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General => The Superdeep Borehole => Topic started by: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 12:29:09 AM

Title: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 12:29:09 AM: (http://a6.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/476227_3302888247379_1123143824_32632747_128078929_o.jpg)

Hey guys, this is going to get kinda long but hear me out. I need support from you all because I'm not doing too well after Sunday night. Honestly I'm still not sure if my left wrist is broken or fractured so I'm just going to copy and paste things I've typed up on Facebook to my close-knit group of friends until I feel like actually typing more when it isn't painful. The above image is from my freakout of rage and bloodlust which you'll read about in my Facebook copy+pastes. I basically was either going to murder my neighbor or injure myself. Fortunately out of those two shitty, alcohol-fueled options, I chose myself. I went to the bathroom mirror and didn't like who I saw looking back at me so I attacked him. This took place after I may have bumrushed my neighbor with a machete and he ran inside to call the police.

Obviously I headbutted the mirror along with punching the hell out of it in my drunken stupor. My girlfriend flipped out and called my parents at 2:30 in the morning so they were able to make it to us when the ambulance came for me after the police finished with me ($570 charge for a substance) but I'm lucky they didn't just take me to prison. After I finished beating "myself" up in the mirror I tried to set myself on fire with butane lighter. I have no idea why. Alcohol is a terrible substance to have too much of. Along with the $575 ticket, I was given a citation today for posting a detailed, graphic death threat on Facebook for my neighbor. My girlfriend's older sister is a stupid bitch and went over to his house to show him it, which then prompted the police to wait for my parents and myself to come to the house to get my belongings (girlfriend had already taken her things out this morning). My friend who is a police officer informed me that I can take a $600+ (PTI) to get the offense expunged from my record so it won't come up on any background searches for jobs in the future.

Here is a set of pictures of my arm in its current condition. Keep in mind moving my wrist is very painful so I believe I may have fractured it (the shitty ER just sewed me up, gave me a CT scan, and sent me on my way. They didn't even bother X-Raying my wrist like I wanted. Of course I believe my BAC level was at a .29 when the legal limit is .08 so whatever.

Wide-angle view with bonus of possible broken wrist.

(http://a4.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc7/458163_3304290522435_1087055485_o.jpg)

Stitches at the bottom.

(http://a5.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/459708_3304297042598_1123143824_32633829_1517870269_o.jpg)

Stitches at the top.

(http://a8.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/461730_3304300762691_1123143824_32633831_1019599521_o.jpg)

Arm bandaged up with stitches from punching the bathroom mirror.

(http://a8.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc7/467084_3302886127326_1123143824_32632744_2052565241_o.jpg)

I will now post a few of the Facebook statuses I had written out:

"45 minutes ago
So I was at Piedmont's Emergency Room last night and I was wondering...do you guys wanted to know where you can find a lot of hot screaming women? There's a hell of a lot of them down there at the Burn Unit. I think it's on the 3rd floor."

I appreciate you reading my rants if you've made it this far. I do still love my girlfriend and I want her to get over herself because of this one incident. We have been together for 3 years, living together for 3 years, and I have never, EVER been violent or laid a finger on her. She claims she's too afraid to live with me and that I need to get help before she's comfortable with us being together again. I do have a doctor's appointment on June 6th, so we'll see.

I honestly have no idea anymore though. My life went to shit in a single night.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Great Rumbler on May 29, 2012, 12:36:06 AM: Geez, dude. :-\
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Eel O'Brian on May 29, 2012, 12:41:38 AM: Was this a reaction to combining alcohol with your medication?
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Shaka Khan on May 29, 2012, 12:45:46 AM: Oh Tyler, bro... You're breaking my heart and getting me teary-eyed.

That's almost too much damage from mere alcohol consumption.
Title: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 12:49:46 AM: It was. I will not be drinking again in a long while, at least until I'm off the klonopins. I was given too many free shots for looking like I'm 12 when I only planned on having 2 beers.

