Doxxing Files |OT| Do not use a pandemic to make a platform wars thread

[NekoFever]

The Guardian has an article about curtain rats like GodOfPhwoar

A spectre is haunting Britain – the spectre of the public. Can’t you feel them? They’ve been lying in wait for months, ambiently monstrous, doing God knows what in their homes. Watching overly large televisions, probably, and smoking things you and I haven’t even heard of. They have been hosting illegal raves in their garden sheds, and feeding their children sugary cereal and cocaine for breakfast – and now they are seeping on to the streets again. The public are a frightful lot: coarse, dangerous and not to be trusted. They don’t care about the real people – which is to say, me and my immediate family. They care only for themselves. Something must be done. The public must be kept indoors at all costs.

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2021/apr/14/pandemic-tutting-scolds-change-distrust-bodies-fatal

My sister-in-law got an anonymous typewritten letter in the post saying she'd been witnessed breaking the lockdown rules on a certain date and had been reported to the police. I hadn't seen GoP in the coronavirus thread so it's good to know he's keeping well.

lockdown has been heaven on earth for nosey cunts and grasses, i'm just glad that my few light rule breaks haven't been caught by one of them

Just do what everyone else does and change which support bubble you're in based on who you're with and who's asking.

[jorma]

The Guardian has an article about curtain rats like GodOfPhwoar

A spectre is haunting Britain – the spectre of the public. Can’t you feel them? They’ve been lying in wait for months, ambiently monstrous, doing God knows what in their homes. Watching overly large televisions, probably, and smoking things you and I haven’t even heard of. They have been hosting illegal raves in their garden sheds, and feeding their children sugary cereal and cocaine for breakfast – and now they are seeping on to the streets again. The public are a frightful lot: coarse, dangerous and not to be trusted. They don’t care about the real people – which is to say, me and my immediate family. They care only for themselves. Something must be done. The public must be kept indoors at all costs.

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2021/apr/14/pandemic-tutting-scolds-change-distrust-bodies-fatal

My sister-in-law got an anonymous typewritten letter in the post saying she'd been witnessed breaking the lockdown rules on a certain date and had been reported to the police. I hadn't seen GoP in the coronavirus thread so it's good to know he's keeping well.

lockdown has been heaven on earth for nosey cunts and grasses, i'm just glad that my few light rule breaks haven't been caught by one of them

what would happen if they did catch one of these so called "light rule breaks"?

asking because i wanted to find out if you were living in north korea or 1970's east germany 

[Pissy F Benny]

if someone rats you out to the cops its a £100 fine for first offence, £400 for the second offence, then doubling for each further offence up to a maximum of £6,400

[jorma]

if someone rats you out to the cops its a £100 fine for first offence, £400 for the second offence, then doubling for each further offence up to a maximum of £6,400

a bit disappointed with the lack of "third strike means life", ngl 

[HaughtyFrank]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/

Please keep in mind that this isn't a boy's club and it's not only men browsing and posting here. Even though the character is fictional, the sheer amount of thirstposting in this thread is alienating to some members, and is a distraction from actual discussion.

Further thirstposting and boy's club/locker room type posts will be actioned.

My goodness, how heteronormative of them to assume only men find women attractive. Narrow minded bigots.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62894799
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62895288
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-2#post-62896146
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-3#post-62897193

Four identical posts. Two banned, two not. The whole thread is a mess, they either need to remove those bans or ban a shit load more people.

The incompetence is really impressive. Just how do they mess up consistent moderation so much?

[Pissy F Benny]

the two who didn't get banned are probably in a discord with a mod or two, which is actually consisent resetera policy

[Joe Molotov]

It used to just be Boy's Club talk that was banned, but they finally closed down the Boy's Locker Room loophole.

[Pissy F Benny]

but the locker room talk trump scandal was before resetera split off from

[Tasty]

She needs a tattoo across her midriff that says 'wet ass pussy'.

Man, those words could use a hyphen in there. Still, I remain ambiguous.

Everyone should get that tattoo

[CHOW CHOW]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/

Please keep in mind that this isn't a boy's club and it's not only men browsing and posting here. Even though the character is fictional, the sheer amount of thirstposting in this thread is alienating to some members, and is a distraction from actual discussion.

Further thirstposting and boy's club/locker room type posts will be actioned.

My goodness, how heteronormative of them to assume only men find women attractive. Narrow minded bigots.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62894799
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62895288
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-2#post-62896146
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-3#post-62897193

Four identical posts. Two banned, two not. The whole thread is a mess, they either need to remove those bans or ban a shit load more people.

Honestly this needs to be called out. All four posts are identical, there's no wiggle room, they're 100% identical. The timing doesn't make sense either.

10:02pm = banned
10:09pm = not banned
10:24pm = banned
10:43pm = not banned

[joeboy101]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/

Please keep in mind that this isn't a boy's club and it's not only men browsing and posting here. Even though the character is fictional, the sheer amount of thirstposting in this thread is alienating to some members, and is a distraction from actual discussion.

Further thirstposting and boy's club/locker room type posts will be actioned.

My goodness, how heteronormative of them to assume only men find women attractive. Narrow minded bigots.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62894799
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62895288
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-2#post-62896146
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-3#post-62897193

Four identical posts. Two banned, two not. The whole thread is a mess, they either need to remove those bans or ban a shit load more people.

Honestly this needs to be called out. All four posts are identical, there's no wiggle room, they're 100% identical. The timing doesn't make sense either.

10:02pm = banned
10:09pm = not banned
10:24pm = banned
10:43pm = not banned

In other news...

https://www.resetera.com/threads/in-ocanada-news-canadian-mp-apologizes-after-appearing-naked-during-video-meeting.410391/

Good looking enough to get away with it tbh /thirst

I can fap to this

What was that about double standards?

Can we not distribute someone's leaked nude?

its ok its funny when its a DUDE's leaked nudes without consent /s

 

[Joe Molotov]

no Fuccbois' Club rhetoric

[Nintex]

Good looking enough to get away with it tbh /thirst

I can fap to this

What was that about double standards?

They have no standards

[HaughtyFrank]

An hour and forty minutes...

How hard it is to say "Sorry, I messed up, it's on me I'll do better,won't happen again"

Guess I'll find out

But what if... she didn't mess up?

I like how Lindsay says that she doesn't want to embolden the right wing by saying she's cancelled while RE cancels her

[joeboy101]

An hour and forty minutes...

How hard it is to say "Sorry, I messed up, it's on me I'll do better,won't happen again"

Guess I'll find out

But what if... she didn't mess up?

I like how Lindsay says that she doesn't want to embolden the right wing by saying she's cancelled while RE cancels her

As if they’d actually ACCEPT a simple apology like that.

[bork]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/

Please keep in mind that this isn't a boy's club and it's not only men browsing and posting here. Even though the character is fictional, the sheer amount of thirstposting in this thread is alienating to some members, and is a distraction from actual discussion.

Further thirstposting and boy's club/locker room type posts will be actioned.

My goodness, how heteronormative of them to assume only men find women attractive. Narrow minded bigots.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62894799
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/#post-62895288
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-2#post-62896146
https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-3#post-62897193

Four identical posts. Two banned, two not. The whole thread is a mess, they either need to remove those bans or ban a shit load more people.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/kofxv-character-trailer-14-shermie.410187/page-7#post-62933295

Did they make her thighs bigger than Chun Li's in SF5?

Oh hey, it's the dude with the cropped ASS avatar, back again! 

https://twitter.com/ReseteraTakes/status/1364550479603240960

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[Hermit]

The replies to that tweet have me fucking howling

[Joe Molotov]

An hour and forty minutes...

How hard it is to say "Sorry, I messed up, it's on me I'll do better,won't happen again"

Guess I'll find out

But what if... she didn't mess up?

I like how Lindsay says that she doesn't want to embolden the right wing by saying she's cancelled while RE cancels her

Lindsay Ellis, when she remembers Cancel Culture doesn't exist. 

[Nintex]

It looks like she aged 30 years in 2 months.

[Averon]

Hey, some on ERA are finally realizing apologizing to the Twitter mob is a futile effort. Of course, that didn't click in their heads until someone they liked--Lindsay Ellis--was a target of the mob they oh so championed in the past--and probably still do as long as it is aimed at the "right target."

[HaughtyFrank]

I'm not sure I'm going to watch all of it but in the first 30 minutes she makes some good points that actually fit perfectly to RE. Like the constant "Listen to POCs!!!" while actually just listening to the ones that are the loudest and then treating them like a monolith. Then all the white folks who seem to deal with their own ingrained racism by just constantly pointing the finger at others. You must be "one of the good ones" if you constantly call out racism after all.

[GreatSageEqualOfHeaven]

Dude was a shit, and glad things are moving quickly. I have to ask, why are we ok with effectively doxxing someone and then mobbing the houses? I don't think that is right, and implies mob justice. Is there no line or am I just not righteous enough in my anger tonight?

Enjoy your ban for a perfectly reasonable point

[HaughtyFrank]

Dude was a shit, and glad things are moving quickly. I have to ask, why are we ok with effectively doxxing someone and then mobbing the houses? I don't think that is right, and implies mob justice. Is there no line or am I just not righteous enough in my anger tonight?

Enjoy your ban for a perfectly reasonable point

User Banned (1 Week): Concern Trolling Around Racism

What does this even mean. It's a perfectly valid question when you see a large crowd gathered in front of that assholes house

It doesn't mean you want to protect the guy but you can also see how that thing can go sideways fast

[GreatSageEqualOfHeaven]

User Banned (1 Week): Concern Trolling Around Racism

What does this even mean. It's a perfectly valid question when you see a large crowd gathered in front of that assholes house

It doesn't mean you want to protect the guy but you can also see how that thing can go sideways fast

The guy they were supposedly 'protesting' wasn't even there, because he'd been arrested, and the mob still smashed up some lights and windows and had to be dispersed because they were getting ugly.

[GreatSageEqualOfHeaven]

Great numbers, especially for a show that isn’t on a service that’s available worldwide. Deserved, too! It’s been great so far.

 

[Pissy F Benny]

I'm not sure I'm going to watch all of it but in the first 30 minutes she makes some good points that actually fit perfectly to RE. Like the constant "Listen to POCs!!!" while actually just listening to the ones that are the loudest and then treating them like a monolith. Then all the white folks who seem to deal with their own ingrained racism by just constantly pointing the finger at others. You must be "one of the good ones" if you constantly call out racism after all.

one of the more mental things about some strands of 'wokeness' (ie the kind you see on ree) is that you should treat black people like some legendary mythical pokemon that you saw in  a zoo, rather than another human being, which has never set right with me

[BIONIC]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/lindsay-ellis-mask-off.410499/page-8#post-62944830

I find it kind of funny that this forum of all places is trying to have a dialogue whether a youtuber should be canceled because her tweets could be read as insensitive to Asians. I have the screen caps and the ban history to prove this forum doesn't actually give a flying fuck about the actual problems Asians face.

You keep screen caps and ban histories?

Haha wow, imagine the kind of losers that keep track of bans and post histories

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[HaughtyFrank]

Seems like she's still struggling with the harm her words caused. She acknowledges that it was bad, and that she did it, but I don't think she's completely taken it on board yet. She obviously disagrees with people who think she has nothing to apologize for, but I don't know that this is really going to move anyone one way or another.

No one owes her time. Least of all the people her tweet hurt.

 

No one can sincerely tell me that "I think Raya is like Avatar" causes harm. I don't buy it.

[GreatSageEqualOfHeaven]

Goddamn, that lindsay ellis thread is W-I-L-D with the cognitive dissonance.

Good to see eras usual suspects have settled on it just being her white fragility / tears / feminism / privilege as being the real problem.

[HaughtyFrank]

Red Merc complaining that the video is "too produced" 

One thing that puts me off, and it's not just with Lindsay but all videos like this, it just seems weird to "produce" videos like this. All people want is a sincere apology and recognition you fucked up and how you're gonna not do it moving forward, like just sit in front of a camera and talk if you're going to do a video, it gets weird thinking someone is going into Final Cut or whatever and being like oh I need to reshoot this part, I messed up what I said here so gotta cut that, the white balance got fucked up here gotta re-do that, is the camera angle okay, is the lighting okay, all that stuff. To me, like if your intention is to be candid and put everything on the table you don't really need to edit it.

You see the need for it though pretty strongly in this video though because she edits out details about her suicide attempt and her rape and her PTSD because she decided that was way too much to share in-depth.

 

[Raist]

Schrieieirier: "Sony’s Obsession with Blockbusters is Stirring Unrest in the PlayStation Empire "


Also Schreieierrer:

https://twitter.com/jasonschreier/status/1382744966598950915

[Nintex]

I respect the grifting of this clown 

[Propagandhim]

[GreatSageEqualOfHeaven]

And internet mobs are a real thing but, like, context matters. People fighting fascism or supporting minorities attacked by right-wing morons isn't bad, mobs silencing progressive voices who make videos criticizing their Lord & Saviour Jordan Peterson or Ben Shapiro are.

Oh, okay. One of us doesn't understand the meaning of the word 'context' I guess.

I don't think its a synonym for 'bias'.

[Nintex]

Holy fuck, Jason Schreier wrecked.

David Jaffe King

[Straight Edge]

Holy fuck, Jason Schreier wrecked.

David Jaffe King

https://www.resetera.com/threads/jason-schreier-joins-minnmaxx-podcast-to-talk-about-sony-bend-and-naughty-dog.410514/page-6

Oh no, Jaffe responded... & he's shitting on MinnMax? WTF?

 

[Potato]

Red Merc complaining that the video is "too produced" 

One thing that puts me off, and it's not just with Lindsay but all videos like this, it just seems weird to "produce" videos like this. All people want is a sincere apology and recognition you fucked up and how you're gonna not do it moving forward, like just sit in front of a camera and talk if you're going to do a video, it gets weird thinking someone is going into Final Cut or whatever and being like oh I need to reshoot this part, I messed up what I said here so gotta cut that, the white balance got fucked up here gotta re-do that, is the camera angle okay, is the lighting okay, all that stuff. To me, like if your intention is to be candid and put everything on the table you don't really need to edit it.

You see the need for it though pretty strongly in this video though because she edits out details about her suicide attempt and her rape and her PTSD because she decided that was way too much to share in-depth.

 

I keep saying it. DON'T. FUCKING. APOLOGISE.

All it does is allow these people to hyper analyse your apology and come up with asinine reasons why your apology is not sincere (which it really isn't because the only reason you're apologising is to assuage the raged-up fucking idiots anyway).

Own it, move on and they will find a new target.

[Potato]

And internet mobs are a real thing but, like, context matters. People fighting fascism or supporting minorities attacked by right-wing morons isn't bad, mobs silencing progressive voices who make videos criticizing their Lord & Saviour Jordan Peterson or Ben Shapiro are.

Oh, okay. One of us doesn't understand the meaning of the word 'context' I guess.

I don't think its a synonym for 'bias'.

"Cancel culture is only righteous if it is my side™ doing the cancelling!"

[Nintex]

Indeed never apologise

DOUBLE DOWN. always Double Down. Gaslight the fuck out of 'em and retort with 'Whataboutisms'
Jaffe is doing the right thing. Take Jason to the cleaners with his babby ree voice.

I don't recall him sounding like that before though, it must come with the reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee brain worms.

[Potato]

 

Everybody sounds like a fuckwit here...

The problem with modern online discourse is that it's dominated by these fucking douchebag losers who sound and look like they were the teacher's pet/hall monitors at high school.

Fuck these people.

[Nintex]

Even though that is true, the year of our lord 2021 expects us to take a side in this struggle between good and evil so I'm with Jaffe.

[Rman]

Goddamn, that lindsay ellis thread is W-I-L-D with the cognitive dissonance.

Good to see eras usual suspects have settled on it just being her white fragility / tears / feminism / privilege as being the real problem.

Cliff notes? And why does this content creator comes up so much on era? I don’t get the following.

[Potato]

Even though that is true, the year of our lord 2021 expects us to take a side in this struggle between good and evil so I'm with Jaffe.

If J Shiller is on one side, always take the other side. Always.

[NegativeCrepe]

Red Merc complaining that the video is "too produced" 

One thing that puts me off, and it's not just with Lindsay but all videos like this, it just seems weird to "produce" videos like this. All people want is a sincere apology and recognition you fucked up and how you're gonna not do it moving forward, like just sit in front of a camera and talk if you're going to do a video, it gets weird thinking someone is going into Final Cut or whatever and being like oh I need to reshoot this part, I messed up what I said here so gotta cut that, the white balance got fucked up here gotta re-do that, is the camera angle okay, is the lighting okay, all that stuff. To me, like if your intention is to be candid and put everything on the table you don't really need to edit it.

You see the need for it though pretty strongly in this video though because she edits out details about her suicide attempt and her rape and her PTSD because she decided that was way too much to share in-depth.

for once i agree, all these videos are always the same, too long and always talking about personal shit nobody cares about that has nothing to do with anything to make the mob feel bad for them, so they can be a victim too. they are all a scam. you know as soon as the camera is off they say thank god thats over and have a drink and a laugh and play fortnite when in the video they are always so serious

if this chick wasnt white they would all be talking about how brave she wasm for making the video, its all a scam

[Snoopycat_]

well yakuza is aimed at adults and persona is aimed at people who want to romance high school students

Banned.




https://resetera.com//threads/yakuza-like-a-dragon-handles-way-social-commentary-better-than-persona-5.409815/post-62852028

[remy]

well yakuza is aimed at adults and persona is aimed at people who want to romance high school students

Banned.

(Image removed from quote.)


https://resetera.com//threads/yakuza-like-a-dragon-handles-way-social-commentary-better-than-persona-5.409815/post-62852028

That kinda post only gets you a gold star if you're one of the Clique

[BadAss2961]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/complaining-about-getting-cancelled-is-the-exact-same-as-a-kid-complaining-about-being-banned-from-cod-for-racial-slurs-play-something-else-idiot.410829/

Complaining about getting cancelled is the exact same as a kid complaining about being banned from COD for racial slurs. Play something else idiot.

Just a PSA. There's a million outlets willing to have you.

Okay. Excuse me while I take my talents to Six Days in Fallujah. 

And that Harry Potter game.

[Odrion]

Yeah looking at the Lindsay Ellis cancellation, it's clear that "Twitter Cancel Culture" is just Gamergate but the psychopathic portion of it are better at social engineering.

[Switters]

No amount of ambiance and lighting is ever going to make Jsneakfuck's face look like something other than Ingmar Berman's interpretation severe narcissism and self loathing.

[Uncle]

Yeah looking at the Lindsay Ellis cancellation, it's clear that "Twitter Cancel Culture" is just Gamergate but the psychopathic portion of it are better at social engineering.

so empowering to have cracked the code to be able to destroy any feemale you don't like

[Boredfrom]

Schrieieirier: "Sony’s Obsession with Blockbusters is Stirring Unrest in the PlayStation Empire "


Also Schreieierrer:

https://twitter.com/jasonschreier/status/1382744966598950915

His source is probably feeling the heat. Is not the first time he does this (his Anthem expose )

[Boredfrom]

Goddamn, that lindsay ellis thread is W-I-L-D with the cognitive dissonance.

Good to see eras usual suspects have settled on it just being her white fragility / tears / feminism / privilege as being the real problem.

Cliff notes? And why does this content creator comes up so much on era? I don’t get the following.

She was Nostalgia Chick.

[benjipwns]

User banned (2 weeks): Dismissive posting in a sensitive thread. You don't have to agree with those who think the tweets were racist, but they should not be dismissed as ridiculous

She doubled down and made another tweet basically (paraphrasing) saying You'd have to "squint" very hard to see anything nefarious. That's such a racist remark.

I think it's really too much to suggest Lindsey Ellis was being racist when she said that.

Then again I also think it's ridiculous to blow a gasket for someone claiming that a movie that clearly takes multiple elements from Avatar the Last Airbender has clearly taken multiple elements from Avatar the Last Airbender.

even ignoring all the racist implications (which you definitely shouldn't do!) it's just such an incredibly reductionist and ignorant take, and that she chose to share it (and everything else I've ever seen from her), I think shows she's frankly a terrible critic and I'm not sure why anyone would look to her to provide anything of value or insight

You really that annoyed that she mildly burned the latest Disney mediocrity?

[MMaRsu]

Lmao at the reeeee clowns trying to make Returnal into some grand big game 

[MMaRsu]

Also who the fuck is lindsay ellis and who the fuck cares

[Pissy F Benny]

moviebobs waifu

[Klelk]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/how-to-ask-a-friend-if-they-romantically-like-someone.410937/
This dude (assuming it is, could be a girl) is fucking insane

It sounds crazy but there have been weird moments or glitches, of their Xbox avatars being merged together. Out of all the other people they follow, why them. And just other odd shit, like some kind of warning of what is to come, though to be clear I am not superstitious. I am not even religious.

 

[Vertigo]

https://www.resetera.com/threads/how-to-ask-a-friend-if-they-romantically-like-someone.410937/

This friend is more like my ex and I've stayed in their life as a friend for the past 3 years hoping they'd love me again. And yes they are aware of that. We would stay in contact every single day through text and online means, since they live in another state. Recently they started communicating with one of their online friends on the Xbox more often... at least I think so. I'm suspicious. I remember them telling me they were going to ask them for help with an achievement on the Xbox, and ever since then they have not been talking with me much anymore, and I have been feeling hurt and ignored over it but yeah I know correlation is not causation, but I'm highly suspicious. I think I'm understanding that saying right. But In general I have been struggling to be their friend and I have been in a lot of pain for a long time but I keep on holding on to hope, and I am really attached to them. I cant cope with the idea of them being with someone else and I don't know what to do. I have asked them if they liked that person last year, as we were all in  a group chat and they said what I perceived to be a sexual joke towards them, or less so of a joke, but they told me they were just friends. After that, as punishment they said they wouldn't allow me to interact with any of their friends again. I honestly didn't care. obviously I just wanted to talk to them alone.
It sounds crazy but there have been weird moments or glitches, of their Xbox avatars being merged together. Out of all the other people they follow, why them. And just other odd shit, like some kind of warning of what is to come, though to be clear I am not superstitious. I am not even religious.

But anyway, so here is why I'm suspicious.

1. They seem to like the same things.
2. I noticed they started playing a game this person likes out of nowhere. What's odd is that their Game pass/gold is ending soon, and they chose to play this game instead.
3. The drop in communication and response time/interest since they went to ask for this persons help.
4. Tonight I noticed they were in a party chat with them, and I have a hunch they've been talking for the past few nights. Like the night before I was going to help them with an achievement as they asked, but they said it was a bit of an inconvenient time. Which is odd, its like why the f&ck ask me in the first place then. But I bet it was inconvenient because they had plans to talk to them again I am sure, and I feel like I was just being used to help them real quick before I get ignored and tossed aside.
5. This person only lives 5 states away. I lived a bit closer but around the same distance. Didn't stop them from dating me, though the reason why it didn't work out was because they didn't like CA I think. They also left because they are in a bad spot and are depressed but how does that stop you from loving someone? It doesn't for me. But I've really been struggling with the idea that I wasn't enough honestly. It pushed me to attempting suicide in 2019, and I was shortly put into a care facility for people who were extremely depressed. It was intense counseling but I was too quiet to benefit from it.

So I want to know if something  is up between them but I have no idea how to ask without upsetting them, and sounding like an obbssesed stalker. Maybe there is a specific way to write it? If I find out that my hunch is true, then ill leave the friendship and be done. I just can't say goodbye as I don't want any regrets or to live with what ifs my entire life. It would be a huge step for me and id fall into a depression for sure. I'm very scared of being alone, and not having that close connection anymore. I think of leaving often when I get treated bad or ignored but the pain stops me, though I have left twice in the past but came back out of missing them.
I am aware my thinking is flawed. Its like I'm stuck in a wrestling ring, and I'm just getting beaten on over and over again, but I stay for the few good moments when the beating stops and they drink tea with me or something. I live for those moments. I think back on the good times and cry over them a often. But I'm exhausted. I've lost so much sleep over this pain. I often cant even eat or focus on anything and my life is just flying right by. I hate it. I feel like I'm stuck in a box of pain. I don't look forward to the mornings, as that is when I start feeling awful again. I have had mental breakdowns over it.
When I read my message here I sound nuts but I'm in a lot of pain. 3 years of this. And I don't know what to do. I don't want to say goodbye but this situation is actually pushing me towards it. I am so terrified they like this person. What do I do?
They already feel annoyed at me for bringing up the fact that we don't talk much again but it hurts. Its like they don't get that. You are ignoring me and it hurts you f&cking asshole, is what id honestly like to say but I am really nice and forgiving to them, even when they can be really mean towards me. Too afraid to get mad at them.  So yeah.

 

In all seriousness I hope the Reee mods just quietly close that thread.

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"If you really love them you should be glad they're happy and getting on with their lives" is kinda cliché but what more can you say ?

At least OP is giving lip service to admitting it's unhealthy so... Small steps ?

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That part though...

I can't be okay with them giving " i love yous" and "special attention" to someone else while I lay around depressed, knowing they are doing that. I can't handle it. idk how other people can stay in any kind of contact knowing that's happening to someone they love still.