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« Reply #240 on: December 18, 2017, 03:35:24 PM »
to see what happens
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« Reply #241 on: December 18, 2017, 05:14:24 PM »
So I stopped Remeron for a week without telling the docs because I wanted to see what happened.

For one: My insomnia came back, it was manage-able and I got sleep but falling asleep (which was the biggest issue before the meds) came back hard. Nothing an energy drink and a nap in the evening couldn't fix.
You try cracking the Remeron in half? At first it was like you described but then I sorta adjusted to it to where I felt like I had more control than the full dose, could let it knock me out, or say "knock me out for just six hours" which has to totally be Placebo. But I'm fine with Placebo, it's a great drug, and cheap.

I can't say anything positive about Wellbutrin as I noted before in here and elsewhere I couldn't ever tell if I had taken it or not aside from the fact that I set my pills out each day as routine compulsion. I guess one good thing about that is you don't have to ease off it, you can just stop. I would have suggested you try a week or so at least, I mean, if you've already got them it couldn't hurt. And if nothing fuck em. And their stupid commercials.
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« Reply #242 on: December 18, 2017, 05:20:25 PM »
i just wasted five minutes looking for a clip from the Dilbert TV show where they replace all the company's medical care with "wonder drugs" call PLAH-SEA-BO

seems like if you want a late 1990s poorly rated cartoon series clip uploaded on YouTube you just have to do it yourself (see also, The Critic)
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« Reply #243 on: December 20, 2017, 08:39:54 PM »
I seriously don't get the point in continuing to live. Even if I ever become happy, it'll become short lived. I can't have children so I can't pass on my genes. The likelihood of me finding love and getting married is maybe 1%. I'm seriously considering ending it. I don't get the point anymore.

There's research going on where DNA from both parents in a same-sex marriage could be mixed. But that's just genetics; you can adopt and benefit from your memetic legacy being passed to another generation.

But don't sit on those dark thoughts. Call a hotline. Get actual help. 1-800-273-8255

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« Reply #244 on: December 20, 2017, 09:09:46 PM »
I feel much better after paying my bills. The extra stress from the bills sent me over the edge.

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« Reply #245 on: December 20, 2017, 09:12:50 PM »
i just wasted five minutes looking for a clip from the Dilbert TV show where they replace all the company's medical care with "wonder drugs" call PLAH-SEA-BO

seems like if you want a late 1990s poorly rated cartoon series clip uploaded on YouTube you just have to do it yourself (see also, The Critic)

I like the episodes with the funny foreign people. :lol
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« Reply #246 on: December 21, 2017, 04:08:54 PM »
Does anyone know if anti-depressants help with listlessness

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« Reply #247 on: December 21, 2017, 04:37:56 PM »
I feel much better after paying my bills. The extra stress from the bills sent me over the edge.

I think the advice to seek help is still valid, there was a lot going on behind just the bills, is it only going to take one more missed bill to send you right back? Happiness can come in many forms which can be hard to see when you are surrounded by very little of it. Depression can open your mind in many ways whilst making you blind at the same time. To find happiness you need to start building your foundation now; that allows you to start looking to the future and living the rest of your life. And not to the past, being able to allow yourself to drop all negativity youve experienced up until now thats put you there and developing the tools necessary mentally to ovecome those challenges.

it's just a recommendation though, you're obviously free to do whatever you want. And whilst you must make that decision on your own, if people genuinely think youre choosing the best thing for you, they will support you.

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« Reply #248 on: December 23, 2017, 12:15:34 AM »
So I stopped Remeron for a week without telling the docs because I wanted to see what happened.

For one: My insomnia came back, it was manage-able and I got sleep but falling asleep (which was the biggest issue before the meds) came back hard. Nothing an energy drink and a nap in the evening couldn't fix.
You try cracking the Remeron in half? At first it was like you described but then I sorta adjusted to it to where I felt like I had more control than the full dose, could let it knock me out, or say "knock me out for just six hours" which has to totally be Placebo. But I'm fine with Placebo, it's a great drug, and cheap.

