I eat a lot, and it's cause I cook a lot of food. I don't have a lot of will power to stop eating cause I dont want to waste food. It stems from when my mom and I were on welfare and we had to make some difficult choices about what we would eat. Sadly thats when I began to gain weight and lead to my continued poor eating habits. I've tried to make smaller portions to correct it, but always seem to sabotage myself. I went so far as to get a scale to weigh what I'm eating and while it has helped with making some things smaller on my plate it hasn't fixed everything. Mashed potatoes always come out in different quantities no matter if you weight the potatoes the same... WTF!
I care too much. Yeah it might be one of my more redeeming qualities, but it's usually to my detriment. I think that has a lot to do with how I was raised in a broken home where I try to be accommodating to everyone around me. It hasn't gotten me very far that's for sure in recent years. I try and pause and think before getting involved in situations now but still have that nagging need to be nurturing to peoples problems.
Honesty, I tend to curtain myself with white lies and false truths to protect myself from other people. Again that stems from my childhood and how I dealt with the problems of my life then. It has created a lot of problems for me in my personal life and you guys have seen it here in the past. I've really worked on being true to not only myself, but those I interact with. Unfortunately for me It's seen as if I'm trying to be something I'm not. When the reality is that I'm just trying to make sure I don't fall back into old habits. So I've lost a small bit of my genuinity when it comes to my personality, it's a small price to pay for not continuing to live that type of life. I still find myself having a hard time with it when it comes to irl stuff. I don't like to let people close to me, and that's probably why I have no friends irl.
Doubting myself and my worth to this world. I feel like I'm a piece of trash just waiting to be taken away to the dump.
I'm sure I have other things I over do, but those I think are my biggest problems that face me on a regular basis.
