basically I got rejected from several job applications, and have had a sort of business miscommunication too. Basically I'm just feeling real low sense of self worth and like I'll never be successful.
Also I have changed medications and that has totally thrown me a bit too. I was on some fucked up buzz for a few days and ended up falling off the wagon and getting totally fucked up on alcohol. Yeah, I know this is probably the main trigger and I know I shouldn't drink to excess as it has always affected me negatively, but I was messed up and totally not myself and made some bad decisions.

That was a week ago and my head is still in a really bad place.
I'm developing agoraphobia and I can barely play video games. Shit is bad.
Been going on for a week now but things are getting better probably. I hope. May have to go to the doctor