THE BORE
General => The Superdeep Borehole => Topic started by: Phoenix Dark on February 04, 2014, 05:03:03 PM
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I just got home and was quite hungry so I started making food. I have some leftover chilli and decided to make some pasta to go with it. The pasta just finished and I realized I made WAY too much. This always happens :lol
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People would never believe how much food I eat, especially when I'm alone at home. If I wasn't so physically active I'd probably have to roll myself to get anywhere.
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think
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Gossiping. (http://i.imgur.com/lib8OgL.png)
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Worrying :( Eating tacos :'(
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Yeah, worrying. Probably play too much vidya, too. Possibly related. Maybe. Just a little bit.
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Brazzering
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sit on my ass
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yer momma's filthy pucker-hole
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life
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Procrastinate
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There is a greater list of things I under-do. :'(
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Carbs.
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Procrastinate
I've been telling myself I'll do my taxes for the last few days. I'm going to do it this weekend I swear...
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-GAF thread. I need to quit it for good. It brings out the worst in me. :-\
-Eat too much/not stay true to my diet. My cheat day turns into a binge eating weekend and I need to stop doing that.
-Sitting. I really need to get a standing desk at work.
-Stress out over little things or things I have no control of.
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yer momma's filthy pucker-hole
looks pretty underwhelmed to me; barely even chapped.
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Carbs.
Oh god, I wish I could show you what I consumed on this snow day.
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Drink, eat, jerk off.
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Drink, eat, jerk off.
Unless you are married. It's Drink, eat, pay bills, jerk off, fuck, jerk off, pay bills, eat, drink, jerk off, Eat, drink, jerk off.
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ball out of control
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
Also I go through phases where I'm absolutely sure my coworkers are talking shit about me and I'm about to be fired any day now, and then one of them compliments me or something and I realize how stupid I'm being and I'm right as rain. (My coworkers are great btw, which makes me guilt-trip after I get paranoid. It's a wonderful cycle.)
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
What color are these people? :hitler
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All colors, which is the worst part. :snoop
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
What color are these people? :hitler
(http://i.imgur.com/V2D25kT.gif)
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My dear Andy, your shit is pretty serious. Were you ever able to identify the root of this problem?
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My dear Andy, your shit is pretty serious. Were you ever able to identify the root of this problem?
I'm hoping it's a seasonal thing.
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Didn't you get mugged a while ago or am I totally dreaming this?
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It could be that Ninthing persecution complex weighing you down in real life, breh.
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I hate to be the one suggesting professional help but a little xanax every now then wouldn't hurt.
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Didn't you get mugged a while ago or am I totally dreaming this?
Yeah, in October. But this didn't start happening until this month. Don't know why it would be delayed like that if that was the cause.
How intense are your individual panic attacks? Elevated pulse, tunnel vision, hyperventilation?
Former two, I can control my breathing but I sometimes need to sit down.
I hate to be the one suggesting professional help but a little xanax every now then wouldn't hurt.
Could you elaborate?
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just take loads of psychedelics until your brain rewires and you figure out what's up as you come out of a colorful fog.
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I recommend a dry ounce of mushrooms or 8 tabs of acid. That way, if things do go south, you'll be too gone to do anything about it and you'll just have to ride it out in the bathtub.
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Self-doubt, brehs. I am the human avatar for that shit.
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It could be that Ninthing persecution complex weighing you down in real life, breh.
I was just gonna say something like this but in broken english.
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I eat a lot, and it's cause I cook a lot of food. I don't have a lot of will power to stop eating cause I dont want to waste food. It stems from when my mom and I were on welfare and we had to make some difficult choices about what we would eat. Sadly thats when I began to gain weight and lead to my continued poor eating habits. I've tried to make smaller portions to correct it, but always seem to sabotage myself. I went so far as to get a scale to weigh what I'm eating and while it has helped with making some things smaller on my plate it hasn't fixed everything. Mashed potatoes always come out in different quantities no matter if you weight the potatoes the same... WTF!
I care too much. Yeah it might be one of my more redeeming qualities, but it's usually to my detriment. I think that has a lot to do with how I was raised in a broken home where I try to be accommodating to everyone around me. It hasn't gotten me very far that's for sure in recent years. I try and pause and think before getting involved in situations now but still have that nagging need to be nurturing to peoples problems.
Honesty, I tend to curtain myself with white lies and false truths to protect myself from other people. Again that stems from my childhood and how I dealt with the problems of my life then. It has created a lot of problems for me in my personal life and you guys have seen it here in the past. I've really worked on being true to not only myself, but those I interact with. Unfortunately for me It's seen as if I'm trying to be something I'm not. When the reality is that I'm just trying to make sure I don't fall back into old habits. So I've lost a small bit of my genuinity when it comes to my personality, it's a small price to pay for not continuing to live that type of life. I still find myself having a hard time with it when it comes to irl stuff. I don't like to let people close to me, and that's probably why I have no friends irl.
Doubting myself and my worth to this world. I feel like I'm a piece of trash just waiting to be taken away to the dump.
I'm sure I have other things I over do, but those I think are my biggest problems that face me on a regular basis.
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Re-reading my own posts and checking for likes.
:-*
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blowjobs.
like, i'll try to outdo the porn stars I've watched. she can put the balls and the dick in her mouth and suck at the same time? I will beat her. so far it's worked but one time this one guy stopped me in the middle of the session. i have long canine teeth so maybe that's why
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I just care about sexually pleasing people too much! :(
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Did anyone say jack it? I choose jack it. Why can't I come quicker. I hate life.
