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General => The Superdeep Borehole => Topic started by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 04:44:56 PM

Title: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 04:44:56 PM
I feel like it's becoming too insular, too much of in crowd sort of place. And by extension I feel left out because I don't post very often and due I don't feel like I'm jerked off a lot(ie given praise,attention) while posters that post a lot like mac,esch(see the front page),etc get jerked off plenty and I feel left out.

There's no real point to this thread, this thought just entered my head and I felt the need to post it. Have a good day.
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Madrun Badrun on April 17, 2015, 04:47:34 PM
I feel like you have made similar threads in the past.  I would also point you to my method of self jerking off to sate you.  I really wish Demi would let us like our own posts because sometimes I feel like you guys really don't understand just how much of my posts I actually approve of. 
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 17, 2015, 04:50:40 PM
Are you saying you want to be jerked off?
(http://i.imgur.com/CXQGrqh.png)
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 17, 2015, 04:52:11 PM
I liked that post as your proxy, FM
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Post by: Rman on April 17, 2015, 04:57:55 PM
It's a small forum.

It's par for the course in tighter communities like this.

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Post by: Brehvolution on April 17, 2015, 04:58:24 PM
It could be worse. :larry
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Post by: Reb on April 17, 2015, 05:00:07 PM
Every time somebody posts a poll with like 20 members on it, my heart always beats in anticipation.




I'm never on it.
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 05:00:30 PM
So you don't want to post a lot but when you do post, you want to be jerked off? And because you don't post and aren't jerked off, you want things to change? Noted.
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Post by: Atramental on April 17, 2015, 05:00:50 PM
You get out what you put in.  :yeshrug
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Post by: king of the internet on April 17, 2015, 05:01:53 PM
There's always more people wanting to be jerked off than people willing to jerk someone off. That's just life. Try harder or accept your place. :yeshrug
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 17, 2015, 05:02:02 PM
You get out what you put in.  :yeshrug

Is this what they call versatility?
:hitler

i see you atra
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: demi on April 17, 2015, 05:02:09 PM
I feel like it's becoming too insular, too much of in crowd sort of place. And by extension I feel left out because I don't post very often and due I don't feel like I'm jerked off a lot(ie given praise,attention) while posters that post a lot like mac,esch(see the front page),etc get jerked off plenty and I feel left out.

There's no real point to this thread, this thought just entered my head and I felt the need to post it. Have a good day.

What is this even referencing?
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 05:03:21 PM
:heh
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Post by: Tasty on April 17, 2015, 05:03:53 PM
I feel like it's becoming too insular, too much of in crowd sort of place. And by extension I feel left out because I don't post very often and due I don't feel like I'm jerked off a lot(ie given praise,attention) while posters that post a lot like mac,esch(see the front page),etc get jerked off plenty and I feel left out.

There's no real point to this thread, this thought just entered my head and I felt the need to post it. Have a good day.

Is getting jerked off on the internet that important to you??

I'd much rather get jerked off IRL (in a Y shower :aah)
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Post by: Reb on April 17, 2015, 05:04:53 PM
For some quick e-dap, just take shots at people.
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Post by: Shaka Khan on April 17, 2015, 05:08:42 PM
I really wish Demi would let us like our own posts because sometimes I feel like you guys really don't understand just how much of my posts I actually approve of. 

This could also feel better if you sit on your mouse for few minutes before liking your own post.
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 05:09:13 PM
Maybe you should look internally to find out why you are bothered that no one jerks you off, on an internet forum no less. Especially when you don't come around much and definitely don't jerk anyone else off.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 17, 2015, 05:10:21 PM
:yeshrug Lets have a toast to the jerk offs
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Post by: Human Snorenado on April 17, 2015, 05:11:10 PM
Maybe you should quit your periodic fucking whining. You're like a lame groundhog that pops up, crys, sees its shadow and disappears again for however long.
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Post by: Shaka Khan on April 17, 2015, 05:13:15 PM
Scalp-burning, vulgar Junpei post in 3...2...
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Post by: Reb on April 17, 2015, 05:13:45 PM
Maybe you should look internally to find out why you are bothered that no one jerks you off, on an internet forum no less. Especially when you don't come around much and definitely don't jerk anyone else off.

No, there is nothing wrong with him, it's us.
Everybody he knows gets jerked off without having to do things like you are suggesting.
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Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 05:15:16 PM
Maybe you should look internally to find out why you are bothered that no one jerks you off, on an internet forum no less. Especially when you don't come around much and definitely don't jerk anyone else off.

No, there is nothing wrong with him, it's us.
Everybody he knows gets jerked off without having to do things like you are suggesting.

