Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care

[TVC15]

It’s what I normally do. Computer related shit.

[Mupepe]

Come to Houston. I’ll give you food and shelter to be one of my fuck holes. You’ll be free for about 21/22 hours a day to do as you please.

[shosta]

21 out of 22 hours a day? Why are the days so short in Texas? Is it because you're closer to the equator and moving faster?

[TVC15]

Come to Houston. I’ll give you food and shelter to be one of my fuck holes. You’ll be free for about 21/22 hours a day to do as you please.

Eh, maybe. My first location is kinda already picked, but you could maybe be two. Need to look at a map.

[G The Resurrected]

Thinking of renting a car and just driving away and trying to disappear.

I really don’t want the job I start tomorrow. I hate what I do and it’s a waste of my life.

Don’t know where I’d go, but I can’t live like that anymore. I can’t spend that much time doing something I really don’t want to do

Anyway I could learn what you do and work for you? Serious question...

I know work sucks, have you considered maybe that if you feel so strongly about it that you might want to find another occupation? Or at least maybe that you're not feeding that part of you that you need fed creatively? Maybe you need to make something for yourself or with people from the ground up, thus giving you more control of what you do.

If you wanna just go for a drive give your boi a call. We could hit up Santa Cruz or I can take you to Fresno. 

[Mupepe]

21 out of 22 hours a day? Why are the days so short in Texas? Is it because you're closer to the equator and moving faster?

you're taking the slash too literally.  It was 21 or 22 hours of the day.

Fucking math nerd

Come to Houston. I’ll give you food and shelter to be one of my fuck holes. You’ll be free for about 21/22 hours a day to do as you please.

Eh, maybe. My first location is kinda already picked, but you could maybe be two. Need to look at a map.

I don't want sloppy seconds.  I don't step on someone else's slippery deck.

[shosta]

It was a joke 

[CatsCatsCats]

Should have tried making it funny

[team filler]

my like counts are way down lately

[team filler]

still love you guys 

[shosta]

I've been especially down lately and I keep feeling myself reach for my old coping mechanism. I'm not about to fuck up my probation, but it's really, really hard. 329 days sober.

[G The Resurrected]

I've been especially down lately and I keep feeling myself reach for my old coping mechanism. I'm not about to fuck up my probation, but it's really, really hard. 329 days sober.

Take comfort in knowing you've come this far! Each day is a challenge an accomplishment. As time moves on things will become easier to cope with. You will have those days that make you want to do bad shit, but you have to remember it's just one day and tomorrow can always be a better day.

[zomgee]

Absolutely miserable with yet another sinus infection. I feel like I get three of these a year.

[Cerveza mas fina]

Got word back from a very nice and positive interview I went to.

They are in doubt because
-I come for a high paying job
-My wife has a managerial position, so who will take care of the kids when they are sick

Also my Danish is good but not perfect so they think it could be an issue in some situations, only legit point imho.

This is really depressing.

[brawndolicious]

Do you mean your last job was paying significantly more than this one? That would be a legit point imo since a lot of people might take the job for a short term until they find something better.

[Cerveza mas fina]

Yes

Btw that point about child sick days is illegal and I could sue

[shosta]

About to fail my drug test because it's been three hours and I can't pee

[shosta]

Failed

[Madrun Badrun]

  How can you fail if you cant pee?

[shosta]

Refusal to try. 3 hours is more than enough time but I have a shy bladder.

[Madrun Badrun]

That really sucks.  I also have a shy bladder.

[Great Rumbler]

Refusal to try. 3 hours is more than enough time but I have a shy bladder.

Should have just slammed a Red Bull or something, you'd fill up like a dozen of those little cups in no time.

[shosta]

I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

[TVC15]

Refusal to try. 3 hours is more than enough time but I have a shy bladder.

Doesn’t pounding water for three hours straight work for you?

What happens now? You won’t get in trouble, right? I pissed hot for weed at least twice while on probation (but I guess three usually is the magic number).

