THE BORE
General => The Superdeep Borehole => Topic started by: Rman on January 21, 2021, 01:34:09 PM
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these lockouts have been going for a year. trying to have a routine to stay sane, but it feel like i need tons of motivation to do anything these days. how are you coping?
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Yes, I can relate and, no, I'm not coping.
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Not really, the work, live at home 24/7 for nearly a year is just doing nothing for my will to be motivated for work or life in general, recently spoken with doctor and getting some therapy referrals to talk through things.
I think being isolated for a year is just not very human and I doubt even the most introvert are able to cope with it.
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It's been pretty much business as usual so afraid not.
Key worker life~
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I was pretty depressed last year, since then I've been speaking with a therapist and things are going a lot better. Lately I've been walking every night for about 60/90 minutes, but this week after I got into a fight with my bro Ive been a bit down again and its also raining so that makes me just not want to walk
Ive still been trying not snacking and not eating chips and m&m's every night that's going real well so far
Aside from that Ive been working out as well the past two weeks. Ive been doing that steadily but I got my arm hurt in a fight last week so im just waiting for that to heal rn.
Now they are talking about a fucking evening clock lockdown, from 9PM to 4AM, where you cannot be outside, so that is seriously fucking up my rythm and im pretty pissed about that, since I never even come across anyone when walking out late at night around 9/10PM. And thats the way I like it, I dont wanna come across a bunch of people walking.
I wanna get back into editing as well, but I've been a bit blocked creative wise also havent gone back to my previous projects which I should really continue working on.
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Yeah, it's hard. I want to do stuff outside necessities of working/chores/eating/sleeping, but I just fuck around and time flies by and I never have the time to do any of that stuff or I'm too tired by that point.
My sleep schedule is so fucked. I either force myself up early in the morning and feel like shit later, too exhausted to do anything productive when I'm finally done with everything for the day, or I just give up if I don't have any work calls the next day and it's just emails/paperwork and let myself sleep in and then I feel not shit, but I don't get started on work until like 2pm and end up working all night and have no time either. Bleh.
I'm telling myself that things will change after vaccines become available and I can get out more and save time not doing everything 100% myself. I guess I'll see if it happens.
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You're probably depressed, brother
Bless up
I do see a therapist. I just miss normalcy honesty.
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I've landed so many contracts that I'm busy until at least the end of April and the next wave of proposals is going out this month, which could cover up to May.
The curfew is gonna suck big time. One of the few remaining social activities was hanging out with some friends for beers and movies every so often during weekends.
I've gotten back to watching silly comedy shows like Veep and The Office and I just keep buying new shit that preferably takes time to assemble like my PC last year, some Ikea lamps etc. .
Currently I'm replacing my network cables and upgrading my router.
A couple of peeps I know got pets, like a kitten or puppy. You have to stay home anyway so no worries about not being there to take care of them.
It has really made their life much better. If I wasn't asthmatic I would've probably gotten a cat too.
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I wish I had gotten a cat before this. Would've helped a lot for sure.
I just don't want to deal with trying to get one during the pandemic and the vet stuff you gotta go do initially (from my past experience as a cat owner). Pandemic already giving me too much anxiety, don't want to add extra stuff I gotta go out and do.
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I wish I had gotten a cat before this. Would've helped a lot for sure.
I just don't want to deal with trying to get one during the pandemic and the vet stuff you gotta go do initially (from my past experience as a cat owner). Pandemic already giving me too much anxiety, don't want to add extra stuff I gotta go out and do.
Shortages in my area too. many pandemic adoptions.
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hang in there, bud.
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I feel the same way man. First 6 months or so of covid I could stay motivated but it’s getting harder and harder.
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I'm as productive as I need to be which is not at all
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Progress is slow right now, but progress is still progress. Moving the ball forward even a little is encouraging.
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what does that mean
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what does that mean
What does yours mean
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I thought I was feeling completely done and burnt out by being a frontline worker and feeling expendable and having no worth. That was the overwhelming feeling six months ago. I have no fucking clue how I've made it this far :lol
Suicidal idealization is a struggle during this time for myself. I recently found out a class mate from highschool passed away from what I suspect to be a heroin/opiate overdose. She was a very bubbly, warm, funny person. Beloved by those she interacted with.
