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« Reply #3900 on: May 31, 2018, 01:20:21 AM »
I live in a 'bad' part of town and the homeless people here really make me feel horrible.   There is a native dude that in the last year has gone from severely obese to underweight and an old woman who is clearly a junkie.  People I see like every other day for years and I don't know their names.  I think it was last year that I saw a guy dumpster diving and I asked him if he was looking for cans, thinking I'd do him a favour and get him some and he replied 'I was looking for food but I'll take some cans'.  Where I grew up, there were very few homeless people (because they all move to bigger cities where they can survive winter better) and its not something I feel very comfortable with.  I hate giving them money because I'm pretty sure it will go to drugs or alcohol.  I buy them groceries every once in a while but fuck its brutal.   

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« Reply #3901 on: May 31, 2018, 02:08:18 AM »
You're a good man

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« Reply #3902 on: May 31, 2018, 02:15:32 AM »
Is their life going to get better if they don't buy drugs or alcohol? Be honest with yourself.

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« Reply #3903 on: June 02, 2018, 02:25:39 AM »
Just got off a 3ish hour phone with first my dad then my mom. They’re both pretty drunk at the moment, and needed to vent about the fact that my dad’s brain tumor wasn’t as simple as they thought before the latest mri, it’s basically sprouting roots into his brain. He has a surgery consult Monday and he’ll likely need radiation as well. My poor is Mom is barely hanging in there, my dad wanted to make sure he made clear to me that he didn’t want to waste money if it was going to a battle for years. My parents have smoked and drank their whole lives and their health is declining and shits hard for everyone

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« Reply #3904 on: June 02, 2018, 05:40:19 AM »
Sorry dude

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« Reply #3905 on: June 02, 2018, 11:43:11 AM »
Stay up cats, for you and for them. Bless.

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« Reply #3906 on: June 02, 2018, 02:07:53 PM »
Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.



This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

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« Reply #3907 on: June 02, 2018, 03:20:18 PM »
I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

Yes life hits hard hard but you're hitting back. Keep hitting. Please don't stop trying to do the right thing. You'll be okay, man.
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« Reply #3908 on: June 02, 2018, 03:51:35 PM »
Next time eat spinach, asparagus, watermelon, etc. Natural diuretics. Plus red bull like Rumbler said.

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« Reply #3909 on: June 02, 2018, 04:27:48 PM »
Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

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This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

why the fuck would you get one of these if you don't smoke lmao. your fall is gonna suck dick if the fda cracks down on these things

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« Reply #3910 on: June 02, 2018, 10:29:06 PM »
I'm crying right now. I had to walk out and say "please mark me down as refusal to try". I'm sitting here waiting for my Uber so I can get to work, which I'm late for, and I get a call that says my measely 8ml was enough. So I'm good. Maybe she's diluting it out of pity, I don't know. But I was just filled with so much anguish after that and that's why I'm crying. I didn't want to have to go back to the courts and pay for more expensive plane tickets. I don't want to go to jail. And my insane fucking dad is back home and thinks he can just resume his relationship with me after up and leaving and getting a girlfriend six months ago. And I was up till 1 last night pushing carts at federal minimum wage because I fucked up my last good job grifting from my boss and going to work drunk. Fuck my life. Fuck my shitty fucking life. I just want things to be different and I'm trying but life is so god-damned hard.

If it’s any consolation I’m in the same boat as you or I will be soon. After getting fired from my job and being dragged out of my girlfriend’s house by Sherriff’s to be taken to jail and arrested, I have two counts of “Communicating Threats” against me. I have a good lawyer but he keeps issuing continuances on the court dates so I don’t know what’s going to happen. I kinda just want to go into a coma for a year and wake up but I know that’s not possible. I’m facing only 120 days max of jail time but I probably won’t serve wth my lawyer. I’m hoping to get the charges dropped but I also have a civil suit against me for a no Contact Order. I have the Civil Court Case on the 12th of June and the Criminal Court Case on the 25th If July.

I’m at my wit’s end because I know this will affect my future with background checks. No one will want to hire someone who was arrested for communicating threats towards their previous employer. I don’t post anywhere anymore and mostly lurk because I’m too depressed to bother letting my feelings out. I’d rather just die. I no longer have health insurance because the job offered that so I had to drop Obamacare for it. I don’t know what to do. Once a month I can go to a Christian Ministries place to get food and my girlfriend still works at the company I was fired from and makes a decent wage but she has bills of her own with a car payment, car insurance, house payment, utilities, and everything that comes with behind a responsible adult. I just feel like I’m bringing her down.

