Please share your struggle of the day

[Himu]

Did you lose your appetite during lunch on meds? I didn't eat lunch for a few years because of it.

[Himu]

Pretty good. I haven't been on the pill for ten years. I wonder what adult me is even like on the pill. I'm getting scared just thinking of it.

[Am_I_Anonymous]

I was on that adderall that kept me going from 7 am to 4-5 pm. It's a big reason I loved band practice so much. It was around that time when the medicine would come down and I could be myself.

Vyvanse? 

Vyvanse is a mix of adderall salts and acouple other ones. I find it to be the best stimulant option out of all of them; tends to be slow and effective and I suffer the least side effects.

I hated going to football practice when I was coming down off that shit. Made me so irritable, gave me headaches, i'd occasionally mess up plays.

Overall w/e.

Wow. When I was playing we use to take adderall before games (it wasn't illegal then) and it always seemed to help me.

[Am_I_Anonymous]

Yeah it works just fine during the actual duration of the drug, but when you're on the come down and it's not working anymore I get sluggish and burnt out for an hour or two.

Sorry to hear about this struggle Esch. The choice between being aware but quasi-unfocused and a zombie is a tough one to make.

[Human Snorenado]

Do you have feelings while you're on add meds? Cause if not I might fake a diagnosis just to get rid of my feels. Plus, I like being hopped up.

[Am_I_Anonymous]

Do you have feelings while you're on add meds? Cause if not I might fake a diagnosis just to get rid of my feels. Plus, I like being hopped up.

Yes. You're even more focused on them. Probably best to just stick with heroin at this point bud.

[Himu]

You have feelings for sure.

As far as I know, if you don't have adhd, the meds will just get you high. But if you have adhd they'll do their job. At least, that's what I've heard. Could be wrong.

[Human Snorenado]

Jesus fuck, I just want a pill that will make me into an unfeeling robot so I can live until I have to die. Is that so fucking much to ask?

[Am_I_Anonymous]

You have feelings for sure.

As far as I know, if you don't have adhd, the meds will just get you high. But if you have adhd they'll do their job. At least, that's what I've heard. Could be wrong.

Well we use to take 20mg's before a game. You get a bit of a boost for the first hour or so then it's pretty much just a level of focus above what is normal. You go from read and react to starting to spot tendencies. I imagine this works in every field.

[Human Snorenado]

You have feelings for sure.

As far as I know, if you don't have adhd, the meds will just get you high. But if you have adhd they'll do their job. At least, that's what I've heard. Could be wrong.

Well we use to take 20mg's before a game. You get a bit of a boost for the first hour or so then it's pretty much just a level of focus above what is normal. You go from read and react to starting to spot tendencies. I imagine this works in every field.

It works that way for poker for sure. I would pop a pill before sitting down to poker night and would be a fucking monster, my concentration levels were always crazy high when I did that. If I didn't, I'd get bored after 3-4 hours and would start to do stupid shit.

[Himu]

Jesus fuck, I just want a pill that will make me into an unfeeling robot so I can live until I have to die. Is that so fucking much to ask?

...ahhhh you wanna talk?

[Himu]

I gave Mups my ADHD pills in High School.

I thought the same thing: people who don't have ADHD loved adderall, whereas people who do like us fucking hate it.

[Human Snorenado]

Jesus fuck, I just want a pill that will make me into an unfeeling robot so I can live until I have to die. Is that so fucking much to ask?

...ahhhh you wanna talk?

Nope. No amount of talk will help things. I need to do certain things or just shut up. Thanks, though.

[Am_I_Anonymous]

You have feelings for sure.

As far as I know, if you don't have adhd, the meds will just get you high. But if you have adhd they'll do their job. At least, that's what I've heard. Could be wrong.

Yea. People who take the shit that don't have ADHD tend to love being on it. If you're at college and some people find out you're on it they'll harangue you like stupid fiends for it.