I didn't realize Junpei and Rahx were the same person! I feel so stupid! Alright, get over here for your nipple tweaking and shaft jerking!
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Narolf on April 17, 2015, 05:16:53 PM
So long this forum remains an anti-hugbox, I am happy.
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Post by: CatsCatsCats on April 17, 2015, 05:17:49 PM
I'm pretty pro hugging box tho
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Post by: nachobro on April 17, 2015, 05:19:05 PM
So long this forum remains an anti-hugbox, I am happy.
shaddup taco
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 05:23:19 PM
Please don't attack me, I'm nice. I'm just shy.

On another and mostly unrelated note, I truly don't care for Himuro and I'm glad she left or took a break. Himuro lately has been obnoxious, shit tier poster and why any of you liked her was beyond me. Shit, I hate Himu soooo much I'm honestly tempted to misgendered her,that how much I dislike her(and this is coming from a fellow trans person). Straight up shit bin poster.
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Post by: Narolf on April 17, 2015, 05:24:48 PM
I thought Supermanisdead was Himuro under a new name, lol...
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Post by: Human Snorenado on April 17, 2015, 05:26:17 PM
Please don't attack me, I'm nice. I'm just shy.

On another and mostly unrelated note, I truly don't care for Himuro and I'm glad she left or took a break. Himuro lately has been obnoxious, shit tier poster and why any of you liked her was beyond me. Shit, I hate Himu soooo much I'm honestly tempted to misgendered her,that how much I dislike her(and this is coming from a fellow trans person). Straight up TheBlackStallion is hysterical poster.

I would trade you for Himuro in a heartbeat.
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 05:27:48 PM
Your opinion on Himu :kobeyuck

Make a thread and talk shit about a valuable poster. I know you got me on ignore too Junpei. So sensitive.
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Tasty on April 17, 2015, 05:28:48 PM
Please don't attack me, I'm nice. I'm just shy.

On another and mostly unrelated note, I truly don't care for Himuro and I'm glad she left or took a break. Himuro lately has been obnoxious, shit tier poster and why any of you liked her was beyond me. Shit, I hate Himu soooo much I'm honestly tempted to misgendered her,that how much I dislike her(and this is coming from a fellow trans person). Straight up TheBlackStallion is hysterical poster.

Now you've crossed the line. :ufup
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: demi on April 17, 2015, 05:33:27 PM
Now we know why this thread was made...
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 05:33:49 PM
And another thing: I like Rumbler and Joe but when they both like my posts in the anime thread it kinda feels like they're tag teaming me but doesn't really count because they're brothers and for some reason, I see it as having one symbiotic person and not 2 separate posters.

So it's like it doesn't count ya know?
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 05:36:57 PM
Your opinion on Himu :kobeyuck

Make a thread and talk shit about a valuable poster. I know you got me on ignore too Junpei. So sensitive.

I don't have you on ignore. Too be honest when I don't care for a poster, I wish bad things upon them which is Glen/Green Shinobi tier messed up but that's probably because I'm trans and trans people are generally fucked up.
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 05:37:18 PM
:snoop
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Post by: demi on April 17, 2015, 05:37:47 PM
I like Rumbler and Joe but when they both like my posts in the anime thread it kinda feels like they're tag teaming me

:noah
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Courage on April 17, 2015, 05:38:15 PM
Your opinion on Himu :kobeyuck

Make a thread and talk shit about a valuable poster. I know you got me on ignore too Junpei. So sensitive.

I don't have you on ignore. Too be honest when I don't care for a poster, I wish bad things upon them which is Glen/Green Shinobi tier messed up but that's probably because I'm trans and trans people are generally fucked up.

I hope you're getting help.
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Post by: Huff on April 17, 2015, 05:39:02 PM
I think this forum needs more hot naked women
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Post by: Tasty on April 17, 2015, 05:41:57 PM
Your opinion on Himu :kobeyuck

Make a thread and talk shit about a valuable poster. I know you got me on ignore too Junpei. So sensitive.

I don't have you on ignore. Too be honest when I don't care for a poster, I wish bad things upon them which is Glen/Green Shinobi tier messed up but that's probably because I'm trans and trans people are generally fucked up.

Self-hating trans, no wonder you hate Himu. (http://i.imgur.com/wmKL5Gb.png)
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Tasty on April 17, 2015, 05:42:14 PM
I think this forum needs more hot naked women


Ewwwwww, no thx plz. (http://i.imgur.com/PyzAw9h.gif)
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Post by: demi on April 17, 2015, 05:43:32 PM
I think this forum needs more hot naked women

We already have lennedsay. BBW quota is at max.
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Post by: Joe Molotov on April 17, 2015, 05:45:49 PM
Now demi is PMing me incestous homoerotic fanfic thanks to this thread.  :noooo
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 05:50:43 PM
How can you be trans and literally not hate yourself? That's delusion of the highest order. I cope with by thinking about as little as possible and sweet hormones but when I think about my situation with the least amount of levity, I simply cannot think of anything aside from shitbin.