I had friends drop me off at the house and my redneck, racist, bigot neighbor (who I shouldn't talk about because I'm probably on some sort of Internet Rock Hill Police Watch List for threatening to kill him with all the details and my methodology planned out onto Facebook, which I THOUGHT was private until I realized stupid bitch older sisters like to snitch, fuck her sister in the face) came out and claimed we were being too loud.

At this point, I had enough liquid (cou)rage in me to finally put an end to the bigotry and hate this old fuck spews on a daily basis. Of course, he ran into his house like the little racist bitch he is so I wasn't able to use my machete like I planned on. The friends I was with dipped the hell out after they saw me go into alcoholic Rambo mode.

The girlfriend was crying and trying to get me to stop after I realized I was going to be able to carry out my mission to punish a sinner so I had gone back into the house and punished myself instead. I'm glad I emptied the container of gasoline I was using for my lawn mower or else I may not be posting this to you guys right now.

Honestly you'd probably never about me again or even bat an eyelash as to who that "child-looking FatalT" guy went to. I typed this all out on my phone by the way which feels much better than a keyboard considering all you're using is two fingers and no wrist movements.

I need help. Probably. With anger issues. Thanks for your time guys.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: pilonv1 on May 29, 2012, 12:51:36 AM: Glad you're planning to keep off the liquor, it's no good. Hope you recover and get the help you need. The first bit is hard but when you come out the other side it's amazing how easy it seemed.
Title: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 12:55:15 AM: Quote from: pilonv1 on May 29, 2012, 12:51:36 AM
Glad you're planning to keep off the liquor, it's no good. Hope you recover and get the help you need. The first bit is hard but when you come out the other side it's amazing how easy it seemed.

To be honest I rarely ever drink. Unfortunately when I do, however, I don't limit myself. Keel in mind this problem only happens at bars. At home, at the end of the day, I can have just one beer and no desire to get blitzed at all.

I won't be drinking ANY sort of alcohol for a long while though, I assure you. I just want my girlfriend, puppy dog, and kitty cat back! :'(
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Shaka Khan on May 29, 2012, 12:55:49 AM: I wish you'd find a sooner appointment. The 6th is almost too far, and you're having way too many loud thoughts that need to be sorted out.

"My mission to punish a sinner"... are you retelling what you were thinking that night or is this what's going in your head right now? :-\
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Eel O'Brian on May 29, 2012, 12:57:37 AM: Yeah, lay off the booze for sure and take care of yourself, bud. If you've never done anything like this before people should realize that after a few days, and things will start to normalize.
Title: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 01:00:22 AM: Quote from: Shaka Khan on May 29, 2012, 12:55:49 AM
I wish you'd find a sooner appointment. The 6th is almost too far, and you're having way too many loud thoughts that need to be sorted out.

"My mission to punish a sinner"... are you retelling what you were thinking that night or is this what's going in your head right now? :-\

I apologize. I'm completely sober right now. The hospital didn't even give me any pain medication, just an antibiotic to fight infection.

With that said, I stand by my statement of sending that bigot to the depths of hell where he belongs.

Edit: I suppose to clear myself of delusions of grandeur I should understand that after coming to terms with God and religion, that it's not my decision whether or not this man goes to Heaven or hell.

Last night in the hospital, my parents, girlfriend, brother (Cravis on here), and sister-in-law visited me. My brother told me in all the 23 (almost 24) years of my life that he's known me, I've never made him feel ashamed to be a brother. Until tonight.

Lying on the hospital bed being numbed for stitches and plugged up to IV's had me spouting religious zealot nonsense about sending sinners to hell. I had gone off my rocker. I'm pretty sure that's why they probably tried to get me out of there as quick as possible.