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« Reply #3911 on: June 02, 2018, 11:31:02 PM »
Bought a JUUL yesterday, been fat ripping mango cigarette juice ever since.

(Image removed from quote.)

This thing is apparently really popular and becoming somewhat of a problem at my old high school. Kids e-huffing in bathroom stalls, empty cartridges littering the campus. It's so discreet, I'd be using one too if it existed back then.

I don't even smoke, this thing is just fun to use and a less fabulous way for oral fixations to manifest. How long until nicotine dependency takes hold and further erodes my sense of free will?

why the fuck would you get one of these if you don't smoke lmao. your fall is gonna suck dick if the fda cracks down on these things

All the JUULers I know don't smoke either. this is post-Y2K, robocigs are indistinguishable from USB sticks, the fda is a bygone institution unfit for the impending singularity. they will turn to ash much like the big-pharma tobacco cigs they willingly pushed.

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« Reply #3912 on: June 02, 2018, 11:36:15 PM »
I drank some orange juice and now I have heart burn

edit: sorry, was supposed to post this in the minor inconvenience thread.
« Last Edit: June 03, 2018, 01:07:05 AM by agrajag »

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« Reply #3913 on: June 03, 2018, 01:04:10 AM »
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« Reply #3914 on: June 03, 2018, 02:35:10 AM »
I no longer have health insurance because the job offered that so I had to drop Obamacare for it. I don’t know what to do.

Losing your job for any reason is a special event that lets you enroll outside the enrollment period. You should be able to contact your local exchange and apply for coverage, though depending on your state you might not get Medicaid.

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« Reply #3915 on: June 03, 2018, 03:06:03 AM »
I guess I’m in the process of another “early life crisis”. I had a pretty terrible weekend. What was supposed to be a fun trip to Minneapolis has turned into a mini crisis for me.

The trip was to visit my old college friends. Well I dropped out of my 1st college and well am still floating around. These guys didn’t and have gotten on with their lives. Careers and wives and stuff.

And as you all know I’m probably a bit insecure.

And also a late bloomer.

Maybe 28 is too old, but over the last three years I’ve actively made an effort to go out to bars and stuff. I missed that part of life.

I guess the theme of the weekend for them was that they “have gotten it out of their system”.

So instead the weekend was full of old man stuff and just sitting around livings rooms and talking. Which during the day was fun somewhat. But I was lead to believe we would go out and do stuff during the day and night. We didn’t, which probably lead to me being a bit anxious and disappointed which lead to some petty comments thrown amongst the group. Which of course lead to a pretty unfunn time for myself.

I know this is a recurring theme about me. How I feel behind. How I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life. I don’t know if it’s true are not, but this weekend really brought it to the forefront and has put me back to a worse place then where I was before. I don’t think these guys think I’m a loser, but I sure took some of the comments that way.

And even then I’m constantly thinking about if I will ever get to a good place. Sure I think I’ve been a lot better about life in general recently. But I feel like I’m always reminded of how shitty I think I am. And really most of it it’s all in my head and an invention of my own. But I am afraid I’m going to snap back into something bad.

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« Reply #3916 on: June 03, 2018, 03:16:13 AM »
Compared to most people around my age, that I know personally, I’m super “behind” too and I’m about to turn 28 on the 17th of June.

My advice? Don’t worry about it and don’t compare yourself to others. You’re just going to make yourself miserable.

Of course, easier said than done but trying force things to click into place just so you can meet some unwritten standard of adulthood is a bit silly.
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« Reply #3917 on: June 03, 2018, 10:33:32 AM »
Move to Miami. Everyone here goes out and parties and gets drunk every night well into their 40's.

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« Reply #3918 on: June 03, 2018, 10:53:02 AM »
If they were really your friends, they would be hooking you up with their wives’ single girl friends, sisters, etc. 
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« Reply #3919 on: June 03, 2018, 11:34:30 AM »
so they just sat around and did nothing for the entire trip? that sounds boring as fuck. they do know it's possible to go out and not get completely shitfaced, right?

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« Reply #3920 on: June 03, 2018, 12:30:47 PM »
When Dufus gives great advice


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« Reply #3921 on: June 03, 2018, 12:43:59 PM »
Until you're at an age where it's biologically impossible or morally questionable to be what society says you're supposed to be you're never out of it, Rah.