But honestly, I think my mood therefore this thread was a result of my poor diet this week. I've been feeling a tad lethargic which is counter to my general mood of late especially since things IRL have been going rather well for me(slowly but surely).
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 17, 2015, 05:55:49 PM
do you like me, junpei
:fbm

spoiler (click to show/hide)
I still have those PMs
:hitler
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 17, 2015, 06:01:34 PM
How can you be trans and literally not hate yourself? That's delusion of the highest order. I cope with by thinking about as little as possible and sweet hormones but when I think about my situation with the least amount of levity, I simply cannot think of anything aside from TheBlackStallion is hysterical.

But honestly, I think my mood therefore this thread was a result of my poor diet this week. I've been feeling a tad lethargic which is counter to my general mood of late especially since things IRL have been going rather well for me(slowly but surely).
Could be worse, you could be  a black republican :hitler
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Tasty on April 17, 2015, 06:01:44 PM
Now demi is PMing me incestous homoerotic fanfic thanks to this thread.  :noooo

Can I get in on this mantrain? :phil
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Post by: doctavius bonbon on April 17, 2015, 06:32:13 PM
the PM game on this forum :whoo
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Post by: brob on April 17, 2015, 07:02:52 PM
Joe and Rumbler are brothers?

Wasn't prepared for this level of excitement on a friday night :whew
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Post by: Barry Egan on April 17, 2015, 07:04:17 PM
This thread is reminding me of when Momo and Magoose left on the same day.  That was so great.  :lol
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Post by: Great Rumbler on April 17, 2015, 07:05:02 PM
This is a stealth-plead thread for the return of Anime Sunday, isn't it?
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Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 07:11:45 PM
Does anybody else hear Crazy Train right now? Just me?
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Post by: benjipwns on April 17, 2015, 07:12:31 PM
Does anybody else hear Crazy Train right now? Just me?
Come my lady
Come come my lady
You're my butterfly
Sugar, baby

edit: read it as crazy town  :fbm
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Post by: Human Snorenado on April 17, 2015, 07:12:42 PM
Does anybody else hear Crazy Train right now? Just me?

More Patsy Cline's "Crazy" but yes
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Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 07:15:33 PM
Does anybody else hear Crazy Train right now? Just me?
Come my lady
Come come my lady
You're my butterfly
Sugar, baby

edit: read it as crazy town  :fbm

Also applicable.
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Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 07:52:36 PM
This might be a long post and some will lol don't care but:


I don't post a lot,this thread may seem whiny but it's just I realized I wanted to talk to someone about my day and I didn't have anyone to talk to(IRL). And yes it may be pathetic, but having some forum acknowledge is something, better than nothing. It's me and my mom, and after certain things happened, it seems she has kinda checked out in all facets. I can't talk to her(I never really felt like I could), I can't get what I need from her, which honestly is to feel like she cares. I know she does but it's hard to explain but I'm not getting anything from her. I get very envious sometimes from some of you, you guys have friends and small or big families and I don't have any of that. It's just me and thoughts most of the day with perfunctory conversation with my mother.

It's not about having friends or family, for me it's just having someone to feel like they legitimately give a shit(IRL) and I don't know how to truly cultivate that in life. And if I were to ever get it, I'd be so needy I'd probably drive them away. Just be grateful if you have friends or family you can truly talk to, you're very lucky. It's not about having a GF(I most certainly did not appreciate the RahXephon comparison). Friendships take such a long time to build and this point in my life(I'm 24) it will be difficult to do so and I haven't had a friend in real life since I was 17. And I don't expect to be cared for or think I deserve love or anything, I'm just so lonely IRL and usually cope with it by not thinking about it. But making this thread brought up all these feelings/thoughts. I feel like being trans did a real humdinger on my self worth, like who would truly want to be around me if they knew.

There's a big honest part of me that doesn't want to be around other trans people because they remind of what a failure I am. And I've told all of this stuff to shrinks before, I don't think they've given me any good advice on it. To think of myself with self worth is to lie to myself and I've been thinking this way for sooooo long, I honestly don't know how to think any other way.  In the end, this is my only outlet and many of you may think lol so pathetic but think of how blessed you are that you have someone or someones to talk to in your life who truly care. This is kinda it for me, that or paying someone to listen to my problems(which is difficult nowadays because I have awful insurance and it isn't financial feasible). It's strange I don't like to post about myself because it brings attention to myself/attention whoring but the only way someone will notice is to post about yourself but I feel I shouldn't because why would anyone care/no would care and I would take it as a rejection of self.

