I went back to customer service after my editing contract wasnt renewed. That already sucked but I had to get a new job, and cs is where I have a lot of experience even if I didnt want to do that type of work anymore.
Now i work here, in a small team for a company thats about to go under. A reorganisation has already happened and around 20-25 ppl were let go, not including me (sadly). I wouldnt have minded a payout.
But my contract is still valid till january next year. I work in a small team of six in total. Two very young girls of 22, a older woman who is very kind and also my direct boss, and two guys, one around my age and the other a bit older.
I feel out of place. I dont feel like I can talk a lot with them regarding things Im interested in. Also jokes and stuff dont always fall well. Last weekend one of my guy colleagues got stuck after a trip in England. So I said jokingly 'you're not getting stuck in England again this weekend are you 🤣'. He was annoyed. I said well are you planning anything fun, he said thats none of your business -_-. Wow what a weird response.
The girls are nice but also i cant talk to them about anything they are such girly girls all they talk about is makeup and boys.
I feel like Im wasting my time in another dead end job. Not only might the company go under anyway, im also feeling joyless. Not happy going to work at all. I dont feel socially accepted. I am a bit of a introverted guy abd pretty sensative so comments like 'thats none of your business' really hit me hard. I was just trying to be friendly.
What should I do in this position? I want to work in video editing but honestly after my contract wasnt renewed, after finally landing a dream starter editing job, really hit me hard and my confidence in my abilities has become super low. I have t really made much of interest ssince.
Sorry for the rant