Do you really want to be the kind of person your friends turned into though? Or are you grieving the fact that you can't be friends the way that you used to be friends anymore?

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« Reply #3922 on: June 03, 2018, 01:42:53 PM »
Live your life Rahx, not anyone else's idea of one.

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« Reply #3923 on: June 03, 2018, 01:50:15 PM »
It can be hard, especially with social media, to not compare yourself to people. But life doesn't have rules.

Stan Lee created his first successful comic, The Fantastic Four, at age 39.

Samuel L. Jackson only had bit parts (including a sweet-ass stint on TV's Ghostwriter) until he landed Spike Lee's Jungle Fever at age 43.

Darwin didn't publish On the Origin of Species until he was 50.

There's millions of these stories, Rahx. Personal timescales are only in your mind.

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« Reply #3924 on: June 04, 2018, 11:56:33 AM »
I mean guilt can also be a good motivator, but you gotta check that shit.

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« Reply #3925 on: June 04, 2018, 11:57:49 AM »
Also you definitely took the complete wrong thing from my post dufus. :lol

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« Reply #3926 on: June 05, 2018, 05:34:16 PM »
I traded family for accomplishment and I'd do that shit again in a heartbeat so I'd never like that post, sorry.

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« Reply #3927 on: June 05, 2018, 07:25:58 PM »
Can't stop binge eating.  Also can't focus on work. 

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« Reply #3928 on: June 05, 2018, 11:23:01 PM »
Adderall.

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« Reply #3929 on: June 07, 2018, 07:18:19 PM »
Rahx you have massive self-esteem issues. Putting yourself out there might seem like the solution to you but to me it seems like running away from your problems. You need to take that shit head on. Either talk to a shrink or get a book about how to deal with low self-esteem. Working on your self-esteem takes effort so if you're also depressed you're fucked. If you're not depressed, good, get on that shit.

And stop thinking getting action will solve all your problems. If you ever do find someone, you might be better off but you'll also just keep on struggling, albeit in a different way.
I agree with you somewhat. I have some really strange self esteem issues that I don't quite understand. It's not a simple sure lacking confidence. I disagree with your assessment that I was running away.  I thought putting myself out there and trying to live my life was attacking it head on.

But at this point I don't know what I am or what I want. Or even how to get where I want to be.

But I know right now I'm in some void.

I don't have the money or trust for a shrink. Everytime I've tried it it just feels fake and forced which does not work with me. If my shrink was Proffessor X who could read my mind, sign me the fuck up. Talking to a regular shrink always feels like I'm lying or holding back things and faking it. Never feels like I'm saying the reality of what I am. And I hate it.

I really don't know what I'm going to do.

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« Reply #3930 on: June 07, 2018, 07:20:28 PM »
I tell you what. I understand why people take drugs and drink. I've never felt more at peace then when I was on Molly.

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« Reply #3931 on: June 07, 2018, 08:20:32 PM »
I've been sick for 24 days and it's been a pretty rough ride. Haven't had a bad chest cough like this in forever. Was concerned it was Pneumonia, but haven't had a fever so doesn't seem that bad. But been destroying my chest and lower throat. And that's just the chest part! Had bad flu congestion and nothing works. Haven't been able to hear properly in almost a month and can't talk much either (everyone says I sound really bad). Only have a few useful hours per day, so been working part-time and getting more and more behind.

Even though I try to keep my distance, I've gotten a dozen people everywhere I inhabit sick as well as I'm apparently super contagious. But everyone else seems to get through it in about a week. I'm immuno-suppressed, and that's making this hard af. I'm on a ton of meds too.

Basically feel like this is what a slow death is like.

The worst part about it is that like, people with normal immune systems don't get it. Like I'm talking to a few different women who want to go on a date with me and they're waiting for me to get over this so I can schedule the date. And it's like if after 3 days I'm not all better, they just don't get it. One of them already bailed since I've been dragging her for 2 weeks now. The other will probably bail if I don't get better soon. I'm jealous of people with working immune systems ;_; I hardly ever get really sick like this for so long, but this is fucking up my life atm.

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« Reply #3932 on: June 07, 2018, 08:58:09 PM »
emergen-c and theraflu will help you power through

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« Reply #3933 on: June 07, 2018, 09:14:59 PM »
I'm on that and so much more. Like I am suuuuuper drugged out and still almost coughing up blood and not hearing anything and having no voice and shit for weeks. It just sux. Immuno-Suppresion is awful. It's like I get to be an elderly 80 year old already ;_;

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« Reply #3934 on: June 07, 2018, 09:36:53 PM »
Adderall.

