I'm just chalking it up to old age that I can't feel the pumpkins anymore. Is it possible I've just "outgrown" them? It's crazy because if you ask any of my friends who my favorite band was, they would say the pumpkins without hesitation. 
on tv the other night, while flipping through one of the on demand music channels, i saw a whole catalog of pumpkin songs from the early mid 90s. one of the first songs i put on was 1979, a video i haven't seen since i was probably in middle school nor have i even paid attention to the lyrics since probably high school.
since that night, i've been reallly depressed. i've been filled with nostalgia lately of my own youth :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
oh corgan, you've pushed the dagger right through my heart.