Pretty lowly.
From designing elaborate maps that floored my teachers in 4th grade, I find myself utterly indistinguishable in University where chuckleheads outperform me on a regular basis. From being invited to all kinds of high intelligence camps (they sucked), I find myself too lazy to attach my resume to an e-mail and send it to businesses, despite doing very well in school. I get pissed seeing bubbleheads getting these jobs while I work $9-10/hr doing mind dulling labor. What depresses me most is that I realize that if these "bubbleheads" were smart enough to take the initiative to nicely pad their resumes and I'm working shit jobs, what does that make me?
Entering into my last year of University, I did so much scandalous shit that I felt like I got the social experience and the good grades, which took some effort, but I pulled it off. At the same time, I can't wait to get into the real world where I work 40-50 hours a week, instead of 70-80 hours of class + homework a week. I'm tired and constantly annoyed at the pressures my professors give where they demand massive assignments to be completed in short periods of time. I've stayed up past midnight more halfway through this semester than I have in all my previous semesters. Which sucks even worse because my roommates are relaxing, playing video games, and watching TV almost all the time.
I have regressed. I often feel that my glory years are behind me and society has dulled me to the point of being just another useless cog. I suppose it is a humbling experience, realizing that I can't single handedly save the world from itself but just trying to carve out a respectable lifestyle. From being lightyears beyond the other students in my K-12 classes, now I find myself in competition with the same people for the same jobs at similar salaries.
The biggest positives that I have right now is mostly that my health and my finances are well in order.