Vyvanse, bitch. It’s actually cleared for use for binge eating disorder.
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« Reply #3935 on: June 08, 2018, 12:57:21 AM »
What you say is true but for work and getting shit done I'd pick adderall any day, and it'll still serve as an appetite suppressant.

If we're really splitting hairs there's too many stims to say which will work best for someone. Like some people do best on methylphenidate, yet I find it immensely unpleasant.

Or maybe we're just fooling ourselves and meth really is THAT good. Meth is the best and anything less is settling, like PD and dollar store pawgs after drunkenly "tuning in to the BBC" that one time in college. idk filler fill us in.

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« Reply #3936 on: June 17, 2018, 04:00:09 AM »
Man, I don't know what's going on with my body and it's kinda scary. Worried that if I don't take care of this soon I might die :\
Been seeing my GP, and they did a single pass chest x-ray which looked normal. So he just has me on some cough syrup/expectorant/painkillers + decongestants.

I'm almost 5 weeks now since I got sick, and still have kinda stuffy head/ear/throat stuff but not much, just lingering a bit and producing mucus drips still. This is annoying but less concerning.
I'm 3 weeks now into my coughing chest cold that happened 2 weeks into my flu. Haven't had one day without tearing up my lungs/throat coughing up phleghm (yellow with mostly clear). I'm fine for like 70% of the day and feel almost healthy, but the scary bits are that when I do start getting that wheezy/clogged breathing and chest coughing hard to get it out, my chest is so sore each cough like black and blue beatup feeling and worse is that after I do a few major coughs my chest burns for a while and I get feverish for 5-10 mins or so and then then fever dies down and after a while the chest burning clears off...until the next coughing session when it happens again and it feels even worse each coughing session in a day.

I feel like what's happening is that I've got bronchitis and my lungs are producing too much phlegm due to inflammation/soreness from all the hard coughing that needs to heal up. Then every day enough phlegm accumulates that I start coughing and it tears things up again and sets off the inflammation again and makes the soreness worse, repeat throughout the day and then when I sleep it heals up some, but not enough to go away so the loop keeps it going. Cough syrups/drops help a little but don't really help because if I've got junk in my chest and am wheezing I need to cough to get the stuff out to breathe.

I also think everytime I cough I do the same thing with damage to my throat, it inflames, gets raw, heals up and repeats. Sometimes when I'm coughing a bunch and hard and there's a lot of burning inflammation in my chest and throat there's a light pink color to my phleghm. Not sure if that counts as blood. Pretty sure if something is bleeding it's my throat and not my lungs because my throat is super raw.

My head stuff still continuing could be a result of all the inflammation going on in my chest/throat causing extra pheligm build up in my sinuses.

Gonna see my doc again once the week starts on Monday. If it wasn't for my chest stuff, I definitely feel 99% healed in terms of the head stuff. That's really minor and I used to be feeling really sick. So I definitely feel I'm at the end/lingering part of the flu virus I had, but I'm just concerned about my lungs/chest because while it's better than it was in the thick of it when my flu was bad, it just doesn't feel like it's improving and everyday is the same loop of "ok, no coughs today, chest feels clear, maybe ok? And then by the evening I start coughing which inflames and causes more coughing and I end up doing a lot of damage at night and going to sleep with burning/soreness in my chest and coughing up light pink". Not sure what kind of chest stuff you can have that doesn't show up on an x-ray, but will talk to my doc about it. I feel like at this point maybe I need to get see a lung specialist.

This is definitely the scariest health issues I've dealt with. I've had major surgeries and stuff and that was scary in that well I hope nothing goes wrong and I die, but the chances of that are low and I knew what was going wrong with me. Not knowing what's going on when it's dealing with major organs like the lungs and trouble breathing, burning/soreness pains for weeks on end is scary!

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« Reply #3937 on: June 17, 2018, 04:38:10 AM »
^ I'm sure it's nothing serious, honestly. But it's easy to feel scared over these things. Have you done any blood tests?

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« Reply #3938 on: June 17, 2018, 09:39:17 AM »
Ger better mun.

