this is stupid but I'm really sad
I stumbled on an old niche tabletop game I'd heard of vaguely before
started searching for information on it, and found links leading to links leading to archive.org's waybackmachine
found a whole webring of this ancient year 2000 internet, every single site is dead, earthlink, geocities, some random guy's personally hosted .net...it's all long gone, but archive.org keeps it alive
there's this community love for this game and a buzzing excitement about this thing 20 years ago
there are 3 or 4 main sites run by specific named people who you can tell were like the pillars of their community, hosting side content, extra rules, even a mailing list where you can see the topics people were talking about even if the text is all dead
fan sites for the game that are intermixed with "my family photos" and "my bob dylan fan page" and it's all just raw html with tiled backgrounds and stuff
photos of tournaments and events from 2001 where everyone looked so happy in their scrappy mediocrity promoting this game
I look up one of the main guys and he might still be around, he's 80 now and his linkedin photo looks like the same guy from those tournaments
his wife for 50 years died in 2021
I don't know any of these people but there's a voyeuristic feel of internet archeology, finding this little old dead fandom and seeing all this happiness and love and there's almost no record of it left
there's just something unbearably sad about all of it
it doesn't matter at all, but it mattered a lot for some people, and it's all so fleeting