Now I'm still trucking and still making slow and progressive acts in my life. I honestly feel if I tried I could get a GF but then the whole being deviant trans person comes in to play and I get very discouraged. But I'm not gonna give up and I'm gonna try and try and try some more. I just wanted someone to talk about my day(a small nagging tiny little moment) and realized I didn't have anyone.

tl;dr: I'm very lonely but I'm still trucking  :fbm

Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 17, 2015, 08:18:49 PM
(http://i.imgur.com/QfEBYuB.png)

Obviously we crack jokes and make fun of people but overall this is a pretty chill, friendly community. We'd love to talk to you more Junpei, and lend an open ear. We got your back.
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 08:23:43 PM
nah
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Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 17, 2015, 08:26:23 PM
We heard you were looking for friends so here we are.
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 08:28:02 PM
We heard you were looking for friends so here we are.

I get this reference.
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Post by: Mr. Nobody on April 17, 2015, 08:32:45 PM
Who knew the populous of a spin-off website originally dedicated to making fun of the owner of the spun-off website would be so emotionally fragile?  :teehee
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 08:41:05 PM
Who knew the populous of a spin-off website originally dedicated to making fun of the owner of the spun-off website would be so emotionally fragile?  :teehee
How's the BCT treating you breh?
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Himu on April 17, 2015, 08:41:19 PM
This might be a long post and some will lol don't care but:


I don't post a lot,this thread may seem whiny but it's just I realized I wanted to talk to someone about my day and I didn't have anyone to talk to(IRL). And yes it may be pathetic, but having some forum acknowledge is something, better than nothing. It's me and my mom, and after certain things happened, it seems she has kinda checked out in all facets. I can't talk to her(I never really felt like I could), I can't get what I need from her, which honestly is to feel like she cares. I know she does but it's hard to explain but I'm not getting anything from her. I get very envious sometimes from some of you, you guys have friends and small or big families and I don't have any of that. It's just me and thoughts most of the day with perfunctory conversation with my mother.

It's not about having friends or family, for me it's just having someone to feel like they legitimately give a shit(IRL) and I don't know how to truly cultivate that in life. And if I were to ever get it, I'd be so needy I'd probably drive them away. Just be grateful if you have friends or family you can truly talk to, you're very lucky. It's not about having a GF(I most certainly did not appreciate the RahXephon comparison). Friendships take such a long time to build and this point in my life(I'm 24) it will be difficult to do so and I haven't had a friend in real life since I was 17. And I don't expect to be cared for or think I deserve love or anything, I'm just so lonely IRL and usually cope with it by not thinking about it. But making this thread brought up all these feelings/thoughts. I feel like being trans did a real humdinger on my self worth, like who would truly want to be around me if they knew.

There's a big honest part of me that doesn't want to be around other trans people because they remind of what a failure I am. And I've told all of this stuff to shrinks before, I don't think they've given me any good advice on it. To think of myself with self worth is to lie to myself and I've been thinking this way for sooooo long, I honestly don't know how to think any other way.  In the end, this is my only outlet and many of you may think lol so pathetic but think of how blessed you are that you have someone or someones to talk to in your life who truly care. This is kinda it for me, that or paying someone to listen to my problems(which is difficult nowadays because I have awful insurance and it isn't financial feasible). It's strange I don't like to post about myself because it brings attention to myself/attention whoring but the only way someone will notice is to post about yourself but I feel I shouldn't because why would anyone care/no would care and I would take it as a rejection of self.

Now I'm still trucking and still making slow and progressive acts in my life. I honestly feel if I tried I could get a GF but then the whole being deviant trans person comes in to play and I get very discouraged. But I'm not gonna give up and I'm gonna try and try and try some more. I just wanted someone to talk about my day(a small nagging tiny little moment) and realized I didn't have anyone.

tl;dr: I'm very lonely but I'm still trucking  :fbm

Sorry about your mom, but if this is trans related, this is very common. Try to cultivate friendships with other people so they become your family. What are your interests? Where are you located? Do you have social anxiety? One thing that has helped me with this very problem are Meetups. Joining Meetup.com has changed my life. Have an interest in live music like me? Just enter live music at meetup to search for local groups and you'll meet plenty of people who share interests with you while having a blast in your own backyard and learning more about what your city has to offer. Have social anxiety? Join a social anxiety group. There will be other people in similar situations like yourself, going through rough times who crave friendship, and just need a push. Don't think of yourself as a failure. You're 20 fucking 4. All you need is a push and some confidence.

Re: trans. I personally do not like attaching myself to the trans community. I do not ever mention being trans on my Facebook or Twitter with deliberate action. While trans, I want to be treat as a woman and not a trans (tm) woman. If you have trouble identifying  and being comfortable with trans people, fuck trans people then. Personally, I would aim at hanging out with CIS women as its a worthwhile alternative that won't trigger your animosity or lack of connection with trans people. It will also help with social transition big time, while helping you get out of that rough patch. Exercise, join a martial arts gym. It really, really helps and you will make friends. There's a lot of options. You just need to go out there and explore them.

