I've went out of town to check out a thing or two, and then at the end I've went in some enormous store where they sell tons of books, DVDs and CDs. As a teen, this is something that excited me terribly. But now... I found it pretty shocking to see that I desired absolutely nothing of what I saw.
Since then, I'm pondering the fact that there seems to be basically nothing left to satisfy within my being no matter how hard I long for desires. Anyone feels similar?
I'm not tempted by any exorbitantly-priced good that I can't afford, I don't have some big psychological dilemma left to answer, or to prove myself to anybody... the future doesn't really seem like a far opportunity full of golden occasions to fullfill... just some boring duty to get a degree, a well-paid job and bear with a couple decades of work...
At the very worst, I'd long for a girl at my side to have the occasion to be a sweet guy, or to be confied a position of authority allowing me to change things and make good around me... but there seems to be nothing else that's particularly attractive in the world.
Everyone cries inside because eventually in their lives they want their neighbor's car or gain some immense power, or travel around the world and accomplish something extremely significant that'd give them notoriety or whatever, but these utopic desires make people feel depressed beyond belief. The true need that never seems to get dull and that's the most important to satisfy beyond all others IMO, is curiosity.