yeah, she didn't deserve it, but if she'd take a REAL look at the world around her before letting her optimism gland overrule her common sense, she'd 've seen LOTS OF FOLKS what don't deserve it getting it bad
i understand that she wanted to send a message of "hey, folks are all secretly nice, look at me," but she was GAMBLING, and with a gun that had five chambers loaded. she coulda dropped four of those bullets just by moving her pilgrimage 1000 miles northwest. ironically, martyrdom will help her cause more than the art she was attempting -- even as it utterly murders the optimistic spirit of the venture.
the world isn't nice. the world collectively isn't worthy of trust until we get 100% buyoff from all individuals. until then, we're just animals that are really good at making excuses.