2016, 02:23:49 AM
Our 9 years old cat just died a couple hours ago. Cardiac arrest. Not totally unexpected, the condition was suspected and not curable (maybe slowed down) but not confirmed yet. It was sudden and thankfully short.

We're gonna miss the sweet fat fucker  :fbm

Sorry to hear that. Losing pets is harder than losing certain relatives.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 14, 2016, 02:44:43 AM
You can't even kill a dog kara.

I killed that dog and I'm a monster. :bolo

Ugh... I fucking hate failing. Like not at being a human being I accept that, but fucking shit like this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on May 14, 2016, 03:11:24 PM
Everything you touch turns to shit.  :ufup
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Am I helping?  :-[
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 14, 2016, 03:42:45 PM
Thank you, I'm glad someone here at least cares enough about me to give it to me straight.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 14, 2016, 04:35:28 PM
I can't give it to you straight, mine curves to the left. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 14, 2016, 04:58:06 PM
Laundry room sink clogged to shit. Spent a couple hours trying to unclog it manually before deciding to get some Drano lol. Not we wait....

If this doesn't work fuck...I don't want to have to use one of those snake things :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 14, 2016, 07:30:41 PM
Fixed it :lawd

The Drano did half the job. I finished it by creating my own snake by combining electrical wire and a wire hanger. Stuck that shit into the pipe, snaked around for 10-15 minutes, then put everything back together. Drain is working now
:rejoice


better learn how to do basic DIY house shit brehs
 :ufup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 14, 2016, 09:26:49 PM
Thank you, I'm glad someone here at least cares enough about me to give it to me straight.

I'll give it to you, but it won't be straight. :cody
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 14, 2016, 11:15:27 PM
Fixed it :lawd

The Drano did half the job. I finished it by creating my own snake by combining electrical wire and a wire hanger. Stuck that shit into the pipe, snaked around for 10-15 minutes, then put everything back together. Drain is working now
:rejoice


better learn how to do basic DIY house shit brehs
 :ufup
A wire hanger is my go to for a clogged drain. Put a slight hook at the end and I've never needed anything else.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 15, 2016, 12:34:22 AM
A wire hanger is my go to for an abortion. Put a slight hook at the end and I've never needed anything else.

...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 15, 2016, 12:45:36 AM
Well, that got dark quickly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on May 15, 2016, 01:38:42 AM
Just go and act like she doesn't exist. Problem solved.

I slept in and did laundry instead.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 15, 2016, 10:41:12 AM
I raided a gas station for some munchies last night. Funyuns. Flaming hot Cheetos, a cinnamon bun, chocolate and beef jerky. I've been on and off the toilet for 4 hours. Burns bad, brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on May 16, 2016, 12:44:43 AM
Celebrated gf's bday at a German bar, she gets the boot.

Cleaned her puke an hour later, she gets the boot.

:neo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 17, 2016, 04:01:22 AM
Good time to quit tobacco.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 17, 2016, 04:19:22 AM
Good time to quit tobacco.

Good time to suck my dick.

That escalated quickly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 17, 2016, 04:25:50 AM
Thats just the addiction talking Chrono.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 17, 2016, 08:24:54 AM
Thats just the addiction talking Chrono.

Nah it's just that you're not very likable
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 17, 2016, 08:44:45 AM
(https://media.giphy.com/media/JqMpeloanoIP6/giphy.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 17, 2016, 08:46:47 AM
 :neogaf

(https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/bc/7e/d9/bc7ed951e9fcdd9b8178b2b4549fec57.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 17, 2016, 08:48:48 AM
Look AiA, I don't know if you are being serious with this beef of yours but let it go.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 17, 2016, 08:57:09 AM
Look AiA, I don't know if you are being serious with this beef of yours but let it go.

I'm not lol.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 17, 2016, 09:01:29 AM
I remember we went through this already like last year  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on May 17, 2016, 09:48:53 AM
A POS deer almost ran into me on my way in to work and I already got coffee on a brand new shirt.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HM1Pxlh_EfQ
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 17, 2016, 09:53:53 AM
My wife is "in a mood" and by "in a mood" I mean one of my children has set her off and now I have to hear about it all damn day.

 :badass

Follow up. She's still huffy today. Junior skipped school with his friends which is kind of tradition around here unless you are my wife's son, then you might as well have killed somebody.

:snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on May 17, 2016, 11:14:57 PM
Milked so much pus out of my elbow today. Like 3/4ths a shot glass. Bigger than my loads. Bloodier, too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on May 17, 2016, 11:45:28 PM
So I've been at this new job just over a month and about two weeks ago it started becoming apparent to people that the project I'm on is understaffed (among other things). The company head promises me they're working on the staffing issue and asks me what skills I'd like someone who will be working alongside me to have in order to make this project successful. I tell him, and he promises that even though I'm new I'll get to help vette anyone being considered for my project.

Two days later I'm told they've offered someone and not told anything else about him except he's not coming for SEVENTEEN DAYS. The producer on my project hooks me up with the guys LinkedIn and personal website.

He has none of the skills I requested and most of his real world experience is on stuff that is only tangentially helpful. But hey, he just finished his masters or something :(

Fast forward to Monday when the company head introduces our new PROGRAMMING INTERN. And oh yeah, he's been assigned to my project! And again no head's up, no information about his skills, nothing other than "well he's a smart kid!".

For reference we are making a console game (in Unity) with multiplayer (on a game framework built by this company that has not been used for multiplayer games before) with AI (also brand new for this project) and Beta is supposed to be in a month. The intern has almost no experience with Unity at all.

I'm kind of regretting taking this job.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on May 18, 2016, 01:55:14 AM
 :-\ Best of luck. Nothing more grueling than your superiors at work being oblivious to what the work is.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 18, 2016, 03:53:45 PM
Bought Chinese from a food truck.  It's sooo bad. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 18, 2016, 03:58:50 PM
Jeez max, sounds brutal. No interns. Not even once.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: recursivelyenumerable on May 18, 2016, 05:29:29 PM
this coffeeshop is playing all shitty 90s guy-with-guitar music. :yuck

this goes in this thread and not the "non-struggle" thread, not only because I am boycotting that thread as I reject the hierarchy of suffering that it presupposes, but also because this is a synecdoche for my lifelong struggle with the existence and inexplicable popularity of this music.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on May 18, 2016, 11:40:43 PM
:-\ Best of luck. Nothing more grueling than your superiors at work being oblivious to what the work is.

The problem is they DO know what this project needs, but they keep attempting to solve the problem with other measures.

Jeez max, sounds brutal. No interns. Not even once.

At my last job the only programmer they had on the project when I started was a HS kid. He wasn't bad per se, but the code he wrote didn't scale well (a problem that most inexperienced programmers don't plan for regardless of the type of software) and of course the schedule was incredibly aggressive.

At least this time I have a little more control and I can ostensibly farm him off on another project. Which I might have to do tomorrow because I'm running low on things I feel comfortable with handing him (and he hasn't wowed me with anything I've asked him to do so far).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on May 19, 2016, 12:37:49 AM
Got loved tapped by an old lady which busted my tail light. The light still works so I offered her the choice to pay for the replacement tail light. I ordered it right then asked for the money only to be told that she wants me to fax her the invoice and then pay for it.  :maf bitch I'm being nice about this and you do me like that? I got her info and looked her up shes a doctor, I'm scared for her patients.

Anyways on the way home I got pulled over and got a warning....
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on May 19, 2016, 06:14:44 AM
:-\ Best of luck. Nothing more grueling than your superiors at work being oblivious to what the work is.

The problem is they DO know what this project needs, but they keep attempting to solve the problem with other measures.
Ah, yes. The Captain Kirk school of business.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on May 19, 2016, 11:46:55 AM
:-\ Best of luck. Nothing more grueling than your superiors at work being oblivious to what the work is.

The problem is they DO know what this project needs, but they keep attempting to solve the problem with other measures.

I'd say they may know, as in the info was given to them but they either don't truly understand or believe it or won't admit they're in over their heads (same thing if they under budgeted).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 19, 2016, 07:56:16 PM
AiA and the wife 40 years ago
https://www.instagram.com/p/BFmMG6unLGP/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on May 19, 2016, 09:08:15 PM
He's totally dumping the clutch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 20, 2016, 07:24:19 AM
AiA and the wife 40 years ago
https://www.instagram.com/p/BFmMG6unLGP/

:mynicca
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 20, 2016, 11:48:31 PM
just committed the most egregious case of accidental dry snitching in my life
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 21, 2016, 01:01:37 PM
I'm guessing it involves accidentally snitching about a friend cheating on his gf.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 21, 2016, 02:00:57 PM
Nailed it lmao. Caught up with a friend of mine earlier this week. At the top of the conversation mentioned he had started seeing a new chick, and at the end mentioned a girl he had a thing with years ago added him on snapchat. Last night he facetimes me when we're both shitfaced, and after like half an hour, thinking he's alone cuz i hadn't seen or heard anyone else on the call, i'm like "YO YOU GET ANY HOT SNAPS FROM BRITNEY DAWG" or some shit and his face drops before he pans over to the lady he's been seeing. Whoops  :holeup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 21, 2016, 02:02:11 PM
Trust other people brehs. :heh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 21, 2016, 06:42:40 PM
Woke up this morning. Thirty minutes later on the dot my worst migraine ever hits me like a ton of bricks. I throw up, twice. I can't lay still. The pain reminds me of having an infected tooth - just a constant, sharp, painful throbbing.

Somehow, four hours later I'm able to fall asleep, and it's mostly gone after a two minute nap.

What the fuck. It wasn't anything I ate. I don't think it was anything I did. Ugh.

Really hoping I don't have brain cancer or something. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on May 21, 2016, 06:47:10 PM
Do you know what triggers your migraines or what type of pain precedes it?

I get migraines from how I slept and if I'm having neck and/or shoulder pain.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 21, 2016, 07:02:12 PM
Nope, and I'm starting to think this is my first actual migraine. Anything before this felt like a light headache in comparison.

Maybe it was the way I slept? Hmm.

The pressure is still here, and I'm struggling to keep down a glass of water. Ugh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on May 21, 2016, 07:14:23 PM
TL;DR possibly got cock blocked by an Uber driver on a night when I wasn't even planning to go out.

Long version:

End of day yesterday one of my coworkers (a dude who is always kind of jokey and I havent talked to a lot so far since I started) asks "hey what are you doing tonight, you look pretty tired, probably just gonna go home and sleep, right?". I respond that yes, I'm probably going to go home and drink myself to sleep (not entirely serious) but I had heard him talking to another programmer sounding like he needed someone to help him out, so I ask him about it. Apparently some girl he's been seeing briefly wanted to go out dancing, and she's bringing a bunch of her friends so he needs some wingmen (and I guess he doesn't know anyone? I dunno). After making sure I wasn't going to be asked to drive to the God Damn Valley (almost all my coworkers live in one of the Valleys and I ain't about to drive up the 405 twice in one day), I agree to show up. The place in question is a bar/club in Silverlake called the Satellite, I figure worst case it won't be expensive and there will be cute girls dancing there.

So I go home, change, and head over to the bar. I beat my coworkers (oh right another dude from work also came along, an enthusiastic Filipino dude with a love of bad American pop music). So I settle in at the bar in the back and enjoy a beer and some free pizza, and about 20 minutes later they finally show up. The good news was that the girl's friends were all pleasant enough to look at, and after a couple of minutes of conversation it turned out that they were at least not totally awful to talk to. One of them was a hot personal trainer, one of them was the main girl's aggressive younger sister, and the last one was a lesbian.

Now I'm going to be honest, the music at this place was not really my shit and I was admittedly tired and not sufficiently drunk to really get into it at first, so once they went to the dance floor I peaced out back to the bar twice to drink alone, eventually switching to whiskey because I realized that I was going to have to dance some and beer wasn't working fast enough. I danced, I got sweaty, I had as much fun as a nerdy, tired, white, 30 something who is totally out of his element could probably have.

Finally the night ends and we go outside, at this point the girls find out I drove myself and they become concerned that I shouldn't be driving (I had never really gotten drunk, hadn't had anything in at least 2 hours and had probably sweated everything out with all the dancing) and started making jumbled plans first to go get tacos and then instead to go back to someones house and have pizza. Honestly I wasn't paying much attention because I figured I was about to go home and go to bed and I was okay with that. Anywho, my coworker goes and gets his car from the valet and my other coworker gets in with him and the girls do not get in. Now I'm standing here with these girls I barely know, as they order an uber. Personally when I go out with friends who are female, I always stick around long enough to make sure they get in an uber or a taxi or whatever of their own choosing and not someone elses, because I feel like that's a polite fucking thing to do (and Ive had female friends tell me stories about being left curbside by dudes and shit getting scary and that's lame). 

Digression aside, we help the hot trainer chick ward off some weirdo, walk over to 7-11 to wait for the Uber, the girls get in and I start saying good bye and then they go "wait, you're not getting in?". My idiot mouth says, "well I gotta go home and let my dog out." And one of the girls goes, "are you gonna choose your dog over a car full of girls?". So of course I say no and start getting in, and then the Uber driver chimes in "This car only seats 5 and there's a police car right there and he's gonna pull me over if I let you in!" Protests are made to no avail, the girls say I should just follow and then say they'll text me the address. I give the younger sister my number (I think I gave it to her correctly) and she says she gonna call me, but alas she does not. I go home, let my dog out and go the fuck to bed finally.

Weird fucking night.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on May 21, 2016, 10:04:45 PM
Dude they weren't going to fuck you.  :doge

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You did the right things that night and maybe they'll remember you as the guy who was pretty good next time.
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But seriously, they just didn't want to be stuck with the Uber driver who refused to let the one male passenger in.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on May 21, 2016, 10:07:41 PM
Ugh, have tickets to see Blue Velvet tonight but I kinda just want to stay in and drink. Tell me what to do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 21, 2016, 10:17:31 PM
Ugh, have tickets to see Blue Velvet tonight but I kinda just want to stay in and drink. Tell me what to do.
Go see Blue Velvet bb
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 21, 2016, 10:25:36 PM
They rebooted Blue Velvet?  Is this new one going to be part of a David Lynch Cinematic Universe?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 21, 2016, 10:39:26 PM
Try naproxen and caffeine, Andy-kun.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 21, 2016, 10:47:10 PM
Try naproxin and caffeine, Andy-kun.

Don't know what the former is but I suppose I can try some coffee.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 22, 2016, 10:40:48 AM
It's an OTC analgesic that works on inflammation  (migraines). It's always worked well on my crippling ones.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on May 22, 2016, 01:33:53 PM
Dude they weren't going to fuck you.  :doge

spoiler (click to show/hide)
You did the right things that night and maybe they'll remember you as the guy who was pretty good next time.
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But seriously, they just didn't want to be stuck with the Uber driver who refused to let the one male passenger in.
[close]
[close]

I didn't actually think I was going to get laid.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 22, 2016, 01:48:06 PM
Going on holiday in a few days but got sick now.

Kind of have work to do but Ill stay home tomorrow and hope I get better.

PS4 still broken though and Overwatch not out  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 22, 2016, 02:04:23 PM
I'm such a fucking idiot. Looked deeper into my medicine cabinet today and I had "Migraine Reliever" (acetaminophen, aspirin, caffein) unopened right in there. Fuck. Pissed at myself, I lost four hours yesterday to this shit.

I still have some pressure today, like if I jostle my head around I can feel it. Hope it goes away before work tomorrow.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 22, 2016, 08:20:12 PM
Should not have sent the wife the D pic.

Already done fucked twice and she wants it again after warriors/thunder.


A nicca cant keep up this pace.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 22, 2016, 08:24:16 PM
Should not have sent the wife the D pic.

Already done fucked twice and she wants it again after warriors/thunder.


A nicca cant keep up this pace.

I heard Viagra can help with this issue.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on May 22, 2016, 09:02:54 PM
Or a Devil's threesome
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on May 22, 2016, 09:25:09 PM
tfw you're so tired you just wish someone else would come over and have sex with your wife while you watch, but you're already black tho
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 22, 2016, 10:22:12 PM
As a republican, he might like being cucked. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 23, 2016, 11:58:20 PM
At least you're not fantasizing about getting car crashes so you can get laid
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 24, 2016, 12:03:38 AM
At least you're not fantasizing about being in a plane crash.
(http://i.imgur.com/fr1d814.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on May 24, 2016, 01:50:51 AM
At least you're not fantasizing about getting car crashes so you can get laid

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crash_(1996_film) ?

Also is this movie any good?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 24, 2016, 02:08:38 AM
nope
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 24, 2016, 02:09:20 AM
At least you're not fantasizing about getting car crashes so you can get laid

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crash_(1996_film) ?

Also is this movie any good?

Yes. Cronenberg and Deborah Kara Unger when she was insanely hot.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 24, 2016, 02:13:21 AM
As someone that's dealt with depression since I was like eight years old and has decent taste I honestly find suicidal ideation more normal than thinking crash era cronenberg is good
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 24, 2016, 02:14:30 AM
i blame white man and kara for that last post
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 25, 2016, 01:58:55 AM
 :nsfw Cronenberg is still amazing:
spoiler (click to show/hide)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=odFh5LbTPI4
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on May 25, 2016, 07:52:11 AM
At least you're not fantasizing about getting car crashes so you can get laid

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crash_(1996_film) ?

Also is this movie any good?

It has some good stuff but it's overall a mess. Fans only.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 26, 2016, 12:33:57 AM
On the plane to go on holiday, stuck on runway for next two hours due to fench air control strikes.

Try to stick it to the man by being dicks to people going on holidays with their kids brehs, dont see the man on the plane
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on May 26, 2016, 04:18:17 AM
Worked 16 (full) hours and then right before I left at midnight, I went to check on some samples set on a rotator in another room, and appparently a few of them got loose (my fault) and a few steel bolts had broken when they got lodged against the sides but I don't think that's going to be expensive to reweld so whatever. The real problem was when I unlodged the samples, within a second the whole thing tumbled over because it was apparently still on (my fault again) and my shoelace ended up getting spun into it and the massive contraption swung it's base into my shin. The result of this was me on the ground with a huge, broke ass piece of lab equipment holding me like a mousetrap. I won't lie, I was a little bit upset at the situation. Managed to turn everything off, swing it back away and tomorrow I'll just explain wtf happened.

I doubt anyone will be mad at me about the delay on that project. It was my first time using that thing and the level of damage/delay really isn't a big deal.

But just FUCK.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on May 26, 2016, 06:11:54 AM
Not to patronize or anything because I have done my share of overtime, but long hours and safety at work mix as well as oil and water.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on May 26, 2016, 06:52:31 AM
Yeah I've worked 24 of the last 25 days. Basically delusional at this point.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on May 27, 2016, 06:32:32 PM
So got home from work at 11pm and my floor was smelling gas. Had to call the gas emergency service and there was indeed a leak in the communal stairs at my level. The joint on the casket is dead as shit, and the technician had to cut our whole building until proper intervention tomorrow. Some of my neighbours are in for a rough surprise tomorrow morning (If it's like my flat, gas is used for cooking, heating, hot water)  :doge but you can't really mess around with this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on May 28, 2016, 04:43:16 AM
At least you're not fantasizing about getting car crashes so you can get laid

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crash_(1996_film) ?

Also is this movie any good?

It has some good stuff but it's overall a mess. Fans only.

Did you read that novel Cronenberg wrote, TVC? It was aight.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 28, 2016, 05:03:16 AM
got a middle ear infection on second day of holidays, already in anti biotics so holidays will be good, last night it hurt so bad I could cry but today is fine.

good thing I went to the doc cause otherwise no flying home maybe
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on May 31, 2016, 12:45:00 AM
I just blew out both of my contact lenses while puking. They were my last pair :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 31, 2016, 01:05:55 AM
I just blew out both of my contact lenses while puking. They were my last pair :(

:kobeyuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on May 31, 2016, 07:30:29 AM
After coming back from vacation, I was dismayed to find that my computer automatically installed Windows 10.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 31, 2016, 07:39:28 AM
After coming back from vacation, I was dismayed to find that my computer automatically installed Windows 10.
Jeez, man.  She really had it out for you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on May 31, 2016, 09:07:01 AM
 :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2016, 09:15:01 AM
Got to subway too early and they had no bread.  Now I'm hungry. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 31, 2016, 02:01:15 PM
put my baby to bed after 45 min of rocking her to sleep, door makes a click sound, baby wakes up  :'(

So got home from work at 11pm and my floor was smelling gas. Had to call the gas emergency service and there was indeed a leak in the communal stairs at my level. The joint on the casket is dead as shit, and the technician had to cut our whole building until proper intervention tomorrow. Some of my neighbours are in for a rough surprise tomorrow morning (If it's like my flat, gas is used for cooking, heating, hot water)  :doge but you can't really mess around with this.

hate gas, electricity all the way!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2016, 02:03:19 PM
Have you tried ear plugs?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 31, 2016, 02:52:06 PM
For me or the baby?  :lol

She's just mega tired cause she didnt have a good midday nap as we were hiking and when a baby is too tired, they are hard to put to sleep
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 31, 2016, 02:58:29 PM
It's Arvie... for you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on May 31, 2016, 05:41:26 PM
Had drunk sex with a good friend's most recent ex-GF who he lived with and dated for at least a few years. Gonna be awkward trying to act like it never happened when I'm around him. But it was fun, so fuck it.  :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on May 31, 2016, 05:46:16 PM
Had drunk sex with a good friend's most recent ex-GF who he lived with and dated for at least a few years. Gonna be awkward trying to act like it never happened when I'm around him. But it was fun, so fuck it.  :)

Did you ask her first if she wanted to have sex with you, bro? Don't make me call the police.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on May 31, 2016, 05:47:13 PM
Business trip next week, which seems okay. But I'll be there 10 days so I'll be spending the weekend in glorious Brunswick, OH.  :'(

Also my parents are gonna want to see me that weekend too since they are nearby :gloomy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: king of the internet on May 31, 2016, 05:48:37 PM
Had drunk sex with a good friend's most recent ex-GF who he lived with and dated for at least a few years. Gonna be awkward trying to act like it never happened when I'm around him. But it was fun, so fuck it.  :)

Did you ask her first if she wanted to have sex with you, bro? Don't make me call the police.

She invited me over. If anything I'm the victim here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2016, 08:47:17 PM
It's Arvie... for you.

I set the joke up too then forgot to look at the thread again to make the punchline.  SMH. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 31, 2016, 09:11:33 PM
Business trip next week, which seems okay. But I'll be there 10 days so I'll be spending the weekend in glorious Brunswick, OH.  :'(

Also my parents are gonna want to see me that weekend too since they are nearby :gloomy
Do an Ohio Bore meetup.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 31, 2016, 09:30:55 PM
Missed the news earlier this month that the FDA is nuking the 100% legal cigar industry here.

Well, at least I don't dislike Cuban tobacco or going through the theatrics to get it.

benji I need a hug from my anti-state bro rn. :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on May 31, 2016, 11:17:47 PM
Business trip next week, which seems okay. But I'll be there 10 days so I'll be spending the weekend in glorious Brunswick, OH.  :'(

Also my parents are gonna want to see me that weekend too since they are nearby :gloomy
Do an Ohio Bore meetup.

Brunswick is hillbilly central. It's like 15 miles from my pompous town.

:snob

Also, you do business with MTD?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 01, 2016, 03:18:19 AM
nm again
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 01, 2016, 09:12:38 AM
oh fuck it. i think my brother is going crazy and i am fucking terrified. how do you tell the difference between religious fundamentalism and legitimate mental illness?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 01, 2016, 09:19:38 AM
oh fuck it. i think my brother is going crazy and i am fucking terrified. how do you tell the difference between religious fundamentalism and legitimate mental illness?


There is a difference?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 01, 2016, 10:07:05 AM
oh fuck it. i think my brother is going crazy and i am fucking terrified. how do you tell the difference between religious fundamentalism and legitimate mental illness?

Which mental illness do you think he has?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on June 01, 2016, 10:34:20 AM
I'd probably draw the line at there being a real chance he could hurt himself or someone else.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on June 01, 2016, 11:07:11 AM
Brunswick is hillbilly central. It's like 15 miles from my pompous town.

:snob

Also, you do business with MTD?
I figured it must be something like that, since I've lived in Ohio and never heard of it. Though there's plenty of little towns in Ohio like that. And no, I'm there to redo some little mortgage bank branch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 01, 2016, 11:11:14 AM
Brunswick is hillbilly central. It's like 15 miles from my pompous town.

:snob

Also, you do business with MTD?
I figured it must be something like that, since I've lived and Ohio and never heard of it. Though there's plenty of little towns in Ohio like that. And no, I'm there to redo some little mortgage bank branch.

Ah.

Eat dinner at the Main Street Cafe in Medina.
Eat breakfast at yours truly also in Medina
Don't drink and driver in Brunswick ever

That's all i got for ya buddy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 01, 2016, 11:15:04 AM
oh fuck it. i think my brother is going crazy and i am fucking terrified. how do you tell the difference between religious fundamentalism and legitimate mental illness?

Which mental illness do you think he has?

Abrahamic Syndrome, the worst of all religious illnesses.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on June 01, 2016, 11:17:35 AM

Ah.

Eat dinner at the Main Street Cafe in Medina.
Eat breakfast at yours truly also in Medina
Don't drink and driver in Brunswick ever

That's all i got for ya buddy.
Awesome, thanks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 01, 2016, 01:00:42 PM
I know PD must be struggling with this whole Michael Jace thing. His character on The Shield was basically his role model.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 01, 2016, 01:03:07 PM
I know PD must be struggling with this whole Michael Jace thing. His character on The Shield was basically his role model.

Did you read that he shot his wife in the legs and then said "you like running so much, how about you run to heaven"

omg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sMEDnx7ImJA
:tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 01, 2016, 01:07:26 PM
I miss The Shield :(

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsDLkDmzhJQ
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 01, 2016, 01:11:54 PM
there are barely any clips online and I don't think it's streaming anywhere except shitty Hulu
:tocry

I want to rewatch it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on June 01, 2016, 01:36:44 PM
Stay safe, bratan.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 01, 2016, 01:44:01 PM
Shooting at the UCLA campus. My office is on lockdown. Helicopters circling. Seems two people are down, no word on if they survived, shooter not in custody yet as per most recent update.

Btw, sorry for the psychopath shtick, guys. I'm gonna stop with that.

No offense, but this is what causes you to drop it? Why?

I've always found your talk of forced sterilization, death camps and firing squads really disturbing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 01, 2016, 01:45:00 PM
Shooting at the UCLA campus. My office is on lockdown. Helicopters circling. Seems two people are down, no word on if they survived, shooter not in custody yet as per most recent update.

Btw, sorry for the psychopath shtick, guys. I'm gonna stop with that.

No offense, but this is what causes you to drop it? Why?

I've always found your talk of forced sterilization, death camps and firing squads really disturbing.

edit:  Don't do green poopnobi like that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 01, 2016, 01:47:19 PM
Shooting at the UCLA campus. My office is on lockdown. Helicopters circling. Seems two people are down, no word on if they survived, shooter not in custody yet as per most recent update.

Btw, sorry for the psychopath shtick, guys. I'm gonna stop with that.

You have a psychopath shtick? It doesn't even register, at least to me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 01, 2016, 01:47:37 PM
Shooting at the UCLA campus. My office is on lockdown. Helicopters circling. Seems two people are down, no word on if they survived, shooter not in custody yet as per most recent update.

Btw, sorry for the psychopath shtick, guys. I'm gonna stop with that.

Sorry Glen. Please stay safe if you can.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 01, 2016, 03:28:46 PM
shit, I missed the recent developments before I replied. Stay safe walrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 01, 2016, 04:37:16 PM
Glad it's over and you're OK, GS.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on June 01, 2016, 05:36:56 PM
Its good that technology/programming allows for warnings like that to pop on phones, sorry you were put in that situation Walrus.

On the subject of The Shield, I read about how there was a cut storyline with Ronnie that revolved around his backstory and Julien. Ronnie as a kid went to a pray the gay away camp because he was gay as a teen, think he got sexually abused or raped at the camp. He despised Julien for Julien making the decision to pray the gay away as a fully grown adult. Would've added a good amount of depth to Ronnie and Julien.

Also, there was an episode where Julien's wife's son calls the police because of how Julien and his wife were arguing. Sorta eerie how his character was part of domestic abuse on the show, and then later executes his wife in front of his children.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 01, 2016, 05:42:12 PM
Its good that technology/programming allows for warnings like that to pop on phones, sorry you were put in that situation Walrus.

I covered these warnings in the Shit You Hate thread. In short, they're bullshit.

Quote
On the subject of The Shield, I read about how there was a cut storyline with Ronnie that revolved around his backstory and Julien. Ronnie as a kid went to a pray the gay away camp because he was gay as a teen, think he got sexually abused or raped at the camp. He despised Julien for Julien making the decision to pray the gay away as a fully grown adult. Would've added a good amount of depth to Ronnie and Julien.

Also, there was an episode where Julien's wife's son calls the police because of how Julien and his wife were arguing. Sorta eerie how his character was part of domestic abuse on the show, and then later executes his wife in front of his children.

I don't know if it has anything to do with the Ronnie plot you mentioned, but I know I've read multiple places that Michael Jace didn't want to continue doing gay storylines, and it's why his character didn't get as much to do later in the series.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on June 01, 2016, 05:53:20 PM
The Ronnie plot was cut due to a shorter schedule for the last season, it was meant to be something that added depth to his character before the show ended. Didn't know Michael Jace put the kabash on Julien as a character essentially. He became a failed mentor for Tina and not much else later on. 

Billings did make up for some characters not mattering, he was a fantastic comedy element in a show that got really unnerving and dire. Changing the scope to only revolve around the Strike team + Dutch and Claudette from season 5 onward was a great decision, dropping some characters off in exchange for what we got was worth it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 01, 2016, 05:57:10 PM
The Shield has been one of my favorite shows for years. One of the very few that seemed to get better and better every season.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on June 01, 2016, 06:06:39 PM
Something it doesn't get enough credit for is how far it pushed what can be shown on cable TV. The only thing that makes it not like a HBO produced show is the word fuck and there not being many sex scenes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 01, 2016, 06:53:32 PM
Just got a call from my credit card company asking about some elaborate charges that were made today. Baffled I ask "uh, like what?" because I did order Taco Bell twice today. Instead it was thousands of dollars worth of charges in Detroit. Electronics and other shit. None of the charges are going to stick obviously which is good news, but I did shut down all my cards just to be sure. So the bad news is that I have to hold off on some shit I planned to do this weekend.

I do have a decent amount of cash around the house though, just in case I want to go to Taco Bell again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on June 01, 2016, 11:01:36 PM
The Shield is a classic and as I caught heat for many times, I still rank it above The Wire.  It's fading into obscurity because FX does a poor job of having their shit on streaming services outside of It's Always Sunny.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 01, 2016, 11:15:37 PM
If the Penguins sweep the Sharks, I'll let Bz fist me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on June 02, 2016, 02:20:50 AM
Pretty sure my producer got canned today. He had a one on one with the boss at 5pm, came back and got his stuff (including things he never takes home) and left without saying anything (he usually says something). Then half an hour later the boss came in and announced we were all going to the bar at 6pm.

The upside is I got pretty drunk on my boss' dime tonight. The downside is tomorrow is probably gonna suck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 02, 2016, 06:39:30 PM
Pretty sure my producer got canned today. He had a one on one with the boss at 5pm, came back and got his stuff (including things he never takes home) and left without saying anything (he usually says something). Then half an hour later the boss came in and announced we were all going to the bar at 6pm.

The upside is I got pretty drunk on my boss' dime tonight. The downside is tomorrow is probably gonna suck.

Aren't you in crunch?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 02, 2016, 07:51:13 PM
It's not uncommon for middle managers to quit when upper management sets unrealistic goals. Unfortunately, it sounds like your work schedule is gonna suck balls for a while.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on June 02, 2016, 11:19:20 PM
Pretty sure my producer got canned today. He had a one on one with the boss at 5pm, came back and got his stuff (including things he never takes home) and left without saying anything (he usually says something). Then half an hour later the boss came in and announced we were all going to the bar at 6pm.

The upside is I got pretty drunk on my boss' dime tonight. The downside is tomorrow is probably gonna suck.

Aren't you in crunch?

Well I've been repeatedly told not to work late, but I do because the project is in dire straits and history has taught me that this is the accepted solution but I guess this company is actually trying to not have that kind of culture. I was told today that more schedule adjustments will be made because they've finally realized how ridiculously mismanaged this whole project has been. The designer didn't get canned but he is being phased off the project and a new producer was assigned today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 03, 2016, 07:10:27 PM
Been dealing with a friend who is about to make a major major mistake, and I guess it's time to just give up and let her ruin her life. She's 20, her dad died when she was a kid and she qualifies for a shit ton of student aid money. She wants to be a medical assistant and then go into nursing - not a bad idea, nursing is a nice field. The problem is that she is dead set on going to one of those "colleges," similar to Everest/Ross/ITT Tech/etc. Non-accredited, lots of bad reviews...just a blatant waste of money.

I've been begging her not to do this, given that it will waste her aid money and she'll "graduate" with nothing to show for it. Then when she can't find a job she'll try to go back to school and realize she has to start over again at a non-scam school, but have to pay out of pocket now that the aide is gone. She doesn't want to go to a community college because "I don't want to go back to school."
:mindblown

There is no easy path here. Having worked in medical fields before (dental) I know this shit first hand. I've seen hygienists from these scam programs come in and do working interviews...and not be able to do their job at fucking all. I'm not exaggerating, I literally knew how to do their job better than they did. And at the end I watched as the doctor told them hiring them wasn't going to happen in large part because small businesses have to pay a % to the "school" if they hire one of their "students." I shit you not, it's fucking terrible.

But at this point she's dead set on it. She was going to start in the summer but delayed it to the fall. So I have more time to talk some sense into her but it's not gonna work. I told her straight up look, in 2-3 years you're going to think back to this conversation and be devastated that you didn't take my advice, and I won't be able to help you at that point. You're going to be fucked.
:snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on June 03, 2016, 07:38:46 PM
My sister went to a for profit college and the only way she got a job was by taking it off of her resume.

$25,000 for an associate degree and in the end the diploma wasn't even worth the paper it was printed on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on June 03, 2016, 07:44:15 PM
The problem is that she is dead set on going to one of those "colleges," similar to Everest/Ross/ITT Tech/etc. Non-accredited, lots of bad reviews...just a blatant waste of money
:snoop

Is it Trump U?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 03, 2016, 07:58:41 PM
Convince her that the field is very competitive and that she still needs to talk to some nurses/go on their forums to get an idea of the level of education and shadowing experience needed.

You exaggerate it subtly enough and then when she talks to them and sees how crazy limited her job prospects are going to be with a degree from those colleges, she'll change her mind hopefully. Especially when learning how many medical people went into the field after going back to school through community college.

99% of what you learn in any medical track is hands on skills and how to pimp your GPA/LORs from important people and institutions.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on June 03, 2016, 10:58:24 PM
Today is my cheat day and, like an idiot, I ate too much wheat and now I'm hunched over my toilet shitting out liquid pain.  :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on June 04, 2016, 01:11:46 PM
Put in my two weeks yesterday.
:rejoice

"So why is this a struggle," you might ask. 

Management-level staffing at this place has been atrocious for a while.  If just one person is off or calls out, shit can go down...especially in the evenings and on weekends.  The guy who comes in after me put in a time off request two months ago, for yesterday and today, and nobody bothered to schedule him for this until Wednesday.  Even then, that's two days to find someone, right?

NOPE.

They didn't get anyone.  And since I'm the unfortunate one who was still there at the time, I was asked to stay at work until 11:30 PM (got in at 9:15 AM).  My boss admitted this was all her fault and said she'd see about finding someone to take my place today so I wouldn't have to come in.  I know her well enough to know that this wasn't going to happen.  We asked literally everyone who could handle things and everyone said they couldn't do it.

Fortunately, around 8:00 PM I found that another lead who was supposed to be on vacation had popped in to do some work and he was cool with covering.  So I let them know that I'd come back in for my regular shift today from 7:00 AM to 3:30 PM.  There is still nobody here that is coming in after me.  I was told that someone in our other office (in another city) will watch everything.  That's a disaster waiting to happen.

And I still expect some shit to go down where they try to keep me here.  I'm already working a nine hour day without breaks or lunch, bitches.  That's enough.  Shit's about to get worse when everyone finds out that I'm leaving.  They're gonna have to scramble to get coverage and people are not gonna be happy.  I'm just hoping I can get through the next two weeks unscathed.  :lol

(I know I could just walk right out the door, but I don't want to burn any bridges)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 04, 2016, 02:12:45 PM
do you work in qa/localisation by chance?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on June 04, 2016, 04:37:29 PM
do you work in qa/localisation by chance?

Nah, at an IT help desk that supports law firms.  I'm gonna be working at a firm now.  They don"t make anyone work weekends there and you actually get holidays OFF.  Like, holy shit.  It's NORMAL.  Gotta be on call?  It's a rotation and they pay you extra for it.  This is fucking amazing after where I've been.

I actually left on time today.  Unbelievable, lol.  One more weekend of this shit left to go.
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Post by: Samson Manhug on June 05, 2016, 03:20:08 PM
Please allow me the honor of being your first “not even water?”
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Post by: Great Rumbler on June 05, 2016, 07:11:24 PM
T-minus 5 hours till Ramadan :brazilcry

Taco Bell runs at 10pm during Ramadan, though. :whew
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Post by: brawndolicious on June 05, 2016, 07:20:43 PM
I assume everyone in the ME just gets nocturnal then. Iranians already hate being out during the day. I myself have to still put up Islamic pretenses so that means no food/water when I'm home during the weekend.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 06, 2016, 04:02:56 AM
Come back from holiday to find out my number one potential client isn't signing the  deal that was supposed to make my quarter.

lameeeeeeeee
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 06, 2016, 04:05:21 AM
Aaaand I just received an extra invoice for 400 bucks  :'(
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Post by: TVC15 on June 06, 2016, 11:08:48 AM
I ate 4 bowls of cereal and I feel sick
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Post by: Joe Molotov on June 06, 2016, 11:21:48 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/Ci8Yuiy.jpg)
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 07, 2016, 06:08:21 AM
Problem solved
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 07, 2016, 10:36:22 AM
I ate 4 bowls of cereal and I feel sick

That's a weak performance unless it was like 4 huge bowls of mini wheats. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 07, 2016, 10:47:59 AM
I ate 4 bowls of cereal and I feel sick

That's a weak performance unless it was like 4 huge bowls of mini wheats. 

All Crunchberries, baby.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 07, 2016, 12:31:39 PM
Weak.  Might as well say that your special k gave you morning sickness, you women. 
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 07, 2016, 12:32:41 PM
I can eat like a box of cereal before getting sick.  That's manly.  And I mean like a family value box. 
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Post by: nachobro on June 07, 2016, 12:47:44 PM
Well, AiA was right. Brunswick, OH isn't a tiny shit town like West Des Moines was, but it's definitely hillbilly as hell. One street with every business in the whole city, this place is even too small for a Wal Mart. Never thought I'd see that.

Anyway the biggest struggle is I can't seem to find a bar here. Also goddamn there are a lot of cops on the street, they must be bored as hell.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 08, 2016, 10:42:41 AM
Wife's been having some health issues. Waiting on appointments with specialists for follow ups. Staying up to make sure she gets to sleep well combined with waking up early is starting to take its toll.  So tired.
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Post by: Kara on June 08, 2016, 11:02:42 AM
Wife's been having some health issues. Waiting on appointments with specialists for follow ups. Staying up to make sure she gets to sleep well combined with waking up early is starting to take its toll.  So tired.

http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=43174.0

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Post by: Mupepe on June 08, 2016, 11:09:42 AM
Sorry, dude :(  Hope the health concerns aren't too serious.
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 08, 2016, 12:16:32 PM
hope she feels better soon Puppy
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 08, 2016, 04:48:10 PM
Hope everything will be ok puppy!
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Post by: chronovore on June 08, 2016, 08:57:38 PM
Yeah, it is horrible when a loved one is having a health problem. It must be even worse for you, as my impression is that you travel for business frequently.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 09, 2016, 08:41:53 AM
Biggest deal of the quarter is 100% off.

Goodbye big bonus.
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Post by: Kara on June 14, 2016, 02:44:07 AM
That feel when the lines of communication with your ex are re-opened and you realize she's perfect and you can never have her.

:goty2
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Post by: Mupepe on June 14, 2016, 08:54:23 AM
That feel when the lines of communication with your ex are re-opened and you realize she's perfect and you can never have her.

Probably a byproduct of me being really down on myself with feeling stuck and nothing moving forward in an optimistic direction, but it feels like shit all the same.
with all these posts I'm often wondering if it's always the same ex.  If so, you have some crazy tides of emotion my friend.
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Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 14, 2016, 08:59:15 AM
Manfeelings, oh how you annoy me. Get over it and find another one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 14, 2016, 09:11:33 AM
Drop contact with her. There is no need to be friends.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 14, 2016, 10:38:43 AM
She is manipulating you again breh. You know she cannot be trusted. I know you like her but don't give her what she wants. Don't talk to her at all
:tocry
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Post by: Kara on June 14, 2016, 12:22:48 PM
See and raise, Z, I took my car in for servicing this morning and one of my chromosome donors was also there.

Luckily their back was turned so I put years of Metal Gear Solid gaming to use and slinked away unseen. :whew
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Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 14, 2016, 12:49:18 PM
That feel when the lines of communication with your ex are re-opened and you realize she's perfect and you can never have her.

Probably a byproduct of me being really down on myself with feeling stuck and nothing moving forward in an optimistic direction, but it feels like shit all the same.

How will dating her will make you feel better about any of that? Don't just say it won't cuz you obviously got some ideas in your head suggesting otherwise.

We can help breakdown those thoughts and point out where your rationalizations are off, or just shit on you and your emotions while questioning your masculinity :doge
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Post by: Atramental on June 14, 2016, 01:16:36 PM
The pussy game be ridiculous, bryhs. :doge

(http://m.quickmeme.com/img/65/656cf851f0c45478940439cd0113c164ec784b5edbb2cde033ec1adf3b118f34.jpg)
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Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 14, 2016, 03:27:11 PM
Manfeelings, oh how you annoy me. Get over it and find another one.
shut the fuck up old ass bitch
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on June 14, 2016, 06:26:58 PM
No judgment here, bro.  Just hook me up with her.  You'll never think about her again.
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on June 15, 2016, 01:09:15 PM
Updates!  It's still a struggle but not nearly as bad a struggle:

- No DUI charge.  Lessened to Wreckless Endangerment.  Can get it expunged after my probation.
- No jail time
- No classes
- One year probation, 350 dollar fine with it, check in once a month by phone or email.  No drug testing.
- 350 dollar court fee
- Interlock device during probation, license is still completely valid
- 24 hours community service

All of that is way way more ok by me.  the DUI charge and the jail would've been awful for me.  The biggest suck is the interlock device, but I'm more than okay with that.
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Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on June 15, 2016, 02:00:15 PM
You got lucky.  I know a few guys who got a DUI and they all got jail time.
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Post by: Kara on June 15, 2016, 02:04:08 PM
did you button your top button when you went to court
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Post by: TVC15 on June 15, 2016, 02:05:21 PM
You should of gotten us to write character recommendations for you.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 15, 2016, 02:57:31 PM
Thank god for being white, huh?
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Post by: Rufus on June 15, 2016, 03:04:46 PM
Don't forget the beauty bonus.
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on June 15, 2016, 03:46:54 PM
You got lucky.  I know a few guys who got a DUI and they all got jail time.

Damn straight I'm lucky.  It helps that the officer who was in charge of the report is a royal fuck up and most of the legal system within Nashville hates him
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Post by: Huff on June 15, 2016, 05:36:26 PM
Grandpa had a stroke. We're lucky its pretty minor with hopefully no loss of function.

Kinda a gut check. I've been extremely lucky to have such a close family for so long, but their ages are getting up there..
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Post by: chronovore on June 15, 2016, 08:48:26 PM
You got lucky.  I know a few guys who got a DUI and they all got jail time.

Damn straight I'm lucky.  It helps that the officer who was in charge of the report is a royal fuck up and most of the legal system within Nashville hates him

How did you get that information? Your lawyer?
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on June 15, 2016, 10:12:54 PM
Lawyer and the DA.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 16, 2016, 02:08:29 AM
Grandpa had a stroke. We're lucky its pretty minor with hopefully no loss of function.

Kinda a gut check. I've been extremely lucky to have such a close family for so long, but their ages are getting up there..

Sucks man, I still got all my grandparents but one has Alzheimer now and another one has early Dementia :( The one with Dementia already had a stroke and heart attack.

Its real hard seeing them all get so old when I can remember how young and alive they were.

One that is keeping best is a Auschwitz survivor, bet she won't stop running around till her last day!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on June 16, 2016, 06:56:32 PM
So I've been laboring last 2 days trying to minimize a disaster on a task that was given to me, because the people who came before me and were supposed to do the main work has been shit as hell. Supposedly it's a polishing phase, but I've been given an actual turd to work with. As a result I did over 3 hours of (unpaid) overtime to do what I can. Several steps of production have been botched so I took a look to the report sheet and I saw pretty much all the names I expected to, all permanent employees (I'm "interim", even though I clocked more hours than most of them for a full 18 months). A bit of poor motivation and a lot of incompetence, probably.

It's a fucking disgrace (especially since they're ever malcontent about being told to work their hours and about their pay) but I won't bring this up to my manager because it's a fight I can't win. My employement can stop at the drop of a hat if they so please, while permanents can't be dismissed easily. No use escalating it either, our higher ups see interim workers as a expense to get rid of ASAP (a running theme though our different masters, until they realize they can't achieve their production goals without us and that we have most of the skill). Beyond that, our management seems to suffer from a total lack of backbone, made worse since we were bought a year ago and cost considerations have clearly taken over any commitment to quality. If they are really doing their jobs, they ought to know who performs well and who doesn't. Antagonizing colleagues would only breed more bad blood.

Really I should just hack it and leave 30 seconds before the end of my shift but heh what can you do ? When you're freelance you have to be more dependable and take some pride in your craft.
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Post by: chronovore on June 16, 2016, 07:08:02 PM
(snip)
Really I should just hack it and leave 30 seconds before the end of my shift but heh what can you do ? When you're freelance you have to be more dependable and take some pride in your craft.
But if you hack it and bail, that becomes evidence for the malcontent contingent to complain about your work, even though you'd still be salvaging their shit-tastic efforts.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on June 16, 2016, 07:22:47 PM
Ah darn... Just got news that my Grandpa passed away today in his sleep. 88 years in this world.

And apparently his last words were, "I'm going to go on a long journey" before he went to sleep. 

Also, an interesting tidbit: I was named after him and my birthday is tomorrow. I'm not one to get all woo-woo but synchronicities like that fascinate me.

Anyways, RIP.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on June 16, 2016, 07:36:28 PM
EDIT : Condolences, Pallando.

(snip)
Really I should just hack it and leave 30 seconds before the end of my shift but heh what can you do ? When you're freelance you have to be more dependable and take some pride in your craft.
But if you hack it and bail, that becomes evidence for the malcontent contingent to complain about your work, even though you'd still be salvaging their shit-tastic efforts.

Nah, they're not mean-spirited. By essence there's some silent tension on wages (I have a poor rate, but I'm still making way more by the hour than them) and because permanent and freelance employment are two very distinct worlds. We're remote now from that but there's still a factory like culture, no snitching on the production floor : as I said, management has all the report sheets and data they need to form an opinion if they are so enclined. They must know anyway, because we all do : we're working sequentially, so we're all seeing each other work constantly. Permanents would be totally fine if we just delivered the bare minimum of work we should.

So instead I just vent here. Honestly doing the extra hours is not a real problem, I did that quite a few times and will do again if I think it must, what bothers me here is that this particular product is worthwhile so it's sad to see the thing sabotaged like that. All the more since a poor job will probably end up costing more to my employer, because the client would be entitled to just refuse it as is (as he done in the past quite a number of times).
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 16, 2016, 07:37:02 PM
Ah darn... Just got news that my Grandpa passed away today in his sleep. 88 years in this world.

And apparently his last words were, "I'm going to go on a long journey" before he went to sleep. 

Also, an interesting tidbit: I was named after him and my birthday is tomorrow. I'm not one to get all woo-woo but synchronicities like that fascinate me.

Anyways, RIP.  :(
RIP

the beginning and end
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 16, 2016, 07:38:06 PM
sorry dude
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Post by: Atramental on June 16, 2016, 08:07:02 PM
Oh, I know. Kinda skeeves me out a bit. >_>
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 16, 2016, 10:39:11 PM
Ah darn... Just got news that my Grandpa passed away today in his sleep. 88 years in this world.

And apparently his last words were, "I'm going to go on a long journey" before he went to sleep. 

Also, an interesting tidbit: I was named after him and my birthday is tomorrow. I'm not one to get all woo-woo but synchronicities like that fascinate me.

Anyways, RIP.  :(
Sorry to hear about your grandfather. 88 years is a pretty good run, and it sounds like he's up for even more adventure! He must have been someone truly special.
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Post by: brawndolicious on June 16, 2016, 11:27:02 PM
I'm sorry Pallando. It does sound like he went out in peace, with a smile. Not seeing a vibrant old person suffer is worth the pain of sitting through the religious ceremonies at the funeral.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on June 16, 2016, 11:42:38 PM
He (and my Grandma) wasn't particularly religious and I think my mom's side of the family will honor that by not having an overtly religious funeral.

Which is funny since most of my mom's side, save for an uncle and a nutty aunt, kinda drank too much of the Jesus kool-aid after they got married/had children.

I believe he once said that nature was his church to one of my cousins.

Also, he was a chemist (non-pharmaceutical). So his science background probably contributed to his skepticism of organized religion.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 16, 2016, 11:45:58 PM
Why isn't this thread, in this realm of pasty failures, not stickied already? :dunno
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Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 16, 2016, 11:52:54 PM
And if one more post starts with essentially "today, my emotions got tha best of me brehs :("

I'll personally out and bitch stomp you in front of the woman you cuck too.

Stop
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Post by: Atramental on June 17, 2016, 12:03:05 AM
Jeeze, man. Who hurt you?   :badass

All this macho shit comes off as if you're trying to cover up some deep seated emotional pain.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 17, 2016, 12:11:33 AM
Jeeze, man. Who hurt you?   :badass

All this macho shit comes off as if you're trying to cover up some deep seated emotional pain.  :doge

Nah, those were called spankings.

That's why my generation owns houses and shit. While yours posts dating failures and cat pics.
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Post by: Rufus on June 17, 2016, 12:28:25 AM
Drunk AIA is best AIA.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on June 17, 2016, 12:34:13 AM
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if people like AIA took acid or smoked DMT. :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on June 17, 2016, 09:51:40 AM
Ah darn... Just got news that my Grandpa passed away today in his sleep. 88 years in this world.

And apparently his last words were, "I'm going to go on a long journey" before he went to sleep. 

Also, an interesting tidbit: I was named after him and my birthday is tomorrow. I'm not one to get all woo-woo but synchronicities like that fascinate me.

Anyways, RIP.  :(

RIP, my condolences.

And in an odd (kind of) coincidence, my grandfather also died in his sleep last year...on my birthday.
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Post by: Mupepe on June 17, 2016, 10:12:16 AM
Sorry, Pallando :(
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Post by: Mupepe on June 17, 2016, 03:33:29 PM
I've been making extra payments on my motorcycle ever since I got it.  I never did the math or created an amortization schedule (sorry, Kara) to figure out how those extra payments affected the balance.  So today I decide to take a look at a few invoices and I have no idea what the fuck the lender is doing.  The amount paid and the amount due stay consistent but the amounts applied to interest and payments is completely inconsistent.  It fluctuates - up and down - by different amounts every month.  There is no fucking pattern.  So then I also can't recreate the math between my original amortization schedule, the principal they say is remaining and the difference between them. 

I spent my entire lunch trying to figure out.  And if that wasn't enough of a struggle I'm going to have to call and I'm sure I'll get someone who will not be able to accurately explain how they apply these payments.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 17, 2016, 04:02:34 PM
If I had to venture a guess, it sounds like they're using the extra amount paid to pay you ahead, which means that instead of applying the excess payment to your principal it's applied to your next amount due instead.

I can understand not wanting to recalculate an amortization schedule every time a borrower overpays, but it's a scuzzy way of maximizing interest when it's chronically done.
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Post by: Tasty on June 17, 2016, 04:28:09 PM
Made a bet at work that I'd go two weeks without drinking. I took it mostly cause I wanted to see if I can.

If I can't... (http://i.imgur.com/maQYk.gif)

Gonna be rough getting through our company softball games. (http://i1.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/original/000/013/306/2dd.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on June 17, 2016, 04:59:37 PM
I just did 40 days and 40 nights without drinking. Before that I was downing a fifth or more of high-end liquor a day, for months.


I did take up smoking Swisher Sweet Special Editions and White Owl Very Berry cigars with tobacco still in them during that time. Tobacco is worse than heroin, kids.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on June 17, 2016, 05:03:52 PM
If I had to venture a guess, it sounds like they're using the extra amount paid to pay you ahead, which means that instead of applying the excess payment to your principal it's applied to your next amount due instead.

I can understand not wanting to recalculate an amortization schedule every time a borrower overpays, but it's a scuzzy way of maximizing interest when it's chronically done.
I think that is what they're doing, but all things consistent shouldn't the interest amount still be consistently decreasing with each payment posted?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 17, 2016, 05:40:44 PM
I just ate like a pound of spicy lamb curry and followed it up with like a quart of coffee :(. I have to see John Carpenter in a few hours, but I foresee potential frequent bathroom visits and bowel evacuations.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 17, 2016, 05:42:02 PM
I just did 40 days and 40 nights without drinking. Before that I was downing a fifth or more of high-end liquor a day, for months.


I did take up smoking Swisher Sweet Special Editions and White Owl Very Berry cigars with tobacco still in them during that time. Tobacco is worse than heroin, kids.


literally the first time i've ever seen someone say they've smoked swishers or white owls that aren't blunts
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 17, 2016, 05:56:38 PM
I used to smoke backwoods occasionally :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 17, 2016, 07:30:05 PM
Made some baked chickpeas for a snack, with red pepper seasoning. Was chilling watching tv and ended up scratching my junk with the hand I was eating chickpeas with.

Now my dick is on fire
 :brazilcry
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 17, 2016, 07:34:13 PM
Correlation does not equal causation and you are dating a chick who works at the dollar store...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on June 17, 2016, 11:11:28 PM
So yesterday while the intern was out, one of our other programmers was finally assigned to help me on the project. When I was asked what he would need I said a Windows based PC (XBO and PS4 dev tools don't exist for macOS). The only quasi free machine was the one the intern has been using. So the dude swapped off his Mac and setup the Windows machine. This morning at standup the intern says "I have a critical issue, I have a mac now and I don't know how to use one so I need a PC ASAP."

Dude. It's fucking 2016 and you're a god damn computer science major. It's not that hard. (And yes I called him out on this in stand up in front of everyone)

The funny thing is, the other intern, who is doing design, has a PC that ostensibly we could've given to either of these programmers but whatever. I really just want the intern off the project and now that I have an actual competent, real programmer on it I hope it gets easier to dump the intern.

If I had to venture a guess, it sounds like they're using the extra amount paid to pay you ahead, which means that instead of applying the excess payment to your principal it's applied to your next amount due instead.

I can understand not wanting to recalculate an amortization schedule every time a borrower overpays, but it's a scuzzy way of maximizing interest when it's chronically done.

Oh this reminds me, I got a notice from the government that I owe a bunch of money and I'm pretty sure it is related to my previous employer skipping paying payroll taxes for awhile because they had no money. I should probably figure out what I'm supposed to do about that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 18, 2016, 12:13:18 AM
Could he not figure out how to launch the bootcamp utility?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on June 19, 2016, 01:04:19 AM
Could he not figure out how to launch the bootcamp utility?

Knowing him he'd probably blow the computer up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 19, 2016, 05:13:43 AM
Could he not figure out how to launch the bootcamp utility?

Knowing him he'd probably blow the computer up.

"You're an intern. Your very existence PRECLUDES the possibility that any issue you're having is 'critical.'"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 19, 2016, 11:25:08 AM
Went to bar with people I don't really know.  Thought I'd be all cool and order a beer without looking at the menu cause I've had a beer or two before.  Order a 'blackhaven' instead of a 'belhaven'.  Embarassingly look at the menu to confirm its a belhaven I want.  Welp my life is over. 

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 19, 2016, 12:31:29 PM
One time I was at a beer bar sitting next to (chaperoning) some extremely drunk and quite attractive female friends and I tried to order whatever looked like the stupidest, least impressive looking beer because I was honestly trying not to look like I wanted to have sex with them. The beer was called "something murderous clown" I think.

The waitress comes back and is like "are you shoor you want that, it's $30 and sometimes people order it by accident".

 :o :-\:doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 19, 2016, 01:01:57 PM
undercooked a salmon steak

ate it

then googled if its safe
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 19, 2016, 01:54:42 PM
undercooked a salmon steak

ate it

then googled if its safe

Should have worn a condom, m8
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 19, 2016, 03:35:42 PM
Step up to high ABV drinks so you black out before you can hit toxic the next day level. :aah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 20, 2016, 12:31:03 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 20, 2016, 02:58:37 PM
I know ur secretd cats
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 20, 2016, 03:06:01 PM
I tried to mack it with this drunk slut at this party and then karate chopped him in the windpipe for leading me on.


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 20, 2016, 03:11:17 PM
Fuck y'all
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 20, 2016, 03:48:15 PM
 :mindblown

Drunken monkey style chop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 20, 2016, 10:31:45 PM
Work has been just so fucking stressful lately dealing with complete asshats left and right.  I used to be such a nice friendly attorney, but now I'm just done putting up with people's shit and tell them how it is.  I'm cursing like  800% more than normal atm.  I'm just completely done being nice to people who are not nice back.  If you're a courteous person, whether a client or an opposing attorney, I'll treat you with respect and be a friendly good dude to you.  Hell, I'll even discount my bills and help you out for free later on if you need some stuff.  One client was the nicest food stand owner guy and he paid me like <$2,000 for like $5,000 of work and I told him it's cool, he didn't need to pay the rest and we wouldn't bill him anymore.  I appreciated the <$2,000 that he still did pay even though I know it was tough for him and his business, but he was a really great decent human being.  Otoh, sometimes (a lot of the times) I deal with people that are just total demanding assholes, and they get a goddamn drill sergeant daddy telling them how it is and the world isn't going to stop rotating just for them.  I don't care if you're a multi-million dollar corporation, if you're acting like an idiot or asshole and fucking everything up for everyone else involved then you get no favors from me.

Gonna take a vacation soon. 

Also this is probably what happens when I have to stop drinking beer for half a year since I've been sick for most of 2016 due to my weak immune system.  Also no sex either for the last month or so since I've been single again.  At least I'm back to exercising, exercising & watching comedy seems like a good way to destress.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 20, 2016, 10:59:44 PM
BTW, Bebs cursing 800% normal means now he says "fuck" once a week.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 20, 2016, 11:09:58 PM
Bebs with an edge is probably a great balance for you tbh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 20, 2016, 11:32:37 PM
There are worse things in life than living quid pro quo, but make that decision because you want to make it Bebps, not because circumstance is pushing you into it.

I'd quote a pithy Epictetus maxim at this juncture but quoting pithy things is dreadfully off personal brand.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 21, 2016, 12:13:55 AM
You'll get the respect of assholes when you can dress them down with eloquence, especially if they know it's unusual for your personality.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 21, 2016, 01:15:42 AM
Last night wife decides to get all sexy sexy, puts on her sexy music playlist and we start having at it. We're getting all hot and heavy and then suddenly this song comes up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBQVrCflZ_E

Wife looks at me and laughs at her joke. Nothing kills an erection faster than the memory of that Mannequin movie. :brazilcry

We spent the next 20 minutes laughing.
Get trolled by your wife brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 21, 2016, 02:37:31 AM
24 hours of ball pain. I respect her skills. :umad
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 21, 2016, 03:27:30 AM
Apparently our company had VIP season tickets for Arsenal for ages, but they got cancelled due to lack of interest and cost.

Only found out after they got cancelled and I talked to my boss' boss.

smh could have been to so many games with great seats and beer

:piss working in a satellite office not knowing shit :piss2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 21, 2016, 09:01:13 AM
Got a Balcony for the Cavs parade tomorrow. That's the good news


Have to share it with someone in my field I absolutely can't stand. That's the struggle.


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on June 21, 2016, 09:32:04 AM
My company picked up a big client that has 20 something sites spread across the greater NYC area. They hired a team of 6 to manage the account and go onsite when needed. Unsurprisingly they aren't able to handle the workload. Now they started leaning on the engineers that have holes in their schedule and since my schedule is not fully booked up, I'm being roped up into this bullshit.

Now they're going to turn me into a fucking errand boy for this clueless account manager who has already given me inaccurate information on several occasions and sent me out into the field with my dick in my hand.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 21, 2016, 12:31:42 PM
Got a Balcony for the Cavs parade tomorrow. That's the good news


Have to share it with someone in my field I absolutely can't stand. That's the struggle.

Get married brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on June 21, 2016, 12:51:11 PM
:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 21, 2016, 01:09:39 PM
:dead :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 21, 2016, 02:44:00 PM
Had family visit.  They asked me about church street. i.e. the gay part of town.  And they asked in a way that was basically, 'we would be understanding if you knew a lot about church street'.

:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on June 21, 2016, 02:51:04 PM
should've mentioned liberty village so they'd think you were just a metrosexual
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 21, 2016, 02:51:43 PM
Had family visit.  They asked me about church street. i.e. the gay part of town.  And they asked in a way that was basically, 'we would be understanding if you knew a lot about church street'.

:dead

:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 22, 2016, 03:55:54 PM
My gmail account got hacked from Afrika and sent all 650+ office contacts on my list a spam link.  We secured the problem, and are notifying everyone by phone one at a time since gmail banned my sending privileges after I tried to send a mass e-mail notifying people of the hack and to not open the spam email.

What is an alternative to gmail for secure work?  I'm going to get a new email service since gmail is being very difficult to work with on this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 22, 2016, 03:59:45 PM
You didn't have two-factor authentication enabled?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 22, 2016, 04:07:31 PM
I didn't think gmail had 2-factor.  I looked all through settings when I was doing 2-factor on various devices a few years ago.  I looked again after the hack today and I still couldn't find any 2-factor option under security for standard gmail.  fuck, so they do have 2-factor?  Why is everything so hidden in gmail.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 22, 2016, 04:13:27 PM
It's on your Google account.

https://www.google.com/landing/2step/

Gmail was the banner product when two-factor auth was launched in 2011: https://gmail.googleblog.com/2011/02/advanced-sign-in-security-for-your.html
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 22, 2016, 05:12:55 PM
Anyways, sucks that happened bebps. I don't know what else I'd use if I couldn't use Gmail/Inbox.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on June 22, 2016, 05:27:47 PM
I got notices from Microsoft and Netflix that my Gmail was breached a week ago.  I changed my password of course and I subscribed to two step verification.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 22, 2016, 06:35:53 PM
The worst thing is I tracked down where they got my info from.  It was a compromised from another company we work with 7 days ago.  They never gave me any notice :|  So I'm going out of my way now to try to e-mail (from a new account) / call every single one of these 650+ people to let them know.  I don't know if this is the proper procedure for small businesses, since I get spam e-mail from people all the time and no one ever contacts me after to let me know, but idk it seems like I should do as much as I can to mitigate this spam send out. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 22, 2016, 10:11:18 PM
Alright, I think I've got calls or e-mails out to most of my contacts making them aware of the spam and apologizing.  Also changed all my passwords that coincided with my e-mail password.  Also went and strengthened like all my passwords, got two-step activated on every account I own that offers it.  Been working from a new e-mail since I still can't send anything until my ban runs up on my main e-mail because of the mass e-mail I tried to send giving people notice not to open the spam e-mail.  Hopefully after the 24 hours runs up tomorrow morning I'll get my main account back :|  Since I changed the password and got 2-step up on it, I think it's probably safe to go back to using it rather than burn it all down and start a whole new e-mail account.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on June 22, 2016, 10:20:51 PM
I got your spam emails and the apology one on my old email address. :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 22, 2016, 10:26:29 PM
Last night wife decides to get all sexy sexy, puts on her sexy music playlist and we start having at it. We're getting all hot and heavy and then suddenly this song comes up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBQVrCflZ_E

Wife looks at me and laughs at her joke. Nothing kills an erection faster than the memory of that Mannequin movie. :brazilcry

We spent the next 20 minutes laughing.
Get trolled by your wife brehs.

I dunno, Jefferson Starship is a full-effect boner-killer, but Mannequin-era Kim Catrall can induce boners in catatonic patients. It sounds dangerously close to some form of "erection speedball."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 22, 2016, 10:31:03 PM
Alright, I think I've got calls or e-mails out to most of my contacts making them aware of the spam and apologizing.  Also changed all my passwords that coincided with my e-mail password.  Also went and strengthened like all my passwords, got two-step activated on every account I own that offers it.  Been working from a new e-mail since I still can't send anything until my ban runs up on my main e-mail because of the mass e-mail I tried to send giving people notice not to open the spam e-mail.  Hopefully after the 24 hours runs up tomorrow morning I'll get my main account back :|  Since I changed the password and got 2-step up on it, I think it's probably safe to go back to using it rather than burn it all down and start a whole new e-mail account.

Good on you for getting two-factor on everything that offers it.

My gmail nearly got hacked earlier this year, but my two-factor was in place, so it was a non-starter. Made all the two-factor bullshit worth it. I've got it on my Gmail, Apple, and Amazon accounts now. Twitter had some fuckery that didn't like my Japanese number for some reason, but I've got it everywhere I can now, too.

I want my goddamned credit union to run two-factor now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on June 22, 2016, 10:54:32 PM
You'll get the respect of assholes when you can dress them down with eloquence, especially if they know it's unusual for your personality.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xF0Mia7oYvA

"But all rest assured, sometimes just a word
Is the most satisfying sound"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 25, 2016, 02:47:55 PM
Went to see a play (http://www.encoremichigan.com/shows/homeless-and-how-we-got-that-way-0526-0626/) last night, it was quite good. It was at the Detroit Repertory Theatre which is the state's oldest theater. It's a rather intimate theater, less than 200 seats and very good acoustics. Anyway within about 15 minutes of the play starting I kept noticing a low murmur coming from somewhere in the crowd. It was coming from my far left, some dude was talking on his phone or something for long periods of time (like 5-10 minutes). Low enough for me not to know what he was saying, but high enough to be distracting as fuck.
 :foxx

After the intermission more people started having quiet conversations, or adlibbing the play :beli

I was sitting next to the most white people in the crowd, one to my immediate left and three to my immediate right. They kept looking around at all the black people talking and looking frustrated af while I pretended I didn't hear shit.
(http://i.imgur.com/VlAOIZP.png)

The murmuring and convos died down thankfully, to be replaced by some gasps and disapproving sighs from the old ass people who came on a church bus to see the play. I guess they didn't expect there to be adult language and some "gay stuff" in the play
:heh

But seriously tho, you've got to be quite a dick to go to a play and talk. Or leave your phone on and interrupt everyone with ringtones.  SMH
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 25, 2016, 02:54:46 PM
I once saw a movie with black people in the crowd.  Only time I've consider segregation to be a intellectually valid idea. 

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That movie?  Second time I saw civil war.   :doge
[close]
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on June 25, 2016, 03:48:58 PM
I once saw a movie with black people in the crowd.  Only time I've consider segregation to be a intellectually valid idea. 

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That movie?  Second time I saw civil war.   :doge
[close]

You were probably rooting for the South to win. :beli
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 25, 2016, 03:50:31 PM
The last time I saw a Tyler Perry movie at the cinema it was an Arab man who disrupted the crowd by being noisy. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 25, 2016, 04:48:15 PM
I once saw a movie with black people in the crowd.  Only time I've consider segregation to be a intellectually valid idea. 

spoiler (click to show/hide)
That movie?  Second time I saw civil war.   :doge
[close]

You were probably rooting for the South to win. :beli

Been a fan of theirs ever since I saw Gone with the Wind. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 25, 2016, 04:59:53 PM
I once saw a horror flick with a lot of black people in the crowd and, uh, I can't finish this sentence without reinforcing negative racial stereotypes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 25, 2016, 05:15:32 PM
The last time I saw a Tyler Perry movie at the cinema it was an Arab man who disrupted the crowd by being noisy. :doge

Implying high frequency, theatrical viewings of Tyler Perry movies  :heh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 25, 2016, 05:52:16 PM
Learn to hold the moan. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 25, 2016, 05:52:33 PM
The last time I saw a Tyler Perry movie at the cinema it was an Arab man who disrupted the crowd by being noisy. :doge

Implying high frequency, theatrical viewings of Tyler Perry movies  :heh

We all have our vices. :bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 25, 2016, 06:14:00 PM
Learn to hold the moan.

:letsfukk
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 25, 2016, 07:09:47 PM
The last time I saw a Tyler Perry movie at the cinema it was an Arab man who disrupted the crowd by being noisy. :doge

Tyler Perry at the theater. You continue to surprise me, Kara.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 25, 2016, 07:11:08 PM
http://i.imgur.com/B9jtcKt.gifv

I wonder what movie he is watching.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 25, 2016, 08:26:04 PM
The last time I saw a Tyler Perry movie at the cinema it was an Arab man who disrupted the crowd by being noisy. :doge

Tyler Perry at the theater. You continue to surprise me, Kara.

 :-[
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 25, 2016, 09:31:47 PM
The only good Tyler Perry movie is Gone Girl.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 25, 2016, 10:26:47 PM
I like when people talk ABOUT the movie/laugh and whatever as that's part of the reason why I'm there. But watching a movie in an empty theater is cool too for feeling like you're Howard Hughes.

The first time I watched Knocked Up was with Santa Clara Asian/white people and I only heard the barest of chuckles. The second time I was in Berkeley but since I don't notice color of course I'm just gonna guess there were a few black people. It was an entirely different experience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: headwalk on June 25, 2016, 10:48:28 PM
is this thread about millwall?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 25, 2016, 11:47:59 PM
I once saw a horror flick with a lot of black people in the crowd and, uh, I can't finish this sentence without reinforcing negative racial stereotypes.

Nah it's okay. We know how scared we get. No offense taken.


I remember my dad going over the couch once while watching Friday the 13th. He then took the movie out and never watched another one lols.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 26, 2016, 02:50:39 AM
I once saw a horror flick with a lot of black people in the crowd and, uh, I can't finish this sentence without reinforcing negative racial stereotypes.

Nah it's okay. We know how scared we get. No offense taken.


I remember my dad going over the couch once while watching Friday the 13th. He then took the movie out and never watched another one lols.

:dolezal
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 26, 2016, 11:57:15 AM
I haven't seen a horror film in the theater with my mom since The Village, during which she wouldn't stop screaming after every minor/major scare moment. Two black ladies ran out the theater screaming when the "monster" was first revealed.
:dead

Now my mom goes by herself and purposely sits next to people she doesn't know, just to feel safe/unknowingly annoy them with her screams.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on June 26, 2016, 12:16:16 PM
Just shattered a tooth while trying to eat some Skittles.

Sometimes you're just not meant to taste the rainbow, brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 26, 2016, 12:39:22 PM
A skittle did that to you?  How old are you again?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 26, 2016, 02:16:35 PM
How bad a shattering are we talking about? Just a chip, or an explosion of teeth shards?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 26, 2016, 07:33:18 PM
Django Unchained was one of my best theater experiences and probably the only time black people outnumbered me in a room.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on June 26, 2016, 08:49:12 PM
I watched Django Unchained on Christmas day with almost all black people in the audience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 26, 2016, 09:10:12 PM
I watched Django Unchained on Christmas day with almost all black people in the audience.

I watched it on Xmas but there were like no black people because Seattle.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on June 26, 2016, 11:12:18 PM
How bad a shattering are we talking about? Just a chip, or an explosion of teeth shards?

Explosion of teeth shards of one of my bottom molars.

The really obnoxious thing is that it was just half of the tooth, so the rest of it is a jagged mess still in my mouth cutting my tongue constantly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 26, 2016, 11:15:25 PM
Get it to a dentist asap or you could easily have a root canal or even lose the tooth.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 26, 2016, 11:35:01 PM
Sounds like you're going to lose the tooth (simple extraction), but the best thing to hope for is that it's savable (core and crown). Brawndolicious is right though, you'll need to have it looked at asap to hopefully avoid a root canal.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 27, 2016, 01:21:05 AM
Don't be so hasty, can you use it to open beers or do any other hillbilly tricks?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 27, 2016, 02:11:27 AM
I had a similar thing happen but wanted to wait until dental insurance kicked in the following semester. A month later the first dentist I go to says there's no way to save it but I went to get a second opinion and eventually got kicked over to a dude who knows his shit with root canals being all he does and long story short, his assistant was shocked at the amount of dead tooth that got cut out but it was saved.

It's pretty much all amalgam, but I can still say I have all my teeth. :larry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on June 28, 2016, 02:45:52 PM
Very possibly breaking up with my girlfriend tonight. Very possibly two years down the drain. We'll see.
I remember what you told me before you went out on your own
Sometimes to keep it together, we got to leave it alone
So you can get on with your search, baby
And I can get on with mine
And maybe someday we will find
That it wasn't really wasted time
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 28, 2016, 04:02:01 PM
Well if you can talk about it, what are the issues you two are having? Often if it's a combination of work, emotional stability, and built up resentment.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 28, 2016, 04:52:08 PM
Bruh you need to show your significant others empathy, she's not telling you this shit for your opinion on what she should do

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7hFAv8z8xmw
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 28, 2016, 05:19:31 PM
I only can totally see that because it was something I struggled with early in my marriage. I also was called a devil's advocate.

"an hour-long referendum on every single way I suck as a boyfriend." This is something I had to grow on too: despite how it feels, I can almost guarantee that wasn't her intention in the conversation. She's trying to point out needs of hers she needs met, if you can manage to filter that out and take it constructively it will take you far. I had problems early on feeling like I was being attacked when there was something my wife had a problem with or wasn't meeting her needs. Cuz I am special fellow. And I mean maybe this relationship ain't the one for you, but these are good lessons for how to be in a healthy one. Hang in there, man!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on June 28, 2016, 05:24:31 PM
interlock devices are loud as fuck  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 28, 2016, 05:46:28 PM
Whether or not you stay together, I think it would behoove you to explain the underlying feelings behind your behavior RE: friendship, Glen. For better or worse that's part of who you are and you need to get comfortable with explaining those feelings if you want to be successful here / in the future.

BTW "tell her / him how you feel" is my only other useful relationship advice that I only proffer in emergencies as I don't follow it myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on June 28, 2016, 06:37:31 PM
BTW "tell her / him how you feel" is my only other useful relationship advice that I only proffer in emergencies as I don't follow it myself.
It's why I will die alone. Distant does not begin to describe me. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on June 28, 2016, 07:21:01 PM
I built a cost model earlier this year. It was based on 2014 data and the data had a lot of underlying problems. The data was not consistent because back in 2014 our definitions were not as consistent nor were they are granular (we added some new classifications). Well we finish a big cleanup exercise with our data and so I do a refresh expecting the cost model to show a more accurate reversion. Bzzzz. Wrong.  Everything turned fucked up and now my model is a mess and I'm not sure why. Ugh. Back to square one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 28, 2016, 08:30:52 PM
BTW "tell her / him how you feel" is my only other useful relationship advice that I only proffer in emergencies as I don't follow it myself.
It's why I will die alone. Distant does not begin to describe me. :doge

Jeder stirbt für sich allein. :wag
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 28, 2016, 08:51:23 PM
Your girlfriend sounds like a loser but that might be because I've only heard the devil's side. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 28, 2016, 10:01:46 PM
You'll be fine Glen. She's probably looking at the friendship as more what kind of people really deserve to be in her life long term.

Edit: that sounds sarcastically ominous. :doge I mean she probably just wants to hear that you're on the same page with being emotionally supportive and really being a partner for life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 28, 2016, 10:55:01 PM
One of my brothers, who lives about 20min away, came over to use my computer since his power is now out lol. I was in my room chilling as he did his thing on the computer, then I glanced at him and realized he was staring at me. He then pointed at the screen. I was thinking oh shit how did I not clean my computer of porn/memes/etc, this is bad, I'm fucked, etc etc...

then I realized it was a google search for "how to communicate with your cat"
:stahp

I searched that MONTHS ago
:stahp

I was probably semi buzzed when I did it
:stahp

Now I know this L will be handed to me for the entire family to hear when we meet up on July 4th
:stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 28, 2016, 10:56:34 PM
What did you want to ask your cat?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on June 28, 2016, 11:22:47 PM
One of my brothers, who lives about 20min away, came over to use my computer since his power is now out lol. I was in my room chilling as he did his thing on the computer, then I glanced at him and realized he was staring at me. He then pointed at the screen. I was thinking oh shit how did I not clean my computer of porn/memes/etc, this is bad, I'm fucked, etc etc...

then I realized it was a google search for "how to communicate with your cat"
:stahp

I searched that MONTHS ago
:stahp

I was probably semi buzzed when I did it
:stahp

Now I know this L will be handed to me for the entire family to hear when we meet up on July 4th
:stahp

I'm not going to be judged by white people on this. I know you guys kiss your pets in the mouth. I only did it once.
:pacspit

maybe you should be kissing your cat more often  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 28, 2016, 11:37:51 PM
(AOL) Protip: search using keywords instead of asking Google questions like an octogenarian.

"Feline human communication" instead of "how to communicate with your cat," for example. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 28, 2016, 11:54:44 PM
Knowing PD's sonnarat-like tendencies, something tells me tonight's search will be "feline human contraception"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 29, 2016, 12:01:41 AM
When my cat starts meowing annoyingly I tend to meow back. I've wondered whether they're like babies, who react if you mimic their cries/laughs/etc. My cat never really responds or gives the impression she knows I'm trying to communicate.
 :uguu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on June 29, 2016, 01:05:47 AM
My fat cat used to go back and forth with me sometimes, they definitely can respond to the sound. As with dogs and other animals, most of their perception occur probably on a whole different level than your conscient communication to them (how you smell, body language, tone of voice, etc...).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 29, 2016, 09:37:33 AM
What did you want to ask your cat?

He asked why race and social norms prevent him form giving it kisses.  He asked why the world is so cruel. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 29, 2016, 10:48:45 AM
One of my brothers, who lives about 20min away, came over to use my computer since his power is now out lol. I was in my room chilling as he did his thing on the computer, then I glanced at him and realized he was staring at me. He then pointed at the screen. I was thinking oh shit how did I not clean my computer of porn/memes/etc, this is bad, I'm fucked, etc etc...

then I realized it was a google search for "how to communicate with your cat"
:stahp

I searched that MONTHS ago
:stahp

I was probably semi buzzed when I did it
:stahp

Now I know this L will be handed to me for the entire family to hear when we meet up on July 4th
:stahp

I'm like this close to assembling a committee and demanding you turn in your colored card, nicca.  :ufup


:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on June 29, 2016, 10:51:49 AM
My wife caught me looking up CAC lesbians way back in the day (before streaming), that went poorly for me.


The days before incognito browsers, brehs :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on June 29, 2016, 04:55:57 PM
Sounds like you're going to lose the tooth (simple extraction), but the best thing to hope for is that it's savable (core and crown). Brawndolicious is right though, you'll need to have it looked at asap to hopefully avoid a root canal.

...root canal

 :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 29, 2016, 11:30:43 PM
Sounds like you're going to lose the tooth (simple extraction), but the best thing to hope for is that it's savable (core and crown). Brawndolicious is right though, you'll need to have it looked at asap to hopefully avoid a root canal.

...root canal

 :tocry
damn

Did you look into Care Credit?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 29, 2016, 11:35:45 PM
One of my brothers, who lives about 20min away, came over to use my computer since his power is now out lol. I was in my room chilling as he did his thing on the computer, then I glanced at him and realized he was staring at me. He then pointed at the screen. I was thinking oh shit how did I not clean my computer of porn/memes/etc, this is bad, I'm fucked, etc etc...

then I realized it was a google search for "how to communicate with your cat"
:stahp

I searched that MONTHS ago
:stahp

I was probably semi buzzed when I did it
:stahp

Now I know this L will be handed to me for the entire family to hear when we meet up on July 4th
:stahp

This jackass is at your house, borrowing your computer, and has the nerve to throw shade over your search history?
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on June 30, 2016, 12:37:31 AM
My wife caught me looking up CAC lesbians way back in the day (before streaming), that went poorly for me.


The days before incognito browsers, brehs :snoop


Granny porn was my cross to bear.

I tried to pull the old "My co-worker sent me a random link and I just clicked it. That jerk!" Don't think she bought it.



Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 30, 2016, 01:05:20 AM
My wife caught me looking up CAC lesbians way back in the day (before streaming), that went poorly for me.


The days before incognito browsers, brehs :snoop
Would it have been better if they were black? :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on June 30, 2016, 01:14:24 AM
Sounds like you're going to lose the tooth (simple extraction), but the best thing to hope for is that it's savable (core and crown). Brawndolicious is right though, you'll need to have it looked at asap to hopefully avoid a root canal.

...root canal

 :tocry
damn

Did you look into Care Credit?

Yup. It was a necessity, blew my savings on my car down payment last month.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 01, 2016, 03:58:57 PM
Care credit is chill tho, you can use it for your furry friends, God forbid that being necessary
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 01, 2016, 06:07:50 PM
My employer failed to be aware of a change in reglementation and long story short, all the contracts for myself and fellow interim workers since March cannot be counted towards our special unemployment benefits. Losing that many hours means that a lot of us could lose our status, especially those currently trying to renew it, which is often a matter of livelihood. Useless to say, tempers were pretty hot yesterday... The company is meeting the official representative to try to sort it out, but I'm not sure our bosses are fully aware they have a time bomb on their hands : We simply cannot just sit on those 3 (probably 4 with June) months and if they cannot straighten that shit with authorities, we'll lit a fire up their asses (We must roughly be 15-25% of the workforce) and I know some would probably go before justice if need be.

Even if they fix it, it's just another episode in everyone's (Interim and permanent employees alike) skepticism towards our new management. Those people do not seem to be on the ball at all, there's a strong feeling that we are on a captainless ship (We've been led off for over a couple of months on how our biggest client would sign back in any day now, but they're still negotiating), there's rumors of a new round of layoffs as soon as they'll move out of the public scrutiny following last year's Ch.11, they're of course pretty tight fisted when it comes to discussing wages or even conducting maintenance on some of our biggest machines (which may or may not be actually unsafe for work) while spending time in endless meetings and complete bullshit sideshows.

Those dudes bought up plenty of companies before, but I'm not certain they fully grasped the task ahead of them in gobbling up a place with as much history as ours. Starstruck blindness...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on July 01, 2016, 07:16:49 PM
Best of luck :/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 01, 2016, 07:48:57 PM
Best of luck :/

Thanks. Honestly I'm not over pessimistic over those short term issues. It would seem backwards the administration would refuse to retroactively requalify our contracts (provided the company make the necessary amends) and that we would have to suffer the consequences of our employer fumbling. We'll have an update on this next week. That big client will also probably sign at some imminent point (though, as often, a big contract is both a blessing and a curse...) because we're kinda the only ones that can service them. Serious work might only be in September tho.

Mid and long term is however a different story... I expect our bosses to become a lot more incrementally overbearing over the course of next year. So far, I can't say we are too impressed with the low level of care they gave to our departement and whatever glimpses they offered us on their master plan (basically : dreams of shoddy work on poor wages rather than playing off our competitive advantages in quality and size).

But heh, I brought in beer today and we had a few drinks after all the usual 9-5 party poopers left the vinicity. Shame we're never getting our barbecues back.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on July 02, 2016, 01:15:11 PM
If it's that much of a problem, you could get one of those automatic feeders.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on July 02, 2016, 01:15:36 PM
Nah, that just sounds like a cat.

They'll fuck up your sleep forever.  But they're pretty awesome pals.  I'm gonna get another cat at some point, but for now I'm gonna enjoy sleeping an uninterrupted 7 hours.

If it's that much of a problem, you could get one of those automatic feeders.

This will help, but also get them fat and lazy.  Also there's no coming back from a feeder.  You try to go back to manual food serving and dieting for your cat and they'll whine and bug you constantly for food.  Either way they still might bug you at 6am just because they want to play or troll you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on July 02, 2016, 01:27:00 PM
You can get an automatic feeder that's set on a timer. I saw one on Amazon that had six separate compartments that you could set to six different times.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on July 02, 2016, 02:19:36 PM
You can get an automatic feeder that's set on a timer. I saw one on Amazon that had six separate compartments that you could set to six different times.

Yeah, that could be good.  I didn't have one of those.  Although at the end of the day dry food is supposed to be worse for cats than wet food so idk.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Alcoholic Fish on July 02, 2016, 02:26:22 PM
I have one with two trays that I can set from 1-48 hours because my cat's a fatty and likes to wake me up at 5 for food.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on July 03, 2016, 05:21:57 PM
I haven't had mexican food in almost 3 days :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on July 03, 2016, 09:28:42 PM
I like my cat to watch me feed her so she knows that I provide it for her, it doesn't just magically appear. I feel like she would be an even bigger asshole if she didn't know I was the source of her food.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 04, 2016, 02:51:02 AM
couldnt find my keys this morning, home, bike, office grrrrr  :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 04, 2016, 08:40:32 AM
couldnt find my keys this morning, home, bike, office grrrrr  :maf

Why are you working on the Fourth of July, are you some kind of communist?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 04, 2016, 09:57:34 PM
When my cat starts meowing annoyingly I tend to meow back. I've wondered whether they're like babies, who react if you mimic their cries/laughs/etc. My cat never really responds or gives the impression she knows I'm trying to communicate.
 :uguu

Make eye contact with your cat and do a slow blink, if she's cool with you she'll give you one back.

I do this with my cat all the time but he's also really chill. A lot different than my childhood cat who would go for my ankles when I ran up the stairs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 04, 2016, 11:59:50 PM
Kitties love slow blinks. A wink is for play times. Kitty language is all eyes and tail, meowing is pretty much solely for humans  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on July 05, 2016, 07:17:05 PM
Working the day after the 4th for logistics is like coming back to a world where the fact that no one works to move shit on the 4th of July is your fault despite warning all these motherfuckers months ahead of time to schedule shit around it.

 :iface
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on July 06, 2016, 09:48:14 PM
Kitties love slow blinks. A wink is for play times. Kitty language is all eyes and tail, meowing is pretty much solely for humans  :lol

We shouldn't expect PD to understand the nuisances of the pussy game. He's getting played with those feigned meows.

Me IRL

(http://i.imgur.com/Yth33lR.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on July 08, 2016, 01:36:17 AM
Since I made a bunch of posts about my intern at work awhile back, I thought I'd update and say I was informed today that he won't be working with us anymore because of personal reasons requiring him to go back home. I dunno if it is related to them cutting his hours or what but I can't help but feel a little bad.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 12, 2016, 09:38:06 AM
 :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on July 12, 2016, 10:02:49 AM
I can't imagine dropping friends due to political disagreements.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on July 12, 2016, 10:08:33 AM
I cant imagine acting like that and having friends.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 12, 2016, 10:22:39 AM
Unless someone is a Trump voter, has ugly racial views, hates on gay people, etc then I'm not throwing a valued friendship in the bushes over politics. Especially something as meh as arguing marginal tax rates, trade deals, and other boring things my fellow neoliberal dirtpeople argue about with the true liberal master race.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 12, 2016, 12:47:28 PM
He probably defriended you for saying shit like

"Bunch of shit-sucking morons in this comments section who think their degrees from Butthurt University School of Law make them better authorities on the subject than the FBI director and the entire Justice Department. Get fucked by a horny racehorse."

You have no chill :lol

Don't ever change though, I get a good chuckle out of these tirades
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 12, 2016, 01:07:31 PM
Honestly she should have been charged, Wal. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on July 12, 2016, 01:10:49 PM
Bernie said he doesn't care about her emails and then he lost by a significant margin. Trump basically claimed he has the biggest dick in the room and then won....by a significant margin. Please explain to me how Bernie caused more damage to his party.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on July 12, 2016, 01:54:40 PM
I wonder what Walrus would say to me if I decided not to vote for Hillary or anyone during this election. :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 12, 2016, 01:57:32 PM
Honestly she should have been charged, Wal.

Nope. There is no criminal statute that applies. She probably broke the Federal Records Act, but that has no criminal penalties attached.
And what of Benghazi? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on July 12, 2016, 02:03:22 PM
I wouldn't care.

Calling for her indictment makes you my enemy though.
So... I could vote for her but also say she should've been indicted? :drake

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on July 12, 2016, 03:11:40 PM
Honestly she should have been charged, Wal.

Nope. There is no criminal statute that applies. She probably broke the Federal Records Act, but that has no criminal penalties attached.
And what of Benghazi?

The gop commission already cleared her of any wrongdoing despite 18 month of smearing her of FN. That is why they had to move on to email. Then that just shit the bed. Now onto perjury and after that they'll defer to the fashion police.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on July 12, 2016, 03:15:48 PM
Is this you pretending to be psychotic again, Walrus, or is it for real this time? We should get together. You just might be the  Bianchi to my Buono. There might be magic.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 12, 2016, 03:16:39 PM
Brehv, move along you anti-troll.  Ass.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on July 12, 2016, 03:23:39 PM
I bet you are like super super nonconfrontational irl haha
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 12, 2016, 03:55:47 PM
Imagine being a chick and having Walrus take out all that anger and energy in your sugar walls.
:lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 12, 2016, 03:58:08 PM
I imagined and was disappointed. 

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on July 13, 2016, 10:51:03 AM
Oh god I'm getting super nihilistic and misanthropic. It's getting really difficult to get out of bed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 17, 2016, 10:33:12 PM
I spent like 3 weeks last year writing, what I thought was, a very complex function.  Today I realized that it can be simplified to like 5 lines of code if I just reshape the input tensor

I'm so ashamed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 19, 2016, 02:08:04 AM
I spent like 3 weeks last year writing, what I thought was, a very complex function.  Today I realized that it can be simplified to like 5 lines of code if I just reshape the input tensor

I'm so ashamed.
Isn't that true of much of programming? Figuring out better ways to implement as time goes on?

The only arguably embarrassing thing would be if someone else had figured it out and pointed it out to you. As it was, you figured it out on your own.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 19, 2016, 02:13:48 AM
Better to optimize after the fact than prematurely.

"Premature optimization is the root of all evil." -Don Knuth
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 19, 2016, 02:14:44 AM
@Wrath: That really sucks man. But after years of you talking about your family I can't say I didn't see this coming. They don't deserve you. Get your ass back to the states.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 19, 2016, 02:17:27 AM
#NoFamCrew :respect
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 19, 2016, 02:23:29 AM
I'm sad that you're in this situation, Wrath. It sounds like you're doing what you have to, in order to protect yourself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 19, 2016, 02:44:11 AM
While probably never calling for such extreme measures on my end, I know for a fact that parents can be the a source of toxicity for one's life even despite no active and outright malice on their part (though you seem to say in your case there might be some of that). Filial piety is a very real thing but it cannot justify everything. Putting a fair amount of distance is sometimes necessary. In short I can empathize and you shouldn't be too ashamed of yourself if you feel that's the only recourse you have left.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 19, 2016, 02:49:25 AM
As for options for emigration, is there less costly or difficult destinations for you to attain than the US, maybe some expatriation mission through your job ? I imagine Western Europe would be subject to much the same song and dance than the US but perhaps somewhere else ? Within the confine of your career it would offer some fresh air and distance on a temporary basis.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 19, 2016, 02:59:37 AM
Best of luck in any case.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on July 19, 2016, 03:29:10 AM
Prayers wrath as someone still dealing immigration shit and to always have that kinda shit hanging over your head/future it sucks. Blessings man. I know it might not feel like much, but you *have* done a lot and you'll continue to do more.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 19, 2016, 04:03:08 AM
Damn cutting ties is hard Wrath but probably for the best sometimes. I'm sure you will land on both feet. Hang in there.

What kind of work are you looking for? do you have any cash reserves?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 19, 2016, 08:39:02 AM
Nami caught on to the fact that if she gets me up earlier I'll feed her earlier.  Damn it dog. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 19, 2016, 09:28:22 AM
Terrible news Wrath. Hoping everything works out in the end but damn it sounds like this is going to follow you for awhile. Fuck. Dunno what to say but you know you're my brown brother.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 19, 2016, 11:00:35 AM
Hang in there Kaffir. If you'd like I could have some Tyson chicken nuggets shipped to you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 19, 2016, 06:47:25 PM
I didn't mean for it to come off that way Wrath, I apologize for how my post came off. I think that was the last post before I went to sleep last night so I didn't put as much thought or effort into it as I should have.

In general I just want you back in my white twinkboy arms. <3
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 19, 2016, 10:51:40 PM
Nami caught on to the fact that if she gets me up earlier I'll feed her earlier.  Damn it dog.

IN SOCIALIST CANADA, DOG TRAINS YOU.
 :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on July 19, 2016, 11:24:08 PM
I'm not going to share too much on this, but I need to say it somewhere to at least feel a little bit better.

My dad has officially done the worst thing he could possibly do to me, the exact thing I feared the most. And here's where I realize that I'm going to completely cut ties and not look back, no phone number, no internet interaction, not anything. I'm wiping the slate clean and essentially disowning myself of them. I've already been put in a position where it'll take years for me to reach anything resembling an OK life, so going to start fresh now without their baggage.

I have put in so much into these past few years for them, and they thank me by leaving me to the wolves. Fuck them.

The doors to anime church are always open, breh.

Also, make sure you're around this weekend so we can kick back, toss on some boos anime, and forget about how crap the world is.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: kick51 on July 20, 2016, 12:21:21 AM
criticize some misguided "progressive"/ "left" stuff and the person responds like "haha yeah those cheeseburger taco negro jews all need to burn in auschwitz" like you're on the same page :-\

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 20, 2016, 12:24:31 AM
Nazi
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: kick51 on July 20, 2016, 12:27:28 AM
i will wake up tomorrow and find myself on the wrong side of history  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 20, 2016, 12:30:38 AM
i will wake up tomorrow and find myself on the wrong side of history  :'(

in a mass grave
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on July 20, 2016, 09:48:59 AM
i will wake up tomorrow and find myself on the wrong side of history  :'(

in a mass grave

Press A to Mass Grave
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 20, 2016, 01:43:10 PM
I'd rather Press B to Mass Rave. :rock
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on July 20, 2016, 01:52:31 PM
"Do you have any questions on the data?"

"I'd like you to start to run this so that you understand where the data comes from"

"If you read this it explains how to interpret everything"

"No, that doesn't mean that.  It means this..."

"Let me know if anything doesn't make sense"

*1 year later*

"You've been fundamentally misunderstanding everything I've given you and you've built a tool that uses it incorrectly"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 20, 2016, 02:46:23 PM
At a bar for lunch, and someone put on a COVER of a BRIGHT EYES song.


And I fucking recognized it
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on July 20, 2016, 02:58:28 PM
"Do you have any questions on the data?"

"I'd like you to start to run this so that you understand where the data comes from"

"If you read this it explains how to interpret everything"

"No, that doesn't mean that.  It means this..."

"Let me know if anything doesn't make sense"

*1 year later*

"You've been fundamentally misunderstanding everything I've given you and you've built a tool that uses it incorrectly"
Shit like this makes me want to punch things and scream obscenities into people's faces.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 23, 2016, 03:11:19 PM
Anxiety is killing me today, so I'm drinking at 3pm. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 28, 2016, 06:11:03 PM
Goddamn anxiety again.  So if I uses the stove, iron, or leave the houses I have to tell myself explicit that I shut of the oven or locked the door ect.  Today I forget to do that explicit mention after using the oven.  I'm like 99% sure I shut if off but now I've been panicking for 3 hours at work that I didn't shut it down and my place is on fire. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on July 28, 2016, 06:57:24 PM
I get the same shit sometimes. I've walked blocks back to my place to make sure everything is fine more than a few times. It always is, your place is fine.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 28, 2016, 07:01:46 PM
Yeah it's fine, the fire has burnt out by now. Nothing to do about it at this point
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 29, 2016, 05:46:23 PM
Goddamn anxiety again.  So if I uses the stove, iron, or leave the houses I have to tell myself explicit that I shut of the oven or locked the door ect.  Today I forget to do that explicit mention after using the oven.  I'm like 99% sure I shut if off but now I've been panicking for 3 hours at work that I didn't shut it down and my place is on fire.

I get that, too. It's been better for a couple years. Try getting out, running, martial arts, meditation, anything to put your mind in a different state. Manage your stress. Or, hey, address the source of your stress if you can: work on the project, follow up with participants, or otherwise push things to move.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: PlayDat on July 31, 2016, 10:23:23 AM
Sorry to hear that.  Hope you're doing okay.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 31, 2016, 02:38:49 PM
Just found out I lost a really good friend today. He was a really, really good guy. He really wanted us to work on cars together but things could never line up, I tried to visit him three days ago but he wasn't around  :(

R.I.P. Abdullah

I'm sad for you. I'm glad you made the effort to go see him so recently.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 31, 2016, 02:53:01 PM
sorry to hear that Wrath. how old was he?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on August 01, 2016, 06:12:56 PM
One of my favorite teachers ever died yesterday :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Van Cruncheon on August 01, 2016, 11:17:00 PM
with my boss out on vacay, i am now the dumpster for every bad executive idea that needs a spec and a "tiger team". there should be a law against top-down management, especially when said management gives such mediocre reacharounds
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 02, 2016, 12:23:31 PM
Two days into a work trip I'm already missing my family and my cat a ridiculous amount. Like, get me the fuck outta here
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 02, 2016, 12:41:18 PM
That sucks steve. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 05, 2016, 11:50:15 AM
My favorite band is splitting up and it made me legit sad.  :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 05, 2016, 12:46:15 PM
My favorite band is splitting up and it made me legit sad.  :fbm

What band split up?

The dillinger escape plan. They will still release their album, and do a full tour cycle (which should be  around 1 to 2 years). So I guess 20 years of them playing was a good run... But going to their shows and their album releases is the last thing in adult life, that really gets me excited like when I was a kid for Christmas. Feels bad man.

On the positive side, their new album sounds great from the one track they released, if you are into that kind of thing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6p4tQUBtsBw
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on August 05, 2016, 01:13:41 PM
Zero percent chance they're staying broken up for more than 5-10 years
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 05, 2016, 02:00:42 PM
company's backend fucked up this morning and lost us nearly $6,000 due to faulty payment processing

It's not my fault but I'm scared for my job since I'm the newest hire and we're a startup  :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on August 05, 2016, 02:03:31 PM
$6K? I wipe my ass with $6K.  :success

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on August 05, 2016, 02:14:59 PM
For real though, unless you're missing a zero or two, that does not sound like a serious number.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 05, 2016, 02:26:31 PM
Zero percent chance they're staying broken up for more than 5-10 years

I don't know. Don't really see them doing this in their 50's.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on August 05, 2016, 03:24:11 PM
You're probably right, but at the same time I would not be shocked if they come back around to it. "Extended hiatus" usually means "we're tired and old," not "we all hate each other now," and I've seen plenty of times when the former has turned into "we're bored/broke".
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 05, 2016, 03:45:29 PM
For real though, unless you're missing a zero or two, that does not sound like a serious number.

if our client pulls out because of this, we lose a significant source of revenue
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on August 05, 2016, 03:57:28 PM
For real though, unless you're missing a zero or two, that does not sound like a serious number.

if our client pulls out because of this, we lose a significant source of revenue
Right. I didn't think that far. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on August 05, 2016, 05:02:41 PM
did someone say rave?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EL1rUAWecaU
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 05, 2016, 05:48:47 PM
Zero percent chance they're staying broken up for more than 5-10 years

I don't know. Don't really see them doing this in their 50's.

What we all said, about every and any band ever, and have been wrong each time.

Except the countless we don't remember, because you know, they never came back.

(but please do botch and isis).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on August 05, 2016, 06:26:05 PM
Methinks an Isis reunion would be a bit difficult PR wise lately
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on August 08, 2016, 11:58:00 AM
My father in law was out for my wife's birthday, went for a run collapsed and died.  We're all pretty fucked up about it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on August 08, 2016, 12:15:34 PM
 :(  I'm sorry, Steve.  Best thoughts for you and your wife
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 08, 2016, 01:13:09 PM
Wow sorry to hear that, you have my thoughts and condolences.  :'(

How old was he? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on August 08, 2016, 01:14:26 PM
Sorry for your loss, Steve. My mother in law passed suddenly a little over a week ago. My oldest has slept her grandma's bed every night since then.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on August 08, 2016, 01:22:52 PM
Wow sorry to hear that, you have my thoughts and condolences.  :'(

How old was he?
64.  He was in the best shape of anyone I knew.   :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 08, 2016, 01:25:25 PM
Man that's scary.  Sorry for your loss. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Van Cruncheon on August 08, 2016, 02:49:06 PM
sorry to hear. that sorta sudden passing, especially for what sounds like a healthy guy, is terribly traumatizing. :-(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on August 08, 2016, 02:50:43 PM
TVC helped rally a bunch of our friends yesterday to clean our house while we were dealing with everything in case you're wondering who the best bore poster is.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 08, 2016, 03:04:34 PM
horrible, condolences Steve
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 08, 2016, 03:17:48 PM
jesus christ.  That's awful.  Makes me realize my dad is close to that same age :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on August 08, 2016, 03:20:11 PM
Damn. Sorry Steve. GFs father got diagnosed a month ago with terminal lung cancer (never even smoked) and all I tell her is that there's at least a cushion of time to spend together.

64 is so young.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on August 08, 2016, 04:30:20 PM
He was the USAA national masters trail marathon champion at his age.  It's so weird that he died that young.  Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 09, 2016, 07:12:43 PM
Had an eye appointment earlier today. I was in the waiting room with two other people: a cute college aged girl and a disheveled neckbeard. I'm pretty sure he was a wizard. The young chick was reading something on her kindle...

Wizard: Hi, I'm Will. What are you reading?
Girl: Oh hi. Harry Potter & The Cursed Child
Wizard: Oh, I heard it was shite [not shit, he literally said "shite"]
Girl: *nervous giggle* I kinda like it. But not as much as the other books
Wizard: Yea. Have you read Game Of Thrones?
Girl: No but my brother watches the show. I haven't seen it
Wizard: Have you read The Hunger Games?
Girl: I saw the movies but haven't read the books
Wizard: Cool. Yea. Have you read Outlander?
Girl: I don't know what that is *laughs*

I shit you not, he asked her about 4-5 more books before she was called into the back for her appointment. At that point he looked at me and said "I tried." I was pulling a MAF at the time, ie pretending to do shit on my phone, but I looked up and
 :idont


(http://i.imgur.com/1IIfMsy.png)
I suppose he deserves some credit for actually talking to a girl, but still..
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 09, 2016, 07:36:30 PM
Should have deflated his confidence, PD.  Kinder that it be from you than the next girl. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on August 09, 2016, 07:39:51 PM
His name really was Will? :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 09, 2016, 07:47:57 PM
His name really was Will? :doge
Yes  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on August 09, 2016, 07:54:35 PM
Fuck.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on August 09, 2016, 11:46:25 PM
There's a difference between trying to try and trying to fuck.

:gurl
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on August 10, 2016, 12:33:18 AM
Got yelled at by the boss today and then had to go watch Suicide Squad with the entire company and go back to work after.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on August 10, 2016, 07:44:22 AM
Got yelled at by the boss today and then had to go watch Suicide Squad with the entire company and go back to work after.
What a strange punishment
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 10, 2016, 08:27:51 AM
Got yelled at by the boss today and then had to go watch Suicide Squad with the entire company and go back to work after.
What a strange punishment


Hmmmm. Not a bad idea. Break them down a bit with the yelling then rub salt in the wounds with a shit ass movie. I like it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on August 10, 2016, 08:34:16 AM
"Work doesn't seem so bad now, eh?!"

"No, sir :fbm"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 10, 2016, 09:11:14 AM
"Work doesn't seem so bad now, eh?!"

"No, sir :fbm"

(http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-TYzKPgtKhxc/Tu1PCD2dGzI/AAAAAAAAWFI/MZdaODvlwv8/s1600/eyesopen.jpg)

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 10, 2016, 09:57:45 AM
Got yelled at by the boss today and then had to go watch Suicide Squad with the entire company and go back to work after.
You're working for an evil genius
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on August 11, 2016, 01:57:45 AM
Today I had an outburst at work and got told that my tone of late has been "aggressive".

One of our QA guys was put on "sabbatical" (which was announced today he would not be returning from) for being "aggressive".

I'm going to get fired, I can feel it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 11, 2016, 03:03:16 AM
Wow that's good management right there, curb the rebellion with a culture of fear.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on August 11, 2016, 09:16:04 AM
Today I had an outburst at work and got told that my tone of late has been "aggressive".

One of our QA guys was put on "sabbatical" (which was announced today he would not be returning from) for being "aggressive".

I'm going to get fired, I can feel it.

Bring in some snacks for your coworkers, all is forgiven with free food.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on August 11, 2016, 09:21:15 AM
Today I had an outburst at work and got told that my tone of late has been "aggressive".

One of our QA guys was put on "sabbatical" (which was announced today he would not be returning from) for being "aggressive".

I'm going to get fired, I can feel it.

Nah, now he's going to take you to Ghostbusters.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on August 11, 2016, 10:08:12 AM
Work  :stahp

Months ago I said that I was given an opportunity to create my own department, form my own team, etc.  Got a #yuge pay raise and was excited to get into it.  In July I submitted a key deliverable (a binder with a bunch of reports, charts, and shit) to senior management.  The VP said "great work, hold back a bit and let me provide feedback in a few days."  Those few days turned into weeks.  I called and e-mailed but it went into a black hole.  I began rolling out some of the obvious items because fuck waiting.

