Author Topic: Who thinks about suicide? and how often? (Read 1433 times)

lordmaji · « **on:** April 08, 2011, 02:59:22 AM »

I'm just curious on peoples responses.

Cormacaroni · « **Reply #1 on:** April 08, 2011, 04:03:00 AM »

Green Shinobi

choco parfait · « **Reply #2 on:** April 08, 2011, 05:01:51 AM »

It's one of those things that can pop up transiently from time to time, especially when one is in a depressed state.

The important thing is being able to realize it onself and not follow through.

Mupepe · « **Reply #3 on:** April 08, 2011, 10:28:38 AM »

Haven't thought about it at all in a few years. Never thought about it much though.

Himu · « **Reply #4 on:** April 08, 2011, 10:31:08 AM »

when I was a teenager I thought about it.

i was like,"okay, i"ll kill myself but ONLY after I play and beat final fantasy 9. wouldn't wanna miss that."

Diunx · « **Reply #5 on:** April 08, 2011, 10:53:06 AM »

No, I'm not a pussy.

drew · « **Reply #6 on:** April 08, 2011, 02:35:09 PM »

things always get better

Skidmark · « **Reply #7 on:** April 08, 2011, 03:39:30 PM »

Not directly, there are times where I feel that nothing is really worth it, kind of feels like I won't miss out on much if I give up. but I never thought of actually putting an end to my life.

Akala · « **Reply #8 on:** April 08, 2011, 08:09:14 PM »

every second of every day.

T234 · « **Reply #9 on:** April 08, 2011, 08:27:24 PM »

The first time I ever thought about killing myself was the night I was driving down the interstate looking for something hard to run into with my car when I got the call that I had "A metal cube that looked like a huge hps ballast" in the mail. I was in such a terribly fucked up state of mind that it never occurred to me that it would be the shuttle box known as the MAF SexBox 3000.

MAF not only figuratively saved my life, he did literally as well, because I would have been just another crash statistic without him sending me that box.

BlackMage · « **Reply #10 on:** April 08, 2011, 08:30:38 PM »

I've thought about it but have never considered it.

Beezy · « **Reply #11 on:** April 08, 2011, 09:24:31 PM »

Quote from: BlackMage on April 08, 2011, 08:30:38 PM

I've thought about it but have never considered it.

Same

demi · « **Reply #12 on:** April 08, 2011, 09:52:07 PM »

all the time...

MCD · « **Reply #13 on:** April 08, 2011, 09:56:26 PM »

Too lazy to do it.

Van Cruncheon · « **Reply #14 on:** April 08, 2011, 10:00:27 PM »

if the cover band at this bar doesn't end their set soon we're lookin' at a murder-suicide

recursivelyenumerable · « **Reply #15 on:** April 08, 2011, 10:52:28 PM »

constantly, but I'd never in a million years have the guts to go through with it.

cool breeze · « **Reply #16 on:** April 08, 2011, 11:11:34 PM »

When I'm in a boring class and the teacher is stretching the class to the final seconds; I grip my pen and consider jabbing into my temple or something. A friend once asked why I don't just leave the class if I felt that way. I told him to shut his fucking mouth.

Or I'll be watching Tron Legacy and consider lighting myself on fire.

lordmaji · « **Reply #17 on:** April 09, 2011, 04:54:30 AM »

what if you really don't care at all about anything anymore? nothing is fun and everyone seems like they have their own agenda's. TV is hard to watch because you sit and realize everything companies are doing to people w/ the advertisements, then you sit and think about it and how it affects the people in your life and then start combinding everyones behavior based on society and then you get sick to your stomach because we are all puppets of our society... myself included.

I'm done giving much of a shit anymore. life isn't nothing but a bunch of bullshit. fuck it.

...and this post is me on my medication.

