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[Van Cruncheon]

 

[Madrun Badrun]

I don;t get it. 

[Van Cruncheon]

neither does g.

[TVC15]

[demi]

God I love that picture. It's so funny.

[Cyanista]

I voted Mupepe.

[Scurvy Stan]

I voted penis.

[Madrun Badrun]

You guys shouldn't start bugging G again.  i don't think he's doing to good 

[Yeti]

You guys shouldn't start bugging G again.  i don't think he's doing to good 

 

[Madrun Badrun]

You guys shouldn't start bugging G again.  i don't think he's doing to good 

 

He seems depressed on mupepes, and he's not posting OR drinking as much.  That can't be good. 

I worry. 

[G The Resurrected]

But today I was told that she's been talking with an old boyfriend. All my suspicions while I wasnt talking to her for 6 weeks was true.

Lately she's been really down, and I've tried doing everything in my power to help her feel better. But to no avail I've not made It better. She told me that he was in a car accident in Corpus Cristie, Texas on the 26th. And that he and her had made plans and layed things out.

All the while these past three weeks I've been talking with her unknowingly while she was talking with him. I'm trying really hard to not breakdown and just be the better person here. She doesnt know if she loves him, yet she knows I love her.

So I did the nice thing and called all the hospitals in the area looking for him. Just to see if he was ok. Knowing that if she'd know it would at least make her feel a little better. The dude doesnt even call her, he has his brother email her a few days after she found out about the accident.

My heart is conflicted, as much as I love her. This hurts and I dont know how to tell her that she's gonna be the death of me. My heart has been on this rollercoaster for 5 years. And I pledged to her my love and comitment.

I've really fucked her up, I made this girl who's so unsure about life and love. And I'm the only one that can fix the pain that I've done.

Does me leaving her life when she has no one make it easy for her to go to the peson she cares about? Does that sacrifice, make me a good person? Or do I just continue to be there for her knowing my heart is dying from a love that will never be?

Sorry for the emoness, if you wish to share with the forums its ok. My life is just a joke.

You take care ok ED, and the rest of the boards they all good people. You guys will do just fine without me one day.

Just dont give shake and pd a hard time

<McLovin> When the one person you love, loves another person. What do you do? Especially when they are the only person in your life that gives you hope.
<McLovin> I dont want to go to the hospital again, I dont want to do anything stupid. And all she wants is for me to forget she ever mentioned it. And I cant ignore that she's hurt by him, yet at the same time she trusts him more than me. I've done horrible thing to her. And I feel guilty about that, she's given me chances. And just as I get mylife together, all hope vanishes into thin air. The love I felt replaced with sadness and pain.

Father Mike you are right i'm not well right now.

Mupepe hasnt been around and he's a good guy

[Bloodwake]

G, I hope everything works out for you dude.

[Madrun Badrun]

   Dude it sounds like what me and this girl went though last year.  I understand that mine was so much less, but it truly is nice that its done.  Sometimes circumstances and past actions do fuck over relationships and even if you both care for each other it will never work out.


also, don't do anything stupid too!     

[Mupepe]

I voted Mupepe.

I've just been busy, G 

[G The Resurrected]

Yeah me too, but now i'm the "annoying one" Am I not allowed to feel stabed in the back? My heartbroken in pieces, that shant be brought back together. And yet I gotta be this really strong person to rise above what I'm feeling. Cause I know she's going through a lot.

My plans in life are ruined. Ripped a asunder, and tormenting my fragile mind and heart.

FM: yeah well they have a history as well. They broke up after a few months together back in feb-apr last year. And i was there for her to help her out and take her mind off things. We did some fun things, played Mario Kart GP and mini golf. Back then I didnt take it well either. But its crazy how things end up. Just as i leave to get my life in order and really work on my problems. He comes back into her life like I dont exist. And without knowing I come back cause things in my life were going really well. Just to have a few weeks of lies and heartache.

I dont know what I will do. But its obvious by her actions that I shouldnt feel this hurt. But I am, she's my only real friend in this world. And I love her to death. All i've been putting myself through is for the hope of one day having everyday begin and end with her. As much as you guys dont think she's real and alive she is. And so am I, were just human.

