I also disagree with having faith but this is what people usually do when they question their faith.
And talking to an Imam isn't a good place to look for answers if you are on the edge. He's just going to tell Himuro what Himuro wants to hear: Islam has the answers. It will be some variation of that. It would be similar to me telling Himuro to go talk to a Philosophy professor for answers. It's a shortcut, a shitty shortcut.
I, as always, suggest reading. If you have faith and believe Islam, then faith will come to you effortlessly; then go talk to the Imam. Do not use him as a "salesperson," because he will only tell you what you want to hear.
If you are interested in going it on your own (brotherhood be damned; we are in this thing alone), I'd suggest starting with Sartre's Existentialism and Human Emotions. Turning away from religion is easy for people with a fraction of a brain, it is finding a way to fill the gaps that is difficult. Existentialism will not fill the gaps, it is not a prescriptive philosophy, but it is a
useful philosophy, and for many, it opens up a whole world of meaning outside of religion. A whole world of actually useful meaning.
I went through a crisis of faith as a teenager. I rejected religion when I was about 12. When I started pursing intellectual things when I was 18, it became apparent I would have to address the faith and religion issue. While not offering a ready-made, pre-baked solution, I credit Sartre for making me the best possible Seeker that I could be.
So, himumu, you don't have to take my suggestion--there are many other roads and paths out there, all of them more worthwhile than Abrahamic religion--but don't think that the first "answer" is the best one. Question everything. Do not talk to the Imam if you consider yourself emotionally in a position where you can be taken advantage of, wanting to get drunk off blind faith like the old days. I just ask you to read. Read every sentence over and over and over, and do not move on until you understand it. That's kind of my little rule in life.