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[paprikastaude]

I was at a work meeting about 50 minutes ago, and during the lead up into it we were all talking about how our Thanksgiving break went. We talked about traveling and activities, and I brought up how I basically spent the entire break playing DQXI on the Switch.

Then, one of my co-workers said “Oh, that game? Yeah, I pirated it last year, but it was so buggy that I didn’t get far.”

And I was so flabbergasted. I literally said out loud “Dude, did you just admit to a crime?” This was at work, with everyone in the room clearly hearing him, including his superiors.

And he then just brushed it off like it was no big deal. I simply couldn’t believe how brazen that was.

I could understand opening up about this sort of stuff among friends, but at work? Honestly, I doubt he’d be reprimanded in any way, but good lord.

I’m not overreacting here, am I?

https://www.resetera.com/threads/um-is-it-normal-for-someone-to-casually-admit-to-pirating-stuff.156559/

 

nintenyearold's first week at work 

[ShutUp]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/why-is-that-woman-in-the-paleton-ad-in-a-constant-state-of-fear.156443/page-3

ERA shocked that owning workout equipment and taking exercise classes costs money. The least surprised I possibly ever have been.

[GreatSageEqualOfHeaven]

As a person of mostly-white origin (I'm actually mixed ethnicity but I'm very much white-passing)

of fucking course you are

[Drainage]

At least give credit to the Twitter thread you ripped this from op

If my wife made me watch a video of her workout narrations, which i wouldn't even put past her, I'd be like "wtf why are we doing this who cares how much time did you waste doing this you vain loser"

[nachobro]

I can't believe you guys still watch television where you would see this commercial in the first place

"I can't believe you guys watch sports" says adult decked out in cartoon avatar.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/why-is-that-woman-in-the-paleton-ad-in-a-constant-state-of-fear.156443/post-26993793

imagine getting clowned by this sonicfucker

[Hermit]

god damn, that got a chuckle out of me

I still think Kreijooc is a fucking loon though

[skullstorm]

I cannot help noticing in real life how some really petite/short single girls have massive dogs, bigger than them, and the dogs are almost always male. And then I see shit like the above and well, I feel justified for always side-eyeing those girls 

Even in countries where its easy to buy a gun, a big ass dog will fuck up any potential intruder / rapist with very little chance for the owner to be overpowered and have it turned against them.
Like, if you're a petite woman living alone, I can see how a big scary ass non-neutered attack dog is going to provide you some reassurance.

Sure, sure, I know I'd like a big ass dog with me if I'm out alone at night (and to wrestle with ofc). But then you see some of these girls' social media profiles full of pictures of them posing with their dogs like they're their boyfriends or something and it gets weird fast.

Seeing someone letting her dog munch on her pussy for clicks just does not help with the mental image I get from some of these tiny chicks and their weird ass instagram posts with their huge doggos. I'm sure most of them are completely normal, but some are definitely worth the side eye. Like Alinity.

[nachobro]

he's certainly has a lot of info, though it's questionable how accurate any of it is judging by his random spewing on LLCs. i just like how he has meltdowns whenever anyone disagrees with him on a topic he considers himself to be an "expert" on.

[Hermit]

he's certainly has a lot of info, though it's questionable how accurate any of it is judging by his random spewing on LLCs. i just like how he has meltdowns whenever anyone disagrees with him on a topic he considers himself to be an "expert" on.

This is exactly what I was referring to

[BisMarckie]

Krejlooc is weapons grade autism in its most distilled form.

[Tasty]

Never seen his meltdowns so K's still cool in my book.

[BIONIC]

Isn’t he the loon that went to anger management after being banned on gaf? 

[Straight Edge]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/how-do-you-acquire-vehicles.156581/

Financing is fine if you have good credit but don't get scammed by big percentages and lengthy terms. If you can't afford shorter-term loans at under 3%, you can't afford the car.

Nepenthe annihilated by Moblin.

[VomKriege]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-okay-boomer-moment-my-parents-just-offhandedly-said-they-were-voting-for-bloomberg-in-primaries.156346/

OK Bloomberg.

[thisismyusername]

Never seen his meltdowns so K's still cool in my book.

Probably because Nintenyearolds are full of Gran Autismos. So he doesn't special fellow out in NIntendo comfort threads.

But if you go to a VR thread or something he'll pull the "as an indie dev" card and try to pull rank. But the thing is: Has he shipped any fucking game? Or is he just a hobbiest that should shut the fuck up?

[nachobro]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/steam-april-2018-aaa-big-hole.33202/post-7104102

no one ever feels safe or welcome but they never leave


https://www.resetera.com/threads/were-you-identified-as-gifted-and-talented-in-school-or-went-to-a-magnet-program.41546/post-7786878

3 week ban for saying god knows what to this dude in PM lmao

[clothedmacuser]

I'm looking exclusively for an over-60, I'm not interested in young girls or some sad spinster waiting for an husband, I have a pointed sight towards old hags, possibly widowed in desperate search of some dick.
The more your vulva is dry and run-down, the more my swollen penis will cry lubricating and reading it to the climax.
I want to tighten your vaporous hair while I ride you violently and you think I might be your little nephew's best friend.
My dream is to extract my pulsating member from your avid mouth and that the new denture, still girding the glans, falls to the ground after a few seconds so that I can penetrate you once again like a stuffed turkey, but now your oral cavity will better serve my foreskin-armored soldier since your wet gums will gently slide along my tube.
I will lift your dropping tits revealing scars of an ancient love now sadly over just to cum all over them, infecting your mind with the idea of abandoning the religious practice in the pathetic parish of your little town, and I will go to mass with you explicitly to diabolically screw your loose ass inside the confessional with everyone present, who will think negatively of a lurid maniac caryatid such as yourself?
I will make your legs tremble like you just walked a whole flight of stairs and I will give up to you my place on the bus as long as you suck my cock, eagerly awaiting fresh, young seminal fluid so juicy that, dripping voluptously on your wrinkled, retired lips will make you desire to be fertile once again.
There is no "grandma's darling" of sorts that will stop me from slamming you against the wall like a crook which deceived you to enter your home.
I swear on everything that is holy that when I'll leave your stale smelling room leaving you creampied, weary and very close to join Heaven's army, yes, I swear on fucking God you will... You will give me a tip for the oratory's candies.

The anti-James

Edit: already banned  User Banned (Permanent): Making disgusting threads just to shock and appall, previous ban for racism

That’s shocking and appalling? 

lol, he made this TVC friendly thread about the smell of fecal matters.


https://www.resetera.com/threads/confession-time-i-like-the-smell-of-human-waste.148439/

I work in a restaurant since I was 22. I don't like the job too much, it's stressful and talking almost every single day with hundreds and hundreds of different people is more alienating than it seems.
There's only one precise reason I haven't quit yet outside of a good pay, and it's the pleasure I feel cleaning the bathroom stalls.
We have a special curry-based dish which is absolutely outstanding but brings anyone who decides to eat it to inevitably eject very odorous excrements almost every single time. The "I cannot wait to sit on the throne to expel this" type. Most of the time, they cannot resist the urge.
We sanityze the services every half an hour circa, and all my colleagues love me because during my shift I always volunteer to do it even if it's not part of my duty in that particular moment.
They take it as a kindness gesture, but they have no idea that it's actually an excuse to unleash the self-diagnosed paraphilia I have for the penetrating yet cozy smell the human body is capable to release.
I've read somewhere that in those incredible occasions we inhale miasma originated from some creature's defecation, your nose is actually breathing miniscule, imperceptible particles of, well, shit.
Being aware that through my respiratory system I am in fact ingesting human feces for some reason turns me on.
I don't feel the same thing for the mainstream, vulgar scent of urination, nor for the extreme, suffocating stench of not digested, retched food.
My appreciation derives exclusively from that which escapes the ass, the most ridiculous yet fascinating human appendice.
As I said, having worked for years in the same restaurant, in some rare, beautiful occasions I have become capable of recognizing the culprit of certain olfaction masterpieces, and of course knowing the origin, the source of such works of art can add or detract pleasure from my "masturbatory sessions", as I call them.
One evening the author was this gorgeous woman: she didn't show her age at all but she was around 50 years old, elegant even if a little supercilious, in a striking but not kitsch dress.
Well, the baby she laid in the stall lacked a certain "fullness", and from the remains which survived the flush I guessed that it probably was born ill, since the color tended more on the yellow/green side of the spectrum instead than the classic brown.
The smell, though.
I could spend hours explaining to you the overwhelming joy opening the door of the female bathroom that night.
It was like I could swim inside it, merging indefinitely to its molecules, transcending myself the divine.
I stayed there seven minutes to savor it, justifying myself to the collegues with trival motivations. It doesn't matter.
I have captured that woman's essence in a small glass vial I always bring with me in case this kind of discovery happens. While catching it, I remember I couldn't wait to go back home and finally reach the climax.
It is not simple masturbation mind you, my technique is closer to tantric sex, or even a seance.
Anyway, I exit the bog completely euphoric, and my glance crosses path with the neo-mother's one. Her embarassment was palpable, and for sure smiling to her in a proud manner didn't help getting any tips. I swear there was no malice in that act, it was a sincere compliment mixed with an honest surprise.
I admit I appreciate more a woman's evacuation to the one of a man's. Or, as I like to call them, anal ejaculations.
With time I have become an expert: I can easily deduce based on color, form, compactness and quantity the sex and age of the maker of what I find. I reduced my possibility of mistake to a max of 5 years or so, I'm not joking.
It is not coprophagia.
I see chewing and ingurgitating what a man expels as a vile, and also redundant practice. No, my affection is solely limited to the sense of smell, which we are used to underestimate but it's capable of powerful mnemonic experiences.
I still remember with teary eyes that time I realized my friend Bernard, who went to France for a few years for job related reasons, was back in my restaurant where he is a usual customer.
An inveterate chainsmoker and red wine enthusiast, his feces are basically a digital print: one swollen, leonine deuce, sorrounded by a crown of intestinal crumbs caused by an almost decayed liver.
I exited the stall happy like a kid seeing his father coming back from home, and I embraced him. He's very fat, and I can tell that he has trouble cleaning himself up. He still reeked of that mesmerizing odor.

But I love how they just have to add he was racist.  it's plainly visible he deserves a ban but toss in racist just to CYA.

[nachobro]

hobbes trying his hardest to generate some outrage but just exposed himself as never having worked for even a decently large company

https://www.resetera.com/threads/ea-and-other-studios-apparently-have-policies-that-require-developers-to-gather-permission-before-producing-any-creative-works-outside-of-work.156355/

[BIONIC]

Hobbes when he realized he can’t manage incidents in his spare time: 

[Nintex]

This is standard policy. Activision has the same in place, at least when I worked there.

EA legal also will work w you to ensure that everything is kosher - they do NOT just swoop in and "take" your creative works outside of the company.

I've published a book and am producing a movie short. EA has been incredibly supportive of both and is not claiming either. Two of my colleagues have published children's books w the same support and hands-off treatment re: ownership.

There are things to get mad about in this industry. This isn't it.

The scary ban man has become such a corporate hack 

At my company I applaud people working on their own stuff. The only thing we have is a right of first refusal on any new client starting a certain sum.
They can even use our facilities outside of working hours for their own projects or host workshops, network events and stuff. Seems like a waste to have an office building vacant during weekends when the space can be put to good use.
If our designers want to make logo's for local businesses in their free time or whatever to develop their skills they are free to do so. It also fosters a culture of sharing between our workers.
Some of them work together outside of office hours on their pet projects.

But I'm easily one of the coolest employers around in my area so 

[Straight Edge]

Every Hobbes post feels like he is desperately screaming "Look at me! I possess the correct opinions on this matter!"

[Nintex]

Hobbes: "Did anyone notice that you have to pay for parking in big cities?"

Era: "FUCK CAPITALISM!"

[Pissy F Benny]

Does disagreeing with Hobbes count as vilifying (freelance) journalism 

[stufte]

Does disagreeing with Hobbes count as vilifying (freelance) journalism 

(He's Retired)

[benjipwns]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/um-is-it-normal-for-someone-to-casually-admit-to-pirating-stuff.156559/

Reminds me of a funny moment I had maybe ten or so years ago. Getting home from school, I had forgot my keys at home, so I waited at the McDonald's up the street until one of my parents got home. A few minutes after getting some nuggets and setting up my Macbook at a booth with an outlet, I noticed there was a cop having a sit a couple tables away from me. Maybe about 30 or so minutes away, the cop came up to me and asked about advice on using MacOS, as he was confused since he just got an Apple as well (don't remember which laptop he had). Upon assisting, he asked me some advice on using uTorrent as it "looked different from the PC version so [he] felt kinda lost". This felt like a huge trap in my brain, so I just said I never heard of the program. I went back to my seat after we were done talking and chilled for maybe another 15-20 minutes before I was able to head home.

[benjipwns]

This thread actually needs to be archived, I haven't laughed this hard in a while.

Another ResetERA.com classic!

[thisismyusername]

ACAB.

Maybe it was a sting. Maybe it was just the piggy wanting to pirate his BBC Planet Earth porn. We'll never know because you were a coward, quoted poster.

[stufte]

I remember downloading a nes emulator and a super mario bros rom when I was 17.

Writing this from jail.

[Leadbelly]

Always kinda irked me how normalized piracy is but I'd never make a scene at work over it lol

It always seemed to me like it was not only normalised but a general rule of internet culture. You share what you have and not try to make money off it. Certainly in the early days, but I guess less so these days.

[Vertigo]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/

Hi, I fucked up and combine that with other things in our relationship, we broke up. I am so unsure how I can go on, my heart is broken. She was my best and only friend, the only person I had in my life that I loved/love. I want her back and I know that's impossible, but I just feel crushed. She was/is my angel, my favourite person, but most importantly, my best friend. Someone I'd never want to be without.



I thought I'd grow old with her, now I know I wont and I just want to die. I have never felt like this. The worst feeling of it all is, after a 6 year relationship, her saying she didn't really get anything good out of it and that also when we broke up last time which lasted a week she was crying when she broke it off, this time it seems like this time she is genuinely happy we are over, meanwhile I am so sad, I am just crushed, it makes me feel super unloved that it seems like she doesn't care. She did end up crying in the end. But most of the conversation, which was not  fight at all, she didn't seem to care.



I know I will get a "time heals all" response and I guess maybe it does, but I don't see it ever healing, ever. I have Borderline Personality Disorder so I am very scared and emotionally destroyed by rejection, so this isn't going well, lots of suicidal ideation and self harm thoughts, I can't be without her, I at least need her as my best friend, I have no family or friends, she is literally the only person I talk to because my parents abused me and when I got really bad mentally 6 years ago all my friends stopped speaking to me because I stopped drinking and partying. I am seeing my psych this afternoon... I just feel like my heart has been stomped on. Plus I am 26, unemployed, mentally ill, can't leave my house and on disability pension. Who in the living hell would want to ever date me?



Someone please help or something... I dunno.

Was so tempted to post a you played yourself gif


EDIT:
Actually it maybe what he needs.

Looking at the OP post history it seems like he was chatting to another girl on Tinder and got caught.



You live and you learn OP.

pretty much, she said she was gay and no longer wanted to have sex with males, but she didnt want to break up, then 3 months went by and she hadn't made up her mind on how we move forward, so she said "lets have an open relationship starting next week" But I started talking to a girl literally like 4 days before the open relationship officially started so she told me thats cheating and she broke up with me.

 

[stufte]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/

Hi, I fucked up and combine that with other things in our relationship, we broke up. I am so unsure how I can go on, my heart is broken. She was my best and only friend, the only person I had in my life that I loved/love. I want her back and I know that's impossible, but I just feel crushed. She was/is my angel, my favourite person, but most importantly, my best friend. Someone I'd never want to be without.



I thought I'd grow old with her, now I know I wont and I just want to die. I have never felt like this. The worst feeling of it all is, after a 6 year relationship, her saying she didn't really get anything good out of it and that also when we broke up last time which lasted a week she was crying when she broke it off, this time it seems like this time she is genuinely happy we are over, meanwhile I am so sad, I am just crushed, it makes me feel super unloved that it seems like she doesn't care. She did end up crying in the end. But most of the conversation, which was not  fight at all, she didn't seem to care.



I know I will get a "time heals all" response and I guess maybe it does, but I don't see it ever healing, ever. I have Borderline Personality Disorder so I am very scared and emotionally destroyed by rejection, so this isn't going well, lots of suicidal ideation and self harm thoughts, I can't be without her, I at least need her as my best friend, I have no family or friends, she is literally the only person I talk to because my parents abused me and when I got really bad mentally 6 years ago all my friends stopped speaking to me because I stopped drinking and partying. I am seeing my psych this afternoon... I just feel like my heart has been stomped on. Plus I am 26, unemployed, mentally ill, can't leave my house and on disability pension. Who in the living hell would want to ever date me?



Someone please help or something... I dunno.

Was so tempted to post a you played yourself gif


EDIT:

She was my best and only friend

[VomKriege]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998104

 

[VomKriege]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998310

 

[benjipwns]

I am disabled enough that more than 10 minutes outside leads to long term mental and physical pain.

[VomKriege]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998392

OP should stop posting.

[benjipwns]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998392

OP should stop posting.

Can we just support OP in his time of need. He's not painting himself as the good guy or anything, he's just hurting and turning to Era for emotional support.

[Hermit]

Kinda feel bad for some of these people

[benjipwns]

They had to make a thread because Ketkat hasn't posted in the Mental Health Era community thread since September due to the constant acephobic and transphobic hate all over the forum.

[Potato]

Kinda feel bad for some of these people

Nope. Not even once.

[nachobro]

Well here's the thing, she has lived with me for 6 years, never paid rent, internet, anything like that, it was all paid for by me. She has no where to go, so even though she dumped me yesterday, due to my fear of abandonment I asked her to continue living with me, she still is texting me love you when she went to work this morning, still sleeping in my bed, giving me hugs and kisses, I am still paying rent.... but we are broken up.... I feel like she is using me but I am so afraid of being alone that I don't want to say anything to her. I didn't include this in the OP because it makes me look way more pathetic and like a push over

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998934

[Nintex]

I am disabled enough that more than 10 minutes outside leads to long term mental and physical pain.

[stufte]

Is the poster one of those people who are like...allergic to the sun

Actually just a ghost and doesn't know it. They made a movie about it.

[benjipwns]

Is the poster one of those people who are like...allergic to the sun

If someone identifies as Nosferatu why do you think it's any of your business to question their identity?

[nachobro]

ol powder looking bitch

[jorma]

She probably put peanut butter in her crack, would put nothing past the queen of the thots.

This wasn't even the first time 

https://twitter.com/SHAUNNN__/status/1201028498036592640

not even the tenth time 

https://streamable.com/22vdf

[Nintex]

Doggo likes fish 

[Potato]

Well here's the thing, she has lived with me for 6 years, never paid rent, internet, anything like that, it was all paid for by me. She has no where to go, so even though she dumped me yesterday, due to my fear of abandonment I asked her to continue living with me, she still is texting me love you when she went to work this morning, still sleeping in my bed, giving me hugs and kisses, I am still paying rent.... but we are broken up.... I feel like she is using me but I am so afraid of being alone that I don't want to say anything to her. I didn't include this in the OP because it makes me look way more pathetic and like a push over

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998934
 

Great couple.

One doesn't work or pay her way. The other is a literal shut-in who doesn't leave the house for longer than 10 minutes.

What does this guy do for a living that he can pay rent and support a dependent while not leaving the house?

We know Cereal doesn't even pay his mods, so posting all day on REEEsetera isn't it...

[benjipwns]

What does this guy do for a living that he can pay rent and support a dependent while not leaving the house?

Receives disability.

[stufte]

What does this guy do for a living that he can pay rent and support a dependent while not leaving the house?

Receives disability.

 

[Potato]

What does this guy do for a living that he can pay rent and support a dependent while not leaving the house?

Receives disability.

How the fuck are two people living from one disability allowance?

I don't care what country you live in, that is not viable even in those countries with the best social safety nets.

[benjipwns]

They live in Australia.

They seem to have made a thread five days ago that's now deleted: https://www.resetera.com/threads/i-have-bpd-and-i-am-about-to-go-through-a-breakup-anyone-dealt-with-this-before.155911/

Still in the Google Cache though:

Okay so things haven't been great for a while, then I really fucked up because I was wanting validation and to feel like I was still desirable (talking to a girl on tinder). She found out, and long story short she doesn't know if she wants to stay with me. We are doing couples therapy next week but the wait is killing me, I feel so sick and just distressed, I have no one in my life except her, no friends, family, nothing, only her and I love her so much. If she leaves me I don't know how I can continue living. We have been together and living together for 6 years, I don't know how I'd adjust from that...... Plus I am disabled/mentally ill and can't leave my house, so who would ever want to date someone like me, I'll be alone forever. but even besides that I just don't want to lose my girlfriend.

How do I deal with this? I don't want to kill myself but it seems like the only way out. It makes it hard too, because she keeps saying she doesn't know if she can stay with me, but in the mean time she's still giving me kisses, cuddles and saying how much she loves me. I am just so confused and terrified. I can't be alone. no one will ever want to be with me. Someone help. I am home alone right now and I am scared of what I'll do.

She doesn't have anywhere to go, she can't afford to move out, she just started a new job in a new city, I help her a lot with money, she has no car. So I am hoping this makes her want to stay. I am just so fucking afraid. I want to die. I have made a lot of progress on my eating disorder but never sought treatment for my BPD and now it's all blown up in my face. I have made an appointment to start DBT for next week the day before the couples counselling.

Please be kind even if you think I am pathetic or an asshole, I am scared for myself and my relationship and I feel terrible for being doing an asshole thing.

EDIT: and yes, besides starting treatment for my BPD next week, and the couples counselling, I also saw my psych two days ago and spoke to her about it, so I am seeking professional help, I just want to know if anyone here has been through similar.

Thank you, this means a lot, and you are right, that I am so willing to change, I have spent hours today trying to get the first appointment possible for helping my BPD. I need and want to change. But unfortunately you are right that I don't believe that it can get better. I am a fuck up, I cut my wrists so many times the last few days and I haven't done that in a while.

Back in October: https://www.resetera.com/threads/anyone-here-have-borderline-personality-disorder-and-gone-through-a-breakup.146850/

I'm so scared, about a week and a half ago my girlfriend told me she thinks shes gay, and im 100% supportive of her, I dont want her to repress her sexuality, that's not fair and it's not her fault. But, I am absolutely terrified, she wants to stay with me because she loves me and says that her emotions are stronger than her sexual desire, but she has said we can't have sex again, she doesn't like having sex with men. So... I reluctantly agreed. But I am not an idiot, I know she will break up with me, I don't know how I would live without her, it's been 6 years, I've been with her since i was 20 years old, I was only diagnosed with BPD last year but I can see how it has been affecting me forever, I don't know how I can continue to go on living when she leaves?

I am on disability pension due to my BPD, OCD, PTSD and can't leave my house due to Agoraphobia and Panic Disorder, I will never be able to find someone to be with when she leaves, I am so afraid, she's my best friend and I don't want to lose her and I don't want to be alone forever.... please help me guys, im so scared.

To top it off, I am starting to realise that the thoughts I've suppressed my whole life about being trans may actually be real and I am looking into a psych that specialises in that area, but I don't want to tell me girlfriend about that, I am suffering huge dysphoria right now, and not just about gender but about life, I am so scared about being alone, I don't know how I'd continue to live, I am just feeling so trapped and terrified right now. I don't have family, my mum is an alt-right weirdo, my sisters have their own things, my dad abused me, I have no one except my girlfriend

I'm in Australia, I am very paranoid and hate those lines because I don't trust that they wont send emergency services and have me hospitalised, I'm not suicidal or anything so I don't want to go through that hassle.

Back in June: https://www.resetera.com/threads/i-need-help-with-my-mother-shes-fallen-in-to-the-alt-right-crowd-and-as-my-carer-things-are-getting-really-hard.125008/

Hi guys, so long story short, I am disabled and require my mother to pretty much get all my food and organise all my doctors appointments and whatever else. but the last 3 or so years she's gone insane, I can't have a 10 minute conversation with her without her telling me about "big pharma" or Hilary running pedophile rings (we arent even american so I dont even know why shes so obsessed with hilary, but its relentless) she thinks that the reason kids in Africa look starving is because Bill Gates is giving them "vaccines" to kill them for population control. I rang her yesterday and asked her if she could get me medicine from the pharmacy and she started telling me how many "chemtrails" are in the air right now poisoning us. Even simple things like dogs being desexed to her is a conspiracy by the government because for some reason she thinks they dont want us to have dogs.

I don't know what to do, relying on someone that is making my life hell is really really hard, its gotten so bad that I legit have felt like killing myself to escape her, being disabled means my life is already pretty crappy but all day the only person I have on this planet to look after me and care for me is obsessed with far right conspiracies and nazi style views on race. She is obsessed and no matter how many times I tell her I don't care and that it's all bullshit she keeps trying to "Brain Force Plus" me. it's not fair for her to do this to me when I have severe mental problems and physical problems.

What can I do? if I don't have her I will have no one but honestly, at this point it feels like mental abuse and that she's purposefully trying to make me upset or angry. I have been contemplating suicide and I know you guys may think that's an overreaction to this, but just picture being trapped 24/7 with a nazi/alt-right person who wont shut up about it and being completely defenseless.

Is there anything you guys can suggest? I'm at my wits end.

Sorry if this is a dumb thread, I don't know where to go for help.

My disabilities are weird, I am mentally disabled due to a brain trauma I had when crashed my motorbike as a child so I find it extremely hard to concentrate on stuff and I start panicking and can become so bad I can start having minor convulsions. Physically I can walk probably about 30 metres before I need to sit for around half an hour due to that same accident. My spine was completely messed up in the accident.

I am unsure whats available where I am, I'm very remote in an Aboriginal community so services are very very limited. But there has to be something and I will definitely start googling and try to get some info

I did a while ago but everything I found was at least 2 hours away from me because the government doesnt fund aboriginal majority areas very well. and yeah I receive my social security money directly into my bank account, but she has full control over my social security account because shes marked as my carer, so she can ring and cancel it whenever she wants which scares me because she is vindictive enough to maybe do it, I need to get that right taken away from her but I dont know what to do.

But... wait:

I did have a girlfriend at one point but..... yeah, didnt work out. She couldn't handle all the stress of my mother combined with my disabilities, my mother would always say horrible things about her and it ran her off.

[Vertigo]

Well here's the thing, she has lived with me for 6 years, never paid rent, internet, anything like that, it was all paid for by me. She has no where to go, so even though she dumped me yesterday, due to my fear of abandonment I asked her to continue living with me, she still is texting me love you when she went to work this morning, still sleeping in my bed, giving me hugs and kisses, I am still paying rent.... but we are broken up.... I feel like she is using me but I am so afraid of being alone that I don't want to say anything to her. I didn't include this in the OP because it makes me look way more pathetic and like a push over

https://www.resetera.com/threads/my-girlfriend-broke-off-a-6-year-long-relationship-i-am-very-mentally-ill-and-not-sure-how-i-can-handle-it.156608/post-26998934

I'm going to guess she's not very attractive... As if she was she would have been out of there years ago.

[Snoopycat_]

But... wait:

I did have a girlfriend at one point but..... yeah, didnt work out. She couldn't handle all the stress of my mother combined with my disabilities, my mother would always say horrible things about her and it ran her off.

And there it is. These alphabet people just can't do anything right.

Gawd.

Come back Amirox. All is forgiven.

[NekoFever]

This character seems to have dropped the coming out as trans to keep his lesbian girlfriend thread from a few weeks ago from his backstory.

[benjipwns]

 

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no bully pls

[benjipwns]

April 1st: https://www.resetera.com/threads/mental-health-era-ot2-community-and-understanding.95803/post-19444604

After 6 longs years of being debilitatingly sick from gastroparesis and OCD I have started trying medicinal cannabis and it seems to be working, I am also now prescribed Testosterone as my Test levels were really really low. This combination has worked pretty good for my mental health. Except I am having vivid dreams about my ex from over 6 years ago, dreams we are getting back together and all this stuff, then because the dreams are super vivid I am obsessing about it all day.

Problem is, I have a girlfriend that I love, but man, my current girlfriend and I have been together for 6 years and she is just miserable all the time, sex is bland, she never seems to enjoy it or initiate it, she is always angry, always, things are going well for her, she is studying nursing at university, she doesnt pay any rent, my mother gives her money so she can study and doesnt have to worry about working and study at the same time. But she is just angry all the time, its like she cant see how much is being handed to her and how much her life is going well, my mother has given her a car to drive, free gas/petrol for the car, free rent and a wage but she doesnt seem to understand that not many people are that privileged and she still complains, she does have depression and was sexually assaulted as a teen by her step father so I get she has problems herself but she REFUSES, I mean vehemently REFUSES to go see someone and get help, she thinks they will make it worse, I cant handle it, and then the dreams of my ex make it worse because I reminisce on being with her as when I was with her I wasnt sick, I was healthy, outgoing and happy, for some reason my mind wants me to try and get back with her despite me not talking to her more than half a decade and her being mentally abusive.

Sorry, this is rambling and may be confusing, but long story short, I am having really vivid dreams of my ex from over 6 years ago. I miss her and voices in my head tell me to contact her (I am not going to contact her), my current girlfriend of 6 years who has stuck by me during my hospital stays and everything else is just miserable all the time and I am missing having a loving happy person in my life and for some reason my mind wants me to run back to an emotionally abusive ex just because I was healthy and happy back then. My psych brought up BPD with me and suggested I may have it, maybe I do, I do have the obsession with never being alone and wanting multiple partners incase I am abandoned.

Sorry guys for the long post, I just needed to vent and maybe get advice. As I am having panic attacks over this, I feel like getting in car and either driving into a tree or driving a long way away and going missing, i dont want to deal with these dreams or my angry girlfriend anymore.

[benjipwns]

Hey Khaled, thank you for opening up about this. While I can understand why you might be having dreams about your ex during this moment, it's important to take a step back and realize that you might be romanticizing the relationship some. All relationships have rough patches, and this would be true if you were with your ex as well, especially if she was mentally abusive.

Since your girlfriend has depression, it's possible that she's aware of how privileged she is to have all of this support, but that she is still struggling because depression isn't as easy to fix as that for some people. For some people, it can actually exacerbate the issue as they wonder why they still feel that way despite everything afforded to them. I do think that you have the right idea about her needing to see a professional for help, would you be willing to elaborate a little on why she doesn't want to see one? You say that she feels they'll make it worse, but do you know why she feels that way?

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SugarNoodles ban has now been "duration pending" for nearly three weeks:
https://www.resetera.com/threads/vegan-sues-burger-king-for-cooking-impossible-whopper-on-meat-grill-and-something-about-rats.154301/post-26663256

User banned (duration pending): inflammatory comparison and accusation against other members, recently banned for identical behaviour, and a long history of infractions for hostility and inflammatory accusations.

Lol “well if you tell us not to be shitty then we’ll just go back to when things were worse and it’ll be all your fault”

straight out of the alt right playbook. I can’t.

This is why droves feel unsafe and are leaving in marginalized wars it's based on.

[stufte]

The fact that he landed a girlfriend at all is a fucking miracle. Though that may have something to do with him reeling in a naive 16yr old.