I can't say anything positive about Wellbutrin as I noted before in here and elsewhere I couldn't ever tell if I had taken it or not aside from the fact that I set my pills out each day as routine compulsion. I guess one good thing about that is you don't have to ease off it, you can just stop. I would have suggested you try a week or so at least, I mean, if you've already got them it couldn't hurt. And if nothing fuck em. And their stupid commercials.

Catching up on this. No, I haven't broken them in half. It works so I haven't bothered with messing with it.

I haven't taken it in a few days and so I have been waking up in the middle of the night/sleep problems again. I'm starting to think I'm either dependent on it or I'm pretty much gonna have to be on meds 24/7 to have no issues sleeping.

I haven't really noticed anything huge in a spike increase with Wellbutrin, so I'm going to drop that this coming week when I go in for a review.

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« Reply #249 on: December 25, 2017, 01:46:25 PM »
Does anyone know if anti-depressants help with listlessness

They helped me with that 2 years back. (And are still helping me with it.) I basically went from staying in bed all day hoping I'd not wake up the next morning to actually trying to get my life back on track.

But as said in Cindi's anti-depressant thread, it's pretty much a crapshoot. Just gotta find what works for you.

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« Reply #250 on: December 26, 2017, 06:27:10 AM »
I've heard anti-depressants are hit and miss to such a degree that some people (the ones that do research) think they're almost pointless. But then why do they exist? And some people do report they help.

I've been exercising my ass off for about a year and a half and I've noticed it helps much with anxiety but not much with listlessness. If I think about how anti-depressants help a little bit, I know actually exercise does help with that a little bit as well, but the volume (or dosage) needs to increase.

But it's hard to exercise a lot, you know? As a last ditch effort I'm gonna try increase the volume. But it's hard to increase the volume... unlike taking pills. I'm talking about exercising six days a week. The past few months that has been three days. I've been doing more since two weeks ago and I notice an improvement and I'm expecting an improvement next week because it takes a while for it to take effect. Which is interesting because I've heard it also takes weeks for anti-depressants to take effect.

Hopefully I won't need to bother with pills.

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« Reply #251 on: December 26, 2017, 07:29:37 AM »
The anti-depressants take something like two weeks to a month to work properly. And at first they might actually make you feel worse.

Just make sure that's the exercise is actually helping and that it isn't just that you're afraid of taking the pills. Cause you might be hamstringing yourself in that case.

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« Reply #252 on: December 26, 2017, 08:21:11 AM »
Well I wanted pills but I went to my doctor and she basically refused so I was like fuck it nevermind. :doge But I'm seeing a new shrink next month so if I still want 'em I can ask then.

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« Reply #253 on: December 27, 2017, 03:02:16 AM »
Did the doctor tell you why she wouldn't ? Pills can help but shouldn't be given lightly. She might have a point.
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« Reply #254 on: December 27, 2017, 05:36:25 AM »
Yeah she did but it doesn't really matter anymore. I think she was wrong but whatever.

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« Reply #256 on: January 09, 2018, 12:14:33 AM »
I saw your post beb and I have nothing to add other than empathizing with a lot of what you said. The blurred lines of sexual attraction probably bothers me the least, but that one's only a "problem" in the sense that I'd get disowned if I ever talked about it  :doge

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« Reply #257 on: January 09, 2018, 12:22:19 AM »
I glmpsed it earlier and didn't get to see it in full because I was exhausted and wanted to come back to it, and I'm frankly disappointed you've deleted it. You need help. We are vulnerable in this thread. At least try to trust us.

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« Reply #259 on: January 09, 2018, 02:25:41 AM »
It's okay. There's ways to hide things without outright deleting them. Do you mind writing a summary of what you originally wrote?

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« Reply #260 on: January 09, 2018, 02:30:24 AM »
I don't even know outside some general points. It was literally just a train of thoughts. It's ok though, I'll get those thoughts again and will post stuff again as I always do every so often in this thread.

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« Reply #261 on: January 09, 2018, 05:57:41 PM »
 I read it all, and empathized with it.

