Random talk thread: It just keeps happening

[Diunx]

Fucking sun came back with a vengance!

[cool breeze]

I always prepare for these storm/mild-apocalypses and like always probably nothing major will happen.  But if something does...!

[Atramental]

A random (yet attractive) girl sending me a friend request over fb? Seems suspicious.

[Phoenix Dark]

yup that shit happened to me a few weeks ago. I asked her if I knew her from somewhere, no response. Her friends list had a bunch of dudes on it so I figure it's a marketing thing.

oh well, one more female FB friend. Can't complain

[Atramental]

That's probably what it is.

Did a backwards image search with one of her photos and two more fb accounts with the same photos but different usernames showed up. Heh.

[Pringo]

I know in the past at least that Facebook's had issues with fake bot accounts that use a profile picture of some random attractive woman and then spams invites to people. The bot then posts status updates of crap like "Check out my sexy pics at: [some external site]" that asks for money/infects your PC.

If that account was only recently registered on Facebook, shares no mutual friends with you, and/or has only desperate looking males as friends it's almost certainly a bot and you should probably not accept any friend invites.

[Atramental]

Someone is thirsty. 

[Himu]

thankfully it was sponsored by Heineken!

[fistfulofmetal]

jesus christ my mouth is in pain. i dont know how long fillings are supposed to be sensitive but this shit is unbearable. i need to call the dentist asap

[Phoenix Dark]

jesus christ my mouth is in pain. i dont know how long fillings are supposed to be sensitive but this shit is unbearable. i need to call the dentist asap

Amalgam filling?

You should set up another appointment with your dentist; many dental offices don't charge for follow up appoints like this. It could be a bubble within the filling material. Do you remember how many surfaces (how deep) the filling was?

[Joe Molotov]

Someone is thirsty. 

thankfully it was sponsored by Heineken!

Well played. 

[Joe Molotov]

It's 1am and some jackass has been throbbing their bass through the neighborhood for like the past 4 hours. I can't even hear any music, just a constant throbbing in the base of my skull. I turned on the TV, but I can still feel it. I don't know who they are, but I wish I could murder them and get away with it.

[Rahxephon91]

So my dad died today and well I'm not quite sure how I'm supposed to feel. I was never close to my father, at least in an emotional way. So you know I haven't really showed any emotion to the news. I feel kind of like a piece of crap because of it. Like I should feel something. It just feels like "well that happened".

I guess you could say my father had an affair with my mother and bam here I am. As a result my dad kind of has this other family I'm not privy to and I guess you called call me his "secret"

What the fuck am I saying this on a message board for? Well i really have no one else to say or feel comfortable saying it to. I don't really like talking to friends about personal stuff because I don't like to burden people with my crap. It makes me just feel like a phony or some attention whore. And I'm not even sure if I have any real close friends besides 1 that I feel are worthy of this subject. I can't talk to my boss because honestly he's a dick. He went on about this "anyone can ave a child, but it takes a man to raise one" and it was God punishing my dad for not taking care of me. Pissed me the fuck off. I don't see my dad as a bad person at all. Know I just see him as someone who also didn't know how to handle relationships. Back when I was like 13 and getting into this anime stuff, I was able to relate to Shinji Ikari from Evangelion mostly because I kind of saw my dad as similar to Gendo. My dad was there for me financially, just not emotionally. It bothered me as a kid sure, but I got over it.

I also just don't believe I can talk to my mom, because she loved my dad. To say "I don't really feel that much" just sounds like a terrible thing to say to someone grieving you know.

So I just don't know. It's strange. When I went to see my dad in the Hospital, I told him I forgave him for not being there and i thought that was pretty much all I had to say. I don't feel angry, I guess I feel strange about the whole thing.

[archnemesis]

I'm sorry for your loss Rahxephon91. People deal with loss in different ways. Don't feel guilty because you feel the way you feel.

[fistfulofmetal]

jesus christ my mouth is in pain. i dont know how long fillings are supposed to be sensitive but this shit is unbearable. i need to call the dentist asap

Amalgam filling?

You should set up another appointment with your dentist; many dental offices don't charge for follow up appoints like this. It could be a bubble within the filling material. Do you remember how many surfaces (how deep) the filling was?

yeah, Amalgam. i got three fillings. one to replace a porcelain filling that fell out (pretty traditional cavity in the middle of my tooth). and two on the other side where the dentist had to drill out the sides of two of my teeth and replaced it with the metal. (the spot where the two teeth touch)

had to take some ibuprofen to get over the pain and get to sleep. unfortunately my dentist isnt open today. 