So yesterday I got a few redlines and some comments that didn't mean much.  Then my phone started blowing up with calls from the VP.  He's now frantic, saying that X, Y, and Z from my plan should be executed as soon as possible.  This isn't easy and will take a lot of time.  Some of these were Q1 2017 plans and are now supposed to be done as soon as possible.  Then I get a call from another manager about putting together a presentation on my department for next week!  I can put it together but FFS, I asked for today through next Tuesday off so I could unwind but nope, I'm going to the office and likely spending all of my vacation time executing plans and crafting a presentation.  I'm confident in the presentation but the plan executions are going to be painful.

Turns out after getting more frantic calls from other managers, we invested hundreds of millions of dollars in a boondoggle that isn't going to give us much revenue and wound up costing more than planned.  So now we have to find about $50 million in savings from now to the year's end.  So everyone now is scrambling to find savings.  So everyone is in a panic because $50m in savings when 2/3 of the year is gone is a tall order, some people are probably going to have to stop working and discontinue any projects in order to meet this new goal.  I should also point out that we're making more money than ever so this isn't an issue of whether we continue to work or not, it's one of those things to ensure executive compensation gets a 10-20% yoy increase.  The CEO of the company makes over $50 million a year.  For reference, ExxonMobil's CEO gets about $25 million per year.  So yeah.

Not only that but I notice a lot of my old co-workers are leaving or retiring.  Vast amounts of knowledge are walking out the door in the next few weeks.  The company, due to said earlier budget cuts, are balking at replacing all of the positions, which is a huge WTF as these are critical positions.  These departments are freaking out and many people have sent out resumes.

I had dreams last night of getting fired.  I kind of wished it happened but as a wagecuck, I will waste my vacation days instead  :goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 11, 2016, 10:20:51 AM
Dude that's my whole life just company after company. I know the feel man :brazilcry


Reminds me of this client that I was chatting with a few days ago told me that everyone in her team is worried because there are coming layoffs. I was like "Layoffs? Your company exceeded your plan and posted over a billion in profits just last month. Profits. I know. I've seen the numbers."

Doesn't matter. They could be making more :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 11, 2016, 10:30:18 AM
I once had a department literally disappear overnight at a FF I was working with. It was bizarre.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 11, 2016, 10:52:57 AM
We had a lot of retirements last year, plus various people moving to different firms. It doesn't seem like there's hesitation to re-hire but man, some of the hiring that has gone on+intern promotions baffles my fucking mind. Not in terms of being able to do your job or not, moreso an influx of people who seem shell shocked and can't adapt quickly. If you aren't communicating with management, integrating with teams, etc you lost. No one is going to hold your hand (unless they want to fuck you  :doge ).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on August 11, 2016, 01:30:32 PM
Same thing is happening in my place. Dudes that worked from the bottom up (for 40 years) are retiring and they are replacing them with college kids with 3-4 years of real work experience. Its a disaster. They re-hired most of those old dudes as consultants, but it's just not the same. They don't have the same investment in the company as they used to. Most are just cashing the easy checks and laughing at the mess.



 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 11, 2016, 03:59:30 PM
I'm not kidding in the last 4 weeks I was a client and they wanted my company to replace this COBOL code that helps them close the books. We get onsite and are like "OK, we need to talk to your dev  team and analysts and see all your documentation." They're like "That might be a problem. It was written by just one person."

"Uh....OK. Let me talk to that person."

"She's no longer here. We let her go."

"You mean the one piece of code that closes your books and reports to outside parties, including the government was not only coded by ONE person but YOU LET THAT PERSON GO?!!"

They were able to get that person back as a consultant for a few weeks but they were like "eh. whatever."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Alcoholic Fish on August 11, 2016, 04:00:06 PM
You guys are making me happy I'm at a competent firm in a competent department. We have internal political cold war, but who doesn't?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on August 11, 2016, 04:44:44 PM
So many accurate feels on this page.

Always baffling to see how uninterested management can be with experience and craftsmanship nowadays.

I'm also working in an industry that is getting killed by clients being leeches. They are looking after their money, I get that, but when exceptional deep rebates and price favors become the norm regardless of how much money you have, how do you expect the whole thing to be sustainable ? Also a widespread tendency to defraud public subsidies by trying to avoid paying their own legally mandated stake in bids. Then cry like children when the subsidies get cut.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 12, 2016, 06:38:52 AM
So many accurate feels on this page.

Always baffling to see how uninterested management can be with experience and craftsmanship nowadays.

I'm also working in an industry that is getting killed by clients being leeches. They are looking after their money, I get that, but when exceptional deep rebates and price favors become the norm regardless of how much money you have, how do you expect the whole thing to be sustainable ? Also a widespread tendency to defraud public subsidies by trying to avoid paying their own legally mandated stake in bids. Then cry like children when the subsidies get cut.

I've always employed and believed that you need a mix of educated managers as well as ones that came up the hard way. It's always worked for me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on August 12, 2016, 09:31:52 AM
Turns out after getting more frantic calls from other managers, we invested hundreds of millions of dollars in a boondoggle that isn't going to give us much revenue and wound up costing more than planned.  So now we have to find about $50 million in savings from now to the year's end.  So everyone now is scrambling to find savings.  So everyone is in a panic because $50m in savings when 2/3 of the year is gone is a tall order, some people are probably going to have to stop working and discontinue any projects in order to meet this new goal.  I should also point out that we're making more money than ever so this isn't an issue of whether we continue to work or not, it's one of those things to ensure executive compensation gets a 10-20% yoy increase.  The CEO of the company makes over $50 million a year.  For reference, ExxonMobil's CEO gets about $25 million per year.  So yeah.

Cut this dude and there is your savings. Pretty obvious. Not sure why you are so nervous.  ;)

My consulting bill is in the mail. :money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 12, 2016, 09:41:13 AM
There is only about 10 companies where the ceo makes more then 50 btw
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 12, 2016, 09:42:17 AM
There is only about 10 companies where the ceo makes more then 50 btw

:dunno
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 12, 2016, 10:27:49 AM
There is only about 10 companies where the ceo makes more then 50 btw
You forgot the word "public" and to take into account shares :snob
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 12, 2016, 10:41:38 AM
Get to work today and my secretary is all huffy because a sales guy got there before she came in and left a package on my desk. Which isn't really kosher but doesn't call for this

Me "Morning Stephanie"

Sec "I ain't having a good morning AiA, some little shit from Berktek done got in here before me and put shit on your desk"

Me "Well that's certainly brazen on his part *laughs"

Sec "what you need to be doing is working on updating this ass building security y'all got. How that man just gonna walk in here and....you know what....I'm gonna...."

Me *closes door
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 12, 2016, 12:19:11 PM
is she white?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on August 12, 2016, 12:20:48 PM
My lady blew a tire on the car  :-\ and bent the rim trying to drive it to a safer spot :-\ and then the jack broke while I was changing it :-\ so she called a guy to come jack up the car. I've only been up for two hours, this is too many Ls already.

On a related note, I'm buying AAA :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 12, 2016, 12:28:01 PM
is she white?

Nah. I've had Steph for a long time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 12, 2016, 12:45:04 PM
is she white?

Nah. I've had Steph for a long time.

You saying you rubbed off on her? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 12, 2016, 12:58:37 PM
smh mike
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 12, 2016, 04:42:09 PM
There are posts I regret.  #strugglethread
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on August 12, 2016, 10:11:59 PM
His name really was Will? :doge

Pretty sure he'll have to change it to "Won't."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on August 15, 2016, 02:11:46 PM
Spent the whole week in Salt Lake taking care of my mother in-law and wife and helping plan the memorial.  I'm fucking destroyed and my wife is worse. :'(
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 15, 2016, 06:10:40 PM
Hang in there, guys  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 16, 2016, 12:19:39 AM
you can do it wrath
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on August 16, 2016, 12:23:32 AM
Happy to see you're progressing to your goals Wrath. It's trite but keep your chin up, we're all rooting for you. :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 16, 2016, 10:55:19 AM
My son is going to start driving. So I got my son a job at the local butcher/animal food supplier in order to learn what money feels like. (It's an AiA's pops line)

So I stopped by today to see him and he's working on the grain side (feed corn bagging) and I'll be damned if the manager isn't the most overly try hard white kid of all time. Mid 20's..flat billed cap in pocket..those damn ear plug things...and all he wants to do is talk about rap and the NBA. My kid is thrilled as he hadn't had to do a damn thing since he's been there but listen to this boy.  Which is defeating the purpose of having the job.

 :foxx

Edit: but seeing him bagging the feed while my kid stood there with his arms crossed just smiling was a brief black superiority moment.

:lawd

Edit edit, back to a struggle as I was walking out.

"Mr. AiA what was it like to grow up with trash rap like paperboy and NAS before Eminem changed that game?"

I'm in the car all mad and I just know my kid in there doing this :umad
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 16, 2016, 11:50:59 AM
 :lol

Breh the try-hard young (often white) manager thing is so real. I ate inside a BK for the first time in ages recently, and man...the young manager was acting like he was commanding a battle ship. I respect people who work hard at their job regardless of what it is but bro...all you gotta do is make sure everything is done in a timely fashion. You're not saving the free world.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on August 16, 2016, 12:05:54 PM
"Mr. AiA what was it like to grow up with trash rap like paperboy and NAS before Eminem changed that game?"

:dead
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Post by: Steve Contra on August 16, 2016, 04:43:39 PM
Dealing with family politics when someone dies :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 24, 2016, 03:06:00 PM
Just experienced yet another full-team layoff.

So I'm out on the hunt for another job now.  Looking for management roles in tech in a very competitive city is crippling.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 24, 2016, 03:08:26 PM
Just experienced yet another full-team layoff.

So I'm out on the hunt for another job now.  Looking for management roles in tech in a very competitive city is crippling.

What city? Canton? Try Summa or SecureData365 or even Goodyear.

Or go to Cleveland where everybody is hiring.
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 24, 2016, 04:00:38 PM
For like the 10th time, I live in Nashville.  :lol
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Post by: Tasty on August 24, 2016, 04:35:13 PM
I could have sworn you lived in SF. :wtf
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 24, 2016, 04:43:37 PM
I thought you were canadian.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 24, 2016, 04:54:18 PM
Where does your sister live?
:noah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on August 24, 2016, 05:33:09 PM
Good hunting, BN, and sorry about your sitch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 24, 2016, 06:13:41 PM
BN if you got data experience and are open to some consulting you let me know.
It's 2016, head is head. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 24, 2016, 06:39:43 PM
Just experienced yet another full-team layoff.

So I'm out on the hunt for another job now.  Looking for management roles in tech in a very competitive city is crippling.

Sorry to hear, man :( 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on August 24, 2016, 06:43:09 PM
BN if you got data experience and are open to some consulting you let me know.
It's 2016, head is head. :doge

Consulting :pacspit

Nah actually I can pretty much tell by his posting he lacks the innate godlike doucheness a consultant must exhibit on occasion
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on August 24, 2016, 08:06:20 PM
Holy crap, was that a compliment!?
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 24, 2016, 08:26:28 PM
That I have a godlike douchiness? I'lll take it. :jawalrus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 24, 2016, 10:06:40 PM
So I had been doing some financial analysis, competitor research, database work, and product management.  My ideal job at this point is to be a development lead, working closely with developers to sift through issues and product needs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 24, 2016, 10:55:02 PM
So I had been doing some financial analysis, competitor research, database work, and product management.  My ideal job at this point is to be a development lead, working closely with developers to sift through issues and product needs.
:donot
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on August 25, 2016, 03:28:57 AM
So I had been doing some financial analysis, competitor research, database work, and product management.  My ideal job at this point is to be a development lead, working closely with developers to sift through issues and product needs.
:donot

:rofl

To be honest, working with developers directly is one of my favorite things. Dealing with directors/exec producers is much less fun. Dealing with marketing or sales brings out my Inner Schwarzenegger.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 26, 2016, 12:22:22 PM
it the hottest day of the year, on a 4.5 hour train ride, aircon broken , delay

fml

poor baby just fell asleep now exhausted
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on August 26, 2016, 04:18:38 PM
So I had been doing some financial analysis, competitor research, database work, and product management.  My ideal job at this point is to be a development lead, working closely with developers to sift through issues and product needs.
:donot

:rofl


To be honest, working with developers directly is one of my favorite things. Dealing with directors/exec producers is much less fun. Dealing with marketing or sales brings out my Inner Schwarzenegger.

So much this
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 26, 2016, 05:55:38 PM
Found out I need 8k of work done to my foundation. Fml.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 26, 2016, 06:13:46 PM
Make a foundation to help support your foundation. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on August 26, 2016, 06:31:24 PM
Group of us all decided to get concert tickets a month ago. Walking to the show, sent out a group text to find out when everyone is getting there.

No one bought tickets or is going.

Trust other people. Am i doing it right?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on August 26, 2016, 07:50:34 PM
The only thing I can trust my friends to come through on is to sit on their asses and watch ESPN.  Anything more ambitious than that is rolling the dice.
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Post by: Mupepe on August 27, 2016, 01:03:25 AM
Yep. I only plan things that I'm ok doing alone if it comes down to it.
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Post by: Joe Molotov on August 27, 2016, 05:51:16 PM
Make a foundation to help support your foundation. 

While reading Isaac Asimov's Foundation.
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Post by: Atramental on August 28, 2016, 05:47:15 PM
I need to do a hard reset on my life. :snoop

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Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 28, 2016, 07:14:30 PM
I need to do a hard reset on my life. :snoop

(https://66.media.tumblr.com/49a21e182fcdfb3e96cc9d9421f8ee3f/tumblr_mkmipvUcxH1s9s0bdo1_500.gif)
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Post by: toku on August 28, 2016, 08:03:56 PM
I need to do a hard reset on my life. :snoop

(http://i.imgur.com/myHG125.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on August 28, 2016, 08:06:20 PM
I need to do a hard reset on my life. :snoop

No vaguebooking :wag.  Tell us what happened
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on August 28, 2016, 08:33:08 PM
My bet is on work. Agreed to deliver something in an unreasonable timeframe and then proceeded to kill himself for it.
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 28, 2016, 08:43:41 PM
Nah. I'm guessing he found out she really does do gfe but she told him she doesn't.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 28, 2016, 10:40:34 PM
He's realized that after all these years he actually IS gay.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 29, 2016, 01:48:53 AM
The ice powers finally manifested
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on August 29, 2016, 07:50:24 AM
My bet is on work. Agreed to deliver something in an unreasonable timeframe and then proceeded to kill himself for it.
Yep. Pretty much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on August 31, 2016, 12:20:33 AM
My bet is on work. Agreed to deliver something in an unreasonable timeframe and then proceeded to kill himself for it.
Yep. Pretty much.

Learn to NO.
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Post by: El Babua on August 31, 2016, 01:42:34 AM
Realized I can't drink as much as I used to.
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Post by: ToxicAdam on August 31, 2016, 09:37:05 AM
Realized I can't drink as much as I used to.

You mean: You can drink as much as you used to, you just regret it a lot more the next day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on August 31, 2016, 11:29:23 AM
Have I mentioned my latest health problem?  I can't stay awake.
:neogaf

First I thought it was because of some medicine I was on.  Stopped everything and it was still happening.  Been to two doctors now and both thought it was sleep apnea.  Going to see a specialist next week.

I've had to wait several weeks to go see this specialist, though, and it's been a legit struggle trying to get through some days without falling asleep.  I had to up and leave work one day because I just couldn't function after a few hours.  :-\

So I've been drinking a lot of green tea, soda/caffeinated drinks, and eating chocolate.  The latter two don't help much when you're trying to lose weight -sigh- but there's nothing else I can do to stay awake.  I exercise almost every day but I still get sleepy afterwards.  Most days I'm pretty much OK at work, but then go home and just crash for 1-2 hours afterwards.  Sleep a shit-ton on weekends.  It is often so bad that I'm just generally sitting at home feeling lethargic as hell- can't even play the vidya for very long on some days.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on August 31, 2016, 12:13:58 PM
Well start looking up cpap machines because that's in your future with sleep apnea
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on August 31, 2016, 01:19:51 PM
Yeah, sounds like sleep apnea. Joe had the same problem a few years ago, now he's got a cpap mask.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on August 31, 2016, 02:35:23 PM
Yeah, I'm expecting to get a mask.  Doesn't really sound like a big deal. 
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Post by: Rufus on August 31, 2016, 02:48:35 PM
My mother might need one too, but the woman won't go to a doctor. I don't wanna hear how tired you are all the time when you won't go to the fucking doctor...
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Post by: Mupepe on August 31, 2016, 07:55:12 PM
My mother might need one two, but the women won't go to a doctor. I don't wanna hear how tired you are all the time when you won't go to the fucking doctor...
Meine Mutter nicht schlafte

That's as close as I could get
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 01, 2016, 01:19:37 AM
I have a cpap machine and man it's a pain in the ass.
I'll admit that without it I was falling asleep at the drop of a dime and dizzy all day, but with it I can actually wake up without feeling like I'm going to fall over right away. That being said, it's like I have a choice: sleep with the mask and be uncomfortable all night and feel like I don't get any sleep (though I  obviously do) and have energy for the day, or sleep comfortably without the mask but wake up exhausted. It sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 01, 2016, 08:23:59 AM
Got to work this morning only to find that I left my keycard and key at home.
:neogaf

Hightailed it back home and got it.  Normally it takes me about 20 minutes to get to work.  The total trip back and forth was about 70 minutes.  :dizzy  But hey, I managed to only be about 45 minutes late.  That's way less time that it would be if I started later in the morning.

I have a cpap machine and man it's a pain in the ass.
I'll admit that without it I was falling asleep at the drop of a dime and dizzy all day, but with it I can actually wake up without feeling like I'm going to fall over right away. That being said, it's like I have a choice: sleep with the mask and be uncomfortable all night and feel like I don't get any sleep (though I  obviously do) and have energy for the day, or sleep comfortably without the mask but wake up exhausted. It sucks.

Ugh.  Doesn't sound that great.  Is it the mask?  I was looking at this stuff and see some people say that some types of masks are ridiculously uncomfortable and others are much better.  One highly recommended one is called the swift mask.

I tried something different last night and attempted to sleep on my side for as much as I could, and also angled the fan away from my face.  Have read that this can help some people.  I do actually feel a bit more rested this morning, although still definitely feeling the effects.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 01, 2016, 08:25:10 AM
It beats suffocating to death, even if it is in your sleep.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 01, 2016, 08:28:30 AM
It beats suffocating to death, even if it is in your sleep.

Does that happen?  I was watching some older guy rant about people who don't use the masks, and he was just going off on people stating that it can lead to a stroke.  I can't believe there are people out there who won't wear those masks because they think it makes them look stupid.  Who gives a shit?  You only wear it when you're fucking sleeping.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on September 01, 2016, 08:32:58 AM
There's no solid evidence that using the machine will do anything but help you sleep better and stay awake throughout the day
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 01, 2016, 08:43:13 AM
If sleep apnea ends up being the cause of your issues, I'm sure the doctor will explain everything in exhaustive detail. The long and short of it is: your airways are obstructed while you're in sleep paralysis. Long enough for your body to go into a panic trying to wake you up in time, which is why the affected wake up dead tired.

Giant Bomb's Ryan Davis didn't wear his when he died because he was spent from his wedding festivities. Last tweet was something like '12 hours sleep in 3 days. whatever, it's not like I'm going to die'. :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 01, 2016, 10:23:26 AM
Got to work this morning only to find that I left my keycard and key at home.
:neogaf

Hightailed it back home and got it.  Normally it takes me about 20 minutes to get to work.  The total trip back and forth was about 70 minutes.  :dizzy  But hey, I managed to only be about 45 minutes late.  That's way less time that it would be if I started later in the morning.

I have a cpap machine and man it's a pain in the ass.
I'll admit that without it I was falling asleep at the drop of a dime and dizzy all day, but with it I can actually wake up without feeling like I'm going to fall over right away. That being said, it's like I have a choice: sleep with the mask and be uncomfortable all night and feel like I don't get any sleep (though I  obviously do) and have energy for the day, or sleep comfortably without the mask but wake up exhausted. It sucks.

Ugh.  Doesn't sound that great.  Is it the mask?  I was looking at this stuff and see some people say that some types of masks are ridiculously uncomfortable and others are much better.  One highly recommended one is called the swift mask.

I tried something different last night and attempted to sleep on my side for as much as I could, and also angled the fan away from my face.  Have read that this can help some people.  I do actually feel a bit more rested this morning, although still definitely feeling the effects.
Well, it's not just the mask though a large part of it is, some masks only cover the nose which I think would be easier. I require one that covers the mouth and nose which is much more uncomfortable. But another part of it is the fact that there's something blowing a lot of air into your lungs. Sometimes you can wake up with sore ribs because of that. Also because you have this big amount of air blowing in your face you have to really strap on that mask tight, which makes it not just about the mask, but about the mask and straps at that point.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 02, 2016, 12:03:17 AM
Don't most doctors also start with "LOSE WEIGHT" as a treatment for sleep apnea?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 02, 2016, 12:33:16 AM
Don't most doctors also start with "LOSE WEIGHT" as a treatment for sleep apnea?
Yeah, but I'm only 5lbs overweight when I got the machine and even now I'm not much bigger. My doc was genuinely amazed when my sleep study results came back with severe sleep apnea he told me I was one of maybe five patients he had that weren't overweight and didn't smoke and had severe sleep apnea.

Yay me. :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on September 02, 2016, 01:44:04 AM
I'm skinnier than a toothpick and have SA

it's definitely rare, doesn't help that I also have to wear a mouthguard for clenching
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: benjipwns on September 02, 2016, 02:51:12 AM
so many mosquito bites

i guess that's what i get for spending time outside like those chumps i see outside the window all the time

spoiler (click to show/hide)
hope they enjoyed all the drugs in my blood
[close]
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 02, 2016, 02:54:10 AM
There is a Chinese drawing form the middle ages where a son takes of his shirt so that he gets the musquito bites instead of his father.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 03, 2016, 02:50:45 AM
My cousin's husband has sleep apnea and he's in great shape.
:idont
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 03, 2016, 05:41:07 AM
Maybe not much of a consolation, but you're the not the only one there. I am not sure I have a really "close friend". The two potential ones for that have moved out south or in Central Asia. A lot of my social life is accointances I share with the Missus and in many respects I let her handle most of that.

Work is work, I can understand why people put that in a bubble, regardless of how much they like the ambiance there (I kind of do that) : even if I like my colleagues I don't necessarily want to bring that stuff at home.
I'm not angsting over it, it's mostly a choice on my part. But it can get daunting at times.

It's a pretty common sentiment, as far as I can observe, found in people you would probably define as very talented or interesting. I'd say we tend to overstate how lonely and alienated from people we really are.

Same for the tabula rasa thing. Everyone gets an itch for that. In practice it's unreasonable to really reset but nothing prevents you from trying to reinvent youself within your current baggage, too.

Gonna preach on what I don't apply to myself (yet... ?) : maybe try some new hobbies or engagements at a club, association or organization.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 03, 2016, 12:36:40 PM
Just wait until you get older, Shark, and suddenly the friends you have are never around because they have kids and their social lives with their child-less buddies are basically over.   :doge

At my previous job I didn't socialize with people outside work, but I'm open to it at my new one.  Although I often feel like I've had enough of co-workers after spending the day with them, y'know?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 03, 2016, 01:16:22 PM
One way to find potential friends who have similar interests is to explore local scenes. If you like rap, going to a concert or record store is a good idea. Or if you're into comics, a comic shop.

Coworkers are such a mixed bag. Sometimes you get a cool one who wants to do stuff, but usually you gotta deal with annoying people or people you don't relate to.
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Post by: seagrams hotsauce on September 03, 2016, 01:50:08 PM
wtf is a 'record store'
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 03, 2016, 04:32:34 PM
Found this while in my attic inspecting the roof

(http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd58/bizarrosgr/19BDFC98-69EC-4934-A8FA-376612613F0D.jpg)

Time to move!

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 03, 2016, 04:42:12 PM
Apparently it's a mud dauber wasp nest and not really a big deal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 03, 2016, 04:44:06 PM
Until you wake up in the middle of the night, smothering to death under an impenetrable layer of mud.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 03, 2016, 05:44:36 PM
Found this while in my attic inspecting the roof

(http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd58/bizarrosgr/19BDFC98-69EC-4934-A8FA-376612613F0D.jpg)

Time to move!

Apparently it's a mud dauber wasp nest and not really a big deal.
I've never seen one get to that point :lol  They try to build them in the corners of my garage every few weeks.  I spray them with raid and then scrape it off and smash with my foot.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 03, 2016, 07:04:51 PM
Until you wake up in the middle of the night, smothering to death under an impenetrable layer of mud.

Yo, Clayface is just a misunderstood soul. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 03, 2016, 08:39:16 PM
Until you wake up in the middle of the night, smothering to death under an impenetrable layer of mud.

Yo, Clayface is just a misunderstood soul.

He's actually a hero at the moment.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 03, 2016, 09:15:53 PM
Found this while in my attic inspecting the roof

(http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd58/bizarrosgr/19BDFC98-69EC-4934-A8FA-376612613F0D.jpg)

Time to move!

Apparently it's a mud dauber wasp nest and not really a big deal.
I've never seen one get to that point :lol  They try to build them in the corners of my garage every few weeks.  I spray them with raid and then scrape it off and smash with my foot.

Yeah I get em making paper nests in my eaves sometimes and nip that in the bud, I just don't get up in the attic very often
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 04, 2016, 01:53:44 PM
Spent the entire weekend cleaning the apartment. So tired. Photographer coming tomorrow and open house next weekend. Place looks almost as mint as it can. Zero clutter etc.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 04, 2016, 10:09:13 PM
Don't most doctors also start with "LOSE WEIGHT" as a treatment for sleep apnea?
Yeah, but I'm only 5lbs overweight when I got the machine and even now I'm not much bigger. My doc was genuinely amazed when my sleep study results came back with severe sleep apnea he told me I was one of maybe five patients he had that weren't overweight and didn't smoke and had severe sleep apnea.

Yay me. :goty

Well, actually, YEAH! YAY, YOU!

I'd sell my left nut to only be five pounds overweight, but selling my left nut only saves me 2 lbs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 07, 2016, 09:04:46 AM
Just got a result that makes an entire project unpublishable.  That's like 4 months and a lot of stress washed down the drain.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 07, 2016, 02:36:58 PM
Fuck and my supervisor still wants to try to publish it.  Acadamia :piss2

Drinking this at 2:30PM while watching scrubs cause I'm sad

(https://i.ytimg.com/vi/hGNtWaD-jdU/maxresdefault.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 07, 2016, 11:30:43 PM
Fucking United Airlines left me stranded in Houston. I've worked on their data systems so I know they knew I was on the ground and on the way to the last flight out and all they had to do was wait 5 minutes. I know they knew. They just didn't care. But that's not the struggle. I got put up in a hole in the wall motel. But that's also not the struggle. The struggle is that Lucy is on HBO and I've decided to watch it. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 08, 2016, 01:54:12 AM
"Airline companies only use 10% of their brain to care..."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 08, 2016, 07:50:55 AM
Fucking United Airlines left me stranded in Houston. I've worked on their data systems so I know they knew I was on the ground and on the way to the last flight out and all they had to do was wait 5 minutes. I know they knew. They just didn't care. But that's not the struggle. I got put up in a hole in the wall motel. But that's also not the struggle. The struggle is that Lucy is on HBO and I've decided to watch it. :brazilcry
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.  I would have gone to visit you.  IAH?  I'm literally right across the highway
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 08, 2016, 08:22:36 AM
Fuuuuck! I wish I had known. Sadly, I'm leaving in like 20 minutes  :'(

Next time United strands me in Houston though we'll totally get drinks. It happens more often than you'd think and I'd like.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 08, 2016, 08:26:27 AM
I was in Houston airport 15 years ago. Shook. Thoughts and prayers to you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 10, 2016, 12:50:56 AM
Goddamn it I am truly depressed today.  Some days it just not worth it to leave bed. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 16, 2016, 07:51:22 AM
Been sitting on the same stretch of road for over an hour now- a truck crashed into a bridge overpass and complely shut down this part of the highway.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 16, 2016, 09:11:45 AM
Normally I get to work in 20 minutes or less and usually arrive around 6:38 AM.  Today I got to work at 8:20 AM.  The overpass that they had to check was off on another road and had no effect on where I was going, so why they felt the need to close down the other lane that doesn't use it is beyond me.
:dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 25, 2016, 12:33:05 AM
Decided to cook a 5kg turkey at 9PM.  It's now 12:30 and I want to go to bed but its still half frozen  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 25, 2016, 01:03:23 AM
Decided to cook a 5kg turkey at 9PM.  It's now 12:30 and I want to go to bed but its still half frozen  :(
:confused
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 25, 2016, 01:05:33 AM
I wanted turkey.  I'm a hungry man. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 25, 2016, 01:09:08 AM
My GFs father passed away on Wednesday night. He was 73 and was diagnosed with lung cancer (non smoker) 2 months ago where they said he would have about 3-6 months. So the past few days have been really tough. I've never felt so useless in my life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 25, 2016, 02:44:27 AM
3am and the turkey is still cooking.

Also sorry about your GF's father. 
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Post by: VomKriege on September 25, 2016, 03:07:45 AM
That's a rough spot. Best of luck to get through.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 25, 2016, 03:55:41 AM
As I told somewhere, my employer has failed to comply with some regulation in time (and were unaware of it until we realized that). Long story short, that might jeopardize my status & benefits for all of 2017 and the answer to our queries to fix this situation have been abysmally incompetent, to the point we're wondering if they're not just acting in bad faith (it also happens that there's a drought of work and rumors of some of it being sent overseas). Me and a few dozens of other chaps will probably have to lawyer up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 25, 2016, 08:11:07 PM
As I told somewhere, my employer has failed to comply with some regulation in time (and were unaware of it until we realized that). Long story short, that might jeopardize my status & benefits for all of 2017 and the answer to our queries to fix this situation have been abysmally incompetent, to the point we're wondering if they're not just acting in bad faith (it also happens that there's a drought of work and rumors of some of it being sent overseas). Me and a few dozens of other chaps will probably have to lawyer up.
Ugh. Good luck with that.

My GFs father passed away on Wednesday night. He was 73 and was diagnosed with lung cancer (non smoker) 2 months ago where they said he would have about 3-6 months. So the past few days have been really tough. I've never felt so useless in my life.
Sorry to hear that, brawndo. Cancer is horrible, but lung cancer for a non-smoker -- just, man, what can you say? I'm sorry for your GF's family, and your feelings of uselessness. I'm sure just being available is helpful to her.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on September 26, 2016, 10:37:47 AM
Second time posting itt @ a Planned Parenthood.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yulwei on September 28, 2016, 09:44:48 PM
Working 12 hour days is not fun. fuck the money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 29, 2016, 01:52:55 PM
I was TAing this morning and some guy who was clearly mentally ill followed one of the female students from the streets into the class room.  I had to get security. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 29, 2016, 02:46:25 PM
Working 12 hour days is not fun. fuck the money

I can not even imagine that. 8 hours a day is killing me at this shit job, even if it also pays well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 29, 2016, 03:16:29 PM
How do you guys take your mind off one shitty piece of work to focus on other work?  I'm dealing with a guy whose a 1%er Wall Street and he literally calls the people under him peons and says he doesn't give a shit about anyone besides himself.  Dude is a huge pain the ass to deal with and even insults me.  Very frustrating, hard to focus on other stuff cause so annoyed by this guy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: T234 on September 29, 2016, 04:02:02 PM
The guy probably made his career fucking over everyone in his path. Get in the mentality that he's in your path waiting to be fucked, not that you're in his path waiting to get fucked. He insults you, you insult him back.


And when the time comes to bill him, you bend him over your desk and savagely  :tauntaun :tauntaun :tauntaun :tauntaun until you blow your load.


In my line of work, they just shoot people for being assholes. The ones at the top are all nice guys. D. Howard Marks is Mr. Nice for a reason. Robert Platshorn is the nicest retiree I ever met.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 29, 2016, 04:57:33 PM
7 hours straight of meetings. Now I have to actually do my job.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nudemacusers on September 29, 2016, 07:07:27 PM
was going to hit up kiki de montparnasse, for some veblen goods of the boudoir variety, but it appears they have gone kaput a few months ago.

http://ny.racked.com/2016/4/15/11438168/kiki-de-montparnasse-closed-tribeca

heartbreaking. and now i have nowhere to buy my lambskin paddle.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 29, 2016, 08:12:35 PM
How do you guys take your mind off one shitty piece of work to focus on other work?  I'm dealing with a guy whose a 1%er Wall Street and he literally calls the people under him peons and says he doesn't give a shit about anyone besides himself.  Dude is a huge pain the ass to deal with and even insults me.  Very frustrating, hard to focus on other stuff cause so annoyed by this guy.

Are you working with him, or for him?

If he's a client, fuck him in billing until it's worth it for you to deal with his bullshit. If it's not worth dealing with his bullshit, fire him as a client.

If you're collaborating on something, let him know you're in a partnership and he'd better well fucking carry his own weight, or he can finish the project himself.

Better than either of these though is following Viktor Frankl's advice if possible: You don't always get to choose your situation, but you can choose your reaction to the situation. In truth, this entitled shit's opinion doesn't count for anything.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 29, 2016, 10:50:05 PM
How do you guys take your mind off one shitty piece of work to focus on other work?  I'm dealing with a guy whose a 1%er Wall Street and he literally calls the people under him peons and says he doesn't give a shit about anyone besides himself.  Dude is a huge pain the ass to deal with and even insults me.  Very frustrating, hard to focus on other stuff cause so annoyed by this guy.
Yeah, like Chrono said, if it's a client charge him through the roof. 1) you'll get to look forward to the paycheck 2) It will discourage him from doing business with you again so if he comes back and wants more work you can charge him through the roof again. If he asks why it's so much when compared to the competition you can be honest and say, "It's a pain to deal with you, so I'm charging you more. If you were willing to be more amenable while working together, we could discuss the price." You'd be surprised how many times this actually works.

If you work for or with them Make it clear to him that you expect better. Pull him aside if you need to.  If he insults you nip it in the bud in public by being like "I stand up for you and deliver. I don't deserve to be treated like that." If he's always doing it in a joking but not insulting way head it off by admitting it. "Puppy, you're worthless.", "Yes, yet here I am." Kinda stuff. If they find you don't care they stop. My CEO is sorta like this, one of the sales guys lets it get under his skin so the CEO just keeps digging and digging in deeper because he gets a reaction but from he I'm just like "Haha! That's funny. :comeon" and the boss gives up because he doesn't get a reaction.

I'll be honest I've had this approach work with some people and other times I just had to accept it wasn't going to work at all.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 30, 2016, 07:04:42 AM
Just remember he probably has escorts insert stuff into his urethra. He enjoys pain and/or enjoys hurting other people. So as Puppy said you should hurt him in his wallet and also be dismissive of him to some degree. Return the favor.

You'll either become his favorite lawyer (which can open doors) or he'll move on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on September 30, 2016, 05:41:37 PM
I can't find a fucking job.

I just sat through an hour and a half long interview where at the end they just told me that they weren't hiring for a project/product management position and told me to continue looking for work.

WHY INTERVIEW ME THEN YOU FUCKS
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 30, 2016, 05:47:48 PM
The vet just called.  They think Nami has mild kidney disease :(  As long as she stays at the level she is at it is manageable though. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nudemacusers on September 30, 2016, 08:25:10 PM
The vet just called.  They think Nami has mild kidney disease :(  As long as she stays at the level she is at it is manageable though.
sorry to hear that. hope all is well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 30, 2016, 10:07:09 PM
BrandNew check your PMs

Arvie, that sucks dude.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 01, 2016, 12:25:48 PM
So I posted in the triumph thread about finishing the final presentation for the biggest deal of my career so far. Well, the deal was so huge we had to split it up. I took the 20% that made up 80% of the revenue and the rest of the team took the 80% that made up 20% of the revenue. One big part of the proposal was this utility that we were including in the proposal. Welp, turns out there's a utility out there that will do a lot of the same stuff...for free. WTF? This fucking huge deal we've worked on for months and you didn't bother to check if there was something that did your section of the proposal for free?  :mindblown
Yeah, it doesn't do the important part that the client needs which in turn makes that free utility worthless, but the fact that our competitor said, "LOL, why they talking about it, this does it for free." And now we have to react makes us look stupid when we claim to be experts in this shit and apparently we didn't know, instead of us saying, "Oh, btw, there's this thing that does it for free. But here's why it wont work for you." Our only hope is that we can pull off the whole , "Oh that? It doesn't do this thing which is the most important part, so why would waste your time with it?" and in turn make the competitor look dumb for even suggesting it. It's not that my colleagues here are incompetent, far from it. It's just that they're doing like 20 things at once and so nothing gets deep attention you can be pretty sure our competitors are focused on this and this alone.  But honestly, if i was client I'd toss both out.  Our competitor for suggesting something that obviously will not work, and us for suggesting something so costly and not knowing there's a free alternative. :picard

Well at least if we lose it I can be like "Yeah, not my fault."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 01, 2016, 01:41:56 PM
I love being on the other side of the table on these things.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on October 03, 2016, 07:53:29 PM
Last week, I sold some games on eBay to fund my purchase of a new PC.  I had five packages total.  Packed everything myself and triple-checked to make sure the right items were in the right boxes.  Put labels on them so I could remember what was what.

Took these to a UPS store and sent them out.  The lady there asked me what the value of a box was and I said under 100.  I then realized that she thought I meant for everything.  When I told her this wasn't correct, she got all pissy with me and complained that she would have to start all over again.  Whatever.

Today I get a note from someone that I was supposed to have sent $400 worth of items to that he received the box with $40 worth of items.  That (hopefully) means that just two people's stuff was switched.  The other guy is on GAF and I hope he does the honest thing and sends the package back.

This also means that the fucking bitch at UPS got the labels messed up when she re-did everything.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on October 03, 2016, 09:15:19 PM
UPS intercepted the package and will be returning it to me.
:rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 04, 2016, 07:19:39 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsBKHXu2c0I

watched this

jesus
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 05, 2016, 11:01:28 AM
My iPhone 5S was getting long in the tooth, and had mysterious liquid damage under the screen.

Ordered a same-carrier "white-ROM" used iPhone 6; it arrived in pristine condition.

I've had it less than a week. About 30 minutes ago, I got up for a midnight piss, dropped the thing onto tile, and shattered its screen.

Then, after stewing over it for half an hour, I thought "I've seen people carrying around phones like this all the time, maybe it still will work." So I tried scrolling and ended up putting a glass sliver into my thumb and bleeding a bunch.

So mine was an iPhone 6 because it lasted 6 days.

Mother.

Fucker.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 05, 2016, 11:37:22 AM
After years of never damaging any of my phones, I hopped in a pool with my S6 Active and a hot tub with an iPhone 6 within a month of each other. I made sure to get a Lifeproof case for my 6S plus. Things get expensive really fast.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 05, 2016, 12:25:24 PM
Yeah I have a case that says its waterproof as well and phone insurance included in my home insurance.

https://www.puro.it/en/lander
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 05, 2016, 12:39:59 PM
Yeah I have a case that says its waterproof as well and phone insurance included in my home insurance.

https://www.puro.it/en/lander
(https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-1gpLVrf4FWI/VKMGvVR9pFI/AAAAAAAD-ug/_km1a4Mabxo/s213/uh_yeah_right_yeah.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on October 05, 2016, 01:25:32 PM
Never broke a phone until a years time ago. My Galaxy S4 had survived many things, I thought it wouldn't. Ended up dropping it out of my pocket from a very small distance from the ground, and it just shattered completely. Well. Bought some cheap Samsung phone, because I was not home and couldn't charge my card for more than like 200 euros a day, in a foreign country (would just have called my bank, but i really needed a phone, and time differences made it impossible). It broke after a few months, refused to charge.

Bought a LG G4. Really liked it. A few weeks back, it then just stopped working at night. Apparently a pretty common problem with its motherboard fucking up, that needs a repair. It even got me late to work, as I do my alarm clock on that.

Now hoping this fucking Galaxy Edge 7 won't burst into flames or something, like the Note 7.

Fuck phones.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 05, 2016, 04:30:16 PM
My iPhone 5S was getting long in the tooth, and had mysterious liquid damage under the screen.

Ordered a same-carrier "white-ROM" used iPhone 6; it arrived in pristine condition.

I've had it less than a week. About 30 minutes ago, I got up for a midnight piss, dropped the thing onto tile, and shattered its screen.

Then, after stewing over it for half an hour, I thought "I've seen people carrying around phones like this all the time, maybe it still will work." So I tried scrolling and ended up putting a glass sliver into my thumb and bleeding a bunch.

So mine was an iPhone 6 because it lasted 6 days.

Mother.

Fucker.

(http://i.imgur.com/ZKEIOAH.jpg)
"I'll fake it! They'll never know!"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on October 05, 2016, 08:51:38 PM
My iPhone 5S was getting long in the tooth, and had mysterious liquid damage under the screen.

Ordered a same-carrier "white-ROM" used iPhone 6; it arrived in pristine condition.

I've had it less than a week. About 30 minutes ago, I got up for a midnight piss, dropped the thing onto tile, and shattered its screen.

Then, after stewing over it for half an hour, I thought "I've seen people carrying around phones like this all the time, maybe it still will work." So I tried scrolling and ended up putting a glass sliver into my thumb and bleeding a bunch.

So mine was an iPhone 6 because it lasted 6 days.

Mother.

Fucker.
I dunno if this is still possible but when I worked for Apple I'd tell folks with shattered screens to get Applecare+ (physical damage warranty w/ 2 phone replacements a year) over the phone/webchat, because that just requires you to run an app that checks the internals. Once your phone passes that test you can then immediately take it to an Apple Store and get it replaced. Also the person you buy it from over the phone will get a commission. :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 05, 2016, 10:46:01 PM
Thanks! Though, I really try not to be a cheat, especially when the problem's my own damned fault. Back in the day, I had a Chinese VCR that broke on its 31st day of use; Fry's wouldn't do a return, so I bought the same model, went down to my car, put the broken one in the new box and returned it with the newer receipt. That's about as misbehaving as I've ever been, and I felt righteous about it.

On top of that, if I did get caught in any way shape or form, it'd be one more piece of "foreigners are cheats!" cropping up in the Japanese news.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 06, 2016, 02:18:39 AM
Update: When I was in high school, I wasn't a strong swimmer and ended up doing a breast-stroke style without really watching where I was, and I came down face first on the concrete lip of the pool, breaking my front top two teeth in half. Two hours later, after a dentist visit, my teeth were fixed. In a way, other than the traumatic memory of shattering my front teeth, it was like it was never broken.

My phone was kind of like that today. I messed up (twice) last night, but took it in to a local karaoke/arcade which also does iPhone repairs, and found they'd fix it for about $100 (¥12,000). So now my 6 is fixed and I'm ordering a fucking cover for this fucking fucker before I do something else embarrassing and horrible.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 06, 2016, 06:39:28 AM
order the one I have with discount code Kosma10
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 06, 2016, 07:51:43 PM
Working with those university folks and seeing how they had lives and enjoyed what they did made me realize that while I could be considered "successful" I'm really not any happier for it. I'm working all the time, taking fire from all side, the stress doesn't stop, and I really don't have much time for hobbies anymore.  I'm pretty sure I need to get out of this job. I put in a few applications elsewhere but who knows.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 06, 2016, 08:03:02 PM
order the one I have with discount code Kosma10
I've already ordered a Magpul cover, as it kept my 5S from harm for 2 years. Thanks, though!

Working with those university folks and seeing how they had lives and enjoyed what they did made me realize that while I could be considered "successful" I'm really not any happier for it. I'm working all the time, taking fire from all side, the stress doesn't stop, and I really don't have much time for hobbies anymore.  I'm pretty sure I need to get out of this job. I put in a few applications elsewhere but who knows.
Do what my game dev friends have done: get university jobs teaching others how to do what you're doing. It's like a former prostitute becoming a madame (but with a bigger pay cut).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on October 07, 2016, 05:05:42 AM
My employer is still mostly uncooperative to communicate openly about a major administrative issue and I may have blacklisted myself by becoming a defacto "union leader". Which may not amount to much because the way things shape up is that work will never come back in a substantial manner in my department.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 07, 2016, 09:22:08 AM
Update: When I was in high school, I wasn't a strong swimmer and ended up doing a breast-stroke style without really watching where I was, and I came down face first on the concrete lip of the pool, breaking my front top two teeth in half. Two hours later, after a dentist visit, my teeth were fixed. In a way, other than the traumatic memory of shattering my front teeth, it was like it was never broken.

My phone was kind of like that today. I messed up (twice) last night, but took it in to a local karaoke/arcade which also does iPhone repairs, and found they'd fix it for about $100 (¥12,000). So now my 6 is fixed and I'm ordering a fucking cover for this fucking fucker before I do something else embarrassing and horrible.

My Magpul cover arrived. My phone is protected.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rwda_u3Y0QQ
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Alcoholic Fish on October 11, 2016, 06:44:10 PM
Learned that the head of my department thinks I don't care about my job, despite vocal opinions to the contrary from the rest of upper management. Guess I'll put out some resumes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on October 12, 2016, 12:54:05 AM
Learned that the head of my department thinks I don't care about my job, despite vocal opinions to the contrary from the rest of upper management. Guess I'll put out some resumes.

I don't know how many times I've heard "does X just not care" from absentee management first or secondhand now, but it feels like some weird kind of shitty management club motto.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 16, 2016, 05:58:42 PM
4~6 weeks ago, I got some kind of infection in my jaw, likely something WAY DEEP inside a root canal which had become irritated. Looked like my left half was storing stuff in it like a chipmunk. I took antibiotics, and it went away, but the dentist said that if it came back I'd need to see a different doctor as it might be sinus-related.

Wasn't sure if it was coming back yesterday; I had some mild pain in the same area, but it didn't seem to be swelling.

This morning, my left half of my face looks like a chipmunk.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 16, 2016, 06:06:15 PM
Sorry to hear that, chrono. Hopefully they can figure out what needs to be done to get rid of it for good.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 16, 2016, 08:03:55 PM
Sorry to hear that, chrono. Hopefully they can figure out what needs to be done to get rid of it for good.

Thanks.

I'm really, REALLY not looking forward to having someone digging around in my nasal passage or removing a crown to dig out the root canal stuffing to jam antibiotics up there. In Japan, it'll also be about 6 visits for the latter, or hospital surgery for the former. BLEARRRGH.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 17, 2016, 11:26:01 AM
(http://i.imgur.com/4Dw8WtU.png)

Woke up to these open tabs. :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on October 17, 2016, 11:35:58 AM
Apple products :donot
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 17, 2016, 11:41:11 AM
I felt super nervous walking into a job I was unqualified for today and ready to look stoic and impressive on a skin deep level and then they tell me I accidentally came a day early.

"oh okie...thats all right hahah"

I think I'm gonna need some In-N-Out to get my chill back.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 17, 2016, 12:11:17 PM
:dead
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 17, 2016, 12:27:22 PM
Is the first qualification knowing your days of the week? 
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Post by: brawndolicious on October 17, 2016, 12:46:55 PM
 :lol no HR forgot to update my desired start date. I initially told them in the interview that I wanted to delay the start date until after my nephew is born but later during the on boarding process told them Monday would be fine. To be fair, I was assuming that my nephew was due on October 15 when it was actually October 8th. No one there needs to know that.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 17, 2016, 08:03:28 PM
Nami's kidney disease food is exactly 20 times as expensive as her current food.  :(
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 17, 2016, 09:27:32 PM
Sucks dude. My cat has a kidney disease that if untreated causes him to piss everywhere. His perscription food is hella expensive. I feel ya.
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Post by: chronovore on October 18, 2016, 05:51:24 AM
Went to dentist, took out pus from gums but it was insufficient. Removed crown with a skull vibrating coarse drill, and pulled out root stuffing material. Still insufficient discharge.

Went to otorhynolaryngolgist (ENT) and they did arcane things to my ears and nose. Confirmed it's the tooth.

They prescribed a suppository. Pretty sure they're coming at the problem from the wrong angle.

I go back in a week to arrange a hospital surgery.

Ffffffuuuuuu....
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 18, 2016, 09:20:40 AM
that sucks dude
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Post by: Brehvolution on October 18, 2016, 11:35:21 AM
Yikes I hope you won't suffer too much between now and surgery.  :(
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 18, 2016, 12:19:51 PM
I also hope you suffer to just the right amount between now and surgery. 
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Post by: chronovore on October 18, 2016, 06:22:28 PM
I also hope you suffer to just the right amount between now and surgery.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 18, 2016, 07:07:11 PM
I walked Nami with a bit of clam chowder in my beard.  I live in a pretty gay neighborhood too.  :( 
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Post by: Tasty on October 18, 2016, 08:21:18 PM
I walked Nami with a bit of clam chowder in my beard.  I live in a pretty gay neighborhood too.  :(

You're a disgrace.
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Post by: Beezy on October 18, 2016, 09:27:35 PM
Ordered a GTX 1070 that was "delivered" today by Fedex. Tracking said the dumb fucks left in front of the door. I called my parents who were home all day and asked if they heard the doorbell or if anything was delivered. Nope and nope. So I guess someone snatched my shit. I filed a claim with newegg as soon as I got home about 3 hrs ago, but I'm still fucking frustrated at the Fedex delivery guy.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 18, 2016, 10:00:19 PM
ya that sucks
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on October 19, 2016, 04:37:20 PM
Had to take two part time jobs as a Jeni's scooper and a barista at a local coffee/record shop  :(

Still can't find a product/project management job in my field
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 19, 2016, 04:38:47 PM
Yeah but you can put icecream in coffee and that's pretty rad
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Post by: Mupepe on October 19, 2016, 05:12:34 PM
Barista is gender neutral? It's not baristo?
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 19, 2016, 05:20:06 PM
Ordered a GTX 1070 that was "delivered" today by Fedex. Tracking said the dumb fucks left in front of the door. I called my parents who were home all day and asked if they heard the doorbell or if anything was delivered. Nope and nope. So I guess someone snatched my shit. I filed a claim with newegg as soon as I got home about 3 hrs ago, but I'm still fucking frustrated at the Fedex delivery guy.

Damn thats dumb
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on October 19, 2016, 05:45:20 PM
Barista is gender neutral? It's not baristo?

gender neutral
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Post by: Joe Molotov on October 19, 2016, 06:28:10 PM
Barista is gender neutral? It's not baristo?

baristir
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Post by: Mupepe on October 19, 2016, 07:09:45 PM
I don't know who to believe. I'm going to keep calling them barkeep
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Post by: Great Rumbler on October 19, 2016, 07:23:35 PM
Barysta
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 19, 2016, 07:47:04 PM
Barista is gender neutral? It's not baristo?

gender neutral
gross
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 20, 2016, 05:25:02 PM
Just found out MIL has breast cancer
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 20, 2016, 06:54:06 PM
oh man that sucks. I'm sorry cats.
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Post by: chronovore on October 20, 2016, 06:59:08 PM
Shit. Sorry, cats.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 20, 2016, 07:01:34 PM
sorry dude.  Hopefully everything ends up OK.
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Post by: Mupepe on October 20, 2016, 07:31:55 PM
Sorry, dude.  :(
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 20, 2016, 11:09:08 PM
Yeah, thanks guys, I feel just awful for my wife, she's already lost her dad to cancer and had to be the one in her family keeping it together :/
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Post by: brawndolicious on October 20, 2016, 11:21:45 PM
It's going to be tough and you'll hate not knowing how to help but there is nothing you can do but be there for her. The small bit of good news is that it's a very survivable form of cancer.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 24, 2016, 05:55:09 AM
My colleague died, 33, 2 kids (1 and 3).

Was expecting this as she was battling cancer for a year now, but still shocked as you don't really expect it somehow, even if you are expecting it.

Stop putting off living the life you want ya'll.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 24, 2016, 10:22:20 AM


I'm sorry Lager. Those kids, so young. :tocry
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Post by: chronovore on October 24, 2016, 10:40:14 PM
Lager, good advice on living the life you want right now.

Update on my mouf: Saw ENT and dentist for follow-up this morning. They're now saying they might not do surgery, since the infection largely calmed down. They've stuffed more antibiotics directly into my empty root channels and capped it for another week. Of course, this has happened before, so I worry that it will just happen again. Boo.  :-\
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 25, 2016, 04:51:51 AM
Do you have insurance for this? I think dental is the only insurance I don't have and I know it will bite me in the ass.
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Post by: Rufus on October 25, 2016, 06:15:03 AM
Do you have insurance for this? I think dental is the only insurance I don't have and I know it will bite me in the ass.
Same. I've got pretty healthy dentition though, so finger's crossed. :doge
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Post by: chronovore on October 25, 2016, 06:57:02 AM
Do you have insurance for this? I think dental is the only insurance I don't have and I know it will bite me in the ass.

Dental's covered by the same national insurance that regular health insurance covers. It doesn't cover ceramic crowns, so I'll have glittering silver teeth like Jaws from James Bond. Actually, I grind my teeth badly, so I've shattered the ceramic crowns for which I paid a vast sum to appease Los Angelino vanity. I'm past that now.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 25, 2016, 07:02:22 AM
That's nice, I do have two dentists in the family so hopefully they can fix me up cheap or something when needed.

Also flying to Turkey is popular I think for dental work here.
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Post by: chronovore on October 25, 2016, 07:08:15 AM
That's nice, I do have two dentists in the family so hopefully they can fix me up cheap or something when needed.

Also flying to Turkey is popular I think for dental work here.

My first-world prejudice is showing, but the idea that you'd fly to the Middle East to have medical procedures performed seems pretty wrong to me.
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Post by: VomKriege on October 25, 2016, 07:21:21 AM
No expert but I would expect the gap to be more on available medical technologies/treatments than formal education, provided you're in any moderately stable country.
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Post by: Rufus on October 25, 2016, 07:34:39 AM
There have to be decent dentists there if there's a well-known market for it. Middle class northern Euros could probably afford the more competent/upscale ones, should there be a concerning variance in quality.
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Eastern Europe is/was a poular destination for cheap medical care as well. Plastic surgery, too.

Sure hope Turkey doesn't regress so much to prove your prejudice right. :/
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Post by: Joe Molotov on October 25, 2016, 09:38:53 AM
There have to be decent dentists there if there's a well-known market for it. Middle class northern Euros could probably afford the more competent/upscale ones, should there be a concerning variance in quality.

A polish guy wouldn't know the difference.
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Post by: Huff on October 25, 2016, 03:49:36 PM
Giving a formal toxicology lecture to a college class in 10 minutes.

Surprising less nervous than I thought I would be
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 25, 2016, 07:39:25 PM
Got a 235$ fine for riding the street car without a ticket.   I literally thought that the transfer tickets were good for 2 hours.  Bought a 110$ bottle of scotch to cry into.  FML

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Post by: Steve Contra on October 26, 2016, 01:47:40 PM
My dad got a really worrying blood test and has to go in for a biopsy  :(
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Post by: bork on October 26, 2016, 02:26:32 PM
I have to have a liver biopsy on Friday- I have fatty liver and my liver has swelled in size because of it.  But it's not for a serious issue...I hope- they're checking for scarring. Basically was flat-out told my fat ass had to drop the weight or there's gonna be some real problems.  Losing the weight should cure me of all my woes.  I've had to cut out carbs and sugar.  Has been surprisingly easy. 

Also was confirmed that I have sleep apnea and I'm gonna have to get a mask.  Makes no sense to me since if this is from fatty liver...reducing my weight should be all that's needed.  But sure, whatever, will try it. 

I've already dropped some pounds, so off to a good start.  I lost 35+ pounds last year and gained back like 40 pounds this year...then started having all these problems.  Had a lot of stress from last shitty job, but not gonna blame anything but myself.  So it's back on the horse and will get my ass back in shape.  :punch
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Post by: brawndolicious on October 26, 2016, 10:42:21 PM
I took my car in yesterday to have a suspension thing fixed and have been using free lyft credit to get around. So since then:

First Lyft driver in the morning got rear-ended so I had to call another one. Didn't get late because I skipped a shower today. :doge

I planned to eat a vending machine sandwich at work since I had no car, but could not use my credit/debit cards for some reason and I don't really carry cash because Mint doesn't track that. Thankfully I had some UberEats credit...

I find out that 8 years ago when I opened my accounts, I for whatever reason answered as honestly as possible on my applications about my dual Iranian citizenship because I was afraid of not disclosing everything because yeah I'm dumb. Anyways, apparently the banks are required to double check that you're really, really allowed to be in this country if you have an Iranian/Syrian/Cuban etc citizenship so I have to scan my US passport and send it to them. I don't know why they didn't check 8 fuckin years ago.

The worst thing is that it caused the Mad Max Anthology I ordered to get cancelled and so now I have to reorder and wait longer. :(

I'm switching to a credit union.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 26, 2016, 10:54:36 PM
Wow what a day man
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on October 27, 2016, 12:30:48 AM
I have to have a liver biopsy on Friday- I have fatty liver and my liver has swelled in size because of it.  But it's not for a serious issue...I hope- they're checking for scarring. Basically was flat-out told my fat ass had to drop the weight or there's gonna be some real problems.  Losing the weight should cure me of all my woes.  I've had to cut out carbs and sugar.  Has been surprisingly easy. 

Also was confirmed that I have sleep apnea and I'm gonna have to get a mask.  Makes no sense to me since if this is from fatty liver...reducing my weight should be all that's needed.  But sure, whatever, will try it. 

I've already dropped some pounds, so off to a good start.  I lost 35+ pounds last year and gained back like 40 pounds this year...then started having all these problems.  Had a lot of stress from last shitty job, but not gonna blame anything but myself.  So it's back on the horse and will get my ass back in shape.  :punch

thats rough man.  Quick weight gain and weight loss fluctuating can really fuck with you
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Post by: Tasty on October 27, 2016, 01:00:54 AM
bork foie gras :drool
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 27, 2016, 03:30:48 AM
Going to my colleagues funeral today, really don't feel like going
Title: I'm always open to having friends for dinner.
Post by: chronovore on October 27, 2016, 03:35:22 AM
bork foie gras :drool
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 27, 2016, 09:18:29 AM
My dad got a really worrying blood test and has to go in for a biopsy  :(
damn I hope everything is alright dude  :'(
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Post by: bork on October 28, 2016, 02:46:28 PM
My biopsy wasn't too bad.  Felt like getting punched really, really hard in my side afterwards.  :dizzy
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Post by: Tasty on October 28, 2016, 02:49:43 PM
My biopsy wasn't too bad.  Felt like getting punched really, really hard in my side afterwards.  :dizzy

Hope the results are good.
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on October 28, 2016, 03:37:45 PM
What first was taking too much/the wrong medication, turned out to be a tumor in the brain, to being multiple tumors both in the brain and various other places on my grandma. Meanwhile I am stuck in a job I hate (and have quit from January) in another country. Shit fucking sucks, all I want is to be at home right now. My moms phone calls about it are fucking heartbreaking, she is not prone to any alcohol abuse or anything of that sort, but I do not imagine she will take her eventual death well at all.
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Post by: VomKriege on October 28, 2016, 03:52:22 PM
Fuck man.  :( Best through this.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 28, 2016, 03:54:34 PM
Fuck, man. I'm sorry.  :(
Don't know what can be done in the internet but if you need anything...
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Post by: brawndolicious on October 28, 2016, 05:08:06 PM
I'm sorry man. My only advice is to talk to them as much as you can and don't worry about crying.
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Post by: chronovore on October 28, 2016, 06:20:26 PM
Good god, that sounds horrible and traumatizing for everyone. Hang in there.   :'(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 28, 2016, 11:27:30 PM
hang in there
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on November 16, 2016, 02:54:54 PM
Well thanks lads. Luckily my boss has been great, and actually helped me quite a bit here, despite me hating the actual job and having already quit.


 It wasn't my intention to kill the thread with super depressive post. Go ahead, complain about your PS4 pro not getting shipped in time.   :doge
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 17, 2016, 01:17:25 PM
So I have my Ph.D. qualifying exam in two weeks and both my supervisors thought my position paper was good.  However I got an email from my main supervisor, saying that one of my committee members (who my main supervisor said I should put on my committee to the disagreement of my other supervisor) says that my position paper is shit and that I wouldn't pass with it in the current state its in. 

I'm pretty fucking down right now.   
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Post by: zomgee on November 18, 2016, 09:03:15 AM
My cousin died last night. Had flu symptoms and got a shot, he went unconscious and couldn't be revived. Details are super sketchy. He was 50.
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Post by: Mupepe on November 18, 2016, 09:15:44 AM
Man. Im sorry. My condolences to you and your family.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 18, 2016, 12:07:28 PM
Sucks Zomg.
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Post by: Bebpo on November 18, 2016, 02:51:02 PM
I'm sorry for your loss :(
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Post by: zomgee on November 18, 2016, 02:57:44 PM
Really weird. I handle death well but usually I'm prepared for it due to lasting illness. This one was like BONK dead.
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Post by: chronovore on November 20, 2016, 08:45:36 PM
Holy crap, that's terrifying. Was it a reaction to the shot, or the virus itself?
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Post by: zomgee on November 20, 2016, 08:47:29 PM
We don't know yet. I don't want to ask around so close to the services this week.

It all sounds like a Facebook post.
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Post by: chronovore on November 21, 2016, 04:05:32 AM
I'm sad for your family's loss. That's way too young to go.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 22, 2016, 02:50:25 PM
Meeting today with my displeased committee member.

1) Threatens that if I go a head with the exam as planned, even if all my other committee members like it, he says I will probably fail
2) Says my position paper lacks synthesis.  However all the specific points that he says I have missed, I can point out exactly in the paper where I address those issues.  He can also not express what is missing, however whatever it is, I need to rewrite a new paper to include it. 
3) He agrees that I have followed that specific criteria for this paper as give by the department however he doesn't like those criteria so I should just follow what he wants
4) He admits that this is not his area of expertise - which I think is the main issue in all this.

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Post by: Huff on November 22, 2016, 02:52:47 PM
Have you considered murder
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 22, 2016, 02:54:42 PM
This is an example email of his btw

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I sent:

X would it be possible for you to email me some very specific examples of the content issues?   That way I can have time to consider the problems and improve my position paper before we meet.

He replies:

The purpose of the meeting is not to receive minor corrections (which it needs a ton of) but to discuss how to reconceive the paper, thereby obviating the need for many of the present minor corrections.
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Its not that I think all of his advice is wrong, if fact I think my paper is pretty shitty, however the ideas are certainly there and I only have a vague idea of what he expects me to change. 
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 22, 2016, 03:03:54 PM
Have you considered murder

No but I have started discussing the option of removing him from my committee with my supervisors.  However now I kind of just want to do it with him on it just to know that I can meet the challenge.  However I very much regret putting him on it in the first place. 
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Post by: Mupepe on November 22, 2016, 03:15:12 PM
Any chance he might be gay?  You could just try to seduce him.
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Post by: Tasty on November 22, 2016, 06:11:58 PM
Royally fucked up a project at work this last week and boss basically told me I should look for a new job. :fbm

Eh it's been four years, was about time anyways. :yeshrug
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Post by: chronovore on November 22, 2016, 07:44:27 PM
Meeting today with my displeased committee member.

1) Threatens that if I go a head with the exam as planned, even if all my other committee members like it, he says I will probably fail
2) Says my position paper lacks synthesis.  However all the specific points that he says I have missed, I can point out exactly in the paper where I address those issues.  He can also not express what is missing, however whatever it is, I need to rewrite a new paper to include it. 
3) He agrees that I have followed that specific criteria for this paper as give by the department however he doesn't like those criteria so I should just follow what he wants
4) He admits that this is not his area of expertise - which I think is the main issue in all this.

The other advisors were OK with it, but this clown is not. It's not his area of expertise, he can't pin down what is troubling him, and his own grammar is unsound.

If you submit as-is, is there any disadvantage, such as not being able to resubmit for a year?
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 22, 2016, 07:51:34 PM
If I fail, I could get kicked out of my PhD program.  Its something that only happens once.  If I fail its either I get kicked out or I get a conditional pass where my committee can set a task for me that needs to be completed in the time they dictate, so basically he can still fuck me over if this happens. 
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Post by: Yeti on November 22, 2016, 11:18:53 PM
Can you set a meeting with all of your advisors at once so they could hear his criticisms and call him out on them?
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Post by: zomgee on November 22, 2016, 11:36:56 PM
Catholic funerals are really long
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Post by: zomgee on November 22, 2016, 11:39:04 PM
Have you considered murder

No but I have started discussing the option of removing him from my committee with my supervisors.  However now I kind of just want to do it with him on it just to know that I can meet the challenge.  However I very much regret putting him on it in the first place.

Seriously just try to get him removed. You've already proven your principles in getting this far and finishing, don't bend over backwards for this. Just my opinion.
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Post by: brawndolicious on November 23, 2016, 12:17:30 AM
Probably the guy is just testing you to see if you can do that extra push against all reason which is necessary in any sort of research or he could be a sociopath that gets off on taking years of your youth away from you.

I'd ask around is what I'm saying.
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Post by: Mupepe on November 23, 2016, 07:47:58 AM
He probably hasn't even read it.  Make some minor changes and tell him you spent "x amount of time" doing a massive rework and watch him say "wow!  big improvement!"
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 23, 2016, 11:58:09 AM
 :drudge Warning: Long livejournal post incoming. :drudge

So, as you know, I have an autistic son and there's an non-profit that really helped us when we first got the diagnosis and I'm forever greatful and in their debt for it. I try to help them out in whatever meager way I can. I donate to them, donated a car to them, help them in their fundraising and such and from time to time I do little informal sessions with some of their autistic teens about how to be good at conversations in both professional and personal settings (think what I do with Pallo, except these kids listen). So yesterday I'm sitting at my office and I get a call on my cell from a number I don't know. I pick up and a lady introduces herself and says that she is a client of this non-profit org just like I was and that she had heard from people there that I was the best conversationalist they knew. I laughed and said that just meant that they didn't know very many people. The lady takes a very serious tone and asked, "But are you good?" I was a bit like "WTF?" and told her about how there was a time when I was young that I couldn't converse very well with anyone and I made it a life goal to be able to talk to anyone, anytime about anything. Whether I was good or not was subjective, but I had been working on the goal for over thirty years so I at least try.

The lady then starts to cry. Again I'm like "WTF?" She tells me that her son was born with a terminal illness and given about 3-4 years to live. He's almost 3 and it's obvious with the state of his health that his time is almost at an end and that with thanksgiving and the holidays coming up she knew that all her conversations with her friends and family would be about her son and his imminent death and even when they didn't discuss it she knew her friends and family just looked at her with pity. She said she loved her friends and family for their concern but after nearly 3 years of this she just longed for a normal conversation. Not a conversation with someone trying to distract her, or tell her it's going to be OK (which it wasn't) or someone that was taking pity on her. She had been going to meetups and late night chatrooms to try and get that but she said either the conversations were awkward and stilted or once they found out they were like "You poor thing!" and the whole conversation was derailed. She said she just wanted to feel like a normal adult having a normal conversation and when she brought this up to another client in the non-profit they told her that I had helped her daughter learn about conversing better and suggested she call me because "Puppy could get a pizza to tell him its life story". So she called and she asked if I could do that for her. I told her that I believed that good conversation is born in the space between the thoughts of your inner dialogue and that inner dialogue is driven by your circumstances and it was impossible to be going through something as monumental as she was and have it not creep in at some point, it was inevitable. that was probably why her attempts at other conversations had not worked. She said that at least I was honest but could we try, like right now. I told her to give me a sec and cancelled my meetings.

We talked about everything. She was a cheerleader. Married a bad boy (dumb choice), who left her once her son got the diagnosis. She has an older son that is 5. He doesn't really understand whats going on and she doesn't get much time with him. She's worried about how they will reconnect after her younger son passes. Because her husband left her, she had to move back in with her parents, which worked out because they're closer to the medical facilities. She took up knitting to help her relieve the nervous anxiety she has because of all this. Even though she tries to be as bubbly as she was when she was a cheerleader, she's put on weight and let her looks go because of her situation. She's tried to get the weight off, but she knows she'll never get back to that size. She hasn't had anything like romance in several years (her husband was already on his way out when she got pregnant). She tried some dating sites just to see what was out there, but the guys interested in her weren't attractive to her. She admitted that she had coasted by on her looks when it came to dating, she was hot and young and she didn't have to try very hard to get a date, all she had to do was say she was available. Now she's not hot and she's older and has kids and she doesn't know how to navigate that. Not that she could now anyway, but its obvious she wants to have a sense of normalcy back in her life. We talked about Star wars, boobies, Harry Potter, sex, religion, holiday traditions, and yes her dying son did come up from time to time, what it was like when she found out, what the therapy was like, how she felt that she and his therapists had put all this time and effort to teach him skills he was realistically never going to use and how she didn't know if she was greatful she had done that or if she regretted it and only did it because no one knew what else to do.  After about an hour and a half she said she had to go get her son ready for an appointment and thanked me for the first normal conversation she's had in memory. I told her she had my cell number and that she could call me anytime. She thanked me for the offer but with the events that were to come in the next few days and weeks it seemed unrealistic that she would call, but she would keep it in mind and then she hung up.

After it was over I just sat at my desk sobbing for god knows how long. thank god my office has a door. I can't even imagine the horror this woman is living through, watching your child slowly die, knowing you can't do much, knowing they wont get a chance at a full life, watching them and yourself and your other kid waste away emotionally while this is going on and doing that all on your own? I can't get that conversation out of my head. And I feel like such an asshole. Conversation to me is always a bit of a game. I take out little snippets of humor or stories or lessons and mentally catalog them for future use. It's almost like the FF fanfare could go off after I'm done with a conversation. And here was someone just so starved for any of it. I feel like I've been gorging myself on every scrap of food I can find and then just ran into a kid that hasn't had anything to eat in weeks. My whole approach to conversation is in upheaval. On one hand, I don't think I could have had that conversation without viewing conversation the way I do. On the other, I'm obviously a very, very selfish man when it comes to conversations (even if people don't pick up on it) and I'm not proud of that. The whole thing haunts me and I can't get it out of my head and I can't really talk about this with my wife yet. She's the better part of me and will insist we go out and find this lady and do something for her, which is exactly what she doesn't want. She was very clear about that. I guess this is my best attempt to get the thoughts out of my head.

Just hug your kiddles a little tighter boreans. :brazilcry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on November 23, 2016, 01:38:45 PM
You're a good person, Puppy. :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 23, 2016, 02:59:13 PM
God I don't even know what say to that. I don't know how you're supposed to feel. Someone just basically asked you to make them feel like a real person. What a sad situation for her, and how... noble? Brave? Human? It's hard to find the words to describe you right now.

You know, I am going to try to relate this to a time of my life and see if it is close. My brother had non Hodgkins Lymphoma, he was 19, I was 17 and still in high school. He was popular in high school and everyone asked about him when they talked to me. For 18 months I wasn't me, I was a conduit to find out how Michael was. I felt like I lost a large piece of my identity.I wasn't Joe, I was cancer-suffering Michael's brother. People felt like they were being compassionate (they were) or they really wanted to check on my brother, but no one asked about me or wanted to talk to me about me. Of course I felt selfish because who wouldn't - my brother might be dying and was going through tremendous pain. At some point though you feel like you're not a person anymore, you're just a method for other people to find out info or share an emotion you've had enough of.

But the poor woman you talked to had it so much worse, I think. Especially because of the actions of her husband. Yuk.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 23, 2016, 04:54:19 PM
I was going to post but then I read puppys post and Im just going to go to bed and feel blessed with my little family
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 23, 2016, 08:20:09 PM
I'm glad you were able to make that time for her.  You claim to be selfish in conversation, but your introspection shows otherwise. You're a good guy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 24, 2016, 09:37:18 AM
Yeah next to puppy this is nothing but I called the builders that are doing the bathroom in our new house and the. bathroom wont be done till sunday or monday... were moving tomorrow though  :doge

Well be sleeping at the inlaws then or my wifes brothers for a night since they have to turn the heating off so the tiles will glue correctly.

Also apparently the glass on the ventilation in the kitchen spontaneously exlpoded. And of course the kitchen doesnt have a backsplash since we removed the old one but cant put new tiles in till the new kitchen tabletop arrives 😅 and if you are wondering the new tabletop hasnt been ordered yet

Wife and me packed everything in the last 3 days while baby was at daycare during the day and we are wrecked!

movers coming between 7/8 tomorrow

ps: pray for my Sony tv guys I stupidly threw out the box so its moving without it, this is one of those mega low latency sets that dont get made anymore

thank god this is our forever home cause i never want to move again
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 24, 2016, 10:16:58 AM
If there is one thing I know about moving that never works out, it's timing. Too many potentials!

Sorry dude.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 26, 2016, 11:17:09 AM
buy a home brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 26, 2016, 11:50:32 AM
buy a home brehs

Yuppppp home repairs are a way of life 😓
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 26, 2016, 02:31:23 PM
staying at inlaws one bedroom appartment until we can move in
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 26, 2016, 02:41:00 PM
workers took out a laminate tile from the floor in the hall and now its missing

like, no one knows what type of tiles this is so it's impossible to buy a replacement

im don't know what to say even, but unless they fix it Im not going to pay for their tiling work in the bathroom
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on November 30, 2016, 11:40:12 PM
Publisher making thinly veiled threats to cancel our game because their QA is shit :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 01, 2016, 01:20:16 AM
Publisher making thinly veiled threats to cancel our game because their QA is shit :(
That's the absolute best!

Hope your guys' contract about QA coverage is solid. Sorry they're being dicks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2016, 05:12:16 PM
Ya I've come a long way in the last 4 years, despite having major depression episodes like ever year.  Things keep looking better and I'm thankful for that. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 01, 2016, 05:45:08 PM
Man when it rains it pours.


My dad who is 74 is going under a double bypass and valve replacement next Tuesday. This is just crazy. He had a cath done today and they found genetic blockage (not fat or cholesterol) and they wanted to go after it quickly. Docs say it'll add 15 years to his life which sounds great. But i don't want my dad to hurt. :(  Hes the only person who gets me. I'm really scared.

I need a break from all this real shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2016, 05:49:06 PM
Hope everything goes well dude.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 01, 2016, 09:40:42 PM
Hope it all goes well!

If it makes you feel any better bypass surgery is ridiculously profitable for hospitals so they do tons of them so it's a routine they're very used to.

Don't know if it helps. But I hope it does.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 01, 2016, 09:46:11 PM
I know. I work in a hospital, my brother works as a recruiter at another hospital, my mom was a nurse, hell my dad was director of engineering for a hospital. I know that the day after his surgery he'll be sitting up in a chair and then walking. Which is nuts. The fact they can do this surgery in a town of about 30,000 is amazing and shows how far medicine has come.

But it's my dad.

I mean I know I'm not special, life is hard but for all the 2016 sucks meme crap this year has been hard. I lost my cousin last week and he was like my brother, my daughter is stuck emotionally and won't move on, there's been some relationship issues between me and the wife, and my job is eating at me. I lost my title and I didn't realize how much it meant to me.

It's very hard for me right now to see the positives, even though I'm sure anyone else could list them.

I came home on Tuesday night and just slept until the next morning. Didn't say anything to anyone, I just wanted to feel like I had some control and the only thing I thought I could control was being alone and sleeping.

I know, wah wah. Sorry. I should be more thankful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 01, 2016, 10:18:49 PM
Don't get down on yourself for not being thankful. It's just another thing to beat yourself up about, feeding that cycle. Sleeping like that, it's about retreat, about running away. It can also be about processing and healing. I'm sad you're having such a rough time. You'll get through this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on December 01, 2016, 11:57:27 PM
Publisher making thinly veiled threats to cancel our game because their QA is shit :(
That's the absolute best!

Hope your guys' contract about QA coverage is solid. Sorry they're being dicks.

I don't know what the contract is, but I know they weren't thorough enough and we failed 3 submissions (for an undocumented process that doesn't formally exist), so if we fail the one coming up this weekend then they're gonna pull the plug.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 03, 2016, 05:37:34 PM
A friend thinks he lost several of his friends in the Oakland fire last night.  Jesus fucking christ.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 03, 2016, 05:38:01 PM
wow, thats terrible
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 03, 2016, 05:40:59 PM
The whole thing is so fucked up. :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 03, 2016, 05:50:03 PM
And I just talked to another friend who lost someone.  Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 03, 2016, 08:34:11 PM
What a complete tragedy. Horrific.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 07, 2016, 06:46:54 PM
My dad did well. When they opened him up they did a 3D scan and found they only needed to do one valve and one bypass. I'm sitting here with him now. He's sitting up in a chair and we're watching the national news together.

Amazing how his rib cage was open yesterday with somebody's hands on his heart and he's up talking to me right now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on December 07, 2016, 07:22:30 PM
Good to hear that things went well, zomgee!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on December 08, 2016, 12:06:55 AM
We passed submission.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 21, 2016, 04:00:32 PM
:(

My PM's/DM's are always open breh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on December 21, 2016, 04:17:20 PM
Wanting to avoid people when you experienced pain from them isn't unnatural. We all need time to heal. Just don't let it become a permanent lifestyle.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 21, 2016, 04:26:34 PM
:(

My PM's/DM's are always open breh.
Pm sent
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 21, 2016, 05:01:40 PM
Shit Wrath, hang in there buddy. We're your online family <3

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on December 21, 2016, 06:02:27 PM
Wish I could do more, but Plug.DJ's always here when you wanna just talk about random stuff and watch dope anime/listen to cool music with your true bros.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 21, 2016, 06:44:55 PM
we heard you needed friends Kaffir...well here we are.

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Title: WRAFF!
Post by: chronovore on December 21, 2016, 08:39:42 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/x0Jh3gZ.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on December 22, 2016, 03:29:21 PM
Small airports, behind a 50ish yo first time flyer

Security: please remove yada yada before walking through the metal detecter

Spend next ten minutes walking through and retrying as he removes his watch, neckless, keys, loose change, etc.

Eventually it still continues to go off. Guy says "oh yeah I had a knee replaced, does that matter?"

I'm still debating if murdering him is worth it
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on December 23, 2016, 01:19:04 AM
Our insane (but wealthy! $$$) client has now officially driven away 2 of the best people I've ever worked with and said client's bullshit is about to fall squarely on my shoulders.

Time to get the fuck out.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
interviewing  :brazilcry
[close]
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 23, 2016, 08:48:17 PM
Long sad post from earlier.

Hey guys.

Just wanted to say that while things are still shitty I really appreciate the support my bore brethren have shown me. Not just now but over the years. Y'all are great. I'll keep on keeping on and see if shit pivots while I try to make the most of what I have.

Thank you.

(https://m.popkey.co/181976/zJGGz.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on December 23, 2016, 09:03:39 PM
Wow. Should read this thread more often. Shoot me a Twitter Dm any time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 24, 2016, 12:53:28 AM
You don't need another person to PM but I'm always here too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 27, 2016, 12:31:16 PM
Had a massive headache all night and was out of pain killers / cheap booze.  Worst night in a long time. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 27, 2016, 02:40:15 PM
Steve, from your posts in this thread it sounds like you had a tough year. Sorry for all of that. Just know you got some dumb dude who plays too many videogames over here always ready to listen if you need an ear to bend.

Take it easy, man.
Thanks breh. It's been a nightmare year. There's a bunch of stuff I didn't post about here, but things have been slightly better for me and more importantly a few very close people who have had it worse.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 30, 2016, 12:31:16 AM
So, I have type 2 diabetes and my cholesterol is through the roof. Not sure if I should drink myself to death or eat enough pork to finish the job. Maybe some combo of both? Just drink really sugary drinks with bacon chasers?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 12:45:44 AM
I'm pretty sure I'll get it when I become an old geezer.  Take care of your self.  Its scary shit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 30, 2016, 12:13:46 PM
That really sucks, maybe we can all pitch in and get you a wii fit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 30, 2016, 12:22:08 PM
So, I have type 2 diabetes and my cholesterol is through the roof. Not sure if I should drink myself to death or eat enough pork to finish the job. Maybe some combo of both? Just drink really sugary drinks with bacon chasers?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OZkCXbbEJw
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on December 30, 2016, 12:23:13 PM
You know how I know you're American
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 12:28:54 PM
Human you should watch all 7 seasons of this show and then live in constant anxiety that you are going to go blind and loss a foot, like I do.  Its how I relax. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hitRUroOf0
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 12:29:55 PM
Also watch all of this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-pEkCbqN4uo&t=2119s
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 30, 2016, 12:33:39 PM
The real tragedy of all of this is that I've lost like 15 pounds this year. I'm still like 30-40 pounds overweight, but still. I guess you can't just eat nothing but trash for an adult lifetime and expect to be ok.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 30, 2016, 01:02:58 PM
Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 30, 2016, 01:31:52 PM
Black beans and rice is delicious with good seasoning
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 30, 2016, 02:20:02 PM
My dad was in the same position as you until he got a stomach stapling  :larry

But you're already on the right path so it probably makes the most sense to just continue working it. Weight loss suuuuuucks a big nut in terms of mental stress tho from what I've seen.
Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

Biking is also good cardio without punishing your knees.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on December 30, 2016, 02:42:27 PM
https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs.  :doge
[close]

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 30, 2016, 02:49:29 PM
https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs.  :doge
[close]
Know how I know you're an amateur?  You implied that she isn't hot as fuck now.  That's a no no if you want to survive the relationship game.   :duh :wag
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 30, 2016, 02:51:29 PM
My dad was in the same position as you until he got a stomach stapling  :larry

But you're already on the right path so it probably makes the most sense to just continue working it. Weight loss suuuuuucks a big nut in terms of mental stress tho from what I've seen.
Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

Biking is also good cardio without punishing your knees.

I'm 5'9" and weigh 220, down from 240 last year. I'm not in that terrible of shape... except for my blood is apparently butter and sugar.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 02:52:54 PM
https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs.  :doge
[close]



Stick to Slow-Carb Diet approved foods 6 days a week: lean meat, beans, and veggies and no white foods like sugar, pasta, rice, bread, cheese.

OK you Hotep
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on December 30, 2016, 02:53:48 PM
https://medium.com/@hellokip/everything-you-need-to-know-about-the-slow-carb-diet-a67062761d92#.puqwlbrzi
http://fourhourworkweek.com/2012/07/12/how-to-lose-100-pounds/

This is my go to "diet". Actually it's more of a lifestyle since this is basically how I eat week to week (for about 3 years now) for the most part.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Hopefully I convince my gf to do the same because she would be hot as fuck if she lost 30 more lbs.  :doge
[close]
Know how I know you're an amateur?  You implied that she isn't hot as fuck now.  That's a no no if you want to survive the relationship game.   :duh :wag
Oh, don't worry. I've already deflected several of her "Am I too fat?" comments. :doge

But she's a vegetarian and it's very easy to eat a bunch of unhealthy carbs on a vegetarian diet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Human Snorenado on December 30, 2016, 04:47:44 PM
I'm 5'9" and weigh 220

I'm not in that terrible of shape
:crazy

In America, that's a true statement.  :american
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 04:52:04 PM
My dad was in the same position as you until he got a stomach stapling  :larry

But you're already on the right path so it probably makes the most sense to just continue working it. Weight loss suuuuuucks a big nut in terms of mental stress tho from what I've seen.
Gotta start somewhere. Cooking is cheaper than eating out. Maybe walk more, and eventually move to jogging. It's bad news but you can use it to get to a better place bro.

Biking is also good cardio without punishing your knees.

I'm 5'9" and weigh 220, down from 240 last year. I'm not in that terrible of shape... except for my blood is apparently butter and sugar.

I'm the same height as you, was the same weight as you a year or so ago but got down to 180 now. Still have ways to go myself but if I can do it, so can you.

I'm 5'8 and at 180.  Up 10 from the summer :(
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 04:54:36 PM
I'm 5'9" and weigh 220

I'm not in that terrible of shape
:crazy

In America, that's a true statement.  :american

That was one of the best things I liked about those links I posted.  180:  I'm not over weight, 200 is over weight.  200: I'm not fat, 250 is fat.  300:  I'm not obese, 400 is obese.   
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Post by: T234 on December 30, 2016, 05:25:49 PM
6'1" 240 here.
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Post by: Tasty on December 30, 2016, 05:36:29 PM
5'10" 130  :delicious
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 30, 2016, 05:47:09 PM
6'1" 180
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Post by: Atramental on December 30, 2016, 05:49:04 PM
5'11" 180 lbs  :idont
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Post by: brawndolicious on December 30, 2016, 06:18:14 PM
Whoa you guys measuring from the taint?

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5' 11.5'' and 155 but I could be leaner
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2016, 06:19:11 PM
How else am I suppose to weigh myself? 
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Post by: chronovore on December 31, 2016, 02:01:02 PM
5'9" (174cm) and 200+ lbs.

I'm pigging out while in the USA, but will be losing weight with intent when I get back to Japan.
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Post by: Mupepe on December 31, 2016, 09:09:32 PM
6ft and 262 lbs. officially the fattest motherfucker here. Fuck y'all. Woo!

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cholesterol and blood pressure is excellent btw. Exercise does wonders for basic vitals
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Post by: Huff on December 31, 2016, 09:12:25 PM
Hospital cafeterias froyo machine is broken

Worst New Years ever
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Post by: Samson Manhug on December 31, 2016, 09:15:44 PM
6'1" 165 and I think I have body dismorphia because when I look in the mirror I see a meat muppet
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Post by: Human Snorenado on December 31, 2016, 09:49:58 PM
6'1" 165 and I think I have body dismorphia because when I look in the mirror I see a meat muppet

(http://replygif.net/i/1253.gif)

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Not really. I went on a few dates with a 5'7" woman that weighed less than 120 earlier this year and was stunning, and later found out that she has suffered from eating disorders and was a cutter because she thought she was disgusting.

The human mind, man.  :-\
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 01, 2017, 12:38:13 AM
I used to be very tied to being thin as a part of my identity, I've really filled out muscle wise in the last few years and it's allowed me to feel comfortable with holdin a little extra for prosperity
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 01, 2017, 01:47:23 AM
6" and 172 lbs

took me like 4 months this year to drop 20, now i have my ideal body weight. Feels good.
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on January 01, 2017, 02:03:09 PM
6" 156lbs
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Post by: Samson Manhug on January 01, 2017, 04:46:33 PM
6'1" 165 and I think I have body dismorphia because when I look in the mirror I see a meat muppet

(http://replygif.net/i/1253.gif)

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Not really. I went on a few dates with a 5'7" woman that weighed less than 120 earlier this year and was stunning, and later found out that she has suffered from eating disorders and was a cutter because she thought she was disgusting.

The human mind, man.  :-\
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Sounds like my ex-wife. Hey, wait a fucking second. . .
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Post by: Huff on January 01, 2017, 06:59:17 PM
12 inches, 1 lb
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Post by: Joe Molotov on January 01, 2017, 08:41:55 PM
12 inches, 1 lb

(http://i.imgur.com/in4F5dv.gif)
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Post by: Huff on January 24, 2017, 01:17:09 PM
Wore a shirt that was on the verge of being too tight today.

Had chipotle for lunch. Had to pit stop at home to charge shirts afterward
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 25, 2017, 06:30:46 AM
Grandpa died :(
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Post by: VomKriege on January 25, 2017, 06:33:04 AM
Grandpa died :(

Best courage through this.
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Post by: zomgee on January 25, 2017, 07:24:41 AM
Wow that's tough. Very sorry Kosma.
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Post by: chronovore on January 25, 2017, 08:23:30 AM
Sorry to hear that, Lager.  :'(
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 25, 2017, 08:59:06 AM
Condolences brother
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Post by: Brehvolution on January 25, 2017, 10:25:49 AM
Sorry to hear that.  :(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 25, 2017, 03:32:15 PM
Thanks guys, he was fine until last month when he tripped outside of church (as if we need more proof god is bs) and hit his head. Then it all went super fast and im happy I visited him i hospital over xmas. Hope he recognized me. Sleep tight gramps
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Post by: Rahxephon91 on January 25, 2017, 10:41:21 PM
I'm just ready to give up on people. I've never been a very social person, but I've made strides to try and make friends and I've been ok at it. And they constantly disappoint me. They throw you away and in general make it seem like your friendship just is'nt worth it. I recently got into an argument(and really I did'nt even start it or play into it) and another friend called me out of the blue today to tell me he did'nt want to have anything to do with the both of us. Just shat on me for no reason, threw me away like I'm worthless. Again, what is the point of even associating with people? People are trash and only serve to eventually hurt you.
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Post by: chronovore on January 27, 2017, 03:57:35 AM
When I get to thinking that the problem is everyone else, it almost never is.
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Post by: Quaker on January 27, 2017, 09:18:20 AM
I'm just ready to give up on people. I've never been a very social person, but I've made strides to try and make friends and I've been ok at it. And they constantly disappoint me. They throw you away and in general make it seem like your friendship just is'nt worth it. I recently got into an argument(and really I did'nt even start it or play into it) and another friend called me out of the blue today to tell me he did'nt want to have anything to do with the both of us. Just shat on me for no reason, threw me away like I'm worthless. Again, what is the point of even associating with people? People are trash and only serve to eventually hurt you.
It'll be ok. We all been there, bruh.  :yeshrug

https://youtu.be/VUkV-U6_F_Q
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 27, 2017, 09:31:35 AM
Housing bubble is officially back. Prices in my neighborhood are now the same prices they were when the bubble burst. Surely, this will be a healthy turn of events.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 27, 2017, 09:38:06 AM
I'm just ready to give up on people. I've never been a very social person, but I've made strides to try and make friends and I've been ok at it. And they constantly disappoint me. They throw you away and in general make it seem like your friendship just is'nt worth it. I recently got into an argument(and really I did'nt even start it or play into it) and another friend called me out of the blue today to tell me he did'nt want to have anything to do with the both of us. Just shat on me for no reason, threw me away like I'm worthless. Again, what is the point of even associating with people? People are trash and only serve to eventually hurt you.
rahx, people are a numbers game sadly. I know literally hundreds of people that I could be considered "friendly" with. Of those, I probably have 3-6 that I actually consider close friends (and one of those is the wife). That status just comes from years of knowing each other and being their for each other. And my life is far richer with them than without. The thing is though, it takes a good long time to get those people  and in so doing you sorta learn what kinds of people to avoid and what kinds of people are secretly hidden jewels of people. Life is better with others, but you gotta be selective and you can only be selective after you've known so many that you know what people to not spend too much time on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on January 27, 2017, 10:15:55 AM
Housing bubble is officially back. Prices in my neighborhood are now the same prices they were when the bubble burst. Surely, this will be a healthy turn of events.

Was reading a year or two ago how big corps were snapping up foreclosed houses and then converting them to vastly-overpriced rental properties, which hardly anyone could afford, causing demand for the remaining properties to go way up. Not sure if that's still the case, but it probably is.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on January 27, 2017, 10:35:50 AM
When I get to thinking that the problem is everyone else, it almost never is.

God damn
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 27, 2017, 12:58:16 PM
I agree though, when I think that everything is against me its an alarm bell that im being an ass

except on the bore

im always right on the bore :smug
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 28, 2017, 12:11:53 PM
My other grandpa died today. I grew up in his house. :(

2017 off to a great fucking start.

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Post by: Rufus on January 28, 2017, 12:29:39 PM
My condolences :-\
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 28, 2017, 12:49:13 PM
So both my grandpas died within 3 days, and in between it was my daughters birthday.

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Post by: VomKriege on January 28, 2017, 01:53:44 PM
That sucks, Jesus. Doubling my earlier message.
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Post by: PlayDat on January 28, 2017, 10:18:43 PM
Awful. Sorry to hear that.  I have to idea how old your daughter is, but that could wreck a kid depending on their age.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 28, 2017, 10:45:43 PM
I'm sorry Lager, there's not much you can do but be there for people. Explain to your daughter it's just the cycle of life and that they probably wanted to live to see her birthday but it was their time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 29, 2017, 08:07:17 AM
Thanks, she is just two so no explaining needed. Second grandpa that died got to see her over xmas in hospital
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Post by: chronovore on January 29, 2017, 06:43:16 PM
I'm glad your grandfather got to see his great-grandchild before he departed.


I'm sorry for loss of both grandfathers, and at the same time I'm happy to hear your girl has made it to two years old!
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Post by: Valkyrie on January 31, 2017, 12:41:15 AM
Really sorry for your loss, PL. I'm sure they were both great men who lived awesome lives.
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Post by: bluemax on February 01, 2017, 12:54:47 AM
Game launched on PSN today, the streamer they got to promote it had it crash on her :(

I guess the upside is that she had so few viewers almost no one saw it.

Edit: And now after some research I'm pretty sure she was playing the 3 month old beta and ugh that explains a lot.
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Post by: StealthFan on February 01, 2017, 03:32:39 AM
Going to drive to shitty ass Riyadh and back today  :-\
Stay safe.
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Post by: tiesto on February 02, 2017, 11:44:20 PM
Well, my company was acquired by the largest education software company in the country, and they decided to eliminate our special ed product while keeping theirs. Several people from my office got laid off, including myself. I will be there for the next 2 months and then get a 3 month severance package so I'm not on my ass just yet, but this comes as a pretty big shock. Not the first time but it still sucks. I was making what I feel were good inroads at the company, being put in charge of a development team and all, alas... :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 03, 2017, 12:45:57 AM
Damn sucks Tiesto. Hope you find something soon.
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Post by: brawndolicious on February 03, 2017, 12:14:16 PM
Same thing happened to me a few months ago. New job was a promotion and better money tho. Software peeps go through layoffs all the time so just view this as a new opportunity and aim high. Toku bless you.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 03, 2017, 04:47:37 PM
that sucks Tiesto, if there's anything I can do help let me know. It seems there's a round of lay offs going around everywhere right now where people are outsourcing like it's 2002. It's gonna be a rough quarter for a ton of people. I really haven't seen this many layoffs due to outsourcing in ages.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 03, 2017, 07:53:02 PM
Was at the doctor for a follow up which included going over an MRI of my small intestine I did 2 months ago.  Never heard anything back so figured it was fine.  Well doctor comes in with his serious "has anyone talked to you about the results of your test?" you're gonna die face.

Hopefully not gonna die, at least not anytime soon, but yeah, some potentially pretty bad news, there's an issue and that's not an easy place to take a look and see what's going on, so may need to do kinda a slightly more risky than normal kinda stuff procedure to look in and some of the likely possibilities are pretty bad.   Kinda in shock a bit, think I'm gonna head to Europe and finally check out France later in the year. 

Glad I got family cause uh, this is the one kinda thing where living life solo kinda sucks with no support :|
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Post by: Bebpo on February 03, 2017, 08:14:24 PM
Tonight is a night for beer.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on February 03, 2017, 08:24:37 PM
Well, shit. I wish you all the best.
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Post by: Bebpo on February 03, 2017, 08:51:23 PM
Thanks.  It's weird.  I feel like this kinda stuff should hasten my "live life!" perspective I should be out dating or doing something crazy instead of drinking beer & playing videogames.  But, I wanna log into FFXIV and do some mining/crafting -_-  Can't tell if it's because I've got that MMO addiction going on, or if I'm still processing/depressed.  Don't mean to get on the soapbox too much, but having a not-minuscule chance of maybe dying in the next few years is sorta upsetting right now. 
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Post by: Rufus on February 03, 2017, 09:40:32 PM
That all sounds perfectly natural to me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 05, 2017, 07:13:14 PM

Keep us posted, Bebsy! It'll be okay!

Well, my company was acquired by the largest education software company in the country, and they decided to eliminate our special ed product while keeping theirs. Several people from my office got laid off, including myself. I will be there for the next 2 months and then get a 3 month severance package so I'm not on my ass just yet, but this comes as a pretty big shock. Not the first time but it still sucks. I was making what I feel were good inroads at the company, being put in charge of a development team and all, alas... :fbm


3-month severance is amazing. Congrats on that, at least.


This is a chance to aim higher. Does your development skill set lend itself to any other field? Are other educational software companies making moves you can influence?
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Post by: Bebpo on February 05, 2017, 07:29:11 PM
I'm ok, was just a little shocked and took a bit to process.  Doing the next steps, but otherwise just back to normal life but maybe enjoying it a little more.  Even though afaik there's no connection, it's motivating me to exercise more, drop red meat and try to be healthier.  Even if it doesn't help any real issues, it keeps me feeling great and that's a big positive.  I think right now I probably am in the best shape & look the best that I've been in a long time.  I haven't posted any pictures online for like a year cause not being in a relationship kinda means few photo opportunities but I'm doing good outside stress (and this is just one more thing to stress about ><), but trying my best to mellow out as much as possible lately. 
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Post by: zomgee on February 05, 2017, 11:23:26 PM
Thanks.  It's weird.  I feel like this kinda stuff should hasten my "live life!" perspective I should be out dating or doing something crazy instead of drinking beer & playing videogames.  But, I wanna log into FFXIV and do some mining/crafting -_-  Can't tell if it's because I've got that MMO addiction going on, or if I'm still processing/depressed.  Don't mean to get on the soapbox too much, but having a not-minuscule chance of maybe dying in the next few years is sorta upsetting right now.

Really do what makes you feel good right now, Bebpo. You're courageous, but of course you need to have something that makes you feel safe and comfortable. Process all this your own way.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shrew on February 08, 2017, 01:04:46 AM
Can someone explain to me why it's verboten to use the experience of my friends, friends who are minorities, as an example when discussing something? Yeah, I know. "Some of my best friends are black." Or some other group. But they are my friends, my coworkers, and even my family. I'm a cac. But I'm living this shit along side them, I got first hand experience, I'm not just linking some article from Wikipedia. I know them, anything that happens to the happens to me. You guys like Taco Bell? I live 3 blocks from a Domino's that's encased in bullet-proof glass because of robberies.

It's not you guys, it's trying to argue this shit in general. I'm just so sick of people of who have never walked the walk, but they talk the talk. They have no life experience whatsoever, but they think they get to talk shit because they read some article from some website.

"My friend doesn't give a shit about the Redskin logo."- Me

"Well, actually, the Redskin logo is incredibly demeaning to Native Americans, see this article on Washington Post"- Dude with Sephiroth avatar that never leaves the house

I lose. So says the internet.

I'm a Democrat, and I love being a Democrat. But ideals like "Punching Up" and "Privilege" are the Worst Fucking Things that this party has adopted. Please stop

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kwZglqQpwcA
 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Syph on February 08, 2017, 01:16:53 AM
aint no such things as halfway crooks
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 08, 2017, 01:53:52 AM
The Democrat party did not adopt privilege, which is a word I always misspell despite my privilege ambiguity constantly making me question it.

I struggled a little today because I overshared with my gf that I saw a girl who looked totally exactly like her when I went to Walmart except with a pound of makeup and a short Asian dude. You know that feeling when you say something stupid to somebody and you don't know what you expected them to say but then they tell you they wish you took a picture of a random girl? Yup. I then proceeded to politely not notice a domestic dispute happening in the parking lot. Now I got that feeling after you make some stupid mistakes with no consequences and then feel like you're about to punked by karma.

Anyways, Bebs I'm sure your poo chutes are wonderful. Are they gonna do some interventional radiology just to get a better look? I've had so much general anesthesia (can't spell that either) before that I know the risk is minimal but medical stuff can feel weird and scary no matter how much experience you got.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shrew on February 08, 2017, 02:13:13 AM
The Democrat party did not adopt privilege, which is a word I always misspell despite my privilege ambiguity constantly making me question it.


https://vimeo.com/13941673
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Samson Manhug on February 08, 2017, 08:26:19 AM
Since you asked:

Can someone explain to me why it's verboten to use the experience of my friends, friends who are minorities, as an example when discussing something? Yeah, I know. "Some of my best friends are black." Or some other group. But they are my friends, my coworkers, and even my family. I'm a cac.

https://yourlogicalfallacyis.com/anecdotal

But I'm living this shit along side them, I got first hand experience, I'm not just linking some article from Wikipedia. I know them, anything that happens to the happens to me. You guys like Taco Bell? I live 3 blocks from a Domino's that's encased in bullet-proof glass because of robberies.

https://yourlogicalfallacyis.com/appeal-to-authority

It's not you guys, it's trying to argue this shit in general. I'm just so sick of people of who have never walked the walk, but they talk the talk. They have no life experience whatsoever, but they think they get to talk shit because they read some article from some website.

"My friend doesn't give a shit about the Redskin logo."- Me

"Well, actually, the Redskin logo is incredibly demeaning to Native Americans, see this article on Washington Post"- Dude with Sephiroth avatar that never leaves the house

https://yourlogicalfallacyis.com/strawman
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 08, 2017, 07:44:33 PM
Last night my grandfather died. It was sort of expected that he didn't have long since he was very old and getting sick a lot. It sucks.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 08, 2017, 08:08:27 PM
Sorry to hear that. Condolences.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 08, 2017, 08:35:12 PM
Sorry man
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 08, 2017, 08:39:41 PM
That sucks man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 09, 2017, 05:17:42 AM
Condolences.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 11, 2017, 07:31:09 PM
Forgot the date of my friends birthday and I knew it was around mine but I thought it was like a week before mine so I ask another friend and its two days after mine.  Now I realize me asking her reads like a 'hey remember its my birthday coming up'.  Being socially inept :piss2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 11, 2017, 10:07:12 PM
No it doesn't.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on February 11, 2017, 11:50:03 PM
Yeah now you just sound like a guy overthinking things on a message board
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shrew on February 15, 2017, 02:19:34 AM
Since you asked:

Can someone explain to me why it's verboten to use the experience of my friends, friends who are minorities, as an example when discussing something? Yeah, I know. "Some of my best friends are black." Or some other group. But they are my friends, my coworkers, and even my family. I'm a cac.

https://yourlogicalfallacyis.com/anecdotal

But I'm living this shit along side them, I got first hand experience, I'm not just linking some article from Wikipedia. I know them, anything that happens to the happens to me. You guys like Taco Bell? I live 3 blocks from a Domino's that's encased in bullet-proof glass because of robberies.

https://yourlogicalfallacyis.com/appeal-to-authority

It's not you guys, it's trying to argue this shit in general. I'm just so sick of people of who have never walked the walk, but they talk the talk. They have no life experience whatsoever, but they think they get to talk shit because they read some article from some website.

"My friend doesn't give a shit about the Redskin logo."- Me

"Well, actually, the Redskin logo is incredibly demeaning to Native Americans, see this article on Washington Post"- Dude with Sephiroth avatar that never leaves the house

https://yourlogicalfallacyis.com/strawman

Cool dictionary links. Like life experience works like that.

(http://i.imgur.com/ps72Zw4.gif)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0hiUuL5uTKc
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Shrew on February 15, 2017, 03:36:57 AM
aint no such things as halfway crooks

It's easy to post links


They know not what they do

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ProbPpO_8oo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: PlayDat on February 19, 2017, 01:38:39 AM
Cool dictionary links. Like life experience works like that.

There certainly is value in real life experience, however human beings tend to overemphasize what they’ve seen first hand on these sorts of issues.  I think what Samson was getting at by listing the fallacies is how easy it is to fall prey to our inclinations toward irrationality.  They preclude us from seeing the bigger picture sometimes.  You can’t draw any conclusions about what a group of people as a whole feel like based on what some of your friends in that group have to say.  Sometimes their views will reflect the majority, sometimes they won’t, but it’s unscientific to determine whether something harms them collectively based solely on your friends’ input.
"My friend doesn't give a shit about the Redskin logo."- Me

"Well, actually, the Redskin logo is incredibly demeaning to Native Americans, see this article on Washington Post"- Dude with Sephiroth avatar that never leaves the house

This example is interesting.  If your (presumably Native American) friend “doesn’t give a shit” about the Redskins logo, then surely they wouldn’t mind if it were changed to something that didn’t upset a lot of people?  Surveys have been done aimed at gauging how Native Americans specifically feel about the name.  Of course, since Native Americans make up such a small portion of the US population, it’s really tough to get a good sample.  Those who find the team’s name and logo racist seem to be the minority, but given how few people there are to question as well as the trouble with self-identification among respondents, I have my doubts about any results.  Full disclosure: I’m neither Native American nor an NFL fan.  Designing a brand around an ethnicity does strike me as dehumanizing, but I’m careful about telling people what should offend them. 

I'm a Democrat, and I love being a Democrat. But ideals like "Punching Up" and "Privilege" are the Worst Fucking Things that this party has adopted. Please stop

You appear to be conflating the Democratic party with progressivism.  Conservatives delight in throwing the party’s ugly history back in our faces.  I’m registered as a Democrat solely for the ability to vote in closed primaries.  Membership isn’t something I take pride in.  All politicians are snakes.

Privilege isn’t an ideal, but rather a way of framing facts widely agreed upon by social scientists.  It’s one of those things that never should have become a partisan issue, yet here we are.

“Punching Up” is a term I’ve mostly heard in the context of comedy.  Is there another way it’s commonly used?  Within the comedic realm, “punching down” does bum me out.  Not only is it mean spirited, it’s also a really lazy tactic.  It requires no talent.  Watching someone use their position of power to pick on the downtrodden, thereby upholding a harmful status quo totally sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 19, 2017, 09:35:45 AM
So, guess I'll be stuck in Saudi for now.

My family fucked up something fierce financially. Since they were my meal ticket out of here, there goes my chance of leaving anytime soon. Going to find a job, save some money, and try later this year if Trump doesn't enact some more bullshit.

Damn bro. :fbm
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Post by: Kara on February 19, 2017, 11:24:53 AM
Sorry akhi.
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Post by: Samson Manhug on February 19, 2017, 11:37:57 PM
I’ll start looking for work over there and we can hang out.
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Post by: chronovore on February 21, 2017, 12:07:17 AM
Manhug's my side action. Get your own boy-toy, you cad!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 21, 2017, 01:05:46 AM
I've got romantic arabic whispers in store for bae, what do you have to offer?

My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard. Plus: I can cook.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 21, 2017, 05:56:05 AM
So, guess I'll be stuck in Saudi for now.