Now since Demi did not delete my account like I Requested because I am a dork who has spammed half the forum, I came back simply to let you know you're not alone and you can hit me up any time, just pm me you're email or whatever in a pm. That is, if you're interested in talking.

I want you to know that you're not the only person going through similar things, and that not all of us have the strong friendships and family you said we do. But that's what talking is for.

Xoxoxo
He (misgendered) muro
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Rufus on April 17, 2015, 08:45:05 PM
I read the whole thing, for what it's worth. I feel entirely ambivalent about my lonely soul status and actively cultivate it, so I don't have much to offer beyond that. You're hereby acknowledged.
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As is your backstabbing of Himurin. :ufup I know she can be annoying, but her heart is in the right spot. edit: Speak of the devil. :lol
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Post by: thisismyusername on April 17, 2015, 08:45:28 PM
Holy shit, Himumu.

Don't leave us. :uguu

You missed me outing Andy-kun. :uguu
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Phoenix Dark on April 17, 2015, 08:47:49 PM
I knew Narlof would bring Himuro back
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 08:52:24 PM
I don't understand I called you a shitbin tier poster, why are you being nice to me? And the mom situation has nothing to do with me being trans or me at all. I do appreciate your advice though, thank you.
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 08:52:30 PM
Narlof :rejoice
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Post by: Mr. Nobody on April 17, 2015, 08:53:03 PM
Who knew the populous of a spin-off website originally dedicated to making fun of the owner of the spun-off website would be so emotionally fragile?  :teehee
How's the BCT treating you breh?

 :ufup
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 08:53:36 PM
Who knew the populous of a spin-off website originally dedicated to making fun of the owner of the spun-off website would be so emotionally fragile?  :teehee
How's the BCT treating you breh?

 :ufup
:heh
Title: Re: I feel this forum is going in direction I do not care for.
Post by: Himu on April 17, 2015, 08:58:22 PM
I don't understand I called you a TheBlackStallion is hysterical tier poster, why are you being nice to me? And the mom situation has nothing to do with me being trans or me at all. I do appreciate your advice though, thank you.

I have no idea what TheBlackStallion is hysterical poster even means anymore after nearly ten years of word filter. As for your mom, what exactly is the issue? As for being nice? Eh, I can be a bitch a lot of times. It comes with being an only child, because you're used to your own way, at all times, and everyone has to pay attention to you. I'm definitely attention whore-ish, overdramatic, and hyperbolic. I've been working on it. So your criticism was noted because it's true. If you think I'm a douche, isn't the best response to be the opposite? In any case, contact me. Where do you live currently? I know in Florida, we have talked about that before.
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Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 09:00:46 PM
Junpei, I get where you are coming from, but you have to find a way to put yourself out there for other people too. Kinda like you just did here, only in real life too, especially to your mom. I don't know what's happened in the past, but I'm sure its nothing that can't be washed under the bridge to start fresh. Unless she's just a piece of shit human being, then forget her and move on.

It's hard for me to put myself out there in real life too, so I get it. I'm just kinda quiet and get overwhelmed sometimes. But I work at it, and when people have issues or problems, I listen and care and am empathetic. I follow up and ask how they're doing and if their issue was resolved. That's my way of putting myself out there. My husband will go up to MY parents, hug them, tell them he appreciates their help, and that he loves them. They get an awkward hug goodbye from me and the occasional "love you too." He's an only child and adopted, and his only family in the state are his crazy parents we don't speak to, but you'd never know he literally has no family. He's created this huge support system for both of us, and has friends that are like brothers. His way of connecting with people is far superior and I will never be good at in real life with most people, but I've found a way that I feel comfortable with and have made some strong bonds with people I never would've expected.

Find a group of people you can be yourself with, and find your way of connecting with them. You can't expect everyone else to do all the work for you. Its hard when you have shit self esteem, and its easy to get discouraged looking at other people's lives, but you don't know what they are going through or have gone through to get to that point. You might have more in common with people than you think, but you won't know until you try.
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Post by: Rufus on April 17, 2015, 09:00:50 PM
"TheBlackStallion is hysterical tier poster"

So what's being filtered here?
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Post by: Sausage on April 17, 2015, 09:04:18 PM
shit space bin
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Post by: Barry Egan on April 17, 2015, 09:10:01 PM
I don't understand I called you a TheBlackStallion is hysterical tier poster, why are you being nice to me?