[Atramental]

My condolences, Rahx.

[chronovore]

Rahx, that's a raw deal. Don't be hard on yourself for not feeling anything now, and don't be surprised if you end of feeling something much later. You are the person you are, it's not up to anyone else to tell you how to define yourself and your relationship to your father.

[Madrun Badrun]

Sorry dude.

[BlueTsunami]

So my dad died today and well I'm not quite sure how I'm supposed to feel. I was never close to my father, at least in an emotional way. So you know I haven't really showed any emotion to the news. I feel kind of like a piece of crap because of it. Like I should feel something. It just feels like "well that happened".

I guess you could say my father had an affair with my mother and bam here I am. As a result my dad kind of has this other family I'm not privy to and I guess you called call me his "secret"

What the fuck am I saying this on a message board for? Well i really have no one else to say or feel comfortable saying it to. I don't really like talking to friends about personal stuff because I don't like to burden people with my crap. It makes me just feel like a phony or some attention whore. And I'm not even sure if I have any real close friends besides 1 that I feel are worthy of this subject. I can't talk to my boss because honestly he's a dick. He went on about this "anyone can ave a child, but it takes a man to raise one" and it was God punishing my dad for not taking care of me. Pissed me the fuck off. I don't see my dad as a bad person at all. Know I just see him as someone who also didn't know how to handle relationships. Back when I was like 13 and getting into this anime stuff, I was able to relate to Shinji Ikari from Evangelion mostly because I kind of saw my dad as similar to Gendo. My dad was there for me financially, just not emotionally. It bothered me as a kid sure, but I got over it.

I also just don't believe I can talk to my mom, because she loved my dad. To say "I don't really feel that much" just sounds like a terrible thing to say to someone grieving you know.

So I just don't know. It's strange. When I went to see my dad in the Hospital, I told him I forgave him for not being there and i thought that was pretty much all I had to say. I don't feel angry, I guess I feel strange about the whole thing.

My condolences Rax. Its hard to find that sort of resolution after someone passes since you obviously will come to terms with it within yourself. Its just going to take time.

[Phoenix Dark]

sorry to hear that Rax

[G The Resurrected]

Rax I'm so sorry dude. 

I've never really felt connected to my father at all and that's partly due to the amount of abuse I was subjected to at a young age by him. That kind of emotionless up bringing can be very damaging and take years to deal with. I too would probably feel the same way about my father if he passed today.

The man might have made you but that doesn't mean he has to be the image of the man you are. He did however bring you into this world, it's not a perfect one but you're here now and that's what matters. All the rest will come in time and healing. That indifference you feel will go away eventually.

[Rahxephon91]

Thanks for all the replies.

I just thought I'd post, because for me it's a pretty new thing. I really (thankfully) haven't had to deal with family members passing away, except for my grandad back in 2000. It's just kind of strange, you see everyone crying and your like "fuck shouldn't I be? If I don't am I dick?". Well I'm not a dick about this. I think I'm realistic about the situation and have made peace with my dad. I think the best thing is to not feel sour or angry about the whole thing and well I don't.

[Phoenix Dark]

Sudden deaths are definitely challenging. I knew two family members of mine were going to die very soon earlier this year, and I guess that knowledge made it...I dunno, easier to deal with than someone who was fine one minute, then died the next. I felt like I had prepared myself for the inevitable, and was at peace for the most part.

[demi]

Well theres no need to argue with yourself. How you handle death is different per person.

You may even find yourself crying one day/night when it hits you.

[tiesto]

My condolences, Rax. It's really tough to lose your father unexpectedly.

[Mupepe]

My condolences, Rax.  Everyone grieves differently.  When my dad passed it was shock more than anything for me.  And in the years since is when I've felt that I've actually dealt with it.  I had moments in my life since that somehow had added perspective from his passing and that's when it really hit me.  I had a strained relationship with my dad as well.  It was definitely a moment where I really understood the phrase "letting it go". 

[Rusty Shackleford]

Sorry to hear about your father, Rahxephon. You should be proud of your resilience. Some people undergo years - decades even - of therapy to achieve your coping skills.

Hey how's your fan running? Hate to think I'm responsible for a GPU meltdown 

[Rusty Shackleford]

Ummm...random question, demi, but the forum shows 1900 new members this year so far and ~20000 in 2010. Are those just overwhelmingly spam/bot accounts that are denied immediately?

[Diunx]

Half of them is Spencer trying to get back.

Free Spencer!