Also a struggle sickness post. My liver enzyme numbers keep fluctuating like crazy, still here 9 months later, after I got sick for the first time and was in and out of the hospital for 2 months (and off work sick), they haven't figured out what is wrong despite seeing several specialists, scans and liver biopsies and so on. At least I haven't turned yellow again, but the itching is absolutely killing me. It comes and goes, but when it comes back strong, I can barely sleep for days, sometimes weeks.

The newest theory is acute porphyria, but honestly I stopped believing what they come up with. Everything so far has proven wrong, but at least they can see in my weekly blood tests that I am not crazy. Something is going on.

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« Reply #3939 on: June 19, 2018, 04:22:55 AM »
Thanks, yeah I hope they figure out what's going on with you as well.

I saw a different doc for a 2nd opinion and they seemed to get what was going on much better. Said I had a viral bronchitis with reactive airway disease, basically saying the bronchitis is giving me temporary asthma. So they basically prescribed an inhaler, told me to stick with otc and set my humidifiers to high and keep resting in warm and wet rooms until the virus works its way out of my system. Will see if this works. They put me on a vape-style breathing machine for about 10 mins that seemed to help.

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« Reply #3940 on: June 19, 2018, 08:47:02 AM »
Stepped on an earring when I got out of the shower this morning. Not being super limber first thing in the morning made it a little harder to reach and mop up the site. It only bled hard for about 15 seconds and then just stopped, thankfully. Not a great start to the day.
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« Reply #3941 on: June 19, 2018, 10:23:15 AM »
Thanks, yeah I hope they figure out what's going on with you as well.

I saw a different doc for a 2nd opinion and they seemed to get what was going on much better. Said I had a viral bronchitis with reactive airway disease, basically saying the bronchitis is giving me temporary asthma. So they basically prescribed an inhaler, told me to stick with otc and set my humidifiers to high and keep resting in warm and wet rooms until the virus works its way out of my system. Will see if this works. They put me on a vape-style breathing machine for about 10 mins that seemed to help.

get a rec to see a pulmonologist from your gp if you don't improve but sounds like you found someone to help. some docs are just better and more familiar with different diseases than others.

the machine was a nebulizer fyi
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« Reply #3942 on: June 23, 2018, 05:35:17 PM »
Thanks, yeah I hope they figure out what's going on with you as well.

I saw a different doc for a 2nd opinion and they seemed to get what was going on much better. Said I had a viral bronchitis with reactive airway disease, basically saying the bronchitis is giving me temporary asthma. So they basically prescribed an inhaler, told me to stick with otc and set my humidifiers to high and keep resting in warm and wet rooms until the virus works its way out of my system. Will see if this works. They put me on a vape-style breathing machine for about 10 mins that seemed to help.

get a rec to see a pulmonologist from your gp if you don't improve but sounds like you found someone to help. some docs are just better and more familiar with different diseases than others.

the machine was a nebulizer fyi

So like things have taken a different step. I'm not sure if I'm improving or not. About 4 days ago my chest congestion seemed to clear up completely and while I was still a little congested in one ear, I felt good during the day like at 99% and I could have conversations without coughing and was back to full time working.

But then at night around 1am I started coughing up productive coughs and that lasted for 2-3 hours and I couldn't sleep until 4am. Then the next morning I woke up and was feeling 99% fine and lungs and chest completely clear again...and then at night around 1-2am I started coughing up junk for 2-3 hours and didn't sleep until 4-5am. Repeat.

So every day I'm fine during the day, and even at night (outside I still have ear congestion), but every night I'm getting coughs keeping me up until 4-6am which is only giving me like 4-5 hours sleep and I feel dead tired like I've got insomnia.

I'm going to follow up with the 2nd doc on Monday and see if they want to run some tests, send me to a pulmonologist or try some new meds or something. I've googled around and there's not a lot of information about bronchitis where you are fine during the day but then can't sleep from coughing late at night. I found like one or two posts of other people with like the exact same symptoms from 2009 or something on random forums through google, but no one seemed to follow up and say how they get over it. From a non-doctor layman's perspective, my only guess is that the congestion/drip from my ear adds up throughout the day and at night when I lay down my lungs want to get rid of all the phleghm that's dripped down so I cough for 2-3 hours until I get it all out and then I can sleep. Will see how it goes. 6 weeks in now, 4 weeks on bronchitis :(

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3943 on: June 23, 2018, 06:55:07 PM »
To have it persist this long I would say def. start looking at all the areas of your life. Like diet etc. Still get 2nd opinions but this is def. weird.
« Last Edit: June 23, 2018, 07:10:40 PM by toku »

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3944 on: June 23, 2018, 07:49:28 PM »
Haven't followed this closely, but have you checked for mold in your bedroom?