Peak  Uguuuu~ :uguu
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Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 17, 2015, 09:13:23 PM
The thing about mom is that she doesn't give a shit anymore, like doesn't take a shower for days give anymore, I'd have to harass her about it.  I've tried and tried to get behind her and do what I can but at the end of the day, you can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. I'd rather not say what happened, it's embarrassing/shameful.

Nice post

I appreciate this post, thank you.
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Post by: Rufus on April 17, 2015, 09:25:51 PM
shit space bin
Wow. I figured this out myself not too long ago but had absolutely no recollection of it. Had to look through my post history.

So this is what senility feels like. Spooky.
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Post by: lennedsay on April 17, 2015, 09:36:09 PM
It sounds like she has some major depression issues. Ugh that's hard to see your parents in a vulnerable state like that. Be supportive in a way that shes fully aware you're there to help, but definitely try meetup.com like Himu said and focus on yourself too. Find that balance.

Our local community colleges have continuing education classes that are pretty affordable too. Take a photography class or something that interests you and makes you feel good. Maybe you'll make some friends there, maybe not, who knows. But at least you're bettering yourself and making yourself happy.

Also, if you meet people, don't feel like you have to stay in contact with them. If they're assholes, ditch em and start again. Don't waste your time with assholes. They aren't really your friends and they don't really care about you. Find good people.
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Post by: Rahxephon91 on April 17, 2015, 10:12:13 PM
The fourm is excatly the same. It hasn't changed.
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Post by: Olivia Wilde Homo on April 17, 2015, 10:18:23 PM
I'd say this board has improved since the Willco days.  It's nowhere near as active as it used to be but that isn't necessarily a bad thing.
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Post by: team filler on April 17, 2015, 10:47:55 PM
i wish i posted more
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Post by: StealthFan on April 17, 2015, 10:48:35 PM
i wish i posted more
I wish you did too.
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Post by: Great Rumbler on April 17, 2015, 11:22:37 PM
I'd say this board has improved since the Willco days.  It's nowhere near as active as it used to be but that isn't necessarily a bad thing.

Remember the good ol' days when 90% of the posts on The Bore was Willco and Ichirou and Glen arguing? Yeah, good times.
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Post by: Kara on April 17, 2015, 11:35:51 PM
Hey jun I'm going to try and check in with you more.
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Post by: Barry Egan on April 17, 2015, 11:43:22 PM
I'd say this board has improved since the Willco days.  It's nowhere near as active as it used to be but that isn't necessarily a bad thing.

Remember the good ol' days when 90% of the posts on The Bore was Willco and Ichirou and Glen arguing? Yeah, good times.

this but unironically.
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Post by: Narolf on April 18, 2015, 01:13:14 AM
Wanted to make Himuro Sazh Katzroy, but the spot was already taken by someone else.

Let's call ???/Nelly/FFXV's Beatrix Lin from now on then.
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Post by: shidoshi on April 18, 2015, 02:23:41 AM

How can you be trans and literally not hate yourself?

I don't. *shrugs*
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Post by: Mr Gilhaney on April 18, 2015, 05:21:25 AM
Just post more like Creepy Stalker, he wasn't accepted the first day, but now he's a fully integrated and well adjusted member of the forum.
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Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 18, 2015, 08:25:07 AM
It wasn't the best idea to make this thread, I will try and post more though.


How can you be trans and literally not hate yourself?

I don't. *shrugs*

Yeah but you pass.  I know it's unfair to lock the thread after making this post but it's very easy to love life or love yourself when things are working out for you. I honestly only come across the whole "being trans is okay/i love being trans" from those that fucking pass.
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Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 18, 2015, 08:27:18 AM
Oh no I don't know how to lock my own threads  :fbm
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Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 18, 2015, 08:39:11 AM
I feel like it's becoming too insular, too much of in crowd sort of place. And by extension I feel left out because I don't post very often and due I don't feel like I'm jerked off a lot(ie given praise,attention) while posters that post a lot like mac,esch(see the front page),etc get jerked off plenty and I feel left out.

There's no real point to this thread, this thought just entered my head and I felt the need to post it. Have a good day.

To be fair Mac and Esch fucking rule. Deal with it
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Post by: Barry Egan on April 18, 2015, 08:40:57 AM
ibl
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Post by: headwalk on April 18, 2015, 08:58:01 AM
in crowd? more like out crowd.

PD excepted.
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Post by: Huff on April 18, 2015, 10:33:54 AM
I want to fucking pass. Sounds hot
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Post by: shidoshi on April 18, 2015, 02:24:12 PM
Yeah but you pass.  I know it's unfair to lock the thread after making this post but it's very easy to love life or love yourself when things are working out for you. I honestly only come across the whole "being trans is okay/i love being trans" from those that fucking pass.