[demi]

Fuck Spencer. You dont spend half your waking day whining about this place, begging for an account wipe, throwing up bullshit about drugs and divorce, then just mosey on back. No, you go out there, live your oh so glorious life and fix yourself up. You won't be missed.

[Phoenix Dark]

You'll be sorry when his wife gets a record deal and gets rich. He just might buy the forum

[G The Resurrected]

Let the missus take her shower first today, that was a mistake. The water main burst in our apartment, so no shower for me today YAY!  I miss having a gym locally just for showers to go to in these cases.

[Rahxephon91]

Sorry to hear about your father, Rahxephon. You should be proud of your resilience. Some people undergo years - decades even - of therapy to achieve your coping skills.

Hey how's your fan running? Hate to think I'm responsible for a GPU meltdown 

Thanks.

And so far my GPU has been fine. So your advice worked out pretty well.

[G The Resurrected]

I just learned something that freaked me out.

I always assumed most people only use one foot to drive. The missus is telling me she uses both of her feet. My head it is full of fuu? HOW THE FUCK DO YOU DRIVE WITH TWO FEET? I am no longer letting her drive now cause of this realization till I find out if its safe to operate a vehicle like that.

How do you guys drive?

[Boogie]

Wait, does Spencer really want back on the board? 

[Positive Touch]

Wait, does Spencer really want back on the board? 

join the bore FB group and check the last few months of posts for plentiful lols

[Boogie]

Wait, does Spencer really want back on the board? 

join the bore FB group and check the last few months of posts for plentiful lols

Wait, we have a FB group? 

[Positive Touch]

SHIT GUYS I WASNT TRYING TO NARC

[Boogie]

 

[Phoenix Dark]

 

[Madrun Badrun]

Also snitches get stitches 
 

[Madrun Badrun]

Fuck I forgot today was Halloween.  I skipped school and I'm missing out on seeing all the girls in pantyhose.  Worst day ever.

[demi]

Hard to see pantyhose when you're always looking at the ground. CREEP

[Madrun Badrun]

Nah I can look at anything below the neck.  Nothing beyond that point scares me 

[ferrarimanf355]

Hey guys, what's going on?

[Timber]

What's the Facebook group? I'm doing this thing now.

[Eric P]

convinced Falco of Future of the Left to do a photo feature set for the magazine I work for

feels good man.

[Olivia Wilde Homo]

I found out yesterday that I'm getting 100% of my bonus monies this year.  They usually do this anyway but they always threaten to scale it back if we don't hit financial, safety, etc. goals.

[demi]

Cool, buy me something

[Timber]

Well nevermind then. Suck my dick, homos.

[demi]

Just Facebook "the bore" or something, I found it that way. I'm not adding myself though.

[Phoenix Dark]

Just Facebook "the bore" or something, I found it that way. I'm not adding myself though.

The club doesn't have a handicap ramp, sorry kiddo

[demi]

Good one, PD. Dumbass.

[Diunx]

Demi annihilated!

[Madrun Badrun]

Doing grad applications is making me feel dumb and worthless.

[G The Resurrected]

Doing grad applications is making me feel dumb and worthless.

Dude if anyone can do that shit, its you! You've got the mind for it and persistence to move forward. Look at where you were just a few years back man, you've made it this far so don't give up now. Just keep telling yourself its worth it, cause it truly is. The amount of opportunity in front of you once you've accomplished this goal, its mind blowing to someone like myself. You've accomplished something I can only know just start to even dream of at this point in my life.

[demi]

If doing grad applications make you feel dumb and worthless, where does pasting garbage links from reddit fall under?

[Madrun Badrun]

Thanks.  That was nice.

A large part of the problem is I'm applying to work in an area which I have almost no experience in.  So I'm trying to learn it on my own while do a hundred other things and its not working out.  Then I'm applying to top schools which have the best fit in terms of my interests but then I'm competing with people who already know this stuff or have the math and stats background to pick it up.  So I'm spending all my energy into trying to learn this stuff to apply to schools I have very little chance of getting into.  This means less energy is going into the schools where I actually have a chance of getting it, which lowers those chances.

[Madrun Badrun]

If doing grad applications make you feel dumb and worthless, where does pasting garbage links from reddit fall under?

Being a productive member of this forum.  Obviously. 

[G The Resurrected]

That seems like a very challenging thing to deal with. Personally if I was in your shoes, I'd reassess the situation at hand. Take a step back and look at where your energy is going, then be realistic with your expectations. Ask yourself: "If I continue with how I'm doing this will it have a positive outcome or a negative one?" Give yourself a deadline to make a decision if you continue down your current path. This will give you, giving you a set time to go a different direction without compromising yourself.