Youíre a sweet, kind, and caring man. You are in touch enough with your own feelings that you recognize attraction in many forms. I have that, too Thatís a gift, not a problem. Or, rather, it is whatever your thinking makes it out to be, to paraphrase Mark Twain.

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« Reply #262 on: January 15, 2018, 08:58:29 PM »
I wrote about when I planned to kill myself in 2016 and what happened after.

I haven't taken the time to write anything in so long and I feel like its all absolute garbage but whatever. I'm getting better at being sad.
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« Reply #263 on: January 15, 2018, 09:10:58 PM »
That was intense. I'm glad you're doing better and looking forward, thanks for sharing that.

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« Reply #264 on: January 15, 2018, 09:16:14 PM »
Glad you're doing OK now, my man. You know where to find me if you ever need anybody to talk to.

As for me my temper is back. Thought it was going but the last few years realized how much of my anger was always central to my family and my location. Working hard to get out of here and hope I'm out soon. I'll leave it at that.
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« Reply #265 on: January 15, 2018, 10:45:59 PM »
I wrote about when I planned to kill myself in 2016 and what happened after.

I haven't taken the time to write anything in so long and I feel like its all absolute garbage but whatever. I'm getting better at being sad.

I'm glad that things are better, and inspired by your help to others.

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« Reply #266 on: January 16, 2018, 05:10:46 AM »
Peace man. Depression is a tough place to be and I've seen people never really leave it after years. But we have to try going forward, no other way out. Thank you for sharing that.
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« Reply #267 on: January 17, 2018, 01:42:03 PM »
I wrote about when I planned to kill myself in 2016 and what happened after.

I haven't taken the time to write anything in so long and I feel like its all absolute garbage but whatever. I'm getting better at being sad.

This was a wonderful read (in spite of the content.) You might have some talent as a writer. :)

Thanks for sharing, I know how hard it is to think about this shit - let alone write it down *and* share it. Props man.

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« Reply #269 on: January 23, 2018, 06:48:11 PM »
Have any of you looked into this?
http://digg.com/2018/wake-therapy-depression

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« Reply #270 on: January 23, 2018, 06:55:22 PM »
I already read about that a while ago. The trouble is you have to go to sleep eventually and then the anti-depressant effect goes away... I have no idea how the hell you turn that into therapy. :doge

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« Reply #271 on: January 23, 2018, 07:02:50 PM »
Have any of you looked into this?
http://digg.com/2018/wake-therapy-depression

I rather they make Ketamine legal. :doge

I've heard anti-depressants are hit and miss to such a degree that some people (the ones that do research) think they're almost pointless. But then why do they exist? And some people do report they help.

This is kinda why I'm in the K-line camp. Despite that being a 10 day uplift, I'd rather be on a trip that is good (or bad, depending on the person of course) and able to help instantly than meds that may or may not work.

Currently, I've been taking my meds but lately my disappointment in my life has come creeping back and I've been having thoughts of self-harm again. Which means this shit may not even be working anymore. :doge

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« Reply #272 on: January 25, 2018, 12:35:09 PM »
I've kind of avoided this topic for awhile, but ill do a wee update and stuff.

I made the resolution this year to just learn more about myself, and tbh whether i made that resolution or not would have made zero difference, as ive basically been thrust into a rabbit hole of self-discovery i never really thought was possible.

Bit of a backstory, christmas eve in '98 when i was 8 years old basically was a turning point in my life of trauma, caused by my mums situation in life, i never really recovered. so we can say ages 8-25 were a write-off, as ive basically done nothing but get completely drunk, take drugs, do nothing, learn nothing, accrue debt and lose my family. When I was 26 i calmed down a lot, but and stopped a lot of those behaviors except the drinking and doing fuck all. Im now 27. I've never held a relationship for longer than 5 months, and i recycle friends more than i recycle irl. The only benefit is i somehow managed to work my way up in the company im in now, so i have a career i guess - i v lucky to not have lost my job as i went from inconsistently great to inconsistently never around or reliable. . I have been disagnosed with Major Depressive and generalised anxiety. I once had a panic attack, not long after waking up thinking people were breaking into my home to call the police, 5 squad cars to turn up, and noone to be there - most of the time though it just used to be thinking i was going to die from a heart attack all the time.  Please dont read that from a 'woe is me' perspective. I just think it helps if you can relate to anything along the lines of what i said, if not thats ok too.