[Madrun Badrun]

   Ya my girl was my only friend too.  But it really is better to be alone and medocure than around her and have a few highs but a lot of lows. 

[G The Resurrected]

I'm not good on my own. I've been there and it led me to go online and lie to people that I dont even know. Just so i could live with myself.

I feel like i'm in a love triangle. Yet I dont belong, and even though I do have those real emotions. It wont matter cause if love is strong it will always stay forever. And I'll be the lonely one, alone by oneself. I'm depressed with life, my hope in my life was to get myself moving in the right direction. So that instead of me saying "I'm here" on the phone, I would be there instead.

And yesterday put the breaks on my life so hard that I've fallen off and I have no where else to go.

[Madrun Badrun]

It will be alright buddy, try to get it off your mind for a few days, then go back to thinking about it. 

[G The Resurrected]

I'm not good at that either. I dwell and wonder, then tear myself apart. Next few hours i'll go through my suicidal cuttings. Probably cut my legs again just to take away from the pain. Better to feel that pain than the mental pain.

[Yeti]

Don't do that G, come on.


here's what you need to do:
1. Realize roxy is a bitch
2. Realize you are better off without her
3. Kick Roxy to the curb
4. Take out some anger over a game of soul calibur

[TVC15]

Don't do that G, come on.


here's what you need to do:
1. Realize roxy is a bitch
2. Realize you are better off without her
3. Kick Roxy to the curb
4. Take out some anger over a game of soul calibur

He can't play Soul Calibur.  Every time he tries to press a button on the controller, his thumb mushes down on all the face buttons, causing him to do the power charge move that makes the computer pwn you.  He needs some sort of dialing wand to play.

[demi]

Probably cut my legs again just to take away from the pain.

HUAHUAHUAHUUHHUAUHAUHA

HERE IS WHERE I MAKE A HANDICAPPED JOKE ABOUT BZ

HAUHAUHAUHAUHAHUA

[Smooth Groove]

He can't play Soul Calibur.  Every time he tries to press a button on the controller, his thumb mushes down on all the face buttons, causing him to do the power charge move that makes the computer pwn you.  He needs some sort of dialing wand to play.

   This is a perfect example of what I meant when I said you were wasting your writing talent. 

[G The Resurrected]

TVC is funny he's like Seanbaby but a entrovert.

I cant do any of those things though. So i will cut myself after a while. I'm in the suicide mode already.

[Candyflip]

I'm not good at that either. I dwell and wonder, then tear myself apart. Next few hours i'll go through my suicidal cuttings. Probably cut my legs again just to take away from the pain. Better to feel that pain than the mental pain.

What you need to do is sleep all this off, and then get over it. Fuck Roxy. Keep losing weight, get more socially active, and rebuild. Seriously. There's only so long you can wallow in your self pity before it gets to you, and I'd like to think you're not stupid enough to pussy out. Cut out the emo shit, smoke a blunt, take a nap, and get over it.

[TVC15]

TVC is funny he's like Seanbaby but a entrovert.

I cant do any of those things though. So i will cut myself after a while. I'm in the suicide mode already.

I'm sorry, G, it's difficult to feel any real sympathy when you are completely unwilling to dig yourself out of your hole.  

[demi]

TVC is funny he's like Seanbaby but a entrovert.

I cant do any of those things though. So i will cut myself after a while. I'm in the suicide mode already.

hAHAHAHAH HEY BZ HOW ABOUT ANOTHER HANDICAPPED JOKE THAT'LL MAKE YOUI FEEL BETTER HAUHAUAAAHAHAA

DIE IN A BLAZE YOU FAT FUCK

[Smooth Groove]

TVC is funny he's like Seanbaby but a entrovert.

I cant do any of those things though. So i will cut myself after a while. I'm in the suicide mode already.

I hope you're not serious.  There's nothing interesting about suicide.  Your life is not that bad.  You keep acting like you have no friend even though others here have sympathized with you.  You're sitting cozy in front of the computer while there are people starving or living in fear of war.  TVC laughs at you because you are actually dumb enough to talk about suicide.  Call someone if you really need help.  There are lots of free counseling available.  Or go to a church just to make some friends even if you're not religious. 