Yeah, or trainer was pretty stingy with them bitches come to think of it. Then again I imagine half the team was asking for them every monday morning.

[Himu]

Do you have feelings while you're on add meds? Cause if not I might fake a diagnosis just to get rid of my feels. Plus, I like being hopped up.

Of course.

Just makes you exhibit less of them.


Side note: I cut my dose down again today from 20mg to about 10 and it's interesting. Is this what normal feels like? Too early to tell. It doesn't help that i'm essentially eyeballing it by volume. I should get a scale.

How do you feel?  Need all info i can get for when I get back on the train.

[Am_I_Anonymous]

How do you feel?  Need all info i can get for when I get back on the train.

Pretty good. The good thing about vyvanse is that you can crack open the pill and ration out the insides. I have a prescript for 40mg, so i open up the pill, pour some into water, stir drink it and seal it back up again for tomorrow.

I'm definitely in a good place today. No overbearing dry mouth, appetite seems decent, and I'm able to focus on things/don't feel cloudy.

They haven't time released all the options yet? That seems to be the trend. My daughter takes that stuff and hers is definitely time release.

[Himu]

I need to try this. I'll ask my doc about it.

[king of the internet]

I want to go out tonight but I can't. 

Why not? Pregaming before going out. Might chill with this one girl but it's never easy with this one....

[I'm a Puppy!]

Signed up to be a tutor for the first year students in their Finance and Operations classes

wait, isn't finance the class where you fucked up the group project so bad that the professor threw shade at you in class?

[TakingBackSunday]

I got stood up last night

I was talking with this girl and we were planning our second date for last night at 8:30 at a higher-end burger joint.  I texted her saying "great!  Let's meet up there at 8:30, sound good?"  And she responded with "see you there! "

So I get there early at like 8:20 and grab an open table.  I texted her at 8:25 "here!  Got a table near the front."

I didn't get a response from her for 40 minutes.

I texted her several times and tried calling her, with no response.  I asked if she was okay, where she was, etc.  Finally at 9:05 I texted her "Alright, nevermind, maybe tonight wasn't great for you or something."  I promptly walked out of the restaurant and went to a nice bar a mile or so away for a bourbon.  I FINALLY get a response back from her at 9:10. 

"Wait, you didn't leave did you?"

I responded:

"I did.  We agreed to meet at 8:30.  Didn't you get my texts and calls?  I was there for 40 minutes without hearing from you."

She responds:

"Unbelievable.  My GPS has taken me to the wrong place like four times and I don't get service"

I rolled my eyes to this because any moron can operate a GPS.  She continues:

"The right thing to do would have been to pick me up.  I would NEVER stand someone up.  I don't think this is going to work."

I respond:

"I mean, we agreed to meeting there at 8:30.  If it needed to be any different, I would've appreciated a call or some sort of indication.  I'm sorry for the misunderstanding."

She goes:

"You just TOLD me to meet you there.  We didn't agree on anything."

Haven't responded to her since.  That raises the question though...did I wait long enough?  Did I do the right thing?  It certainly FELT like being stood up, and I'm sorry but if you're having problems with your car or phone, that's not really my fault.  I don't know.

I think I dodged a bullet with this girl regardless, though.

[TakingBackSunday]

She was going to be coming from work, at least that's what she told me the day before.

[Positive Touch]

don't feel guilty at all. you dodged a bullet.

[CatsCatsCats]

Sounds like a dodged bullet, bro

[TakingBackSunday]

And I think 40 minutes is pretty fucking fair, especially since I hadn't heard a single thing from her

The crazy shit is that she works only like two miles away.  It shouldn't take her 40 minutes to get there

[Positive Touch]

exactly.she lied and tried to blame shit on you.

[TakingBackSunday]

yeah.  chick was kinda cold.  This is one situation where I don't feel depressed about the whole ordeal.

still reeling from the girl in October/November

[nachobro]

Worked on a Saturday for the first time in almost a decade. I volunteered to do it too, which makes me feel even worse about it.