My family fucked up something fierce financially. Since they were my meal ticket out of here, there goes my chance of leaving anytime soon. Going to find a job, save some money, and try later this year if Trump doesn't enact some more bullshit.

ouch! werent you already working to help your dad with some money?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 21, 2017, 07:53:25 PM
I've got romantic arabic whispers in store for bae, what do you have to offer?

My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard. Plus: I can cook.

It's kind of sad cooking is considered a skill when all it really is is putting a pan on the stove and then putting stuff in the pan.

It's kind of sex is considered important when all it really is is putting a penis in a vagina and then thrusting back and forth.

Don't knock it until you give it a try.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 21, 2017, 08:47:50 PM
My grandma has been vascular dementia - which is what my grandpa already has. 
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 22, 2017, 02:16:29 AM
 :(
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Post by: bluemax on February 23, 2017, 12:55:03 AM
Tried to help a friend get a job at the place I work (she was a good skills fit and we have been trying to fill the role for a year), then the company lost a project last week. Today they told her we are in a hiring freeze and two people have already been downsized. I feel like this is only the beginning.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on February 23, 2017, 07:36:44 AM
Yeah we're doing a secret headcount reduction where I work.  Everyone knows it is going on but it's not "official" yet.  The plan is just to try to get some people to retire early.  Morale is almost at negative levels so my boss made a joke that if we offered early retirement, we might be too successful and lose too many people.  Although to counter our low morale, we're allowed to wear blue jeans throughout the week now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on February 23, 2017, 07:41:16 AM
They restructured how PTO is handled here - so now less people are taking it - and costs are now up

Not sure if cuts are coming in the department, but it's an easy assumption I wont have a job offer here after I finish this residency. guess its time to polish up that CV
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Post by: Atramental on February 23, 2017, 08:05:04 AM
I'm thankful that I'm now in a position at my job that I'm hard to replace.  :doge
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Post by: Brehvolution on February 23, 2017, 09:29:16 AM
:gloomy Trump's America  :gloomy
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on February 23, 2017, 04:44:43 PM
Was planning on buying a motorcycle next week, now I have to do a business trip to Denver instead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 23, 2017, 07:46:24 PM
MOTHER FUCKING FUCK FUCKERS I just got scooped again on the idea I was working on for my PhD/Internship and they submitted their paper as a shitty 4 page workshop paper with no quantitative results.  Basically as a flag planting we did this idea first paper. 
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 23, 2017, 08:27:05 PM
Man that's depressing
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Post by: bluemax on February 23, 2017, 11:38:09 PM
I guess another guy was let go yesterday and I didn't notice. Apparently it was not done in a particularly clean way.

I can think of two more people that I feel like are probably in danger, one because he is a contractor and the other because she's incredibly inexperienced and there's a group of people who were on her team (for the project that got cancelled) that have flat out said they won't be on a project with her again unless the company actually trains her (which given the track record for training seems unlikely). She's young and cheap and the company head really likes her but she's also a producer with no project, so that's bad.

I'm mildly worried for myself as I'm on a project that is in quasi maintenance mode and I dunno how much longer the publisher will want to keep it going given how it is performing.

Luckily I've been searching for awhile so I don't think I'd be out of a job for too long.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on February 23, 2017, 11:54:36 PM
That sounds pretty scary and tough. Good thing you're already looking for new jobs, because you should run away before they can kick you.
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Post by: Mupepe on February 24, 2017, 08:49:54 AM
Best of luck, blue
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on March 02, 2017, 11:41:25 PM
Got turned down from a place I interview for :( Sucks cause last time I interviewed there I got halfway through the in person, this time I didn't get past the recruiter.

I've been pretty depressed lately and this didn't help, and I am not doing a great job of compartmentalizing, I've been kinda shitty at work lately which, now is not a great time for. Glad the weekend is coming.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 02, 2017, 11:45:38 PM
I wish I had a company, I'd hire all the boreans out there and we'd all chill and make gay subtext jokes until the company went bankrupt.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 03, 2017, 12:15:40 AM
I wish I had a company, I'd hire all the boreans out there and we'd all chill and make gay subtext jokes until the company went bankrupt.

So exactly what every tech bubble startup did. :lawd
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Post by: brawndolicious on March 03, 2017, 12:16:51 AM
Now that I think about it, who pays for this site exactly?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 03, 2017, 07:15:05 AM
Now that I think about it, who pays for this site exactly?
If you're trying to figure out whose dick you should suck, the answer is: All of them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 03, 2017, 10:10:34 AM
If you're trying to figure out whose dick you should suck, the answer is: All of them.
Newsfeed pls
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 04, 2017, 03:57:25 AM
Speaking of newsfeed, "I honestly thought this was a black people neogaf spin off" were exactly my thoughts until I found the self-posting thread.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on March 04, 2017, 10:44:34 AM
Got turned down from a place I interview for :( Sucks cause last time I interviewed there I got halfway through the in person, this time I didn't get past the recruiter.

I've been pretty depressed lately and this didn't help, and I am not doing a great job of compartmentalizing, I've been kinda shitty at work lately which, now is not a great time for. Glad the weekend is coming.

Hang in there, brojan.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: tiesto on March 04, 2017, 01:19:18 PM
Have been on a ton of in person and phone interviews, and I keep getting rejected. Nearly every one is giving me a grueling technical test, and although I feel I do "okay" (and they always tend to ask questions about things that I am totally unprepared for or stuff that I haven't done since college days), they want the best of the best. It's extremely disheartening and makes me feel I'm not cut out to be a coder. Like I've been doing it for 10 years but still feel like I don't know anything.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on March 04, 2017, 09:51:21 PM
Speaking as an interviewer for engineering positions (not software though), the quality of resumes has significantly increased.  The job market for STEM is extremely competitive these days.  Then there's also the dumbass Tim Ferriss-style mentalities where STEM majors peak at 25.  After you turn 25, you are automatically considered to be too rigid and perpetually behind the times to be considered valuable.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 04, 2017, 09:55:54 PM
Speaking of newsfeed, "I honestly thought this was a black people neogaf spin off" were exactly my thoughts until I found the self-posting thread.

Aren't they all self posting threads?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 06, 2017, 11:02:50 PM
Speaking of newsfeed, "I honestly thought this was a black people neogaf spin off" were exactly my thoughts until I found the self-posting thread.

Aren't they all self posting threads?

They probably meant "selfie," you brick-throwing, glass-house-inhabiting rascal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 06, 2017, 11:07:01 PM
I only ever post other people in that thread
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Post by: Valkyrie on March 07, 2017, 08:04:16 PM
Speaking of newsfeed, "I honestly thought this was a black people neogaf spin off" were exactly my thoughts until I found the self-posting thread.

Aren't they all self posting threads?

They probably meant "selfie," you brick-throwing, glass-house-inhabiting rascal.
chrono pls, my proper pronoun is Blueberry Pancake.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 10, 2017, 07:53:45 PM
*edit* Feeling more ok about things now.  Zelda is a good stress reliever.
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on March 11, 2017, 10:31:54 PM
http://detroit.cbslocal.com/2017/03/10/snyder-third-of-state-lost-power-in-unprecedented-wind-storm/

I lost my power on Wednesday and got it back this evening (Saturday). The wind was insane on Wednesday and even knocked a 36 foot tree down at my dad's job. A big ass tree was knocked into the street not far from my house as well.

(http://i.imgur.com/wGwHX5Rl.jpg)
(http://i.imgur.com/UVa7LRQl.jpg)
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Post by: Brehvolution on March 15, 2017, 02:31:22 PM
Fuck this snow.  :bolo
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Post by: bluemax on March 31, 2017, 03:07:28 PM
Got laid off.
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Post by: zomgee on March 31, 2017, 03:36:11 PM
Got laid off.

Didn't you just get hired?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on March 31, 2017, 03:43:20 PM
Got laid off.

Didn't you just get hired?

A year ago next week.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 31, 2017, 04:36:09 PM
That sucks dude. They just laid you off with no warning?
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Post by: bluemax on March 31, 2017, 11:33:40 PM
That sucks dude. They just laid you off with no warning?

Pretty much yeah but I had a feeling this was going to happen.

We were doing two projects for the same publisher, one was basically in live ops/maintenance mode and the other was due for release in a month or so. I was on the maintenance project, mostly doing performance optimizations and trying to improve loading etc. The other project was coming along well but the publisher was being really difficult for reasons I don't know. Last week on Thursday everyone on that project was told they were being temporarily re-assigned to our one remaining project that is being paid for, while I would remain on the maintenance project. We were supposed to find out the status of the held project this Wednesday.

On Tuesday we sent off a build with my performance improvements to the publisher, but they had been sort of ghosting us for almost a week now and the metrics numbers for the previous release weren't really looking that promising, and since no one else at the studio was invested in the project I knew it wasn't long for the world. I come in Wednesday morning and the boss pulls me into his office and tells me that they're probably gonna close the project and he spoke with big wigs at the publisher and they just didn't feel it was worth the cost. I was told since the remaining paid project was now overstaffed and there was no programming work on the doomed to fail internal passion project that I should just take the rest of the day off. Stupidly I left a few things at my desk even though in the back of my head I knew I was done.

I emailed my boss that night asking if I should come in the next day, he emailed back and said he'd call me the next morning, which he never did. Then he emailed me late in the day and told me to call him this morning. I called in, was told that because the company had had 3 things cancelled or shut down in the past 2 months they were going to have to do some layoffs because none of the stuff they are negotiating is close enough to signing. I am being paid for the next week and I still have access to slack and my company email on the off chance things change, and I was told they would bring me back if they find something before I find something and that was about it.

As far as I know, so far I'm the only one let go.

And of course I checked my work email and see that the publisher for the project I was on has a bunch of questions about what I did. Fat chance that I'm answering.
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Post by: chronovore on April 01, 2017, 08:21:37 AM
That's a lame ass way for your boss to let you go. Amateur hour.
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Post by: Bebpo on April 03, 2017, 08:26:32 PM
I hate my job these days/weeks.  There's just too much work to do and no possible way to do it all and a lot of it's because other people cause it.  Just feels like a crushing weight and makes me want to just collapse.

Like today I had my schedule all planned out, would get 80% of items across 10 different cases that I needed to do done by 7pm or so, then grab some food and then spend another 2 hours or so doing end of the month administrative billing review that I get 12 hours from when it's first printed until I have to turn it in.  Finished at 9pm, time to relax, fine.  But then total bullshit situation comes up, and emergency working all day and night on it, so now I'm behind on all the items I needed to get done across the 10 cases and I have no idea when to fit my billing review in besides like 10 or 11 at night.  And then tomorrow is totally impacted because I'll be catching up on all the time sensitive items I didn't get done today (and all the people waiting for phone calls that never came and then they get pissed I'm not getting back to them), which puts off the 6 hour+ project I was gonna do until wednesday and it's just a fucking mess.  Also like 5 potential clients called today expect calls right back and that's like $10,000 right there if I make the calls but I've got no time to get back to them and by tomorrow they might have found a different lawyer.

It's actually just a single case fucking my life up right now.  If it wasn't for this one horribly bad case, I'd be able to manage it all with 50-60 hour weeks.  But one bad litigation case can just create insane amounts of emergencies and workload that sidetrack everything else in your career.  More fun when you're not even getting paid for it because the client is stiffing you and threatening to baselessly sue you at the same time and you still have to do tons of work for them and protect them from the other side that's also fucking you over at every moment possible.  The legal system is slow and it takes a while to get out of a case.  Just gotta make it to the end of the month when hopefully the judge will let me out of this case.  Already like $20,000 in the hole :\  Cost of the doing business.

/work rant done
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on April 04, 2017, 01:27:04 AM
Sorry to hear that Bluemax.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 04, 2017, 02:21:09 AM
That sucks bluemax.  But you'll get a better job where bosses don't pull shit like that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 05, 2017, 07:59:50 PM
The wife and I have not been able to conceive in almost 8 years of marriage. We had mostly given up, made our peace with it and always figured we would adopt when the time was right. Last week she had some irregular bleeding, took a pregnancy test (3 actually) and yay she was pregnant. She goes to the doctor and they don't find anything, assume she miscarried and took some blood. She had to go back in today because her hcg levels were still higher so it indicated she was still pregnant. The embryo had implanted in a fallopian tube instead of her uterus. They had to give her a shot to terminate the pregnancy.

On one hand we are happy that we know conception is possible, but man... Just a rollercoaster. We almost had our baby and just yeah. Just venting here since I didn't tell anyone IRL yet and don't think I will.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 05, 2017, 09:16:05 PM
Jeez man, what a wave of emotions to ride -- here's some love :-*
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 05, 2017, 10:08:53 PM
The wife and I have not been able to conceive in almost 8 years of marriage. We had mostly given up, made our peace with it and always figured we would adopt when the time was right. Last week she had some irregular bleeding, took a pregnancy test (3 actually) and yay she was pregnant. She goes to the doctor and they don't find anything, assume she miscarried and took some blood. She had to go back in today because her hcg levels were still higher so it indicated she was still pregnant. The embryo had implanted in a fallopian tube instead of her uterus. They had to give her a shot to terminate the pregnancy.

On one hand we are happy that we know conception is possible, but man... Just a rollercoaster. We almost had our baby and just yeah. Just venting here since I didn't tell anyone IRL yet and don't think I will.
Man, that sucks Mups. For what it's worth, I have a friend who tried for like 12 years to have kids to no avail then suddenly within 4 years she popped out 3 kids. (of course they're all heavily autistic and her life seems like a living hell having 3 severely autistic kids all under 5, but that's beside the point).
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Post by: Beezy on April 05, 2017, 10:30:05 PM
8 years of creampies... :noah
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on April 05, 2017, 11:31:00 PM
You're going to have a wonderful kid. Just remember this time, how this peacefulness feels before you had that child, keeping you up at 2AM.

I SAID REMEMBER THIS TIME OF PEACE YOU FOOL.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on April 06, 2017, 01:48:48 AM
Fucks sake mups :( Glad you can see the silver lining. Hang in there.
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Post by: Kara on April 06, 2017, 01:58:58 AM
Sorry Mupepe, that's a real roller coaster.

@Bebpo: I hear ya, do any of the other lawyers at your firm notice that you're in a bit too deep at the moment?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 06, 2017, 05:22:29 AM
The wife and I have not been able to conceive in almost 8 years of marriage. We had mostly given up, made our peace with it and always figured we would adopt when the time was right. Last week she had some irregular bleeding, took a pregnancy test (3 actually) and yay she was pregnant. She goes to the doctor and they don't find anything, assume she miscarried and took some blood. She had to go back in today because her hcg levels were still higher so it indicated she was still pregnant. The embryo had implanted in a fallopian tube instead of her uterus. They had to give her a shot to terminate the pregnancy.

On one hand we are happy that we know conception is possible, but man... Just a rollercoaster. We almost had our baby and just yeah. Just venting here since I didn't tell anyone IRL yet and don't think I will.

Oh, man. I put my head in my hands while reading that. Super rough for both of you. It says a lot that you're both able to find hope in the fact that there was conception.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on April 06, 2017, 07:31:40 AM
Best of luck to you and your wife, hang in there, and before you know it you're on track again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 06, 2017, 08:01:12 AM
Thanks for the support guys.  The wife and I talked it out last night and yeah, just the worst thing is knowing that it finally happened and the little one just needed to move a couple of inches to the left and they'd be our little miracle baby (to us anyhow). It does give us hope though and the experience tells us for sure we definitely want it whereas before it was a "if it happens, it happens" type deal. My mom was told she couldn't have children, they adopted my sister and before the paperwork was finalized she was pregnant with my brother. 3 months after he was born she got pregnant with me. So yep, staying hopeful.  Thanks again, everyone.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on April 06, 2017, 02:46:29 PM
If it makes you feel better, my older sister has PCOS and was told by her doctors she would never have a child. Then one day her and her boyfriend discovered, oops! she was pregnant.

Two years ago my sister wanted to have another child, and had multiple miscarriages before giving birth to a healthy baby girl this past year.

Reproduction is weird shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 06, 2017, 03:43:00 PM
Thanks, blue.  That's what my wife also has so yeah, that does make me feel better.
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Post by: Great Rumbler on April 06, 2017, 05:52:59 PM
Kinda related but kinda not, my cousin and his wife's first child was born several months premature and nearly died. He's had a lot of issues since then and isn't likely to ever be "normal." After talking it over with their doctor, they decided it just wasn't safe for her to get pregnant again, so instead they got her best friend to be a surrogate. She carried their child to term and everything went smoothly. Crazy stuff.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 07, 2017, 01:20:10 AM
Thanks, blue.  That's what my wife also has so yeah, that does make me feel better.
That's what my friend with the 3 kids under 5 has as well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on April 09, 2017, 10:25:34 AM
Blacked out friday nigh and broke my phone   :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 11, 2017, 11:10:55 AM
Not sure what's going on, but allergies are messing with my sleep. Went to bed at 1:00, woke up SNEEZING at 2:30, 3:30, and 5:00AM before giving up at 6:30, a half hour earlier than needed.

Trying to get to bed earlier tonight, sneezing started half an hour ago and the inside of my nose and the back of my throat have been savaged. Not in the good way.  :'(

Went to the doctor to get a follow-up on the lump atop my kidney that he found last November. He'd told me to come back in February, but I delayed until this week. Went yesterday, his office was closed. Went FIRST THING this morning, without investigating he told me to give it another couple months.  ::)  I figure, while I'm there, I'll ask him about my tinnitus. "Oh, there's NO CURE for tinnitus, ha, ha, ha~!"

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on April 11, 2017, 04:42:10 PM
Tinnitus is the devil whispering in your ear. He never goes away.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 11, 2017, 05:49:57 PM
I hate vaguebooking and vaguebookers but my ability to snatch defeat from the jaws of victory recently is getting tiring.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 11, 2017, 07:31:31 PM
I hate vaguebooking and vaguebookers but my ability to snatch defeat from the jaws of victory recently is getting tiring.

Three-way co-worker showed up and insisted on a Round 2 where you're Lucky Pierre?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 11, 2017, 09:08:43 PM
I'm here wondering what could possibly be going on because it seems like you're living the ideal single life. Truly incredible.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on April 11, 2017, 09:35:08 PM
I'm here wondering what could possibly be going on because it seems like you're living the ideal single life. Truly incredible.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 11, 2017, 09:54:44 PM
It's work related.  There was an opportunity that I (once) thought I was a shoo-in for (and the manager of this said as much) and that opportunity is quickly slipping away for reasons that trigger me.  There are also some shit sandwiches I had to take big bites from at work and it's only April.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 21, 2017, 07:18:49 PM
So, about a month or so+ ago I posted about how everything was shit in my life.  Health issues, in the worst case of my career, some other stuff.  Was not in a good place.

But a month or so later, now I'm not worried about my upcoming procedure (risk factor down from 13-15% fatality to very <1%), the judge granted my motion and I'm out of the case, work's under control, spending a lot of time with friends and social events.  Dating is still dead, but I've stopped caring because I'm pretty happy on my own.  I'm meditating more, getting more outdoor jogs on, and just enjoying life a lot.  I've even started smiling more (always been self-conscious about fake smiling).  I just feel very at peace with myself currently.

Anyhow, goes to show how much is in the mindset and life has its ups and downs and you never know when things are gonna get better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on April 22, 2017, 12:35:43 PM
Well I'm currently back down and back to researching suicide methods. There are really no super cheap and painless ways.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on April 22, 2017, 12:40:07 PM
Well I'm currently back down and back to researching suicide methods. There are really no super cheap and painless ways.
Don't go anywhere. You're a fun guy and we need ya here. :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on April 22, 2017, 12:51:51 PM
You called me creepy and desperate.

Let's be honest I'm not very fun.

And it's become clear I'm just waste.

I'm on track to being forever alone and with good reason. I'm mysgonstic, absolutely self centered, and unable to connect with people.

A friend told me this and basicly every problem I've ever had with my group is because of me. How I unable to understand them and refuse to because everything has to be my way. How I'm unable to talk about anything beyond very lame and shallow topics.

I'm really a monster of a human. You've seen it in my posts here. I'm not a fun person. I'm not a good person.im actually a shitty person who really leads a pointless life.

I'm about to fail out of college for the 2nd time because I just throw away all my advantages and potential.

My only options are a dead end job which I can't humble myself to do because I still have a fucked up view point that I'm better than that.

Or joining the Air Force which no one thinks I can do.

In the end I'm just a real failed human being and everyone knows that. I haven't killed myself before because I have a family who cares but beyond that there's just really nothing keeping me here. I don't like myself and that really will not change.

This is a gay post but I need to say something to somebody before I do this because my family will just lie and say "oh you have stuff to live for" without saying what those things are. My friends have shunned me and the few left will just repeat pointless shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on April 22, 2017, 02:05:45 PM
End of college frustration and airing of grievances bs happens to everyone. In the grand scheme of things, it's good to have these failures because then you learn from it. And one day it'll be hard to remember why you were always angry in your 20s but it'll help you understand when you see it in the younger generation.

It sounds horribly patronizing but the worst case scenario (if you do not kill yourself) is that you redo retake a class and learn better how to manage friendships.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on April 22, 2017, 02:21:17 PM
I'm not sure which part of my PM you replied to, so I'm gonna leave my thoughts in a new message there. You don't have to reply if you don't feel like it, but I'll be happy if you decide to reply. So please read it if you can.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 23, 2017, 10:59:24 AM
You called me creepy and desperate.

Let's be honest I'm not very fun.

And it's become clear I'm just waste.

I'm on track to being forever alone and with good reason. I'm mysgonstic, absolutely self centered, and unable to connect with people.

A friend told me this and basicly every problem I've ever had with my group is because of me. How I unable to understand them and refuse to because everything has to be my way. How I'm unable to talk about anything beyond very lame and shallow topics.

I'm really a monster of a human. You've seen it in my posts here. I'm not a fun person. I'm not a good person.im actually a shitty person who really leads a pointless life.

I'm about to fail out of college for the 2nd time because I just throw away all my advantages and potential.

My only options are a dead end job which I can't humble myself to do because I still have a fucked up view point that I'm better than that.

Or joining the Air Force which no one thinks I can do.

In the end I'm just a real failed human being and everyone knows that. I haven't killed myself before because I have a family who cares but beyond that there's just really nothing keeping me here. I don't like myself and that really will not change.

This is a gay post but I need to say something to somebody before I do this because my family will just lie and say "oh you have stuff to live for" without saying what those things are. My friends have shunned me and the few left will just repeat pointless shit.
But here's the thing. All these problems can be fixed. I know it's easy to be like "whatever, I've been like this my whole life." but you can address these with help.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 23, 2017, 03:08:33 PM
Nah, wallowing in self pity is easier.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 24, 2017, 07:04:50 AM
You called me creepy and desperate.

Let's be honest I'm not very fun.

And it's become clear I'm just waste.

I'm on track to being forever alone and with good reason. I'm mysgonstic, absolutely self centered, and unable to connect with people.

A friend told me this and basicly every problem I've ever had with my group is because of me. How I unable to understand them and refuse to because everything has to be my way. How I'm unable to talk about anything beyond very lame and shallow topics.

I'm really a monster of a human. You've seen it in my posts here. I'm not a fun person. I'm not a good person.im actually a shitty person who really leads a pointless life.

I'm about to fail out of college for the 2nd time because I just throw away all my advantages and potential.

My only options are a dead end job which I can't humble myself to do because I still have a fucked up view point that I'm better than that.

Or joining the Air Force which no one thinks I can do.

In the end I'm just a real failed human being and everyone knows that. I haven't killed myself before because I have a family who cares but beyond that there's just really nothing keeping me here. I don't like myself and that really will not change.

This is a gay post but I need to say something to somebody before I do this because my family will just lie and say "oh you have stuff to live for" without saying what those things are. My friends have shunned me and the few left will just repeat pointless shit.

I think you're in a vicious cycle of despair. It is illusory. You're not a bad person. You're actually interested in improving yourself and your situation, even if you don't know how to do it yet. You'll be fine if you just get out of your own head, stop getting in your own way.

Anyway, most of the time I'm pretty fond of you. I hope you stick around.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on April 25, 2017, 05:18:20 PM
another shitty afternoon in some random company's server room. this time working with our cloud services team trying to figure out which restore program will let us restore this fucking server that got cryptolocker'd

fucking hate this field tbh. wish i could get out but i'm so deep in and i'm so close to being debt free it would be dumb to suddenly switch. if i can make it a few more years and be more financially secure i'm def outta this shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 25, 2017, 07:28:41 PM
These 12 hour work days suck cock.   :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 25, 2017, 08:30:40 PM
These 12 hour work days suck cock.   :maf

Shouldn't this be in the triumph thread?

I'm on vacation and since I've been on vacation, I find myself spending 3-4 hours per day doing work shit.  Would be a little different if it was all grouped together but no, it's all spread out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on April 25, 2017, 08:34:03 PM
It's not my cock being sucked for I am but a humble wagecuck. :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 26, 2017, 03:07:00 PM
Dandelions all in my yard thanks to a wack neighbor who never takes care of his lawn.
:snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on April 26, 2017, 03:33:39 PM
At least they're just dandelions and not thistles.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 26, 2017, 07:07:01 PM
Mow his lawn or murder him, there is but two options. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on April 26, 2017, 07:55:18 PM
At least they're not thistles and just dandelions.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 06, 2017, 10:24:56 PM
Spent most most of my saturday, with huge lower back pains, eventually making me vomit (a lot). What a horrible time, especially as the pain meant I couldn't just sleep it away.

This was meant to be my persona time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on May 06, 2017, 10:31:18 PM
Slipped disc?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 06, 2017, 10:38:24 PM
I've no idea, can that shit just fix itself? I feel better now without doing much, so somewhat doubt it. No idea what it was though. Maybe i'm just dying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on May 06, 2017, 10:56:42 PM
Pretty sure it requires intervention. Just wondering out loud, considering the pain was bad enough to make you hurl.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 06, 2017, 11:13:02 PM
I've known someone who had a bad reaction to some medication that made their lower back muscles spasm until it worked its way out of their system. They couldn't do shit except lay in bed in pain.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 06, 2017, 11:17:48 PM
I've had sciatica before it sucked.  Had to get pain meds and muscle relaxants and a few days of basically staying in bed before i even started to feel better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on May 06, 2017, 11:19:05 PM
Sounds like labor pain. Congratulations!

But anyway, try a hot water bottle on your lower back, you might be surprised how much it helps. Or it won't do shit at all, but it's worth a try.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on May 07, 2017, 12:40:38 AM
I kept getting something similar about once a month, though more pain in the front than back. It would pop up and ruin a night's sleep but then subside the next day.

After a year of this it eventually got to be too fucking much though, progressively worsening each time until one night I was yacking non stop keeled over in maybe the worst pain of my life.

At the hospital it took 4 tries to get an IV in me since I was so dehydrated. They couldn't give me water, only this chalky cum concoction called barium used for CT scans.

That scan confirmed what the doc suspected, that my appendix was ready to rupture.

Morphine wasn't touching the pain. Once they switched to dilaudid I was loving life and very content awaiting surgery, at peace unfazed by my roommate's never ending bedpan shits.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 07, 2017, 01:17:11 AM
Spent most most of my saturday, with huge lower back pains, eventually making me vomit (a lot). What a horrible time, especially as the pain meant I couldn't just sleep it away.

This was meant to be my persona time.

I briefly thought you'd mistyped "personal time," and then remembered which forum I was at.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 07, 2017, 02:22:31 PM
In the process of remodeling our only bathroom without time off aka in a weekend. Stayed up until 5:30 last night so I could get far enough to put the toilet back in. Must push on today with to be able to shower for work tomorrow
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 07, 2017, 02:36:55 PM
But at least I had a great victory poop this morning
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 07, 2017, 02:51:44 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on May 08, 2017, 09:43:21 AM
Spent most most of my saturday, with huge lower back pains, eventually making me vomit (a lot). What a horrible time, especially as the pain meant I couldn't just sleep it away.

This was meant to be my persona time.

Could have been a kidney stone and you passed it. That is the only pain that ever made me vomit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on May 10, 2017, 05:53:49 AM
I don't know if I should blame the dentist or my tooth but now I'm looking at spending a crap load to fix this tooth by having it removed. I'm still paying for the damn crown that's on it... If you get the gold option take it at least you can get some money back. I'm not getting anything out of this porcelain shit but filler for my toilet. Looks like an implant also isn't going to work due to bone loss and grafting isn't an option.

TAKE CARE OF YOUR FUCKING TEETH!
Floss that shit, gargle that shit, drink water after drinking coffee and acid drinks, brush after lunch, etc...

Also preserve your teeth if they take them out. There is some restorative options that may soon be able to grown new teeth from your old dead teeth.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on May 10, 2017, 11:14:02 AM
I got super super sick for like one day three weeks ago, and since then have had a terrible cough.  The last four or five days, I've felt a pain in the right side of my lower chest, like rib/sternum area.  I THINK its a muscle pain from coughing so hard, but I'm not sure.

I made the mistake of smoking a cigarette with Stoney Mason the other day and I think I made it even worse
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on May 15, 2017, 09:26:42 AM
Suddenly feeling really down. Haven't felt this way in a long time. I guess all my problems just really hit me all at once, and it's overwhelming.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on May 21, 2017, 08:23:35 AM
I guess I feel like explaining myself after my recent incident. It is somewhat funny kind of.

Well, I've already talked about my problems here many times. I guess I like talking about them because it's easier then doing it in person which to me always comes off corny and I just wince at emotional serious talk. But either I've mentioned my problems with school, going into the military, women, and just general self-realization. So I won't go into extreme detail, because it's boring.

But for the previous weekend I had a huge plan. My old Milwaukee friends were coming down to Chicago and well honestly I've made a decent amount of friends at my job so I kind of wanted everyone to meet  each other. So I was able to take some vocation time for the weekend, newly furnished my basement, and in general was buying a lot of alcohol for a house party on Saturday. Friday we would go to this cool hipster arcade bar.

I invited a my Mexican friend who I've mentioned many times. I have really strong feelings for her and well realistically the connection isn't there and we should just stay as friends. I know we enjoy each others company, but I guess I'm not emotionally mature to handle it. Though if you ask me there is something there, the way she's looked at me sometimes is just beyond how any girl has ever looked at me. I know it's stupid, but even my boss has said she just seems conflicted. But these are male centric viewpoints and whatever, thats not the point. I met my Milwaukee friends Thursday night just for a little prelude and even they grilled me on her.

I got a new haircut and actually most of that Friday went very well. I had a nice Pizza lunch with my friends that was super postive. I looked good. My mexican friend all of a sudden upon seeing me seemed all of a sudden dead certain to go to both get together when before she said only Friday. I was even supposed to be the one that picked her up and well she would be the last one I dropped off. So a better man could see opportunities.

I don't know what happen.

I've been told to just go with the flow. When I overthink I just lose it and well I probably started overthinking.

My first mistake was probably chosing my one friend who fancies himself a ladies man and well is kind of a dick. He's the friend that sees himself as the Alpha in the friendship. I don't know if all male friendships have this dynamic, but it is what it is. It's gotten a bit better, but in the end he still sees himself as the "supuerior". U chose him over another ride or die dude who in the end I guess I stood up. Irrelevent because well honestly, my attempt to sucide kind of threw everyones problems to the side.

Well I'm the DD and everyone is drinking shots in my car as we drive up there, which I don't know made me feel a little disconnected from everything. It wont excuse me actions comming up, but I want to describe my mood going in. I guess I thought I was sidelined already.

Now I'm a lightweight, it doesn't take me much to get loose and I like to get drunk because it really loosens me up, takes away all my rigged hangups, but it's probably not good when I'm on the verge of being emotional. I bought a drink, my mexian friend bought my other friends drinks. For some reason that ticked me off. So I started to ignore her and I know she noticed I was ignoring her. I mean she gave me look of "wtf are you doing, not talking to me". I was getting drunk and I'm an idiot anyway.

I kept drinking more and more. One Milwaukee friends came over to me and while he was skeptical before, he told me "oh I think she's actually a little interested. She is constantly asking where you are". Maybe for a normal person this would be encouraging, for me this just set me back. I've been told my problem is I don't know how to be a bit aggressive. She even told me, but I'm just frustrated and want to know %100 that it's going to go the way I want which is obviously a losing game. And I did notice her looking for me and even almost approaching me, but then choosing not too.

Well, then I notice my Alpha friend chatting her up. Now in reality she was looking straight ahead at whatever game she was playing while he was saying whatever. I'm not in reality so I took a note, but I tried to just ignore it. Then later they both walk up and I hear him so "yeah I need your phone number in case I get separated form Jordan again" and well I'm just like fuck I know what that means.

Now I don't know if she did give him her phone number and I was told nothing happen, but I know my friends moves and his cutsey way of doing stuff is well how does it. He said "oh I was chatting you up", but I mean who would believe that? Well that pissed me off and well I started yelling at him. He bought me another drink. I've had a lot to drink.

I don't know what really happen after that, but I do know I eventually just started cursing and being super vulgar to my Mexican friend and at some point I pushed her away from me. Other versions are worse. Either way I became a monster to this girl, so much that she started crying and had to uber home.

I felt like complete shit. I felt like a monster. I felt like a coward. I felt like a douche. I saw myself really become that mysgonist pos that I sometimes appear to be on here, but haven't really been in real life. I was that day.

I guess the little hope was that when I tried to talk to her she said "I don't want to talk to you right now", which is better then "go to hell".

I really care for this girl, probably more so then any girl I've known and while I'm starting to seem obsessed I'ts not all one sided. Either way I was a wreck for the rest of that weekend. I had been a complete monster, I had let down all my friends(I cancled the house party which disapointed many), and I just saw myself contintuing to became this failure that honestly just seems to be my destiny. And yeah I was a pos to a woman I really care for. Verberlly and physically.

Maybe I was overreacting and being cowardly, but I just did not want to face everyone at work. So I skipped one day, then the other, and well the question if I ever wanted to return to work came up.

Well also this was finals week and it became reality that I had bombed this semester, which lead to constant "what are you going to do arguments with my mother". Add the fact that I seemed to forfeiting my job for in the end maybe dumb reasons and well the conversations were not pleasant.

I decided to buy some sleeping pills and attempt to OD. My mother found them and well the tension got really high.

Now comes this most recent Friday and in the morning my mother and I have another argument. About pretty much everything. At this point I was supposed to either go to work or go sign up for the military. I felt so much shame for the previous events and now just not going to work. Again I try to hold unto this mask of being a respectable, smart, and put together person. It is not my real mask, but it does seem to be my mask that people buy into and it was crumbling and I really fear people seeing me as pos which is what I felt like I really was. Either way, I did'nt go to either and my mother just could not handle it.

So I quietly left and this time I took my alchol, box cutters, and went to buy a 62 pack of extra strong sleeping pills. I also had just gotten paid so I went to go get my comics. I don't know I wanted to read some stuff on my last day. I also wanted to have sex with an attractive woman so I started looking up escorts while sending some last good buys. I sent one to my boss who at this point knew something was wrong, but not excatly what. At this point I send an apology text to my mother and well I think she starts putting two and two together.

You never want to have a text conversation with a parent who thinks their child is going to commit suicide. It is heartbreaking.

At this point I ignore a lot of my messages from my mother and sister. Replying with excuses as to why this is going to happen and nothing else. I start driving out to the escort who in the pictures looked to have some very nice boobs. I was looking for a black chick but all the backpage chicks had huge assess and I wasn't ready for that. I settled on a vaguely looking Mexican girl with jet black hair and big boobs. They never look like they do in the pictures.

But getting hard is maybe hard when you're on the verge of killing yourself and your mom is is literally crying through text.

I get to the motel which is the first sign of this probably wont go well. She wants $200 which for some reason was a positive sign. Too little seems like a sting and well honestly white girls and Mexican women on backbage always ask for more, so I was like this is probably legit. My other sign of this is bad was when I couldn't hear her over the phone while she was giving me directions she sounded agitated that she had to repeat. I'm a nervous geeky dude trying to arrange for some sex. You need to be a little more inviting.

I get there, she doesn't look like the pictures. She looks warn out and her hair looks like she just got up. I'm sure she did. Yet she seems nice, had ok boobs, and has no pimp. At this point I just want to have sex or at least my brain thinks I should at least experince it before I die. My penis actually doesn't seem as on board.

I take of my stuff and she starts giving me a back massage, which was actually ok and then the sex part starts.

She starts giving me head, but with a condom. Expected and perfeard honestly in this situation, but there's a problem. I don't have a huge penis, but I don't know it's not small, but she must have only had Gas stop brand magnum condoms. They were baggy on my thing and just awkward. Then she lays down, clossess her eyes, and just utters generic "baby" lines. It is not keeping me going, plus her vag doesn't look too good. Anyway, I can't keep an erection and she quickly notices. She cancels the sex and instead hopes to finish with just a HJ. All while having the Princes Daries on for some reason. She keeps going, notes that her hand is getting tired, notes that it's taking forever, and then lets me just self service. All while not allowing a lot of touching. At one point she said I could cum on her tities which yeah excited me. I was about to and then asked if I could and she replied "no, that was just an allusion". I was like what? Anyway I cant finish, get up and leave. It's not like I can ask for a refund.

At this point I'm thinking of where I should go to do this and what I should get as a last meal type thing. I go to a place I like to eat and I go to Starbucks because I'm a basic white girl. There at Starbucks I decide to do it at a fishing spot up north that brings good memories and I upload my suicide note. Which obviously gets noticed.

From there so many people start messaging me. My Mexican friend starts calling me. I feel a little selfish, because in an evil way I did want her to talk to me, but this wasn't triggered by her. It was really triggered by my failing school and arguments with my mother. Yet as I go on I am honestly shocked by how many people are trying to get into contact with me. It was really pretty much everyone I know. Anyway my Mexican friend goes to my house and waits for me there, asking for me to come back and talk to her. Then she pleads for us to meet up somewhere, but honestly at this point I am almost to where I am and had started to pop some of the pills. But honestly now I don't really know where this leaves our relationship. I don't want her to blame herself, but she really did seem to be very distraught.

At this point my sister I think contacted AT&T and had them track my phone. She and my mother must have driven really fast, because all of a sudden in the middle of backed up Chicago expressway traffic my sister comes flying at my car and banging on my passenger side door, to the point she almost breaks the window.

At this point my sister takes me to get some food with my mother. We talk about stuff. We laugh about the escort. My sister calls my Mexican friend to tell her I'm ok, I guess they talked and I send a lot of other text messages to people.

So yeah I guess that's what happen and I've just been chilling since then. I've talked to my job and well they seem to understand so that's cool. I don't know what will happen now, but it is in a way good because I guess I never realized how many people cared.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 21, 2017, 10:47:09 AM
Don't really know what to say to that.  Do hope that you get better.  Sounds like you have a lot of support. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 21, 2017, 10:47:56 AM
Fucking up a lot of friendships in my past for various reasons, my only advice is to communicate with the people you want to remain in your life. I'm glad you realized how many people care about you. And you weren't really clear on how that guy friend treats you so I'm not sure if it's just perception on your part but there is none of that alpha shit in true friendship. You can recognize leadership or other qualities in a friend like "he's really good with women" but I wouldn't consider anyone who thinks they're superior to me as a friend.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 22, 2017, 05:54:29 AM
Mups got it in one; your alpha isn't a friend if he tries to put you in your place. It's good that you've got so many people around you to show you that you're cared for. I hope you get the help you need. Anything you feel bad about, you can apologize for; people don't have to accept it – do it for yourself. It can lighten the burden.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on May 28, 2017, 06:40:09 AM
Norovirus  a e s t h e t i c s
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 28, 2017, 06:42:10 AM
Norovirus  a e s t h e t i c s

Lookin so sickly svelte I bet
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on May 28, 2017, 08:02:16 AM
Norovirus  a e s t h e t i c s

Lookin so sickly svelte I bet
Nothing keeps me away from my burgers and chocolates. :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on May 30, 2017, 06:53:02 PM
Just got back from a vacation in Costa Rica with my family  For the most part it was good, but Saturday night everything fucking exploded into a white trash mess.  It was raining really bad so some of my family called a store down the street for them to delivery some stuff. 

My sister goes to pay the guy and he only speaks Spanish and so my mom goes down to translate but before she can my brother jumps in and starts berating the poor guy about using a 540:1 currency ratio instead of 500:1.  My mom tries to explain that this is better for us, but my brother in his infinite drunken wisdom isn't having it and is yelling that the guy is trying to get an extra 5 bucks out of us.  My brother in law who is a lot of ignorant American stereotypes rolled into one but for the most part not a bad guy starts yelling "ASK HIM WHAT IT IS IN AMERICAN!" and when my sister says $64 he starts yelling for him to just take it back (despite not knowing what had been ordered).  Everyone is yelling and somehow the poor guy gets paid and leaves and my brother still won't shut up and now my sister is on his side and they both start teaming up on my mom with shit like "No, you need to understand he was trying to screw us." and my mom is yelling at them to shut the fuck up. 

I tap my wife on the shoulder and grab my plate and we go downstairs.  My brother's fiancé follows us embarrassed as fuck because she can do basic math and knows he was wrong.  I spent the rest of the evening with my wife watching Little Women of Dallas or whatever that hot midget show is. 

We had all been booked to go on a deep sea fishing trip the following morning but because my step dad had yelled at my brother to shut the fuck up (from a guy who never raises his voice and never cusses at someone) he got his feelings hurt and didn't want to go.  My wife and I had already said we were going to check out because earlier that day we had gone scuba diving and got hit with rough waters and were still recovering from being sea sick.  That was fine because there were still 8 other people scheduled to go who actually really loved to fish and my wife and I hadn't had a day with no activities to just explore and rest yet so cool.  But then when my brother bailed everyone else bailed from hurt feelings, pride and stupidity. 

So my poor step dad who had paid for the fishing reservations just threw away over a grand on nothing.  So we got up the next morning and he told me that everyone had backed out.  So I woke up my wife and said let's go do it.  At that point it was just going to be us and at least someone would get something out of it and it wouldn't be just money down the drain.  Then at the last minute when people found out we were going they all jumped back in so it was all of us again.  That was fine, the more the merrier.  It was 2.5 hours to ride out to the fishing spot on the boat and then they set the lines.  It was about 2 hours in and it started to sprinkle and then all of them started fucking whining that they were bored and now they were wet (WE'RE ON A FUCKING BOAT YOU FUCKING MORONS!) and they wanted to go back.  My wife and I were the only ones who said we should just stay.  But we were overruled and so they asked the guy to turn it around (when they told him he said "really??" and looked shocked). 

That fucking infuriated me.  They spent more time traveling to the spot than they did fishing - over twice as much time!.  And for what?  To go back to the rental house and sit on the couch and drink.  You motherfuckers can do that shit at home.  But you know what?  they're all entitled and didn't pay for shit on the trip (most did not pay their own way either) and it wasn't their money they were wasting.  They're all over 30 and act like children on these trips.  What the fuck did they think an "all day fishing trip" meant??  Did they think they'd be catching marlins every 20 minutes? 

Fucking shit.  The rest of the trip was good though.   :doge
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Post by: fistfulofmetal on May 30, 2017, 07:08:22 PM
vacations with large families sound uniformly terrible. too many people too many brains too much can be fucked.

every vacation my girlfriend described with her entire family from what she was a kid also sounded terrible.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2017, 07:17:36 PM
Had a super panicky 2 hours at work.  Got sent an email saying I had to have done like half my PhD requirements by now and that I'm behind and that I needed to fill out a form stating why im behind and ask for an extension.  Turns out this shit isn't due for an entire year and this was just a 'friendly reminder' that I got PhD milestones I need to complete. 
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Post by: brawndolicious on May 31, 2017, 10:18:46 PM
They expect you to be halfway done by the 4 year mark?
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2017, 10:45:23 PM
Phds are different in Canada because your required to have a Masters (17 months), then do a PHD (3.5 years).  Then no one ever gets either of those done in time and gets fucked over.   
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Post by: brawndolicious on May 31, 2017, 11:20:33 PM
In America, they say the PhD program is 4 years long but it's really 5-6 years. And there's 50% turnover at the 2 year mark where students quit and "graduate" with a Masters. Just gotta stick it out dude.
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Post by: chronovore on June 01, 2017, 07:25:13 AM
Had a super panicky 2 hours at work.  Got sent an email saying I had to have done like half my PhD requirements by now and that I'm behind and that I needed to fill out a form stating why im behind and ask for an extension.  Turns out this shit isn't due for an entire year and this was just a 'friendly reminder' that I got PhD milestones I need to complete.
I hate that; I get it too, about work: that feeling when my stomach just drops out.
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Post by: Reb on June 01, 2017, 08:57:14 AM
I thought that was just regular work life. I think I average that about 2 times a week.
I always briefly consider leaving my job and never coming back.
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Post by: Rufus on June 01, 2017, 09:04:48 AM
I thought that was just regular work life. I think I average that about 2 times a week.
I always briefly consider leaving my job and never coming back.
That would kill me with the way my brain operates. The shorter the deadline, the harder it becomes to think of (or sometimes do) anything else.
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on June 01, 2017, 11:19:05 AM
Yikes Mupepe that sounds terrible.

One thing I can't tolerate is people being dicks to workers in the service industry, especially food/restaurant. Throwing a fit over $5 (not to mention having your math be wrong) is pathetic. That driver probably barely makes any money as is.
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Post by: Mupepe on June 01, 2017, 11:20:28 AM
I work better on short deadlines.  Longer deadlines I get distracted by other tasks, lose focus and procrastinate.
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Post by: Mupepe on June 01, 2017, 11:22:08 AM
Yikes Mupepe that sounds terrible.

One thing I can't tolerate is people being dicks to workers in the service industry, especially food/restaurant. Throwing a fit over $5 (not to mention having your math be wrong) is pathetic. That driver probably barely makes any money as is.
That's how I felt.  $5 is nothing.  It's not even worth getting worked up over on vacation.  My relaxation is worth more than that.  And then being wrong on top of that.  Great.  It was shameful.
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Post by: Freyj on June 01, 2017, 12:31:27 PM
My wife and I are at 4 blessed years without a family vacation. Sometimes they're okay, but inevitable we're playing babysitter for someone's kids or someone wants to change plans last minute or argue about what we're doing every 5 minutes.

Fuck it, see you all at Thanksgiving.
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Post by: brawndolicious on June 01, 2017, 01:32:33 PM
There's a new person on my team that I'm handing a school lead testing side project off to. He's an old timer in the industry and wants all the data tables to be reviewable "at a glance" without using a single drop down arrow.

Me: but you really shouldn't alphabetize all columns in 50x800 sheet so you can read it every time you need to look up something. It just won't be readable scanning line by line.

Him: That's how I prefer to do it. If Marty (CEO) asks me how everything is going, I want to be able to instantly point to it and say.

Me:...he won't ask. Sometimes upper management asks me for an update on how everything is going which is why its better to keep the data structured so functions can tell you...

Him: but it they do...

Me: um.....um.....okay look, your way of trying to find stuff will introduce a lot of time and human error to the processes that you're going to be doing everyday with telling individuals what their deadlines are every week. And it won't help if the Director or CEO does wanna know something because they only care if a single deadline is missed. Come on let's go back to making a pivot table and I can show you how to do this stuff instantly.



This went for 15 minutes. I'm gonna start taking on other projects so I don't become an excel babysitter. This is what happens when you just hire the person with the most seniority.
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Post by: Mupepe on June 01, 2017, 01:55:49 PM
hehehehe  Sounds like a normal day at my job.  "Mupepe, can you build me this report?"  "Sure!  Here you go."  "Great.  Now can you get rid of your useful summaries and destroy my eyes with data?"   :doge
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Post by: Huff on June 01, 2017, 05:58:00 PM
Told my manager I could stay on PRN after residency ends this month to help out since we're short a position. Was thinking I could chill and work like 1-2 shifts a week

Now someone else is leaving, so I got scheduled for more hours than a full time employee.

So much for chilling
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Post by: chronovore on June 02, 2017, 01:00:09 PM
I'm awake at 2AM because a mosquito managed to bite each fucking hand three fucking times, and typing right now feels like it's engaging ALL THE FUCKING NERVES in them. The reason this is a struggle and not an inconvenience is it's not even summer here yet, the rainy season has barely begun, and these fucking things are already finding their way in my home with regularity.

I've got a 9AM meeting to go over a mess of technical details on my current project, followed by a bunch of finnicky editing, and I just want to fucking sleep, is that so much to fucking ask?
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 02, 2017, 01:07:04 PM

I've got a 9AM meeting to go over a mess of technical details on my current project, followed by a bunch of finnicky editing, and I just want to fucking sleep, is that so much to fucking ask?

You're complaining about a mild inconvenience in your ability to go to sleep in your comfortable bed in your home just cause a few homeless mosquito needed to get food to survive another day.  I mean, I don't know what time it is over in Japan, but think its time to check your privilege. 
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Post by: Mupepe on June 02, 2017, 02:03:06 PM
Angry Chrono is best Chrono.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 02, 2017, 02:09:00 PM
Like the angry father that never beat me. 
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Post by: chronovore on June 04, 2017, 12:24:23 AM

I've got a 9AM meeting to go over a mess of technical details on my current project, followed by a bunch of finnicky editing, and I just want to fucking sleep, is that so much to fucking ask?

You're complaining about a mild inconvenience in your ability to go to sleep in your comfortable bed in your home just cause a few homeless mosquito needed to get food to survive another day.  I mean, I don't know what time it is over in Japan, but think its time to check your privilege.
Like the angry father that never beat me.

I'm going to come over there and make you eat cold poutine while I drink your whisky.
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Post by: Steve Contra on June 06, 2017, 02:41:13 PM
One of my best friends died yesterday. It wasn't unexpected because he had all kinds of problems resulting from a genetic vein malformation that paralyzed him 10 years ago, but man it still hurts. At least he isn't in pain anymore.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 06, 2017, 03:05:47 PM
sorry dude
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Post by: Brehvolution on June 06, 2017, 03:13:12 PM
Sorry for your loss, Steve.
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Post by: Valkyrie on June 06, 2017, 05:08:34 PM
Sorry for your loss - I hope he's in peace now. What a terrible thing. :'(
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on June 06, 2017, 08:37:21 PM
I'm sorry Steve, that sucks!
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Post by: chronovore on June 08, 2017, 08:49:53 AM
That's super rough, Steve. I'm sad for your loss.
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Post by: Mupepe on June 08, 2017, 09:25:33 AM
Sorry, Steve :(
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Post by: zomgee on June 08, 2017, 02:50:32 PM
Yikes Mupepe that sounds terrible.

One thing I can't tolerate is people being dicks to workers in the service industry, especially food/restaurant. Throwing a fit over $5 (not to mention having your math be wrong) is pathetic. That driver probably barely makes any money as is.
That's how I felt.  $5 is nothing.  It's not even worth getting worked up over on vacation.  My relaxation is worth more than that.  And then being wrong on top of that.  Great.  It was shameful.

Yelling over five bucks yet willing to let $1000 disappear for the boat reservations. Good on you for stepping up but shame on them for turning the boat around.




One of my best friends died yesterday. It wasn't unexpected because he had all kinds of problems resulting from a genetic vein malformation that paralyzed him 10 years ago, but man it still hurts. At least he isn't in pain anymore.

A friend of mine I loved so much that I always called my uncle was paralyzed after a drunken dive into a three foot pool. He died maybe 15 years ago but he was my best friend. He helped me through some difficult times and really dragged me out of some terrible personal situations. We had very candid conversations about the state of his life and he was ultimately happy because he had time to read, meditate, and contemplate, but mostly he was appreciative of his friends. You're a good guy for being his friend in the face of his adversity. I am very sorry you lost your friend.
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Post by: Bebpo on June 21, 2017, 01:48:19 AM
Procedure today went well, in recovery. In so much pain. This is the second most pain I've been in, in decades. Tylenol is just kicking in so I can move, hopefully I'll be able to sleep and tomorrow the pain will be gone, but boys & girls if someone wants to inflate balloons in your little gut and throw a knife party DO NOT DO THIS  :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

Went to Mcdonalds across the street earlier and got a strawberry banana smoothie I'm sipping and if you've seen wolf of wall street where Leo's slumping try to get to his car, that was sorta me but less extreme since I could drive, but getting there and back was like a hike.
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Post by: brawndolicious on June 21, 2017, 09:40:59 AM
 :'(

Does ice and videogames help?
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 21, 2017, 11:21:57 AM
Feel better, Bebpo :(
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Post by: Valkyrie on June 21, 2017, 11:37:56 AM
Get well soon! Eat all the ice cream you can.
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Post by: Bebpo on June 21, 2017, 05:25:28 PM
Thanks everyone! Feeling a lot better today, pain is like 1/4th from last night so it just feels like someone threw a bowling ball at hit me in the gut. At this rate the pain should be gone by tomorrow. Napping a lot today  :zzz
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Post by: Mupepe on June 21, 2017, 05:28:52 PM
If youd like me to call and sing to you just give me the word, good buddy.
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Post by: VomKriege on June 22, 2017, 03:58:35 AM
That fucking heatwave.
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Post by: Rufus on June 22, 2017, 08:26:31 AM
Not helped by people who don't know to keep the fucking windows closed during the day. It's as if they think cold air spontaneously forms around an open window. :picard
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 22, 2017, 08:50:30 AM
Air conditioning etiquette should be a formal class taught in highschool 
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Post by: chronovore on June 22, 2017, 06:26:47 PM
Air conditioning etiquette should be a formal class taught in highschool

 I'd say go for it being added to Home Economics, along with an addition of the evils of credit cards, and the need to maintain zero debt on them.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 22, 2017, 07:56:37 PM
This band is from my home province

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5y4qmWF9TIM

lyrics are on point
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Post by: Rufus on June 30, 2017, 10:04:19 PM
That is my nightmare. Hope they turn up.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 30, 2017, 10:15:17 PM
I got your keys
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Post by: TVC15 on July 03, 2017, 04:40:42 PM
Had an eye appointment earlier today. I was in the waiting room with two other people: a cute college aged girl and a disheveled neckbeard. I'm pretty sure he was a wizard. The young chick was reading something on her kindle...

Wizard: Hi, I'm Will. What are you reading?
Girl: Oh hi. Harry Potter & The Cursed Child
Wizard: Oh, I heard it was shite [not shit, he literally said "shite"]
Girl: *nervous giggle* I kinda like it. But not as much as the other books
Wizard: Yea. Have you read Game Of Thrones?
Girl: No but my brother watches the show. I haven't seen it
Wizard: Have you read The Hunger Games?
Girl: I saw the movies but haven't read the books
Wizard: Cool. Yea. Have you read Outlander?
Girl: I don't know what that is *laughs*

I shit you not, he asked her about 4-5 more books before she was called into the back for her appointment. At that point he looked at me and said "I tried." I was pulling a MAF at the time, ie pretending to do shit on my phone, but I looked up and
 :idont


(http://i.imgur.com/1IIfMsy.png)
I suppose he deserves some credit for actually talking to a girl, but still..


He clearly sensed the Grand Wizard.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 06, 2017, 07:46:34 PM
I've been doing my PhD full time and working 2 days a week at a start up.  I'm exhausted. 
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Post by: Raist on July 06, 2017, 07:47:36 PM
Ha, the blessed years of the PhD. How I miss thee.
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Post by: Boogie on July 07, 2017, 08:09:49 AM
This band is from my home province

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5y4qmWF9TIM

lyrics are on point

I just discovered these guys a month or so ago.  I don't usually go for "country" sounding bands, but i dig them.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 07, 2017, 09:06:02 AM
 Same, well I just discovered the Americana genera as a whole and really like it
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Post by: Huff on July 07, 2017, 10:16:40 AM
Drive-by Truckers was/is a group I've always been a big fan of in Americana, although I don't listen to the genre all that much
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 07, 2017, 10:58:02 AM
Anxiety is killing me right now.  Just chickened out of going to a meeting I should be going to.  Fuck. 
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Post by: Valkyrie on July 07, 2017, 11:12:21 AM
Anxiety is a real bitch, especially in social situations.
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on July 07, 2017, 12:00:54 PM
Anxiety is killing me right now.  Just chickened out of going to a meeting I should be going to.  Fuck.

I do this far too often

---

Girlfriend still having a rough time finding work and is massively depressed.  Which in turn makes me depressed.   :'(
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Post by: Huff on July 07, 2017, 12:05:17 PM
I on the otherhand went to a meeting at the hospital on an off day, where no one had reviewed the material/plan, argued over unimportant issues, decided on nothing, and re-scheduled the meeting in two weeks in a day I'll be on vacation (and I'm the lead person on this issue)

Duck it, going to get drunk at a pool
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Post by: Atramental on July 07, 2017, 12:07:28 PM
I'm going to a meeting at 3pm but I don't know what it's about yet.  :doge
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 07, 2017, 03:19:18 PM
Dude that's a struggle? Over half my meetings I show up and say, "OK, what's this meeting about?"
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Post by: Rahxephon91 on July 08, 2017, 05:45:14 AM
Little update for me since I'm drunk now.

Nothing much has changed in my life. Nothing has really improved.

I had a long and hard conversation with my mother. Basically my mother thinks I'm going to end up killing myself. I also at this point think it's inevitable.  I kind of think suicide is a forgone conclusion, it's kind of just a matter of when. It's just next time I probably won't be so public about it.

I stopped going to my therapist, I just felt like I wasn't getting anything out of it and I was wasting my money. I would talk, I guess she would listen. Is that all they do? I guess, I don't know what I wanted. It's like I wanted Prof X to read my mind and give me a run down on what my psychological problems were and what to do. Instead, because of the way I handle people I'm not super comfortable with I feel like I put my best fake genuine mask up. Telling people what they want to hear, but never telling them the super truth. I'm really good at that, so good I don't know how to not do it. Point being I felt like I could never say excactly what would help and I felt like I got nothing out of it.

At this point I don't know I don't know when I'm going to do it, but I know at some point I'm going to do it.  It was nice to feel the support of everyone, but in the end it just made me feel guilty. Did I do it for attention? No, but sometimes I feel like I did. I know some feel like I did. In the end I see how everyone has connections. Their own personal family, sexual and romantic partners, or whatever. People outside of thier mother who validate them. I don't and I don't see me ever achieving that because I myself dont like me. A real chicken and egg syndrome honestly.

In my arguments with my mother it comes down to, killing yourself will ruin people who love you. Yes, I know it will forever effect people especially my mother. But I feel thats a guilt trip. I'm not living for myself then, just so I don't hurt others. It sound bad when you type it out, but it's the truth. I love my nieces, but my life isn't about them.
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Post by: Raist on July 08, 2017, 06:29:05 AM
Dude that's a struggle? Over half my meetings I show up and say, "OK, what's this meeting about?"

I'll add the bosses' "hey so can we meet in like 2h?" type of deals.
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Post by: Raist on July 08, 2017, 06:39:56 AM
Little update for me since I'm drunk now.

Nothing much has changed in my life. Nothing has really improved.

I had a long and hard conversation with my mother. Basically my mother thinks I'm going to end up killing myself. I also at this point think it's inevitable.  I kind of think suicide is a forgone conclusion, it's kind of just a matter of when. It's just next time I probably won't be so public about it.

I stopped going to my therapist, I just felt like I wasn't getting anything out of it and I was wasting my money. I would talk, I guess she would listen. Is that all they do? I guess, I don't know what I wanted. It's like I wanted Prof X to read my mind and give me a run down on what my psychological problems were and what to do. Instead, because of the way I handle people I'm not super comfortable with I feel like I put my best fake genuine mask up. Telling people what they want to hear, but never telling them the super truth. I'm really good at that, so good I don't know how to not do it. Point being I felt like I could never say excactly what would help and I felt like I got nothing out of it.

At this point I don't know I don't know when I'm going to do it, but I know at some point I'm going to do it.  It was nice to feel the support of everyone, but in the end it just made me feel guilty. Did I do it for attention? No, but sometimes I feel like I did. I know some feel like I did. In the end I see how everyone has connections. Their own personal family, sexual and romantic partners, or whatever. People outside of thier mother who validate them. I don't and I don't see me ever achieving that because I myself dont like me. A real chicken and egg syndrome honestly.

In my arguments with my mother it comes down to, killing yourself will ruin people who love you. Yes, I know it will forever effect people especially my mother. But I feel thats a guilt trip. I'm not living for myself then, just so I don't hurt others. It sound bad when you type it out, but it's the truth. I love my nieces, but my life isn't about them.

I've bolded the contradictions - not in a "gotcha" manner mind you, just pointing out stuff you might be oblivious to because of your current mindset.
You also seem to have at least one very good friend (with a difficult type of relation, but still).

As for therapists, yes, that's not really something you'll get out of them, even though it would seem to make sense. Been there done that. All that means is that it's just not for you, not that you're a helpless, lost cause.
Presumably CBT is a little bit more targeted, from what I've heard, because they identify the main issues in your thinking process and/or behaviour, and help you work on that. Maybe look into it. At the end of the day, you'll have people be there on the way, but it will mostly come down to you. And that doesn't mean that it's impossible and "too late" or whatever. Often things just click into place, for whatever reason and out of nowhere.

I don't know if you've been drinking on your own, but seriously try hard to avoid that. Causes more harm than good.
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Post by: chronovore on July 08, 2017, 07:20:04 AM
+1 for "don't self medicate"

Also agreed that you've got connections to other humans, and you're always free to make whatever choice you want. Take everything one day at a time.

Maybe you don't trust that therapist; no reason you can't try another.

Hang in there, Rahx.
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Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on July 08, 2017, 08:49:14 AM
Dude that's a struggle? Over half my meetings I show up and say, "OK, what's this meeting about?"

What's worse are the meetings that have no real purpose or direction.  So recently I've been rejecting those invitations, which causes some of them to get flustered.

I feel that these days most of the meetings I attend are "I'm too scared to make a decision so I need a dozen people on the call so that way if my decision is a bad one, the blame can be shared."

Fuck that, grow some balls and take a chance.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on July 08, 2017, 11:47:28 AM
Dude that's a struggle? Over half my meetings I show up and say, "OK, what's this meeting about?"

I even do this when the meeting is clearly labeled, just to make sure everybody is mentally checked in.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on July 08, 2017, 12:14:57 PM
I was just continuing the post combo about meetings. Not a real struggle.  :doge

Dude that's a struggle? Over half my meetings I show up and say, "OK, what's this meeting about?"

What's worse are the meetings that have no real purpose or direction.  So recently I've been rejecting those invitations, which causes some of them to get flustered.

I feel that these days most of the meetings I attend are "I'm too scared to make a decision so I need a dozen people on the call so that way if my decision is a bad one, the blame can be shared."

Fuck that, grow some balls and take a chance.
Those are the fucking worst.  >:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 08, 2017, 09:40:53 PM
Dude that's a struggle? Over half my meetings I show up and say, "OK, what's this meeting about?"

What's worse are the meetings that have no real purpose or direction.  So recently I've been rejecting those invitations, which causes some of them to get flustered.

I feel that these days most of the meetings I attend are "I'm too scared to make a decision so I need a dozen people on the call so that way if my decision is a bad one, the blame can be shared."

Fuck that, grow some balls and take a chance.
Oh I was once like that. But I've accepted it's just never gong to stop. So I just take my laptop and I'll work on the tedious stuff or surf during the meetings and all that.  If someone asks me a question I tune back in, ask them to please repeat the question, give them an answer then check back out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 08, 2017, 11:06:07 PM
My mother in law came to visit -- and drove her car into a ditch and somehow up over a boulder. Just spent the last couple hours jacking it up, taking off her tire, digging out the boulder (200lbs easy) and putting it all back together to get her out of my hair :lol just dripping in sweat and mud right now. Time to get high in the shower and hope she leaves by the time I'm out
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on July 09, 2017, 12:46:20 AM
I've yet to find a dev job that wasn't awful at onboarding and this new one isn't any exception to that rule.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 11, 2017, 03:15:11 AM
Father in law got diagnosed with cancer.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 11, 2017, 03:30:00 AM
Father in law got diagnosed with cancer.

Fuck. Best of luck with the treatment.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 11, 2017, 01:44:06 PM
thx
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 13, 2017, 09:44:47 AM
Father in law got diagnosed with cancer.

Sad to hear that. Cancer is a fucker.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 15, 2017, 08:34:56 AM
I completely borked an interview at a major game developer that I was trying to get into for literally over a decade.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 15, 2017, 09:06:38 AM
sucks dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 15, 2017, 09:18:42 AM
Shit, sorry to hear that.

What went wrong?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on July 15, 2017, 01:02:44 PM
Was if just nervous jitters or did something happen that made you look incompetent? A good interviewer should be able to look past jitters.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on July 15, 2017, 01:06:20 PM
I completely borked an interview at a major game developer that I was trying to get into for literally over a decade.  :-\

:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on July 15, 2017, 01:13:50 PM
My brothers name is Bobby. He is really opinionated and thinks he knows and is right about everything. I realized when I read a Bobby Roberts post its in my brothers voice in my head.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 15, 2017, 05:40:38 PM
Shit, sorry to hear that.

What went wrong?

Was if just nervous jitters or did something happen that made you look incompetent? A good interviewer should be able to look past jitters.

Part of it was definitely nervousness, part of it was giving out some (imo) bad sounding answers. It was frustrating because there were questions that were typical of an interview (i.e. "Why do you feel you're a good fit for this position?"), and it's stuff I should have been totally prepared for, but I just found myself struggling to come up with words, and then when I did, I was kicking myself cause my answers sounded awful. Granted, it wasn't all my answers, but the ones I answered badly were probably the ones that were the most important.

Ironically, I think this all happened because I was (bizarrely enough) overconfident prior to the interview. There's a small chance that this may still work out, but I'm not that hopeful.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 15, 2017, 07:34:40 PM
Every failed interview is a good learning experience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 16, 2017, 02:50:52 AM
Damn Oblivion  :-\

Rax: the bore likes you, if your life sucks just play wow 24/7 and get mad loot, there is always something fun to do in life
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on July 18, 2017, 02:26:19 PM
Noticed my dog felt super bloated last night. Took him to the vet this morning and I still don't fully know what is wrong with him. He's at a specialist and they're doing bloodwork and probably another ultra sound. He's in stable condition but he's full of fluid and his liver and spleen were not looking good earlier. I almost passed out and threw up at the first vet's. I'm so fucking scared right now the Bore, this dog is my best friend and I'd be lost without him.

Every failed interview is a good learning experience.

Very true. I started taking notes after I learned there was a pattern to the questions being asked. It's one of the things that really helped me improve over time.

Also I once had an interview with a place that on the phone told me I was probably too junior for the role (I was) but the guy on the other end (who is and has been a tech director at several major game studios) gave me a lot of info and advice about the questions he was asking and why they were important.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 18, 2017, 02:55:16 PM
Hope your dog is Ok max. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on July 18, 2017, 04:28:24 PM
He's not :( Although he seems 100% okay the doctor said he only has a few more days. I really just can't process this at all right now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 18, 2017, 04:30:22 PM
Really sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on July 18, 2017, 06:07:09 PM
It's never a pleasant experience and I went through a couple of them those last few years. Really sorry for you.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 18, 2017, 06:26:20 PM
Sorry to hear that bluemax. It sounds like you really love your dog, and I bet he couldn't have had a better owner. Sending you and your dog some warm hugs. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on July 18, 2017, 06:34:02 PM
Man I'm really sorry. Losing my dog many years ago totally wrecked me and it took years to get over it. I still can't handle the thought of getting another pet, she was my best friend.

You'll be going through a lot of shit and it'll be so hard but try to hang in there. Also try to give your dog the very best last days and just hold him a lot and try to act normal around him. He won't want to see his human upset, you're his world. I hope you get to take him home with you for this time that you still have.

:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on July 18, 2017, 07:39:29 PM
He's been home for a few hours now. They gave me a pain killer and an herbal supplement to help with the bleeding. They said it didn't seem like he was still bleeding and he's very stable but I guess he's past the point where they can do surgery. We just got done with a long walk and he seems the same as ever. This dog is my best friend, we've only been apart two nights in the past like 7 or 8 years since I got him back from my ex and he went to work with me every day for pretty much the past 4 years. Some of the darkest days of my post college life I only made it through because I had him. I've lost a dog before, but for some reason this is just so much harder.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 18, 2017, 07:59:51 PM
sorry to hear that man
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 18, 2017, 08:20:22 PM
:( I'm really sorry for the pain you're feeling
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on July 18, 2017, 09:19:44 PM
Thanks guys. He's chilling next me on the couch like normal right now. I got a tad worried earlier when he had a dream, but it was just a dream and something worse.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on July 18, 2017, 11:07:21 PM
Noooooo....

I'm so sorry. There is nothing on this earth like the love of, and for, your dog.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 19, 2017, 08:07:52 PM
Shit, sorry to hear that.

What went wrong?

Was if just nervous jitters or did something happen that made you look incompetent? A good interviewer should be able to look past jitters.

Part of it was definitely nervousness, part of it was giving out some (imo) bad sounding answers. It was frustrating because there were questions that were typical of an interview (i.e. "Why do you feel you're a good fit for this position?"), and it's stuff I should have been totally prepared for, but I just found myself struggling to come up with words, and then when I did, I was kicking myself cause my answers sounded awful. Granted, it wasn't all my answers, but the ones I answered badly were probably the ones that were the most important.

Ironically, I think this all happened because I was (bizarrely enough) overconfident prior to the interview. There's a small chance that this may still work out, but I'm not that hopeful.  :'(

As Valkyrie said, no interview is a waste. If you can, do some practice interviews before your next real one. They can really help with visualization, as well as get some good feedback if your interview partner is on-point.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on July 19, 2017, 08:09:30 PM
He's not :( Although he seems 100% okay the doctor said he only has a few more days. I really just can't process this at all right now.

I'm sad for your dog and you both. I'm happy that it sounds like your dog is in no pain. Dogs' love is so pure, it is just hard to lose them. I don't if you're religious, but remember that all dogs go to heaven, because a god that doesn't let dogs in isn't a worthwhile god.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 20, 2017, 06:46:38 AM
Yeah, really sorry to hear that bluemax. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 20, 2017, 06:48:08 AM
Also, too. Got a response on the game developer gig, which was unfortunately not a good one.  :'(

Shit, sorry to hear that.

What went wrong?

Was if just nervous jitters or did something happen that made you look incompetent? A good interviewer should be able to look past jitters.

Part of it was definitely nervousness, part of it was giving out some (imo) bad sounding answers. It was frustrating because there were questions that were typical of an interview (i.e. "Why do you feel you're a good fit for this position?"), and it's stuff I should have been totally prepared for, but I just found myself struggling to come up with words, and then when I did, I was kicking myself cause my answers sounded awful. Granted, it wasn't all my answers, but the ones I answered badly were probably the ones that were the most important.

Ironically, I think this all happened because I was (bizarrely enough) overconfident prior to the interview. There's a small chance that this may still work out, but I'm not that hopeful.  :'(

As Valkyrie said, no interview is a waste. If you can, do some practice interviews before your next real one. They can really help with visualization, as well as get some good feedback if your interview partner is on-point.

Yeah, lesson learned. Man, you have no idea how much I'm kicking myself right now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on July 20, 2017, 10:36:26 AM
I'm working on a project with a few people, we're in a conference room and this chick is listening to this AWKWARD self confidence mantra thing on Spotify for overweight people. It's basically a guy speaking over a break beat, giving reaffirming compliments ("you are NOT fat") and advice. This chick is definitely fat BTW.

Everyone is kinda just staring around and she's acting like she's listening to Bruno Mars or something.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on July 20, 2017, 11:23:31 AM
:lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: thisismyusername on July 20, 2017, 11:26:00 AM
Man, I'm sick of applying for jobs to get out of my situation. I just want to lay down and sleep. :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on July 20, 2017, 11:43:53 AM
Man, I'm sick of applying for jobs to get out of my situation. I just want to lay down and sleep. :'(

You and me both.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on July 21, 2017, 01:32:49 AM
I was in that boat, took the first offer to come my way and this new position has kicked my anxiety into overdrive. I don't know how people work in open office settings, but I'm about to do the most millennial thing I've ever done and take another job just a few months in.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on July 22, 2017, 07:13:50 AM
I've  been looking into exit bags recently. Seems to be a clean way and painless way so I think with my next few paychecks I'm gonna order the parts.

My relationship with my mother has gotten really bad. It's to the point where she's scared to say pretty much anything in fear of how I'll react. It's depressing to be around.

My friendship with my Mexican friend has detoried. I don't even know what the problem is, and I don't care anymore. Women are crazy and I'm tired of being used and abused by them. I'll never find what I want so it doesn't matter. I knew we couldnt be friends and well I was right,

I have a nice refund check from school coming. I'm going to use it to complete the den room for my nieces so they can have a room in the house to play Minecraft or whatever. Thats my current goal, after that I'm going to continue to look into my suicide options. I read a thread on GAF I think that basically said that death is like a everlasting sleep which sounds nice. I'm really tired of ling and having to deal with being the loser that is me so that sounds well pleasurable.

It's odd, my recent suicide experince while traumatic took a lot of fear out about the whole thing. So this time I won't be afraid, I know it's something that has to be done.  So I'm looking forward to it. There's just a few things I need to wrap up before I pull the trigger.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on July 22, 2017, 01:50:34 PM
i hope things start looking brighter for you really soon
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 22, 2017, 02:20:23 PM
I'm really sorry man that you have to go through this.  Mental health issues are terrible.  Have you thought about moving and starting a new life?  Moving did me a ton of good as it forced me out of rutts I had dug for myself for years.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on July 22, 2017, 05:12:59 PM
My mother has talked about sending time to Japan for a trip. Not moving there but still something.

My grandmother has connections in Taiwan and has talked about sending me there to live for a bit. It could be neat and would force me to well do something.

In the mean time on off days I've gotten back into doing plumbing with my high school friend's dad. Keeps me occupied and doing something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on July 23, 2017, 11:33:01 AM
Go on the trip man, go travel :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 23, 2017, 12:18:26 PM
Also one of the best things I ever did for myself was cut contact on a girl I was into without getting any feels in return.  Once the feelings are out there and lopsided, the friendship doesnt work. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on July 30, 2017, 06:26:31 PM
hugs to the reaper mostly because:

Sometimes I feel the same.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 30, 2017, 11:05:06 PM
I've been in a state of constantly being pissed too for 4 months.  Shit sucks, especially cause I know its no ones fault. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: samfish on July 30, 2017, 11:36:32 PM
My mother has talked about sending time to Japan for a trip. Not moving there but still something.

My grandmother has connections in Taiwan and has talked about sending me there to live for a bit. It could be neat and would force me to well do something.

In the mean time on off days I've gotten back into doing plumbing with my high school friend's dad. Keeps me occupied and doing something.

You should travel if you're being given the opportunity. Asia is a great place to travel in general because you can see lots of other countries for comparably cheap. Traveling around and having a chance to see how other people lived really changed my perspective on life in general. Go to Japan and Taiwan if you are able to do so but they're both pretty modernized societies, so make it a point to go to places like Thailand, Laos, the Philippines, Vietnam, etc. sometimes a big change of perspective is what's needed to snap yourself out of a downward spiral.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on July 31, 2017, 12:03:41 AM
I've been in a state of constantly being pissed too for 4 months.  Shit sucks, especially cause I know its no ones fault.


I can't grow out of it. Everybody sucks apparently.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on July 31, 2017, 02:41:55 AM
Somehow severely cracked my laptop screen from the other side due to me laying my humongous body over it.

Thankfully, I have Geek Squad Protection™
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 31, 2017, 11:38:08 AM
Oh fuck, you just reminded me that I'm gonna be treated again like the family's Geek Squad Hotline when I move back to my hometown.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 06, 2017, 03:15:50 AM
Went to a Green Day concert as a sort of favor to a friend and it was easily the worst concert I've ever been to, and I've been to a lot. Fuck this shitty band and fuck anyone here who likes them. I feel fucking guilty and ashamed for what I've done. Is anyone here near Oakland and willing to put me out of my misery?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 06, 2017, 09:40:55 AM
Misery you say?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeGs9O7C3IM
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 08, 2017, 11:03:15 AM
Got an email from my mom this morning that my Grandpa is dying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 08, 2017, 12:00:06 PM
that sucks Arvie. I'm sorry. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 08, 2017, 12:02:54 PM
That's awful, really sorry to hear that. Are you able to meet him asap?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 08, 2017, 12:04:29 PM
Work stress is through the roof which is starting to lead to a mental breakdown for me. Even started having some suicidal thoughts, which is not normal for me. I went to the doc who prescribed me some prozac and told me to calm down. Boss saw me and said "You need to take a few days to recharge" so I'm taking Monday/Tuesday next week off, but honestly, I'm not so sure how well this will go for me. I'm constantly in a state of dread/anxiety. Thankfully my wife's been very supportive, I helped her through her post partum depression so in a sense its good in that she knows what I did that worked.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 08, 2017, 12:27:24 PM
That's awful, really sorry to hear that. Are you able to meet him asap?

No he's half way across the country.  He was 96 and had a low quality of life and I've been expecting for years and I'm OK with it.  I'm upset for my mom and grandma though.  This is going to be really hard for them. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 08, 2017, 12:37:45 PM
And something that has been weighing on me for a long time.  My grandpa had dementia - which is why he had low quality of life and my grandma was recently diagnosed with the same thing.  And multiple times when I have talked to her she has said that she'd rather take a bottle of pills than get to where he was - and I think she's serious - not like it will be soon but I think she would do that rather than go to a care home if it comes to that - and I don't know how to talk to her or the rest of the family about it.     
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on August 08, 2017, 01:41:15 PM
Had a pretty shitty week last week -was on call at work and bombarded with long and awful phone calls almost every night at all hours, so I didn't sleep well or got no sleep, was stressed about my wife possibly having cancer (she doesn't!!), and then when I thought everything was better, I got a call Sunday that my great aunt passed away.  Was already off yesterday, but took another PTO day today for the funeral...

...which I missed.  Fucking alarm didn't go off and I woke up late.  Scrambled to get ready, but then found that my suit was missing (I think it's at my parents' house).  Threw on some slacks and a nice button-up and got ready to leave, but the dog needed to go out.  By the time that was over, the funeral was starting and after talking to my dad, we decided it would be better if I didn't show up 20+ minutes late.  Feels bad.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 08, 2017, 02:01:34 PM
Work stress is through the roof which is starting to lead to a mental breakdown for me. Even started having some suicidal thoughts, which is not normal for me. I went to the doc who prescribed me some prozac and told me to calm down. Boss saw me and said "You need to take a few days to recharge" so I'm taking Monday/Tuesday next week off, but honestly, I'm not so sure how well this will go for me. I'm constantly in a state of dread/anxiety. Thankfully my wife's been very supportive, I helped her through her post partum depression so in a sense its good in that she knows what I did that worked.
Your wife is awesome and you will be fine, I'm sure of it. Going to the doctor is pretty tough for some people, and it helps when others mention they went, to show people it's not as scary as it might seem. Take care of yourself though, and call your doctor if you get worse. At least you've got some time off to relax, that should help you a lot.

That's awful, really sorry to hear that. Are you able to meet him asap?

No he's half way across the country.  He was 96 and had a low quality of life and I've been expecting for years and I'm OK with it.  I'm upset for my mom and grandma though.  This is going to be really hard for them.
Dunno what to tell ya, dementia sounds tough to deal with for everyone involved. But you should definitely mention the pill thing to those who take care of her/spend the most time with her.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 08, 2017, 02:14:56 PM
I'm sorry, Dandy. Dealing with folks with dementia is sad, exhausting, unique, and impossible to prepare for. You and your family have my sympathy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 09, 2017, 11:30:46 AM
He passed this morning. 

When I was digging around my old photobucket to fix my avatar I found this picture of him and I from a decade ago. 

(http://i.imgur.com/oXrNcUj.jpg)

Going to miss him. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 09, 2017, 11:36:20 AM
❤️ Sorry, Arv
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 09, 2017, 11:36:37 AM
With dementia, he's definitely in a better place now. Lovely photo - wishing you and your family all the best. :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on August 09, 2017, 03:52:47 PM
Great photo. Very sorry arv.

Dementia and Alz are so cruel. It feels like they die multiple times over a period of years. Like they were robbed of their life before they passed away.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on August 09, 2017, 03:57:24 PM
Sorry for your loss.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 09, 2017, 06:58:14 PM
I'm sorry Dandy. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 09, 2017, 07:03:24 PM
Sorry for your loss Arvie :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on August 09, 2017, 07:19:17 PM
Sorry for your loss, Arvie.   :( 

Dementia can get really bad.  I will never forget the image of seeing my grandmother laying on a bed with a ton of tubes in her, unresponsive to anything, but my grandfather kept desperately trying to get her to respond.  She passed soon after.

My other grandmother recently got some form of dementia and is getting worse.  My great aunt died on Sunday and the family wasn't sure when to tell her because her birthday is this weekend.  They ended up telling her yesterday and my aunt said that my grandmother didn't even recognize her and asked her if she was a friend of my other aunt's.  She then started crying, but promptly forgot about it 10 minutes later.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on August 13, 2017, 08:30:40 PM
I understand that feeling Arvie, my great grandmother on my Dad's side suffered through alzheimers as did my maternal grandmother.

In personal news, I made the decision Friday night to put my dog down. I came home from work and he didn't want to go outside, and when I did take him I could barely get him to move. I took him to the vet and they said his condition had gotten significantly worse and while he was stable there wasn't much time before it started getting even worse and causing him pain. I am grateful that I got 3.5 extra weeks with him but it has definitely been a difficult weekend, I keep having moments where I expect him to be there and he isn't. I wake up and don't know what to do because my whole routine is just completely out of sorts.

Dogs are so good brehs.
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Post by: bork on August 13, 2017, 08:34:42 PM
Fuck, bluemax, I'm so sorry man.  :(
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 13, 2017, 11:05:37 PM
Sorry dude
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Post by: bluemax on August 14, 2017, 12:55:22 AM
Thanks guys, I think having that extra time softened the blow a bit but there are still certainly moments where I can't believe he's really gone. There's certainly a void that won't be gone for awhile.
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 14, 2017, 07:22:30 PM
It's almost impressive how little attractive someone becomes when you stop liking them. He keeps walking around naked... get that flaccid shit out of my face.

Live with your ex for 2 months after breaking up, brehs.
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Post by: Tasty on August 15, 2017, 01:03:10 AM
It's almost impressive how little attractive someone becomes when you stop liking them. He keeps walking around naked... get that flaccid shit out of my face.

Live with your ex for 2 months after breaking up, brehs.

Send pics, I'll appreciate them. :rejoice
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Post by: TVC15 on August 15, 2017, 01:11:58 AM
It's almost impressive how little attractive someone becomes when you stop liking them. He keeps walking around naked... get that flaccid shit out of my face.

Live with your ex for 2 months after breaking up, brehs.

Send pics, I'll appreciate them. :rejoice

Just post me in the nsfw thread so we can all enjoy. Paste mupepe’s face over his if you’re concerned about privacy.
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Post by: Raist on August 15, 2017, 05:05:39 AM
The pound is on a downward spiral against the euro. It's killing me :stahp
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Post by: Mupepe on August 15, 2017, 07:22:16 AM
It's almost impressive how little attractive someone becomes when you stop liking them. He keeps walking around naked... get that flaccid shit out of my face.

Live with your ex for 2 months after breaking up, brehs.

Send pics, I'll appreciate them. :rejoice

Just post me in the nsfw thread so we can all enjoy. Paste mupepe’s face over his if you’re concerned about privacy.
Yeah.  Then I can pretend that you and I were married :heartbeat
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 15, 2017, 07:36:25 AM
It's almost impressive how little attractive someone becomes when you stop liking them. He keeps walking around naked... get that flaccid shit out of my face.

Live with your ex for 2 months after breaking up, brehs.

Send pics, I'll appreciate them. :rejoice
Believe me, you won't. lol :doge
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Post by: archie4208 on August 16, 2017, 02:25:00 PM
I had to put down my dog today.  His kidneys were failing due to diabetes.  The vet said he lasted any longer than he had any right to, so he was a fighter.  He might have got on my nerves, but I still loved the little guy and will miss him dearly (http://i.imgur.com/a1E5ATj.jpg).
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Post by: Steve Contra on August 16, 2017, 02:27:59 PM
I had to put down my dog today.  His kidneys were failing due to diabetes.  The vet said he lasted any longer than he had any right to, so he was a fighter.  He might have got on my nerves, but I still loved the little guy and will miss him dearly (http://i.imgur.com/a1E5ATj.jpg).
:tocry
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Post by: bluemax on August 16, 2017, 10:23:18 PM
I had to put down my dog today.  His kidneys were failing due to diabetes.  The vet said he lasted any longer than he had any right to, so he was a fighter.  He might have got on my nerves, but I still loved the little guy and will miss him dearly (http://i.imgur.com/a1E5ATj.jpg).

Hang in there bro. I totally understand where you're at and there is no damn shame in crying about losing your dog.
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Post by: Huff on August 16, 2017, 10:40:27 PM
Rough week for bore dogs. Sorry guys
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 16, 2017, 10:45:04 PM
sorry dude
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Post by: chronovore on August 17, 2017, 02:24:31 AM
Oh fuck, you just reminded me that I'm gonna be treated again like the family's Geek Squad Hotline when I move back to my hometown.
Did you actually dodge this bullet just by being in th' Nihonz? I still get long-ass Skype calls where I'm asked to troubleshoot a computer that I can't even see. It's remarkable. If it worked for you, please be teaching me some of that scandinavian standoffishness so I can implement those protocols.

And something that has been weighing on me for a long time.  My grandpa had dementia - which is why he had low quality of life and my grandma was recently diagnosed with the same thing.  And multiple times when I have talked to her she has said that she'd rather take a bottle of pills than get to where he was - and I think she's serious - not like it will be soon but I think she would do that rather than go to a care home if it comes to that - and I don't know how to talk to her or the rest of the family about it.   
There are a number of studies on ultrasound being used to treat Alzheimers. Apparently it can obliterate the plaque buildup on synapses, not only improving new memory retention, but restoring memories which had previously thought lost.

Sorry to Archie and bluemax about your glorious and steadfast pooches. Losing a dog is supremely saddening. Don't feel bad about crying manly tears, and treat yourself to some be-nice-to-yourself time. Work through it! But remember that your dog wouldn't want you to be sad!
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Post by: archie4208 on August 17, 2017, 07:14:43 AM
Thanks for the kind words.  It means a lot to me.
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 17, 2017, 08:01:23 AM
Did you actually dodge this bullet just by being in th' Nihonz? I still get long-ass Skype calls where I'm asked to troubleshoot a computer that I can't even see. It's remarkable. If it worked for you teaching me some of that scandinavian standoffishness so I can implement those protocols.
Oh no, I had those Skype conversations a lot the first years after I moved, but the trick is to pretend you don't have time to Skype long. I guess having a baby helped, because they realized I wasn't able to do 1 hour long Skype conversations anymore. Sometimes I'd just say "That sounds like a problem I won't be able to fix from here.. you should get someone local to look at it." I know my dad knows I'm full of shit when I'm saying it though (he thinks I'm a computer wizard since I can always fix his problems (because they're so minor)). :lol

Now they mostly wait until I'm there in person to ask. It seems like they've finally started feeling bad for asking me. Sometimes they admit they've had the problem for months but "didn't wanna bother me" about it. For instance my sister upgraded their internet to fiber, and she lived 3-4 months bottlenecked because she was waiting for me to get there so I could install their new router/equipment. :lol
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Post by: chronovore on August 17, 2017, 07:42:01 PM
Did you actually dodge this bullet just by being in th' Nihonz? I still get long-ass Skype calls where I'm asked to troubleshoot a computer that I can't even see. It's remarkable. If it worked for you teaching me some of that scandinavian standoffishness so I can implement those protocols.
Oh no, I had those Skype conversations a lot the first years after I moved, but the trick is to pretend you don't have time to Skype long. I guess having a baby helped, because they realized I wasn't able to do 1 hour long Skype conversations anymore. Sometimes I'd just say "That sounds like a problem I won't be able to fix from here.. you should get someone local to look at it." I know my dad knows I'm full of shit when I'm saying it though (he thinks I'm a computer wizard since I can always fix his problems (because they're so minor)). :lol

Now they mostly wait until I'm there in person to ask. It seems like they've finally started feeling bad for asking me. Sometimes they admit they've had the problem for months but "didn't wanna bother me" about it. For instance my sister upgraded their internet to fiber, and she lived 3-4 months bottlenecked because she was waiting for me to get there so I could install their new router/equipment. :lol
:lol
So… the answer is for me to have another child?! I CAN'T WIN!

My last incidence of this was for my Mom, who had initiated an utterly debilitating self-kill by "not wanting to bother me." She decided she wanted to be able to do email when traveling, and planned to use the public computers in hotels or internet cafés to do so.*  She called her internet provider to ask how to do this, and they told her that all she needed to do was use the webmail login from any browser, by entering her email and password; when she told them she didn't know her password** they offered to change it for her on their server.  She accepted.

Of course, a person who can't remember their own password and can't figure out how to access the webmail page is ALSO unlikely to be aware that changing the password on the provider's end DOES NOT change the matching password on the local computer trying to access the provider's servers.***

It took two hours for me to fix, including 30-40 minutes of having her ISP on Google Hangouts international free phone call while she was on Facetime. I encouraged her to ask me for help before drastically changing any other settings in her computing environment.


* I have since warned her off from ever, ever doing this. Ever. 

** It's written down for her on a piece of paper which is taped to her wall at her home. Yes, I know this is very bad security. It just seemed like the only way she'd ever remember her password, except that she didn't.

*** And, of course, my mom trying to describe what she'd done without having any of the technical terms to describe not just what she'd done, but even what she's looking at onscreen: menu bar vs. Dock, browser window vs. Finder window, etc.
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Post by: Rufus on August 18, 2017, 10:09:52 AM
and my diet has also taken a nosedive, eating hamburgers and candy everyday, usually i got away with it without serious health consequences but recently i started getting blood in my stool

im dying brehs :goty
Hemorrhoids aren't fatal, bratan.
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 18, 2017, 10:22:57 AM
:beli edited

anyways maybe one reason why things arent going so well is because ive decided to try taking anti-depressants

ive never tried them because ive felt they "didn't work" but now i feel miserable that ive never tried them before... what if they do work? i will have basically wasted my life
You really shouldn't think of it that way. Just be glad you got it sorted out, and look forward instead of behind you!

Too bad these meds take some time to work properly, and sometimes make you feel icky.
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Post by: Rufus on August 18, 2017, 10:28:34 AM
And in the meantime: more fiber.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 18, 2017, 10:49:04 AM
so i've been dealing with depression basically my entire life the last few weeks have been pretty bad

the depression is worse than usual but my memory also seems to be failing me which is the scary part because this hasn't happened in the past

my recent trips to the supermarket trying to do shopping without a list usually works out okay but lately i've felt like i had fucking alzheimer wandering around in the aisles feeling like i don't know anything

feels bad man

and my diet has also taken a nosedive, eating hamburgers and candy everyday, usually i got away with it without serious health consequences but recently i started getting blood in my stool

it feels like im dying brehs :goty

shitty blood is where i draw the line so i'll try to eat healthier but when you're really depressed it's hard as hell to care about your own wellbeing somehow

quitting candy is also hard because sugar highs are the only way for me to feel anything

This sucks dude.  I go through depressive swings about 2-3 times a year where they last for a month or two - in one right now.  And everytime I feel like I get my shit together and stuff is going good, it always turns back around, and I got to craw out of the hole again.  Depression is god awful.  And its like I know if I just start working out again, eating right, clear up the house, and getting a bit of work done I'll feel better but then never do it. 
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Post by: Joe Molotov on August 18, 2017, 11:43:29 AM
Ya
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Post by: brawndolicious on August 18, 2017, 02:07:09 PM
Chrono, I asked my mom to tell me and my brother what her password is in order to avoid such situations. It's the only one she uses for everything and there's always at least one person available to help so it simplifies "remote tech support".
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Post by: toku on August 18, 2017, 03:04:23 PM
just want everything now but its always email this, meetings next week that, lets catch up on this, walk through that why can't everything burn down right now
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on August 18, 2017, 09:36:45 PM
quitting candy is also hard because sugar highs are the only way for me to feel anything

Ween yourself off sugar, or even try cold turkey. That shit is going to fuck your moods up more than any other food-related thing you've got going. I was running lower sugar for awhile, then ate "normal" USA food for a bit, and I felt like a fucking trainwreck.

Chrono, I asked my mom to tell me and my brother what her password is in order to avoid such situations. It's the only one she uses for everything and there's always at least one person available to help so it simplifies "remote tech support".
Thanks, Brawndo! I actually know her password because I set it up for her, and left it for her in an obvious place, visible when she sits at the computer. I do not know why she thought she didn't know the password. She has it, right there. She's not just uninterested in knowing the details, she's mildly technophobic.

The reason I had her ISP on one line and her on the other was so I could coherently ask them to change it back to what it was before, and so they could have their customer (Mom) confirm with them.

What I want to set up is a means for me to remote login to her computer so I can drive her Mac from my laptop, anywhere.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on August 19, 2017, 11:49:59 AM
My career has migrated from relatively successful and happy to borderline train wreck over the last 9 months. I left a job after about 4 years in June (long story, abusive small business + mid life crisis of owner = nightmare) and started a new gig in an open office where the people were nice but the tech (Developer) was completely misrepresented to me. Long story short, undiagnosed anxiety issues exploded from both the open office, long commute and feeling lost career wise and I made some hasty decisions to accept another position that I started this week. It's far too early to really judge this one, but the anxiety issues are still very much present for reasons I can't rightfully explain.

I've started taking LexaPro for anxiety, but haven't felt the light switch effect of it yet. I've always been Type A, high strung and off and on depressed, but never to the point of physical symptoms showing up like this.

Complicating matters I received a message from a former coworker and friend that his full remote gig had finally gotten rid of another dev that was a ticking time bomb of asshole and drama and he had put in a good word about me as this guy's replacement. While the idea of leaving so many jobs in such a short time span makes me feel like a complete failure (my dev resume prior to this was essentially 3 4 year stints), one of my major struggles in life thus far has been making the right decisions for myself (and my SO by proxy) and I'm about 99.9% sure this particular opportunity is what I was looking for 9 months ago when my last long term gig started falling apart.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on August 19, 2017, 01:03:54 PM
If a future employer asks you why you hopped around a bit you can always say that you were getting a better idea of what was & wasn't an ideal working environment for yourself and how you're much more productive/efficient because of that knowledge.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 19, 2017, 02:24:01 PM
Yep I just left out the work I quit, after a few months... and it worked out pretty well. Do it!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on August 20, 2017, 05:37:24 PM
My god I lost ANOTHER cousin this weekend. That's two in about a year. Found dead in the bathroom when his wife came home.

My mom said his mom said he "probably either had a heart attack or took one too many pills."

Holy shit.   :-\

My family is a wreck, apparently. I guess I know why my parents were so strict when I was a kid. They wanted me to get out of Dodge.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2017, 05:39:24 PM
Sorry dude
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Post by: chronovore on August 21, 2017, 09:42:37 PM
Sorry, Zomgee.

I hope you're not inferring that you're a wreck because your family is a wreck. People can come out great despite messed up families. Hang in there!

:hanginthere_catposter.gif
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Post by: Bebpo on August 21, 2017, 11:20:45 PM
Sorry zomgee, were you close?
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Post by: Brehvolution on August 23, 2017, 09:23:35 AM
Sorry, Zomgee.  :'(
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Post by: zomgee on August 23, 2017, 11:07:09 PM
Sorry zomgee, were you close?

Thanks everyone. As a kid I tended to think everyone was close with their cousins, it's just how it was. Of course you grow up and leave and those people stay behind or drift away. That was him. It's just the focus on death I suppose. There but for the grace of something, I guess.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 24, 2017, 12:19:21 PM
So it looks like I'm anemic because of a lack of iron intake? This is kinda weird but makes sense in retrospect. I always thought Anemia was something only people with body image issues or models/actors/actresses dealt with trying to stay skinny. But like my multi-vitamin I take doesn't have any iron (didn't realize that), I only eat 2 meals a day, sometimes only 1 meal a day because I'm just not that hungry or busy. I eat very small portions and whenever I go to a restaurant with someone it's a little awkward especially with women because I eat half as much as they do because I get full pretty quick. One thing I love about when I'm in Japan is the portion sizes are perfect for my hunger level. Also because of my Crohn's Disease I have trouble absorbing minerals (which is why I take a multi-vitamin + a B-complex vitamin). So I'm probably getting almost no iron in my life for months at a time.

This came up on my most recent blood test where my red blood cells were too low (they've always been on the very low end). This also sorta explains why I'm not a morning person at all and have no energy, feel dizzy, etc...until I eat and sometimes get really weak light-headed and tired and need to lay down for an hour and rest. Maybe even why I sleep for like 8:30-9 hours naturally.

But this is a good thing to know. Gonna start taking an iron vitamin daily and might end up with way more energy and get more life back vs sleeping/laying down? Thinking about it, this actually came up a few years ago where one of my doctors noted my iron/red blood was low and told me to start increasing my iron and I did for a little while but at some point I stopped and totally forgot about it. If the iron supplement helps I'll remember this time to keep taking it longterm with my other stuff.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 24, 2017, 12:42:31 PM
Time to get your cast iron pan game on
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Post by: Mupepe on August 24, 2017, 02:20:46 PM
Multivitamins (or anything really) high in calcium can mess with iron absorption.  So can lots of caffeine rich drinks like coffee and tea so keep that in mind.
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Post by: Bebpo on August 24, 2017, 03:06:05 PM
Multivitamins (or anything really) high in calcium can mess with iron absorption.  So can lots of caffeine rich drinks like coffee and tea so keep that in mind.

That's a good point. I drink a ton of caffeine because I love coffee and drink coke between coffees. I also take calcium pills because some of meds leech calcium and my bones are kinda thin because I don't get enough calcium. So yeah, I'm pretty much getting jack shit iron, which is...not great! Getting on Iron supplements should help a lot.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 24, 2017, 04:28:24 PM
If anything I'm slightly overweight! Which is why I don't think of myself as anemic. But then even if I don't eat much food most of what I eat is pretty high calorie which keeps the weight on.

But yeah I'm ok in other stuff because of vitamins.

When I say I don't eat a lot, it's not like I'm starving myself. It's more that for example at Mcdonald's I can get a 99cent tiny burger, a small fries and a small coke and be totally satisfied for a lunch. But like most people get one or two quarter pounds and medium fries and medium coke. So I eat about half calories of what I think your average American eats. If I get a sub sandwich from most places I'll eat half and take half home. For a steak I can't eat anything larger than 6oz and I'm perfectly satisfied with a 3oz with some mushrooms/onions and a salad.

Also in Bore measurements, my go to meal at Taco Bell is 2 double decker tacos and a small soda that's perfectly filling for a meal for me.
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 24, 2017, 06:53:44 PM
Most people are low on iron, usually weight doesn't matter. But it doesn't sound like you're eating enough, your body probably needs more food than you're giving it. Maybe try some iron supplements if you don't have a big enough appetite.
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Post by: Mupepe on August 24, 2017, 07:09:17 PM
Become a vampire and drink the blood from someone with a lot of iron in their blood. Voila. Chicks also seem to dig vampires.   
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Post by: Atramental on August 24, 2017, 07:15:06 PM
I would also cut out any soda if you can.

That shit is poison.

*sips monster energy drink*
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Post by: toku on August 24, 2017, 07:20:59 PM
Become a vampire and drink the blood from someone with a lot of iron in their blood. Voila. Chicks also seem to dig vampires.

(http://i.imgur.com/1cI3kTi.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 24, 2017, 09:42:48 PM
Most people are low on iron, usually weight doesn't matter. But it doesn't sound like you're eating enough, your body probably needs more food than you're giving it. Maybe try some iron supplements if you don't have a big enough appetite.

Idk, I eat like the Japanese-size portion diet and probably around 1000-2000 calories/day. I'm actually more of a small meals throughout the day kind of eater. Like I'll have coffee and yogurt and some bread in the morning, a light lunch, some fruit and maybe more coffee in the afternoon, a light dinner and some veggie juice or granola bar/nuts or some other snack in the evening.

I've always just felt a bit awkward in American restaurants because they give you so.much.food. I'm definitely a huge fan of sharing plates and letting everyone else eat most of it ;)

Become a vampire and drink the blood from someone with a lot of iron in their blood. Voila. Chicks also seem to dig vampires.

Well, the last time I did this there was some drama after, so nah.

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I'm big on the neck sucking/hickies, but sometimes the next day it can create post-date drama when they have to wear scarves everywhere in the middle of the summer ;_;
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I would also cut out any soda if you can.

That shit is poison.

*sips monster energy drink*

I know, and thanks for the push. Coke is my vice. I've gone completely off soda in the past for like 6 months, and go cold turkey for weeks/months every so often, but I always end up back on Coke with my lunch. I'm a big sugar fan and with coke I get that sweet sugar kick + caffeine energy so it's the perfect pick me up drink and goes well with food. If a place has good non-soda options like good sweet teas or something (like I said I need my sugar) I'll go for that, but usually it's just soda or water and when I'm eating healthy I'll go water but it just sucks with food.

I do drink like 20+ cups of water throughout the day and love water and try to stick to just one soda a day at lunch, but yeah I know soda is terrible for you and maybe one day I'll get the motivation to finally kick it for good and just down sugar packets or something instead :P I literally get low blood sugar really pissy moods if I don't get my sugar, it's my one true addiction.
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 24, 2017, 09:48:05 PM
Just pull a PD for all your iron blood needs.

:yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 24, 2017, 10:21:12 PM
Just pull a PD for all your iron blood needs.

:yeshrug

 :kobeyuck

I'll stick to iron supplements and eating more spinach :)
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Post by: Mupepe on August 25, 2017, 04:01:56 PM
Waiting for the hurricane to hit Texas and decided to have some cookies and milk.  My wife won't let me drink straight from the milk jug, but she is at work so I thought "What the hell!  Bachelor style!" and took a big swig out of it.  I should have smelled it first.  It was chunky and smelled like death.  I will never get that taste out of my mouth and I will probably never drink straight from the jug again.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 25, 2017, 04:14:21 PM
LOL
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Post by: Great Rumbler on August 25, 2017, 04:52:44 PM
Rotten milk is the absolute worst, man, I feel you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 25, 2017, 05:07:43 PM
My milk expired yesterday, literally shaking
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 25, 2017, 06:04:55 PM
Stay safe!
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Post by: skullstorm on August 25, 2017, 06:06:41 PM
I hate the taste of milk, I'll have it with cereal but I'll never ever drink it again. I've hated it since I was a kid but my mom made me drink it every day  :-X :'(

I do drink buttermilk pretty regularly, at least that shit doesn't even pretend to be tasty.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 25, 2017, 06:10:31 PM
Milk tastes pretty different depending on where you live. I hate Japanese milk but really love Norwegian milk.

:yeshrug
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Post by: toku on August 25, 2017, 06:14:48 PM
 :ohhh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 25, 2017, 06:47:57 PM
Milk tastes pretty different depending on where you live. I hate Japanese milk but really love Norwegian milk.

:yeshrug

Dairy racist
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on August 25, 2017, 06:57:09 PM
Milk tastes pretty different depending on where you live. I hate Japanese milk but really love Norwegian milk.

:yeshrug
There's a flirtatious joke in here. But I'm a gentleman
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on August 26, 2017, 02:36:17 AM
I'm depressed like a mother fucker. I'm still without Estrogen. I'm now on month three. I have been E-less since May. My appointment for the doctor to get a new RX is next month on the 27th so it'll have been four months since I had E. Without my hormones, I'm regressing physically. I'm growing my body hair back and I'm going crazy because body hair causes me intense dysphoria. Mentally, I'm not doing too well right now, not only because of physical crap. Without regular hormone use, my sexual arousal has reverted back to pre-hrt state. Essentially, I masturbate once a day minimum now. I can't stop thinking about sex and it's stressing me out. I can't control my body anymore and I feel like a slave to testosterone. I fucking hate testosterone. On homrones, I can go weeks if not months without thinking about sex but can easily flip the switch if I want to. Thank God. It's funny because some Christians tell me that I'm living a sinful life by being trans and having transitioned and being on hormones but the reality is that being off of hormones makes me sin far more. I'm jacking off sometimes two times a day. I'm trying to fuck people. Before, I could control myself and my sexual urges. Now I can't. It's terrible and sinful. I feel disgusting. Now I need to pluck chest hair out of my tits. Fuck testosterone. Please end it. I don't think I can last another month of this masculization. I was told I could take my T-blocker and I'd be safe from the effects and it'll help reverse it again, but it's not happening fast enough! I'm also scared that the damage has been done and now I'm forever masculinized. I will put a bullet through my brain if that happens.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on August 26, 2017, 06:18:08 PM
Some people has suggested me a different anti-androgen. This one is apparently used on men who have prostate cancer. You take a very, very small dose. About a tenth of what a cancer patient would take. Its side effects aren't as wide spread spironolactone and apparently it nukes androgen like none other, besides getting an orchi. Im going to propose that my doc look into it when I go to my appointment next month. In the mean time, I'm going to order it online. It's got so many benefits over spiro.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on August 26, 2017, 07:30:35 PM
You need a hug himu. :(

I'd be very, very careful about taking a medication like that. The people you talked to online may have different tolerances to it due to physiological differences and the prior state of their hormone levels. you've been off hormones for a few months so you need to consider that it could be a big shock to your system.

I'm no doctor or anything of course, I just want you to be as conservative as possible with it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on August 26, 2017, 07:57:47 PM
No, I need a big cry. But I can't cry because testosterone.

(https://media.giphy.com/media/bMPByeN1wNfG0/giphy.gif)

I am angry literally all the time right now. I'm exhausted.

I am going to get the dose that is prescribed to trans women. 150 mg can result in heart failure. 100 mg is the average cancer patient dose. A trans woman should be taking 10-15 mg. Doesn't take much and the medicine is fast acting. It murders body hair so it will kill the body hair I've grown since. I'm researching it so I can order some since the medical establishment has utterly failed me. Time to take it into my own hands and dirty them up a little.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on August 26, 2017, 09:49:41 PM
Just pull a PD for all your iron blood needs.

