Back in my hotel, cab driver dropped me on the side that was locked so had to walk around it.
Didn't talk to anyone besides 2 female bartenders and 1 male one. Can't tell if they liked me because I said hi and talked to them or if because I was a paying customer. There weren't any girls into me whn I left. I looked for glances on my way out.
See I kNOW people aren't making fun of me in the photo thread. I look GOOD. I dress well, I take care of myself well, I am super friendly and nice. I treat a woman well, and I have an ok career and like to travel and take photos. I KNOW that I can have any woman I want. If I want I could sleep with 100 zoey des-name-you-can't-spell. However I KNOW to do this I need to overcome my social anxieties and learn to talk to women. I'm 30 for Christ sake, I could die of cancer any year. I need to get over this and say hello. the last time I said a word to a female who wasnt working was 12 years ago[\b] and she became my first girlfriend because of it. But it's been so long and I've become so afraid of talking to women, I just don't know.
I talked to mr. Gundam saying maybe I need to spend 3k at a bootcamp for pick up artist because that is how socially inept I am at just saying hi to a female. With a guy, like tonight, I can be like "I overheard your conversation what beer are you drinking? And strike friends. Guys love me. But I just cannot speak to a woman. I am deathly afraid. I dress well and keep hoping women will approach me[\b] if I put myself out there but They never do.
Honestly, all this traveling has made up my mind: I'm perfectly happy to spend the next decade fucking models and beautiful women, but really I'd be happy to meet someone right, get married, have kids, and start a family. I LOVE kids. I always smile at them. I want my own. But I'm deathly afraid of the female species. Oh, how I wish I was female and could just make myself look Nice and a cute guy will approach me and say hi.
But I'm male so I better overcome this hurdle and say hi to women before its too late. Unlike MAF, who I love and adore as a great brother, I am the opposite of asexual, I love women[\b]; I love how they look, how they taste, how their lower region smells and tastes in the smeltering summer. I love their smiles, their eyes, the way they don't smell like guys after an all night card game fiesta. Their skin make me melt like glaciers in global warming. I want to find a girl, say HI and then love, love, love, for eternity. I want the sunrise to go on forever, the sunrise to never end. I want true love.
Yeah I'm drunk; hahaha. But drinking makes me honest, and while I know I'm good looking and could have girls girls girls, I just want one and to treat her well and have an old-fashioned good time as lovers, loving love (cue the aquabats).
/end this mon this drunken Bebpo confession where he says the same things he always says.
One day I belive I will fall in love and get married and then I will give free round trip tickets because I want ally EBRos to be there at my wedding. It will be the ultimate evilbore meet up. And duckroll will be there, he's commited to being my best man. It will be a glorious grand gathering. It's sort of embarrassing but ive been looking forward to it for many years. To share cake with spencer, and Demi, and linkzg, and Duckroll all at tr same time with a wife at my side who I love and who loves me as well. It will be the best day in my entire life and I cannot wait for it, but first I need to say "hi, my eyes were a little out of focus because this side of the room was radiating with so much gorgeous light"
And I still can't do it yet :/
I thought turning 30 would give me the magic confidence to deliver those lines to strangers, but however, not yet, not yet.