This kind of started before the new year, and is quite complicated, ill try explain as best i can.

Years back, I started reading some books by dr paul ekman, afte watching the tv show lie to me. There was an interest there in being able to understand peoples emotions using the bigger picture and not just listening to what they say. That dropped off, and whilst i retained some info, i never put it into practice, rather i would infrequently spot something and go "oh cool". That lay dormant for awhile until i picked it up again autumn last year, and I read a few books, materials, watched videos, and kinda just absorbed myself into what at least knew, was an interest for me. My confidence skyrocketed, and my anxiety decreased. I used to be scared to talk to people, now i just wanted to know if they were lying to me or not, and generally i just didnt feel so lost. And i saw peoples emotions everywhere, and it really helped me a lot understand the people i came into contact with rather than always just trying to brush them off.

It was towards the end of the year, I decided to listen to some of the infamous, Jordan Peterson's work on youtube. If theres any of you reading who doesnt know who he is, he is the clincal psychologist who took a stance against the c-16 bill's introduction in Canada, sparking a 'lively' protest at the university of toronto from the leftist social justice movement. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-nvNAcvUPE). I dont particularly want to dwell on this particular side of Peterson's work, but i do want to say this. I dont disagree with him, however, im in a sense glad that he was erroneously combated for being transphobic in his battle against c-16, because without that video i linked to you, I would probably never come across his other work.

As a clincal psychologist he sets out to help people improve their lives and their understanding of life around them, and when you listen to his advice, its so simple, like you knew it all along, but you can feel everything start to click into place to longer you listen to him talk. Which is fascinating for me, because when you go down the body language hole, a lot of it is common sense, and you feel like you knew it all along, but now youre more consciously aware of that fact. Kinda like when someone reminds you that you are breathing manually now, how you switch from subconscious breathing to conscious breathing.

Interestingly, a lot of his work ties into belief systems and ideologies and religions. Which hes dedicated his life to, and is amazing that he ends up in the position he is in now navigating ideologies in modern society.

I started listening to his biblical series, but never really listened as it was what i put on before i went to sleep. But bits and bobs remained. And from that, I guess i became a more open person - i stumbled upon the flower of life just after the new year, and honestly. I dont know what to think. (read about it here: https://www.tokenrock.com/explain-flower-of-life-46.html), which sent me down another rabbit hole of reading about spirituality and conciousness. And ive went from being atheist to agnostic to full "i have no idea wtf is going on around me". Not everything i read around spirituality i take at face value and put all my being behind to give it such weight. But the flower of life, is really fascinating, and gives some credibility to the notion that maybe things are a lot more fucked up than we expect it to be. I had heard numerous of people Peterson metioned who spent their life trying to reconcile the differences between religion and science, and later heard him say that Jung probably was the most significant event within the 20th century because of Jung's work around both human psychology in regards to religion.

I could honestly write a whole lot more, but basically ive taken all this on board, ive been meditating and trying to just expand my mind as much as possible, and its hard to argue that im even the same person i was 6 months ago, because I feel different. I dont stutter or stumble in conversation, i can go after what i want without fear, just an hour ago i went to the shop and genuinely smiled all the way back, people looked more beautiful and a lot of the stress and worry i usually carry with my for that moment was just gone.

I dont cry very often unless im drunk, but last night i was listening to a uk documentary on Peterson, and at the very end, and with the conviction to suffocate me, i cried over the 4 or so mins of his answer to "pre-requisites for true knowledge and understanding" , which for those suffering deep from depression I would hope would resonate with you just as it did with me (https://youtu.be/EjqXXengN1s?t=45m5s), when you suffer from trauma or continual negative experiences and end up in a pit of despair. We want to end that, by trying to deflect as much negative experiences in our future as possible by sticking to the devil we know, and remaining in that pit of despair. We run from responsibility, because it is the easy option. After the suffering that caused us to be where we are, part of me believes that we refuse to believe that life is truly that unfair and that our time for prosperity will come, even when multiple times throughout our lives people tell us it wont come, we hide ourselves and wait for the sun to shine on the horizon only for it to remain perpetually dark. And its understandable we feel that way. Part of having an anxiety disorder is that physiologically we have an overactive fight-or-flight response, because in essence, anxiety is an essential human trait. The thing is, the things we tell ourselves everyday, might seem like passing moments, but they hold much more weight and value than we give it credit, and our subconcious is a large part to thank for biological responses to our past and present.