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3945 on: June 23, 2018, 08:43:37 PM »
Don’t try to google or blog, you’ll just freak yourself out

But it’s been so chronic at this point tha infectious is likely not that main reason. But Rufus is right in start thinking about if there were any changes or issues in yoUr life when this started happening. Let the new doc know
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3946 on: June 25, 2018, 07:18:16 PM »
That may qualify for an exemption if your cosigners financial situation changes mid year. How much of his loans are government versus private?

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3947 on: June 26, 2018, 01:47:03 AM »
My father drained his retirement account last year and blew all the money on debt, so my brother didn't qualify for any government loans. It has to be all private this year.

First, it's okay to despair. I was the same way where I had no idea what the fuck I was going to do when for very complicated reasons, my parents short-term financial situation changed to where they could not pay my uni costs. The result was that for the first year, I had only loans due to signing up late for financial aid but after that, all my tuition and even some of my living costs were covered by UC Santa Cruz grants. I was lucky enough to be over 21 by the time I transferred though so I was an independent which may have affected my circumstances.

In this case, it sounds like what went on with your father was a very complicated thing and that your brother is going to have to immediately go down to the financial aid and explain his situation. It'll probably be several months before there is any real peace to his situation but his financial situation may allow him to walk out of college with less debt than he originally thought.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3948 on: July 10, 2018, 04:52:11 AM »
Getting hit with 5000 USD in tax........... even though I haven't had income enough to warrant that. I can't breathe.

In phone line now to complain, I calculated and I don't owe them shit. They better erase this otherwise I don't know what to do with myself.
They want it paid by September and I don't have that kind of money. Fuck me.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3949 on: July 10, 2018, 06:14:21 AM »
Alright. This is hella dumb. The system coverted my input, 2100 became 210000. LMAO.

Hopefully they’ll accept my edit and move on.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3950 on: July 10, 2018, 11:39:18 AM »
Did you file your return? If so it'll have to be amended. (Which is no big deal, happens all the time.)

e: Unless this isn't a U.S. tax return? Unclear to me, so my bad if it's not.

Anyway, sorry to hear--taxes are stressful.
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3951 on: July 10, 2018, 11:48:03 AM »
As someone who had to pay 7 grand in taxes for imaginary internet money you have my sympathy.  :doge

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3952 on: July 10, 2018, 12:45:33 PM »
Did you file your return? If so it'll have to be amended. (Which is no big deal, happens all the time.)

e: Unless this isn't a U.S. tax return? Unclear to me, so my bad if it's not.

Anyway, sorry to hear--taxes are stressful.
I’m in Norway. Called them and they told me to login and just edit it, then wait for a new updated letter. And if it doesn’t come before the first bill is due I gotta call them again. I should be all good. Surprised they allowed such a huge number without checking it first, but I guess they wouldn’t bother. Just hope they won’t make it a problem for me.

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3953 on: July 14, 2018, 09:13:01 PM »
Been bing eating for 2 months straight and feel absolutely sick.  Like I'm on the verge of puking now I'm so full and yet all I want to do is go get more food. 

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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3954 on: July 14, 2018, 11:38:31 PM »
My shit dominoes pizza isn’t here and I ordered it 50 mins ago
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3955 on: July 14, 2018, 11:43:10 PM »
My shit dominoes pizza isn’t here and I ordered it 50 mins ago

The universe is sending you a message.
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3956 on: July 14, 2018, 11:49:10 PM »
Go burn down the latest chain pizza restaurant?
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3957 on: July 15, 2018, 02:00:21 AM »
Ghost Ship. I should see what happened to that asshole owner. Last I heard he was charged for... something last year.
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3958 on: July 15, 2018, 02:02:06 AM »
Odd that it came up here now.  There’s recent news:

On July 3, 2018, both pleaded no contest to thirty-six counts of involuntary manslaughter in a plea agreement with prosecutors.

According to their agreement, Almena will be sentenced to nine years in jail, and Harris to six.

IMO, they got off WAY too easy.
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Re: Struggle Thread mk II - No one likes us, we don't care
« Reply #3959 on: July 15, 2018, 03:03:13 AM »
WTF. That fire was all over the news for weeks and the building owners were completely aware of the fire hazard.