This Thanksgiving break wrecked me, friends.
I've been on a healthy daily routine for a few months now, never felt better in my life. I reached that point where I started enjoying my lifestyle rather than feeling punished or deprived. I thought I was prepared for anything... I was wrong. Dead wrong. Nothing could have prepared me for this.
Let me tell you something, pal: there is nothing deadlier than the combination of a vacation, a holiday that's all about gorging oneself, cold weather, and a concerned parent who thinks you look too thin.
So long story short I succumbed to the pressures, thinking it was only temporary. But I soon realized that *I* was increasingly stuffing *myself*, without any external help, almost involuntarily. It reached a point where hunger wasn't triggering my newly-developed binge eating habit, but the ability to breath; if I can still breath, then there's still room to be filled.
Was I wrong all along about the good feeling from before? Was my subconscious really this starved? I don't know, but what I do know is that it is disgusting and it needs to stop before I consume (LOL) myself.
Now I'm back from the break, and it's the final stretch of semesters... I've been hit with finals, so no time to work out. And I'm currently penniless, so no money to buy healthy food and/or cook for myself. And the habit... it's still kicking. God, why won't it stop?!
Please help.
Please.
Help.

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