:yeshrug

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on August 27, 2017, 03:16:36 AM
Houston is insane. My wife has been working at her hospital since Friday morning. An hour ago she messaged me that the 2nd floor is flooding now. I'm stuck at home watching the city underwater on the news and feeling anxious and worried as fuck. We have another huge band of rain hitting the city in a couple of hours.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on August 27, 2017, 03:23:39 AM
Yup. Things are going to get awful. I hope she gets the fuck out soon.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on August 29, 2017, 04:08:52 PM
I have been procrastinating for 3 solid hours for something that has a hard deadline for tomorrow first thing at work.
So now I have about 8 hours left to do 3 hours of work and sleep. Ugh, so dumb.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 29, 2017, 04:14:06 PM
I have been procrastinating for 3 solid hours for something that has a hard deadline for tomorrow first thing at work.
So now I have about 8 hours left to do 3 hours of work and sleep. Ugh, so dumb.

Have you seen this cool website?
http://tvtropes.org/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 29, 2017, 04:16:29 PM
New reply, made you check Reb
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on August 29, 2017, 05:35:32 PM
just spent like four hours trouble shooting shit for others  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on August 29, 2017, 05:49:40 PM
Just paid 500$ for taxes on a license in a state I haven't been in for 2 years
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on August 29, 2017, 06:18:09 PM
I've been tipping my standard 20-30% in Montreal but apparently the standard here is more like 10-15% since their wages aren't deliberately undercut like in America. :/

Well better than undertipping I guess lol.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 29, 2017, 10:27:23 PM
So after about 4-5 days of taking Iron supplements I feel way more alive! Like I'm waking up 2 hours earlier than I normally do and only sleeping like 6 hours and I feel ALERT and have energy throughout the day. It's pretty rad. Like it pretty much cleared up me being on a downer and been feeling good. Even back to working out at night cause I have all this energy whereas I used to be too tired after work to exercise.

I've been tipping my standard 20-30% in Montreal but apparently the standard here is more like 10-15% since their wages aren't deliberately undercut like in America. :/

Well better than undertipping I guess lol.

Yeah, at least you're leaving a good impression!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on August 29, 2017, 11:03:36 PM
Placebo is a hell of a drug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 29, 2017, 11:05:38 PM
Placebo is a hell of a drug

This is the shadiest thing I've seen said all week
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on August 29, 2017, 11:08:17 PM
shrug

things like that take time to start working. glad bebs is feeling better regardless
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on August 31, 2017, 10:44:46 PM
I've come /)(\ close to reaching a breaking point at work.  At this point I fantasize about getting fired.  I would quit but I like seeing the insanity continue to expand at exponential levels on some level.  I'm working on some escape parachutes.  Life is no longer remotely enjoyable.  Just needed to vent.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on August 31, 2017, 10:49:53 PM
How should I handle severe depression? What are my options?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on August 31, 2017, 10:51:22 PM
I've come /)(\ close to reaching a breaking point at work.  At this point I fantasize about getting fired.  I would quit but I like seeing the insanity continue to expand at exponential levels on some level.  I'm working on some escape parachutes.  Life is no longer remotely enjoyable.  Just needed to vent.
I love this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on September 01, 2017, 03:44:37 PM
I'm reeeally struggling with severe neck pain, I got home from school yesterday and today in so much pain I felt like I'm gonna puke and with a horrible ache in my head, especially forehead. Yesterday two painkillers did the trick but today I've taken three and they haven't really helped at all and I puked a little right after drinking coffee and nearly vomited a couple times after all I did was take a few steps.

I have pains this bad pretty regularly and I really can't deal with it much longer. I guess I could go to the doctor but I'd only get prescribed some expensive painkillers or told to go to a physical therapist, and I can't really spend money on either. I think I'm gonna look into some upper back exercises and whatever but every single day in school is so straining on my neck I'm really doubtful any amount of exercise could help. If you shouldn't look down at your phone for several minutes a day since it's so straining on your neck then how fucked am I when everything I do in school (and at work after I've graduated) has to be done looking down  :tocry

I even had pains like these after babysitting my nephew for some hours since he's a baby and always on a lower level than me. I seriously cannot handle any amount of looking down. I wonder if I even have any muscles in my neck area  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 01, 2017, 03:53:16 PM
How should I handle severe depression? What are my options?

It's not a cure but complete preoccupation. You seem to have some healthy habits (martial arts) so I would maybe try to see how you could put more time an energy into that. Everything sucks when you're depressed. Answers sound cliche but I usually find that's exactly when I need to just pour into something else. Even better if it's physically demanding. Slow down turn w/e is into a sacred ritual.



Unrelated. But I def. pulled something or fucked something up in my midsection this week. Stuff, achey. Just gonna beg and hope it's gone by sat night 😭
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on September 01, 2017, 09:37:32 PM
Got into an argument with white people on cultural appropriation
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on September 02, 2017, 02:25:23 AM
The problem with being drunk in social situations is you can only think of how much of a loser who would be better not existing
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on September 02, 2017, 02:30:48 AM
How should I handle severe depression? What are my options?

See a psychiatrist, talk about it and probably get some form of SSRI. Also probably take a vitamin D supplement and maybe consider one of those special lamps. Maybe even look into a therapy/emotional support animal.

Aside from that? I find that keeping a routine helps, as well as having achievable goals both near term and short term. And finding people you can talk to about how you feel and what you're thinking who will listen and provide genuine care and empathy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 02, 2017, 09:13:13 AM
it sucks when you're depressed and you know you're depressed because you're lonely but you have a lifelong habit of pushing people away from you

im so fucked :lol
It's pretty tough to do things you know you should be doing when you're depressed. It just sucks life out of you, and it's so hard to get out of that hole.
But like bluemax (whose post is pretty good advice btw) said: Talk to someone. It doesn't have to be a professional, and it's a great first step.

Also, imo it's important to be open to wanting to actually get better. If you can elimite some negative thoughts and try to have a more positive attitude, it'll help a lot.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 02, 2017, 10:48:01 AM
it sucks when you're depressed and you know you're depressed because you're lonely but you have a lifelong habit of pushing people away from you

im so fucked :lol
Of course I'm not a professional psychiatrist but to me it sounds like you have:
https://psychcentral.com/disorders/avoidant-personality-disorder-symptoms/

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 02, 2017, 11:20:43 AM
I like to drown my sorrows in bad memes. :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 02, 2017, 11:24:28 AM
Don't we all
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on September 02, 2017, 11:46:32 AM


and as for that last bit... i may have some negative thoughts... but i ain't no rahx :doge

dont worry about it rahx, im sure you look stupid no matter what you wear

Yeah thanks for the unnesscary digs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: StealthFan on September 02, 2017, 01:54:43 PM
Aunt walked in front of train. May she find the peace she couldn't find during her life  :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 02, 2017, 02:56:57 PM
Really sorry dude
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 02, 2017, 03:43:19 PM
sorry to hear , thats messed up :(
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Post by: StealthFan on September 02, 2017, 04:29:17 PM
Thanks brehs. It was a super busy intersection too. Dozens of people witnessed it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on September 02, 2017, 04:49:39 PM
Geez, that's rough, man. My condolences to you and your family.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on September 03, 2017, 01:25:01 AM
So sorry to hear that. Please take care.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 03, 2017, 01:51:28 AM
I'll be fine when I'm back on E.

Aunt walked in front of train. May she find the peace she couldn't find during her life  :tocry

:tocry I'm so sorry bro.
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Post by: Oblivion on September 04, 2017, 04:16:25 AM
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 04, 2017, 09:50:54 AM
:dead
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Post by: Oblivion on September 04, 2017, 04:26:46 PM
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Post by: Oblivion on September 04, 2017, 09:05:34 PM
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Post by: Oblivion on September 04, 2017, 09:06:38 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 04, 2017, 09:39:58 PM
don't share nudes whats wrong with y'all
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Post by: Oblivion on September 04, 2017, 11:17:35 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 05, 2017, 06:44:51 AM
:holeup

I guess she's not hideous... but she would look better if she lost a ton of weight, learned how to do her hair, learned how to use make up properly... :doge
Stop. Doing. This.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 05, 2017, 06:54:07 AM
Lol dufus arent you like a virgin
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on September 05, 2017, 09:12:37 AM
Meh, you only got one life to live, who cares :win
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 05, 2017, 10:13:38 PM
Trying to apply for my 'depth oral' i.e. what we call a qualification exam.  Want to shoot my self in the head. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on September 06, 2017, 12:43:30 AM
Incredibly tired of the waiting game in a job prospect situation. Will they, won't they. Constantly checking email.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 06, 2017, 10:42:16 PM
My triumph thread post jinxed my morning, because my daughter tripped in her own shoes outside and smashed her face on the ground so her teeth went through her lips. It hurt my heart so fucking bad, especially because stuff like that bleeds a lot (but it usually looks worse than it is) and also she freaked out when she saw the blood. She's fine now though.. it happened outside the medical clinic on our way to a checkup, so we got it looked at almost right away. Well, anyway her dad was there too walking in front of us and he immediately turned around and said "Omg what did you do?!" to me, putting the blame on me, and actually got mad at me. what the fuck. If I wasn't caught up grabbing her to rush inside I would have ripped his head off for being such a destructive pos.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 06, 2017, 10:56:38 PM
Sorry about your daughter's face.  Hope it gets better.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 07, 2017, 08:47:28 AM
My triumph thread post jinxed my morning, because my daughter tripped in her own shoes outside and smashed her face on the ground so her teeth went through her lips. It hurt my heart so fucking bad, especially because stuff like that bleeds a lot (but it usually looks worse than it is) and also she freaked out when she saw the blood. She's fine now though.. it happened outside the medical clinic on our way to a checkup, so we got it looked at almost right away. Well, anyway her dad was there too walking in front of us and he immediately turned around and said "Omg what did you do?!" to me, putting the blame on me, and actually got mad at me. what the fuck. If I wasn't caught up grabbing her to rush inside I would have ripped his head off for being such a destructive pos.
Aw, poor kid. Should heal pretty fast though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on September 07, 2017, 11:15:59 AM
Ouch. Glad she's doing ok.

Oh and hurricane's a-comin' over here. Stay safe Florida brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 07, 2017, 12:51:48 PM
Poor kid :(  Sorry, Valkyrie

I really hope Irma isn't nearly as bad as they're saying.  Seeing the pics of its impact so far is already nuts
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on September 07, 2017, 02:32:08 PM
Got room in Kansas for all my fellow floridians
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 07, 2017, 04:05:49 PM
Little Drummer Boy was playing earlier today at the bank. What the fuck?
:mindblown

:pacspit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 08, 2017, 04:55:01 AM
Drama! Puppy and wife didnt mesh at all, pup not accepting her leadership. Wife mega stressed, like I haven't seen her before in our years together.

Puppy going back to the farm she came from :(

Really sad, but if my wife is really so down about it (and kind of afraid) then it will never work out.

SAD.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 08, 2017, 06:49:58 AM
Fuck biggots  :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on September 08, 2017, 10:59:53 AM
Little Drummer Boy was playing earlier today at the bank. What the fuck?
:mindblown

:pacspit

this shit is inexcusable
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on September 09, 2017, 11:17:46 AM
Well looks like my family is going to weather the hurricane alright, but that leftward path is going to destroy some of my friends houses in the Tampa area.

Be safe Stoney
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 09, 2017, 11:38:06 AM
Yeah im just outside of the cone in soflo rn, but still gonna be getting cat 2 winds and rain. Everyone's alreading writing off Tampa and the Keys as a loss though. Got a buddy in Tampa but everyone i know/grew up with seems to have evacuated from the keys so thats good.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 09, 2017, 11:43:03 AM
My triumph thread post jinxed my morning, because my daughter tripped in her own shoes outside and smashed her face on the ground so her teeth went through her lips. It hurt my heart so fucking bad, especially because stuff like that bleeds a lot (but it usually looks worse than it is) and also she freaked out when she saw the blood. She's fine now though.. it happened outside the medical clinic on our way to a checkup, so we got it looked at almost right away. Well, anyway her dad was there too walking in front of us and he immediately turned around and said "Omg what did you do?!" to me, putting the blame on me, and actually got mad at me. what the fuck. If I wasn't caught up grabbing her to rush inside I would have ripped his head off for being such a destructive pos.

Sorry to hear about your daughter's fall; sounds like she'll be fine, right? Young kids heal up super fast.

Also, jesus, your ex sounds absolutely horrible. Glad you're getting out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 09, 2017, 01:06:36 PM
Sorry to hear about your daughter's fall; sounds like she'll be fine, right? Young kids heal up super fast.

Also, jesus, your ex sounds absolutely horrible. Glad you're getting out.
Yeah, lips heal very fast too, she's completely fine now!

Also I really don't want to sound like a broken record when complaining about him.. but the fact is I still live here and sometimes have to deal with some shit I'm better off venting about when it makes me feel bad. I know bottling stuff up is really bad so I try to just get it out of the way when I can. But anyway the future is looking bright, and I'm looking forward to whatever it brings. 8)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 09, 2017, 07:18:40 PM
Sorry to hear about your daughter's fall; sounds like she'll be fine, right? Young kids heal up super fast.

Also, jesus, your ex sounds absolutely horrible. Glad you're getting out.
Yeah, lips heal very fast too, she's completely fine now!

Also I really don't want to sound like a broken record when complaining about him.. but the fact is I still live here and sometimes have to deal with some shit I'm better off venting about when it makes me feel bad. I know bottling stuff up is really bad so I try to just get it out of the way when I can. But anyway the future is looking bright, and I'm looking forward to whatever it brings. 8)

bless up
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on September 09, 2017, 09:31:33 PM
I enjoy hearing about your shitty ex-husband, it makes me feel less inadequate.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 09, 2017, 10:21:16 PM
The only way I could possibly understand his reaction is if you've hit your kid in the past, which OBVIOUSLY you haven't. He sounds straight up delusional and weird as fuck.

Dude probably already looking for another chick to torture/neglect mentally.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 10, 2017, 02:58:08 AM
My triumph thread post jinxed my morning, because my daughter tripped in her own shoes outside and smashed her face on the ground so her teeth went through her lips. It hurt my heart so fucking bad, especially because stuff like that bleeds a lot (but it usually looks worse than it is) and also she freaked out when she saw the blood. She's fine now though.. it happened outside the medical clinic on our way to a checkup, so we got it looked at almost right away. Well, anyway her dad was there too walking in front of us and he immediately turned around and said "Omg what did you do?!" to me, putting the blame on me, and actually got mad at me. what the fuck. If I wasn't caught up grabbing her to rush inside I would have ripped his head off for being such a destructive pos.

Jesus, sorry to hear that. Has got to be frightening in the moment.

Glad to hear things turned out ok with your daughter. Not much to say about your ex other than he fucking sucks and good riddance.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 10, 2017, 11:26:22 PM
Male sex drive is back 😩 Please, please let the suffering end! Just a few more weeks!

My triumph thread post jinxed my morning, because my daughter tripped in her own shoes outside and smashed her face on the ground so her teeth went through her lips. It hurt my heart so fucking bad, especially because stuff like that bleeds a lot (but it usually looks worse than it is) and also she freaked out when she saw the blood. She's fine now though.. it happened outside the medical clinic on our way to a checkup, so we got it looked at almost right away. Well, anyway her dad was there too walking in front of us and he immediately turned around and said "Omg what did you do?!" to me, putting the blame on me, and actually got mad at me. what the fuck. If I wasn't caught up grabbing her to rush inside I would have ripped his head off for being such a destructive pos.

Poor baby!!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 11, 2017, 08:39:20 PM
Male sex drive :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 11, 2017, 08:44:30 PM
:rejoice female sex drive :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 11, 2017, 08:48:02 PM
 :rejoice :rejoice Gender neutral sex cars :rejoice :rejoice

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Post by: chronovore on September 11, 2017, 10:42:00 PM
:rejoice :rejoice Gender neutral sex cars :rejoice :rejoice

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How's your oral practice going? You ready for the big day where you inevitably suck?

You seem overly eager.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 11, 2017, 11:15:38 PM
:rejoice :rejoice Gender neutral sex cars :rejoice :rejoice

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How's your oral practice going? You ready for the big day where you inevitably suck?

We'll see Friday, won't we. 
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Post by: Valkyrie on September 12, 2017, 12:09:53 AM
:rejoice female sex drive :rejoice
"Female sex drive"

lmao. pls
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 12:30:49 AM
:rejoice female sex drive :rejoice
"Female sex drive"

lmao. pls

What
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 12, 2017, 12:55:44 AM
:rejoice female sex drive :rejoice
"Female sex drive"

lmao. pls

What
Please stop trying to divide libido into gender. Women are horny monsters too and often struggle with the same issues males do, like excessive masturbation and sex deprivation. It's just that a lot of women take birth control which tends to lower their sex drive a lot (even then it doesn't always happen).  Naturally, humans are all monsters. Also I think women might seem less horny to some because they're more okay with skipping sex a lot of the time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 01:14:29 AM
I'm not dividing it by gender but by hormone. I'm generalizing but it is my experience. The only way I know how to describe it is male sex drive and female sex drive. That isn't to say some women don't like sex or don't like masturbation. Again, I know it's a generalization it it's the only way I know how to articulate the difference and the cis women I've talked to agreed with me. :yeshrug sorry it offended you but that wasn't my goal, nor did I ever suggest that women are sex-less or without sexuality.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 01:25:42 AM
Well not to be a mega dick (haha) himu baby but that can be the difference between identifying as a woman and being a woman by birth.

You are artificially surpressing your one drive now with hormones but you dont't replace it with a females drive to be a mother because you simply dont have ovaries.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 12, 2017, 01:25:49 AM
Oh okay, fair enough. I wasn't offended, just wanted to say what I meant on the matter since you kept repeating it and I thought it wasn't fair to males to be made out to be "much worse" than females.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 01:28:28 AM
They shouldn't feel that way. They're cis and I'm not censoring my opinion nor my experience. Maybe it's the way I am articulating it. I don't mind if a guy acts that way to me at least. But when it comes to myself it makes me want to be castrated.

So sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 01:51:28 AM
Well not to be a mega dick (haha) himu baby but that can be the difference between identifying as a woman and being a woman by birth.

You are artificially surpressing your one drive now with hormones but you dont't replace it with a females drive to be a mother because you simply dont have ovaries.

Wrong. I am not suppressing it. I'm replacing it. I don't have ovaries. You're right. Ovaries make E. I take synthetic E. So no, I'm not "suppressing my one drive". You suppress T, then replace with E. So ovaries aren't even relevant to this subject. It's all about hormones. If you're interested in an description  the difference and we can see what you think. :idont
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 02:09:56 AM
I honestly don't know what to tell you because as always you read something and just "know" you are right.

If you think that by taking some hormones and stuff you are the same as a woman by birth then fine.

The ovaries comment was not meant to be a scientific debate about ovaries specifically just about the whole package Himu.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 02:20:48 AM
Yes, I "read" about the change in my own actual sexuality and sex drive. Are you really going to get into it with me about the science of being transgender and medical transition?

Fuck off, cunt.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 03:03:26 AM
Anyways, I feel the need to clarify because Valkyrie didn't take my posts well and no one knows what I'm talking about.

I readwrote this elsewhere. I hope it is informative.

"Let's talk about sex drives.

I hate to stereotype but it's the only way I know how to communicate this. Off of hormones, with T as the main hormone, I have a sharp urge for "release". I call this male sex drive. The sexual urge to want to come is constant. If I see someone I'm attracted to I'm obsessed with it until I get my need for release satisfied. Either this starts a chase to try and have sex with them or it ends with me masturbating. Since I'm off of E and was off anti-androgen, since I've been on both for years with T suppressed at cis woman levels, being without hormones caused a spike in T. Last month this resulted in me masturbating four times in a day once. It is awful, dysphoric, and utterly disgusting to me. It makes me want to remove my penis yesterday. I feel like a slave to my body. I'm enticed to come even if I don't want to because my body (hormones) demands release. Every time it happens I end up crying after.

On estrogen with blocked T, we have what I like to call - and I hope this does not offend - female sex drive. In that I'll get horny after checking out a guys muscles, or his cute smile, or his swagger or whatever. There's no guarantee that I want to fuck him but I'll definitely be turned on. But here's the thing, unlike male sex drive, I can appreciate it and then let it go. It doesn't rule my thoughts and the sex drive is no longer about release. Yet at the same time, if I truly want to I can control my sexual urges when turned on to become far more powerful than any male sex urge I've ever had. I tend to get horny less frequently on E, but when I do it can be more powerful than off hrt without controlling my life. The great thing about it is that it's not even necessarily about release, or cumming, like with testosterone. I can get an ice cube from the freezer and play with my nipples. It'll feel really, really good and then I can put it up any time I want.

I feel like a slave to my body off hormones.

What is your experience with your sex drive?"

Hopefully it's informative. And Lager's still a fucking cunt.

TLDR: T is poison; Lager is cunt.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 04:57:06 AM
Lager is cunt for what?  :lol

You really can't say anything to you Himu without you getting all worked up jesus.


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 05:16:22 AM
Remember to ask for forgiveness in church for calling someone a cunt.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 10:17:49 AM
Lager is cunt for what?  :lol

You really can't say anything to you Himu without you getting all worked up jesus.

Let's take a step back, fuck breath.

1. I talk about struggle with body dysphoria in the struggle thread.

2. You, a cis fuck, gives incorrect information and has no idea what the fuck he's talking about. "You are only suppressing your natural drive." :confused You literally have no idea what you're talking about.

3. I explain in very candid and respectful manner, that the nature of this is not suppression, but replacement. I offer to explain what I mean and my own personal experience.

4. You instead insult me and tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about. "I don't know what to say to you." You tell me that I get this based on information I've read despite the name of the treatment literally being called hormone replacement therapy, something I have taken for three years, and my own personal experience.

Please roll the tape back and tell me in concrete terms why you are not only a dumbass but also a fucking a cunt?

And nice low hanging fruit with the religion thing. Dumbass.

Jesus Christ I think you might be distinguished mentally-challenged.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 10:24:12 AM
I also read something

Quote
But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right. cheek, turn to him the other also.

Matthew 5:39

Quote
Thou shalt not take the name of the LORD thy God in vain

Exodus 20:7

How do you reconcile your behaviour with your faith?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 10:26:06 AM
Because I'm a human and a flawed person and you have no idea what you're talking about and now you're resorting to this because you're fucking dumb.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 10:27:05 AM
ps: you were talking about women sex drive, but you are transgender and I just pointed out its not the same

sorry for a reality check
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 10:29:10 AM
Estrogen is a hormone. Hormones relegate sex drive. Shit is the same.

Back your "reality check" with science, please.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 12, 2017, 10:29:44 AM
In other news: I hate my fucking job and I just want to become a NEET at this point...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 10:30:11 AM
also so sorry for thinking i can quote some basic principles of your religion that you claim to follow but actually ignore when it suits you
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 10:30:51 AM
Estrogen is a hormone. Hormones relegate sex drive. Shit is the same.

Back your "reality check" with science, please.

fetishism of science  :maf

or is this the good science?

its hard to follow now
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 10:34:46 AM
Estrogen is a hormone. Hormones relegate sex drive. Shit is the same.

Back your "reality check" with science, please.

yes sex drive is all down to hormones, psychological reasons like beinh brought up a specific gender with specific values have no influence

also we know everything now about difference between the sexes and the complexities of it

case closed , wrap it up science! human brain has been mapped
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: FatalT on September 12, 2017, 10:35:54 AM
I typed something up but fuck it, this is a petty ass feud you two are having over some nothing burgers. Lager, you're generalizing all of Christianity. Himu, you're generalizing all of the female gender's libido and sexuality.

Y'all chill.  :jeanluc
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 12, 2017, 10:38:11 AM
In other news: I hate my fucking job and I just want to become a NEET at this point...

You seem too fidgety to do that. And the NEET community wouldn't accept you since you've not only had sex, but had sex with a MINORITY.

You're trapped in Adult Land. Where at least the coffee is free.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 10:40:16 AM
Quick google search.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/all-about-sex/201501/libido-conversing-what-transsexuals-can-teach-heteros

Oh whoops.

Getting on thin ice, dunce.

http://www.apa.org/monitor/2011/03/hormones.aspx

But whu-ohhhh. Lager is definitely in the special class now!

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3030621/

We're getting warmer!

https://academic.oup.com/jcem/article/85/5/2034/2660626/Male-to-Female-Transsexuals-Have-Female-Neuron

http://sitn.hms.harvard.edu/flash/2016/gender-lines-science-transgender-identity/

:whew

We done here.

Oh wait, it doesn't count. It's just stuff I read.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: FatalT on September 12, 2017, 10:44:23 AM
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/all-about-sex/201501/libido-conversing-what-transsexuals-can-teach-heteros

This article is basically the American Dad episode where Stan turns into a woman and I can't get it out of my head now.

https://youtu.be/01IjSB4506o

The human brain is complex and science doesn't fully understand it yet, which is why all these studies and articles are being made in the first place. Replacing Testosterone with Estrogen and replacing Estrogen with Testosterone are definitely helping discover new things about the human brain though, that's for sure. Just keep in mind each and every brain is different and hormones are going to affect people differently. Whether it's a lack of Testosterone that causes some men to have a low sex drive or some other mental deficiency is yet to be truly known. The same goes with women who have high sex drives. Do they have an increase in Testosterone or is it some other factor? I'm sure there's studies out there that are trying to figure these questions out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 10:48:52 AM
I wonder how many days in purgatory you will get for breaking one of the ten commandments

talk about getting warmer
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: FatalT on September 12, 2017, 10:53:40 AM
I wonder how many days in purgatory you will get for breaking one of the ten commandments

talk about getting warmer

I hate both of you. Himu for the 5 articles that were probably just Googled like "How Hormones Affect Transgender Sexual Libidos" and you, Lager, for the five-second Googling of two passages from the bible and then the blatantly obvious bait trolling that Himu can't stop responding to.

I admit, I did laugh at "breaking one of the ten commandments" and "talk about getting warmer" though. Bastard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 12, 2017, 10:53:55 AM
I wonder how many days in purgatory you will get for breaking one of the ten commandments

talk about getting warmer

For the record, whether you're right or not, you're still a giant asshole.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 11:02:41 AM
sorry I dont play along with whatever himu thinks this week
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 01:38:13 PM
Please quantify how gender dysphoria is something I just happen to "think" this week? Are you telling me what's going on in my head or life?

I know what I said was a generalization and even held that up. But my sexuality and sexual drive are completely different on and off hormones. It is not a matter of suppression. It is a completely different sex drive with completely different feel. I don't care if that offends you, I'm writing my experience and the only way, as I said before, I know how to communicate it is by dividing it by hormone type. Men typically operate on T, women typically operate on E. Some women have high sex drives, some men have low sex drives. But the generalization sticks. But rather than support and try to understand my perspective you went into bullshit that's not even relevant much less what you're remotely knowledgeable about just to tell how I'm not a woman.

Then you insult me and my religion while using a Get Out Jail Free card despite knowingly insulting and baiting me like a jackass.

You're just an asshole. I'll pray for your family.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/all-about-sex/201501/libido-conversing-what-transsexuals-can-teach-heteros

This article is basically the American Dad episode where Stan turns into a woman and I can't get it out of my head now.

https://youtu.be/01IjSB4506o

The human brain is complex and science doesn't fully understand it yet, which is why all these studies and articles are being made in the first place. Replacing Testosterone with Estrogen and replacing Estrogen with Testosterone are definitely helping discover new things about the human brain though, that's for sure. Just keep in mind each and every brain is different and hormones are going to affect people differently. Whether it's a lack of Testosterone that causes some men to have a low sex drive or some other mental deficiency is yet to be truly known. The same goes with women who have high sex drives. Do they have an increase in Testosterone or is it some other factor? I'm sure there's studies out there that are trying to figure these questions out.

I wonder how many days in purgatory you will get for breaking one of the ten commandments

talk about getting warmer

I hate both of you. Himu for the 5 articles that were probably just Googled like "How Hormones Affect Transgender Sexual Libidos" and you, Lager, for the five-second Googling of two passages from the bible and then the blatantly obvious bait trolling that Himu can't stop responding to.

I admit, I did laugh at "breaking one of the ten commandments" and "talk about getting warmer" though. Bastard.

The overall point is that hormones impacts sex drive and sexuality. This is scientific fact. Whether or not you want to argue that what I experience is "true" female sex drive or not, what Lager claimed "it is a suppression of your natural sex drive" is false. The human brain is complex, but we also know that hormones are among the main drivers of things like mood and sex drive. I don't see how that's controversial to say and Lager has much less backing him up. The reason he insists on quoting bible quotes proves this. And no, it was a 20 second Google search divided between "transgender sex drive" and "hormones impact on sex drive". The second of which makes up the bulk of the links and are made in academic scientific reports which also include results from cross sex hormone therapy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 02:32:43 PM
I pray for your family lmao :lol

I never said your experience isnt valid, just gave you my opinion, which I stand by, it wasnt a jibe at you not being a woman by birth.

My problem with you is not your gender or your faith, its your constant flip flopping and finding new truths.

If you think that makes me an asshole I'm totally fine with that :)

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 02:57:29 PM
What does flip flopping have anything to do with a subject I've dealt with for years? It's not even remotely relevant to the discussion. Which is why you're a cunt. Nothing I've articulated on this page is "flip floppy" or anything, just my own personal experience and psychological duress to want to be castrated. I'm putting you on ignore. Do not ever contact me ever again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 12, 2017, 03:15:50 PM
(https://68.media.tumblr.com/14de1541b79210d6d6688eda05eeefac/tumblr_nunsp4tden1ueqjtbo1_400.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on September 12, 2017, 03:59:28 PM
no, seriously, you're being a huge asshole for no reason. trying to equate political or religious changes over time with the slow process of transitioning and giving himu shit over it is a real disgusting thing to do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 12, 2017, 05:11:54 PM
I'm sorry for bringing up my dysphoria here. No one understands and I'm sure it makes a lot of people uncomfortable. I'll try to keep it to myself and not talk about trans stuff here. Less than a month until I'm back on hormones and then grouchy me will finally melt away. :hyper

(https://i.imgur.com/cknHu0X.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 12, 2017, 06:34:58 PM
Nah, feel free to keep posting. Personally I don't reply much to your stuff because I have no idea what to say, but I hope things improve and should never feel like you need to censor yourself here. You're OG bore, you're always welcome to vent your struggles here no matter what's going on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 12, 2017, 06:39:16 PM
Hang in there Himu. We love you. Well, at least I do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 13, 2017, 12:24:43 AM
Sure Im the bad guy after saying one thing then being called a cunt  :lol

Never said anything bad about your transitioning either but whatevs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 13, 2017, 02:35:14 AM
I was on the verge of going outside in my underwear and chucking a cinder block through the wind shield of a car some jack ass was revving around 2 am for about 10 or 15 minutes straight.  :maf

And now I can't fall asleep. Thanks shit for brains. Your mother should've swallowed you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on September 13, 2017, 12:18:27 PM
I was on the verge of going outside in my underwear and chucking a cinder block through the wind shield of a car some jack ass was revving around 2 am for about 10 or 15 minutes straight.  :maf

And now I can't fall asleep. Thanks shit for brains. Your mother should've swallowed you.

I live right next to a gas station and have to deal with dickheads like that all the time, why the fuck can't people fill their tanks at night without being massive noisy shits on purpose  :maf :maf :punch
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 13, 2017, 12:53:31 PM
A bunch of engineers were trying to convince me that a timeshare was a great idea because it was a free vacation  When I asked them about the payment they made every month for it they old me it was for the property that they own through the timeshare and that the vacation was free because they own the property  :doge

I'm rethinking my future career as an engineer now. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 13, 2017, 12:54:45 PM
Lol timeshares are the worst
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 13, 2017, 12:58:34 PM
Yeah I got sucked into a pitch for one on vacation last year and I can't understand how anyone would look at it and think it makes financial sense.  The conversation actually started because they were talking about the same city I went to for vacation last year and then one of them brought up the timeshare they own there. :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 13, 2017, 01:12:22 PM
"own"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 13, 2017, 01:14:44 PM
There are legal groups set up just to get people out of time shares. They're such a bad deal that people are making money getting people out of them
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 13, 2017, 05:54:09 PM
I watched this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwxRtpkRehU&feature=youtu.be
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 13, 2017, 06:00:52 PM
What exactly needs cleaning there that you would use a knife for?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 13, 2017, 07:43:33 PM
Sometimes I srcub my face to feel fresh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 13, 2017, 07:44:12 PM
I stayed in bed most of the day and slept but was feeling mostly positive. I sent a request to my doctor to please look into the AA biculatamide while expressing a need for hormones since I've been off them for four months and face heavy withdrawal symptoms. I get an email saying the doctor hasn't seen me in a few years (this is the doc that originally prescribed me hormones) and because of that I'll need labs before I'm given a new rx. This appointment has kept me going all month and it was so close. I've now lost hope. I thought it would be over. 4 months without hormones will now turn into 5. After that I mentally shut down because that means at least another month of torture. Then I went to the store and had a anxiety attack thinking about dealing with this for another month. Got home and I'm not sure if I'll be eating tonight. I'm too anxious/depressed to get out of bed. I'd rather starve.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 13, 2017, 07:44:53 PM
Also semen.  Never bukakki before bed kids. 

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 13, 2017, 08:12:45 PM
Sometimes I srcub my face to feel fresh

i put rubbing alcohol behind my ears sometimes to "refresh" myself
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 13, 2017, 08:14:46 PM
Lol timeshares are the worst

They are, right? My mom and stepdad had like four or five of them, couldn't use them consistently, offered the time to my sister… In the end, I think she paid an exorbitant amount of money to get out of the contract. Two companies, actually, worked on it. The first one didn't guarantee getting her out, and it didn't.

Another friend just quit paying the monthly fee, and assumed it was some kind of forfeit. I'd think that'd wreck their credit, but it worked out for them.

The kicker was, even with the "sale" of the timeshare closing, the management firm offered to give her another two weeks at a sharp discount… and SHE TOOK IT. Then she gave it to my sister.

There's so much WTF going on, that I don't know WTF is going on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 13, 2017, 08:29:18 PM
Sure Im the bad guy after saying one thing then being called a cunt  :lol

Never said anything bad about your transitioning either but whatevs.

Lager, I'm going to wade in here and be popular with NO-ONE, because I'm well on my way to being the embarrassingly out-of-touch grandpa who says politically insensitive shit at the restaurant when he's out with his family, because he hasn't managed to keep up with trending acceptable social behavior. My grandparents talked about how the latinos were all criminals. In a normal speaking voice. AT A MEXICAN RESTAURANT. Jesus. I'm seriously worried I'll be that same guy in 20 years, saying "There was a time when people couldn't marry their chatbot moe hug-pillows," and people will give me the side-eye.

Here's the deal: We're all free to say whatever we want here, and suffer the repercussions from it. Not banning, but being ostracized and called out are part of that. Your comments involved birth sex and gender, and as a cis white male, they come off as insensitive and socially inappropriate in this board's culture. You have an opinion, I suspect it's not the result of experience or even a good amount of research. QoI has been living it, and I can't imagine it has been easy.

However, Queen has a long history of impassioned, strongly held, sometimes ill-informed, and ultimately brief opinions. If you're doubting the longevity of her vehemence, generally I'd have your back. Initially I thought her transitioning was a phase. I thought she'd change her mind. She didn't, and she's clearly suffering when thwarted from sticking with her transition program.

Let me put it another way: When a friend of mine got his wife pregnant, he said, "Hey, now I'm a Dad, too!" I felt like a dick, but I told him, "Not yet, you're not. You've got a few months ahead of you of peace and quiet. When your kid is born, you'll be a dad, don't rush things."

The friend was seriously pissed off that I was diminishing his role or stature or whatever. Then his kid was born, and he came back and said, "You were right. I was really angry at the time, but you were really fucking right." As a dad, I'm sure you also understand this example.

Queen is going through shit most of us can't fully grasp. Assuming that we know what it's like is a mistake.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 13, 2017, 08:50:54 PM
nevermind
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 13, 2017, 10:46:33 PM
Great episode

https://youtu.be/YB1NCuvYPpM
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 14, 2017, 08:50:34 AM
Sure Im the bad guy after saying one thing then being called a cunt  :lol

Never said anything bad about your transitioning either but whatevs.

Lager, I'm going to wade in here and be popular with NO-ONE, because I'm well on my way to being the embarrassingly out-of-touch grandpa who says politically insensitive shit at the restaurant when he's out with his family, because he hasn't managed to keep up with trending acceptable social behavior. My grandparents talked about how the latinos were all criminals. In a normal speaking voice. AT A MEXICAN RESTAURANT. Jesus. I'm seriously worried I'll be that same guy in 20 years, saying "There was a time when people couldn't marry their chatbot moe hug-pillows," and people will give me the side-eye.

Here's the deal: We're all free to say whatever we want here, and suffer the repercussions from it. Not banning, but being ostracized and called out are part of that. Your comments involved birth sex and gender, and as a cis white male, they come off as insensitive and socially inappropriate in this board's culture. You have an opinion, I suspect it's not the result of experience or even a good amount of research. QoI has been living it, and I can't imagine it has been easy.

However, Queen has a long history of impassioned, strongly held, sometimes ill-informed, and ultimately brief opinions. If you're doubting the longevity of her vehemence, generally I'd have your back. Initially I thought her transitioning was a phase. I thought she'd change her mind. She didn't, and she's clearly suffering when thwarted from sticking with her transition program.

Let me put it another way: When a friend of mine got his wife pregnant, he said, "Hey, now I'm a Dad, too!" I felt like a dick, but I told him, "Not yet, you're not. You've got a few months ahead of you of peace and quiet. When your kid is born, you'll be a dad, don't rush things."

The friend was seriously pissed off that I was diminishing his role or stature or whatever. Then his kid was born, and he came back and said, "You were right. I was really angry at the time, but you were really fucking right." As a dad, I'm sure you also understand this example.

Queen is going through shit most of us can't fully grasp. Assuming that we know what it's like is a mistake.

Fair enough. I don't know what Himu is going through. I don't doubt the transition is just another phase, it seems legit and long term of course and I never made fun of it. In fact i hope it all works out perfectly as I have said on numerous occasions.

I don't assume I know how Himu feels though, I just state my opinion, and I didn't know that I was so privileged I am not entitled to state it without being attacked, even if the opinion may seem provocative, but seen in a normal light outside of the microcosm of the bore saying that being woman by birth or by choice is a huge fucking difference is not controversial AT ALL.

TBF this is always the case on the Bore for me so I'm used to it after almost a decade now ( I guess its almost a self fulfilling prophecy now? since nothing I say ever changes it) . First I was considered a racist, then a pedo supporter and now apparently the new thing is cis privileged white male gamergater (sony fanboy ofc as well and prob gay basher).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on September 14, 2017, 10:35:51 AM
if different people, over a long period of time, continue to attribute negative adjectives to your character... maybe that speaks more about you than seem to realize.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on September 14, 2017, 10:57:37 AM

Let's take a step back, fuck breath.


Apropos of nothing please put this in the newsfeed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 14, 2017, 10:58:07 AM
deep

lot of these people seem to be losers irl, maybe something to think about
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: mormapope on September 14, 2017, 02:42:09 PM
I've had a really rough year emotionally and mentally. Been having constant suicidal thoughts, thinking sad or terrible shit constantly. Been crying every other day just about. Weed and other drugs help a lot less than they used too.

Been depending on my best friend, tell her how I'm feeling constantly. I love her so much, that dependency makes me feel guilty and selfish as fuck. Feel like if I don't have her in my life, I'd kill myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 14, 2017, 02:47:10 PM
Almost had my depth oral cancelled this morning - Still tomorrow just moved up a half hour.  Anxiety is killing me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 14, 2017, 03:02:08 PM
I've had a really rough year emotionally and mentally. Been having constant suicidal thoughts, thinking sad or terrible shit constantly. Been crying every other day just about. Weed and other drugs help a lot less than they used too.

Been depending on my best friend, tell her how I'm feeling constantly. I love her so much, that dependency makes me feel guilty and selfish as fuck. Feel like if I don't have her in my life, I'd kill myself.

What's going on? :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 14, 2017, 03:12:47 PM
Sending love, mormapope
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: FatalT on September 14, 2017, 04:05:06 PM
deep

lot of these people seem to be losers irl, maybe something to think about


Who are the "lot of these people" you're talking about?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on September 14, 2017, 04:20:34 PM
My best friend/brother is going to be deployed to Iraq. I don't know the current situation in Iraq. While I'm sure it's no picnic and is still an active war zone, I don't think it's as dangerous as it was in the early years of the war. Or rather I sure hope it is'nt.

He's going to be there for 6 months.

It does suck because even though he's been in the Air Force for a couple of years we pretty much talk every day and he's a constant in my life. So I hope nothing bad happens to him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 14, 2017, 04:24:24 PM
I'll pray for him, Rah. You too, Morma.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: demi on September 14, 2017, 04:25:45 PM
I've had a really rough year emotionally and mentally. Been having constant suicidal thoughts, thinking sad or terrible shit constantly. Been crying every other day just about. Weed and other drugs help a lot less than they used too.

Been depending on my best friend, tell her how I'm feeling constantly. I love her so much, that dependency makes me feel guilty and selfish as fuck. Feel like if I don't have her in my life, I'd kill myself.

Send nudes and cheer me up instead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 16, 2017, 05:40:16 AM
Fair enough. I don't know what Himu is going through. I don't doubt the transition is just another phase, it seems legit and long term of course and I never made fun of it. In fact i hope it all works out perfectly as I have said on numerous occasions.

I don't assume I know how Himu feels though, I just state my opinion, and I didn't know that I was so privileged I am not entitled to state it without being attacked, even if the opinion may seem provocative, but seen in a normal light outside of the microcosm of the bore saying that being woman by birth or by choice is a huge fucking difference is not controversial AT ALL.

TBF this is always the case on the Bore for me so I'm used to it after almost a decade now ( I guess its almost a self fulfilling prophecy now? since nothing I say ever changes it) . First I was considered a racist, then a pedo supporter and now apparently the new thing is cis privileged white male gamergater (sony fanboy ofc as well and prob gay basher).

"Attacked"… Dude, from some perspectives, just dismissing QoI's struggle is considered an attack. You made a statement or three about someone else's experience, they strongly rebutted you, who the fuck cares?

I think you're a cheerful and generally honest guy who says what he thinks, and I'd happily grab a beer with you any day.

At the same time, you're also fond of trying to tickle the ass-hairs of some of the other bore members, and then acting shocked when there's a reaction. Again, you're on the bore, don't pretend to be surprised at an environment you've been navigating for ten years.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 16, 2017, 05:42:55 AM
I've had a really rough year emotionally and mentally. Been having constant suicidal thoughts, thinking sad or terrible shit constantly. Been crying every other day just about. Weed and other drugs help a lot less than they used too.

Been depending on my best friend, tell her how I'm feeling constantly. I love her so much, that dependency makes me feel guilty and selfish as fuck. Feel like if I don't have her in my life, I'd kill myself.

Dude, get professional help and stop trying to self-medicate!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 16, 2017, 10:47:06 AM
I'm going to be honest, Lager.

You told me I was just suppressing my "natural" sex drive. I disagreed, corrected you, and told you that it did a complete change. I offered making an explanation. You didn't care about that perspective suggesting I was faking and I didn't know what I was talking about. That this was something I read about as opposed to what happened to my actual body. It was really disrespectful and I'm still utterly disappointed you said it. It really hurt my feelings. I decided to post what I wrote previously on the subject to hopefully curate empathy or understanding in you. You ignored that entire post. Then when I got mad, which is pretty reasonable given what you said to me, you decided to disrespect me and my religion. It was immature and again, just added fuel to fire. Your views were fine so long as you were able to present it in a respectful manner. But the second you were completely dismissive to the point where you argued it was something I just read about, even though my current plight makes me want to be castrated, was when I blew up. From my perspective you attacked me first. But more than that, you didn't care to learn or read about my perspective. At all. While insulting me at the same time. And that's why you are on ignore along with Jaydubya.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 16, 2017, 11:48:45 PM
The group of owners/investors of the small business I am a part of want to downsize our staff since we haven't been hitting the numbers we need to and summer/early fall is a really tough time for our industry. They want us to be closed for two days of the week, when we were open seven days a week before. This will make scheduling much easier, but I have to lay off five people from our team. Feels bad man. It's never fun firing someone, even when they deserve it. But when they don't it's so much worse. Fucking with people's livelihood feels terrible. That and there's looming uncertainty heading over all of our heads. If we don't do well this winter the whole thing will probably be closed down, and I might be in search of a job.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 16, 2017, 11:49:41 PM
Also, good luck in all your personal struggles, y'all. We'll all make it, hopefully. My first time venturing into this thread, I'm trying to branch out a bit besides just the GAF one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on September 17, 2017, 06:29:54 PM
I hate my job so much that I believe it is starting to get in the way of my work performance.  Since that bothers me more than the shitty job itself, I need to rectify this and finally just find an exit strategy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 18, 2017, 02:49:45 AM
Current status: disassociative

Tonight I looked in the mirror at work expecting to see woman I used to see before all of this started. I didn't. I didn't know who the person was, and had to stop myself from crying while at work. But I stayed strong and made it home ok. I will definitely be crying myself to sleep tonight. Oh wait, even that's hard because of no E.

(https://i.imgur.com/L0t5bTG.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 18, 2017, 03:07:50 AM
If its worth anything Himu, sorry for hurting your feelings. I was way too grumpy and should have been more considerate, even if we differ on opinions I should have backed off.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 18, 2017, 03:10:18 AM
The work situation has been really weighing on me today. Had to say goodbye to two employees that have been with us for about a year. Had to mentally say good bye to two others who won't know they got laid off till tomorrow when the HR director calls them. Spent a lot of time talking to other guys who were in the trenches with me since the beginning that are feeling that our dream is about to come to an end.

Was listening to some songs on my commute back home and some emotional cord got pulled in me and I a few tears came out of my eyes. It's probably been years since I've cried, since emotional numbness is my usual state. Fuck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 21, 2017, 10:56:24 PM
(http://i0.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/facebook/001/166/378/b48.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 25, 2017, 06:19:59 AM
I think I’m dying. Beenn having chest pains the past week. I don’t think it’s heartburn. Tonight a new wrinkle was added and I’m likenot getting enough air in each breath, forcing me to manually breathe and I can’t fall asleep like like. Going to the doctor if tomorrow night is as bad as this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on September 25, 2017, 09:25:26 AM
I think I’m dying. Beenn having chest pains the past week. I don’t think it’s heartburn. Tonight a new wrinkle was added and I’m likenot getting enough air in each breath, forcing me to manually breathe and I can’t fall asleep like like. Going to the doctor if tomorrow night is as bad as this.

I told you to use a dental dam with that homeless woman.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on September 25, 2017, 12:52:42 PM
I bet Xanax will cure all of that.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 26, 2017, 03:10:11 PM
10 days ago I started itching like crazy at night, ended up not sleeping a few days in a row (like at all). Went to doctor and he notices yellow eyes. So been in the hospital for the last week now with some kind of liver and gallbladder infection that they can't figure out. Probably had fucking 50 blood tests done at this point and still nothing. Had full body scan that luckily showed no cancer, which I was scared shitless about. Tomorrow I need a liver biopsy... and well, that scared me like crazy as well. I never had anything done like that. :fbm

At least they let me out of the hospital for the day, which is nice. But this itching while having gotten slightly better, is still fucking horrible. I scratch my hands and especially feet to the point where they bleed in my sleep, if I dont get knocked out my sleeping meds. Something about gall bladder exporting its salts and shit (i dont know) through my skin instead of normal means. The meds I have can take some time to work for it they say.

Positive part is everyone seemed really fucking competent so far, especially the first doctor I went to nailed that shit instantly, and has kept personal contact with me through text messages. But man, I am so fucking scared. Everything they have possibly thought it might have been so far, has turned out to be false.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 26, 2017, 07:00:18 PM
Hope you're OK dude.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 26, 2017, 07:48:17 PM
Tomorrow I need a liver biopsy... and well, that scared me like crazy as well. I never had anything done like that. :fbm


Most likely they'll just poke you with a small needle. Nothing to worry about.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 26, 2017, 08:43:01 PM
Good grief, Gilhaney. Hope you have answers and feel better soon.

Are you still living in Asia? I'm happy to hear your doctors have been on the ball.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on September 26, 2017, 09:03:33 PM
Twitter extended the character limit to 280  :snoop
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 27, 2017, 03:36:26 AM
Twitter extended the character limit to 280  :snoop
Why the fuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 27, 2017, 04:02:40 AM
Trump won. Bigly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 27, 2017, 05:46:44 AM
Boss told me to make less jokes  :lol :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 27, 2017, 06:58:27 AM
The work situation has been really weighing on me today. Had to say goodbye to two employees that have been with us for about a year. Had to mentally say good bye to two others who won't know they got laid off till tomorrow when the HR director calls them. Spent a lot of time talking to other guys who were in the trenches with me since the beginning that are feeling that our dream is about to come to an end.

Was listening to some songs on my commute back home and some emotional cord got pulled in me and I a few tears came out of my eyes. It's probably been years since I've cried, since emotional numbness is my usual state. Fuck.

Yeah it's a bit sad when a good workplace unravels like that. AFAIK it's fairly rare the mood ever get fixed once it's broken.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on September 27, 2017, 12:30:44 PM
Yeah it's a bit sad when a good workplace unravels like that. AFAIK it's fairly rare the mood ever get fixed once it's broken.

I can attest to that. A year or two ago if you’d asked me I’d have told I’d never leave my current position. It was basically hanging around with friends all day while making awesome things. Flash forward a few months and almost everyone that made it what it was is gone and I’m beginning a very long job search with some serious mishaps along the way.

What really sucks is all of this was completely avoidable. The owner of the company (20-30 people) had a midlife crisis, fucked a 20 y/o on one of many extravagant “business trips” (read: vacations, golf outings with celebrity clients that we did work for for free to get “in”) while his wife was preggers, left the company in the charge of the most inept people I’ve ever worked with leading to many lucrative clients leaving and several late paychecks, then paid for a box at the Super Bowl for his friends and some Trump inauguration scam before telling us there was no money for bonuses this year as “we” weren’t efficient enough.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on September 27, 2017, 01:44:20 PM
wow
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 27, 2017, 01:51:25 PM
The work situation has been really weighing on me today. Had to say goodbye to two employees that have been with us for about a year. Had to mentally say good bye to two others who won't know they got laid off till tomorrow when the HR director calls them. Spent a lot of time talking to other guys who were in the trenches with me since the beginning that are feeling that our dream is about to come to an end.

Was listening to some songs on my commute back home and some emotional cord got pulled in me and I a few tears came out of my eyes. It's probably been years since I've cried, since emotional numbness is my usual state. Fuck.

Yeah it's a bit sad when a good workplace unravels like that. AFAIK it's fairly rare the mood ever get fixed once it's broken.

Yeah, we have these new consultants, and no offense Vom, but they are a couple of French assholes! It's pretty much a hostile takeover, as the inventors who hired me and my boss pulled out and my boss put in his resignation and I'm stuck with these guys. They're making all sorts of cuts and changes, and the business is probably not going to make it more than a few months, they'll probably dissolve it and eat the losses. Even though they're assuring everyone that they want it to thrive  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 27, 2017, 02:08:59 PM
None taken.
Yeah I've been there too with one of my employer essentially being run by an audit firm for several months and the consultants abruptly pulling out days before the announcement it was gonna be partially liquidated.

Audit is a pretty sweet gig too. Get paid millions to ultimately throw your hands up in the air and say companies they're fucked anyway. :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: tiesto on September 28, 2017, 06:59:37 AM
Went to the doctor for the first time in years, found out I have reflux and both a vitamin B12 and D deficiency. The D one kinda makes sense, since me and the sun are not friends.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 28, 2017, 10:38:56 AM
Hope you're OK dude.

Thanks breh.

They let me out until sometime next week. When they are done looking at the liver biopsy they want to me to go to some further away hospital with liver specialists. Still kind of scared shitless, but at least the biopsy itself wasn't that bad. This itching really is though. Also got new meds for that, so hopefully it should temp fix that...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 28, 2017, 10:41:58 AM
Hope you're OK dude.

Thanks breh.

They let me out until sometime next week. When they are done looking at the liver biopsy they want to me to go to some further away hospital with liver specialists. Still kind of scared shitless, but at least the biopsy itself wasn't that bad. This itching really is though. Also got new meds for that, so hopefully it should temp fix that...

Did they check for gallstones? I mean this all sounds like textbook cholestasis.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 28, 2017, 10:48:31 AM
Yeah they did. Although they also thought it was unlikely since I had no pains. Got ultra sound, CT scan, Biopsy and about 100 fucking blood tests (alright might be closer to 50, but they are draining me).

Being home feels good though. Fucking hate staying at hospitals.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 28, 2017, 11:03:35 AM
D deficiency.

I know that feel breh. :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 28, 2017, 11:21:56 AM
Yeah they did. Although they also thought it was unlikely since I had no pains. Got ultra sound, CT scan, Biopsy and about 100 fucking blood tests (alright might be closer to 50, but they are draining me).

Being home feels good though. Fucking hate staying at hospitals.

 :idont

Well hopefully they figure it out soon. Biopsy should help.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 28, 2017, 03:03:14 PM
Good luck, Gilhaney, I hope you'll get better and things work out the way you want. We're here for you!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 03:22:21 PM
Currently state: severe, myopic depression.

I'm currently at the doctor for labs. There are two options only. If I leave the clinic with hormones, I live; if I don't leave with hormones, I die. Pharmacy is right down stairs so it makes it easy. The odds are exactly 50-50. There's a gun at home so it'll be easy to accomplish.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 28, 2017, 03:32:06 PM
Jesus Christ, Queen.

Call someone that you know right now, tell them to get into your house and take that gun away from you.

Or better yet, don't go to your house. Stay someplace that is safe.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 28, 2017, 03:36:07 PM
What are they looking for in your lab results?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 03:44:11 PM
It's a blood test. Standard procedure.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 28, 2017, 04:20:24 PM
Yeah Queen, that's messed up. Even if you can't get hormones now there's always the future. What about your animation dream?

No matter the results, you should call 1-800-273-8255 as soon as possible, or go here (http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx).

Worried about you. The world would be a lot suckier without ya.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 28, 2017, 04:33:54 PM
So I googled and it sounds like they check for two things. Your overall liver health and the level of estradiol or the level of testosterone and they try to set a goal for one of those to match the gender you're transitioning to while making sure your body is adjusting to it.

So as long as your healthy and nothing unexpected shows up it sounds good. I believe you considered self medication with some Mexican drug and if you did I would just disclose that if it looks like it will affect your results. It seems to be pretty common in the TG community so I doubt you would get too much finger-wagging.

Also it would be awesome if you could let a friend borrow your gun until you restart HRT. A lot of your frustration is over temporary issues. During my most depressed points in life, I would haven you gun completely disassembled so if I wanted to go all private Pyle on myself, I'd lose interest by the time I put it all together and would rather clean it or do other such housekeeping.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 04:34:22 PM
The cost of my hormones is 30 dollars. I get to live!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 04:39:07 PM
Lab test had nothing to do with anything brawn. Had to do with cost. Takes days for test results to come out. Went to pharmacy last night and it cost me over 100 dollars which I couldn't pay. So I transferred the rx to my clinic. If I couldn't afford it I was going to kill myself.

The medicine I was considering self medding wasn't Mexican. I order from Asia. I suggested that med to my doctor last night and we are going to look into it but first need my hormone levels stabilized.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on September 28, 2017, 05:09:08 PM
Glad you are okay
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 28, 2017, 06:59:35 PM
Please get rid of the gun.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 07:37:30 PM
No. I'm fine when I'm on hormones.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 07:43:49 PM
Speaking of which, I feel sooooooooooo good! :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 28, 2017, 07:47:04 PM
 :doge

My two cents: The fact that you swing from depressive to manic that suddenly due to hormones makes me think that you shouldn't have a lethal weapon in your possession.

But that's just me.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 28, 2017, 07:52:29 PM
glad you're good now go draw something
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 08:11:35 PM
:doge

My two cents: The fact that you swing from depressive to manic that suddenly due to hormones makes me think that you shouldn't have a lethal weapon in your possession.

But that's just me.

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this is coming from someone that owns a gun locked in a case with a combination lock btw
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You underestimate the role hormones play in mental health.

https://www.holtorfmed.com/hormones-mental-health/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 28, 2017, 08:13:26 PM
He has a point even if it down plays what hormones can do.  If you don't have the finances to have a stable supply to hormones, then you won't have a stable mental state and you shouldn't have a gun. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 28, 2017, 08:17:14 PM
:doge

My two cents: The fact that you swing from depressive to manic that suddenly due to hormones makes me think that you shouldn't have a lethal weapon in your possession.

But that's just me.

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this is coming from someone that owns a gun locked in a case with a combination lock btw
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You underestimate the role hormones play in mental health.

https://www.holtorfmed.com/hormones-mental-health/

I think you are missing the point, repeatedly. We understand that you're good now. But a few hours ago you were on the verge of shooting yourself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 08:18:17 PM
He has a point even if it down plays what hormones can do.  If you don't have the finances to have a stable supply to hormones, then you won't have a stable mental state and you shouldn't have a gun.

I'll be fine once my job situation is better and have insurance again.

I'd rather risk having a gun. Either way I'm fucked. What am I going to rely on if a man gets violent? Pepper spray? :lol A knife? :lol Jiu jitsu? :lol That nicca is getting shot. I'd rather have a gun and be at risk during those hard moments than without.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on September 28, 2017, 08:51:44 PM
I don't mean to be a dick, but if jiu jitsu is lol to using a gun, why bother taking it?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on September 28, 2017, 08:56:52 PM
because working out is one of the best ways to combat depression and jiu jitsu is pretty cool
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 28, 2017, 09:22:40 PM
Jiu jitsu is good for getting away. Training Jiu jitsu will teach you what actual conflict and a fight is like. And the point is: you don't want to get into a fight. A lot can go wrong. Most people who think they'd win a street fight probably wouldn't. And those who train martial arts for the purpose are largely delusional and have watched far too many Bruce Lee movies. In Jiu Jitsu you spar live every class so you know just how easy it is to get fucked up in a fight. Much less on a street. If they get my back while standing I can do an ippon seoi nage and run. If I'm grabbed, I know how to break that grip, push him off and run away. But at the end of the day, I'm a 5'5 (5'4 now, actually?) woman. And a fight is the last thing I want if it's standing because as Jiu jitsu has taught me, even overwhelmingly large and powerful men can overcome proper technique if pushed. And you don't want to be in that scenario. This means my best chance at a win is on the ground, and on the ground in a street fight? :lol The best use for my Jiu jitsu is rape defense. If a man tries to rape me, assuming I'm facing him, I could woo him, get a lock with my feet, pull him in a guard and put him to sleep with a triangle or bust his arm up with a kimura. But that's only in that scenario. Most of my techniques are also on the ground and not stand up, although I know some judo with single leg take downs and stuff. But there's no guarantee the man I'd be facing doesn't have wrestling/judo/bjj experience and I'm not willing to bet my life on my stand up technique. So I need an equilizer. A gun is that equalizer and I refused to be gunned down at the entrance of a super market like they did to Chyna Gibson.

Even a Gracie legend, Rickson I think? Said they'd rather have a gun than jits in a fight.

As for why? Because I'm competitive in nature and like with fighting games I like seeing myself improve at something bit by bit. It's also a very active activity and much better than running on a treadmill like a stupid hamster at the gym. Those poor saps. It's also fun. But I never in any shape or form delude myself into being a Bruce Lee. BJJ is a practical martial art for self defense for sure, but the ultimate self defense is a Smith and Wesson.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 29, 2017, 06:51:23 AM
With all due respect, hormones don't act within hours. Food for thought.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on September 29, 2017, 07:40:25 AM
You got the m&p shield?  Let's hit the range.  let me shoot it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on September 29, 2017, 09:52:20 AM
With all due respect, hormones don't act within hours. Food for thought.

Well I had psychological relief, either way. Feel much better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 29, 2017, 11:30:03 AM
How many times in the past have you felt the need to shoot a guy but been unable to? 🤔
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 29, 2017, 11:47:00 AM
With all due respect, hormones don't act within hours. Food for thought.

Well I had psychological relief, either way. Feel much better.

Which is likely psychological itself (i.e placebo), for the most part. So maybe something to work on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 29, 2017, 11:49:23 AM
How many times in the past have you felt the need to shoot a guy but been unable to? 🤔

27.

O you were asking Queen.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2017, 08:54:49 PM
Fuck. I got a jury summons for the first time ever :( Worst day ever.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on October 02, 2017, 09:05:05 PM
With all due respect, hormones don't act within hours. Food for thought.

Well I had psychological relief, either way. Feel much better.

Which is likely psychological itself (i.e placebo), for the most part. So maybe something to work on.

I've been fine since going back on hormones. There's nothing to work on. The psychological duress was due to being without hormones while having low T caused by taking an anti-T medicine and depersonalization caused by dysphoria.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on October 02, 2017, 09:19:31 PM
"There's a 50% chance I kill myself today."

"There's nothing to work on."

(https://media.giphy.com/media/3og0IFZdKP1Y7XsSnC/giphy.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on October 02, 2017, 09:33:00 PM
My suicidal ideation came about from a lack of hormones. I'm seeking a therapist and talked about it at the doctors office. Also, clarification: "there's a 50% chance I kill myself today if I don't get hormones" In any case, therapy will hopefully help but I don't know. Last time the guy suggested I lose all my friends because "some people we outgrow" or something idk. And it feels a bit hug boxy when I want answers to deep questions like,"why does my dad want nothing to do with me?" which I'm not sure he can provide but hopefully we will see!

Find it odd how so many people here under estimate or under value how much that medicine works for me. It stops me from blowing my brains out and I was off of it for five months. The pain is almost over. :rejoice

Now all I have to do is reverse this disgusting masculinization from being off of it. Body hair. Ew. I looked in the mirror and saw me again! I'm not suffering from disassociative symptoms anymore!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on October 02, 2017, 09:39:04 PM
Sometimes I am close to blowing my brains out, but I don't think getting rid of the deadly weapon I keep in my house is a good idea.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on October 02, 2017, 09:52:52 PM
Welcome to the plight of being trans! You need self defense, but you have a higher risk of suicide! Which are you going to give to give up?! I'd rather have the gun. The stats don't lie. niccas will kill you without remorse. But they must be reminded that some cheeseburgers pack heat, and I'm not talking about what's in my pants (it's been estrogenized and suffers from atrophy sorry)

https://www.nytimes.com/2016/06/22/opinion/the-lgbt-case-for-guns.html

Only someone who doesn't have to make this choice would ever say that dog shit to me, Agra.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on October 02, 2017, 10:32:08 PM
You're right. I don't know what it's like to be in your shoes, or other trans women, and the dangers that you face. I believe you 100% that it's a real risk and that you need to be able to protect yourself from. However, just from an outsider's perspective, it seems that you haven't had to use your gun and shoot anyone yet, so you've been doing well in that regard. I like those odds better than the 50% chance of you shooting yourself if you don't get your hormones. Like I said, I don't know what it's like to walk in your shoes, and I concede that brandishing a weapon is a matter of survival for you. Maybe you should invest in a taser, or some other weapon for self defense that wouldn't give you such easy access to self-destruction?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on October 02, 2017, 11:27:31 PM
I don't have self destruction as long as I'm on mones and it took me five months before I was willing to end it. Tasers don't do shit. Brandishing is illegal. If I carry, I shoot to kill. I know the ramifications.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2017, 11:58:12 PM
Queenie, if you change your mind about blowing your brains out, send me a message. If I help you, it might get me out of jury duty.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on October 03, 2017, 12:06:54 AM
Bro, jury duty is easy. You have to be a moron or someone with an agenda to becomes juror. They're going to sit you in a room. You're going to be asked questions. It's gonna be shit like,"have you ever been in a motor accident" to see if there's a pertinent bias to the case. Smart people will wise up and know ASAP that they're trying to find a relevant bias to the case so you're not a biased juror. Dumb people won't know what's going on and not raise their hand even though they just told you they REALLY need to leave and go to work and end up on a jury questioning panel because they were too stupid. Basically, it's easy to get out and leave and you'll know it when you see it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 03, 2017, 12:25:59 AM
Bro, jury duty is easy. You have to be a moron or someone with an agenda to becomes juror. They're going to sit you in a room. You're going to be asked questions. It's gonna be shit like,"have you ever been in a motor accident" to see if there's a pertinent bias to the case. Smart people will wise up and know ASAP that they're trying to find a relevant bias to the case so you're not a biased juror. Dumb people won't know what's going on and not raise their hand even though they just told you they REALLY need to leave and go to work and end up on a jury questioning panel because they were too stupid. Basically, it's easy to get out and leave and you'll know it when you see it.

If you say so, Himu. Just let it be known that if I end up sentencing a PoC to death, it’s on you for not letting me help you kill yourself. I have baaaaaaad luck, too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on October 03, 2017, 12:28:33 AM
:lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on October 06, 2017, 01:12:45 AM
The work situation has been really weighing on me today. Had to say goodbye to two employees that have been with us for about a year. Had to mentally say good bye to two others who won't know they got laid off till tomorrow when the HR director calls them. Spent a lot of time talking to other guys who were in the trenches with me since the beginning that are feeling that our dream is about to come to an end.

Was listening to some songs on my commute back home and some emotional cord got pulled in me and I a few tears came out of my eyes. It's probably been years since I've cried, since emotional numbness is my usual state. Fuck.

Yeah it's a bit sad when a good workplace unravels like that. AFAIK it's fairly rare the mood ever get fixed once it's broken.

Yeah, we have these new consultants, and no offense Vom, but they are a couple of French assholes! It's pretty much a hostile takeover, as the inventors who hired me and my boss pulled out and my boss put in his resignation and I'm stuck with these guys. They're making all sorts of cuts and changes, and the business is probably not going to make it more than a few months, they'll probably dissolve it and eat the losses. Even though they're assuring everyone that they want it to thrive  ::)

RE: my work situation

My boss's last day was yesterday. Since then we've had one manager resign, one more of my employees quit. And still these guys are not satisfied. They want me to lay off two more people. One of them that already escaped by the skin of her teeth because she was on the original layoff list but was saved by one of the senior managers who got sentimental about firing her because he talks with this lady in the mornings when he's there. This sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on October 06, 2017, 01:57:53 AM
It kind of is, I mean, that lady is utterly useless. But still, it's never fun firing people. And the last time around the H.R. director was looking for someone to translate for her because the lady who's about to get fired doesn't speak English very well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 06, 2017, 03:13:30 PM
Ugh. A friend invited me to go see Gilbert Gottfried next weekend and I really don't have an excuse to not go :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 06, 2017, 03:33:16 PM
Ugh. A friend invited me to go see Gilbert Gottfried next weekend and I really don't have an excuse to not go :(
http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=43714.msg2299941#msg2299941
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 08, 2017, 09:36:03 AM
At first I thought I had a UTI, then I thought it could be a kidney stone, but now I think it's probably a stomach ulcer. Weird and uncomfortable pain. :<
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on October 08, 2017, 02:39:02 PM
At first I thought I had a UTI, then I thought it could be a kidney stone, but now I think it's probably a stomach ulcer. Weird and uncomfortable pain. :<

Go get yourself checked out. I've had intestinal ulcers and it's no fun.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 09, 2017, 06:40:55 AM
Doctor said it's probably a UTI based on the test results, but I never had one before so it was hard to pinpoint. Especially when I've heard horror stories of the worst symptom feeling like you're peeing razor blades. Guess I got lucky on that one!

But I'm gonna go ahead and blame it on this cold ass country with their toilet seats made out of ice blocks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 09, 2017, 07:55:28 AM
I ate at an Oaxacan restaurant on Saturday. Whichever of you Mexiborers has roots closest to Oaxaca owes me child support for the thing I birthed in the toilet last night.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on October 10, 2017, 08:24:31 AM
Got my biopsy results. Probably autoimmune hepatitis (this is concluded purely based of excluding everything else...). Meeting tomorrow at the hospital where hopefully they will make me understand it a bit more, so far I am just reading the notes from the guy who researched the actual biopsy. But fuck these meds and the side effects that I am reading.  :goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on October 10, 2017, 02:46:30 PM
Shit, sorry dude :/
While I'm not a medical doctor (thank god for that), I'm an immunologist (PhD), so don't hesitate to PM any questions etc, should you feel like it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 15, 2017, 02:04:15 AM
I think I have diarrhea. I foolishly had a delicious milkshake and forgot that I’ve been exhibiting symptoms of lactose intolerance. Fuck me if it wasn’t delicious, though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 19, 2017, 07:32:47 PM
:doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 19, 2017, 07:46:30 PM
"online friend"

:donot

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but I love all of you  :-*
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on October 19, 2017, 08:19:09 PM
Face down, bottoms up. That's the way i like my sluts.

I'd date all of you. But especially andy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on October 19, 2017, 09:21:18 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vvvX5QM4z3Y
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: tiesto on October 25, 2017, 01:08:55 PM
Bad case of the flu, was up all night vomiting in the shower... thankfully no elves tried to molest me...  :-X
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: studyguy on October 25, 2017, 01:11:31 PM
I ate at an Oaxacan restaurant on Saturday. Whichever of you Mexiborers has roots closest to Oaxaca owes me child support for the thing I birthed in the toilet last night.

From further north but can't deny the little dudes have some dishes that are  :delicious
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 25, 2017, 01:51:10 PM
 :goty2 :mjcry

(https://i.imgur.com/4ScNmSJ.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on October 25, 2017, 02:03:16 PM
 :kobeyuck

That normal for where you live?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 25, 2017, 02:12:38 PM
My sympathies. Temporary, I hope. Or are you out in the sticks? Not even my old connection was as bad as that.
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My up is slightly higher than your down. :betty
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on October 25, 2017, 02:26:22 PM
:goty2 :mjcry

(https://i.imgur.com/4ScNmSJ.png)

That's even slower than my connection. :heh

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:fbm
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 25, 2017, 02:36:56 PM
Yeah, it's temporary. Thank fucking God. I'm gonna make sure my new apartment doesn't include internet in the rent, so I can order it on my own name and make sure I get something decent.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on October 25, 2017, 08:20:24 PM
Well happy birthday to me, my maternal grandfather passed away today. Wasn't close to him so I just feel bad for my mom. A longtime coming, he's been in palliative care for quite a while for Alzheimer's and other complications. She's handling it well but damn, just wanted to say getting old sucks.

My other grandpa passed away today as well, actually  :dead  but that was many years ago

Good thing I don't really do big celebrations anymore
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on October 26, 2017, 03:27:50 PM
Got out the Army and now I just take care of my mother(she has ALS). Today is a bad day for her.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 26, 2017, 03:28:51 PM
You are doing good work, filler. Your mother is lucky to have you there with her.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on October 26, 2017, 04:41:35 PM
Bless up man, and daps for being a good son. You have experience taking care of older women Filler, it'll be ok.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on October 28, 2017, 07:14:35 PM
Got drunk watching the gator game as we got destroyed by Georgia, then the gf says we're going to dinner with her mom and step dad. Well fuck me this is gunna go well
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 29, 2017, 12:29:11 AM
:goty2 :mjcry

(https://i.imgur.com/4ScNmSJ.png)

We've been having a problem where every weekend our ISP seems to lose the plot, and my download stat drops from 89Mb/s to 1Mb/s.

Next month we'll switch to a new ISP which will take us to 300Mb/s and drop our monthly bill to 60% of the current one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 29, 2017, 01:43:03 AM
Had 400 Mbps down in Japan.. RIP. It's not that "it's not the same" here, but I can't do fucking shit on this connection. I don't mind not having mediocre internet, but I really mind having internet that does not work. Can't play games at all, and browsing the internet is too slow. My mom never noticed how bad it really is because all she does online is browse Facebook on her iPad.

I've been just sitting on my phone for a month instead of using my computer when I set it up ago week go because of how unusable the internet is. It makes me extra pissed off because I have a good PC that deserves to be used. :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on October 29, 2017, 02:16:14 AM
I feel your pain, I also like to have decent working technology. However, i have a laptop than if i were to put on my lap would instantly turn off, im guessing thats because the board is cracked, and needs to be level to work. Or something to do with the fact its so hot I dont need heating for my room anymore. I guess my internet speed is ok, but my laptop chugs along so much that half the webpages I try to browse just stutters and jitters when scrolling or visiting new pages.

I have a phone, but its a windows phone. Doesnt overheat, yet somehow runs slower? If i click a url it can take a good 30 seconds before it even attempts to load a new page. If i take a photo, sometimes it wont show up in my roll for a few hours. Or half the time it will just stop whatever its doing. Just stop, and you never know if it will resume what we were doing when he wakes up from his nap or have a complete melt down and either just close the app or just shut down completely and decide itll come back on when hes ready.

It's all my own fault, this laptop has taken a few beatings and I dropped my iphone in the toilet and am resulting to using the work phone, and im broke as shit and cant replace anything. Its all a very frustrating experience.

Ask your mum how does she expect you to take kids to school with such low internet, she'll get it changed.


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 30, 2017, 07:26:11 AM
Monday, end of the month.

All my prospected deals moved to another month, nothing is working currently, very depressing day. How long will I keep this up? How long till I am let go?

Seriously: Sales, never again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on October 30, 2017, 08:10:14 AM
Man, working in sales would utterly destroy me, so kudos to you and everyone else for actually working there and keeping at it for a prolonged time.

Do you have other options that you can pursue?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 30, 2017, 11:16:04 AM
Not really, but maybe i will find something one day

would take a huge paycut just to be done with feeling worthless
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on October 30, 2017, 06:09:01 PM
In my limited experience, the only way I've seen someone be successful in sales is if they got a large existing client list from someone who left the industry or retired.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 01, 2017, 03:57:25 AM
Yeah that helps, people that sell in our company usually seem to have had hand me downs like that.

Ofc I didn't get any but.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 01, 2017, 07:20:18 PM
Just found out I'm losing a really good receptionist in 2 weeks fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Had stable receptionist for like 7 years then in the last 2 years:

December 2015 - Receptionist gets pregnant, goes on maternity leave and doesn't want to come back after
May 2016 - Meanwhile hire a new receptionist, new receptionist gets pregnant goes on maternity leave
May - December 2016 - Go through 2 terrible receptionists (one really mean/grumpy scares people off, the other really quiet and can't handle position)
December 2016 - Get a really great receptionist and give multiple raises and good pay because of it since we really want to keep said receptionist for as long as possible
November 2017 - Due to personal life stuff receptionist leaves in less than a year

When your business is too small to have a hiring department, its really disruptive and pain in the ass to have to try to find a new receptionist all the time. And most people are so bad at the job. I wish I just knew some friends who had a cousin or something they could vouch for who was looking for a job.

Also for other positions been through like 3-4 employees in the last 2 years as well. Good people in business are hard to find and even harder to keep around ><
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 01, 2017, 07:34:07 PM
Monday, end of the month.

All my prospected deals moved to another month, nothing is working currently, very depressing day. How long will I keep this up? How long till I am let go?

Seriously: Sales, never again.
I tried sales for a brief stint and hated it. I hated that there was very little I could do to affect my own outcome. A client moves their budget to start next quarter? Nothing I can do about that. Client has an emergency and moves budget from one department to another? Nothing you can do there. So many things that are beyond your control. Nope. That is not my space. I feel ya man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 02, 2017, 03:37:12 AM
I hate how as I get older and older I get more afraid of change of safety. It's like the exact reason why studies show people become more conservative as they age (I'm still liberal as fuck tho). Like when I was in my 20s I'd travel all around on my own, jump on planes, find scrappy motels and have adventures and not give a fuck.

But now like, booking a solo trip to somewhere I've never been, takes like a huge jump of courage and even after I have everything booked and I should be happy that I'm going to be going on a vacation and going to somewhere new, instead I just feel a shitton of anxiety about leaving my comfort zone and I hate that. When I'm in a relationship I feel fine and excited booking stuff for two, but it's like I get anxiety about solo traveling because oh no it's leaving my safe zone and there's a minor chance something bad could happen outside of my regular routine where I have 99% control of what is going on.  ::)

It's like there's some internal switch that makes you worry more about dying as you age. It's very frustrating.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on November 02, 2017, 07:12:59 AM
I'm 32 and that hasn't happened to me.  Quite the opposite, actually.  I think it's because I'm more financially secure so if I fuck up somehow, I will likely be able to cover it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 02, 2017, 07:46:33 AM
Monday, end of the month.

All my prospected deals moved to another month, nothing is working currently, very depressing day. How long will I keep this up? How long till I am let go?

Seriously: Sales, never again.
I tried sales for a brief stint and hated it. I hated that there was very little I could do to affect my own outcome. A client moves their budget to start next quarter? Nothing I can do about that. Client has an emergency and moves budget from one department to another? Nothing you can do there. So many things that are beyond your control. Nope. That is not my space. I feel ya man.

I think I'll be in my 6th year soon and it's time to change to something different again.

You can't even control if people pick up the phone  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on November 02, 2017, 08:12:21 AM

It's like there's some internal switch that makes you worry more about dying as you age. It's very frustrating.

It's a combination of getting older AND having a lifestyle worth protecting. Trust me, there's plenty of poor people in their 30's and 40's who don't give a fuck about safety (or health).

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on November 02, 2017, 08:51:35 AM
For me it's actually the other way around. I was scared of everything when I was younger and hated everything that was outside my comfort zone. And when I did try to leave my self-created bubble I was too worried of what other people might think about me bumbling around, so I always stopped halfway and never got around to anything meaningful. But when I got older I started giving less fucks about other people and got bolder and more open in the process, though it wasn't that much of a great leap and I was still hampered by those issues.

This year I started therapy and I realized that most if not all all of those anxiety and self-esteem issues resulted from untreated ADHD. I hope that with therapy and meds I'll make greater strides in becoming a more confident and well-adjusted dude, though I doubt I'm ever going to be an uninhibited social butterfly.

And yeah, even though some things got better with age, there is a lot of new stuff that worries me, now that I'm in my 30s, like responsibilities and particularly the fear of becoming feeble and lonely and not being able to care of myself when I'll grow old. But I guess that's what it means to be an adult...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 02, 2017, 10:13:15 AM
Lot of personal insecurities diminish with time when you get bigger worries as to what others think, you start to worry about how to take care of your family, raising kids.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 02, 2017, 11:25:47 AM
And yeah, even though some things got better with age, there is a lot of new stuff that worries me, now that I'm in my 30s, like responsibilities and particularly the fear of becoming feeble and lonely and not being able to care of myself when I'll grow old. But I guess that's what it means to be an adult...
This is my nightmare. We better have robot nurses by then, because I'm offing myself otherwise.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 02, 2017, 11:34:38 AM
And yeah, even though some things got better with age, there is a lot of new stuff that worries me, now that I'm in my 30s, like responsibilities and particularly the fear of becoming feeble and lonely and not being able to care of myself when I'll grow old. But I guess that's what it means to be an adult...
This is my nightmare. We better have robot nurses by then, because I'm offing myself otherwise.

Looking forward to that Roujin Z future.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 02, 2017, 11:42:29 AM
I guess there is that, too~, yes, but I'm more worried about badly paid and overworked humans eating my dinner and breaking my fingers to get the remote. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 02, 2017, 03:22:34 PM

It's like there's some internal switch that makes you worry more about dying as you age. It's very frustrating.

It's a combination of getting older AND having a lifestyle worth protecting. Trust me, there's plenty of poor people in their 30's and 40's who don't give a fuck about safety (or health).

Lot of personal insecurities diminish with time when you get bigger worries as to what others think, you start to worry about how to take care of your family, raising kids.

Yeah, when I was a teenager I was really insecure about how people thought of me, now I don't really give a fuck most of the time.

But I also thought I was invincible and would live forever (or die by 30 like all the good punk rockers), but growing older and having one by one parts of your body fail and having to change your lifestyle, your diet, take daily meds, having lots of responsibilities whether its work, family, has definitely made me more risk adverse in certain areas, instead of just like winging it and fuck yeah. My situation might be more unique and closer to people 20-30 years older than me though just because I have a lot of health issues.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on November 04, 2017, 05:53:28 PM
Getting audited next week.  Supposed to last three days.  I spent the last few days combing through records and the previous manager (who retired and does not respond to her e-mails) made some inexplicable decisions on nothing that I can change now since they were for requirements in previous years.  So if an auditor asks me about those things, my answer is really nothing more than "i dunno lol"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 05, 2017, 12:51:22 PM
Been told friday that I basically have till xmas to save my ass at work, now this wa never directly said, but it i what it comes down to

Leader drafted a plan for me and he is sure I will rock it

tomorrow though ill kick off the plan by calling in sick with the flu which will no doubt be interpretted as a lack of faith in said plan from my side, but what can you do when you are sick

anyhoo if I get sacked by xmas i will still get 3 months severance pay
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 05, 2017, 01:26:07 PM
84 hours worked this week.

Salary.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on November 05, 2017, 03:12:37 PM
Been told friday that I basically have till xmas to save my ass at work, now this wa never directly said, but it i what it comes down to

Leader drafted a plan for me and he is sure I will rock it

tomorrow though ill kick off the plan by calling in sick with the flu which will no doubt be interpretted as a lack of faith in said plan from my side, but what can you do when you are sick

anyhoo if I get sacked by xmas i will still get 3 months severance pay

Get a GP note or something.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 06, 2017, 02:24:11 AM
No need in Denmark
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 06, 2017, 03:03:13 AM
Oh right, you live like right below me don't you? :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on November 06, 2017, 03:10:41 AM
No need in Denmark

I know (well, assume) you don't necessarily need one. But if you're worried about people thinking you're skiving, that would prevent it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 06, 2017, 04:36:45 AM
I've somehow managed to completely lose access to my main gmail account. I have no possible way to recover and forgot the password. I somehow got logged out and now I'm screwed  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on November 06, 2017, 07:52:37 AM
Getting audited next week.  Supposed to last three days.  I spent the last few days combing through records and the previous manager (who retired and does not respond to her e-mails) made some inexplicable decisions on nothing that I can change now since they were for requirements in previous years.  So if an auditor asks me about those things, my answer is really nothing more than "i dunno lol"

Yeah thats fine though, its got nothing to do with you, neither your company or the auditor can hold you accountable. Audits suck though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on November 06, 2017, 08:29:46 AM
Last time we got audited I provided all the documentation and information throughout the week.  Held several meetings answering questions and then at 2:30 on a Friday (I leave at 3) I get a call saying they need to go through 40 lease documents one by one and compare them to system data to recreate financial reporting numbers.  Fuck me.  I picked up a 12 pack on the way home at 11 pm.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on November 06, 2017, 11:23:24 PM
Getting audited next week.  Supposed to last three days.  I spent the last few days combing through records and the previous manager (who retired and does not respond to her e-mails) made some inexplicable decisions on nothing that I can change now since they were for requirements in previous years.  So if an auditor asks me about those things, my answer is really nothing more than "i dunno lol"

After spending all this weekend and all day today (it's past 10 PM where I am now) preparing for the audit, I'm so burned out that I just want it over with.  I have all day tomorrow but fuck staying up late, it is what it is.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 07, 2017, 01:11:04 AM
84 hours worked this week.

Salary.

Damn. What do you do?

I've somehow managed to completely lose access to my main gmail account. I have no possible way to recover and forgot the password. I somehow got logged out and now I'm screwed  :doge

GF did that. There is a recovery option where you basically guess the exact month and year you made the account and like the location you made it in and then it gives you access back.

Next thing you do is set up a recovery account/phone number.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 07, 2017, 01:46:38 AM
The google accounts team is investigating my account  :doge

Supposedly they'll get back to me in 3-5 days. Show mercy google gods  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on November 07, 2017, 05:24:32 AM
The google accounts team is investigating my account  :doge

So you're screwed then.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 07, 2017, 06:48:51 AM
I hate how as I get older and older I get more afraid of change of safety. It's like the exact reason why studies show people become more conservative as they age (I'm still liberal as fuck tho). Like when I was in my 20s I'd travel all around on my own, jump on planes, find scrappy motels and have adventures and not give a fuck.

But now like, booking a solo trip to somewhere I've never been, takes like a huge jump of courage and even after I have everything booked and I should be happy that I'm going to be going on a vacation and going to somewhere new, instead I just feel a shitton of anxiety about leaving my comfort zone and I hate that. When I'm in a relationship I feel fine and excited booking stuff for two, but it's like I get anxiety about solo traveling because oh no it's leaving my safe zone and there's a minor chance something bad could happen outside of my regular routine where I have 99% control of what is going on.  ::)

It's like there's some internal switch that makes you worry more about dying as you age. It's very frustrating.

I'm finding that I get increasingly liberal as old age approaches. Trying to figure out how to usher in an age of UBI before the Republicans stack the SCOTUS and pass laws allowing them to hunt the poor for sport.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 07, 2017, 12:21:05 PM
For me, I find myself a little more conservative because I'm more cynical.
 
For example saying stuff like: "Neo puritanism wont work because people are flawed inside."

Or "Universal healthcare in America wont work because you have to pull out the whole system and start over and no one is going to allow you to do that."

For me it's not fear so much as it's cynicism.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: eleuin on November 07, 2017, 06:45:41 PM
My sports hero is dead and everyone has 280 characters on twitter now  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 07, 2017, 10:03:15 PM
The google gods have been merciful  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 08, 2017, 01:40:27 AM
Day 3 of being sick at home, actually feel worse and going to see doc today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 08, 2017, 02:44:51 AM
My sports hero is dead and everyone has 280 characters on twitter now  :-\

Edit: Nvm, can't remove the embedded Twitter preview.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 09, 2017, 06:43:57 AM
84 hours worked this week.

Salary.

Damn. What do you do?


IT Support for a hospital, senior network analyst. We switched systems last week from Allscripts to Epic. Our management is not good.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on November 09, 2017, 07:32:22 AM
EHR go lives are the worst

Good luck moving forward zomgee, I suspect long hours will continue in the future
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 09, 2017, 12:09:09 PM
EHR go lives are the worst

Good luck moving forward zomgee, I suspect long hours will continue in the future

Yeah, it's my... third? I think? Platform shift?

But I've had maybe 3 cloud migrations in that as well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on November 09, 2017, 12:46:48 PM
Hospitals around here notoriously don't pay shit for their IT. At one point my boss responded to an ad from a big hospital for an Exchange admin with cert. required. After the interview, he asked about salary and they said starting pay was $30K a year. He said thank you for wasting his time and left.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 09, 2017, 06:22:44 PM
Hospitals around here notoriously don't pay shit for their IT. At one point my boss responded to an ad from a big hospital for an Exchange admin with cert. required. After the interview, he asked about salary and they said starting pay was $30K a year. He said thank you for wasting his time and left.

Why would ANYONE take a job in IT for that little? How are they filling the positions?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 10, 2017, 01:55:34 AM
Had a meeting in San Francisco today. It took me 4 hours to get home. That's half a part time job just driving. :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on November 10, 2017, 02:41:17 AM
It's alright, soon you'll be able to take the hyperloop.

:teehee
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on November 10, 2017, 10:42:55 AM
Hospitals around here notoriously don't pay shit for their IT. At one point my boss responded to an ad from a big hospital for an Exchange admin with cert. required. After the interview, he asked about salary and they said starting pay was $30K a year. He said thank you for wasting his time and left.

Why would ANYONE take a job in IT for that little? How are they filling the positions?

(https://i.imgur.com/JSSbDea.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 10, 2017, 11:02:58 AM
Ordered a black coffee, it tastes like it has allllll the sugar
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on November 10, 2017, 11:55:26 AM
Really feeling the effects of sleeping like shit this whole week. Not sure if there is enough coffee in the world.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on November 10, 2017, 12:26:55 PM
Newest struggle: Dufus trying to downplay my struggle
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 10, 2017, 07:17:02 PM
I had to drink it though, you don’t understand

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 11, 2017, 10:58:41 AM
So working so much has given me a new friend.

Shingles!

Yes shingles, they're not just for the roof any more. They're for my upper leg. My doctor said these are likely stress related and working so much has given me a fucking physical ailment that might cause permanent nerve damage. As if I wasn't bitter enough about everything.

It feels like my leg has a sunburn that just rendomly flares up and anything lightly touching it causes intense pain.

To quote RinsFury: fuck blank


Edit: somehow fitting that a post about shingles is at the top of a page
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on November 12, 2017, 06:00:05 PM
Get the vaccine

/takes off Rph hat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 12, 2017, 09:51:43 PM
Get the vaccine

/takes off Rph hat

Taking some anti-viral medication right now. I think(?) I'm supposed to treat until the rash is gone before the shot? I'll ask my primary about the shot next because this can't keep going.

But thank you it's the right move.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on November 13, 2017, 08:14:09 AM
I always assumed because I had chicken pox as a kid, I would be less susceptible to getting shingles later in life, but apparently that's not true.

I wasn't even aware they created a vaccine for it in 1995. I wondered why I never heard of as many kids getting it anymore.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 13, 2017, 10:46:50 AM
Having a shitty day. Trying to drown the negativity with music.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 13, 2017, 11:14:09 AM
Having a shitty day. Trying to drown the negativity with music.

bless up and be of good courage.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 13, 2017, 11:17:21 AM
Having a shitty day. Trying to drown the negativity with music.

What music?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 13, 2017, 11:54:38 AM
What music?
I'll post a link in the music thread~
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on November 13, 2017, 02:29:51 PM
Having a shitty day. Trying to drown the negativity with music.

here's this for you

(https://i.imgur.com/NKA9V12.jpg)

feel better friend
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on November 14, 2017, 12:40:05 AM
Been sleeping like shit past couple days and I’ve had a couple nosebleeds  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 15, 2017, 12:30:08 AM
At least contact Apple, see if there’s a recall or exchange program. Sometimes they still do the right thing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 15, 2017, 03:09:47 PM
My 2008 S2000 broke again. Was just at the shop last month fixing an electric issue. This morning I hit unlock on the electronic key and the passenger window retracted suddenly straight down & quick. Now won’t go up. Doesn’t seem motor related at first because pressing down on the window button tries to lower it and makes bad bad noises. Almost like the window fell off whatever was keeping it in place.

Taking it back to the shop next week. Between this, my electric issues, the driver side seat adjustment lever breaking and having to replace the entire seat. Car feels a bit of a lemon lately :/ Add in all the maintenance and feeling like it’s time to get a new reliable car for everyday driving and just keep the s2000 for fun drives.

Time to get a boring Prius? -_-
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 15, 2017, 03:33:21 PM
My experience with Honda’s growing up (civics, accords) has been pretty positive. It’s just my s2000 that’s had issues on a yearly/bi-yearly basis. Probably spend like $2,000-$3,000 a year on issues & maintenance.

If I get a second car, I should get a comfy sedan since everyone always complains how uncomfortable the passenger side is in the s2000.

Fwiw, I love driving it, which is why I’d rather keep it as a weekend car than sell it. Probably could only get like 8-10k at this point and needs at least $2-3k in fixes to make it sellable.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 15, 2017, 05:24:28 PM
A lot of cars develop random electrical issues after a decade. It's a Honda so the power train probably has plenty of life in it but yea random shit may go wrong and parts may be hard to find since it's a discontinued, niche car.

Plus a lot S2000s lived hard lives so that may have been a factor. I'd say just get a comfortable, efficient car for your daily driver needs and keep the S2000 for the broners.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TakingBackSunday on November 15, 2017, 05:40:18 PM
Finally back on my anxiety meds.  Last two months have been rough – a lot of anxiety, panics attacks, etc.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on November 15, 2017, 09:24:29 PM
If it's really just the window that fell off the track that is super easy to fix yourself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on November 16, 2017, 09:31:40 AM
I think the company is going under. I guess I'm a big part in potentially saving it, but I'm too tired.

I'm so tired and worried and powerless. Ugh I hate myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 16, 2017, 10:00:14 AM
I think the company is going under. I guess I'm a big part in potentially saving it, but I'm too tired.

I'm so tired and worried and powerless. Ugh I hate myself.
I've been there, almost in exactly the same place. And honestly, you gotta realize that people have their limits. Like I tried to explain to one of the people I mentor, if you march your army double time for 40 miles to reach the battlefield then expect them to face the enemy, you need to face the fact you're very likely going to lose. Do what you can, but no one saves a company on their own.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on November 17, 2017, 08:57:16 AM
Had to text the agency that set up an interview for me working at the direct competitor to where I work now saying last minute I cannot go due to family reasons. Really I just sat weighing up the pros and cons of going to this interview and decided against it and to look elsewhere, but I feel really bad for cancelling last minute, even now ive got no way of getting there on time now.

Now to ignore my phone all day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on November 17, 2017, 09:01:36 AM
Cons of going to an interview?  Cons of taking another job, sure... but looking at options?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 17, 2017, 09:07:24 AM
eh, I've bailed on interviews before. Can't take the time off or it's too much a hassle, etc. :trumps
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on November 17, 2017, 09:17:30 AM
Cons of going to an interview?  Cons of taking another job, sure... but looking at options?

The industry I work in is large, but at a mid-senior management level is very small. To put this into perspective this company's agency has been badgering me for months now to go visit them. At the same time our company has managed to take 6 managers from them over the past year, so I also think part in parcel for them tying to so hard to get me is competitive reasons alongside the fact the demand is much higher than supply for my exact position which is why theyve struggled for almost half a year to fill that pos.

Ive done my research and this company is plagued with a lot of the same issues that im facing now, in fact one of my staff just joined me from that company 3 months ago. Our technical sales provider has both of us under their accounts plus many a people here now who used to come from there. The fact both companies have a lot of crossover, if I go and decide its not for me, theres a good chance word will get back to my boss and directors. Which could result in making my life worse at work or losing my job completely which i dont want to do until I have found something I want.

Theyre ideally looking for someone with a wealth of experience, but ive only been doing this for 2 years, one year as an official manager. However, by all means i am a very solid pick up. However, the distance for me to travel,they would need to offer me an extra £14,000/yr ($18.4k), for me to still make more than what im earning now, which they would be very reluctant to do with someone with small amount of contacts and experience in the industry.

If theres a possibility they will offer me a price increase by that much, they need to be desperate and if they want someone that bad, it wont be the last I hear of them. If not, I would prefer to keep excess stress at a minimum and i think dodging this interview will do that.



Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on November 17, 2017, 09:41:13 AM
That makes more sense.  Fuck it.  I assume you took time off for the interview so now just enjoy it!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 17, 2017, 11:19:20 AM
I think the company is going under. I guess I'm a big part in potentially saving it, but I'm too tired.

I'm so tired and worried and powerless. Ugh I hate myself.

bruv i called your company once to sell some marketing shit but they told me things were just peerrrfect
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 24, 2017, 06:53:18 PM
Having a really bad day. Can't sleep, in bed crying, I feel like a failure over so many things I don't know how to deal with right now. I'm so overwhelmed with emotions and stress. Said things I shouldn't have, didn't say the things I really meant.

It's late and I'm extra emotional right now, rip
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 24, 2017, 07:06:14 PM
Having a really bad day. Can't sleep, in bed crying, I feel like a failure over so many things I don't know how to deal with right now. I'm so overwhelmed with emotions and stress. Said things I shouldn't have, didn't say the things I really meant.

It's late and I'm extra emotional right now, rip

(https://myanimelist.cdn-dena.com/s/common/uploaded_files/1461068547-d8d6dc7c2c74e02717c5decac5acd1c7.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on November 24, 2017, 07:45:49 PM
Having a really bad day. Can't sleep, in bed crying, I feel like a failure over so many things I don't know how to deal with right now. I'm so overwhelmed with emotions and stress. Said things I shouldn't have, didn't say the things I really meant.

It's late and I'm extra emotional right now, rip
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxIPhbNbBCI

hope u feel better soon
 :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 25, 2017, 03:52:49 AM
:heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on November 25, 2017, 05:30:08 AM
*e-hugs*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on November 25, 2017, 12:28:17 PM
haven't felt like myself in a week, every interaction seems weird, like even others say they're feeling off

gotta go do the social thing again tonight with high intensity ppl, but my heart's not in it  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 25, 2017, 02:00:37 PM
You’ll probably feel better once your part of a conversation. Being included is a feel good thing.
Otherwise, ain’t nothing wrong with being the quiet guy for a night.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 26, 2017, 08:36:32 PM
If I die tonight I want you guys to know you were aight
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 27, 2017, 05:59:54 AM
No one is dying tonight. :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 27, 2017, 07:09:38 AM
Hang in there everyone.

2018 is around the corner y'all, new year, new chances.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on November 27, 2017, 11:05:00 AM
Last week sucked. Somewhat. Spent the week back home upstate NY for Thanksgiving. First day of vacation I started getting a terrible toothache caused by what I later learned my wisdom teeth.

Spent several nights in intense pain, getting woken up in the middle of the night. One night was so bad I had to take a sleep aid to put me out because the pain was so bad.

Now I'm back home and have to try and schedule some oral surgery this for December.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 27, 2017, 12:09:40 PM
Gettin kinda tired of it all right now to be honest. I have lost any self identification in my interpersonal and professional relationships. What I thought was there is not and what I want may no longer be possible.

I'm completely trapped and I don't see an exit.

Sorry to be vague. Maybe some of it is despicable but I feel like I deserve something too. I just can't see how it happens from here on out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 28, 2017, 09:51:53 PM
Sometimes I'm so frustrated with work/my life direction I type up a post and then delete it here and just blah.

I need to find something I love (that's not a person) and do it for my life and enjoy it constantly. But the only things in my life I love with that much passion are rpgs and that means either make rpgs or write books about rpgs, but the latter sounds boring and the former sounds like it'll make about -$5,000,000 income. I also need money because I don't want to live with my parents and I want to pay my health bills and stay alive. I also like having internet and electricity.

Also I feel like I'm too old to just start a lot of careers. Like it seems like it'd be fun to go into practical special effects for tv/film and think up crazy creative ways to make things happen, but I wish I thought of that when I was like 16, not 36. I also would've like to have gotten seriously into politics and try to make it into like the house or senate someday and make a difference, but way too old to just put my foot in the political door.

Never too old to be a bartender at a dive bar I guess.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on November 29, 2017, 10:34:21 AM
Last three days I've been woken up around 1:30am to some fucking awful pain in my mouth. Basically writhing around in pain until it subsides. I managed to get a prescription to some higher dose ibprofen and that has worked twice in mitigating the pain. Last night? Woke up at 12:50 and immediately took a painkiller and fell back to sleep. But then woken back up at 2:30 to even worse pain. So much I had to wake my girlfriend up because I couldn't cope. Eventually I lathered some of high powered Kanka mouth pain numbing stuff all over my gums and that finally numbed it enough for me to get back to sleep

This is awful. I just rescheduled a dentist appointment because I can't wait until next week. Now I'm probably going to get my wisdom teeth (all 4) out this Friday and be all fucked up this weekend.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 29, 2017, 11:13:43 AM
Lost my wallet last night. 🤔
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 29, 2017, 11:20:22 AM
Lost my wallet last night. 🤔

That is the absolute worst. The only way I was able to fix it was to get a new driver's license. I had a friend at the DMV which helped me get my license and a valid form of ID. If I didn't have that I don't know what I would have done.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 29, 2017, 03:49:05 PM
Apparently left it at my friend's place, not the Uber or the bar like I had feared. :whew
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 29, 2017, 03:52:40 PM
Apparently left it at my friend's place, not the Uber or the bar like I had feared. :whew

Now that's what I call friends with benefits. Just leave your whole wallet on the dresser. :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 30, 2017, 04:41:34 AM
Boss gave me an ultimatum for what i have to achieve before xmas (he didnt actually say ill be sacked but... its implied)

Today two deals I was hopeful on crashed and burned

I knew I should have stayed home this morning

ive made like 2500 call attempts in the last few months and prob as many mails sent with only a handful of deals to show for

maybe getting sacked will be a blessing as ill look beyond sales jobs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 30, 2017, 04:43:21 AM
Get out of sales. It'll destroy your soul.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 30, 2017, 05:51:35 AM
Like Bebpo said its hard to change into another way when you are "old" (34). Too old to change direction again? I hope not. But I dont want to look back in 10 years and be like, DAMN I WAS YOUNG THEN AND COULD HAVE CHANGED COURSE.

@bebpo: start persuing your dreams before you have a family, it will be a lot harder to change then bro. You are still single, this is the time imho.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on November 30, 2017, 11:01:31 AM
Like Bebpo said its hard to change into another way when you are "old" (34). Too old to change direction again? I hope not. But I dont want to look back in 10 years and be like, DAMN I WAS YOUNG THEN AND COULD HAVE CHANGED COURSE.

@bebpo: start persuing your dreams before you have a family, it will be a lot harder to change then bro. You are still single, this is the time imho.

this is some hard truth kids
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on November 30, 2017, 11:03:47 AM
never have kids

ALL PROBLEMS SOLVED
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 30, 2017, 12:48:58 PM
never have dreams
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: fistfulofmetal on November 30, 2017, 12:50:16 PM
never have
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on November 30, 2017, 12:54:40 PM
never
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 30, 2017, 02:12:54 PM
To be devil's advocate. yeah kids are a pain and all that. But when the end comes for me the love I shared with my wife and kids will matter while all the professional achievements I would've attained without them will be worthless. :trumps
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on November 30, 2017, 02:17:14 PM
ne
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 30, 2017, 02:41:18 PM
To be devil's advocate. yeah kids are a pain and all that. But when the end comes for me the love I shared with my wife and kids will matter while all the professional achievements I would've attained without them will be worthless. :trumps

yeah i mean, kids is the best thing that has happened with me in my life
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 30, 2017, 03:09:16 PM
My daughter gave me life. It's tough, but she keeps me going. :heartbeat

(http://i0.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/original/000/012/454/tumblr_ltt2lcULmq1r4k5f5o1_500.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on November 30, 2017, 03:56:32 PM
https://twitter.com/omarnajam/status/935626720408768512
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Beezy on November 30, 2017, 07:33:33 PM
https://twitter.com/cuffzilla/status/936335564269342722
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on December 01, 2017, 07:18:43 PM
ne

(https://78.media.tumblr.com/6d84d71be4b9f339a3ca654b39c23351/tumblr_onjlbrmnJM1r8dxfio1_r1_540.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 04, 2017, 10:07:46 PM
I've only been paid 1.5 paychecks at my fancy new job that puts me at about market rate (and allows me to stay in Boston, as I had considered a move to the much cheaper Providence), and because of this I've been scrambling to put together the money for my apartment's initial payment. This is made up of first month's, the same amount for the realtor, and half that for a security deposit. The apartment was under some kind of "show and pay" promo or some shit (which I'm not 100% sure wasn't totally made up on the spot by the landlord/realtor) which "waved" the last month and half the security deposit.

Essentially, this initial payment is only 2.5x the monthly rent, instead of 4x. So that's nice. And I paid 1/3 last Friday.

But yeah, what's not nice is not having enough to pay the other 2/3. I've drafted a plan to basically beg my closest friends (and ex-BF) for short-term loans. I can easily pay it all back before the month ends, but I basically have just three days to raise all this money.

:-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cryo on December 04, 2017, 11:54:07 PM
I hate school and I wish I could press a button and arrive at the conclusion of final exams and my senior design project presentation without having to actually experience it irl.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 05, 2017, 12:13:49 AM
I've only been paid 1.5 paychecks at my fancy new job that puts me at about market rate (and allows me to stay in Boston, as I had considered a move to the much cheaper Providence), and because of this I've been scrambling to put together the money for my apartment's initial payment. This is made up of first month's, the same amount for the realtor, and half that for a security deposit. The apartment was under some kind of "show and pay" promo or some shit (which I'm not 100% sure wasn't totally made up on the spot by the landlord/realtor) which "waved" the last month and half the security deposit.

Essentially, this initial payment is only 2.5x the monthly rent, instead of 4x. So that's nice. And I paid 1/3 last Friday.

But yeah, what's not nice is not having enough to pay the other 2/3. I've drafted a plan to basically beg my closest friends (and ex-BF) for short-term loans. I can easily pay it all back before the month ends, but I basically have just three days to raise all this money.

:-\
God, man, that's the realest stress. I feel for you. Been there, done that. Best of luck to you, really. You should consider going to a bank, since you have provable income (and a great job).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on December 05, 2017, 07:44:26 AM
God, man, that's the realest stress. I feel for you.

Yeah, wish I had struggles like these  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on December 05, 2017, 09:40:03 AM
That Baconator destroyed my asshole :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 05, 2017, 09:40:43 AM
weird nickname for someone
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 05, 2017, 11:05:37 AM
I hate school and I wish I could press a button and arrive at the conclusion of final exams and my senior design project presentation without having to actually experience it irl.  :doge

i got some bad news about work life man
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on December 05, 2017, 12:24:28 PM
i got some bad news about work life man
Robots, free us! :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on December 05, 2017, 12:38:47 PM
I hate school and I wish I could press a button and arrive at the conclusion of final exams and my senior design project presentation without having to actually experience it irl.  :doge

i got some bad news about work life man

I want nothing more in life to go back 15 years.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 05, 2017, 12:57:10 PM
I've only been paid 1.5 paychecks at my fancy new job that puts me at about market rate (and allows me to stay in Boston, as I had considered a move to the much cheaper Providence), and because of this I've been scrambling to put together the money for my apartment's initial payment. This is made up of first month's, the same amount for the realtor, and half that for a security deposit. The apartment was under some kind of "show and pay" promo or some shit (which I'm not 100% sure wasn't totally made up on the spot by the landlord/realtor) which "waved" the last month and half the security deposit.

Essentially, this initial payment is only 2.5x the monthly rent, instead of 4x. So that's nice. And I paid 1/3 last Friday.

But yeah, what's not nice is not having enough to pay the other 2/3. I've drafted a plan to basically beg my closest friends (and ex-BF) for short-term loans. I can easily pay it all back before the month ends, but I basically have just three days to raise all this money.

:-\
God, man, that's the realest stress. I feel for you. Been there, done that. Best of luck to you, really. You should consider going to a bank, since you have provable income (and a great job).

