Man, she wants me to come see Hitchcock's Notorious with her tomorrow as part of the Portland Hitchcock festival, this is annoying because (a) I don't know what to wear, it has to be casual enough that it's doesn't feel like I'm taking it too seriously as a date situation but nice enough that I look decent and not like I'm blowing her off or whatever, (b) she wanted to buy a pass for the whole festival but didn't because she's saving her money, I want to just buy her tickets but I don't want her to feel like I'm putting some weird pressure on her or whatever by buying her shit. otoh it is so fucking lame that she isn't going to the whole festival if she wants too and I really wish I could just fucking buy tickets for her, it is not that expensive and I don't care if we're dating or just friends, whatever is fine, the situation just bothers me

every time we have a conversation it's really awkward too, this is really irritating, I want to see her