So I'm drinking
Why?
Because even though I've been at my job for 4 months now, I've been doing paperwork and some courtwork and some research but always on other people's cases. I write the arguments, the motions, the questions, but the face to face phone negotiations hasn't been my thing.
Today I got my first phone call from the opposing side in this $170,000 lawsuit I filed a few months ago. Here I was on one side, my first truly solo case at this small 3 person firm, and on the other side was this 20+ year experience attorney at this multi-million dollar big firm retained by one of the huge insurance companies. And he was talking real friendly and what he said made sense and was sensible so I was just kind of going "nod nod nod, that's understandable, nod nod nod, I'll need to consult my clients before making that decision" and HOLY SHIT WAS IT NERVE RACKING. I was thinking "Is this guy playing me because I'm new to this; he seems so friendly and understandable" and so I was trying to be neutral and accommodating and not commit to anything until I'd done more research. So after a 30 min phone call where we talked about A LOT, I consulted with other lawyers and apparently I did a pretty good job. But still, NERVE RACKING. Honestly, it's fucking scary to know that someone's $170,000 is on the line and everything you do or say could blow it.
It gets easier in time, but my first case so far is complex and medium-sized and freaky!
So I felt like I needed to drink afterwards to calm my nerves down a bit. Had a couple of beers so far. Might have a 3rd, but I need to get into work early and follow up on this case with this guy so I need to have my SHIT TOGETHER from the am.
Ok that felt good to vent. Being a lawyer is 90% about putting on a poker face and having confidence that you are the shit. The thing is that 90% of your opponents have been doing this for 20-40 years and when it's your first case it's like a guppy entering the pond with the sharks.
Anyhow, thanks for being good listeners. I <3 you guys. Especially Wrath since it's his birthday and he gets double love from me.