Thanks man. What do I say to the bank? "Give me a three week loan?"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 05, 2017, 01:13:11 PM
That Baconator destroyed my asshole :(

If you want even more ass destruction try the Bacon King at BK. I tend to stay away from (non Taco Bell) fast food, but whenever I see an ad for a brand new burger I automatically want to try it. It's...not bad. The Baconator is too meaty for me, too much beef which makes it dry. Whereas the Bacon King has a sauce that makes it juicer.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on December 05, 2017, 01:17:52 PM
That Baconator destroyed my asshole :(

If you want even more ass destruction try the Bacon King at BK. I tend to stay away from (non Taco Bell) fast food, but whenever I see an ad for a brand new burger I automatically want to try it. It's...not bad. The Baconator is too meaty for me, too much beef which makes it dry. Whereas the Bacon King has a sauce that makes it juicer.



Will eating a Bacon King the day after eating a Baconator kill me?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 05, 2017, 01:27:44 PM
I've only been paid 1.5 paychecks at my fancy new job that puts me at about market rate (and allows me to stay in Boston, as I had considered a move to the much cheaper Providence), and because of this I've been scrambling to put together the money for my apartment's initial payment. This is made up of first month's, the same amount for the realtor, and half that for a security deposit. The apartment was under some kind of "show and pay" promo or some shit (which I'm not 100% sure wasn't totally made up on the spot by the landlord/realtor) which "waved" the last month and half the security deposit.

Essentially, this initial payment is only 2.5x the monthly rent, instead of 4x. So that's nice. And I paid 1/3 last Friday.

But yeah, what's not nice is not having enough to pay the other 2/3. I've drafted a plan to basically beg my closest friends (and ex-BF) for short-term loans. I can easily pay it all back before the month ends, but I basically have just three days to raise all this money.

:-\
God, man, that's the realest stress. I feel for you. Been there, done that. Best of luck to you, really. You should consider going to a bank, since you have provable income (and a great job).

Thanks man. What do I say to the bank? "Give me a three week loan?"
Ask about their short term loan options.  The term should then be less than 12 months.  Make sure there is no early payment penalty and just pay it off sooner.  They will likely ask what the purpose of the loan is and you can tell them you're moving to a new place and you need money to cover some of the moving expenses.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on December 05, 2017, 01:54:04 PM
What Mupepe said. It will look good on your credit as well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 05, 2017, 02:04:25 PM
Might be worth going to a CU instead of a bank too
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 05, 2017, 02:39:55 PM
Thanks guys. Will give it a shot.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 05, 2017, 02:41:09 PM
Yup, I second the credit union thing. I think now is a good time to get a line of credit actually if you don't have one. Congrats on the new apartment and moving on with your life, just one more speed bump...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 05, 2017, 03:48:14 PM
Also, if you can't get a line of credit have you considered robbing the bank? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 05, 2017, 03:53:40 PM
Might be worth robbing a credit union instead of a bank too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 05, 2017, 03:59:57 PM
I actually do have kinda decent credit (low 700s) so that might be useful. :) Thanks so much with the advice guys.

Might be worth robbing a credit union instead of a bank too.

Wow if true.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 05, 2017, 05:00:45 PM
That Baconator destroyed my asshole :(

If you want even more ass destruction try the Bacon King at BK. I tend to stay away from (non Taco Bell) fast food, but whenever I see an ad for a brand new burger I automatically want to try it. It's...not bad. The Baconator is too meaty for me, too much beef which makes it dry. Whereas the Bacon King has a sauce that makes it juicer.



Will eating a Bacon King the day after eating a Baconator kill me?

There's only one way to find out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 11, 2017, 10:32:32 AM
change of scenery maybe?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on December 11, 2017, 10:57:59 AM
My MRI revealed a cavernoma. Damn.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 11, 2017, 12:16:00 PM
Dude, that sucks. Let us know if there's anything we can do. I can turn up the gay subtext if it'd help.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 12, 2017, 06:35:11 AM
Every once in a while I still wake up in the middle of the night and smell the burning plastic in my car.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on December 12, 2017, 08:09:27 AM
Sorry to hear, Purrp, hope it works out for you. Stay strong!
Every once in a while I still wake up in the middle of the night and smell the burning plastic in my car.
PTSD? :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 12, 2017, 03:03:59 PM
PTSD? :(
I don't think it's quite as bad as that. That would be disrespectful to the people who actually have it. I just get upsetting memories on random, infrequent nights.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on December 12, 2017, 03:24:31 PM
PTSD? :(
I don't think it's quite as bad as that. That would be disrespectful to the people who actually have it. I just get upsetting memories on random, infrequent nights.
You shouldn't compare your own experiences with others in a way where you think yours "weren't as bad as theirs". Just because you experienced something you think is "less bad", doesn't mean it can't be traumatizing for you. Not saying you have it, but if you do or don't, it is in no way disrespectful to anyone. This is kinda weird, but I used to sleep sitting up when old things got to my head. For some reason it really worked. Hopefully yours isn't frequent though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 17, 2017, 06:27:34 PM
Not a good weekend for my folks. 

My mother beat cancer last year and was told that they found something again this past week.  Thankfully it's super early and they're going to go remove it this week, but she's going to have to go through chemo therapy all over again.   :-\

Then the icing on the shit sundae just happened-- my parents are driving down the highway, when out of nowhere another car rammed into them on the driver's side and sent them spinning down the road.  Amazingly, nobody in either car was hurt from this.  Their (new-ish) car is pretty fucked up and not in driveable condition.  The other party admitted to the cops that their tires were so worn that the car was deemed not safe to drive, yet they were driving anyway.  Fucking morons.  My dad also saw someone from their car get out and take off running down the highway after the accident.  Cops are pretty sure it was probably somebody who had a warrant out for their arrest.

I figured my mother was OK when all she was worrying about was who will take care of the dog tomorrow.  :lol :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 17, 2017, 07:23:45 PM
Happy your folks are doing okay. It's amazing how safe new cars are
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on December 18, 2017, 02:30:07 AM
My SO for over a decade is breaking up. In retrospect I'm not surprised nor even that angry because love (or attraction) had definitely withered. Still for my part I was content with the certainties and the warm purring of old couple routine, maybe to a fault really, but she was not anymore since enamoration vacated for good and I can't fault her for that. Biggest hassle will be to organize resettlement to a new lodging for each of us and to close administrative loops. The shorter it takes, the more likely we'll avoid souring what are mostly friendly terms.

Becoming a functioning single unit of a person is a bit frightening but there's no reason I shouldn't be able to do it. I'm trying to take the opportunity to make a run at some job opportunities seeking abroad, it is as good a time as any to consider that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 18, 2017, 06:35:20 AM
Sucks man :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 18, 2017, 09:11:44 AM
Sorry Vom, hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: headwalk on December 18, 2017, 09:17:07 AM
had a chat with my mate's girlfriend about her idea that everything boils down to privilege and how i don't think it's particularly helpful. said i was raised to treat everyone with a clean slate and blindly trying to compensate for whatever unconscious biases i have is never going to be something i'm comfortable with.

i flat out asked "how do you think i should i treat a black person differently from a white person?" and she said if i'm sitting on the tube and a black dude walks on, maybe consider getting up and giving them my seat.

to me that sounds properly mental and incredibly insulting and i let her know as much in the most polite way possible, but maybe i'm so far up the privilege pole that i can't be saved.



Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on December 18, 2017, 09:26:35 AM
its emotional manipulation, making people feel bad for something they havent done, and no way to fix it other than pure submission. There are those who knows this, and those who have been brainwashed. Its very hard to tell which is which though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on December 18, 2017, 04:25:17 PM
if i'm sitting on the tube and a black dude walks on, maybe consider getting up and giving them my seat.


:lol :lol :lol


Wait, sorry. I really shouldn't.

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Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 18, 2017, 05:38:49 PM
PD you want this post position? It's yours if you want it. 
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Post by: TEEEPO on December 19, 2017, 02:44:37 PM
so this is how an ingrown toenail feels

:crybaby
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on December 26, 2017, 11:18:48 PM
I have been sitting in an airport, delay after delay, for a few minutes less than twelve hours. I can look at any random person, give them an ocular assessment, and tell you why and how I want to murder them. This has really put a damper on a great holiday :( Fuck people in airports, and especially their jerkwad children. Abortions for All 2018.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on December 27, 2017, 08:42:09 PM
The water heater started leaking at 11pm. Upon looking at the manual and online, probably the security valve started releasing because the pressure was too high after I had the "good" idea to get heat going before going to sleep. Once pressure went down, it stopped... But I discovered another drop-by-drop under the kitchen sink (at a junction) which probably started around the same moment.

Main faucet won't turn (rusted) so now I have to wait 8am to call a plumber to come gouge me out. May lose a day of work too if not fixed by 2pm.

Oh joy of renting an old flat.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on December 28, 2017, 07:07:09 PM
Fuck, I think Brogulls is about to end :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on December 29, 2017, 06:01:49 AM
Got food poisoning. Seems like I'm done throwing up, but god I'm so fucking nauseus, and my back hurts. Trying to eat an apple now, hopefully it won't trigger my stomach. :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on December 29, 2017, 07:44:56 AM
Got food poisoning. Seems like I'm done throwing up, but god I'm so fucking nauseus, and my back hurts. Trying to eat an apple now, hopefully it won't trigger my stomach. :'(

Maybe gastro ? Rest well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on December 29, 2017, 07:49:07 AM
An apple? :kobeyuck

Go for like bread or rice or something. And drink loads.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on December 29, 2017, 07:52:19 AM
BRAT diet after being sick:

Banana
Rice
Apple (sauce)
Toast

Some feel the T should be Taco Bell, yes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on December 29, 2017, 08:42:37 AM
Apple always helped me when nauseous! Ate some crackers and had water, kinda too scared to eat anything else yet. :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on December 30, 2017, 02:38:46 PM
I'll help you by not liking your posts anymore.   :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2017, 03:20:36 PM
You don't cut a man's likes cold turkey.  Monster. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on December 30, 2017, 03:26:35 PM
Shouldn't your therapist have already figured this out?
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 30, 2017, 04:23:45 PM
Don’t self diagnose is something I’ve heard said a lot, getting help is a good idea, but don’t go in thinking you have it figured out already
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Post by: Rufus on December 30, 2017, 04:31:03 PM
He's not wrong.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2017, 05:04:43 PM
im socially distinguished mentally-challenged, not mentally :nothot

Again, don’t go in thinking you have it figured out already
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 01, 2018, 06:13:06 PM
so this is how an ingrown toenail feels

:crybaby
I had those in jr. high, chronically. Eventually had them surgically addressed. They grew back anyway.

I don't envy you.
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Post by: chronovore on January 01, 2018, 06:16:46 PM
My MRI revealed a cavernoma. Damn.

Any news on this? Is it operable?
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Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 01, 2018, 08:27:44 PM
My MRI revealed a cavernoma. Damn.

Any news on this? Is it operable?

My bad, been meaning to update this. Met with a neurosurgeon who wasn't too concerned by it.
It's really small and located in my pons, so not worth operating on in his opinion. Surgery would likely do more harm.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 01, 2018, 08:38:03 PM
My MRI revealed a cavernoma. Damn.

Any news on this? Is it operable?

My bad, been meaning to update this. Met with a neurosurgeon who wasn't too concerned by it.
It's really small and located in my pons, so not worth operating on in his opinion. Surgery would likely do more harm.
Thanks for letting us know; any chance you need a second opinion on it?
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Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 03, 2018, 03:20:14 AM
Might be worth looking into although this guy seems pretty thorough; he's referring me to a neurologist to address the headaches and also ordered an MRA just to be sure.
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Post by: Valkyrie on January 03, 2018, 03:35:46 AM
Happy to hear that it turned out (mostly?) fine. Must've been stressful for you, but also relieving when you were told it wasn't such a big deal. Do you have to follow up on it? Also, if you don't mind answering, how did you end up taking that MRI in the first place?
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Post by: Purrp Skirrp on January 04, 2018, 12:00:00 AM
Happy to hear that it turned out (mostly?) fine. Must've been stressful for you, but also relieving when you were told it wasn't such a big deal. Do you have to follow up on it? Also, if you don't mind answering, how did you end up taking that MRI in the first place?

Yup, probably another MRI in a year just to monitor it. What led to the MRI was making an appointment with my primary care physician after collapsing in the kitchen.
My vision and hearing went, legs buckled, mom's spaghetti. I was also having blurred vision, eye pain and headaches. All that was enough for my doc to want to order an MRI.
I feel dumb about this, but most of those symptoms are potential side effects of a medication I was taking: armodafinil. Switched to modafinil and all that's stopped for the most part.

Glad you're OK, my man.

:itagaki
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Post by: TEEEPO on January 11, 2018, 09:20:40 PM
i was gifted 12oz of miyazaki japanese wagyu (http://www.debragga.com/japanese-wagyu-beef-from-miyazaki-region-12oz-ribeye-steak.html), which tasted better than you could possibly imagine. however, i consumed it as i was recovering from a nasty stomach virus with my symptoms not having fully cleared yet. alas, time was of the essence

i've been shitting liquid for the past 12 hours.


 :noah
totally worth it
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Post by: toku on January 11, 2018, 10:13:54 PM
the only meat we eating in 2018 is ass
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Post by: TVC15 on January 12, 2018, 12:18:49 AM
TVC is sad. It sucks getting laid off from a job you actually liked :(. Market for me doesn’t look too lively either.
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Post by: Tasty on January 12, 2018, 03:11:41 AM
the only meat we eating in 2018 is ass

So tasty.
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Post by: Valkyrie on January 15, 2018, 10:08:36 AM
Nose is completely stuffed
Throat is really sore after coughing for 3-4 days
I can't stop sneezing
My ears are so blocked I can barely hear anything

This is it, guys. I'm following the light when it shows up.
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Post by: VomKriege on January 15, 2018, 11:34:42 AM
Nasal spray helps with the stuffed nose part, in the morning and before sleep.
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Post by: Valkyrie on January 23, 2018, 05:05:41 PM
Dumb rant:

It's been 2 weeks and I'm still sick. Every time I feel I'm getting better, I get a little better but then worse again. It usually feels a lot worse in the morning after sleeping. Saw a doctor a week ago who gave me medicine against sinusitis, which hasn't helped. Ironically the day after I was there, I completely lost hearing in my right ear. I called my doctor but they've been full, and the one day I was feeling good they had an available spot which I turned down because I thought I was finally getting better again. The right side of my face has been really fucked, especially the sinus next to my nose, and my ear. I couldn't walk up stairs without it hurting. Today the symptoms I've had have been a lot better but I had this insane headache, I couldn't sit or do anything until just now. So however I feel tomorrow morning I'm going to see a doctor, whether it's at the office or the ER. If they just had given me antibiotics last week I'd probably be fine by now. Fucking bullshit. It really sucks because I never get sick, but January has been really rough on me, plus the food poisoning late-December. I think I just really need a good hug or something. #selfpity
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Post by: VomKriege on January 23, 2018, 05:30:56 PM
Sound like you had some otitis on top of your cold (or maybe flu really, considering how virulent it is).

Get well soon.
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Post by: Rufus on January 23, 2018, 07:09:49 PM
Sending virtual hugs while wearing hazmat gear.
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Post by: chronovore on January 23, 2018, 11:34:44 PM
Remaindered RECYCLE SHOP hugs coming to you from Japan. :doge
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 24, 2018, 11:14:11 AM
Ouch Val. That sucks. Hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on January 24, 2018, 12:17:45 PM
:heartbeat :heartbeat

Finally got antibiotics, let's hope this shit works. I don't have time to be sick anymore. :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 24, 2018, 01:41:08 PM
If you need any medical advice, let me know.  I have watched pretty much all of Grey's Anatomy so I know a thing or two.  Hope you feel better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 27, 2018, 08:30:49 PM
Flu is real bad this year.

Not to late to get the vaccine for yourself  and/or kids peeps

Lot of deaths in healthy people, not just oldies
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on January 27, 2018, 08:33:06 PM
Flu is real bad this year.

Not to late to get the vaccine for yourself  and/or kids peeps

Lot of deaths in healthy people, not just oldies

Put on your clinical hat: in your experience is the flue shot effective to what is going around? I got the flu shot (I had to) but I wonder about it's effectiveness, especially this year.

Our hospital is in overflow btw.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 27, 2018, 08:38:32 PM
Flu is real bad this year.

Not to late to get the vaccine for yourself  and/or kids peeps

Lot of deaths in healthy people, not just oldies

Put on your clinical hat: in your experience is the flue shot effective to what is going around? I got the flu shot (I had to) but I wonder about it's effectiveness, especially this year.

Our hospital is in overflow btw.

Historically it has helped, this year apparently the recipe was off.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 27, 2018, 10:21:05 PM
This year I beileive is pretty bad. But another  goal is also to lesson the severity of the flu if you get it

Of the 30+ kids who’ve died (up from just 10ish last year), 85% were unvaccinated
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 27, 2018, 11:35:04 PM
I read the title as "strangle thread 2".
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on January 28, 2018, 04:22:32 AM
Flu is real bad this year.

Not to late to get the vaccine for yourself  and/or kids peeps

Lot of deaths in healthy people, not just oldies

Put on your clinical hat: in your experience is the flu shot effective to what is going around? I got the flu shot (I had to) but I wonder about it's effectiveness, especially this year.

Our hospital is in overflow btw.

I'll put my scientist hat on.

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It's a bit of a trick question. Flu vaccines are some of the least efficient around, and can range from anything like 30% to 70+. This year is particularly bad. So it's obviously rubbish compared to, say, yellow fever, which is like 95+ IIRC.
This is due to the fact that vaccinologists have to "predict" which strain will spread out each year, and design the vaccine accordingly. With not a lot of time to do so. And there's a lot of them. This is why you hear about H5N1, H1N1 and so on.

But even if the efficiency is low, it's still worth it. The point with flu vaccines isn't to make sure you as an individual will most likely be safe from a really nasty infection (like yellow fever), but to try and limit the impact on populations as a whole, since the flu spreads so easily and commonly. Even protecting just 30% of people will save a lot of lives, but also significantly slow down the spread of the virus. This is what constitutes "herd immunity", if you've heard the term before.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 28, 2018, 01:47:24 PM
I like under 4 Spanish speaking college students that party all the time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on January 28, 2018, 02:04:10 PM
Beat them with flip flops.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 28, 2018, 02:07:15 PM
It's 11AM on a Sunday. I like Drake too but please let me sleep.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on January 28, 2018, 03:00:49 PM
I like under 4

 :jared :kobeyuck :kobeyuck :kobeyuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 28, 2018, 03:02:16 PM
Someone's having sex now and banging the frame against the wall JUST LET ME SLEEP  :rkelly
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Phoenix Dark on January 28, 2018, 05:20:52 PM
thin apartment walls (http://www.thecoli.com/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/flabbynsick.png)

one day if i get action* in my bedroom i swear the slighest amount of moaning will be heard by my neighbor, past the wall of my bedroom is the neighbor's bedroom

*don't doubt me brehs... 2018 will be my year (http://www.thebore.com/forum/Smileys/default/rejoice.png)

I believe in you Dufus
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwpWcdy3vNI
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 28, 2018, 10:48:33 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVNd3_4ZJ0g

Listened to this song   :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 28, 2018, 11:43:56 PM
My grandmother isn't doing very well and we were told she'll probably pass away in the next few days.  Knew this was coming because she has been getting progressively worse over the past six months or so.  The last time I saw her was at her 94th birthday party last summer.  She was pretty coherent and since then has gotten pretty bad dementia and other problems.  Haven't seen her since because I don't want to remember her that way.  Just hope she goes peacefully.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 28, 2018, 11:45:55 PM
Sorry dude.  94 is a hell of a life though. 
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Post by: VomKriege on January 29, 2018, 03:11:20 AM
Sorry. Dementia can settle in fast indeed. It's good you saw her somewhat recently. Best.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 29, 2018, 05:38:05 AM
As someone who has had both grandpa's die last year within 3 days of each other I recommend you go see her one last time.

Last time I saw both of them was weeks before they passed and they were both in hospital and one was really far gone but we looked each other in the eye and I hope recognized me, just sat there with him for a while and gave him a few kisses and squeezed his hand. The other one was a bit better and got to see his granddaughter one last time and I know his last days he was very happy about this.

Hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 29, 2018, 08:48:51 PM
As someone who has had both grandpa's die last year within 3 days of each other I recommend you go see her one last time.

Last time I saw both of them was weeks before they passed and they were both in hospital and one was really far gone but we looked each other in the eye and I hope recognized me, just sat there with him for a while and gave him a few kisses and squeezed his hand. The other one was a bit better and got to see his granddaughter one last time and I know his last days he was very happy about this.

Hang in there.

Lost my other grandmother in 2005 to dementia.  Hers was a much worse decline.  The last time I saw her, she was completely out of it and was lying motionless in a room with tubes hooked up to her.  It was not a pleasant site and watching my grandfather process this was even worse.  Lost him a few years ago (on my birthday  :() but he went peacefully in his sleep.

I've been told my grandmother is completely 'gone' mentally and has no idea what is going on or who anyone is anymore.  My brother shares my opinion that we're just going to remember her in a better state.  I don't think she would want anyone seeing her like this.

My family seems to be pretty much ready for it to be over- my wife got a text from my parents nonchalantly saying that they'd help her with something after the funeral is over.  Like...she's not dead yet.  It's like some kind of morbid Monty Python sketch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 30, 2018, 03:54:15 AM
Got fired today

Work in sales brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on January 30, 2018, 04:28:17 AM
Got fired today

Work in sales brehs

Arf. Sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 30, 2018, 04:37:22 AM
Got fired today

Work in sales brehs
Congratulations, you're one step closer to your New Year's Resolution to work outside of sales.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 30, 2018, 05:16:31 AM
So you're saying this is a secret brag for the success thread?

 :shaqc
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Reb on January 30, 2018, 06:33:46 AM
It's time to fire up the soup and grilled cheese truck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 30, 2018, 09:32:32 AM
Got fired today

Work in sales brehs

Fuck, that sucks.  Didn't you move to another country for this job, too?  Is that going to cause any problems?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on January 30, 2018, 09:33:12 AM
Sorry to hear that , Lager.  :(
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Post by: Tasty on January 30, 2018, 09:35:45 AM
There's always money in the banana stand.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on January 30, 2018, 10:26:29 AM
Now you can use all the skills you acquired at your old job to sell something that actually has value: yourself
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 30, 2018, 11:04:27 AM
Got fired today

Work in sales brehs
Sucks man.
But to be fair, I think you had moved from the "Oh man, what if I get fired today?!" sentiment to the "Oh man, what I DON'T get fired today?!" mood.
Maybe I'm wrong and it sucks to be without a job, but still.  Maybe this will get you into a better position in the end.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 30, 2018, 11:55:08 AM
Ill write something quasi meaninful when this flu is over, went in sick today to show commitment :)

It will boil down to:  think its for the better
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on January 30, 2018, 12:39:09 PM
My grandmother isn't doing very well and we were told she'll probably pass away in the next few days.  Knew this was coming because she has been getting progressively worse over the past six months or so.  The last time I saw her was at her 94th birthday party last summer.  She was pretty coherent and since then has gotten pretty bad dementia and other problems.  Haven't seen her since because I don't want to remember her that way.  Just hope she goes peacefully.  :(

Sorry to hear this, I wish pets and grandparents lived forever. :<
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on January 30, 2018, 04:15:59 PM
She passed away earlier this morning.  Heard it was peacefully and that's all I wanted from this.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 30, 2018, 04:17:09 PM
Condolences man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 30, 2018, 04:34:16 PM
Got fired today

Work in sales brehs

Sorry to hear. I got hit earlier this month :(

Hope things are looking better soon.
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Post by: shosta on January 30, 2018, 05:21:46 PM
^ shitty thing to say
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Post by: hungrynoob on January 30, 2018, 05:25:44 PM
the only socialist country in europe is portugal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on January 30, 2018, 05:44:57 PM
Lol he got fired in socialist Europe. Welfare bro. He'll be fine.

what is wrong with you
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 30, 2018, 10:47:18 PM
Lol he got fired in socialist Europe. Welfare bro. He'll be fine.
Pretty sure, at least he's gotten laid. So....
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 31, 2018, 01:52:26 AM
Condolences on your grandma :(
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Post by: agrajag on January 31, 2018, 02:01:21 AM
my condolences, Bork  :-\
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Post by: hungrynoob on January 31, 2018, 08:55:54 AM
i think youre a confused individual in general
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 31, 2018, 09:10:15 AM
Got rejected at the initial résumé submission at a company for being too old. Before you ask, no, Japan does not have laws against this stuff.


Got fired today

Work in sales brehs

You'll land somewhere better soon. That place always made you nervous.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on January 31, 2018, 10:25:47 AM
Aren;t japanese men basically forced to work until age 80? On like 4 jobs?
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Post by: hungrynoob on January 31, 2018, 10:29:48 AM
loyalty is just as important so moving jobs a lot, especially in career sectors is a big nono. or something like that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on January 31, 2018, 01:26:49 PM
Aren;t japanese men basically forced to work until age 80? On like 4 jobs?
If by 80 you mean 90, and rotting away in the same job for 40 years then yeah.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on January 31, 2018, 02:25:34 PM
 :yeshrug

In any case, I do hope Chrono slowly stood up and walked out the room, put some sunglasses on and slowly looked back, saying "I'll be back."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 31, 2018, 03:00:54 PM
Got rejected at the initial résumé submission at a company for being too old. Before you ask, no, Japan does not have laws against this stuff.


Got fired today

Work in sales brehs

You'll land somewhere better soon. That place always made you nervous.

So they actually tell you you are too old?

You are right about my job, always nervous
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 31, 2018, 09:34:26 PM
Got rejected at the initial résumé submission at a company for being too old. Before you ask, no, Japan does not have laws against this stuff.


Got fired today

Work in sales brehs

You'll land somewhere better soon. That place always made you nervous.

So they actually tell you you are too old?

You are right about my job, always nervous

In this case, the info came indirectly, but it’s common here to see Help Wanted signs up which specify the allowed age ranges, always with a maximum.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 31, 2018, 09:37:17 PM
Aren;t japanese men basically forced to work until age 80? On like 4 jobs?

 Japan still likes to pretend that it is the land of lifetime employment at any company.

The understanding is that the company may ask you to move somewhere or do jobs that are not specific to your skills if they don’t have someone else to do it, basically anything for the company at any time.

However, lifetime employment has continued to decrease ever since the Japanese economic bubble collapsed in the 1980s.

There is more transience in game development than in other Japanese industry, but it’s largely unacknowledged.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 01, 2018, 12:21:43 PM
Dad called me and told me grandma had an aneurysm and was in a coma

Whatsapped my cousin and he said she died

Talked to dad again and he said he was trying to ease me into it and she actually died

Funeral prob next week

What a week
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 01, 2018, 12:36:09 PM
Sorry man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 01, 2018, 12:40:33 PM
Thx

At least i got time to go there now that i got fired

I tried calling her last week but both numbers I had didnt work, was meaning to ask my dad for the right ones but now its too late :(

Very odd that today I finally fixed a magnifying glass she gave my daugther last summer, I was reflecting on the fact such a small thing is a beautiful memory and then hours later she is gone
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on February 01, 2018, 05:14:21 PM
:( Hope you get through this alright man. Bless up. :heart
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on February 01, 2018, 07:38:18 PM
Order will come back into your life when its ready, take care of yourself. Sorry to hear shit hit the fan so quickly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 01, 2018, 09:01:04 PM
Sorry for you loss, Lager. Maybe this gives you time to process your grandmother's passing with more time for reflection?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 02, 2018, 01:14:01 AM
I now lost 3 grandparents in the last 13 months, still 1 left.

Maybe it's corny to say but the death of a close person always makes you feel more alive and put many things into perspective. Family and people > everything else.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 03, 2018, 03:52:43 AM
Remember things could always be worse

http://www.newsweek.com/new-york-lottery-winner-dies-weeks-after-scooping-jackpot-796957
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 03, 2018, 12:45:22 PM
Oh boy... I thought I was doing better in December but it's not going well at all right now. I barely have energy left for cooking and cleaning and shit. :fbm I better change shit up fast or else things will get worse I feel. Hopefully that will happen sooner rather than later.

This is the worst thing about depression. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 04, 2018, 02:59:08 AM
In addition to being turned down at résumé review for being too old,  I just pulled an errant chest hair which seemed to be getting out of control, and it was as long as a Star Wars action figure.  Many of its former neighbors are white hairs. I am definitely older than I feel, which I guess is a good thing. We hope to see so much proof though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on February 04, 2018, 04:18:57 AM
In addition to being turned down at résumé review for being too old,  I just pulled an errant chest hair which seemed to be getting out of control, and it was as long as a Star Wars action figure.  Many of its former neighbors are white hairs. I am definitely older than I feel, which I guess is a good thing. We hope to see so much proof though.

I think you will not be alone around here to go through that experience, given the ages of some of us. I have silver hair brushes around my temples now and just like you chest hair who I never paid mind too before has gotten denser, probably will have to roughly shave them infrequently. Mentally, it's not like a switch is instantly flipped in your head, you're still yourself and said yourself has been young for all of its life at that point. Yet I myself am at the point you start to notice (or are being notified by society though job research, lodging research, etc...) you're slipping out of that gold 20-35 bracket where carelessness and instability is allowed if not expected and are now turning into a flaw.

TLDR : this place is gonna be hilarious ten years from now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 05, 2018, 08:02:54 AM
At the current trend of halfing in size (topics created and posts) every second year the Bore will have less then 10 posts per day in 10 years and a handfull of topics per month.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 06, 2018, 10:17:55 AM
Fuck internal auditors.
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Post by: hungrynoob on February 06, 2018, 02:13:14 PM
Fuck internal auditors.

hi

what did they pull you up for?
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Post by: Mupepe on February 06, 2018, 03:22:16 PM
Nothing.  They're just doing random checks for supporting documentation which is a PITA in itself... but my experience tells me they won't know how to interpret it so then I'm going to have to spend a ridiculous amount of hours recreating a bunch of numbers for them and walking them through the documentation.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on February 06, 2018, 03:29:32 PM
have you ever done internal auditing before?
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Post by: Mupepe on February 06, 2018, 06:42:19 PM
of course not!  I still have my soul
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Post by: shosta on February 07, 2018, 04:43:34 AM
.
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Post by: VomKriege on February 07, 2018, 05:14:35 AM
Got better though ? I guess that's the important part.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on February 15, 2018, 12:33:55 PM
My brother in law shot and killed himself last week. Spent the week out in Utah for the funeral and to help out. Left behind three kids. Hold me brehs.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 15, 2018, 12:42:42 PM
Ouch, sorry man
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Post by: Joe Molotov on February 15, 2018, 01:24:44 PM
I'm sorry, Steve. :(
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Post by: Valkyrie on February 15, 2018, 02:37:53 PM
Jesus christ, that's heavy.. I'm sorry to hear that, Steve. :'( *internet hugs*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on February 15, 2018, 04:02:51 PM
Fuck. Best, man.
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Post by: TVC15 on February 15, 2018, 07:41:44 PM
Didn’t get the job I interviewed for last week. Feeling really discouraged right now :(
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Post by: TVC15 on February 23, 2018, 11:48:59 PM
Accidentally clicked the One Piece thread.

 :donot :donot :donot

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Post by: shosta on February 23, 2018, 11:51:18 PM
Las Vegas is awful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on February 24, 2018, 05:11:54 AM
Las Vegas is awful.

A city in the middle of a fucking wasteland, composed almost exclusively of hotel/casinos and fast-food style wedding facilities, is trash?

Colour me fucking flabbergasted.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 27, 2018, 06:46:54 PM
A work friend got the call that her father died while we were in a meeting today and she completely broke down.  It was the most gut wrenching thing I have seen.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 27, 2018, 08:00:03 PM
Man contra that's rough.  I'm sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on February 28, 2018, 08:46:38 AM
Las Vegas is awful.

If it weren't for the shows I saw, it was my least favorite trip.

At least it was cheap.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on February 28, 2018, 09:04:13 AM
students/residents are usually able to help with work load/easy tasks for me

but man this month they are so garbage that they are taking up all my time and unable to help

of course it's the busiest month of the year, mid flu season.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on February 28, 2018, 09:05:21 AM
I'm not even mad when they show up late and make excuses to leave early.
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Post by: Raist on March 01, 2018, 01:47:01 AM
Lol students.
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Post by: Tasty on March 01, 2018, 02:18:14 AM
students. :phil

Fixed.

(College-aged, no-Amirox.)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on March 01, 2018, 05:49:10 AM
In my experience the vast majority of post-grad students these days are useless.

"Hi, I'm gonna do a PhD. But just do 9 to 5 and take every week-end off. And also not listen to anything and do whatevs I want."

Fucking millenials.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 07, 2018, 01:52:34 AM
My brother in law shot and killed himself last week. Spent the week out in Utah for the funeral and to help out. Left behind three kids. Hold me brehs.  :'(
Sorry for your loss. More sorry for his poor children.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 09, 2018, 12:30:33 PM
Life hack! If you can't afford shaving cream, use hand soap.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 09, 2018, 01:08:35 PM
Hair conditioner is much better than soap! Soap often makes your skin really dry, increases the chance of ingrown hair, red bumps and dry skin afterwards.
That's just my experience though, no idea what works the best for dudes since your hair is usually a lot more coarse. I only ever shave my legs with hot water and a thick hair conditioner.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 09, 2018, 01:23:39 PM
Any kind of lubricant should work.
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Post by: zomgee on March 09, 2018, 02:02:53 PM
Any kind of lubricant should work.

newsfeed pls
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 09, 2018, 08:21:32 PM
Simultaneously relieved I got a jerb and infuriated I took a 50% pay cut to a miserable $7.30 an hour. Lowest point in my life but you have to do what you have to do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 09, 2018, 08:25:49 PM
No money is definitely lower than some money.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 11, 2018, 08:08:05 AM
People can be so fucking vile.

Get backstabbed, brehs.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on March 11, 2018, 09:22:27 AM
People can be so fucking vile.

Get backstabbed, brehs.

Ouch. :fbm

I had some pretty shitty experiences with people who I thought were my close friends when I was younger, kinda made me keep everyone at an arm's length. And yes I have trust issues now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on March 11, 2018, 09:24:41 AM
People can be so fucking vile.

Get backstabbed, brehs.

Doesn't sound pleasant whatever it is  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 11, 2018, 02:16:47 PM
People can be so fucking vile.

Get backstabbed, brehs.
:/

Being betrayed is like having the whole world fall out from underneath you. I'm sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 11, 2018, 06:49:10 PM
Imagine how the Starks felt after the red wedding. Whew. That’s some next level fucking betrayal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on March 11, 2018, 08:51:20 PM
likes are virtual support high fives

Now I don't feel bad liking people's misfortunes when they post them.
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Post by: shosta on March 11, 2018, 09:04:44 PM
although a filler like is a little bit like someone tickling your butthole.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on March 11, 2018, 09:46:47 PM

likes from filler are virtual b-hole tongue tickles

Now I feel less guilty and also a little excited for a filler like.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 11, 2018, 10:17:10 PM
I'll put crystal meth shards up all of your assholes, then fuck you silly and you'll love me for it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on March 11, 2018, 10:23:32 PM
I'll put crystal meth shards up all of your assholes, then fuck you silly and you'll love me for it.

Doing meth that way is non-habit forming right?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 11, 2018, 10:29:56 PM
I don't recommend that anyone do drugs, but I also don't discourage anyone either. Play safe, kids!



Anything but the needle should be fine, people tend to go overboard when they try the needle and it's all bad. It really just depends on the individual. I know people who only smoke and lose control. I've enjoyed it from time to time, but I can also walk away from it no problem. Proceed with caution.

Maybe try a low dose of adderall first. Probably the safer route. 
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Post by: shosta on March 11, 2018, 10:35:58 PM
 :oreilly
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Post by: shosta on March 11, 2018, 10:37:06 PM
I had sex with a meth addict once. Honestly, best sex I've ever had. I could stick my dick in a hoover and it wouldn't suck that hard. Thighs like vice grips. If I ever get kidney stones I know who to call.
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Post by: team filler on March 11, 2018, 10:38:06 PM
 :mynicca
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on March 11, 2018, 11:18:49 PM
These are not strugs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 12, 2018, 12:59:59 AM
just say no to strugs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 12, 2018, 08:07:32 PM
Simultaneously relieved I got a jerb and infuriated I took a 50% pay cut to a miserable $7.30 an hour. Lowest point in my life but you have to do what you have to do.

Good on you for doing whatcha gotta do. You’re an insightful dude, and smart. You’ll see a better opportunity soon.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 12, 2018, 08:43:18 PM
So Despite my profession I’m not exactly anti drug

But ugh staying away from meth is almost always good advice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on March 13, 2018, 06:15:50 AM
... almost?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 13, 2018, 08:10:31 AM
You never know when you’re being attacked by a lion and being amped up on methamphetamines could be useful
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 13, 2018, 11:19:10 AM
My Aunt died two weeks ago. My wife's uncle died last night. :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 13, 2018, 11:23:30 AM
 :(  Sorry, Puppy
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Post by: Valkyrie on March 13, 2018, 12:09:51 PM
That’s awful, sorry to hear, Puppy. :(
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Post by: agrajag on March 13, 2018, 12:13:16 PM
Sorry to hear that
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Post by: shosta on March 13, 2018, 02:22:38 PM
Sorry puppy... That's awful news.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 13, 2018, 02:43:14 PM
Sorry man
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Post by: Brehvolution on March 13, 2018, 02:43:17 PM
Sorry for your loss, puppy.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on March 13, 2018, 02:43:19 PM
My Aunt died two weeks ago. My wife's uncle died last night. :goty

I had a couple youngish cousins die in a relatively close time frame and there is a surreal disconnect that happens. You go through the stages of grief at different stages for each person at the same time. I would imagine it's like having multiple personalities or something. You feel guilt for not thinking about the other person when you're thinking about the first person.

I'm really sorry, just take some time for yourself and your wife as well.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on March 14, 2018, 01:44:38 AM
While not amazingly awful or something I wont get over, today I had a pretty bad experience with someone I considered a brother. And I just want to type it out so it's out there. And I find sharing my problems makes me feel better about them.

Today amongst a group of friends and acquaintances someone I consider pretty much my best friend called me a loser in a very malicious way. I'm not even quite sure what it was over. It was actually quite dumb. I'm embarrassed to even reval what began this argument honestly. It was about Player Unknown sucked because of it's performance on his computer to which I then replied that my computer ran it great. Then began his tantrum over how I bought it with my tax return and not money I earned which then transition how I'm a loser because I haven't finished school, haven't done this, don't have the responsibilities like he does, is able to live fancy free.

It really hurt because well I really respect this person. But this is how they seem to view me.

A little backstory about my friend. He had to join the Air Force because his parents forced him to. He dosen't like it. And honestly I feel I understand why he had this outburst. I think he dislikes his life honestly. He makes comments about how he dosen't have a social life. On the phone you hear nothing but his announces with his girl friend while he tries to play video games. This is'nt the first outrage and they usually happen when other people are around. He'd never admit it, but I think he's really insecure.

But if you know my history, a route cause of my depression was because of how behind in life I feel I am. This is something I've talked to with my friend many times about and usually the response from him was that everything is ok.

But then to have this rant thrown at me and then followed up with a an apology, but still saying "I still think everything I said is true". well....that really hurt and I kind of don't want to talk with this person for a long time.

I don't know I've been feeling better about life and trying to be more social and outgoing, but still sucks to have these things come up every so often.
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Post by: Rahxephon91 on March 14, 2018, 01:45:04 AM
And every time I try to re-up my avatar it dosen't work.
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Post by: shosta on March 14, 2018, 01:46:17 AM
remove the https
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Post by: team filler on March 14, 2018, 01:51:00 AM
As of March 1, 2018, all avatars need to be hentai or hentai related. Those that are not have been grandfathered in, ignore them. Thank you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on March 14, 2018, 02:17:15 AM
While not amazingly awful or something I wont get over, today I had a pretty bad experience with someone I considered a brother. And I just want to type it out so it's out there. And I find sharing my problems makes me feel better about them.

Today amongst a group of friends and acquaintances someone I consider pretty much my best friend called me a loser in a very malicious way. I'm not even quite sure what it was over. It was actually quite dumb. I'm embarrassed to even reval what began this argument honestly. It was about Player Unknown sucked because of it's performance on his computer to which I then replied that my computer ran it great. Then began his tantrum over how I bought it with my tax return and not money I earned which then transition how I'm a loser because I haven't finished school, haven't done this, don't have the responsibilities like he does, is able to live fancy free.

It really hurt because well I really respect this person. But this is how they seem to view me.

A little backstory about my friend. He had to join the Air Force because his parents forced him to. He dosen't like it. And honestly I feel I understand why he had this outburst. I think he dislikes his life honestly. He makes comments about how he dosen't have a social life. On the phone you hear nothing but his announces with his girl friend while he tries to play video games. This is'nt the first outrage and they usually happen when other people are around. He'd never admit it, but I think he's really insecure.

But if you know my history, a route cause of my depression was because of how behind in life I feel I am. This is something I've talked to with my friend many times about and usually the response from him was that everything is ok.

But then to have this rant thrown at me and then followed up with a an apology, but still saying "I still think everything I said is true". well....that really hurt and I kind of don't want to talk with this person for a long time.

I don't know I've been feeling better about life and trying to be more social and outgoing, but still sucks to have these things come up every so often.

It's a dumb argument over a dumb vidya. No reason to "don't want to talk with this person for a long time" you muppet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on March 14, 2018, 02:21:48 AM
While not amazingly awful or something I wont get over, today I had a pretty bad experience with someone I considered a brother. And I just want to type it out so it's out there. And I find sharing my problems makes me feel better about them.

Today amongst a group of friends and acquaintances someone I consider pretty much my best friend called me a loser in a very malicious way. I'm not even quite sure what it was over. It was actually quite dumb. I'm embarrassed to even reval what began this argument honestly. It was about Player Unknown sucked because of it's performance on his computer to which I then replied that my computer ran it great. Then began his tantrum over how I bought it with my tax return and not money I earned which then transition how I'm a loser because I haven't finished school, haven't done this, don't have the responsibilities like he does, is able to live fancy free.

It really hurt because well I really respect this person. But this is how they seem to view me.

A little backstory about my friend. He had to join the Air Force because his parents forced him to. He dosen't like it. And honestly I feel I understand why he had this outburst. I think he dislikes his life honestly. He makes comments about how he dosen't have a social life. On the phone you hear nothing but his announces with his girl friend while he tries to play video games. This is'nt the first outrage and they usually happen when other people are around. He'd never admit it, but I think he's really insecure.

But if you know my history, a route cause of my depression was because of how behind in life I feel I am. This is something I've talked to with my friend many times about and usually the response from him was that everything is ok.

But then to have this rant thrown at me and then followed up with a an apology, but still saying "I still think everything I said is true". well....that really hurt and I kind of don't want to talk with this person for a long time.

I don't know I've been feeling better about life and trying to be more social and outgoing, but still sucks to have these things come up every so often.

It's a dumb argument over a dumb vidya. No reason to "don't want to talk with this person for a long time" you muppet.
Well no....because it actually had nothing to do with the game. That was just the starting point. It wasn't even an argument. The person just snapped at me and then decided to dig into me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on March 14, 2018, 02:25:52 AM
People say dumb shit, especially when they're having  a shit time.

Recommended attitude : :yeshrug
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on March 14, 2018, 02:33:26 AM
I guess, but I usually don't tell people I consider friends they are peices of shit and that they are losers in life randomly when there is no provocation. Even when I'm a little ticked off.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on March 14, 2018, 02:55:53 AM
I guess, but I usually don't tell people I consider friends they are peices of shit and that they are losers in life randomly when there is no provocation. Even when I'm a little ticked off.

Yeah, while I wouldn't break up my friendship over something like this, I'd be seriously miffed for a time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 14, 2018, 03:01:11 AM
your friends are supposed to tell you if you're a loser. nobody else will.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on March 14, 2018, 03:05:41 AM
Yeah.....that's not what this was.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: StealthFan on March 14, 2018, 03:08:25 AM
nah i'd ditch that nicca. he thinks you're slime and was in a bad enough mood to air that shit out. drop him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 14, 2018, 03:18:50 AM
While not amazingly awful or something I wont get over, today I had a pretty bad experience with someone I considered a brother. And I just want to type it out so it's out there. And I find sharing my problems makes me feel better about them.

Today amongst a group of friends and acquaintances someone I consider pretty much my best friend called me a loser in a very malicious way. I'm not even quite sure what it was over. It was actually quite dumb. I'm embarrassed to even reval what began this argument honestly. It was about Player Unknown sucked because of it's performance on his computer to which I then replied that my computer ran it great. Then began his tantrum over how I bought it with my tax return and not money I earned which then transition how I'm a loser because I haven't finished school, haven't done this, don't have the responsibilities like he does, is able to live fancy free.

It really hurt because well I really respect this person. But this is how they seem to view me.

A little backstory about my friend. He had to join the Air Force because his parents forced him to. He dosen't like it. And honestly I feel I understand why he had this outburst. I think he dislikes his life honestly. He makes comments about how he dosen't have a social life. On the phone you hear nothing but his announces with his girl friend while he tries to play video games. This is'nt the first outrage and they usually happen when other people are around. He'd never admit it, but I think he's really insecure.

But if you know my history, a route cause of my depression was because of how behind in life I feel I am. This is something I've talked to with my friend many times about and usually the response from him was that everything is ok.

But then to have this rant thrown at me and then followed up with a an apology, but still saying "I still think everything I said is true". well....that really hurt and I kind of don't want to talk with this person for a long time.

I don't know I've been feeling better about life and trying to be more social and outgoing, but still sucks to have these things come up every so often.

It's a dumb argument over a dumb vidya. No reason to "don't want to talk with this person for a long time" you muppet.
Well no....because it actually had nothing to do with the game. That was just the starting point. It wasn't even an argument. The person just snapped at me and then decided to dig into me.

I’d take a break for a bit then give him another chance. I’ve been trapped in “I hate my life” situations before and have snapped and done some stupid things, including shitting on friends. If he pulls this shit again, I’d probably drop him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 14, 2018, 04:16:12 AM
Sounds like he has issues. Give him some space. But I never give emotional access to someone who is careless with my feelings.

Surround yourself with people you respect. Your friends are a mirror of who you are.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 14, 2018, 09:32:14 AM
While what he said is definitely shitty, don't take it all to heart.  When people try to hurt you they'll often take your own insecurities and throw them back at you.  There's a good chance he said those specific things not because he believes them but because he knew they'd hurt you. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on March 14, 2018, 10:34:10 AM
Sounds like your friend has a shitty life and doesn't hesitate to lash out when he feels others are doing even slightly better. This will keep happening until your friend either changes his outlook on life or actually improves his own. Until then I'd keep him at arms'-length, personally.

Imagine if you did something that actually mattered (vs having a slightly better PC to play vidya), like get a degree, or a good job, or a GF. There's no doubt in my mind this "friend" would privately be jealous and possibly even publicly shit all over it. You don't need that, man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 14, 2018, 05:43:33 PM
lost my job lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on March 14, 2018, 05:46:17 PM
'cause you stayed at home watching crappy movies?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 14, 2018, 06:03:34 PM
Nah, it's stupid. Anyway I'm undeterred. Life is full of challenges but just have faith it gets better if you do the right thing, you know?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 14, 2018, 06:16:46 PM
lost my job lol
Man, that sucks, so quick? Hope you find something soon you can stick and rock with!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on March 14, 2018, 06:33:36 PM
Didn't want to sound callous. Hope you get back on your feet!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 14, 2018, 06:39:59 PM
Look at it this way, at 11 you have your whole life in front of you!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 14, 2018, 06:42:18 PM
You don't understand, Puppy. Just last week I was 16. I'm coming close to the end of my rope.
 :rkelly
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 14, 2018, 06:54:43 PM
You don't understand, Puppy. Just last week I was 16. I'm coming close to the end of my rope.
 :rkelly
(https://i.imgur.com/AEDcj36.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on March 14, 2018, 11:59:37 PM
Wait didn't you just get a job with half the pay of your last one? You lost that already? :thinking
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 15, 2018, 11:07:09 AM
Could be a blessing in disguise. :larry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 15, 2018, 03:58:49 PM
Could be a blessing in disguise. :larry

Yeah, that company really dodged a bullet.  :umad

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 15, 2018, 10:28:12 PM
Nah, it's stupid. Anyway I'm undeterred. Life is full of challenges but just have faith it gets better if you do the right thing, you know?

:respect
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 17, 2018, 10:01:52 PM
My brother has been dead for 15 years as of today and I just remembered :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on March 18, 2018, 04:19:43 AM
My grandma fell in her living room and broke her hand and her hip, so she was taken to the hospital for surgery. I haven’t been there since she’s not allowed visitors yet, but really hoping to go tomorrow or whenever they will let us.

I feel so bad for her because she was still recovering from a shoulder surgery, which was already making her unable to do a lot of things. She’s a skinny old lady, but I’m still surprised by how little it takes for old people to break their bones. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: desert punk on March 18, 2018, 04:43:50 AM
I really hope the best for your grandma. Mine never really recuperated after she fell down, though admittedly she was already sick and feeble before that happened.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on March 18, 2018, 01:34:05 PM
hoping for a speedy recovery, this stuff is always scary. Def. go see her as soon as you can  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 18, 2018, 07:05:18 PM
Yeah, being emotionally supported is critical to recovery. Older people sometimes feel like a burden, so feeling needed and appreciated raises their will to live.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 18, 2018, 07:27:20 PM
There, there Chrono.  We all really like your posts and still need you around! 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 20, 2018, 05:13:46 PM
Pretty sure I’m going to have to get a second job to keep my family afloat  :usacry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 24, 2018, 10:40:24 PM
I fucking hate airlines. Unless you call and get a manager no one has any ability to make reasonable exceptions. So on my non-refundable Korean Air flight ticket my 2nd connecting flight’s time was changed after I bought it to 20 mins earlier and it was already a tight connection. This seems super fucked up.

I’ve got 55 min layover in Korea and flights leaving to Korea are on average 10-20 mins late on leaving. The airline policy is min connection time is 45 mins and they’ll put you on an earlier departing flight if your connection is 45 mins, but at 55 mins I don’t qualify and they wanted $450 to change to the earlier flight which has empty seats. So again, a 10 min difference at an airport that usually has the flight I’m on run 10-20 mins late and they won’t make an exception.

Korea airport is not the quickest connector either. Have to re queue through security again and it’s a big terminal to walk across.

50/50 chance I’m staying in Korea tonight.

Anyhow it should be illegal to change the time of flights after you’ve bought a non-refundable ticket without alerting you and giving you the option to reschedule times or refund. Apparently they feel a 20 min change is insignificant, but 20 mins is the differnce between making it on the plane or just missing it...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 25, 2018, 12:40:48 AM
Pretty sure I’m going to have to get a second job to keep my family afloat  :usacry

Wow how is that?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 25, 2018, 01:18:48 PM
Pretty sure I’m going to have to get a second job to keep my family afloat  :usacry

I'm working a full time job (Ph.D.) and a part time at a start up right now.  It's brutal.

Also, my anxiety and stress are killing me the last two weeks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 26, 2018, 01:37:35 AM
My chest/heart/lungs are so fucked.

When I lay down to sleep, as soon as I get into the sleepy mindset and my breathing is supposed to get slow and deep, my breathing stops and I immediately snap to adrenaline awake.

The area of my heart hurts almost all the time. It’s a very bruise-y ache kind of pain. It’s much worse when I lay down. The pain area sleeps through my body to my back and onto my left shoulder.

The only position I can sleep in is sitting up while leaning forward. Leaning forward relieves the pain in general. The problem is that I have no good chairs for this in my apartment, so I’ve been trying to sleep sitting on the floor in the corner, so I have one wall bracing me up. Even with that precaution, the “leaning forward” position has my falling forward or to my unbraced side after only a little bit. Longest sleep I’ve gotten is 40 minutes. The position is also not a guarantee of sleep or pain relief.

I’m extremely tired and very weak. I got winded lifting my MacBook Pro from its place into my bag. I walked less than a mile and was so dizzy I had to sit down. I was covered in sweat. It was like 5-10 minutes of effort in cool weather.

I hope things get better soon. I can’t sleep now. I got like ~4 hours total yesterday and I’m so exhausted and I can’t sleep now. I have to look for jobs and do phone interviews, but I feel like I’m dying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 26, 2018, 01:41:11 AM
don't die on me, bb. go to doctor, pls  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 26, 2018, 01:42:23 AM
don't die on me, bb. go to doctor, pls  :-\

Do I look like the kind of millionaire that can afford to go to hospitals and see doctors? That’s not happening until I’m incapacitated or dead.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 26, 2018, 03:46:30 AM
thoughts and prayers




P.S. can I have your stuff?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Forgotten A. Turnbuckle on March 26, 2018, 03:13:50 PM
I can't tell what's real or fake, but if TVC needs to see and can't afford to why not look for a handout via a gofundme or similar?  I donated to "Amirox's Mom" and I would gladly donate to the TVC chest/gut/lungs/ass campaign.  Plenty of us would.  Karmic balance, if not for anything else. 

Heh, I feel stupid for even mentioning it but what the fuck ever.  Not sure if this is a work, a shoot, a worked shoot or what but if it's legit don't be too proud a slut to ask for some help.
:money
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on March 26, 2018, 03:18:24 PM
I believe TVC is between jobs and I'd guess that puts his insurance situation up in the air. Might be worth hitting up a free clinic if there are any available before you end up in the ER though, or god forbid an Ambulance ride to the tune of four figures
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Forgotten A. Turnbuckle on March 26, 2018, 03:28:29 PM
I believe TVC is between jobs and I'd guess that puts his insurance situation up in the air. Might be worth hitting up a free clinic if there are any available before you end up in the ER though, or god forbid an Ambulance ride to the tune of four figures

I just hope if he needs help to bridge that gap he doesn't rule out asking for some help here. 
Is what he's going through another "I ate tuna for a month and am going to die" episode or are these symptoms caused by something else? 

Ehh, probably getting too personal.  I'll shut up about it for now.   :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 26, 2018, 04:00:06 PM
Everything in that post is true. It started very suddenly Thursday.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 27, 2018, 02:15:24 AM
Experimenting with CBD tonight to see if it will let me sleep.

I know I’m supposed to be on break, but I’m kind of stuck in my apartment and bored :( I feel like hell.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 27, 2018, 11:26:08 AM
If anything, CBD made things worse. Going on day 3of no sleep.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 27, 2018, 11:39:17 AM
If anything, CBD made things worse. Going on day 3of no sleep.
That's odd. What ratio are you using?
I've used 18:1 and it helps take the edge off the day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on March 27, 2018, 11:45:47 AM
Got a call from the doctor's office today that they found nodules on my thyroid and that they would potentially have to monitor these nodules every couple of months.   :-\

This would explain why I feel tired/feel like shit most days.

I have another appointment with my doctor this April so I'll find out more then.

If anything, this is a wake up call for me to focus on stuff that actually matters to me and not waste time on nonsense/distractions.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 27, 2018, 12:21:27 PM
Got a call from the doctor's office today that they found nodules on my thyroid and that they would potentially have to monitor these nodules every couple of months.   :-\

This would explain why I feel tired/feel like shit most days.

I have another appointment with my doctor this April so I'll find out more then.

If anything, this is a wake up call for me to focus on stuff that actually matters to me and not waste time on nonsense/distractions.

You're our Captain Picard. /swoon :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 27, 2018, 12:34:53 PM
Take care of yourselves, dudes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 27, 2018, 12:53:41 PM
Sending good vibes your way, Atra and Whitey.

I talked to my mom last night and she laid out a lot of health issues my dad is having, including what they’re calling so far “mild cognitive impairment” and he has an MRI scheduled. Hard to face the reality of losing my dad through a decline in cognitive function, really hitting me hard, he’s too young for it (60s) and the other major health issue is a choleasteatoma in his ear that sounds like he’s going to need surgery on. I’m in a pretty depressive state with this and my finances becoming more and more of an issue. Life is hard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on March 27, 2018, 01:18:51 PM
If anything, CBD made things worse. Going on day 3of no sleep.
That's odd. What ratio are you using?
I've used 18:1 and it helps take the edge off the day.

edge off the day and relief from a potential specific medical issue arent even close.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 27, 2018, 02:02:32 PM
If anything, CBD made things worse. Going on day 3of no sleep.
That's odd. What ratio are you using?
I've used 18:1 and it helps take the edge off the day.

edge off the day and relief from a potential specific medical issue arent even close.
That's certainly true. I don't have the same medical issues by a long shot. Hang in there whitey/Atra/and CatsCubed.

All this sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 27, 2018, 09:10:47 PM
I had two phone appointments with doctors and they seem to think it’s all mental. I’m not sure I buy that. I’m seeing my doctor tomorrow and I guess he’ll run some tests.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 28, 2018, 05:01:06 AM
It’s impossible for me to sleep right now, between positional pain in my chest, heart palpitations, and racing thoughts. I’m going to be the doctor for a small seroquel dose or something tomorrow, but from what I’ve read, no sedative will help with palpitations.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 28, 2018, 05:04:38 AM
post in the bad vibes thread  8)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: hungrynoob on March 28, 2018, 09:48:49 AM
I had two phone appointments with doctors and they seem to think it’s all mental. I’m not sure I buy that. I’m seeing my doctor tomorrow and I guess he’ll run some tests.

When I had panic attacks, i struggled to breathe, became significantly unfitter, and constantly had this pain and thought process that I was going to die of a heart attack. Its definitely possible.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 28, 2018, 07:06:19 PM
My doctor thinks I’m crazy. He just gave me a big bottle of Xanax and said check back in a week.

It’s a good thing he doesn’t know how much I drink!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on March 28, 2018, 07:39:08 PM
I had two phone appointments with doctors and they seem to think it’s all mental. I’m not sure I buy that. I’m seeing my doctor tomorrow and I guess he’ll run some tests.

Panic attacks suck massively. And also generalized anxiety that's not a panic attack, but you just feel on edge all the time and can't calm yourself and you feel like you're gonna have a heart attack and nothing helps. It really sucks. Hope you can get things figured out one way or another and work towards a solution.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 28, 2018, 08:49:17 PM
I really wanted to die soon so I didn’t have to get another job :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 28, 2018, 09:04:18 PM
Same, tbh, especially in an accident. I would have that last moment where I know my AD&D will cover everything
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 28, 2018, 09:40:46 PM
Gary Gygax pays for the funeral?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 28, 2018, 09:59:23 PM
And the mortgage. And a couple hundred more thousand after that.

It’s a warm comforting blanket on my soul every time some asshole cuts me off on my motorcycle :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 29, 2018, 12:01:29 PM
That Xanax really worked. I conked the fuck out last night and had a wonderful dream. Cindi and I were selling children out of an elementary school nurses’s office, just like in the old days.

Seems like most of my other symptoms are lessened or gone, too. I feel fucking Xanax zombie tired though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on March 29, 2018, 12:47:02 PM
Sometimes I feel like I should be on Xans but at the same time I don’t want to fuck around with my brain chemistry too much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Forgotten A. Turnbuckle on March 29, 2018, 12:50:13 PM
That Xanax really worked. I conked the fuck out last night and had a wonderful dream. Cindi and I were selling children out of an elementary school nurses’s office, just like in the old days.

Seems like most of my other symptoms are lessened or gone, too. I feel fucking Xanax zombie tired though.

Throw some ambien into the mix.  You'll start having those dreams with Cindi while you're still awake.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on March 30, 2018, 11:26:46 PM
That Xanax really worked. I conked the fuck out last night and had a wonderful dream. Cindi and I were selling children out of an elementary school nurses’s office, just like in the old days.

Seems like most of my other symptoms are lessened or gone, too. I feel fucking Xanax zombie tired though.

bless up
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 04, 2018, 09:10:22 AM
So the restaurant I was working at has been struggling for a while now, and they just let us know that we will be closing the doors at the end of the week. I have a check coming up and probably another half a check for doing the closing inventory, cleaning up and making sure everything is squared away before we vacate the property. And then I also get a severance check and my insurance is good for a monthm

We knew it was going to close for a while, just not exactly when, but are still not allowed to tell the hourly employees anything, so they don't panic.  :-\ We're having a meeting with the HR director today at 1, and I assume she'll tell us to notify the staff.

Good thing is that I have a project lined up that will involve relocating to another state, for a lot more money and more room to grow.. but that's not until the earliest September. I don't want to take another chef job in the meanwhile though, just to dip in three-four months. I had the foresight to save up enough money to cover all my bills until september, and I'll probably drive uber or something during the summer.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 06, 2018, 09:24:34 PM
Still having trouble finding work. I don't know how I'm going to pay my court ordered fine next week, which would be a probation violation, and then an arrest warrant. I have a good feeling I'll find a job next week, though, I can feel it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Forgotten A. Turnbuckle on April 07, 2018, 04:40:42 AM
Vomit and diarrhea has been the story of my week.
The little one was sick for a few days, then my girlfriend, and now it's my turn.
They survived but I'm not sure I will.
I've never thrown up so much in my life.
Throat is on fire. Ass is on fire.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 08, 2018, 05:51:41 AM
Vomit and diarrhea has been the story of my week.
The little one was sick for a few days, then my girlfriend, and now it's my turn.
They survived but I'm not sure I will.
I've never thrown up so much in my life.
Throat is on fire. Ass is on fire.

If you survive, please use these as song lyrics.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 08, 2018, 12:57:33 PM
You could probably bag up your poop and sell it to TVC for a fair market price
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 08, 2018, 03:30:40 PM
Much like former disgraced ResetEra moderator and perennial pedobait Shostakovich, I am now jobless.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on April 08, 2018, 05:23:25 PM
That sucks man. Any potential new jobs?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 08, 2018, 06:29:42 PM
That sucks man. Any potential new jobs?

Yeah, I got a new gig lined up, but there's going to be a large employment gap. I saved up money though, so I should be doing alright for a while. Going to make the best of the time off and accomplish a few short term goals I have set for myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 08, 2018, 08:28:14 PM
I want to cook at home more, read a few books, start learning how to draw, eat more healthy, go to the gym more frequently. Since I am going to be able to have weekends off, I can actually start doing some leisurely things I enjoy, such as going to the beach. We have beautiful beaches here in South FL that I never take advantage of. I just finished taking a real estate pre-license course, so I plan on taking and passing the state license test over the summer. I don't plan on being a real estate agent, but I have a mild interest in the real estate investment. Hey, it worked out for our boy Donnie 

:trumps

 I also have to do a lot of research and draft a few menus for the new restaurant I'm gonna be opening. Knock on wood, the opening should be Octoberish, so I should start working full time again in September, and also moving. So mostly self-improvement and a few work related things.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on April 09, 2018, 02:47:10 PM
Dad has cancer. Prostate, which is good compared to others if it hasn't spread, but they're bot sure it hasn't so he has a battery of tests this week. Kind of need a break from bad news  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 09, 2018, 02:49:14 PM
Sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 09, 2018, 02:50:01 PM
That sucks Contra. Let me know if there's anything I can do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on April 09, 2018, 02:51:36 PM
:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 09, 2018, 02:52:12 PM
Sorry to hear that Contra  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on April 09, 2018, 02:57:59 PM
Thanks guys. These past two years  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on April 12, 2018, 07:13:54 PM
Sorry to hear that, Contra. Hope your dad beats it like a rented mule.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on April 12, 2018, 07:23:47 PM
 :'( :'( :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 13, 2018, 03:21:15 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 13, 2018, 03:24:58 PM
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I know the feel. The last place I was working at was losing 40k a month for a wee bit over a year before they pulled the plug.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 13, 2018, 03:34:29 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 13, 2018, 03:41:06 PM
Oh yes, if it was my own company it would be much more stressful. But I was still managing a number of employees and felt bad when I saw their morale going down the drain
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 13, 2018, 08:28:52 PM
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I think I've brought this up here. But 2 years ago we had our roughest year as a company. It was scary/really hard. But this last year was our best year so far. It was scary/really hard. In some ways dealing with success is harder than dealing with a lean year. Be careful what you wish for.
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Post by: Bebpo on April 14, 2018, 01:13:11 AM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on April 16, 2018, 06:47:54 PM
My dad's cancer has luckily not spread, which is like the only good news I've had in a while, and it's just like kinda good news.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 17, 2018, 01:38:34 PM
Pretty sure I just flunked another interview. Was going perfect, joking, she kept telling me how nice my smile was, and then she turns the page of my application and sees the DUI and it's like her stomach dropped right out of her asshole. 2 minutes later it was thank you for your time, and a lie about there being other applicants she had to go through, too (there wasn't, that's why they reached out).
 ┐('~`;)┌

But that's ok! Just gotta keep trying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 17, 2018, 02:01:21 PM
Damn, that sucks Shosta.

edit: there were so many moments during my youth where I could have and should have gotten a DUI but somehow I skated by.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 17, 2018, 02:02:34 PM
You get used to it, man. But there's a job out there for me somewhere. Economy's never been better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 17, 2018, 02:05:15 PM
Economy's never been better.

Keep telling yourself that bro. My industry has been ravaged by poor tourism.

Maybe you should consider working in the kitchen, we don't care that much about prior convictions.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 17, 2018, 02:06:43 PM
there were so many moments during my youth where I could have and should have gotten a DUI but somehow I skated by.
I mean I can't tell you how many times I should have gotten one, too, barreling down Sacramento streets after 3 tall beers. I used to drive to the grocery store drunk. They only caught me after I finally totalled my car!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on April 17, 2018, 02:11:53 PM
Ouch. I mean I've been pulled over drunk many times and the cops just let me get off with a warning every time #whiteprivelege. One time I was driving with my friend in the car and we were both shitfaced. The elderly cop told me to get in the passenger seat and my friend to drive. The sad part is that most of the times I got pulled over under the influence was because I had a broke tail light.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 17, 2018, 07:16:48 PM
Actually I got a callback and start Friday  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on April 17, 2018, 07:25:31 PM
there were so many moments during my youth where I could have and should have gotten a DUI but somehow I skated by.
I mean I can't tell you how many times I should have gotten one, too, barreling down Sacramento streets after 3 tall beers. I used to drive to the grocery store drunk. They only caught me after I finally totalled my car!

Slow down there, John Wayne.
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Post by: toku on April 17, 2018, 07:28:26 PM
bless up
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Post by: agrajag on April 17, 2018, 07:41:42 PM
there were so many moments during my youth where I could have and should have gotten a DUI but somehow I skated by.
I mean I can't tell you how many times I should have gotten one, too, barreling down Sacramento streets after 3 tall beers. I used to drive to the grocery store drunk. They only caught me after I finally totalled my car!

Slow down there, John Wayne.

Remember he's a cool young dude
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Post by: El Babua on April 18, 2018, 09:03:23 PM
Threw up while walking home then I realized I lost my keys
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 18, 2018, 09:44:09 PM
Do you usually keep them in your stomach?
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 18, 2018, 11:58:30 PM
Got a call today from my Mom, my dad apparently burst a vein in his leg. He had to be taken in ambulance to the hospital because they couldn't stop the bleeding. They stitched him up, but still scary, he could have bled out if things went differently. Also sorta scary to see how helpless my mom was, she was on the phone with my oldest brother asking him what to do. I've prepared myself for the fact that the inevitable will come from my parents just like everyone else, still it's scary when it looks you in the eye.  :-\
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 19, 2018, 07:07:47 PM
Sorry dude, Is he ok now?
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 19, 2018, 07:11:47 PM
Yeah, he's recovering but still scary.
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Post by: agrajag on April 19, 2018, 07:27:04 PM
sorry to hear that Ronito, hope he's doing better

My great aunt was in the hospital over the weekend with pneumonia. She's 94, so it was very scary. Got released yesterday and she's doing better.
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Post by: shosta on April 20, 2018, 06:27:53 PM
I apologize in advance for always sharing too much on this site. I don't have any other outlets so it all ends up on here.

I'm in a small predicament. Not worried, but it is annoying. Part of my probationary agreement was to enroll in a first offender program locally by a specific date and submit evidence of enrollment to the court. Enrollment requires a deposit, but I haven't had two pennies to pinch together, and I thought I would have had a job by then to pay for the fees. Well, that date is past, so now there's a warrant for my arrest. I notified my boss I wouldn't be available on the 28th so I could serve my one day jail sentence, but now if I show up to jail, they'll hold me until I can be arraigned, and who knows how long that would be. I would lose my job. And it's not like I can afford bail right now, anyway, nor do I think I'd be approved for a bond seeing as I'm delinquent on so many loans at the moment. So... part of me is just thinking I should be a no-show until I can get enrolled in a program. The increased difficulty is that I have to take a 15 hour greyhound bus just to get there (since I can't afford plane tickets there anymore). If I wanted to, I could just take my chances in perpetuity because it's not like they're going to chase down a guy across state lines for a misdemeanor DUI, but I really want to set things right with San Mateo county.

The system sucks!
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Post by: Valkyrie on April 30, 2018, 02:46:00 AM
My grandma fell in her living room and broke her hand and her hip, so she was taken to the hospital for surgery. I haven’t been there since she’s not allowed visitors yet, but really hoping to go tomorrow or whenever they will let us.

I feel so bad for her because she was still recovering from a shoulder surgery, which was already making her unable to do a lot of things. She’s a skinny old lady, but I’m still surprised by how little it takes for old people to break their bones. :(
She surprised us all by walking the week after her surgery. She seemed well awake, and to recover really fast. But ever since she got home she’s been showing clear signs of developing dementia.. her short term memory is sometimes worrying. She’ll forget things she shouldn’t, like how she called my mom twice within a couple of hours of each time to ask her for the same favor. She forgot she had called me on my birthday (3 times) the day after when I was visiting her. We haven’t said anything directly to her because I once saw how confused she was when I corrected her with something she had forgotten the same day it happened. It was heartbreaking. She forgot who did what, and that it was done. She often calls me by my mom’s name now (I know mixing names happens, but she doesn’t even correct herself anymore), and she’ll forget which one of us did certain things. She often asks us both the same favor. I try to just go along with most so she won’t feel bad about it, but it’s so heartbreaking to watch.. I’ve still got all 4 of my grandparents alive. I feel so incredibly grateful for it, but at the same time now I don’t know what it’s like to lose someone close. And this was not what I was expecting at all, I never thought my own grandma would become dement. I hope it’s a slow process... because even though she walks (often with a walker now) after surgery, she’s really frail and deteriorating. At least they live right up the street from me so I go there several times a week to check on them and to hang out.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 30, 2018, 10:35:10 AM
Dementia is so rough. I'm sorry Val.
My wife used to work in a group home for dementia patients.
There was one woman who kept on forgetting that her husband had died, so she'd wake up in a panic that they were gone and she'd have to be explained that her husband had died years ago. It was heartbreaking every time that happened.  :'(
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Post by: skullstorm on April 30, 2018, 10:47:42 AM
Sorry to hear that Valkyrie. Memory issues suck so much. Two of my grandparents had strokes and they started showing severe signs of dementia right away and very quickly deteriorated both physically and cognitively and it was truly heartbreaking and very shocking to witness. I really hope your grandma's memory issues won't worsen fast. Get her to a doctor asap, there might be some medications that could help.
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Post by: Mupepe on April 30, 2018, 10:50:53 AM
Dementia is so rough. I'm sorry Val.
My wife used to work in a group home for dementia patients.
There was one woman who kept on forgetting that her husband had died, so she'd wake up in a panic that they were gone and she'd have to be explained that her husband had died years ago. It was heartbreaking every time that happened.  :'(
Yeah I watched my great grandmother go through this.  My grandfather (her son in law) used to take care of her and when he died she deteriorated rapidly.  She used to ask when he was coming home and in the beginning my mom would explain that he had died but it became too painful for her she just started to tell her he was running late and would be home soon.  The first time we knew something was wrong, my brother, my sister and I were home alone with her.  We went into the kitchen and she started screaming and throwing things at us.  We locked ourselves in a room and called my uncle.  She didn't know who we were and thought we were there to rob her. 

The worst part was honestly when she was lucid.  We'd have her back again and it was great but you were just waiting for it to slip.  Dementia is some tough shit to go through.  I wish all the best to you and your family, Valkyrie. 
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Post by: Valkyrie on April 30, 2018, 02:03:03 PM
We went into the kitchen and she started screaming and throwing things at us.  We locked ourselves in a room and called my uncle.  She didn't know who we were and thought we were there to rob her.
Oh my god, that sounds horrible. I read that people with dementia will often get aggressive because they think people are lying to them, because they don't believe them.

My stepdad's dad forgot that his wife died, and one time he ran off to get into a cab trying to find his wife. :(
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Post by: Freyj on May 06, 2018, 06:06:26 PM
My neighbors are the worst white trash imaginable and have an above ground pool with an outdoor TV and stereo system setup. They don’t play music, they fucking blast country music with the bass turned up as far as it can go.

Last night they decided to have a karaoke party and around 7pm I hear this woman start crowing “these boots are made for walking” at the top of her lungs. I wish the worst things imaginable in life to happen to these people.
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Post by: team filler on May 07, 2018, 03:07:06 AM
 :lol
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 07, 2018, 07:54:31 AM
Sounds like they are walking all over you. 
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Post by: shosta on May 07, 2018, 08:36:46 PM
5 day notice to pay rent or quit because of that bank fraud shit I've still got going on
:lawd

Edit: I finally debased myself enough to ask someone to help me with rent.  :goty2
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Post by: G The Resurrected on May 09, 2018, 01:53:00 AM
My family has been on my ass guilting me into going to my Grandfather's memorial service (yeah he passed) in Phoenix. I can't afford the trip and I've been forward about my reasons for not going. Since the day he passed it's been the only thing they ask about. I'm always the initiator of any point of contact with that side of my life and I have never felt like I was part of the family since my parents divorced. For a family that hasn't cared about me for a vast majority of my life, they sure do give a fuck about me going to this service! I feel bad about my Grandfather's passing, but he had long been suffering since 2011 with dementia/alzheimer's. My father who I've rebuilt a relationship with is of course not having any of it, which is putting a strain on our relationship yet again. I'm expected to just drop everything and spend what money I have to travel on memorial day weekend to appease my family. What kind of family is that? Guilt tripping someone for their own selfish narcissistic reasons, just another reason I'm not very close to that family.

We also had a huge scare this week too. I drained a good amount of my monthly income on an unexpected vet bill for our kitty Catsworth. And while I'm pretty sure he will recover fully I don't think he'll be the same. He is at least taking well to his meds, even if he doesn't like them.

This along with the Missus losing her Grandmother a few weeks back and all the shit that brought up with her family, I'm drained emotionally and spent mentally.

I also fucked up my knee recently and so I haven't been able to keep up with my daily walk/runs at all. I need new shoes that can handle my weight and width, which is hard to find since I'm a half size/extra wide.

I'm focused on what I can do, but even that is getting hard lately. I want to just unplug from the stresses, but it's impossible to ignore them right now. Putting them off even for a day doesn't seem possible, but it is something I need for my sanity and soon.


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Post by: TVC15 on May 09, 2018, 01:58:40 AM
Sorry things are tough, Bz. Hope things pick up soon :(
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Post by: G The Resurrected on May 09, 2018, 02:04:23 AM
Sorry things are tough, Bz. Hope things pick up soon :(

Things will in time. I'm being positive, even if the day to day for a while is a bit bleak. I'll find a way to lighten the stress soon enough.
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Post by: chronovore on May 09, 2018, 07:03:07 PM
Sounds like they are walking all over you.

:rofl
:dead
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Post by: TVC15 on May 13, 2018, 09:25:23 AM
Thinking of renting a car and just driving away and trying to disappear.

I really don’t want the job I start tomorrow. I hate what I do and it’s a waste of my life.

Don’t know where I’d go, but I can’t live like that anymore. I can’t spend that much time doing something I really don’t want to do
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Post by: Nintex on May 13, 2018, 09:59:08 AM
Thinking of renting a car and just driving away and trying to disappear.

I really don’t want the job I start tomorrow. I hate what I do and it’s a waste of my life.

Don’t know where I’d go, but I can’t live like that anymore. I can’t spend that much time doing something I really don’t want to do
What's the job?
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Post by: TVC15 on May 13, 2018, 12:13:38 PM
It’s what I normally do. Computer related shit.
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Post by: Mupepe on May 13, 2018, 03:17:51 PM
Come to Houston. I’ll give you food and shelter to be one of my fuck holes. You’ll be free for about 21/22 hours a day to do as you please.
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Post by: shosta on May 13, 2018, 03:35:28 PM
21 out of 22 hours a day? Why are the days so short in Texas? Is it because you're closer to the equator and moving faster?
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Post by: TVC15 on May 13, 2018, 10:37:10 PM
Come to Houston. I’ll give you food and shelter to be one of my fuck holes. You’ll be free for about 21/22 hours a day to do as you please.

Eh, maybe. My first location is kinda already picked, but you could maybe be two. Need to look at a map.
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Post by: G The Resurrected on May 14, 2018, 01:31:50 AM
Thinking of renting a car and just driving away and trying to disappear.

I really don’t want the job I start tomorrow. I hate what I do and it’s a waste of my life.

Don’t know where I’d go, but I can’t live like that anymore. I can’t spend that much time doing something I really don’t want to do

Anyway I could learn what you do and work for you? Serious question...

I know work sucks, have you considered maybe that if you feel so strongly about it that you might want to find another occupation? Or at least maybe that you're not feeding that part of you that you need fed creatively? Maybe you need to make something for yourself or with people from the ground up, thus giving you more control of what you do.

If you wanna just go for a drive give your boi a call. We could hit up Santa Cruz or I can take you to Fresno.  :lol
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Post by: Mupepe on May 14, 2018, 07:51:17 AM
21 out of 22 hours a day? Why are the days so short in Texas? Is it because you're closer to the equator and moving faster?
you're taking the slash too literally.  It was 21 or 22 hours of the day.

Fucking math nerd

:heartbeat
Come to Houston. I’ll give you food and shelter to be one of my fuck holes. You’ll be free for about 21/22 hours a day to do as you please.

Eh, maybe. My first location is kinda already picked, but you could maybe be two. Need to look at a map.
I don't want sloppy seconds.  I don't step on someone else's slippery deck.
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Post by: shosta on May 14, 2018, 09:17:34 AM
It was a joke  :rkelly
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 14, 2018, 09:18:30 AM
Should have tried making it funny
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Post by: team filler on May 19, 2018, 12:52:59 AM
my like counts are way down lately :(
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Post by: team filler on May 19, 2018, 01:05:42 AM
still love you guys  :)
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Post by: shosta on May 19, 2018, 03:09:21 PM
I've been especially down lately and I keep feeling myself reach for my old coping mechanism. I'm not about to fuck up my probation, but it's really, really hard. 329 days sober.
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Post by: G The Resurrected on May 19, 2018, 05:15:35 PM
I've been especially down lately and I keep feeling myself reach for my old coping mechanism. I'm not about to fuck up my probation, but it's really, really hard. 329 days sober.

Take comfort in knowing you've come this far! Each day is a challenge an accomplishment. As time moves on things will become easier to cope with. You will have those days that make you want to do bad shit, but you have to remember it's just one day and tomorrow can always be a better day.
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Post by: zomgee on May 28, 2018, 04:25:27 AM
Absolutely miserable with yet another sinus infection. I feel like I get three of these a year.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 29, 2018, 05:24:57 AM
Got word back from a very nice and positive interview I went to.

They are in doubt because
-I come for a high paying job
-My wife has a managerial position, so who will take care of the kids when they are sick

Also my Danish is good but not perfect so they think it could be an issue in some situations, only legit point imho.

This is really depressing.
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Post by: brawndolicious on May 29, 2018, 11:24:45 AM
Do you mean your last job was paying significantly more than this one? That would be a legit point imo since a lot of people might take the job for a short term until they find something better.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 29, 2018, 12:27:23 PM
Yes

Btw that point about child sick days is illegal and I could sue
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Post by: shosta on May 30, 2018, 07:14:02 PM
About to fail my drug test because it's been three hours and I can't pee
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Post by: shosta on May 30, 2018, 07:39:01 PM
Failed
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 30, 2018, 07:41:46 PM
:(  How can you fail if you cant pee?
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Post by: shosta on May 30, 2018, 07:45:59 PM
Refusal to try. 3 hours is more than enough time but I have a shy bladder.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 30, 2018, 07:48:01 PM
That really sucks.  I also have a shy bladder.
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Post by: Great Rumbler on May 30, 2018, 08:22:01 PM
Refusal to try. 3 hours is more than enough time but I have a shy bladder.

Should have just slammed a Red Bull or something, you'd fill up like a dozen of those little cups in no time.
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Post by: shosta on May 30, 2018, 08:26:35 PM
I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.
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Post by: TVC15 on May 30, 2018, 08:31:19 PM
Refusal to try. 3 hours is more than enough time but I have a shy bladder.

Doesn’t pounding water for three hours straight work for you?

What happens now? You won’t get in trouble, right? I pissed hot for weed at least twice while on probation (but I guess three usually is the magic number).
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Post by: team filler on May 30, 2018, 08:53:59 PM
I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.
Everything is going to be okay, breh.  :)
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Post by: TVC15 on May 30, 2018, 09:04:09 PM
Yeah, dude. Relax. Your effort will eventually pay off.

Now stop making me feel bad for treating you like shit, please.
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Post by: team filler on May 30, 2018, 09:14:38 PM
filler can be harsh, but filler also cares. bless up, brehs  :-[
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 30, 2018, 09:14:41 PM
Maybe you just piss excellence 🤷‍♀️

Hang in there, whoever the fuck you are
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Post by: TVC15 on May 30, 2018, 09:16:33 PM
 Also, how do you have sex if you have a shy bladder? ??? ??? ???
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Post by: TVC15 on May 30, 2018, 09:27:21 PM
I think the dude sitting in front of me on BART is an albino btw
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 30, 2018, 09:30:36 PM
A homeless woman who likes to sit on my doorstep offered me a coke. :(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 31, 2018, 12:41:41 AM
Thats late stage capitalism
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2018, 12:43:01 AM
Seriously.  She clearly has some kind of mental disability too. 
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Post by: team filler on May 31, 2018, 12:45:08 AM
would you say she's retardedpressing childhood trauma?
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 31, 2018, 12:46:47 AM
Its really sweet of her, why did you put this in the struggle thread?
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Post by: seagrams hotsauce on May 31, 2018, 12:49:24 AM
are you on parole or probation shosta? i'm guessing from context clues that your piss was clean, the charges are substance related and that you haven't been to jail before since you said "I don't want to go to jail" and not "I don't want to go back to jail"
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Post by: team filler on May 31, 2018, 12:51:21 AM
hope you're feeling better, shtotka breh
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2018, 01:04:40 AM
Its really sweet of her, why did you put this in the struggle thread?

1) Because the world is cruel
2) Because I did not help make it better by saying 'No, thank you' and slamming the door on her face. 
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 31, 2018, 01:06:01 AM
You can still make it right man, buy her a nice lunch package maybe :)
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 31, 2018, 01:20:21 AM
I live in a 'bad' part of town and the homeless people here really make me feel horrible.   There is a native dude that in the last year has gone from severely obese to underweight and an old woman who is clearly a junkie.  People I see like every other day for years and I don't know their names.  I think it was last year that I saw a guy dumpster diving and I asked him if he was looking for cans, thinking I'd do him a favour and get him some and he replied 'I was looking for food but I'll take some cans'.  Where I grew up, there were very few homeless people (because they all move to bigger cities where they can survive winter better) and its not something I feel very comfortable with.  I hate giving them money because I'm pretty sure it will go to drugs or alcohol.  I buy them groceries every once in a while but fuck its brutal.   
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 31, 2018, 02:08:18 AM
You're a good man
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Post by: Kara on May 31, 2018, 02:15:32 AM
Is their life going to get better if they don't buy drugs or alcohol? Be honest with yourself.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on June 02, 2018, 02:25:39 AM
Just got off a 3ish hour phone with first my dad then my mom. They’re both pretty drunk at the moment, and needed to vent about the fact that my dad’s brain tumor wasn’t as simple as they thought before the latest mri, it’s basically sprouting roots into his brain. He has a surgery consult Monday and he’ll likely need radiation as well. My poor is Mom is barely hanging in there, my dad wanted to make sure he made clear to me that he didn’t want to waste money if it was going to a battle for years. My parents have smoked and drank their whole lives and their health is declining and shits hard for everyone
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 02, 2018, 05:40:19 AM
Sorry dude
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Post by: toku on June 02, 2018, 11:43:11 AM
Stay up cats, for you and for them. Bless.
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Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 02, 2018, 02:07:53 PM
Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

(https://i.imgur.com/5eAYXsh.jpg?1)

This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on June 02, 2018, 03:20:18 PM
I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

Yes life hits hard hard but you're hitting back. Keep hitting. Please don't stop trying to do the right thing. You'll be okay, man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on June 02, 2018, 03:51:35 PM
Next time eat spinach, asparagus, watermelon, etc. Natural diuretics. Plus red bull like Rumbler said.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on June 02, 2018, 04:27:48 PM
Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

(https://i.imgur.com/5eAYXsh.jpg?1)

This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

why the fuck would you get one of these if you don't smoke lmao. your fall is gonna suck dick if the fda cracks down on these things
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: FatalT on June 02, 2018, 10:29:06 PM
I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

If it’s any consolation I’m in the same boat as you or I will be soon. After getting fired from my job and being dragged out of my girlfriend’s house by Sherriff’s to be taken to jail and arrested, I have two counts of “Communicating Threats” against me. I have a good lawyer but he keeps issuing continuances on the court dates so I don’t know what’s going to happen. I kinda just want to go into a coma for a year and wake up but I know that’s not possible. I’m facing only 120 days max of jail time but I probably won’t serve wth my lawyer. I’m hoping to get the charges dropped but I also have a civil suit against me for a no Contact Order. I have the Civil Court Case on the 12th of June and the Criminal Court Case on the 25th If July.

I’m at my wit’s end because I know this will affect my future with background checks. No one will want to hire someone who was arrested for communicating threats towards their previous employer. I don’t post anywhere anymore and mostly lurk because I’m too depressed to bother letting my feelings out. I’d rather just die. I no longer have health insurance because the job offered that so I had to drop Obamacare for it. I don’t know what to do. Once a month I can go to a Christian Ministries place to get food and my girlfriend still works at the company I was fired from and makes a decent wage but she has bills of her own with a car payment, car insurance, house payment, utilities, and everything that comes with behind a responsible adult. I just feel like I’m bringing her down.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 02, 2018, 11:31:02 PM
Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

(https://i.imgur.com/5eAYXsh.jpg?1)

This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

why the fuck would you get one of these if you don't smoke lmao. your fall is gonna suck dick if the fda cracks down on these things

All the JUULers I know don't smoke either. this is post-Y2K, robocigs are indistinguishable from USB sticks, the fda is a bygone institution unfit for the impending singularity. they will turn to ash much like the big-pharma tobacco cigs they willingly pushed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on June 02, 2018, 11:36:15 PM
I drank some orange juice and now I have heart burn

edit: sorry, was supposed to post this in the minor inconvenience thread.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on June 03, 2018, 01:04:10 AM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 03, 2018, 02:35:10 AM
I no longer have health insurance because the job offered that so I had to drop Obamacare for it. I don’t know what to do.

Losing your job for any reason is a special event that lets you enroll outside the enrollment period. You should be able to contact your local exchange and apply for coverage, though depending on your state you might not get Medicaid.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on June 03, 2018, 03:06:03 AM
I guess I’m in the process of another “early life crisis”. I had a pretty terrible weekend. What was supposed to be a fun trip to Minneapolis has turned into a mini crisis for me.

The trip was to visit my old college friends. Well I dropped out of my 1st college and well am still floating around. These guys didn’t and have gotten on with their lives. Careers and wives and stuff.

And as you all know I’m probably a bit insecure.

And also a late bloomer.

Maybe 28 is too old, but over the last three years I’ve actively made an effort to go out to bars and stuff. I missed that part of life.

I guess the theme of the weekend for them was that they “have gotten it out of their system”.

So instead the weekend was full of old man stuff and just sitting around livings rooms and talking. Which during the day was fun somewhat. But I was lead to believe we would go out and do stuff during the day and night. We didn’t, which probably lead to me being a bit anxious and disappointed which lead to some petty comments thrown amongst the group. Which of course lead to a pretty unfunn time for myself.

I know this is a recurring theme about me. How I feel behind. How I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life. I don’t know if it’s true are not, but this weekend really brought it to the forefront and has put me back to a worse place then where I was before. I don’t think these guys think I’m a loser, but I sure took some of the comments that way.

And even then I’m constantly thinking about if I will ever get to a good place. Sure I think I’ve been a lot better about life in general recently. But I feel like I’m always reminded of how shitty I think I am. And really most of it it’s all in my head and an invention of my own. But I am afraid I’m going to snap back into something bad.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on June 03, 2018, 03:16:13 AM
Compared to most people around my age, that I know personally, I’m super “behind” too and I’m about to turn 28 on the 17th of June.

My advice? Don’t worry about it and don’t compare yourself to others. You’re just going to make yourself miserable.

Of course, easier said than done but trying force things to click into place just so you can meet some unwritten standard of adulthood is a bit silly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on June 03, 2018, 10:33:32 AM
Move to Miami. Everyone here goes out and parties and gets drunk every night well into their 40's.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on June 03, 2018, 10:53:02 AM
If they were really your friends, they would be hooking you up with their wives’ single girl friends, sisters, etc. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on June 03, 2018, 11:34:30 AM
so they just sat around and did nothing for the entire trip? that sounds boring as fuck. they do know it's possible to go out and not get completely shitfaced, right?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on June 03, 2018, 12:30:47 PM
When Dufus gives great advice

(https://i.imgur.com/xN7H0tQ.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 03, 2018, 12:43:59 PM
Until you're at an age where it's biologically impossible or morally questionable to be what society says you're supposed to be you're never out of it, Rah.

Do you really want to be the kind of person your friends turned into though? Or are you grieving the fact that you can't be friends the way that you used to be friends anymore?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 03, 2018, 01:42:53 PM
Live your life Rahx, not anyone else's idea of one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 03, 2018, 01:50:15 PM
It can be hard, especially with social media, to not compare yourself to people. But life doesn't have rules.

Stan Lee created his first successful comic, The Fantastic Four, at age 39.

Samuel L. Jackson only had bit parts (including a sweet-ass stint on TV's Ghostwriter) until he landed Spike Lee's Jungle Fever at age 43.

Darwin didn't publish On the Origin of Species until he was 50.

There's millions of these stories, Rahx. Personal timescales are only in your mind.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 04, 2018, 11:56:33 AM
I mean guilt can also be a good motivator, but you gotta check that shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on June 04, 2018, 11:57:49 AM
Also you definitely took the complete wrong thing from my post dufus. :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on June 05, 2018, 05:34:16 PM
I traded family for accomplishment and I'd do that shit again in a heartbeat so I'd never like that post, sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on June 05, 2018, 07:17:39 PM
there's people that accomplished lots of incredible things and at the end of the day feel like killing themselves
too soon, RIP my handbag queen
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 05, 2018, 07:25:58 PM
Can't stop binge eating.  Also can't focus on work. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 05, 2018, 11:23:01 PM
Adderall.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on June 07, 2018, 07:18:19 PM
Rahx you have massive self-esteem issues. Putting yourself out there might seem like the solution to you but to me it seems like running away from your problems. You need to take that shit head on. Either talk to a shrink or get a book about how to deal with low self-esteem. Working on your self-esteem takes effort so if you're also depressed you're fucked. If you're not depressed, good, get on that shit.

And stop thinking getting action will solve all your problems. If you ever do find someone, you might be better off but you'll also just keep on struggling, albeit in a different way.
I agree with you somewhat. I have some really strange self esteem issues that I don't quite understand. It's not a simple sure lacking confidence. I disagree with your assessment that I was running away.  I thought putting myself out there and trying to live my life was attacking it head on.

But at this point I don't know what I am or what I want. Or even how to get where I want to be.

But I know right now I'm in some void.

I don't have the money or trust for a shrink. Everytime I've tried it it just feels fake and forced which does not work with me. If my shrink was Proffessor X who could read my mind, sign me the fuck up. Talking to a regular shrink always feels like I'm lying or holding back things and faking it. Never feels like I'm saying the reality of what I am. And I hate it.

I really don't know what I'm going to do.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on June 07, 2018, 07:20:28 PM
I tell you what. I understand why people take drugs and drink. I've never felt more at peace then when I was on Molly.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 07, 2018, 08:20:32 PM
I've been sick for 24 days and it's been a pretty rough ride. Haven't had a bad chest cough like this in forever. Was concerned it was Pneumonia, but haven't had a fever so doesn't seem that bad. But been destroying my chest and lower throat. And that's just the chest part! Had bad flu congestion and nothing works. Haven't been able to hear properly in almost a month and can't talk much either (everyone says I sound really bad). Only have a few useful hours per day, so been working part-time and getting more and more behind.

Even though I try to keep my distance, I've gotten a dozen people everywhere I inhabit sick as well as I'm apparently super contagious. But everyone else seems to get through it in about a week. I'm immuno-suppressed, and that's making this hard af. I'm on a ton of meds too.

Basically feel like this is what a slow death is like.

The worst part about it is that like, people with normal immune systems don't get it. Like I'm talking to a few different women who want to go on a date with me and they're waiting for me to get over this so I can schedule the date. And it's like if after 3 days I'm not all better, they just don't get it. One of them already bailed since I've been dragging her for 2 weeks now. The other will probably bail if I don't get better soon. I'm jealous of people with working immune systems ;_; I hardly ever get really sick like this for so long, but this is fucking up my life atm.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on June 07, 2018, 08:58:09 PM
emergen-c and theraflu will help you power through
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 07, 2018, 09:14:59 PM
I'm on that and so much more. Like I am suuuuuper drugged out and still almost coughing up blood and not hearing anything and having no voice and shit for weeks. It just sux. Immuno-Suppresion is awful. It's like I get to be an elderly 80 year old already ;_;
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 07, 2018, 09:36:53 PM
Adderall.

Vyvanse, bitch. It’s actually cleared for use for binge eating disorder.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Purrp Skirrp on June 08, 2018, 12:57:21 AM
What you say is true but for work and getting shit done I'd pick adderall any day, and it'll still serve as an appetite suppressant.

If we're really splitting hairs there's too many stims to say which will work best for someone. Like some people do best on methylphenidate, yet I find it immensely unpleasant.

Or maybe we're just fooling ourselves and meth really is THAT good. Meth is the best and anything less is settling, like PD and dollar store pawgs after drunkenly "tuning in to the BBC" that one time in college. idk filler fill us in.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 17, 2018, 04:00:09 AM
Man, I don't know what's going on with my body and it's kinda scary. Worried that if I don't take care of this soon I might die :\
Been seeing my GP, and they did a single pass chest x-ray which looked normal. So he just has me on some cough syrup/expectorant/painkillers + decongestants.

I'm almost 5 weeks now since I got sick, and still have kinda stuffy head/ear/throat stuff but not much, just lingering a bit and producing mucus drips still. This is annoying but less concerning.
I'm 3 weeks now into my coughing chest cold that happened 2 weeks into my flu. Haven't had one day without tearing up my lungs/throat coughing up phleghm (yellow with mostly clear). I'm fine for like 70% of the day and feel almost healthy, but the scary bits are that when I do start getting that wheezy/clogged breathing and chest coughing hard to get it out, my chest is so sore each cough like black and blue beatup feeling and worse is that after I do a few major coughs my chest burns for a while and I get feverish for 5-10 mins or so and then then fever dies down and after a while the chest burning clears off...until the next coughing session when it happens again and it feels even worse each coughing session in a day.

I feel like what's happening is that I've got bronchitis and my lungs are producing too much phlegm due to inflammation/soreness from all the hard coughing that needs to heal up. Then every day enough phlegm accumulates that I start coughing and it tears things up again and sets off the inflammation again and makes the soreness worse, repeat throughout the day and then when I sleep it heals up some, but not enough to go away so the loop keeps it going. Cough syrups/drops help a little but don't really help because if I've got junk in my chest and am wheezing I need to cough to get the stuff out to breathe.

I also think everytime I cough I do the same thing with damage to my throat, it inflames, gets raw, heals up and repeats. Sometimes when I'm coughing a bunch and hard and there's a lot of burning inflammation in my chest and throat there's a light pink color to my phleghm. Not sure if that counts as blood. Pretty sure if something is bleeding it's my throat and not my lungs because my throat is super raw.

My head stuff still continuing could be a result of all the inflammation going on in my chest/throat causing extra pheligm build up in my sinuses.

Gonna see my doc again once the week starts on Monday. If it wasn't for my chest stuff, I definitely feel 99% healed in terms of the head stuff. That's really minor and I used to be feeling really sick. So I definitely feel I'm at the end/lingering part of the flu virus I had, but I'm just concerned about my lungs/chest because while it's better than it was in the thick of it when my flu was bad, it just doesn't feel like it's improving and everyday is the same loop of "ok, no coughs today, chest feels clear, maybe ok? And then by the evening I start coughing which inflames and causes more coughing and I end up doing a lot of damage at night and going to sleep with burning/soreness in my chest and coughing up light pink". Not sure what kind of chest stuff you can have that doesn't show up on an x-ray, but will talk to my doc about it. I feel like at this point maybe I need to get see a lung specialist.

This is definitely the scariest health issues I've dealt with. I've had major surgeries and stuff and that was scary in that well I hope nothing goes wrong and I die, but the chances of that are low and I knew what was going wrong with me. Not knowing what's going on when it's dealing with major organs like the lungs and trouble breathing, burning/soreness pains for weeks on end is scary!

:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on June 17, 2018, 04:38:10 AM
^ I'm sure it's nothing serious, honestly. But it's easy to feel scared over these things. Have you done any blood tests?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on June 17, 2018, 09:39:17 AM
Ger better mun.

Also a struggle sickness post. My liver enzyme numbers keep fluctuating like crazy, still here 9 months later, after I got sick for the first time and was in and out of the hospital for 2 months (and off work sick), they haven't figured out what is wrong despite seeing several specialists, scans and liver biopsies and so on. At least I haven't turned yellow again, but the itching is absolutely killing me. It comes and goes, but when it comes back strong, I can barely sleep for days, sometimes weeks.

The newest theory is acute porphyria, but honestly I stopped believing what they come up with. Everything so far has proven wrong, but at least they can see in my weekly blood tests that I am not crazy. Something is going on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 19, 2018, 04:22:55 AM
Thanks, yeah I hope they figure out what's going on with you as well.

I saw a different doc for a 2nd opinion and they seemed to get what was going on much better. Said I had a viral bronchitis with reactive airway disease, basically saying the bronchitis is giving me temporary asthma. So they basically prescribed an inhaler, told me to stick with otc and set my humidifiers to high and keep resting in warm and wet rooms until the virus works its way out of my system. Will see if this works. They put me on a vape-style breathing machine for about 10 mins that seemed to help.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on June 19, 2018, 08:47:02 AM
Stepped on an earring when I got out of the shower this morning. Not being super limber first thing in the morning made it a little harder to reach and mop up the site. It only bled hard for about 15 seconds and then just stopped, thankfully. Not a great start to the day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on June 19, 2018, 10:23:15 AM
Thanks, yeah I hope they figure out what's going on with you as well.

I saw a different doc for a 2nd opinion and they seemed to get what was going on much better. Said I had a viral bronchitis with reactive airway disease, basically saying the bronchitis is giving me temporary asthma. So they basically prescribed an inhaler, told me to stick with otc and set my humidifiers to high and keep resting in warm and wet rooms until the virus works its way out of my system. Will see if this works. They put me on a vape-style breathing machine for about 10 mins that seemed to help.

get a rec to see a pulmonologist from your gp if you don't improve but sounds like you found someone to help. some docs are just better and more familiar with different diseases than others.

the machine was a nebulizer fyi
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 23, 2018, 05:35:17 PM
Thanks, yeah I hope they figure out what's going on with you as well.

I saw a different doc for a 2nd opinion and they seemed to get what was going on much better. Said I had a viral bronchitis with reactive airway disease, basically saying the bronchitis is giving me temporary asthma. So they basically prescribed an inhaler, told me to stick with otc and set my humidifiers to high and keep resting in warm and wet rooms until the virus works its way out of my system. Will see if this works. They put me on a vape-style breathing machine for about 10 mins that seemed to help.

get a rec to see a pulmonologist from your gp if you don't improve but sounds like you found someone to help. some docs are just better and more familiar with different diseases than others.

the machine was a nebulizer fyi

So like things have taken a different step. I'm not sure if I'm improving or not. About 4 days ago my chest congestion seemed to clear up completely and while I was still a little congested in one ear, I felt good during the day like at 99% and I could have conversations without coughing and was back to full time working.

But then at night around 1am I started coughing up productive coughs and that lasted for 2-3 hours and I couldn't sleep until 4am. Then the next morning I woke up and was feeling 99% fine and lungs and chest completely clear again...and then at night around 1-2am I started coughing up junk for 2-3 hours and didn't sleep until 4-5am. Repeat.

So every day I'm fine during the day, and even at night (outside I still have ear congestion), but every night I'm getting coughs keeping me up until 4-6am which is only giving me like 4-5 hours sleep and I feel dead tired like I've got insomnia.

I'm going to follow up with the 2nd doc on Monday and see if they want to run some tests, send me to a pulmonologist or try some new meds or something. I've googled around and there's not a lot of information about bronchitis where you are fine during the day but then can't sleep from coughing late at night. I found like one or two posts of other people with like the exact same symptoms from 2009 or something on random forums through google, but no one seemed to follow up and say how they get over it. From a non-doctor layman's perspective, my only guess is that the congestion/drip from my ear adds up throughout the day and at night when I lay down my lungs want to get rid of all the phleghm that's dripped down so I cough for 2-3 hours until I get it all out and then I can sleep. Will see how it goes. 6 weeks in now, 4 weeks on bronchitis :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on June 23, 2018, 06:55:07 PM
To have it persist this long I would say def. start looking at all the areas of your life. Like diet etc. Still get 2nd opinions but this is def. weird.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on June 23, 2018, 07:49:28 PM
Haven't followed this closely, but have you checked for mold in your bedroom?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on June 23, 2018, 08:43:37 PM
Don’t try to google or blog, you’ll just freak yourself out

But it’s been so chronic at this point tha infectious is likely not that main reason. But Rufus is right in start thinking about if there were any changes or issues in yoUr life when this started happening. Let the new doc know
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on June 25, 2018, 06:32:44 PM
I cannot cosign my brother's student loans this year because I am in default. He's about to start his last year of college.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 25, 2018, 07:18:16 PM
That may qualify for an exemption if your cosigners financial situation changes mid year. How much of his loans are government versus private?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on June 25, 2018, 07:29:56 PM
My father drained his retirement account last year and blew all the money on debt, so my brother didn't qualify for any government loans. It has to be all private this year.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 26, 2018, 01:47:03 AM
My father drained his retirement account last year and blew all the money on debt, so my brother didn't qualify for any government loans. It has to be all private this year.

First, it's okay to despair. I was the same way where I had no idea what the fuck I was going to do when for very complicated reasons, my parents short-term financial situation changed to where they could not pay my uni costs. The result was that for the first year, I had only loans due to signing up late for financial aid but after that, all my tuition and even some of my living costs were covered by UC Santa Cruz grants. I was lucky enough to be over 21 by the time I transferred though so I was an independent which may have affected my circumstances.

In this case, it sounds like what went on with your father was a very complicated thing and that your brother is going to have to immediately go down to the financial aid and explain his situation. It'll probably be several months before there is any real peace to his situation but his financial situation may allow him to walk out of college with less debt than he originally thought.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 10, 2018, 04:52:11 AM
Getting hit with 5000 USD in tax........... even though I haven't had income enough to warrant that. I can't breathe.

In phone line now to complain, I calculated and I don't owe them shit. They better erase this otherwise I don't know what to do with myself.
They want it paid by September and I don't have that kind of money. Fuck me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 10, 2018, 06:14:21 AM
Alright. This is hella dumb. The system coverted my input, 2100 became 210000. LMAO.

Hopefully they’ll accept my edit and move on.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 10, 2018, 11:39:18 AM
Did you file your return? If so it'll have to be amended. (Which is no big deal, happens all the time.)

e: Unless this isn't a U.S. tax return? Unclear to me, so my bad if it's not.

Anyway, sorry to hear--taxes are stressful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on July 10, 2018, 11:48:03 AM
As someone who had to pay 7 grand in taxes for imaginary internet money you have my sympathy.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 10, 2018, 12:45:33 PM
Did you file your return? If so it'll have to be amended. (Which is no big deal, happens all the time.)

e: Unless this isn't a U.S. tax return? Unclear to me, so my bad if it's not.

