nm. Shouldn't even talk about positive things in the open.
We want positive stories. Positive healthy relationship stories. 
Well, after the total fuckup trainwreck of the last attempt at dating (I did figure out exactly what was going on there, and I want no part of it). I attempted to grow some balls, stop being a manchild, and act like a mature adult dater. So in the last couple of weeks I've met about 6/7 girls, gone on dates with about 3 new ones, including second dates, have first dates arranged for 2 others, and will see what's going on with the remaining. The more I talk to girls and go on dates the more comfortable I get at both and now, I dunno if it's the weather/time of year, or my profile is just really attractive, or I've just learned how to actually communicate with women without coming off as weird, but I'm getting responses from everyone I message and girls are even contacting me first, like I just got this message from someone who I messaged 2 months ago and they were like "I'm sooo sorry I took so long, I thought I'd replied but saw I hadn't". So right now I'm juggling e-mails, texts, dates with a half-dozen girls at once and it's weird, but I think it's a good thing because I'm feeling fairly content, confident, and not depressed over trainwreck girl anymore. It's also good because I'm getting stuff DONE at work now, whereas when I was in depression from this past girl I was really depressed and it was hard to work during the day.
Dunno if any of these girls will end up as relationships, but just taking them a date at a time and if they are interesting (aka, we actually have stuff to talk about) and they are attractive to me, then maybe I'll be game for "going out". Out of all the girls, there are a definitely a few who meet those criteria, one who doesn't and I probably need to cutoff, and since I haven't met a few in person I've yet to see how it goes.
Also there is something weird about this adult dating where you can kiss more than one girl at a time. Like back in high school if you made out with a girl and she liked you and then the next day you made out with a different girl, you'd be called a slut and it'd be like cheating even though you didn't start "going out" with the first girl. But that doesn't seem to apply to adults as girls do it all the time to me, so if that's dem rules, then I'll follow them.
The best thing about dating/hooking up/flirting/talking to many girls at once is there's no time to attach to anything, which is important since I have some attachment problems. If a girl doesn't work out, don't really feel anything since there are several others. If I see the right mood I'll go for the kiss and figure if she slaps me and says goodbye, it's fine there are other girls. So I'm just not giving a ton of fuck and instead trying to have the dates be fun things so regardless of the other person I'm getting a fun night out of it that beats hanging around home typing on the computer. It's also keeping me super busy since when I come home from work I have dates about half the time and the other half I'm still setting up my new place.
I'm not OVERJOYEDLY HAPPY like I feel when I am in manchild immature love with a girl who will hate me for being needy. But I'm not unhappy right now and I feel like I've taken a step in the right direction and am entering the world of adults. I'm also not doing one night stands cause that sucked and it's not what I'm looking for. I'm meeting people, having good times with them and just seeing how things go. I've got a karaoke + drinks date on Tuesday which should be a lot of fun for a first date. Haven't karaoke'd since Japan but I love karaoke to death. Will be belting out The Bends at full volume that day.
I also met someone who is really really cool, but logistically I think we're just going to be penpals, which is ok as I could use some more good friends who I can connect with. I think we're already past short stories and heading to light novel length with our e-mails over the last few weeks.