They could have just as easily slapped me in a strait jacket and taken me upstairs to the psych ward for an evaluation if they really wanted to. Honestly, I wish they would have.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Shaka Khan on May 29, 2012, 01:06:26 AM: Just take care of yourself, bro. This is not you. To me you'll always be that happy guy in a panda hat. Stay safe, please.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image He
Post by: Barry Egan on May 29, 2012, 01:07:39 AM: I don't really know you, but if you haven't had a history of suicidal behavior it is very possible that this is coming more from mixing alcohol and anti-depressants then an indication of your psychology. Of course, if you weren't somewhat self destructive you wouldn't have been mixing those two things in the first place, but you probably weren't aware of how bad the reaction to that would be.
Title: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 01:21:00 AM: Quote from: Barry Egan on May 29, 2012, 01:07:39 AM
I don't really know you, but if you haven't had a history of suicidal behavior it is very possible that this is coming more from mixing alcohol and anti-depressants then an indication of your psychology. Of course, if you weren't somewhat self destructive you wouldn't have been mixing those two things in the first place, but you probably weren't aware of how bad the reaction to that would be.

About two years ago I got onto Lexapro. I was on that for a year until I felt like it had no effect anymore. Then the doctors prescribed me Zoloft. I was on that for about three quarters of a year until I realized it was doing piss all for me.

A little over a month ago (the June 6th appointment is my 6 week check-up) my doctor put me on Celexa and klonopins. I had alcohol before with the regular anti-depressants so I thought I would be fine with the klonopins as well.

Wrong. Those little pink pills are your worst enemy when it comes to alcohol. I was never an angry, violent drunk. Ever. I'm the goofy guy who makes jokes and puts his pants on his head, not the guy who beats himself up in the mirror, tries to kill his neighbor, and tries to light himself on fire.

Obviously I now know klonopins and alcohol are a no-no. I won't be drinking for a long time. Fortunately, when taken responsibly, the klonopins truly do wonders for my social anxiety and they allow me to actually connect with people instead of shying away from them and judging them from my old high horse.

I don't know about the Celexa yet. Honestly I just want completely off shitty anti-depressants that take months to actually have an effect on you, especially since I'd like to enlist in the military which requires you to be clean from them for a year.

I'm absolutely sure that a year from the day I get off those meds, I'll be a better person. I hate that I got started on them in the first place but doctors hand them out like they're candy.

Anyways, going full circle, in the past year (after quitting Best Buy and being unemployed for 3 months) I have had thoughts of killing myself and I have actually taken physical action on causing harm to myself.

I haven't kept this a secret with the people I trust and I realize I shouldn't be doing it because it's mentally and physically unhealthy to do. I believe I got all the self destruction out of my system last night though, so no more cutting or attempts at becoming an immolated Tibetan monk for this guy.

I appreciate all of you guys' kind words and advice. I've always enjoyed being a part of this community (regardless of whether I have anything to contribute to the thread discussion or not) and I'll continue to do so.

Had I posted this on NeoGAF, Reddit, or Something Awful, I would have probably been ridiculed and pushed to carry out even more self harm.

I love you guys! :)

Quote from: Shaka Khan on May 29, 2012, 01:06:26 AM
Just take care of yourself, bro. This is not you. To me you'll always be that happy guy in a panda hat. Stay safe, please.

I was going to post that picture again but I can't find it. I deleted all the pictures from my phone and Facebook page that either had my old animals in them, had my girlfriend in them, or reminded me of her. She bought me that panda hat so that picture is now gone, too. :'(

I also deleted all of her friends from my Facebook and went through 3 years of posts removing myself from any of her or her friends' tagged posts. I was quite thorough and cried the whole damn time. Thinking about it now makes me well up.

I hope to reconcile with her but I will never again have a shred of respect for her older sister for doing what she did. When my parents and I pulled up to the house, she was parked in the driveway. She saw us, floored the car in reverse out of the driveway and pulled into the bigot neighbor's driveway to talk to him about my Facebook post.

When she got out of the car at the same time as us, she didn't even acknowledge our existence or ask me if I was okay. Fuck. Her. Face. My parents agreed. See? Now the anger is back and the tears are gone. We're okay now.

I'm going to leave this thread alone until tomorrow so more people can add input to it but I believe I got most of my issues and necessary information about the situation on here.

EDIT: I can't stop thinking of things. Just to give you guys an idea of what a bitch my girlfriend's older sister is, I'll tell you this. Her mother and father are going through a rough divorce (just started it less than a year ago) because the father has a very slowly moving form of MS that's literally eating his body alive and the mother is too big of a cunt to stay by his side until he dies.

So now the mother has instigated a feud between the three daughters to pick sides. You either be with your dad or you be with me. The older sister chose the mother and has the same selfish bitch attitude that she does. My girlfriend saw through all the bullshit and has been trying to stay neutral through it all.

The younger sister is taking this opportunity to get herself into all sorts of trouble since she basically has no parental supervision whatsoever. If the mother punishes her for smoking weed, possibly sucking millions of dicks, wrecking a car, or drinking underage, she goes back to her father until the mother gets upset and begs her back.

It's a shitty situation and I'm almost glad that my girlfriend has decided to move back in with her father because he has no one to care about him anymore except for his mother, who is very old herself. He always seemed bummed out and the MS has made it so that he can barely lift a plate because he has no muscles.

I almost feel like my girlfriend just took after her bitch of a mother by running away from a painful situation instead of supporting me when I needed help the most. No one in the ER calmed me down or had me stop spouting crazy talk.

She stood at the door for about 30 seconds while I tried to talk to her and ask her if she was okay until she decided to have my brother (Cravis) and sister-in-law take her home. I was so hurt by that and it made me even crazier. They honestly should have taken me upstairs to the Psych ward.

So now you can see why her older sister is a huge fucking bitch who I'll never regain a gram of respect for. I'm going to actually try to go to sleep now and calm my mind before I get angry again. Good night Boreans!
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Bebpo on May 29, 2012, 02:03:54 AM: Really sorry to hear about all that. I hope things turn out alright and yeah, stay off the alcohol please. If you're feeling shitty you can always rant here on EB and we'll get your back.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Joe Molotov on May 29, 2012, 10:00:55 AM: Dude :-\
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Mupepe on May 29, 2012, 01:42:44 PM: Dude, T. :( :( :( Get a sooner appointment. I started reading this and couldn't believe it was you. I don't know what to say except that this isn't you. Work with your friends and family to get help. Keep the people who stick with you close and be open and talk to them. You're going to find out who really loves you by who sticks with you. Don't do anything crazy.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: tiesto on May 29, 2012, 02:22:39 PM: Damn dude, didn't expect something like this to happen... I hope for the best and that everything works out for you.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: MyNameIsMethodis on May 29, 2012, 02:51:27 PM: :'( i hope everythings ok and if u need anything lemme know
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Himu on May 29, 2012, 03:26:25 PM: Jeez, I'm so sorry man. Stay away from alcohol, and surround yourself around people you trust.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: T234 on May 29, 2012, 05:10:25 PM: Damn dude. Do what I did, switch from booze to pot.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Van Cruncheon on May 29, 2012, 06:19:36 PM: Wow. Puttin' on the serious hat, here: don't beat yourself up TOO much. Klonopin x alcohol is a recipe for berzerker action. Your stupidity was in taking the two together, but ultimately, the reaction WASN'T YOU as you are. It was you with your body and brain chemistry jacked to nearly impossible levels.

In your GF's defense, she was probably pretty frickin' scared. It's hard to see someone that you love -- that is normally silly and kind -- turn into Mister Hyde just like that, and the normal human response is to seek escape. It doesn't make it the RIGHT thing for her to do, but her response is natural for most folks. I would try to forgive her.

I remember playing WoW with you, and you were a fun and friendly cohort in those early days of the game. Don't squander your life because you slipped up and the consequences were monstrously severe. I'm not one given to platitudes, but look at the GOOD side: no-one died, you got a bill for ONLY $600+ in lessons (I have friends who have made similar mistakes wind up over $10K in hock); and you learned exactly what you CAN'T do with drugs and alcohol pretty early in life in a way I suspect you won't forget. Focus on getting through the sense of loss around your ex-gf and the pets, and realize that you can and still have the chance to start fresh: older, wiser, and more experienced. Own your pain. We are the scars we bear.

