Anyways, I feel the need to clarify because Valkyrie didn't take my posts well and no one knows what I'm talking about.
I readwrote this elsewhere. I hope it is informative.
"Let's talk about sex drives.
I hate to stereotype but it's the only way I know how to communicate this. Off of hormones, with T as the main hormone, I have a sharp urge for "release". I call this male sex drive. The sexual urge to want to come is constant. If I see someone I'm attracted to I'm obsessed with it until I get my need for release satisfied. Either this starts a chase to try and have sex with them or it ends with me masturbating. Since I'm off of E and was off anti-androgen, since I've been on both for years with T suppressed at cis woman levels, being without hormones caused a spike in T. Last month this resulted in me masturbating four times in a day once. It is awful, dysphoric, and utterly disgusting to me. It makes me want to remove my penis yesterday. I feel like a slave to my body. I'm enticed to come even if I don't want to because my body (hormones) demands release. Every time it happens I end up crying after.
On estrogen with blocked T, we have what I like to call - and I hope this does not offend - female sex drive. In that I'll get horny after checking out a guys muscles, or his cute smile, or his swagger or whatever. There's no guarantee that I want to fuck him but I'll definitely be turned on. But here's the thing, unlike male sex drive, I can appreciate it and then let it go. It doesn't rule my thoughts and the sex drive is no longer about release. Yet at the same time, if I truly want to I can control my sexual urges when turned on to become far more powerful than any male sex urge I've ever had. I tend to get horny less frequently on E, but when I do it can be more powerful than off hrt without controlling my life. The great thing about it is that it's not even necessarily about release, or cumming, like with testosterone. I can get an ice cube from the freezer and play with my nipples. It'll feel really, really good and then I can put it up any time I want.
I feel like a slave to my body off hormones.
What is your experience with your sex drive?"
Hopefully it's informative. And Lager's still a fucking cunt.
TLDR: T is poison; Lager is cunt.