fistful, i was almost in your exact position a few years ago -- 20 years old, lost 100lbs, turned my life around -- but was probably a lot more hung up on being a virgin than you are now. you should read up on giving head -- it's a great way to take the pressure off your performance, as most guys, if they even initiate, are fucking terrible at it. personally, i read Kerner's She Comes First the day before and found everything pretty intuitive when i went up to bat, but even just looking up a couple fundamentals, like come hither and rhythmic broad, flat tongue will make you stand out
just try to remember that the OKCupid match algorithm can work a strange magic sometimes, brehs*. after a long drought, i met both my fiancé and best friend in the span of a week. keep the faith, and you, too, might just find your own 19-year-old PAWG at the end of the rainbow
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*i lived in LA at the time and am 6'4" so ymmv
still, inspo: