So my job is already like getting fucked by a flamethrower in one end and taking a lit road flair in your mouth as a throat fuck.
Every day im so tense when im done i just wanna go home and black the fukk out. The good news is I should retire soon, so thats awesome - but the last bits leading up to that are damn painful.
I come home from work and im so wired up that all I can do is get drunk/high/whatever and listen to music and waste hours doing nothing but staring at walls and trolling up the web. BUT - that braindead time somehow relaxes me enough so I can get up the next day and do it again (like almost a decade of this shyt) I rarely spend my free time after work playing video games because im just so mind blasted from the intensity and weight of my occupation that I cant even enjoy the feeling of them - or really feel relaxed enough to be able to sit there.
I love my girlfriend but she is a major pain in the ass when it comes to my job - I am already so stressed that my eyes pratically bleed and she loves to stress me out a shyt-ton more with silly drama that is senseless. Thankfully we are moving into a bigger place in October. I only go into the office 2-4 days a week and often work from home. Where I live now I dont have a dedicated office and she doesnt get that im so busy and stressed that I dont even wanna see another motha fukka walking in front of me - much less trying to talk to me. And it has nothing to do with her - I just need to focus and need isolation. The new place has a seperate place with its own bathroom I can work in - yay!
Anyway - I had a fucked up blow up this week - fukkin i still owe like 8K on my student loans. ITs a state loan so I pay it offf as slowly as possible (no interist/financing) like iv been paying $100/month for a long while....anyway I have some cash set-up in a speerate bank account that they auto withdraw from each month. So I guess the state changed the way the take the payments and nobody called me - they werent pulling money from me anymore and I didnt notice because I dont read that statement (not much action to see $100 move out as a single line item once a month) I just throw it in a drawer.
So Tuesday morning right in the middle of workageddon - I got these little 21 yr old cunts calling me from some collection agency like im some kind of debt skipper. They are like freaking rude and getting off on talking down to me about how I was trying to skip out on paying (mind you I havent moved or changed phone numbers or anything) - so I flipp the fukk out and start screaming at these bitches. The first time I say 'fuck' they get all sassy about how they are gonna hang up on me and I tell the kunts to go fukk themselves with office brooms, video tape it, and then mail the DVD to their parents so their dad can watch it as he jacks off.........
So in a rage I call the state student finance office - I tell these fukks that iv had it with their shitty subcontractors losing touch with me, stop taking the designated cash, never tell me and then call me at the worst time and in the worst tome with the aire that im hiding from my debt. This chikka tells me I can just mail the state like 80% of it if I wanted to settle right then and there....so I wire these people $6500 - JUST for the pleasure of them taking it out of the system so I could call these fukkin collection agent dikes and tell them to go fuck themselves again.
So I call the bitch up and she remembers me - she asks if I have called down and I calmly said "no". I tell her to look-up my account - she is baffled as it doesnt exist anymore - she cant find it. I say to her - "I took it, and I took your soul - muwahahah" and hung up.....there is no file on me in her system - LOL she cant call me back, or even tell anyone about be because I dont exist to them anymore....
Anyway - thats fukked up that I was so mad I paid all that money just to get those annoying kunts back.
Shyt is pretty annoying for me constantly.
I need to go take karate again or something.
