Have you tried ruthlessly spitting game at fat or ugly girls yet
I feel like there is no safe way to answer this question.
But no.
Either way, I downloaded that Tinder app. It all feels very awkward. I don't know even ok okcupid I feel bad rating women, but besides that the whole online thing has never worked for me. Maybe my profile is terrible, but I do try to tone down the obnoxious FANDOM qualities I exhibit here. Either way no bites in the two years I've been on okcupid. Well I guess thats not true, I've had bites from women I don't find attractive. Maybe I have high standards and think well beyond my means. I do not know. So I don't know about this Tinder app.
Either like I said I'm pretty awful at telling what anything means and at least as far as I know, no woman has shown interests in me in my entire life. Well no woman that I'd want. So it's not big confidence booster.
I had a "friend" in high school ounce tell me that I (unlike him) should lower my standards because I'm not going to get hot chicks. Now obviously "hot" is vague and means many different things to people. I have a friend who dosen't think Jenifer Lawrence is attractive. Either way I don't think "oh if shes not Megan Fox" I don't want her. I have my taste just like anyone else. Contrary to popular belief (as if anyone cares) my taste are pretty varied and it's just not skinny or no thank you. Of course I have a stronger preference to white women with black hair and I stereotypicaly like Asian women(my days of all hail Nippon are long over though). But this dosen't mean I don't like all kinds of women. Unlike games I will leave confront zones!
Still, either it's my looks or personality but I've never attracted a girl I like. Sure I'm an Adonis so it can't be looks. Still, I'm quite uncomfortable with how I look. From my skin to my hair, my body image is not something I've been able to get a hold of. I've often wondered if race has played a part and if my brown vaguness means anything.
It could be my personality. Now I now I come off as a huge idiot and un-humorous person on the bore, but quest honestly that may not be totally me. I believe I kind of take a bit of fustruation on the internet and like to push buttons just to see what people will say about me. Now I guess that makes me a bit crazy and says something about me, but I don't know. In real life I think I'm a bit different. Far more mild mannered and sometimes funny with people I'm very comfortable with. I've also tried to stay away from being the obnoxious nerd who can't smell. Simply put, I think I come off a simple dude.
Or maybe I come off as gay? Now nothing wrong with being gay, but I'm often told I give off gay vibes. I don't know what that means and my gaydar is non-existent. I don't think I dress fancy and askmen- the paragon of men knowledge-ounce described dudes who care about fashion as a source of the gays. I just wear a shirt and jeans all the time. Maybe it's being quiet? I am often quiet in real life because I don't usually feel comfortable around people I don't know, I don't know how they'll respond to me so I guess it makes me nervous. If I get to know you and you respond well to me, I probably can't shut up. A dude ounce said he thought I was gay because he never saw me around women. I've been hit on a lot by dudes as well. I really don't know what it is.
I mean I've moved pass the stage of being offended by it and just take it in stride, but I just find the whole thing baffling.
Man I've ranted about a whole lot of nonsense, but allow me to continue.
Anyway, I thought a girl in my Japanese class was slightly into me, mostly for shallow reasons. ("Oh she talks to me"). You know, I did use to be that guy who thought any girl who talked to them maybe liked them or the guy who liked any girl who talked to him. Thankfully that's over and I never went through the nice guy feadora stage. Anyway, she laughed at most of the things I said and generally seemed enthused to talk to me. She even seemed to remember the movies I talked about. Slipping into my 18 year old self I thought "well those are the signs right!!!?". Hell, she even agredd with always high kid that I looked like Johnny Depp(I hate when people say this because I have to be soul crushingly negative about my looks) and said yes with a cute nervous smile. So armed with the knowledge of a quick "How do I know if a girl likes me" google search I felt I was getting positive feedback.
Anyway, I'm tasked with this "make a comic book" project from my "how to write a comic book class"(yes I know my writing on the bore is shitty, give me the benefit of the doubt here. This is a whole other issue) and you need an artist. Well, I know she's an artists, because I'm a creeper and remember details women tell me. So i thought I had a gateway into getting to know her a bit better and I asked if she wanted to be an artist. She seemed kind of exited or at least interested in working together. But during the talk about it, I may have come off as kind of nervous. I don't really know.
Either way, since I get pretty childish about these things and over analyze things the fact that she hasn't responded to a little facebook FR is a BIG deal to me for stupid reasons. I mean I guess she could just be a way, but what modern girl with an iphone dosen't visit her facebook at least one time during the week?
I don't know, I may just be being a little bitch about this.