Anyway, sorry to hear--taxes are stressful.
I’m in Norway. Called them and they told me to login and just edit it, then wait for a new updated letter. And if it doesn’t come before the first bill is due I gotta call them again. I should be all good. Surprised they allowed such a huge number without checking it first, but I guess they wouldn’t bother. Just hope they won’t make it a problem for me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 14, 2018, 09:13:01 PM
Been bing eating for 2 months straight and feel absolutely sick.  Like I'm on the verge of puking now I'm so full and yet all I want to do is go get more food. 
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Post by: shosta on July 14, 2018, 09:44:23 PM
That's an illness, bro. You're obviously stressed by your program and coping with comfort food.
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Post by: Huff on July 14, 2018, 11:38:31 PM
My shit dominoes pizza isn’t here and I ordered it 50 mins ago
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Post by: TVC15 on July 14, 2018, 11:43:10 PM
My shit dominoes pizza isn’t here and I ordered it 50 mins ago

The universe is sending you a message.
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Post by: Huff on July 14, 2018, 11:49:10 PM
Go burn down the latest chain pizza restaurant?
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Post by: shosta on July 15, 2018, 01:00:28 AM
My shit dominoes pizza isn’t here and I ordered it 50 mins ago

The universe is sending you a message.
Go burn down the latest chain pizza restaurant?
The following is an absolutely true story. A week after I got dumped in 2016, my friend in the bay got dumped too and so I drove two hours to Oakland for a booty call. I get there in the evening, we get Domino's and booze and watch Little Children. I get frisky near the end but she starts demuring and talking about her ex. I make more moves and she's into it but drunk me says "Want me to stop?" and she says yes. So I do. And I forget what happened next but I think I tried to call my ex or something and she gets up and leaves to go to her boyfriend's to make up. I fall asleep, wake up, and like 30 people had died in a fire in a warehouse around the block from the Domino's we got pizza at (I'm sure you remember the one, TVC). Anyway I actually felt like the universe was trying to send me a message. But I might have misinterpreted it because I went home and gave my cat back to the SPCA.
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Post by: TVC15 on July 15, 2018, 02:00:21 AM
Ghost Ship. I should see what happened to that asshole owner. Last I heard he was charged for... something last year.
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Post by: TVC15 on July 15, 2018, 02:02:06 AM
Odd that it came up here now.  There’s recent news:

On July 3, 2018, both pleaded no contest to thirty-six counts of involuntary manslaughter in a plea agreement with prosecutors.

According to their agreement, Almena will be sentenced to nine years in jail, and Harris to six.

IMO, they got off WAY too easy.
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Post by: brawndolicious on July 15, 2018, 03:03:13 AM
WTF. That fire was all over the news for weeks and the building owners were completely aware of the fire hazard.
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Post by: Oblivion on July 17, 2018, 04:45:55 AM
Goddamned owners raised my rent AGAIN this year. They've been doing this shit every year for the past 3 years at least. :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 17, 2018, 06:45:14 AM
Goddamned owners raised my rent AGAIN this year. They've been doing this shit every year for the past 3 years at least. :-\
Huh, don't you have a set rent written down on your lease? That should protect you from that shit, unless it's specifically says they're allowed to raise it at any time they'd like.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 17, 2018, 07:18:03 AM
Goddamned owners raised my rent AGAIN this year. They've been doing this shit every year for the past 3 years at least. :-\
Huh, don't you have a set rent written down on your lease? That should protect you from that shit, unless it's specifically says they're allowed to raise it at any time they'd like.

I got my apartment back in 2010. I honestly don't remember what the terms of the lease were. I just know that they held it in place for the first 5-6 years, then started raising it. But I THINK this apartment is rent controlled since each raise hasn't been much more than 3%/yr.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on July 17, 2018, 07:40:33 AM
Ask for a copy of your lease.  But you're probably on month to month if you haven't had to sign a new one each year or something.  So that means that yes, they can basically raise it whenever they want barring any local/state laws that limit it outside of the terms of the contract.  Sign a long term lease and lock yourself in for a while.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: warcock on July 17, 2018, 08:56:36 AM
I want to switch fields but i have too much debt so i have to work for a couple of years cause i picked a degree i ended up not liking. I am 33, i want to get a phd in another semi related field, ill be in my 40s when im done with school if i live that long. I pretty much need to give up on the wife kids shit to make up for my mistake. And i have a poor retired parent to balance in the act and shitty genetics to deal with.  :usacry :usacry :usacry :usacry Should of stayed in Canada. :-\
One of the few things that keeps me going is my 22 year old cousin. Love the kid , he is my role model. Got in at google after grad in dev lol.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 17, 2018, 11:24:08 AM
+3% rent a year is nothing. :lol

Sometimes I forget there are places where a yearly increase in rent isn't just standard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 17, 2018, 11:29:56 AM
Ask for a copy of your lease.  But you're probably on month to month if you haven't had to sign a new one each year or something.  So that means that yes, they can basically raise it whenever they want barring any local/state laws that limit it outside of the terms of the contract.  Sign a long term lease and lock yourself in for a while.

Leases around here auto-renew unless you give them like a two months' heads-up. Month-to-month is super uncommon (and should honestly be the norm, but whatever...)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on July 17, 2018, 12:05:00 PM
Ugh.  Auto renewing leases.  The bane of my existence.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 17, 2018, 08:37:58 PM
Ask for a copy of your lease.  But you're probably on month to month if you haven't had to sign a new one each year or something.  So that means that yes, they can basically raise it whenever they want barring any local/state laws that limit it outside of the terms of the contract.  Sign a long term lease and lock yourself in for a while.

Yeah, you're right. It's been month to month after like the second year I think. But yeah, I should definitely check out the agreement and sign a long term lease since I don't foresee moving out any time soon (my place is pretty great).

+3% rent a year is nothing. :lol


It's the PRINCIPLE! :punch

But seriously, yeah 3% is nothing, thankfully. Especially when I hear horror stories of landlords literally doubling people's rents out of the blue.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 24, 2018, 09:23:35 AM
oh boy... im not doing so well friends

things get worse before they get better

still positive about the future tho

and i guess i'll have to post about it when the inevitable triumphs occur... i've bitched enough on this forum, i owe this place positive stories :doge

I think venting is good sometimes, but it's good you're staying positive about things.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 24, 2018, 07:25:44 PM
This has to be a little vague, but: I've been working with a family member on something for the last month, earlier in the month I severely fucked it up, and then I lied to him for the entire month hoping he wouldn't find out. He found out and chewed me out for over an hour on the phone.

Sucks. Had to cancel my date tonight with the cute guy I met last night just cause of how awful I feel right now. And this will probably fuck some things up for the foreseeable future too.

Only thing to do is move forward I guess.

As a silver lining, I've been terrified of him finding out all month, to the point my heart felt a little stressed when I'd think about it, and I guess I don't have to worry about that anymore.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 24, 2018, 08:38:30 PM
Feels bad to let people down. But you should have just come clean.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 24, 2018, 08:39:22 PM
The guy has a huge temper which instinctively dissuades me from telling him bad news, but you're right, this wouldn't have been as much of a problem if I had said something earlier.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 24, 2018, 09:07:22 PM
Don't worry, you'll forget all about it when I'm the alcohol pace car at Bore-Con. :shaq
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 24, 2018, 09:57:57 PM
Don't worry, you'll forget all about it when I'm the alcohol pace car at Bore-Con. :shaq

In the spirit of coming clean, this actually might disrupt my Bore-con plans too. Which makes the situation even more appropriate for this thread. :goty2

Hopefully it all works out but for the next week everything is extremely tight. (But then after that, I'll be more than fine.) :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on July 24, 2018, 10:04:46 PM
Hoping for the best, Tasty Meat.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 24, 2018, 10:05:57 PM
Hoping for the best, Tasty Meat.

Thanks boo. Me too. I'll know for sure one way or another by the end of tomorrow. Hoping everything goes our way...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on July 24, 2018, 10:06:21 PM
A little catharsis can be good every now and then Tasty. Hang in there. I love you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 24, 2018, 10:24:05 PM
A little catharsis can be good every now and then Tasty. Hang in there. I love you.

:heartbeat Thanks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 24, 2018, 10:58:10 PM
You got this, Andy-kun.
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Post by: Tasty on July 25, 2018, 12:24:04 AM
🤞
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on July 26, 2018, 09:58:24 PM
Beginning jaundice again, just like I had September last year, still without being much wiser to what is actually doing this to me. Liver enzymes spiking up and down, and worst of all, the intense itching that makes me unable to get any rest at all. Back to medication and phenobarbitals in the slight hope of it calming me down enough at night to sleep. If it isn't the itching, it's the thoughts of what it can be. They tested me for everything in the fucking world at this point, scanned me with everything they got, and I am still nervous it is some kind of cancer or whatever. I can barely go out shopping some food as it is right now, so thankful I got my mother living close by. But also sucks to be dependent on her as much as I have been, especially last year when she took a month off work just to take care of me.

:goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 30, 2018, 07:06:30 PM
Had a social anxiety attack in the middle of a meeting while giving a talk.  I'm incredibly embarrassed. 
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 31, 2018, 01:09:05 AM
Five beers in and I am still deeply ashamed. 
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Post by: Joe Molotov on July 31, 2018, 01:29:28 AM
Did you puke?
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 31, 2018, 01:35:53 AM
Fake yawned so I wouldn't cry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on July 31, 2018, 05:48:13 AM
Had a social anxiety attack in the middle of a meeting while giving a talk.  I'm incredibly embarrassed.
Are you okay now? That shit SUCKS. Don’t be embarrassed though, probably easier said than done but if anyone even noticed you’re most likely the only one who will remember it ever happened.
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Post by: agrajag on July 31, 2018, 05:50:52 AM
Sorry brehs, hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 02, 2018, 12:51:46 AM
Been struggling with chronic pain the past few months, and the medicine I’ve been using to manage the pain is becoming ineffective. From what I understand, the only other drug for my situation is an opiate drug that they probably won’t prescribe me/insurance won’t pay for.

Talking to a doctor about it tomorrow, but his preliminary email response to my initial question wasn’t very promising.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on August 02, 2018, 01:00:00 AM
Pain management sucks. Sorry TVC.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 08, 2018, 05:47:13 PM
Mostly just posting this to vent/get it off my mind.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on August 08, 2018, 06:18:27 PM
My grandma was like that towards the end and it drove my sister and mom apart a bit. My sister couldn't understand why mom was treating it like she was basically already gone but it was like dealing with an entirely different person already, a stranger. Just be sure to be there for both of them, you have to be patient with her and your mother but don't forget to seek support for yourself as well. It hurts to see now but you'll be grateful for the small moments you guys share now, later.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 08, 2018, 06:40:40 PM
Thanks for the kind words. :heartbeat

Sorry to hear about your grandma. :'(

It really helps that I live a 3 minutes walk from their house, so I can help them with cleaning, cooking and grocery shopping when I have time. We're applying for at-home help for them a couple times a week, which should be good because they can't keep their place clean anymore, and my grandma has problems showering by herself etc. I just try to spend as much time with them as I can tbh.

My grandma is really stubborn, she got a walker but she refuses to use it, which doesn't make things better. She always pride herself in her athletic past, and will hide the walker in a room whenever she has guests over.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on August 08, 2018, 06:43:42 PM
That sucks, Val. My grandma was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia her whole life (she was actually bi-polar) and my mom had to take care of her since an early age. We've had some crazy situations to deal with, so I know what you're going through.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 16, 2018, 11:39:35 PM
Had to put my cat down today. He was an asshole. But he was my asshole.  :-\
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 16, 2018, 11:56:13 PM
:( sorry dude
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Post by: Bebpo on August 16, 2018, 11:56:31 PM
Oh no. I'm sorry for your loss :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Assimilate on August 17, 2018, 12:01:40 AM
why are hometown friends so fucking nasty? Envious? hateful fucks?

Everything is a comparison/competition. Who is doing better than whom. Who has a better job. Who is making money. Who isn't making money. Oh he turned into a loser. Oh she turned into an alcoholic. Oh he's unemployed. Oh she hates her husband. On and on and on and on.

I don't get it. I don't meet anyone else so negative than my childhood/highschool "friends"


I can't reach out to anyone back at home anymore. It's sad. Even if i need something i can't fathom dealing with any of them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 17, 2018, 12:03:52 AM
Asshole person in the unit above me left their sink running all day while I was at work and fucked up a large portion of my tiny apartment.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on August 17, 2018, 12:17:54 AM
Had to put my cat down today. He was an asshole. But he was my asshole.  :-\

Sorry, duder.
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Post by: agrajag on August 17, 2018, 12:22:23 AM
Sorry Ronito  :(
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Post by: zomgee on August 17, 2018, 11:41:07 AM
I'm sorry about your asshole.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on August 17, 2018, 11:47:39 AM
Had to put my cat down today. He was an asshole. But he was my asshole.  :-\

Sorry, duder.
I'm sorry about your asshole.


This could be a generic response to TVC
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on August 17, 2018, 11:48:13 AM
Had to put my cat down today. He was an asshole. But he was my asshole.  :-\

Sorry, duder.
I'm sorry about your asshole.


This could be a generic response to TVC

Or the Taco Bell thread

 :tauntaun
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Post by: Kara on August 17, 2018, 01:43:28 PM
 :banplz
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 17, 2018, 09:31:49 PM
My apartment is dry but it already smells moldy :( No cleaners until Monday. No people to even look at the roof until Tuesday.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on August 18, 2018, 11:49:56 AM
Lost my phone while drunk in an Uber last night. :(
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Post by: Valkyrie on August 18, 2018, 05:28:40 PM
Lost my phone while drunk in an Uber last night. :(
Youtuber: "UBER DRIVER almost KIDNAPPED me after STEALING MY PHONE"
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on August 28, 2018, 12:24:21 AM
Was having a drink with friends in the fenced-off outside area of my fave bar. Sun went down beautifully, but after it got dark some jackass drunk came around threatening to burn down our "cigarillo bar." Bartenders called the cops, there was a pair of plaincloth cops across the street that decided to do jack shit and watch "the fireworks" so to speak.

Drunk eventually fucked off after an hour of this shit.

Great stuff.
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Post by: Atramental on August 28, 2018, 12:26:47 AM
JayDub still bitter about fetuses.

smh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 28, 2018, 09:14:37 PM
Sorry dude.  14 years is a long life.  Bet it was a great life.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on August 29, 2018, 01:27:05 AM
My favorite cat is going to be put to sleep tomorrow. He's 14 and has a liver condition. I'm taking a few hours off work to go with my mom to the vet when it happens. This shit sucks.
Kiss him from us and tell him we love him and appreciate him. :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 29, 2018, 04:19:38 AM
My favorite cat is going to be put to sleep tomorrow. He's 14 and has a liver condition. I'm taking a few hours off work to go with my mom to the vet when it happens. This shit sucks.

Sorry, Jack :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on August 29, 2018, 10:48:32 PM
Is drinking at 3:40 weird?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 30, 2018, 02:11:11 AM
Well this pregnancy didnt work out :(

Went for a scan and it was a bit too little to tell, but then my wofe started bleeding last night so guess thats it.

So far were on 3 pregnancies and 1 kid.  Hope next one is kid 2.

Edit: apparently bleeding stopped so who knows whats going on
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 30, 2018, 02:45:04 AM
sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 30, 2018, 02:48:56 AM
that's 3 'sorry dude's on just this page.  can we get a few dozen posts talking about mildly inconvenient human interactions as a cleans?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on August 30, 2018, 02:53:25 AM
My phone didnt charge overnight?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on August 30, 2018, 04:33:06 AM
sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Fifstar on August 30, 2018, 06:09:22 AM
Sorry man  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on August 30, 2018, 11:55:04 AM
Sorry Lager.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 03, 2018, 07:42:51 PM
Just noticed my favorite pair of SeaVees ripped :(

(https://i.imgur.com/PR2wejR.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 03, 2018, 07:45:50 PM
Have to give a talk tomorrow.  Not really prepared. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 03, 2018, 08:04:27 PM
Glossophobia or speech anxiety is the fear of public speaking.[1] The word glossophobia derives from the Greek γλῶσσα glōssa, meaning tongue, and φόβος phobos, fear or dread. Some people have this specific phobia, while others may also have broader social phobia or social anxiety disorder.

Stage fright may be a symptom of glossophobia.[1]
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 05, 2018, 07:08:46 PM
I think I got food poisoning or something and I have a 1.5 to 2 hour commute without easy toilet access :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on September 05, 2018, 07:17:07 PM
I think I got food poisoning or something and I have a 1.5 to 2 hour commute without easy toilet access :(


shit in your hand and launch the feces at oncoming traffic
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 05, 2018, 09:14:50 PM
I think I got food poisoning or something and I have a 1.5 to 2 hour commute without easy toilet access :(
This sounds like the beginning of a brilliant fanfic.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on September 05, 2018, 09:34:54 PM
It wouldn't make a difference if you stopped on the side of the road anywhere in the bay area and took a shit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 05, 2018, 09:38:06 PM
At least not on TVC's route. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 05, 2018, 09:53:21 PM
At least not on TVC's route. 

Truth. This happened on my route home the other week.

http://fortune.com/2018/08/24/californias-latest-disaster-300-gallon-acid-fire-burns-highway/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 05, 2018, 09:55:22 PM
I mean, I meant it as you'd only be adding to the snail trail of your bodily fluids between your house and work that I assume already exists. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 07, 2018, 07:04:27 AM
My grandfather passed away in his sleep on Tuesday. It was unexpected, but at the same time not really. His body was just very tired lately, and just gave in. He fell asleep while taking a nap next to his wife of 57 years. It brings me peace to know he passed in the most beautiful way. I’m feeling all sorts of things. I’ve been taking it day by day, crying, laughing, distracting myself. Hugging my family and just taking it easy. I have a very good memory of my last meeting with him on Sunday.
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Post by: Mupepe on September 07, 2018, 07:31:45 AM
Sorry Valk 🙁
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on September 07, 2018, 09:18:21 AM
Sorry for your loss, Val.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 07, 2018, 10:36:29 AM
 :(

Condolences V
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 07, 2018, 11:51:57 AM
Sorry to hear that valk.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 07, 2018, 12:05:35 PM
Sorry for your loss Valk. :(

As I'm sure you know, at least the silver lining is that he went peacefully and your last memory of him was good. That's really the best any of us can hope for in terms of these things, unfortunately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 07, 2018, 12:33:56 PM
I'm sorry Val. But that does sound like a beautiful way to go. I hope I'm that lucky.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 09, 2018, 02:25:54 AM
My condolences Valk
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 09, 2018, 12:59:57 PM
Thank you, guys. I'm doing better now, but having moments here and there. Really not looking forward to the funeral, but I guess it'll be a good closure on it all, and will help a lot with the grieving process.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 16, 2018, 11:07:41 AM
Coming to realize I'm going to miss my paper deadline.  Got 10 days left and haven't even started the main experiments.  Going to push for it but this is bad fuck up in terms of my Ph.D. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 16, 2018, 09:18:56 PM
Really depressed. May need to take a break.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 16, 2018, 11:15:27 PM
Take care of yourself boo. We love you. :heart
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on September 21, 2018, 02:02:38 AM
Had an extremely traumatizing interaction with an angry customer and now I'm intermittently crying and shaking. A black woman who was there was so scared for me she started recording it on her phone because she thought he was going to kill me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 21, 2018, 02:09:25 AM
I'm sorry Shos. If you haven't, you should be sure to tell your boss and get it documented. It's not their fault, but it is their job to ensure your workplace is safe, and they need to know. Hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on September 21, 2018, 02:19:14 AM
post the video shosh  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on September 21, 2018, 02:29:17 AM
She was going to report it to my manager but I told her not to because I didn't want to make it a big deal and I felt like the confrontation was my fault anyway.

Maybe this is related, maybe this isn't, but it's so obvious how differently (certain) white people here treat me compared to other minorities. Black people: very nice, or neutral. Latinos: very nice, or neutral. Asians: very nice, or neutral. White people: just as nice or neutral, but the difference is that at their worst they will be impatient, condescending, and sometimes viciously hostile. It can be intensely alienating. I am not paranoid. There is an appreciable difference. This is the minority experience in this country.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 21, 2018, 09:01:38 AM
All true shos. And I bet it's even scarier to witness when you're only 12 :hitler
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 21, 2018, 10:33:39 AM
The closest I've gotten to a retail experience is being an election officer a couple times. Once I worked with a pervy white boomer and an elderly Asian lady (fluent English speaker). Most people were nice but as soon as the Asian lady took over the first step of the process, verifying that you're registered and that this is your voting location, in the first hour a few white people trickled in that would be immediately hostile to her, asking if she "could even speak English". The white boomer immediately would stop checking out the first-time voters and said that those people are just belligerent and they get that way whenever you point out to them that they are doing a simple process wrong (eg: wrong location/can't find their own name on an alphabetical list).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 21, 2018, 09:03:02 PM
I accidentally suddenly peed my pants a little while waiting in line for coffee.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 21, 2018, 09:12:25 PM
I've peed my pants while waiting for you to get coffee too. 

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'Will this guy stop peeing and hurry up and order already - I really have to go. O no.'
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 22, 2018, 01:08:27 PM
Damn now I want some coffee, specifically a PSL.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 22, 2018, 01:28:45 PM
One of my friends (the one that gets me my weed) had a bit of a mental break down as of late.

He’s already sought out professional help and I told him to holler at me whenever if he needs to talk things through but damn.

I’m looking at my last bit of bud as if it’s my last for a long long time.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 22, 2018, 01:35:43 PM
I just bought an o :doge

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Come to Boston :rejoice
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: seagrams hotsauce on September 22, 2018, 01:35:58 PM
Damn now I want some coffee, specifically a PSL.

just as an FYI, if you're buying more than a dozen of these a season you might want to look into just grabbing an aeropress, a handheld frother, and a bottle of the  Monin syrup since the cost is roughly the same minus materials, plus you can use roasts that aren't as burnt as Starbucks espresso tends to be. i suppose the potential year round access might spoil some of the seasonal appeal, though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 22, 2018, 01:36:41 PM
I actually get pumpkin swirl coffees at Dunkin lol.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 22, 2018, 01:53:03 PM
Atra move to Portland, all the cool kids are doing it and I’ll smoke with you
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 22, 2018, 01:54:43 PM
But isn’t Portland like expensive as fuck now because everyone and their brother moved there?  :(

edit: And Boston is not cheap either.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 22, 2018, 01:56:56 PM
Ya sorta, still not as bad as Cali or Seattle. And there’s lots of house renting/splitting schemes goin on. You could live in the woods like me for pretty reasonable cost.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 22, 2018, 01:59:57 PM
But isn’t Portland like expensive as fuck now because everyone and their brother moved there?  :(

edit: And Boston is not cheap either.

stop trying to reason away your dreams
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 22, 2018, 02:02:41 PM
i missed u toku
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 22, 2018, 02:25:13 PM
i missed u toku

(https://i.imgur.com/c14D5ak.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 22, 2018, 02:37:37 PM
Portland is an awful shithole and filled with the most insufferable people on earth. For real, Bobbo Robbo looks lovely in comparison. Atra, let’s get a Unabomber shack in some shitty western state. All I need to live is a high-speed internet connection and junk food. We could suck enough closeted hillbilly dicks every month to make this work.

Fair warning: you know how straight dudes like blowing theor loads all over their bitches’ faces? Well, fegs like rubbing their loads into the scalps of baldies.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 22, 2018, 02:40:51 PM
 :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nudemacusers on September 22, 2018, 03:49:16 PM
pdx is for soy boys who couldn't cut it in soy boy mecca (seattle).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 22, 2018, 04:17:36 PM
Portland is an awful shithole and filled with the most insufferable people on earth.

Timedog is there still right?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 22, 2018, 05:12:34 PM
pdx is for soy boys who couldn't cut it in soy boy mecca (seattle).
Ah. That makes sense.  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nudemacusers on September 22, 2018, 09:33:33 PM
Portland:Seattle :: neogaf/reset:reddit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 22, 2018, 10:33:33 PM
Jeez, y you guys so coordinated against me getting a new smoke buddy?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 22, 2018, 10:37:13 PM
wait...Catx3 is in Portland....actually....of course he does.  :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 22, 2018, 10:41:06 PM
Not my fault, my birth mother dumped me here

But no I live in the woods nearish Portland
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 22, 2018, 11:36:43 PM
Not my fault, my birth mother dumped me here

But no I live in the woods nearish Portland

I didn’t mean you. You’re one of the good ones.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on September 26, 2018, 11:07:43 AM
Today's day 9 in a row of working. With 2 more to go. This was a bad idea to help out and pick up the extra shifts with people on vacation

I'm exhausted
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 28, 2018, 01:13:19 PM
Something pretty bad happened to me today and I could use some positive vibes sent my way.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on September 28, 2018, 01:32:17 PM
Something pretty bad happened to me today and I could use some positive vibes sent my way.

 :preach sent
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on September 28, 2018, 01:33:14 PM
Something pretty bad happened to me today and I could use some positive vibes sent my way.

<3
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 28, 2018, 01:44:16 PM
I’m touching myself and sending you my sexual energy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 28, 2018, 02:11:17 PM
Something pretty bad happened to me today and I could use some positive vibes sent my way.

Hope things work out for the best. You’re a strong person and you’ll come out of this wiser, at the very least.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 28, 2018, 02:13:30 PM
I love you, A 😘
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on September 28, 2018, 02:24:03 PM
Love & Blessings being sent your way. ❤️💕 💗
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 28, 2018, 03:33:59 PM
Beaming positive vibes across the Atlantic. :heart
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on September 28, 2018, 03:50:10 PM
Your meat is the tastiest.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on September 28, 2018, 03:51:46 PM
Will eat some ass tonight and think of you Andy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on September 28, 2018, 04:06:18 PM
I will eat some Andy tonight and think of ass.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 28, 2018, 04:28:19 PM
I’ll eat some tasty meat tonight and think of Andy’s ass
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 28, 2018, 05:51:24 PM
Thank you guys so much. I love all of you. :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on September 28, 2018, 06:14:06 PM
Spooktober will bring you the vibes you need, TA. :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on September 28, 2018, 06:47:32 PM
can you give your sister my number? Wait did her birthday pass already?

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Hope you're well, dude, whatever this is it'll pass
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 28, 2018, 06:53:53 PM
I’m touching myself and sending you my sexual energy.

Quick everyone.

(https://media1.tenor.com/images/8890a2304921e24bba25bd85f760190e/tenor.gif?itemid=10221675)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 28, 2018, 06:56:08 PM
I will jerk off not thinking about you. Trust me, that is a good vibe.

Hope everything gets better m8
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on September 28, 2018, 09:04:57 PM
Something pretty bad happened to me today and I could use some positive vibes sent my way.

(https://66.media.tumblr.com/a1bfc359cbb280be10572184a9fc2cd1/tumblr_p6h500yPQL1sg8uefo8_540.gif)
(https://66.media.tumblr.com/ceb4c1a5a4f52ef4f4d120e4afd72c8e/tumblr_p6h500yPQL1sg8uefo6_540.gif)
(https://66.media.tumblr.com/111ecf5f0d38c3d90547b1342f72ac97/tumblr_p6h500yPQL1sg8uefo7_540.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 28, 2018, 09:26:52 PM
Something pretty bad happened to me today and I could use some positive vibes sent my way.

(https://66.media.tumblr.com/a1bfc359cbb280be10572184a9fc2cd1/tumblr_p6h500yPQL1sg8uefo8_540.gif)
(https://66.media.tumblr.com/ceb4c1a5a4f52ef4f4d120e4afd72c8e/tumblr_p6h500yPQL1sg8uefo6_540.gif)
(https://66.media.tumblr.com/111ecf5f0d38c3d90547b1342f72ac97/tumblr_p6h500yPQL1sg8uefo7_540.gif)

(https://i.imgur.com/9xUdjQw.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on September 29, 2018, 08:20:42 PM
I just masturbated to an Unsolved Mysteries episode.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on September 29, 2018, 11:35:32 PM
I just masturbated to an Unsolved Mysteries episode.

Which one?

The alien abduction one where there's four guys naked and covering their crotches with their hands always gave me funny feelings as a kid.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 11:47:54 AM
Got a letter from the IRS yesterday saying that I still owe $3,000 in taxes...

I PAID THOSE FUCKERS $7,000+ AND THEY STILL WANT MORE! MORE! MORE! :rage

I hope whoever is bleeding me has kids and hope those kids get stage 4 brain cancer! FUCK 'EMMMM!!!!!!!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 11:50:54 AM
BUT I LOST ALL THE MONEY I OWE TAXES ON!!!

I DON'T HAVE $3,000 TO WASTE RIGHT NOW!!!

I AM SO FUCKED!!!

I HOPE THEIR CHILDREN GET FUCKING LEUKEMIA

FUCK AMERICA THIS NAZI FASCIST SHIT STAIN OF A CUNTRY!! FUCK IT ALL!!! I HOPE WE GET NUKED TO HELL!!!

EDIT: I PRAY THAT THE SUPER VOLCANO IN YELLOWSTONE JUST TAKES US ALL OUT!!!

FUCK!

Edit: I barely make $30K a year and most of that gets eaten up by rent, utilities, and living expenses.

I'll be lucky if I have $1000 left in my bank account end of this year!

I no joke just want to just grab a van and just fuck off into the woods. Come and find me you shit fucks!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 02, 2018, 11:54:44 AM
And everyone thought the Obama dems were being silly for implementing a green tax specifically for people who drive 2 hours two ways in order to hug a girl. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 02, 2018, 12:26:26 PM
Atra, if you haven't owed before you can set up a payment plan to deal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 02, 2018, 12:44:42 PM
10,000 on 30,000 doesn't sound right.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on October 02, 2018, 01:05:53 PM
Crypto, not even once. Sorry, Atra.

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FemAtra doesn’t owe the irs anything, just sayin
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 01:40:25 PM
I'm so done doing things the "right way". It makes complete sense why people turn to crime in this country.

If you're not one of the big boys on top you get fucked every which way your whole life and then die penniless in obscurity.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 02, 2018, 01:48:07 PM
10,000 on 30,000 doesn't sound right.

Self-employed people owe payroll taxes that would have been withheld and paid on their behalf if they were an employee.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 02, 2018, 01:49:49 PM
Also Atra realized gains which he didn't include in his income because he reinvested it or something and thinks that it's not income anymore because of that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 02, 2018, 01:51:07 PM
I'm so done doing things the "right way". It makes complete sense why people turn to crime in this country.

If you're not one of the big boys on top you get fucked every which way your whole life and then die penniless in obscurity.

It's not about being right and the right way. It's about you paying more so people like trump can pay less. Especially crypto, which was specifically included in the latest tax act.

:trumps
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 01:54:58 PM
I hope that orange fuck gets a brain aneurysm soon.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 02, 2018, 02:02:39 PM
BTW Atra, you can only deduct your current year losses to the extent that they offset any gains plus 3,000 unless you want to try to claim you're a cryptocurrency day trader (which I don't advise).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on October 02, 2018, 03:24:47 PM
it's like atra won a bunch of money off scratchers and then spent all the winnings on more scratchers. breh, i think you have a gambling problem  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 03:33:44 PM
I need to start figuring out things I can sell...

My steam account and my gaming laptop will definitely have to go.

My Cintiq Wacom tablet will probably be next.

edit: OH FUCK YOU VALVE! What do you mean I can't sell my steam account?  :maf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on October 02, 2018, 04:08:20 PM
Should have just not reported and played dumb in the event they caught you
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 04:43:57 PM
My "paper trail" was clear as day since traded mostly on coinbase and bittrex. Both American exchanges.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on October 02, 2018, 05:44:14 PM
You're gonna get through this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 02, 2018, 05:50:01 PM
Coinbase reports on a 1099-K? That's really reckless; I'd wager that there are people that didn't report their sales as capital transactions because of that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2018, 06:14:55 PM
You can do a lot better than 30k a year, Atra.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on October 02, 2018, 06:17:19 PM
I need to start figuring out things I can sell...


How much are you attached to your liver?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on October 02, 2018, 07:20:23 PM
Work out a payment plan. Isn’t the interest on owed taxes ridiculously cheap? Let’s run a PV calculation on lump sum vs payments to see what’s better for you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on October 02, 2018, 07:31:35 PM
I hope that orange fuck gets a brain aneurysm soon.
yes, it was Trump who made you gamble yourself into debt
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on October 02, 2018, 07:33:04 PM
I need to start figuring out things I can sell...

My steam account and my gaming laptop will definitely have to go.

My Cintiq Wacom tablet will probably be next.

edit: OH FUCK YOU VALVE! What do you mean I can't sell my steam account?  :maf
more bad decision making. You want to sell your laptop which is a vital tool to improving your life instead of negotiating a payment plan with the IRS based on your genuine situation.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 02, 2018, 07:40:06 PM
Work out a payment plan. Isn’t the interest on owed taxes ridiculously cheap? Let’s run a PV calculation on lump sum vs payments to see what’s better for you.
Yeah, I did that one year when I joined. It wasn't bad at all.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 08:40:37 PM
it's like atra won a bunch of money off scratchers and then spent all the winnings on more scratchers. breh, i think you have a gambling problem  :doge
Speaking of which, I bought two lottery tickets just now.

Here’s hoping I win so I don’t do anything “bad” later haha...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2018, 08:43:45 PM
Atra, if you’re so bad at making money and taking care of money, I might have to rescind my offer of dating you. I’m already terrible with money.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 02, 2018, 08:44:16 PM
You can do a lot better than 30k a year, Atra.

If good posts were worth money, Atra would be a thousandaire
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before he spent it all on bitcoin. 
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 02, 2018, 08:50:51 PM
Work out a payment plan. Isn’t the interest on owed taxes ridiculously cheap? Let’s run a PV calculation on lump sum vs payments to see what’s better for you.

IRS payment plans require that you keep current with your future tax obligations and that sounds like it's not necessarily going to happen for 2018. An honest review should probably start from the premise that he won't be able to start until after April next year.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 09:00:46 PM
You can do a lot better than 30k a year, Atra.
Tell that to my boss.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2018, 09:15:03 PM
You can do a lot better than 30k a year, Atra.
Tell that to my boss.

Dude, I bet my beloved go-go boys make more than 30k. You could find a better gig.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on October 02, 2018, 09:23:11 PM
When's the last time you applied to other jobs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on October 02, 2018, 09:27:41 PM
I wonder if Emiliano was honest in declaring all of his income on his tax forms
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2018, 09:49:33 PM
I wonder if Emiliano was honest in declaring all of his income on his tax forms

The IRS is just going to have to come and check for themselves  :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 02, 2018, 11:35:49 PM
When's the last time you applied to other jobs
A year ago. I didn’t get any calls/emails back.

Also, being just a graphic designer doesn’t cut it anymore. You have to be part developer, part animator, part illustrator, etc. Also, you’re competing against savant Asian 16 y/o’s from 3rd world countries that have been designing since they were 4 and will work harder and for much less than most westerners.

I might as well just suck start my glock and be done with everything at this point.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 02, 2018, 11:41:33 PM
:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 02, 2018, 11:43:24 PM
When's the last time you applied to other jobs
A year ago. I didn’t get any calls/emails back.

Also, being just a graphic designer doesn’t cut it anymore. You have to be part developer, part animator, part illustrator, etc. Also, you’re competing against savant Asian 16 y/o’s from 3rd world countries that have been designing since they were 4 and will work harder and for much less than most westerners.

I might as well just suck start my glock and be done with everything at this point.

Make sure you send us all the shit you were going to sell off to appease the IRS first.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: curly on October 03, 2018, 04:01:03 AM
When's the last time you applied to other jobs
A year ago. I didn’t get any calls/emails back.

Also, being just a graphic designer doesn’t cut it anymore. You have to be part developer, part animator, part illustrator, etc. Also, you’re competing against savant Asian 16 y/o’s from 3rd world countries that have been designing since they were 4 and will work harder and for much less than most westerners.

I might as well just suck start my glock and be done with everything at this point.

should probably sell the glock before your laptop
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Post by: Mupepe on October 03, 2018, 07:54:32 AM
Sell the Glock and get a 1911
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Atramental on October 03, 2018, 08:57:46 AM
An email from the family tax accountant explaining why the IRS is charging me an additional $3000:
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This has to do with advanced,premium tax credit towards health insurance. I am out today I will have this notice,logged and pull the file to see where the issue may be.  It appears you received an advanced tax credit to pay for health insurance?   If so please forward documents received from the marketplace regarding this credit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 03, 2018, 02:24:30 PM
Did you take the APTC? Did you take it in full (i.e. you didn't pay anything towards your health insurance)?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 04, 2018, 09:14:43 AM
Wife had a miscarriage after 11 weeks.

Shit is unfair.
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Post by: Brehvolution on October 04, 2018, 10:14:32 AM
I'm sorry for your loss, brother.  :'(
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Post by: agrajag on October 04, 2018, 10:15:49 AM
Sorry Lager. Hope your wife is ok, it can be a traumatic experience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 04, 2018, 10:17:50 AM
:( That sucks lager.
I don't know if helps, but one in three pregnancies end in miscarriage. I know a lot of my friends that went through it thought there was something wrong with them or their bodies and it's important not to blame yourself, it's a delicate thing that doesn't end well a third of the time. Hang in there. I'm sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on October 04, 2018, 10:41:48 AM
Sorry Lager :(
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Post by: chronovore on October 04, 2018, 10:50:31 AM
Sad for your family, Lager. You'll get through this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on October 04, 2018, 10:51:31 AM
That's terrible, Lager. I'm sorry, hope your wife is alright.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on October 04, 2018, 10:53:05 AM
Sorry, Lager.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on October 04, 2018, 11:58:53 AM
Fuck sorry about that Lager :(


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Post by: El Babua on October 04, 2018, 12:14:20 PM
Sorry Lager :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on October 04, 2018, 12:21:57 PM
Sorry, Lager.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Svejk on October 04, 2018, 12:23:54 PM
Fuck.. I came to just peak in this thread expecting peeps fussing about financial troubles or something, but not this...  I'm so sorry to hear about that, Lager.   :( 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 04, 2018, 12:59:11 PM
Sorry dude
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Post by: toku on October 04, 2018, 04:58:17 PM
i'm sorry lager
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on October 04, 2018, 05:23:20 PM
Wife had a miscarriage after 11 weeks.

Shit is unfair.

Virtual hugs to you man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 05, 2018, 03:22:13 PM
Thanks all.

Was able to stay at home today together which was nice and family took care of our kid.

Its our second miscarriage and its a lot easier now that we already have a healthy girl, but still it hits hard because it felt like we were a family of four already.

Last time this happened I started drinking way more then I should (well I already was but then it spiralled out of control), which actually led to me stopping drinking as much, so its kind of ironic this happened now during sober october, I felt like getting a drink but havent so that only shows how shit has changed in 5 years.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 05, 2018, 04:05:52 PM
You can do it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 05, 2018, 07:29:41 PM
(http://memestatic.fjcdn.com/pictures/You+can+do+it_f0dadf_6580026.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on October 12, 2018, 11:09:40 AM
had half a diet mtn dew and half a monster in my fridge from earlier in the week and I mixed them together and drank them this morning cuz it's friday and idgaf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on October 12, 2018, 11:46:32 AM
Live your best life, Joe.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 12, 2018, 12:21:06 PM
had half a diet mtn dew and half a monster in my fridge from earlier in the week and I mixed them together and drank them this morning cuz it's friday and idgaf

Mountain Dew + Monster = Mountain Don't
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on October 12, 2018, 02:34:49 PM
#LiveMenos
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Post by: TVC15 on October 12, 2018, 05:14:10 PM
Got a recurring prescription to Xanax to help with stress. I’m not supposed to drink anymore but I’m going to anyway. I have to go off my other psychiatric meds because of side effects but my psychiatrist isn’t sure yet what else to put me on yet right now and I have to talk with him again next week. Just woke up from a Xanax-induced nap and going to try to do another one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 12, 2018, 06:21:51 PM
Had to fire an employee yesterday. Not a struggle for me, but it will be a struggle for them. Not a fan of doing that  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 12, 2018, 06:26:12 PM
I feel the same way everytime I have to murder someone. 
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on October 12, 2018, 06:31:30 PM
Not helping, Arvie.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 12, 2018, 07:55:55 PM
It's ok to feel guilty even if they really had it coming. It shows you haven't lost your soul.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 29, 2018, 02:38:53 AM
First I had strep throat, then I caught a nasty chest cold and I’ve been coughing for 3 weeks.
Going to the doctor again on Friday, but he probably won’t be able to help anyway.

Press F to pay respects.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 29, 2018, 07:50:05 AM
f

Will caps if pneumonia.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 29, 2018, 08:24:23 AM
Flying back to the fatherland this weekend to say goodbye to grandma.

She survived auschwitz and walking back from germany to warsaw on foot after the war, but no one can escape time (or a brain and lung tumor).

She is like a mom to me and Ive spent tons of time with her. Watched the 94 world cup final together. When I was over there in March for my  other grandmas funeral she was still so strong and we walked around to visit grandpas grave.

 Hope holds on till I can kiss her one last time and tell her how much I love her, maybe put a new picture of my daugther besides her bed.

So sad :/

Thats the last of my grandparents, all gone in 2017-2018.


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on October 29, 2018, 08:27:46 AM
First I had strep throat, then I caught a nasty chest cold and I’ve been coughing for 3 weeks.
Going to the doctor again on Friday, but he probably won’t be able to help anyway.

Press F to pay respects.

Blegh its the season for this shit, ive had a cold for days now
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on October 30, 2018, 02:03:51 AM
Your grandma sounds like an amazing person. I hope she’ll rest in peace. :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 30, 2018, 08:52:22 PM
Got scooped by Google again.  So fucking sick of not being able to get work out fast enough to compete with big teams. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on October 30, 2018, 10:48:29 PM
Not realizing your work communications and documents are being monitored by them  :neogaf
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on October 31, 2018, 02:25:45 PM
A good friend's brother was murdered in a parking lot and she just got back from the funeral. I'm spending Halloween with her  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 01, 2018, 01:57:34 AM
Haha good one, Life, making me think things could be okay. Such a rascal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 01, 2018, 01:05:07 PM
Some may recall that my dad had brain surgery awhile back. This morning I was at my parents house to drop off my stepson for a visit and my dad was in tears and acting weird on his way out the door. My mom informed me that my dad is concerned he’s now leaking cerebral fluid again some months later. This would probably lead to him getting a spinal stint drain and being hospitalized again, he has an appointment at 11:30 today to get checked out. Meanwhile he’s being morbid as fuck texting me about if I’m okay with my brother being the executor of his will and that kind of thing. So I’m stressed the fuck out.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 01, 2018, 08:24:02 PM
Update: it wasn’t cerebral fluid, so that’s good
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on November 01, 2018, 08:26:36 PM
fuck yeah thats a win
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 01, 2018, 08:50:32 PM
Update: it wasn’t cerebral fluid, so that’s good
Great news!

Bad news, is you missed out on a chance for some fun. I think I told this story before where my best friend's sister was getting brain surgery (she has that condition where the fluid pressure isn't sufficient in the brain) and it was her first. So I rented a Napoleon costume and told her family to call me when she woke up. They did, I packed up the costume in my backpack and went to the hospital. When I got there I told the fam to go get some dinner or rest and I'd stay with her, so they left. I went to the bathroom and dressed up in the Napoleon costume and started talking to her. She asked "What's with the costume?" I was like "What costume?" Eventually I went back to the bathroom and changed back before her family came back and after they did I said my byes and left.

Apparently she kept on asking "Why was Puppy in a costume?!" And her family having only seen me in regular clothes were like "WTF are you talking about?" If I didn't have such a reputation for being a jokester they might've freaked out. Next time CatCubed. Next time.
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Post by: Raist on November 02, 2018, 02:33:09 AM
So I rented a Napoleon costume

:trigger Cultural appropriation :trigger
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 03, 2018, 12:54:12 AM
I quit my job to start a startup and now I'm starting to get cold feet
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 03, 2018, 12:57:15 AM
Warm those feet.  You honestly can't fuck up that bad when you are only 14. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 03, 2018, 01:07:19 AM
I quit my job to start a startup and now I'm starting to get cold feet

Oh hey there's a nonzero chance I do this soon too

So like, let me know how you get through it
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 03, 2018, 01:08:26 AM
Warm those feet.  You honestly can't fuck up that bad when you are only 14.
my credit rating is 430 and I've been to jail
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 03, 2018, 01:13:32 AM
I feel like I could start up a start up and I don't know what my credit rating is and I have never been caught.  Have confidence!
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Post by: Joe Molotov on November 03, 2018, 01:21:53 AM
430 blaze it
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: kingv on November 03, 2018, 01:48:20 AM
Warm those feet.  You honestly can't fuck up that bad when you are only 14.
my credit rating is 430 and I've been to jail

Like Amir0x jail or county lockup drunk tank jail?

The second doesn’t really count.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 04, 2018, 08:43:15 PM
It's kinda crept up on me but I realized today that it's been a pretty shitty couple of weeks for me. :thinking

- Lost job
- Told I can't renew the lease at my current amazing place for 2019 cause it's so nice the owner wants to live here now apparently
- The really cute guy I've been seeing off and on since August and was planning on officially dating soon broke it off since someone else they were hooking up with betrayed them or something
- A recent important phone interview went extremely poorly

Still have my health, friends, and family, and I've been hanging out a ton with my younger sister which has been fun, so I hadn't really noticed. But I did have a moment in July that was basically "My life really *is* too good. It's not gonna last."

Actually I think I made a post like that here. :thinking Really glad I got my drinking mildly under control before all this happened. Things may have ended up even more dire.

So yeah not a great month or so, but you know what they say.

(https://i.imgur.com/eE7zxxQ.gif)
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Post by: toku on November 04, 2018, 09:24:08 PM
(https://i.imgur.com/qcUbLKM.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 05, 2018, 01:52:28 AM
Been sick for almost a month, pretty much all common symptoms to tons of diagnoses, lol. But today I realized it might be an allergy? I’ve never been allergic to anything before. I have a cat but I grew up with them and never once reacted. Plus I’ve had her since June, didn’t react then. Is it possible to randomly develop an allergy to cats? Lately my eyes have been super red and dry, especially in the morning.

Is there such a thing as fall hay fever?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 05, 2018, 02:03:06 AM
vacuum your house, wash all your sheets, change your air filters, and if that doesn't fix it in a week go get an allergy blood test
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 05, 2018, 03:01:04 AM
Oh tasty didnt know you lost your job mate, sure you willd find something nice soon.

@Valkyrie: if you startes heating the house then it could be the air is too dry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: HardcoreRetro on November 05, 2018, 06:24:46 AM
I quit my job to start a startup and now I'm starting to get cold feet

Buy some socks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on November 05, 2018, 09:28:15 AM
Quote
- Told I can't renew the lease at my current amazing place for 2019 cause it's so nice the owner wants to live here now apparently

That's just their way of kicking you out nicely. They won't be living there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Valkyrie on November 05, 2018, 11:34:55 AM
The thing is, this apartment doesn’t have any air conditioning, the only heat comes from my fireplace. I also change my sheets once a week and vacuum pretty frequently (I’m a neat freak). So I really don’t understand what it could be. My doctor insisted it was just a common cold, but I’ve never had any for longer than a week.

I’ll get a second opinion though and ask for an allergy test if it doesn’t go away within 2 weeks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 05, 2018, 12:02:33 PM
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- Told I can't renew the lease at my current amazing place for 2019 cause it's so nice the owner wants to live here now apparently

That's just their way of kicking you out nicely. They won't be living there.

OK but why?

Landlord said they liked me and wouldn't mind me moving into the unit directly below. But I'm not sure I want to do that yet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 05, 2018, 12:05:09 PM
Generally, its so that they can raise rent as most places have limits on yearly increases. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on November 05, 2018, 12:21:24 PM
I have a cat but I grew up with them and never once reacted. Plus I’ve had her since June, didn’t react then. Is it possible to randomly develop an allergy to cats? Lately my eyes have been super red and dry, especially in the morning.

I grew up around dogs but spent some years with very little contact with them. When my sister got a dog a few years ago and I sometimes dogsat for several days I'd get allergy like symptoms; stuffy nose, sore throat and itchy, dry red eyes. I went to see an eye doctor and asked if it could be because of the dog and he said that it was likely. I guess not being much around dogs for a few years made me sensitive to their hair and dandruff and whatever. After a while I guess I got used to them again and now get no symptoms from dogs.

So yeah I guess it could be your cat but at least it might just be temporary. But did you start a new school a while back? It could also be that there's mold or something there. I had classes once a week in a building with mold issues and some of my class mates reacted pretty badly to it, I just got a sore throat every time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 05, 2018, 12:39:10 PM
Generally, its so that they can raise rent as most places have limits on yearly increases. 

Ah money, of course. I've never had an issue like that before tho, and my rent's increased a crazy amount some years at other places.

Downstairs is only going for $100 more/month. Worse view, though.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on November 05, 2018, 12:42:21 PM
I don't know about allergies to cats, but this year is the first time I've ever had an allergy to weather or pollen or whatever.  When fall came around this year my eyes got insanely dry and my nose would not stop running. 

I also once had an allergic reaction to some food from a restaurant I went to regularly.  Out of nowhere my entire face swelled up and I developed a rash after eating there.  Never happened before and never since but i'll never forget the itchiest night of my life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 09, 2018, 06:02:25 PM
Guess who has two thumbs and is moving from Boston to his parents' next month?

👍🏻 This guy 👍🏻
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 12, 2018, 10:55:17 PM
EDIT: he signed the lease
 :rage
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 10, 2018, 09:44:31 AM
Semi-truck plowed into me this morning on the way to work.  He said he didn't see me and he just moved over right into me, damaging the left side of my car.  I then went into a tailspin and was doing 360s down the highway.  Seriously thought that might be the end but was able to stop the car.  My left arm is bothering me a little but apart from that I am amazingly unscathed from this.  Got the police and insurance stuff done and have a rental now.  Currently waiting to schedule a doctor's appointment to get checked out just in case.
:dizzy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on December 10, 2018, 09:50:14 AM
I'm glad you are OK, Bork. Auto accidents are terrifying.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 10, 2018, 12:52:09 PM
Wow Bork. I saw a semi once. I'm literally shaking rn!


Seriously though, I'm glad you're OK. Don't neglect going to the doctor!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on December 10, 2018, 01:15:54 PM
Was it a liberal trucker, though?

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Glad you're okay, bork!
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Post by: Joe Molotov on December 10, 2018, 01:23:19 PM
Was it a liberal trucker, though?

spoiler (click to show/hide)
Glad you're okay, bork!
[close]

He saw bork’s JonTron dakimakura and swerved right into him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on December 10, 2018, 02:46:39 PM
Was it a delivery truck...?

Anyway, good to hear you're alright. And yeah, make sure to get checked. Whiplash is a bitch.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 11, 2018, 07:22:54 AM
Was it a delivery truck...?

Anyway, good to hear you're alright. And yeah, make sure to get checked. Whiplash is a bitch.

It was a big Amazon truck.

Going to the doctor later today.  I feel OK and it's just my arm bothering me a bit, but better safe than sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 11, 2018, 01:47:04 PM
It was a big Amazon truck.
payback for all those posts about lost and delayed packages
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 11, 2018, 03:32:39 PM
It was a big Amazon truck.
payback for all those posts about lost and delayed packages
:rage
I KNEW IT
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on December 11, 2018, 03:38:37 PM
(https://i.imgur.com/9DxqhYt.jpg?1)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 11, 2018, 03:41:55 PM
:bolo
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 11, 2018, 03:43:56 PM
Wait'll I post about this on Resetera.  Jeff Bezos is going down
 :ufup
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Post by: Atramental on December 17, 2018, 05:41:37 PM
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 17, 2018, 05:42:42 PM
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No unemployment that way. Screw that.
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Post by: Atramental on December 17, 2018, 05:43:07 PM
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No unemployment that way. Screw that.
Exactly...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 17, 2018, 05:43:56 PM
Don’t do it, Atra. If they don’t want you they can cut you lose! Also, fuck them
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 17, 2018, 05:52:37 PM
Ya fuck them, also sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 17, 2018, 05:56:12 PM
Sorry, but that really grates on a nerve for me. As an employer I go out of my way to hire people that can change and grow to be what I need. I won't fire you for struggling to come up to speed on something new, but I will fire your ass for pigeon holing yourself and being inflexible. I take the employer's responsibility on team building very seriously. You hire people to grow them, not to be like "oh this is new to you, you're out." If you do that, you've failed as an employer and you should have shame.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on December 17, 2018, 06:22:35 PM
The real reason is that he's not on board with the bullshit workload/managerial attitude.

I do wonder if it's better to resign and not have to tell prospective employers that you were fired or if you should hold out for unemployment benefits.
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Post by: Atramental on December 17, 2018, 06:47:07 PM
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 17, 2018, 06:49:05 PM
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Days off until they actually let you go I guess?
DOCUMENT EVERYTHING you might need it for unemployment. So note down "conversation on date at time with person y was asked to resign. At z time door was locked..." etc.
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Post by: Atramental on December 17, 2018, 06:52:46 PM
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 17, 2018, 06:53:34 PM
Look up wire tap laws in your state if you do that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 17, 2018, 06:57:02 PM
Quick google says he’s got one party consent in his state and should be gravy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on December 17, 2018, 09:37:52 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDNTR2UDNIg
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: naff on December 19, 2018, 08:04:26 PM
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wtf, that is so fucked mayn

hope shit's working out ok
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 20, 2018, 11:51:43 PM
Stage IV penile cancer
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on December 21, 2018, 02:19:32 AM
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Love this

Fucking scum employers
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on December 30, 2018, 02:26:27 PM
This is a cross-over from depression/relationship/inconveniences, but I feel it fits more here.

I've been thinking lately during my depression about how a lot of my life has been stagnant, waiting for my next relationship to make certain changes. While I've changed and grown in terms of socializing, friends, better mental & physical health, travels, at the same time,

I still live in the same place I lived 8 years ok when I first got my job, I still drive the same car from 8 years ago, I still have the same 1080p tv from 8 years ago, my condo's interior decorations haven't really changed from 8 years ago outside some stuff I built with exes that I never bothered to get rid of. The only thing I've really added in the last 8 years was getting a Vinyl player & speaker setup last year and a Projector setup for hosting last year and an Espresso machine like 2 years ago. Otherwise my place is pretty much the same as when I moved in 8 years ago. I travel a lot less than I should because everytime I want to travel I think I'd rather do this with a gf and I should wait until I'm in a relationship to do this trip (also because I fucking hate flying and find it way more relaxing with someone else). My computer's about 3-4 years old now, same with most of my tech outside my phone that I've had to update because they die after 2-3 years each time (damn you apple).

The jist of it is that sometimes I feel like I'm still living the life I was when I first started working 8 years ago, and I'm kinda stuck in the past.

Like most of that is really tied to this idea that I'm waiting to get married before changing those things. Like I could sell my place and buy a house but it just feels like it'd be lonely to live alone in a house (even more so than a condo) and plus if I'm going to get married in the next few years I'd like my SO's input on choosing the right house for us. Plus that whole 2nd income from a partner would be nice too for buying a house. And I don't feel like upgrading my TV until I get a new house because the hassle of moving out old stuff. Same reason I still have all this old junk from past exs. It's like when I buy a new place I'll get rid of all the junk I don't need, keep what I do and buy a bunch of new shit like tv/furniture/decorations. Car is more just that my car still runs and I can't justify buying a new car and everything looks ugly to me. And yeah if I was in a relationship/married I'd be on the flight like every month or two seeing a lot more places I want to see.

So meanwhile since I'm not getting in relationships and therefore not getting married, nothing is happening on those fronts and meanwhile I'm just getting older and closer to death (I feel so old at 37 now, like most of my life is over :\).

I'm thinking this year, even if I don't get in a relationship (because goddamn I am bad at this), I should sell my place and move and decorate the place out and get a new tv and just bring some change in my life so at least it feels new and not that I'm just sitting stagnant waiting to die. I should travel more as well. I'm thinking maybe Savannah in March, Scotland again in Summer, Japan in fall, Montreal/Quebec in fall ideally with maybe some drives to Arizona/Colorado because I've never been.

I'm also starting to think about changing jobs because I don't love my job and it's stressful and I'm sure it's shortening my lifespan. Since I live pretty frugally outside trips I've got a good savings and if I wanted to I could change to a lower paying career that's actually fun and positive and makes me happy and could coast at my current style of living. Also if I did married to someone with a decent job as well that'd make it even easier to do that. Or I could stick with my job and keep saving up to do something at some point idk. I'd like to bankroll an indie game studio (very small size, like 3-4 people) and try to make a successful indie game and transition to that full time, but it's pretty risky (I'm estimating probably $300-400k for a 1-2 year project with ~4 employees) and it's tough to breakout among the hundreds of indie games released and make $$$. I wonder if you can find investors for things like that to take some of the risk off. But first I gotta figure out some good game ideas and write out a game design book for them. Right now it's all kinda pie in the sky. I don't hate my current job but I'm not adding anything positive to the world and it's extremely stressful. idk
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 30, 2018, 02:29:15 PM
Do you have any siblings?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on December 30, 2018, 02:33:38 PM
Yeah, a younger one and they're on their 2nd house and about to get married, dogs, new cars, 4k tv and all that. Just makes me feel even more stagnant at my stage of my life. I feel like I'm living like a guy in his late 20s, not late 30s.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on December 30, 2018, 03:11:17 PM
Sorry you feel bad, beb.

Anyway, I had a dream I pissed myself and I had to wake up to make sure I didn't really piss myself. I'm about 80% sure I'm clean. I was at the White House and I got chased by Secret Service after I refused to hug Trump and called him a motherfucker.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 30, 2018, 03:44:11 PM
This is a cross-over from depression/relationship/inconveniences, but I feel it fits more here.

I've been thinking lately during my depression about how a lot of my life has been stagnant, waiting for my next relationship to make certain changes. While I've changed and grown in terms of socializing, friends, better mental & physical health, travels, at the same time,

I still live in the same place I lived 8 years ok when I first got my job, I still drive the same car from 8 years ago, I still have the same 1080p tv from 8 years ago, my condo's interior decorations haven't really changed from 8 years ago outside some stuff I built with exes that I never bothered to get rid of. The only thing I've really added in the last 8 years was getting a Vinyl player & speaker setup last year and a Projector setup for hosting last year and an Espresso machine like 2 years ago. Otherwise my place is pretty much the same as when I moved in 8 years ago. I travel a lot less than I should because everytime I want to travel I think I'd rather do this with a gf and I should wait until I'm in a relationship to do this trip (also because I fucking hate flying and find it way more relaxing with someone else). My computer's about 3-4 years old now, same with most of my tech outside my phone that I've had to update because they die after 2-3 years each time (damn you apple).

The jist of it is that sometimes I feel like I'm still living the life I was when I first started working 8 years ago, and I'm kinda stuck in the past.

Like most of that is really tied to this idea that I'm waiting to get married before changing those things. Like I could sell my place and buy a house but it just feels like it'd be lonely to live alone in a house (even more so than a condo) and plus if I'm going to get married in the next few years I'd like my SO's input on choosing the right house for us. Plus that whole 2nd income from a partner would be nice too for buying a house. And I don't feel like upgrading my TV until I get a new house because the hassle of moving out old stuff. Same reason I still have all this old junk from past exs. It's like when I buy a new place I'll get rid of all the junk I don't need, keep what I do and buy a bunch of new shit like tv/furniture/decorations. Car is more just that my car still runs and I can't justify buying a new car and everything looks ugly to me. And yeah if I was in a relationship/married I'd be on the flight like every month or two seeing a lot more places I want to see.

So meanwhile since I'm not getting in relationships and therefore not getting married, nothing is happening on those fronts and meanwhile I'm just getting older and closer to death (I feel so old at 37 now, like most of my life is over :\).

I'm thinking this year, even if I don't get in a relationship (because goddamn I am bad at this), I should sell my place and move and decorate the place out and get a new tv and just bring some change in my life so at least it feels new and not that I'm just sitting stagnant waiting to die. I should travel more as well. I'm thinking maybe Savannah in March, Scotland again in Summer, Japan in fall, Montreal/Quebec in fall ideally with maybe some drives to Arizona/Colorado because I've never been.

I'm also starting to think about changing jobs because I don't love my job and it's stressful and I'm sure it's shortening my lifespan. Since I live pretty frugally outside trips I've got a good savings and if I wanted to I could change to a lower paying career that's actually fun and positive and makes me happy and could coast at my current style of living. Also if I did married to someone with a decent job as well that'd make it even easier to do that. Or I could stick with my job and keep saving up to do something at some point idk. I'd like to bankroll an indie game studio (very small size, like 3-4 people) and try to make a successful indie game and transition to that full time, but it's pretty risky (I'm estimating probably $300-400k for a 1-2 year project with ~4 employees) and it's tough to breakout among the hundreds of indie games released and make $$$. I wonder if you can find investors for things like that to take some of the risk off. But first I gotta figure out some good game ideas and write out a game design book for them. Right now it's all kinda pie in the sky. I don't hate my current job but I'm not adding anything positive to the world and it's extremely stressful. idk

It seems like you need a new relationship more than anything.

Change is good, but am not sure how changing up tech is going to make you feel any better when it's just stuff at the end of the day.  If your TV is working fine...wait for it to die before replacing it unless you want 4K for better gaming or whatever.  Ditto with the car, although if your S2000 is still in good shape, you can probably get a good amount for it.  My dad finally got rid of his last year and said that the guys at the dealership were salivating over it when he traded it in.  Still, if a 'facelift' is what your place needs...go for it.   

Dunno about the job thing, or rather it sounds like you'd be leaving a stressful, albeit well-paying job for something that is going to be just as stressful or worse and could end up costing you a lot of money.   

Have you also thought about moving to another city, state, or country for a while or even permanently?

Also, this-
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Car is more just that my car still runs and I can't justify buying a new car and everything looks ugly to me.

 :lol Is pretty much what I kept thinking when I had to get another car after mine was totaled recently.  Either ugly...or everything looks like same.  Like every car out there is either a Honda Fit clone, samey-looking crossover, or samey-looking SUV or pick-up.  Nobody wants anything different anymore- it's so boring.  Reminds me of smartphones. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 30, 2018, 03:46:39 PM
Yeah, a younger one and they're on their 2nd house and about to get married, dogs, new cars, 4k tv and all that. Just makes me feel even more stagnant at my stage of my life. I feel like I'm living like a guy in his late 20s, not late 30s.
I would recommend not quitting your lucrative career. Make as much money as possible and pass it on to your younger brother's kids.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on December 30, 2018, 03:59:32 PM
He could steal his skin and impersonate his brother. Then he'd steal more than just his stuff, he'd steal his whole life.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on December 31, 2018, 12:39:00 PM
It seems like you need a new relationship more than anything.

Change is good, but am not sure how changing up tech is going to make you feel any better when it's just stuff at the end of the day.  If your TV is working fine...wait for it to die before replacing it unless you want 4K for better gaming or whatever.  Ditto with the car, although if your S2000 is still in good shape, you can probably get a good amount for it.  My dad finally got rid of his last year and said that the guys at the dealership were salivating over it when he traded it in.  Still, if a 'facelift' is what your place needs...go for it.   

Dunno about the job thing, or rather it sounds like you'd be leaving a stressful, albeit well-paying job for something that is going to be just as stressful or worse and could end up costing you a lot of money.   

Have you also thought about moving to another city, state, or country for a while or even permanently?

Also, this-

Yeah, I'd love to move to another city/state/country and get a fresh start. I feel like especially with dating/relationships that it would work wonders since I've generally dated the dating pool in my city.

The problem is US Healthcare yay. I'm on a grandfathered healthcare plan from pre-Obamacare and if I leave the state or mess up anything I can lose it and then I'll be fucked/dead because America's healthcare and my monthly meds are like $15k without insurance. Also since I run my own business I don't get benefits and great healthcare plans and stuff. So I'm pretty much stuck as a resident of California for the rest of my life unless healthcare is fixed in the USA at some point (maybe it will be? who knows).

And while I can move within CA, outside LA and surroundings where I'm at there's really just San Diego and San Francisco. SF is way too fucking expensive for me. Maybe the SF from 20 years ago I'd move to because I do like cities and public transportation. And San Diego is...boring? Like I see SD as LA but way less interesting and mostly just rich white people on boats zzz, we have enough of that here in OC already.

Good suggestion though, just wish it was more doable. I've thought about working/living somewhere else and just coming back to CA every month for a weekend to keep my residency and get my meds but obviously that would be complicated. Still potentially doable.

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Car is more just that my car still runs and I can't justify buying a new car and everything looks ugly to me.

 :lol Is pretty much what I kept thinking when I had to get another car after mine was totaled recently.  Either ugly...or everything looks like same.  Like every car out there is either a Honda Fit clone, samey-looking crossover, or samey-looking SUV or pick-up.  Nobody wants anything different anymore- it's so boring.  Reminds me of smartphones.

Hehehe, yep. If I saw a slick looking, runs and handles great, manual shift, electric/hybrid car for like <$40k I'd upgrade and keep my S2000 just as a scenic drives kinda car. But I feel like in the last 10-20 years the car industries taken a cue from the videogame industry and there's like the normal ugly car for $30-40k or the LE edition car that actually looks nice for $70-80k and I ain't paying over $50k for a car in my life unless I win the fucking the lottery. I like cars, but not that much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 03, 2019, 01:02:08 PM
Our 18 year old kitty is not doing well. She's had kidney disease for a couple years now and yesterday we found she had an accident and there was blood in her pee. Took her to the vet today and they said it's not an infection, which means its either her kidneys or bladder not working or a tumor...any of those are bad news. So they are running blood work now to see if her kidneys have gotten much worse. If so, this may be the end. My wife has had this cat since she was 8 so this is gonna be tough :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 03, 2019, 01:47:37 PM
oh man, I'm sorry Nacho. That sucks!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 03, 2019, 01:55:57 PM
Sending my love in your trying time, brother
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 03, 2019, 03:37:26 PM
Thanks guys

Got a call from the vet post-bloodwork and it's not looking too great. Her kidney levels are very high but she still overall has a good quality of life. She's eating well, still playing with toys, etc. So we're gonna try putting Spock on a special wet food diet with bladder relief food + CBD and see if she still has issues. If she does, then there's a painkiller we can give her to help her use the box without pain.

What it sounds like the vet was sorta dancing around was that this isn't the end, but it's one step away from the end. Vet is still very impressed with our old gal though. Said she's in surprising shape for an 18 year old cat with kidney issues who refuses to eat any kidney diet food but she can't last forever.

edit: vet confirmed this is basically endstage kidney disease and the painkiller is way too much ($160 a week) for us to afford. Luckily she seems to be eating the new prescription food, it's something to help with bladder/urinary tract and "calms" kitties (looked up the brand and it has tryptophan in it) and now we just give her that with some CBD as her main diet and just wait it out. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 03, 2019, 06:35:55 PM
Yeah you just have to be there for her. I don't know if it matters to you, but you may want to cremate your kitty individually. Usually they do several animals at once but you might want to keep the ashes or do your own ceremony.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 04, 2019, 02:42:06 PM
thanks, that's good to know. i wasn't aware pets were done together
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 08, 2019, 09:26:49 PM
Sad for you, Nachobro. Losing a kitty is rough.  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 08, 2019, 10:01:09 PM
Sorry man
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 09, 2019, 12:30:39 AM
A good update, Spock made a random and drastic improvement out of nowhere pretty much. We had one bad night where she wasn't able to use the box all day and took her to the vet the next day to see if there was any option or if it was the end. Vet gave us a few days supply of the painkiller and we gave it to Spock as she kept having trouble.

Then suddenly last night she was back to normal. No blood in her pee, no trouble going, acting much more perky. Vet is saying her kidney numbers are still at a high level but it seems our girl wasn't giving up yet. Haven't given her the painkiller today but still giving her the special food and she seems to be back to her normal self.

So now she is celebrating her return from the brink by laying out on a heating pad

(https://i.imgur.com/g7aqXzu.jpg?1)


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 09, 2019, 02:37:11 AM
Got to agree here with Bork, Beps.

Shaking things up with moving somewhere new would be more meaningful then replacing things.

I think it has been backed up by studies even that when we move to a new enviroment far away we are in someways reset and we have to reassert ourselves and who we are.

You say there are a lot of problems with this but... Where there is a will there is a way (maybe?). What kknd of meds cost 15k a month??

1080p tv or 4k has almost no impact on your happiness day to day beyond the initial rush of endorphins when you buy it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 09, 2019, 02:55:39 AM
Edit: who cares
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 09, 2019, 03:21:10 AM
Aww come on
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 10, 2019, 08:10:42 AM
Got to agree here with Bork, Beps.

Shaking things up with moving somewhere new would be more meaningful then replacing things.

I think it has been backed up by studies even that when we move to a new enviroment far away we are in someways reset and we have to reassert ourselves and who we are.

You say there are a lot of problems with this but... Where there is a will there is a way (maybe?). What kknd of meds cost 15k a month??

1080p tv or 4k has almost no impact on your happiness day to day beyond the initial rush of endorphins when you buy it.

A friend of mine, in a moment of conciseness, said, "It doesn't matter where you are. It matters /who/ you are."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 10, 2019, 11:33:54 AM
I always say, "You take your problems with you."

Also, great news about the kitty!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 10, 2019, 01:13:22 PM
Some would say it doesn’t matter who you are, where you’re from, or what you did.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 10, 2019, 02:49:27 PM
Word is on the backstreets that you’re right
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on January 10, 2019, 02:55:42 PM
Word on the backstreets is that you're a fucking slut who spreads those cheeks for anything and everything and you wouldn't have it any other way you fucking slut.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 10, 2019, 03:06:49 PM
That’s beautiful, thank you for sharing your affirmations with us
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Post by: Himu on January 10, 2019, 05:40:39 PM
This government shutdown is impacting my fucking money!!!!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 10, 2019, 06:21:26 PM
Got to agree here with Bork, Beps.

Shaking things up with moving somewhere new would be more meaningful then replacing things.

I think it has been backed up by studies even that when we move to a new enviroment far away we are in someways reset and we have to reassert ourselves and who we are.

You say there are a lot of problems with this but... Where there is a will there is a way (maybe?). What kknd of meds cost 15k a month??

1080p tv or 4k has almost no impact on your happiness day to day beyond the initial rush of endorphins when you buy it.

America, land of the great!

Just got a notice from my insurance that they declined the anesthesiologist bill of $1,200 from my colonoscopy last month because anesthesia during a procedure is for the patient's benefit and not surgically required. Yay, there goes probably another $500 in bills.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 10, 2019, 06:23:15 PM
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anesthesia during a procedure is for the patient's benefit and not surgically required
right, why couldn't you just drink a fifth and bite into a block of birch wood like your forefathers did
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 11, 2019, 11:45:13 PM
So I'd been in a real bad depression lately. Like not day to day down and depressed but like everytime I'm not occupied by something I'm often thinking of death, the death of everyone on earth and eventually the universe, and the death of everyone I know and love, the meaning of life, feeling like wasting life playing videogames and hanging out with people as days go by. Like at 20s death felt so far away, but late 30s not so much. Hard to sleep at night, just feeling anxious about it all.

Then got better in the last day or so.
How?

I stopped listening to depressing af indie music singing about growing old and dying all the time and started listening to weaboo Japanese shit again which is all positive and happy and gives me feels. Maybe anime is good for life?

 :uguu
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on January 12, 2019, 04:06:56 AM
Anime is always fun and games.

Just watch Devilman Crybaby for an extra dose of positivity and love of life  :D
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on January 20, 2019, 09:56:32 AM
(https://i.imgur.com/3jAZxHo.png) (https://i.imgur.com/DW2OBcb.png)

i was a bit too optimistic, when the question came to fitting in through two big rocks  :beli
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 21, 2019, 11:11:25 PM
I was working in Tokyo on Friday when I got a desperate call from my wife, asking me to come down for the weekend. Her father seemed to be dying. We have been dealing with this off-and-on since 2001, so it wasn’t anything new to hear. Then I got a second call from my daughter, who said I needed to come home immediately.

I took a bullet train to Osaka, and was still an hour out when he passed away.

My wife’s father‘s poor health is literally the reason we move to Japan in 2001. Somehow he beat the odds for 18 years. We buried my own father, a surprise death, while we were over here waiting for her father to die. My father-in-law attended many of his friends’ funerals, consistently beating the odds.

Some of you already know that I tried to move back to California in 2012, found a fantastic job at a great company, being paid more money than I ever expected to get paid in my life, and then had to give it up because my wife felt unable to move away from her father in his frail state.  I love my career, but I will always put family first. In this case it put a huge goddamn dent in my earnings, career path, and more. In the end, my in-laws tell me that it was my willingness to move back that extended my father-in-law‘s wife an extra six years.

We spent the entire weekend dealing with the funeral. Japan has several stages to a funeral, and the first three of them took place on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday nights. He had been a politician who had received an award from the Emperor himself, and many people owed him sizable favors.  Even people who had not been true to what they owed him showed up; some stayed and shed tears, others paid their respects and fled. In all there were well over 1000 attendees. I owed him more than anyone else: I stole his daughter.

I find myself here at the beginning of 2019, now 17 1/2 years after moving back, wondering what to do next.  For 1/3 of my life, the lion share of my adult career, so much centered around his existence that I am now missing an anchor, and find myself adrift.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on January 22, 2019, 12:28:12 AM
condolences chrono, I hope you have somone close to lean on/talk to too rn
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Post by: El Babua on January 22, 2019, 12:43:19 AM
Sorry for your loss Chrono :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 22, 2019, 02:33:23 AM
You'll be okay. The hard part is figuring out how to take care of your family after one of your parents passes away but just be open and don't feel rushed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 22, 2019, 12:44:29 PM
Sending love to you and yours, papa Chrono
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 22, 2019, 12:55:48 PM
We're putting down Spock today. Her upswing only lasted a few days before she started sliding downhill again. We've been giving her that painkiller and it's been helping but it's becoming noticable that she's losing weight and is very lethargic. She's been eating less and less and yesterday she didn't take but two bites of food all day and last night she just cried for a few hours even with the painkiller and wasn't able to use the box all day.

I'm gonna stop by the vet at lunch to get a stronger painkiller to give her to keep her calm today and a second dose to give her before we head to the vet so she doesn't get upset on the trip. Even though she isn't eating and barely staying awake she still lifts her head up when she hears the treat bag so we'll take some with us to give her at least something nice before the end.

Our two cats don't normally get along at all but Rona has been very sweet to Spock throughout all of this and last night after Spock was finally able to calm down and sleep, Rona curled up around her to keep Spock company and hasn't left her side since then. So that's at least one nice thing to see out of this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 22, 2019, 12:56:57 PM
😿sorry nacho
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 22, 2019, 01:51:46 PM
Chrono, first off, I'm sorry for your loss. And I know the sacrifice that you made will always sting. But that being said, this is a major accomplishment

In the end, my in-laws tell me that it was my willingness to move back that extended my father-in-law‘s wife an extra six years.


Most people will live their whole life and never be able to give this to someone else. You should be immensely proud.
Cold Comfort, I know. But it's comfort nonetheless
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on January 22, 2019, 01:55:08 PM
That sucks man. But you are doing the right thing putting the cat down.
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Post by: shosta on January 22, 2019, 01:55:51 PM
Chrono, it's time to enter Japanese politics.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 22, 2019, 01:58:01 PM
Sorry about Spock Nacho. I had to put our cat down a few months ago. I feel you.
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Post by: skullstorm on January 22, 2019, 02:02:14 PM
Sorry Nacho and Chrono  :(
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Post by: nachobro on January 22, 2019, 03:19:17 PM
Goddamn when it rains it pours

Got in a car accident on the freeway on the way to the vet to pick up the last painkillers. My lane had what looked like a bunch of clothes in it plus a highway dept truck partially in the lane so I throw on my signal to get over and slow down a bit to go behind the line of cars that (of course) aren't letting me in. Suddenly, smacked right in the rear by a red car. We both pull over and luckily my Scion just has a cracked bumper and no other damage. Other dude not so lucky but he wanted to get insurance involved even though the guy driving the highway truck said it was all on him and told the cops that too. I've got a bit of back tightness but I guess it could have been worse.

The more depressing bit was after I got the meds and gave them to Spock. Normally she'll get some water after this painkiller (probably tastes awful) but she was trying so hard to stand to get to her dish and her back legs weren't doing anything so I had to bring the dish to her on the bed. I damn near broke down right then.

Sorry to rant but fuck today in every direction, goddamnit
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Post by: zomgee on January 22, 2019, 03:26:32 PM
Big hugs nacho. So sorry.

Sorry - same to you chrono.
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Post by: Rufus on January 22, 2019, 03:30:46 PM
 :-\
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Post by: Valkyrie on January 22, 2019, 07:50:02 PM
Hugs for Chrono and Nacho.
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Post by: G The Resurrected on January 22, 2019, 08:39:18 PM
I'm sorry to hear about Spock Nacho. It's hard letting go of a loved one, especially a pet who has become family.

Chrono I am sorry for your loss, I hope that you find strength in your family and become the anchor they need going forward. If the ship needs a new heading think of it as a new opportunity at adventure in life.

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Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 22, 2019, 08:51:29 PM
Sorry guys
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Post by: chronovore on January 23, 2019, 02:49:46 AM
Chrono, it's time to enter Japanese politics.

Why, do you hate me?
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Post by: chronovore on January 25, 2019, 12:31:47 AM
Chrono, first off, I'm sorry for your loss. And I know the sacrifice that you made will always sting. But that being said, this is a major accomplishment

In the end, my in-laws tell me that it was my willingness to move back that extended my father-in-law‘s wife an extra six years.


Most people will live their whole life and never be able to give this to someone else. You should be immensely proud.
Cold Comfort, I know. But it's comfort nonetheless

:respect
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Post by: BisMarckie on January 28, 2019, 06:33:02 AM
Learned today that one of my students from last semester was killed recently.   :(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 28, 2019, 07:26:03 AM
Chrono you did the right thing, respect, no need for what ifs.

I moved to a small town myself where i have zero chances for any kind of career, I write parking tickets (with a university degree lol), but my daugther is able to grow up with her whole family (and by that extension me and my wife are part of family life, not just during holidays), something I never had.

A quiet, simple, family life. Something to be proud of :)

Just continue to do whats best for the family, and remember you have a whole life still ahead of you at this age.
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Post by: Tasty on January 29, 2019, 05:24:04 PM
Taking one of my regular forum breaks. Probably won't be for long but dunno.

I originally opened the thread to bitch about life, but honestly, things are objectively on the upswing for me. That means I'm really just coming here to throw self-pity parties and get validation for being a pretty shitty person, and that's not healthy.

I'll be back when things are better for me and my thinking matches. :)

PS- I'm pretty sure I lost the source code for that Bore emoji autocomplete extension, sorry guys. :(
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on January 29, 2019, 06:08:59 PM
Tastyyyyy I’ll miss youuuuuu 😘😘
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on January 30, 2019, 05:04:26 AM
love you, tasty!
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Post by: HardcoreRetro on January 30, 2019, 05:09:46 AM
Time to come back as the umami-rich Fermented Meat. Older, wiser and tastier.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 19, 2019, 06:35:21 PM
Same with me.  I'm missing a major deadline which sucks hard and it hit me about 5 days ago.  Just been watching stargate all days and feel like shit.  But the 5 weeks before that was really great.  I hate doing all the work to get on track only to have it drop out from under me and having to start all over. 
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Post by: Brehvolution on February 21, 2019, 09:18:26 AM
You're a very patient person, Stro. I probably would have grabbed the crowbar.
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Post by: jakefromstatefarm on February 21, 2019, 03:31:12 PM
Just put down my dog of 8 years. I have never felt worse.
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Post by: nachobro on February 21, 2019, 04:16:52 PM
fuck that sucks dude. i'm sorry :(
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on February 21, 2019, 04:22:53 PM
I'm sorry bros. :(
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on February 21, 2019, 04:38:56 PM
Just put down my dog of 8 years. I have never felt worse.

That shit destroys you for a while. But just try to remember it's for the best instead of having it suffer.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 21, 2019, 04:43:58 PM
Sorry man
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Post by: jakefromstatefarm on February 21, 2019, 06:09:15 PM
Thanks guys.

He was the most anxious dog I’ve ever met. Over the last couple years it became accentuated; he’d bite anyone he didn’t recognize, get excessively violent with strangers at the door, even started biting family. He had so much goddamn life in him even when we took him in to the vet this morning. He took two whole doses of the sedative and still refused to fall asleep :lol. So I had to restrain him when the doc came in with the euthanizing agent. Which was ok, cause it meant that I got to hold him in his last moments
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on February 22, 2019, 02:05:34 AM
What was wrong with him?
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Post by: chronovore on February 22, 2019, 11:20:19 PM
Just put down my dog of 8 years. I have never felt worse.

Hardest I've ever cried in my life was after taking my poor cancer-riddled dog to be put to sleep. It's absolutely horrible, but your wonderful dog is no longer suffering.
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Post by: Bebpo on March 04, 2019, 07:53:08 PM
Health shit:

Been sick for 2 months, had my last immune suppressing meds almost 7 weeks ago when I guess I still had some of this year's flu lingering in my body which meant when zero immune system drop happened it jumped all over my head/face and I got horribly sick and face was like on fire, ears on fire, pressure pains and congestion everywhere, eye got infected, ear seemed infected, etc...thought maybe brain was infected/fluid-y a little for a bit. Was pretty scary. Went through antibiotics/steroids/immune system came back and eventually a lot of the symptoms cleared.

What's left has been this on/off pressure in one ear and down behind the ear and up and across to the other ear and congestion and pain. Been working like half-time for almost a month and a lot of days I haven't been able to do much because brain fog and pain and just don't feel up to anything social or thinking beyond some gaming and sleep and netflix.

ENT couldn't figure it out, sinuses were fine, did CT scan and stuff. Referred me to an ear specialist like a month ago and finally got in today. Besides confirming I have Euschian Tube Dsyfunction which I know I have and seem to always get everytime I'm sick and there's no cure and it just sucks until it goes away someday, he said my ears look great, hearing is perfect, but I feel pain/pressure in my left ear and around because my blood vessels/nerves are hyper-sensitive. He thinks this means I have a moderately severe atypical migraine that only manifests through fucking my ear and head pressure up. He didn't think I have TMJ (neither did my ENT) which is weird because I swear I have TMJ but I think it just flares up for a day or two and then it's gone and can't be diagnosed. My jaw was all fucked up this last weekend for instance but fine today.

Anyhow so he prescribed me an anti-depressant Nortriptyline because apparently at the low dosage (10mg) it works for migraines and nerve pain. I've never been on an anti-depressant and never wanted to be on one because they fuck with your brain, but I'll see if this helps.

I'm also going to go get some of the weed strain I smoked at borecon soon and will see if that helps. I may just need to mellow out and be less tense. Oh and I've given up caffeine completely for about 3 weeks now which is crazy for me but for a while I was taking cold meds daily and sudafed stimulant + daily espresso drink + my anxiety = was having anxiety attacks and felt like I was gonna die all the time so I got off caffeine entirely and I've been pretty chill and non-anxious since. Just being off caffeine almost feels like taking a low-dose klonopin. Might stay off it for a while though I do miss the energy boosts for work & social/dating.

Gonna knock my immune system back to zero next week. Everyone seems to think whatever's going on is an infection so it's ok to take my next med dosage and kill my immune system. If they're wrong I'll maybe die  :lol hopefully they're right.
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on March 05, 2019, 04:07:24 PM
That sucks man. Hope all goes well.

I had my holidays ruined by my liver issues returning, and I'm still no wiser to what is causing this. But jaundice and itching hell is returning, with me scratching up my legs, feet and hands into looking like a bath salts addict. It isn't as bad as last time, and I at least still have enough energy to go to work. But it's a huge struggle.

Getting absolutely no sleep. Think at most 4 hours combined the last 3 days.

But hey, new full genetics test in a few days, and going back on meds seems to help. I still got like 80 tablets of barbitals left, for when this finally drives me too crazy to bother with anymore.
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Post by: agrajag on March 18, 2019, 03:04:06 PM
My mom passed away this past Tuesday. Funeral was yesterday. My grand-aunt is turning 95 today, she's been very sick the last few years and my mom was very worried about how much time she had. No cause of death yet. She wasn't sick, she was an energetic, optimistic person. Family is in a complete shock and overcome with grief. The past week has been super hectic, just running around and making arrangements, cooking for my family, cleaning, etc. Now I am just tired and empty.  :-\
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 18, 2019, 03:05:36 PM
Sending love, so sorry to hear about your loss
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Post by: shosta on March 18, 2019, 03:07:15 PM
That's tough, agrajag. I'm sorry for your loss.
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Post by: Brehvolution on March 18, 2019, 03:09:51 PM
Sorry for your loss.  :(
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Post by: BIONIC on March 18, 2019, 03:43:09 PM
My mom passed away this past Tuesday. Funeral was yesterday. My grand-aunt is turning 95 today, she's been very sick the last few years and my mom was very worried about how much time she had. No cause of death yet. She wasn't sick, she was an energetic, optimistic person. Family is in a complete shock and overcome with grief. The past week has been super hectic, just running around and making arrangements, cooking for my family, cleaning, etc. Now I am just tired and empty.  :-\

Sorry to hear that, agra. Stay strong.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 18, 2019, 04:05:03 PM
Sorry Agra. 
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 18, 2019, 04:52:35 PM
I'm sorry agra. I love you man.
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Post by: agrajag on March 18, 2019, 05:02:07 PM
thanks fellas. It's extra tough because I have a bipolar older sister and I also have to manage her stress levels and I am supposed to move to another state for work soon. In a way it worked out that my move got delayed, because I got to spend extra time with mom.
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Post by: El Babua on March 18, 2019, 06:46:30 PM
So sorry agra, stay tough :(
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Post by: Bebpo on March 19, 2019, 02:54:31 AM
My mom passed away this past Tuesday. Funeral was yesterday. My grand-aunt is turning 95 today, she's been very sick the last few years and my mom was very worried about how much time she had. No cause of death yet. She wasn't sick, she was an energetic, optimistic person. Family is in a complete shock and overcome with grief. The past week has been super hectic, just running around and making arrangements, cooking for my family, cleaning, etc. Now I am just tired and empty.  :-\

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(
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Post by: skullstorm on March 19, 2019, 06:13:38 AM
I'm really sorry Agra, I can't even imagine what you must be going through  :(
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Post by: BisMarckie on March 19, 2019, 06:17:30 AM
I'm sorry agra. I hope you and your family are able to stay strong.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 22, 2019, 02:21:15 PM
Sorry to hear agra :(

Came here to post my wife had another miscarriage but shit thats nothing compared to what you are going through.

Stay strong.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 22, 2019, 03:52:05 PM
Sorry to hear agra :(

Came here to post my wife had another miscarriage but shit thats nothing compared to what you are going through.

Stay strong.
Dude, miscarriages hurt. I'm sorry. That sucks. One in three pregnancies end in miscarriage, but that doesn't make it any easier. :(
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on March 22, 2019, 04:28:13 PM
Sorry to hear about that Agra. :(

Sorry to hear agra :(

Came here to post my wife had another miscarriage but shit thats nothing compared to what you are going through.

Stay strong.

It's not a competition after all. That fucking sucks as well dude.
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Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 22, 2019, 04:34:37 PM
Sorry Lager. 
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Post by: agrajag on March 22, 2019, 05:08:04 PM
Sorry to hear agra :(

Came here to post my wife had another miscarriage but shit thats nothing compared to what you are going through.

Stay strong.

No man, not at all. Both are tragedies, and we can all  :-\ together.
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Post by: shosta on March 22, 2019, 05:26:12 PM
That really sucks, Lager. Have you thought about going to a fertility doctor?
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Post by: chronovore on March 22, 2019, 09:55:15 PM
Sorry to hear about your miscarriage, Lager. That's incredibly rough for both of you.

Agrajag, my heart goes out to you. Losing a parent is so difficult. Time will make it hurt less.
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Post by: El Babua on March 22, 2019, 10:43:55 PM
Sorry for you and the Mrs, Lager :(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 23, 2019, 01:14:01 AM
Thanks guys, this was our third miscarriage, luckily we already have one great kid :)

That really sucks, Lager. Have you thought about going to a fertility doctor?

Wife is close to 40 now so a higher miscarriage rate is normal. 

I think this was our last try because its pretty taxing mentally on us.
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Post by: Oblivion on March 24, 2019, 06:05:05 PM
edit: oh dear. i thought this was the other thread that was about annoying stuff but not serious shit like

sorry to hear what happened Lager :(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 25, 2019, 01:31:50 AM
Just an update, apparently the bleeding stopped quickly so there is a chance the baby survived, well get a scan soon... Fingers crossed. Mental rollercoaster.
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Post by: team filler on March 25, 2019, 02:13:32 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AF_1BepWa0Q
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on March 27, 2019, 03:46:53 PM
After two years it seems like the doctors are finally getting my diagnosis right. Primary sclerosing cholangitis. Shit sucks.  :larry
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Post by: team filler on March 27, 2019, 03:50:20 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AF_1BepWa0Q
this was supposed to be in the other thread  :doge
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Post by: skullstorm on March 27, 2019, 05:35:04 PM
After two years it seems like the doctors are finally getting my diagnosis right. Primary sclerosing cholangitis. Shit sucks.  :larry

I had to google what that is, sounds really shitty, sorry man  :(
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on March 28, 2019, 01:48:52 PM
Damn gilhaney that sucks man
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Post by: agrajag on March 28, 2019, 04:56:15 PM
Sorry man.  :-\
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Post by: Bebpo on April 05, 2019, 10:17:11 PM
After two years it seems like the doctors are finally getting my diagnosis right. Primary sclerosing cholangitis. Shit sucks.  :larry

I'm sorry Mr Gilhaney,
Now that they know what they're dealing with, can they work to treat you better?
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on April 06, 2019, 07:18:40 PM
After two years it seems like the doctors are finally getting my diagnosis right. Primary sclerosing cholangitis. Shit sucks.  :larry

I'm sorry Mr Gilhaney,
Now that they know what they're dealing with, can they work to treat you better?

Seems like they can ease the symptoms better, especially with ercp (which I am having on friday for the first time, nervous af), but cant actually do anything about the progession of the sickness. Only real solution seems to be transplant, so hey, sign up to that donor list.  :doge
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Post by: Brehvolution on April 09, 2019, 08:53:44 AM
(https://i.imgur.com/rOArFbF.png)

 :notlikethis
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Post by: Raist on April 09, 2019, 09:24:40 AM
(https://i.imgur.com/rOArFbF.png)

 :notlikethis

http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=45694.0
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Post by: Valkyrie on April 09, 2019, 09:40:04 AM
7 months since my grandpa passed away. It’s been tough, and I still cry about it sometimes.

Couple of days ago I was told that my other grandpa was diagnosed with throat cancer.
Waiting for more info on Friday, so we don’t know anything yet except that he’s too old for chemo.
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Post by: Cerveza mas fina on April 09, 2019, 10:42:48 AM
Grandparents are the best :(
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Post by: Valkyrie on April 09, 2019, 02:28:10 PM
Right? Grandparents should live forever, they’re too precious.

I made it 29 with all my grandparents still alive, only just lost my first this last September. My grandma is still super demented and tough to deal with, but she’s the youngest at soon 81. My other grandparents are like 89, so the “good” thing about my grandpa is that he might actually die of old age before the cancer spreads and fucks him over. It’s really surprising because my family has very very healthy genes. They live to around 90, and I’m honestly relieved the cancer came late instead of way sooner if that makes any sense.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on April 09, 2019, 02:54:17 PM
Sorry to hear that Sophie - that's a rough patch to go through.

If that's any "consolation", I never got to know two of my grandparents; then my mom's dad passed away when I was really young (7 I think) and my dad's mom was, well, kinda evil.

Carpe Diem, brehs.
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Post by: Tasty on April 15, 2019, 04:49:11 PM
Probably ruined a five-year friendship cause we were drinking and they upset me I guess and I told them off.

And it was pretty nasty (apparently; I don't remember.) Figures this would happen the third time I've drank in as many months.

I apologized but I wouldn't accept it if I were them. And I'm frustrated because right now really isn't a good time to deal with this, but it's self inflicted so I can't even complain about it really...

Outside of this thread of course. Doubly frustrating because I legitimately thought I was past this, since a similar thing happened last year....

Might be time to kick alcohol to the curb entirely. It's clear after the last few months that 1. I don't need it, and 2. I don't have the self-control required to consume it responsibly when I do drink.

Lot to think about in the coming days.
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 15, 2019, 09:03:20 PM
Hang in there tasty! I believe in you!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 15, 2019, 11:10:53 PM
Hang in there tasty! I believe in you!

That makes one of us! (https://i.imgur.com/cK6h7kq.png)
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Post by: shosta on April 16, 2019, 12:57:39 PM
The first degree burn on my penis still hasn’t healed.
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Post by: Raist on April 16, 2019, 01:38:19 PM
Time to amputate, I'm afraid.

Trust me, I'm a doctor.


Not a medical one, but that's likely better for you.
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Post by: Tasty on April 16, 2019, 03:13:15 PM
The first degree burn on my penis still hasn’t healed.

Deets
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Post by: TVC15 on April 16, 2019, 03:18:57 PM
Accident making grilled cheese while nude.
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Post by: agrajag on April 16, 2019, 03:28:08 PM
it was an unfortunate smelting accident
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Post by: skullstorm on April 16, 2019, 04:31:51 PM
You might want to post pics so we can better assess the situation



:jared
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on April 22, 2019, 08:28:47 PM
My current place of work had a pretty good record of not hiring the type of nerd that can't perform basic hygiene and grooming (such an environment is rare in my field) and I came back from hiatus and there's a new guy. He has that cut cheddar cheese basement dweller body odor and sits next to me.

Time to update LinkedIn.

Got a guy in job training at our work as well, and he fucking stinks. The kind of guy, where you can sometimes see his huge belly sticking out underneath his tshirt. Learnt a few weeks ago that social services were taking away his baby, and was stunned to realize he had one.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on April 23, 2019, 02:23:44 PM
Thought my ergo mouse finally died. It's highly possible that 2 usb ports are dead instead as the mouse works again.

Our time is in decline. :gloomy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 23, 2019, 03:27:36 PM
My back is fucked up.  It hurts to move, to sit, to lay down.  Last time this happened was 2014, which is also the last time I saw a doctor. 
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Post by: TVC15 on April 25, 2019, 03:25:10 PM
I wish I was a baby elephant.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on April 25, 2019, 04:52:32 PM
Been a struggle week

Frames for glasses cracked

Dropped phone, fucked up screen

Decided to treat myself with a milkshake, then spilled it on my front seat getting out of the car  :doge
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Post by: toku on April 25, 2019, 06:33:36 PM
be honest how long did you hesitate thinking about lapping it up you fucki-
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on May 06, 2019, 04:31:05 PM
My current place of work had a pretty good record of not hiring the type of nerd that can't perform basic hygiene and grooming (such an environment is rare in my field) and I came back from hiatus and there's a new guy. He has that cut cheddar cheese basement dweller body odor and sits next to me.

Time to update LinkedIn.

Update : they ended up moving this guy today, but I ended up interviewing for a couple jobs and now I have to awkwardly say no to continuing.

Exit plans have been cancelled for now :doge

Tell each of them you got a better offer from the other one
Let them try to outbid each other
???
Profit

:rollsafe
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 06, 2019, 04:37:17 PM
Was it really impossible to just talk to him about his hygiene?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on May 06, 2019, 04:46:21 PM
Been a struggle week

Frames for glasses cracked

Dropped phone, fucked up screen

Decided to treat myself with a milkshake, then spilled it on my front seat getting out of the car  :doge

I did that a couple of weeks ago, the milkshake part.  :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on May 06, 2019, 05:02:40 PM
agrajag Milkshake Ducked himself
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on May 06, 2019, 05:05:06 PM
heed my cautionary tale kids, don't try to be a hero and try balancing two milkshakes and a drink while getting out of the car.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 09, 2019, 07:13:43 AM
Was told a liver transplant is probably needed in the near future. Just want to die tbh  :crybaby
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: agrajag on May 09, 2019, 10:11:49 AM
 :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on May 09, 2019, 10:21:39 AM
There isn‘t much I can say other than:

We love you bb.  :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 09, 2019, 12:54:04 PM
What's your bloodtype? Do you need a whole liver or will a partial do?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 09, 2019, 12:56:58 PM
Sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 09, 2019, 01:01:14 PM
What's your bloodtype? Do you need a whole liver or will a partial do?

Getting a whole liver, he said they don't really do partial ones here unless it's kids. Luckily getting one shouldnt be that much of a problem (as I am still fairly young, I will be high on the priority list), but shitting myself at all the risks of it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 09, 2019, 02:13:25 PM
Quote
According to a study, people who have a liver transplant have an 89% percent chance of living after one year. The five-year survival rate is 75 percent.
I imagine a lot of those deaths are from old people with bodies ravaged by lifelong alcoholism, so I think you'll be fine.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 09, 2019, 07:09:03 PM
My current place of work had a pretty good record of not hiring the type of nerd that can't perform basic hygiene and grooming (such an environment is rare in my field) and I came back from hiatus and there's a new guy. He has that cut cheddar cheese basement dweller body odor and sits next to me.

Time to update LinkedIn.

Update : they ended up moving this guy today, but I ended up interviewing for a couple jobs and now I have to awkwardly say no to continuing.

Exit plans have been cancelled for now :doge

Update 2: Today everyone in the area where they moved this guy started lighting candles. A project manager came in and asked us if we "lit rubber on fire and dipped it in mustard".

Nobody is going to say anything. There are plans to install fans near his desk, but others are poo pooing this plan as it may cause the smell to spread everywhere.

I am safe though :rejoice

We had a dude like this and my manager low key installed cake deodorizers under the guys desk — like I mean urinal cakes
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on May 09, 2019, 07:12:01 PM
Work with other people brehs. :holeup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on May 09, 2019, 07:13:19 PM
He weighed 400+. We had a weight loss incentive program once and the guy would gain 20 lbs over a weekend. We didn’t meet the goal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on May 09, 2019, 07:33:58 PM
No caretaker or relative on file to mediate? :I
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 09, 2019, 07:49:40 PM
A company that makes the commitment to hire people with autism is also making the commitment to work through issues that might arise as a result of that. One of you dumb-dumbs just needs to man up and pop into HR for five minutes to say that the smell is a consistent workplace distraction. It's so fucking simple.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on May 09, 2019, 08:03:20 PM
Your office needs to stop being a collective pussy and get a HR rep to have the hygiene talk with him

He was hired as part of an a u t I s m outreach program so this entire thing is a landmine nobody wants to touch 😭
which bore poster is it  :neogaf

love ya, assy!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 31, 2019, 07:48:13 PM
any other family members that can share the burden? can you not hire a caretaker?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 31, 2019, 08:02:57 PM
You are The Helper. You will be treated as the reserve force of everyone else's lives until you are dead. Your happiness is immaterial to them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on May 31, 2019, 10:41:18 PM
A season for everything Stro keep your head up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on May 31, 2019, 11:06:28 PM
Probably ruined a five-year friendship cause we were drinking and they upset me I guess and I told them off.

And it was pretty nasty (apparently; I don't remember.) Figures this would happen the third time I've drank in as many months.

I apologized but I wouldn't accept it if I were them. And I'm frustrated because right now really isn't a good time to deal with this, but it's self inflicted so I can't even complain about it really...

Outside of this thread of course. Doubly frustrating because I legitimately thought I was past this, since a similar thing happened last year....

Might be time to kick alcohol to the curb entirely. It's clear after the last few months that 1. I don't need it, and 2. I don't have the self-control required to consume it responsibly when I do drink.

Lot to think about in the coming days.

Give it some time, apologize, be honest and you'll probably recover the friendship if it mattered to you

So I am the caretaker for both grandparents, and the old man has been in the hospital the past 2 weeks. He's coming home Monday and now I'm going to have to get up at 3 every night to give him meds. Honestly this might be my breaking point, there's no way I can continue to do what I do (which is literally everything: all the cooking, all the cleaning, all the laundry, all the yardwork, all the transportation and doctor appointments, all the groceries, all the meds, I have to measure all the food because they're diabetics and one of them is on a pump that I do, I have to deal with the bedside commode, from time to time help with old lady showers, she doesn't walk so I have to wheel her to and from the bathroom every time she has to go, I can't go to bed early because I have to take her to bed, I can't sleep in because I have to be up to make breakfast plus I now I haven't even slept past 6:15 since late March, I can't take naps because they always need me for something and it fucks with my sleep schedule which I've struggled with my entire life, on top of my chronic depression that is highly exacerbated by this living situation, now he's not going to be able to take her to the bathroom, he also now freaks the fuck out every 2-3 days while sleeping thinking he's dying because he wakes up and forgets he wears a bipap mask and freaks thinking he's smothering so he takes the mask off which is giving him his oxygen and then can't breathe more, it also happens that everytime they wake him up in the hospital at 3 am he does this as well) with waking up at 3 every morning and not being able to get back to sleep.

On top of that it's basically like living with Livia Soprano and Uncle Junior, just utterly manipulative narcissistic toxicity 24/7

:stahp this shit will never end

My aunt wants my grandma to die because she's going to get my grandparent's will when she dies. She's been legally incapacitated (nearly 3 years of trials and appeals) and despite several instances of perjury that we proved, we can't take care of my grandma because they still went with a non-profit organization to tutor her. Problem? My aunt is a manipulative bitch that turns everything upside down. Think about this, she's living in the US while we live in Barcelona and the organization that takes care (with due negligence compared to when we took care of her of course) actually listens to her instead of us. She's actually done things like breaking in her mom's house to sell a car she couldn't sell. stuff like that, for years.

So due to the gap where i had to leave work due to finishing my studies and taking care of her (and specially staying with her before the dementia got too severe), I never even get replies on my CVs, despite doing occasional freelance work. Feels really good.

I also feel quite dead on an emotional level, because she's always been my second mom. Despite having a grandfather, he never really cared a bit about my existence. And I didn't even have contact with my father's side for 25 years of my life. So yeah, the whole situation sucks. She's now bedridden and she doesn't even talk. it breaks my heart. So it's really frustrating because you're overloaded, but it's way harder when they're not there anymore... mentally or physically. Mentally i'd say is even harder.

What i forgot to mention is that I spent a year before all this exploded working, studying and staying with her on the afternoons while helping her with physical rehab to recover from a ... walking thingie (those two wheel supports) and getting back to walking normally. I was so happy to see that she was recovering, but a lot of trouble stirred by my aunt caused her to do things against her own health and I hate that it was all for nothing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 05, 2019, 04:34:23 PM
This was an exceptionally bad day and I'm kind of in melt down mode.  Kind of worried that I'll fail my next committee meeting, which probably means getting booted out.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on June 10, 2019, 07:42:52 PM
Nearly broke down in tears during a meeting when asked what I had been working on.  Didn't but it was obvious I was struggling to hold it together.  Really embarrassing.  My mental state is just completely gone. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on June 10, 2019, 07:50:17 PM
I know it's tough but you need to pull it together now more than ever. When things are going bad it's hard to keep focus but take some time to sit down and figure out a plan instead of watching it all collapse under you helplessly. Do you need to change your research focus? Do you think you should suspend your program and resume it at a later time (I've heard people do this, but maybe your department doesn't offer this)? Do you think you want to go into the private sector and just exit academia entirely, knowing you gave it your best shot? It's not the end of the world if you quit, but I just think you should do that on your terms because you want to, not because the committee decided you aren't up to snuff anymore.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 10, 2019, 09:59:56 PM
Nearly broke down in tears during a meeting when asked what I had been working on.  Didn't but it was obvious I was struggling to hold it together.  Really embarrassing.  My mental state is just completely gone. 

Love you, Arvie. I hope things improve. And shost, you’re very thoughtful.

I need to gripe about some stuff, but I haven’t bottled it up until the point of meltdown just yet.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on June 14, 2019, 03:32:30 PM
Went to a funeral today for the daughter of a good friend of mine, a guy I've known my whole life [same class kindergarten through high school, same church]. She was just two years old and her passing was a huge shock, just totally came out of nowhere. A lot of people showed for the funeral since it's a close-knit community and he's got a really large extended family that all lives within just a few miles [a lot of young kids in the family, too, including another daughter who's just a couple of years older than her sister who passed away, which I know is making things really tough for them]. It was a really tough funeral, somebody that young you just don't expect it at all. It's been on my mind  a lot the past few days, but I still can't even begin to comprehend what they're going through right now, and will continue to go through for a long time.

Not asking for any sympathy for me, of course, just...you know...if you've got kids, give them an extra hug or two today, because you just never know.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on June 15, 2019, 02:36:37 PM
Reality sucks. I’m going to eat a bunch of Ativan and pass out for the day. I can’t take much more of this. This is just like Seattle.

Pray for TVC.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on July 11, 2019, 08:21:27 PM
Went in for an ercp to get my drain/stent replaced. Wasn't that bad last time.

Felt nice and high getting back home. Now feels like I've been run over by a fucking truck, and I can barely do anything. I wasn't prepared for this  :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 17, 2019, 09:23:44 PM
My idiot father finally gave himself a heart attack. I'm going to beat his ass when he gets back from the hospital.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 17, 2019, 10:13:47 PM
Sorry, breh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 17, 2019, 11:47:14 PM
Sorry shost, sending love ❤️
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 18, 2019, 05:22:52 AM
Sorry, hope he's OK. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on July 19, 2019, 12:08:52 PM
So sorry. Hoping for a full recovery.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on July 19, 2019, 06:17:32 PM
Maybe take it easy on the guy when just has stents places

And too be honest genetics is probably the most important aspect of the heart. So watch yourself
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 19, 2019, 06:32:50 PM
Thanks everyone. Huff, they couldn't get the stent in yesterday, so he's scheduled for open heart on Monday. As for genetics, I've got many, many heart attacks straight down the paternal line, so I've been committed to an active lifestyle to try to cheat death.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 20, 2019, 05:47:42 PM
Now he's talking about escaping from the hospital because they're poisoning his food :larry have a crazy father, brehs
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 20, 2019, 05:56:06 PM
I dragged him to the polls last year half an hour before they closed :trumps Nevada needs this old social fascist's vote one last time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 20, 2019, 06:15:10 PM
What ARE shotsta sr.'s views on the CPP's struggles for national liberation tho?
He's a "Reagan Democrat", veteran, his grandfather was a coal miner... he bought into the anti-Hillary stuff in 2016 and liked to tell me about this or that criminal illegal that should have been deported but when I was growing up he was a huge Chavista ("BUSH GAVE HIM CANCER!"), made me watch Che Guevara documentaries, and taught me how to sing Guantanamera even though he doesn't know spanish :doge

more related to your question, he has been known to support the Moro National Liberation Front  :doge :doge
and hillary vs bernie?
After the establishment usurped the Bernie mass line by purging voter rolls in Brooklyn and coronating Hillary before California had even voted, he voted for Jill Stein like a good socialist.

