Meditating on my weaknesses as a person, I think one weakness ties down to my predilection to get bogged down with what the "right answer" is. It's what partly promotes this identarian, binary thinking. I tend to think in a black and white way and think if 2+2=4 so I often come to conclusions in a rigid manner. Benji's criticism of me applying a leap of logic when I felt my conclusions to be perfectly logical helped glean a window into my mind. I tend to do what I think is right and externalize this onto others or society but that's not how the world works. It also doesn't lead to healthy mindsets. I have, in my view, very valid criticisms of the left so my natural inclination is to think,"then I guess the right is correct". Thankfully due to Benji's caution I've spotted that blind spot and kept it in its tracks. Being mindful of the problem or if you've even a problem to begin with is half the battle. Learning where and when this type of thinking starts is very helpful so I can continue to fight it. I'm still convinced I have autism. Still haven't gotten tested but relaying these thoughts to my therapist on how we can improve this kind of mind trap I fall in to which forces me to swing in specific ways and behaviors.