On one hand, you're right. If I sit here and say "just feel better", I'm kind of being a bitch, because I do make those comments from a place where my situation is better off than others. And I was going to say a bunch of things, but I've not had the chance to fully read the updates on your situation you've posted in here. So, I won't break out into some long post without doing so first.

But, really—happiness comes from you. I'm not just magically happy because I pass.
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Post by: Himu on April 18, 2015, 07:20:00 PM

Yeah but you pass.  I know it's unfair to lock the thread after making this post but it's very easy to love life or love yourself when things are working out for you. I honestly only come across the whole "being trans is okay/i love being trans" from those that fucking pass.

???

Your original premise is not far off the mark. I hate being trans; I do not hate myself. That's quite a distinction.

And I would say your observation is wrong. Trans people who pass, know that more than anyone, being trans is dog shit and keep their trans identity to themselves. Why? Because the second you tell someone you're Trans is the second they emasculate you if you're a trans man, or if you're a trans woman, start treating you like a man. Wanna tell that guy who is attracted to you you're a trans woman? Either you are dealing with a fetishist who sees you as a fuck toy because he can't admit he's gay or he'll punch you in the mouth. If he doesn't want to get violent, he will still be disgusted. That is your existence. You need to replace your entire warddrobe out of pocket. Need female facialization surgery? Lol, that's 8 - 20k depending on the operation. Want grs? Lol, if we are talking about surgery in the best place to get grs - Thailand - then we are talking 20k or so including travel expenses. Then there's laser/electro for facial hair. Don't want bottom surgery but live in a state that requires it if you want that M to change to an F on your ID so that when you're stopped by a cop during a routine speed stop you're not physically assaulted? Let's not forget losing half, if not all of your friends and family.

Being trans fucking blows. No one WANTS to be trans. Almost every trans I know would rather be CIS.

The people who are most tied to the trans movement and are openly trans tend to be people who do not pass, and often do so out of necessity, because they don't pass. People who pass get the fuck out of the community, because after sweating so many tears and blood and spending all that money and jumping through legal hoops you would have to be full blown out bonkers or incredibly brave to openly, pubicly identify as trans. This is why when Janet Mock came out it was a huge deal, because the woman passes and has lived with passing privilege for a long time. She had no reason to put herself into "she's a cheeseburger" light like that. People who don't pass make the trans community their community and not a stepping stone towards living their target gender BECAUSE they need that sense of community. That said, I don't know a single passing trans person who is happy being trans. I say this as someone who passes, at the very least, I am happy to live in an age where I can correct being trans medically, because if this were any other era I would have killed myself a long time ago.

But this questions WHY you don't pass. What aren't you doing? Being pretty is work. Hard work. No one you see on the street is pretty without working at it.

What's the one biggest deterrent to passing most trans women neglect?

Voice. Work on voice. It will help you wonders. I highly suggest Deep Stealth's Finding Your Feminine Voice. It is free on YouTube and is helpful for achieving deep stealth if that is your goal. You can be a CIS masculine or boyish looking woman, and people will know you're a woman. Why? Voice. Voice is that important. If you would like a more hands on approach to voice lessons, Nina, who owns My Female Voice is an experienced voice coach in Hollywood, who offers private lessons for 90 bucks a month. She's a total sweetheart and just totes helpful.

My Female Voice:

www.myfemalevoice.com

Deep Stealth's FYFF:

http://youtu.be/mO41CpUW7IM

What's the second thing that impacts passing? Weight. The people I know who pass the least, are also the biggest. I highly suggest losing weight. Research diets: paleo, keto, whatever. Work out a lot. Losing weight on estrogen is much harder than on testosterone and for that reason I often tell people who haven't started 'mones yet to lose the weight NOW. Alternatively, if you are skinny as hell and want curves, gain weight NOW. But not too much.

A lot of trans women also idolize CIS women and think all CIS women look effortlessly beautiful and hot without makeup. Practice makeup. I learned how to do makeup from a local drag queen I knew who teaches private lessons and CIS girlfriends. Alternatively, you can just go to the multitude of YouTube on the subject that match your skin tone and get to work. It will take practice. Everything does.

Have you grown your hair out? Are your getting feminine haircuts?

Hide your masculine features. If you have broad shoulders don't run around in clothes with thin straps. Hide your shoulders. Have facial hair? Laser or electro has been covered. Have a masculine body? Do exercises that will give you a fucking donk.

What hormones are you using? Switch types if you need to. Pills don't work for me well, and I prefer injections. Don't like seeing needles in your body? Get used to it or look into patches. Iirc Shidoshi uses patches. The thing about pills is that if you are doing it sublingually, there's a high chance your medicine will mix with your spit rather than be absorbed into your bloodstream, which makes them not always the best. For the longest time I did not want injections because I was scared of shots. But I decided they were necessary for me to continue, so the next time I had a blood test I forced myself to look at the needle going in my body. What I realized is that I'm not actually scared of shots. I was when I was a kid, and that carried over as an adult, but no longer had a logical basis because I'm now an adult, and a shot is a shot now, not the end of the world. So if you're scared of shots, look the next time you have blood test, you may end up realizing you only THOUGHT you were scared of shots.

