Ok I'm over this con. Went to some guys room, hung out with these weed smoking HOT CHICKS (1 had a bf) near the pool; 1 was smoking hot (1 with bf), went to another hotel at 3am to meet up with new people. I got off on the wrong floor, the elevator went up without me with everyone and I guess I was drunk and ran out and missed the elevator as it closed, and I never found the party and had to taxi myself home alone at 5amy
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/going to sleep in and then go to patels bbq on sunday. Sick of this shit. I am in the between. I don't fit into a normal society of 9-5 bbq weekends and I don't fit into drink and smoke weed all night youngster weekends. I am IN THE BETWEEEN and that's probably whatdepresses me the most. I don't fit in anywhere and I'm just trying to fit into the between and I don't really fit so it's awkward and doesn't really work. I wish I was 15 again and could party till the cows come home with druggies and funny dudes and whoever I run into, but I'm past that age and I really need to do something else to meet people and it makes me sad

This girl was like 20, had a bf, and smoked massive weed, but goddamn she was blond, white, and hot and when it was just me and her and the pool and 2am it really felt like something was happening