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showering
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i over do singing in the shower
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
Also I go through phases where I'm absolutely sure my coworkers are talking shit about me and I'm about to be fired any day now, and then one of them compliments me or something and I realize how stupid I'm being and I'm right as rain. (My coworkers are great btw, which makes me guilt-trip after I get paranoid. It's a wonderful cycle.)
How old are you? Serious question.
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Did anyone say jack it? I choose jack it. Why can't I come quicker. I hate life.
Be honest, if you came twice as fast, you'd just do it twice as much.
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Self-doubt, brehs. I am the human avatar for that shit.
i do this too
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Did anyone say jack it? I choose jack it. Why can't I come quicker. I hate life.
Be honest, if you came twice as fast, you'd just do it twice as much.
No, I'm not one for seconds. I just make the first one a good one, then I'm off to bed. Sweet dreams.
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I care too much. Yeah it might be one of my more redeeming qualities, but it's usually to my detriment. I think that has a lot to do with how I was raised in a broken home where I try to be accommodating to everyone around me. It hasn't gotten me very far that's for sure in recent years. I try and pause and think before getting involved in situations now but still have that nagging need to be nurturing to peoples problems.
This is the codependent tendency I mentioned earlier. I recognize it in myself, too. It's not helping us, and it doesn't help those who "benefit" from it.
...As for food, if you make too much, pack it in a freezable container or Ziploc bag, and put it in the freezer for a day or two later. You won't even have to cook the time you re-heat it. Double win.
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
Also I go through phases where I'm absolutely sure my coworkers are talking shit about me and I'm about to be fired any day now, and then one of them compliments me or something and I realize how stupid I'm being and I'm right as rain. (My coworkers are great btw, which makes me guilt-trip after I get paranoid. It's a wonderful cycle.)
How old are you? Serious question.
22
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
Also I go through phases where I'm absolutely sure my coworkers are talking shit about me and I'm about to be fired any day now, and then one of them compliments me or something and I realize how stupid I'm being and I'm right as rain. (My coworkers are great btw, which makes me guilt-trip after I get paranoid. It's a wonderful cycle.)
How old are you? Serious question.
22
Are you prone to fantasy/scenario building?
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blowjobs.
like, i'll try to outdo the porn stars I've watched. she can put the balls and the dick in her mouth and suck at the same time? I will beat her. so far it's worked but one time this one guy stopped me in the middle of the session. i have long canine teeth so maybe that's why
Can I stay at your place when I visit Texas?
:larry
We'll see
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Are you prone to fantasy/scenario building?
I know I am.
blowjobs.
like, i'll try to outdo the porn stars I've watched. she can put the balls and the dick in her mouth and suck at the same time? I will beat her. so far it's worked but one time this one guy stopped me in the middle of the session. i have long canine teeth so maybe that's why
Can I stay at your place when I visit Texas?
:lol
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Are you prone to fantasy/scenario building?
I know I am.
blowjobs.
like, i'll try to outdo the porn stars I've watched. she can put the balls and the dick in her mouth and suck at the same time? I will beat her. so far it's worked but one time this one guy stopped me in the middle of the session. i have long canine teeth so maybe that's why
Can I stay at your place when I visit Texas?
:lol
Yeah I'm fucking dying
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blowjobs.
like, i'll try to outdo the porn stars I've watched. she can put the balls and the dick in her mouth and suck at the same time? I will beat her. so far it's worked but one time this one guy stopped me in the middle of the session. i have long canine teeth so maybe that's why
your teeth should never touch the dick unless that's what he's into though.
:beli
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
Also I go through phases where I'm absolutely sure my coworkers are talking shit about me and I'm about to be fired any day now, and then one of them compliments me or something and I realize how stupid I'm being and I'm right as rain. (My coworkers are great btw, which makes me guilt-trip after I get paranoid. It's a wonderful cycle.)
Oh hey look, it's an anxiety disorder!
Pro-tip: Buspar is a good medication to start curbing the paranoia because it's non-addictive and has virtually no side effects. Doesn't work for everybody though, unfortunately.
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blowjobs.
like, i'll try to outdo the porn stars I've watched. she can put the balls and the dick in her mouth and suck at the same time? I will beat her. so far it's worked but one time this one guy stopped me in the middle of the session. i have long canine teeth so maybe that's why
your teeth should never touch the dick unless that's what he's into though.
:beli
it was probably an accident
i swear i don't bite
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Paranoia, especially lately it seems. I walk by people on the T and sometimes have an inner panic attack imagining them just up and punching me randomly. Not fun. :gloomy
Also I go through phases where I'm absolutely sure my coworkers are talking shit about me and I'm about to be fired any day now, and then one of them compliments me or something and I realize how stupid I'm being and I'm right as rain. (My coworkers are great btw, which makes me guilt-trip after I get paranoid. It's a wonderful cycle.)
Oh hey look, it's an anxiety disorder!
Pro-tip: Buspar is a good medication to start curbing the paranoia because it's non-addictive and has virtually no side effects. Doesn't work for everybody though, unfortunately.
I'll look into it. I'm trying not to self-diagnose though. Guess I should visit a doctor.
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I'll look into it. I'm trying not to self-diagnose though. Guess I should visit a doctor.
A doctor's visit is one of those things that feel so difficult you keep putting off, but once you do it you tell yourself "that was it?"
Remember that what you're dealing with could be something, nothing, or anything in between. The sooner you do something about it the sooner you utilize your time and energy for something other than over-thinking...
See what I did there?
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I'll look into it. I'm trying not to self-diagnose though. Guess I should visit a doctor.
A doctor's visit is one of those things that feel so difficult you keep putting off, but once you do it you tell yourself "that was it?"
Remember that what you're dealing with could be something, nothing, or anything in between. The sooner you do something about it the sooner you utilize your time and energy for something other than over-thinking...
See what I did there?
:heart