rahx post a pic so i can evaluate you. a lot of the stuff you say gives off a self hate vibe and i don't understand why. lemme help you out. things like "i hate my hair" doesn't sound good. I personally would never be attracted to a man who has such a low image of himself. I'm sure the girls can smell that low confidence like a skunk, because if memory serves, you're pretty cute.
atra: so what are you considering your v-card? sticking it in? you haven't sucked boobs or eat a pussy out? may be unorthodox, but i don't really place virginity on a pedastal and I consider even giving oral to be sex. So depending on the definition of virginity, imo you may not even be a virgin.
imo, you shouldn't sweat it. people place virginity on a pedestal. i lost my virginity at 19 with a woman but never really liked sex until i did it with a man.
also, sex doesn't necessarily mean a good relationship. the worst ones are ones that are based entirely around sex and nothing else. a lot of people put the v-card on a pedestal but sometimes things happen beyond "that guy is a loser" as seen in movies. sometimes you just haven't found the right person yet. I wouldn't blame anyone for that. I remember boogie here was a virgin till he was like 25 mostly because he wanted to find someone he cared about first. alternatively, I know a guy who lost his virginity at 27. He could have had sex multiple times in the past, but it never felt right to him so he just didn't go for it.
Don't sweat it, virginity is just a label that many americans hold on to in order to make themselves superior to others.
Don't buy an escort. That stuff is nasty, and it wouldn't even be the full experience either. You wouldn't (and shouldn't) put her vagoo in your mouth and suck her clit, so what's the point to fucking her if you can't even do that? Sounds like a burger without bread. Rather than feel sorry for youself because of some stupid ass label society (and you for that matter) has placed upon yourself, look to people like Fistful for inspiration. That guy tried to get out of his comfort zone. He started going on dates, and before you know it, he's got a girlfriend and moving with her to nyc. You just need some confidence in yourself is all.