He's the WHITE one, by the way
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on July 20, 2019, 07:29:14 PM
Oh my.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 20, 2019, 07:34:29 PM
In conclusion, he is a land of contrasts.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on July 21, 2019, 03:26:37 AM
Thanks everyone. Huff, they couldn't get the stent in yesterday, so he's scheduled for open heart on Monday. As for genetics, I've got many, many heart attacks straight down the paternal line, so I've been committed to an active lifestyle to try to cheat death.

Alcoholism is my favorite active lifestyle choice.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on July 21, 2019, 03:31:01 AM
stost sr :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on July 21, 2019, 03:35:36 AM
What if there was a Bire Sr. where only our dads post on :thinking
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 21, 2019, 08:11:21 AM
Thanks everyone. Huff, they couldn't get the stent in yesterday, so he's scheduled for open heart on Monday. As for genetics, I've got many, many heart attacks straight down the paternal line, so I've been committed to an active lifestyle to try to cheat death.

Alcoholism is my favorite active lifestyle choice.

Silence, trashperson (https://i.imgur.com/wp2MtiU.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 23, 2019, 02:52:00 PM
Triple bypass was a success. We'll see what Shosta Sr. does with his new heart.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on July 23, 2019, 06:42:49 PM
Good to hear m8. My dad went through a quad bypass and recovery sure took its sweet time, but he did fully recover in the end.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on July 29, 2019, 06:59:12 PM
Found out our kitty has a cancerous tumor and really bummed out. She had one a few years ago before we got her and there wasn't much issue getting it removed but now that this is the second one they want to be more careful, especially since it's right on the side of her face. They are doing an xray tomorrow on her chest to see if it has spread to other organs and I'm hoping the answer is no.

Also kinda bad to think like this but damn it came at a bad time bill-wise. $180 for a vet visit, $65 to get the tumor tested, $180 for the xray tomorrow, and $500-1000 for the surgery (which has a low chance of taking her ear with it). If she ends up needing chemo it's gonna jump real high real fast so fingers crossed for tomorrow for multiple reasons.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 29, 2019, 07:00:23 PM
Sorry dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on July 30, 2019, 11:32:17 AM
https://twitter.com/SavagePapangu/status/1156194418728275968


https://twitter.com/SavagePapangu/status/1156190458747457536

Fuck.

Somehow my computer was stil on despite being in water. Everything semi dry now.  But lots of water under the floor. Fuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on July 30, 2019, 11:34:38 AM
Oh geez that sucks. Is that just from rain or did a pipe burst?

Ah second tweet makes it seem like just insane rains
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on July 30, 2019, 11:36:36 AM
Rain. A drain lock (or whatever you call it in English) then popped up because there was so much water. I went to ask the neighbours who just said they didn't think they had a leak
They then looked into their basement and it was just a flood down there. They haven't had that in the 20 years they have been living there. Crazy rain
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on July 30, 2019, 05:25:24 PM
Good news: kitty cancer has not spread so no need for chemo, I assume an operation is next. They said the doctor would call very soon to discuss the treatment plan. I don't want to sound like a jerk but I really hope that's handled over the phone instead of another $170 visit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on August 05, 2019, 10:26:34 AM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on August 05, 2019, 10:36:22 AM
TVC I love you man. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on August 05, 2019, 12:22:57 PM
You're not hollow man, you're very imaginative! I hope you find something (maybe writing?), even if it's just for yourself. Bless.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on August 05, 2019, 12:38:06 PM
Take care, TVC <3
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on August 05, 2019, 01:38:58 PM
You've always been my favorite internet person to read, TVC. Take care of yourself and hopefully I see you pop up again down the line.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on August 05, 2019, 01:50:30 PM
That's the dumbest shit I've ever read. Go to a psychiatrist and surround yourself with people you love, isolation will only make it worse.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 05, 2019, 02:53:43 PM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.
you cool young dude slut, you can't quit us  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on August 05, 2019, 03:00:56 PM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.

Having those thoughts is more common and shared than you may think, if that's worth anything.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 05, 2019, 03:03:22 PM
thinking we have interests and the drive to do things  :foodcourt
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on August 05, 2019, 03:59:01 PM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.

Lmao everybody on the bore is a loser shut-in, bruh :rofl

How will I hook you up with a fake Belgian passport if you don’t stay :juicy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on August 05, 2019, 05:40:49 PM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.

If it makes you feel better, I don't have any interests or the drive to do things.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on August 06, 2019, 01:16:44 AM
I blame shonda for TVC’s untimely passing.

Shonda retire bitch :steiner
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on August 06, 2019, 11:13:51 PM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.

I’m pretty sure you made this post a couple of times before. You’ll be back.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Great Rumbler on August 06, 2019, 11:21:53 PM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.

Breh, all I do is watch anime and play vidya.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 07, 2019, 10:59:38 AM
I need to leave here because I resent you all for having interests and thoughts and the drive to do things. I wish I had these things, but I'm hollow. I'm finding it more and more painful to deal with and even encounter other people, and I don't think it's going to get better. I wish I could say more but it would read like a plea for help or sympathy. I just wanted you guys to know why I left. Please don't try to contact me.

I’ll miss a lot of you guys. Take it easy.

Don't worry guys. I got this.

(https://i.imgflip.com/30vsxh.png)

That'll get him to start posting again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Transhuman on August 07, 2019, 01:28:45 PM
TVC you're very nice, love you bud. GLHF
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on August 08, 2019, 02:29:33 PM
Rona cat update: After some x-rays and test and such, they determined it may be too difficult to get the whole tumor out as it is right now. It's dug in a little deep around her lymph nodes and might be attaching to the bone. So the plan now is to give her a couple of chemo pills (same as a human would get but in a tiny dose) to shrink the tumor and then go in for the operation. The vet thinks it's possible this drug could shrink the tumor up to half size.

(https://i.imgur.com/1NzM6a3.png)

She goes in tomorrow morning to get some bloodwork done to make sure her kidneys will be okay and if she passes that test then they'll give her the pills on the spot and we play the waiting game. Vet said the side effects are often like a human's (vomiting, loss of appetite, hair loss) though cats usually have less of a reaction.

Including a cat picture to make up for all the nonsense blabber. I can stop posting about it if no one cares, just thought I'd give an update.

(https://i.imgur.com/ihaCUWu.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on August 08, 2019, 02:40:16 PM
tvc, you posting here was the main reason i even joined this fucking place  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on August 09, 2019, 04:50:55 AM
tvc, you posting here was the main reason i even joined this fucking place  :'(

You should have posted those speedo pics for him!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on September 03, 2019, 03:07:21 PM
Putting Rona down in 3 hours. Two kitties gone in a year, fucking sucks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: D3RANG3D on September 03, 2019, 03:07:44 PM
Putting Rona down in 3 hours. Two kitties gone in a year, fucking sucks.

 :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 03, 2019, 03:18:29 PM
 :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 03, 2019, 03:56:29 PM
Sorry buddy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on September 03, 2019, 05:31:15 PM
😢
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on September 03, 2019, 07:51:47 PM
She went peacefully and with a belly full of treats. Only had three years with her but words can't say how much I'll miss her. RIP.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 04, 2019, 09:12:39 PM
So I just fucked up real bad in data management

Ok, so I'm on iOS, have all my photos (~15,000), contacts, paid apps, etc..., this is linked to AppleID Example A ("Old Email")
Now Old Email is actually tied to an old gmail account gmail locked years ago and doesn't receive new emails
my main email I use for all my stuff is Example B ("Real Email")

Now this started because fucking Marvel Unlimited changed their login on the IOS reader app from username/password to email/password. My marvel unlimited account is web-based an Real Email.

I thought this might be because Old Email and Real Email don't match so it logs me in but doesn't think I subscribe to Marvel Unlimited.


So I figured I'd do what has been a long time in coming and fix my AppleID from Old Email to Real Email since it's never been great that the email associated with my AppleID doesn't actually work.

I went to change my AppleID but it wouldn't let me change my AppleID from Old Email to Real Email because the Real Email was some throwaway Apple account I had decades ago that I never used.


So I figured I'd delete whatever throwaway account is attached to Real Email, free it up and then change my AppleID from Old Email to Real Email and then everything would be 1:1 and hopefully the Marvel Unlimited app issue would fix. I go through the steps to delete the account associated with Real Email and it tells me a 12 digit access code that is super important to write down and me being dumb figured there's no reason I'd ever need to recover the throwaway account associated with Real Email so I just copy and pasted it and never wrote it down.

Everything seems fine until I try using my Old Email main account and it is locked and nothing works. I call Apple Support.

Somehow between the pages of being logged into the throwaway account on Real Email and the privacy deletion account, cookies or someshit logged into my main account associated to Old Email and deleted that and I didn't write down the access code.

Spent almost 2 hours on the phone with Apple Support trying everything in the book but no luck or idea how to stop the account from being deleted. So in a few days I'm gonna lose all my photos for the last 5 or so years that I haven't backed up to something (and to be fair most of the good ones I've put somewhere), all my contacts, my calendar which I actually use to calendar stuff upcoming like appointments and any apps I've purchased I'll have to repurchase.

So yeah, this is gonna be bad. Shit. Don't even know the easiest way to backup my icloud photos offline, and will just have to start writing down contact information by hand and my upcoming next year calendar.  Fuck.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 04, 2019, 11:54:04 PM
What do you mean by your old gmail account being locked? A friend forgot their password once and didn't have any backup sign-in methods enabled but we were able to recover it by answering questions on the approximate date that the account was created and what the last password used was.

If there's no way to recover it, then I truly feel sorry for you. Can't imagine having to backup 5 years worth of shit in two days.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 06, 2019, 02:23:19 AM
Yeah, my old gmail account got locked when I got suckered into a work phishing email and it sent out phishing spam from my account to like 1,000 people and google locked the account. I tried to get them to re-open it and they unlocked it but it stopped functioning and has never received a single email since the day it was locked (and I'm sure lots were sent, like I said it was my main email for my apple ID for years).

Anyhow, I think I got most of everything backed up by the end of last night. Got all my photos in 1,000 photo zip files and deleted and redownloaded and re-logged into all the apps I use. All contacts/calendar/notes/bookmarks seem to have merged with the new apple ID I made yesterday. Was a huge pain in the ass and cost me some $$$ but seems ok now.


In other news, had another struggle moment today. Went to Disneyland with friends and went to the new Star Wars land. There's a cantina there that sells weird unique drinks. I got a fizzy foam one and the guy jokingly warned me it was dangerous and don't snort it. I was laughing with my friends when I tried to eat through the foam on top and accidently breathed it in. This was a weird fizzy numbing foam that makes your lips and mouth go numb and when it went into my lungs I literally stopped being able to breathe and started panic attack dying. I tried to inhale in but the foam was blocking the airways and I couldn't get anything through. After a bunch of attempts and coughing finally got some air through and then was just getting breaths in while calming the panick attacking down until I could fully breathe again. The guy working their gave me a glass of water and says this happens every week to like 25-30 people and a least I didn't end up on the floor like a lot of them and gave me a glass of water. Not sure if he was joking but yeah...

Not really sure how to reflect on it, all I could think at the time when I couldn't breathe was "oh fuck this might be it" and nerves are still a little shocked tonight from the experience. Anyhow I think I'm not touching foam anything for the rest of my life now lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 09, 2019, 11:39:27 AM
Got almost 500 euros in speeding fine. I am now team #acab
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 09, 2019, 03:29:31 PM
What country were you in and how fast were you going? I didn't even know Eurocops give speeding tickets outside of Switzerland.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on September 09, 2019, 03:36:39 PM
Whatever gave you that impression?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on September 09, 2019, 03:40:02 PM
top gear, mostly
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on September 09, 2019, 03:40:34 PM
What country were you in and how fast were you going? I didn't even know Eurocops give speeding tickets outside of Switzerland.

Cops giving tickets is less of a thing but that's because, in France at least, this has largely been shifted to automated cameras / speed radars. Not an expert but apart from the mythical German autobahns I think most European countries have speeding laws enforced (if only because it's also a massive financial boon).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 09, 2019, 03:46:47 PM
What country were you in and how fast were you going? I didn't even know Eurocops give speeding tickets outside of Switzerland.

I was going around 75, as I was crossing into a 50 (city) zone. Was pretty stupid of me to be fair, but I was hardly past the border of the 80 km an hour zone, and on a road with absolutely no one or anything happening... Except two bored cops with lasers.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 09, 2019, 04:50:08 PM
Yeah I think I heard that on Top Gear but the only Euro countries I've driven in are France, Italy, and Spain. Everyone goes over the 130kmh limit on highways which is already fast compared to us. The only thing I remember about city driving is the roads were too small to go fast.

I can't judge, I accidentally barreled through the beginning of a red light a week ago and copied the dash cam footage in case I get a ticket in the mail and need to make it look like I had a justification.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on September 19, 2019, 04:56:27 PM
cousin told me he can get me a job where he works. pay, benefits, retirement paid holidays all good. but I have to re-up, they only hire national guard   :-\

becoming a natti boi to own my financial insecurity  :doge

I really don't want to cut my hair, also don't want to end up contributing directly to this shit: https://twitter.com/YousefMunayyer/status/1174745925086064644
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on September 19, 2019, 05:08:20 PM
National guard is a way to get military benefits without doing anything abroad, just think of it as a way to fuck Uncle Sam
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 19, 2019, 08:52:01 PM
filler seems like he'd be an expert at uncle fucking
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on September 20, 2019, 02:15:56 AM
Turned 52 today.
The rockstars of my youth are dying in droves.
Time stops for no-one.
Rust never sleeps.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 23, 2019, 01:03:41 PM
My next committee meeting got postponed by a month at the last minute.  I sent out a poll for meet times 2 weeks ago.  3/4 profs. did it right away one waited two weeks (despite me sending 2 reminders and my supervisor sending 2 reminders), so when they did do it then the prickly prof. in the group now was unavailable and had to see if he can reschedule.  That was Friday.  At noon I get an email saying he could.  Twenty minutes later I get an email from another prof. saying that they had just read the last few emails and now they can't make it. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 28, 2019, 07:03:02 PM
Now it's looking like it will be after Nov. 20.  SMH. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 29, 2019, 09:52:24 AM
I mean yeah, she probably realized it was sabotage on your part. You ain't slick.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on September 29, 2019, 10:14:19 AM
Let my mom borrow my car for an event, she blew out a tire on it, wants me to pay for it :beli

That’s what you get for not liking her posts :ufup
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on September 30, 2019, 01:55:12 PM
Sickest I've been all year.

 :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on September 30, 2019, 03:36:42 PM
no wonder you are always angry on the internet
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on September 30, 2019, 04:32:18 PM
She suffered for hours so that you could be brought into this world. Stop being an ungrateful little brat.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on September 30, 2019, 04:47:12 PM
he's adopted
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on October 04, 2019, 09:18:25 PM
So for like decades I've had a weird thing in my throat where sometimes if I talk too much I suddenly feel a sharp pain like a cut in my throat and my throat closes out and I can't talk until I drink some water and sometimes it bleeds a bit. Once it happens it's sore and more likely to keep happening so I have to rest an be careful with my voice.

I was told it was a non-cancerous polyp/nodule on my vocal chords and it's no big deal.

But it's been getting worse and happening more often over the years until a week ago when I woke up spitting up a good deal of blood spits and feeling the blood dripping down into my lungs and feeling slightly congested with blood  :'(  And my throat has been sore/raw since I keep losing my voice if I talk much at all. I went to see a local throat doctor that I'd seen a year ago and they saw the nodule and told me to basically live with it unless it gets worse. Well this time I saw them they looked and the polyp/nodule was gone and they're like "you like fine to me so I have no idea where you are bleeding from or what is going on, get out of my office". He basically was like uhhhh maybe it's from your lungs or something and you should get some tests there.

Anyhow dude was an idiot, but I learned that this issue I'd had for years had been misdiagnosed as being just a side effect of the polyp on my vocal chords. Because this guy was right and showed me in the images, that the polyp was gone, but I was having worse symptoms than ever.

So I've been pretty depressed, feeling like shit this whole week, not caring about responsibilities so much and just figuring I'm kinda fucked and gonna die lol and being in bed a lot. I learned really fast how hard life is socially if you can't talk much -_- not to mention work. Oh and I wake up like every 1-2 hours because the thing tickles/discomforts in my throat and makes me want to dry cough so I spend 5-10 mins on a throat lozenger and then sleep another 1-2 hours.

But today I talked with one of my real good doctors, my GI and he agreed with me that the local doc was dumb and it's likely not anything in my lungs or something dumb but something in my mid/upper throat that's being missed so he referred me to a really good throat/voice guy and I got an appointment set up for the start of next week. Downside is the guy doesn't take any insurance and this being AMERICA it's gonna cost me a little under $1k to get diagnosed, which luckily I'm lucky enough that I can afford it, but the upside is I'm finally feeling hopeful that maybe I'll finally get this thing figured out and get some treatment for it and not die soon. So I'm less depressed now.

I've also had food poisoning since this happened a week ago and haven't been able to eat much besides juice, crackers, bananas and the lack of food has been sorta working into being more down and low energy about this. Pretty sure it was from the stress of it, so hopefully stomach will get back together.

My best guess is that I've got an ulcer/sore on the epiglottis flap that opens/closes when you breathe & talk and the ulcer when dry and moving sometimes stretches and tears which the shock of the pain causes it to slam shut cutting off my voice and stuff until I get some water. Talking and breathing through my mouth when I sleep produces hot air which dries it out and talking moves it a lot and makes it more like to tear. If that's it, then I think the ulcer's just been slowing getting bigger everytime it tears and is pretty bad now. Hopefully the guy on monday can confirm!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on October 04, 2019, 09:21:02 PM
Hope it's nothing serious and you get the right treatment!

he referred me to a really good throat/voice guy and I got an appointment set up for the start of next week. Downside is the guy doesn't take any insurance and this being AMERICA it's gonna cost me a little under $1k to get diagnosed

 :cornette
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on October 04, 2019, 10:02:43 PM
Hope it's nothing serious and you get the right treatment!

he referred me to a really good throat/voice guy and I got an appointment set up for the start of next week. Downside is the guy doesn't take any insurance and this being AMERICA it's gonna cost me a little under $1k to get diagnosed

 :cornette

America!  :'(

At least if he can diagnose it, I can then go see someone that takes my insurance for treatment from that point.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on October 04, 2019, 10:57:00 PM
I’m struggling through a horrible ankle injury. MRI after a week of RICE still couldn’t be easily read by an Ortho surgeon. I got tripped while jogging (@4am) by a twine used for landscaping and immediately heard the “snap crackle pop.” I knew it was bad but this is devastating as I’m days away from a big trip to Japan. The one thing that I was going for me was Formula 1. I’ve been trying to get assistance with getting to the track which has defeated me. I can’t walk 2km, let alone my own damn bathroom..  :'(

I’m sorry for adding to the recent struggles you guys have been facing. I hope we all can pull through the struggle to be just inconvenienced.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on October 04, 2019, 11:26:33 PM
I’m struggling through a horrible ankle injury. MRI after a week of RICE still couldn’t be easily read by an Ortho surgeon. I got tripped while jogging (@4am) by a twine used for landscaping and immediately heard the “snap crackle pop.” I knew it was bad but this is devastating as I’m days away from a big trip to Japan. The one thing that I was going for me was Formula 1. I’ve been trying to get assistance with getting to the track which has defeated me. I can’t walk 2km, let alone my own damn bathroom..  :'(

I’m sorry for adding to the recent struggles you guys have been facing. I hope we all can pull through the struggle to be just inconvenienced.

That's rough. Can you walk with a crutch? My advice for Japan would be to spend the money and taxi everywhere, unfortunately Japan is a very walking city and even getting around train stations is a lot of walking. If you could taxi direct, that'll probably help.

Alternatively, can you re-schedule and get most of your money back? Might be better to try to go in 6 months or a year after this heals up.


I'm booked for Japan in a month too and hoping I don't have to cancel my trip as well in case I need a surgery or something immediately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on October 06, 2019, 03:09:18 PM
I tried crutches and failed at using them. My splint and boot have helped out a bit but I’m still far from able to walk long distances. We’ve been so busy calling up Chase about our travel insurance options that we’re ready to just say fuck everything and go. We might not get to everything we wanted to do, but at least we’ll have a story. Taxis cost be damned we gonna have a great time. Oh and did I mention there is a cat 4 typhoon coming directly to the area we’re staying? Yeah this is gonna be a wild trip.

Bebpo I hope things get better with your issues that sounds nasty. Ulcers aren’t fun I had a pancreatic ulcer caused by a left over stone from my wild Texas trip in 15’ that was 18 months late to the party. I thought I was in the clear till it decided to pull a Alien on me and burst through my soft tissue of my rib cage. Now I have to watch out for an ulcer and a potential hernia.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on October 06, 2019, 03:44:16 PM
Just a warning for those who have their gallbladder removed you aren’t out of the clear once you get it removed.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 07, 2019, 03:48:23 AM
So for like decades I've had a weird thing in my throat where sometimes if I talk too much I suddenly feel a sharp pain like a cut in my throat and my throat closes out and I can't talk until I drink some water and sometimes it bleeds a bit. Once it happens it's sore and more likely to keep happening so I have to rest an be careful with my voice.

I was told it was a non-cancerous polyp/nodule on my vocal chords and it's no big deal.

But it's been getting worse and happening more often over the years until a week ago when I woke up spitting up a good deal of blood spits and feeling the blood dripping down into my lungs and feeling slightly congested with blood  :'(  And my throat has been sore/raw since I keep losing my voice if I talk much at all. I went to see a local throat doctor that I'd seen a year ago and they saw the nodule and told me to basically live with it unless it gets worse. Well this time I saw them they looked and the polyp/nodule was gone and they're like "you like fine to me so I have no idea where you are bleeding from or what is going on, get out of my office". He basically was like uhhhh maybe it's from your lungs or something and you should get some tests there.

Anyhow dude was an idiot, but I learned that this issue I'd had for years had been misdiagnosed as being just a side effect of the polyp on my vocal chords. Because this guy was right and showed me in the images, that the polyp was gone, but I was having worse symptoms than ever.

So I've been pretty depressed, feeling like shit this whole week, not caring about responsibilities so much and just figuring I'm kinda fucked and gonna die lol and being in bed a lot. I learned really fast how hard life is socially if you can't talk much -_- not to mention work. Oh and I wake up like every 1-2 hours because the thing tickles/discomforts in my throat and makes me want to dry cough so I spend 5-10 mins on a throat lozenger and then sleep another 1-2 hours.

But today I talked with one of my real good doctors, my GI and he agreed with me that the local doc was dumb and it's likely not anything in my lungs or something dumb but something in my mid/upper throat that's being missed so he referred me to a really good throat/voice guy and I got an appointment set up for the start of next week. Downside is the guy doesn't take any insurance and this being AMERICA it's gonna cost me a little under $1k to get diagnosed, which luckily I'm lucky enough that I can afford it, but the upside is I'm finally feeling hopeful that maybe I'll finally get this thing figured out and get some treatment for it and not die soon. So I'm less depressed now.

I've also had food poisoning since this happened a week ago and haven't been able to eat much besides juice, crackers, bananas and the lack of food has been sorta working into being more down and low energy about this. Pretty sure it was from the stress of it, so hopefully stomach will get back together.

My best guess is that I've got an ulcer/sore on the epiglottis flap that opens/closes when you breathe & talk and the ulcer when dry and moving sometimes stretches and tears which the shock of the pain causes it to slam shut cutting off my voice and stuff until I get some water. Talking and breathing through my mouth when I sleep produces hot air which dries it out and talking moves it a lot and makes it more like to tear. If that's it, then I think the ulcer's just been slowing getting bigger everytime it tears and is pretty bad now. Hopefully the guy on monday can confirm!

Your entire post had me making my most-sour of sour faces. Good grief, dude. Get well!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on October 07, 2019, 09:25:36 PM
Thanks Chrono, they aren't really sure what's up with my throat other than lots of little odd stuff and that I just have HUGE tonsils (they wrote on the photos HUGE TONSILS) that I've had my whole life and may be hiding stuff. The doctor pretty much wants me to get my tonsils out in the next 6-12 months if they can't figure out anything just to rule them out and because they're not good for my throat in general since they're huge and collect bad stuff.

But getting tonsils out at 38, with being immune-suppressed and having slow/weak healing is gonna be a fucking big deal, so will need to powow around with my doctors and figure out what to do.

I tried crutches and failed at using them. My splint and boot have helped out a bit but I’m still far from able to walk long distances. We’ve been so busy calling up Chase about our travel insurance options that we’re ready to just say fuck everything and go. We might not get to everything we wanted to do, but at least we’ll have a story. Taxis cost be damned we gonna have a great time. Oh and did I mention there is a cat 4 typhoon coming directly to the area we’re staying? Yeah this is gonna be a wild trip.

Bebpo I hope things get better with your issues that sounds nasty. Ulcers aren’t fun I had a pancreatic ulcer caused by a left over stone from my wild Texas trip in 15’ that was 18 months late to the party. I thought I was in the clear till it decided to pull a Alien on me and burst through my soft tissue of my rib cage. Now I have to watch out for an ulcer and a potential hernia.

 :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on October 29, 2019, 10:48:55 PM
Today I messaged the wife of a friend of mine from the US because he wasn't answering for weeks.

Turns out he's in jail. Criminal endangerment (he explained this one to me), but she also added felony charges for stealing stuff. Also she mentioned she's filing for divorce because their marriage got very tense in the last year.



So yeah, I've got my buddy from 13 years in jail :/
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on October 30, 2019, 07:05:11 AM
Already growing into the avatar, huh?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on October 31, 2019, 07:14:29 AM
So yeah, I've got my buddy from 13 years in jail :/

Elaborate.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on October 31, 2019, 09:54:28 PM
So yeah, I've got my buddy from 13 years in jail :/

Elaborate.

A friend i've known since 2006, but only online due to physical distance. On the bright side, he was released yesterday (after 40 days in jail) and there's a chance about them dropping charges!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on November 01, 2019, 04:24:12 AM
Right. That sounded like you literally got him in jail.

(https://i.imgur.com/BHuFhzY.gif)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 04, 2019, 04:55:13 PM
Having a v hard time pulling myself together rn. Need to get in therapy or something but can’t bring myself to get the ball rolling. Haven’t really talked to anyone about what’s going on with my marriage and feeling very isolated and lonely. Having those scary thoughts, struggling to see forward but hanging in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 04, 2019, 09:25:46 PM
Sorry, buddy that life sucks.  Hope it gets better soon. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 08, 2019, 04:47:34 PM
Been contracting for Small Co.

Last two paychecks have been late :what

Still haven't been paid for last month :what

It's "tied up in the accounting dept" :what

"If you need to you can look for another contracting job in the meantime" (paraphrased) :what

spoiler (click to show/hide)
They technically have 30 days to pay me but things getting thrown out of wack randomly and then being told the other pieces of info... :uhh
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on November 12, 2019, 01:43:51 PM
Gross warning:

Friday night after playing Death Stranding came down with insane food poisoning like never before. Throwing up for hours intense and then uncontrollable shits for 20 hours straight until I ended up in the ER on morphine and other drugs hospitalized.

Had my months in planning vacation booked and mostly non-refundable for this morning. Wasn't sure if I'd be able to go. Was doing better yesterday and started adding some plain chicken in (was on nothing or bananas, rice, toast for 2-3 days besides being on probiotics to try to reform my gut) and then was all packed and ready to go and shits outta nowhere causing emergency laundry washing instead of sleeping.

Been going back and forth on whether to fly or not, feeling stuffed up and dry now but the chicken and stuff from yesterday hasn't processed so idk if I can digest it. Would lose like thousands of $$ and miss all the plans I had. Otoh, the whole point of vacation was to have a nice time away from stress of life/work and being on the edge of ill and possibly running infections while in Japan doesn't sound very relaxing.

At the airport now and gonna go for it. Fingers crossed my guts have recovered. I'm literally wearing an adult diaper just in case and a throwaway pair of jeans in case I gotta trash them. This emberassing and awful af. But if I'm lucky I've recovered at this point and will make it across the sea and to my hotel ok and can eat some good simple Japanese food tomorrow. My ryokan hotel has Japanese style breakfast so my first meal will be grilled fish, miso soup and rice which is all probably safe.

But will have to miss drinking with Chronovore tomorrow :( Will still hang (hopefully), but no way gonna be able to drink anything for a while into the trip.

A lot of this is because of my crohn's disease and old surgery wound In my gut I'm sure. In the 10 years since my surgery luckily I've never had really bad food poisoning, but now I have and my GI does not react well to that.

Fwiw I'm pretty sure it was the fresh salsa at my favorite taco place. Had it for lunch Friday and tasted weird. But also had a del taco run on Fri night (because taco bell got rid of the double decker) and got the chicken soft tacos so it could've been those too. Either way will be avoiding both places for a while...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 12, 2019, 03:09:20 PM
I mean even if you have to eat the costs on the flight out, I'd just say go the next day if you feel that close to death's door.

Good luck!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 15, 2019, 09:05:01 AM
This "not getting paid" thing has begun to turn catastrophic and dominoes are starting to fall.

Fun.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on November 15, 2019, 09:46:17 PM
Witnessed what might have been a crime or domestic incident going on tonight.

We went to get takeout,  stopped at a gas station, and I got out, only to notice that there was a small crowd of people all watching and cheering/laughing at something going down on the other side of the lot.  Another woman had her phone out and was filming it, while screaming at the crowd to "stop fucking laughing and go do something." 

It was hard to tell what the hell was going on- two cars were parked next to each other and several women were fistfighting.  A man was also trying to get to one of the women and hit her.  Saw a kid get out of one of the cars and run into the other one.  My wife is uncomfortable (she's never seen anything like this before) and keeps telling me to leave, which I tell her is absolutely not happening until I know what's going on.  Was about go call the cops after one of the cars tried leaving and a woman hung onto it, then fell off and hit the pavement.  At this point gas station employees run out and get the man away from the woman he's trying to attack.  She gets into her car (unsure if the kid was in here), screams "THEY TRIED TO TAKE MY KID FROM ME!!!" and peels out of there.  The other women get into their car -without the man- and drive away.  The man is just kind of standing around, dazed, while the gas station people are trying to talk to him.  Someone's stuff (looks like a packed clothes bag) is just sitting there when everyone disperses.

Since this is over, I got gas and got back in the car, only to see my wife getting out- we had taken the dog out earlier and brought her in the car with us, and the whole thing scared her so much she peed all over the front seat and was shaking.   :(  My wife got in the back, we picked up the food, went home, and I spent a little while cleaning out the car and getting that pee out of the seat. 

Can't figure out if that was some kind of kidnapping attempt (didn't seem like it) or custody battle shit (seems more likely), but holy shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on November 16, 2019, 12:14:26 AM
I got gas and got back in the car, only to see my wife getting out- we had taken the dog out earlier and brought her in the car with us, and the whole thing scared her so much she peed all over the front seat and was shaking.

Ph-phrasing...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on November 19, 2019, 12:29:34 PM
Slipping back into being crazy on edge half of the time;  like flipping between zen and losing it at the smallest provocation. 

Then if I entertain the "edge" I spiral pretty quickly and then have trouble shaking what bothered me.   Will completely distract me, and I'll do weird shit like randomly make a face or scoff out loud at something that happened earlier that my brain decided to go over again.   

Does not feel like a healthy mind inside of my head, but at least I'm aware of it.  Of course I keep losing it, despite this awareness.. but trying to more quickly reign it in.

I don't know if it's the time of year or what.. I'm of course also dreading the holidays and being endlessly PTSD triggered.

I do this a lot at times too. I think it's good that you're at least letting it out/expressing it with the scoffs etc. It can feel a little crazy and try not to do it around others but at least you're acknowledging it. I also think you're doing the right thing shifting awareness when it comes up and sometimes i find even focusing on just breathing or walking helps. Most important thing is you just don't let your brain build tracks down that shit road. You been there already, goes nowhere. It gets easier from experience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 12:29:52 PM
Real struggle:

I haven’t slept on a Monday night in over 3 months. Actually, it’s been since July but I’m not doing math. And I mean no sleep. Tuesday is always a rough meeting day for me, so this has been getting shitty. I’m normally a shitty sleeper so I can live with missing any given night of sleep, but it’s been this night so consistently that it’s notable.

The problem is that I live by a courtyard that has a number of bars and restaurants in it. Monday night is garbage night for them, and they all put dumpsters out. These dumpsters attract lots of homeless people who spend the whole night, up until 4:30am when the garbage trucks come (my alarm goes off at 4:15), rooting through them as noisily as possible.

I don’t know what to do about this short of moving. Really, fuck homeless people.

Any advice is appreciated. I’m not sure what can pragmatically be done here.

Notes:

* I can’t do earplugs or headphones or anything while trying to sleep. Things on me is generally a no go. I don’t even use a blanket when I sleep
* We’re talking lots of glass constantly clanking around and breaking frequently, along with lots of other general noise, but it’s the sharp shit that jumps out that ruins things
* This info may be wrong, but the situation appears to have been caused by dumpster location changes due to a few construction projects on my block. Two new apartment buildings... want to take bets on how many affordable units they have? Both projects are barely off the ground, and construction won’t make any progress if it rains this year (based on past years)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 12:39:46 PM
Stop watching Raw

I DID BROTHER
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 12:45:41 PM
We always have a loud fan going;  can't hear much of anything going on outside of our room.

This isn’t be the right kind of noise (I’ve tried a fan and a little music). I need something that is able to cover frequent loud clanks and pops. Sudden noises—the problem is they alarm me into being awake, so a wall of low noise wouldn’t do much.

I’m open to other noise-type suggestions though. I think it may be one of my only angles. But I need suggestions and advice.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 19, 2019, 12:48:24 PM
Pills?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 12:52:40 PM
Pills?

Ehhhhhhh, it’s the nuclear option. Without going into details, I had an OG ambien episode over a decade ago that has me scared off anything even remotely related to it. Believe women—believe Roseanne.

I do use Ativan, but I use it for a specific purpose and I’d like to avoid introducing any other drugs like that into my life. I think they trigger depression in me.

These are options, and I do know they work, but I’ve tried them and they just can’t be the answer to this. They’d introduce new complications that I’d also have to proactively address.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 12:59:51 PM
My sleep has been getting really bad as my health gets worse. I’m unintentionally missing 2-3 nights a week of sleep. Always Monday though, that’s the only consistent day. I’ve been going into a coma for most of the weekends. It’s been getting really rough, and it sucks because work is going really well right now, and I enjoy it, but I can’t be my best and get the most out of the situation. I’m worried I’m blowing it. People notice I have to work from home all the time or I’m walking around like a zombie or I’m all nervous energy from adrenaline. It feels like I can’t win.

I don’t stay up or watch shit or play games. I just stay in bed with my eyes closed the whole time and try to rest, moving as little as possible. It’s so frustrating.

I also take one of my medications as a shot at night specifically because it’s more sedating that way.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 19, 2019, 01:18:40 PM
I just found out an old coworker from my prior company died last week.
we had lost touch the last few years, but man. I met his wife and kids. Poor guy. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on November 19, 2019, 01:22:00 PM
My sleep has been getting really bad as my health gets worse. I’m unintentionally missing 2-3 nights a week of sleep. Always Monday though, that’s the only consistent day. I’ve been going into a coma for most of the weekends. It’s been getting really rough, and it sucks because work is going really well right now, and I enjoy it, but I can’t be my best and get the most out of the situation. I’m worried I’m blowing it. People notice I have to work from home all the time or I’m walking around like a zombie or I’m all nervous energy from adrenaline. It feels like I can’t win.

I don’t stay up or watch shit or play games. I just stay in bed with my eyes closed the whole time and try to rest, moving as little as possible. It’s so frustrating.

I also take one of my medications as a shot at night specifically because it’s more sedating that way.
How's your sleep hygenie? Like if you can't fall asleep within 20 minutes do you get out of bed and sit down somewhere else? I used to make the mistake of staying in bed and force myself to fall asleep. Setting up a chair nearby where I could just sit in the quiet if I couldn't fall asleep made a huge difference. Not saying that'll work for you, but it did help me.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 01:33:04 PM
My sleep has been getting really bad as my health gets worse. I’m unintentionally missing 2-3 nights a week of sleep. Always Monday though, that’s the only consistent day. I’ve been going into a coma for most of the weekends. It’s been getting really rough, and it sucks because work is going really well right now, and I enjoy it, but I can’t be my best and get the most out of the situation. I’m worried I’m blowing it. People notice I have to work from home all the time or I’m walking around like a zombie or I’m all nervous energy from adrenaline. It feels like I can’t win.

I don’t stay up or watch shit or play games. I just stay in bed with my eyes closed the whole time and try to rest, moving as little as possible. It’s so frustrating.

I also take one of my medications as a shot at night specifically because it’s more sedating that way.
How's your sleep hygenie? Like if you can't fall asleep within 20 minutes do you get out of bed and sit down somewhere else? I used to make the mistake of staying in bed and force myself to fall asleep. Setting up a chair nearby where I could just sit in the quiet if I couldn't fall asleep made a huge difference. Not saying that'll work for you, but it did help me.

Not good by standards of sleep experts! I sleep on a floor on a futon mattress.

It usually takes me about 2 hours to fall asleep (estimated based on last remembered clock views before falling asleep), so getting up after a brief period hasn’t helped. It’s been like this since I was a kid. The taking a long time to fall asleep, not the not sleeping at all bit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 02:02:21 PM
I’m complaining about this today because I’m missing work on a really important day and I feel bad for letting my team down.

At least it’s good to have a valid reason to hate the homeless.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 19, 2019, 02:03:39 PM
I've been letting people down all year.  Its really painful. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 02:05:58 PM
You get used to it. I was just getting not used to it at work so this is especially frustrating
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 19, 2019, 02:52:32 PM
Ya, that's what I meant.  Letting down family, that's OK been doing that a long time, but I had always been able to keep face at work.  When I couldn't, it was a hell of a hit to my self esteem.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 19, 2019, 03:00:50 PM
Probably gonna have to sell the house this summer as part of getting a divorce. I don’t think I can get myself on board with what the soon to be ex wants to do: build a separate dwelling on the same property and continue to partner financially/ as parents. Just seems too pathetic, even for me. Of course she’s pissed that I’m back tracking on being up for that but honestly she’s not a great financial partner and if we’re splitting up we should split it up so we can move on. Idk. Fighting suicidal thoughts everyday but still have a few anchors in this world keeping me held down, fortunately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 19, 2019, 03:03:23 PM
Sorry dude. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 19, 2019, 03:04:38 PM
I’m just trying to steel myself for the struggle and stay open for the fact that I’ll have a completely different life in a few years, better or worse. Considering moving to either Florida, Houston, Denver or Atlanta. (Can easily transfer for work to those locales.)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on November 19, 2019, 03:06:02 PM
Love you, Cats. If you're ever down in Vegas again I'll let you go a few rounds with Bailey, no charge.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 19, 2019, 03:07:04 PM
Sorry, I’ve made a decision. No more white girls.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 03:07:30 PM
Sorry, Cats :( sounds shitty.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 19, 2019, 03:10:44 PM
I start most mornings on one of these:

(https://www.raymondcorp.com/-/media/raymond/trucks/pillars/500x416_pillars_opr_ergo.jpg?h=416&w=500&la=en&hash=9E28156038F8C1304D69E64632C5A787B5940AAD)

and it’s so easy to think “wow I could do a proper drop hanging from up here”

So that’s a dark thought that I’m trying to scrub out
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 03:16:47 PM
I’m sorry, Cats. You come across as a decent person and that’s sad to here. I’m clueless when it comes to relationship shit because I was never dumb enough to be interested in girls, but if you ever feel the need to say arbitrary emotional things but you don’t feel comfortable sharing them with someone you know, feel free to talk to this impressively stable individual right here. I need input for my work.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 19, 2019, 03:33:36 PM
Slipping back into being crazy on edge half of the time;  like flipping between zen and losing it at the smallest provocation. 

Then if I entertain the "edge" I spiral pretty quickly and then have trouble shaking what bothered me.   Will completely distract me, and I'll do weird shit like randomly make a face or scoff out loud at something that happened earlier that my brain decided to go over again.   

Does not feel like a healthy mind inside of my head, but at least I'm aware of it.  Of course I keep losing it, despite this awareness.. but trying to more quickly reign it in.

I don't know if it's the time of year or what.. I'm of course also dreading the holidays and being endlessly PTSD triggered.
go vacation in somewhere sunny and warm. you deserve it, breh  :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 03:35:33 PM
Slipping back into being crazy on edge half of the time;  like flipping between zen and losing it at the smallest provocation. 

Then if I entertain the "edge" I spiral pretty quickly and then have trouble shaking what bothered me.   Will completely distract me, and I'll do weird shit like randomly make a face or scoff out loud at something that happened earlier that my brain decided to go over again.   

Does not feel like a healthy mind inside of my head, but at least I'm aware of it.  Of course I keep losing it, despite this awareness.. but trying to more quickly reign it in.

I don't know if it's the time of year or what.. I'm of course also dreading the holidays and being endlessly PTSD triggered.
go vacation in somewhere sunny and warm. you deserve it, breh  :)

Can we all come over to your place and do a bunch of crank with strippers? That dude in your avatar would look kinda like ET if I had my dick in him...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 19, 2019, 03:38:12 PM
never disrespect lee roadster  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 19, 2019, 03:44:19 PM
Slipping back into being crazy on edge half of the time;  like flipping between zen and losing it at the smallest provocation. 

Then if I entertain the "edge" I spiral pretty quickly and then have trouble shaking what bothered me.   Will completely distract me, and I'll do weird shit like randomly make a face or scoff out loud at something that happened earlier that my brain decided to go over again.   

Does not feel like a healthy mind inside of my head, but at least I'm aware of it.  Of course I keep losing it, despite this awareness.. but trying to more quickly reign it in.

I don't know if it's the time of year or what.. I'm of course also dreading the holidays and being endlessly PTSD triggered.
go vacation in somewhere sunny and warm. you deserve it, breh  :)

Can we all come over to your place and do a bunch of crank with strippers? That dude in your avatar would look kinda like ET if I had my dick in him...
I don't even want to come over to my place and no meth/strippers unless I visit GA/AL  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 03:46:11 PM
Slipping back into being crazy on edge half of the time;  like flipping between zen and losing it at the smallest provocation. 

Then if I entertain the "edge" I spiral pretty quickly and then have trouble shaking what bothered me.   Will completely distract me, and I'll do weird shit like randomly make a face or scoff out loud at something that happened earlier that my brain decided to go over again.   

Does not feel like a healthy mind inside of my head, but at least I'm aware of it.  Of course I keep losing it, despite this awareness.. but trying to more quickly reign it in.

I don't know if it's the time of year or what.. I'm of course also dreading the holidays and being endlessly PTSD triggered.
go vacation in somewhere sunny and warm. you deserve it, breh  :)

Can we all come over to your place and do a bunch of crank with strippers? That dude in your avatar would look kinda like ET if I had my dick in him...
I don't even want to come over to my place and no meth/strippers unless I visit GA/AL  ::)

Bitch, we go down to where you live, I get a nice hotel room. You provide local crank and strippers. You, me, Cats, riotous, strippers, crank. Party. I’ll bring a KISS tape. Let’s do this, before the end of the year.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on November 19, 2019, 03:49:07 PM
I'll taking you hiking up to the gaviota wind caves and you can get a good nights rest up there with me  ;)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 03:56:15 PM
I'll taking you hiking up to the gaviota wind caves and you can get a good nights rest up there with me  ;)

Will you do mushrooms with me there?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 19, 2019, 04:07:48 PM
fine. filler, no crank... but PCP is on the menu. We’re going to ride the wild, baby
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on November 19, 2019, 04:30:05 PM
Probably gonna have to sell the house this summer as part of getting a divorce. I don’t think I can get myself on board with what the soon to be ex wants to do: build a separate dwelling on the same property and continue to partner financially/ as parents. Just seems too pathetic, even for me. Of course she’s pissed that I’m back tracking on being up for that but honestly she’s not a great financial partner and if we’re splitting up we should split it up so we can move on. Idk. Fighting suicidal thoughts everyday but still have a few anchors in this world keeping me held down, fortunately.

Sorry to hear that breh.

I obviously don’t know anything about you and your marriage, but having been through a divorce myself, all I can say is: You’re doing the right thing backing out of that deal.
This shit will hurt for a while, but once the whole financial mess is untangled, it will be just like a breakup. You have managed those before, so you will be able to manage this one and be a stronger and better CatsCatsCats than ever before.

:heart
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 19, 2019, 04:50:22 PM
Probably gonna have to sell the house this summer as part of getting a divorce. I don’t think I can get myself on board with what the soon to be ex wants to do: build a separate dwelling on the same property and continue to partner financially/ as parents. Just seems too pathetic, even for me. Of course she’s pissed that I’m back tracking on being up for that but honestly she’s not a great financial partner and if we’re splitting up we should split it up so we can move on. Idk. Fighting suicidal thoughts everyday but still have a few anchors in this world keeping me held down, fortunately.

Shit man, hang in there :(

That double dwelling thing sounds like a trap.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 19, 2019, 07:31:41 PM
Y’all I’m sorry for being so dark, I’ll make it out of this and keep playing my role in the crazy shit no worries
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 19, 2019, 07:47:43 PM
It does help. Like I already feel way less likely to do that shit now that it’s on a video game forum splinter forum splinter forum’s b side (love y’all)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 19, 2019, 08:22:16 PM
Love you Spence, you'll get through this. I think despite your self-doubt regarding your near-future, your head is actually in the right space and your instincts are probably correct -- she may hate you for it now, but separating completely (#DENNISSystem? :thinking) seems like the healthy option and she may thank you for it later.

In any case, we'll be here in the meantime. :heartbeat
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 21, 2019, 07:13:10 AM
Have my committee meeting today.  Really nervious. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 21, 2019, 05:14:21 PM
Hope it went really well, my dude
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 21, 2019, 05:17:43 PM
It went good - not sure why I have been so worrried about for a year and a half. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on November 21, 2019, 06:08:59 PM
it be like that
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 22, 2019, 07:35:06 AM
Gonna be spending thanksgiving alone :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on November 22, 2019, 09:39:48 AM
Comfort yourself with the thought that he prob earned more too so the firing is surely cost cutting.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 22, 2019, 10:17:46 AM
Gonna be spending thanksgiving alone :fbm

Cook some turkey, get baked and watch a bonkers action movie.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on November 22, 2019, 05:08:28 PM
Edit: now I remember he was a subcontractor through another company so he must have cost a pretty penny.
Helps explain why he openly talked back to superiors.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 22, 2019, 08:06:10 PM
Well Esch, I recently took over a project from a guy who retired. He was a "company man" in that he kissed ass all the time but would whine a lot about how stressed he was over his workload.

I dive into it and realize he at most had a few hours of work a week. And he would go months without responding to emails so there would be just random tasks from a year ago that are waiting for somebody to spend two minutes to close out. His job was mostly to coordinate with employees in other departments and they're telling me that it would take dozens of calls and emails over several weeks before he got back to them. And then if he never followed up, they'd all sit and wait until either a regulator or an industrial customer kicks up a shit storm when they realize how behind we are.

On top of all that, he got paid 50% more than me and got benefits. I mean, their are people who struggle to engage the project management side of work and then their are those simply don't give a fuck. I'm honestly pissed that my boss didn't have the balls to fire this person, hopefully you had a similar guy on your team.

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And he also did that remote employee living out of a camper thing. And of course he was the only person in the entire company that has a permit for a emotional support dog.
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on November 28, 2019, 08:45:14 AM
I moved across the country, away from my family, about a week ago to move in with my girlfriend. Everything was going well, then 2 days ago I got a call from my mom. She had been feeling dizzy and fell and hit her head. The docs did a scan and found the breast cancer she had been keeping under control for 3 years had spread to her brain. This was my biggest fear when moving away, that her health would start to decline but fuck man... I only left a week ago. It’s so fucked because just before I left she had a scan on her breast tumor and everything was looking stable. I left town thinking she was going to be okay for a while.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 29, 2019, 01:17:43 PM
Haha holy shit I'm so fucked.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on November 29, 2019, 01:18:56 PM
:drool
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 29, 2019, 10:20:36 PM
Sorry, Tasty :(

My parents are making this whole situation so much harder they are the worst
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on November 29, 2019, 10:23:41 PM
What's wrong Tasty? 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on November 30, 2019, 05:31:35 PM
What's wrong Tasty? 

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on November 30, 2019, 05:43:03 PM
That's fucked up. Didn't you just start the job?

If they do screw you over/go out of business, the bank might be able to work with you. They don't usually like to do foreclosures.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on November 30, 2019, 06:00:27 PM
Sorry Tasty :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on November 30, 2019, 10:37:11 PM
That’s awful, Tasty. Hang in there
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 01, 2019, 02:28:57 PM
Thanks everyone. :heartbeat

That's fucked up. Didn't you just start the job?

If they do screw you over/go out of business, the bank might be able to work with you. They don't usually like to do foreclosures.

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on December 01, 2019, 08:29:57 PM
I’ve been in a lot of pain the past four days and it has me in a foul mood and I’m really not looking forward to going to work and dealing with people tomorrow
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on December 02, 2019, 12:43:04 PM
I'm sorry Tasty. I worked for a crooked company once. Luckily I had access to their financials and when I consistently saw they didn't have money to make payroll I bailed. I still lost tens of thousands stock/retirement funds but I know it sucks. I had friends that stayed til the bitter end, it took years for them to get made hole.

I'm sorry cats cubed. I hope things go better.

TVC, that sucks. Mondays are already hard enough.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 03, 2019, 08:00:33 PM
Man, I feel like I need a hidden thread for me to dump all my midlife crisis shit I’m going through.


So, I talk to my parents about how my wife and I are splitting, I go over in advance of thanksgiving, they are doing it on a Saturday this year because of my brothers travel plans, I go on Tuesday. My mom knew about things being on a weird break status for awhile, I lay down the deal, we’re splitting this is how we’re working it, I hope we can all continue to treat each other as family, kiss kiss. Friday noon I get a text uninviting my soon to be ex from thanksgiving, but my stepson and I are of course welcome anytime 🙄🙄 so of course I tell them go pound salt thanks for pulling the rug out on me, enjoy your holiday without me fuckheads. And now my brother is trying to treat me like I’m the one being an asshole because I’m not falling in line with carving her out of my life immediately and coldly. To complicate things, my brother is getting married early next year and I just spent like 700+ on plane tickets and a baller ass air bnb place for his bachelor party weekend and I honestly just want to tell him to go piss up a fucking rope, he has p much 0 sense of what empathy is and just wants to coast on my parents toxic shit. Great, he can have all their shit in the will, at least I won’t have to deal with them getting older and meaner every year.



Whooooooooooweeee
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 03, 2019, 08:08:58 PM
Dude. That all sounds incredibly fucked. Hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on December 03, 2019, 08:11:19 PM
As someone who doesn't know anyone involved:
Don't burn bridges with your family just yet. Maybe it was just a misunderstanding and they just wanted to show you some loyalty in this breakup?
Especially don't alienate your family over your ex's(or yours in behalf of her) hurt feelings. I know these are turbulent times, but don't make it more complicated by pushing your family away from you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 03, 2019, 08:29:23 PM
Context: I’m practically begging for a good enough reason to burn that bridge because my family is the WORST

But I am trying to reach out calmly and explain how I feel to them
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 03, 2019, 08:43:06 PM
Rescinding the invitation should have been a conversation with you on how you want to handle it. If you explained the situation then they basically tried to force more tension and drama on you in an already shitty situation. Fuck that. You don’t need anyone stirring that shit up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on December 03, 2019, 09:16:26 PM
Riotous is right, my family was always  great and supportive and that is the perspective I am coming from. They deserve the benefit of the doubt every time.

Looks like your family isn’t that way and yeah, that sucks.
I am still rooting for you Cats  :-*
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 04, 2019, 02:03:12 PM
Corporate shut down a location today that a lot of my good coworker friends work at. Feels bad. Just straight up “this is happening, get your stuff, it’s your last day”
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr. Gundam on December 04, 2019, 06:47:47 PM
Most of you know that I had open heart surgery a couple years ago to fix a congenital issue with my heart's mitral valve. I've never felt 100% right following surgery back in 2017. I used to be an avid runner, but running became impossible and walking on an incline like a hill or stairs were often strangely taxing. I have consistently brought all of this up to my cardiology team but they've always been like "sorry that sucks" until this October at my yearly echocardiogram where they're like "oh no that's not right." Over the last two months I've had a transesophageal echocardiogram and lung function/exercise test and now I'm setting up a consultation with the surgery team. My mitral valve is still leaking (in the severe stage) and I will likely need to have another open heart surgery and a valve replacement this time instead of fixing my more than likely shredded mitral valve. My heart function is still normal with no current signs of decline, but that won't last forever, so it's looking like 2020 will begin for me with surgery after the holidays and six weeks of sternal precautions.

I'm glad they're finally listening to me, I'm glad they're doing something about it and I'm really glad that I'll be able to run and not want to die walking up stairs, but dammit why do I and my wife and daughter and family have to go through this again.

Good thing I've got therapy next week.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr. Gundam on December 04, 2019, 07:39:18 PM
Man that is scary dude;  they really do pretty amazing things with heart surgeries these days but it’s still a frightening thing to face.  Hang in there man.

It is really amazing. My first experience two years ago was great all things considered. Just sucks I’ve gotta do it again, and I’m only 38 and healthy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Brehvolution on December 05, 2019, 10:36:20 AM
Corporate shut down a location today that a lot of my good coworker friends work at. Feels bad. Just straight up “this is happening, get your stuff, it’s your last day”

Merry Christmas everyone!

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on December 05, 2019, 01:52:17 PM
Lots of layoffs at my job this week. The atmosphere is incredibly depressing. To boot, I absorbed someone's entire position which 1) I'm completely unqualified for and 2) do not have the bandwidth for that fucking shit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on December 07, 2019, 02:22:46 PM
Most of you know that I had open heart surgery a couple years ago to fix a congenital issue with my heart's mitral valve. I've never felt 100% right following surgery back in 2017. I used to be an avid runner, but running became impossible and walking on an incline like a hill or stairs were often strangely taxing. I have consistently brought all of this up to my cardiology team but they've always been like "sorry that sucks" until this October at my yearly echocardiogram where they're like "oh no that's not right." Over the last two months I've had a transesophageal echocardiogram and lung function/exercise test and now I'm setting up a consultation with the surgery team. My mitral valve is still leaking (in the severe stage) and I will likely need to have another open heart surgery and a valve replacement this time instead of fixing my more than likely shredded mitral valve. My heart function is still normal with no current signs of decline, but that won't last forever, so it's looking like 2020 will begin for me with surgery after the holidays and six weeks of sternal precautions.

I'm glad they're finally listening to me, I'm glad they're doing something about it and I'm really glad that I'll be able to run and not want to die walking up stairs, but dammit why do I and my wife and daughter and family have to go through this again.

Good thing I've got therapy next week.

Shit that sucks, let's hope the surgery goes well and fixes everything! Fucked up that the doctors didn't listen to you, way too often that sort of thing ends really badly. Glad they finally realized you weren't imagining things.

Coincidentally, my dad seems to be having pretty much the same problem, he had heart surgery 15+ years ago when it was discovered he had a congenital heart condition where the mitral valve was leaking. Now it's come back, the leaking is apparently medium to severe but there is no surgery planned yet, they'll keep watching it for a year. He's in his 70s so it's pretty unnerving, both the fact that he has a heart condition again and nothing's going to be done about it for now, but also the chance of him having to go through open heart surgery at his age, it was hard enough on him the last time.

What's with all these faulty mitral valves these days  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Steve Contra on December 07, 2019, 05:31:50 PM
A dear friend was run over and killed by a drunk driver last night. I need a hug :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on December 08, 2019, 08:26:27 PM
Most of you know that I had open heart surgery a couple years ago to fix a congenital issue with my heart's mitral valve. I've never felt 100% right following surgery back in 2017. I used to be an avid runner, but running became impossible and walking on an incline like a hill or stairs were often strangely taxing. I have consistently brought all of this up to my cardiology team but they've always been like "sorry that sucks" until this October at my yearly echocardiogram where they're like "oh no that's not right." Over the last two months I've had a transesophageal echocardiogram and lung function/exercise test and now I'm setting up a consultation with the surgery team. My mitral valve is still leaking (in the severe stage) and I will likely need to have another open heart surgery and a valve replacement this time instead of fixing my more than likely shredded mitral valve. My heart function is still normal with no current signs of decline, but that won't last forever, so it's looking like 2020 will begin for me with surgery after the holidays and six weeks of sternal precautions.

I'm glad they're finally listening to me, I'm glad they're doing something about it and I'm really glad that I'll be able to run and not want to die walking up stairs, but dammit why do I and my wife and daughter and family have to go through this again.

Good thing I've got therapy next week.
Hang in there, MrGundam! This sucks, and at the same time, I'm happy you have insurance coverage and competent doctors waiting to help you.


A dear friend was run over and killed by a drunk driver last night. I need a hug :'(
JFC, that is horrible. I'm sad for you and sending gigantic hugs. And puppies. Hugs FROM puppies.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr. Gundam on December 09, 2019, 10:19:56 PM
Most of you know that I had open heart surgery a couple years ago to fix a congenital issue with my heart's mitral valve. I've never felt 100% right following surgery back in 2017. I used to be an avid runner, but running became impossible and walking on an incline like a hill or stairs were often strangely taxing. I have consistently brought all of this up to my cardiology team but they've always been like "sorry that sucks" until this October at my yearly echocardiogram where they're like "oh no that's not right." Over the last two months I've had a transesophageal echocardiogram and lung function/exercise test and now I'm setting up a consultation with the surgery team. My mitral valve is still leaking (in the severe stage) and I will likely need to have another open heart surgery and a valve replacement this time instead of fixing my more than likely shredded mitral valve. My heart function is still normal with no current signs of decline, but that won't last forever, so it's looking like 2020 will begin for me with surgery after the holidays and six weeks of sternal precautions.

I'm glad they're finally listening to me, I'm glad they're doing something about it and I'm really glad that I'll be able to run and not want to die walking up stairs, but dammit why do I and my wife and daughter and family have to go through this again.

Good thing I've got therapy next week.

Shit that sucks, let's hope the surgery goes well and fixes everything! Fucked up that the doctors didn't listen to you, way too often that sort of thing ends really badly. Glad they finally realized you weren't imagining things.

Coincidentally, my dad seems to be having pretty much the same problem, he had heart surgery 15+ years ago when it was discovered he had a congenital heart condition where the mitral valve was leaking. Now it's come back, the leaking is apparently medium to severe but there is no surgery planned yet, they'll keep watching it for a year. He's in his 70s so it's pretty unnerving, both the fact that he has a heart condition again and nothing's going to be done about it for now, but also the chance of him having to go through open heart surgery at his age, it was hard enough on him the last time.

What's with all these faulty mitral valves these days  :-\

The surgeon who did my repair the last time said my mitral valve was pretty shredded and that a lot of surgeons would just give up and go for a replacement instead. I'm guessing the repair didn't hold and that's what I'm dealing with now.

Still waiting for the call to schedule a consult with a surgeon. [twiddles thumbs]

I don't feel any worse, but my wife is in Boston for work until Thursday night and my parents are out of town, so I'd rather not end up at the hospital with my daughter and make everyone freak out as they haul ass home.

Most of you know that I had open heart surgery a couple years ago to fix a congenital issue with my heart's mitral valve. I've never felt 100% right following surgery back in 2017. I used to be an avid runner, but running became impossible and walking on an incline like a hill or stairs were often strangely taxing. I have consistently brought all of this up to my cardiology team but they've always been like "sorry that sucks" until this October at my yearly echocardiogram where they're like "oh no that's not right." Over the last two months I've had a transesophageal echocardiogram and lung function/exercise test and now I'm setting up a consultation with the surgery team. My mitral valve is still leaking (in the severe stage) and I will likely need to have another open heart surgery and a valve replacement this time instead of fixing my more than likely shredded mitral valve. My heart function is still normal with no current signs of decline, but that won't last forever, so it's looking like 2020 will begin for me with surgery after the holidays and six weeks of sternal precautions.

I'm glad they're finally listening to me, I'm glad they're doing something about it and I'm really glad that I'll be able to run and not want to die walking up stairs, but dammit why do I and my wife and daughter and family have to go through this again.

Good thing I've got therapy next week.
Hang in there, MrGundam! This sucks, and at the same time, I'm happy you have insurance coverage and competent doctors waiting to help you.

DAMN STRAIGHT. We hit our maximum pretty quickly during my last surgery but we still saw all the bills and how much things cost. My pharmacy bill during my stay in the hospital (surgery and cardiac ICU) was $100,000. WTF. I am so incredibly grateful that we have health insurance. I've paid in for years but never used it until a couple years ago.

I am incredibly fortunate University of Washington is my neighborhood hospital (two miles from our house). They're a world class facility AND if you don't have insurance and can't afford to pay they won't ruin your life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 10, 2019, 07:52:12 PM
Sending love, Gundam

Hit the gym, Stro, then you’ll get the amazing dopamine rush of turning things around
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 10, 2019, 08:01:59 PM
Damn, that’s rough, b. Stick in there, at least you’re going to the gym, I couldn’t leave the house this weekend except for coffee and a bomb ass burrito.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on December 11, 2019, 10:08:08 PM
I have been hitting the gym but unable to really do anything due to my energy and stamina being completely wrecked. I figure it will take another 2-3 weeks to ramp back up to what I was doing. I also never get dopamine rushes from the gym or anything else :stahp

(https://i.ytimg.com/vi/jTIFSBlHzR8/hqdefault.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 30, 2019, 03:03:38 PM
My dad's going into surgery on the 16th to determine if he has a tumor in his bladder.

spoiler (click to show/hide)
I'm blood-squeemish IRL and he was telling me what they had done already and I almost passed out in the car. :dead
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 30, 2019, 03:05:36 PM
Hope it goes well.  I'm blood squemish as well (passed out at least twice from it) but watching surgery videos on youtube actually kind of helped.   
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr. Gundam on January 06, 2020, 03:02:46 PM
I was all set to have my consultation with the surgeon today, but I got a call this morning saying he was called into an emergent case and would likely be in surgery all day today. Now my wife and I are meeting with him on Thursday afternoon.

I wish we could've met today so we can devise our plan of action and get it on the calendar (will likely be a week or two or more from now), but I'm sure the person he's helping today needs their help way more than I do. I'm stable AND I remember when I showed up in the ER not knowing what was wrong with me a couple years ago.

In happier heart related news, my wife conspired with my dad and my best friends into taking me on a surprise Light Rail beer crawl on Saturday. That was awesome and super thoughtful.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on January 06, 2020, 04:21:33 PM
Fingers crossed here.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 13, 2020, 02:59:15 PM
(https://images.twnmm.com/c55i45ef3o2a/7CMTjIfVqdQSWM0YhW2zIP/533cc85db06a9f1e6c4c344cd1bae817/wind_chill_pr.jpg?w=680&fm=jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 13, 2020, 03:05:55 PM
 :lol

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on January 13, 2020, 03:07:53 PM
send some of that chill south plz
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on January 13, 2020, 04:39:44 PM
Why the fuck is the colour key repeating.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 13, 2020, 09:23:42 PM
Why the fuck is the colour key repeating.

That's just how cold it is in The Pas, breh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Raist on January 14, 2020, 01:21:37 AM
Huh?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: ToxicAdam on January 14, 2020, 01:54:31 PM
I don't have any sympathy for people living in Cold Lake. You signed up for this.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 14, 2020, 03:05:04 PM
I don't have any sympathy for people living in Cold Lake. You signed up for this.

As the poms say, it does what it says on the tin. :cancry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on January 14, 2020, 03:17:43 PM
How are you all still on the internet?  Don't the tubes freeze the gigawatts at some point?

They have to get the Internet delievered on small cargo planes into the frozen north. It's very expensive though, one benji shitpost might cost you $3.50.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 14, 2020, 03:43:02 PM
How are you all still on the internet?  Don't the tubes freeze the gigawatts at some point?

They have to get the Internet delievered on small cargo planes into the frozen north. It's very expensive though, one benji shitpost might cost you $3.50.

Benji offers supreme value though, can really warm yourself up with his various neuroses
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on January 20, 2020, 09:15:10 PM
Went in to get a stent removed. They fucked me up real bad this time, and now I probably need to get surgery to implement a drain, after fucking up some guts, and me throwing up blood and barely being able to move after I got home.

I'm pissed.



Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on January 21, 2020, 12:09:38 PM
Don't drive the car until they get fixed! Also using the handbrake like that might score the rear rotors/glaze the rear pads so have those checked.

If they don't work at all then it sounds like the issue is in the brake lines or master cylinder. Sucks but at least the point of failure is pretty isolated. It is possible that whoever replaced the brakes left a bleed valve slightly open.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 21, 2020, 12:49:13 PM
Catscats, gundam, tasty

Hang in there <3
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 21, 2020, 01:50:19 PM
Went in to get a stent removed. They fucked me up real bad this time, and now I probably need to get surgery to implement a drain, after fucking up some guts, and me throwing up blood and barely being able to move after I got home.

I'm pissed.

Understandable.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on January 21, 2020, 02:30:14 PM
He’s trying to get gains, even if it causes others pain.

I just feel shit at the moment long work hours, weekend work and no real me time, plus I haven’t been paid since the 20th of December, that on top of just not feeling into what I’m doing since the break and the fact the job I wanted, got to final round then not being picked for it just sucks, just need to get into feb and then things at least for being paid and having some freedom as projects end should be good, but one of the things I’m doing has now been extended for quite a while sooo basically crunch remains. Get me to snowboarding break end of March, which luckily I had pre approved before the changes in project dates happened should do me some good, unless those management pricks decide that they’ll pay off my break to keep me at work. We shall bloody see.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Freyj on January 21, 2020, 07:49:01 PM
Dunno what it is but the further I get from my 20s the less capacity my broke :brain has for change. I needed a job change and made a good one but I’m immediately hamster-wheel-brain-ing thoughts of going back to the old job. Fuck anxiety.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 21, 2020, 07:54:31 PM
How are you all still on the internet?  Don't the tubes freeze the gigawatts at some point?

Speaking of struggle, this post reminds me of one of the biggest professional Ls I've witnessed in my life. During my phone jockey days we were having an issue with poor connectivity on the main site. We're all sitting around discussing what the issue could be while the network guys were on it and my team lead says something to the effect of "ah, must be because it's cold outside" in passing. We all turn to him and ask us to explain what the fuck he's talking about. He tells us that because it's cold (about 35 degrees) that the internet must "need some time to warm up". We all bust out laughing at him, like howling and hollering. He begins to cry and leaves the room. To this day whenever my service is out I think to myself that ISP staff really need to get out there and warm up that infrastructure with some gloves.
esch lore  :rash dat outsourced punjabi customer support  :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 21, 2020, 09:46:02 PM
I can watch grandma porn all I want and there is nothing any of you can do about it  BWAHAHAHA
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 21, 2020, 10:28:11 PM
Other struggles from that place:

- Finding out that stormfront was allowed in the mailspam filter with an explicit rule
- Getting told by an angry customer that they hope my first born child should die
- A forensics adventure involving bestiality and a sextape
- Getting told by an employee that they could watch grandma porn on their work host and there was nothing I could do about it
- Having a coworker show another co-worker pictures of him in bondage gear with the hopes of attracting him
- Coworker faking a work injury then testing positive for heroin and getting fired

I stopped posting on the bore during this period because I spent all my free time studying trying to get out. We made it :mjcry

Can I ask you to please expand on this one here? Feel free to use Wikipedia for anatomical references so the important details are clear in your story.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 21, 2020, 10:53:13 PM
 :lucas
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 21, 2020, 11:42:59 PM
 :drool eschaton origin story even better than teh joker
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 12:44:28 AM
Were you addicted to drugs when you were banging the hood girls? Tales of illicit chemsex with dirty women go over well here, too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 12:58:34 AM
Did you really think dumpster sex with hill people was any less depraved than drug addiction? Where were you deriving your sense of dignity and self-worth from during this period? It sounds like a trying time to have gone through. I’m sorry about that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 22, 2020, 01:04:34 AM
White trash wanna be loved, too. And so many of them are willing to get together with us brown bois :lawd
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 01:07:58 AM
i can't say i've ever been with a trump supporter though racist democrats and apathetic whities, yea, plenty. i've been a novel fuck for plenty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 01:25:20 AM
Do you still live in this awful place?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 01:30:48 AM
So did you earn any good fetishes out of this experience? Can you only get it up for people that you find repulsive maybe?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 22, 2020, 01:36:56 AM
TVC revealing a little bay area snobbishness.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 22, 2020, 01:38:07 AM
White trash wanna be loved, too. And so many of them are willing to get together with us brown bois :lawd
this wasn't so surprising. what surprised me were the white girls who told me I was the only guy they fuck with that isn't black   :doge I remember one particularly "you're the only white guy I've dated and you're not even white"    ::) we both knew we weren't dating  :lol  they were all   :lawd in bed and now I have a thing for black only white girls   :stahp

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 22, 2020, 01:40:34 AM
I wouldn't have gave a shit about some bitch dad dying  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 22, 2020, 01:43:58 AM
eschaton origin story keeps getting better  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 01:51:09 AM
Just good old BDSM. If anything  I lost fetishes.  I had a terrible experience at one point where I fucked a girl I knew from college and in the middle of it she started doing daddy daughter  incest play on me. My boner died instantly because I remembered that she told me she saw her dad die in a tragic accident right next to her. Ruined hentai for me for years :beli




Dude dude DUDE. I have a feeling there are more stories right here. This part feels juicy. I’ve done medicine therapy before, and this feels like one of those areas where the therapist would have me take a hero dose of mdma 45 minutes before talking about it. It’s going to be deep.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 02:00:19 AM
I’m talking about the chick! You kept her around, right? She had to be really interesting. I already want to listen to This Mortal Coil with her.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 02:00:34 AM
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My boner died instantly because I remembered that she told me she saw her dad die in a tragic accident right next to her. Ruined hentai for me for years

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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 22, 2020, 02:00:53 AM
This thread has demonic bad vibes now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 02:04:37 AM
I’m talking about the chick! You kept her around, right? She had to be really interesting. I already want to listen to This Mortal Coil with her.

I first saw you.
You had on blue jeans.
Your eyes couldn't hide anything.
I saw you breathing
And I saw you staring out in space.
I next saw you, you was at a party.
Thought you was a queen, oh so flirty.
I came against.
Didn't say excuse.
You knew what I was doing,
We looked very fine 'cause we were leaving.
Like Saint Joan, doing a cool, cool jerk
Oh I want you, Oh I want you... like a kangaroo...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 22, 2020, 02:06:26 AM
I'm too cowardly to like Esch's hentai post
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 02:08:12 AM
This thread has demonic bad vibes now.

daemonic*  :wag
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 22, 2020, 02:11:03 AM
she's just happy for you, bb :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 02:15:59 AM
I’m talking about the chick! You kept her around, right? She had to be really interesting. I already want to listen to This Mortal Coil with her.

Nope. We don't talk anymore and that's for the best. We just can't get along or trust each other. I thought she was interesting,  we had chemistry  etc but I think I was just idealizing her. I realized I found a lot of things about her really intolerable. She awkwardly likes every picture I post with my gf. :trumps

A lot of things? By my count being into necro-incest is only one character quirk. What else wasn’t up to your standards?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 02:21:29 AM
it's a damn struggle trying not to shed tears while listening to this mortal coil atm. the first two records were there for me during some dark times but the most heart breaking part is gordon sharpe just refused to do anything with her talent outside of save the first few cindytalk records and obviously, this mortal coil, which is kinda shitty thing to say but fuck, dat voice. she should've been a star :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 22, 2020, 02:25:40 AM
these toxic ass women can't hurt us no more, esch  :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 02:48:39 AM
i've been literally told by a girl who was trying to fuck me that "you're so hot but you're a terrorist" when i was sporting an awesome beard if i must say so myself. she was legit confused and unfortunately, crazy hot
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 02:53:27 AM
though dunking on white people  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 02:58:39 AM
I grew up awkward, parents who were very sheltering, and so I tragically can't offer much about the whites.
Some ethnic enclave corners around here and not a white to be spotted :pimp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 03:03:15 AM
i've been literally told by a girl who was trying to fuck me that "you're so hot but you're a terrorist" when i was sporting an awesome beard if i must say so myself. she was legit confused and unfortunately, crazy hot

What a bitch. I would’ve been like “you’re so hot and you’re a terrorist”
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 03:07:35 AM
i've been literally told by a girl who was trying to fuck me that "you're so hot but you're a terrorist" when i was sporting an awesome beard if i must say so myself. she was legit confused and unfortunately, crazy hot

What a bitch. I would’ve been like “you’re so hot and you’re a terrorist”

you initially had me at this mortal coil but you had me again at terrorist  :-*

I grew up awkward, parents who were very sheltering, and so I tragically can't offer much about the whites.
Some ethnic enclave corners around here and not a white to be spotted :pimp

Every brown bois parents are sheltering.  You're supposed to be like my big brother and pass out on the couch in a puddle of your own piss when your fearless white friends drop you home after 13 beers.

One small step for man..... :lawd

we'd need to start our own thread for how pathetically sheltered our lives were. unfortunately, some of us never fully recover

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:08:07 AM
Unfortunately, I'm a real goody two-shoes for the most part.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 22, 2020, 03:09:36 AM
I really related to Esch's travails and I feel like this is a bonafide archetype because I know so many people like this: brown/Asian guy gets stuck in a lily white conservative place and wants to get out. Gets involved with mostly white trash girls (turns out the haute bourgeois are generally more racist than their lower class counterparts). One hot and heavy romance because you're filling some other void in your life. In the end you figure out that white girls are wrong for you because they have a different lived experience and you end up dating your own race like your parents always told you to.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 03:12:00 AM
Thanks for the candid stories, Esch!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 03:12:00 AM
my parents were weird as fuck the second i turned 18. my dad threw a boxs of condoms at me and then found a stash of drugs in my room and told me to just be responsible and do this shit at home and not with my degenerate friends. before that, it was absolute hell. i couldn't leave the house and if i managed to hang out with my friends, they'd call my phone every 30 minutes to check in and make sure i wasn't doing any drugs and yea, white people would just say turn off your phone but had i done that, i'm not sure i'd be able to cycle today, let alone walk.

at least they had no idea what r-rated meant so i was able to watch all the good shit at a young age
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:12:21 AM
For real though, it is tempting to complain about things but there are some real upsides.
Not just family, but extended family are quite fond of me so I have a literal grapevines of relatives. I can crash for free at the houses of relatives across the globe in at least 6 countries and they'd love to have me there.

I can't imagine being a white and not even knowing all your dads siblings and their families for example.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:13:43 AM
I really related to Esch's travails and I feel like this is a bonafide archetype because I know so many people like this: brown/Asian guy gets stuck in a lily white conservative place and wants to get out. Gets involved with mostly white trash girls (turns out the haute bourgeois are generally more racist than their lower class counterparts). One hot and heavy romance because you're filling some other void in your life. In the end you figure out that white girls are wrong for you because they have a different lived experience and you end up dating your own race like your parents always told you to.

Their ethnonationalism is unreal but funny  :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:17:51 AM
Oh, there are bad apples in every bunch. With the number of relatives around there are bound to be people that rub you the wrong way, I definitely haven't gotten along with everyone.
But yeah, variable.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 03:20:32 AM
For real though, it is tempting to complain about things but there are some real upsides.
Not just family, but extended family are quite fond of me so I have a literal grapevines of relatives. I can crash for free at the houses of relatives across the globe in at least 6 countries and they'd love to have me there.

I can't imagine being a white and not even knowing all your dads siblings and their families for example.

so tru. despite all the drama and bullshit, the love is very real

well at least the love on my dad's side of the family...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:23:24 AM
For real though, it is tempting to complain about things but there are some real upsides.
Not just family, but extended family are quite fond of me so I have a literal grapevines of relatives. I can crash for free at the houses of relatives across the globe in at least 6 countries and they'd love to have me there.

I can't imagine being a white and not even knowing all your dads siblings and their families for example.

so tru. despite all the drama and bullshit, the love is very real

well at least the love on my dad's side of the family...

When things are bad you can count on literal dozens of people you are related to tangentially to care and help even if you weren't exactly close and chummy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TEEEPO on January 22, 2020, 03:26:30 AM
my grandma's funeral had some former shah four-star general give a long ass speech where i found out my grandma was potentially going to become one of the first democratically elected females in iran for the senate or someshit, let alone was one of the heads of the postal service which was already unheard for a female. i didn't know any of this since i was disowned at a young age for being my father's son, but it explains how fucking snobbish that entire side of my family is. fuck anyone who had photos of the shah in their homes, and just for prosperity, fuck the mullahs as well
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:28:40 AM
To continue expanding on the flavours of brown present.
My family is Punjabi.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Kara on January 22, 2020, 03:30:21 AM
To provide a contrast to the surveillance parental state stories, when I was a teenager I got into a car crash that 100% was not my fault. I called my mom because I was obv. a bit shook up (it was a car crash) and she sighed very loudly and said, "I don't need this right now."
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on January 22, 2020, 03:39:57 AM
Wow, all this self-doxxing. Delicious  :vr

I’d share some of my own brown family stories, but I’d rather still be able to run for office. You understand :pimp

(https://i.imgur.com/FYBYnnb_d.jpg?maxwidth=640&shape=thumb&fidelity=medium)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on January 22, 2020, 03:41:09 AM
my parents were weird as fuck the second i turned 18. my dad threw a boxs of condoms at me and then found a stash of drugs in my room and told me to just be responsible and do this shit at home and not with my degenerate friends. before that, it was absolute hell. i couldn't leave the house and if i managed to hang out with my friends, they'd call my phone every 30 minutes to check in and make sure i wasn't doing any drugs and yea, white people would just say turn off your phone but had i done that, i'm not sure i'd be able to cycle today, let alone walk.

at least they had no idea what r-rated meant so i was able to watch all the good shit at a young age

https://twitter.com/AshBCoffin/status/1219846534998765568
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on January 22, 2020, 03:48:26 AM
Ashleigh is my favorite fully authentic big breasted Scottish redhead :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: OnlyRegret on January 22, 2020, 03:52:36 AM
thread reverse-colonized :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on January 22, 2020, 04:03:38 AM
Sorry to break up the party, just need to vent, sooo after posting my shit last night I got fucking trashed took some drugs and now I’m fucking knackered, called work in sick and just feel like utter shit. Boy am I fucking spiralling at the moment. I think it’s time to go back to the doctors and have a chat with them. I dunno what the fuck is wrong with me but I sure as fuck am going down a super destructive path at the moment. Fiancé is pissed off with me because I took drugs, and I am pissed off with myself but I just can’t fucking help myself at the moment. Luckily in doing a lot of overtime work are okay with me ditching but yeah I need to get my shit together before it all implodes.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on January 22, 2020, 04:07:40 AM
To provide a contrast to the surveillance parental state stories, when I was a teenager I got into a car crash that 100% was not my fault. I called my mom because I was obv. a bit shook up (it was a car crash) and she sighed very loudly and said, "I don't need this right now."
Your fam sounds afwul man im sorry

Despite that you turned out ok
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 22, 2020, 04:10:45 AM
Take care of yourself, Ghoul. If you’re still feeling proactive about doing something about this in the morning, maybe you should call someone as soon as possible, while it’s still on your mind.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on January 22, 2020, 04:23:12 AM
Cheers, it’s morning here already and I’ve booked an afternoon appointment, I think I just need to go and just get this sorted out. I can’t be fucking around like this I’m not a kid anymore, gotta just grow the fuck up and get this sorted so I can continue to live the decent life I have. That’s the worst part of this like generally other than work being hard and general feelings of not being truly valued in what I’m doing life is fine, I think generally not getting the job I interviewed for after going so far just has broken me a bit. There’s other stuff too with family, but I’d rather not get into that as I don’t feel it’s a good idea to post that online. I just want to shout and scream, I’ve never felt so angry in all my life and I don’t even know why I’m so fucking annoyed, it’s infuriating
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 22, 2020, 05:46:23 AM
Bless up
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on January 22, 2020, 05:52:28 AM
Wow, all this self-doxxing. Delicious  :vr

I’d share some of my own brown family stories, but I’d rather still be able to run for office. You understand :pimp

(https://i.imgur.com/FYBYnnb_d.jpg?maxwidth=640&shape=thumb&fidelity=medium)

Mayor Pete looking more and more presidential by the day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 22, 2020, 08:21:35 AM
To provide a contrast to the surveillance parental state stories, when I was a teenager I got into a car crash that 100% was not my fault. I called my mom because I was obv. a bit shook up (it was a car crash) and she sighed very loudly and said, "I don't need this right now."
this sounds a lot like my parents :lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on January 22, 2020, 03:55:06 PM
Went to the doctors, they think I maybe bipolar which somewhat makes sense.
Well the fact that I’m happy but at the same time super angry and falling apart mentally.
No drugs yet, just been referred to a specialist more tests to come but I’m pleased!
Feels good to do something about my issues, despite me asking for help multiple times 
Usually what happens is I get some bullshit diagnosis
which ends in me having to take drugs that aren’t meant for me spent a couple years as
a zombie, sure I was medicated but inside i was still screaming as if my true self was just caged up.
thanks for the likes and words means a bunch, especially when 99% of the time I act like a prick

Mental health is such a shit place, it’s not a proper science, no real cure, you just have to deal with your issues.
Kinda wish it was as simple as take these pills for two months then you’re cured. But alas It’s not.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr. Gundam on January 22, 2020, 04:25:47 PM
Surgery set for March 20th. Fortunately I'm stable and the doctors don't see my mitral valve getting any worse between then and now. Gonna do some long weekend family trips and just generally try to enjoy life. Still doing 25 minutes on the elliptical five times a week and as active as I'm able to be.

Last time I saw my therapist we talked about worst case scenario planning (It's like a 1% chance) and now I'm mulling over letters to leave for my daughter and wife and it's wrecking me every time I think about what to say. Definitely not fun.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on January 22, 2020, 09:31:46 PM
i thought i got rid of my rat problem, but it looks like they're back  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 22, 2020, 11:55:44 PM
Other struggles from that place:

- Finding out that stormfront was allowed in the mailspam filter with an explicit rule
- Getting told by an angry customer that they hope my first born child should die
- A forensics adventure involving bestiality and a sextape
- Getting told by an employee that they could watch grandma porn on their work host and there was nothing I could do about it
- Having a coworker show another co-worker pictures of him in bondage gear with the hopes of attracting him
- Coworker faking a work injury then testing positive for heroin and getting fired

I stopped posting on the bore during this period because I spent all my free time studying trying to get out. We made it :mjcry

Can I ask you to please expand on this one here? Feel free to use Wikipedia for anatomical references so the important details are clear in your story.

I used to go to a professional meetup once a month and sometimes a senior analyst from my job i worked with closely would attend. He starts telling this story about how he had to pull a computer off the network and I realized over the course of his story that I had worked on this issue. A couple months before I had seen in a console that a computer had made contact with a server known to deploy hacker tools and that the PC belonged to an admin. Back then i usually just remediated most of this stuff myself but I escalated it because the box had admin credentials on it and I didn't want to take any chances. I remember seeing the senior analyst and one of my managers* chatting after i told him that the box was compromised, but whatever.

So at this meetup this guy starts talking about how the CISO made him take the box home to do basic digital forensics; take an image, look for attacker activity on the host. He's going through some of the folders on the PC looking for malware and he stumbles upon an innocuous looking folder in the music section and there it is. Amidst a bunch of stolen Semisonic and Staind records he finds gigabytes and gigabytes of what appears to be animal porn. He calls up the CISO and he's instructed to take hashes and watch the beginnings of the videos to make sure there's nothing strictly illegal there. While he's watching he finds every animal you can think of fucking a human or another animal. Horse porn, dog porn, cat porn, you fucking name it. It's all there. He looks in the deleted space and strangely enough my dude deleted gigabytes and gigabytes of donkey porn. That always killed me like, yeah you can beat your dick to a horse fucking a man or a man fucking a dog but not a man fucking a donkey specifically. Like he just tried out donkey fucking like it's a new sweater from Amazon and returned that. Anyway I digress. He gets to the end and it's him, the manager. He's sitting naked on his own bed in front of a video camera and he starts yelling for his wife** to come here. She says.... "No I can't, I've got poop on my butt". He closes the video.

I had to hold this story in for months and months as I studied to get out of there. Every day was an exercise to not laugh at him***. I know his little secret. He never knew that I did. He knew that the senior analyst did, but he never had an inkling.

:trumps

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* - This is the same manager who thought the internet had to warm up from the previous story
** - This manager's wife left him, and stayed in his house while he fucked other dudes. She was also disabled, like physically crippled. So this is also a giant dadold story.
*** - He was a rabid Trump supporter and would call us giant dadolds for holding mild liberal viewpoints.

This was a journey.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on January 23, 2020, 03:45:13 AM
i thought i got rid of my rat problem, but it looks like they're back  :-\

That’s no way to talk about your madre :wag
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on January 26, 2020, 10:14:15 AM
Ready to get a good 8-12 hrs sleep in this sunday. 5 AM panic and a couple hours later I'm putting my mom's cat to sleep. Got a couple puncutres in his tail somehow that wouldn't stop bleeding. Emergency Vet says it's weird that they won't stop bleeding and so much, work says he's anemic, got kidney disease and liver disease. One of which might actually be failing. 3 day vet stay with low chance of survival or just put him down. Moms a mess she couldn't even see him to put him down. I didn't want to either but I figured i owe him that much to rub his head as he went off. Cats apparently don't close their eyes when they go? I was pretty solid until I realized I had to be the one to go in and tell the doc to kill him. Had to take several moments. Staff was great. A lot of "I'm sorry." Saturday went so well this was one of those wtf is happening like last 12 hrs, completely unexpected. 

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This actually played on the radio on the drive home and wanted to laugh but
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgKAFK5djSk
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on January 26, 2020, 01:38:02 PM
I’m sorry toku :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on January 27, 2020, 11:18:37 AM
Thanks guys. Spent most of yesterday cleaning up blood and napping but I feel good. I got a nice goodbye and he didn't have to suffer.

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:heartbeat :heart bless up
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 27, 2020, 02:56:14 PM
So sorry for your loss Toku :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 27, 2020, 03:05:03 PM
The day I got back from my last vacation in November, I opened my mail that had collected and there was a letter from my insurance denying my life-saving medication I'd been on for 10 years. That finally got resolved last Thursday and everything is fine again. But basically I got back from vacation and immediately was dealing with stress and anxiety and shit for 2 months. I stopped dating because I didn't know if I was gonna die or have to relocate to Canada depending on how it went with my health insurance.

Also fell behind on work because of all the hours I had to keep spending on the phone with insurance, pharmacies, various doctors and was always struggling to keep up. After things worked on Thu, I caught up pretty much on Thu night and Fri and a bit Sat. I started messaging people on dating sites again and setting up dates and had some good sleep again and life was getting back to normal.

Then this morning our 4th attorney at our job gave their 2 weeks notice. Now the background on this was that our firm grew A LOT in the last 2 years or so and we basically doubled or tripled the amount of cases we would get in each week. The 3 current attorneys including myself were working like 80 hour weeks and totally miserable until we hired another attorney and trained them and they took 1/4th of the cases. Then our hours got back to like normal 40-50 hour weeks generally.

So now all the cases this 4th attorney has will need to be split between the 3 of us remaining attorneys + we're still getting a ton of new cases in each week and one less attorney to take them and we need to start interviewing and hiring another attorney and training them for 1-2 months to get back to beginning speed to take on their own case load = now my life is going back to 80 hour weeks and no life for the next 2-3 months. Gonna be hard to date during this time.

I just want things to go back to normal  :(


Also as an aside, I kept stressing in the last year the need to hire a 2nd attorney as a backup in case this guy left because we'd be totally fucked if he left. But we had no office space and we're sloooowly remodeling the office to make another space to do that but it's not gonna be ready until at least this summer so yeah, it sucks. Once we replace this guy, we're absolutely hiring a 5th attorney once we get an office for them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 27, 2020, 03:08:46 PM
I stopped dating because I didn't know if I was gonna die or have to relocate to Canada
This is exactly what's wrong with American healthcare.

Sorry dude. Take care of yourself - maybe consider rejecting new clients if it gets that bad again? Your health and everyone else's health is more important.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 27, 2020, 03:15:04 PM
I tried rejecting new clients a couple years ago when it got bad. Got outvoted every time. Everyone else just cares about growth and more money and deal with the problem of having the man power to do the work afterwards. I’m of the mind that I’d prefer less money and a life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on January 28, 2020, 12:00:48 PM
late but i'm sorry toku. losing a pet friend is extra tough cause they have no idea what's going on. it's real hard but i'm glad you were there for them at the end.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on January 29, 2020, 12:42:26 PM
Soo had my assessment and been given Xanax guess I should become a mumble soundcloud rapper.
Feeling good generally but eh I hate taking prescribed drugs I always feel they’re meant to just stop the screaming without actually dealing with what is making me scream.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 29, 2020, 12:55:23 PM
nuked my work pc's linux install trying to upgrade - god linux is trash.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on January 29, 2020, 12:59:52 PM
Not having your work environment generated from some sort of script so you can re-create it easily  :nope
you mean containerized right
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on January 30, 2020, 05:23:49 AM
God damn, Xanax really knock you on your ass had to take an annual leave day as I’m just sleepy as fuck.
I feel so calm and but i am in no way fit for work I just want to chill the fuck out weirdly feel fucking great though just so calm and at peace with everything. Life is just chill on these which is the first time I felt normal in a long fucking time. I get why these are addictive as fuck though
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 30, 2020, 11:39:31 PM
Sounds good and bad.

Yeah, that sucks it's hitting you so hard. What dosage? I had .25 and it did nothing, but they gave me like .10 or something of klonopin and was like you described. Felt so relaxed and good, probably some of the best high feelings of my life since I live with a lot of anxiety/stress, but the sleepyness and addiction worries kept me off it as a solution. Fwiw, I'm pretty sure you build up a tolerance pretty quick on Xanax so maybe after some time you'll be fine at work with it. Can you take a lower dose for now?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 30, 2020, 11:47:48 PM
Had our first interview for replacement attorney today. Was ok, have like 3 lined up tomorrow and been getting about 15 resumes in a day.

Since Monday, already been working and leaving about 2 hours later than I normally do and that's just from adding in the cases that would've gone to the leaving guy last week and this week. Next week is when we'll need to transition his 40ish cases to us and that'll be bad. I normally spend about 90 mins hours exercising/showering after work, so if I cut that out I'd still be on a normal timeframe, but I figure with this extra work probably need the exercise to stay healthy more than ever, so finishing up and eating dinner around 9pm this week instead of 7pm. Hard to get to sleep for a while though after that -_-

We ran the case #s since it's the end of January and

January 2018 - 9 new cases came in for the month for 3 attorneys
January 2019 - 36 new cases came in the month for 3 attorneys, but we hired the new guy right after and he started around Feb and by March he was at full capacity as the 4th attorney.
January 2019 - 56 new cases came in for the month (and still 1 day left so more could come in) and 3 attorneys

We would've been hiring a 5th attorney anyhow about now because of the increase and our ads we have out are for 2 attorneys, one 0-4 year experience and one 7 years+ experience we're hoping can handle more of the heavy weight court stuff. Hopefully if we can find 2 people by the end of next week and they can start the week after (which is when current guy is gone) and their quick and we can train them in about 2 weeks to handle a case from start to finish, then it should only be about a month of hell or videogame like crunch and then if we have 2 more people running at full speed in a 1-1.5 months it should actually make life slightly easier than it was last year. But yeah, gonna be rough for a bit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on January 31, 2020, 05:25:23 PM
Are they still spitting out more lawyers than jobs? Seems like the ideal scenario for yal to hire people
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on January 31, 2020, 05:35:34 PM
Bebpo, as a fellow lawyer: Have you ever thought about getting out of this rat race and changing career paths?
I quit after constantly working 60 hour weeks, barely sleeping and being close to a mental breakdown. I make less than half the money now, but I have never been happier teaching at a university.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 31, 2020, 05:56:24 PM
Bebpo, as a fellow lawyer: Have you ever thought about getting out of this rat race and changing career paths?
I quit after constantly working 60 hour weeks, barely sleeping and being close to a mental breakdown. I make less than half the money now, but I have never been happier teaching at a university.

How'd you get started looking for teaching jobs? Yeah I'd definitely like to move fields someday and teaching always seemed like a good idea.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on January 31, 2020, 08:55:17 PM

How'd you get started looking for teaching jobs? Yeah I'd definitely like to move fields someday and teaching always seemed like a good idea.
I knew several people in the university from when I did my PhD,  having a PhD (or Dr. iur. as it's called here) is a requirement here. The pay level is not great compared to most jobs, so if you have some good credentials(i.e. a specialization in fields that get taught at the university level) it's not that hard to get in, since most people are more interested in making money. I valued having a regular 9-5 job more :trumps

I don't know about the requirements for teaching in the US or a way to get in, sorry. But, if you don't necessarily want to teach at an university, there are tutoring companies that prepare students for our equivalent of the BAR exam, so maybe that sort of thing exists in the US as well?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on January 31, 2020, 11:16:32 PM
Bebpo, as a fellow lawyer: Have you ever thought about getting out of this rat race and changing career paths?
I quit after constantly working 60 hour weeks, barely sleeping and being close to a mental breakdown. I make less than half the money now, but I have never been happier teaching at a university.

It's kinda wild to me that two of the four hosts on this college football podcast I listen to went from being Lawyers to talking about college football for money.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 31, 2020, 11:49:45 PM
Yeah, being a lawyer sucks and I'd never recommend it to people. People ask me what I do and I'm like oh I'm a lawyer and then move on to another subject because I don't enjoy talking about work. At best it's an ok 9-5 that pays the bills and lets me do fun stuff when I'm not at work.

To be fair I thought being a videogame reviewer also sucked and would never recommend it to people \o/


I did like teaching English to kids in Japan. Probably most satisfying job I've had. Translating/fansubbing anime/manga was pretty cool too as long as you only do specific things you love and want to share with the world. As for what Bismarkie said, I don't have the drive to go get a PhD. Best I think I can do is teach at a law school but I don't know people because I used to be extremely shy and anti-social and didn't really talk with anyone when I was at law school. So don't really have any ins. I'd basically just have to get by on my background of some teaching in Japan and years being a lawyer and not fucking up and general current charm  :-*


I also have the weird issue of my office being family, so it definitely makes it weird in terms of leaving.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 02, 2020, 12:15:15 PM
Sounds good and bad.

Yeah, that sucks it's hitting you so hard. What dosage? I had .25 and it did nothing, but they gave me like .10 or something of klonopin and was like you described. Felt so relaxed and good, probably some of the best high feelings of my life since I live with a lot of anxiety/stress, but the sleepyness and addiction worries kept me off it as a solution. Fwiw, I'm pretty sure you build up a tolerance pretty quick on Xanax so maybe after some time you'll be fine at work with it. Can you take a lower dose for now?

1mg so yeah pretty strong, it sucks as I was meant to go to a friends birthday last night but I was just so muted and just in my own head, decided not to go, no one wants a medicated zombie at a party, finally I can say “I must be fun at parties :( “ cool, least I’m not in my own head tearing myself apart anymore which feel actually pretty fucking cool.

Yeah fuck working for family, it’s the worst way to be trapped IMO, you can just say FUUUUCK OOOOOFFFFF
as that’ll then make later family events awkward as you left the firm, feels bad for you. Today I had to drag myself into work which was an experience, whole building had a power down so had to go in and insure all the servers etc came back up, which they did but in general working on a Sunday for a lieu day instead of time and a half sucks. Least I get my bonus at the end of the month, but that is adding to my anxiety as if they fuck me over I’ll literally be throwing my notice in as I haven’t got time to be fucked around
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 02, 2020, 09:43:53 PM
Uh, can you split the pill and try .5? 1 is a lot for sure.


And yeah family...had the latest headbutting today with family because now that I got my car situation squared out, I got back to browsing around for housing. I found some idea stuff, nothing serious, about 25-45 min (depending on traffic) drive away from me & our office (I live like down the street from our office now) and got pretty heavy push back from certain family members who pretty heavily think I should only look to buy a place in the current city I live in (even though it's more expensive, and I can get a better place for my money with a small drive) because my health issues with my crohn's where once in a while I run home and work from home because of stomach/intestinal issues.

Like I agree that ideally living locally is great, but when looking for house it's pretty limiting to not be able to go more than like 10 miles in radius when there's tons of houses everywhere. I feel like I could make it work even from a bit of a distance, especially because I do a lot of work remotely from home but I got a lot of pushback and it was really stressful. Like I'm 38 and a grown adult and don't want to feel like I have to kertow to my parent's wishes and a house where I could spend the next 10-20 years of my life and get married and have a family in is a major investment/major life thing with taking on the mortgage and all that, so I feel like it's something I want to decide myself but yeah. Plus I don't even if I'll still be at this office here for 10-20 years.

Eh, working with family has a lot of benefits, but there's definitely some difficulties and head butting and feeling trapped because of it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on February 03, 2020, 08:33:44 AM
Fuck life. I feel so pathetic. I hate this.

I think I whiplash so much because of how much I bottle stuff up but I don’t have anyway to get it out. These past few months it’s getting really intense. I think it gets worse because I don’t sleep many nights. I’m really starting to worry about how bad it’s going to get because it seemed to drop off the continental shelf last year.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on February 03, 2020, 08:47:55 AM
Fuck life. I feel so pathetic. I hate this.

Take a long bathroom break and watch Strip Nude for Your Killer on iTunes in the toilet. Bless up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on February 03, 2020, 09:03:08 AM
I'm going to take a break, brehs. Been feeling miserable lately.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on February 03, 2020, 09:33:50 AM
To be fair I thought being a videogame reviewer also sucked and would never recommend it to people \o/

I enjoyed doing this for no money on my own back in high school and college.  Then I did the same thing for Gamebrink (lol) and it sucked because the guy would bother me for reviews the day a game would release.  Was glad when he stopped paying me so I could leave.

You mentioned the family aspect of work, but wouldn't they want you to be happy more than anything?  If you think another career path would be better...go for it.   :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: VomKriege on February 03, 2020, 09:35:01 AM
I'm going to take a break, brehs. Been feeling miserable lately.

Bless up and best of rest.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on February 05, 2020, 06:01:38 AM
Well looks like I’m going into day 4. At least it’s a work at home day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on February 05, 2020, 10:08:34 PM
Yeah, being a lawyer sucks and I'd never recommend it to people. People ask me what I do and I'm like oh I'm a lawyer and then move on to another subject because I don't enjoy talking about work. At best it's an ok 9-5 that pays the bills and lets me do fun stuff when I'm not at work.

To be fair I thought being a videogame reviewer also sucked and would never recommend it to people \o/


I did like teaching English to kids in Japan. Probably most satisfying job I've had. Translating/fansubbing anime/manga was pretty cool too as long as you only do specific things you love and want to share with the world. As for what Bismarkie said, I don't have the drive to go get a PhD. Best I think I can do is teach at a law school but I don't know people because I used to be extremely shy and anti-social and didn't really talk with anyone when I was at law school. So don't really have any ins. I'd basically just have to get by on my background of some teaching in Japan and years being a lawyer and not fucking up and general current charm  :-*


I also have the weird issue of my office being family, so it definitely makes it weird in terms of leaving.

The girl I was dating is a corporate tax lawyer and she said she did it so she could have money to do what she wanted with life but not out of love for the subject. One of the reasons we hit it off so well initially was how much lawyer life is like game dev life.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 05, 2020, 10:31:56 PM
So interviews are going ok, done about 10+ but no one's been great so far. Had one really good candidate until we discovered she lied on her resume in a really easy to tell lie  :( (said she was an attorney years prior to actually passing the bar exam, which combined with her talking about trial experience yet not mentioning anything about trials on her resume and combined with her wanting to start at the highest amount of our hiring range all added up to seem like she was a grifter), some ok people.

And my brother has been frequenting the inside of LAX recently and came down sick today (probably coronavirus and we're all gonna die RIP) so we're down from 4 to 2 attorneys and I'm doing 3 interviews a day lol

But today I got done transitioning all the cases from the leaving attorney and it's not bad. I can definitely handle it without going crazy, especially with some help. Which is a little lightening of stress. Monday was reallllly bad because we had to do billing review at the start of a new month which takes about 3-4 hours of going through all the bills before they went out. Doing that + interviews + work I didn't sleep much Monday night. Left at a more reasonable time Tuesday and like immediately crashed to sleep and slept 10 hours and felt pretty refreshed and ok today which probably helps too.

Basically just been getting up -> work -> exercise -> eat something -> RDR2 for 1-2 hours -> bed routine everyone night and will stick to that until we got this under control. It's not terrible and I'm certainly making slow progress in RDR2 this way, but been declining all social/friend stuff during the weekdays and keeping my weekends open for the next month or two so I have some recovery time. Last weekend I had stuff packed Sat/Sun so I went from one intense work week right into the next without any rest days and that made Monday extra challenging.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 06, 2020, 10:24:52 AM
So interviews are going ok, done about 10+ but no one's been great so far. Had one really good candidate until we discovered she lied on her resume in a really easy to tell lie  :( (said she was an attorney years prior to actually passing the bar exam, which combined with her talking about trial experience yet not mentioning anything about trials on her resume and combined with her wanting to start at the highest amount of our hiring range all added up to seem like she was a grifter), some ok people.

And my brother has been frequenting the inside of LAX recently and came down sick today (probably coronavirus and we're all gonna die RIP) so we're down from 4 to 2 attorneys and I'm doing 3 interviews a day lol

But today I got done transitioning all the cases from the leaving attorney and it's not bad. I can definitely handle it without going crazy, especially with some help. Which is a little lightening of stress. Monday was reallllly bad because we had to do billing review at the start of a new month which takes about 3-4 hours of going through all the bills before they went out. Doing that + interviews + work I didn't sleep much Monday night. Left at a more reasonable time Tuesday and like immediately crashed to sleep and slept 10 hours and felt pretty refreshed and ok today which probably helps too.

Basically just been getting up -> work -> exercise -> eat something -> RDR2 for 1-2 hours -> bed routine everyone night and will stick to that until we got this under control. It's not terrible and I'm certainly making slow progress in RDR2 this way, but been declining all social/friend stuff during the weekdays and keeping my weekends open for the next month or two so I have some recovery time. Last weekend I had stuff packed Sat/Sun so I went from one intense work week right into the next without any rest days and that made Monday extra challenging.

Sounds like hell on earth man, hang in there, hope things settle soon, sucks interviewing people and just being like "listen you said X on resume, but in the office you're saying Y, get out stop wasting time"

As for me, I've gone back to the doctors and been like these pills are far too much, as firstly the fiance thought I was on non prescribed meds with how fucked I was and generally I'm nonfunctional on them.
Mentally I am just dancing the dance, trying to not fuck around with alcohol or other depressive things and just taking the good doggo for long ass walks and sitting in bar gardens drinking soda's etc.
Just gotta get it all to click, but we shall see. Also the therapist I talked to may I suspect may have been under qualified as from the notes from doctor back vs how I am something isn't adding up.

I think I'm just gonna go private on this matter I have good insurance and fuck it I pay for it, why not use it when I need it, insurance is weird like that, you pay for it, but then when you go to claim you're like ohh shit can't do that because premiums etc, WTF is that about, anyway, rambling over. Birthday very soon, sure that's gonna be a hoot as my OTT mother came over and just went ballistic at me for taking medication.

sorry for the wasting of your time :D
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 06, 2020, 11:48:40 AM
Lol, I got sick

Had a miserable night last night, couldn’t sleep much with dry coughing and tearing up my throat, lungs and fever chills. Luckily my general doc down the street is fitting me in now. I think if he gives me some of that perscription cough syrup like the Wild West days with cocaine equivalent I’ll stop coughing and be able to sleep and heal up my lungs & throat.

But yeah timing for this is terrible of course.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 06, 2020, 11:50:26 AM
Lol, I got sick

Had a miserable night last night, couldn’t sleep much with dry coughing and tearing up my throat, lungs and fever chills. Luckily my general doc down the street is fitting me in now. I think if he gives me some of that perscription cough syrup like the Wild West days with cocaine equivalent I’ll stop coughing and be able to sleep and heal up my lungs & throat.

But yeah timing for this is terrible of course.

Let's just survive and fight to live another day, a day when we can make other peoples lives more miserable than need be.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 06, 2020, 12:38:14 PM
Got the codeine coughing syrup prescription, also doc gave me a z-pack just in case but I don't have any bacteria/viral infection that doc could see, just cough and high fever. Was pretty dizzy and almost fainted dropping the prescription off. Not looking forward to going back out to get it but after that should be able to just rest in bed drinking water and drugs all day.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 06, 2020, 12:45:32 PM
Got the codeine coughing syrup prescription, also doc gave me a z-pack just in case but I don't have any bacteria/viral infection that doc could see, just cough and high fever. Was pretty dizzy and almost fainted dropping the prescription off. Not looking forward to going back out to get it but after that should be able to just rest in bed drinking water and drugs all day.

I hear cough syrup and sprite is a good way of taking it  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 06, 2020, 04:16:41 PM
Short update so buying a house, getting rid of renting got a cool as fuck shibe and I’m cooking some sweet ass Korean BBQ style salmon for my fiancé, like why the fuck am I so depressed, I mean end of the day I’m doing super well in life but at the same time I have this duality or wanting to destroy it all. Fucking lame. Also fuck Xanax as that shit is just legal heroin and noping out of that after a week is probably what is making me feel like shit.

Life is weird just glad I have some fellow people I can shoot the shit with globally and be like cool it’s not just you
Thanks filler likes MVP!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on February 06, 2020, 04:39:41 PM
Short update so buying a house, getting rid of renting got a cool as fuck shibe and I’m cooking some sweet ass Korean BBQ style salmon for my fiancé, like why the fuck am I so depressed, I mean end of the day I’m doing super well in life but at the same time I have this duality or wanting to destroy it all. Fucking lame. Also fuck Xanax as that shit is just legal heroin and noping out of that after a week is probably what is making me feel like shit.