T234 · « **Reply #18 on:** April 09, 2011, 05:48:08 AM »

Quote from: lordmaji on April 09, 2011, 04:54:30 AM

what if you really don't care at all about anything anymore? nothing is fun and everyone seems like they have their own agenda's. TV is hard to watch because you sit and realize everything companies are doing to people w/ the advertisements, then you sit and think about it and how it affects the people in your life and then start combinding everyones behavior based on society and then you get sick to your stomach because we are all puppets of our society... myself included.

I'm done giving much of a shit anymore. life isn't nothing but a bunch of bullshit. fuck it.

...and this post is me on my medication.

GET A CARD AND SOME LIGHTS HOMEBOY

WHATEVER THEY PUT YOU ON IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH

pilonv1 · « **Reply #19 on:** April 09, 2011, 07:31:13 AM »

There's plenty of people I think about wanting them to commit suicide

chronovore · « **Reply #20 on:** April 09, 2011, 08:35:53 AM »

If you're thinking seriously about suicide, and you're already on meds, you probably need different meds.

lordmaji · « **Reply #21 on:** April 09, 2011, 03:53:13 PM »

I was just saying... something to ponder.

drew · « **Reply #22 on:** April 09, 2011, 04:01:49 PM »

Quote

Waking Up, A Human Experience:

You're tootling along, you think you have a pretty good bead on things, but somethings not right somewhere, something just doesn't add up. Something.... is about to change.

It's like a constant annoying drone or a splinter too small to pick out easily. The world is out of joint but you cannot seem to put your finger on exactly what it is that's bothering you. Its fairly easy to ignore, so you do. For a while.

The thing about systems crumbling is that tiny bits begin to fall off at first. These tiny bits are very easy to dismiss, as in, 'There's more homeless people downtown than I remember seeing last year,' then you put your pedal to the metal and drive on. You see prices beginning to rise in the shops because your currency is buying less and less every season, but the head of state is on the box saying the economy is fine and things are only getting better, so you change the channel. Then, larger chunks begin to break off—someone you actually know gets laid off or loses their house or gets arrested on a charge completely out of proportion to the offense they allegedly committed and it all seems to be a bit more personal and closer to home.

Then one day it reaches a critical mass. Someone or something brings the truth home to you—and you immediately shut down. It's too horrible to think about but still, despite all the mental evasions, the rationalising, the justifications, you inexorably find yourself moving to...

Anger

Some are enraged at the one with the new view of reality. They tend to vehemently demonise the people who are actively engaged in seeking truth as a group of tinhats, liberals, crazy people, idiots. They cling to the status quo they have become accustomed to but... something has shifted in their lives at a molecular level. The new view isn't comfortable, but they find they are no longer at ease with the reality they hate to give up, either. It doesn't feel like home to be there anymore.

They now have two options; stay angry at the people with the new view of reality or move on to feel anger at the people in power.

Loads of people who are angry at the people in power get stuck there. They are the ones most frequently bitching away on blogs and forums—griping, moaning, shit-stirring—yet never actually doing anything but endlessly rehashing the problem. Once in a while, a few make it out and generally find themselves at

Despair

People self-medicate or commit suicide or bore the socks off people at parties who generally arent ready to have their world rocked. People in despair sometimes find it's useless to trumpet their beliefs to all and sundry because they suspect nobody's really listening anyway.

We are all assaulted on a daily basis by entities willing to spend vast sums of money and effort to capture and keep our attention; from the major media, to organised religion, to every commercial enterprise you can think of. There's no point in competing with them, yet if someone asks what you think and believe about the world, answer as simply and as truthfully as you can. You cannot convince anyone to accept at face value what you know, you can only point them in the direction where they can discover the truth for themselves, and you accomplish this most effectively by the example of how you live your own life.

Despair is a very lonely stage. Many people never move beyond it. The ones who do find themselves washed up on the shore of

Doing Something

You are a living, breathing soul; this makes you powerful. So, break the pattern of history—don't wait around to be told what to do, or where to stand or how to think. Don't wait on others with empty promises to do it for you. It's up to you to claim the power to change your own destiny.

