Asperger's diagnosis?

[Tasty]

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Last week it was skateboarding because of Tony hawk.

Last three years I've had a cycle.

Game Boy shit  -> Web app shit -> Filmmaking shit ( -> Game Boy shit)

Slowly moving each one forward each time. Very slowly.

[Positive Touch]

I think I might have either undiagnosed ADHD or Aspergers (high functioning autism?) 

It's been really fucking me up in quarantine/isolation with my partner. i don't fucken know. being around each other 24/7 seems to have exposed all my strange behaviours    i always knew i was a weirdo in some respect, but I've been doing all this reading and convinced myself that there's something more than just weirdo going on here. IDEK.

even if I get diagnosed it's not like you can get treated for autism anyway

i also suspect i have some kind of autism, but yeah tests are expensive and in the end it doesn't feel like it matters because all the groups/literature are for parents of kids with autism. looking into adhd is much easier and you can start trying meds if you want to. some therapy in general might not hurt either if your normal behaviors are causing problems in your relationship.

[remy]

What are your "strange behaviors?"

I looked at a list of adult autism signs

* finding it hard to understand what others are thinking or feeling-> i often have to ask lots of questions/dont get stuff people say. my girlfriend gets frustrated that I can't intuit her emotions
* difficulties initiating social interactions and maintaining an interaction -> I almost literally never sent a 1st text throughout HS and find it mega hard to maintain conversations without inadvetantly closing things off, to the point where i sometimes pop a vein thinking about how to keep things alive
* may not respond in the way that is expected in a social interaction
* a preference for routines and schedules – disruption of a routine can result in stress or anxiety -> This one is kinda not me. but IDK.
specialised fields of interest or hobbies. -> I mean posting on videogame forums is nuff said here. But even then I get really sub obsessed with specific games (lately sfv/PSO2/SSBU) and before covid shut the gym i was OBSESSED with weightlifing
* getting very anxious about social situations -> yeah. just very yeah
* finding it hard to make friends or preferring to be on your own -> for awhile I had like 2 friends, last year I had zero friends other than my partner and her friends, and now I have like one friend
* seeming blunt, rude or not interested in others without meaning to -> literally me
* liking to plan things carefully before doing them ->same
* noticing small details, patterns, smells or sounds that others do not -> me talking about movies/games
* avoiding getting too close to other people, or getting very upset if someone touches or gets too close to you -- yep yep

I have, in the past had a couple 0-100 moments when a couple people are talking at me where I just lost my shit that kinda sounds like autism meltdowns?  also think I have the "sound sensitivity/overload" thing because I spent a long ass time 2 days ago trying to silence my fridge and I can't sleep if I can hear a clock ticking.

https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/autism/signs/adults/
https://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/health/ConditionsAndTreatments/autism-spectrum-disorder-and-adults

i also suspect i have some kind of autism, but yeah tests are expensive and in the end it doesn't feel like it matters because all the groups/literature are for parents of kids with autism. looking into adhd is much easier and you can start trying meds if you want to. some therapy in general might not hurt either if your normal behaviors are causing problems in your relationship.

Yeah dude, I don't really know what to do. I think I want to try counselling at the very least because being has fucking sucked ass lately.