Wish I talked to her more. I got a sense that her happiness and humor and love she shared with everyone was a way to cope and bury pain and depression. Something I do myself, struggle with, can't comprehend when joy or pain is real, when it isn't. She seemed like someone I could've had a greater connection with.
Hit me pretty hard. Suicide and overdoses are semi common fates for a number of people I know. Very much a lot of anger and sadness brews in me.
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what does that mean
What does yours mean
Ever been in a fight with one of your boys?
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what does that mean
What does yours mean
Ever been in a fight with one of your boys?
No I'm a pacifist. :blessup
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I have found it hard to focus on many things. I’ve mentioned elsewhere here that I have trouble reading any text for my own enjoyment lately. It’s hard to focus and I end up reading the same sentence several times before it sinks in. Or read the same paragraphs several times.
Oddly, I can read emails at work pretty well with only slightly diminished reading comprehension. I have missed a couple of details here and there, but nothing critical. It’s just odd that I can read, comprehend, and retain information at work, but now have trouble reading for pleasure.
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I think 4 months of $800 a week unemployment changed me. Apart from begrudgingly going to work, I’ve been an absolute sloth of a human being ever since.
Also, as someone who has to put forth a not insignificant amount of effort to get out enough for a healthy social life in the best of times, I’ve more or less conditioned myself, over the years, to give myself a hard time for mulling around the house too much which has lead to some pointless and irrational inner-conflict in a world where we are expected to stay home.
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I think 4 months of $800 a week unemployment changed me. Apart from begrudgingly going to work, I’ve been an absolute sloth of a human being ever since.
Another victim of socialism
:stahp
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I think 4 months of $800 a week unemployment changed me. Apart from begrudgingly going to work, I’ve been an absolute sloth of a human being ever since.
Another victim of socialism
:stahp
Says the one that opened up socialism on this very forum for a faux stock market heist
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This curfew bullshit really hit hard on everyone so last night we organized an online quiz with current and former co-workers and their girlfriends/boyfriends/friends.
The quiz was fun and it was nice to reconnect with some peeps I hadn't spoken to in a long time.
One of my employees had a pretty nice living room setup that also inspired me to order some new plants, something I was thinking about for a while but kept forgetting.
Lots of people are having a hard time right now so it's important to organize some activities and have a laugh from time to time even if it can only be done remotely.
Also talk about this openly at your company or even with your clients. There's no shame in it and you'd be surprised at how much people will support you or show understanding. :heart
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It really depends on the day... some days I'm super productive, other days I just wanna sit on my couch and watch youtube videos about retro games. My workload has increased massively at work, and some days I just can't keep up...
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hang in there, bud.
feel like I've been waiting my entire messageboard life to "hang in there, bud" riotous :aah
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It's hard to stay focused with so many distractions, tbh.
Especially in a comfortable setting like home, going more than 10 minutes without checking your phone, opening a Youtube tab or whatever, is something that is relatively new, as a problem.
You had distractions before, but now it's a fucking assault on the senses, every hour of every day.
Sometimes i'll procrastinate for hours, and then still feel (mentally) exhausted as if i had worked.
I don't think this level of constant sensory stimulation is good for the human brain. :thinking
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I have the occasional burst of here and there but for the most part I've been pretty useless during these uncertain times. :doge
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I have the occasional burst of here and there
:noah
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Rough fucking year. Those who know know. Still hoping for things to stabilize soon. Big thank you to all the boreans who have helped and been there. Bless up.
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hang in there, bud.
feel like I've been waiting my entire messageboard life to "hang in there, bud" riotous :aah
:hug:
*is hugged*
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10:00 AM - Good morning all, good luck, we'll circle back on that, I'll shoot you an email :heh
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04:00 PM - FUCK I had to so something where are my notes'
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04:30 PM - Oh, that
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05:00 PM - *click* *send*
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06:00 PM - :whew
This is some 24 Jack Bauer shit
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Rough fucking year. Those who know know. Still hoping for things to stabilize soon. Big thank you to all the boreans who have helped and been there. Bless up.
Hope things are looking up man
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those who know know.
not being those who know :fbm
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We can all still bless up.