Continuing, find a good, dedicated doctor. Either an endocrinologist or a dedicated trans doc.

You can't talk about not passing without talking about your hormone regime, your height, your weight, and more. We don't know how far you are. I think you should dedicate more to passing if that's your goal. A lot of trans women think just taking hormones will allow them to pass. Nuh uh. Takes work. And through that work you will gain new confidence and self esteem.
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Post by: shidoshi on April 18, 2015, 07:49:05 PM
Pellets inserted under the skin once every four months, by the way.

And yes, that's all I'm contributing for now, because I'm too tired at the moment to put together complex words. *heh*
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Post by: Himu on April 18, 2015, 07:52:33 PM
Pellets. Right. There's a whole slew of different hormone types. Look into them.

:piss pills :piss2
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Post by: shidoshi on April 18, 2015, 08:56:30 PM
I totally didn't know you had actually jumped into the process of transitioning, by the way. That's awesome!
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Post by: Junpei the Tracer! on April 18, 2015, 09:04:09 PM
Jeez Himu, I already know everything you posted and I appreciate that you posted all of it. I'm not looking to present as a woman anytime soon, I'm okay with living as dude for the moment. No real rush really, I'm pretty used it, in the beginning it used to bother me I was in such a rush to "be myself" but now I'm like whatever about it. The passing thing is just worry for the future, not now. Again I appreciate the advice though.


this thread is way too much about me, demi plz lock.
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Post by: Himu on April 18, 2015, 09:10:32 PM
How can you be trans and literally not hate yourself? That's delusion of the highest order. I cope with by thinking about as little as possible and sweet hormones but when I think about my situation with the least amount of levity, I simply cannot think of anything aside from shitbin.

Yeah but you pass.  I know it's unfair to lock the thread after making this post but it's very easy to love life or love yourself when things are working out for you. I honestly only come across the whole "being trans is okay/i love being trans" from those that fucking pass.

Jeez Himu, I already know everything you posted and I appreciate that you posted all of it. I'm not looking to present as a woman anytime soon, I'm okay with living as dude for the moment. No real rush really, I'm pretty used it, in the beginning it used to bother me I was in such a rush to "be myself" but now I'm like whatever about it. The passing thing is just worry for the future, not now. Again I appreciate the advice though.

(http://i.imgur.com/L6MxRiM.gif)

Why do I not believe you?
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Post by: Tasty on April 18, 2015, 09:32:33 PM
She catching some heat and startin' to sweat, seems like.
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Post by: StealthFan on April 18, 2015, 09:41:15 PM
All you cheeseburgers pass my test :shaq
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Post by: lennedsay on April 18, 2015, 11:43:50 PM
Himu knows what she's talking about regarding learning makeup tips from drag queens. A lot of their makeup is exaggerated but the principles and techniques are on point. YouTube makeup vids from drag queens :aah
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Post by: Shaka Khan on April 20, 2015, 08:16:29 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lu1zSZui8Gc

Bitch knows how to PAINT!
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Post by: TakingBackSunday on April 20, 2015, 11:17:22 PM
I love you all, guys and gals
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Post by: I'm a Puppy! on April 21, 2015, 12:04:31 AM
I love you all. Except you brandnew
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Post by: team filler on April 21, 2015, 12:05:44 AM
I've been posting more as of recently. you should be ecstatic about that
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Post by: nudemacusers on April 21, 2015, 12:47:49 AM
why am I being slighted in the op


I don't jerked off nearly enough  >:(
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Post by: Shaka Khan on April 21, 2015, 12:50:33 AM
#Lezbehonest: You can fart and 22 people would take a whiff like your post. Junpei is right. SLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!
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Post by: nudemacusers on April 21, 2015, 01:12:48 AM
like I said, I don't get jerked off nearly enough  >:(
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Post by: Shaka Khan on April 21, 2015, 01:22:38 AM
Well you know where I live. Pick a dumpster. :-*
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Post by: nudemacusers on April 21, 2015, 01:27:30 AM
there is a white scooter-riding dumpster with lots of interior room just an hour north of me. sorry bb.
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Post by: seagrams hotsauce on April 21, 2015, 05:38:13 AM
Himu back!?
(http://stream1.gifsoup.com/view7/2741493/tupac-back-o.gif)
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Post by: Am_I_Anonymous on April 21, 2015, 09:45:06 AM
Himu!!!!!!!!!

my niccaette

:rejoice