TVC is funny he's like Seanbaby but a entrovert.

I cant do any of those things though. So i will cut myself after a while. I'm in the suicide mode already.

I'm sorry, G, it's difficult to feel any real sympathy when you are completely unwilling to dig yourself out of your hole. 

Beaten.  That's what I was trying to tell him. 

[demi]

STOP giving him advice, he has pulled this FUCKING STUNT several times over

FUCK OFF

[demi]

YOU FUCKING SHITHEAD

[TVC15]

If G wanted actual help, he's well aware of how he can get it.  Heck, fuck professional help, we've told him the biggest step of digging him out.  If he's too daft to listen, he's not worth feeling sorry for.  He's a loser.  We've given him the answers, for free, mind you, and he still subjects us to sob sessions.  We shouldn't let him use the forum as his whining board.

[Smooth Groove]

If G wanted actual help, he's well aware of how he can get it.  Heck, fuck professional help, we've told him the biggest step of digging him out.  If he's too daft to listen, he's not worth feeling sorry for.  He's a loser.  We've given him the answers, for free, mind you, and he still subjects us to sob sessions.  We shouldn't let him use the forum as his whining board.

I just can't help feeling bad if he wants to hurt himself because he thinks everyone hate him.  I get what you're saying though about trying to help someone who doesn't want help. 

[TVC15]

If G wanted actual help, he's well aware of how he can get it.  Heck, fuck professional help, we've told him the biggest step of digging him out.  If he's too daft to listen, he's not worth feeling sorry for.  He's a loser.  We've given him the answers, for free, mind you, and he still subjects us to sob sessions.  We shouldn't let him use the forum as his whining board.

I just can't help feeling bad if he wants to hurt himself because he thinks everyone hate him.  I get what you're saying though about trying to help someone who doesn't want help. 

He doesn't want to hurt himself because everyone hates him.  He wants to hurt himself because he LOVES ROXY.  If he's that dumb, I don't see any real damage being done.  Gouge away!

[G The Resurrected]

If G wanted actual help, he's well aware of how he can get it.  Heck, fuck professional help, we've told him the biggest step of digging him out.  If he's too daft to listen, he's not worth feeling sorry for.  He's a loser.  We've given him the answers, for free, mind you, and he still subjects us to sob sessions.  We shouldn't let him use the forum as his whining board.

I just can't help feeling bad if he wants to hurt himself because he thinks everyone hate him.  I get what you're saying though about trying to help someone who doesn't want help. 

He doesn't want to hurt himself because everyone hates him.  He wants to hurt himself because he LOVES ROXY.  If he's that dumb, I don't see any real damage being done.  Gouge away!

Maf: i do feel that way, that everyone does hate me. I cant help that all I've done is hurt myself there.

I'm trying to find some local help that doesnt make me go stay in a hospital. I dont want to go back to the hospital and thats the only help thats available to me right now. My doctors didnt call me back even though I told them it was an emergency. I am not gonna go on meds or get locked up again.

TVC: I do want help ok, but its hard. I dont have it in me to be mean to the only person thats meant so much to me in my life. She's been part of my life for like 1/4 of it. And I dont have anyone to go to about it my family wont help me out at all. They just pay the doctor bills. When I really need help. I want someone I cant have which sucks and I realize this. But my heart wont give up its a conflict between my heart and brain.

Hurt the body and the heart can stop hurting. I've had to do it before to shock myself out of depression. I've undergone electro shock therapy several times so thats why i dont want to go to the hospital.

[Candyflip]

What's so great about someone that doesn't even seem to care about you nearly as much as you do about her? Give it up man. You don't have to "be mean," just stop punishing yourself because you can't have what you want. I can't distinguish between what is sincere and what is bullshit when it comes to you, but if any of this contains even half the truth, you really need to deal with your problems more maturely. Cutting yourself is ridiculous. That doesn't change how bad your life sucks, and until you set things in motion nothing will.

Just move on. Concentrate on your own problems, better yourself. Stop pursuing something that isn't there.