While not amazingly awful or something I wont get over, today I had a pretty bad experience with someone I considered a brother. And I just want to type it out so it's out there. And I find sharing my problems makes me feel better about them.
Today amongst a group of friends and acquaintances someone I consider pretty much my best friend called me a loser in a very malicious way. I'm not even quite sure what it was over. It was actually quite dumb. I'm embarrassed to even reval what began this argument honestly. It was about Player Unknown sucked because of it's performance on his computer to which I then replied that my computer ran it great. Then began his tantrum over how I bought it with my tax return and not money I earned which then transition how I'm a loser because I haven't finished school, haven't done this, don't have the responsibilities like he does, is able to live fancy free.
It really hurt because well I really respect this person. But this is how they seem to view me.
A little backstory about my friend. He had to join the Air Force because his parents forced him to. He dosen't like it. And honestly I feel I understand why he had this outburst. I think he dislikes his life honestly. He makes comments about how he dosen't have a social life. On the phone you hear nothing but his announces with his girl friend while he tries to play video games. This is'nt the first outrage and they usually happen when other people are around. He'd never admit it, but I think he's really insecure.
But if you know my history, a route cause of my depression was because of how behind in life I feel I am. This is something I've talked to with my friend many times about and usually the response from him was that everything is ok.
But then to have this rant thrown at me and then followed up with a an apology, but still saying "I still think everything I said is true". well....that really hurt and I kind of don't want to talk with this person for a long time.
I don't know I've been feeling better about life and trying to be more social and outgoing, but still sucks to have these things come up every so often.
