Yeah its probably better if you have friends to talk to about it. I too have social disorders as well. I only have one real friend and thats roxy. She's got problems of her own that she suffers with. Being codependent doesnt help either. But I refuse to go on meds. I get suicidal on meds. I'm trying to control my problems with counselling thats been ordered for me.
I want kids too, but I realized even if I dont find someone. I'm not gonna be able to adopt, cause of my mental history. :'( But thats at least 12 years away before I consider those options.
I wish ya the best luck though Nikki, at least you got a really understanding guy thats true to you.
Sometimes meds make people suicidal, but I don't think that's a reason to give up on them entirely. Strides are being made all the time and I really feel that if you just stick with it and hope with all you have that something will work, then you'll find the right combination. That's just my personal opinion though. Meds aren't for everyone.
Honestly, the medication I take for this, coupled with my birth control, is pretty much the only medication I take ever. I'd rather suffer through a headache than take medicine for it 90% of the time. I won't take antibiotics if I have strep throat, I'll just let it run its course.
Kids are 12 years off? How old are you?
& thank you. I'm very, very lucky to have someone to stick by me through all the shit. He was there through all the medication trials and tribulations. The fact that James actually stuck by me through my only truly manic episode, which was scary as hell, was one of the things that really made me realize that he's a keeper.

I don't think your mental state can or should be able to keep you from adopting if you have it under control. I don't know what the laws are regarding that, but most of these types of disorders are totally manageable and as long as you've viligent about it, they really don't interfere with your life. I don't think they'd keep a cancer survivor from adopting, you know? They shouldn't stop someone with a mood disorder from doing the same.
/my opinion and babbling