For anyone considering their next move I would recommend that you must be willing to risk everything you possess. I am not saying that price will be extracted from you at the end—but you should be prepared for it to be. You must get yourself into the mindset of 'I am willing to risk everything for what I most desire.'

The world is what we make it, one individual at a time. I want to add to the sum total of beauty in it. A little at a time, if that's all I can manage to accomplish. I decided a long time ago that I would be doing that anyway no matter what else was going on.

and finally...

Wake up. Create as you go. Keep on your toes. Fly by the seat of your pants. Don't forget to breathe. Be happy anyway.

Joe Molotov · « **Reply #23 on:** April 09, 2011, 07:57:51 PM »

I have an intense fear of dying, so no, suicide never really crosses my mind. Lots of other depressing thoughts do, just not that.

Cormacaroni · « **Reply #24 on:** April 09, 2011, 10:58:15 PM »

Quote from: lordmaji on April 09, 2011, 04:54:30 AM

what if you really don't care at all about anything anymore? nothing is fun and everyone seems like they have their own agenda's. TV is hard to watch because you sit and realize everything companies are doing to people w/ the advertisements, then you sit and think about it and how it affects the people in your life and then start combinding everyones behavior based on society and then you get sick to your stomach because we are all puppets of our society... myself included.

I'm done giving much of a shit anymore. life isn't nothing but a bunch of bullshit. fuck it.

...and this post is me on my medication.

Meds? Well, maybe. But it sure sounds like turning off the TV would be a great start. Stop worrying about what other people are doing. Ignore the news. Stop watching depressing documentaries. Stop worrying about shit that either doesn't affect you or that you can't affect. Go outside. Get some exercise and sun. Get laid. Create something instead of consuming. Enjoy life.

I have yet to hear of a drug that will do more for your mental health than the above.

tehjaybo · « **Reply #25 on:** April 10, 2011, 03:16:10 AM »

A fair bit.

OptimoPeach · « **Reply #26 on:** April 10, 2011, 04:05:30 AM »

Quote from: drew on April 08, 2011, 02:35:09 PM

things always get better

Soooooo true

In these past few months I've been the happiest I've been in like eight years, and literally the only thing that's changed is my mindset, as gay as that sounds

And I have your solution to advertisements: Netflix!

edit: Dude seriously, this thread is a huge downer. Find a therapist whose treatment goes beyond writing you prescriptions

Maximus · « **Reply #27 on:** April 10, 2011, 06:50:01 AM »

Therapist looks like "the rapist" and I can non longer see it as anything else.

Joe Molotov · « **Reply #28 on:** April 10, 2011, 10:51:32 AM »

Quote from: Maximus on April 10, 2011, 06:50:01 AM

Therapist looks like "the rapist" and I can non longer see it as anything else.

Maybe a good rapin' will straighten you out, son.

Eel O'Brian · « **Reply #29 on:** April 10, 2011, 11:15:25 AM »

The way I see it, if you commit suicide you won't be around to watch your enemies suffer. Turn that frown ~~upside down~~ into a scowling grimace of hatred.

Olivia Wilde Homo · « **Reply #30 on:** April 10, 2011, 11:26:13 AM »

When I was younger, frequently.

These days, not so much. I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that things in my life are going pretty well. I still think about it every once in a while. I did not get medicated for it because it didn't affect my life adversely to the point where I trouble functioning in society.

Maximus · « **Reply #31 on:** April 10, 2011, 12:08:53 PM »

Quote from: Joe Molotov® EDGE™ on April 10, 2011, 10:51:32 AM

Quote from: Maximus on April 10, 2011, 06:50:01 AM
Therapist looks like "the rapist" and I can non longer see it as anything else.

Maybe a good rapin' will straighten you out, son.

Well I dont see anyone offering....

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Author Topic: Who thinks about suicide? and how often? (Read 1433 times)