[chronovore]

yeah.  chick was kinda cold.  This is one situation where I don't feel depressed about the whole ordeal.

still reeling from the girl in October/November

You're in the clear. Anyone who is 40 minutes late for whatever reason, and doesn’t start with an apology is nothing but trouble.

Hope you get over Miss October soon.

[TVC15]

I can still taste egg everytime I burp from those 2 1.5-day old mcmuffins I ate like 3 days ago Either that or something is rotting in my body and it tastes like mcmuffin.

[TakingBackSunday]

I'm allowed to feel shitty about a shitty situation, Shinobi.

[chronovore]

I'm allowed to feel shitty about a shitty situation, Shinobi.

You seem to really get upset by what other people think. Why let it bother you?

[chronovore]

Struggle or triumph, I dunno, but: this Macallan 12 isn't helping me figure out database UI design, but it /is/ helping me feel happy.

[Cerveza mas fina]

Someone broke into our storage space below the complex and stole my Saturn and a drill machine.

Prob thought there was a laptop in the laptop box.

Would maim on sight.

Too bad I wasnt insured for break ins, but thats taken care of now.

Police didnt even bother coming by.

[CatsCatsCats]

I'm allowed to feel shitty about a shitty situation, Shinobi.

That's what great about America, we're free to engage in all sorts of unhealthy behavior!

[nachobro]

I thought you mean Saturn like the car for a minute and got really confused.

That sucks man. 

[Cerveza mas fina]

I still have all the games, they werent shipped to Denmark yet.

Its a good neighbourhood and I didnt expect this, but I did put everything in open sight.

[Phoenix Dark]

A few days ago I posted about not shoveling 1-2 inches of snow because fuck it. Well it's been sunny every day since and the snow has melted into hard ass ice

[Kara]

Went to see the St. Petersburg State Symphony Orchestra perform and:

• had to endure plebs in patricians' clothing not knowing when to fucking applaud.
• spent the whole time jonesing for the harpist I was fucking promised in the program and they only performed for the final third of the concert¹.
• had to halfheartedly clap along when the conductor opened up with some spiel about how art--and especially music (their words not mine)--are above politics² because people are morons who can't separate a touring orchestra from Vladimir Putin or something. This received thunderous applause from the limousine liberal crowd, be tea dubs.
  

(There was also some dude across the hall from me in a teal beanie. I know the Charlotte Hornets are back, but that doesn't mean that teal is back too.)

Then keeping to my meticulously crafted caricature I mixed high with the low and went to the smokeasy only to discover that the smokeasy isn't really a smokeasy on Saturday night but a bar where dipshit 20 somethings do dipshit 20 something bar stuff where you can smoke inside. I go to the smokeasy to smoke while drinking overpriced liquor with like-minded spirits, not listen to whelps howl when the DJ throws on "Party Up (Up In Here)".

¹The "secret encore" was the finale from The Nutcracker, which despite being seasonally inappropriate even by Orthodox standards, was a better showcase for my mother fucking god damn HARP than the last third of the concert.

²The irony of the fact that this statement in and of itself made the performance political was apparently lost on Tov. Vladimir Lande. "So heißt unparteiisch sein für die Kunst nur: zur herrschenden Partei gehören."

[chronovore]

Went to see the St. Petersburg State Symphony Orchestra perform and:

• had to endure plebs in patricians' clothing not knowing when to fucking applaud.
• spent the whole time jonesing for the harpist I was fucking promised in the program and they only performed for the final third of the concert¹.
• had to halfheartedly clap along when the conductor opened up with some spiel about how art--and especially music (their words not mine)--are above politics² because people are morons who can't separate a touring orchestra from Vladimir Putin or something. This received thunderous applause from the limousine liberal crowd, be tea dubs.
  

(There was also some dude across the hall from me in a teal beanie. I know the Charlotte Hornets are back, but that doesn't mean that teal is back too.)

