Today, I got suspended from clinic by email. FML

[Cormacaroni]

Yes, but getting laid with hot men all the time...

You're living the EB dream, my friend. Revel in it.

[Fresh Prince]

You and Jin must talk a lot.

[Purple Filth]

I didn't contemplate suicide for repeating a year, but it did feel like the final nail in the coffin.

I've just had a rough life, and the past year has been horrible for me. I've had way too much shit thrown my way, personally and academically.

I'm seeing a therapist for a few months now. She has diagnosed me with clinical depression. It's helpful, but it's really hard to shake this feeling of inadequacy and loneliness.

To people who don't understand how depression works -- it's simply not feeling being bummed out, it really feels like physical pain ALL the time.

But I'm not going to end myself. I'm not going to take the easy way out.

Anyway, I've got the summer off. I'm thinking of going to Amsterdam to do some reflection and think about what I should be doing next. I think there are a lot of things that I should consider changing about me.

P.S. Coming out and being gay sucks.

Was this the start of it or was it going on and this added to it?

[CurseoftheGods]

It was going on. I think it's just that my luck is terrible.

[Purple Filth]

It was going on. I think it's just that my luck is terrible.

oh ok.

Sucks to hear but be strong

[Smooth Groove]

Keep your chin up and come here more often.  It'll make you feel better.   

[chronovore]

Every kind of writing has its place and uses, it all depends on the effect you want it to have. Funny thing, i always get props for my writing and for my oral presentations. In literature, the professor singled out (along with other 4) my answer in the test as one of the best amongst 100 students answers. In his words, my answer was an almost perfect text, only lacking in actual content regarding the specific question.

I hadn't read the book. I kept my mouth shut!

Yeah.  I've played a similar hand in academic circles; it left me with an unfortunately inflated sense of importance and lessened respect for the instructor.  

[Smooth Groove]

I used to write recaps of NBA games for teachers who don't bother to read the homework. 

[Phoenix Dark]

I used to write recaps of NBA games for teachers who don't bother to read the homework. 

Did you write BBC erotica for female teachers?

[Smooth Groove]

You've been watching too many "My First Sex Teacher" episodes.   

[CurseoftheGods]

I used to write recaps of NBA games for teachers who don't bother to read the homework. 

[WrikaWrek]

Every kind of writing has its place and uses, it all depends on the effect you want it to have. Funny thing, i always get props for my writing and for my oral presentations. In literature, the professor singled out (along with other 4) my answer in the test as one of the best amongst 100 students answers. In his words, my answer was an almost perfect text, only lacking in actual content regarding the specific question.

I hadn't read the book. I kept my mouth shut!

Yeah.  I've played a similar hand in academic circles; it left me with an unfortunately inflated sense of importance and lessened respect for the instructor.  

I was like that when i was younger. Not so much now, i actually like learning lol

And yeah my man Curse, you gotta look on the bright side and spend more quality time on EB. I think it's listed as an anti depressant

secondary effects

-anger
-gayness

[Bildi]

Eh they never usually do, sadly.

I'd look for another job in the mean time.

I've noticed that when you're an asshole you often end up surrounded by assholes, who then screw you over.  It's like karma has some grounding in reality.

So, fingers crossed!

[Himu]

Depression sucks. Being a minority in some form to the point where it impacts your life sucks. Suicidal thoughts suck. Loneliness sucks. Feeling inadequate sucks. College sucks. Life sucks.

I got your back, curse.

[Himu]

Smoke lots of weed. It'll help your depression. The only time I feel remotely alive is when I'm doing something I like -- and even this isn't always a sure thing -- or dong drugs, because people are unreliable and suck ass.

I say yes towards going to Amsterdam. Smoke up a storm.

PS: Why did you feel pressure to come out at school? Imo it's a don't ask, don't tell sorta thing. It's not like telling them will make you feel better, on the contrary, people will likely treat you completely different, and you're an Arab so you're already on everyone's shit list. Sexual orientation is no one else's business.

[brawndolicious]

I don't think curse ever said he was discriminated against.  It sounds like it could be anything from bad luck to a teacher with a vendetta.

It sounds like all of curse's depression comes from social reasons so he should keep away from the drugs.

[CurseoftheGods]

Smoke lots of weed. It'll help your depression. The only time I feel remotely alive is when I'm doing something I like -- and even this isn't always a sure thing -- or dong drugs, because people are unreliable and suck ass.

I say yes towards going to Amsterdam. Smoke up a storm.

PS: Why did you feel pressure to come out at school? Imo it's a don't ask, don't tell sorta thing. It's not like telling them will make you feel better, on the contrary, people will likely treat you completely different, and you're an Arab so you're already on everyone's shit list. Sexual orientation is no one else's business.

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me at the start of 3rd year. His reasoning was that he could not deny his religious background or rejection for him his family. He was willing to change who he was to make it convenient for other people.

It really hurt. Him and I knew we were total soulmates (and he mentioned that, we were living together for years), and the way he ended it was very cold.

Me coming out in dental school was a cry for help. I needed help and support from my colleagues to feel less shitty about myself. I know that there are plenty of fishes in the sea, but the way he ended was very harsh and I took it personally which is kind of my fault in retrospect.

[Shuri]

Why did you write this email? You are admitting that you are a complete tool and UNFIT for this kind of job pretty much. You can be SURE that someone is going to forward that moronic email to people in power. If you decide to fight back that suspension, it's going to be used against you.

Wow.

[CurseoftheGods]

I'm not fighting the suspension. I'm going to repeat the year for better experience.

That moronic email was a cry for help. I'm a complete tool and unfit for the job pretty much, but I want that to change.