(Also, the old racist motherfucker probably had the HOLY SHIT scared out of him. He'll think twice before spouting his prattle! This is a much more appropriate conclusion for him.)
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Purple Filth on May 29, 2012, 06:38:29 PM: Dude.....
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Cerveza mas fina on May 29, 2012, 06:48:06 PM: It's what you do from now that counts man, chin up and take care of yourself.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: drew on May 29, 2012, 10:27:26 PM: surprised this is still up

you got a felony now?
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Cormacaroni on May 29, 2012, 11:01:06 PM: Terrifying and sad.

It may not seem like it now but you got off easy, T. Your girlfriend's sister could have made your life a lot easier, so I understand why you resent what she did...but since you say these death threats were sincere, she did the right thing (maybe not the best thing, but better than inaction by a long way). Stop and think about the fact that a man might be dead and you might in jail or suicided right now and you might even start feeling grateful to her.

I have the utmost sympathy for you, and it really seems like this was a bizarre drug-induced aberration that freaked out everybody around you. Don't hate them for it though, and try not to hate yourself.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 30, 2012, 12:17:03 AM: I'm much better now. She didn't have the balls to call me herself (although I called her and left her a voice mail saying I still loved her and wanted to reconcile with her) but had her father call me and leave a voice mail on my phone while I was at work. He basically said to leave his daughter alone and threatened me if I tried to contact her again. I've taken that to heart and blocked her on Facebook along with deleting anything associated with her from my memory/computer/life. Her father has MS and couldn't hold a spoon to save his life but honestly it's not worth trying to reconcile with someone who takes those measures.

I wish her the best in life and I pray that she stops sitting in front of the TV and shoving her gullet full of ice cream.

Speaking of shoving things into gullets, I'm LOVING my new department at work. I switched over from Asset Protection to Apparel and I've mostly been working in the Fitting Room. I can assure you, you will never see more fine ass women trying on skimpy bathing suits in one area in all your life. I'll have a super model girlfriend in less than a month if this keeps up.

Where da white women at? Show me da pussy.

EDIT:

"18 minutes ago
I've cleaned up my Facebook from the past few nights because I'm over it. I want no incriminating evidence on here so please message me or ask if you'd like to know more about what has happened to my "relationship" or the events that took place on Sunday, May 27th, 2012. I just wish I had the last 3 years of my life back along with all the money wasted on rent, utilities, and presents. The only thing to realize is that "live goes on..."

At least I had the balls to make a personal phone call instead of making my father leave a threatening voice message on my ex's phone."

"17 minutes ago
Also, seeing as though she has blocked me on Facebook, I have done the same. Relationship over."
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Van Cruncheon on May 30, 2012, 12:37:55 AM: in ten years, this is you:

<some kid>: "man, i had the most FUCKED UP night last night..."
<you>: "shut the fuck up. you probably smoked too much salvia and thought spongebob was talking to you. lemme tell YOU about one ACTUALLY fucked up night, and listen hard, you little junkie punk, because this shit is REAL..."
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: drew on May 30, 2012, 01:18:46 AM: i'll never understand normal people and girls, how one can give so much of a fuck about another person is incredible to me.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on May 30, 2012, 01:41:56 AM: Quote from: Van Cruncheon on May 30, 2012, 12:37:55 AM
in ten years, this is you:

<some kid>: "man, i had the most FUCKED UP night last night..."
<you>: "shut the fuck up. you probably smoked too much salvia and thought spongebob was talking to you. lemme tell YOU about one ACTUALLY fucked up night, and listen hard, you little junkie punk, because this shit is REAL..."

I like the way you think! I'll be 34 at that age.

EDIT: I have to admit, I quoted that on Facebook as from "an internet forum friend" because it had me laughing out loud for the past few minutes.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Verdigris Murder on June 04, 2012, 04:20:39 PM: Quote from: FatalT on May 29, 2012, 12:29:09 AM
(http://a6.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/476227_3302888247379_1123143824_32632747_128078929_o.jpg)

Hey guys, this is going to get kinda long but hear me out. I need support from you all because I'm not doing too well after Sunday night. Honestly I'm still not sure if my left wrist is broken or fractured so I'm just going to copy and paste things I've typed up on Facebook to my close-knit group of friends until I feel like actually typing more when it isn't This took place after I
may have bumrushed my neighbor with a machete
and he ran inside to call the police.