[team filler]

I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

Everything is going to be okay, breh. 

[TVC15]

Yeah, dude. Relax. Your effort will eventually pay off.

Now stop making me feel bad for treating you like shit, please.

[team filler]

filler can be harsh, but filler also cares. bless up, brehs 

[CatsCatsCats]

Maybe you just piss excellence 🤷‍♀️

Hang in there, whoever the fuck you are

[TVC15]

 Also, how do you have sex if you have a shy bladder?

[TVC15]

I think the dude sitting in front of me on BART is an albino btw

[Madrun Badrun]

A homeless woman who likes to sit on my doorstep offered me a coke.

[Cerveza mas fina]

Thats late stage capitalism

[Madrun Badrun]

Seriously.  She clearly has some kind of mental disability too. 

[team filler]

would you say she's retardedpressing childhood trauma?

[Cerveza mas fina]

Its really sweet of her, why did you put this in the struggle thread?

[seagrams hotsauce]

are you on parole or probation shosta? i'm guessing from context clues that your piss was clean, the charges are substance related and that you haven't been to jail before since you said "I don't want to go to jail" and not "I don't want to go back to jail"

[team filler]

hope you're feeling better, shtotka breh

[Madrun Badrun]

Its really sweet of her, why did you put this in the struggle thread?

1) Because the world is cruel
2) Because I did not help make it better by saying 'No, thank you' and slamming the door on her face. 

[Cerveza mas fina]

You can still make it right man, buy her a nice lunch package maybe

[Madrun Badrun]

I live in a 'bad' part of town and the homeless people here really make me feel horrible.   There is a native dude that in the last year has gone from severely obese to underweight and an old woman who is clearly a junkie.  People I see like every other day for years and I don't know their names.  I think it was last year that I saw a guy dumpster diving and I asked him if he was looking for cans, thinking I'd do him a favour and get him some and he replied 'I was looking for food but I'll take some cans'.  Where I grew up, there were very few homeless people (because they all move to bigger cities where they can survive winter better) and its not something I feel very comfortable with.  I hate giving them money because I'm pretty sure it will go to drugs or alcohol.  I buy them groceries every once in a while but fuck its brutal.   

[Cerveza mas fina]

You're a good man

[Kara]

Is their life going to get better if they don't buy drugs or alcohol? Be honest with yourself.

[CatsCatsCats]

Just got off a 3ish hour phone with first my dad then my mom. They’re both pretty drunk at the moment, and needed to vent about the fact that my dad’s brain tumor wasn’t as simple as they thought before the latest mri, it’s basically sprouting roots into his brain. He has a surgery consult Monday and he’ll likely need radiation as well. My poor is Mom is barely hanging in there, my dad wanted to make sure he made clear to me that he didn’t want to waste money if it was going to a battle for years. My parents have smoked and drank their whole lives and their health is declining and shits hard for everyone

[Madrun Badrun]

Sorry dude

[toku]

Stay up cats, for you and for them. Bless.

[Purrp Skirrp]

Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.



This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

[zomgee]

I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

Yes life hits hard hard but you're hitting back. Keep hitting. Please don't stop trying to do the right thing. You'll be okay, man.

[agrajag]

Next time eat spinach, asparagus, watermelon, etc. Natural diuretics. Plus red bull like Rumbler said.

[seagrams hotsauce]

Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

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This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

why the fuck would you get one of these if you don't smoke lmao. your fall is gonna suck dick if the fda cracks down on these things

[FatalT]

I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

If it’s any consolation I’m in the same boat as you or I will be soon. After getting fired from my job and being dragged out of my girlfriend’s house by Sherriff’s to be taken to jail and arrested, I have two counts of “Communicating Threats” against me. I have a good lawyer but he keeps issuing continuances on the court dates so I don’t know what’s going to happen. I kinda just want to go into a coma for a year and wake up but I know that’s not possible. I’m facing only 120 days max of jail time but I probably won’t serve wth my lawyer. I’m hoping to get the charges dropped but I also have a civil suit against me for a no Contact Order. I have the Civil Court Case on the 12th of June and the Criminal Court Case on the 25th If July.

