that kid who realised his entire life is stagnating and everyone around him is finding not only jobs but careers and he has about a million different choices to make and the world wants him to make them NOW but he just want to curl into a little ball and hide from it all, so he does and the world punishes him for it, and the worst part is there is always a tiny glimmer of hope that keeps him from descending into rampant alcoholism or suicide, and he just wishes it would go away so he had some excuse for why his life is going nowhere, but he really doesnt so he chalks up everything thats going wrong to some problem he has that millions of other people have but are dealing with just fine so its not really an excuse, is it? And he doesnt have any friends since he left school, but they are still friends with each other, and worse than the hurt, worse than only finding about parties when their smiling faces are uploaded to facebook, is WHY they arent interested in him anymore. It would be better if they didnt like him, but their was just an ambiguous drifting apart and if he just had some reason he could fix it, like it was some part of him but isnt and no one will tell him, so there is nothing to fix, and its just him alone all day and he tries to play videogames to take his mind off of it, but every game is the same quality as years ago but shit now because he is drepressed and angry and he cant get lost in anything for too long anymore and he comes here to belong to a collective but he doesnt really belong. He doesnt belong to anything, and he tries to blame it on aspergers and insomnia and bad people skills, but really he's just sad. He is one, sad little kid that everyone wants to be an adult and he cant take it, and being sad makes him sad and he cant stop being sad