Obviously I headbutted the mirror along with punching the hell out of it in my drunken stupor. My girlfriend flipped out and called my parents at 2:30 in the morning so they were able to make it to us when the ambulance came for me after the police finished with me ($570 charge for a substance) but I'm lucky they didn't just take me to prison. After I finished beating "myself" up in the mirror I tried to set myself on fire with butane lighter. I have no idea why. Alcohol is a terrible substance to have too much of. Along with the $575 ticket, I was given a citation today for posting a detailed, graphic death threat on Facebook for my neighbor. My girlfriend's older sister is a stupid bitch and went over to his house to show him it, which then prompted the police to wait for my parents and myself to come to the house to get my belongings (girlfriend had already taken her things out this morning). My friend who is a police officer informed me that I can take a $600+ (PTI) to get the offense expunged from my record so it won't come up on any background searches for jobs in the future.

Here is a set of pictures of my arm in its current condition. Keep in mind moving my wrist is very painful so I believe I may have fractured it (the shitty ER just sewed me up, gave me a CT scan, and sent me on my way. They didn't even bother X-Raying my wrist like I wanted. Of course I believe my BAC level was at a .29 when the legal limit is .08 so whatever.

Wide-angle view with bonus of possible broken wrist.

(http://a4.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc7/458163_3304290522435_1087055485_o.jpg)

Stitches at the bottom.

(http://a5.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/459708_3304297042598_1123143824_32633829_1517870269_o.jpg)

Stitches at the top.

(http://a8.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/461730_3304300762691_1123143824_32633831_1019599521_o.jpg)

Arm bandaged up with stitches from punching the bathroom mirror.

(http://a8.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc7/467084_3302886127326_1123143824_32632744_2052565241_o.jpg)

I will now post a few of the Facebook statuses I had written out:

"45 minutes ago
So I was at Piedmont's Emergency Room last night and I was wondering...do you guys wanted to know where you can find a lot of hot screaming women? There's a hell of a lot of them down there at the Burn Unit. I think it's on the 3rd floor."

I appreciate you reading my rants if you've made it this far. I do still love my girlfriend and I want her to get over herself because of this one incident. We have been together for 3 years, living together for 3 years, and I have never, EVER been violent or laid a finger on her. She claims she's too afraid to live with me and that I need to get help before she's comfortable with us being together again. I do have a doctor's appointment on June 6th, so we'll see.

I honestly have no idea anymore though. My life went to shit in a single night.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Verdigris Murder on June 04, 2012, 04:21:37 PM: The big pictures don't really seem to scroll that well.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Shaka Khan on June 04, 2012, 05:11:09 PM: I'm going to put you on ignore, not out of hatred, but because I keep reading your posts by accident and they keep making less and less sense. It's really not fair for both of us to keep this routine going. See you when you get this shtick out of your system.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on June 04, 2012, 05:39:27 PM: Quote from: Shaka Khan on June 04, 2012, 05:11:09 PM
I'm going to put you on ignore, not out of hatred, but because I keep reading reading your posts by accident and they keep making less and less sense. It really not fair for both of us to keep this routine going. See you when you get this shtick out of your system.

Be my guest, friend. The people here who truly care and matter to me will keep me off ignore. Toodles!
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Eric P on June 04, 2012, 05:40:17 PM: i don't think he meant you
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Shaka Khan on June 04, 2012, 07:44:49 PM: Quote from: FatalT on June 04, 2012, 05:39:27 PM
Be my guest, friend. The people here who truly care and matter to me will keep me off ignore. Toodles!

:drake
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on June 04, 2012, 11:49:33 PM: Quote from: Eric P on June 04, 2012, 05:40:17 PM
i don't think he meant you

Oh. Derp. I'll direct you to the new post your pics thread so you can punch me in the face for being stupid then.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: chronovore on June 05, 2012, 07:43:47 PM: You do need to take a step back and reevaluate though.

It seems like you'r blaming your girlfriend for not wanting to be around you when you were murderously chasing a neighbor with a machete. You wigged the fuck out, and there are going to be consequences. I know that you are aware of this on some level, but you don't yet look like you've fully integrated your responsibility in this scenario.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: demi on June 05, 2012, 07:47:04 PM: Are you a religions man now, FatalT?
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: FatalT on June 05, 2012, 08:46:57 PM: I have come to terms with Christ, yes Demi.

Chrono, I know I freaked out and she had every right to be afraid to live with me any longer. The problem is not her leaving me, it's the manner in which she chose to do so. Stealing money, a game I rented from Blockbuster that I now have to replace, turning the power/water off on us when we were cleaning the old house, NOT bothering to help clean the house, not talking to me about it after the event, having her sister turn a Facebook post I made into the police, honestly the list goes on.

I'm happy this happened because now I can be at home with my parents to take care of my father, who is currently in ICU and was suffering kidney and liver failure.

Demi, you can laugh and make fun of me if you want but when you feel like you have nowhere else to turn, you turn to God. I'm not ashamed of it.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: chronovore on June 06, 2012, 08:10:27 AM: Yeah, the sister sounds like a real "winner."

Hang in there; if you've learned from this, you're already on a better path.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: T234 on June 08, 2012, 02:46:39 PM: I had a real, real big fuckup like this (not involving violence, but just as horrifying) recently, it caused me to re-evaluate a lot of things. I did not physically beat myself up, I psychologically beat myself up for 12 or 13 hours without distraction. I feel ill enough to vomit when thinking about how big a fuckup this was and have done so several times. I learned a major lesson, and just hope the situation doesn't get any worse. It could get REAL BAD though.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: tehjaybo on June 08, 2012, 05:40:58 PM: T, I've got faith in you, man. I'm not a religious person, but I do believe in faith, and having faith in someone. From what I've known of you from the past years of interneting, you're honestly a good guy. This doesn't define who you are, it was just the chemicals in your head going haywire. I believe you'll bounce back from this, learning a lot from it, and being able to go on with your life. You're a good man, and that doesn't just change overnight. Especially not because of one accident or mistake.

That being said, you have to forgive and forget, move on with things. The sister, yeah, she's a total bitch. Fuck that chick. But on the same token, she's not a part of your life anymore. You don't have to deal with her, so the best thing that you can do is just say to yourself "She's gone. Yes, she did me wrong in these things, but I'll never have to be around her again." There's no need to continue to be angry towards her. All it will do is continue to make you angry in other things in your life. I know firsthand on this. It's really hard to let go of some of those feelings where you just can't stand someone. But the more you hold on to it, the angrier you will be in other aspects of your life. And then, how long until they roll over into your new job? Your next love? The best thing you can do is just try to let it go.

As for your facebook looking post about wasting the past three years of your life, you have to try and let that go, as well. It's old and cliche, but the saying fits. "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all." The past three years you spent with her have got to count for something, or you never would have spent them. It's easier to be angry than to be sad about such a loss, but again, anger has a way of boiling over into other things. The nacho chick, for example. Every time I see her, my brain boils into a rage at all the things that have been said and done, but all that does is mess with the rest of my day, making me act out at my friends and family, my job, etc. Lately I've been trying to re-channel that rage into something, anything that isn't anger. Any other emotion at all. And yeah, sometimes that's sadness, and reminiscing about loves lost. But in doing so, I find new hope that I can feel the love I felt there with someone else again down the road, once I meet them. Channel the anger into something else, something creative. Build, write, draw, do. You can do anything. I know you can. Give yourself an outlet and run with it.

We've never met, but I feel like I know you. I know you're a good man. I know you're a good friend. I know that you're going to get past this. I know that everything will be okay. This will all pass, and it'll be okay. I have faith in you. I believe in you. You're going to be fine. I know it.
Title: Re: Sunday, May 27, 2012 - A Night to Remember (Warning: Bit of Blood & Image Heavy)
Post by: Van Cruncheon on June 09, 2012, 02:01:10 AM: :bow KENTUCKY BOREBROS :bow2