I kinda hold the view at the minute that science and religion are two sides of the same coin, and that the universe exists within balance. Something I have went far to long without. Do I know the answers or expect people here to subscribe to the way i view all this material. Nope.

But i will say this, I can feel my potential again, and im starting to no longer feel lost. I feel strong, and when i started to cry at that peterson documentary last night, at the exact same moment it was as if the world burst into colour around me. Even though ive never been colourblind.

There is a path to recovery for everyone, and if my experience doesnt help that at all, then I hope at the very least leave a little bit of hope that growth is possible, because for the majority of my life, I thought I was pretty much doomed from the start.
















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« Reply #274 on: January 25, 2018, 12:42:32 PM »
Panic attacks are fun. First time it happened to me I spent the night in the hospital cause neither I or the ambulance guys knew what the fuck was going on.

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« Reply #275 on: January 25, 2018, 12:52:41 PM »
fun after not so fun during.

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« Reply #276 on: January 25, 2018, 03:12:23 PM »
I thought things were going better like two months ago but nah. I have an appointment next week for a new shrink. I have to assume things are gonna get better but I don't know how many countless times in my life I've thought 'things will get better' and things didn't get better. But this time, from a logical point of view, things will get better. I am goddamned tired of being depressed, not being able to do shit, having days and weeks and months go by with no progress.

But still. 2018 will be my year, brehs.

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Let's just ignore I said the same thing for 2016 and 2017 :doge

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« Reply #277 on: January 26, 2018, 04:29:15 AM »
Luckily we Dutch folks got that new campaign by the government.

"Hey! Laten we er over praten."

Amazing ad by people that seem to think having a shit day is the same as having chronic depression/major depression. It's like one of my female friends going: "Go do some fun stuff." Yeah thanks, I never thought of trying that before.

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« Reply #278 on: January 26, 2018, 05:24:33 AM »
Keep an open mind though and consider you may be your own worst enemy.

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« Reply #279 on: January 26, 2018, 04:31:19 PM »
Not sure if this thread doubles as an anger management thread. Tangentially related.

Our office starts a 3 weeks 7-8 figure trial this week and 2 of our 3 attorneys are on that full time. Since I'm the only attorney left, I'm doing my own cases, handling all new inquiries with potential clients and I'm picking up all the cases from the other 2 attorneys since they can't get to anything. 3 attorneys worth of work/deadlines with 1 attorney is  :noooo

I'm running litigation deadlines on 6 cases today while fielding phones/emails since everyone wants priority and to be addresses now since they are all urgent immediate items. I really wish I had a punching bag in my office for times like this to destress. Took a jog at lunch and been trying to mediate breathe in 3 min breaks here and there. Just way too much all at once, I'm handling shit in the most appropriate/efficient order at 200mph and everyone needs to just chill.

Worst part is we're only a few days into this trial, so pretty much expect the next few weeks to be the worst of my career to date!  :-\

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« Reply #280 on: February 13, 2018, 03:50:37 AM »
Had the worst job interview of my life today. It was a group interview. By group, I mean they interviewed four of us at the same time. The woman after me stood up when introducing herself. She was the only one to do so. So I was immediately showed up. I ended up getting anxious because I was comparing myself constantly to the others at the interview. I couldnít think in my feet and it got to the point where I had trouble breathing during anquestion. I said,ĒI canít do thisĒ and walked out of the interview. I havenít been that embarrassed in a long time. Really bad day.

On a plus side, Iím giving up alcohol for lent. I hope itíll help because Iím a light alcoholic these days.