[Himu]

Smoke lots of weed. It'll help your depression. The only time I feel remotely alive is when I'm doing something I like -- and even this isn't always a sure thing -- or dong drugs, because people are unreliable and suck ass.

I say yes towards going to Amsterdam. Smoke up a storm.

PS: Why did you feel pressure to come out at school? Imo it's a don't ask, don't tell sorta thing. It's not like telling them will make you feel better, on the contrary, people will likely treat you completely different, and you're an Arab so you're already on everyone's shit list. Sexual orientation is no one else's business.

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me at the start of 3rd year. His reasoning was that he could not deny his religious background or rejection for him his family. He was willing to change who he was to make it convenient for other people.

It really hurt. Him and I knew we were total soulmates (and he mentioned that, we were living together for years), and the way he ended it was very cold.

Me coming out in dental school was a cry for help. I needed help and support from my colleagues to feel less shitty about myself. I know that there are plenty of fishes in the sea, but the way he ended was very harsh and I took it personally which is kind of my fault in retrospect.

I gotcha

Was he muslim?

[CurseoftheGods]

Yup.

[CurseoftheGods]

Smoking lots of weed to fight a depression is horrible advice. Especially if you're feeling emotionally unstable like Curse.

Tough it out mayne. No (wo)men is worth the tears.

I agree. I'm going to rehab.

[MCD]

yeah, stay away from drugs and shit, you are better than that.

just keep hanging around, you can do this bro.

[Himu]

Smoking lots of weed to fight a depression is horrible advice. Especially if you're feeling emotionally unstable like Curse.

It is? Weed calms you down.

[Smooth Groove]

Yeah, being weeded out would really help his career go more smoothly.   

[Phoenix Dark]

I gotcha

Was he muslim?

tsk tsk, himu trying to push his (unsubtle) anti Muslim agenda again. Were you raped by a sheikh during those two months himumu chan?

this is the point where tv detectives would start suspecting you Jinfash

[Fresh Prince]

Smoking weed, smh himu.
Make a 5 year plan, both personal and professional. Don't only write down what you want to do but how you are going to do it. You won't achieve all of it nor a few months down the track want to achieve it but it sort of helps.

[Diunx]

lol a 5 year plan? I vote for the getting high/drunk option, the best place to hide the pain is at the bottom of a bottle

[Ichirou]

Wow, so you're experiencing depression because of your sexuality, your love life, and your suspension and Himuro's suggestion is to go get high?  Brilliant.

[Fresh Prince]

Wow, so you're experiencing depression because of your sexuality, your love life, and your suspension and Himuro's suggestion is to go get high?  Brilliant.

or drinking.

[Barry Egan]

Well, the advice isn't that bad by comparison.  Some people suggested posting at The Bore more earlier in the thread.

[T234]

I enjoy cannabis nearly every day and night of my life. I also clean up after what amounts to a twelve-hour-long homosexual orgy pretty much every night. Jizz, condoms, urine, blood, cigarette butts so covered in cum that they will not come off the floor even using a paint scraper, skeet skeet skeet visibly on the walls and all. Nobody expects very much out of a guy that mops male ejaculate for a living, so I can stay pretty fucked up constantly without incident.

You are training to be a dentist, yes? If you are using painkillers, benzos, or hard drugs: GO TO REHAB IMMEDIATELY. Marijuana is not an answer for depression, it is fun though.

In your case, I would say the cure would be to find a new lover. I had an old man tell me the best cure for depression was a fat cock. He seemed wise enough.      

[Bildi]

To people who don't understand how depression works -- it's simply not feeling being bummed out, it really feels like physical pain ALL the time.

But I'm not going to end myself. I'm not going to take the easy way out.

Curse sorting shit out, avoiding the bandaids.  Good luck man.

[Dickie Dee]

Good luck Curse, I'm trying to get out of some shit I won't get into atm, it's fucking hard.

btw, do you know a Ahmad Hussein in Dal Dentistry?

[CurseoftheGods]

Good luck Curse, I'm trying to get out of some shit I won't get into atm, it's fucking hard.

btw, do you know a Ahmad Hussein in Dal Dentistry?

We're aquientances, but we don't know each other very well.

[Smooth Groove]

Wow, so you're experiencing depression because of your sexuality, your love life, and your suspension and Himuro's suggestion is to go get high?  Brilliant.

Looks like someone is black.

fixed

Good luck Curse, I'm trying to get out of some shit I won't get into atm, it's fucking hard.

btw, do you know a Ahmad Hussein in Dal Dentistry?

Dal?

[CurseoftheGods]

It's true.

[Barry Egan]

Dal

Dalhousie University

[Fresh Prince]

Jin is right- I think. If you feel the need to martyr yourself don't. Life is too short.

[MCD]

Depressed?




Smoke weed

[Brehvolution]

I enjoy cannabis nearly every day and night of my life. I also clean up after what amounts to a twelve-hour-long homosexual orgy pretty much every night. Jizz, condoms, urine, blood, cigarette butts so covered in cum that they will not come off the floor even using a paint scraper, skeet skeet skeet visibly on the walls and all. Nobody expects very much out of a guy that mops male ejaculate for a living, so I can stay pretty fucked up constantly without incident.

You are training to be a dentist, yes? If you are using painkillers, benzos, or hard drugs: GO TO REHAB IMMEDIATELY. Marijuana is not an answer for depression, it is fun though.

In your case, I would say the cure would be to find a new lover. I had an old man tell me the best cure for depression was a fat cock. He seemed wise enough.      

[chronovore]

That goddamned octopus is going to show up in my dreams now. 

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:'(

[close]

[Himu]

What the fuck, Curse. Not fighting it? WHAAAAAAAAAAAAT?

[T234]

<---------------------Not one day of my life goes by without being fucked up. Not one, Zero Hero.