FUCK FUCK FUCK
This will be the only time I post about this here as I generally consider myself to be more mature and well-adjusted to the point where I don't need to talk to people about shit like this, but here goes
Let's say there's a woman I've carried a flame for for several years now, and expressed that to her earlier this year and was gently put into the friend zone. I more or less moved on with my life, and she did too, dating here or there and eventually getting into a serious relationship over the summer. The last time I saw her two months ago, she was really happy in her relationship, and I was, to my astonishment, not bitter at the situation, but genuinely happy for her. She's been a really dear friend for forever (I don't make friends easily... I probably count the people I consider genuine friends on one hand, and she's one of them) so I was happy for her.
I visited Atlanta again this weekend and looked her up, to find out that a) she'd been dumped by her boyfriend a couple weeks ago b) was a wreck c) needed help over the weekend with some work shit. Well fuck, I helped her out of her work jam... because I'm such a good friend/sucker. We also went out to a bunch of different shit, drinking, hanging out, having a good time generally speaking. End of the weekend comes around and we're saying goodbye and it gets awkward. Why? "Because I do have feelings for you, but everything is fucked up right now, it's my super busy time of the year with work, and you live out of state... I just don't think we could make this work." OUT OF THE BLUE.
WHAT THE FUCK. WHY SAY THAT. FUCK THIS GAY EARTH.
Ok, we can now go back to giving Malek advice about dating. I'll be over here quietly drinking myself to death.