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« Reply #281 on: February 13, 2018, 07:13:15 AM »
Hang in there. You'll get a better situation. Person who stood up was definitely one-upping, so don't let it bother you. She may have even done herself in that way.

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« Reply #282 on: February 14, 2018, 02:06:33 AM »
my weight dropped fairly severely a couple months ago because of a bad period where i slept a lot rather than exist when i didn't have to, it doesn't help that four or five pound swings daily have been normal for me as long as i can remember between daily "full" and "fast" points, nor that i've ever had a weight issue to where i could eat huge amounts of shit (not literal tvc) and not really break significantly from this cycle of upper and lower bounds, so i've never had to actually "think" about what i eat and how and definitely never when except for a few periods where i was eating too much of the same thing or drinking too much and needed a slight adjustment once a week to return to the cycle

last time i went to my psychiatrist anxiety over it screwed me up that week and really for that first period, so i was up a little, but he wanted more (no demi)

been doing better about it, mainly with little things like adding some bread or whatever rather than upending the apple cart (and eating all the apples...and the cart), then of course with an appointment coming up this week, i get the flu and can't keep anything down for two days and had to take it easy for another, while getting extra rest, of course i did! :lol

his suggestion has been trying an appetite stimulant but like that's not the problem exactly, it's treating symptoms more i think, like maybe i've just capped out my anti-depressant again and need to change all of that setup, actually i'm glad i wrote this post for no reason other than benji being benji because i hadn't really considered approaching it from that angle, focused on the diet top layer when maybe it's time to rejigger the works, it's been a long time on the current everything including dosages

and the worst part? i haven't even thought to make any jokes about how i'm cultivating mass smh, if that's not evidence of a real problem i don't know what is, though they don't really work great unless i add like 50 pounds or something but still


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« Reply #283 on: February 16, 2018, 03:00:03 AM »
so it turns out that he thought i was at a higher dose of my anti-depressant than i was...so um, we're going to try that dosage lol

i also did some of my own research and i guess periactin has weight gain aspects to it, especially if just taken when you go to sleep (which my script is for), whereas the appetite effect is more if you're taking it while awake, also if you want to you can buy like a thousand pills of the stuff for $20 off the internet (4.6/5 stars!) but i think i'll just get the 30 from my regular pharmacist as the doc thinks i'd probably only need to take it until my next appointment or so, my weights going upward but my metabolism has always been such that it'll take months otherwise to get where he wants it, let alone where demi wants it at my routine Bore PM physical

i was reading what people wrote about it on some website where you can review medications which could become a hilarious hobby for me now after what i saw, but most of the complaints were that it makes you sleepy and some said it knocks you out, so between it and the remeron you could probably break into the house through my window probably and rape me and i won't know about it, so please leave a note guys and also you should know the window doesn't latch already you don't need to break it in and get glass all over

the reason i was thinking reading medication reviews could become a hobby is that there's so much wrong and stupidity in them like, well, every other type of review/comments, my favorite one was a lady talking about how her prescription was for taking it twice a day and it was doing fine but then she found out her friend was prescribed it too, BUT FOR THREE TIMES A DAY, so she's been concerned and thinking ever since that she needs to move to at least three times a day and will probably do so starting soon if not right away and that's why she's only scoring it 8/10 instead of 10/10 and she'll have to get more pills for this but it doesn't make sense that she's only taking two when her friend gets three

she should adopt my grandma's method too, her heart medicine says to take three times a day, so she takes all three of them once a day because i dunno, she can't sit around waiting to take pills all day probably, also at 93 you can probably do whatever the fuck you want because you've already defeated that stupid medical science and its probabilities

and yes, of course her doctor said she was showing surprising improvement in her metrics because go to hell medical science you're not in charge here
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Re: Depression thread
« Reply #284 on: February 16, 2018, 10:56:00 AM »
Once you hit a certain age and/or lifestyle I start advocating for reduction in meds and shit anyway. A 90 doesnít need to have 20 meds and is prob causing more issues than theyíre helping
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Re: Depression thread
« Reply #285 on: February 16, 2018, 01:15:56 PM »
Everything sucks.
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« Reply #286 on: February 16, 2018, 03:06:00 PM »
Canít get to sleep or meditate. I kinda zoned out for a few minutes and had this dreamish thing that made me sad. Sometimes I wish I had a family.
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« Reply #287 on: February 16, 2018, 11:58:29 PM »
I decided to not work through lunch today as my mood has been in pretty heavy decline the past few weeks, and worsening this week.