I’m at my wit’s end because I know this will affect my future with background checks. No one will want to hire someone who was arrested for communicating threats towards their previous employer. I don’t post anywhere anymore and mostly lurk because I’m too depressed to bother letting my feelings out. I’d rather just die. I no longer have health insurance because the job offered that so I had to drop Obamacare for it. I don’t know what to do. Once a month I can go to a Christian Ministries place to get food and my girlfriend still works at the company I was fired from and makes a decent wage but she has bills of her own with a car payment, car insurance, house payment, utilities, and everything that comes with behind a responsible adult. I just feel like I’m bringing her down.

[Purrp Skirrp]

Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

(Image removed from quote.)

This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

why the fuck would you get one of these if you don't smoke lmao. your fall is gonna suck dick if the fda cracks down on these things

All the JUULers I know don't smoke either. this is post-Y2K, robocigs are indistinguishable from USB sticks, the fda is a bygone institution unfit for the impending singularity. they will turn to ash much like the big-pharma tobacco cigs they willingly pushed.

[agrajag]

I drank some orange juice and now I have heart burn

edit: sorry, was supposed to post this in the minor inconvenience thread.

[Atramental]

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[Kara]

I no longer have health insurance because the job offered that so I had to drop Obamacare for it. I don’t know what to do.

Losing your job for any reason is a special event that lets you enroll outside the enrollment period. You should be able to contact your local exchange and apply for coverage, though depending on your state you might not get Medicaid.

[Rahxephon91]

I guess I’m in the process of another “early life crisis”. I had a pretty terrible weekend. What was supposed to be a fun trip to Minneapolis has turned into a mini crisis for me.

The trip was to visit my old college friends. Well I dropped out of my 1st college and well am still floating around. These guys didn’t and have gotten on with their lives. Careers and wives and stuff.

And as you all know I’m probably a bit insecure.

And also a late bloomer.

Maybe 28 is too old, but over the last three years I’ve actively made an effort to go out to bars and stuff. I missed that part of life.

I guess the theme of the weekend for them was that they “have gotten it out of their system”.

So instead the weekend was full of old man stuff and just sitting around livings rooms and talking. Which during the day was fun somewhat. But I was lead to believe we would go out and do stuff during the day and night. We didn’t, which probably lead to me being a bit anxious and disappointed which lead to some petty comments thrown amongst the group. Which of course lead to a pretty unfunn time for myself.

I know this is a recurring theme about me. How I feel behind. How I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life. I don’t know if it’s true are not, but this weekend really brought it to the forefront and has put me back to a worse place then where I was before. I don’t think these guys think I’m a loser, but I sure took some of the comments that way.

And even then I’m constantly thinking about if I will ever get to a good place. Sure I think I’ve been a lot better about life in general recently. But I feel like I’m always reminded of how shitty I think I am. And really most of it it’s all in my head and an invention of my own. But I am afraid I’m going to snap back into something bad.

[Atramental]

Compared to most people around my age, that I know personally, I’m super “behind” too and I’m about to turn 28 on the 17th of June.

My advice? Don’t worry about it and don’t compare yourself to others. You’re just going to make yourself miserable.

Of course, easier said than done but trying force things to click into place just so you can meet some unwritten standard of adulthood is a bit silly.

[agrajag]

Move to Miami. Everyone here goes out and parties and gets drunk every night well into their 40's.

[Olivia Wilde Homo]

If they were really your friends, they would be hooking you up with their wives’ single girl friends, sisters, etc. 

[nachobro]

so they just sat around and did nothing for the entire trip? that sounds boring as fuck. they do know it's possible to go out and not get completely shitfaced, right?

[Valkyrie]

When Dufus gives great advice