Then keeping to my meticulously crafted caricature I mixed high with the low and went to the smokeasy only to discover that the smokeasy isn't really a smokeasy on Saturday night but a bar where dipshit 20 somethings do dipshit 20 something bar stuff where you can smoke inside. I go to the smokeasy to smoke while drinking overpriced liquor with like-minded spirits, not listen to whelps howl when the DJ throws on "Party Up (Up In Here)".

¹The "secret encore" was the finale from The Nutcracker, which despite being seasonally inappropriate even by Orthodox standards, was a better showcase for my mother fucking god damn HARP than the last third of the concert.

²The irony of the fact that this statement in and of itself made the performance political was apparently lost on Tov. Vladimir Lande. "So heißt unparteiisch sein für die Kunst nur: zur herrschenden Partei gehören."

[TVC15]

I, uh, seriously had a dream I went to a Phish and John Lennon show and LIKED it. God is waving the red cape at me, my friends.

[TVC15]

Alright, 6AM. Time to get up and prepare for a morning full of bullshit. I can use your strength, friends. Keep me in your thoughts. We'll have The Bachelor tonight, and things will be good.

[chronovore]

Caught a cold. I think I was sick less than a month ago, but I’ve been mostly healthy --more than ever-- for the last couple years. What the hell is up with this?

[Madrun Badrun]

Caught a cold. I think I was sick less than a month ago, but I’ve been mostly healthy --more than ever-- for the last couple years. What the hell is up with this?

Getting old

[Madrun Badrun]

I can't find my beard comb today and so my beard feels all tanglely and shit.

[MrAngryFace]

Document revisions provided without Track Changes :*(

[king of the internet]

Decided not to take a sleeping pill last night since they always make it even harder than usual to get out of bed. Couldn't fall asleep till 8AM. Note to self: never try to sleep sober. 

[Madrun Badrun]

Ate too much icecream.  Now my throat hurts and I'm unfocused and jittery. 

[TVC15]

I think I legitimately went mad over the weekend, btw. I'm not sure how to quantify things in explaining them but I sort of almost believed that my various deep-ish esoteric studies over the past two years may have cast a dark influence over my fate, leading to the events that have me in the situation I am now. In particular, I believe Bune has somehow expressed influence over certain events that have befallen me, as I spent some time making sketches of his binding seal. I think maybe in drawing the seal incorrectly or something that I've instead become involuntarily bound to him. It explains a lot, at least from my point of view. I'm pretty sure it's not true though, but there's still this little tinge in the back of my head that will hopefully fade and leave me feeling very silly.

Bune: http://littledoomwitch.tumblr.com/post/66054908512/demon-a-day-bune-bune-duke-color-green

[TVC15]

Had a truly awful dream. I'm not going to be able to go back to sleep. I want to say I don't know where the things in my head came from, but I can't.

[Phoenix Dark]

Bought $10 of gas, it equaled 4.7 gallons, not 5


Also bought what I thought were Sour Patch Kids. Opened them up when I got home...they're "Sour Patch Xploderz" and fucking horrible. Chewey balls with some type of goo inside them, and it's not even sour AT ALL.

[Madrun Badrun]

I'm sorry your chewey balls weren't sour PD, though I know of some sour balls you may prefer. 

[Madrun Badrun]

I'm talking about my testicles, PD.  My testicles.

[nachobro]

the little sour watermelons they sell are really good.

[Madrun Badrun]

Now think about what else he jokes about and what else can be balanced on shoes. 

[TVC15]

I just walked in on my brother fucking a fleshlight he's balancing on his shoe

This is fucking awesome. What was his reaction? How old is he compared to you?

[Yeti]

Did it go more like this



or like this

[TVC15]

Can you still see it when you close your eyes?

[Phoenix Dark]

Is he large?

[TVC15]

How is your brother's penis?

[TVC15]

Do you see yourself ever trying the fleshlight? Be honest.