I can't tell you how much better I felt after just sitting in the sun for 30 minutes and shooting the shit about not work stuff with coworkers.

It's a simple ass thing but I can pretty much always tell now when I need to get *some* sun, just any.
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Re: Depression/mental health thread
« Reply #288 on: February 17, 2018, 12:38:03 AM »
Changed the title to be more inclusive, essjaydub style.

Been struggling a lot the last couple weeks with anxiety and resisting the urge to blow through the prescribed benzos I have.

I'm giving it a shot but tbh none of the traditional fixes are really working right now. Exercise, sleep, diet, etc. Just really disillusioned with so many personal relationships right now that it's hard to see the bigger picture. I understand the myopia that depression instills, but even though this is an intensely familiar sensation, i'm kinda in the valley right now and it's hard to picture ever not feeling miserable.

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Re: Depression/mental health thread
« Reply #289 on: February 17, 2018, 01:16:11 AM »
Any hobbies?

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« Reply #290 on: February 17, 2018, 02:45:24 AM »
Any hobbies?

Lying on my busted, back-breaking futon, staring at the ceiling.
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« Reply #291 on: February 17, 2018, 05:37:55 PM »
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« Reply #292 on: February 17, 2018, 09:12:25 PM »
Iíve barely gotten out of bed the past four days. I feel really defeated.
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Re: Depression/mental health thread
« Reply #293 on: February 17, 2018, 09:54:52 PM »
Lost my atm card today which was amazing to see how my mood which was shakey at the start of the day cratered thanks to this inconvenience. Been just in the pits last four or five days. It's like you're doing good, or trying to but sometimes the world is like "no fam plz go reflect quietly and remember the face of your father" or some shit. I'm mad at no one but myself.

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« Reply #294 on: February 17, 2018, 10:17:12 PM »
i also did some of my own research and i guess periactin has weight gain aspects to it, especially if just taken when you go to sleep (which my script is for), whereas the appetite effect is more if you're taking it while awake, also if you want to you can buy like a thousand pills of the stuff for $20 off the internet (4.6/5 stars!) but i think i'll just get the 30 from my regular pharmacist as the doc thinks i'd probably only need to take it until my next appointment or so, my weights going upward but my metabolism has always been such that it'll take months otherwise to get where he wants it, let alone where demi wants it at my routine Bore PM physical

Last time I was on antidepressants I gained like 30lbs in 2 months but I was also eating like shit because itís an easy vice to self medicate with.

I decided to not work through lunch today as my mood has been in pretty heavy decline the past few weeks, and worsening this week.

I can't tell you how much better I felt after just sitting in the sun for 30 minutes and shooting the shit about not work stuff with coworkers.

It's a simple ass thing but I can pretty much always tell now when I need to get *some* sun, just any.

Iím much more content with where Iím at career wise and mental health wise with this new remote gig, but I definitely miss going to lunch with the dream team from my last long term position. Having coworkers that donít suck to go to lunch with is the easy mode of adult social activities.
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« Reply #295 on: February 19, 2018, 12:17:51 AM »
sometimes the world is like "no fam plz go reflect quietly and remember the face of your father" or some shit.



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Re: Depression/mental health thread
« Reply #296 on: April 18, 2018, 04:22:00 PM »
Depression in full swing again.  Got up at 1 and wanted to go back to bed by 1:30.  Not doing anything I should be doing.
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« Reply #297 on: April 18, 2018, 04:24:04 PM »
Dissertation wearing you down?

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« Reply #298 on: April 18, 2018, 04:47:36 PM »
I'm no where near dissertation lol.  More like road to road to dissertation wearing me down.
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« Reply #299 on: May 06, 2018, 02:09:48 AM »
Put a bullet in me already.
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