Having a bad night, Bore. Let me rant, you can get your digs in, and we'll call it a night I suppose.
- All my friends have moved away from Nashville
- I'm not doing anything creative or important to me anymore. My job is great, I love it and its a wonderful industry to be in, but my passion is gone. I used to write every single day, I used to write music and lyrics all the time and the shit is gone now. I've tried starting bands down here but I haven't met anyone in Nashville who just wants to dick around -- everyone wants to make it big or not at all.
- Loans are severely crippling me, and I don't want to ask my parents for help.
- I don't feel attractive at all. I'm to 172 lbs but I feel 272. Everytime I'm around women now, that's the thought I put in my mind and my confidence is completely shot. I wasn't like this throughout college. I just don't feel cool anymore.
My nights now consist of me coming home and trying to find something to occupy my time so I don't have to think about my life. I'll get lucky some nights where a coworker invites me out for a drink.
The last sex I had was New Years, but a very drunkenly affair with one of my best friend's sister (my best friend from home). It was sad and sloppy, considering.
I'm just in a shitty spot ya'll. I'm trying to improve my outlook though...I play basketball every other day (post moves!!!), I'm reading more, and I've been trying to talk to girls at bars more often, but I'm still in a regurgitative state of the same night, every single night, where I go to bed unhappy.
I wasn't hit my a car though, so at this point I don't know why I'm bitching. There are people like Raban who have had a much tougher last few days and here I am bitching about...being a little bitch.
Sorry all, just wanted to type it all out. I at least know that you all will laugh it off and tell me to suck it up. I can count on you guys at least for that...to let me know I'm not some special snowflake whose situations is unique. It helps.
Sorry again.
You're catching me in a fatherly state, maybe because I'm becoming an old man today. So be prepared, this will be long.
And like they say in AA, take what you want, leave the rest.
Dude, you're 24. I know everything seems like its set in stone, or starting to, but its not.
Because my parents are very traditional, they instilled values in me that by 25, you should be well set in your career, thinking about buying a house, getting married, etc.
If I ever have kids, the biggest lesson I'll give them is don't take anything serious until you're 25.
You should be enjoying this part of your life because all of this worrying will come later.
So, what do you do? Stay active, join social groups (meetup.com is great), put yourself out of your comfort zone as much as you can.
You'll discover new interests, get new circles of friends, meet girls and you'll be a lot more confident.
And don't set yourself up with artificial limits, like, "I can't move away because of my debt." I can't comment on your loans, but there's ways to remedy that.
Either way, I've seen so many people in this spot, where you friends move on and you find it hard to fit in to a new group.
Thats the way out of this rut if I ever knew one.