Life is weird just glad I have some fellow people I can shoot the shit with globally and be like cool it’s not just you
Thanks filler likes MVP!
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Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 06, 2020, 04:44:19 PM
Oxy is literally legal heroin, Xanax is an incredibly different and much lamer high.

I understand it’s medical use but can’t fathom why it’s so popular recreationally for anyone not suffering from anxiety.

It was prescribed that’s the worst part of it.

Also as someone who was on 1mg a day I can say it’s to make you a zombie non problem whilst they figure out what the fuck to do with you. To do that for “fun” nah, not for me I kinda like you know living.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 07, 2020, 07:42:39 AM
today, still feel like death, but I'm not dead and don't feel such dread over me today. Got a seat on the train and got lots of worried looks as I coughed, quite a fun ride into work.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 07, 2020, 09:29:40 AM
How do you know you aren't dead tho

Matrix level
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on February 07, 2020, 11:01:02 AM
Having to post on the bore would be a cruel and unusual punishment even for hell.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr. Gundam on February 07, 2020, 11:06:16 AM
Oxy is literally legal heroin, Xanax is an incredibly different and much lamer high.

I understand it’s medical use but can’t fathom why it’s so popular recreationally for anyone not suffering from anxiety.

I have so much Oxy left over from my heart surgery and will likely end up with a ton of the stuff following round two next month. It did absolutely nothing for me and Extra Strength Tylenol worked just fine for controlling pain.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on February 07, 2020, 01:15:13 PM
Monday is root canal day :/  and that is just the first appointment for the first root canal. I have another tooth that might need to get yanked. The dentist said it’s on the verge and I was just like “pull it” until she started going over the costs of an implant. Holy shit those things are like ten grand. So I quickly backtracked and changed my tune to “let’s try to save it”.

Coincidentally they want me to come in sedated on Xanax for my canal and gave me a test dose that I took a few nights ago. I wouldn’t call it recreational at all. It was just more of a “time to go to bed” feeling. I really wouldn’t want to be on that all the time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 07, 2020, 01:41:20 PM
Yeah, I'm pretty dead too. Like I get sick a lot, but this has to be the hardest I've ever been hit in the head. Can barely type this post. Can't even watch tv because it hurts my headache.
Was up to 101.6 fever last night, but did seem to fever break at some point and been in the 99.0-100.0 range since. Still getting massive fever chills and cold af.

The worst part is this massive headache I have. Just 24/7 and reaching down or turning my head or doing anything makes me it worse. Coughing (which is mostly under control thankfully) gives me 12/10 kill myself sharp stabbing headaches in the front half.

Pretty much just on 500mg tylenol every 4 hours (3000/day) but even that barely helps the headache and fever. Plus even though it's every 4 hours, the effects wear off at 3.5 hours and I start getting bad chills and headaches. Drinking tons of water.

Oh and can't sleep more than 30-60 mins at a time, so slept all night but woke up every hour :|


I'm guessing it's just the flu, my doctor said since the fever is going down to just give it a few days unless it spikes.
Only other thing I can think of is viral meningitis because of the constant severe headache, but at least so far don't have neck stiffness and no weird stuff like bright lights being painful. So hopefully not that.

Just so much pain >< I'm not supposed to take aspirin or ibuprofen due to the meds I'm on, so pretty much all I've got is 500mg tylenol.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on February 07, 2020, 01:59:21 PM
turmeric and pepper
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on February 07, 2020, 01:59:38 PM
Yeah, I'm pretty dead too. Like I get sick a lot, but this has to be the hardest I've ever been hit in the head. Can barely type this post. Can't even watch tv because it hurts my headache.
Was up to 101.6 fever last night, but did seem to fever break at some point and been in the 99.0-100.0 range since. Still getting massive fever chills and cold af.

The worst part is this massive headache I have. Just 24/7 and reaching down or turning my head or doing anything makes me it worse. Coughing (which is mostly under control thankfully) gives me 12/10 kill myself sharp stabbing headaches in the front half.

Pretty much just on 500mg tylenol every 4 hours (3000/day) but even that barely helps the headache and fever. Plus even though it's every 4 hours, the effects wear off at 3.5 hours and I start getting bad chills and headaches. Drinking tons of water.

Oh and can't sleep more than 30-60 mins at a time, so slept all night but woke up every hour :|


I'm guessing it's just the flu, my doctor said since the fever is going down to just give it a few days unless it spikes.
Only other thing I can think of is viral meningitis because of the constant severe headache, but at least so far don't have neck stiffness and no weird stuff like bright lights being painful. So hopefully not that.

Just so much pain >< I'm not supposed to take aspirin or ibuprofen due to the meds I'm on, so pretty much all I've got is 500mg tylenol.

Yeah I’m kinda in the same boat and basically a super cold or hot bath shower depending on your temp does wonders. I called my local services today to be like well I work in an area with a large amount of Chinese tourists and they are just like, when you get worse give us a call back. Fucking top tier damage control. Good thing I’ve only gone to work for a week and a half-ish since feeling like shit. Ah well more travel with work on Monday so may as well infect a few more. In the words of R Kelly “it’s the freaking weekend, and I’m gonna die in bed until Monday”

My update house offer went through and that’s cool. Feel like death, mind is somewhat positive, I just hate everything and one that are involved with buying a place, so many stupid obstacles, I have X amount near 50% of price, why dick me around over a four year mid payment when I know for a fact I was told it was paid. That conversation is for when I’m not so groggy as I wanna slap someone verbally, apologies CS rep that gets abused in advance
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 07, 2020, 07:04:30 PM
Yeah, I don't know how you're still functioning.

So I'm pretty sure this is the flu and now I realize I've never had the actual "flu" even though I get whatever cold is usually going around. This is night and day from a cold.
And since I work with my family, my whole family is coming down with it too. Hoping everyone gets through this ok.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 07, 2020, 08:09:56 PM
I got the flu for the first time the week of the new year. Spent that Monday just feeling kind of dumpy. Tuesday too. Wednesday I thought I was getting better. Thursday I went back to work and felt awful. Friday I crashed hard at work. I’ve never felt anything like that. I’ve been sick but I’ve never been sick like that where it’s debilitating. My wife and I both had it. After a week at home I felt good enough to go back to work. But I still had a cough and phlegm for like 3 weeks.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 07, 2020, 09:16:54 PM
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on February 07, 2020, 09:21:24 PM
Oh my god Bebpo that's awful.

Hopefully you'll get better soon. Have you seeked out medical care?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on February 07, 2020, 10:41:09 PM
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.
this would happen to me during sleep anytime I got sick as a kid  :stahp waking up in the middle of the night all through childhood struggling to breathe  :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on February 08, 2020, 12:11:05 AM
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.

:( That sounds dangerous. Should you maybe call your health care’s 24/7 line and see if this is worth going to the hospital for? I’d be worried about sleeping. Take care of yourself, bebps!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 08, 2020, 01:41:29 AM
thanks, yeah docs dont think its a big deal. I dont really have enough symptoms for the ER to take me since my lungs are clear and my fever is lowering and 99 or below.

will keep an eye on it. moved back in with the parents so not living alone right now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 08, 2020, 03:35:19 PM
Around 3am was able to cough up a thick ball of phlegm from my lungs. After that my lungs were clear and no worries of choking so things got a lot better.

Still feverish ~99f and headache and stuffy, but definitely doing better today on day 3 and slightly functional. Was able to drive to the market and pick up some supplies and was able to eat my first piece of meat in 2.5 days. Haven't had an appetite so haven't been eating anything besides some oatmeal/apple sauce. If I can get back on food that should give my body more energy to fight this thing.

Mostly just trying to take it easy today because whenever I exert myself I start to get fluid in the lungs and as long as I can avoid Bronchitis/Pneumonia, I can probably make it through this thing.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 08, 2020, 11:06:21 PM
Definitely doing a little better today. Was up to driving around a bit.

Staying with the parents has been hmmm. My parents are sick with this too a day or two or three behind me. They're sick and treating this like it's no big deal even with a 101-102F fever. I tried to get my mom to go to an urgent care and get on the tamiflu antiviral but she was like I don't want to sit for hours in a waiting room with a bunch of sick people and catch something else.

They're in their 70s so an at risk group and google results are telling me that at-risk groups with the flu, high fever and chills should see a doc right away. But they're like you get the flu every few years, drink liquids and rest and it clears up.

Maybe I'm overreacting because I'm not used to the flu and all the coronavirus stuff has me extra worried/paranoid.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 09, 2020, 07:25:09 PM
Excited for tomorrow being monday since the whole thing where all the doctors that actually know you and your medical history only work M-F meaning if you get an illness towards the end of the week you're shit out of luck over the weekend and may just die because whoops. This isn't the first time I've run into this and it really makes me think that doctors should not be M-F jobs. Or at least their nurse practioner should work Sat/Sun. Yeah there's the walk-in/urgent care doctors but I've had pretty bad experience with them over time and ER is iffy too.

So my flu part is doing a little better, my mom ended up going to an urgent care and they tested her and she had influenza type A which means that's what we all have.

The problem with me specifically and probably why this thing is still been pretty killer is I definitely have bronchitis from it at this point and I'm trying to do my best to not irritate it to pneumonia since I have a very low immune system currently. Even on mucinex type stuff still have a hard lung cough about once an hour or two that brings up a bit of phlegm. So it's hard to let my lungs heal when I keep irratating them :|

If I can live until tomorrow I'll be on the phone with my doctors and find out if there's other stuff they want me to be on at this point to try to control & heal the bronchitis and not let it get to pneumonia.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on February 09, 2020, 07:30:50 PM
i hope you survive, m8. 

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 09, 2020, 08:22:21 PM
And now my mom's in the ER with the brain infection from this. They're giving her antibiotics, keeping her on fluids and keeping her for 2-3 days to monitor and run tests  :(
fuck this shit
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on February 09, 2020, 08:25:07 PM
Sorry dude, hope things get better soon. 
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Post by: toku on February 09, 2020, 08:41:51 PM
hope you and your mom feel better soon or at least hear some good news by tomorrow <3
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Post by: brawndolicious on February 09, 2020, 08:55:11 PM
Sorry Bebpo, some people get super paranoid in hospitals so just try to get everyone to calm down and they'll cruise through the hospital bullshit.

And also she probably didn't catch anything from you, when I had a viral infection a few years ago the doctor said that I was actually not very contagious the day I went in (when symptoms were heaviest). Only the first few days are really contagious and you usually don't know if you just have a cold or a flu during that time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 10, 2020, 12:01:28 AM
Thank you all, got back from the hospital and after they got her on IV fluids (which she really needed) and some stuff her vitals got a lot better and fever down to something reasonable in the 101F range. She was a lot more coherent by the time I got to the hospital and they did a spinal tap and ran tests and the doctor seemed think there wasn't a separate infection going on and the confusion and brain lining inflammation was a side effect of the flu. They're keeping her overnight but expect her to be ok to treat at home tomorrow. All good news so far. Hoping for the best.


Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 10, 2020, 07:51:01 PM
Yeah, good news today. My mom got discharged from the ER and I spent some time with her and she seems in really good condition, like in that one night she got past the fever part of this and is now just dealing with some of the side effect stuff like sore throat from coughs. She's pretty cheery and has no memory of about 4 hours of yesterday when she went to the ER. Apparently she was at 104F when she got there. My dad who took her filmed some videos of her confusion when it was happening which came in handy at the ER when the first person just asked a few questions and thought she was fine until my dad showed the videos and started asking her more questions. Watching those videos was pretty hard, seeing a close family member confused like that suddenly.

I also seem to have cleared most of this. Saw my GP and my lungs were pretty clear so no Pneumonia and fever & chills is mostly gone. Even the bronchitis lung irritation I had is pretty gone today and don't have much of a cough even if chest is still a bit tight and inflamed. Basically just feels like a light cold now. Getting a little bit of work done from home and will either go back into work tomorrow or Wednesday I think. My brother's basically recovered and is back at work today.

My dad who got this last out of our family's got some symptoms, but he doesn't seem to have any fever and just some cough mild bronchitis stuff which he's taking things for so he seems ok too. Surprisingly my brother's long time gf who lives with him didn't get it at all, but her and my dad might've caught this or something similar in the past and have some immunity.

But overall, all good news. Looks like my family is all ok and hopefully in a few more days we'll all be back on our feet and can get back to work and start catching up. We still need to finish interviews and hire someone asap. At least one of our paralegals is out with this flu as well, but the rest of our employees all seem ok today from what I am being told. Of course, I'm the only person in the entire fucking office that apparently got a flu shot this year. Next fall we're gonna mandate everyone gets them. Need that herd immunity.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on February 10, 2020, 07:55:10 PM
inshallah :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on February 10, 2020, 08:38:07 PM
I love hearing good news.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 11, 2020, 01:33:45 AM
So I almost died.

Had a little bit of phlegm in my lungs, had the first cough to bring it out of my lungs and into my throat, but couldn't get it out from my throat with my 2nd or next few coughs. So what happened is a bunch of phlegm blocked my airways and I started choking to death and couldn't breathe and eventually I was able to get some air through the phlegm and breathe. But I never got the phlegm out so yeah.

Definitely concerned about this happening again. I've been taking an expectorant every 4 hours and drinking lots of water, so that this still happened is bad.
Thank you all, got back from the hospital and after they got her on IV fluids (which she really needed) and some stuff her vitals got a lot better and fever down to something reasonable in the 101F range. She was a lot more coherent by the time I got to the hospital and they did a spinal tap and ran tests and the doctor seemed think there wasn't a separate infection going on and the confusion and brain lining inflammation was a side effect of the flu. They're keeping her overnight but expect her to be ok to treat at home tomorrow. All good news so far. Hoping for the best.

Jesus, bebsy, get better, hope your mom gets fully recovered… just, wow. You're dealing with too much.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on February 11, 2020, 11:37:14 AM
Flu is really bad this year. A lot of the 2009 H1N1 going around. Take care glad y’all are doing better. Don’t be afraid of going back to be seen in the ER if you get sick/worse as secondary bacterial pneumonia’s are common
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on February 13, 2020, 12:06:42 PM
you should wear hoodie while posting  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on February 13, 2020, 12:33:12 PM
but also take off your pants
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on February 13, 2020, 03:50:33 PM
rock climbing will painfully teach you about muscles you never even knew you had
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 14, 2020, 02:19:10 AM
Flu is really bad this year. A lot of the 2009 H1N1 going around. Take care glad y’all are doing better. Don’t be afraid of going back to be seen in the ER if you get sick/worse as secondary bacterial pneumonia’s are common

Thanks, yeah this has been rough.

I'm pretty far recovered at this point. I wasn't able to keep down food for about a week which killed my energy levels. Only back on protein meat today finally. Back at work now but get like 3-4 hours in and then feel drained and go home and nap. Still have a bit of a cough but nothing thick or discolored so it's more annoyance.

My family seems pretty well on recovery too with just same lingering cough and drained energy.

Super behind on work, but slowly getting stuff done and figure will try to work on catching up on the weekend as well.

Definitely see a light at the end of this tunnel. Hopefully by mid-next week will be 100% back to normal along with my family and mostly caught back up on work. We put our interviewing on hold this week, but hopefully will get back to doing interviews next week.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on February 14, 2020, 03:21:34 AM
Been having a sore tooth or teeth for a week. Last couple days, it became painful to chew. I sometimes damage my roots from grinding my teeth too much, but I use a night guard religiously now. Despite it, I have been waking up at 3AM from tooth pain, so I saw a dentist. She told me it's just sensitive nerves, damaged, but might recover. Pain washes over me in waves, and the tolerable parts are getting shorter, and the overwhelming pain is growing longer.

Last night, I was curled up in the shower, crying and drooling, I haven't been in this much pain in 15 years or more: the last time I had root troubles with my teeth, and part of my root was necrotized.

Out of habit, I went to work this morning despite waking up throughout the night in pain. On the train, I can't focus on anything, just this insane pain in my jaw. I get to work and make an appointment with the dentist, who can see me immediately. She recognizes that my root is likely irreparably damaged, and asks if I want an emergency root canal procedure. I am in so much pain, I don't see another choice.

Getting properly anesthetized took about 4 more attempts even after she doped me up at the big nerve at the hinge of my jaw, but eventually she got all of my nerves scraped out from inside that molar.

I'm unhappy to have another root canal, but really fucking grateful to not be balled up in pain and waiting for it to get worse.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on February 14, 2020, 04:16:16 AM
That sucks. When I had a root canal, the nurse was amazed at my pain tolerance but the periodontist corrected her and said that it's because nerve was completely dead already.

What is dead may never die. It was my Theon.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on February 14, 2020, 01:02:06 PM
you know what you have to do. fuck him in the ass
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on February 14, 2020, 01:09:24 PM
you know what you have to do. fuck him in the ass
YES SHOW HIM THE REAL HINDUTVA  :phil
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on February 26, 2020, 04:41:26 AM
I haven't really been posting as much over the last few weeks. Things have been a mess around here. Some day are good and I feel pretty peaceful about myself. Some days are the complete opposite and I feel like shit. I don't really want to share anything as I don't really want to be judged. I just felt like saying things, because I'm having another low episode tonight.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 26, 2020, 11:44:38 PM
So I think my tooth just broke.

I've had a weird hollow upper back tooth with a hole in it for yeaaaars now. Reabsorbtion they call it. The dentist always said at some point it would break or fall out and when he first discovered it I saw a surgeon about the idea of pulling it and putting in an implant but he wasn't sure the implant would stick because my weakened immune system. Since there was no good solution and the tooth was working fine just left it alone all the years

Tooth feels weird and sharp all over. No pain but the side where there was the hole it just feels sharp and weird all over can't stop messing with it. Dunno how I'm gonna sleep. Guessing the tooth impacted and crushed inwards into a mess of tooth bone.

Will call dentist once they open tomorrow so they can take a look. If that's what it is, they'll have to pull it and then I'll have to make another appt with implant guy to see about that.


First tooth I'm losing! On my way to old age.
But yeah, life's been hell non-stop since about end of November and I'm finally 98% healthy of this H1N1 swine flu with cough almost completely gone and now this happens lol. It just never ends. My karma sucks.
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Post by: TVC15 on February 27, 2020, 12:04:27 AM
I’m going through the implant process now! Just got my stump put in! Like 3ish months left, hopefully.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 27, 2020, 11:41:02 AM
Talked to my dentist but he doesn't work in my city on Tue/Thu. He doesn't think it's an emergency, so gonna wait and see him first thing in the morning tomorrow to look at what's going on. I feel like maybe the tooth cracked and there's a fissure crack running down the inner side about halfway. Just gotta chew on the other side today and rinse more often and hope nothing crazy happens.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on February 27, 2020, 12:03:09 PM
should be doing kanban :vr
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on February 28, 2020, 12:15:52 PM
Well I saw the dentist and it was what I thought, a side of my tooth had collapsed into the hollow inside. He poked it for like 2 seconds and a chunk of tooth just fell out of my mouth and there was a giant gaping hole on one side of the tooth. My root must be dead because I have zero pain from any of this. He wasn't comfortable doing extractions, so he filled it with some cement stuff to close it up temporarily since it didn't seem infected or anything and referred me to an oral surgeon to extract it on Monday morning and then figure out whether to start on the implant or bridge process.

Just gotta eat soft foods on the other side and watch out and make sure there's no infection over the weekend until then.

At least there's no pain yet and this is just annoying. I'm guessing when they pull it it'll be painful, especially since I heal really slow, but I guess they'll give me some painkillers so I'll be in happy mode next week. It's my upper tooth 3 from the back if you include wisdom tooth (I don't have my wisdom tooth, so it's 2nd from back). So it's still a pretty big ass tooth and will be a big ass gap/hole in the back until I do something about it.

Maybe I should get a gold tooth and be pirate arghhh
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 01, 2020, 02:52:16 AM
Well I saw the dentist and it was what I thought, a side of my tooth had collapsed into the hollow inside. He poked it for like 2 seconds and a chunk of tooth just fell out of my mouth and there was a giant gaping hole on one side of the tooth. My root must be dead because I have zero pain from any of this. He wasn't comfortable doing extractions, so he filled it with some cement stuff to close it up temporarily since it didn't seem infected or anything and referred me to an oral surgeon to extract it on Monday morning and then figure out whether to start on the implant or bridge process.

Just gotta eat soft foods on the other side and watch out and make sure there's no infection over the weekend until then.

At least there's no pain yet and this is just annoying. I'm guessing when they pull it it'll be painful, especially since I heal really slow, but I guess they'll give me some painkillers so I'll be in happy mode next week. It's my upper tooth 3 from the back if you include wisdom tooth (I don't have my wisdom tooth, so it's 2nd from back). So it's still a pretty big ass tooth and will be a big ass gap/hole in the back until I do something about it.

Maybe I should get a gold tooth and be pirate arghhh

Yo ho, buddy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 02, 2020, 02:50:14 PM
Welp, oral surgeon was ready to do the extraction surgery, and was really pushing doing a bone craft (idk how to spell it) at the same time to prep for an implant in a few months. But given my immune comp stuff and that the tooth is a little into my sinus cavity which will probably create a hole there that needs to heal too, they want to put me on some strong antibiotics and I have to get the ok from my main GI doc on that. I emailed them on Friday but they haven't responded so I left a voicemail and another email just now. Sitting and waiting for them to get back to me so I can schedule this stuff and do it.

Sounds like it'll be a sore/swollen pain for a few days cause it's a big tooth. They want to give me tramadol for the pain. Never used that but my old ex did. Didn't seem too good, wish they'd just give me some vicodin or something I'm familiar with and know works good.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 02, 2020, 06:51:52 PM
Starting on antibiotics and doing the extraction & bone graft tomorrow morning. Hope it goes ok and heals fast so I can get back to eating normal.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 02, 2020, 07:01:10 PM
Pain levels from mouth surgery stuff can vary a lot and seemingly randomly. It seems they usually give you way more pain meds than the average patient would need so good luck and hope you don't get an upset tummy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on March 02, 2020, 10:53:59 PM
Do any of you Borians have tips for dealing with panic attacks? I've experienced more panic attacks the past two months then the rest of my life combined and it sucks. At first they were just waking me up prematurely from sleep, but now I've had them full on in the middle of days. I was just starting to climb out of my massively emotionally fragile depressive funk and it seems like I replaced it with panic attacks.

I bought some lavender spray and a fancy lavender candle. I've called people to talk a few times when it got super bad. I've been doing breathing stuff, writing stuff and also going to the gym more.

I also doubled up my generally low dosage anti anxiety meds (which I'm supposed to take twice a day and had been only doing once a day). It seems like the panic is getting less, but I figured I'd ask if anyone has other advice.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on March 03, 2020, 11:07:46 AM
Do any of you Borians have tips for dealing with panic attacks? I've experienced more panic attacks the past two months then the rest of my life combined and it sucks. At first they were just waking me up prematurely from sleep, but now I've had them full on in the middle of days. I was just starting to climb out of my massively emotionally fragile depressive funk and it seems like I replaced it with panic attacks.

I bought some lavender spray and a fancy lavender candle. I've called people to talk a few times when it got super bad. I've been doing breathing stuff, writing stuff and also going to the gym more.

I also doubled up my generally low dosage anti anxiety meds (which I'm supposed to take twice a day and had been only doing once a day). It seems like the panic is getting less, but I figured I'd ask if anyone has other advice.

There's a bunch of decent breathing apps that I really like.

https://www.mindful.org/free-mindfulness-apps-worthy-of-your-attention/ (https://www.mindful.org/free-mindfulness-apps-worthy-of-your-attention/)

This site is usually pretty good, and these apps do really help!

As for me still going through the which med is for me game and also the so what is fucking wrong game. Generally been okay, I have had a couple nights when I got VERY drunk but generally just trying to stick to social drinking and staying clear of fun drugs which aren't fun atm. Just wish I'd be put onto something or nothing, these come down periods on meds before starting the next actually make me feel worse than anything because of the weird ass side effects. Well it's more oh look you're becoming a feeling person again instead of muted to fuck. Other than that have started going to the gym and running with the dog so that is helping me a lot. I'm not as low or high as I have been but just keeping a fairly rounded pace on things.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 03, 2020, 02:42:53 PM
ugh, swelling & pain = no fun.

when it says ice pack 15 min intervals, does that mean 15 mins on -> 15 mins off -> repeat?
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Post by: Bebpo on March 03, 2020, 03:33:54 PM
Ok, drugs are kicking in and bleeding is starting to die down a bit. This is better.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 03, 2020, 03:56:32 PM
Yeah seems excessive but they said how much I ice it today will determine how swollen it gets this week so might as well do what they say to try to minimize having a swollen face.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 03, 2020, 04:20:41 PM
Icing for the first day does help a lot with swelling the following few days. I remember just relaying between ice packs for the 15 on/off cycle when I had a jaw surgery.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 03, 2020, 08:29:00 PM
This tramadol stuff isn't too bad. Sometimes I wish I was a drug addict, seems like it'd be fun to be high on shit all the time. Alchohol is too much of a depressant to be fun like drugs.

But I also feel really fortunate that I don't get addicted to almost anything. Even caffeine I can just drop in a moment's notice and none of the opiate drugs I've taken have ever given me a feeling of needing them when I'm done.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 03, 2020, 08:50:53 PM
So my soon to be ex quit her fucking job without a backup while we’re still sharing finances without telling me :rage


Just can’t
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 03, 2020, 08:55:46 PM
So my soon to be ex quit her fucking job without a backup while we’re still sharing finances without telling me :rage


Just can’t

 :maf

Does she have some savings as a backup?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 03, 2020, 09:00:36 PM
No. She hasn’t even gotten approved for a place to move out yet. This is most out of control my life has ever felt. Fighting the dark thoughts again.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 03, 2020, 09:19:23 PM
No. She hasn’t even gotten approved for a place to move out yet. This is most out of control my life has ever felt. Fighting the dark thoughts again.

It'll be ok. Were still in a jobs market, so she should find something if she looks.

and we all love u man.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on March 03, 2020, 10:27:48 PM
Sounds like it’s a good thing she’s your ex. Hang in there, she’ll move on eventually and your days will get brighter again
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on March 04, 2020, 12:18:14 AM
Do any of you Borians have tips for dealing with panic attacks? I've experienced more panic attacks the past two months then the rest of my life combined and it sucks. At first they were just waking me up prematurely from sleep, but now I've had them full on in the middle of days. I was just starting to climb out of my massively emotionally fragile depressive funk and it seems like I replaced it with panic attacks.

I bought some lavender spray and a fancy lavender candle. I've called people to talk a few times when it got super bad. I've been doing breathing stuff, writing stuff and also going to the gym more.

I also doubled up my generally low dosage anti anxiety meds (which I'm supposed to take twice a day and had been only doing once a day). It seems like the panic is getting less, but I figured I'd ask if anyone has other advice.

There's a bunch of decent breathing apps that I really like.

https://www.mindful.org/free-mindfulness-apps-worthy-of-your-attention/ (https://www.mindful.org/free-mindfulness-apps-worthy-of-your-attention/)

This site is usually pretty good, and these apps do really help!

As for me still going through the which med is for me game and also the so what is fucking wrong game. Generally been okay, I have had a couple nights when I got VERY drunk but generally just trying to stick to social drinking and staying clear of fun drugs which aren't fun atm. Just wish I'd be put onto something or nothing, these come down periods on meds before starting the next actually make me feel worse than anything because of the weird ass side effects. Well it's more oh look you're becoming a feeling person again instead of muted to fuck. Other than that have started going to the gym and running with the dog so that is helping me a lot. I'm not as low or high as I have been but just keeping a fairly rounded pace on things.

Thanks, I'll check these out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Ghoul on March 04, 2020, 05:21:28 AM
No. She hasn’t even gotten approved for a place to move out yet. This is most out of control my life has ever felt. Fighting the dark thoughts again.

This woman is nuts dude, it's like she's doing everything she can to trap you forever, I would just call the cops and be like this woman will not leave my house, I am a prisoner.

HELP ME and my cats!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 04, 2020, 12:59:28 PM
So last night ended up going really bad and Tramadol sucks.

Got horrible nausea around 11pm and having the extraction site all stitched up and stuff the last thing I wanted to do was to vomit and break open the stitches in the middle of the night and have to deal with it on my own. So spent the entire night trying not to vomit and the nausea just kept getting worse and worse. Didn't sleep at all and just nibbled on salt crackers and sparkling water. Finally the tramadol wore off and the nausea died down a lot. Talked to my doctor when they finally opened and they think it was the tramadol and not the antibiotics (could be either), but they're giving me anti-nausea meds to take if I need them at least from here on out.

Oh well, no more pain meds for me. Just tylenol. Another reason why vicodin is better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 04, 2020, 01:17:09 PM
Damn Bebps, pain meds fuck me up too, sorry you’re having such a hard time getting some relief

I took the day off work to try to arrange my finances to make it on my own, I’ll figure it out, but yeah the sooner we cut financial ties and she’s out of the house the better
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 04, 2020, 03:05:19 PM
Came down with something and I don't have time for this shit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 04, 2020, 09:46:46 PM
Got back into the gym and I feel like I've never worked out in my life. Simultaneously feeling heavy and bloated but also small and weak. All the aches and pains that should have healed up or improved after basically 2 weeks of rest are worse than ever.


This is horrible. I feel bad. Is this what actual athletes go through when they come back from injuries or breaks? :stahp

I think so. Exercise kicks your ass when you haven't been doing it for a while, but once you get past the initial hump it gets back to normal pretty quick.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on March 05, 2020, 06:46:41 AM
so good news and bad news

some of you might remember that i mentioned that my left hand has been in pain for about a year and a half. i've seen multiple doctors and they had no idea what may have been wrong with me. but today, after seeing a highly reviewed orthopedis, i finally got my answer.

the bad news? it's much worse than i feared. i was hoping it was just a tricky case of tendonitis, but it turns out i actually have severe arthritis, and the cartilage in my joints have all been destroyed. and cartilage does not grow back, which leaves a very, very tiny, very expensive and very uncertain list of options for me (surgery, basically).

but as shitty as all this is, arguably the most twistedly fucked up thing is that i got my x-rays around the time this started, and so the problem was right there, it's just that EVERYONE who read the x-ray up until now, missed everything. meaning that, in these past 18 months, any remaining cartilage i would have had probably got destroyed due to a combination of continual deterioration, and multiple cortisone shots that i got cause the idiot doctors gave me the wrong diagosis.

i'm only 35 years old. this shouldn't be happening to me :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Yeti on March 05, 2020, 08:59:38 AM
I’m sorry that must suck so bad. I use my left hand all the time and it isn’t even my dominant hand. Could it be worth consulting with a lawyer? That sounds like malpractice to me since they were making it worse. But I’m not a lawyer or anything
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 05, 2020, 03:59:59 PM
Sorry dude.


I had 2 uncles diagnosed with cancer around Xmas.  One - who is just a few years older than my mom, and has kids in their early 20s - probably won't be getting out of the hospital. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 05, 2020, 09:51:56 PM
That's awful Madrun  :(
Spend time with them while you can if you're close.

so good news and bad news

some of you might remember that i mentioned that my left hand has been in pain for about a year and a half. i've seen multiple doctors and they had no idea what may have been wrong with me. but today, after seeing a highly reviewed orthopedis, i finally got my answer.

the bad news? it's much worse than i feared. i was hoping it was just a tricky case of tendonitis, but it turns out i actually have severe arthritis, and the cartilage in my joints have all been destroyed. and cartilage does not grow back, which leaves a very, very tiny, very expensive and very uncertain list of options for me (surgery, basically).

but as shitty as all this is, arguably the most twistedly fucked up thing is that i got my x-rays around the time this started, and so the problem was right there, it's just that EVERYONE who read the x-ray up until now, missed everything. meaning that, in these past 18 months, any remaining cartilage i would have had probably got destroyed due to a combination of continual deterioration, and multiple cortisone shots that i got cause the idiot doctors gave me the wrong diagosis.

i'm only 35 years old. this shouldn't be happening to me :fbm

You know, the bright side is that they know what it is and from my experience, hand surgeries are pretty successful even some of the complex ones can take a couple surgeries, so there might be light at the end of the tunnel.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on March 06, 2020, 12:50:22 AM
thanks guys.


and sorry to hear about your uncles Madrun. :( it's cause of more severe situations like that, i try not to wallow in too much self-pity, even though i do feel my problem is pretty bad on its own.

I’m sorry that must suck so bad. I use my left hand all the time and it isn’t even my dominant hand. Could it be worth consulting with a lawyer? That sounds like malpractice to me since they were making it worse. But I’m not a lawyer or anything

i'm not sure, exactly. one of the guys who gave me a cortisone shot did so without checking x-rays because he thought it was a tendonitis issue. the second guy who did it gave me a shot because the radiologists who did the x-rays and mri said that it was normal and i guess he took their word for it. i'm not sure how this would work in terms of culpability if i did decide to sue them. it is also quite possible that my cartilage was already destroyed when the first x-ray was done so there wouldn't be any additional cartilage for the cortisone to further damage.

That's awful Madrun  :(
Spend time with them while you can if you're close.

so good news and bad news

some of you might remember that i mentioned that my left hand has been in pain for about a year and a half. i've seen multiple doctors and they had no idea what may have been wrong with me. but today, after seeing a highly reviewed orthopedis, i finally got my answer.

the bad news? it's much worse than i feared. i was hoping it was just a tricky case of tendonitis, but it turns out i actually have severe arthritis, and the cartilage in my joints have all been destroyed. and cartilage does not grow back, which leaves a very, very tiny, very expensive and very uncertain list of options for me (surgery, basically).

but as shitty as all this is, arguably the most twistedly fucked up thing is that i got my x-rays around the time this started, and so the problem was right there, it's just that EVERYONE who read the x-ray up until now, missed everything. meaning that, in these past 18 months, any remaining cartilage i would have had probably got destroyed due to a combination of continual deterioration, and multiple cortisone shots that i got cause the idiot doctors gave me the wrong diagosis.

i'm only 35 years old. this shouldn't be happening to me :fbm

You know, the bright side is that they know what it is and from my experience, hand surgeries are pretty successful even some of the complex ones can take a couple surgeries, so there might be light at the end of the tunnel.

yeah, i did a bit of research and it seems like worst case scenario, if i do have to resort to surgery, they seem to have really good prognosis nowadays.

but i have additional worries in that what i currently have may not be the worst of it. i've been feeling similar problems in my right hand as well, but not to the same degree (if the injured hand is a 10 on the pain scale, the other hand would be around a 3-4). i'm scared that some day that other hand is going to give the same problem my currently damaged one does.

not to mention that while the doc was examining me, he thinks that my wrists may also contain bone spurs as well  :'(


yet all that being said, i think i'm in much better spirits than i was yesterday.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on March 06, 2020, 01:07:47 AM
Sorry Oblivion, you'll get over the financial hit and the anxiety wears off immediately after the surgery at least.

To be honest though, you should have expected this after all those years of grabbing huge titties.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on March 06, 2020, 01:57:19 AM

To be honest though, you should have expected this after all those years of grabbing huge titties.

they were supposed to make the joints stronger!

STRONGER!

:punch
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: TVC15 on March 06, 2020, 02:13:32 AM
Good luck fighting it, Oblivion. Chronic pain really sucks. It makes me meaner and more short tempered and then I feel like a jerk because I know I’m not that kind of person when the pain isn’t there, but it’s pretty much always there now. I guess that’s me now, but I don’t want it to be.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BisMarckie on March 06, 2020, 10:23:10 PM
I haven’t slept in four days. It would be easy to blame it on the new baby, but that’s not it. It‘s well past 4 AM and I am wide awake. I don’t have any work related stress either, everything is fine, but I just can’t sleep more than an hour or so.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bluemax on March 06, 2020, 11:12:08 PM
So my soon to be ex quit her fucking job without a backup while we’re still sharing finances without telling me :rage


Just can’t

10 or so years ago the girl I was living with, who had been my girlfriend until she broke up with me because I was in the middle of crunch for the first time and was kind of sucking as a boyfriend, decided to go from working part time to prep for med school to being fully unemployed while prepping for med school. This was a problem because we had been splitting rent 50/50 on a house that neither of us could afford solo. So then I had to find a place for both of us to live that I could afford on my own (which is not easy when you're an entry level game programmer in Los Angeles during the economic collapse of 2008). Also she rescued a cat. And that cat got hit by a car. And I had to pay its emergency medical expenses, even though I said we shouldn't have the cat and she shouldn't let it roam free.

A few months after moving into the new place she decided living with me wasn't working (I was being kind of shitty tbh), so without warning she moved out while I was out of town for work. Probably a month or two later my employer went fully out of business, and this was after they had failed to pay me properly for several months. Also I found out the aforementioned girl got married to someone she knew for less time than we dated (he looked like a douchier me). I suffered a pretty major depressive episode that I honestly don't even to this day understand how I ever got out of it.

Somehow, I am friends with this person now. Albeit we did not talk for several years.

I don't really know if I have a point to this story, sorry.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 09, 2020, 12:00:55 PM
So last night ended up going really bad and Tramadol sucks.


Tramadol is a bad drug, labeled a safe alternative while not being sage, still being an opiate with a host of other side effects

any doctor that uses it is an idiot or uninformed
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 09, 2020, 12:30:14 PM
I know I've pointed it out before but this place still runs on windows 98

Is it SE at least tho?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Himu on March 09, 2020, 01:28:47 PM
Had meeting with local paper photographer scheduled today.

Started washing my clothes, I forget a sock. It's a front loader. Wait for stupid machine to stop so I can put it in. Put crap in, I swear I press resume. Go back to washing machine 40 minutes later and the clothes aren't wet. Have to "rewash" clothes in washing machine that takes forever. Front loaders are nothing but trash.

Cut my nose on the nostril. It won't stop bleeding. I haven't even showered yet.

Combined, I have to cancel a meeting I've been waiting a month for because someone decided to curse me with bad luck this morning.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 09, 2020, 04:31:07 PM
I don't know what the FUCK to do with Shosta Sr., it just seems like his mental illness is getting worse and he's 99% irritable now. He's just impossible to talk to about things and all of his behavior is irrational or delusional.

He was sleeping in his chair today and I noticed that he's got this gnarly red rash on his hands, at first I think the dumbass spilled bleach on his hands or something while cleaning at the airport... I ask him if he got chemical burns on his hands and he said yes. But I pry a little more information out of him and I find out it started out small and has been spreading over a week. "They" have been doing it to him little by little in his sleep, which is why he thinks it's a chemical burn. Motherfucker, that is fungal infection or some shit. And it's not like a little rash, it's gnarly and bumpy and gross and spreading all over the top of his hands. It looks like his fucking hands caught syphilis. This moron was really going to wait until his hands got fucking necrosis.

I try to explain this to him and he's not having it, he knows what They're doing to him and I can either believe him or not. He won't go to urgent care for the same reason. I have to leave for class soon so my mom is going to try to convince him after he takes a nap. This is an extreme example but he really is incapable of making rational decisions anymore.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 10, 2020, 06:04:42 AM
My elderly mother lives in Idaho, still enjoys traveling the world.

My stepdad had a stroke on one of those trips, so I flew to Turkey and looked after my mother while he quietly struggled for three weeks and then passed-on in the ICU. Took another week of insurance wrangling and dealing with the US Embassy while we figured out how to get his remains repatriated.

Mid-last year, my mother wanted to visit Peru. There was a medical emergency during that trip. I nearly flew to Peru, but it was more practical to meet her in Idaho and help her recover. She said she was done with international trips.

This year, January or thereabouts, my mother says she's booked a trip to France and will be traveling by cruise ship for several weeks. My sister and I can't believe she's doing this again.

This month, COVID-19 is continuing its exponential growth and is tracking to be seriously dangerous. The cruise ship thing becomes a major concern; they've been examples of exactly how to not handle an outbreak.

My sister and I approach our mother about it, and though she's at first willing to look into travel plan changes, she reneges the next day and is angry at us for trying to force her to change her plans. I point out that I've been able to fly anywhere at any time to help her out of bad situations, but THIS SITUATION with COVID-19 might make it so I can't travel to help. Travel itself might not just be unsafe, it might be impossible.

Anyway, yeah. I'm freaking out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rufus on March 10, 2020, 01:24:44 PM
It's not gonna be your fault if anything happens.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 10, 2020, 06:26:56 PM
It was fucking shingles  >:(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on March 11, 2020, 03:21:06 PM
Was told my liver is degrading at a rate, where we have to seriously consider transplant post corona virus shit.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on March 11, 2020, 03:30:59 PM
Stay strong dude, we're all rooting for you.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 11, 2020, 03:42:28 PM
Sending love, Gilhaney
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on March 11, 2020, 03:48:07 PM
Thank you nephews. But no, feet pics are for mahmoud only.

If I do, you can share my steam account and the pride of having 1200 hours in garfield kart.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on March 11, 2020, 04:04:15 PM
eat more chikn ;)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 12, 2020, 05:40:34 PM
So kind of holy shit, still processing for me.

Background:
So I've got Crohn's Disease. Diagnosed in the 2000s, tried every treatment pill available and nothing worked, got really bad and almost died until I have a small bowel resection surgery in 2009 where they cut the section of my small intenstines out where the bulk of the crohn's germs were located. Immediately after I went on remicade infusions every 6-8 weeks which make me pretty immune suppressed, especially to colds/respiratory diseases. In order to try to prevent the Crohn's from coming back and getting bad again. It's also made surgeries risky and I've had to take a lot of antibiotics for lots of things and I don't do great with those.

I've been generally ok with GI for last 10 years other than still haven't issues from the surgery and having to take like imodium and probiotics daily and avoid spicy foods, dairy, gassy foods, really acid foods as much as possible. So like 75% ok GI. But I've been sick every 2-3 months and generally knocked out bad for 2 weeks at a time each time from every cold/flu in the world that comes through my state. I've also been taking too high dosage of the remicade since I've lost like 15 lbs due to food poisoning last November and H1N1 last month and I was already a bit too high dosage.

Current:
I'm 7 weeks in right now and would be doing my next infusion around next week. I wrote a long letter to my GI doctor (whose like the biggest expert in the field at Cedars in LA) explaining how my Crohn's has been in remission for 10 years, my remicade antibodies test have shown I've developed 0 antibodies to remicade medication despite being on it for 10 years (normally people develop those years in and have to go off remicade because it's not effective anymore) which seems that maybe my body doesn't really develop antibodies to the remicade (which is the main concern of going off it and not being able to go back on it).

I said considering the COVID19 situation and it being respitory and my bad history with colds/flus like H1N1 almost killing me last month being pretty bad and that I'm generally doing good now and would rather be in the 38 going on 39 year old with no complications category of survival rates if I do get COVID19 (and I get everything so I'm sure I will get this in the coming months), maybe it makes sense to go off my remicade and see how I do and go from there. I told him I was aware that it might not work when I come back to it but also that there are other newer medications which could work.

Anyhow he got back to me today and said given the fluid and unknown situation of COVID19 and where I am and that I'm aware of the risks of the crohn's coming back and remicade not being able to work, he's ok with temporarily stopping my remicade medication for now and seeing how I do. He says there have been a lot of new medications in the last 10 years if remicade doesn't work again, though they also have a risk of not working.


So that's that. I'm not doing my next infusion next week. And in a few weeks the remicade should be out of my system for the first time in 10 years
...and I will have an normal, not suppressed, immune system of a generally good shape 38 going on 39 year old for the first time in 10 years.
...I also have no idea how my Crohn's will act since I've been on this since it's been gone.

So a bit of an unknown, but I'm pretty excited about not being immune suppressed for the first time since I've really had a social life. It's also made me slightly less anxious about the COVID19 situation because I feel less like "Welp, probably gonna get it and 50/50 on whether I die from pneumonia" to "Welp, probably gonna get it, but hopefully it'll be mild and I'll be ok after a few weeks of feeling shitty"

Gonna hope for the best and that my Crohn's doesn't come back and I can enjoy being a healthy immune system person this year and then next year when COVID19 is under control I can get back on some form of prevention to keep my Crohn's from coming back.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 12, 2020, 06:45:19 PM
Exxxotica Chicago got delayed and now I may not be able to go with my girlfriend :( :(

Take Jill instead.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on March 12, 2020, 10:42:53 PM
*whistles*

Bring her out
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: toku on March 13, 2020, 12:12:19 AM
MAKE MORE CONTENT THEN
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 16, 2020, 10:25:39 AM
Hang in there.  A key thing for me for stopping my depression is going to work every day - which I can't do now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mupepe on March 17, 2020, 03:00:18 PM
Got furloughed today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 18, 2020, 11:16:09 AM
Hang in there Mupepe.

I don't know if this qualifies as MY struggle per se, but jesus. Every morning I get up and am like "OK, damage report" check the family, the news, the stocks, work. This morning I actually got to sleep in, and  was hopeful. Work up, started the damage report, Earthquake in Utah, Parents are OK thankfully but Utah has non-existent building codes I'm worried if there's something bigger, wife is having severe anxiety, GF is sick (no fever or major symptoms thankfully), and one of my best employees was just found from being missing for the last 2 days (initial yay), he's in a hospital with kidney failure and needs a kidney transplant ASAP. God, it just keeps piling up.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 18, 2020, 03:16:20 PM
Sooo, yeah this is bad for small businesses.

Today we already had 3 cases where clients who had settled a lawsuit and were signing the paperwork all backed out of the settlements. And these were property owners with millions of dollars. But they're like our tenants are all closing and not paying rent and we have no money to settle lawsuits.

Our office typically gets ~13 new cases in a week which is how we pay our bills. We also just hired 2 new employees and 1 new paralegal which brought the monthly cost of running our office from about 30k/month in bills to pay to ~55k/month. So far this week we've gotten 1 case. We may get 1 or less for the next several months or longer. There's also a very good chance that a lot of the bills we send out at the end of this month for March's work (as we'll still have enough work on present cases to bill for March/April at least) won't get paid because of people not having the money or prioritizing and not paying their attorney bills.

If we go from a good amount of cash coming in each month to close to $0, we've got a few hundred thousand in the bank as the cash reserves for the business, but we'll need to fire all our new employees in a month or two and then it'll still cost 30k/month to keep the lights on and by the end of the year we might be down to $0. From a 1-2 million/year business to $0.

Worst case scenario is we shut the office down and have to lay off all our employees in the fall, and re-open the law firm in a year or so when things are back to normal and people have money to spend on lawyers again.

Luckily I did not buy a house this year and spend most of my bank savings on the down payment and have a high $4k/month mortgage or something. With just the money in the bank and being conservative with spending I can probably live for 5-6 years with no income until I'm broke. So even if we shut down I can float this luckily for a while.

But yeah, this is gonna be bad. I'm more worried my elderly mom/dad are gonna get really sick from the stress of going broke and their business of 40 years falling apart than Covid-19 at this point. My mom's the accountant and has anxiety and she's been freaking out everyday.

it'd be easier to 'hang in there' if the state of MMORPGs wasn't such trash :doge

FFXIV is great, come join me! I'm on Ultros.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on March 18, 2020, 03:49:49 PM
I go to a coffee shop almost every day and talk to the owner. I didn't need to go yesterday, but I went out of my way to give them some of my money and support them. I talked to the owner and he's a good guy. I asked him how long he would be open and he said as long as he could because he had to support his employees. Last night he closed shop. I don't know what that's going to do to him and his employees.

My company was in a bad spot going into this. Q1 is always terrible for consulting firms, us especially so. But now we have 4 senior resources on the bench and no one is doing/saying anything about what's next. As you guys know I've found something else but was going to start there late next month so I can get my quarterly bonus and give the company time to deal with losing me and to shift their resources accordingly and give me time to complete any small projects that might come up. But now, who the fuck knows. Everything was slated to start Q2, now it's all pushed to Q3. Do you keep bench for that long? The issue is, these kind of people with this kind of experience are exceptionally rare (one company in Sacramento has been looking to fill a position like this for over a year) so if you lay those people off and then land a deal you're not going to get them back. And there's been complete radio silence from the mgmt team.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 21, 2020, 07:36:02 PM
Pretty worried about my dad. He's 70+, in the most stressful time of his life, being stuck in a bad deal and losing most of his retirement savings, all his pension stocks aren't worth anything and the business he's built up from the ground to be very successful over 40 years potentially could go bankrupt. He's also never fully recovered from the H1N1 flu 1.5 months ago and had a lingering cough that won't go away because all the stress and now he thinks he might have Covid-19 because he's got a runny nose and feels even worse than normal and coughing more. He's very old school so he's still been going into work during this while everyone else is working from home except 1 or 2 people. All our employees have been falling sick one after another and in our group meetings everyone is coughing. So far everyone whose gotten sick has recovered within a week, but our employees are also like <40 with most < 30 years old.

Me and my brother and my mom are telling him to take it easy and try to rest and drink fluids. We tell him we're handling the business and financially I'm in a better place thanks to being a zero risk totally liquid conservative person with my savings so I can help float my parents and for a few years. But he's just so dejected and down. He's one of those baby boomer era people that feels like they built up into a success and were untouchable and always growth and expansion and he's just not used to losing a lot.

I just hope he makes it through this.
Also hope he doesn't actually have COVID-19 because my mom is also 70+ and is very frail and I'm concerned for her too.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 22, 2020, 09:03:17 AM
I know I kinda poo pooed this in the beginning so I'll admit I was wrong.

PLEASE HAVE CONVERSATIONS WITH YOUR FAMILY ABOUT LAST WISHES NOW, BEFORE THEY GET TO A HOSPITAL. don't make us make the call. also dont make us intubate and code your 85 year old  family members

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 22, 2020, 09:05:54 AM
Part of the saddest thing is a lot of people are going to die ALONE in a hospital because of this thing, with family either unable to be allowed into the hospital because of massive restrictions or unable to travel
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 22, 2020, 10:29:28 AM
How are you doing Huff?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Huff on March 22, 2020, 11:49:06 AM
It's the calm before the storm where I am. Emergency room visits have actually slowed down as people are avoiding coming in (and they should if people arn't sick).

Midwest and low population density cities (spread out population) may get through this successfully. Coast cities are going to be hit hard and soon.

Personally I'm okay. Friends and co-workers are starting to have the talks about what to do when it hits. Temporary separations. Babies going to live with grandparents, etc. Rough times all around to try to limit us high risk people from spreading it to people we love
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 22, 2020, 10:05:29 PM
Even on the weekend when I'm not working, I've been spending 2-3 hours a day on the phone with different family members talking about financial situations and ideas for surviving. Mostly people calling me.
It's definitely pretty depressing and tiring.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 22, 2020, 10:28:28 PM
Actually add another 2 hours for today.
Also family fighting is getting more. Will get worse as things go on. Everyone wants to do things different.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on March 27, 2020, 01:54:28 PM
Just finished a team call where they announced cuts.

Got invited to another meeting at 2:00 with less than half the team invited  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 27, 2020, 01:58:41 PM
Just finished a team call where they announced cuts.

Got invited to another meeting at 2:00 with less than half the team invited  :-\

That sucks. I guess bright side is you made the cut?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Akala on March 27, 2020, 01:58:57 PM
Just finished a team call where they announced cuts.

Got invited to another meeting at 2:00 with less than half the team invited  :-\

can you tell by the people invited if it's the good call or the bad call?

good luck.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: El Babua on March 27, 2020, 02:00:20 PM
Considering the HR people are here, it's the bad one lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Akala on March 27, 2020, 02:06:41 PM
 :foxx
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 31, 2020, 05:38:17 PM
My uncle passed away.  Kind of for the best instead of dragging it out more.  Still really hard since he wasn't old.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 31, 2020, 06:27:40 PM
Sorry for your loss Madrun.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 03, 2020, 02:35:40 AM
I submitted my credits for transfer to the institution I'm at a while back. Today is registration for summer classes and I just found out that rather than take the time to find equivalent courses they just marked everything as "elective" so now I don't have the appropriate prereqs for any of the classes I want to sign up for. Campuses are closed so I can't fix this.

Are ya kidding me?!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on April 03, 2020, 05:47:02 PM
welp, just got laid off  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on April 13, 2020, 06:27:46 PM
don't pay any bills, especially medical debt  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on April 14, 2020, 10:15:37 AM
just wait 10 years and they forgive that shit. what are they gonna do, garnish your wages? ;)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 14, 2020, 11:08:37 AM
My contact ripped in my eye, I can't get it out, and I think my optomitrist is closed for the virus.  I can see fine so trying not to panic. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Akala on April 14, 2020, 11:24:25 AM
if you have a good supply of saline just unload/eyewash. even if not flushed out hopefully it moves enough to where you can get it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on April 14, 2020, 12:50:09 PM
just wait 10 years and they forgive that shit. what are they gonna do, garnish your wages? ;)
I thought it was 5 years?  ::)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: nachobro on April 14, 2020, 12:51:07 PM
even better!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 14, 2020, 03:23:03 PM
Finally got it out. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 14, 2020, 06:47:56 PM
Think I did something to my eye or its just really tired after messing with it all day.  I have to squint to read text and shit. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 17, 2020, 11:52:51 AM
Been managing to stay at home and stay safe, but now that I'm off my meds this week insane inflammation pain came back to the point where it was like 11/10 suicidal constant pain and even when it's ok it's like 3-4/10 constant pain.

So now I have to go to LA to a doctor's office today, first time out in the world since lockdown, and then starting tuesday have to go to chemo/infusion center regularly again to do infusions and blood tests and get back on my meds which will make me very immune suppressed and high risk group for Covid-19.

Also it's possible my medication will not work anymore since I went off it and it's been about 4-5 weeks and my body could have built up a resistance.

Went from feeling pretty good about chances of surviving this mess by avoiding people and working at home, to a lot more iffy since will have to be exposed to risk areas on regular basis and no immune system  :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 17, 2020, 08:17:18 PM
Doctor appointment went well today. They're set up really good and only interacted with the valet touching the valet card back and forth and a door handle and hand sanitized my hand. Got an injection and feel a lot better already. Feeling more positive about this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 20, 2020, 01:44:07 PM
So pain was really low on Saturday and had a good day (when you're pain free for the first time in 5 days you feel really energetic and good!), but got bad again on Sunday and lost most of the day just trying to not focus on pain. Guess I pretty much have to get back on my meds on Tuesday and hopefully things get back to normal.

But I've been kinda depressed about going back on my immune-suppressant meds. Not only am I risking my life while on it going and getting infusions, but basically for the next 6-12 months dating and friends are gonna be high risk.

Like it's already been where sometimes I kiss someone on a date and get a cold or something. But until either vaccines are out or the curve is so low it would be like 1/10,000 chance the person I"m on a date with could have Covid, then any physical contact/dates with anyone is risking dying. So I don't see myself dating for a long while, which sucks since I've been since for like 5 years now and was hoping to settle down soon. I've been doing some online dating chatting with a couple people and it's going well and at least one is dtf but yeah that ain't gonna open.

Same with friends. My friends who are all healthy and late 20s, early 30s, once things get better will be out doing hugs and events and stuff regularly. But I can't risk being that close contact with people while I have no immune system until this thing is very under control. So basically gonna have to not see my friends for 6-12 months.

Family, while I can see them from a distance and talk to them on the phone, I can't be up close at family dinners or events until 6-12 months.

Going to restaurants/eating take out etc...while lower risk, given my immune system, I'll probably need to continue only eating my own cooked food and instacart market deliveries for another 6-12 months.

And I'll need to keep wfh while the rest of my office goes back to work, which is ok, but still isolating.


A lot of this pretty low risk stuff once the curve goes down substantially, if I wasn't immune suppressed with the moderate potential of death upon contracting COVID, I'd be ok with the risk of doing and if I get Covid I'll probably be ok with a normal healthy immune system of a 38 year old non-smoker, non-obese person. But now I'm gonna have to be back on my meds, so basically gonna have no life outside working from home and playing videogames, watching books, reading for 6-12 months.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 27, 2020, 11:51:40 AM
Sorry man. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on April 27, 2020, 12:15:47 PM
That's horrible. No one should have to go through that.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on May 04, 2020, 08:20:29 PM
Well I was involved in a car accident a few months ago which in no way did I think was my fault. And now Enterprise says it was my fault and wants 4,000 something for an accident that wasn't my fault. Great.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on May 05, 2020, 02:16:47 PM
Update on my hand situation: it's gotten way worse  :-\

this happened over the past month or so, but the pain is much, much more severe. there were many things i couldn't do already like type and grab, but now i can't even form a fist anymore.


yet oddly enough, this may possibly be a sign of good news. the reason being is that this pain is happening in a different joint on the same finger. last time i posted this, while i had pain on all joints, most of the pain was on the top joint. now it's on the bottom and middle joint and not as much on the top anymore. why is this a good thing? because my top joint was the only one that was missing cartilage (the other two were normal). meaning, the pain shouldn't be effected by other areas unless it means that the pain i had before WASN'T cause of the missing cartilage/arthritis.

on the other hand, it could also potentially be something much, much worse. so..that would kind of suck. either way, i'm going to see the doctor on friday.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 06, 2020, 12:26:43 AM
had my stents removed and all pain went away for a few days. now unbearable itching has returned, making me unable to sleep and work. only had my current job for 5 months at this point, and feel anything but safe at keeping it, but there isnt much i can do at the moment. feels fucking bad
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on May 06, 2020, 01:55:39 AM
take a coconut oil bath, bb :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on May 06, 2020, 02:01:09 PM
So I learned today that my friend that went briefly to jail passed away in February, after I digged a bit after seeing he wasn't replying in over a month. I'm devastated. I keep watching a clip  of us playing CSGO and crying as soon as his voice pops in.

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on May 06, 2020, 02:06:09 PM
I'm sorry man. Loss is the most difficult thing anyone can experience.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on May 06, 2020, 02:40:52 PM
 :(

Sorry for your loss daemon. Yeah, I've got no advice other than time will help and you'll always remember the good times you had with him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on May 08, 2020, 12:33:19 PM
alright boy, off to the doctor.

he seems knowledgeable but a little too aloof. hopefully he doesn't just send me away with a prescription for ibuprofin or whatever.  :doge

either way, wish me luck!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 08, 2020, 01:25:35 PM
Good luck m8, hope he doesnt cut it off.


So I learned today that my friend that went briefly to jail passed away in February, after I digged a bit after seeing he wasn't replying in over a month. I'm devastated. I keep watching a clip  of us playing CSGO and crying as soon as his voice pops in.

That sucks breh.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on May 08, 2020, 02:27:38 PM
just got back.

he thinks it's an inflamed tendon and gave me a cortisone shot. i was a little scared to get it because i've already had 2 of them over the past year and a half, but he said under 3 should be fine. he told me to come back in 3 weeks if it doesn't work.

but i was a little heartened to see that he said he'll be doing more thorough testing because i shouldn't have these kind of problems at my age. so it looks like he's taking it seriously at least.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on May 18, 2020, 09:36:23 PM
okay, not bad news, but just wanted to post in here for an update.

a week later, the cortisone shot seems to be working. i can flex my hand again now and can grab things (for the most part) without too much trouble. so that's great. but here's something even better.

so remember i said last time that it got worse? let's call that stage 2. it developed over the past month  or so, so fairly new. stage 1 however, less painful but stuck around a lot longer.

so it turns out that not only is stage 2 feeling waaaay better, i'm actually able to do some exercises and stretches that i couldn't even with stage 1! one of the exercises involved stretching a rubber band and it used to be so painful that even the tiniest bit of resistance was painful as fuck. i'm not exaggerating when i say that i couldn't even move it a single centimeter! that's how bad it was. but today, i was able to stretch it almost all the way through with ZERO pain! :rock

it's still not anywhere near back to normal, but substantially better than it's been since...well, since i got injured in the first place. i almost hate to mention it cause i don't want to jinx it, but i haven't been this happy in a long, long time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 21, 2020, 09:19:39 AM
I majorly fucked up my back - been bedridden since Sunday.  All I did was lift my leg onto the bathtub rim while getting out of the shower.  Man this sucks.  I actually called 911 for an ambulance because I couldn't stand up but they wouldn't take me due to covid.  I ended up getting prescription from a tele-doctor though and things have been getting a bit better each day. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 21, 2020, 12:48:31 PM
(https://i.imgur.com/ovqWrnD.jpg)

My mom, sister and me put down the family dog today. He was about 14-15, so more than half of my life. He started out as my older sister's dog, before staying with my mom, and then since I moved back with my parent's a year and a half ago he's spent pretty much all his time with me (and my other dog, Sasha.)

(https://i.imgur.com/K0LeH4S.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/FtSyeU2.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/QLxUije.jpg)

My sisters and niece came over last night and I did a Google Photos presentation stretching back 10 years. (Started uploading to Picasa back in 2010, and all my photos are still right where they should be 10 years later, which is cool.)

(https://i.imgur.com/XKQ4f7l.jpg)

I held his paw and felt his heartbeat fade. I'm a wreck. I've had a constant headache from crying the past three days after we made the decision. But now it's over at least.

(https://i.imgur.com/rYMOpju.jpg)

Will be burying him on the family farm near our other deceased pets, and no disrespect to them and their marker-less graves, but he's getting a bigass cross and visits every day.

(https://i.imgur.com/14201lz.png)

RIP Grendel, 2005 - 2020
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on May 21, 2020, 12:52:25 PM
sorry buddy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on May 21, 2020, 01:29:44 PM
Sorry Tasty  :(

Got me all teared up, my sister will have to put down her dog after the weekend because he's been having health issues since last fall and now it's gotten to the point that it can't really be treated anymore. He has good days and bad days but the bad days have become more frequent and they're more bad than the good days are good. He's only 8 years old  :-\

I really, really love that dog so it cuts me up real bad. Even worse is that I haven't seen him since February because of the corona situation, I haven't seen any of my family since then and don't know when I will. So it's fucked up knowing he's going to die in a few days and I can't see him anymore. On the other hand, the last time I saw him he wasn't so sick yet and I got to dogsit him and have only good memories of that last encounter, I haven't had to see him in a bad state and won't have any heartbreaking memories of him suffering.

Still I wish I could have had a last cuddle and say goodbye. I hope dogs don't really have memories of people when they're not there and he won't even realize I haven't been there at all these last few months. I'd hate the idea of him thinking I've abandoned him. I don't think they're really capable of thinking like that, hopefully.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on May 21, 2020, 01:38:28 PM
Sorry for your loss, Tasty. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on May 21, 2020, 01:39:13 PM
Doggo deaths are literally the worst deaths :mjcry

It's hard for me to even say much about it without feeling horrible.   :(  I just try to think that we give them the best life we can and hope they're happy.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Nintex on May 21, 2020, 02:00:41 PM
That's terrible tasty. Sorry for your loss.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 21, 2020, 04:52:13 PM
That fucking sucks Tasty Meat. Looks like a good doggo so certainly in dog heaven.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on May 21, 2020, 04:58:52 PM
 :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on May 21, 2020, 05:31:39 PM
rip bro
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 22, 2020, 07:11:21 PM
Pretty upset. My cousin's kid, only three years old and he has stage 4 cancer - it's metastasized to other parts of his body and he might need marrow and stem cell transplants. They just found out this month. His parents are having to take leave from work for a year to support him, they set up a GoFundMe page to get help from the rest of the family but it's just? How can you deal with something like this during a pandemic? His wife is pregnant with a second too. It's fucked up too since that cousin was one of the few people in my family to actually escape poverty in the third world and get a good job and he still gets crushed by life.
Yeah, this kind of thing is why I feel like Stephen Fry has a sadly accurate grasp on life:
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/europe/stephen-fry-blasphemy-god-ireland-confronted-by-met-a7722191.html
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 22, 2020, 07:14:55 PM
Well I was involved in a car accident a few months ago which in no way did I think was my fault. And now Enterprise says it was my fault and wants 4,000 something for an accident that wasn't my fault. Great.
Lawyer up if you haven’t already.
Were you the renter? Did you have ANY applicable insurance? You can’t even leave their lot unless you have your own liability coverage OR take their “insurance” (it is not considered personal coverage).
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on May 22, 2020, 07:19:36 PM
(https://i.imgur.com/ovqWrnD.jpg)

My mom, sister and me put down the family dog today. He was about 14-15, so more than half of my life. He started out as my older sister's dog, before staying with my mom, and then since I moved back with my parent's a year and a half ago he's spent pretty much all his time with me (and my other dog, Sasha.)

(https://i.imgur.com/K0LeH4S.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/FtSyeU2.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/QLxUije.jpg)

My sisters and niece came over last night and I did a Google Photos presentation stretching back 10 years. (Started uploading to Picasa back in 2010, and all my photos are still right where they should be 10 years later, which is cool.)

(https://i.imgur.com/XKQ4f7l.jpg)

I held his paw and felt his heartbeat fade. I'm a wreck. I've had a constant headache from crying the past three days after we made the decision. But now it's over at least.

(https://i.imgur.com/rYMOpju.jpg)

Will be burying him on the family farm near our other deceased pets, and no disrespect to them and their marker-less graves, but he's getting a bigass cross and visits every day.

(https://i.imgur.com/14201lz.png)

RIP Grendel, 2005 - 2020

You made me cry, you big jerk.

But I hope you’re feeling better. Losing a dog is the worst. They are one of the best parts of life. So loving.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on May 22, 2020, 10:38:37 PM
Grendel was a wonderful dog it appears. Safe travels, and rest well pup.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: skullstorm on May 25, 2020, 01:08:45 PM
(https://i.imgur.com/KckQqgL.jpg)

My sister's dog was put down today, he still had some good days but it was time. A tumor deep in his nose was causing lots of swelling, nose bleeds and obvious pain. Surgery wasn't really an option and pain killers could only help so much. They made sure his last days were the best possible.

RIP bestest boy :'( I keep bursting into tears :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on May 25, 2020, 01:14:16 PM
 :stahp
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on May 25, 2020, 01:14:22 PM
Rip to that good doggo, same reason I put down mine.  :-\
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on May 25, 2020, 01:37:09 PM
Sending my love skullstorm. :(

And thank you everyone for the kind words. I love you guys.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on May 25, 2020, 02:34:26 PM
really sorry to hear, tasty :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on June 12, 2020, 08:24:15 PM
So I have been getting sicker and sicker and sicker during the lockdown. Swollen armpits, fatigue, dizzy, hot flashes   (no fever), my fucking arm started tingling for like a week, sore throat, shit loads of mucus in my throat, swollen throat, difficultly breathing.

Went to the doc a couple times, they thought it might be allergies since this is my first spring/summer in the south and I’m around all of this new vegetation. I thought maybe it is this rotting tooth I had to postpone getting taken care of because of COVID. Dentist said highly unlikely. I thought maybe I was dying, this armpit pain was no joke.

Turns out it was the weed vape I had been blasting this lockdown away with. I have been indulging at a very high level these past two months. Once I ran out I was seriously fine after two days lol.

I’m relieved it was just me poisoning myself and not some actual illness. The thing is I have been vaping nicotine for years (used to chain smoke) so it didn’t even occur to me that it was these fucking vape pens.

The thing that sucks is that they were awesome and cheap and I loved them. Be careful out there!
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on June 12, 2020, 08:31:13 PM
There's something odd about the weed vapes. Didn't a few people get lung damage and die one or two years ago?

Probably best to just stick with edibles or smoke it like a caveman.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on June 12, 2020, 08:37:43 PM
There's something odd about the weed vapes. Didn't a few people get lung damage and die one or two years ago?

Probably best to just stick with edibles or smoke it like a caveman.

There was a big outbreak of lung disease and deaths about 6 months ago and after looking into it yesterday it seems like it’s quietly still going on to a lesser extent.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 12, 2020, 09:42:39 PM
Yikes, glad you're ok now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on June 13, 2020, 08:48:44 AM
Glad you’re feeling better.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on June 17, 2020, 12:52:39 PM
love ya rootus, take care of yourself
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on June 18, 2020, 06:20:44 PM
so i finally decided to apply for citizenship back in december, and initially things looked pretty good. i almost immediately got a date for my biometrics and that went pretty smoothly. but then i hadn't heard again from USCIS since january. today i log into my account, and i finally get an update: that my naturalization process will completed by...January. which means i won't be able to vote against that orange turd and his downballot minions this november.

one of my biggest mistakes was not applying for citizenship when obummer was in charge. for comparison, my mom got her citizenship in three months. but hey, i had no good reason not to do that, so it's all on me. i guess i could take this as a learning experience: don't procrastinate doing something under a democrat president that will make it much more difficult under a republican one :usacry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on June 18, 2020, 06:59:31 PM
Fuck cancer.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 02, 2020, 11:31:51 PM
sigh. well, it seems like my little healing victory was very short lived. looks like i'm back to being in pain again. :(

but it's also really weird. it's been jumping all over the different joints in my finger. back in january/february, i was feeling most of my pain in the top joint, which the doctor said was being caused by the arthritis i mentioned. around april or may, that pain migrated to the bottom joint (this one may be possible due to my own fuckery  :doge). and now, for some reason, it's mostly on the middle joint.  it's also weird because i can still do certain things that i wasn't able to do before the cortisone shot, like the rubber band stretches.

but either way, looks like i gotta pay another trip to the doctor. it sucks cause despite all the corona bullshit, i was legitimately the happiest i've been in nearly 2 years :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on July 02, 2020, 11:35:50 PM
good luck, bro
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 03, 2020, 12:04:27 AM
oh and as if that wasn't bad enough, i also found out i got cut off from unemployment  :dead
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 03, 2020, 12:05:51 AM
oh and as if that wasn't bad enough, i also found out i got cut off from unemployment  :dead

Fuck dude, that sucks. :( Hoping everything works out.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on July 03, 2020, 03:09:56 AM
oh and as if that wasn't bad enough, i also found out i got cut off from unemployment  :dead

Aren't you furloughed/getting reduced hours? Even for contractors you should still be eligible.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 03, 2020, 03:23:09 AM
oh and as if that wasn't bad enough, i also found out i got cut off from unemployment  :dead

Aren't you furloughed/getting reduced hours? Even for contractors you should still be eligible.

oh i WAS eligible. but then i found out they cut me off. now i have to re-apply.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 09, 2020, 06:37:02 PM
Welp, back at the doctor's. Wish me luck, fellas  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 10, 2020, 12:07:19 PM
I’m officially in an abusive relationship with my job and don’t know what to do. Can’t quit, or I won’t get unemployment. No PTO for the rest of the year. Struggling hard.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 10, 2020, 06:20:13 PM
It’s really fucked up how employers can legally shout you down and not hear your complaints or respect you at all as long as you’re not part of a protected class. I really don’t know what to do. I can’t find other work right now that will pay enough, I have spent most of the day hiding out somewhere trying not to cry. HR is virtually nonexistent, I have never met or talked to anyone in HR, no trust that I would be taken seriously. It’s untenable but right now it’s required to keep a roof over my head and my family fed. Dark thoughts all day today.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Nintex on July 10, 2020, 06:21:37 PM
That sucks man, what happened maybe there's some persuasion tactics we can use to fix the relationship with your boss until things quiet down
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on July 10, 2020, 06:22:03 PM
Your employer is purposefully trying to abuse you until you quit. Do not break. Hang in there.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 10, 2020, 06:23:48 PM
Oh he left early today and has next week off after shouting me down to the point where I told him if I can’t even talk to express myself he’s creating a hostile work environment. It’s all part of the abuse.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 10, 2020, 06:24:51 PM
Your employer is purposefully trying to abuse you until you quit. Do not break. Hang in there.

100% he is. Mostly because he doesn’t have the fortitude to fire me more so than trying to avoid the unemployment claim, I suspect
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on July 10, 2020, 06:26:59 PM
They’re doing a bare minimum of distancing and everyone is wearing masks but only because I convinced them to, no policy for it. We’re technically not open to the public (despite doing will calls and receiving things all day) so most the requirements from the gov don’t apply
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 15, 2020, 08:42:11 PM
when i went to the doc's last week, he gave me this somewhat newish experimental treatment called 'shockwave therapy'. i'm supposed to do 3 treatments, each one week apart. i was a little skeptical at first, since i didn't feel much different for the first 2-3 days (and arguably even worse at points   :brazilcry ) but these past few days....the pain seems to have gone down quite a bit.

i'm a little conflicted cause i'm willing to continue if it's working, but i also don't know if this is just like some kind of placebo effect. it's mainly cause the treatments are pretty pricey ($300 per treatment).

what do you guys think?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on July 15, 2020, 08:44:24 PM
I mean if it works, it works.

Assuming you can afford it for now and reevaluate it a bit later.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on July 15, 2020, 08:44:59 PM
when i went to the doc's last week, he gave me this somewhat newish experimental treatment called 'shockwave therapy'. i'm supposed to do 3 treatments, each one week apart. i was a little skeptical at first, since i didn't feel much different for the first 2-3 days (and arguably even worse at points   :brazilcry ) but these past few days....the pain seems to have gone down quite a bit.

i'm a little conflicted cause i'm willing to continue if it's working, but i also don't know if this is just like some kind of placebo effect. it's mainly cause the treatments are pretty pricey ($300 per treatment).

what do you guys think?
http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=47554.0
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on July 15, 2020, 08:55:21 PM
when i went to the doc's last week, he gave me this somewhat newish experimental treatment called 'shockwave therapy'. i'm supposed to do 3 treatments, each one week apart. i was a little skeptical at first, since i didn't feel much different for the first 2-3 days (and arguably even worse at points   :brazilcry ) but these past few days....the pain seems to have gone down quite a bit.

i'm a little conflicted cause i'm willing to continue if it's working, but i also don't know if this is just like some kind of placebo effect. it's mainly cause the treatments are pretty pricey ($300 per treatment).

what do you guys think?
http://www.thebore.com/forum/index.php?topic=47554.0

i actually tried this several months ago. sadly didn't do much aside from offer a few hours of slight relief.  :goty2
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on July 15, 2020, 09:43:36 PM
when i went to the doc's last week, he gave me this somewhat newish experimental treatment called 'shockwave therapy'. i'm supposed to do 3 treatments, each one week apart. i was a little skeptical at first, since i didn't feel much different for the first 2-3 days (and arguably even worse at points   :brazilcry ) but these past few days....the pain seems to have gone down quite a bit.

i'm a little conflicted cause i'm willing to continue if it's working, but i also don't know if this is just like some kind of placebo effect. it's mainly cause the treatments are pretty pricey ($300 per treatment).

what do you guys think?

Is it as bad as it sounds? :-\

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Post by: Oblivion on July 15, 2020, 09:50:54 PM
lol, nah. it's slightly uncomfortable, but it's like less than a minute. and despite the name, there's no electricity involved. it' all done with ultrasound.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on July 15, 2020, 10:20:36 PM
when i went to the doc's last week, he gave me this somewhat newish experimental treatment called 'shockwave therapy'. i'm supposed to do 3 treatments, each one week apart. i was a little skeptical at first, since i didn't feel much different for the first 2-3 days (and arguably even worse at points   :brazilcry ) but these past few days....the pain seems to have gone down quite a bit.

i'm a little conflicted cause i'm willing to continue if it's working, but i also don't know if this is just like some kind of placebo effect. it's mainly cause the treatments are pretty pricey ($300 per treatment).

what do you guys think?

(https://tfwiki.net/mediawiki/images2/thumb/8/85/ShockwaveDesertionOfTheDinobots1.jpg/200px-ShockwaveDesertionOfTheDinobots1.jpg)

This guy your doc?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on July 22, 2020, 03:31:14 PM
dump what's left of your food in the garbage. not the sink, bruv! :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: stufte on August 11, 2020, 03:30:34 PM
My dog died this morning. Not really handling it very well.

RIP, Ruby Sue.

(https://i.imgur.com/muwaCVY.png)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 11, 2020, 03:34:35 PM
Sorry man
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Post by: Joe Molotov on August 11, 2020, 03:38:36 PM
sorry bro
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Post by: Clockwork5 on August 11, 2020, 08:47:12 PM
I’m sorry man, she looks like a tough pup.

RIP Ruby
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on August 11, 2020, 11:00:34 PM
That's terrible. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on August 14, 2020, 01:30:22 PM
Stufte, sorry for your loss. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 14, 2020, 02:55:48 PM
Just getting worn down day by day. They canned my mentor, made my team lead my boss. My boss quit three months after that. I just keep getting more and more responsibility. Teaching, demos, presentations. Leading the ad hoc work. Fixing other people's work. On top of that I'm doing almost all the technical design while my coworker with a decade plus of age and experience on me just chills and does nothing. Meanwhile the standard for my day to day work is to basically one up cutting edge silicon valley vendors every day. I manage the project, I do all the technical work, I do the scoping and qa. If what I submit isn't good enough after all that isn't good enough then I get told I'm not making adequate progress or my ideas aren't cutting edge enough. I don't know anything about project management. I can barely do the technical work to the standard they like. They tell me I'm doing a good job but every day feels like sisyphean failure and my brains melting. The worst thing is when I produce work and I present it to my now current boss, and he and another team lead crush the stuff I serve up unless it's absolutely at the limit of what I'm "good enough" to make. I can't let my standard of quality for work drop at all or I get torn down in front of witnesses.

Dude that sucks. If you need any advice PM me. I've been there, and have had employees that have been there. So I get it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: shosta on August 14, 2020, 02:56:58 PM
Esch... get that coworker to take some work off your plate.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Akala on August 14, 2020, 03:20:24 PM
Esch... get that coworker to take some work off your plate.

agree assuming he's able to contribute to a standard that would actually help? are you guys close?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on August 17, 2020, 10:01:30 AM
Adding osteoporosis to the list of shit fucked up with my body. Doctor said it was pretty common with my liver aids though, but what the fuck mens. no more now please.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on August 17, 2020, 10:36:32 AM
Esch... get that coworker to take some work off your plate.

It's a great setup right now where he does the technical work he's assigned but now nobody is assigning the work and nobody has been for months. So I just end up doing all the research and testing myself. The good thing is that I've done the research, early next week I'm calling him up and demanding he execute on some of my dozens of ideas. I already did the gap analysis too so he just needs to do the work, test and deploy. If he says no or takes his time I'm just going to make it painfully obvious to my boss that me and one guy do everything next time I get owned.

I'm gonna be blunt, I feel like your bosses aren't going to do shit for you unless you manage to do some 10X super developer bullshit that completely blows up the industry. Because then they might, just possibly, consider supporting you over another employee who's been on the payroll longer. I feel like a lot of the big, stagnant companies get insecure about the idea that a relatively new employee would be able to outdo somebody who's been in their organization for a long time. This story just stings me because it sounds so familiar.

And here's the thing, if through time and effort you get to that point where you have the ideas and skills to do some uniquely amazing work, do you really want to do it on behalf of this organization?

With all that said, maybe I'm an idiot jumping to conclusions and somebody with a bit more nuanced understanding of these situations will want to jump in and stop you from going all Jerry Maguire.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on August 20, 2020, 11:05:16 AM
(…)I don't know anything about project management. (…)

Assign responsibility. Delegate. Acknowledge success. Reward with better responsibility. Repeat.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 20, 2020, 06:26:37 PM
sun is blocked out by smoke and it feels like we imported air from the chicomms  :oreilly might be time to close the windows  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on August 20, 2020, 06:49:14 PM
Who will like my posts if you die?  :goldberg
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 20, 2020, 06:54:04 PM
Man get some self-worth.  At least ask for bitcoin for a wet job.   Also, I'll give you a like if he dies. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 20, 2020, 07:01:26 PM
Who will like my posts if you die?  :goldberg
there aren't any fires in my county yet  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on August 20, 2020, 07:05:42 PM
Sympathy likes secured  :rejoice
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 21, 2020, 11:44:31 AM
Had to put my 16 year old lab down yesterday. She'd been with us since she was a pup and I was hoping she would hold out a little longer, but she just got to a point where she couldn't even walk anymore.
It's hard enough to put a dog down but having kids when you do it is way harder. Poor wife is devastated, she was the one that picked her out from the litter. :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 21, 2020, 11:49:15 AM
Sorry man. 
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Post by: bork on August 21, 2020, 03:11:08 PM
Sorry for your loss.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 21, 2020, 05:17:24 PM
just go to bed stro  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 21, 2020, 05:23:52 PM
This week is around the week of my birthday and I have always called it my "hell week" because everything wrong happens within this week. I used to think it was just bias, that I was paying attention to the week more than others, but no. It's scientifically provable. If you take my spending and plot it out over the year it always spikes in this week due to emergencies. Like one year during this week my car died so I need to buy a new car. Did that. Then on the way home from the dealership my phone died so I had to buy a new phone.

Hearing Stro's story makes me think that the hell week curse is spreading. Sorry Stro. That sucks!
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Post by: team filler on August 21, 2020, 05:28:44 PM
the curse spreads like the curse in It Follows  :-[
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on August 21, 2020, 05:34:57 PM
the curse spreads like the curse in It Follows  :-[

:hump
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: I'm a Puppy! on August 21, 2020, 05:42:50 PM
the curse spreads like the curse in It Follows  :-[
I wish. I'd totally bang stro :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on August 21, 2020, 05:51:08 PM
It sounds like your alternator is dying/dead and so your battery discharged. Sometimes the alternator starts working again if you whack it a few times since that dislodges built up dust. You can test if that's the issue by hitting the alternator and then jump starting your car (since the battery is now discharged) but that is only a short-term fix. If the alternator is your issue, then you're going to have to replace it soon.

It's not too hard to replace an alternator yourself but no one likes doing car repairs during the summer.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 21, 2020, 06:00:40 PM
one man's struggle is another man's triumph of the day  :bernie
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on August 21, 2020, 08:20:24 PM
Sorry about your tiny .01m and string of bad luck. 
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Post by: shosta on August 21, 2020, 08:38:06 PM
Now someone is trying to fuck me in the ass? :beli what a day
:lol
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on August 24, 2020, 02:33:37 PM
 :fbm other night I had bought 3 cartons of ice cream and in the morning the power went out after some crazy lighting hit nearby and it stayed off for about 5-6 hours  :stahp like a third worl outchea  :doge
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on August 26, 2020, 10:46:45 AM
i went to get snacks and somehow bought the wrong ice cream flavor

end me now, god
A couple months ago I accidentally bought low-fat ice cream. I was pretty upset with myself.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on September 14, 2020, 04:42:42 PM
Whelp I guess 35 is when you just start to break down and return to the earth slowly over a few decades.

I've been really struggling with locomotion and keeping my mobility during some challenges I've been faced with since last year. I somehow have now caused some major damage to my knee area and am unable to get up and down without considerable pain. I can stand without pain and go on my daily walk/jog. I just have to be very careful in doing so as to not aggravate it. My doctor can't see me till sometime in October and so I just get to wait and hope to god I don't damage it more during this time.

Also I got job scammed last week and the fuckers worked quick to open as many accounts as possible with my information. And by the time I had my first alert it was too late, the damage was done. So now on top of looking for work and nursing this leg injury I have to work on correcting that. My bank provided me with some protection at the branch level (yeah the fucks tried to get into my banking too,) but that didn't stop them from opening multiple store cards across the US and Europe in just a weeks time.

I'm trying to keep my head above water right now and just survive.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 14, 2020, 04:50:26 PM
Sucks man.  Hang in there.  I think I had a slipped disk this summer and was be ridden for the better part of a week and I'm still not really back to normal.   Mobility is one of those things that is easy to take for granted and when its gone its very disturbing. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on September 15, 2020, 06:16:55 PM
mom told me about how when she was pregnant with me and my psychotic abusive father shot a gun through the ceiling, then pointed it at her stomach and squeezed the trigger again. somehow the gun didn't go off.

I remember overhearing something about this as a small child, but it was something I was never sure was real or that it was me she was pregnant with at the time.

has me emotional and thinking like did I ever really have chance at life. even before I was born my life was fucked


there was more, but that's the one that's wrecking me emotionally

filler sr even shot and killed his own brother. almost certain he killed others and got away with it. he somehow only did 4 years for the one he got caught for, my uncle ferman
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on September 15, 2020, 08:47:41 PM
Bless up, filler.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: BIONIC on September 16, 2020, 01:17:38 AM
filler Sr. is definitely not invited to the bore anymore :goty
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on September 16, 2020, 03:52:25 AM
filler sr is long dead and I don't feel the need to put any energy towards hating him.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 18, 2020, 09:02:00 PM
Went out to pick up some food and my wife calls, extremely upset- the baby rolled off the couch and hit the floor. 

I had to take a minute to calm down.  That was some scary shit to hear.  Went to the ER as directed and we're hopefully almost done.  The baby seems to be completely fine and the doctor said the chances of something bad happening are extremely low.
 :whew
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on September 18, 2020, 09:26:40 PM
Went out to pick up some food and my wife calls, extremely upset- the baby rolled off the couch and hit the floor. 

I had to take a minute to calm down.  That was some scary shit to hear.  Went to the ER as directed and we're hopefully almost done.  The baby seems to be completely fine and the doctor said the chances of something bad happening are extremely low.
 :whew

That's your panic-ER-visit-because-the-baby-can't-describe-any-injuries milestone. Thankfully, babies are chubby and soft so they don't get injured too easily but you always assume the worst until the doctor tells you gives you the verbal xanax.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on September 18, 2020, 10:02:28 PM
bork I can't even imagine how you must have felt at that moment. I've been close to being a father a few times and while it hasn't meant to be for us (stillborn and miscarriages.) These kinds of moments are scary, but as they get older they'll present you with even more challenges that will test you and the person you are.

EDIT: I hope the baby is ok.

I'm going in to see a MS specialist next week. Doctor told me that I might have been misdiagnosed with an inflammatory disease. I don't know how you go from an injury in the knee to MS in the matter of a few weeks, but apparently you do. I'm glad my internist is taking the time out to get through her patients appointments. Unfortunately the appointment came at the moment RGB's news was happening. I don't know if this is the right diagnosis but I do have some early stage signs of the disease apparently.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on September 19, 2020, 12:42:09 PM
That's your panic-ER-visit-because-the-baby-can't-describe-any-injuries milestone. Thankfully, babies are chubby and soft so they don't get injured too easily but you always assume the worst until the doctor tells you gives you the verbal xanax.

Baby had a CT scan just good measure and it was very much this- she's completely fine and the doctor said they kind of just "bounce" off the floor, whereas adults will just hit the floor and get hurt. 

I was 99% sure everything was going to be fine until the woman running the scan said "so has your daughter ever had surgery before?"  This made me nervous as hell until the doctor popped in to tell us everything was normal.
:dizzy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on September 19, 2020, 01:32:20 PM
Glad things turned out ok bork. Scary stuff.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Nintex on September 19, 2020, 02:09:46 PM
mom told me about how when she was pregnant with me and my psychotic abusive father shot a gun through the ceiling, then pointed it at her stomach and squeezed the trigger again. somehow the gun didn't go off.

I remember overhearing something about this as a small child, but it was something I was never sure was real or that it was me she was pregnant with at the time.
Your life is a miracle filler :preach even as a infant you were able to hack the matrix to survive  :neo :mynicca

That's your panic-ER-visit-because-the-baby-can't-describe-any-injuries milestone. Thankfully, babies are chubby and soft so they don't get injured too easily but you always assume the worst until the doctor tells you gives you the verbal xanax.

Baby had a CT scan just good measure and it was very much this- she's completely fine and the doctor said they kind of just "bounce" off the floor, whereas adults will just hit the floor and get hurt. 

I was 99% sure everything was going to be fine until the woman running the scan said "so has your daughter ever had surgery before?"  This made me nervous as hell until the doctor popped in to tell us everything was normal.
:dizzy
Yeah human babies/kids are very durable. Glad she's ok  :)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 21, 2020, 11:07:26 AM
My grandma is in the hospital again.  My mom says she doesn't think she is dying but she will probablly need to be in a home after this.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on September 22, 2020, 01:49:47 PM
Been trying to get something to work for a 3 weeks now - thought I had it but didn't - now I'm starting to think I have too high of expectations for the model  i.e. it was never going to preform to what I thought would be 'working'. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Rahxephon91 on September 27, 2020, 07:18:09 PM
You ever get to a point where you've tried to be positive about life and yet start to realize it dosen't make a difference and you hate people and would feel better off without them?

Thats where I am these days.

Everything and everyone just pissess me off.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Oblivion on September 28, 2020, 09:00:25 PM
my mom dropped a bomb on me last night: she decided she's going to stay in india for good.

i've actually advocated for her to do that very thing multiple times over the years since that's where all her family is and i'd have some peace and independence again, so the idea isn't anything new. but i guess...i never thought she'd actually do it! at least not for another decade, at least. but now she's actually doing it, and i feel like the dog that finally caught the car. now what?

we've had a rocky relationship ever since middle school. we had more arguments than you can count, many of which were needless and very, VERY stupid. she frustrated and enraged the hell out of me on multiple occasions, to the point where horrible, horrible things were said, things i wish i could take back.

and yet, she was still a great mom. i didn't approve of her methods, but she did everything she did, as misguided as they were, out of love. she bought literally 99% of the furniture, kitchenware and household items. everything that is here, is because of her. the sofas, the rugs, the tables, the dressers, even my own bed, SHE bought. i can't look at a single thing in my apt and not be reminded of her. she packed my lunch for work, she had my protein shakes  ready when i came back from the gym, she did all the housework, including  making my bed. i'll never have a home cooked meal from her again.

despite the fact that we butted heads a lot, and no matter how much she angered me, i knew that no matter where i went, whether it's to work, a friend's place or a road trip, she would always be waiting for me when i stepped through the door. she took frequent trips to india in the past, and each one was around 6 months. but as long as those trips were, i had no problem missing her because i knew that at the end of those 6 months, she would eventually come back. because of covid, she's been gone 9 months, and up until this weekend, i was happy as a clam, with hardly a care in the world. and after the news, for the time since she's left, the apartment felt truly cavernous and empty, and for the first time i truly felt alone.

the absolute fucking irony of it all. just when my hand condition, the biggest problem in my life  up until now, was actually showing positive signs of improvement, leading me to be the happiest that i've been in 2 years, i get this news that makes me feel the shittiest i've felt in more than a decade. two more months and we would have been in our apartment for a full 10 years.

i knew one way or another my mom would eventually retire to india, but this is not how i pictured it would go down. i've been breaking down into tears all weekend. i didn't even do that when i was at my absolute worst and feeling almost legit suicidal back in 2009. i may end up never seeing her again.

i'll get over it, i'm sure, but at the moment i don't know how to cope. fuck this absolutely shitty year.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on October 07, 2020, 08:29:23 PM
one man's struggle is another man's triumph of the day  :bernie

NEWSFEED
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 27, 2020, 12:13:49 PM
My grandma has had a stroke.  Don't really know more than that, but it seems bad this time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: brawndolicious on October 27, 2020, 12:50:21 PM
Sorry to hear that Arvie. All you can do is just be there for everyone.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 27, 2020, 01:00:49 PM
Thanks.  Its being there that is really hard right now.  They wouldn't let family go with her to the hospital but have my aunt as a point of contact.  So my mom is at home alone waiting for my aunt to call with news and I'm in a different city waiting for my mom to hear anything.  And I keep thinking that if she passes I really shouldn't go home because I would need to quaranteen before I would be able to see my mom.  My grandma just got out of the hospital and was put in a new care home yesterday too and the few weeks she was in the hospital she was only allowed to see my mom and my aunt. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on October 27, 2020, 09:42:36 PM
Doctors are saying its not a stroke but they are not sure what it is but probably neurological. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on October 27, 2020, 09:51:47 PM
bless her and your fam
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on November 26, 2020, 12:53:56 PM
So my grandmother died yesterday night. I was able to see her on tuesday. She was like a second mother to me.


(https://i.imgur.com/psLOawA.jpg)

Saying I'm devastated is an understatement
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on November 26, 2020, 01:00:16 PM
Daemon I’m sorry for your loss. 2020 has been a tiring year for the mind and body for all of us. Older folks especially are feeling these times and the isolation it has created. I’m glad you got to see her one last time.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on November 26, 2020, 07:41:41 PM
Sorry to hear that breh.  :(

Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on November 28, 2020, 06:07:51 AM
Sad for your loss, Daemon. That's very rough, particularly now.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on November 29, 2020, 02:49:39 AM
Thank you guys, girls, non-binary people and otherkin  :heart
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: CatsCatsCats on December 01, 2020, 09:37:20 AM
Had to put my best friend down last night, heart broken. The bond I had with that cat is definitely one of the deepest I’ve had with anyone or anything

RIP Dhuma Bubastis
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: bork on December 01, 2020, 10:02:47 AM
Sorry for your loss, Cats.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on December 01, 2020, 10:31:30 AM
I’m so sorry Cats. It’s so hard to love someone so much and let go of them. Their memory and impression on you will carry on in memory. I hope you can open your home to another kitty in the future. Because there’s more out there that need a home in your heart.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on December 01, 2020, 10:59:09 AM
Had to put my best friend down last night, heart broken. The bond I had with that cat is definitely one of the deepest I’ve had with anyone or anything

RIP Dhuma Bubastis

So sorry man. :( That's the worst. Shoot me a PM if you need to talk or anything.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on December 01, 2020, 02:33:57 PM
Sorry buddy
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on December 01, 2020, 03:20:12 PM
:( I'm so sorry for your loss Cats.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Mr Gilhaney on December 01, 2020, 03:21:38 PM
 :(  making that decision is tough as fuck
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Clockwork5 on December 15, 2020, 08:36:34 PM
Well, catalytic converter was yanked off of my car right in my driveway last night lol
$1,000+ out the tailpipe, so to speak.

Money is tight right now too...
 :foxx
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 01, 2021, 06:35:48 PM
My uncle has had throat cancer for the last 6 months, for most of the fall he was unable to eat.  He went through chemo and the tumor shrunk enough that he was supposed to have surgery in Dec, which got postponed to tomorrow and now they have found cancer metastasized to his hip, arm, pelvic and lung and called off the surgery.  My aunt is the only person allowed to see him and only once a week due to covid.  The chemo and malnourishment have made it so he no longer had sort-term memory, which makes things like phoning and zoom very hard.  She found this out today over a call and she isn't allowed to go see him for another five days.  I feel really awful for them.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: daemon on January 01, 2021, 06:45:27 PM
My uncle has had throat cancer for the last 6 months, for most of the fall he was unable to eat.  He went through chemo and the tumor shrunk enough that he was supposed to have surgery in Dec, which got postponed to tomorrow and now they have found cancer metastasized to his hip, arm, pelvic and lung and called off the surgery.  My aunt is the only person allowed to see him and only once a week due to covid.  The chemo and malnourishment have made it so he no longer had sort-term memory, which makes things like phoning and zoom very hard.  She found this out today over a call and she isn't allowed to go see him for another five days.  I feel really awful for them.

That fucking sucks so much. What a terrible year 2020 has been. People seem to think that social distancing and masks were the "problems", but that's only the people who didn't actually have real problems.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on January 01, 2021, 07:33:15 PM
My uncle has had throat cancer for the last 6 months, for most of the fall he was unable to eat.  He went through chemo and the tumor shrunk enough that he was supposed to have surgery in Dec, which got postponed to tomorrow and now they have found cancer metastasized to his hip, arm, pelvic and lung and called off the surgery.  My aunt is the only person allowed to see him and only once a week due to covid.  The chemo and malnourishment have made it so he no longer had sort-term memory, which makes things like phoning and zoom very hard.  She found this out today over a call and she isn't allowed to go see him for another five days.  I feel really awful for them.

Jesus, I'm so sorry for your family :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on January 05, 2021, 05:13:02 PM
My uncles coming home to die.  I think it's for the better.

edit:  just talking to my mom, email I got was poorly worded - he's coming home but they dont think its terminal yet, but they dont have a plan ...
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on January 05, 2021, 08:17:30 PM
A relative of mine whom I love dearly had a cardiac incident just prior to new year. Despite receiving CPR immediately, and quickly being placed at a good hospital, he never regained consciousness and passed on last night. This is one of the people that I look forward to seeing every time I made it back to the USA for a trip. A kind and patient man who was supportive of all his family members, even extended ones like me.

I will miss him a lot.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on March 23, 2021, 11:34:55 PM
My little fur baby MAX was doing good for a few days, then this evening everything went to shit. He started urinating and bleeding everywhere in the apartment. I got him in the car and drove to the nearest Animal hospital since our vet couldn’t take him in. I’m so stressed out right now and I’m breaking down.  :'(

I just want my little dude to not suffer and it was so hard watching him suffer till the hospital knocked him out so they could help him...  :-\ :'(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on March 23, 2021, 11:58:57 PM
My little fur baby MAX was doing good for a few days, then this evening everything went to shit. He started urinating and bleeding everywhere in the apartment. I got him in the car and drove to the nearest Animal hospital since our vet couldn’t take him in. I’m so stressed out right now and I’m breaking down.  :'(

I just want my little dude to not suffer and it was so hard watching him suffer till the hospital knocked him out so they could help him...  :-\ :'(

Dude sending my love, that sucks :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on March 24, 2021, 01:24:53 AM
I had to come home and get a few things for MAX. He’s gonna stay at the hospital for a few days after his emergency operation. They had to ultrasound some blocked stones, and flushed out the others through a catheter. He lost so much blood they had to give him a transfusion. I can’t bare to even think how much more I’m about to go in debt right now. Just when I thought I could change things around a bit life throws a huge curveball to me.

My life is better having this little fur ball in it than a world without him in it. He’s not out of the woods just yet.  :'(

I’m exhausted
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on March 28, 2021, 05:02:08 PM
Our little dude came home only to immediately have to rush right back into the hospital. He crashed really hard convulsions and all sorts of bad things. It was a literal nightmare yesterday. They got his chart and another animals urinalysis mixed up and thought he was clear to go home, fucking dumb ass vet tech. Sure enough he’s been suffering from an e-coli infection that he’s had for sometime without our knowledge. It was a cascading event from one thing to another and well after a lot of stress he’s getting the care he needs to combat it, I just hope it’s not too late. Between the respiratory issue and UTI/kidney stones it’s been really rough on the little dude. Multiple times this past week I thought I was going to have to say goodbye to him. Thankfully he’s strong willed and while he might not be in the best condition he’s hopefully going to make a recovery.

The vet went over what we’re looking at and suggested it could have been related to his food. I took a sample of the dry cat food to a lab today for testing. The vet suggested doing that before confronting the company about potential contamination. They couldn’t identify how he’d get such an infection given his environment. I don’t how to feel about the whole thing as the first vet we took him too just told us he had asthma and nothing was wrong outside of that, after they took a blood sample. Meanwhile he’s suffering and boom out of no where he just fell off a cliff health wise.

I get to check in on him on their high tech drivable iPad, which is cool. But he’s still got a bunch of tubes in him and he’s not able to move about freely at this moment. I hope he can hear us and know how much we care about him and want him to fight like hell. I told him I’ll shower him with canned tuna when he comes home.  :-\ :'(

I miss the little guy at home. His brother is wondering where he is yowling around the house looking for him, he gets dejected and plops in MAX’s spots around our place.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 28, 2021, 05:37:09 PM
I'm sorry dude.  Hope he gets well soon. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Nintex on March 28, 2021, 05:45:56 PM
Hang in there Max. The world needs you now more than ever :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 31, 2021, 11:43:34 AM
My uncle was admitted to the hospital yesterday and my mom just sent an email saying that the doctors are not hopeful.  They were really hoping he'd make it another month so that they could go to the cabin for the end.  Last year today another uncle died.  In the last year and a half, 3/4 uncles were diagnosed with cancer.  The youngest made it through treatment.  It's been really rough for the family this year. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on March 31, 2021, 12:21:28 PM
That doesn’t sound too hopeful, I’m sorry duder. I hope he can make it to the cabin peacefully.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 31, 2021, 03:50:42 PM
He passed. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Joe Molotov on March 31, 2021, 04:02:05 PM
Sorry bro
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on March 31, 2021, 04:57:23 PM
I’m sorry dude.  :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on March 31, 2021, 06:03:32 PM
Thanks
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on March 31, 2021, 06:39:00 PM
Sorry for your loss :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: chronovore on March 31, 2021, 10:24:15 PM
I'm sad for your loss.

Please make sure you're getting screened for cancer, esp. with a family history of it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: zomgee on April 01, 2021, 08:54:53 AM
Even in this stupid world, somehow take time to take care of yourself. I am so very sorry for the loss of your uncle.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 01, 2021, 09:42:03 AM
I'm sad for your loss.

Please make sure you're getting screened for cancer, esp. with a family history of it.

Thanks

Both were married in and both of their cancers started with smoking-related cancers.  The uncle that went last year was a heavy smoker but the one that passed yesterday had quit smoking for all my life except I think, except cigars he had when a particular group of his friends got together once every few years.  The uncle that survived is blood-related though and that was thyroid cancer. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 03, 2021, 08:21:00 PM
Just need to vent a bit.  My cousin, who is the daughter of the uncle who just passed, has down syndrome and she sent me an email today and I replied mentioning her dad, because it just felt very strange not to.  I also didn't realize she is at home with my aunt and not at her community home, so my aunt would have read the email beforehand.    However, I just had a zoom call with them and, they are doing well and I think they are just trying hard to be happy today.  So I think I misjudged the situation, and I shouldn't have mentioned him.  Now I'm worried that I will ruin her good mood and I should have known better.  It just felt really strange not telling her I'm sorry about her dad.   And now it's like do I email my aunt to let her judge but then this puts stress on her. 
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on April 03, 2021, 11:53:45 PM
Just need to vent a bit.  My cousin, who is the daughter of the uncle who just passed, has down syndrome and she sent me an email today and I replied mentioning her dad, because it just felt very strange not to.  I also didn't realize she is at home with my aunt and not at her community home, so my aunt would have read the email beforehand.    However, I just had a zoom call with them and, they are doing well and I think they are just trying hard to be happy today.  So I think I misjudged the situation, and I shouldn't have mentioned him.  Now I'm worried that I will ruin her good mood and I should have known better.  It just felt really strange not telling her I'm sorry about her dad.   And now it's like do I email my aunt to let her judge but then this puts stress on her.

I think what you did was ok. Don't overthink it.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 19, 2021, 09:54:40 AM
Lost 10 chickens last night. Probably a fox.

(https://i.imgur.com/mfSNUuE.gif)

Cried for an hour. :( They were sweet chickens that always followed me around. They didn't deserve such a violent end. Hard to not cry right now. :(
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 19, 2021, 09:59:43 AM
Sorry man
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 19, 2021, 10:03:33 AM
Thank you.

Circle of life is some bullshit.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 19, 2021, 02:18:24 PM
One chicken came back!! :gladbron

Feathers missing and it's got a limp...

(https://i.imgur.com/YrkSsUy.jpg)
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 19, 2021, 03:32:17 PM
7 survivors, 9 fallen :fbm

RIP :(

PS- 11 more chicks in the house almost ready to be put outside
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on April 19, 2021, 04:42:39 PM
not the chicken  :tocry
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 19, 2021, 10:09:26 PM
(https://i.imgur.com/gPWuZjF.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/dSdQ7H4.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/5nZAVSj.jpg)

RIP

Stripes
Wednesday
Big Red
Little Red
Sunset
Moonlight
Bruiser
Karen
and OJ

:( :fbm I named them all only two months ago :fbm
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: G The Resurrected on April 19, 2021, 10:15:13 PM
And you’ve got a fence... damn I’m sorry Tasty  :-\

Those are some beautiful birds!

Is your enclosure fenced on the top too?
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Tasty on April 19, 2021, 10:18:10 PM
And you’ve got a fence... damn I’m sorry Tasty  :-\

Those are some beautiful birds!

Is your enclosure fenced on the top too?

Yup.

It was human error, with responsibility divided between me and another party, that led to this outcome. I feel like trash.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: Bebpo on June 27, 2021, 08:03:11 PM
Was driving my S2K and got off a freeway and suddenly couldn't change gears and clutch was sticking in. Pulled over on the right side of a 2-lane exit but really no side so just sitting blocking the right lane with hazard lights waiting to get rear ended from someone.

Tried all kinds of things, letting it cool, off/on again, etc.. couldn't even get it into first since I'd changed to neutral at some point. Finally tried pumping the clutch as I'd read about it in the past but it's never worked when I had any issues and it helped and was able to shift gears. So I put it into 1st and drove slowly to the nearest safe spot and tried to find the closest service center (was far from home) and then I tried to reverse out of the space I'd pulled into but there was no way to shift into reverse no matter how much strength I used. Pumped the clutch some more and was able to get it into reverse and drove slowly on streets to the service center and left it.

From my research it sounds like it was out of/extremely low on hydraulic fluid, which generally indicates a leak of it somewhere. What annoys me is that I hadn't driven it much for like 8 months and then about 1.5 months ago I took it to the dealership service center and had them run a full service to check every single thing to make sure there were no issues. They found a few things and switched them out, but nothing to do with the clutch or transmission and said all that was good. Now 1.5 months later this happens. Sure seems like they missed something.

Also this is the second time in the last 2 years I've been stranded on a freeway off-ramp with this car. Early 2020 I was on a different offramp on a hill and I stalled for a sec (lol) and the car wouldn't turn back on because the battery fucking died right then and there. That was in the middle of the night too where visibility was bad. Definitely not places I want to be with a little black car with zero protection. It's what convinced me to finally change my daily driver to my Tesla and I kept the S2K as a weekend car and drive it once a weekend to keep the battery good and things moving.

But the whole point of a weekend car is to have a nice car for drives, and if the car just is old and not reliable to take on long drives...what's the point. Everyone has been asking to buy my car for years. Even today when I dropped the car at the dealership one of the guys working there wanted to buy my car for his son as he's been looking for S2K for years.

Idk, I'm getting tempted to sell it. I'll see how expensive this fix is and then I'll see how it feels afterwards and if it feels safe. If it does and it's not incredibly expensive fix, I'll probably keep it a few more years. If I have to like swap the entire transmission or clutch or something (pretty sure I'm on my 2nd clutch and changed the original out maybe 5 years ago), I might sell it and move on. Great car, but old cars are just a pain in the ass.
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on June 27, 2021, 10:02:52 PM
things are not real, but for how long and what exactly is or is not? feels very lonely.there is fun to be had, but like any game. you eventually want to stop playing
Title: Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
Post by: team filler on June 28, 2021, 06:37:28 AM
when the treatment is only making you resent your own loved ones. oops