So work has shifted my work role from more of delivery and management to more sales. My company needs me to do this role, I get that. But I hate it. I. hate. it.
I know how to manage people, I know how to manage projects, I know how to build, I know how to negotiate what's needed, I know how to lead. But this sales stuff? I hate all of it. I don't like things that are beyond my control, and nearly everything in sales is beyond your control. A client decides to do something internally? Nothing you can do. They decide to start next quarter instead of this quarter? Nothing you can do. They don't get back to you for weeks? Nothing you can do. They, for some silly reason don't like you? You're fucked, and there's also practically nothing you can do. When I was managing a team, something goes wrong I know the levers to pull to fix it. Someone doesn't return my call? They're fired. Etc, etc. I've been around the block long enough to know that there's growing pains in every new position as you flex muscels you haven't used before. But, this seems to me to be beyond growing pains to just being something I really don't like. I didn't mind it when it was a deal or two here and there, but 100% all this? No thanks. I'm somewhat torn, my company needs this to be done, and really I'm the only one that makes sense to do it, so I can't really say, "Hey, I hate this, let someone else do this." and I'd rather not leave my company to leave the role. But I don't know if this is going to work.
