Definitely prefer having a g/f to being single, as long as I still get my free time, and she is interested in things I want to do from time to time. My last girlfriend was great on the former, bad on the latter... and the one before that (Jesus Freak) was bad on the former, good on the latter - she liked me enough to want to go with me to WMC and Otakon
- I could imagine her at Otakon... "Hey Lukey-pookey, let's go see this Bible Black movie they're showing! It sounds interesting!"
What's gonna happen is the same as always, I fear. Gonna meet a lot of different girls, including some of them I instantly like and feel would be a good fit in terms of personality... those girls turn out to not be interested, the ones I want nothing to do with are interested, and eventually I just get so sick of dating, say "fuck it" and settle for whatever's out there, regardless of how well we get along.
Yeah, I feel a ton of pressure from dating and in the past it's really affected my self-esteem. When you date around a lot and the only ones who seem to be biting are girls you're not interested in at all, it sucks. Trying my best to not let that get me down anymore, not to let myself be defeated, but it's kinda hard. I gotta think like John Cena, or a shounen protagonist, and "Never give up".
